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nyrvietmblr · 22 hours ago
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Opposites attract |
golden retriever!Kyra Cooney-cross x blackcat!reader
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You and Kyra were an... unexpected couple. Who would’ve thought that Kyra Cooney-Cross, the most energetic, perky, golden retriever of a person, would ever cross paths with someone like you? Someone who hates touchy people, loud people, or talkative people—everything that Kyra is.
But it all started on a simple day in a busy café. You were seated, sipping your tea, reading one of your favorite books, when she came along.
“Excuse me? Could I sit here? There’s nowhere else…” a random, freckled girl asked with an accent that was clearly not English.
“Yeah… sure,” you replied, assuming she would leave you alone so you could get back to your book.
“Thanks,” she smiled, setting her things down and taking the seat across from you.
Your eyes skimmed the page, trying to read, but it was kind of difficult when someone was blatantly staring at you.
“Sorry… do you need something?” you asked the girl.
“Uh… no, sorry,” she stammered.
You blinked at her, then returned to your book. Peace. Quiet. Just pure relaxation.
“What’s your name?” the strange girl questioned.
“R.” You replied, impatient, wanting to get back to reading.
“That’s a pretty name. I’m Kyra,” she smiled.
“Nice to meet you,” you said, your face not unfriendly, but not exactly warm either. Just a look full of curiosity at this strange, freckled girl—Kyra—who was trying to make conversation.
“So… what do you do for work?” she asked, growing more inquisitive by the second.
“I work at the flower shop down the road,” you answered.
“Cool,” she exclaimed, taking a sip of her iced coffee, which she definitely shouldn’t have been drinking at 6:00 PM.
She picked up her phone, distracted for a moment, and for a second—just a second—you finally thought you could get some peace. Your eyes flickered back to your book as you leaned back in your chair, sighing contently.
Nearly three minutes passed before you noticed the strange girl—Kyra—getting antsy. Fidgety, almost like she was nervous, chewing on her thumbnail.
“Uh… are you okay?” you muttered lowly, unsure if she’d even hear you over the noise of the café.
“Huh?”
“Are you okay?”
“Oh! Yeah, yeah, I’m fine.”
“Okay…”
And maybe, though your hope was running thin and your patience along with it, you believed you could finally finish this chapter with no more interruptions.
But then:
“Do you wanna go on a date with me?”
The strange girl spoke right as you were taking a sip of your tea, nearly causing you to choke. You stared at her.
“Sorry… I made this weird. I can go if you wa—” she began, hurriedly collecting her items, clearly overthinking the mere ten seconds of your silence.
“Kyra,” you cut her off.
But gosh, she was relentless. “I’m so sorry if I made you uncomfortable, I—”
“Kyra,” you said louder this time, and she finally paused, staring down at you.
“If I say yes, will you sit down and… stop talking?” you questioned, sitting up straight, staring right into her brown eyes.
She smiled softly. “Yeah,” Kyra agreed.
“Then yes. I’ll go on a date with you,” you continued, “Now sit down. You’re… kinda good company,” you admitted to a Cheshire-grinning Kyra.
And you just hoped you’d be able to deal with the pest you had just let into your life.
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littlelamy · 2 days ago
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I was the one who requested Reader going through a depression and stopped responding to Rafe. That was soooooo good, I just wish it was longer because you're such a talented writer and I could read your stuff forever. Could I.....maybe request a part 2? With some happy ending. Maybe she opens the door....or maybe he bumps into her outside when she's getting her perscribed anti depressant pills at the pharmacy or something. WHatever you want, but I just want Rafe to show Reader that HE CARES and she lets him in emotionally, and he is super attentative, not at all making her feel like a burden, and is happy to take care of her
a/n: here’s part 2!😘
you hadn’t expected to run into him. you’d finally worked up the energy to go outside, the sun's warmth on your skin almost foreign after days—weeks—spent in the isolation of your apartment. your hands trembled slightly as you stepped into the pharmacy, clutching the prescription your doctor had sent over. it was supposed to help, the medication, but even taking this step felt monumental.
you kept your head down, trying to avoid any familiar faces. but of course, the universe had other plans.
“y/n?”
your heart sank at the sound of his voice, soft but unmistakable. you turned slowly, your eyes meeting rafe’s. he was standing near the entrance, a small reusable grocery bag in hand, his expression shifting from surprise to something gentler.
you froze, unsure of what to say. your mind immediately jumped to how you must look—unkempt, tired, a shell of the person he’d met a few months ago.
“hey,” you said finally, your voice barely audible.
rafe’s brows knitted together as he stepped closer, his blue eyes scanning your face. “what are you doing here?”
“just picking up something,” you mumbled, holding up your prescription bag as if it explained everything.
he nodded slowly, his gaze lingering on you for a moment before he spoke again. “do you have time to talk?”
you hesitated, glancing around the store. the thought of having this conversation here, in public, made your stomach churn.
“not here,” you whispered.
“okay,” he said immediately, his tone reassuring. “my car’s outside. we can talk there?”
you nodded, following him out to the parking lot.
the silence in his car was heavy but not uncomfortable. rafe didn’t rush you, didn’t push for answers. he just sat there, his hands resting lightly on the steering wheel, waiting for you to speak.
“i’m sorry,” you said finally, your voice breaking. “for disappearing. for not answering your texts. for… everything.”
he turned to face you, his expression soft. “you don’t have to apologize, y/n.”
“yes, i do,” you insisted, your chest tightening. “i’ve been a mess, and you don’t deserve to deal with that. you have your own life, and i—”
“stop,” he interrupted gently, his hand reaching out to rest on yours. his touch was warm, grounding. “you’re not a burden. and i don’t care how messy things are right now. i care about you.”
his words hit you like a wave, breaking through the walls you’d built around yourself.
“i don’t understand why,” you admitted, tears streaming down your face. “why would you want to deal with someone like me? i can’t even—”
“because you matter to me,” he said firmly, cutting you off again. “and it’s not about ‘dealing’ with you, y/n. it’s about being here for you. because that’s what you do for the people you care about.”
you didn’t go back to your apartment that day. instead, rafe drove you to his place, insisting that you didn’t have to be alone.
“just for a little while,” he said when you hesitated. “you don’t have to talk or do anything you don’t want to. just... stay.”
——————-
his house was quieter than you’d expected, the warm tones of the furniture and the faint smell of cedar making it feel more like a home than you’d imagined.
he led you to the couch, draping a blanket over your shoulders before disappearing into the kitchen. when he returned, he had a cup of tea in his hands, setting it on the coffee table in front of you.
"it’s chamomile,” he said, sitting down beside you. “i don’t know if you like it, but wheezie taught me how to make it back when i couldn’t sleep."
you managed a small smile, the gesture feeling foreign but welcome. “thank you.”
“anytime,” he replied, his voice soft.
the first night was the hardest.
you felt like an intruder, like you didn’t belong in his space. but rafe seemed to sense your unease, keeping his distance while still making it clear he was there if you needed him.
“if you want to talk, i’m here,” he said before heading to bed. “but if you just need to rest, that’s okay too. whatever you need.”
——————-
you spent most of the night staring at the ceiling, your mind racing with doubts and fears. but when the morning came, you felt a little lighter, the weight of your thoughts less suffocating than before.
over the next few days, rafe became a constant presence in your life.
he didn’t push you to talk about your feelings, but he also didn’t let you retreat completely into yourself. he’d sit with you during meals, even if you only picked at your food, and he’d put on movies you liked, filling the silence with soft laughter and the occasional comment.
when you mentioned feeling guilty about imposing, he shook his head, his expression serious.
“you’re not imposing,” he said firmly. “you’re here because you need someone, and i’m glad you trusted me enough to let me be that person.”
his words stayed with you, a small beacon of light in the darkness that had consumed you for so long.
one evening, you found yourself opening up to him in a way you hadn’t expected.
“i started the medication,” you said quietly, your hands wrapped around a cup of tea.
rafe looked up from his phone, his full attention on you. “how’s it going so far?”
“it’s... okay, i think,” you admitted. “it’s only been a few days, but it feels like a step in the right direction.”
“i’m proud of you,” he said, his voice warm. “that’s a big step.”
you felt a lump form in your throat, his words touching a part of you that had been starved for kindness.
“thank you,” you whispered, your eyes meeting his.
he smiled, reaching out to rest his hand over yours, gently rubbing small circles on it. “always.”
——————-
as the days turned into weeks, you started to find pieces of yourself again.
it wasn’t easy—there were still bad days, moments when the weight of everything threatened to pull you under. but rafe was there, steady and unwavering, his presence a constant reminder that you weren’t alone.
he celebrated the small victories with you, like the first time you cooked a meal together or the day you went for a walk around the neighborhood. and when you had setbacks, he was there too, offering quiet reassurance and a shoulder to lean on.
“healing isn’t a straight line,” he said one evening as you sat on the couch together. “it’s okay to have bad days. what matters is that you keep going.”
his words stayed with you, a mantra you repeated to yourself during the harder moments.
one night, as you lay in bed staring at the ceiling, you felt a surge of gratitude for him—for his patience, his kindness, his unwavering support.
“rafe?” you said softly, your voice cutting through the quiet.
he stirred beside you, his arm draped over your waist. “yeah?”
“thank you,” you said, your voice thick with emotion. “for everything. for being here. for caring.”
he shifted closer, his lips pressing against your temple. “you don’t have to thank me,” he murmured. “you’re worth it, y/n. every second.”
and for the first time in a long time, you believed him.
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headkiss · 24 hours ago
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hello! a summer request for my sweet hotch, maybe him taking care of reader's allergies or a cute picnic date (jack included)
hope you have a lovely day sweetheart 🩷
hiii tysm for your request!! hope you’re having a lovely day too angel 🫶 so sorry it’s not summer anymore but hopefully you still enjoy! | 0.8k words of fluff!!
Aaron is not known to take many days off, but summer seems to get him out of the office more than any other season. Even more so ever since he met you.
More again as soon as he introduced you to Jack, to the most important person in his life. Jack liked you immediately, and he never stops asking when he’ll see you next. Though there’s a void left behind by Haley that will never quite be filled, you all know it, but your presence in both of the Hotchner’s lives has brightened them in ways Aaron doesn’t think you could understand.
It’s why, today, he’s taken the day off on purpose. He’d even gone as far as to tell the team not to call him unless absolutely necessary. He trusts them, and they bug him to take breaks more than anyone, anyways.
There’s a classic red and white gingham blanket spread beneath you on the grass, the sun bright in the sky and saturating the park around you.
Aaron’s barely unpacked the snacks before Jack is jumping up and asking his dad for permission to go play.
“Only where I can see you,” Hotch says, “okay, buddy?”
“I know, dad!” Jack’s already running off before you can even tell him to have fun.
Aaron watches his son go, squinting in the sun, keeping an eye on Jack until he’s made it to a small group of other kids by the slide before turning back to you.
You’re scrunching your nose and rubbing at your eyes when he does, and Aaron frowns a little when you sniffle.
Always far too observant, he tilts his head at you and asks, “You okay, honey?”
You nod, because you really are.
You’ve had allergies for most of your life, you think, so it’s nothing to worry about. It’s just annoying. You’d woken up and could already tell it was a bad day for them, less air passing through your nose, your eyes itchy.
But days like these—the ones with Aaron and Jack and beautiful weather and nobody working—are rare, and you’d never be caught giving up time with your people just because of some allergies.
“I’m fine, just my allergies.” You smile at him and grab a nacho from the spread, dipping it into the layered salsa from the grocery store and popping it into your mouth.
“Why didn’t you tell me they were acting up?” Hotch asks, thumb wiping a bit of salsa from the corner of your mouth gently without a thought. Sweet and subconscious.
“Because you would’ve made me stay in bed and bring me soup like it was the flu,” you say, knee bumping his. “I’m out of meds, but I didn’t wanna miss this. Jack was so excited and I was, too. I love being with you guys.”
And fuck, Aaron’s heart squeezes in his chest at the way you speak so fondly about him and Jack, like they’re your own family. At how you’re willing to be uncomfortable just to keep plans intact.
He trails a knuckle down your bare arm, all the way down until he catches your hand and gives it a squeeze. “We don’t have to stay long.”
“I know,” you scoot closer and drop your head against his shoulder.
It’s only twenty minutes later, and after many sneezes (and ‘bless you’s from Aaron), he’s packing up the picnic and not letting you argue it. Your eyes are reddened and watery, and he can hear how stuffy your nose is by your voice, and he doesn’t want you to feel worse.
And maybe he likes the idea of getting to take care of you over something small like this. How domestic it is.
“Alright, let’s go home, yeah?” Aaron pats your thigh softly. “I know you wanted to tough it out, but i can tell it’s bugging you. There’s a pharmacy down the street, we’ll stop for meds.”
There’s no sense fighting him when your allergies are bugging you, when he’s so stubborn with his plans, with how kind the tone of his voice is.
“Okay. Maybe we can watch a movie when we get back? Jack can pick since we’re making him leave early.”
“You sure?” Aaron raises his eyebrows. “He’s gonna make us watch Big Hero 6 for the hundredth time, you know?”
“I know that you secretly love that movie.”
“That wore off at the tenth watch, honey.”
You laugh, then sneeze, and Aaron shakes his head at you fondly before calling Jack back over and promising to buy him a candy bar at the pharmacy for cutting his game short.
The candy bar is long gone by the time you’re all settled on the Hotchner’s couch to watch Big Hero 6 again, and you and Aaron share a secret smile when Jack announces it as his pick.
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ctrllhyuck · 3 days ago
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no hitter
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genre/tags ✮⋆˙ enemies to lovers, college au, kim seungmin x fem!reader
word count ✮⋆˙ 2.6k
NOT PROOREAD
˚    ✦   .  .   ˚ .      . ✦     ˚     . ★⋆. ࿐࿔         
you first met seungmin at the park by your elementary school, you were playing with lia, your best friend, when out of no where some kids pushes you over.
“hey! you knocked me over, you’re supposed to say sorry.”
“i didn’t knock you over, you were in the way so i nudged you. you should be the one apologizing to me.”
“that’s not how it works! i was sitting here playing with the sand and you pushed me instead of saying excuse me. don’t you have manners?”
“i feel like i’m just wasting my time here. next time, watch where you sit princess.”
from that day on seungmin relentlessly tormented you. whether it was pulling pranks on you, starting rumors about you, and even going as far as accusing you of cheating on an exam. that’s why you had always said you hated him. at the start of your freshman year you decided to solely focus on your studies. you were never the type of person to go out to clubs or parties like your friends. you always preferred to stay in your dorm studying, watching a show or napping. seungmin on the other hand gained quite the popularity. even if you wanted to you couldn’t deny it, seungmin was handsome. you thought it was a waste that such a mean person had such an angelic face. seungmin had always excelled at baseball. he had quite the throw, which landed him a starting position on the university’s team. you two had mutual friends which made avoiding him 24/7 a difficult task for you.
“dude, please put the books down for one day. i’m literally begging you, i’ll get on my knees if i have to,” han jisung asked as he pulled on your backpack strap. han was one of the first friends you made at the beginning of freshman year. the poor boy stumbled into the women’s restroom as you and lia were walking out and the rest was history.
“han you know i don’t like going out, especially when i know seungmins gonna be there,” you responded to the boy as you sipped your iced coffee. to your left, lia scoffed.
“you know, i think you and seungmin might have a little enemies to lovers story going on,” the brunette said as she eyed your face, carefully scanning it until she found that slight flush of pink on your cheeks. you had practically known lia all your life, she was like the sister you never had. she was able to read you perfectly in any situation. a few weeks ago she had caught you staring at seungmin during a class you three shared together. when you noticed she had caught you, you let out a nervous laugh and that little flush of pink appeared. from that moment the gears in her head starting turning and she came to the only logical conclusion: you had a crush on seungmin.
renjun, your lab partner turned best friend, spoke up, “that’s actually impossible, she hates his guts.”
“okay can we get back to the real issue here, getting our lovely yn to come bowling with us,” han squeaked in an exasperated tone. the poor boy just wanted you to come out of your dorm for once and live a little. they knew parties were completely out of your comfort zone and would never force you to attend these events. but bowling? who doesn’t love a good round of bowling. the rest of the baseball team was going too, and they were actually quite fond of you since you would attend their practices sometimes.
“okay, i’ll go. but as soon as seungmin says something or does something to make me uncomfortable, can one of you take me home?,” you asked your friends as they all looked at you wide eyed. safe to say you were met with never ending “yes’s” from all three of your friends.
the night you were going bowling finally arrived. you were actually dreading it ever since you had accepted the invitation. you were unsure of what was an appropriate outfit for this outing since you lived in baggy jeans and over sized sweaters. lia had offered to come and style you (perks of having a fashion major best friend). after many no’s you two had finally decided on a denim skirt and a cute sweater.
“you’ll definitely catch seungmins attention tonight,” lia said as she spun you around in front of your mirror. you couldn’t help but wonder if seungmin had ever called you pretty in his head.
you were sitting in the passenger seat of han’s car while lia and renjun sang their heart out to sabrina carpenter. as you guys pulled up to the bowling alley you saw the rest of the team (and their respective girlfriends) standing outside. as your group walked towards the entrance you saw him. the man you “hated” the most, the person you would always avoid on campus, kim seungmin. you couldn’t help but admire his face. he was just so handsome? dreamy? you couldn’t find a word to describe him. as he turned around to greet han, his eyes caught yours. you don’t know if your crazy, but you could’ve sworn seungmin gave you a small smile as you made eye contact. the night was progressing as you made casual chit chat with some of the other guys on the team. seungmin had yet to come up to you to say a smart ass comment or make fun of you.
without anyone noticing, you slipped away from the group. you wanted to get some fresh air as the closed space had started to make you feel anxious. the cool air hit your face as soon as the doors opened, maybe the skirt wasn’t a good idea. you looked up at the sky and noticed there was a full moon, you quickly took out your phone to snap a picture of it. as you were angling your phone you heard a voice creeping up behind you.
“pretty isn’t it.” that voice alone made your stomach do flips. you knew exactly who it was.
“um, yeah, i was trying to get a picture for my story,” you responded practically tripping over your own words. the boy behind you laughed. oh how you loved his laugh.
“still get nervous around me huh,” seungmin asked as he started into your eyes, his smile never faltered. he was just so hypnotizing. you couldn’t help but feel drawn in.
“i- i don’t know what your talking about seungmin. if you don’t mind, i came out here alone for a reason.” it was as if something had snapped you back into reality. this is kim seungmin, the boy who always found the way to make you feel so little.
“cmon yn, it’s pretty obvious that you like me. everyone on the team knows it. why do you keep acting like you hate me.” seungmin kept inching towards you, every step he took invading your personal bubble. but, why didn’t you move? it’s like you wanted him there. he stopped when he was a few centimeters away from your face, your breaths mixing together. he started leaning in, and you didn’t pull away. you wanted that kiss. you wanted it more than anything.
then you heard it. the little giggles coming from behind the cars. you turned your head in the direction of the laughs, and you saw multiple phones pointing at you and seungmin. they were recording you. this was all a cruel joke planned by seungmin and his stupid friends. you felt the tears starting to pool in your eyes. how could you let your guard down so easily?
“no way you really thought seungmin was gonna kiss you,” a voice from behind you said. you knew that voice perfectly. it belonged to karina, seungmins former girlfriend. she was mocking you. every single one of them was making fun of you. you wanted the ground to swallow you. you felt your anxiety begin to bubble up. you needed to find one of your friends. you needed to be away from seungmin. you tried so hard not to cry but the feeling of humiliation was just too much. as you began sobbing you saw han walk out of the bowling alley, he had been looking for you. as soon as he saw the state you were in and everyone just standing around you he began to push seungmin and ask what the fuck was wrong with him. you weren’t sure if you purposely blocked everything that happened after out of your mind or if you blacked out. all you remember is lia helping you put your pjs on and tucking you into bed.
after the incident at the bowling alley you didn’t want to show your face on campus. you were sure the video they had taken of you and seungmin was posted all over social media. lia and renjun had assured you that it wasn’t posted anywhere, but they couldn’t tell you everyone had been sharing it thru texts.
“so are you coming to the baseball game? it’s the final, it would mean a lot if you came,” han was basically pleading with you. you felt conflicted. you wanted to go support your friend but you also didn’t want to see seungmin or the other idiots that helped him with his scheme. with a half smile you tell han you’ll try to make it.
it’s saturday night, the game is starting in 30 minutes. that’s exactly how long the bus ride to the stadium is from your dorm. after a lot of pep talks to yourself, you realized you couldn’t hide forever. you were going to have to move on from what happened that night. you knew it wasn’t the end of the world but your anxiety had made you feel much worse. you arrived at the stadium after the first pitch was thrown. you were quickly able to find lia & renjun in the sea of people. they greeted you with hugs and forehead kisses (courtesy of lia). you hadn’t been to a game since the season started so you were kind of lost to what was going on. by the middle of the 9th inning your university was up by 3. it was a small lead but they were so close to victory. three strikes was all that was needed for your uni to win the championship. you hate to say it but seungmin had been pitching amazing as usual. as he pitched the first ball you saw his face contort. you realized something wasn’t right. you saw him wince in pain and he hit the ground. he was holding onto his right hand as he was yelling things you couldn’t make out. after a few minutes you saw the coach and medical staff escorting seungmin off the field. then the announcement came, seungmin was hurt and they were switching pitchers. your chest felt heavy. you were able to see the tears in seungmins eyes. all you wanted to do was go down there with him and hug him. but you couldn’t, not after what he had done to you. after seungmin was replaced everyone could tell the new pitcher had no idea what he was doing. the game quickly ended with a grand slam from the opposing team. the final score 4-3. they had lost the championship.
you knew you shouldn’t be doing this. you should be with lia and renjun comforting han. but you couldn’t stop yourself. at first you were walking towards the locker rooms, but now you were full on sprinting. you had to find seungmin. you just felt like he needed someone and you wanted that someone to be you. as you neared the locker room you slowed down a bit to catch your breath. then you heard it. low sobs coming from inside the locker room. you carefully pushed the door open and that’s when you spotted him. seungmin was sitting on the ground, head buried in his hands as if he was trying to hide away from the world around him. you carefully approached him and sat next to him.
“seungmin.”
the boy looked up and his eyes widened in surprise. you were the last person he expected to see.
“go away. your not even supposed to be in here.”
“i know, but .. i wanted to check on you.”
you heard a scoff coming from him as he spoke, “check on me? oh please i don’t need your pity.”
“it’s not pity seungmin. you’re hurt and i wanted to check on you. i was worried.” did you actually mean what you were saying? why would you worry about seungmin? especially after how he treated you.
“this stupid injury cost the whole team the championship. it’s my fault we lost.”
“you didn’t know you were gonna get injured, i’m sure no one is blaming you min,” you stopped as soon as you said it. you called him by his nickname. a nickname you were never worthy of, or so you thought. you noticed a slight blush appear on his cheeks and the tips of his ears.
“only my friends call me min.”
“yeah i know, i’m sorry.” there was a long pause. it seemed like both of you were scared to speak. scared of saying the wrong thing. scared of hurting each other. seungmin was the one who broke the silence.
“i’m sorry,” you never thought you’d hear those words coming out of his mouth. “i’m sorry for what happened at the bowling alley. i know it’s hard to believe but i didn’t want to do it. it was karina’s idea.” he took your silence as a sign to continue. “she’s always been jealous of you. she heard something from one of the guys a few days back and she got mad. she really should’ve been upset with me, not you.”
“what did she hear? was it something about me,” you asked nervously unsure of what response you could get.
“yes and no. it’s something i said,” he paused and you looked over at him. his face was completely red. “this is hard for me please bear with me,” he said pleading with you.
“seungmin, i won’t be here forever,” you mustered to him as you stood up. seungmin was quick on his feet.
“wait, please.” his figure towering over you, but he couldn’t meet your eyes. “i told jeno that i- fuck this is hard,” you heard him gulp. “i told jeno that i liked you. that i’ve always liked you and that i’ve only ever picked on you because i wanted your attention.”
your mouth was agape. seungmin, the boy who you’ve had a crush on since that fateful day on the playground, was confessing to you. you were in shock. seungmin was trying to read your face but he couldn’t.
“please say something. reject me, slap me, kiss me whatever just please. i know i messed up big time but i can’t stand the idea of me losing you, please yn i-“ you cut him off with a gentle kiss on the lips. it was like you had always pictured it. his lips were soft and he immediately melted into your touch. it’s like your lips were molded to fit each other perfectly. you pulled away when you were both out of breath.
“seungmin i’ve always liked you.” you saw his face turn a bright red shade. you kissed the tip of his nose.
“i promise i won’t hurt you ever again. please stay by my side.” you could see in his face that he was sincere. you realized how in love you were with him.
“lia was right, we did have en enemies to lovers story going on,” you giggled as you saw seungmins puzzled expression.
this was just the start of your new chapter with seungmin. a new chapter in a story that you never wanted to end.
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redroomreflections · 3 days ago
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Meet The Family
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Natasha Romanoff x Fem!Reader (Black Reader)
The Loud House Universe
Summary: Natasha meets R's family for the first time
W/c: 7k
"Babe, I have no idea what you are so nervous about." You shook your head. You grabbed onto your luggage as you deboarded the plane. "They're going to love you."
"I don't doubt that," Natasha said as she slipped the sunglasses onto her face. It's not like it's her first time flying economy before. She insisted that the two of you act as normal as a couple. That's what she craved. Normalcy. Someone not into the lights and cameras and the novelty of her being a hero. That is why she was excited to do the typical thing of meeting your family.
"Sure doesn’t seem like it,” you teased, nudging her lightly with your elbow as the two of you made your way through the terminal. Natasha’s calm exterior might fool anyone else, but you caught the subtle way she fiddled with the strap of her carry-on, her usual poise betraying just a hint of unease.
“I’m just... being cautious,” Natasha replied with a smirk, though you could hear the sincerity in her tone. “Your family is important to you. That means they’re important to me.”
Her words warmed your heart even as you rolled your eyes playfully. “That’s sweet, but they’re just regular people, babe. You're not meeting the president. Just eat good food, laugh at my mom's jokes, and pretend we haven't had premarital sex. Which is interesting of a hill to die on for my mom, but..."
Natasha let out a laugh. "I think I can handle that."
"And don't feel intimidated if they ask you many questions about your job," you continued. "I already warned them about keeping the interrogation to a minimum, but my family is the worst when it comes to asking about every little detail."
Natasha stopped, turning towards you with a serious expression. "I am more than prepared for an interrogation. That's my job description."
The two of you continued walking to baggage claim, keeping up with the traffic flow as you talked.
“Okay,” she said suddenly, tilting her head toward you. “Anything I should know before we get there? Any family secrets or rules I should avoid breaking?”
You snorted. “Well, for starters, don’t say you don’t eat pork. My mom might take that as a personal attack on her cooking.”
Natasha raised an eyebrow. “Good to know. What else?”
“Let’s see,” you mused, counting off on your fingers. “Peyton’s going to act like she runs the world because she’s the oldest, Quincy will probably crack a million dad jokes, and Brandon’s baby's mother… well, don’t take it personally if she doesn’t say much. She’s not big on conversation.”
"She's 17, right?" Natasha asked, her eyes widening as you walked through the airport.
"They both are," You nodded. "Everything I've told you about my family before, believe it."
"That's a lot of people," Natasha smiled softly. She'd always been more comfortable being around small groups. The bigger the group, the more uncomfortable she was.
"Yeah," You grinned. "My parents were great at making babies. There's four of us."
"Hmm," Natasha nodded. "Let me guess that's your brother over there with the sign." She gestured with a raise of her chin to the teenaged boy with a toddler in one arm and a sign that read "Welcome back from the Convent."
You burst out laughing as soon as you spotted the sign. "Of course he did," you muttered, shaking your head in disbelief. Natasha chuckled beside you, the corner of her mouth quirking up in amusement.
"That's Brandon for you," you confirmed as you adjusted your bag and walked toward him. "Always a comedian."
Brandon caught sight of you as you approached and broke into a grin. "Hey, sis!" he called out, holding the baby with one arm while waving enthusiastically with the other. The baby, a chubby-cheeked little girl with curly hair, looked unimpressed but content in his hold.
"Really, Brandon?" you said, gesturing to the sign as Natasha raised an eyebrow. "A convent? That’s what you went with?"
"What? It’s funny," he replied, shrugging with a smirk. "Gotta keep you humble."
You rolled your eyes, stepping forward to hug him while Natasha stood back, observing the interaction with quiet interest. "And what about me screams ‘convent,’ exactly?"
"Law school, late nights studying, no time for fun—sounds like a convent to me," Brandon teased before shifting his attention to Natasha. "So, this must be the famous Natasha. Welcome to the family."
"Oh, we're not..." Natasha's cheeks turned a soft shade of pink as she looked at you. "We're not married or anything."
"Yet," He finished with a smile, reaching out to shake her hand. "The way she talks about you, I'd have thought you had already put a ring on it."
"Brandon, stop," You groaned, your cheeks reddening. Natasha looked at you curiously, a hint of a smile playing at the corners of her lips.
"What? It's true. I mean, the whole family's heard all about your girl—"
"Give me my niece. She's getting fussy," You interrupted before he could embarrass you. You and Natasha had been dating for almost a year and a half. She knows practically everything there is to know. But hearing your family's opinion of her made you nervous.
"Fine," Brandon sighed. "You'll have to catch up on all the drama once we're in the car anyway. It's crazy at home."
"Oh? Why's that?" You asked, reaching out to take the toddler in your arms.
"I'll take the bags," He offered to Natasha. He didn't find offense when she declined. He simply kept the conversation going.
"Mom's pissed about Tori," He said, referring to his current girlfriend. "Her parents still won't let her move back home. Also, Peyton and Ross are having some issues. You didn't hear it from me, though. Oh- I parked over here."
He led the three of you to the car, where he opened the trunk and tossed all of your bags in there.
"Hey, that's Gucci," You warned him. "That bag has my laptop."
"Yeah, yeah. I'll be careful." He waved you off. "Can you buckle her in?" He asked.
Buckling Willow into her car seat was a feat. It was a new experience that you were excited to have, but she was a wiggler. You were glad to be an aunt and help her dad. You knew Natasha was watching the interaction with interest. Once everyone was seated, Brandon backed the car onto the road and out of the airport parking lot. You were terrified of his driving.
"Mom, let you drive the car," You thought aloud. "That's a first. Peyton and I had to beg her to let us drive practically."
"Well, I'm the baby. I get special privileges," He bragged. "Miss Natasha, you're quiet back there."
"She's fine," You defended her.
"I'm just listening," She replied.
Brandon glanced at Natasha through the rearview mirror as he navigated the freeway. His curiosity was written on his face, and you braced yourself for whatever line of questioning he was about to launch into.
“So,” he started one hand on the wheel and the other drumming lightly on the console. “What’s it like being an Avenger? Do y’all just fight aliens and save the world all day, or is it mostly paperwork?”
Natasha chuckled softly, the sound surprising you a little. She leaned forward just enough to meet Brandon’s gaze in the mirror. “A lot less glamorous than you’d think. Fighting aliens happens occasionally, but it’s mostly meetings, training, and arguing over whose turn it is to clean the kitchen.”
"Wait, you mean to tell me y'all don't have maids or a team to do that stuff?"
"Not for personal stuff, no," Natasha explained.
"And I'm gonna assume there are no benefits, insurance, or anything like that."
"It's government-funded," Natasha said. "So there's plenty of benefits and health insurance."
"Do you get to fly around in a spaceship, or is that reserved for Captain America and Iron Man?"
"There's a jet," Natasha replied.
"Brandon, can we not?" You asked.
"Oh, come on," he protested. "You didn't warn her about the third degree? Besides, it's not like you've seen any action."
"Not directly," You corrected. "But I've watched the news."
"Okay, okay. I'm sorry. I'm not trying to pry. I just want to make sure you're safe. The rest of the fam is going to want to know."
"That's understandable," Natasha said.
"So, what are the chances I'll get a ride in one of those Avengers planes?" He joked.
"Brandon!" You groaned.
"What? Can't blame a guy for dreaming," he laughed. "Okay, I have a real question—do you guys like to hang out? Play cards? Do movie nights? Or is it all business?”
“Depends on the day,” Natasha answered, her voice relaxed. “We’ve had our share of poker nights, but Thor’s terrible at bluffing, and Clint’s too good. Movie nights are better unless someone picks Star Wars. That always ends in arguments about the ‘proper’ order to watch them in.”
“Man, I wish I could’ve been a fly on the wall for some of that,” Brandon said, shaking his head. “You ever bring her to the tower?” he asked, jerking his thumb in your direction.
“A few times,” Natasha said, glancing at you with a small smile. “We mostly hang out at her apartment with Karen. She keeps saying she doesn’t want to ‘cramp my style.’”
“Excuse me for wanting to keep a low profile,” you said, feigning indignation. “Unlike you, Brandon, I’m not trying to be best friends with everyone.”
Brandon shot you a look of mock outrage, pressing one hand against his chest.
"You wound me, sister. Truly."
"I'll do worse than that if you don't focus on the road," You warned him.
"Fine, fine." He raised his hands in surrender.
It would be long if the rest of the day would be like Brandon's questioning.
**********
As Brandon hoisted Willow out of her car seat, she babbled happily, grabbing his hair as he balanced her on his hip. “Alright, ladies, this is where I leave you to fend for yourselves,” he said with a teasing grin, holding open the front door with his foot.
“We can manage,” you shot back with a smirk, lugging your bags from the trunk.
“You sure? I can carry the fancy bag,” Brandon said, eyeing your Gucci luggage again.
“Get inside, Brandon,” you said firmly, laughing despite yourself.
Brandon shrugged and disappeared into the house with Willow, leaving you and Natasha standing by the car.
You turned to Natasha, who was sliding her sunglasses off and tucking them into the neckline of her sweater. “Hey,” you said softly, touching her arm. “You good? I know my family can be  a lot.”
"Baby, I'm fine," Natasha said. "Trust me. This is what I do."
"I can't pretend I don't love it when you call me baby." You sighed.
"Well, then maybe I should use it more often," She said. "Also, relax. It's Thanksgiving."
"You're right," You said. "But still, if it gets overwhelming, just let me know."
Natasha nodded, and the two of you headed into the house. As soon as the door opened, the sounds and smells of Thanksgiving Day swarmed around you. Loud, chattering voices, the clatter of dishes, and the mouthwatering scent of roasting turkey filled the house, and you took a moment to close your eyes and soak it in.
"Is that my daughter, I hear?" Your mother's voice rang out from the kitchen.
"Yes, Mama, it's me." You called back. You kicked your shoes off and placed them neatly inside the coat closet. Natasha followed suit.
"Are you the famous girlfriend we've heard so much about?" Your mom asked.
"Yes, ma'am. My name is Natasha."
"Come here, girl, and hug me," your mom ordered, appearing from the kitchen and wiping her hands on a dish towel. "My name's Vivian. It's nice to meet you finally."
Natasha initially hugged Vivian, a bit hesitant, but the older woman’s firm and affectionate embrace quickly put her at ease. “It’s so nice to meet you, ma’am,” Natasha said, stepping back with a warm smile. “You have an incredible daughter. I’ve been hearing nothing but great things about you.”
Vivian chuckled, her sharp eyes twinkling as she gave Natasha a once-over. “Well, flattery will get you everywhere,” she teased. “But please, don’t call me ma’am. It makes me feel old. Vivian or Mama Viv will do just fine.”
“Mama Viv, then,” Natasha said with a slight nod, her voice smooth and respectful.
“Good. Now tell me, Natasha,” Vivian said, crossing her arms and leaning against the doorframe, “what exactly are your intentions with my baby?”
Your eyes widened as you fumbled for words. “Mama!”
Natasha didn’t miss a beat, though. She clasped her hands together, her expression sincere. “To love her, respect her, and make her proud, ma’am—uh, Mama Viv. And to eat as much of your cooking as you’ll let me,” she added with a playful smirk.
Vivian broke into a laugh, shaking her head. “Oh, she’s good,” she said, glancing at you. “I see why you like her. Alright, Natasha, you’re off to a good start. Come help me in the kitchen, and we’ll see if you can hold your own in there.”
Natasha glanced at you for confirmation, and you gave her a subtle nod. She followed Vivian into the kitchen without hesitation. You followed behind, though, at a slower pace. The next few moments were crucial for first impressions.
"I'll warn you, I'm not a great cook," She said.
"That's alright," Vivian said. "I'll put you to work peeling potatoes or something. Wanna see if you'll pull your weight around here."
You smiled, hearing them chat back and forth. It was a good sign. You were sure your mom would find something Natasha could do.
"You made it," Quincy's voice boomed from behind you. He didn't give you time to react before he pulled you into a bear hug. "And you brought Natasha."
"Of course," You laughed.
"Good." He nodded. "I was worried you were going to bail on us. You never come home anymore."
"Don't start, Quincy," You rolled your eyes. "I was home last Thanksgiving."
"Yeah, after not coming home for a whole year," He said. "Introduce me to your girlfriend." He grinned. He was starstruck.
"She's helping Mom cook," You informed him. You both walked into the kitchen and saw Natasha shaking hands with your sister, Peyton. Brandon was at the counter feeding a few strawberries to Willow as his girlfriend Tori sat beside him on her phone. She seemed completely unaware of the world around her.
"So, you're an Avenger," Peyton said, her tone a little skeptical. "I must admit we didn't believe y/n when she said she was dating you."
"Oh really," Natasha said, quirking an eyebrow. "Is that so?"
"Well, it's not every day a girl claims she's dating the Black Widow," Peyton pointed out.
"Yeah, but y/n isn't exactly the type to make shit up," Quincy interrupted.
"Language, boy," Vivian warned from her place at the stove.
Natasha chuckled, her eyes flickering to Peyton and then to Vivian, who had her back turned to the stove. "Don’t worry, I’ve heard worse," she said, giving Quincy a playful wink.
"See?" Quincy smirked, raising an eyebrow. "Told ya."
Vivian turned from the stove, placing a wooden spoon on the counter. "Alright, enough with the show, everyone. Peyton, get the table set. Quincy, stop trying to embarrass your sister. And you," she pointed at Natasha, "come help me with this cornbread."
Natasha nodded and stepped over to Vivian, who seemed confident in her kitchen. "What can I do?" Natasha asked, her hands instinctively moving to help without waiting for an answer.
"First things first," Vivian said, pushing a bowl of ingredients toward her, "you’re going to stir this batter, but carefully. I like a nice smooth texture for the cornbread."
Natasha rolled up her sleeves, already comfortable in the space. "I’ve got it. I’ll make it the best cornbread you’ve ever had."
Vivian, clearly pleased, gave her a once-over before speaking again. "You’re making good impressions so far, Natasha. Y/n deserves someone who knows their way around the kitchen." She eyed Natasha for a moment, her smile warm. "You do all your cooking, or is someone else handling that?"
"I do a bit of both," Natasha replied, gently mixing the batter. "But I’m always down for new recipes, especially if they come from someone who knows what they’re doing. I'm not a great cook but a fast learner."
"Well, we'll see how you do here," Vivian said.
"I guess I'll start on the pies," You rolled up your sleeves to wash your hands. A perk of flying in on Thanksgiving day was being late to the party. It was a last-minute decision to come home.
"You better be making a chocolate one," Peyton warned.
"Peyton, hush." Vivian shushed her.
"I can't wait to try it," Brandon said, his attention still on his daughter.
"I think the last thing that kid needs is sugar," Peyton teased, poking the little girl's belly. She squealed, kicking her chubby little legs.
"The sugar is the best part," Brandon retorted, kissing his daughter.
"She's getting big," You observed. "Is she talking yet?"
"No," Brandon said. "Not yet. She'll get there eventually. I can't believe she's a year old. Feels like just yesterday she was born."
"Yeah," You nodded. "Hi, Tori." You said to Brandon's girlfriend.
"Hi," She had the decency to look up from her phone.
You sat at the kitchen table, a soft smile tugging at your lips as you glanced at Tori. Finding someone like her who kept to themselves was rare, but you knew it was essential to show interest. "So, Tori, how's school and everything? I mean, besides, you know, trying to avoid getting caught in the middle of this chaotic family," you teased lightly, gesturing around the room.
Tori blinked, clearly surprised by the question, but then she seemed to soften, a hint of relief in her eyes. "Well, school is fine. I've been attending every day. I want to be a nurse," she said, her voice quieter than usual but more animated than you'd seen before. "I’ve always liked the idea of helping people, you know? I’ve been thinking about moving to Louisiana after high school to study. My aunt lives there, and she’s been telling me to come stay with her while I figure things out."
"That’s awesome," you said, genuinely interested. "Is it something you’ve wanted to do for a while?"
"Yeah," she nodded, looking down at her hands briefly. "I’ve always kind of gravitated toward taking care of people. And... I don’t know. Louisiana feels like a place where I could start fresh, away from all the stuff back here." She paused, her eyes flicking briefly to Brandon, who was still sitting with Willow. "I just... I think I could do more there. Maybe even learn some things to help me get my life on track."
You nodded thoughtfully, respecting her quiet resolve. "I think you’ll do great."
Brandon, listening in from across the room, chimed in with a knowing smile. "Yeah, we're still figuring it all out. Tori's been thinking about it, but we're also trying to figure out how to ensure Willow stays close to family." His expression softened as he glanced at his daughter. "I’m not sure how I feel about taking her away from everyone... but Tori’s excited, and it’s a big opportunity for her."
Tori shot Brandon a small, appreciative smile, though she didn’t say anything.
You could tell there was a lot of unspoken tension around it. You nodded in understanding. "It's a big decision. But I know Willow’s lucky to have you both looking out for her."
"That's so sweet," Tori said.
"I only have to put the collard greens on," Vivian began. "Natasha, do you eat pork?"
"Yes," Natasha answered.
"Good," Vivian nodded.
"What else can I do, Mama Viv?" Natasha asked.
"You're gonna make the biscuits," Vivian ordered.
"Yes, ma'am." Natasha nodded.
Things were going well. Your mom putting Natasha to work meant she was interested in her, which was a plus in your book.
As Natasha busied herself with biscuit-making under Vivian’s watchful eye, Peyton followed you into one of the bedrooms upstairs. You knew by her closeness she was about to say something. Peyton rarely held back when it came to her opinions.
“So,” she began, her tone casual but pointed, “is this thing with Natasha serious? Or is she just another quest, like Melinda?”
You paused, barely glancing at her, placing your bags in the closet. Peyton had always had a knack for finding the most loaded questions to ask, and this was no exception. You took a breath, willing yourself to stay composed.
“First of all,” you said calmly, “Natasha is not a ‘thing.’ She’s my girlfriend, Peyton. And yeah, we’re serious. Also, Melinda wasn't a quest. We were in a relationship for two years."
Peyton shrugged, feigning nonchalance. “I’m just saying. You’ve always had a type, you know? Strong, intense, probably a little emotionally unavailable,” she added with a smirk. “And we all know how that turned out last time.”
You shot her a warning look. “Wow, Peyton. Thank you so much for your insight into my love life. Maybe next time, you can try delivering it without the shade.”
“What? I’m just asking the questions everyone else is thinking,” she said, raising her hands defensively. “I mean, you’ve got a history. Don’t you think it’s fair to wonder how long this one will last?”
"Are you going to start? Dinner is less than three hours away," You sighed. "I came to be with family. You didn't even hug me when I came in the door."
"Because you've been here ten minutes," Peyton argued. "Look, I'm not trying to start anything, y/n. I'm just curious. It's not like we see or talk to you very much."
"Well, I've been busy," You retorted.
"You could've called more," Peyton insisted. "The girls miss you."
"I'm sorry," You shook your head. "Law school has been intense."
Peyton’s eyes flicked to the Gucci bag you’d set neatly by the door, her expression shifting into something slightly amused but undeniably pointed. “That’s a nice bag you’ve got there,” she remarked, her tone light but laced with something else. “Designer, right?”
You bristled, sensing where this was going. “Yeah, it’s a gift,” you replied curtly, refusing to elaborate. You’d learned that giving Peyton more information was like throwing fuel on a fire.
“Must be nice,” she said, her voice slightly more severe. “Meanwhile, Mom’s been stressing over the laundromat. She doesn’t say it outright, but I know things have been tight lately.”
You froze, your jaw tightening. “Peyton—”
“She’s paying your tuition,” Peyton continued, folding her arms. “So, I just think, you know, maybe she deserves to know if you’re spending money on fancy bags.”
“It’s a gift,” you repeated, your voice sharper now. “And last I checked, my education was something Mom was proud to support, not some burden she needed you to fight about.”
Peyton shrugged, unfazed by your defensiveness. “I’m not saying it’s a burden. I’m just saying she’s doing a lot. And maybe you could... I don’t know; check in a little more. Be more aware of what’s going on back home.”
“Wow, Peyton. Thanks for the lecture,” you shot back. “I had no idea you were Mom’s financial advisor now.”
“I’m just saying,” Peyton countered. “You’re out there living your life, and we’re holding things down. It wouldn’t hurt to pick up the phone or swing by more often. The girls miss you, Mom misses you, and whether you want to hear it or not, things aren’t easy around here.”
You exhaled sharply, crossing your arms. “Look, I get it, okay? I know I’ve been caught up with school and everything else. But you don’t need to guilt-trip me about it. I’m doing the best I can.”
Peyton’s face softened, if only slightly. “I’m not trying to guilt-trip you, y/n. I just... I worry about Mama, and I worry about you too. You’ve got this shiny new life now, and it’s great, but don’t forget where you came from. That’s all I’m saying.”
You shook your head, annoyance and regret swirling in your gut. Part of you wanted to defend yourself, but another part felt like it was too little, too late. Instead, you breathed and tried to let the frustration melt away. Paying your tuition was something your mother did for each of her children. Quincy had gone to get his mechanical engineering degree and became a product engineer. You're still determining exactly what he does, but he earns an excellent salary. Peyton had gone to college and ultimately dropped out after becoming pregnant with the twins in her junior year. Now it was your turn.
You felt that despite how much your mom wanted you to attend law school, the money was tighter than she'd initially let on. It wasn't that she was stingy. Your mom was the most generous person you knew. But she had her pride. You knew you had to pay her back one day.
"Okay, okay," You said, rubbing your temples. "I've been working a lot. I can take out loans if I have to. Just let me talk to Mom. See what she says."
Peyton didn't look entirely convinced. "If you say so."
"Look, it's been a long trip, and I wanted to see everyone and have a good time," You explained. "Are you going to treat me like this the whole time?"
"No," Peyton rolled her eyes. "We can pretend we're normal and get along for one day."
"Good," You said. "Now, can we please just go hang out with everyone? I didn't come from New York to spend the holiday with you lecturing me."
"I love you, little sister," Peyton said as you began to walk past her. "I apologize for coming across that way."
"I know, Peyton," You sighed.
The two of you walked back downstairs, and you returned to the kitchen to see Natasha holding Willow in her arms. You paused in the doorway, your steps slowing as your gaze landed on Natasha. She held Willow close, her movements careful yet natural, like she’d been doing this forever. Willow babbled happily, one tiny hand clutching at Natasha’s necklace and the other reaching up to pat her cheek. Natasha smiled, a soft, genuine curve of her lips that you didn’t get to see often.
It was... endearing. Unexpected but endearing.
Natasha had always struck you as someone who thrived in control, her precision and composure unshakeable. But here she was, rocking a squirmy, giggling baby in her arms with a quiet patience that made your chest ache the best way.
She caught you watching, her green eyes meeting yours over Willow’s head. “Hey,” she said softly, a trace of shyness in her voice. “She’s a natural charmer, isn’t she?”
“Yeah,” you replied, your voice catching just a bit. “She likes you.”
Natasha chuckled, shifting Willow so the baby rested more securely against her shoulder. “I like her too,” she admitted. “But, full disclosure, I have no idea what I’m doing. I think she’s just being nice to me.”
You smiled, stepping closer. “You’re doing fine,” you said, your tone warm. “Better than fine. She doesn’t let just anyone hold her without pitching a fit.”
Willow reached for Natasha’s face again, her little fingers brushing against her cheek. Natasha didn’t flinch, just gently caught the baby’s hand and kissed her tiny palm. The sight was almost too much—tenderness wrapped up in someone so unrelentingly strong.
“Do you want her ?” Natasha asked, her voice light but filled with a bit of hesitation like maybe she didn’t want to let go just yet.
You shook your head, leaning against the counter. “Nah, you’re doing great. Besides, I think she’s already picked a favorite.”
Natasha gave a soft laugh, the sound low and genuine. “Guess I’ll have to live up to it, then.”
Vivian came in a moment later. "Everything's all ready," She said.
"Mom, did you make mac and cheese?" Peyton asked.
"Yes," Vivian nodded. "Your daughter requested it."
"Thanks, Mama," Peyton said.
Vivian glanced at you and Peyton, her eyes narrowing. "Y'all weren't fighting, were you?"
"No, ma'am," You and Peyton said in unison.
"Don't lie," Vivian scolded.
"We're fine," You insisted.
"We can save the arguing after Thanksgiving dinner," Peyton added.
"Alright," Vivian shrugged. "I'm not going to pretend to understand you two."
Natasha glanced between you and your sister, but you did not indicate that you were bothered by what had happened.
"Twins are back," Ross called from the front door as he entered the house with Deyjah and Diamond. All you heard was the pitter-patter of little feet as they kicked off their shoes and ran toward the kitchen.
"There's the troublemakers," You joked, ruffling their heads.
"You're back," Diamond exclaimed, pulling you into a hug.
"I am," You laughed, squeezing her back.
"Did you bring presents?" Deyjah asked, looking up at you expectantly.
"I didn't," You said. "It's not Christmas just yet. Girls, there's someone I want you to meet. This is my girlfriend, Natasha."
Diamond and Deyjah eyed Natasha curiously, their matching gazes assessing her with an unnerving and impressive sharpness.
"Why's your hair red?" Deyjah asked, her eyes narrowing.
"Well, I was born with red hair," Natasha explained. "Just like how y/n was born with dark hair."
"I was born first," Diamond announced proudly, puffing out her chest. "But I don't remember."
"Duh, 'cause you were a baby," Deyjah scoffed.
"Girls," Vivian scolded, "don't be rude. Why don't you go wash up for dinner?"
They did as they were told, rushing off to the bathroom.
"They're pretty cute," Natasha began. "How do you tell them apart?" She directed her question to Peyton.
"There are a few subtle differences," Peyton began. "Diamond has slightly better speech than Deyjah. Deyjah always has some sort of bracelet or necklace on. Though if you look closely, Diamond has a tiny mole on the left side of her neck."
Natasha nodded, seeming satisfied. "So, how old are they?"
"Six," Peyton answered.
"Six," Natasha echoed.
"Yep, six going on sixteen," Peyton joked. "They keep me busy most days."
"I can imagine," Natasha chuckled. "They're smart kids."
"Oh yeah," Peyton grinned. "They're smart."
You couldn't help but smile at Natasha's interest in the twins. She seemed genuinely curious and focused solely on Peyton as she talked about the girls. Seeing someone other than your mom and Brandon engaging with her was refreshing.
"This is my husband, Ross," Peyton introduced.
"Pleasure to meet you," Ross shook Natasha's hand. "Big fan."
"He's a fan," Peyton explained. "He loves all that superhero stuff. I'm not really into it, though."
"I can imagine," Natasha smiled. "Well, it's nice to meet you, Ross."
"Yeah, likewise," he replied, clearly starstruck. "How was the flight?"
"It was alright," You answered. "It's good to be back home."
Indeed it was.
******
The dining room was packed, every seat around the table taken, and a few extra chairs were squeezed in to accommodate the crowd. The smell of collard greens, roasted turkey, and freshly baked cornbread filled the air, mingling with the soft strains of gospel music playing from a speaker in the corner. Laughter and chatter echoed through the room as plates and glasses were passed around.
You sat beside Natasha, her hand resting lightly on your knee beneath the table. She looked calm, but you could tell she was soaking everything in—the voices, the warmth, the energy. She wasn’t used to this world, but she fit into it better than you’d expected.
“Alright, y’all, quiet down!” Vivian’s voice rose above the din, commanding attention. The table settled almost instantly, everyone turning toward her.
She stood at the head of the table, a serene yet authoritative presence. “Before we dig in, we’re going to give thanks,” she said, glancing around the room. “Natasha, since this is your first time joining us, I want you to know how happy we are to have you here. Family is everything to us; today, you’re family too.”
Natasha’s eyes widened slightly, and she gave a small, grateful smile. “Thank you, Mama Viv. That means a lot.”
"Now, in our household, we start with a prayer before Thanksgiving dinner," Vivian said. "I understand that you may not want to participate."
"No, ma'am," Natasha said.
"Well, okay then," Vivian said. "Now, let's bow our heads."
"Bow our heads, everybody," Vivian instructed, and the room obeyed. You noticed that even Natasha bowed her head a little, though her eyes remained open. "Dear Lord, thank you for bringing our family together today."
Natasha observed the room as the prayer went on. This was like a culture study for her. Experiencing a different family dynamic was intriguing.
"I want to thank you for the food and the company. And I pray that our family continues to stay safe and healthy. Amen."
Everyone lifted their heads and said, "Amen."
"Thank you, Mama," Peyton spoke up.
"Thank you, Mom," Brandon agreed.
"Yeah, thank you, Mama," Your brother, Quincy, said.
"Thanks, Mom," You nodded. The food began to be passed around, with everyone choosing which dishes they wanted and didn't want.
"I don't think we've ever had a guest that didn't participate in the prayer," Peyton commented. "Natasha, you were born in Russia, right?"
"Yeah, well, it's not exactly my thing," Natasha said. "I was born in Russia."
"It's not mine either," you said, hoping to diffuse the tension. "I think we all have ways of being thankful, and it's not anyone else's place to judge."
Peyton gave a slight shrug. "I was just curious. No harm meant."
"I get it," Natasha replied.
"You're welcome here, whether or not you believe in God," Vivian assured. "We're all a little different. It's what makes us interesting."
Natasha flashed Vivian a small, appreciative smile. "Thank you, Mama Viv. I appreciate that."
As everyone dug into their plates, the conversation shifted to lighter topics. Silverware scraping against plates filled the air, with only snippets of conversation breaking through the hum of family conversation. Your mom, ever the host, ensured no one went without refills, while your siblings kept things lively with playful banter. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Natasha enjoying the food. Some of the menu options were things she hadn't tasted before. It was endearing and a little heartwarming to see her want things.
"So, Natasha," Brandon leaned forward. "I gotta ask—who is the coolest person you've met?"
"Um..." Natasha's expression shifted into something thoughtful. "Well, I've met many interesting people in my life. I wouldn't say anyone was cooler than the other. Maybe the president?"
Brandon frowned. "I was hoping for someone a little more exciting."
"That is exciting," Quincy said.
"What?" Brandon protested.
"She's Black Widow, and you're asking her about who she's met," Quincy replied. "I want to know her stats. I mean, she's a spy. You must do some pretty cool stunts. What's your training regimen like?"
"Oh, come on," You lowered your fork. "Can we just not talk about work right now?"
"It's okay," Natasha smiled, patting your hand.
"I can answer a few questions," She said.
"Oh yeah," Brandon smirked. "How many push-ups can you do?"
"A lot," Natasha shrugged.
"Do you do chin-ups?" Quincy asked.
"Yes," Natasha said.
"I'd like to challenge you to a push-up contest," Quincy wiped his mouth. "You seem tough, but I bet I could take you."
"I could do the same," Brandon said. "We could all have a contest."
"I'm not going to do a push-up contest," Peyton shook her head. "It's Thanksgiving."
"Fine," Quincy shrugged. "Brandon and I can do it."
"I don't think you guys understand what you're challenging her to," You said. You knew firsthand how athletic Natasha was. Her stamina was out of this world both on and off the field.
"She's an Avenger," You said.
"So," Brandon shrugged.
"She's a trained assassin," You explained.
"I'm sure we could hold our own," Quincy countered.
"No, you can't," You shook your head.
"Oh, I'm sorry," Brandon put his hands up. "It sounds like you don't want us to take your girlfriend. Afraid she might fall in love with one of us?"
"I'm right here," Tori pinched Brandon. "Behave."
"Sorry, babe," Brandon muttered.
"No, I'm not worried," You rolled your eyes.
Natasha smirked, her eyes glinting with amusement as she leaned forward slightly. "Yeah, I think you guys should sit this one out," she said, her voice laced with humor but just enough seriousness to get her point across. "No offense, but I’ve been around some pretty intimidating people. I’m not exactly shaking in my boots here."
Quincy feigned a wounded expression. "Ouch. So, we’re not intimidating enough for you?"
"Not in the slightest," Natasha quipped, her smirk widening.
Brandon chuckled, throwing his hands up in mock surrender. "Okay, okay, fair enough. Guess we’ll stick to arm-wrestling each other and leave the assassin stuff to the pros."
Tori gave Brandon a side-eye but couldn’t help smiling. "Maybe you should worry about behaving before trying to impress Natasha."
You shook your head, unable to keep from laughing. "See? Even Tori knows you two would be hopeless."
Natasha reassured your thigh under the table, leaning in close enough that only you could hear. "I like your family," she murmured softly and sincerely.
You smiled at her, warmth blooming in your chest.
"We like you too," Vivian nodded. “It may be time for these boys to get put in their place.”
"I would like to see it," Peyton muttered.
"After dinner, then," Natasha smiled. "I have one condition if I win."
"What's that?" Quincy asked.
"You guys teach me how to play spades," Natasha suggested.
"Deal," Quincy nodded.
"And if you win, we can take some photos together," Brandon said.
"Fair enough," Natasha said.
"This will be interesting," Vivian commented.
"I know, right," Tori chuckled.
It was settled. Natasha would be challenging your brothers to a push-up contest. She was used to men challenging her to do things. It was in their nature almost.
After the meal, you helped clean up while your siblings gathered in the living room. They were ready for Natasha to kick their asses, and you could barely contain your excitement.
"Willow, you're about to watch your Daddy get beat," You whispered to the toddler.
"Don't count on it," Brandon said. "She won't be so confident when we're finished."
"We'll see," You said, setting the child on the couch.
Ross volunteered to be the referee, clearly enjoying the chaos. "Alright, everyone ready?" he asked, standing over the contestants with exaggerated authority.
Brandon and Quincy dropped to the floor with exaggerated confidence, flexing their arms dramatically to show off. Natasha joined them, calm and focused, her form perfect even before they started.
"Okay," Ross said, his voice booming for no reason. "On my count—one, two, three, go!"
The room filled with exaggerated grunts as your brothers enthusiastically attacked their push-ups, counting out each one loudly. "One, two, three—"
Natasha, meanwhile, moved effortlessly, her breathing even and controlled. You noticed she wasn’t counting out loud, focusing entirely on her form. By the fifteenth push-up, Brandon’s face turned red, and Quincy was already starting to slow down.
“That’s it?” Natasha teased, casually switching to one-handed push-ups without missing a beat.
The room erupted into gasps and laughter. Ross's jaw dropped. "Wait, wait, what?!"
"One hand?" Quincy groaned, struggling to keep his pace. "She’s showing off now."
"Is she even human?" Brandon muttered between labored breaths.
You couldn’t help but laugh, leaning against the back of the couch. “Don’t worry, Willow,” you told the toddler watching from her perch. “Your daddy’s about to learn a hard lesson.”
Despite their efforts, Natasha’s movements remained smooth and effortless. Not once did her arms so much as tremble. When Brandon and Quincy finally collapsed in a heap, Natasha was still going strong, with a slight smirk as she pushed through another set.
“Thirty-five… thirty-six…” Ross counted, shaking his head in disbelief.
When she finally stopped, Natasha rose gracefully and brushed herself off as if the entire thing had been a warm-up. "Good effort, boys," she said with a smirk, extending her hand to help Brandon.
"You didn’t even break a sweat!" Quincy protested, sprawled on the floor.
"Maybe next time," Natasha quipped, her tone light but undeniably victorious.
Brandon groaned dramatically, glancing at Willow, who was giggling. "Willow, Daddy did his best," he muttered, defeated.
“She’s my new favorite,” Ross declared, earning laughter from everyone in the room.
You walked over to Natasha, shaking your head with an affectionate smile. “Show-off,” you teased.
She leaned in close enough that only you could hear. “You love it.”
She wasn’t wrong.
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Later that night, everyone is tucked into their rooms as you help your mom with the dishes. Natasha had taken an early shower to decompress from such a busy day. She wasn't used to big family affairs like this and needed a moment alone. This gave you time to talk with your mom.
As she washed the dishes, you dried them.
"So, what do you think?" You asked as you placed another place in the cabinet. "Do you like her?"
"She's lovely," Vivian nodded. "You seem happy."
"I am," You confirmed.
"Good," Vivian continued washing the dishes.
"She seems to be fitting in well," You said.
"She is," Vivian said. "She's a sweet girl."
"She is," You agreed.
"Are you sleeping with her?"
"Whoa, Mom," You sputtered. She gave you a knowing look, and you sighed. "Why are you asking?"
"I'm your mother," Vivian said. "It's a valid question. Is she a good partner?"
"Yes, she is," You said.
"She doesn't treat you right; I will come and cut her," Vivian threatened.
"She does treat me right," You insisted.
"Then there shouldn't be a problem with my question," Vivian said.
"She does," You repeated.
"Well, I'm glad," Vivian said.
You nodded, continuing the routine of putting the dishes away.
"So, what's next for you two?"
"Next?" You asked, unsure of what she meant.
"Where do you see the relationship going?" Vivian asked.
"Um," You hadn't thought about it much. "I don't know. We're taking it slow. Just enjoying each other's company."
"But do you think it will be a long-term relationship?" Vivian asked.
"I hope so," You said. "I like her and hope the feeling is mutual."
"Well, if you like her and she likes you, I'm sure it will work out," Vivian said. There was a moment of silence. "I see the way she looks at you. The same way your daddy looked at me."
"You think so?"
"I know so," Vivian smiled. "He always had that twinkle in his eye when he talked about me."
You smiled, finishing the last of the dishes.
"I'm happy for you, baby," Vivian said. "You deserve someone who makes you feel special. Someone who puts a smile on your face."
"I'm glad you approve," You nodded. "She's a good person. I know people have their reservations about her past and..."
"People have their reasons for being judgmental," Vivian said. "You know as well as I do that a lot of the time, people are just scared and misguided."
"Yeah," You nodded.
"Besides, your daddy taught me something important."
"What's that?"
"It doesn't matter where a person came from, just who they are," Vivian answered.
"He taught me the same," You replied.
"I know," Vivian kissed your forehead.
You hugged her, feeling a wave of emotions wash over you.
"Mom," You began.
"Yeah, baby?"
"I miss him," You said.
"So do I," Vivian pulled away. "But, we have to carry on without him."
"You know, Peyton told me how things are going at the laundromat," You began. "If my tuition is too much."
"Baby, you're not giving up school because of me," Vivian said. "The laundromat is fine. We just had a bad few months, is all."
"I'm sure we can figure out a way to increase revenue," You suggested.
"Maybe, but not now," Vivian said. "It'll work itself out. I have a little savings if it comes down to it."
"Well, maybe I can talk to the admissions office," You said. "See about a payment plan or loans."
"We'll figure it out," Vivian reassured. "Don't you worry about it?"
"I'm not worried," You insisted.
"You're a horrible liar," Vivian chuckled. "Now, go check on your girlfriend. It's getting late."
You smiled. "Thanks, mom."
"Anytime," Vivian winked.
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When you returned to your room, Natasha was out of the shower and curled under the covers. Her eyes were closed, and her breathing was deep and even, suggesting she was already asleep.
You smiled, careful not to wake her, as you changed into a pair of pajamas and brushed your teeth. As you crawled into bed beside her, she stirred slightly, cracking one eye open.
"Sorry," you whispered, draping an arm across her waist. "Go back to sleep."
"Everything okay?" She asked.
"Yeah, it's fine," you reassured, resting your head on her shoulder.
"Okay," She closed her eyes.
You pressed a kiss to her jaw, snuggling closer. "Goodnight."
"Goodnight," She replied. "Thanks for bringing me here."
"Of course," You whispered.
You lay in the darkness for a while, listening to her breathing and enjoying the warmth of her body. Gradually, your eyelids grew heavy, and you drifted off to sleep, wrapped in the safety of her arms.
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isak-dot-gov · 1 day ago
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Communication
Pairing: Rhea Ripley x Reader
Word count: 1281
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The argument started over something trivial, something that shouldn’t have been as big as it now was, but with the pent-up tension between you and Rhea, it quickly escalated. You’d always been reserved, used to handling things alone, bottling up emotions because that’s what you’d known. Growing up, you’d always been the odd one out—the youngest by a lot, with siblings much older who never quite understood you or took the time to try. So you learned early on to keep things to yourself, never expecting others to help, never even thinking about opening up. But Rhea was different, and that difference was what you loved and what scared you the most.
As her voice grew louder, frustration clear in her eyes, you tried to hold back, to keep calm and prevent things from going any further. But your deflection only made it worse.
“Why won’t you just talk to me?” Rhea demanded, her hands clenched into fists. “I tell you everything about myself. You know all my issues, my history, the things that haunt me. I’ve trusted you with it all. But you… I feel like I know nothing about what’s going on with you.”
“I don’t know what you want me to say, Rhea.” You mumbled, hugging your arms to your chest. You looked down, feeling like a child again, misunderstood, alone, just waiting for the conversation to be over.
She sighed heavily. “I want you to open up, to let me in. I hate feeling like I’m the only one who’s here. This relationship is supposed to go both ways, you know? But every time I try to be there for you, it’s like… it’s like I hit a wall.”
You could see the pain in her eyes, but you didn’t know what to do. The words were trapped inside you. Rhea was right; you hadn’t opened up about your struggles or your past because, for you, that was just how you lived. It felt as though the world was only safe if you kept certain parts of yourself locked up.
“Look, I don’t need you to fix everything, but I need you to trust me enough to tell me what’s going on with you. I want to be someone you can lean on, not just… some girl you agree with until I stop asking.”
You swallowed, feeling a rush of guilt. That was exactly what you’d been doing. It wasn’t that you didn’t care—far from it. Rhea was the most important person in your life, someone who you wanted desperately to hold on to. But letting her in, truly letting her in, was so foreign, so terrifying.
“Yeah, okay, fine.” The words came out sharper than you intended. “You’re right.”
Her expression fell, replaced by a look of dismay and hurt. “Are you serious right now? You’re just… saying that because you want to end the conversation.”
You had no reply. It was true; agreeing with her was easier than actually engaging with the uncomfortable emotions stirring inside. The silence between you stretched, tense and heavy, until Rhea finally threw up her hands, her voice thick with disappointment.
“You know what? I’m done with this for now. I need space. I can’t… I can’t do this if you don’t want to let me in.”
She grabbed her jacket, her keys, and with one last, lingering look, she left, leaving you alone in the dim quiet of the room.
As the door closed, you felt that familiar pang of loneliness, a pain you knew too well. But this time, it was sharper, different. This was Rhea—someone who *wanted* to know you, who’d reached out to you over and over, only to be shut down. It hurt, knowing you’d made her feel like she didn’t matter to you, when the truth was the exact opposite. Rhea mattered more than anything. And now, she’d walked out because you couldn’t give her that vulnerability, couldn’t open up the way she needed.
You sat in the quiet, trying to ignore the ache in your chest, but it wouldn’t go away. It gnawed at you, until finally, you grabbed your phone. Your fingers hovered over the screen, unsure of what to say, but eventually, you managed to type: Can we talk? When you’re ready. I’ll try to explain. I don’t want to lose you.
The hours ticked by painfully slowly until, finally, a message pinged back: Okay. I’ll be back tonight. Just be honest with me, baby, please.
When Rhea walked back in, her eyes were rimmed with red, her expression softer but guarded. She sat down next to you on the couch, and the silence stretched on as you both grappled for the right words.
Finally, you took a deep breath. “I’m sorry. I know I haven’t been fair to you. You deserve someone who… who can open up, who can talk about things.” You paused, unsure how to continue. “Growing up, I was the youngest by a lot. My siblings were so much older than me, and I was just… the kid in the background. It was like no one ever cared what I was going through, you know? They had their own lives, their own problems, and I was just… there.”
Rhea’s gaze softened as you spoke, listening intently, hanging on every word. You could tell that this was what she had wanted—an opening, a chance to understand you better.
“So, I guess… I got used to it,” you continued, your voice barely a whisper. “To not sharing, to not expecting people to care. It wasn’t anyone’s fault. But somewhere along the way, I stopped asking for help because I didn’t think anyone would really want to listen. I thought keeping things to myself was just… easier.”
Rhea reached over, taking your hand gently in hers, her thumb brushing over your knuckles. “But you’re not alone now,” she said, her voice full of warmth and a quiet strength that made your heart ache. “I’m here, and I want to be here for you. You don’t have to be that lonely kid anymore. But I need you to trust me, darling.”
You nodded, feeling a lump in your throat as the weight of her words settled over you. “I know. I want to try for you. I just… I don’t always know how to talk about what’s going on inside my head. It’s like there’s this barrier, and I don’t know how to break it.”
“Then let me help,” Rhea whispered, leaning closer, her hand tightening around yours. “I’m not asking you to change overnight, but I want you to try. Just… a little bit at a time. Let me be here for you, even if it’s messy or awkward. Let me in, and we’ll figure it out together.”
You looked up, meeting her gaze, and for the first time in a long while, you felt a glimmer of hope. “Thank you,” you murmured, your voice cracking slightly. “For being so patient. I know I haven’t made it easy.”
Rhea shook her head, a small smile tugging at her lips. “Hey, you’re worth it. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t believe in us. Just… promise me that next time, instead of shutting down, you’ll at least try to tell me what’s going on.”
You nodded, and for the first time in what felt like forever, the weight of loneliness that had shadowed you began to lift, replaced by something warmer, something new. And in that moment, with Rhea’s hand in yours, you felt like maybe, just maybe, you could learn to open up, one small step at a time. Because for her—for both of you—this love was worth the effort.
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holmesianlove · 15 hours ago
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Chapter 2 - Biscuits
John sat with his head in his hands groaning low in his throat as Mrs Hudson prepared some tea. She loved her boys. Sherlock, she’d known for a long time now and had taken on the role of a surrogate mother of sorts. That boy’s parents did not come to London enough to check on their son, and his older brother was far too stifling, in her opinion. Sherlock had never had a chance to just breathe for himself. So Martha Hudson had made it her mission to make his life as comfortable as possible within some very strict constraints. She was not the landlady. But she also cared for him deeply.
The day John Watson entered the scene, everything changed for the better. Sherlock’s entire demeanour was different now. The minute she saw them together, she had assumed romance because Sherlock had never seemed to light, so inspired as he did with this boy in the room. She still had hope. One day they’d sort themselves out.
“You know, John,” she began carefully, “Sherlock can be an acquired taste.”
John huffed loudly, lifting his face long enough to give her a dark expression before returning back to his posture of despair.
“Sherlock loves his experiments…”
“I’m green, Mrs Hudson. Green,” he moaned back looking up at her.
“I think it’s a great compliment that he feels comfortable enough with you to try these things. Don’t you?” she tried enthusiastically, placing a cup of tea in front of him and then bring over a plate of biscuits and cupcakes to set on the table, which had, unfortunately been iced with a lovely matching shade of green.
John looked at her horrified.
“Merely an unfortunate coincidence,” she sighed. “Sorry.”
He grumbled something to himself and took a sip of the tea. The two of them sat in silence for a decent length of time but somehow it didn’t feel uncomfortable. “You think this is a sign of friendship?” he finally asked.
Mrs Hudson shrugged and sipped her tea.
“I think it’s convenience. Before me he had no-one to experiment on and now here I am. A live bloody subject,” he grumbled.
“John,” Mrs Hudson said, scolding him. “You’re so much more than that to Sherlock and you know it.”
“I was supposed to have a date!” John cried out.
Mrs Hudson couldn’t help chuckling.
“He always, always ruins my dates.”
“Let’s be honest dear, you don’t enjoy them. You’ve told me that many a time,” she reminded him with a stern look.
John simply sighed. And the silence returned.
“Well,” Mrs Hudson said with a huff. “I know it, even if you don’t. You’re the best thing to happen to that boy. He certainly knows it. And while I can appreciated that being green is not conducive to dating…”
John gave her a look.
“I can’t argue with you there,” she conceded. “But I will tell you this: Sherlock Holmes comes from a wealthy family who own property all over the country.”
John frowned not understanding where that was going.
“The poor boy was being suffocated by his parents and his brother watching over his every move, ever since… well you know about the drugs, at least in theory. I have known him a long time and I offered him the flat. I owe him a favour or two myself,” she said with a stiff smile.
“Your husband,” John said with a nod of understanding. “So?”
“Sherlock doesn’t need a flatmate, John. He has money,” she continued. “He had already been living here on his own for a while before you.”
“He told me he’d just moved in,” John said, sitting straighter, his voice rising slightly, ready for a battle, despite it being with the wrong person.”
“Exactly.”
“You’re saying he allowed me to move in so he had someone to experiment on and I’m paying for the privilege?” he moaned.
She chuckled quietly. “No, John. I’m saying he usually prefers to live alone and doesn’t like people but he offered you the room, after a very short conversation, from what I understand.”
John’s shoulders relaxed. “A very strange and short conversation, yes.”
“And you took it with no argument,” she reminded him.
“Yes, that’s true. I… well I had nothing much else to lose.”
“Indeed,” she said, passing him a cupcake which he took. He started playing with the wrapper, unfolding it as he thought.
When he didn’t say anything she spoke again. “You needed each other, I think,” she said quietly.
“Why does he have to make things so difficult?” John moaned, biting into the cupcake. He looked up at Mrs Hudson with a clear appreciation for her baking and returned to eating it.
“The minute I saw you both together, I knew that you had saved each other’s lives,” she finally admitted.
John would have argued but he had a mouth full of cake so he worked on that as he thought and at least from his point of view she was absolutely right.
Mrs Hudson picked up her tea cup and paused. “Is it true that Mycroft whisked you off and made threats?” She had heard this from Sherlock at some point and always wanted to ask.
John looked at her in surprise. “It most certainly is. He has a lot to answer for,” John scoffed. “But he doesn’t scare me.”
“And that’s why Sherlock trusts you. He knows. You’re his protector now. His family are far quieter because they know you’re here and they trust you too.”
“No.” John frowned. “I doubt that.”
“It’s true, John. You have changed Sherlock. And that sweet boy may struggle to tell you so, but you mean a great deal to him.” She reached out and patted John’s hand that was resting on the table. “He’s like a school boy playing pranks on a crush.”
John spat out the mouthful of tea he had taken in and Mrs Hudson sat back in shock, pulling her hand away and sitting up straighter. “John Hamish Watson!” she scolded.
“I… wait, how do you know my middle name?!” he squeaked.
“Sherlock may be an idiot when it comes to you, but I assure you I am not. My husband worked with the cartel. I have ways,” she sighed, getting up to fetch a cloth.
John sat staring into space. What in God’s name was she even talking about?
“It’s not a crush Mrs Hudson,” John finally said.
“No. You’re right about that,” she agreed as she wiped the table.
John relaxed visibly and sat back in his chair.
“It was merely an analogy,” she said gently.
“Well good. I thought I’d cleared it up with you that first day. We’re not a couple. I’m not gay, and Sherlock Holmes does not have a crush on me that induces him to experiment on me… to stop my dates.” As he finished the thought he hesitated. He hoped that wasn’t the purpose of this in any case.
“You’re absolutely right. He doesn’t have a crush. Sherlock Holmes loves you with his whole being,” Mrs Hudson said, levelling a very firm look at John.
John froze in her gaze, swallowing hard. If he’d been a normal colour it would have drained from his face. And thank goodness he was green so she couldn’t see the blush that then rose on his cheeks, though he knew full well that Martha Hudson could see past the green. She knew everything.
They remained frozen like that for what felt like an uncomfortable age as John processed her words. He felt his entire body respond to them.
“John!” Sherlock called out from the doorway.
John twisted around to see Sherlock standing there, relieved at the interruption but then terrified at the thought he might have heard the conversation.
“How long have you…?”
“John, we have to go!” he rushed on excitedly. “There’s no time for cups of tea!”
“Sherlock Holmes!” Mrs Hudson scolded.
Sherlock’s shoulders dropped and he walked around the table to where she was standing and placed a kiss on her cheek.
“Better,” she said. “Honestly your manners sometimes.” She rolled her eyes.
“John. Come on! Get up. There’s a case.” He reached over and grabbed a biscuit, taking a bite and flashing Mrs Hudson a wink before rushing back out.
John sat for a moment. He had far bigger problems now. He leapt up, ran over to her and gave her a kiss too. “Thank you for the tea!” he cried out, as he chased after Sherlock Holmes.
The colour of his skin had been long forgotten. The game was on!
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chairteeth · 22 hours ago
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Alina Gray Makes A Lot Of Sense
This is a quick one. Alina isn’t one of my focus characters but I do quite like her, and she is in the TouNemu orbit, so I feel like I should bring this to the table, since I still see a lot of people, even ones that call themselves her fans, who don’t really give Alina much thought beyond “she’s crazy” (which… guys I don’t think that’s a good mindset). Plus this perspective is rare to see. I will preface it by saying that I’m drawing from both psychology and personal experiences (my own and others’) for this. My thesis for this: among whatever other things that I’m sure she has, Alina comes off as having Antisocial Personality Disorder to me. Let me explain why.
Let’s start with this example. Both Alina and Ren attempted suicide (in the same way) and both attempts were thwarted by making a wish to Kyubey right before or during the fall. Ren’s every character motivation is tied back to what led her to that ledge and what impact it made on her life in that moment. Alina was completely unfazed by the experience, and only changed as a character because of 1. Karin's intervention after the fact, and 2. the discovery of witches, which she found beautiful and changed her motivation. Plus she almost seemed disappointed by the state of “death” and it’s not something she ever thinks about. That dismissiveness, her general uncaring attitude towards others and herself. Wouldn’t you know, that’s a symptom of ASPD. Not to mention the lack of empathy or guilt, at least most of the time.
Another important point is that Alina isn’t really malicious. She doesn’t think about her actions the way most people do. She’s said herself on multiple occasions that she simply does things, she simply creates things. That’s also a very ASPD mindset. Impulsiveness is another symptom of it, which lines up with Alina’s whims and urges driving her to do things, and the lack of traditional thought put into one’s actions is an ASPD experience I can attest to. Only someone actively in recovery or scheming would consciously put effort into thinking about their actions. The way it works in daily life, however, is extremely reminiscent of the way Alina acts. The only difference is that most people with ASPD tend to mask a bit more than Alina does.
The way she acts is uncomfortably familiar. It feels like looking into a mirror of what could have been, back when I was younger, less self-aware, and I’m sure most others with this disorder would agree. If Alina were older and started manifesting some of her more criminally-aligned urges, I doubt anyone would argue with me that she’d have police called on her. Her status as a genius in a way “protects” her from being viewed as dangerous. Geniuses are allowed to and expected to be eccentric, after all. Back to the impulsivity, certain symptom combinations like the ones Alina blatantly displays are so dangerous because the likelihood of ending up with an extensive criminal record is high to say the absolute least. Which combination? Ah well, one easy example is impulsivity and anhedonia. I’m sure everyone who has paid the slightest bit of attention to Alina is aware of how… easily bored, she seems. That’s not just her being easily bored, that’s another symptom, and it combined with the impulsivity is responsible for the aforementioned criminal record.
On a related note, and trust me I will come back to the topic of anhedonia in Alina, people often clock her as bipolar. She seems manic, very rarely depressed or introspective. That might be right, for all we know, but here are my two cents. The “numb” way she acts when she’s calm, down to her expressions, is textbook low masking ASPD behavior. Generally carefree, doesn’t assign much value to most things the average person would. Annoyed semi-often. In fact, Alina’s main emotion, the one we see the most, is anger. Which happens to be the primary emotion in people with ASPD, since it’s the least reduced one (I theorize this is because of what normally causes the disorder and the purpose of anger as an emotion). It even tends to be described as “explosive” which very much applies to Alina, Alina is either annoyed or explosively angry. Immensely ASPD of her, honestly. However, when she does become introspective, she becomes suicidal quickly, and while being told “your art holds ZERO purpose” is something to be upset by, it’s not “well time to end it all” levels of bad. That is reminiscent of practically every single person with ASPD I’ve ever met, personally, because it’s the one thing that holds Alina’s anhedonia at bay. The one thing that engages her mind, almost absorbing it. Her attitude towards it is extremely telling. She doesn’t care about the gravity of suicide, isn’t thinking about it, or dreading/fearing it or even doing the happy-before-attempting thing really, she’s just thinking about her art because she thinks she’s finally “solved” her problem.
Media often portrays things like what Alina does as evil machinations, manipulation and the like, but most of the time, the truth of the matter is that it’s being done with no thoughts head empty except for The One Thing (or the small handful of things) which holds your anhedonia at bay. Grand plans are also more entertaining. The ASPD way is either the most efficient possible path, or the most entertaining/least boring one. If possible, both. Anhedonia, or “boredom” as we often call it (especially before we know it has a name and that it’s not normal boredom), is often described by doctors as an inability to enjoy oneself and is also common in other disorders like depression. Boredom is poison to us, worse than death. There comes a point when you will do anything just to not be bored, you will do anything to yourself, others, or your environment, just for a chance of that feeling of anhedonia at least receding a little. Hence the behaviors like setting things on fire or animal cruelty often seen in teens and children with the disorder, because they’re following a random impulse and have no (or low) empathy to give them second thoughts. Zero guilt filter. It may work, it may not, but it’s something, an idea, and hopefully it’ll at least be distracting enough while you’re doing it. Anhedonia boredom begins with frustration. Irritability. Restlessness. Must Do Something Now Before It Gets Worse. None of the internal process shows on the face or body language. Sound familiar?
This is why Alina goes between some sort of ecstasy and then immediately frustration/anger or neutrality sometimes, and vice versa. Additionally, in terms of the anger, I’m unsure if this is related to a lack of object permanence, but as soon as the thing actively causing anger goes away, it fades. If it shows up again then the anger will be back. See also: Alina and Felicia. If something more interesting comes in, that will also divert attention most likely, unless you've gotten to the point of fury. The actual strong emotion is more like a spike. So for example, Alina might be really angry at the start of a battle, but unless something is continuously angering her and especially if she’s enjoying the battle (aka entertained), she’ll seemingly not be angry anymore. We see that happen several times.
Lastly, all of Alina’s behavior is just extremely easy to explain with ASPD (and comorbidities), but I should note that like all of the Cluster B disorders, people with ASPD can have a sort of exceptional connection. This one person that they like, that they think about. It can be quite dangerous, because most of the time it can become obsessive and they can easily become possessive over that person. The connection is not necessarily romantic, but the person with ASPD might mistake it as such if they’re on the side of the spectrum that cannot really feel most emotions. Alina’s behavior towards Mifuyu aligns with this a little (these connections can and do fade sometimes), and so does her behavior towards Karin, especially in Arc 2. Exhibit A: Alina will knock Karin out to keep her “safe” and carry her off.
This has been my opinion piece of armchair psychology on Alina Gray. And now back to my regularly scheduled TouNemu…
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raven-at-the-writing-desk · 12 hours ago
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I love interacting w you and your blog and I love the space you created but everytime we interact I feel like I may be overanalyzing my replies too much 😭 but the thing is that I tend to comment on your stuff a lot and I don't want you to feel uncomfortable or smth like that w it 😔 so I try to choose my language carefully so you don't think I see you as a friend (bc we're not even mutuals) but I don't want you to feel like I see you like a famous celebrity up in a pedestal either (??) So I rlly try to keep it as. Yeah you're someone I admire and I like interacting w you but I don't want to cross any boundary OR make u feel like I see you as "twst Jesus" (that old ask did made me laugh a bit tho 😭)
it's like. if we went to the same school I feel like you'd be an upperclassman I admire and I know I can ask you for advice in twst/writing related stuff but I wouldn't go for you to vent about idk more personal stuff (??) if that makes sense 😭😭 idk I just think ur really cool and I want to avoid making u feel uncomfortable bc I think this space you created is really amazing and so is your work 🙂‍↕️
[Referencing this post!]
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Hello ^^ I don't mind the interactions as long as they don't veer into significant parasocial territory. As I've mentioned a few times before (I believe most recently here), I have been on the receiving end of several uncomfortable behaviors including, but not limited to: solicitation of favors ("I wrote this; can you please read and give me your thoughts?"), solicitation for paid work ("Can you please commission me?"), being asked for personal details (such as income, age, cultural identity, etc.), harassment over posts I have stated are "just my opinion", seeking personal validation ("I believe in this. Do you believe in this? I need reassurance that I am correct."), demands to weigh in on fandom situations (both micro and macro), asking for advice on very significant life decisions, seeking direction on how to make personal art ("I made this OC; can you tell me how to make it like yours?"), and sharing deeply personal stories (particularly regarding health) or vents/traumadumps. If you're not engaging in activities like that, you're probably fine!
I want to add that every creator is different so maybe others are okay with certain behaviors that I’m not okay with. You have to get a feel for what each person is and isn’t comfortable with and adjust according to their boundaries.
`abskldgifniyoadfyasb So you're saying... I'd be an upperclassman... a cool upperclassman you look up to and respect... an upperclassman you can go to for advice even if they seem intimidating or "above" you... but also an upperclassman that you'd avoid venting to (maybe because they've already got their plate full of other stuff)... I-Isn't that just L*ona 💀
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rose24207 · 1 day ago
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Best friends to enemies to lovers with lando x tewmmate reader where he loved her all along but he started pushing her away.. angsty with a happy ending please
I love all all of your work!
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Rivals or lovers?
Summary: Lando and his teammate, initially fierce rivals, slowly begin to realize their unspoken attraction for each other, transforming from enemies to lovers as they confront their fears and vulnerabilities.
Genre: Angst, fluff, enemies to lovers
TW: arguing
A/N: thank you for the request! English is not my first language. I hope you enjoy it though! Requests are open and welcome!
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Lando Norris had never been one to back down from a challenge. It was what made him so competitive, what drove him to the top in the world of racing.
But when you became his teammate, it felt like his world had been flipped upside down. There was something about you—your sharp wit, your relentless drive, the way you never let anyone tell you what to do—that grated on his nerves.
Maybe it was the way you challenged him at every turn, or maybe it was the fact that you were so good, so damn good that it made him question his own abilities.
But whatever it was, you two couldn’t stand each other.
From the first moment you were assigned as teammates, the rivalry began. At every team meeting, you shot down his ideas and made snarky comments.
On the track, you never gave him an inch. It was like a game—who could get the best lap times, who could outwit the other. Every win you had felt like a personal affront to Lando’s pride, and every time you looked at him with that confident smirk on your face, he could feel his blood boiling.
And it wasn’t just the racing.
You hated the way he seemed so effortlessly popular, so always at ease, while you had to fight for every ounce of respect. You hated how Lando could turn on his charm and get people to adore him, while you had to constantly prove yourself, fight for every scrap of attention.
The tension between the two of you was so thick you could cut it with a knife. But neither of you was willing to back down. Every insult, every sharp comment, only made the rivalry worse.
You fought like cats and dogs, and yet... neither of you could ever stay mad for long.
It came to a head during a particularly heated post-race debrief. Lando had been in a foul mood all day, frustrated by a series of mistakes that had cost him valuable points.
You, on the other hand, had finished ahead of him again, something that hadn’t sat well with him.
“I’m just saying,” Lando snapped, throwing his hands up as the discussion continued, “if we had followed my strategy, I would’ve had a better chance at a higher finish. But instead, we got stuck in traffic.”
“Oh, spare me,” you shot back, rolling your eyes. “Maybe you should stop blaming everyone else for your mistakes. If you hadn’t been so reckless on that first lap, you might’ve actually made it out ahead of the rest of us.”
Lando’s nostrils flared. “I was doing what I needed to do to make up for lost time. You can’t just play it safe in this sport.”
“And that’s why you’re always so damn reckless,” you retorted, crossing your arms over your chest, glaring at him. “Maybe if you thought things through instead of just reacting, you’d actually have a better shot at the title. But instead, you’re too busy acting like a show-off.”
His jaw clenched, and the room seemed to grow even more tense. Everyone in the room, from the engineers to the team principal, was watching the two of you like it was an episode of a reality show.
The argument seemed to be escalating, neither of you willing to concede an inch.
“I’m getting tired of you undermining everything I do,” Lando bit out, his voice low and dangerous.
“Oh, please,” you spat, your eyes narrowing. “I’m just stating the obvious. You can’t handle competition. Maybe if you focused more on the race and less on your ego, we’d all be better off.”
The words hung in the air, and for a moment, the room fell into an uncomfortable silence. Lando stared at you, his chest rising and falling with every breath.
But underneath the anger, there was something else—something that felt deeper than mere rivalry.
And that’s when it hit him.
He was attracted to you.
The realization shook him. He tried to push it aside, bury it under more anger, more frustration. But it lingered, gnawing at him in the quiet moments when the racing was over and the team was winding down.
Every time you shot him a look, every time you won—every time you were right, he couldn’t help but feel his chest tighten.
He hated it.
Hated the way you got under his skin.
Hated the way your smile made him forget how mad he was at you.
Hated the way he couldn’t stop thinking about you.
But he refused to let it show.
The rivalry, the distance, it was easier to keep it that way. You were his teammate, and he couldn’t afford to let his guard down.
Not now, not when everything was on the line. But it was impossible to ignore the chemistry that simmered just beneath the surface.
And then, one night, everything fell apart.
It was after a particularly tough race where the two of you had both been involved in a collision with another driver, one that had resulted in you both being forced to retire from the race.
The night had been a disaster, and you were both too angry and too tired to deal with each other properly.
You were in the team’s garage, standing by your car, trying to cool off before heading back to the hotel. Lando was pacing nearby, his hands running through his hair, frustration radiating off him in waves.
“You know, I’m getting sick of this,” Lando muttered under his breath, looking over at you. “You always think you’re so much better than me, like I don’t know what I’m doing.”
You snapped back immediately. “You’re the one who keeps making excuses for your mistakes, Lando. Don’t act like I’m the problem.”
It was like a switch flipped.
The tension between you had been building for months, but now it was all coming to a head. Lando strode over to you, his jaw clenched and his fists at his sides.
“You want to know the truth?” Lando’s voice was low, almost a growl. “I don’t hate you. I never have. I’m not angry because you’re better than me or because I’m some childish idiot. I’m angry because I can’t stand how *much* I care about you. You drive me crazy, Y/N. I hate that I want to make this work with you so badly.”
You stood frozen, shock overtaking your features. Your heart raced, but you couldn’t form the words. He was right in front of you, and everything you had tried to ignore, all the feelings you had buried deep down, were suddenly surfacing.
“I’ve been pushing you away because I can’t handle it,” Lando continued, his voice cracking slightly. “I’ve been afraid to admit that I want something more. Something with you.
But I’m not going to do that anymore. I can’t keep pretending.”
You were speechless for a long moment. This wasn’t the Lando you knew—the cocky, confident racer. This was raw, vulnerable Lando. The one who was afraid of losing everything. And in that moment, you realized you’d been afraid of the same thing.
But the truth hit you hard. You didn’t want to push him away anymore either.
You couldn’t.
“I’m not afraid anymore,” you whispered, taking a step toward him. “I’m not afraid to feel something for you.”
Lando’s eyes softened as he took a step closer. And then, with a surge of emotion, he kissed you—not out of competition, but because, despite everything, he had always loved you.
It wasn’t easy, but slowly, things started to change. From enemies to something more, the shift was gradual, but undeniable. No longer was there bitterness, no longer was there rivalry. Instead, there was partnership, trust, and the possibility of something more.
And it was in that moment, on the track and off, that you finally realized: what you had wasn’t just about racing.
It was about you two.
Together.
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bunniesandbeheadings · 27 days ago
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Hey, it’s after midnight on United States election night and I live in the United states so I know there are more important things happening
But please don’t send me sexual anonymous messages. I keep my anonymous messages open, and I admit, I’m not as good as I should be at answering them
There are more important things happening, I agree.
But don’t send me sexual messages. About anything. Period. End of.
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lightblueminecraftorchid · 16 days ago
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My roommate and I had a conversation last night and I keep rotating it in my brain and I Don’t Like It
#blue chatter#they called me a resilient person. and no the fuck I am not. I break down so easily over everything and my body is falling apart on me.#I scream in terror when someone knocks on the door too hard the fuck you mean I’m good at handling adversity#I pointed out that I freak out whenever my grade gets low even a little bit#and they were just sitting there like ‘yeah. and then you pick yourself up again and you do the work.’#and no? not always? oftentimes I give up and don’t try hard enough to fix it and let points go that I could have earned#I barely ever go for extra credit opportunities and I’ve never gone to office hours of my own free will#I can’t even think about talking to a professor about a bad grade without wanting to cry? hello?#but they were insistent that even with those things I am still managing Incredibly Well in class given the circumstances. which made me#uncomfortable. like. I don’t think of myself as resilient At All and I feel a bit like I’m lying or tricking them.#I start shaking like a chihuahua when people are upset and I’m In The Vicinity. even when they’re clearly not upset with me.#I really struggle to advocate for myself ever and even when I do I usually feel guilty and walk it back partway so I don’t cause a fight#and I always get way too emotional for the situation when someone has anything they’re upset with me for. which isn’t fair to them bc I need#to be able to take constructive criticism without taking it as a personal attack on me.#like what the fuck do you mean *resilient*. I can’t even handle seeing a bug flying near my face or getting a B in a class. or being told#that I did something wrong. I’m actually significantly worse at handling adversity than I used to be. high school me was a resilientish kid.#and it’s not like I was ever *good* at handling my emotions. even when it was essential for my safety. I’ve always cried way too easily#even when it actively made the situation I was in Much Worse. even when I knew better.#I would get angry and scared and sad and start shaking and crying and even screaming at my parents when they were mad at me even though#I knew that it would always make my life much worse. and extend an already beleaguered argument.#I brought this up with my therapist and she was like ‘well. anybody would have done that if they were treated like you were’.#which. okay. maybe so. I still feel like I should have been able to handle it and just shut up and move on and not make it worse.#but I am aware that this is probably a cognitive distortion. even so. that definitely doesn’t make me resilient.#I just. I feel gross being called resilient. I’m not. I’m weak and easily scared and unable to handle even small amounts of adversity.#the fuck is my roommate even *seeing*.#the annoying part is that they’re generally an insightful person about other people and I know logically that they’re probably right#which is why I’m not going to complain any more about this to their face bc I should just drop it and not make it a Thing#I talk too much about myself and my problems anyway. not every conversation has to be about my brain worms.#but the discomfort is Distinct and Unpleasant. and now I’m just having to sit with it. and Feel Uncomfortable. and try to accept what was#definitely intended as a compliment. I know it’s draining to talk to someone who doesn’t accept any of the kind things you say about them.
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r0semultiverse · 4 months ago
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I don’t know, me personally, I just think two adults playing pretend & pretending being gross together with full open communication & consent between them is harmless, but maybe that’s just me.
#this is very much a vague post if there ever was one & I’m absolutely vagueing#again; pay attention to the wording & reread if you need to#I think adults playing pretend on its own is harmless as long as everyone involved consents to it#idk how much more simply I can put this tbh but had to unfollow someone over saying certain kinks are harmful#like wow okay if they knew my other blog they’d be saying I’m an absolute freak probably tbh#always seems to be younger folks who have the unhealthy takes about kink but in this case i cant say nothing yknow?#idk this person & they're going through some stuff so i can't really say anything without it sounding tone policing plus parasocial#but just because bad people like a kink doesn't make a kink bad; trauma too doesn't make a kink bad; uncomfortable maybe but not harmful#just like in general yknow? its only as harmful as you make it between yourself & others. Everyone has to communicate or the whole thing#will fall apart. In this case there was absolutely some communication issues which lead to trauma but also just seeing someone agree that#a kink I like is harmful is like idk made me super uncomfortable even if the person is traumatized & going through it still just yeesh#idk seeing someone you follow for a while be like 'yeah this kink you like is bad' when by itself its actually harmless just leaves a#bad taste in your mouth if that makes sense. it just really rubbed me the wrong way so mmm 😕#I hope that person gets all the help & support they need; I'm just uncomfy with the rhetoric of 'certain kink bad' when its just like not#you're traumatized actually is what's going on & that person who hurt you was into said kinks so now in your brain those r bad#absolutely fair way to feel; but adults playing pretend with these specific ones is absolutely not inherently harmful#& pushing that kind of mindset is also coincidentally something right wingers especially want right now & commonly so yeah no#I just bleh it makes me feel gross when other people say stuff akin to that like oh that's like SWERF rhetoric even if unintentional jeez 😓#mine#op
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awnrii · 2 years ago
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i don’t know if anyone will see this but hi it’s me daniel awnrii guy who might have founded nark(?) here to say please don’t tag my nicholas art with stuff like “he’s so sexy” or view my nark stuff as solely sexual 😭😭😭
feel free to post I’m not saying do not ever post about sex ever go ahead but don’t tag it under my posts specifically please!!
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Spoke to someone I don’t know over the phone, 11 dead, 32 injured
#I’m all flowery on here but in real life conversation I am the driest most uncomfortably pragmatic person alive#I’ve been scolded for being so task-focused that I forgot to say hello to the secretaries in high school when I went to do a task#or for having an “attitude” with my parents (often when I was purposefully trying to appear humble with an “idk” voice)#so I’ve amended that by fake laughing at everything and keeping my customer service voice on All The Time#0/10 it works flawlessly but I’ve also made myself into a socially anxious doormat#I’ve been the one to break it to people that their friend died on more than one occasion and I always feel bad about how I do it#I usually just blurt it out because I don’t know how to lead up to it other than saying “maybe you should sit down for this”#it would be wrong if I knew and didn’t tell them#so it has to be me… you know?#I’m so disconnected from any feelings of grief (I’ve never felt bereavement in my life) that it feels wrong for it to be me#because I’m physically incapable of sharing in their pain and emotions; I literally don’t understand it#but sometimes I’ll cry reflexively if I see someone else crying even if I don’t have any actual feelings for them or their situation#I’m more disturbed by knowing of people who are alive going through pain than I am by knowing someone died#because death is natural; suffering isn’t#unless the person is a child or otherwise very young#but if they’re old and lived a fulfilling life I recognize they’ve had a fulfilling life and hope that my life#is as fulfilling as theirs was when I go#I’m not afraid of death; I’d just like to not go before I’m good and ready#When I go away I hope that I WANT to go away; you know?
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xxxvomitboyxxx · 8 months ago
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Unpopular (and possibly silly) opinion but I don’t like that “the bride and her ugly ass groom” meme. Makes me think about being with certain groups of people whose favorite hobby was shit talking their best friends partners simply on the basis of them not being physically attractive enough to them. Like I’m sorry you can’t see beauty in people past conventional beauty standards, get well soon!
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