#I'm literally so tired from everything
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
In February 2021, Tumblr had 518.6 million blog accounts.
Text
"I'm not doing awfully well but I'm trying very, very, very hard."
– Anne Sexton, from a letter to Florence Ehrhardt, c. February 1974
#I'm literally so tired from everything#dark academia#light academia#excerpts#fragments#poetry#dark academia aesthetic#literature quotes#book quotes#life quotes#quotations#books & libraries#classic literature#anne sexton#books and literature#literary quotes#on life#on death#words
6K notes
·
View notes
Text
Raise your hand if you feel utterly behind in life 🫠
#i told my therapist that i'm tired of being lazy#sorry for the L word#i just have no energy or motivation to do much of literally anything except distracting myself from the pain#of everything that should be done#i'm JUST a guy. but also an adult who should idk know better??? but i don't i am SO unbelievably lost#and it really just feels like I'm alone in this feelind and I know I'm not but the people around me don't seem to get it#or maybe I just need to lock in and get over myself#but I really really can't lmfao#ANYWAYS-
58 notes
·
View notes
Text
One day I will get attached to a character who so deeply believes they're unlovable and the universe will NOT do everything in its power to confirm it and doom them in isolation where they are left worse off than they started, one day....
#sonic prime#arcane#Based on the theory jinx faked her death to fuck off away from Piltover on that airship#hhh this just means she saw the only reasonable end to her either being death#or complete solitude with cut ties to everything she used to have#and I'm not okay with that#AND why is the character from the Tragedy show™ literally the same as a fucking#Sonic The Hedgehog character of all things#why#JUST LET THEM BE HAPPY WITH THEIR SIBLING GOOD GOD#GIVE THEM THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE THEY SO DESPERATELY CRAVE STOP LOCKING THEM UP I AM GOING TO EXPLODE#miles nine prower#nine the fox#arcane jinx#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#me does arts#littol doodl#i will enhance this some fay later I am roo tired rn
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
My doctor: Hey yeah that's not normal I don't think it's an issue with your hip
Me: Oh?
My doctor: It's an issue with your spine
Me: OH
#Literally the first thing he said was 'You shouldn't be in this much pain from a labrum tear'#'Yeah I'm p sure it has to do with your back'#Me: Everything makes sense now......#This actually adds up bc I've always had shitty back issues. Lmao#Luckily I don't need surgery!! Unluckily I need to get another MRI! Kill me! :)#If the last MRI didn't bankrupt me this one DEFINITELY will#Also he did say I have a weak hip so I gotta do physical therapy#We'll see how that goes;;#Right now I'm fine bc I haven't even been billed for the first MRI yet. But I know as soon as I get the bill#I will be a HOT mess#Not looking forward to that#Anyway I'm glad this doctor seems to know what he's talking about. And from the get go too#Can't believe it took this fucking long to narrow it down to 'possible spine/back issue' tho#Godddd. I'm so tired#He prescribed me some heavy anti-inflammatory drugs so hopefully that helps with the pain a bit#Lies down#I need a nap bro. Lol#Shima speaks
98 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sorry y'all AM just reminds me of sigma too much 😋
#im tired so I'm just gonna make my lore for today the fact I passed out in an amusement park from lack of protein#They had to wheel me out and everything#They literally just gave me a tiny paper cup of gatorade and sent me on my way#They did NOT care that I hit my head 😭#red vs blue#rvb#rooster teeth#edit#rvb sigma#rvb maine#rvb meta
37 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#i know i am in a teeny tiny minorityy of da fans but#i am. so tired of v4rric#i'm tired of him being in everything#(tired FOR him too. let the man rest)#tired of him being used to market every-damn-thing#i know I KNOW since almost everybody loves him he's a pretty surefire way to get ppl's attenion#but my interest in the game literally DROPPED seeing him involved#ugh you again#i used to like him!!!!#a lot!!!!#but when i say don't leave a seb-mancing hawke in the fade if you wanna keep liking v4rric I MEAN IT#his dismissive tone and insulting word choice#about telling sebastian his WIFE is (probably) dead sent my opinion plummeting to the depths of the deep roads#(i have to tell sebastian or he'll throw a fit. he'll THROW A FIT)#i try to keep it to myself bc i know ppl like/love him and i don't want to ruin that#bc i understand why you'd like him. i do#but for all the talk of him being hawke's best friend he does NOT act like it if you romance sebastian#not to mention the ''ignoring letters from starkhaven when he's viscount bc he doesn't like the man in charge'' things from trespasser :\#i just want to meet and play with new characters rather than have the same guy shoved in my face every time around#varric critical#(if this shows in the tag and you like him i'm v sorry. i tired to censor)
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
it's the way i just want people to love and be invested in peter after all the hard work i've put in him tbh.
#⋆ ⋮ 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗲. ❜ ( out. )#[ i really hope this doesn't come across ugly because i definitely don't mean it in the sense that#'my mutuals owe me more!!!!' or anything like that. i just.#i feel so. second-rate#and like literally everybody just sees peter as like. this thing they'll answer when they have nothing else to do#and it just makes me feel like i've failed as a writer#it's got nothing to do with popularity or 'expecting more' from my mutuals i just.#it feels like my writing is shit? or my ideas or. something.#i literally just want him to be loved like everybody else's muses seem to be#i'm so Tired of being the one who always cares the most.#just once i wanna have the muse that is fawned over.#but like. i just can't seem to.#like i. is it the faceclaim? is it my magic system? is it the quality of my prose?#i just. i feel like fucking tearing everything down and just going away#because it feels as if it wouldn't. impact anybody at all lmao.#[ edit: i'm just. i'm gonna throw this in the save tag so that i can look back at this stuff when i have similar episodes#bc man. such kindness. <3 ]#save *
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
Vent post
#ignore me lol#vent post#I am feeling extremely angry and frustrated and alienated#like of course I'm demotivated when I point out injustice and literally everyone just shrugs at me and tells me to get over it#“what are we gonna do about it”#put any thought into it whatsoever for starters#idk I want to give up#the same bitches that tell me not to kill myself are the same ones to vote my rights away#I hate living#I don't even get validation from participating in fan content anymore#im just anxious and feeling rejected all the time#except for like five very specific moots on here#but then I feel like a fucking failure for not knowing how to socialize or show them that I care without being weird and ugh#idk i'm tired#I feel like I put all this energy into making myself acceptable for everyone else and I go out of my way to be positive and compassionate#and then I get fuckall in return#post election blues ig#here's hoping I don't end up under a bridge#I think I would be a vastly different (better) person if everyone around me wasn't a bunch of complacent#selfish#wet blankets.#I'm getting really tired of being treated like I'm crazy for expecting better.#I can't talk to anyone because I don't want to hear that I need to get over it or that everything will be fine#it doesn't help or mean anything#things just get harder and harder and I'm just waiting around#I'm so srs if you read this far don't try to tell me nice things#im in an evil caustic mood and I will just continue pouring negativity in return
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
my job makes me want to kill myself but maybe spending all my money on theatre tickets is the way
#i am literally so damn tired#and also mad at everything idk#i'm tired of living alone & having basically no friends here#because most of my friends live so far from me we are seeing each other like once a year#my only friend who lives near me doesn't really get me most of the time#the only thing we can do together is to go for a walk once in a while or go see a movie#i literally cannot find a normal job with normal boss who's not a fucking asshole#all my coworkers look at me like i'm crazy when i say i don't go to the clubs because i'm not that kind of person#what the fuck is wrong with people really i am so damn tired maybe i should just come back home and live with my parents#for the rest of my life#and finally admit that i fucking failed#i say whatever and whatever that i want*
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
Thinking about how aggravating it is that fandom boils down a lot of really fascinating Ace Attorney ships to "oh, so we're copying narumitsu's homework again, are we?" --as though the only reason that someone might find plausibly these ships (romantic and/or platonic) interesting is surface-level similarities to the fandom juggernaut pairing and not like the compelling characters and their established bonds in and of themselves.
#aa salt#ace attorney#imagine acting like your ship 'invented' devotion to an old and once-dear friend and wanting to save them from the world and themselves#and being completely unironic about it#and assuming that other ships that involve this very very common and established trope are just 'copying' your fave#n@rumitsus do this all the time and have the audacity to act all *shocked pikachu face*#if someone dares to suggest shipping cykesquill or nahyupollo romantically#asoryuu gets a pass but then some people turn around and dunk on baroryuu and asobaro on their behalf#which also sucks b/c honestly i prefer both of those ships#but i like asoryuu well enough and they deserve better than being reduced to 'what if narumitsu in period drama setting?'#sorry not sorry but#cykesquill; nahyupollo; asoryuu are all arguably more interesting takes on the dynamic than the basic blueprint set by n@rumitsu#krisnix and langworth also fall into this albeit not in a paralleling n@rumitsu's arc way#but specifically kris and lang being reduced to being phoenix's and miles's 'type' and/or temporary displacement by the nm shippers#kris may be rich; smart; quiet; and glasses but he is so much more than 'miles but evil'#meanwhile literally all that phoenix and lang have in common are spiky hair; heroic; and sassy#and yet it's just assumed by much of the fandom that this is the case and its just phoenix or miles only being attracted to kris and lang#b/c of surface level similarities to their true beloved#i just...i'm tired#why do so many of y'all have to filter everything about every aspect of this fandom through a n@rumitsu lens#do not even get me started on 'that man' nonsense#fandom makes aai 1 entirely about one (1) line and totally ignores all of the more interesting dynamics for miles w/ gumshoe; lang; + kay#phoenix isn't even in the damn game and yet people are fixated on a single vague allusion to him instead of all the other great stuff#happening w/ miles' character in the game that have little to nothing to do with phoenix#not tagging n@rumitsu b/c omg can you even imagine?#but i guess i can tag the others#cykesquill#nahyupollo#asoryuu
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
sigh i hate art snobs sm
#“how did we went from beautiful classical art to ugly modern art” STFU PLEASE STFU#just say you don't like art or only enjoy it when its aesthetically pleasing to you and that u don't try feeling emotion when looking at it#also what the fuck do you mean realistic art doesn't exist anymore#you know you can literally. go to a museum#classical art did not dissapear its literally right here#also you do know that not every modern artist ever do abstract right. you do know that right#URGH i'm so sick and tired of people acting like todays art is ruined and everything is ugly nowadays !!#modern art is amazing and i think you should just shut your ass up#j is rambling#don't mind me i saw a vid abt that and i wanted to SCREAM#art#classical art#modern art
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but#today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh#I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so#anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik#“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was#just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao#I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because#AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him#he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where#I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote#like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow#(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway#but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay#one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half#I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE#I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
We ought to write more Pokemon fic some time. We want to recreate the Pokemon Manners/Human Manners cheat sheet that we made a few years ago we think that this site would like the Sliding Scale Of Politeness When Greeting A New Pokemon You've Never Met Before.
#we speak#writing#we grew up with pmd games and we feel like the way that pmd pokemon's dialogue tends to be excessively... direct?#should be a feature and not a bug when any pokemon that you meet might be totally unfamiliar with your species and biology#it's probably very polite to start up front with some basic facts about yourself so they know how to act going forward#the very upfront feel to dialogue also very much helps with keeping the dialogue feel more... pokemon#people mock the series for weird npc dialogue a lot but we think that taking these things literally makes for more fun society building#it doesn't all have to fit with socially acceptable for our world we think. polite in our world isn't even consistent by household.#sometimes a polite interaction sounds like “hello! i'm poochyena! i like to chase people and bite!”#name and immediately socially useful information. now you know about the chasing people and biting so you don't assume it's rude#of course poochyena bites and chases people. it likes to do that. you can say you don't like that and it might stop doing that to You#but it will not stop biting and chasing people because that's what it likes to do and it will probably only befriend people okay with that#it makes a very specific dialogue feel that's very fun to do. we like how the pokemon world tends to treat any sort of like#disability or “weird” things as something that you just say out the gate and everyones like “oh okay”#and then treat that as Part Of Interactions going forwards. there are a surprising amount of parts of the pokemon manga#that are dedicated to working around a character's disability after one or all of their means of dealing with it get taken out#admittedly we aren't that caught up on newer content but we find the way that it tends to be just Accepted as very refreshing#making the dialogue this direct does also tend to make it read as more “childish” in english and particular because a lot of Maturity's jus#learning how to dance around what you're saying or phrase it in different ways to get your idea across differently#whereas here everything is just as direct as possible. “i don't like charmander”. “i like roasting berries”. “i want to dig things up”.#all pokemon dialogue tends to go towards being exceedingly simple and it makes for some very distinct writing#especially when you have to tackle complex situations with characters who probably dont employ that sort of vocabulary#though we personally enjoy doing this sort of stuff your mileage may vary ofc#we are biased towards this sort of thins because we find it MUCH more fun to build up what we're talking about from blocks#than to like. try and use more indirect wording that may lose things in translation#unfortunately this is not fun in irl conversation. everyone has to be on the same page and you need to use the same playbook to communicate#we REALLY wish people said what they meant though. we're really tired of being asked shit like “is this accessible”#when what they mean is “can you climb these stairs” a question which depends on the day our energy level and how things have been going#there are a lot of things we could say that would make us feel like some sort of anti sjw type guy and a lot of em boil down to just#"for the love of god dont dance around a Sensitive Topic just get to the point and ask us about it this just makes things harder for everyo
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
I wish there was an app or website that would let you search for tv shows or movies based on having a similar vibe to something you've seen before. When you're in the mood for something particular but you have no idea how to find something similar or if something like that even exists
#maybe it's just me and I'm awful at finding new things to watch#but i am almost always looking for stuff that is more lighthearted and i never can seem to find anything#everything netflix suggests to me is riddled with drama or crime or horror or violence#and I'm tired™#by god am i fucking tired of seeing the worst of humanity at all times#just...give me something nice#i love comedies that have some substance like the good place or superstore or literally anything#I'm unable to find anything that looks interesting and like it won't keep me from a restful night of sleep#i hate it#the landscape of new movies and tv shows is so fucking bleak
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
gosh FUCK everything was so EASY three months ago!!!! and now I can't stop worrying about everything my body is doing all the time!!! is this tiredness fatigue am I eating too much sugar how long do I have until I end up diabetic is that tingling in my hands neuropathy am I hungrier than I should be why am I tired when I haven't eaten since breakfast why am I tired after I eat what's this and what's that and I just can't get my brain to fucking shut up. I KNOW the facts and I know that I'm fine so why can't I stop turning it over and over in my head!!!
#like?? not only am i Actually Fine also something like that isn't even a death sentence!!!#I saw ONE thing on the internet from like a Microsoft Start Page post about some really weird minor thing that was claimed to be#a sign of diabetes and since then I haven't been able to truly relax or stop thinking about it#like!!! I KNOW the facts and that I'm fine!! I do!!! so why do I keep worrying!!! and why am I more tired than normal!!!!#(the more tired than normal is likely because of worrying. and summertime)#Lu rambles#literally just let me go back to a few months ago when everything was so so good in my head and I was doing so well 😭
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
I have Got to get more transgender
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#transmasc#trans ftm#transgender#i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever#so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL#it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks#such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also#or like. exist in general maybe#reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically#idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again#i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this#i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian#like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty#miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes#partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it#as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once#didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.
8 notes
·
View notes