#I’d kill for him

[screw-the-government]

To avoid working on stuff for class today I’ve made yet another page dedicated to Gunpowder Tim.

I think about this moon destroying twink too much to be healthy

[mrs-snape5984]

“There is no other love, it's only yours…”

“You're all I want, all I love…” (“You’re all I want” by Cigarettes after Sex)

Yesterday I had a really rough day. It didn’t just feel like one of my regular “PEM-Crash-Days” (PEM = post-exertional malaise = the worsening of symptoms after crossing the boundaries of my condition, due to my disease ME/CFS). The whole day was also coated in a thick layer of sadness and grief…an emotional turmoil, which I could only barely endure. Well…mixing these feelings with another wave of fever and pain, seasoned with the incapacity of tolerating screen time, adding the suffocating sensation of loneliness….et voilà! The perfect recipe for a day in hell was created! 🙄

In order to cope with my emotions, I found myself drowning in my fantasies of teenage Severus and my undeniably self-inserted OC Jules…rewriting one of their short fictional scenes. Again, Severus was tormented by his own insecurities, getting carried away in self-loathing. I don’t know, how many times I’ve already written scenes like these. Jules encourages Severus to stay resilient, praising him for all those traits, which he only identifies as his flaws and weaknesses. But for Jules, there’s so much beauty, so much strength in his imperfections. She’s making his blemishes look like the most loveable attributes of Severus’ personality with her passionate speech.

When I wrote this little scene, I recognised something: I already knew, that I’m identifying myself a lot with Severus…but Jules’ words of encouragement and consolation to her beloved friend Sevy…well, they’re are also things, I would crave to hear for myself (how pathetic, huh?!). But since I’m struggling immensely with the acceptance of my own insecurities and fears, I’m not able to reassure myself of my own worth. It’s just not on the table for me!

So…I’ll just keep on telling Severus in my stories, that he deserves nothing less than the whole world…and that Jules will always try to make him feel loved and cared for. She will never stop to compare his flaws with her own weaknesses by explaining to him, how perfectly they’re matching. Jules will never grow tired to assure Severus, that his cynicism is the perfect complement to her sense of sarcasm. For the Slytherin girl, it's a clear sign for Sevy’s extremely high intellect, which is also something, that she adores about her friend. In Jules’ eyes, his bitterness mirrors a form of hypersensitivity, a characteristic, which she knows so well from herself. That’s why she’s acting so empathetically with Severus, whenever he’s suffering with his life…and Jules is convinced, that sharing those feelings will make them less unbearable! The girl even praises Severus’ stubbornness by telling him, that she’s enjoying every good and intelligent argument with him to clear the air between them. All together, Severus’ imperfections are pure perfection to the hopelessly devoted (and obviously love-struck 😅) girl.

I’m aware of the overdramatic nature and the unnecessary fluffiness of my short stories, but that’s the reason, why I’m writing them for my eyes only. It’s my form of a coping mechanism…the only way of allowing myself some kind of self-assurance and comfort…through Severus!

Some time ago, I found an artist here on tumblr, who made me fall head over heels for her tender style of drawing my beloved dungeon bat. Especially an artwork of her interpretation of the younger Snape made my heart ache with longing for him, so of course, I just had to commission @pssherri for an illustration of Severus and my OC Jules in their teenage years.

Sonja, you did an amazing job with this project and I can’t express, how grateful I am for your kindness and the dedication to your profession! It was a pleasure to cooperate with you on this idea of mine and I hope, you’ll be open to work on more of my requests some day. Thank you for everything, my dear!

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

[just-a-queer-dramatic-disaster]

I’m sorry but I love Nick Bottom. Yes, he’s a slimy little thief, a hater, he’s a sexist little cunt, of course. Yet, you can’t ask me not to relate to him. the writer of little if not zero talent who just knows his ideas aren't enough for the big stage of life and spectacle. You can’t ask me not to love the husband who'll never stop trying, to search for new ways, to bring joy to the wife he so profoundly adores. The brother who carried little Nigel on his back as he took care of him, himself a child, and guided him, trying to make him feel good, enough, kept the bad parts -the debts, the fights, the crimes- as far away from him as he physically couldn't. When he finally snapped, when the pressure became unbearable and the world was against him, Nick let the facade fall and broke down. Nigel didn't know how to react. It didn’t make any sense to him, but it does to us. Because how could Nigel know what he was being shielded from if Nick did it so well with so much constancy?

A half decent man who is really, really trying.

I love the fucking guy.

[nathaaaan]

i got an ipad :3

imma write villain/reformed villain/teacher deku, I must.

[gatorgrumbles]

I love Sasaki more than anything. His design is my favorite ever so I had to draw him

[lucaswarmhotchocolate]

Me abt Stiles Stilinski !!

[valkyrie-chemist]

my brother messaged me the other day being like “can i send you tiktoks with Harry Potter slander?” and I was like “duh yes go for it” thinking it would be critiques that jk rowling desperately needs and deserves only to receive Harry Potter THE CHARACTER slander and the way I backtracked out of that shit so fast…

Like come for the books all you want but don’t you dare go near that boy

[8eb]

When u and astarion are having your Super Romantic and Sweet final love scene and he says “I didn’t really like u at first :/“ ok. thanks

[jasontoddiefor]

the character bingo posts have given me a great amount of joy in the last few minutes so i would like to add to it with

wen ning?

I love Wen Ning SO MUCH absolute king. Wish the fandom would make him more unhinged, actually. He deserves all the body horror fanfics, my little baby boy

[mc-blizzle]

He’s just a guy and I love him so much

Another picture penguin boy🐧🐧🐧 hopefully the lines don't make it look too bad

[mothmothwoth]

Found myself strangely obsessed with Skizz and Lizzie… there are apparently brain chemicals in there

[adaki]

Wanted to try drawing something a little ornate, I think they’d make each other worse

[vodkassassin]

done with the daily SQH doodle lol

[bruciemilf]

Zack Snyder is the Elon Musk of DC I believe

[stanmcstanistanstanding]

He’s a good person, only wants to feed people good food, can cure diseases with how good it is, and is Italian. I’m ride or die for this man

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[ohposhers]

Sonic 3 ending spoilers