#I’d probably feel differently
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
having the realization that my friends think i had a bad childhood and that I’ve experienced a lot of abuse in my life was so funny in a weird way. like what? i thought i was telling a silly story.
then immediately the bobs burgers episode about Bob realizing he had a bad childhood while everyone else could already tell 😭
#divine timing#like i knew my family was dysfunctional#but would have never labeled what i went through as abuse#but if someone else said it#I’d probably feel differently#it was eye opening#lots of random ‘haha’ these are funny stories now are really just child abused#family#my post#mine#text post#musing#my text posts#cw child abuse#cw childhood trauma
0 notes
Note
hey uhhhh uhh would you be mad if someone (could be anyone) was to maybe (hypothetically) write something for the holy ghosts au. and by "something" haha. well lets justr say. the whole thang
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE sorry no I would not be mad
#I’d love to see a dozen different ideations of this au#bc what I have planned for how it unfolds is probably so different than how everyone else thinks it will#I WANT TO SHARE MORE ABOUT IT#BUT IM A SUCKER FOR THE REVEALS#like I wanna have people follow it chronically instead of me drawing mini comics out of order because I feel like itttt#which I’ll probably do anyway but stillll ughhhh#ask
69 notes
·
View notes
Text
The spiderverse brainrot only worsens so:
- Rio telling Miles “it’s not your life it’s my life and your fathers and your abuelos who put you in this position that I’d give anything to be in” hits home when ur a first gen student from immigrant parents
- Miles’ teenage frustration being so irritating (looking at it from his parents POV), so understandable (from his own POV) And just so “relatable teenager energy” (from my memories of growing up/watching my siblings grow up)
- Miles’ family being his source of strength since the first movie
- Miles only finding the resolve in Into the Spiderverse to take his leap of faith as Spider-Man after his dad shared a very heartfelt message to him through his dorm door which beautifully sets up Miles telling Rio (in earth 42 but still) that he is strong because of his family, it’s always been family
- the queer symbolism of it all, from Miles’ fear in Across the Spiderverse (“I was scared that if I told you, you wouldn’t love me the same”) to back in Into the Spiderverse when he asks his dad if he really does hate Spider-Man after learning he must become the new Spider-Man
- the hints of the Morales’ Latino/Puerto Rican background !!!
- the Spanish! The Spanglish! Rio’s affection toward Miles! “Que dios te bendinga”, the relatives telling Miles how big he’s gotten, the way they say it, love it all
- Miles having a rough time speaking Spanish not only because he spends less time at home, but also because he has no friends to practice with
- Miles admitting he has no friends in his universe besides Ganke, who doesn’t appear to want to be very involved in Mike’s life as Spider-Man. While understandable, I think, it really does further emphasize just how lonely Miles is since he’s lying to his parents and the one person who does know his secret can’t relate to him
- the loneliness being sadder when you think about how easily Miles talks to people and how he seemed to have been more established at his old school
- and finally, rewatching Into the Spiderverse after seeing Across the Spiderverse and thinking about how Miles was just a kid when this all started
#watching this movie when I’m older than miles is interesting#it gives me a different perspective than I think I’d have if I’d been Miles’ age when it came out#it’s like I can be sympathetic and understanding to how he feels and behaves#but I’ll also internally feel exasperation when he says 15 is ‘basically an adult’#then again to that last point tho being Spider-Man probably would make you grow up faster or at least make you feel pressured to#idk either way#love these movies#spiderverse#across the spiderverse#miles morales
371 notes
·
View notes
Text
We all know Timmy is Wanda’s mama’s boy but we need to keep in mind he’s still Cosmo’s kid too and that Cosmo would love him just as vehemently as Wanda
#fairly oddparents#not that anyone has portrayed him different#certainly not distance he loves Timmy he probably says it the most in the show and in fanon#but still- watching New Wish there felt like there was a disconnect with Cosmos character-like he wasn’t as well defined as he was in OG#that’s in part due to them toning him down from being an idiot plain and simple but I feel like it wasn’t fitted with something else it was#simply taken away#just to say he didn’t have as much of a presence to me in New Wish as Wanda did and I crave spinning Cosmo around in my brain#I want to see Poof being his Dad’s Boy yknow and I want to see cosmo doting and I want to see when he gets like. parental rage for the sake#of his kids#yknow? Yknow? part of him feeling detached in a new wish has translated into him not wanting to get as close to Hazel as he did Timmy-#to try and play it more like godparents are supposed to- just a presence for a couple months#but also because like. he got SO attached to Timmy and he’ll never regret it and he’d never do anything different#but idk. if it were me I wouldn’t have the capacity to go through losing my godkid again after becoming that attached#that’s not even mentioning that they don’t HAVE to be in hazel’s life the same way they were in Timmy’s because Timmy was going through#neglect and Hazel has loving family and friends all around her at all times- her blocks are mental#in that way cosmo and Wanda just have to do the Typical Godparent Job of aiding her- not becoming people she desperately needs in life#which also bleeds into why I think Peri was having such a. difficult time#godparents aren’t supposed to be attached the way his family was to Timmy and that how he learned it#but his first godkid is Not Easy and lends immediately to the issues Timmy was having where he HAS parents he HAS things (though . Timmy#was not rich and would sometimes not be fed… dev’s dad also forgets to feed him but dev is still able to eat you know)#and how he grew up with his parents as godparents and how he’s been taught are conflicting and it’s nature vs doing a good job quoteunquote#I didn’t mean to ramble so damn much in the tags I’m really sorry#told myself if I had more to say I’d write it down and post it later but I must be heard.
34 notes
·
View notes
Text
EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS
I hate doing this, I really wanted to save my commissions for a time in my life after I’d improved the quality of my art to a higher standard but my car is. um. Doing that thing cars do where they cost more than they’re worth. Trying to balance feeding my family and maintaining my ability to work.
Please reach out if you have any questions or if you’d like to see more samples of my work (messy line art + flat color, loose sketches, etc). At the moment I can only accept payments through Venmo and CashApp. Half the price of the commission will be paid up front, with the other half paid upon completion of the piece. I can’t accept NSFW and lack the skillset to draw furry/anthro.
I will draw fandom content and would love to draw your OCs.
If by some chance y’all want to commission a piece of writing instead (or even alongside of), I’d negotiate a price on that as well.
Even if you aren’t able to/don’t want to commission me, thanks for reading this far. I’m sorry to do this but I appreciate your time immensely.
#comms open#commissions#emergency commissions#art commissions#yeah um I honestly have no idea what I’m going to do#really just hoping to keep food on the table right now#bummed because I’ve been holding out on opening comms for years and I hate that this is what’s finally brought me to it#but I really love character design and I love seeing people’s OCs#so if any of you want one drawn#I’d genuinely love to work with you#I just wish the circumstances were different#but either way thank you for your time#I’m tagging this as:#cloud comms#and I’ll probably be reblogging a couple times here and there#so feel free to block the tag if that gets annoying#thanks y’all <3
59 notes
·
View notes
Text
If I’m going to be under an old white man’s rule, it’s gonna be 3 of them and they’re gonna be ancient vampires. Who wants to run away and join the Volturi with me? 🙋🏻♀️😂
#volterra#volturi#the bad place#I’d seriously rather have an ancient vampire who occasionally steals from other covens#murdered his own sister(but did feel hella bad about it)#and probably has at least 1000 different plans to steal his friend’s kids#than a felon who has a bad toupe bad tan and bad ideas#Aro (and Caius and Marcus) would make a better president than him#even Marcus alone while still catatonic and not caring or doing anything would make a better president than him
27 notes
·
View notes
Text
someone called bruce wayne the kim kardashian of the dcu one time and it ruined everyone’s perceptions of what the general public thinks about the waynes forever
#honestly i’d put him at like maybe a bill gates level of fame#like people know his name and know what he does and might recognize his face in public. and maybe know the names of his family members#but i see people act like the wayne’s are like. Famous famous. where people would know all of their names and lives#to me the ideal public perception of the wayne family is people know dick bc ‘omg bruce wayne adopted a kid’#and they know jason bc ‘aw bruce wayne’s kid died :(‘#and all the rest of them blur together#not to mention i don’t feel like any of the adoptions would really be public#like cass probably isn’t even legally a person… but that’s a whole different rabbit hole to go down#but i feel like dick is the only one that i feel like people would really know about the adoption#everyone else probably wouldn’t really have like. A Thing made of it#does any of this make sense ..#i don’t know. post.
375 notes
·
View notes
Text
umineko project / witch hunt / steam release translations of the red text at the end of episode 4
#umineko spoilers#umineko#to me this is proof of confession of the golden witch’s existence validated by the vn itself. at some point sayo put her feelings to paper.#though having ikuko happen to find the bottle is. lazy. to me. as a non i=s believer#anyways about the text itself…probably the most obvious difference between the translations is number 3#if only you had never come back vs. if you don’t come back is a pretty big change… what i’d give to know japanese </3#my best guess is that it could be taken either way since parts of the text are cut off at the borders? otherwise why wld there be this gap.#.me#topic: sayo#also ppl confused at number 5 (sayo very clearly Loves) refer back to the angry rant beatrice did at shannon in ep2 about how love = lust#like i swear any time ur lost abt something relating to sayo u can just say ‘it’s about sex’ and you would be right in some measure
54 notes
·
View notes
Text
Headcanon costume transitions
RHATO v1 starts with Jason on a mission for Talia instead of Batman, wearing robes similar to his Young Justice TV show look. Since they never slept together their relationship remained undefined, so he felt the need to repay her.
His clothes get torn when he drowns, so just as in canon, he borrows some of the clothes Dick left behind with Kori after she saves him. (Dick had the red costume at the time so it's visually similar.)
It isn't until Jason realizes Talia isn't herself anymore and begins working with Batman Inc to stop her, that he's given his own bat-duds. Bruce does this because at that point, he still had high hopes for a full reconciliation and redemption from Jason.
Jason's relative docility during this era is partly due to his guilt over her death, and insecurities about the implications of when Talia became compromised— if it happened while she was his benefactor and if so, at what point.
The Outlaws continue to have various adventures in space and international until Kori goes back to Tamaran and idk, Roy is needed by other people for some other mission.
RHATO v2 begins with an imposter Black Mask questioning why Jason still wears the Hood if he's a Bat now, correctly identifying that his beliefs aren’t as aligned with Batman as the symbol on his chest would suggest, though Black Mask fails to convince Jason to join him.
As in canon, Jason continues to wear the red bat outfit up until he discovers Willis' letters and Bruce gives him that rooftop beatdown for shooting Penguin. During his recovery he assembles his new gear, salvaging parts of his broken helmet to create his mask and stitching together his old LOA coat with the functional parts of his leather jacket to make his vest.
#I’m saying the Black Mask Jason met in Rebirth was an imposter because that makes the timeline less fucky#not too unbelievable the Rebirth Black Mask wore a literal mask instead of having a skull face and his vocabulary was different#further content- I’m solidifying Red Hood as a figure that doesn’t live in the public imagination the way the other Bats do#if you’re aware of him you’re probably law enforcement or involved with organized crime (or a vigilante)#his ‘public perception’ amongst most of them is that he was a crime lord that went crazy who was presumably healed/saved by Batman#and that’s why he works with them now#and additional little headcanon:#Roy found out while taking care of Jason that he was running cold this whole time bc he was anemic and put him on iron supplements#now Jason can actually feel how hot the island is#jason todd#headcanon#cologona gripes about fashion again#the context matters!!! context matters so much!!#(but also I will never accept those ugly ass squishy red sole boots those don’t exist to me)#redhoodinternaldialectical asked me once how I’d write canon and the question has permanently lived in my brain since m#put a pin on it 📌
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
me: i am getting OUT of here! literally NOTHING could make me stay with this organization.
an actual legitimate chance at becoming a superintendent: hey :))
me: 👁️👁️
#it may be the worst superintendent gig in the organization but it could be mine so 🤷🤷#the leadership experience plus being in a different work environment PLUS like 15k more a year…#could be worth it!#it would be a longer commute but like eh#it would be worth it to not feel like death all the time#to actually feel valued and maybe get some quality mentorship?? hell yeah!!!!#there’s a reason most of the people at that location have worked there forever#they’re a great team#and they’ve always treated me very well#so like. i could be a part of that team…#that could be me…#and it would look soooooooo good on my resume#like. not that i’m JUST applying for that reason but#it MUST be said…#i would have to put off paid fieldwork for another year - which is a risky career move#but i’m doing a BUNCH of volunteer stuff and i’d try to do more if possible#and i might be able to swing some more paid stuff with this job - who knows!#if i had that on my resume PLUS a couple seasons of fieldwork i could slide into refuge management sooooooooo easy#:)))))))))#i could probably have it by 35 at the latest if i put my mind to it…#and if i was making THAT much from 35 to 65 i could retire sooooooooo comfy!!!!!!#JUST FUCKING SAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
just found out that Sonya is older than Yaz. need 3-5 business days to process this
#why they wrote and directed Sonya to have the most little sister energy I’ve ever seen if she’s older is anyone’s guess#also the ‘can you cook now??’ line feels odd if Sonya’s older? like yeah she’s 25 by now i should hope so#if she was 18 in s12 as I’d guessed previously that line would make more sense#BUT this does recontextualise a LOT especially for Can You Hear Me#because the dynamic shifts to Sonya being an adult who is so worried for her baby sister (a teenager)#rather than a younger teenager worrying about the older#adds a different dimension to CYHM#what’s also interesting is would Sonya actually be younger by the time Yaz finishes travelling with the Doctor?#by my count Yaz is around 27 by the end of s13. if we could each series as a year real time Sonya would also be 27#(I’m counting three years because that’s the number of new year specials they had)#depending on birthdays Yaz could be older#big sister Sonya is sort of growing on me as a concept because i need her to give the Doctor the shovel talk in the most violent fashion#still feels weird though I’ll need to get used to it#maybe I’ll write some fic of big sister Sonya through the years to retrain my brain#this is probably an argument for making the characters closer to the actors’ ages but y’know I grew up accepting Billie as a 19 year old so#plus I’m a big theatre fan so y’know i have a lot of suspension of disbelief in terms of actor ages#it was Sonya’s behaviour that confused me and made me assume she was younger#this IS putting bonus points in my autistic yaz hc though. bet when her sister misbehaved yaz was praised for being ‘mature’
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
getting people into something you were super obsessed with once but now you only like it casually is so weird bc yey but also pls don’t talk to me about it unless you are already on the same freak level about it as me
#this is about the magnus archives#I still love the podcast soooo much#but I’ve not been really into it for a while now#and I like it in a freakish way#and those people just started#and idk it’s so weird bc they expect me to be so hype about it#but I’m not#idk like I’m happy they like it#but also I can’t have freakish hyper specific fandom talk with them#and so I’m uninterested bc my interest has shifted#idk am I’m making sense???????#it would be different if someone told me they were into wbg or cellar letters then I’d get so hyped bc that’s like MY THING rn#also I always feel so weird when irl people tell me that they started to listen/watch something bc they saw me enjoy it#I feel so exposed 😭😭#it’s different when I’m recommending it but yeah#idk I’m probably thinking myself to death rn with all of this#over nothing to if I might add#the magnus archives#personal
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Since I’m still thinking about it still. I’m trying to figure out what I think the “you belong to me” parallels are communicating. Obviously Farnese’s possessive behavior stems from an extreme fear of abandonment. Serpico is not only the one who protects her physically, but is the only person she’s connected with emotionally in her entire life. Similarly Guts has a “hold over Griffith”. Griffith has intense feelings for him that cause him to act irrationally. He asserts that Guts belongs to him when it goes both ways.
Farnese has also grown up in an environment where one slip up means men, woman and children can end up burned alive. So she deals with it by “becoming the thing she fears”. I think it’s less direct with Griffith- but he fears losing men so he claims they aren’t his friends and still keeps fighting battles.
I think that mentality is present in other characters too. Guts fears abandonment just like them, so he leaves first. A lot of Berserk characters try to take control of their insecurities and fears in ways that are ultimately harmful to themselves and others.
Another little thing that both Farnese and Griffith have is feeling dirty and impure, yet both have animal motifs associated with holiness and purity. A white bird, unicorn and angel wings.
#I should probably add a bunch of disclaimers to this in case people take it the wrong way but I don’t feel like it#If anyone has different thoughts on them I’d be super interested to hear
47 notes
·
View notes
Text
While I hop through all of my art wips, have this ship chart I made for nordegrim!
#these are mostly based on my headcanons so take that into account when looking at this#feel free to make your own version for them if you have different headcanons for them :]#I’d love to see different interpretations of their relationship#for once in my life I actually finished one of these#probably because I’m not trying to make it look fancy#btw the Neil sketch is one of my favourite drawings I made of him#the sketch’s were made for another one that I never finished so why not reuse them here!#I also added the song I associate with them the most here cause music heavily influences my headcanons and other fan stuff i make :]#not too mush though might I add#I put both of the ages they canonically have cause i didn’t know which one to put down#apologies for my somewhat messy handwriting :}#gotta say this cause it is a bit hard to read sometimes#scott pilgrim#anyways I’m gonna stop rambling in the tags now so it doesn’t turn into a paragraph#or a very long one at that#scott pilgrim comic#scott pilgrim takes off#young neil#neil nordegraf#stacey pilgrim#nordegrim
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
it makes me so sad to read the file in lost in nightmares after getting the 3 passwords and seeing all the wesker children because they weren’t called that, they were just called test subjects :(
it’s honestly sad to think that all of them but albert and alex died a horrible death because of the prototype virus too. mutation isn’t exactly painless when you’re not compatible
even in wesker’s file in re5 it says:
“Some took the virus on the recommendation of a friend; others were given the virus as part of their medical treatment; still others had it forcibly administered to them
Albert Wesker was not different. His partner, William Birkin, gave him the experimental virus, and he administered it to himself.”
fuck spencer fuck spencer fuck spencer i can’t do this anymore
#honestly i feel like alex and albert knowing they even existed was a relief to them as well#since they did not know each other growing up given they were all put in different locations to be monitored#like imagine the relief and happiness they felt at knowing they weren’t alone in what they felt#RAHH STOP IT BRAIN IM GONNA CRY ☹️#also albert did not even know about him being a test subject either..#alex got to know because she was close with spencer which also probably hurt her#but wesker must’ve been fuckin devastated to find out his entire existence was literally to be a test subject and servant like#dude i’d be fucking pissed too
67 notes
·
View notes
Text
Woke up from my little power outage nap and couldn’t even manage to eat a full box of macked cheese, grad school will fuck you up for life kids, do it at your own risk.
#my stuff#i don’t like to admit it but i’ve developed a complicated relationship with food#i’m a rational person i know food is important and i feel hunger and when i do i want to eat#but due to the hassle of meal prep and my tight finances i basically only eat one meal a day at the end and use coffee to power through#often until like 6pm#which i know is not good in a general or transition sense#and when i was first starting to fall into this pattern i would eat A TON at night to make up for it#but sometime during my grief in march n april i developed#a psychological difficulty with finishing food. like executive dysfunction and insecurity hoarding combined#and also i sometimes get nauseous midway through eating#or rapidly feel full after being doubled over from hunger cramps and then hungry again an hour later#and above all else it’s annoying bc its subconscious or physiological and it makes it hard to overcome#and even if i was provided 3 meals a day i’d probably struggle to stomach eating that freq in any significant amount#i feel like when my stomach is empty it tries to quasi hibernate until last minute and then goes ravenous#much like me emotionally but that’s a different tag rant#anyways another complication is ‘sleep for dinner’ right when i get home which fucks up my eating AND sleep schedule#all this bullshit when i’m a scientist who has taken metabolism classes and knows my body is getting wrecked from this#so i’m guilty as fuck abt it🙂↕️
15 notes
·
View notes