#I will probably delete this later

[playgroundfadings]

𝔻𝕚𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕙𝕚𝕕𝕖 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕞𝕖, 𝕕𝕠𝕝𝕝?

[temedtime]

ive been lacking a lot of motivation so I decided to start one of the scams!

if this post gets 50 notes then I will eat a full meal every day for the next week

if this post gets 100 notes I will not smoke ANYTHING for the next week

if this post gets 500 notes I will get up and go on a walk every day for the next week (please no)

if this post gets 1000 NOTES I will finally finish chapter 1 of dark jerry smith x richard watterson and post it by the end of the month (if you do this I hate you)

and if this post gets 1500 notes then I will actually talk to my therapist about my problems :3

[cosmicccowboy0]

Was playing Wii sports and these beauties were born

Wii sports will always be a treasure

[aldehydelvr]

Happy halloween!

[ruberrvulpes]

I really need to finish my university projects, but I was rewatching 101 Dalmatians and...yea.

That's a sketch that I hope I'll finish later. And redraw the dogs.

[hitomisuzuya]

what the heck should i write about tomorrow, since i generally like to keep an every other day schedule. hm? you guys have really liked my yandere stuff lately, so maybe i will go that route.

also, the unknowable domain new sim universe mode is quite frankly super fun.

roma says hello everyone! boop her snoot, she's a good girl.

[traumasurvivors]

Vent incoming about abuse, victim blaming, enabling, etc.

My last response to the last anon got me thinking about the fact that I am the black sheep in my family. I really am.

I think this was almost a decade ago that I met this girl. She was 15. Her mom worked for my parents, and I worked for my parents in the office. She ran away from home, so during the summer, her mom brought her to work with her and left her in the office with me to make sure she knew where she was at all times.

This girl ended up opening up to me that her mom's boyfriend had sexually abused her (he also worked for my parents.) Her mom knew this. The guy was actually serving prison time on weekends for what he'd done to her. The girl's mom had asked the girl whether it was okay if she kept dating him... The girl had been 13 at the time and said "yes". What else would she say?

When I found out about it, I got involved and her mom ended up breaking down because he'd "cheated" on her with her daughter. (Yet another red flag about her mom... If a man molests your daughter and your first thought is that he cheated on you, that's gross.)

My mom and I ended up supporting the mom though to try and help the daughter, and the mom left the boyfriend. He eventually quit (after deciding it was a great idea to confront my mom and say that I was grooming the girl because I had a girlfriend at the time and his therapist had told him that's what I was doing... Like..??)

Well, the mom ended up moving right in with my uncle (not the uncle who abused me for those who know about that). I should also mention the girl had a brother, and the mom moved immediately in with my uncle and started a relationship with him.

He was a raging alcoholic. I'd get invited over, and he'd start drinking, and he'd begin screaming at the kids. They'd be sobbing on the floor, and I'd get pissed off and take them out of the situation. My family would get annoyed at me and ask why I'd even take my uncle up on his offer to visit when it always turned into a thing... And the reason was because I wanted to protect the kids. They were 15 and 14 and very much children to me that needed protecting. I was so scared myself honestly. I'd be shaking but my instincts were very much to protect them. And I am so disgusted with their mother that... she didn't? And she brought them from one bad situation to another.

This all came to a head when I watched my uncle try and physically slam the brother's head into a glass coffee table. I got beyond angry, and told him he was disgusting and took the kids out of there.

My family was angry. I was keeping them with me. I wasn't letting my uncle and the mom take them home. My parents got mad at me because it was causing issues at work because the mom was so mad. My grandparents told me to be the "bigger person" and not make waves.

No one believed me, or the boy that my uncle had tried to do this. Or that there must be a reason. Or that I was being dramatic.

The kids ended up going back on their own because they felt so bad about the shit I was coming under from my entire family.

The boy ended up running away not too long later.

I got pushed out from my family. I was the problem.

I'm still mad about this to this day honestly. They ended up realizing later that my uncle was very much a raging alcoholic, and it wasn't just when I was involved that he'd get out of control. When I wasn't around to blame anymore, things came to blows with the rest of the family. No one ever apologized to me (except my mom. Honestly, kudos to her. She says to this day that she should have realized she raised me to protect those that needed it and she's disappointed in herself that she didn't listen to me.) They just all pretend it didn't happen. I very much avoid my family for the most part.

But yeah, that's the long story of what I was referring to in my answer about being the "bigger person" because I was told to be the "bigger person" and stop trying to hide abused children at my place.

[moonyswarmsweaters]

Marauders era characters as my self deprecating thoughts

cause I’m not doing well lol

James: Do people really like me ore do they just like the version of myself I decide to show them?

Sirius: If i will be dramatic enough when It’s not that bad people would normalize my real breakdowns

Remus: Keep a smile on, maybe this time “fake it till you make it “ will work. People don’t need to see when you struggle, it will make them sad and sorry for you

Peter: I don’t do enough for others, I’m not enough for others. Why can’t I be like the Others?

Mary : I worked SO hard not to be a people pleaser i think I became such a bitch people hate me

Regulus: God, I corrected them again I didn’t mean to be mean she is my friend she must hate me now, god that’s why nobody likes a know it all

Even: my friends told me they are a bit scared of me again, am I bad person for not completely hating it or am I just overprotective of myself after so long, I won’t hurt my friends, but maybe they wouldn’t hurt me again. I don’t want them to be scared of me, not really, I love them. How do I even have friends?

Barty: I got a good score on the test WHY DID I GET A GOOD SCORE ON THE TEST I didn’t study enough., it must be a mistake, just pure dumb luck I’m not smart enough everyone think i smart when i feel so fucking stupid

on a sirius note- if you need help, please get help. You matter and can rant to me any time 💕- edit written AFTER the breakdown lol

[mouseclangen]

MOON 1 Will be out soon! I’ve been a bit sick lately but I’m planning on releasing the moons from here on out in actual full posts rather than in parts ❤️ so itll take a bit longer! (unless it’s like a really special moon i dunnoooo)

thanks again for all the support and patience!

[queenjunothegreat]

My cat has been missing all day and I'm very stressed out and upset about it ngl :(

[crazy-ache]

mild rant

I am not sure anymore if this is unique to the ACOTAR fandom or if its just a symptom of my age on the internet showing. But every day I see people who I can tell lack actual life experience make misinformed opinions on heavy topics of relationships, marriage, and motherhood. Writing their opinions like they're experts when in reality they have no fucking clue. No fucking clue. Your "theory" isn't a theory, it's just another intrusive thought. I'm tired. I'm so tired cause this is supposed to be fun but y'all don't realize how hurtful and stupid some of you sound.

[camijust]

No one agreeing with me on Saintdesmierre? No one????? Your loss!!!!!!! Im going to draw them kissing one hundred and fifty seven times and I will gatekeep it from all of you

I will also do it with Fouche Collot and Billaud. Perhaps. Not sure....

[blitheringmcgonagall]

Thank fuck it looks like you Brits have booted out the Tories!!! Not saying Labour is great, but if you had voted those shower of absolute disgraceful eejit Tory fucking wanker gobshites back in again, I was personally going to loose all faith in you lot. I am genuinely so bloody relieved

[inklessletter]

Having an anxiety attack in the middle of the office, in front of everyone (clients and co-workers) is absolutely mortifying. I couldn't breath, couldn't stop crying and the only thing I was able to feel is embarrassment. And it shouldn't be like that. I know it shouldn't, and there is nothing to be ashamed of, it happens when it happens. But fuck me if I wasn't feeling pathetic and stupid in a moment like that, being more worried to stop crying and making a fool of myself instead on focusing on, I don't know, how to fucking breath again.

It is really a horrible day.

[19calicos]

very interesting to see the difference in notes for street style & tea for two ........ i think tumblr should love kiyoko more

[strangestofthings12]

This is going to be petty and a little spiteful but it’s been a week and I have a lot(to many) negative emotions and I want to throw it out there because I feel petty and spiteful (the other option is becoming an assassin) but who else literally cheered when bucktommy broke up?? Like god it was so nice after waking up to the election news and being depressed and angry (I still am but now I also have buddie and bucktommy bones)

And seeing all the posts about people leaving the fandom because they broke up is literally the best because so many of them were the same people saying that buddies were only watching for buddie and only cared about buck/Eddie in the context of the shop and not as individual people and god I just love love love that they are leaving because they are vile and I don’t want people like that in my comfort fandom. I made a post when everything was still fresh about how frustrating it was seeing people shitting on Eddie because Tommy was there and god I just am so happy that those people are sad right now because I had to suffer through the death of my dog and suicidal thoughts while the fandom I loved had people saying my comfort character should kill himself. I hope they never come back and I hope it hurts that they lost one of the worst ships in this show.

Also he has and was always a plot device and I’m sick of pretending like he wasn’t😌