#I’m not allowed to be happy

[larapaulussen]

[laurrelise]

tragic that even with how lackluster the umbrella academy’s final season was, we never got to see five’s house.

i want to see where the old man lives. how does he decorate? does he live in an apartment or was he able to figure out a cute little home for himself? does he have roommates? did he ever learn how to cook for himself, or does he just eat fluffernutters whenever he’s hungry? does he ever get a mr. pennycrumb of his own? (i know he doesn’t, but a girl can dream) does he ever discover a cafe near his home where a decent cup of coffee can be found?

what coffee maker does he have? where does he buy his coffee grounds? how many coffee mugs does he have? i just KNOW he collects them.

he absolutely goes into little shops downtown and finds one that says some stupid shit like “if my coffee isn’t as black as my soul, i’m not drinking it” and giggles to himself in the corner and then spends way too much money on it because it’s just too good to pass up. he’ll smile to himself on the way home and then put on a pot of coffee to try it out for the first time. he hand-washes his mugs even though they’re all dishwasher safe because he wants to make sure they’re going to be completely untarnished when he wants to use them again. he has an entire cabinet for all of his mugs and one other cabinet for the rest of his glasses and bowls and plates because he doesn’t own a whole lot but he does like mugs. and someone will ask him about his mugs and he’ll properly tell them where he got each and every one, down to exact dates and times because he remembers everything and thinking about when he found his favorite mugs makes him feel less stressed. and whoever asked will not get a single word in and they won’t try to because five is talking about his mugs and he doesn’t get a whole lot of joy from material things but it is the simple things that matter. and five likes the simple things. and five likes his mugs.

[briefhottubcoffee]

I think Twilight/Loid Forger (or whatever his birth name is) is a huge romantic. I think he truly believes in love, true undying love, soul mates, family, permanence, etc. he’s just convinced himself that he isn’t capable of love or doesn’t need love because, sadly, he believes he doesn’t deserve all those things. He can’t be happy, he can’t be at peace. He has to work endlessly to save the world. He’s punishing himself by denying himself true love, happiness, and permanence (he really, really wants these things)

So what’s happening in the story is, he finds Anya and feels himself loving her and being her father, and he loves it, he loves being her dad. But he can’t have a daughter, he needs to create world peace. So he pushes back and fights against all these happy feelings.

And with Yor it’s even worse. He could be falling in love with her, true love, and he’s blown off his feet. I don’t think he’s ignorant or oblivious to what he’s feeling for her at all. Like we laugh at him and make fun of him because he’s an obtuse, oblivious spyman. But he’s actually well aware that it’s love, but he’s denying himself. Because he believes being in love with his wife, and raising a daughter with her, and being happy together forever is the most wonderful, precious thing in the world. And it’s not something he is allowed to have.

(I think if anyone is confused and oblivious about what they’re feeling and what it means, it’s actually Yor. Her feelings are more obvious to us, the audience, because she’s allowing herself to feel openly. But she is just now coming to understand that she’s falling in love.)

Like, Twilight secretly loves romantic movies and books and stuff but all along he’s thinking “Oh I’ll never feel this ‘true love’ thing they’re talking about, ima SPY.” But then he meets Yor and it’s an immediate kick in the gut, fly off a cliff, swooning music when she walks in the room, I finally belong somewhere feeling. And in the story right now we’re seeing him go through the “Oh fuck no there’s no way this can’t be happening I can’t love her I’m supposed to love spying and the shadows and being alone forever”

I mean come on, this guy right here loves romance. He loves dates with his wife. He loves love. He is trying to create a world where children don’t cry and the world is at peace and everyone is happy and in love. Except himself. He’s the sacrifice.

This right here is Twilight indulging himself. Feeling that true love feeling and relishing in it, like soaking in the sun. But then he takes two giant steps back and distances himself from her, and shuts himself off from his family. They all suffer because of it. It’s like he’s torturing himself and unknowingly hurting her in the process.

I think what needs to happen in the story eventually is his acceptance. He’s in love with her, he loves his daughter. He’s allowed to keep them and openly love them forever. He deserves it.

[tango-but-everywhere]

happy pride! now if you’ll excuse me

[bogmonstergeneral]

DO NOT ADJUST YOUR TV SET

i spent a very long time on this. here’s your host, jack delroy

[ekingston]

What do you think would be lena's courage gaunlet test

therapy

[milk-sharks]

quick lil snuggly doodle before i go to work!

[lorebird]

But you, you’re blind, you bleat, you bear your claws…

[so-sick-of-17]

If this election goes badly, I will never forgive people who put their personal morals over the good of America. The system is flawed and we should criticize Kamala Harris, but we also need to prevent as much harm as we can. Not if, WHEN, Kamala Harris wins the election, we are allowed to breath a sigh of relief and get rid of the knot in our stomachs. We will not stop fighting but taking a minute to celebrate the little victories is the only way a lot of us can get through everything. We will continue to fight for Palestine and demand Kamala Harris do more, but we can appreciate that things aren’t going to get worse and that doesn’t make us selfish.

[kagoutiss]

green beetle black beetle

[stardustvalentine]

i wanted to draw kyoutani in a more realistic style and i may have gotten Slightly carried away cuz i couldn’t decide on his facial features. oops. here is me diagraming him like a dog in a bio textbook

[elcucurucho]

There is so much I could say about how groundbreaking the qsmp is in terms of bridging language barriers between communities, and I do think there is so much to improve upon, but at the end of the day my most watched creators this year speak a different language from me, and even from each other. And the ability to bridge that gap as consistently as it’s been bridged is something I never would’ve considered a year ago. The work that’s been done already is so remarkable, and beyond that, the qsmp has shown that this kind of content is possible, and there is an audience ready to learn and engage with content from other cultures. There’s no way to even predict what this will inspire in the future. We’re going to be seeing the repercussions of this for years and years. It’s incredible.

[spliqi]

postcanon where kunikida is the ada president and dazai knows that he always keeps his phone ringer on Just In Case so he waits until kunikida is in the middle of an important government meeting and then starts dialing his number with the most shit-eating grin. kunikida doesn’t want to pick up from the moment he sees the name on the screen but still excuses himself and answers because what if it’s actually an emergency this time (it never is)

[buried-l0cket]

*shoots your doomed yaoi with a doomed yuri beam*

Sailor Trigun at ALA!!!

[transgendercastiel]

queer discourse is so crazy why don’t we all hold hands and spin around and not stick our noses into other people’s business

[tommyohnosworld]

i love hearing your heartbeat. it’s an extension of you, it’s rhythmic, it’s soothing.

laying on your chest, my breathing slows. i become weightless, falling into your skin. your skin glows, its warmth shines rays onto my body.

your lips find my hair, leaving the gentlest kisses embedded inside the weaves. i leave a kiss on your chest, letting the action whisper its love to your ears. your heart.