#I'm having too much fun don't mind me | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

sysig · 4 months

Photo

Blood sugar levels (Patreon)

#Doodles #ISaT #Siffrin #And implied Isa and Mira from offscreen but it's fine lol #Kinda sorta spoilers in the tags be warned #Man these poses were fun to draw - hand poses and body and ah <3 Fun!#This was one of those comics that came to me pretty much fully formed and then I had to do it - it was very fun which I'm very glad for!#Probably the funnest were the first - third - and fourth panels :D #The way their cloak falls around them ah pretty <3 #That big spooky eye hidden under the brim of their hat <3 #That one was really fun to edit too :D Writing [FAILURE] elsewhere on the page and then overlaying it :) Fun!#I wonder if Siffrin would die of starvation faster than normal due to the [redacted]#And since that would kill him it'd make him loop back - even tho it's also somewhat powered by food?#It's curious! I like it :)#I imagine his innate magic also powers it somewhat but hmmm recursive #Not that he died here anyway :) One of those fun ones before Loop spells it out for him :)#I have to wonder if All those loops we don't get to see are mundane hmm ♪ How many of them are forced out of Sif's mind so we as the player #Will just never know ♪ I suppose we'll never know! Haha #The exhaustion of having to keep his body running it's really the depression simulator #Sif :( They're gonna worry about you anyway!#It's amazing what our minds just refuse to process when we're in The Sads™ haha

188 notes · View notes

sskk-manifesto · 2 months

Text

Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how “ability users” (opposite to “normal people”) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #About: Dead Apple. Watched this a while ago with a friend and it was a lot of fun!!!#If you're reading this: thank you so much for hanging out with me I had such a good time (ㅅ´ ˘ )♡#Next to general considerations: wow they were right that Bungou Stray Dogs movie sure can Bungou Stray Dogs #It's always nice to see the detailed animation and elaborate backgrounds of movies. The animation quality compared to the manga is–#definitely noticeable and it's nice to see. That said... I still like the season 2 art style more? And I'm speaking strictly of art style.#The s2 one looks more soft and smooth while the da one is so much more rough.#The plot is... Very bsd-esque I don't think there's anything to add.#In my opinion Kyouka's arc is the one that turned out best tbh. I really like her narrative development and personal growth in this movie.#I like the complexity of her state of mind. how full of contradiction she is. I especially appreciate the recurring small changes of–#expression that indicate how she thinks differently from Atsushi even if she doesn't voice them. The fight between her cynicism and her–#kind nature. It's all very interesting.#Atsushi's development is interesting too. Although all the open questions about his ability we still have kind of leave me frustrated #I don't feel very strongly about Akutagawa in this movie? I mean‚ he's there. The ss/kk scenes are always great and in character and a joy–#to witness no matter what they do. He just doesn't shine particularly? Or at least personally I dont find the “proving my strength against–#myself” narrative arc to be particularly interesting. Imo it was a lot better flashed out in the da stage play! With the complexity that–#the dialogues with Chuuya added to the character. Dazai attacking him. And especially Aktgw understanding that Rashomon wasn't testing Aktg #but rather only expressing that unstoppable rage that is also Aktgw's own. About that I checked out the play and I really liked it!!#I only watched highlights (aka: ss/kk and chuu/aku scenes) but there's some stuff I really like. I like the conflict between Aktgw and–#Chuuya and how Chuuya messes up with Aktgw at first maliciously and then amiably. It's interesting how Atsushi himself observes that Kyouka #and Akutagawa get along. And especially the sskk almost-handholding and Atsushi saying Akutagawa has a nice profile were cute akjdhbsawhjb #Next. Da really is shipping paradise (╥﹏╥) Sorry but... It is. oda/zai. daz/atsu. ss/kk. s/kk. fuku/mori. chuu/aku. It really has everythin #and the moments are so good!!!! What else. Wish we'd see more of Tsujimura. And Christie. And women in general tbh.#Also‚‚‚‚‚ Atsushi's tiger form in this movie is ATROCIOUS. I've said it before but it's crazy how a franchises that relies so heavily on–#fanservice came up with something this hideous. Man the movie overall was pretty but Atsushi sure wasn't. Firmly stand by the belief–#that only Akutagawa would find that form attractive.#Oh last note. honestly if we're ready to accept a movie where an antidote has effect AFTER the person has effectively died then we really–#can't complain about any kind of insanity the manga brings up #random rambles

109 notes · View notes

silusvesuius · 3 months

Text

this tree from my new drawing looking goated afffffff 👑👑

#yes this is a nel/vas drawing get off me😂#text #i wanted everyone to see it but also since i draw on paper in total silence i think a lot about everything so i wanted to voice some -#- thoughts too's. tbh i've been veeery self indulgent lately #actually i'm happy that n*lv*s is getting actual hits out of me that i like looking at #especially on-paper stuff that i can recall being fun for me to draw. all traditional art is fun to draw #and digital has turned into an actual task for me (only sometimes tho maybe i;m lying.. mspaint we're still bffs)#i think i just don't see the joy in trying to scrap up a ''' finished ''' piece in an art program .. pencil i love you and i love the -#- feeling of it scratching along the paper....sigh............ Rabu #i don't want my blog or thoughts to turn into traditional art suck-off ventures bc ik not everyone can get into it for many possible -#- reasons but if u feel like it U can ok? do it for Pencil✏️ and for me? for silusvesuius? 𝖎 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖙𝖊𝖈𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚 #but Lord i hope i don't also come off as one of those people that r like 'to improve in art just draw that one fictional character u -#- rly like 😂😂' bruh gtfo my face with that.#i'm noticing 'improvement' in my stuff mainly...i think... because i'm always striving to impress #not so much other people that are here just for my art but more so myself #i have a very huge ego (Mind Battle)#also it makes me sad to think about how big egos or genuine (not obnoxious) flauntiness are looked down on #and i can tell bc i used to look down on people that would express the things i'm expressing now #especially in art focused spaces. now i'd rather be in a circle of artists that love to J*rk off their own brain for it's ideas -#-and talent than be w/ very self-conscious artists that are never expressing pride about any of their work #worse if it's to the point where they actively start to fish for compliments bc of it #fishing for compliments is always OK i just wish it didn't stem from insecurity in that context if that makes sense #but maybe that's very easy for me to say and admit bc i did develop a very big ego around my art and ... Creativity? like it's a sims skill #not that i still don't seek out 'attention' or compliments from others to soothe myself but hmmmmmm i hope u feel me.#it just turns me into a very competitive person #who am i competing with? Myself #i'm always in 'you can do better Because you're YOU' mode #which is much better i believe than comparing yourself 2 other artists #i don't think a lot of people read my tag ramblings but if u do i wonder how one feels about a very pompous artist #like me .......(?)

41 notes · View notes

alackofghosts · 11 months

Text

but you, i'll give you my morning / i'll give you my day

#don't mind all the swedish music i'm going through it (longing. nostalgia. homesickness)#(in a way amy macdonald fits into this feeling too lol. my parents were obsessed with her at the time)#(still are but it's such a strong association for me)#anyway i was havin a lil fun with marker brushes trying to use them like markers. and to use the swatches this brush set came with #man i used to want copic markers so much as a teen so it's wild to now have something that gets so close to them digitally #Ardbert #warrior of light #fanart #speedpaint #i draw sometimes #Final Fantasy XIV #god i've been drawing since i got up at 4:30am and only stopped now because my ipad ran out of battery literally as i finished this

79 notes · View notes

novantinuum · 9 months

Text

going apeshit rn

i'm working on a short SU fic that i had at one point labeled as abandoned, i have two other SU one-shots i am plotting out as we speak, one of those one-shots is going to have a comic intro,,,

we are well and Truly back in it gang

#jen's SU phase 2!! now with WAY less self loathing and absolutely NO fandom discords!#(the fandom discords cause the self loathing)#i'm gonna crush this so hard and have so much fun this time #jen rambles #mind you at this point i'm just following my muse wherever it leads #i still have tons of loz stuff i am in the active process of working on too and that makes things even better #i don't have to 'marry' myself to any one fandom i can just drift between what makes me happy in the moment

53 notes · View notes

seaoftales · 2 months

Text

.

#// depression and anxiety and adhd and being on the spectrum is so much fun #// because right now not only do i feel like a shitty person but like a shitty rp partner as well #// and like i'm alienated from the whole fandom #// the little social outcast from highschool everybody bullies and those are not fun memories #// because there's people having such wonderful things going and conversations and all and i want that too but social anxiety is a bitch #// and i know that there's nobody out to get me or has anything against me but my mind's just in the gutter #// not to mention that it feels like everything i write is so damn out of character and that peoiple lose interest because of it #// which is why i've been taking a break from tumblr with the occasional attempt to spark the muse but nothing works #// and i don't know what to do anymore #𝐫𝐡𝐞𝐚'𝐬 𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 ― out of character

13 notes · View notes

purplesweetpotatoes · 10 months

Text

why don't people have balls anymore? Like balls where people dance choreographed dances that we all know the steps to? I want one of those bring it back

#don't get me wrong I don't mind doing a fun shimmydeedoda but how else am I going to find someone to insult me and my family #and then tell me that I take up too much space in their brain so they'll have to deign to be with me #idk dont look at me i'm not fun but COME ON a BALL #jane austen #pride and prejudice #so confused watching Napoleon today and they played music from the pride and prejudice soundtrack; it was not romantic #good omens #i too aspire to attend a jane austen ball #aziraphale

52 notes · View notes

holopossums · 2 years

Photo

Earn Your Stripes

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #casey jones jr #casey jr #blood tw #don't mind me i'm just having way too much fun drawing his face #especially him a little younger #he had to have been such a wild child #going more minimal and loosey goosey has been good for me #holopossums

110 notes · View notes

running-in-the-dark · 2 months

Text

my niece is staying with us for the whole weekend for the first time. until now it's always been one night only, not two.

it's the second night now and I have already decided this is not happening again anytime soon. I'm so fucking exhausted. it'd be less exhausting if it was my nephew, I think - he's older and also doesn't need as much help (even when he was her age).

I love my niece but she just asks so many questions. like when we're watching a show or a movie, even if it's one she has seen before (even multiple times), she doesn't understand what's going on and constantly asks me to explain everything. I don't mind it, really, but it does take a lot of energy. plus tonight it took over two hours for her to fall asleep because she was scared by the noises of the house and the nearby road. I get it, but damn I'm so fucking tired, I just want to sleep 😭

#my nephew will get to stay for two nights soon so that it's fair and everything #but then I think we'll go back to one night only for a while #I just can't sleep when someone else is here. and I do not handle being tired well. or rather being even more tired than usual #so yeah no this is too much #I'm so glad I don't have children. I literally would not survive #we played board games with her today. her idea. she chose the gsme #but it was so fucking difficult.....#I think most kids would have understood this game at like. 10 maybe. probably before that really #she's 12 and a half and just did not get it at all #she's got difficulties learning and she's finally getting (more) help for that in school now but I'm really.. a bit shocked that it took #this long for her parents to accept that #she's a great kid but it's been obvious since she started school that she needs more help #so anyway yeah it's 3am and I think she finally fell asleep after I put Charmed on for her #I've got a massive headache and I'm so fucking tired I feel like I'm losing my mind lol #couldn't sleep last night & I hope it's better tonight. but having someone else here is stressful.#ugh I wish this wasn't so hard for me. I want to be the fun aunt (I'm their only aunt.. aunt-like person... whatever) but I know I get more #and more impatient when they're here. I hate that. but I can't change it. I've tried! for 10 years! but it didn't work #don't get me wrong - I'm never mean or angry with them. I just get somewhat annoyed and I know it's noticeable and I hate that #they don't seem to mind. they love visiting us. but I don't like it because I hated the way adults treated me when I was a kid so I want to #be better #:(#anyway I have to sleep now or tomorrow will be hell :)#personal

7 notes · View notes

sysig · 11 months

Note

You mentioned you mainly ship Glados/Chell when it comes to Portal? Could I please request something with them, however you personally imagine their dynamic? Sorry for the vague prompt, I'm just curious what your ideas are!

Day 25 - As if being dead wasn't bad enough

#My art #Requestober #Portal #Chell #GLaDOS #Big girlfriend <3 #Big Mean girlfriend <3 <3 #Ugh it's been a while since I've drawn her lol I forgot how complex her design is #A lot of this is just visual noise don't look too hard lol #I do love her tho! I just happen to love her mind - her personality - the most ♥#For a change of pace I listened to her lines in the background rather than music hehe ♪#I forgot how funny she is in Portal 1 gosh she's so cool and mean and fdjsalfjdsf I love her I love her #I never know where to cut the line between the Player and Chell - she's designed to be a blank slate so hmm #I mean I see her as being extremely long-suffered - you'd have to be to put up with GLaD hehe <3 #Sarcastic and flippant in response to GLaDOS' long monologues haha #But for me personally I could listen to her insult me all day <3 So how much of that carries over to Chell?#Probably a non-zero amount while I'm playing her lol - we see Players nod or shake Chell's head!#That means something!#So just go ahead and insult her it's all in good fun ♪#I do love the idea of GLaDOS needing Chell to be somewhere and all other methods of moving her are inaccessible #Elevator breaks? :3c She can fall a long distance but her jump height isn't quite that good lol #Ride around on her to go from floor to floor! GLaDOS secretly enjoys it and turns that pleasure into more insults lol #''Stop enjoying this only one of us is allowed to be having fun right now. And by one of us I mean neither of us. Be quiet.'' Lol ♫

98 notes · View notes

x-adoringvoid-x · 4 months

Text

Apparently that's called the 'irresistible force paradox'

#oc f/o #f/o art #fictional other #self shipping #self insert #oc #original character #they're patient with me #also I finally draw Hadri with a different form!#I want to do more with their shape shifting but I haven't made much that turns out well #small vent in tags upcoming if you don't want to read #Feeling bad about posting but I shouldn't just give up #In some way social media isn't for me because I take things too personally #but if I'm going to meet people I have some common ground with I don't know where else I'd look #common ground with something that means something to me #I want to meet people that don't suck to talk to #And actively have things they want to talk to me about that we're both interested in #Tired of being just ears.#I'm talking about my family here not anyone on the site btw #I just wish there were people who wanted to talk in the same way I want to talk #same level of energy I guess #Sorry to vent in silly drawings but it is what it is #Fun fact if you read this far...Hadri would like Evangelion #I don't know why that came to mind today but it makes total sense #They're a deity-like person so religion is interesting and they'd be drawn in by the drama #I honestly don't know how they'd examine media since their setting is basically medieval so Hadri's never really watched anything #Maybe a play?#I'd be nice to know what Hadri would think of things I like #But my tastes are very colorful... watched Ind/go Park for example and have it stuck in my head now #Popp/ playtime and Ind/go Park seem to both be going for fnaf Portal and I am feeling something

16 notes · View notes

gamebunny-advance · 5 months

Text

Random Thought

So, a while back I posted a pic of all the Pokemon dudes that I like despite knowing basically nothing about Pokemon, and it's become a very shocking fact to me that despite their apparent popularity, the train dudes do basically nothing in their home game.

#how do i know they do nothing if i don't play pokemon?#because i looked through a playilst of an old chugg/a/conroy LP and they weren't in a single thumbnail for that series #that dude covers EVERYTHING in a series. if they were important they would have been there #i guess side characters are capable of getting large fan bases for basically no reason #but i find it very odd regardless #is it a fun mode?#is there a different piece of media that led to their popularity?#because i have minimal interest in pokemon as a series outside of character/creature design #i don't mind looking up spoilers for it #so i know that ingo in particular got a boost after arceus for *Reasons*#and the inherent tragedy of that story was sure to increase the fans of both #but why the heck were they popular before that?#because them being on my personal list is because #i was bombarded with fanart about them for like 2 months so i was basically suckered into caring about them #anyway. i don't think i'm gonna go through the trouble of updating that graphic #but these are the new pokedudes that would be added to it:#gordie. as per forgetting him the first time.#the principal of the school and his alter ego #the dark type leader of team star #the biology. art. and cooking teacher #larry.#and the professor from pokemon sleep #for the record there are pokegals that i like too but that list is much shorter than thus much less interesting #it's hard for me to get into anime girls because i always feel like they're trying to sell me something #and i'm usually not buying

8 notes · View notes

fragmentedblade · 6 months

Text

Boothill's presentation being entirely on the twitter post makes me think he will be irrelevant in the story in the long(ish) run, and that the game itself won't dwell on him almost at all

#Kinda like Argenti but Argenti seemed to be part of a larger lore and worldbuilding #Boothill doesn't even give me that vibe #Cool design though. I do love revenge stories and western films so...#*sighs* I guess I may consider him if he's fun to play with and the story is interesting. I hope he takes Aventurine out of the grave #(Or do I? Emotionally I do. Rationally I think I may lean more towards 'keep Aventurine dead' tbh)#Imagine if his revenge is against the IPC in general and Aventurine in particular but when he gets there Aventurine is already dead #The enormous fail that would be hahaha #Automaton cowboy is such a good design though I would have liked it more had they taken the automaton way enhancing the clockwork thing #instead of the cyborg one with the futuristic air. What can I say I do love automatons and clockwork #and to me they're far superior aesthetically than cyborgs. Not into cyborgs and robots at all. Sorry Screwllum. Herta most beloved design #I wonder if his gameplay will revolve around some killing himself mechanic #I don't know what to say I do love those things gameplaywise. I love the risk they add and how they make one strategise a little more #Even beyond the story and the lore‚ Blade is still my fave character to use. So fun so flexible and ironically so reliable despite the risk #Abfksndk rambling #I am thinking of Aventurine and I'm thinking of Fu Xuan. I think I'll skip Robin unless they go dark-dark with her #but I'm still considering Sunday if they make him shady. I was looking forwards to Firefly but I've disliked her writing a lot #so for now she's a big skip. I wouldn't mind getting Topaz given I love the FUA mechanics and the SU #but I like other characters more and I don't like her design at all so I'll skip her too #Couldn't care less about IL (I have him in an alt account and I don't like him at all) so that's a big skip too #I like Screwllum but not enough for now. Hmmm I guess I could get one shielder since I do love them as characters #and then save until one character really convinces me. Boothill‚ Robin‚ Sunday hmmm I hope Sunday is shady and grey #I wonder if they'll bring Huaiyan. I would give a leg for Huaiyan. Yeah I've not moved on from the Xianzhou I love that place #and I adore Huaiyan and the Zhuming. I so hope we'll get to see that ship #I talk too much

18 notes · View notes

fridayyy-13th · 12 days

Text

not me having a background aro crisis over the fact i maybe sort of have crushes on two different people right now, but also knowing full well the feelings are nowhere near romantic, and that even considering the idea that they may be feels Off and Wrong

it's just that frankly throughout elementary/junior high/high school i didn't date anybody, and always explained that to family members as "having no good options" or w/e, and they were always understanding and nodded along, saying i'll probably meet some people i'd like at college. and now i am, but it's still not romantic, bc duh. but my brain's still like. "but what if it is." like an idiot.

#and when i say background i do mean background. i'm not really thinking about it too much the thought's just kinda There #in the back of my mind. i'm too busy for a Proper crisis at the moment lmao #also i think one of them may Actually Be Interested In Me. which. oh boy. that'll be fun if he ever says anything about it 🙃#like sorry no i don't want to date you. but if you want to intertwine our lives anyway that would still be neat i think #on a related note i'm realizing i may be somewhat polyam. maybe. i'd need to think about it some more #but like if they somehow were both interested in qprs i wouldn't want to have to Pick One Or The Other. yknow. why not both. both is good.#so that's how my day has been #friday chats

3 notes · View notes

sskk-manifesto · 2 months

Text

Finally got around to watching ep 11 (´；ω；｀)

#I'm late...#I'm sorry I wasn't able to watch the episode by time last week but again. Food poisoning. And then the new chapter came out #I feel like I had much more to say when I started watching it last week...#Mmmmhh. I really like when bsd animation uses the colored lineart effect for flashbacks / subspaces (Anne's Room‚ Poe's books).#I think it's one of the prettiest and most original things of the bsd animation.#I've always felt like the Natsume reveal was a bit coming out of nowhere lol.#Here's this legendary ability user everyone knows but no one has ever seen with this immensely unthinkable powerful ability...#That the reader literally wasn't ever made aware of in the previous 49 chapters lol #After all that build up‚ his ability even feels a little underwhelming.#Which I suppose was the intended result‚ but I'm not sure it really works all that well in the end.#Then Naomi's words “Come to think of it‚ the things that happen when Mii-chan vanishes [...]‚ disasters are stopped every time”#really feel soooo out of place when so-called Mii-chan was never before mentioned up to this episode (╥﹏╥)#But I'll stop complaining. It's nothing big really #Fukuzawa and Mori's relationship is very homoerotic. Tbh #I looooove the ss/kk I don't even have much to say just watching scenes of them interacting together fills my heart of a warm feeling :')#The animation quality is very poor and the drawings are very undetailed but really I love ss/kk too much to care.#A lot of emphasis is put by the fandom on Atsushi's cruel remark towards Akutagawa in this ch/ep and it *is* cruel but really...#Akutagawa had literally just attacked Atsushi in a death-threatening way‚ futilely and completely unprompted #I can't find it in myself to blame Atsushi if he was irritated and lashed out at him.#And all their other moments are just so cute. What do you mean Akutagawa is deeply interested in understanding Atsushi's motivations.#What do you mean Atsushi can't get Akutagawa out of his mind!!!! They're so cute #So many more cute moments were cut out too rip lawnmower line you'll always be missed rip date line you'll always be missed #I feel like Pushkin's character is another instance of‚‚‚ Wow me and the author's morals really don't align at all #I really don't like the narrative of “weaker people will constantly try to harm and take advantage of strongest ones”#random rambles #Fun fact when I watched this episode for the first time I asked my mother to join me. Because I know a ss/kk scene was coming and I really–#didn't want to watch it alone. Well as it turned out the whole first half of the episode was dedicated to old man fighting–#and she gave up after that 😂😂 But I'm still grateful to her for trying.

6 notes · View notes

grocerystoreanxiety · 10 days

Text

Being a hater towards the ed today, shit’s super fucking dumb. What am I planning to achieve with this???? Literally like it doesn’t even go the way your ed-brain wants you to think, like you get to ur ugw and suddenly everyone is jealous & wants to look lik you. Like nah, you’ll just get pity & weird looks from strangers bc everyone can see you’re not doing well and they’ll treat you as if you’re dumber than you are (the infantilization of ed ppl is so real out there (whole another topic but in short: I hate it)), what the actual fuck am I doing this for ?????

#like I already have issues with ’’ppl don’t take me serious bc i’m a woman in stem’’-disease and like pair that up with looking #non-adult?? like that’s fucking not it #and obv my brain doesn't work the way it should when I'm restricting and that's the only thing I need truly #like I used to be smart and able to focus well and all that why tf would I take away the only thing I have going for me #but I also don't want to fucking stop so like goddamnit & fuck I can feel my brain melting a lil bit more each day <3 #and I keep thinking like some weeks ago there was a clearly sick/anorexic (skinny like very much so) person out and it wasn't the ''everyon #started to look in envy as they elegantly daintily made their way past'' like it was ppl giving pitiful looks and that fucking sucks but #that's just the reality bc no one ever minds their own business #I remember in my lw (was like bmi 16) my coworkers still kept giving me that same look and the ''r u okay''s like it's not all #fun and games like you'd think it is; good for internet but not sure how it'd work in everyday ''trying to pretend to be a real life #adult who has their shit together''-way; it waters that pretension down quite a bit and I can't afford that; I'm already scrambling #so like could I stop thinking abt going to the seriously underweight bmi; a lil bit is fine bc some ppl just look like that but like ugh #i don't even know what the point is; I'm just mad at myself here like why did I get myself into this like I can't seem to get out #bc I want to but I rly don't;#I want to get worse and that fucks me up like wHY when I know I also don't want to like jesus christ ppl weren't kidding abt it feeling lik #ur brain has two diff sides fighting all the time #i hate this with all my might today yay and ironically enough I'm going to starve abt it <3 logic !!!! we love it !!!!!!!!!#this too should stay as a draft but alas send post

6 notes · View notes