#I’d kill for him

[mrs-snape5984]

“There is no other love, it's only yours…”

“You're all I want, all I love…” (“You’re all I want” by Cigarettes after Sex)

Yesterday I had a really rough day. It didn’t just feel like one of my regular “PEM-Crash-Days” (PEM = post-exertional malaise = the worsening of symptoms after crossing the boundaries of my condition, due to my disease ME/CFS). The whole day was also coated in a thick layer of sadness and grief…an emotional turmoil, which I could only barely endure. Well…mixing these feelings with another wave of fever and pain, seasoned with the incapacity of tolerating screen time, adding the suffocating sensation of loneliness….et voilà! The perfect recipe for a day in hell was created! 🙄

In order to cope with my emotions, I found myself drowning in my fantasies of teenage Severus and my undeniably self-inserted OC Jules…rewriting one of their short fictional scenes. Again, Severus was tormented by his own insecurities, getting carried away in self-loathing. I don’t know, how many times I’ve already written scenes like these. Jules encourages Severus to stay resilient, praising him for all those traits, which he only identifies as his flaws and weaknesses. But for Jules, there’s so much beauty, so much strength in his imperfections. She’s making his blemishes look like the most loveable attributes of Severus’ personality with her passionate speech.

When I wrote this little scene, I recognised something: I already knew, that I’m identifying myself a lot with Severus…but Jules’ words of encouragement and consolation to her beloved friend Sevy…well, they’re are also things, I would crave to hear for myself (how pathetic, huh?!). But since I’m struggling immensely with the acceptance of my own insecurities and fears, I’m not able to reassure myself of my own worth. It’s just not on the table for me!

So…I’ll just keep on telling Severus in my stories, that he deserves nothing less than the whole world…and that Jules will always try to make him feel loved and cared for. She will never stop to compare his flaws with her own weaknesses by explaining to him, how perfectly they’re matching. Jules will never grow tired to assure Severus, that his cynicism is the perfect complement to her sense of sarcasm. For the Slytherin girl, it's a clear sign for Sevy’s extremely high intellect, which is also something, that she adores about her friend. In Jules’ eyes, his bitterness mirrors a form of hypersensitivity, a characteristic, which she knows so well from herself. That’s why she’s acting so empathetically with Severus, whenever he’s suffering with his life…and Jules is convinced, that sharing those feelings will make them less unbearable! The girl even praises Severus’ stubbornness by telling him, that she’s enjoying every good and intelligent argument with him to clear the air between them. All together, Severus’ imperfections are pure perfection to the hopelessly devoted (and obviously love-struck 😅) girl.

I’m aware of the overdramatic nature and the unnecessary fluffiness of my short stories, but that’s the reason, why I’m writing them for my eyes only. It’s my form of a coping mechanism…the only way of allowing myself some kind of self-assurance and comfort…through Severus!

Some time ago, I found an artist here on tumblr, who made me fall head over heels for her tender style of drawing my beloved dungeon bat. Especially an artwork of her interpretation of the younger Snape made my heart ache with longing for him, so of course, I just had to commission @pssherri for an illustration of Severus and my OC Jules in their teenage years.

Sonja, you did an amazing job with this project and I can’t express, how grateful I am for your kindness and the dedication to your profession! It was a pleasure to cooperate with you on this idea of mine and I hope, you’ll be open to work on more of my requests some day. Thank you for everything, my dear!

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

[nathaaaan]

i got an ipad :3

imma write villain/reformed villain/teacher deku, I must.

[gatorgrumbles]

I love Sasaki more than anything. His design is my favorite ever so I had to draw him

[lucaswarmhotchocolate]

Me abt Stiles Stilinski !!

[valkyrie-chemist]

my brother messaged me the other day being like “can i send you tiktoks with Harry Potter slander?” and I was like “duh yes go for it” thinking it would be critiques that jk rowling desperately needs and deserves only to receive Harry Potter THE CHARACTER slander and the way I backtracked out of that shit so fast…

Like come for the books all you want but don’t you dare go near that boy

[8eb]

When u and astarion are having your Super Romantic and Sweet final love scene and he says “I didn’t really like u at first :/“ ok. thanks

[jasontoddiefor]

the character bingo posts have given me a great amount of joy in the last few minutes so i would like to add to it with

wen ning?

I love Wen Ning SO MUCH absolute king. Wish the fandom would make him more unhinged, actually. He deserves all the body horror fanfics, my little baby boy

[just-a-queer-dramatic-disaster]

I’m sorry but I love Nick Bottom. yes, he’s a slimy little thief, a hater, he’s sexist little cunt, of course. But you can’t ask me not to relate to him. the writer of little if not zero talents who doesn’t believe himself, his truths and ideas enough o the big stage of life and spectacle. You can’t ask me not to love the man who is truly only trying to look out for his pregnant wife who he wishes to treat like a princess but cannot afford. The brother who carried little Nigel on his back as he took care of him, himself a child, and guided him and tried to make always feel enough and kept the bad parts, the debts, the fights, as far away from him as he physically could. Let my guy scream. I know he was rude to Nigel and that it didn’t make any sense to him but it does to us. Because how could Nigel know what he was being shielded from if Nick did it so good with so much constancy?

I love the guy

[adaki]

Wanted to try drawing something a little ornate, I think they’d make each other worse

[r1dd1kulus]

he can throw me around any day.

ajax manhandling 😍

Okay: the 5 times Ajax manhandled Y/n in a week

Ajax smiled at Y/n as she walked in, his hands instantly reaching out and pulling her into his lap with a small yelp coming from her as one of his hand wrapped around her waist and the other sat on her thigh as he leaned back on the bench continuing what he was saying to Xavier.

"We'll totally win this year man." Xavier smirking as he showed Ajax his plan, Ajax nodding along as he dragged Y/n around his hand gripping her thigh tightly as he leaned over her chest to look at the page. Y/n rolling her eyes as she moved his head ready to get up, Ajax grinning at her as he let her go with a little wave pulling her hand so she was forced to dip down allowing him to kiss her, one of his snakes kissing her forehead quickly then disappearing under his beanie.

Y/n stood with Enid by the boat both going over the plans for the poe cup as Yoko kept painting, Y/n moving to point something out when she felt arms around her and suddenly faced the sky as Ajax laughed spinning her around as she squealed hitting his arms as he stopped spinning. Y/n looking over her shoulder at him waiting to he put down as he smiled childishly at her not putting her down until Enid hit his arm.

"Stop stealing my strategist, also she's not a ragdoll." Ajax grinned widely at Enid as he placed Y/n down kissing her cheek as he pulled her into his chest his arms tight around her waist as he leaned on her shoulder.

"She loves it." Y/n rolled her eyes hitting his arm, kissing him on the cheek as he let her go and shooing him away with a soft smile. Going back to her strategy explaining what each contraption she added did and when to use them so Enid could win the poe cup.

Ajax hid behind the tree as Xavier grabbed the flag, jumping out and grabbing Y/n around her waist making her shout out in fear as he held her back from getting to the flag, Xavier nodding at him as he pulled the flag free. Y/n smacking his arms and cursing at him as finally let her go running after Xavier as Y/n got off the floor scrambling for the flag as she glared at Ajax, the latter blowing her a cheeky kiss as she ran after them. Y/n smirking as they rowed past them blowing Ajax a kiss as Xavier had a mini tantrum.

Ajax climbed out the water soaked through as Enid and Y/n cheered at their victory, Xavier pulling Ajax to the tent so they could get out their soaked clothes. Coming out the tent Ajax walked over to Y/n as she grinned at him opening her arms for a kiss, Ajax ducking at the last minute throwing Y/n over his shoulder his hands roughly holding her thighs in her catsuit as he grinned at her team.

"Congrats guys." Ajax said before turning Y/n hitting his back as she moved holding herself up and staring at Enid as she swore at Ajax.

"Put me down!" Y/n demanded Ajax shaking his head with a wide grin and a bounce in his step making Y/n lose her balance and huff out as she dropped her upper body accepting her kidnapping as Ajax happily kept walking.

"You can't keep throwing me about whenever you want." Y/n huffed out as she stared at Ajax, a lazy grin on his face as he stared up at her, Y/n moving closer with an annoyed expression pointing her finger at him.

"Seriously i'm not-" Ajax reached out grabbing her thighs throwing her onto the bed as he hovered over her with a cheeky grin, Y/n huffing as she hit his chest.

"You love it." Ajax whispered leaning down to kiss her as he moved to grip her thighs dragging her closer and wrapping them around his waist dropping one hand to hold him up by her head as he dragged her about. Y/n laughing as he stood up dragging her with him as she held onto his neck his hands grabbing her tightly by the thighs as he kissed her neck. "Still want me to stop throwing you around?" Ajax teased Y/n as he bounced her upwards holding her higher against him so she could look down at him with a grin. Y/n rolling her eyes at him before Ajax held one arm under her thighs taking her hand off his neck and pushing it to his other as he pushed her upwards so she flopped over his shoulder Y/n making a noise as she stared at the floor, Ajax laughing.

"I stink of the lake lets go shower." Y/n rolled her eyes smacking his butt as he held her thighs tightly turning his head to nip as her waist making her squeal.

[bruciemilf]

Zack Snyder is the Elon Musk of DC I believe

[moodyvoid]

Can I come over and stare at you like this

[joanofarc]

[stanmcstanistanstanding]

He’s a good person, only wants to feed people good food, can cure diseases with how good it is, and is Italian. I’m ride or die for this man

Hottest JoJo Character Bracket - Match 1-7

[anniilaugh]

If I’ve crawled out of a 6y long art block hell for zosan you know it’s hitting me Real

[sixoclocker]

do yall ever think about how starlo says “but nah.” in the vengeance route and connect it to “nah. i’d win.”