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Gojo x reader
WC: 795
Summary: medieval au, soldier Gojo is just following orders, it's not his fault you get caught up in them.
A/N: I genuinely don't know why I started writing this, but I'm not mad that I was convinced to finish it. I'm considering a part two as it was originally supposed to be a reincarnation au, but if I did that it probably wouldn't be for a while. Also unintentionally implied fem reader
Part 2
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His eyes seem less intense when they are bathed in the warm light of sunset,
His laugh carries further when taken away by the gentle breeze,
And the expanse of the field makes me almost believe that if I can run fast enough, I may escape his loving arms, although every other time I thought that has ended in my being tackled into the soft grass.
Far from our homes, I can believe his stories, the words he weaves into fantastical tales, all of which feature characters comparable to us, although he denies that there's any correlation between our love and the love of those in his stories.
In a perfect world, his narrative would be true.
In a perfect world, he would not have to sneak away from his guard duty and I would not feign sickness to have even a few seconds of his time.
In a perfect world, we would not have been born into enemy kingdoms. He would call me his and I would do the same. He would gift me his surname as a pledge of devout loyalty and as a promise of protection.
But the best he can give me is fairytales. As vibrant and colourful as the centuries of spilled blood that keep us apart.
I dare not fall asleep in his arms, although his steady heartbeat lulls me. I dare not dream that his stories come true. I dare not hope that in another life, he could be mine.
âOne day,â he spoke, his voice a mere murmur in the ambiance of the forest, âone day I will be strong enough to love you the way you deserve to be loved. I will protect you with everything that I am, you will be warmed by the fire in our hearth that I built myself and I will never let you sleep alone.â
And just once, I dare to dream.
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I am ripped from my dreams by screaming, by men shouting and alarm bells echoing through the night. My town is fully ablaze, the light of the fire illuminating the destruction that's been done, it highlights the haphazardly donned armor on our severely underprepared soldiers,
if you can even call them that.
Farmers, doctors, and boys, who speak about the honor of protecting your home, barely old enough to comprehend what honor means.
And now their blood waters the daisies on the side of the road.
I tried so hard to move, to do something, to help in some way, but between the heat of the fire, the screaming toddler, and the shock in my body, I thought only of how much the daises needed watering in this drought.
In my daze, I barely noticed the pain in my side as a soldier's blade caught me.
I pulled my hand away from my side as the soldier who stabbed me ran. and as I rip my eyes away from my own blood, I find myself staring into the eyes of the only man I have loved.
His eyes seem more intense when they are bathed in the warm light of blazing inferno,
His voice is weak when compared to the cacophony around us.
And the expanse between us makes me almost believe that if I can run fast enough, I may escape his arms, although this time I may end up being tackled into the solid cobblestone.
The more he spoke, the less I heard. His panicked voice faded fast along with my vision.
I soon found myself plummeting to the ground, I would have hit it had his arms not surrounded me as they had done so many times before.
As I looked at him he stilled like a deer caught unaware. His eyes wide and hands shaking as he kneeled next to me. His usual tenacity and unbridled confidence seemed to evaporate under the heat of my gaze.
And for once this loquacious storyteller was at a loss for words.
It was only when my breaths started coming in short, frequent, gasps did he seem to realize the severity of this situation. He only regained his voice when I lost mine.
Over and over again he repeated the same things, apologies and regrets pouring out of his lips faster than the blood poured from my wound.
And through the chaos and clamor, I heard his voice clear as the night sky we had met under all those years ago, âIn some lifetime, I will be strong enough to love you the way you deserve to be loved. I will protect you with everything that I am, you will be warmed by a fire made not for destruction but protection and I will never let you sleep alone.â
And for a second time, I dared to dream.
#jjk#jjk angst#gojo satoru#gojo x reader#gojo x reader angst#jjk x reader#gojo x you#medieval au#I would have gotten this out sooner#but ive been too busy reading cod fanfics#it's honestly becoming a bit of a problem#anyways#looking back on the things I've written for this boy#you'd think I hate him#I really should give him a happy ending for once#anyway#hope you enjoy
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It began as nothing more than idle curiosity.
Whispers of a wanderer, who seemed to appear wherever monsters were slain.
Tales passed from traveler to traveler, trickling into villages like a strange current. At first, the stories were nothing more than entertainmentâa young soul battling hordes of beasts sounded like the stuff of fairy tales, and the people, insulated in their small hamlets, hardly gave it a second thought.
âTheyâve been seen by the dead forests near the mountains,â a young woman said one day, her voice a little too loud, a little too eager. âThey say the bodies of monsters are strewn across the path they walks.â
Another woman chimed in, her voice hushed but with the kind of excitement that comes from having something new to share. âIâve heard the same. A merchant passed through not long ago and claimed he saw the aftermathâbodies mangled, monsters torn apart, and not a soul in sight but one person who merely walked away.â
An old man sitting nearby scoffed, whittling a piece of wood as he listened to their chatter. âAnd the merchant just happened to be wandering through such dangerous lands, did he? More likely, heâs spinning stories to lighten your pockets.â
The first woman bristled. âIt was near one of the main roads to Castle Town! You know as well as anyone how bad itâs gotten out there, what with all the rising monster attacks!â
The old man spat onto the ground. âSo weâre meant to believe a single person has been wandering the wilderness, killing monsters for no reason? at all? Appeared out of nowhere, slaying hundreds, then vanishing to appear somewhere else? What next? Will the gods themselves descending to pat them on the back?â
A few of the villagers glanced toward the argument, but quickly averted their eyes, pretending not to listen. They didnât want to get involved. Not in this. The rumors had been growing more persistent lately, and with them, something darkerâan unease, like a shadow creeping closer.
Despite the arguments to the contrary, the stories refused to fade. In fact, they spreadâspreading like wildfire from one village to the next, whispered by travelers passing through, by farmers returning from the markets.
At first, it was always the sameâa wanderer with a sword, fighting monsters. But over time, the stories shifted slightly. The monsters were no longer the only ones falling to the mysterious wandererâs blade.
The rumors became darker.
Now, there were whispers of men slain, bandits cut down as mercilessly as the beasts. Some even claimed it wasnât simply bandits, but ordinary travelers who had crossed their path. And the wandererâalways just one person, faceless, namelessânever stepped foot in the villages. They never appeared in the markets or by the wells. No one had ever actually seen them properly, or at least, no one wanted to admit they had.
âSuch a personâs never come through here,â the villagers would say when a traveler asked. âNot once.â
And yet⊠as the stories persisted, as the fear crept into their voices, some began to contradict themselves. âIâve seen them,â one of their own might exclaim in a moment of nervous excitement. âIt was at the edge of the village, just for a second. They passed by the old road near the woods.â
But no one wanted to admit the dread that twisted in their stomachs. No one wanted to acknowledge the silent fear that settled in their bones whenever they heard of this wanderer. So they waved it off, forcing laughter, pretending the tale of the slayer didnât chill them to the core.
âBah, you saw nothing,â the old man would scoff again, though this time, his hands shook as he whittled. âItâs just travelers talking. You lot are too easily swayed by gossip.â
But even he couldnât explain why the stories never seemed to stop. Why, even in the most remote corners of the land, the whispers were the same. Villages miles apart, separated by rivers and mountains, somehow all spoke of the same person.
A wanderer no one had ever truly seen upclose.
But one they all slowly grew to fear.
And they feared most of all that one day, he would come to their homes. They feared what would happen if that person came too closeâif the stories, after all this time, were not just storiesâŠ
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âŠTheir stomach growled, sharp and insistent, echoing louder than the wind that howled through the mountains. They gone too long without food, too long without proper rest.
For days, weeks, perhaps, They had survived on scraps found in the wild, gnawing on whatever edible plants they could find, but it wasnât enough. (There was never enough in these poisoned lands.) Not anymore.
Their supplies had run dry days ago. The bag slung across their back was light, too light for any sensible traveler. Their lips were dry, their limbs heavy, but they kept walking. Always walking. Always wandering towards their next location,
The nearby village was close now, maybe half a day away.
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âŠthey didnât want to go there.
Didnât want to face people, to hear the loudness, the gossip, the looks.
They never did, not anymore. It was easier staying in the wilderness, always on the move. But hunger gnawed at them, dragging them toward the edges of civilization.
The monsters had been thinning out in this area, their numbers dwindling after they swept through the mountains. The monsters would inevitably return. They always did.
They didnât care about any of that, their mind was set on one thing: food.
(Oh⊠to be back in the bountiful fields and forests of other times. To gaze into the sea of green and know plentiful food and fresh clean water was bountiful and untainted.)
Their steps quickened as they neared the village. They hated this part, being around people. So they would get what they needed and leave. That was all.
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âToday, a wanderer is walking towards town from the north side! Guardsman says itâs a single person in a cloak, carrying a sword on their back.â
The words spread through the village like wildfire. The people had heard that the guard had seen him from a distance, a lone figure making their way toward them from the mountains. Conversations hushed, children were pulled back into their homes.
A few curious villagers lingered by the entrance, pretending to go about their day but keeping a close eye on the road. When the person arrived, they noticed their clothes were heavily travel-worn and stained with dark splotches, their face obscured by a cloak, but the sword strapped to their back gleamed in the sunlight.
No one wanted to be the first to approach.
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They walked with purpose, ignoring the stares, the muttered suspicions. They made their way to the villageâs small market, looking for food, something to ease the gnawing hunger in their gut.
Their footsteps were heavy, each one dragging them closer to their destination. The familiar pull of hunger clawed at their insides, twisting their stomach in knots.
As much as they wanted to avoid people, to slip by unnoticed, the ache in their belly wouldnât let them.
The village was small, unremarkable, the kind they preferred.
They had kept their head down as they entered, walking toward the market stalls that lined the dusty road. No one spoke to the visitor as they passed, but no doubt the visitor could feel the eyes on their back, the whispers barely contained as the visitor passed.
âDo you think thatâs the one who killed those travelers near the mountains?â
âI canât tellâŠarenât they a bit too young looking?.â
âI can certainly tell you that sword doesnât look like itâs simply for show. Itâs stained red at the handle.â
The visitor stopped in front of a stall selling bread and dried meats. The man behind the counter was older, his skin weathered from years in the sun.
He barely looked up at first, busy wrapping a loaf of bread for another customer. When he did, he seemed unimpressed by the cloaked figure standing before him, just another traveler passing through.
But then they reached up, pulling back their hood.
The old man froze, his hands stilling over the goods on his counter. The boyâs face was youngâfar too young (as young as his own grandchildâŠ) to be traveling alone with a mere sword on his back.
For a moment, the man blinked, unsure if he was seeing things correctly. He opened his mouth to speak, to ask where the boyâs parents were, but the words never came out.
It wasnât the youth that gave him pause. It was the look in the boyâs eyes.
Dark, heavy, burdened by something much older than his years. The kind of look you only saw in soldiers or those who had lived through nightmares. A look that shouldnât belong to someone so young.
The old man swallowed hard, choosing his next words carefully. âWhat⊠what can I get for you?â
The boyâs eyes flickered to the food laid out on the stall. âBread,â he said, his voice quiet, soft, but firm. âAnd dried meat, if you have any.â
The old man nodded slowly, still taken aback. Such a young boy.
He slowly reached for a loaf and a strip of dried meat, wrapping them in cloth before handing them over.
The boy reached into his pocket, pulling out a few rupees and placing them on the counter.
His hand was steady, but the old man noticed how thin his fingers were, how the veins stood out beneath his pale skin.
âAre⊠youâre traveling alone?â the old man asked, unable to help himself.
The boy looked up, his gaze meeting the old manâs for the briefest moment before dropping back to the food in his hands. âYes.â
The old man hesitated, wanting to ask more, but something stopped him.
That lookâhe couldnât shake it. He didnât know what the boy had seen, what he had been through, but it was clear enough that the boy didnât want to talk about it. Not to a complete stranger. So he let it go.
âWell,â the old man said, clearing his throat, âsafe travels, then.â
The boy gave a nod, pulling his hood back up before turning and walking away, the whispers behind him growing louder as he moved through the market.
As he continued down the road, passing more stalls, a man suddenly stepped forward, blocking his path. He was broad shouldered and rough around the edges, from his state of dress, he was a guard in this village.
His expression hardened with suspicion. The villagers nearby quieted, turning their attention to the scene unfolding before them.
âYou there,â the man called out, his voice gruff. His eyes narrowed, scanning the cloaked figure up and down. âYou the wanderer everyoneâs been talking about? The one slaying beasts⊠and men around these parts?â
The boy didnât stop right away, his pace slowing only as he came to a halt just a few feet from the man. His face was half-shadowed beneath the hood heâd just pulled back up, and the weight of his gaze was unreadable as it fell on the man blocking his path.
He tilted his head slightly, as though considering the question. His voice, when he spoke, was soft. Unconcerned. âAm I who youâre looking for?â
The manâs scowl deepened. âDonât play coy, boy. People talk of a wanderer who has been leaving bodies behind wherever he walks.â
The young boy blinked, slowly, his expression unreadable beneath the quiet calm that seemed to settle around him like a heavy fog.
He didnât flinch, didnât bristle at the accusation. He merely stared at the man for a moment, his voice soft when he spoke again. âAnd if I am?â
A murmur rippled through the crowd that had begun to gather, villagers shifting uncomfortably as they watched the exchange. The man before him, however, remained rigid.
âThen Iâve heard well about you. The rumors going around that youâve killed not just monsters, but people. Merchants and travelers. Is that true?â
The boy stopped, his gaze lifting slowly from beneath his hood to meet the manâs eyes. He didnât answer right away, but the air around him seemed to thicken, the tension palpable. More villagers gathered around, drawn in by the confrontation.
âYouâŠknew someone I killed, then?â the boy asked, his voice quiet but steady.
The man took a step forward, jabbing a finger in Hyruleâs direction. âThey say you killed a merchant not far from here.â
Hyrule blinked slowly, his face impassive as he absorbed the manâs words. He didnât flinch at the accusation, nor did he show any sign of fear or guilt. His voice, when he spoke, was soft and steady. âWas heâŠsomeone worth recalling?â
The manâs nostrils flared. âDonât play dumb with me!â he snapped. âHe was a good man. A friend of mine, and I want answers, boy.â
âI killed many.â The boy replied, no change to his soft tone, âSo perhaps I am who you seek.â
âSo you admit you killed him!â The man exclaimed, âWhy? What reason could you possibly have to murder an innocent man?â
âI have no reason to kill an innocent man.â He answered.
The boy remained quiet for a moment, his gaze drifting past the man, as if lost in thought. Then, with the same quiet calm, he spoke again. âHe wasnât innocent.â
The man took a moment to register what he said, eyes widening in shock. ââŠWhat?â His face turned red with anger.
âWhat do you mean he wasnât innocent?!? He has done so much and Iâve known him for years-â
âHe raped a woman.â
That once sentence silenced the entire area.
Many paling, several covering their mouths in horror.
The manâs red face immediately turning white as he registered what was said.
âHe dared commit such an atrocity against a woman. Took from her what wasnât his to take. I killed him for it.â
The boyâs eyes slowly returned to the manâs, his voice still soft, still unwavering.
âWould you still call him innocent now?â
The crowd gasped, whispers rippling through the gathered villagers. The manâs face twisted in disbelief, shaking his head violently. âNo⊠no, youâre lying!â he shouted, his voice rising. âHe wouldnât do something like that! He was a good man!â
The boyâs gaze didnât waver, the weight of his words settling in the air with finality. âHe was a rapist,â he said quietly, everyone who heard him flinching from the declaration. âAnd I killed him for it.â
The man took a stumbling step back, his face contorted with rage and denial. âYou⊠you canât just say that! You donât get to decide who lives and dies, you are a BOY! He was my friend!â
The boyâs expression remained calm, his voice never rising. âI didnât make the decision. He did. When he forced himself on her. I simply responded as I should.â
For a moment, the man looked as though he might lash out, his fists trembling at his sides. But before he could do anything, a womanâs voice cut through the tense silence.
âIs it true?â Both boy and man looked at her.
âDid that friend of his truly⊠deflower a lass against her will?â She asked again.
âHe did.â He answered, more whispers erupting from the crowd.
âIf itâs true,â the woman said, stepping forward from the crowd, âthenâŠthen he deserved it!â
âWHAT?!?â
The man turned to her, his face a mask of disbelief. âYou⊠youâre defending this? Defending him?â
âArenât you defending a vile man?â The woman said, crossing her arms, her eyes hard as she stared back at him as he stuttered to come up with a response. âIf that friend of yours truly defiled a woman like this boy says, then he got what was coming to him.â
More murmurs spread through the crowd, this time in agreement. Some of the women nodded, their expressions grim but resolute. The man looked around, his face twisting as he searched for support, but found none.
âThis⊠this canât be happening,â he muttered, his voice breaking slightly. âHe wouldnât..weâŠwe was friendsâŠsince we was kidsâŠâ
Many in the crowd looked at the man in sympathy. Such news was never handled well. Especially when it involved someone you were close to.
The young boy stood there, silent, watching the manâs reaction with the same calm detachment. The manâs shoulders sagged in defeat, but he wasnât ready to give up. âItâŠdoesnât matter. You still killed him. Weâll have to report this.â
Before he could take step forward, the boy spoke up, âNo. You wonât.â
The man froze, turning back to face the boy, disbelief flickering in his eyes. âWhat?â
The boy didnât move, his gaze still fixed on the man. âYou wonât report this.â
There was no malice in his voice, no threat. Just a calm, quiet certainty that sent a ripple of unease through the gathered crowd.
The villagers shifted uncomfortably, murmurs of confusion spreading like wildfire, but no one dared to step forward.
The manâs mouth opened, but no sound came out.
The boyâs calm, unhurried tone seemed to strip the anger from him, leaving only the shock and disbelief that he was grappling with. He shook his head, almost as if trying to shake off the weight of the boyâs words. âIâ H..How dare you..I have to report this!â
âNo,â the boy repeated, his soft-spoken voice steady, unnervingly gentle. âYou donât. You now know what he did, and can now shun him for it. Just as everyone else already has.â
The man faltered, his hands trembling as they hung limply at his sides. His face was flushed, beads of sweat trickling down his temple, but he said nothing. He could find no words to respond, not as the weight of what had been revealed pressed down on him.
The boyâs eyes, still shadowed beneath his hood, locked onto the manâs.
There was no smile on his face, yet there was something unsettling about the way he looked at the man, something that didnât belong on a face so young. It was a look that was far too old, far too experienced, for the boy it was attached to.
âLeave this matter behind,â the boy said quietly, his voice carrying an eerie finality. âHe made his choice. Now you must make yours.â
The manâs breath caught in his throat. He glanced around at the villagers, but once more found no help in their faces. Some nodded slowly, others looked away. It was clear to them nowâwhether they liked it or not, the truth had been spoken. The boy, thisâŠwandererâŠwasnât lying, no matter how ridiculous it sounded. And the man, deep down, knew it too.
Perhaps that was why he couldnât accept it.
For a long, agonizing moment, the man stood there, caught between denial and the heavy reality settling over him. Then, slowly, with a pained expression, he backed away.
âHe was⊠my friend,â the man muttered again, but his voice was weak, trembling. He turned away, shoulders sagging as he disappeared into the crowd.
The boy watched him go, his eyes following the hunched figure as it faded from view. For a moment, there was silence.
Then, almost to himself, the boy spoke, his voice barely above a whisper, yet clear enough for those closest to hear.
ââŠA different choice this time.â
He tilted his head slightly, as though considering something unseen, his gaze distant. His expression remained calm, though a flicker of something passed through his eyes.
The villagers, still unnerved by the exchange, glanced at one another, puzzled by his words but too hesitant to ask.
The boy smiled once more, soft, faint and fleeting, as he turned away from the villagers. He said nothing more, leaving them to wonder what he meant as he continued down the path, walking back into the now silent marketplace as if the confrontation had never happened at all.
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âShe must be beautiful,â whispered a small voice.
âIs she kind?â asked another, their soft, lilting tone drifting through the air like a breeze.
âWarm, too?â A third chimed in, fluttering closer to where the boy sat.
Hyrule, seated in the shallow waters of the fairy fountain, barely stirred at their questions. His thin form leaned back against a moss-covered stone, his cloak discarded beside him, revealing how frail and slight he truly had become.
The waters gently lapped against him, cool and clear, while tiny glowing fairies circled above, their curiosity as constant as their light.
âShe is,â he murmured, his voice low and calm, answering their questions with a softness that matched the quiet of the fountain.
In his hand, a cloth moved slowly over the blade of his sword, wiping away the dried blood that clung to the steel. The crimson stains mixed with the water, turning it a faint pink before dispersing into nothing.
âAnd her eyes?â one of the fairies asked, fluttering down to rest near his shoulder, their wings glittering in the soft light of the fountain. âAre they as kind as yours?â
Hyruleâs lips quirked ever so slightly, a faint smile ghosting over his features. âThey are⊠far more kinder.â
The fairies giggled softly at his response, their voices like tinkling bells as they flitted around him, never straying too far from the boy.
But beneath the peaceful scene, there was an unspoken heaviness that lingered in the airâsomething that clung to him like the blood on his sword, even as he cleaned it away.
âShe must be someone very amazing,â one of the fairies whispered, hovering in front of him, their eyes wide and curious. âFor you to feel so happy at the thought of her.â
âShe is,â he said again, quieter this time. His eyes remained focused on his blade, his movements slow and methodical, as if the task of cleaning the blood from it was all that mattered in the moment.
The fairies, sensing the weight of his thoughts, quieted for a time, simply fluttering around him as he worked. The fountainâs waters shimmered with their light, casting soft reflections on his face, but nothing could soften the sharpness in his eyes.
A sharpness that didnât belong on someone so young.
Eventually, one of the fairies drifted closer, their tiny voice softer now, hesitant. âDo you ever⊠rest?â
Hyrule paused, his hand stilling as the last of the blood was wiped clean from his blade. He set the sword down beside him, resting it against the stone, the cloth now stained with the evidence of his earlier fight.
âI do,â he replied softly, leaning his head back to stare up at the sky above, visible through the break in the canopy. âWhen I can.â
The fairies fluttered around him again, their delicate wings catching the light as they moved. They didnât press him further, sensing that, for now, the questions down that path had reached their end.
And as Hyrule sat in the waters of the fairy fountain, his eyes distant and his form thin and tired, the quiet companionship of the fairies was all that filled the stillness around him.
One of the fairies flitted closer, their glow bright as they hovered near his face. "Tell us more about her," they asked softly, their voice full of innocent curiosity. "What is she like?"
Hyruleâs eyes softened, the hand resting on his sword going still as he leaned his head back against the stone. His voice, when he spoke, was quiet, reverent, almost worshipful.
âSheâs⊠so incredible,â he began, his tone gentle, as if speaking too loudly might shatter the memory. âKinder than anyone Iâve ever known. She doesnât judge, no matter who she meets, or what theyâve been through. Thereâs this warmth about herâlike she carries a light inside, something that draws people in without her even trying.â
The fairies hovered close, their wings slowing as they listened intently, captivated by the way his voice softened when he spoke of her.
âShe has this way of smiling,â he continued, eyes drifting closed as he recalled the image of her in his mind. âItâs not just her lips that smile, but her eyes, too. Itâs like... she can see through all the darkness and still find something good. She makes you believe in thingsâhope, love, a future.â
His voice wavered slightly, though his expression remained calm. âSheâs very brave, too. So much stronger than she thinks. No matter how hard things get, she never gives up. She keeps going, keeps fighting, evenâŠeven when the world feels like itâs falling apart around sheâŠsheâŠâ
Hyruleâs lips curved into a soft smile, his eyes still closed as he let himself remember herâthe sound of her laughter, the way her presence alone could make the harshest days feel bearable.
For a moment, it felt like she was there, right beside him.
That the tragedies that had happened ceased to exist.
But when he finally opened his eyes, that smile faltered. The fairies were still there, their soft glow reflecting in the water, but she was not.
The sadness crept into his gaze, and his smile turned hollow as the weight of reality settled in. She wasnât there. Not in this moment. Not in this place.
âSheâs not here,â he murmured, more to himself than to the fairies. His voice was still soft, still gentle, but there was a deep ache hidden beneath those words.
âOh to be young and in loveâŠâ
The Great Fairy glided toward Hyrule, her eyes sparkling with mischief as she observed him resting in the water. Her gaze lingered on his face, soft yet intense as he cleaned his blade, the blood from battle slowly fading away. Her voice, as gentle as a breeze, curled around him like a caress.
âItâs rare, little halfling,â she said, her smile warm, âto see someone so completely in love. Your heart sings for her in a way that most mortals can only dream of.â
Hyrule looked up, his expression calm and peaceful. He paused in his movements, letting the cloth hang loosely in his hand as he met her gaze. âSheâs⊠everything,â he whispered, his tone reverent. âMore than anyone could ever be. Sheâs kind, strong, beautiful. Thereâs nothing she lacks because even what she considers an flaw is perfect to me.â
The Great Fairy hummed, circling him slowly, her fairies fluttering around him with excitement, their tiny lights dancing in celebration of his devotion. âShe sounds like the perfect mate,â the Great Fairy mused, her voice dipping into a playful tone. âSomeone worthy of such fierce love and loyalty.â
Hyruleâs smile softened, âShe is. And Iâll make sure she knows it every day.â His eyes brightening, I never want to give her a reason to hate me. When we reunite, sheâll be so loved, so cared for, that the thought of leaving wonât even cross her mind.â
The Great Fairy tilted her head, observing him with interest, but not an ounce of concern. Where humans would have been unnerved by his intensity, to the fae, such passion was only natural. The fairies swirled around him in delight, their wings buzzing as they echoed the Great Fairyâs sentiments. âA perfect mate,â they sang in unison, giggling in the air.
They swirled around him, their excitement clear. âIntroduce her to us!â one of them chimed, their tiny voices buzzing around him. âWe want to meet her!â
Another chimed in, âShe must be so lovely! So kind!â
Hyruleâs expression softened, his gaze turning inward as he thought of (y/n). âShe is... more than lovely. Sheâs warm, gentle. Sheâs strong, even when she doesnât realize it. When she smiles... itâs like the sun after a storm.â
His voice grew quieter, reverent, as though speaking of her was akin to prayer. The fairies fluttered in close, their excitement building as he continued.
âShe doesnât know how special she is,â he added softly, closing his eyes as if savoring the image of her in his mind. âBut I do. Iâll never let her feel unwanted or alone. Iâll always be there, making sure sheâs safe. Thereâs nothing I wouldnât do to keep her by my side.â
The Great Fairy leaned in closer, her tone teasing but gentle. âSuch devotion⊠itâs admirable, little halfling. Perhaps youâll truly bring her here one day, so we can meet this girl who has captured your heart so completely?â
Hyruleâs smile grew as he closed his eyes, as though he could see (y/n) standing before him in that very moment. âOf course I will,â he said softly, opening his eyes again, though the faint sadness lingered when she wasnât truly there. âYouâll love her, I know you will. She deserves to meet you, and you deserve to meet someone so⊠perfect.â
The Great Fairyâs eyes sparkled with amusement, her voice coy. âAnd what of your sword brothers? From what youâve spoke, their desires are the same as yours. They, too, wish to claim her heart, donât they?â
Hyruleâs peaceful expression didnât falter, âThey do. And I understand that. Iâm willing to share a place in her heart, as long as theyâve learned their lesson. We all want the same thing, after allâher happiness.â
The Great Fairy chuckled, a sound like chiming bells, full of mischief and curiosity. âBut, little one, what would you do if they havenât learned? If they were to stand in your way?â
Hyruleâs eyes gleamed, his smile gentle but his words werenât, âIf they havenât learned⊠Iâll slaughter them. Every single one. And Iâll protect her on my own.â He said so easily, so casually, like talking about the weather.
The Great Fairy threw her head back and laughed, her voice exuberant and full of joy. Her fairies mirrored her glee, spinning and fluttering in the air in a celebratory dance, their wings glowing brighter as they reveled in the intensity of their great motherâs happiness. To them, Hyruleâs devotion was nothing but pure, powerful, and natural.
âAh, such love!â the Great Fairy exclaimed, her eyes alight with delight. âItâs been far too long since Iâve seen a love like yours, little halfling. A love that burns with such beautiful, sublime passion.â
The fairies circled around him, their voices giggling and singing as they celebrated his devotion, as though his words were a promise of something sacred. And to the fae, it was.
âIntroduce her to us!â they begged, their voices filled with excitement.
Hyrule chuckled softly, his expression serene as he nodded. âI will, little sisters. Itâs only natural to introduce someone as incredible as her to my family. One day. Youâll see just like I didâŠsheâs perfect.â
The Great Fairy reached out, her fingers gently brushing against his cheek in a gesture of affection. âWe look forward to it, little one. Weâll be waiting eagerly to celebrate your eventual union with such an amazing soul!â
And with that, the fairies continued their joyful flight around him, giggling and cheering louder at the future where they would meet her, while Hyrule sat by the fountain waters at peace, sword forgotten beside him, lost in thoughts of her, his smile soft, though touched by a quiet darkness.
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Hyrule leaned against a tree by the edge of the forest, his chest rising and falling as he caught his breath.
Rain poured down, soaking his clothes and matting his hair to his forehead, droplets of water streaming down his face. His sword hung loosely from his hand, the blade gleaming dully in the gray light, dripping with rain and something darker.
The river rushed nearby, its waters swollen from the storm, roaring in the quiet of the evening.
He glanced down at his soaked clothes, water pooling around his boots, but he paid little attention to the discomfort.
The rain masked everythingâhis exhaustion, the faint ache in his limbs, even the weight of his thoughts. But it couldnât wash away the simmering feelings just beneath the surface.
The sound of the rushing river mixed with the steady downpour, the constant hum of the forest alive around him despite the storm.
He tilted his head back, feeling the rain on his face, his eyes half-lidded in thought.
Everything had felt strange since he had woken up in the past, as though he was constantly walking through a dream he could never quite escape.
âI miss them,â he murmured, his voice carrying only as far as the tree he leaned against. âMy brothersâŠthe only ones who I felt safe withâŠfor so long... And yetâŠâ His lips curved upward, a smile too soft for the words that followed. âSometimes, I dream of stealing her awayâŠto punish them⊠for their failure to keep her safe.â
He laughed lightly, as if the thought were as harmless as the falling rain, warm despite the darkness that laced his words.
âItâs strange,â he murmured into the storm, his voice barely louder than the patter of rain on leaves. âHow everythingâs felt⊠off.â His words were soft, but they carried an unsettling warmth, as if these thoughts were nothing out of the ordinary.
Hyrule tilted his head back, eyes closing briefly as he let the rain run over his face.
His eyes fluttered open, and there was a softness in his gaze, a calmness that made the words all the more disturbing. âBut⊠I understand now. Itâs over. What happened in that time is done, and I canât change it. All I can do is make up for my failures and create newer memories...â
He pushed himself off the tree and took a few steps toward the riverbank, the rain still pouring down. âAnd when weâre all together again, itâll be perfect. Weâll savor our reunion with her.â
There was a pause, as if he was savoring the thought, before he continued, almost as if speaking to the river itself. âBut first, I need to clear this land of threats as best as i can. Gather enough wealthâŠBuild a place thatâs safe for her. I have to be ready. We all do.â
The rain fell freely from the darkened skies above, the evening air thick with moisture.
His voice, soft and wistful, carried through the trees, but it wasnât clear who he was speaking to.
âYet I canât help but acknowledge how much itâs been quite the experienceâŠwalking a similar yet different path..â
Hyrule's voice echoed softly through the night, his tone distant, almost thoughtful.
âEver since I woke up in the past, everything has felt... off. Like the worldâs just a little tilted. Nothing feels right, but I suppose itâs what happens when youâre given another chance.â
He sighed softly, his words warm despite the unsettling nature of his thoughts.
âAnd still as much as i want to reunite with them, i still wish to hurt them too..â
He shifted his weight slightly, eyes distant as he spoke to the figure before him, âTo wrap my hands around the handle go my blade and cut them down as they cry out in painâŠ.To make them pay for failing to protect her, for letting her be taken from us. But, itâs not hate, not really.â
His voice carried a calm warmth that made the words unsettling. He spoke as if discussing a pleasant memory, not something so dark and twisted. âItâs strange, isnât it? Wanting to hurt them but still loving them. I could never hate them forever. It simply wasnât entirely their fault, after all.â
Hyrule let out a small sigh, almost wistful. âBut I did truly hate them for a while. I hated them for not being strong enough, for not being fast enough... for not being better and keeping her safe.â He chuckled softly, as if the thought amused him. âBut now, that time has passed and reversed, erased except the memories I hold⊠Itâs not just their fault we failed. Itâs mine as well. And Iâll make up for it.â
He hummed.
âBut thatâs natural, isnât it? Wanting to punish them⊠To punish myself, for failing her.â He chuckled lightly, almost as if he were reminiscing about fond memories. âI hated them for a while. For a long while, actually. But itâs all over now. I know that. I understand that, and I have to atone for my own failures.â
He tilted his head slightly, staring off into the dark, rain-slicked forest as if imagining something far away. âWhen we find her again, everything will be different. Weâll savor every moment of our reunion, all of us together again. Sheâll be safe with us. And itâll be... perfect.â
Hyruleâs expression darkened, though the gentle smile on his face remained. âBut before that, I have to finish things here. I need to clear out every threat in this place, amass enough wealth to give her a safe life, to build something beautiful amidst all this cursed and poisoned land. A place where she can live peacefully. A place where my sword brothers and I can keep her safe.â
He sighed, finally lowering his gaze to the figure at his feet. The rain had formed a pool around the man, blood mixing with the water, his body slumped against the roots of an old tree. His eyes, wide and filled with terror, locked onto Hyruleâs as he listened helplessly.
âI need to make sure that Iâm ready for her. Ready for all of us to reuniteâŠâ
Hyrule crouched down, his eyes soft, almost regretful as he looked at the man. âFunny, isnât it? You walked away from me in the market that day, made a different choice than last time. But it seems some things are inevitable⊠this little scene between us is happening sooner rather than later.â
He shook his head, amused. âSeems some things never change,â Hyrule said softly, almost regretfully. âYou made a different choice again. Last time, you tried to burn me alive. Now, you pushed me toward rushing water. Itâs a shame⊠I thought I might have more time before this.â
The manâs eyes flickered, desperate, but no words came. Hyruleâs smile was gentle as he crouched down beside him, the rain dripping from his hair. âI mean⊠to use you as another way to bond with my sword brothersâŠbut I suppose we canât always get what we want.â
He reached out, touching the manâs wet cheek in a gesture that seemed almost compassionate. âI can only hope we can bond over another tainted soul.â Hyrule sighed sadly, his voice soft with genuine regret.
âI really was hoping to do this again with the others. It was such a lovely bonding experience that time...â
The man tried to respond, but all that came out was a garbled, pathetic soundâhis severed tongue preventing any real words. Hyrule gave him a pitying look, then slowly unsheathed his sword.
With one swift, clean motion, he cut off the manâs head, watching for several moments as his eyes fluttered, his face twitching until there was no movement left.
Hyrule waited for a long moment, staring into the lifeless eyes of the man, almost as if searching for something.
When there was nothing left to see, Hyrule stood up, sheathing his blade once more.
As Hyrule turned to leave, his gaze fell on a crown of flowers lying discarded in the mud, half-crushed by the struggle. The delicate petals were wilted, the once vibrant colors dulled by the rain and dirt.
He had been working on it when the man from the market snuck up on him.
He knelt beside it, picking up the ruined crown with gentle fingers, his eyes softening as a memory stirred.
He could almost see her, in that memory sitting in front of him, laughing as she showed him how to weave the flowers together, her hands guiding his clumsy attempts with infinite patience.
The warmth in her eyes, the sound of her voiceâhe had cherished every second of it. And now, this small, fragile thing, this crown, had been ruined.
It had been so long since he made oneâŠ
He had assumed she would always be there to re-teach himâŠ
A deep sadness filled him, his heart aching as he held the crushed flowers. "She spent so much time teaching me," he whispered softly, his voice barely audible over the rain. "And now itâs ruined⊠he ruined it." His fingers tightened slightly around the crown, but not enough to damage it further.
As Hyrule pocketed the ruined flower crown, his steps slowed, his thoughts swirling with the same intensity as the fairies around him.
The rain drummed a steady rhythm on the leaves overhead, but his mind was elsewhereâdrifting back to the quiet afternoons with her, back when things felt simpler. He could almost feel her hands guiding his as he fumbled with the stems, hear the soft way she teased him when he struggled to braid them just right.
His heart clenched at the thought. "Iâll make her another," he thought, trying to push away the sadness creeping in. But the moment was gone, ruined by the man lying lifeless in the mud. "If only he hadnât tried to stop me," Hyrule mused. "I couldâve remembered everything clearly... made it perfect for her."
His gaze flicked back to the body, the severed tongue, the empty, lifeless eyes staring into nothingness.
Hyrule sighed, the heaviness in his chest growing. "I wanted to remember every detail, for her." His fingers brushed against the flower crown in his pocket, fragile and ruined, much like the memory it had been tied to. "Iâll make up for it. For everything."
The fairies' laughter danced around him, pulling him from his thoughts, and he straightened. "For her⊠I'll make it all perfect," he promised silently, his eyes narrowing as he left the body behind.
The fairies flitted around him, their soft glow casting a faint light over his rain-soaked form. They giggled and chimed, but there was no malice in their joy.
He cast one last glance at the manâs lifeless body, a flicker of something unreadable crossing his face before he turned and began to walk away, leaving the corpse where it laid as he walked back into the storm.
The fairiesâ chimes danced in the air as they continued to follow and swirl around him in delight, their soft laughter filling the air as the rain fell heavier, blending with the sound of the wind, rushing water and rustling leaves.
#I would have gotten this one out sooner but Four demanded I only focus on his gremlin attitude#yandere linked universe#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu#yandere lu#Sue me i love half-fae Rulie!#ttau#timeline two au#lu hyrule#linked universe hyrule#gliphy writes
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out of curiosity, would you consider yourself butch?
used to be a blonde underweight twink and now I'm a based jock still got the chanel bag and the sick albeit matured mind of a suckpig to prove it so I'm gonna let you decide whether you wanna call me that word just cuz I got a pussy and short hair. I promise you that there have been enough advancements made in the art of lesbian sexual dynamics in the past 50 years to broaden the vocabulary used to describe the plethora of types of masculine females.
#being called butch just reminds me of how much males have the freedom to navigate between male archetypes and how people pay attention to#the distinguishing features of these varying masculinities#but when a female is seen as masculine it all gets lumped under the âbutchâ category#her masculinity is seen as unnatural and therefore incapable of being considered genuine or taken at face value as it is with males.#its always brought into question instead of taken in consideration with the rest of the woman's life and experiences and her particularities#Hence... Butch is still being treated as though its a huge lesbian cultural phenomena instead of a specific niche thing#also i dont mean to invite the âyou dont pass!!â anons again bc that idiot is missing my point entirely (which is that im truly not trying)#but the fact is that for the past 3 years i have found myself increasingly navigating the male social world#and discovering what it means to me as a female to have access to the ability to take my âmasculinityâ for granted... relax#forget about it#etc#i think thats entirely antithetical to the Butch thing which seems to rest on the tension of other peoples expectations of her#people broadly are more surprised to find out that im interested in women just as much as they're surprised that im a gym queen iykwim...#ive worked hard for this and now that ive gotten the Woman Social Role thing pretty much entirely out of the way i am living the dream#i think a large part of that is learning as a dyke to appropriate the language of gay men theres a reason their terminology had#staying power even when their scene was *literally* dying meanwhile all that seemed to survive from dyke spaces was butch n femme ??#its because theirs didnt necessitate the building and maintenance of a scene in order for the subculture to hold its head above water#their labels *largely* weren't predicated on their relationships to gender roles and its telling that for dykes it was#their labels rested on the need to simply show up anonymous n be able to easily flag whether they were looking to fuck or be fucked#alongside the set of circumstances under which they would be fucking or getting fucked or what have you#it all comes back to the restrictions of female social blah blah blah and i think the sooner we collectively set down what we see as our#responsibility as lesbians and as feminists to Be A Woman the sooner we can step outside of that#n start thinking clearly about our individual circumstances and the necessity of putting on your own oxygen mask first before helping others
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I just want them to give Hunters a huge overhaul remake that can do more with the core premise, honestly.
#not a reblog#metroid#metroid prime hunters#genuinely wonder what we could have gotten#if they hadn't cancelled the singleplay halfway through development#only to re-add it back in later on#would we have gotten a more refined version of the same beats?#would it have been more expansive or drastically different than that?#or would it have been basically the exact same but come sooner?#the genuine uncertainty in any direction nags at me#but I do kinda feel like we lost out on something#maybe not something super special or groundbreaking#but at least something more
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but marineford is a tragedy, isn't it. ace was always doomed by the narrative but that doesn't stop one from having hope--doesn't stop from wishing, waiting, watching as ace is freed from his cuffs and thinking now surely they will flee. but no one was ever going to leave marineford unscathed. they were never going to go up against every powerhouse in the marines and win because this wasn't an average run of the mill fleet. this world can be cruel and this isn't a game, and they were never going to leave unchanged by it.
this is a tragedy and the story of suffering, of wishful thinking and wondering if anything could have been done differently, wondering what could have changed, and knowing none of it would ever have. would any other action or inaction have mattered? it was always going to end the same. luffy was always going to go after his big brother to save him, whitebeard and his crew were always going to be there, and ace was always going to leap in front of his little brother to protect him. it's "you promised me you'd never die no matter what" and "thank you for loving me."
at their cores they were never going to change. they were nearly out of the underworld and ace was always going to turn around at the last moment because he could not leave an insult to his father unchecked. akainu was always going to kill one of them and if not ace, luffy, and if not luffy, ace, and if not one of them then the both of them. he was always going to take one and it did not matter which. and it is a tragedy that ripples, not just to luffy, not just to the whitebeard pirates, but beyond. this world was always going to have consequences and ace was always going to die and luffy was always going to go after him. it's knowing how the story ends but continuing regardless because maybe this time it will be different. maybe this time it will be different. it's would haves and could haves and should haves and none of them would have mattered. but what if it could have?
before he's freed ace looks at the crowd who's come to save him and sobs, because after spending his entire life wondering if he deserved to be born, if he's worthy of any of this, ready to die, says that he wants to live. his little brother holds him in his arms and there is blood on his hands and he says "you did great, i'm sorry i couldn't make it to the end with you. i'm sorry i'm going to miss out on seeing you fulfill your dream, but i know you'll make it." luffy clings and ace lets go. he dies just as he lived, even if he didn't realize it: loved and not alone. and so luffy saves his big brother, just not in the way he thought he would, not in the way he wanted to.
#for the quest is achieved and now all is over. i am glad you are here with me. here at the end of all things.#i'm repeating myself but i have been thinking about this on a loop for the past two hours excuse my typos and rush#ace tells him to leave and luffy yells that he is his big brother and he's going to save him#nothing was ever going to change. for things to change that would have to fundamentally alter who luffy and ace are as people#luffy was always going to tell him to run and ace was always going to turn around#and whitebeard and every marine they contended with. nothing was ever going to change#anything that could have changed was out of their control:#if luffy had gotten there sooner. if garp had stepped in. if ace had kept running. if ace hadn't leapt in front of akainu.#if if if would have couldn't have#sengoku holds garp down and he says he better or he's going to murder akainu#luffy holds his big brother who promised he would never die and there is blood on his hands and a body in his arms#he was going to save ace and he did. nothing could have changed. orpheus looks back. horatio tells the story.#the tragic hero and his hamartia. the story never changes but we wish it would#maybe this time it will be different. maybe this time.#kate watches op#marineford#i knew ace died but that doesn't make it any easier!
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âPeter Lukas gets sent back to the regency eraâ âJonathan Sims gets sent back to the regency eraâ valid points valid points but i raise you
Tim Stoker gets sent back to the regency era
#Timelias#guys câmon it would be sooo fun#Tim would probably *hate* Elias. Maybe try to take the circus down sooner since#the Grimaldi was first like a thing in the very early 1800s so it could be possible for Tim to just kill Nikola on sight#And I bet Jonah would be so fascinated by him. Like oh my god this man 1) is probably from the future 2) Is HOT AS FUCK 3) has sooo much#knowledge about the fears and FOUR) Can apparently kill the things?? and is confident while doing so??#Jonah would love him sm#Also while I donât think Jon or Peter could fix him I firmly believe that Tim 100% could#Like Iâm pretty sure it was actually tweeted once that Tim couldâve redeemed Elias by fucking him nasty#but fr though I do think Tim would actually stop him from becoming as bad as he did because while Jon is passive in the voyeuristic sense an#d also and avatar and peter just couldnât care less about stopping bad things Tim is wholey human and still dedicating himself to taking#action against the fears and *succeeding* and since I think a lot of Jonah magnusâs less than ideal actions stemmed from his feelings of#helplessness in a world out to get him I think that would be a great anchor for him.#Also Iâm just super soft for any kind of Timelias sooo <333#Elias Bouchard#Jonah Magnus#TMA#Tim Stoker#oh also Tim was canonically fascinated by Robert Smirke so heâd probably have some knowledge about the 1700-1800s through osmosis gotten#while researching#the magnus archives
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will after getting this "meal" at the bshci:
#just kidding he's actually having a traumatizing sexy flashback about hannibal shoving a tube in his throat#i bet if he'd told hannibal what they were feeding him then hannibal would have gotten him out sooner#this post brought to you by hugh dancy complaining about how disgusting salisbury steak is in the audio commentary#hannibal#will graham#meow posts
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my Farawyn and Eothiriel fancomic, Of Blessed Thyme and Thistle could basically be summed up as:
"Woman plays matchmaker for her brother and friend, both of whom would have gotten together naturally without her meddling, but THROUGH her meddling she inadvertently and accidentally gets in the way of her own matchmaking attempts and makes said couple take longer to get together then they would have without her meddling"
and i love that haha đ
Also known as "Before Eowyn finds horticulture and gardening/etc as her hobby, she tries out match matching (to arguably questionable results)
#eomer#lothiriel#eothiriel#farawyn#faramir#eowyn#lotr#lord of the rings#tolkien#Basically she (rightfully) assumes Lothiriel and Eomer are meant for each other#but they probably would have gotten together sooner if she hadn't meddled in the first place LOL#there's a scene where she barges into Faramir's study like 'I found my calling in life!: Match Making!!' and faramir is just like#'...this can't be good' đ
#hoping to finish scripting out chapter 1 this weekend :)#and to get page 4 finished and posted soon!#Gonna work on getting romance in rivendell updated first tho
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Okay, let's talk about it. On Monday, Dec 11th, it was leaked that Bridgerton Season 3 was being split into two parts between May 16th and June 13th.
I'm honestly not that surprised since Netflix has been doing this, especially after the strikes, so they have no lineup and will probably continue to do this for the foreseeable future. They just recently did it to the Crown with part one releasing in November and part 2 releasing on December 14th. It's all a numbers game, honestly.
Taking a look at the lineup for the first quarter of 2024, it seems Netflix is taking a gamble by releasing the anticipated live action remake of Avatar the Last Airbender in February. This doesn't surprise me that Bridgerton, a proven and reliable numbers puller, was pushed back to the second quarter because of this. Also, it seems Netflix has picked up a new habit of releasing big shows in the second month of the quarters.
Now, for my personal feelings on this, it honestly doesn't bug me. I have other shows to watch, and I've got the books and fanfiction too. The shows I watch right now are once a week releases, too, so I'm good. Though I'm surprised, Netflix hasn't tried to pull this yet since I know they've done similar in the past. But again, to me, this is several numbers games that Netflix is playing. They're still a corporation, and they're still gonna try to make the most amount of money possible. They've found a way to get two months out of people for subscriptions if they're like me who don't have a Netflix subscription at all.
I do like, though, that this split does have the potential to the fandom marinate on it a little more and will be talking about it. So that will be a fun time when we get to it.
I do wonder if Shondaland might have shot itself in the foot, though, for any plans of future spin-offs like Queen Charlotte. Queen Charlotte was basically taken on as another season of Bridgerton, and in my opinion it was always meant to be that way due to the fact that they admitted that we would have to watch Queen Charlotte to understand certain things in season 3, rather than what it is, a spin off. Good for Shonda for being able to make her own story in this universe, but now it is running interference with the main show. Which is disappointing because Shondaland knows how to run a main show and a spin-off at the same time. Your spin-off should not interfere with the main show.
We'll see what happens. Plans are already in motion, so it is what it is. I'll just be in my little corner until it's time to rise up from the grave.
#bridgerton#polin#bridgerton season 3#funny thing is netflix hasnt gotten a penny out of me in almost a year#that aint changing anytime soon#now had things been as normal maybe we would have gotten it sooner but i still find that debatable
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aghhhh:(
#I wish I had known about bt when atsushi was still around:( like#getting into them so much has been like a source of happiness and comfort this year#but then I feel kind of bad because the reason I found out about them is because someone died#for a while it was just one of those things thatâs like yeah#sometimes an artist dies and thatâs how you find out about their stuff#and itâs nice for people to continue discovering and loving someoneâs art after theyâre gone#but Iâve been feeling more sad about that lately#like Iâve never found a band thatâs just felt so much like My thing before#thereâs plenty of bands and songs I love but#Iâve never really gotten this obsessed or invested in a specific band#so part of me wishes I had discovered them sooner or heard about them under better circumstances#and not cause I happened to be scrolling through tumblr during work and#saw goth blogs I follow posting memorial stuff#it feels kind of spooky and morbid too because I had been#thinking lately I wanted to find some goth bands from japan#if I had actually gotten around to doing the research I probably would have started listening to them#so it was weird timing#and I was showing my dad the climax together tour and he was kind of#lamenting that he had never heard of them when he was younger because he would have gotten so into their music#like. ah if my dad had any exposure to japanese rock when he was younger#I definitely would have grown up listening to a lot of buck-tick#and der zibet too probably#I was watching dz concert videos late last night#and issay was so cute and lively and full of energy#and then I thought about how he died in some accident and I started feeling upset#especially since one of my favorite movie actors died in a pretty horrific freak accident#itâs like Iâd rather just not think about what mightâve happened (since there werenât really public details)#anyway Iâm just kind of like. having complicated feelings about all of it#different than sadness and grief Iâve felt over artists in the pass since it was all postmortem that I knew about them
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WHERE has vyvanse been all my life I actually feel like a human being
#i've been on it for 2 months now and we've figured out the right dose for me and it's amazing#i'm happy it works for me but omg am i angry that i didn't figure out i was adhd sooner#thinking about how stressful school was for me as a kid and how much i bulshitted all my assignments just because i was good academically#how much i would avoid doing homework or paying attention in class because i knew that i could just do everything last minute#and still get a b#but if i had gotten the help i needed?#i could have actually cared and not procrastinated and actually be mentally present in class#i could have gotten such high marks#i could have been an honours student#no use thinking of what ifs#what matters is now and i'm very happy that i'm being helped now#my posts
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there are things that you don't do for a year or more and pick up just right where you left off and these days i fear loving you might be one of them
#double meaning on that but. yeah.#it's like. i haven't touched the imaging software i use for an entire year. soldering iron in decades. pick it right back up. to my surpris#muscle memory is crazy#i don't draw for months and pick up right where i was with a few sketches bc the work you put in stays even when you don't actively practic#when it's something you've practiced weekly and daily it sticks with you and ig that's good#but then it's like. the horrors. that haunt you. yk? what if a part of me will always save a soft spot for my ex. what then.#what if I'm fine now and I'm doing okay and i don't miss it and I think i'm okay moving forward and i see her and suddenly I'm on the floor#what if some part of me that was in love never really went away what if i haven't managed to kill all of it yet#bc i genuinely would not know what to do. i. i don't want to admit it but one of my worst fears is liking someone who doesn't like you back#and what's even more horrifying is if it's obvious. if everyone can tell. and usually I'm good at hiding it! (not really) but it's just. id#it's shame in liking someone who you tell yourself you don't want to like and you know you shouldn't. and not having control over it.#hoping praying that either she does something that turns the little switch in my head that sends her into the unforgivable category#or that i become straight. or that i become straight. mhm. yep. or ig the other option is i get a crush on someone new but like. mm.#i kinda have gotten w every person I've had a crush on since hs and i kinda don't think im ready for another rs so soon.#the baggage i just got is. hm. idk i kinda don't wanna unpack it. it's something that can easily be done if i had the missing pieces but.#i don't think I'm ever gonna get them. so. instead I'm gonna take. maybe another 3 months or 5 months or a year or a few. to just. slowly.#idek. it's just triggering old things. bringing me back to when i was 14. i never really got closure from that either. it took me 3 years.#I'm sure this time it'll go away faster but idk experiencing it a second time has a different feel to it. idk. it's weird.#it's like. idk. it's like you're watching it happen and you're not even there anymore. idk. i really don't know.#oh. I've been dissociating.#idk maybe it's for the best i really don't know i really don't know and everyone says i have to do what's best for myself but idk what is#my life is on track things are moving forward I'm doing better and healing but i can't escape the feeling of dread#something is going to catch up with me sooner or later and idk what it is idk at what intensity and idk if i will be ready for it#but anyway. when you love someone intentionally every day for a while. when does it go away? will it go away?#or will i have to live haunted by ppl who are alive but changed. so practically dead w/o the opportunity to mourn. for the rest of my life?#like i don't think i get it. loving this person was like. cooking and eating. intentional. ingrained into everyday life. effortful.#what if my mind does forget but my body still remembers. what then. what if it's like searching for sth you don't remember having anymore#ig I'm just trying to figure out how much to forget these days. how much won't hurt if it all comes back to haunt me#delete later
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I'm trying to get The Catch for my Raiden and
I realized I could get a rusty pipe and give it to a child.
I feel a type of joy, it's unbelievable how funny this is to me lol
#i considered giving it to my Qiqi but it looks better with Bennett lmao#i didnt know this was a weapon that existed guys. yall talked about the fish claymore & the fish bow#WHY DIDNT YALL GIVE SOME LOVE TO THIS RIDICULOUS THING? THIS IS GRADE A DUMPSTER KIDS' 2ND GRADE GANG WARS MATERIAL đ#i would have gotten this in a heartbeat its so funny to me lmao#i should have gotten The Catch sooner tbh but it depressed me to think about after id previously lost out on Ei#my gi#genshin impact#fleuve cendre ferryman#genshin impact weapons#my posts
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So im still using my iphone 6s, which i got in early 2017, and why, you may ask, am i still using a 7 year old phone? I have 2 reasons for this, 1) i refuse to have a phone without a headphone jack, i will not suffer the indignity of it, and 2) i don't want to deal with learning a new operating system, because stupid apple doesn't sell phones with headphone jacks anymore i will need to get a phone that uses a different operating system
I have many reasons for wanting a headphone jack, i don't want to have to worry about charging my headphones, i have adhd i don't need to add more things to the list of things i need to do but won't remember, i like having the cord and its more convenient to just plug it in to use the headphones than to have to go into settings and bluetooth and all that, and sure in iphones without the jack you can plug it in to the charger part but what if i want to charge my phone and use my headphones at the same time, and like i know there are adapters out there that can make that possible but again i have adhd i will not be able to keep track of it.
So my next phone can't be an iphone, which tbh is good because apple is shit, but the issue with that is that any other phone i get will be using a different operating system, so i'll have to learn and get used to a new operating system, and i don't do well with change, so im going to use this old phone until it ceases to function
#iphone#headphone jack#bluetooth#i have nothing against bluetooth#i just prefer to use the faster and more convenient way of connecting my headphones#and also remembering to charge them will be a challenge#when i found out about apple getting rid of the jack i was pissed#and i've stayed pissed#i'll never buy another iphone again because of this#i definitely would have gotten a new phone sooner if not for the fact that i hate change#right now i'm basically just procrastinating getting a new phone because i don't want a new operating system#and also idk if i can even transfer my data to a new phone if it isn't another iphone#so just all of that is stopping me from just getting a new phone
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/ realized I forgot to put this in my bio and will add it later but
heads up that my Yuri is a combination of JP Yuri and dub Yuri, but primarily JP. there's a whole lot of nuance to Yuri that got left out of the dub (and seeing as he has waaay more content in JP due to the vast amount of crossovers/Tales crossovers/gachas he's in, it's a lot easier to keep Toriumi's take on him (and in depth understanding no less!) in mind). overall you get the same general person, but the dub left out a lot more his casual/playful side in vocal tone, preferring to go for the "edgy cool adult" concept despite, well, the JP version of him intentionally being quite opposite.
(on another note, context I use for Yuri involves nuances found in the drama CDs that are a condensed retelling of the game (before some original stuff) as well as his childhood novel which has voiced dialogue for his child and teen years. this post covers the game, but a lot of (especially internal) stuff for my muse may be heavily affected by his backstory too which is unfortunately completely absent in the actual game itself)
there's also a lot of back and forth between him and other characters that really lost their depth in the dub (ex. Yuri being much more gentle and soft with early game Karol when Karol was convinced nobody would believe him and that he was a failure, or his banter with Flynn being a lot more relaxed and significantly less annoyed with a better understanding of each other). I'll be retaining anything the dub yeeted out for whatever odd reason regarding his relationships.
(one particular grievance of mine is in the Flynn jailbreak scene, where Yuri is basically saying "you're just dying to abandon me" and Flynn starts off with "that's right" before basically saying the same thing - i.e. they both know it's not true and Flynn is going along with it because That's Them, to which Yuri responds with a solid and fully accepting "yeah" (no hesitation, no concern over it, as he prioritizes Flynn's life over his own).
another extremely strong grievance I have is the port scene - oops also with Flynn - where he's basically holding back tears asking for answers in desperation, which was extremely if not outright completely lost in the dub where he only sounds angry and not just utterly hurt. dub Yuri? I could believe he might kill Flynn if it came to that. JP Yuri? forget it, he would hold back at the last second and couldn't go through with it. that's genuinely the level of difference that was present between both audios.
that said, I love Troy Baker's performance itself - I just think he was unfortunately deeply incorrectly directed for several of his major scenes, and also unfortunately, some of those cases were involving some of his most important relationships)
if any of y'all play Vespy any time soon, I fully recommend giving it a shot with its original context at least once (if you're playing the DE version there's an option for JP audio)! even if you don't understand JP, at the very least the tone won't be lost on you! from what I've heard apparently there wasn't much communication between the directors on both sides, so a lot of Yuri got lost in the localization (and Karol's screaming is glorious in JP lbh).
tl;dr Yuri really is just a silly little guy and he's really not that cool or serious. he's a dork. he's a dummy. and he's easily embarrassed about it. get deep enough into his feelings for Flynn when they're not in a life or death situation and he'll completely cave in embarrassment.
#{ bravewolf mun }#/ honestly it's also easier this way bc Vesperia has A FUCKING TON of side content#but Yuri in particular also does and a gigantic chunk of it is /voiced/... and we don't get that side content in the west#as a side note Yuri even has a ton of small breaths/sounds he makes in JP around his dialogue that got lost in the loc too#there is a lot more going on in that silly little brain than I feel the loc let on#also he's way more pouty in JP and that's automatically a win with me for him LOL#but yeah we get so much side content that like... I probably haven't even gotten through all of it yet#I'm in the process! but I still have not cleared Everything yet (it rly is a lot!). it just kinda automatically adjusts my brain to JP Yuri#bc it's what I hear constantly when I indulge in non-game content for him#and honestly there's enough content out there for Yuri that I'd sooner trust Toriumi's thoughts on Yuri#than I would anyone else except the lead scriptwriter for Vespy#bc he's been voicing Yuri content THAT MUCH for THAT LONG#I would kill to pick Toriumi's brain about Yuri bc he's done an INSANE amount of vocal work for him#that said when I write I do hear a combination of Troy and Toriumi don't get me wrong (Troy's performance is stellar w what he was given!)#it's just that I'm including JP exclusive nuances to my muse that may come across as like#âwait that wasn't in the game was it?â but like yeah it was the loc just whoopsied a lot on Yuri /
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Hey friends! Only a few hours left to take advantage of this one but uh, if you happen to see this in time it's a pretty sweet deal for the full cast audiobook, if you haven't bought from Chirp before (and if you have, it's still only $6).
#good omens#curse my leaving this purchase until the last minute or I would have gotten this out sooner#can only listen to it on the Chirp app or via their website but still excellent#edit: oh my mistake it's actually good THROUGH the 13th. so a few hours more than I thought!
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