#I'm literally so tired from everything
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
The most popular pages on Tumblr are about Minecraft, GIFs, and David J. Peterson.
Text
"I'm not doing awfully well but I'm trying very, very, very hard."
– Anne Sexton, from a letter to Florence Ehrhardt, c. February 1974
#I'm literally so tired from everything#dark academia#light academia#excerpts#fragments#poetry#dark academia aesthetic#literature quotes#book quotes#life quotes#quotations#books & libraries#classic literature#anne sexton#books and literature#literary quotes#on life#on death#words
6K notes
·
View notes
Text
Raise your hand if you feel utterly behind in life 🫠
#i told my therapist that i'm tired of being lazy#sorry for the L word#i just have no energy or motivation to do much of literally anything except distracting myself from the pain#of everything that should be done#i'm JUST a guy. but also an adult who should idk know better??? but i don't i am SO unbelievably lost#and it really just feels like I'm alone in this feelind and I know I'm not but the people around me don't seem to get it#or maybe I just need to lock in and get over myself#but I really really can't lmfao#ANYWAYS-
58 notes
·
View notes
Text
Going through Jayvik in the Arcane fandom makes me understand more and more why more ships need to be confirmed as canon.
At first, I thought confirming ships was not so important so that the gays could still make money marketing the media to the rich homophobes (like, we might as well take their money.).
BUT OH. MY. GOD!
Is it EXHAUSTING to come this far and still have people trying to explain that Jayce and Viktor were just brothers. MEANWHILE, if EITHER ONE OF THEM was a GIRL, they would suddenly have the vision! 🤬😭
#The way they keep insisting that Viktor is straight because Sky (a woman) existed in his life#Can you guys not realise that very assumption is HOMOPHOBIC?? 💀💀#it's easier to pretend that he has a thing for Sky? (A lady he barely acknowledged)#when he literally crumbled away just because Jayce rejected him?! 💀💀💀#Absolutely NO ONE gets THAT BEAT UP about someone who is just 'their bro'#the homophobic audience is the REASON we needed kisses for everything#and as someone on the aroace spectrum that is so SAD!#they even need them to literally define the relationship as boyfriends#even though they've called each other Partner nonstop from Season one to two!#Partner is literally a gay term#Do they need it spelt out that badly?! 💀💀💀#why are they CHOOSING to be slow?! 😭😭😭#arcane season 2#arcane season two#jayce x viktor#viktor x jayce#jayvik#jayce talis#arcane jayce#jayce league of legends#jayce lol#jayce defender#viktor#viktor arcane#viktor league of legends#viktor machine herald#machine herald#I'm actually tired
41 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sorry y'all AM just reminds me of sigma too much 😋
#im tired so I'm just gonna make my lore for today the fact I passed out in an amusement park from lack of protein#They had to wheel me out and everything#They literally just gave me a tiny paper cup of gatorade and sent me on my way#They did NOT care that I hit my head 😭#red vs blue#rvb#rooster teeth#edit#rvb sigma#rvb maine#rvb meta
40 notes
·
View notes
Text
snoopy school bus
Snoopy #66
6/12/2024
#this is late bc OHMYGODDDDD I LITERALLY FORGOT TO HIT POST#so there's this one for yesterday and then there's gonna be another in like literally 3 hours for today's one lmao#typed up my caption and tags and everything and then just put my computer and myself to sleep without posting hahahaaha :')#the following tags were all typed up yesterday:#peanuts#snoopy#art#66#snobject#i feel like i shouldn't even be tagging these as art anymore bc WTF is this lmao#this barely even resembles a snoopy#whatever i'm tired! tomorrow is a new day :)#no the lines on the road are still not right for American Accuracy#however dot dot dot i think visually it would look bad if i drew it driving on the right side of the road#too much gray on the bottom#or i'd have to move the bus down from the middle of the image#moral of the story is that driving in the left lane is ok if you're doing it for the aesthetic!
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
missed the bus by one minute because of my piece of shit job fuck my stupid baka life etc
#i don't even know what that phrase is from or what it means really but from context i think thats how it's used#i probably could have sprinted and caught it but i didn't feel like experiencing that much pain today#i have to go to the fucking store too kms#i'm completely out of toilet paper so it's not even optional#i'm so tired he keeps fucking overbooking us and then getting pissy when everything isn't done at the normal time like mf YOUR ass did this#i do NOT fucking want to go back there they put too much on the books for my dumbass#it would be one thing if the veterinarian like looked at the animals and did his thing and then wrote the clinic notes#or told me what to write. but he's fucking insane so instead i have to try to psychically figure out what to write and when i can't do that#he snaps at me and talks at me like i'm a moron for asking questions. normal way to act#and next week is already almost as insane as this week was it's not sustainable i literally havent even had time to sweep the floor all week#it's covered in dog toenails and shit. this is simply unsustainable#me
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
My doctor: Hey yeah that's not normal I don't think it's an issue with your hip
Me: Oh?
My doctor: It's an issue with your spine
Me: OH
#Literally the first thing he said was 'You shouldn't be in this much pain from a labrum tear'#'Yeah I'm p sure it has to do with your back'#Me: Everything makes sense now......#This actually adds up bc I've always had shitty back issues. Lmao#Luckily I don't need surgery!! Unluckily I need to get another MRI! Kill me! :)#If the last MRI didn't bankrupt me this one DEFINITELY will#Also he did say I have a weak hip so I gotta do physical therapy#We'll see how that goes;;#Right now I'm fine bc I haven't even been billed for the first MRI yet. But I know as soon as I get the bill#I will be a HOT mess#Not looking forward to that#Anyway I'm glad this doctor seems to know what he's talking about. And from the get go too#Can't believe it took this fucking long to narrow it down to 'possible spine/back issue' tho#Godddd. I'm so tired#He prescribed me some heavy anti-inflammatory drugs so hopefully that helps with the pain a bit#Lies down#I need a nap bro. Lol#Shima speaks
98 notes
·
View notes
Note
to be quite honest. shipping with CANON (not headcanoned) exclusively gay/lesbian characters as someone of the gender they are explicitly not attracted to is a form of erasure and lowkey homophobic. 'just make them bi' is a bad take. bi people are amazing and valid but not everyone is bisexual??? 'theyre not real' is a bad take bc representation matters and i feel like that doesnt really need to be said. obviously the character isnt real and isnt offended but gay/lesbian selfshippers can see how much you dont gaf abt their identities. gay people exist in real life too!!! homophobia is still so acceptable in fandom spaces and its kinda wild.
Actually this one gets to skip the queue because we just had another anon push their luck about this. I WAS originally going to leave this in queue but now feels like a better time to nip this in the bud.
This is the LAST thing I'm saying about this topic because frankly it's the majority of what we've been getting recently and it's exhausting. All future asks about this topic WILL be deleted. AS STATED ABOVE. DO WHAT YOU WANT FOREVER. YOUR EXPERIENCE IS YOURS AND YOURS ALONE.
TAKING POTSHOTS AT EACH OTHER IS NOT A CONFESSION.
THAT'S CALLED BEING AN ASSHOLE.
k thanks bye
#No offense to this anon or any of the prevs but I'm just so fucking tired of this topic. and so are other mods. seriously. drop it. now.#signed an agender lesbian in real life that's main f/o is just some guy. trust me when i say we don't actually care that much. not that dee#other queer selfshippers: if you're bothered by someone minding their own business. please for the love of EVERYTHING just block them.#if they're actively going out of their way to bother you or ACTIVELY SAYING SOMETHING BIGOTED THEN YES THAT'S AN ISSUE#but if they're just. sitting there. they're fine. block and move on I IMPLORE. LIKE SERIOUSLY. COME ON NOW.#For all you fucking know this could be someone's gateway into figuring out their own identity. we talk constantly about the sexuality aspec#but the amount of people I've seen figure out their GENDER because they selfshipped with someone that 'wouldn't normally be into them' is#frankly not a number you can just ignore. like are we forgetting 'fujoshi' culture that a lot of trans people found themselves from???#Seriously. I'm at a loss for words and frankly just disappointed. Considering officially blacklisting this because this is NOT worth it.#*deep. can you TELL I'm fucking tired of this?#already had one person try to start shit about 'not REALLY being gay/lesbian' because of selfshipping with an opposite gender character#I am NOT tolerating that shit on this blog. NONE of us will.#genuinely if something possess you to try and place yourself as an authority on OTHER PEOPLE'S IDENTITIES. *TOUCH. GRASS.* I AM SO SERIOUS.#LITERALLY NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. QUEER PEOPLE IRL: HEY MAN HOW'S IT GOING.#<< HEY BTW IF YOU SENT THAT AND/OR THE SECOND ASK ABOUT THAT COUNT YOUR LUCKY STARS WE'RE FAR MORE FORGIVING AND YOU'RE NOT IP BLOCKED YET.#Literally please grow up and learn from this. Talk to LITERALLY any other queer people outside of your bubble for fucks sake.#skips the queue#THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED LATER TODAY. CAN WE PLEASE GO MORE THAN 2 SECONDS?!
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#i know i am in a teeny tiny minorityy of da fans but#i am. so tired of v4rric#i'm tired of him being in everything#(tired FOR him too. let the man rest)#tired of him being used to market every-damn-thing#i know I KNOW since almost everybody loves him he's a pretty surefire way to get ppl's attenion#but my interest in the game literally DROPPED seeing him involved#ugh you again#i used to like him!!!!#a lot!!!!#but when i say don't leave a seb-mancing hawke in the fade if you wanna keep liking v4rric I MEAN IT#his dismissive tone and insulting word choice#about telling sebastian his WIFE is (probably) dead sent my opinion plummeting to the depths of the deep roads#(i have to tell sebastian or he'll throw a fit. he'll THROW A FIT)#i try to keep it to myself bc i know ppl like/love him and i don't want to ruin that#bc i understand why you'd like him. i do#but for all the talk of him being hawke's best friend he does NOT act like it if you romance sebastian#not to mention the ''ignoring letters from starkhaven when he's viscount bc he doesn't like the man in charge'' things from trespasser :\#i just want to meet and play with new characters rather than have the same guy shoved in my face every time around#varric critical#(if this shows in the tag and you like him i'm v sorry. i tired to censor)
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
it's the way i just want people to love and be invested in peter after all the hard work i've put in him tbh.
#⋆ ⋮ 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗲. ❜ ( out. )#[ i really hope this doesn't come across ugly because i definitely don't mean it in the sense that#'my mutuals owe me more!!!!' or anything like that. i just.#i feel so. second-rate#and like literally everybody just sees peter as like. this thing they'll answer when they have nothing else to do#and it just makes me feel like i've failed as a writer#it's got nothing to do with popularity or 'expecting more' from my mutuals i just.#it feels like my writing is shit? or my ideas or. something.#i literally just want him to be loved like everybody else's muses seem to be#i'm so Tired of being the one who always cares the most.#just once i wanna have the muse that is fawned over.#but like. i just can't seem to.#like i. is it the faceclaim? is it my magic system? is it the quality of my prose?#i just. i feel like fucking tearing everything down and just going away#because it feels as if it wouldn't. impact anybody at all lmao.#[ edit: i'm just. i'm gonna throw this in the save tag so that i can look back at this stuff when i have similar episodes#bc man. such kindness. <3 ]#save *
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
i can't start my morning with yet another cheeky cry come on now
#life#me @ my brain: be so for real right now#i just have so many thoughts and they all cross each other and make this intricate web of misery#and i feel so... ass#i'm tired of being mentally ill i'm tired of being a fucking weirdo#i'm tired of feeling like i don't belong or don't fit in#i'm tired of watching people have a good time from the sidelines like some creep#i keep circling back to the thought#that maybe if i was diagnosed earlier in my life.. i would've been better#that i would've had tools to deal with everything that i would've known it's not some personal moral failing#i wouldn't have blamed myself for everything all the time#i wouldn't have tortured myself wondering what was i doing wrong why people didn’t like me#and even with that my mind's all “well maybe your mother was protecting you!”#because maybe she didn't want someone to slap a label that would define me for the rest of my life#that would be the first thing people would know before they even had the chance to know me#and i feel so damn conflicted#but it hurts it hurts not every day but on days like this#it hurts somewhere deep in my heart and i can't shake it#i just have to wait it out fam#therapy is literally in a week i'm uh 🤠🔫
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Vent post
#ignore me lol#vent post#I am feeling extremely angry and frustrated and alienated#like of course I'm demotivated when I point out injustice and literally everyone just shrugs at me and tells me to get over it#“what are we gonna do about it”#put any thought into it whatsoever for starters#idk I want to give up#the same bitches that tell me not to kill myself are the same ones to vote my rights away#I hate living#I don't even get validation from participating in fan content anymore#im just anxious and feeling rejected all the time#except for like five very specific moots on here#but then I feel like a fucking failure for not knowing how to socialize or show them that I care without being weird and ugh#idk i'm tired#I feel like I put all this energy into making myself acceptable for everyone else and I go out of my way to be positive and compassionate#and then I get fuckall in return#post election blues ig#here's hoping I don't end up under a bridge#I think I would be a vastly different (better) person if everyone around me wasn't a bunch of complacent#selfish#wet blankets.#I'm getting really tired of being treated like I'm crazy for expecting better.#I can't talk to anyone because I don't want to hear that I need to get over it or that everything will be fine#it doesn't help or mean anything#things just get harder and harder and I'm just waiting around#I'm so srs if you read this far don't try to tell me nice things#im in an evil caustic mood and I will just continue pouring negativity in return
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
my job makes me want to kill myself but maybe spending all my money on theatre tickets is the way
#i am literally so damn tired#and also mad at everything idk#i'm tired of living alone & having basically no friends here#because most of my friends live so far from me we are seeing each other like once a year#my only friend who lives near me doesn't really get me most of the time#the only thing we can do together is to go for a walk once in a while or go see a movie#i literally cannot find a normal job with normal boss who's not a fucking asshole#all my coworkers look at me like i'm crazy when i say i don't go to the clubs because i'm not that kind of person#what the fuck is wrong with people really i am so damn tired maybe i should just come back home and live with my parents#for the rest of my life#and finally admit that i fucking failed#i say whatever and whatever that i want*
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
the funniest thing about writing charden is that they can either fucknasty with approximately zero leadup or be like two opposing magnets that I'm trying to push together
#11k and theyve been fucking dancing around each other like hold on....#post 16 charden is so. theyre both so *normal* that it's impossible to blow past the stuff theyve both been coming to realizations about#it's the fact that charlie's so tired and done and so not willing to take any shit because he can see behind the curtain#they're both. past it. dennis is willing to let go of everything he's built. all the defensive walls and lies and this persona he's upheld#but it literally makes it worse because it's just like ok. what do we do with all this. it's like an open wound now#there's no hiding it but neither of them know how to stop it from bleeding all over the place#dennis has been in this place since season 12 when he finally allowed himself to acknowledge how damaged and dysfunctional things were#and charlie in s15 in a similar way. both acknowledging this fundamental brokenness due to their childhoods and guiding figures growing up#these guys don't know how to be people. they don't know how to function properly. and it becomes apparent when they Try to be better.#their default is to hurt and be hurt#instead of stitching up the wound they just inflict another on someone else hoping that they bleed out first#they can't have sex because dennis is too focused on trying to protect charlie from himself to see that he's asking charlie to hurt him#it's one or the other. the only way to oppose hurting someone you care about is by letting them hurt you.#i'm normal 👍
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
i'm so mad i don't have private insurance through an employer so i could get any kind of therapy or medication or anything. tags are a rambling rant
#i'm on medicaid bc i 1. got laid off 2. haven't found work 3. am disabled and verrrry few therapists accept insurance around me at all#let alone medicaid. i've only found one therapy group that takes it but the therapists there aren't very well equipped#for anything that doesn't respond well to the very basic frankly entry-level cbt coping mechanisms#and i have it IN my report from the psychologist who diagnosed me with autism and adhd that i should avoid typical anxiety therapies#because they're likely to only increase my anxiety. so now what do i do when that's the only therapy available to me and i know i need help#what really gets me is that i know in oregon a ton of great therapists who won't push cbt on me take medicaid#and i also have my family there. and my dad owns his own business and employs family. and i need a job so bad#because i need to feel like i'm contributing to the world and that i have value and that the world wants me#it's sooooooo demotivating getting a ton of job interviews but never getting hired for anything on a base level for like confidence#but it also really sucks because i Know i ramble during interviews because i don't trust i can answer the question right#but i know i could do the job so well if someone would just let me. like i feel like i need to beg people to give me a chance#because i'm literally like. that top performing promotable improves everything employee. every time. no matter where i am#and i feel like no one believes me. that no one is ever going to want me to work for them. because i'm the type of person who should be#kept away from the world. idk it feels like humanity's rejected me. and i just feel so sorry.#i just want a psychiatrist who takes my insurance. and a therapist who takes my insurance. and work to do to feel valuable#but there are so many barriers. and i'm so tired. i seriously need so much more support than i'm going to get#and approaching all of this with the realization that i'm autistic now just makes it like. oh. i NEED support. and i'm not going to get it#moving back to oregon's off the table and i don't think my family would be as willing to help as i hope they'd be#so i'm stuck here. what do i even do. i feel like i have nowhere to turn#it's like life's decided it's done with me. i feel so worthless i'm so scared
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before
#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up#sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation#even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been#some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss#but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time#over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either#i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane#i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after#i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at#it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same#silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time#it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen#of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately#this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country#again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want#things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao#i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot#everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me#and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d#anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that#to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm#recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca#also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before#anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun#and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have#i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired#and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that#i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip#whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn#(<- guy who should be in therapy)
9 notes
·
View notes