#I'll probably feel better tomorrow

[bukashki]

I am genuinely sad, often, about coming or returning late to fandoms that actually spark this much joy in my heart (where was I before? I don't know!) Now I'm here, but seems like half of the fandom is not having a great time..

Of course I like it here and enjoy the fandom experience, but it's hard not to see people who are upset about the ending of s5 and the current situation (who are not generally haters) - which I understand and empathize with, otherwise I wouldn't have been sad about it. Some people who have contributed to this fandom and to whom I owe such a great time I've been having, while catching up on what was posted during past few years, now aren't that happy here.

Maybe for some it'll change again? I guess what's left for me is to wait and see. I have faith in the show, I think it'll continue being a good story, and I'm patient and count on a satisfying resolution (knowing ml I'm prepared to really wait, haha), but I also get it when people say it's just not the same anymore, because yes, it isn't fully - and I'm okay with it, I just. sigh. I just wish everyone had fun. Maybe i shouldn't care so much, but i do because i love you 😔

(still if anyone reads this, please don't salt in the notes, i don't want to be even sadder)

((to be clear i am not negative towards anyone, or not vagueposting about anyone, it's just about the whole situation. And of course I'm not saying everyone has to enjoy the show, or that my vision is the only correct one lol.))

[johnnyshrine]

★ 126 // “Lenticular Print”

// These prints are available for sale via THE JOHNNYDROP™, my fundraiser sale to help me move! Check out my store!

[heiko-writes-stuff]

Dude today I had the funniest interaction at school.

One of my classmates said "something something, Stray Dogs" and I activated like a sleeper agent or some shit. I looked at him, he looked at me, I hastily picked the manga on my desk (that conveniently was the volume one of BSD Beast), pointed at it and we both laughed.

[alkeneater]

sharing random details because why not

If you visited my wiki (which is still WIP and i'm kinda sick and busy to update it rn so pls be patient) you've probably seen this on Abe's page

Well you should know that Abe's obsession with living up to his clonefather's name is my roman empire and I just LOVE that, because Abe chose a great role model :) This is why I wanted to bring up this topic way more often in my comic, because this is pure angst material (and also extremely relatable).

SOOOOO about that so-called debate contest...

Of course Abe lacks charisma and attractiveness so nobody listens to him. YES, I MADE ELECTION BLU-GALOO BUT MORE DRAMATIC BECAUSE..... BECAUSE WE LOVE ANGST 😋😋😋 IT'S ENTERTAINING

ALSOOOO not only do other clones not care about Abe, but the shadowy guys as well (which is not surprising cus they don't give a shit about anyone in this place). They literally don't treat him like a human just because he is not as great as the Abraham Lincoln himself. They wanted to raise him to be a leader but they gave him anxiety, low self-esteem and a strange obsession :(

So yeah after some failures he tends to spend a couple of days in his room, crying to his Lincoln posters (fun fact some of them are ai generated) and literally talking to them because..... coping mechanism? 🤷‍♂️

I tried my best to add something but this sketch comic thing basically explains everything so okayyyyyy you got my point :з

I'm thinking about his character development in the comic, I want him to start loving himself, be able to defend himself and just FIND HIMSELF. Because OKAY you can't be THE EXACT clone of your clonefather, it's not the 19th century, but you're still a human, right?? So just be a good human!! :) You're already on the right path since you began to fight for your friends' well-being.

Omg wait i'm already talking to him in second person OKAY YOU GOT ME PLEASE READ EXCLAMATION!2080 THE THIRD PART IS IN PROGRESS BLAH BLAH BLAH BYEEEEE

[danlous]

Feeling kind of really sad and lonely currently. It's probably for many reasons but i'm thinking about how tumblr has been the first place where i feel i can be open about being Romani without being shunned but i've over time started feeling maybe that isn't true. Sometimes i get blatantly racist comments but often it's small things like people acting dismissive of my experiences and they don't necessarily say it's because of my ethnicity but i suspect that it is. Like this morning that post i deleted where i got a couple of people explaining me nazism and how stupid i'm for being uncomfortable with how that storyline was depicted. When i said in my post that i'm a member of the group that was victim of genocide by nazis. It's like people's brains stop working when they see the word romani, romani person's opinions and emotions are worth nothing. And i've noticed when i post or reblog something related to romani it gets less notes than my other posts. Sometimes i feel people on liberal/leftist social media spaces only pretend they're fine with romani, compared to people irl who don't bother to pretend. Like sometimes i feel paranoid that even the people i trust secretly dislike me and romani in general and then i feel guilty for fearing that because i don't want to think that, i want to believe in the good in people. But sometimes it's so hard especially when depressed

[outlying-hyppocrate]

i have officially returned. ask me anything.

[mitamicah]

Not me brainstorming ideas for my post op tattoo (context) like I'd contact the tattoo artist tomorrow and not in a 1,5 year or more

This was where my inspiration took me today I guess :'D

[byanyan]

okay!!! got a couple short replies to tiny starters crammed into my (still paused) queue... it's not much, but it's something. tomorrow i'll try to get a bit more done, maybe restart the queue, etc. etc., but. yeah. baby steps.

[13-nothing]

First off Happy New Year! Hopefully it'll be a good one for all of u!

Secondly, I finally caught up after my self induced Inky Mystery ban for the month of December and I came back and like WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT LAST CHAPTER?!??!

COM'ON I started on Chpt 361 and it was all sweet, but kinda sad for Holly ya know? And I THOUGHT that "oh these are just gonna be some more kinda fluffy-angst chpts" but instead I got a heart wretching cliffhanger that left more questions than answers!?!?!?

Like I leave for a month and of course the last Chpt has shit hitting the fan on record speeds. At first it was just grumbly Pete showing that he really did care deep down for the boys and then the next moment our sweet lovable Goofy is just *poof* gone. He didn't even get more than ONE attack and he got inked!?!?

And then there was the lore drop with the inky ocean of eyes. Like damn, the dark puddles HAVE awakened and they're not going back to bed til there are no survivors left to walk the earth.

AND now we've got to wait another month until we know more. Curse me for binge reading this in one hour instead of spreading it out like I was planning on doing. ARRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHH!!

.....

On a sweeter note, I loved Alice & Holly's interaction about Alice's crush and the talk about her parents meeting Bendy, and then Holly being kinda vague about the Cuphead incident, while Alice is ready to crush the man for her. Tho Megatron has my wringing my hands a little, like I wonder where that's gonna go and poor Micheal is probably either dead or is gonna have SO much mental/physical trauma if they ever get him back.

I also really liked the Holly and Canola interaction. It gave more insight into her previous home life and her relationship w her parents. I have to say at first glance I didn't really care for Holly when she was first introduced, but she's definitely become one of my favorites especially after Labyrinth.

But ya, now I'm gonna drown myself in the babtqftim / BATIM / IM content I've neglected for a month and hope beyond hopes it can hold me over til February. If not I MIGHT actually finalize a couple of one-shots I've played around with. (Knowing me probably not, but it's the thought that counts, right?) (Or is that just a receiving presents thing?)

Anyway, thanks for reading my ramble and I say farewell to thee my fellow existences!

[saltedcaramelchaos]

tristesse

[cerbreus]

baking never feels more like science to me than when i'm trying to cobble together an intricate multi step recipe together from several different recipes and tutorials online because the recipe I'm imagining doesn't exist....

[tiberius-kirks]

chat should I take a sick day tomorrow

[maddiemuu]

i am almost definitely for real sick and not having chronic illness stuff i think. unfortunately the email service or maybe the third party authentication service i have to use to sign into my non personal email is fucked atm so i cannot even be good and cancel my responsibilities for tomorrow

[front-facing-pokemon]

[bookpdf]

straight up saddening it. and by it i mean my mood. glumifying it. melancholling it even

[meownotgood]

I need to lay in bed and be held by aki while he rubs my back and maybe I cry a little