#I'm really sorry to whoever sees this

[snowingclouds]

Not to be horny on main, but uh, sorry to everyone in the discord who heard me yapping about this.

Anyways, here's a snippet! I'll explore my thoughts on programs off-grid a little bit more in the future (basically a person stuffed with y2k style tech), and I'm still figuring out how to characterize these two.

Also, notion has the asterisk italic thing, and because I'm copying this over on my phone, I'm not fixing it for tumblr.

Objectophilia, voyeurism, and Sam/Tron below.

This felt too intimate to watch, but it was the kind of intimacy that Tron was needing, craving. He had done sexual acts with the User, of course, but he never allowed himself the intimacy. After all, ripping a program into an analogue and fleshy world rarely has expected outcomes. He wasn’t fully human. He wasn’t human in the first place, but his body now had an amalgamation of ports and circuits along with flesh. He couldn’t allow Sam to see that. Maybe it was more tolerable in the Grid knowing that there was effectively nothing, just voxels, under his skin. He didn’t dare show him what he looked like now underneath compression shirts and leggings.

There’s an interesting thing about humans. They like things that look closer to them, they care more for things that looked human as well. Tron didn’t question Sam’s affection. No, he didn’t, but he was afraid of himself. He didn’t want to disturb Sam. Humans get skittish about things perceived as other.

But then what was this? What was he seeing?

Sam’s hand gripped the tank tightly while the other gripped the exhaust pipe as he ground his hips into the vinyl seat. He threw his head back and took in breaths of the dusty garage air with parted lips. His skin was red down to where it disappeared underneath his shirt. Small sounds that made their way from his throat echoed in the concrete space. Tron watched his fingers slip into the exhaust and slid them along the walls of it. Sam dipped his head down and huffed.

“Come on,” he whispered. His fingers came back smudged and dirtied by the exhaust build up, but it didn’t seem to slow him down as he reached to the side and wiped his fingers on a rag. “Fuck, yeah. Yeah, come on. Make me.”

Tron felt his stomach flip, though not unpleasantly. His circuits itched and burned. He only hoped that they weren’t bright enough to give him and his voyeurism away. How long had he been doing this? How long had he been in here getting off on the glossy paint of the tank? Did he do this before? Silently, Tron touched the circuit line on his forearm. It didn’t carry the same welcome sting as a User’s touch, but it quelled the burning. The line glowed under his touch. Something in him begged him to keep watching, even if it was wrong, with the passion of a creature kept on a leash. His mind supplied him with curiosity and perverse images.

He needs to be on that thing. Where did that thought come from? Doesn’t matter. His mind was already running with it. That was something fun about having a fleshy brain adjacent to a computer in his skull. Minds had a tendency to just run. Right now, it took that thought and pulled it along into new places. He needed to be on that with Sam, to sit slotted between him and the bike, to have his fingers dipping into his ports like he dipped into the exhaust and pulled out grime.

Sam’s back rippled as he gripped the tank and leaned far enough forward to get his hand around the chassis. He worked his hips into the seat with a death grip on the frame. Sam appeared to be lost in thought, unaware of anything outside of the garage as he panted and rocked.

“Come on—” Sam groaned again lifting himself up and down into the seam between the seat and the contoured tank. Did he have any idea how he looked?

Tron could almost imagine he was talking to him, calling out to *him,* begging *him* to make him spill over the glossy finish. Tron wanted to step forward, to force him down and make him know that he was watching, wanted to feel that sticky release on his circuits making him light headed, wanted to hear him groan. Maybe his predatory security software was still in him. Maybe. Who knows?

[egophiliac]

I have a question about the jp server pickups, since I really want knight Sebek, but I’m trying to save gems for bloom malleus + the 3rd tsum event that’s gonna show up sooner or later. Iirc, after knight Sebek, the next story update’s pickup had all of the previous story cards (ie cerberus Ortho, general Lilia, and knight Sebek). Is this true, and if it is, did it include a token system like the dorm pickups where you can just do 100 pulls and then buy the specific card you want directly? Because if that is how it works, then I can wait until then and be sure I won’t have to go to 200 for him.

we did indeed get a second chance at those three when 7-7 came out! I'm pretty sure there was not a token system -- though admittedly I don't 100% remember, sorry! 🙇 I took a quick search through some past posts/videos from people who tend to include the gacha and news stuff, but I didn't see any mention of it, so I'm inclined to think there really wasn't one. :( they were all separate pickups with their own pull counts rather than a combined one, if that info helps at all.

speaking as a strict f2p who hoards keys/gems like the lovechild of a dragon and a magpie, given the choice between saving for a story card and a birthday card, I'd go for story -- it does require a lot of patience, but there are way more opportunities to get past birthday cards, both from the anniversary events and the rerun pickups! tsums is a bit harder to say anything on because Eng doesn't follow the same event schedule, but it's a longish event and those pickups let you have a free 10-roll, so I think they're also a bit easier to save up for.

(ALSO speaking of free rolls, starting with the fifth round of birthdays -- the kutsurogi my room ones -- the birthday boy/union jacket/bloom cards have had a separate pickup that you can get two free 10-pulls at by doing missions! I got a bloom Jade from it a couple weeks ago. :D meanwhile general Lilia is the only story card I've ever managed to pull, so...I'm probably kinda biased. whoops.)

[pigidin]

OKAY. Am I the only one fascinated by how much Alastor in s1 has interacted with other demons and built a potential for considerable amount of different, broad and unique relationships? With All of them being non-romantic/sexual?

I really don't wanna dive into the discourse of shipping coz honestly, I do think that erasing Al's aroaceness is not cool at all. Personally, I don't see him wishing any romance/sex at all, and well. Considering how platonic he actually is throughout the season, it kinda seems like people forget that friendship (or basically anything non rom-sex) exists in the first place.

Coz, like, let's see what we got::

Vox -- probably one-sided (psychosexual) crush from Vox with possible past friendship between them, them hating on each other yet having (used to have) some respect as well. The ANGST, the drama (for both of sides). Insert aroace troubles (possible aphobia from Vox? Or not? He may be biggest ally as well!) and Vox's petty feelings that are insanely interesting to explore (and laugh at).

Lucifer -- immediate hate that (with a course of events) can turn into forced bonding. The potential of queerplatonic parenting of Charlie is HUGE here. Insecurities from Al? Forced care? Banters? SHENANIGANS? Luci patching up Al after battle, prolly discovering his deal and them slowly bonding on shared interests? Hey.

Rosie -- literal established queerplatonic partners, married for tax benefits, spending their evenings gossiping, hating on Susan and Al rolling his eyes on another romance-rel drama Rosie was trying to help sb with. Rosie can have insane influence on him whether it is understanding modern things or just being with him when he needs it. It also gives off mom/son to me.

Husk -- fucked up master-pet not-friendship with probable care rooted since they were closer in past. Is it toxic? Yes. Is it giving off some problematic dynamic? Sure. Yet it's fucking complex on its core considering pilot, bits and pieces of their interaction and how easily Husk used to insult Al until he overstepped. Them two are quite similar if you think about it and if Al got over his ego it could benefit him a lot.

Niffty -- daugther/father dynamic with them sharing one sadistic-psycho braincell and genuinely enjoying each other's quirks. Protective Al? I just need more Niff and them two being partners in the most outrageous crimes.

Mimzy -- friendship going since they were humans, with them having an amazing (potential) backstory of sharing evenings on two. Al enjoying her company as well as being protective and helpful to her with nothing in return.

Charlie -- manipulated into trusting you as a dad figure? Don't tell me there is nothing below Al's creepy plans or that he wouldn't grow to care for her. He already is proud of her and finds amusement in her inspiration-skills (also, performance is his thing for a reason)

Angel -- I was honestly kinda upset we didn't see any interactions between them except one sex joke, coz my past era of Hunicasts was a fuel to their duo. Them bonding over how different they are is the best description of their dynamic. Also banters and body-puns.

You can't just erase Alastor from interacting with people, but putting him inside boxes of allonormative relationships while he has such a fucking huge potential for everything beyond just that - is quite.. disappointing. People turning a blind eye to a wide variety of relationships he can have (potential to which is set in canon) for the sake of just romance/sex is low key sad.

It's AWESOME to see ppl actually understanding it and.. damn THANKS to everyone who explores Al's relationship with others without it involving final wish to stick tongues into places. Dynamics can be interesting and exciting without it.

I really don't wanna project my romance-aversion onto Al, but when romance and sex is one thing you see everywhere.. it's hard to just let it slip.

You are allowed to do whatever you want, exploring physical intimacy is fun as well, and having Al, well, there are bunch of ways to show it with respecting his orientation and the fact that IT AFFECTS RELATIONSHIPS/ATTRACTIONS but please just don't make it the center of your attention, the one thing relationship revolves around, coz sadly it's just exactly how it looks like from some folks.

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Fuck I hate being an adult. I need a more adult adult to help with the volatile emotional situation.

[quixoticprince]

And my other piece for the ship zine!

I don’t know if I can explain 🤡 Arthur is from Epside G: Assassin and so are these Capricorn armor designs. Basically- He’s an alternate universe Shura? Or a past reincarnation? I’m not sure and frankly I don’t know if Okada does either asfdjgjlkl So I thought, naturally, that they needed to kiss (and dramatically pull their swords out of each other)

[radmista]

Fascinating how misgendering is akin to and on the same level as real life physical violence to you guys. But calling someone an abelist slur is a-okay.

Also interesting you resort to calling me a "d*ke" despite me not being a lesbian. Almost like "t*rf = lesbian" to you and you also hate lesbians.

Also note how none of these things are arguments. You can't argue against the facts laid out, and so you resort to immature homophobic and ableist insults to what? Try and offend me?

Wasn't your community just pissing and moaning that unfair blog deletion was some egregious horrific phobic offense. Y'alll don't seem to pressed about abusing the system to get people you don't like banned/deleted.

The only pathetic one I see here is you. Tumblr is a side thing for me, I have things I do in the real world that progress my future. What are you doing with your time and life?

[fantasticalleigh]

🖤🖤🖤🖤Another one for The Education of a Lady 🖤🖤🖤🖤

used this Pin as a reference

[eissaphir]

Soooo... A tree with stars, huh? How about — crazy idea, I don't know how I could have EVER thought of that — giving us gorgeous star fragment trees in New Horizons? Please

[zukkaoru]

been thinking abt dazai using mirror pronouns recently. they don't really see themself as nonbinary or trans, but they also don't exactly feel cis, and making the identity of the people around them dictate how they're referred to is a way for them to remedy that. it's fun for them. and dazai isn't the one who has to worry about which pronouns to use to refer to herself anyway; that's everyone else's problem. and there's something about the reflective aspect of it, too. dazai doesn't feel particularly human, but maybe if everyone around her is reflecting themselves onto her, she can at least pretend. she can at least be seen as something human-like. dazai sees themself as a reflection of humanity itself; not the real thing, but a rather convincing imitation. they look the part, even if they don't feel it. even if they don't believe they'll ever feel human. if everyone around her reflects their own humanity onto her, she feels a little less like a fake. she feels like she's taking some of their humanity for herself, cloaking herself in snippets of everyone else, but only stealing the bits and pieces she knows they won't miss. dazai becomes human by reflecting those around them, by taking in their love and their kindness and their passion and their humanity and imitating it until it becomes part of who she is. until she can be human too. am i making any sense. do you understand. does this mean anything

[sidestriker]

sorry it's been quiet over here ; i'm honestly still very nervous about large, populated rpcs so sometimes being on this blog can get very overwhelming for me. i'll try to do more with striker since i really do enjoy writing him!

[hirazuki]

To whoever made the creative decision for Aizen's characterization this season: Congrats, you've achieved the impossible. You've managed to turn me into an Aizen girlie.

[lucyvaleheart]

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[mar-nu-falmar]

Whoever has send me the last inbox message... (probably about the ask game)... I'm very sorry but tumblr did swallow it up... again.

[californiaquail]

the more i think about living in that guy's house the weirder i feel about it and also he texted me at 11 pm last night asking how my search was going when i already told him i would let him know by the weekend 🤨 there was another place i was hopeful about but she just said she requires a credit check and being as i am an idiot and always have been i don't have a credit score. i think i might have maybe two more possibilities but if those don't work out i might have to move in with some guy who may or may not have been flirting with me and invest in some portable locks ☠️ yall pray for me

[dogearedheart]

8i've been thinking about the last asks i got today. and i think it's better for me to take a step back from this account. i know the anon didn't mean anything by it, but i still feel like i am being a negative presence on here and weirding people out with who i am is nothing i want. so, i am not deleting or anything. i am just gonna be less present with sharing personal things or leaving tags. I'll probably be more active on my second account where i don't have that many followers :)

[musingsofaninsomniac]

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