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#hmmmmmmm to pack another bowl or go home#not gonna get into it#cause I don’t wanna get sad lol#but man oh man I miss smoking inside#in my room#yesterday would have never happened if I was living at my other place/was able to smoke inside/at my place#like my dad doesn’t even want me smoking on the deck#I get not inside#but not even on the deck#buddy why#I haven’t even looked at the ticket yet#I’m too scared to#I had such a strong urge to rip it up when I got it#but I knew it wasn’t gonna go away just like that#even if I wished and hoped as hard as I could#sigh#my friend was trying to cheer me up and be all inspirational telling me ‘life doesn’t keep throwing shit but we learn how to deal with it-#better’ and this and that and I get she was trying to be nice and everything#but oh boyyyyy I didn’t want to hear that yesterday#like it’s super duper easy for her to say when she has a nice comfy house and job and life#ok rant over#I’m just bitching right now ignore me lol#lol I love how I started this post with debating on if I wanted to pack a bowl or not#I get turned around and distracted so easily 🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️#shut up rosie
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It’s been clear that the Tanizakis aren’t siblings from the very beginning
here’s some evidence now that it’s been confirmed canon…
everyone who’s read irl Tanizaki’s book knew that Junichiro & Naomi weren’t siblings as soon as they introduced themselves
BUT just because the Tanizakis aren’t siblings doesn’t mean you can’t feel uncomfortable about them. if you feel uncomfortable, GOOD. that’s exactly what they want
the Tanizakis, Mori— they all use these disturbing ruses to disarm or distract people in order to protect themselves, or to accomplish their goals. this is a writing device that asagiri commonly employs as a way to parallel the irl literature (it’s actually ingenious)
there are 4 main indicators that have always made it clear to me that Junichiro & Naomi are not siblings:
1. most obviously— their character designs. Harukawa is extremely intentional with character designs, & she very intentionally made Naomi & Junichiro look nothing alike
their eye shapes are purposely different
their color palettes are contrasting
even their differing styles of clothing have meaning
this was all done so that the audience could PLAINLY see that they’re not related— so that WE know that they’re lying when they say they ARE related
2. how the people around them respond to their act.
the general reaction is “don’t question it”— which is exactly what they want. “be distracted by how uncomfortable you feel so that you look away from what we’re hiding” (this is likely a protective measure)
3. most importantly, this is meant to parallel irl Tanizaki’s book “Naomi,” where the main character Joji picks up Naomi to raise her into his ideal woman, but since she's so young (& a minor) they call each other cousins (Joji makes no sexual advances on young Naomi btw)
however, his plan backfires because when Naomi gets older & they get married, she flips the script on him & manipulates HIM so that he's under her thumb (which is why bsd Tanizaki is at a domineering Naomi's mercy). Joji let her have her way because of his masochistic tendencies
4. lastly is the emphasis that Asagiri and the Tanizakis themselves put on calling each other siblings.
over & over, it’s “my brother this” & “my sister that”
like they’re desperately trying to convince us that it’s true (“don’t let your lying eyes deceive you”)
here are just a few of many examples from the light novels…
again, if you’ve read “Naomi” you knew that Junichiro & Naomi weren’t siblings as soon as they introduced themselves
just like if you’ve read irl Mori’s works, it’s clear that bsd Mori isn’t a pedophile
just like if you’ve read No Longer Human you know that Dazai’s an unreliable narrator. he makes you think he’s a bad person bc he believes he’s a bad person, but those around him see him differently (btw this doesn’t mean he’s never done anything “bad,” though bsd isn’t about morality— but that’s another discussion)
anyway, i’m so excited for the Tanizakis backstory to be revealed so that we can better understand why they use this defense!!
also let this be a reminder to READ THE LITERATURE if you’re able to!! even reading synopses & analyses of the coordinating books makes bsd make much more sense 🥹
reminder that this how you’re supposed to react while reading bsd:
also, if you’re interested in a post explaining how Mori isn’t a pedo, i wrote this analysis on twt. OR you can read this document that one of my moots sent me (remember: analyzing a character does NOT mean you condone any actions they may or may not commit!)
#i hope this makes sense. i’ve had this in the drafts for months but was too scared to post it#i’m hoping now that it’s confirmed canon there won’t be as much backlash ^^’ pls be kind#darcy this is for you… i hope you like it :’)#also full disclosure i haven’t been able to read all of Naomi yet. mostly synopses & analyses. so don’t take my summary of the book as law#also hopefully now people won’t ignore the Tanizakis anymore!! not only are they so interesting. they’re also just fun characters#Naomi is so underrated & intelligent. i need more of her teaming up with Dazai#rambling about bsd again#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd meta#bsd analysis#bsd tanizaki#bsd naomi#naomi tanizaki#tanizaki junichirou#tanizaki siblings#bsd 118
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Charles has always left Edwin little notes slipped between the pages of his favorite books, in his science equipment, places he knows Edwin loves. Just silly things—post its that say “hi Edwin :)”. doodles of Edwin with his nose stuck in a book. reminders to stock up on wolfsbane. but.
Then, post canon, Edwin tentatively starts dating people. And it’s ridiculous, because Edwin’s right there, all the time, but Charles..misses him a bit. And his heads a mess, and he can’t sort out what the hell he’s feeling most of the time, and whenever he tries to say any of it out loud it comes out rubbish.
So. He writes down some of the shit he can’t say right, and because he’s a coward, hides them so he doesn’t have to see Edwin’s face when he reads them.
then Edwin starts writing back.
Neat lilac blue little envelopes appear in Charles coat pockets. In his bag. Once, in his shoe? Some nights, Edwin will clear his throat and mention something from a letter, offhand, like they’re just picking up conversation, and Charles can pretend they are. That they always have talked about the basement, the belt, the nameless fear that chokes him every time Edwin walks out the door with someone else on his arm.
Sometimes he can’t. The words get stuck in his throat. Edwin’s not mad, he’s maddeningly, stubbornly kind about it, which is worse.
Some nights they trade. A secret for a secret. Charles learns about the novels Edwin used to hide under his mattress, about all the lonely years before Charles got there. About Simon.
Meanwhile, Edwin is losing his mind, because Charles has accidentally stumbled onto what was a fucking courting ritual in his time. Love letters were something engaged couples treasured for years, kept and reread over and over. (Edwin does. keep them in a special box, will take one out and trace the words, tuck it in his breast pocket for courage).
Edwin would rather have to reattach a limb again than lose Charles trust, all the dark and beautiful things he shares with Edwin only. He knows—knows Charles doesn’t mean to make him fall more in love with him.
#payneland#dbda#dead boy detectives#charles rowland#edwin payne#mini fic#charles x edwin#chedwin#fic#anyone is welcome to write this!#maybe I will eventually once I crawl victorious from the mountain of my 10+ wips#either way I’m a strong believer in the 2 or more cakes principle#would love different peoples takes on this#UGH BUT JUST IMAGINE… Edwin being scared to date & try new things#reading over and over how Charles is scared too how he’s faking being brave most of the time.#keeping the letter over his heart for courage#(I do think Edwin should date people for a while because like. he’s hot! he never got to be a teenager!#let him kiss cute boys for a bit! realize there’s nothing wrong with him! become more confident! more centered!#maybe it makes Charles a little crazy! proud and possessive and confused horny!)#they have time! :) & sometimes you need to go on your solo journey so u can then become more freakishly codependent with your#work bestie husband ride or die twin flame in the future. yk
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jrwi dump from the past few months while i slog thru school and college apps
#guys i’m going to say what everyone is too scared to….i miss riptide#also my whole twitter timeline is parkour civilization now should i draw fanart#jrwi riptide#jrwi wonderlust#jrwi#lavrose art#jrwi fanart#art#fanart#school is killing me but we ball#also don’t worry that nyap(?? myap? mnyarp?) is so small i forgor#gillion tidestrider#jay ferin#jrwi chip#troy lougferd#ava ferin#kira jrwi#also also i forgot does ava have the ferin eye thing or did i make that up???
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Okay, I’m so gonna get hate for this. And it will probably get about 4 notes. This is, by far, the most opinionated thing I have ever posted on here. If you can’t tolerate criticism towards Rick Riordan, the books, or the TV show, please keep scrolling. My goal is NOT to change your mind or start arguments.
I also want to preface this by saying that I love and respect Rick Riordan (even if I disagree with him on things and don’t like some of his choices) and fully acknowledge that he has the right to do whatever the hell he pleases with his own series. I also want to say that I love Annabeth Chase (both the book and tv show version) with my entire being and you will never find me being an Annabeth hater. She’s my girl.
We good? Okay cool. So here’s the thing: I’ve seen a lot of people on here saying things like “If you didn’t like the books, you just don’t know how to have fun,” and “The new book haters are just mad that they aren’t the target audience anymore,” and (my personal favorite) “Nothing in the books has changed, only the readers have.”
And while I see your points, and I respect you, allow me to show you something. Because of the 10 picture limit, I am only going to focus on one specific change: Annabeth’s view of Percy.
WOTTG: Annabeth is surprised to be comforted by Percy
Past Books: Percy is constantly comforting Annabeth
WOTTG: Annabeth is shocked when Percy is smart
Past Books: Annabeth often points out that Percy is intelligent
WOTTG: Annabeth thinks Percy can’t do anything on his own, and Rick communicates that Annabeth is always saving his ass
Past Books: Percy is ALWAYS watching her back, and saving her ass just as much (and Annabeth admits that)
I could put a hundred quotes in here. I could go on and on and on. But I can’t, and I won’t.
My problem with this new book is NOT that it is more goofy than serious. My problem is NOT that little things have changed. My problem is NOT that it’s just for fun. My problem is NOT that it’s much more childish. (And by the way, I’ve read PJO and HOO as an adult, so it’s not like I was a child when I read everything else and am now an adult reading the new ones.) I really did like and enjoy many parts of this book.
My problem is that the characters (especially Annabeth) have flat out changed—in bad ways—and we have no choice but to accept it as canon. My problem is that Rick, while trying to merge his books with his new TV show project, is changing the entire personalities and past behaviors/ tendencies of the characters.
I loved Chalice of the Gods. You know why? It was fun, goofy, and showed the characters that we know and love being happy and adorable. I strongly dislike Wrath of the Triple Godess because the characters—no matter how adorable and happy they might be—are no longer the ones we know and love.
My problem is that Rick Riordan fully admitted that he no longer considers the old book characters when he writes the new books. He is now purposefully incorporating his own personal mixture of the book characters and tv characters and writing those versions instead. Because of his desire to change and transform the series, I doubt he’s even read the original PJO or HOO books in years, which is why everything is so inconsistent. The old book characters—the ones who made the series what it was—are gone. And that is not my opinion. Rick fully admits that he doesn’t imagine them when he writes anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE the tv show actors. I adore Walker and Leah and Aryan with my whole heart, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. But the fact is: they will never be exactly like the book characters. It’s impossible for actors to become the words on a page. They’re their own unique version! And likewise, you cannot turn actors into print. It doesn’t work! And why would you try? The books versions were perfect as they were. And the disney kids need to make the characters their own. The two versions can exist side by side, equally as wonderful, and still be gloriously different. We should celebrate the uniqueness of both. But instead, Rick is attempting to merge them into one. And in my opinion, it’s just hurting them both. And I’m gonna get real brave by saying this, but do you want my honest prediction? If he keeps doing what he’s doing now, the TV show is going to get cancelled and the books are going to turn into a joke. I so, so badly hope that this doesn’t happen! I have loved Rick and PJO for many, many years. I badly want both to thrive. But what is going on right now… it is not working, no matter how much we all want it to. And speaking as someone who knows people in the TV/Film industry, I am sadly not the only one who thinks the show is gonna flop. Which is devastating, because Rick Riordan deserves a redemption on the big screen, and the incredible actors deserve to bring this series to life in a new way.
I am not trying to force my opinions onto anybody. You are welcome to disagree with me and move on. I am not saying that I’m right and you’re wrong. If you disagree, that’s okay. If you agree but you don’t have a problem with it, that’s okay. In fact if other people have literally no issues, that makes me somewhat happy. And if you loved the book, I’m honestly so stoked for you. Feel free to just keep on scrolling, my friend.
But me? I’m sad. I’m really, really freaking sad. And I’m a little angry too, even if I don’t have a right to be. I can’t help it because I’m only human. But this is how I—and a lot of other people—feel. And you know what? That’s okay too. Because the fact of the matter is:
Annabeth isn’t the same Annabeth anymore. And Percy isn’t the same Percy anymore. And it’s not because they went through trauma, or because time has passed. It’s because Rick Riordan doesn’t have any interest in writing those versions of them anymore. And I think the comparisons between the old and the new show that fact pretty clearly.
#okay i’m deleting tumblr now#i’m too scared for the hate so i will be absent lol#I PROMISE IM NOT TRYING TO DESTROY RICK I LOVE HIM#but i think he needs to be more loyal to the old fanbase that has been so loyal to him#or not that’s fine too#i could give you guys more book quotes#i could make a whole other post on how percy has changed#but i’m not sure anyone wants that#so for now i will try and shut up#wottg#wrath of the triple goddess#and run very very quickly#pjo#heroes of olympus#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#percy jackson and the olympians#rick riordan#riordanverse
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4/19 Moodboard for the average Watcher/Yuri On Ice fan
#I’m gonna scream#IM SO MAD ARE YOU SCARED IS MY FSVE WATCHER SERIES AND NOW ITS GOING TO BE GONE#PUPPET HISTORY!!!!!#AND YURI ON ICE ENDING TOO IM HAVING. A DAY#yuri on ice#watcher
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Uhhhhhh… hi 💀
#i’m too scared to post anywhere else#creeps back on social media like a gremlin#to announce I’m going to be at nycc#in the tags ofc…#i’m so anxious
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#enki ankarian#fear and hunger#cahara of the south#d’arce cataliss#ragnvaldr#funger#I feel like I’m spamming the Enki tag on tumblr and I feel bad LOL#sorrryyyyyyy am just autistic abt my wife#I’m not an artist by any means and I barely write anything worth sharing (but you best believe I write!!)#so instead I just silly mode this mf until I am blocked by 90% of tumblr for being too annoying#OHHH YEAH that’s what it is I’m scared that people will go thru the Enki tag to see something cool bc he is a rly neat guy#and instead they come across 70+ posts from tumblr user fearfulandhungry about Enki ripping my arms off and giggling#le sigh le sigh Le sigh
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this kills me. crowley had to stop and look away from aziraphale. his voice was nearly failing him, he kept taking deep shaking breaths. he completely laid himself bare. and then.
#like he was so vulnerable i need to give him a cuddle i’m not joking#he was so SCARED#his throat was going too!!!!!#his lips quivering!!!!#his eyes darting about every which way#go2 spoilers#good omens#crowley#also sorry these stills aren’t great quality but i’m dealing with what i get hehe#david tennant#good omens s2e6
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More of her with different tattoos cuz the old ones didn’t really fit the lore
#art#fanart#my art#original art#Splatoon#Splatoon au#Splatoon samurai au#samurai au#au#splatoon shiver#shiver Splatoon#shiver hohojiro#traditional#it’s 3 am#artistic nudity should be normalized for once cuz I know that this may be an exaggeration#but I’ve seen so many people be like ‘oh nooo an asscheek 😨😨😨’ come on guys it’s just muscle#and I don’t wanna show her ass I wanna show her tattoos 😭😭 but anyway I’m too scared to do that so not yet
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I grew a fucking goatee for this
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This may not go anywhere but I’m curious, please reblog to spread and maybe add what mcyt fandom you’re in!
I would add more but I can’t so, sorry 😞
Again this is *predominantly* what you listen to
An example of the last one would be cavetown, last I saw he was signed to either sire records or triple crown.
#bolt barks#tumblr polls#random polls#polls#mcyt#mcytblr#hermitcraft#esmp#qsmp#I’m too much of a coward to put dsmp honestly because they genuinely scare me sometimes#mcyt smp#minecraft smp#I’m hoping putting the major ones will help spread it. oof.#I don’t mind if dsmp enjoyers do interact though#I’m just scared of the fans who are like. majorly online.
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kind of tragic how dean puts all this responsibility onto himself to be sam’s protector, when the truth is sam has never once been safe. the biggest violation in his life happened when he was six months old, and nobody was there to protect him. and nothing anyone did afterwards could ever make up for that fact.
#spn#dean winchester#sam winchester#guys I keep typing and deleting stuff pls send help#I have complicated thoughts about their dynamic but idk how to phase it#thinking thinking#anyways I have to go to work now#also just to be clear dean was a child and he shouldn’t have had to feel that way about his brother okay BYE#idk why I keep having sam thoughts and feeling the urge to clarify that dean’s traumas are valid too#this fandom scares me okay I don’t want ppl to think I’m participating in the stupid trauma Olympics
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the fact that orym was working up the courage to go to dorian’s room for 20 minutes… and then immediately admits that he’s been working up the courage for 20 minutes.
he has such a hard time opening up, but once he’s made the decision and the opportunity is there? it’s an instant shift as he can finally put down the weight of hiding anything he’s feeling from dorian.
#i’m insane about it actually#like that line is kind of hilarious#there’s a resigned humor to it of like… yeah i was scared to talk to you#but who am i kidding? i can’t keep this fact hidden#any more than i can hide the way i’ve been looking at you since you came back#might as well be honest about that too even if it’s embarrassing#HE’S DONE HIDING!!!#and so is dorian… agghh the masks! the parallels!#critical role#campaign 3#cr spoilers#dorym#dorian storm#orym of the air ashari#c3e111
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Safe Bet
#part 500 of me just slapping my brainrot onto a canvas and calling it a day#don’t read the tags if you haven’t done 2hats#here’s a mini explanation#so here it’s been maybe a month or two since Loop started traveling with everyone#and they were like man I’m tired of literally only being touched by my weird time clone#it doesn’t feel great#and Isa is off limits for obvious reasons#Bonnie for less obvious reasons#that leaves Mira and Odile#but they’re worried that they would be forcing Mira#if they asked. which they’re too scared to anyway#cause she’d feel bad#so Odile. process of elimination!#and they’re still to scared to ask Odile.#so instead they offer to be touched#like ohhh you’re a researcher you have to be curious. right#I’ll let you touch me if you’d like <3#and she sees through this obviously but there’s no harm in humoring them!#and she is curious.#and then she touches loop and they light up like a glowstick#and they have to be normal for the next week#done. goodbye#in stars and time#isat#isat loop#isat odile#ISAT spoilers#loopdile#<- still platonic they’re just weird#fawntonguesart
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Heh
#posting this now before big name aus get the idea too#idk I was looking at the mangas and how they’re drawn is somewhat similar#like their tunics#link between links#lbl first#lbl fierce deity#I’ve been… having thoughts#I was gonna keep this a secret but I honestly got scared#that some big au was gonna have the same idea as me#and people would think that I was jumping a bandwagon#and like there’s nothing wrong with doing that#but idk#it’s my pride talkin#now I HAVE seen random artists playing with this idea so I’m def not the first one to think of this#but yeah#I want First to be bright and like the sun#while fierce is dark and like the moon#anyways I’m rambling#just take it
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