#I'm just bitter

[lupiinist]

i'm watching a show called achtsam morden (murder mindfully, if i'm not wrong?) and it has SUCH a rosekiller vibe

like, let me pull it out here for ya'll:

evan rosier is a lawyer who works in a small company and mostly defends some weird people who work for the mafia. he spends most of his time working, but he also has to look after his little niece, luna, ever since she lost her father.

but his work/life balance is terrible, so he starts doing the mindfulness thing. he improves really fast, spends more time with his sister and niece, stands up to his dad, all in all, his life gets better!

until the mafia boss he works for starts to get tailed by the police, and evan is supposed to help him out of town, so he stuffs the guy inside of his trunk and just... leaves him there.

but here's where things get interesting. without the boss, evan, who speaks for him, starts to secretly get the entire operation for himself. and does that with the help of the boss' former handyman, barty. barty's father is a politician, and has no idea his son is literal mafia, so barty has access to all things they could possibly need.

when they need to get rid of a body, they get rid of it. if they need to commit crimes against the state, they do it together. they become absolutely inseparable (bonus if pandora helps them with some stuff, too)

feel it like... romcom meets dexter type of vibe. evan and barty flirting as they have a guy locked up, in the middle of blackmailing the hell out of him. evan and barty on a romantic date (they're burrying a body). evan and barty- i think you catch the drift.

[itsblasttothepast]

For the anon playing the rumor lottery game with me, this is visual of how I imagine Marko coming up with his new comments:

You decide if he's talking to crofty on the phone.

[fightingwithtruelove]

I will just say it, being a European Swiftie kinda sucks.

[misscrawfords]

To all my friends,

The concert went really well. THANKS FOR ASKING. THANKS FOR SUPPORTING ME. YOU'RE WELCOME.

[nebraskashouse]

okay then fucking weirdo

[skygemspeaks]

full offense but by demonizing every single piece of queer media that doesn't fit your narrowly defined standards of "good representation" you're doing the queerphobes' job for them

[king-of-tragedy]

[first ten minutes of the new episode] exCUSE me I thought this show was called Juno Steel not Petya Nureyev

[just-an-enby-lemon]

Tone deft complain today cause it's just gwtting me so annoyed I don't even care: a considerable part of my social media is usamarican leftist infight about the current election and like I get it on Tumblr. Some of my moots are American.

But like I literally use tiktok to see edits of fandom with old school samba and pagode why the fuck are all my recomended about the US election and "you should vote to Khamala" X "you should hold your vote" I'm not american. I'm voting for deputado and it's pretty much it (cause my voting tittle is still to my folks city cause I don't actually have a residency where I live now and my folk city is a small rural city on brazilian northwest were all the candidates for mayor are picked by the same elite of the very rich chesse factory owner and ex mayor some 15 years ago that is still very rich and important. So like they are all friends some are related and they have pretty much the same proposals with few differences and I hate it soo much).

And is just so agressivaly trying to convince me to vote or to not vote or vote 3rd option and like the person going "don't vote" already got me but not for the reasons they want to. I'm just so far from the target audience.

[poolsidescientist]

Sometimes I wonder if I really have become more conservative as I've gotten older but looking back my values haven't changed all that much so much as the social context surrounding them. Not wanting nazi's marching in the street genuinely used to be a progressive value.

[tenojan-in-tevinter]

Davrin's "we know what we sign up for" when talking about the wardens and the calling is fucking wild to me. Try telling that the the hero of fereldon, sir. Had their joining during the blight and was told NOTHING of the side effects and had to learn everything from the only other surviving JUNIOR warden at the time. And from simply experiencing them. "We know what we sign up for" my ass.

[justanormalfreak]

God fucking dammit world, just when I fall in love with a name I just gotta get kicked with it being the name of two not-so-cool pop characters!

And now I'm too bitter, and i don't want to set my heart into another name.

[la-perfide-albion]

i rarely get second chances. it's normal. few people ever do. i am not cursed because of this. but when i see idiots on their 43rd "last chance" continue to fuck shit up i want to eat a wall

[toonstarterz]

Shout out to dungeon meshi for having almost all adult characters.

In an era where fantasy and isekai are usually reserved for teenagers, having a series where grown ass men and women can go on silly adventures together is a giant breath of fresh air.

[teaboot]

You need to make art that nobody else likes. You need to make art that speaks to you alone. You need to cradle a serpent that eats its own tail and you need to love it until it loves you back

[youchangedmedestiel]

Imo the best ending to Supernatural would have been to just stop with them alive on a random hunt or them finding jobs and living the life they just wanted or whatever.

And then the story just fucking STOP, because Chuck is not here anymore, so they are no longer part of a story they are finally free. And we could still write and read fanfic about how they live after they won.

[royalarchivist]

Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?

Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.

Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.

Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.

This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...

Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:

I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?

Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said–  I was giving them an analogy. 

Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?

I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–

I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.

But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–

[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]

Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.

But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. 

[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.

I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering  and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.

Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.

Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.

But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m– 

Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–

Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?