#I’m sorry for everything

[beargyufairy]

I was a liar

I gave in to the fire

I know I should've fought it

At least I'm bein' honest

Feel like a failure

Cause I know that I failed you

I should've done you better 'cause you don't want a liar

[hismercytomyjustice]

I feel like I should issue a blanket apology for anyone unfortunate enough to have to deal with me over the next few days (and the past few) because I’m out of Adderall and the ADHD is running fucking wild.

Please keep my piano teacher and therapist in your thoughts and prayers during this difficult (for them, HAHAHA) time, as they also have ADHD and two people alone in the same room with ADHD is a dangerous combo.

…as evidenced by my chitchatting with my piano teacher for almost half an hour after my lesson yesterday…

IN MY DEFENSE, he started it! I just…did not finish it… BUT I DID WARN HIM!

I think most of his students are literal kids, so he gets to hardcore geek out with me about music (though most of the time he leaves me in the dust). He plays trombone and trumpet and piano and is super into jazz and I’m super into classical, so we get lost on a lot of tangents.

I did manage to rein in the impulse to go hardcore into true crime territory tho. I feel like I should get a non-participation trophy for that lol! BUT, AGAIN, HE STARTED IT. How is your response to me telling you some of my favorite local restaurants to bring up a murder at a local restaurant??? *checks notes* Ohhh, the ADHD strikes again…

SIR. I cohosted a true crime podcast for two fucking years because I could not shut the fuck up about the subject!

Bad news tho, my therapist is super into true crime. And we are also TERRIBLE about tangents. Especially when it comes to talking about the research and stuff behind OCD and ADHD and all.

Christ, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve been off Adderall this long and I forgot how all over the fucking place my brain can be. Just playing hopscotch in my noggin I guess. Or the floor is lava. Maybe both at the same time!

BUT. It has also been an impromptu experiment of sorts because FUN, *checks notes* CORRECTION NOT FUN, FACT! ADHD meds can exacerbate OCD symptoms! Because WHY WOULDN’T THEY?! Can’t make my life too easy, now can we!

God knew I would be too powerful if I were mentally stable… ╭( ･ㅂ･)و

SO, YEAH. SORRY. CAN’T FOCUS FOR SHIT RIGHT NOW. And am unfortunately making it EVERYONE’S FUCKING PROBLEM.

[whaleexpertsanonymous]

This is literal misinformation

[cupidsarrowanon]

character select

dove

-(Powering off…)-

[filmdhorreur]

my knees are bruised from praying and there’s dirt in my shoes

[hotdogmchiggin]

Company Mandated Fancy Fits on the Tulpar 😏

Also had to include the REAL star of the show (and a bonus)

Based off of this and this. Thank you very much joetastic for being inspirational 👍

The REAL reason this is late

[steelart]

someone needs to take my pen away from me. ive contracted terminal hades art style fever

calling myself out

others in this style (ish): the dark urge (OC); minthara (bg3), karlach (bg3), shadowheart (bg3), gale (bg3), halsin(bg3), lae'zel (bg3), wyll (bg3), kotallo (horizon)

[lunar-years]

People declaring they’ve gotten over their Taylor Swift obsession and dramatically taking down their posters of her and stuff on TikTok because they “haven’t really been listening lately” is always so hilarious to me. When I don’t listen to Taylor for a while, I’ll have shuffle on one day and a Taylor Swift song will come on, and then I’ll genuinely have to pause whatever I’m doing to sit there with the song thinking holy shit WHAT a tune! Do you think she realizes what a banger she had on her hands here? And then I go back to living my life with Taylor Swift still in my heart. It has been like this since I was ten years old. We are not the same!

[the-mpreg-guy]

And like I need everyone to rewatch s1-2 with the mindset that Dean’s never had a hunting partner before. “I was working my own gig in new orleans” and “dad used to send me away” and “the story became the story” and like, yes, Dean and John did hunt together, as evidenced in 1x04, but they weren’t hunting partners, as evidenced in 1x20 by how John treats him.

The majority of hunts Dean went on were alone. He did the witness questioning, the research, the puzzle solving, the cemetery digs, the monster hunts alone.

Which puts two things into perspective. The first is that Dean is very very good at outsourcing. One scene that comes to mind is in 1x16 where Sam teases Dean for calling another hunter to uncover some lore. He didn’t have a partner ever to help pick up the slack when shit hit the ceiling (on hunts with John, Dean is playing support in every avenue) until Sam started hunting full time and was able to help provide support via their mutual partnership.

The second is that Dean is putting in a performance specifically for Sam for two entire seasons straight. The long winded sighs, the digs at Sam being a “college boy nerd,” pretending to hate reading, downplaying his interpersonal skills and empathy towards civilians.

It’s a facade. One entirely catered towards Sam to make him feel more comfortable, and like Dean needs him there. He spends most of 1x11 lamenting that Sam isn’t there, to Sam but also in general because he misses Sam.

And like, there isn’t even really a point I’m trying to make here. It’s just that s1-2 Dean (first season in particular) is written so insanely well. Especially in retrospect of later seasons. The first time we see Dean let his game face drop is so telling of the character we get for 15 more seasons.

“I don’t want to,” happening in 1x01 is insane. From his first appearance on screen we learn exactly who he is: a big fake who’s desperately lonely.

[ewwww-what]

You are not a coward. You have a goddamn medical condition, alright?

[hopelessvalentines]

“didn’t you have to promise, a hundred times not to die?”

[yilune]

caged dogs

[shepscapades]

[dbhc flavored] Hermit a Day May: Day 14 — Doc!

Featuring both a current-day s10 doc and a verrry early s8 post-deviant doc! :]

[spottedgardeneelstan]

romance route unlocked!

based on this post, which seemed like an interaction shen jiu would have

[elodieunderglass]

Eggs for Killie is over!

I award myself the 150th egg for all of the little bits of art. Thank you so much for inspiring me to make them! It’s been really amazing to see all the hard work and to truly appreciate the wide range of crafts and activities everyone can do. Bobbin lace? Shoemaking? Knife forging? Translating Irish? It’s genuinely incredible.

I also really appreciated the people who were taking a rest, too. Thank you for that as well.

And I SUPER, SUPER appreciate everyone who was going through saying encouraging words, leaving replies/reblogging with comments, or liking all these posts. That was also a huge outpouring of kindness and time. I saw you doing it (and tried to make sure OPs did too) and any credit for people feeling empowered? That’s for YOU.

I know for a fact that people were following each other simply because they spotted one of their people through doing this. Thank you for being here - and being brave enough to find each other! 

If you have a project you were working on specifically for this, and missed the inbox, drop me a message - I don’t want to miss you.

150 eggs x 60g (weight of medium-large chicken egg) is 9000g of eggs.

That’s 16.8% of Killie’s body weight in eggs.

I am planning to write a book about Killie and I think it will be very VERY funny to acknowledge every single username who contributed in the acknowledgements…

…. Because I am planning to throw them back at you.

Now rest up, everyone. April Fools tomorrow, we gotta make the REST of the website unusable.

[reddje]