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[12:24 pm] - dokyeom
“hello,” he answers your call. his soft greeting is countered with the sound of your small sniffles. “baby,” he asks, voice shrouded in concern “hey, are you crying, what’s wrong” panic begins to set in as he rapid fires question after question only taking a short break to catch his breath.
you use his pause to your advantage “kyeom,” your voice is small, weaker than he’s ever heard “i’ll be okay, just needed to hear your voice,” you reassure, voice wavering with each passing word “promise m’okay”.
dokyeom knows you well enough to understand that you’re not “okay”, but will talk about it on your terms and when you’re ready. “i’m here,” he’s silent for a while, letting his words sink in “i mean it, whatever you need consider it yours. need me to listen? my ears are yours. want me to come get you? i’m already halfway there. want something for dinner? i’m already in the kitchen,” he pauses before correcting himself “well… i’m already in the kitchen ordering your favorite takeout.” there’s a snort that can be heard through the receiver, no amount of muffling could hide it. dokyeom starts cackling, belly starting to hurt out of pure joy “there you are,” he manages between laughter “feeling a bit better now?” he asks, concern still dripping from his words.
“love you,” you sigh through the phone “i was just having a bad day,” you begin to slowly open up “my anxiety has been awful and all i wanted to do was hold your hand but i can’t just leave work to see you. hearing your voice when you answered the phone just pushed me over the edge,” you admit.
dokyeom hums in understanding. “i see,” you can hear the mischief in his words “i think you coming here to see me is a good enough reason to leave work, yup” he chuckles softly before turning serious “whenever you need me, im here for you, always”
#seventeen fluff#seventeen x reader#svt x reader#seventeen imagines#dokyeom x reader#dokyeom fluff#dokyeom imagines#this one was VERY self indulgent#so sorry that there’s been a majority of fluff i’ve just been going through It 😖
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DROPS THIS ON THE TABLE AND COLLAPSES DEAD ON THE GROUND.
Illustration for chapter 10 of In Blood And Stars by @actingwithportals.
#why yes I did put an actual constellation in there but just the relevant one#the rest of the stars are totally random and notably different in every identical frame#no continuity we die like fellas#I’ve been kinda upping my comic game through sheer drawing comics for six hours a day huh#in stars and time#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#art#my art#isat sloop#isat spoilers#(frantic muttering of someone who never finishes a thing ever)#I’m letting it go I’m not fucking with it anymore it’s done its done its done
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Mostly Hiring manager, but HR manager and PR manager too
#elden ring#elden ring varre#white mask varre#varre#white faced varre#tarnished#tarnished oc#varre x tarnished#tw; blood#suggestive#no jokes or humor this time sorry#just Varre being Varre#I know I usually stick to humor stuff but this clawed through my brain like an eldritch horror#I actually hate 5/11 Varre faces I drew here but I did my best#sometimes homeboy is gonna look like a lil gremlin and there’s nothing I can do about it#but also those other 6 /11 faces are the best I’ve ever done so I’ll take it#never been more clear to me how I unconsciously push myself to do harder things#like we got crazy hand angles with defined knuckles and fingernails#we got the upward angle face that doesn’t look like shit#we got form fitting lighting that is passable#semi accurate fabric physics#did I not give a fuck about the BG#yes#but I’m here for Varre sex appeal not rendering bricks#also misericorde magically changes scale throughout the whole comic#lmao oops#most detailed environmental lighting I’ve done too#Christ the lengths I go to for deranged fictional men#at the very least I feel like the dialogue isn’t ooc#me fighting for my life to make sure Varre looks like the same damn character between each panel
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It really is so true that you never know what someone’s going through behind closed doors. I’ve made being gentle and kind my default bc I’ve had super put together friends disclose the most harrowing time of their lives to me and it’s like oh?? You were going through that???? I would’ve never guessed
#It’s easy to reduce people to side characters or caricatures but you never know. You truly never know what someone’s going through or what#Could push them over the edge. Cruelty will never be worth potentially causing someone permanent damage#I’ve realized this after having a conversation w a friend of mine who sailed straight to med school#Tons of leadership roles#Thriving social life#Yet she just told me her hair was falling out from anxiety. Never in a million years would I have guessed that she was struggling#But she was and lots of people play things close to their chest like that#I really wanna be kind each time I can and to also come from a place of compassion#Bc ik I’ve been misunderstood by people before who reduced me to a caricature or just didn’t know what was happening in my life#I want to actively work on extending the benefit of the doubt to the same people I would want to extend the benefit of the doubt to me
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No but like every time I think about Splinter and what he had to go through just to keep the boys alive, my heart hurts for him so badly. Is he perfect? No not at all, but none of them are and by god does he love his sons.
The fact that all of them are alive, and grew to thrive despite the circumstances surrounding them is a testament of how much Splinter loves his boys. He raised four babies following the most traumatic time of his life, all alone with nothing but the sewers to house them (to hide them.) I feel like he’s not given the credit he deserves for all he’s done.
And I get that it’s easy to hold up his flaws and faults when it comes to parenting, I myself like looking into them because flawed characters are super interesting and said flaws make them more realistic and engaging, but he tries, and again, so many others would have given up on the boys or failed along the way but Splinter didn’t.
He’s their father, for all his faults he did his damndest to make sure they survived.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt splinter#rise splinter#he’s not perfect as I’ve said#and he’s got a whole slew of flaws and faults#but he’s a person - we are all flawed#he loves his sons dearly dearly dearly even if he struggles along the way to show that#parenting is not easy! especially as a traumatized mutant who is forced to do it alone#side note but I think this is one of the reasons why it kiiiiiinda ruffles my feathers to see so many people assign parentification to Raph#and in turn make Splinter out to be way worse and way more distant than he is in canon?#like idk I just don’t see what so many others see ig but maybe that’s just me#i guess my thoughts are like- let parents have flaws without villainizing them?#they’re still parents even if they mess up?#we can discuss the repercussions of a parents actions on a child while not casting that parent as an awful person#parents are peopleeee#I could go on but yeahhh#idk it bothers me seeing splinter’s efforts undermined when he’s been through so much#idk if ppl realized this by now but I love me some flawed characters#tho I do think in this fandom the ones whose faults are discussed the most are like#Splinter mostly then Draxum then Leo#of the main cast#and in Splinters case in particular his faults are made to cover his good qualities which makes me sad#because he is SO INTERESTING#they’re all flawed characters and tbh so interesting because their flaws are ALSO their strengths in many aspects
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hey can anyone give me recs for good spooky audio dramas?
Also bonus points if there’s gays in it (although honestly at this point I go into podcasts assuming there will be, and am hardly ever wrong)
Ones I’ve liked and listened to are: the Magnus archives, the box, king falls am, old gods of Appalachia, darkest night, limetown, spines, the bright sessions, wolf 359, all the public radio alliance ones, Alice isn’t dead, archive 81, life after, the message, the far meridian, the bridge, mirrors, the 12:37, penumbra, strange case of starship iris, girl in space, the leap year society, Mabel, and the white vault
#it’s been awhile since I’ve listened to a good spooky podcast#also going through this list just reminding me that the leap year society is another podcast that just dropped off the face of the earth??#podcasts#podcast#kfam#king falls am#girl in space#girl in space podcast#the Magnus archives#wolf 359#the bright sessions#the white vault#archive 81#the black tapes#tanis#limetown#Alice isn’t dead#the far meridian#the 12:37#the penumbra podcast#old gods of appalachia#darkest night#the strange case of starship iris#the bridge#the bridge podcast#public radio alliance#podcast recommendations#audio dramas#audio drama#audio drama recommendations
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Something that I relate to Jason Todd about is the alienation from your family that happens when you go through something traumatic.
I have had family members that try and bring up the cute kid I was and reminisce about a child that I am no longer able to feel connected to because of specific traumas. And I think Jason has a similar go of it in fanon.
The idea that who Bruce, Dick, and the rest of the family miss is the cute kid who used to be Robin and liked reading and was excited for school? Yeah, and that’s not who he is anymore. The memories of being that kid physically hurt, because you can’t separate out the fact that you were innocent from what happened to you. You already know the end to the story, and it’s not good.
You can’t go back to your innocence and you have to live with whatever messy and terrible things you’ve done to cope with the fact that you couldn’t handle your trauma in the way people wanted you to. It fucks you up and it feels like you’re two different people: that kid who could have done great things, and the person you are now that is stuck with all of the things you’ve done wrong.
Jason not wanting to see his family or having true difficulty reconciling with his family is on par with the glass case, the evidence that who his family wants back isn’t the person he became and is, but the kid he was. And no one is happy with the fact that he “isn’t the same kid that was lost”.
He’s changed in ways that aren’t all good, and that’s a hard pill to swallow.
I can’t imagine being Bruce or Dick or Alfred or Barbra and remembering the cute kid who thought Robin was magic. Of missing who you were before that kid died and the way it changed you as a person. Of wanting that kid back and also wanting what felt like yourself back.
Because it’s not just Jason’s grief that they have to contend with, it’s their own loss of themselves. Bruce is not the same father he was before he lost Jason and there’s no getting that man back. There’s no green light that he’ll be able to reach that undoes the past and restores his son to who he wanted him to be and himself to who he wishes he was.
I can’t imagine trying to rebuild that bridge when both people on either side are veritable strangers and looking for someone who doesn’t exist anymore.
Also, the tendency for fanon to have Jason “fall back into Robin training” is doubly painful. Because he can’t go back to being Robin. So anything that he does that is reminiscent of that kid, either in how he handles victims, or inside jokes with his family, or grumbling about current interests is going to look like maybe that kid still exists somewhere in Jason. That Jason is just lost or that something can be done in order to bring that kid out in certain circumstances when the truth is that it’s part of who he is, but it’s no longer the controlling part of his personality and it can’t be, because that kid wasn’t equipped to deal with what adult Jason has to deal with.
Being continually compared to a dead kid has got to suck worse than an older sibling standard. Especially when you never wanted to become what you are in the first place.
#jason todd#bruce wayne#dick grayson#batman#redhood#i’ve been working through some things recently and it’s like i can’t go back to who i was as a kid before shit happened#and it’s fucking painful to realize that you’ve changed in ways you can’t control#and that all your family wants is the person you used to be when all you’ve ever wanted was for them to want you as you are#and you didn’t believe them that they wanted you before the trauma and now all of you know it isn’t true when they say they want you now#but bruce probably doesn’t even realize that it’s not just he son he misses but the version of himself from before he died who could laugh#the day his parents died
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Been watching too much dancing with the stars I’m telling you 💅 love a good ballroom dance
Idk why stuff always looks better on the computer screen
#just dance#just dance 2023#just dance 2024#just dance 2025#jd cygnus#jd night swan#jd leda#my art#art post to prove I’m not dead but ugh god I’ve been going through it to high hell#need the 25 lore more than ever
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also also the way yeah simon and wille got to be together yeah 1000% but sara and felice!! god it’s so rare for any media to portray friendship and platonic relationships as just as important if not more important than romantic. but!!!!! they were also in that car!! they were endgame too!! it just brings me such joy that this silly angsty little romance can also put such value in friendship too <3 oh young royals writers just kill me
#that car. that last scene with car.#ofc ofc ofc them being the most adorable thing in the universe in the back#but sara and felice in the front!! sara got her driver’s liscense!! felice said fuck new york!! she had her feet up!!!!!!#and while we’re talking about yr and the value of platonic friendship can we talk about wille and felice for a moment?!?!?!!!!!#all throughout i’ve been obsessed with their friendship#i mean just look at them her looking after him through it all#even more cus they’re a boy and a girl!!! more platonic friendships between boys and girls in media!!! boys and girls can be friends#and that is just as valuable as boys and girls being in romantic relationships!!#kicking my feet over the friendships in this show on their own#let’s normalise going insane kicking feet twirling hair climbing walls gnashing at bars over platonic shit yeah mhm#young royals#young royals season 3#young royals season three#young royals s3#yr s3 spoilers#young royals spoilers#young royals s3 spoilers#kori shitposts#felice#felice ehrencrona#sara#felice young royals#sara eriksson#sara young royals
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like five commissions would solve so many of my problems right now …. 🌀you want to commission me🌀…. 🌀you want to look at my pinned post and you want to commission me sooooo bad🌀…….
a few recent commissions ⬇️
been loving leaning into more illustration/poster work and would love to do more!!
#i’m like out of options LOL#like everyone else i’ve been applying to probably hundreds of jobs and like everyone else i can’t get SHIT#my options are 1) stay out here and suffer 2) beg my parents to help me move home and REALLY truly suffer (this one isn’t really an option)#or like 3) go lay in the dirt indefinitely idk i’m in over my head and i made a mistake moving but it’s too late to back out!#going home wouldn’t be good for anyone least of all me!#idk i feel like everyone is judging me for thinking i had it good then falling flat on my face anyways#i feel like it was some kind of sick joke that i finally for once felt stable and happy just to get it yanked away from me#and be worse off than before#sorry i’m really emotional because i’ve been going through it so hard for so long and i’m really exhausted#i hate getting on here and begging for work but idk what else to do right now#mine#arty art
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✨MASTERLIST✨
(fanart, longfics, oneshots)
Welcome to my blog!!! Here is my masterlist of ALL of my little sketches, artwork, writing, and general brainrot related to Hogwarts Legacy💘
🌿 - Madeleine / Maddy / myokk
🌱 - AO3
🌿 - likes and follows come from my main blog, @oerflink, because this is a sideblog (🥲)
🌱 - Eloise Babbit, my MC and basically the whole reason for this blog🫶 I don’t necessarily view her as the game’s MC, as my fic is quite canon-divergent and she is sweeter than the evil gremlin I played in-game😆💓 [link to her character sheet]
🌿 - my art tag🫶🫶🫶 here you can see basically every drawing I've done since joining the fandom!
Writing:
Before It Felt Like A Sin (AO3 / tumblr - ongoing)
Sebastian Sallow x F!MC, canon divergent, longfic, wip, dual pov Eloise/Sebastian
Summary: Eloise never wanted to be different.
And yet, her differences are what have defined her life up until this point: growing up as a squib in one of the most prominent wizarding families, being exiled to muggle society, and then attending Hogwarts at the age of sixteen.
She finds herself thrust into the life she should have been prepared for from birth but was denied. As she navigates this new life and her new precarious position in her family, she must come to terms with the fact that maybe what she dreamed of her whole life isn't turning out how she ever expected it would.
Tags: slow burn, angst, magical theory, mythology references, pureblood culture, occlumency, legilimency, hurt/comfort, family dynamics, eventual romance, eventual smut, sacrificial magic, blood magic, dark magic rituals, implied/referenced child abuse
[coming soon] - an excerpt from the Ominis longfic I’m working on💘
Oneshots:
clumsy (AO3 / tumblr)
pairing: Sebastian Sallow x f!MC
word count: 9,1k
rating: E
summary: sebastian is clumsy.
or: two stubborn brats make things more difficult than they have to be.
cw: fluff, mutual pining, idiots in love, two really stubborn idiots in love to be exact, sir cadogan guest appearance, anne and imelda are the gremlin best friends every girl needs, smut (18+ ONLY), oral (f. recieving), no y/n
legilimency (AO3 / tumblr)
pairing: Ominis Gaunt x F!MC
word count: 1,7k
rating: m (language)
summary: (His parents and Marvolo insist it’s a gift handed down from Slytherin himself, just like the Parseltongue Ominis despises. It is not. It is a curse.)
or: The Gryffindor student has caught on that Ominis can read her thoughts and decides to get her revenge.
tags: ominis is a natural legilimens, he is entirely too introspective, fluff, no y/n
remembering the snow (AO3 / tumblr)
pairing: Imelda Reyes x Poppy Sweeting
word count: 3,3k
rating: G
summary: Imelda remembers the first time she saw snow.
Her parents always started the story telling her that she cried and cried and cried.
or: a character study on Imelda and how she grew up because I love her & she doesn't get enough appreciation :)
tags: character study, fluff, romance, first kiss, emotional hurt/comfort, I just wanted to write a sweet story & explore Imelda as a character
Illustrated scenes:
(aka where I illustrate little scenes from my longfic and oneshots💓)
🌿 - the summer before Sebastian and Anne’s first year at Hogwarts🥺💓
🌱 - Sebastian hates Eloise’s guts😳
🌿 - Eloise is really, really bad at chess😔 (this scene always makes me laugh SO MUCH)
🌱 - right after the pensieve scene🫶🫶🫶
🌿 - Eloise and Sebastian’s first kiss😇😇😇
🌱 - some angst after their first kiss😇😇😇
🌿 - sebastian overthinks things a lot😔
🌱 - an excerpt from my oneshot, clumsy💘
🌿 - another scene from my clumsy 🫶 I really love writing Sebastian’s pov & this was just so much fun to paint and write😫💓
🌱 - Eloise and her mother😔
🌿 - Eloise is NOT flustered by Sebastian��
#hmmmmm I had a lot of fun making this & obviously I need to actually sort through my disaster blog and add more links/organuzation/etc#this is what 6 months of procrastination gets you🥲🥲#when I started posting in April I didn’t care but now it kind of stresses me out#also I chose this picture bc a) it’s horizontal; but b) choccy said it was one of her favorites#and it IS cute#and drooling Sebastian deserves to be my header for a bit😤😤#ok im going to organize my art later😵💫😵💫😵💫#also maybe there is a better way to do this??? idk I’m just making things up😭😭😭#I literally have gone quite crazy no chill since I started posting and there is SIX MONTHS WORTH OF BRAIN ROT TO SORT THROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!#i just focused on the writing for now bc it’s a) what I like the best and b) easiest to sort through#but I really want to put links to all of my art & organize it#& ALSO put links to all of the amazing art I’ve been gifted🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 even if it’s just for me to go back and look through😌🙏#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc#ominis gaunt#ominis gaunt fanfiction#hogwarts legacy fanfic#sebastian sallow fic
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the jayce hate…. y’all love bi disasters until they’re actually disasters…… love doomed yaoi until it’s actually doomed……
#me personally. i’ve been loving watching him go through it constantly this season#that’s not a bi disaster that’s a bi catastrophe#arcane spoilers#not really but just in case
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Can anyone tell me where this is from?? pls pls
#I’ve been searching FOR OVER AN HOUR#I searched through Pinterest tumblr and google and I’m stumped#I’m pretty sure I haven’t seen it before so I need to go through the comic because how dare I not go through a Jason comic#Suddenly a Jason panel appears and I must know where it’s from#so yeah pls help thank you#I’m going to be annoyed if it’s from an old comic that I just don’t remember#Also#Jason looks so tiny here#Like he’s just a child in a red hood costume#The guy asking to watch tv with red hood lmao#real tbh#jason todd#red hood#batfamily#dc#batfam#dc comics#comic panels
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okay so in french baguette means wand/rod and it’s not solely used for bread like in english
but even so seeing red call it his ice baguette makes me cry laugh
#the fire rod is la baguette de feu#I’ve been comparing the French and English versions#and BOY#DO I HAVE COMMENTS ABOUT IT#the English one went really gay#like#REALLY gay#i can see why everyone bitches about it now 😂#star got the Spanish one and we’ve been going through them all#shadow link is link noir#but man they made vio into such a french asshole#he goes ‘pfuuuu’ all the time 😂#loz#four swords#red link#four swords manga#i feel like the English translation took the route of vio being like ‘I’m different than all the other links’#and the French one went ‘im literally better than all of you you guys fucking SUCK later losers’#but also the English one took out a lot of foreshadowing and for what?????#im also having a hard time with this version of français#i was raised with apparently a unique version of quebecois#they also switch between green and vert for green#it’s interesting#at one part where they think green is dead for the first time#blue just goes ‘NOOOOOOON GREEEEEEN’#and it took me a second cause I was like sooooomething ain’t right here
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#I’ve been in my bed waaaay too long just teasing my cock through my tight boxers#I need to go get my work laptop so I can stay online#I’m just so fucking distracted playing with my cock like this and the fabric feels so good stretched around it#It’s so hard to get up and do that cause I just want to keep making a mess out of myself
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it’s like baby gorl there’s no way I, the author who wrote the fic you’re commenting on and who is the intended audience for this comment, am gonna agree with you 😿🙏 some things can just stay on your chest 🙏
#there’s a threshold I think of what I accept in comments about characters#and their actions or about who is in the wrong or what should happen#because I do like reading people’s opinions#and sometimes when someone is like I didn’t like obi-wan in this fic#I’m like makes sense! maybe you weren’t supposed to or maybe the argument they had was supposed to not be clear cut on who is right#because arguments in real life don’t always have a clear cut winner or morally superior person lmao#I’m ok with that I’m ok with comments saying boo this character is annoying#because sometimes they just are (eg the amount of people who just don’t like obiwan in pbatmb like?? yeah of course he’s not gonna be nice#but I digress lol#anyway but there’s a threshold of when comments about not liking a character go too far and you’re just like.#saying mean things about the writing itself and that’s not something lm gonna allow to be normalized#no matter the intention behind it#you do not type a comment like this knowing it wil be send to an author#who will get an email notification about a comment#click on it and go oooo long comment :D and then go oh.#you don’t do that it’s rude it’s being a jerk#I’ve been here for like 3 almost 4 years I feel ancient in this fandom sometimes#and I’ve gotten so much feedback on my work through that time and so many nice comments and community#but mean comments can really hurt especially new writers#and they can make people who maybe would write fic for a fandom decide to not#like this isn’t even that mean I can almost see the writer just wanting to say how they feel#but sometimes you do not have to 🙏#also I just think this understanding of the characterizations in the fic and probably their understanding of the characters in the films#is a wee bit trash but that’s for me to say in the long tags of my own blog post and not for me to comment on their fics for the fandom#(they don’t have any but I did check because 3am kit felt nosy)
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