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lucyvaleheart · 7 months ago

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#supposed to log good things #most of day was negative feelings and sadness #then. i remember feeling good #and then. tthe good went away #rreplaxed with the usual self doubt and loathing #the feelings of undesirability #the wish that i was. attractive in any way to anyone close to me that anyone wanted to. touch me #that i wasn't horrifically gross and disgusting #do the people who hold me do it out of pity? am i really so awful #pictures get a lot of praise #sometimes #less so lately #maybe the novelty of my personality has worn off #maybe seeing how broken i am #such a shambling wailing mess of a girl #....has made people realize how ugly i am #i don't know. its hard to care most nights #I'm supposed to feel better in the mornings #i don't usually #I used to #now i just feel..... dead inside #like a walking corpse #some part of me wants to make that reality #sigh.#anyway.#im sorry you had to read this whoever you are that's made it this far #it's a cry for help but my discord status says don't message me so it's. probably not gonna get much lol #.....i guess uh. if you've read this far and do want to say something you can take this tag in particular as a one time pass to do so #....i make no guarentees I'll respond but i will guarentee that i won't kill myself. at least not tonight or even any time this week

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taffywabbit · 11 months ago

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they should invent a new type of "staying in bed for 2-3 hours after you wake up repeatedly opening and closing apps on your phone" where it makes you feel awesome and energized and emotionally fulfilled

#buny text #I'm fine i've just been staying up too late playing bg3 the past few nights #and then wanting to wake up before noon so my parents don't say anything rude to me so i end up getting less sleep to facilitate that #and it's catching up to me #i feel like this explanation maybe undermines my previous statement of 'I'm fine' a bit but I'm fine i promise #look at my lop posts boy

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choodraws · 8 months ago

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🌱✂️ (crop from this month's patreon piece)

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#thanks to everyone who's supported me there over the past couple of years #i know i haven't posted much publicly #most of what i've done lately is only on there bc it's either hard to crop and share nicely #or it's just sketches #the past 2ish years have been the worst of my life so unfortunately that translates also to less art to share

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cuntylestat · 6 months ago

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I woke that night to the sound of chaos. Claudia... she was dreaming. Her head, twitching like you would. I can feel her. I can feel her next to me. She's having a nightmare. What's worse than a nightmare? If your soul's projecting out its fears, at least it's up and running. But the absence of anything? The void. The nothing. Pieces... coming back. Hours, nights. Objects surfacing in water.

#interview with the vampire #iwtvedit #jacob anderson #louis de pointe du lac #edits #gifs #this is so fucking insane. how does he act like this! how do they write like this!#also i thought from the trailers this would be like a late season breakdown but first episode? wtf is gonna happen after this? GOD!!!#i got less and less convinced of the coloring as i went on but it was too late #iwtv spoilers

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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*catboys ur shounen protag*

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #itadori yuuji #yuji itadori #yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #boss shes drawing shirtless catboys.............#listen i just bought the mewji plush ive been in a Mood ok #u all can forgive me im sure #i rly liked the original mewji sketch that i did last night but fr some reason when i went to clean it i could not get th expression??#it just looked so off and kind of uncanny and not like yuuji at all #so i scapped it :) hes less scrunchy faced now #also. gomenyasai i am still guilty of doubling up on human/cat ears....#espECIALLY with a haircut like yuujis it is beyond me how to omit them #if anyone can make it work u r a better artist than i #anyway im so happy the trend of like. putting ur ref pic next to the finished piece exists #adds a lil layer of visual interest i think !!!#plus i for one think its neat seeing what other ppl use fr ref #i realized while drawing this tht its been a minute since my last boy without a shirt on #every time i get to draw torso muscles i am like i shld do this more often !!! and then i never do #bc the only thing i like more than rendering muscles is a cute fit GHJFJHFGSHg #anyway itadori mewji ladies and gays enjoy <3 #i have ! places 2 b !#'why were u late' . uh .

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 10 months ago

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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track)#The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more.#I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles!#Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise!#I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space.#It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together:#I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper.#I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything.#You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there.#Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite.#day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less:#'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all)#This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly.#(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

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katabay · 1 day ago

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earlier this year I started writing a comic about the siege perilous-grail quest situation after finally finishing the didot perceval, and it started circling around kay and perceval. kay as gatekeeper, taboo anxiety vs chivalry, and perceval not doing things "correctly," arthur's enduring affection for kay. that general area. also the horror of the grail quest itself.

this is comic is part of that narrative arc, so with THAT in mind: this is an abridged scene of a longer arc revolving around kay associating camelot with a cage, perceval's associations with jewelry and knighthood and the color red, and arthur's relationship with kay.

[some other scene context: perceval has injured his hand and can't participate in the tournaments, so he's craving some kind of fight. kay is disinterested in replying to this challenge, but he's not above reminding perceval of their first meeting. it's just mean enough in a weird-intimate kind of way that perceval's like, ok so we're doing the antagonistic version of court romance rituals. he picks up hunting because kay can't leave the castle.]

on the subtext of jewelry:

Clothes Make the Man: Parzival Dressed and Undressed, M.D. Amey

on the topic of kay, gatekeeping, and taboo anxiety:

Cei and the Arthurian Legend, Linda Gowans

the whole Red Knight/Perceval Shows Up In A Dead Man's Suit Of Armor transgression-situation (which kay references through red jewelry) mentioned is told in both de Troye's and Wolfram's Perceval narratives :)

anyway! to close out all this out: the transgressions. incredible! what is camelot but a bunch of transgressions stacked on top of each other tbh.

#i wanted to do some kind of siege perilous-grail quest horror comic after watching bresson's lancelot and i think #after several years. i figured out what kind of story i want it to be #like it no longer feels abstract i can see the story core and now i have to hack away at the clay to see if i can make a figure out of it #HEUGH. okay. i'm gonna wrap this up here. ive been Very Under The Weather lately in some kind of way #trying to get back in the swing of things. but augh. eugh. they need to invent a kind of body that doesnt fall to pieces #the minute it gets slightly less sun than usual like vitamin supplements only go so far. awful flesh prison experience #komiks tag #long post #knights knights knights!

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floweroflaurelin · 9 months ago

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The Final Flame 🕯️

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“We’re all just candles in the dark.”

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excali8ur · 5 months ago

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Weird dream.

#art #tmnt #tmnt original iteration #tmnt au #tmnt au leo #leo #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmta #artists on tumblr #Hi I came up with an AU idea like. Last November #*Oops October actually #And I'm only just posting about it on main. I'm so good at this #Tbf I'm quite happy to just work on it slowly I've got a lot of plot points to iron out anyway #Also I'm primarily doing this for myself #So sorry if the stuff I post doesn't have much substance to it. This mostly only exists inside my brain #Only thing I will share is that I've been referring to the setting as Teenage Mutant Transgender Allegories in my head lmao #They're not explicitly trans. But they may as well be because I am projecting Hard onto this #The turtles are also. Kind of dicks to begin with. Less so Donnie but he has other problems to deal with #The whole thing is about growth and learning to change. So yea #And obviously family too. This is TMNT after all.#ANYWAY. I WILL STOP RAMBLING IN THE TAGS NOW.#Gonna go through my drafts and post the other stuff I made before this one so it's at least in the right order even if I am posting it late

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nutsack90 · 13 days ago

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!!!got a proper tablet!!!

im free from the shackles of drawing with my finger on my phone!!! also click for higher res tumblr hates my textures lmfaoo 😓😓

#mha #bnha #my hero academia #toga himiko #himiko toga #pike art #so much has happened lately!!!!#i have my learners now!#and a tablet!#i felt like i was stuck at a plateau drawing on my phone #no pen pressure #tiny screen #hard to be loose with my strokes and have line confidence #i feel like im gonna start improving a lot more now that i can do this with much less effort than before #anyhow!! youre next was good #not spoiling but it does have some.. dialogue issues but i thought it was funny #love my butch wife giulio

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bumbleboa · 9 months ago

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small collection of recent sketches from my files, Law and Zoro edition

#one piece #trafalgar law #trafalgar d. water law #roronoa zoro #my art #I have been so tired lately that I barely drew anything besides work things #so a lot of these are super quick doodles I squeezed in anyways #but I promised in December that I would be less precious about my sketches so here y'all go!

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goblinhoursinsomniaramblings · 18 days ago

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DP x DC prompt: kids from the future

Danny enlists the help of Dan and Dani regularly in crimefighting. The JL initially assumes siblings, but Dan volunteers that he's actually Danny's kid from the future. Danny is so shocked by thinking of it that way that Dani thinks it would be hilarious to insist she is the same. the following ensues.

Danny: whoa, what do you think you're-

Dan: dare you to explain me and her and what they're gonna find in our genetics any better without sounding like you're covering for someone.

Danny:

Danny: these are my kids from the future and that is why the big one is only half my genetic match and the small one has evidence of being made in a lab, please do not look any deeper into that

Danny: so are there forms for that or

#dc x dp #kid from the future sounds so much less worrying than anything about the full story #and vlad has been trying lately!#hes not great at being normal about anything but hes at least not actively a threat to danny and his allies anymore #batman feels like its a lie but wtf is he gonna do about it #conveniently he cant prove theyre not from the future either

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solargeist · 5 months ago

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