#I was not excited about it- I’m Autistic
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Why are you okay with them continuing what has been an ineffective and in many cases failed attempt to bully the left into voting for a slightly less right wing but still right of center candidate we want an actual left or even true centrist candidate if appealing to centrists and moderate conservatives was a good strategy it would have worked in 2016. Also Hillary paid bots to spam pro-Bernie communities on social media with CSAM right before the nomination was announced and to keep his supporters from organizing because numbers wise a way larger and more vocally passionate number of people were supporting Bernie and instead they try to get us to settle for an entitled elite oligarch offering nothing that he was offering simply by virtue of her not being trump. Two possible candidates were selling out rallies and merch and being immortalized by tattoos and going viral on social media, Bernie and trump. They nominated Hillary because it was “her turn” after losing the nomination in 2008 to Obama she’s an entitled aristocrat who isn’t interested in anything but keeping herself and her people in power. She and Kamala both offered nothing other than the fact that they were not trump, almost like trump was supposed to be some kind of plant to bully people into voting for them and when they lost the election the American people called their bluff twice. The American left is done voting for the slightly less right wing but still right wing candidate. If the democrats want to do anything or any of them want power or to further their careers they have to offer more to the American people. People on the right are excited about trump. You will never beat a candidate with a devoted fan base with a candidate that people are miserably settling for out of harm reduction. If the democrats want voters on the left to support them, they need to offer something more than being the bite of the shit sandwich with the most bread. Also the democrats are doing a sexist gaslighting thing I think it’s called the glass basement? The cement ceiling? I read an article about it forever ago. Right before something crashes and burns they put a woman in power so when it collapses they can blame a woman for it. I’m not saying sexism didn’t play a role in their loss, it absolutely did but the fact that they are putting a woman front and center to offer us absolutely fucking nothing from a corrupt and crumbling party is in itself sexist. The American left wasn’t satisfied with choosing between a threat or absolutely nothing when the right got to have a candidate that they were excited about. We want a left wing trump who is fat and genderqueer and pansexual and substance dependent and black and autistic raised in poverty by a single teen mother with stupid neon hair threatening to make public sodomy mandatory at brunch and restore the American poor to a first world standard of life after composting the oligarchs so we on the left can say “well theyre more extreme than me but I agree with them and they are working in the interests of me and my values” like the right gets to say with trump. If the left wants us to vote for them and give them power they have to give us something we want not just threaten how much worse the other person will be while they are both serving the same agenda. the American public with the internet knows much more about each candidate than our parents generation knew watching 3 major news channels and reading a few cherry picked quotes in the papers, the democrats need to work harder than they did before to get power and like I said the American left is sick of choosing between two right wing parties they are going to have to actually appeal to the rapidly growing left if they want votes from this generation. Also more women CEOs means nothing in improving the daily existence of the female population I don’t need the empty icon of a female president so badly that I’m willing to happily accept a capitalist imperialist genocidal oligarch cop just because her crotch looks more like mine than his.
I voted against trump but I certainly wasn’t happy to vote for Kamala and the democrats have 4 years to come up with a candidate that actually appeals to voters because they won’t be able to threaten us with a sad orange clown next time. Repeating the attempt they failed at in 2016 is their fault not the fault of the voters. It didn’t work the first time. Instead of changing their approach and appealing to the left they did the same thing that already failed. They have nobody but themselves to blame for their loss. They let the American people down not the other way around. Stop licking boot and demand your needs be addressed as a constituent.
Idk guys, maybe people are blaming leftists who refused to vote because of genocide because I literally saw them holding political rallies last weekend in a swing state telling people not to vote
Like it wasn't just tumblr leftists saying not to vote for Kamala, or at all, because of Palestine. Those were real people I walked past last Saturday in Pennsylvania, a key swing state. They had megaphones in front of Philadelphia city hall and a sizeable crowd. I feel like we can, in fact, say they are partly culpable here.
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Imagine liking him a normal amount. Couldn’t be me.
#I got so excited about him today that it gave me a tummy ache#what even is normal#I’m autistic and this is my normal about my autistic little guy#adrian chase#freddie stroma#peacemaker#vigilante#peacemaker hbo max
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I can never find Trigun merch in the wild!!!
I scored huge today!! I found a Trigun box set! And a Stampede lanyard.
I’m really excited to get to wear this bad boy to cons!!
#I was being insanely autistic at the store#there was a shirtless Vash funko too#but I don’t like funkos#I’m extremely hyped about the box set#it has the original Japanese dub too!!#and I’ve never been able to find good clips of what the original VA’s sounded like!#so I’m really excited!#plus I have a friend who doesn’t watch anime who offered to watch Trigun with me now that I have all the episodes on disc!#im so happy to have physical media!#once I got the lanyard I kept it on the rest of the day#it makes me so happy#might just wear it around#although wearing it with my 98/Trimax Vash cosplay will be hilarious#I’m really happy with these finds#trigun#trigun 98#trigun stampede#trigun merch#sire’sramblings
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me realizing that my rdr2 hyperfixation is actually a new special interest that is altering the way I view myself and the world around me
#I can’t hear anybody mention anything about rdr2 without feeling excitement in my whole body#god bless my fiancé he’s such a sweetheart I feel so bad for him#he got to hear me scream so loudly with so much excitement just because a podcast we were listening to mentioned arthur morgan#I was like shit I’m so sorry I just got so excited and I got really loud#and he said I don’t have to apologize#he thinks it’s cute#autism rizz strikes again#rdr2#red dead 2#red dead redemption 2#autism#actually autistic#actually autistic adult#actually audhd
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Oh that’s so nice for both of you! When I (adhd) and my sister (audhd) told our dad that we think he is autistic he got very angry and screamed: “No, I’m totally normal! I’m just an introvert.”
Then he proceeded to research a specific but irrelevant component on his computer with a 3 page long document where he listed the pros and cons of all online shops he could buy it instead of just buying it. As the dinner continued, he made zero eye contact despite our mother trying her best to get him interested in the conversation. Then out of the blue, he started talking about his research like it’s the most exciting thing ever, not even noticing that we are not interested. Yeah sure, not autistic behaviour at all.
Thinking about that time I told my dad that I thought he was autistic and he came up to me a while later and said
"If someone was asked to put a lot of jigsaw puzzles into one box and emptied all of the individual puzzle pieces into said box, is that an autistic thing?"
And I just looked at him with huge eyes like "Yeah dad that's a very autistic thing."
And he said "Alright. That someone was me when I was little."
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So I finished half life Alyx but the gnome is too aware. My thoughts?
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It was FUCKINH beautiful. Genuinely a work of art. I cannot believe it took me this long to watch it. It has the classic hlvrai humour mixed with that gorgeous existential dread. It’s really well written with a cool build up to the end. I loved the gnomes, I loved gordyx (that’s Gordon alyx to me) and it was so fucking funny. If any rtvs or even hlvrai fans haven’t seen it yet- PLEASE do so. It’s genuinely so good.
@wayneradiotv fantastic work. Truly. I know I’m going to end up watching it all over again soon. (And that ending- Ough-)
#rtvs#half life alyx but the gnome is too aware#hlage#wayneradiotv#excited to work on some fanart for this#i have a silly idea of the universes of hlvrai hl2vrai and hlage being interconnected#because I’m autistic about these series’s#i like the idea of gordyx being an alternate reality gordon#same but different#and maybe gordyx and both gnomes fighting together for a cause one last time#utilizing the blue gnome a bit more because I found his character hilarious#picture this#battle gnomes#all badass style but small but they can move so they can help gordyx#just some food for thought#hlvrai#tagging that just in case#and so you guys watch it#Blease#please
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I need to play more Hades <- girl who spent all of last night playing Hades
#shut up alli#‘did you only just now start a game that came out years ago?’ yes. next question#it’s so funnnnn so fun I’m having a lovely time#dungeon crawlers are one of my fave genres so I’m in my element! (I have died many times)#but the fun part about it is watching me get better and stronger with every new attempt. it gives a very solid sense of accomplishment#and the characters? oh my godddd they’re all awesome#I’ve always been very autistic about Greek mythology so obviously it is impossible for me to dislike anyone#Hypnos and Chaos reign supreme for me but everyone is very likeable#like idk props to the dev team I can tell they put their souls in it#it makes me even more excited for Hades 2 when it releases#I wonder if they’ll put it on switch or wait for the next console#I really can’t believe such a sick ass game was so cheap too. like 24.99 for me to have the best time of my life? bitch I’d tip if I could#I mean it was a bday gift too so ya know but still
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the state of my back is small potatoes, I WILL carry this beast around all day every day. and by beast I mean. heh. book
#raii talks a lot#no but my bag is very heavy but being without something to read is like. nightmare world.#remember when I said a while back “oh I’m starting the four volumes now”? that was a lie.#I found a different translation and read that one first. because 🫶🫶 but NOW I’m starting the four volumes and arugh I’m so excited#maybe I’m obsessed maybe it’s so joever. maybe the most powerful thing ever is an autistic guy and their interest for the next 5+ years#sorry for talking about this nonstop it’s because of. yeah. slowly changing everyone’s perceptions of me by being. excited about stuff
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One of the things that has been consistently good in all of jujutsu kaisen has been the sound design and ost. The music through a lot of the show is very erratic with the exception of moments of extreme power. Only when characters are at their best do we get these moments of musical clarity.
I good example of this is the song “Your battle is my battle” which plays during Gojo v Jogo, and Chimera Shadow Garden. You get to listen as the melody becomes clearer and clearer as the fight comes to its peak. And Hollow Purple, as the musical manifestation of Gojo’s strongest offensive ability, has purpose and clarity the entire way through.
The music of jjk does such a good job making you feel as panicked as the characters. But it contributes to the height of power being almost seen as enlightenment. Because the music takes you on a journey of rising above the chaos and experiencing true clarity.
#if I’m autistic about something I’m autistic about ALL of it#when the season 2 trailer came out a lot of people were making fun of the music#but I was really excited to see that they were keeping the same musical direction#even though this season has a different director#if anything they’ve pushed it even further#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk gojo#gojo saturo#jjk rant#hollow purple
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i just don’t understand. why say ur ready to talk if you aren’t?
can u believe this post is what got me to reach tag limit
#vaugepostimg on main about an irl don’t mind me#i just. am feeling sad bcus i have been trying to keep my distance and respect the space they said they needed. and then they reached out to#me for their book club and said we should chat and i got excited! i miss my friend of course i got excited#still let them take the lead. i want them to be comfortable. they said they’d lmk what day they were free#and then proceeded to ghost me for like. almost two weeks??#(it was 10 days but !!! still!!! almost 2 weeks from them suggesting i come to book club which would’ve inherently necessitated an irl talk#and then after all that yesterday said they actually weren’t ready which. hurted#tbf i knew something was up after like 2 days of them not replying so it’s not like i was fully caught off guard it just really hurt#and like i feel weird bcus our social circles are really overlapped and i spent a lot of time with them last winter and i had thought#that would happen again this winter. we would swim together a lot and i consistently went to their house dinners#bcus if i care about you i show up! and i’m understanding ! bcus i am patient and kind person and as a triple taurus i’m not tryna rush ever#especially when it comes to people’s emotions ??? especially if someone has told me i hurt them???? like ik im an autistic lesbian but#despite popular conceptions on that particular identity. im not fucking evil ????? if you ask for space i will give you space !!!!!#and like when it comes to emotions and conflict i’m blunt but i’m caring and it takes a lot for me to be disinfranchised by people#or relationships. so i’m not saying i don’t want to still be her friend#i’m just. noticing behaviors#they did tell me that they were very avoidant in conflict and i told them i’m very much not and like. now that i’m on the receiving end of i#idk what to do!! i’m not gonna chase her down like they’re grown!! and again!!! if you ask for space i’m going to respect that!!!#and like honestly. i’m happy she at least gave me the curtesy of saying they weren’t ready to talk even if it took her mad long to do it#so like. who tf knows when we’ll talk. if ever. probably when she wants the validation of our friendship if it even happens at all#bcus again. she reached out not to reconnect and clear the air but to check if i still wanted to come to her club she was starting#ik in earlier conversations she was worried no one would come but ig she found people. which like good for her tbh but to be honest i feel#discarded?? i’m feeling like i’m failing to not project too much so i gotta stop but idk man i’m just feeling weird about it all#and then i had the thought today of like. is this what i want in a friendship? someone who goes back and forth abt whether or not i’m worth#which again. kinda wasn’t expecting that bcus we spent so much time together last autumn/winter/spring like. many times per week!!!#so the idea of not being her friend all of a sudden?? feels fucjing weird to think about#but like? i don’t want to feel this way this is what i hate about west coast/white people conflict resolution!! there fucking isn’t any!!!#and i can’t deal with that! i can’t spend my life with people who aren’t going to engage with me as a person who cares about them#humans are fallible creatures and were only here on earth for so long so why are we wasting time here? what is the point of all this ???????#but then the guilt and shame say i deserve it all and at that point i just need to stop so. i’m gonna stop now lol
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Can we *please* have pride events that are more accessible to autistic people please golly
I lasted maybe 3 hours at pride before melting down, and that was *with sensory accommodations*. We took a break in a sensory space multiple times! I wore ear guards all the time! I wore safe comfy clothes and drank lots of cool water for temp regulation!
but huge huge crowds outside in sticky heat with packed streets and super bass boosted music. which was amplified by my ear guards. everyone was so nice when we talked to them, but I couldn’t talk to anybody because taking off my ear guards hurt too much and I was rapidly losing speech. it was fun shopping at all the art stalls and meeting people, but the stalls were closely crowded and moving between them was difficult.
like. I was the only visibly autistic person there that I saw. and I saw a LOT of people. and there were lots of other things me n my friends wanted to do, that we couldn’t do, because the place was too overwhelming and I melted down.
kinda feels lonely. I didn’t really get to talk to or meet a lot of people.
I wish there were smaller inside events alongside the huge outside ones. like a board game thing or smth. an indoor social. a few inside art stalls. *something*. Even an indoor drag show! There were drag events they were hosting and I couldn’t watch or enjoy them bc the music outside was So Fucking Loud.
there are other issues I had with that event but that’s the main thing. it turned smth I was excited to participate in, into smth I was just quietly miserable about. which kinda sucks. was worth it to go try once, but I don’t think I’d go again.
#pride#actually autistic#blue chatter#I had fun spending time with my friends and meeting other queer ppl#but now that I’m home… I’m disappointed by the pride event#I’m glad I got invited! I’m glad I got to go to pride! i was rly excited about it!#but now that I’ve gone… it just felt very lonely. even what I did get to do felt walled off because I couldn’t really talk or hear ppl#and I was so overstimulated and overwhelmed the whole time#I kinda just followed my friends around like a lost puppy#so yeah! I’m sad! there were a lot of cool people there and I would have liked to meet them#in a context that wasn’t the Torment Nexus#I’m sure pride is fun and enjoyable for lots of queer ppl and I don’t wanna rain on their parade at all#you do you! I’m sure that the loud music and lots of events outside and parade is lots of fun for u#I can’t. do it.#it sucks that a lot of the ‘core queer communities’ are places im inherently excluded from#can’t go to the club bc it’s loud#can’t walk the parade bc it’s hot outside and I get overstimulated with heat#can’t go to the pride event because I’m too overwhelmed to have fun#like. where do I even go.#I will say that my college town did have a nice drag event indoors that wasn’t too overwhelming and I had a good time there#also none of the stalls had the flag I wanted lol
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THREE MORE DAYS UNTIL MY AUTISM SCREENING RESULTS!!!!!!
#No gif can properly describe the pure terror I feel#LIKE IF THEY DECIDE IM NOT AUTISTIC#THEN I KNOW ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ABOUT MYSELF#AND IM BACK AT SQUARE ONE#I’m so excited but SO FUCKING SCARED
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i do think the amount of comparisons between black sails and ofmd - both favorable and unfavorable tbh - is a little out of hand lmao like even before the flint vs stede poll there was a lot of it and its like. they are completely different shows with completely different goals. i just saw someone call ofmd a "black sails ripoff" and honestly what the fuck are you talking about. is black sails a pirates of the caribbean ripoff?? is there only allowed to be one television show about pirates and everything else is a copy?? or is it just the fact that there are also gay characters in it? im just like there are PLENTY of real and good criticisms why does it always come back to this. let them exist separately
#if this post gets too many notes i’m deleting it. it’s not an ofmd stan post please don’t ignore the last bit#i do not want the hardcore stans getting ahold of this and then ppl interpreting ME as one 😬#the post thats going around thats like calling it 'a comedic version of black sails' you mean a comedy about pirates????#yeah they use the same characters bc they are...... real pirates........#like i know (or have to assume) its not 100% literal and maybe i am being autistic about this but i still just get. tired of it.#AND IM NOT SAYING YOU SHOULD LIKE IT OR NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT IT OR NOT MAKE FUN OF IT#shit on it and the fanbase to your hearts content but this just gets on my nerves like. idk man#then on the flip side there were ppl saying if you liked ofmd you should watch black sails!!! which like. idk.#ofc i would rec black sails to anyone bc its fantastic. but i wouldnt rec a gritty drama to someone based solely#on the fact that they enjoyed a comedy.#full disclosure i am an ofmd enjoyer! i love taika and had been excited about the project for a long time. i dont 'participate in fandom'#bc i do not like The Fandom and i havent been all that enthusiastic about the show since it was actively on/had just aired#but like i am not saying i like the show so dont talk bad about it. i am saying theres lots to say about the show#so why do we always make it about black sails#r.txt#ofmd#for ppls blacklists lmao
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this movie targets doctors, and given tl placement, lawrence would be… AROUND in john’s life……. I refuse to let go of hope until proven wrong, girl elwes please help
#saw x#lawrence gordon#I’m waiting for him until the very last frame.#this is John’s Movie™️ but lawrence was obviously an important part of his story#don’t get me wrong I’m excited about mandy & mark but Lawrence has the most unexplored detail re: ‘apprenticeship’#(hoffman got 3 movies… mandy got 2 or arguably 3 w her introduction in the first one)#he’s THERE and an important part of 7 but it still feels more like a hoffman movie to me#i wouldn’t anticipate cary’s return honestly. but..#unless we get a spin-off which would probably not be very good & sounds unrealistic anyhow this might be our last chance#to see him in official media 😔#(if they try to pull SAW XI I’m just done. probably won’t be as invested unless they switch up the structure & it’s also about larry)#it’s been said & it’s not like John is a boring guy by any means but his side of the story just reeks of saw 6&7 plot#it seems to be different enough… I’m just autistic#love those silly & fun little pigs
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I think people are only pointing out that they’re bootlegs because most vinyl collectors don’t get that excited over $100 bootlegs! As a vinyl collector who also buys bootlegs if there isn’t an official version I like them because they sound fine and make my collection feel/look more complete. However, even when a bootleg sounds near perfect, they’re not using the official master that needs to be mastered a specific way for vinyl pressing. Bootlegs really only come into play when it comes to their value and resale value so having them in your collection is really exciting I just think people are pointing out that they’re bootleg because it seemed like you guys didn’t know.
I have never collected based off monetary value in my entire life. Also again did not pay a hundred dollars. And I definitely knew I just don’t care about “official” or not.
#amelia answers asks#I’m just autistic and like listening to things on vinyl#I get this excited about seeing a cat outside. let me live
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I have been informed that Solar Flare- not Eclipse in their body- not a flashback either- ACTUAL SOLAR FLARE HAS APPEARED IN AN EPISODE
IM.
IM GONNA EXPLODE. /POS
#shut up jack#I don’t even watch the Monty and foxy show BUT#Aaaahh i always forget how autistic i am about this fella until some shit like this happens#I’m pacing around my room I’m so excited I can’t even pull up the episode#I am NOT normal actually I need to sit in the corner and rock back and forth for a minute and scream /pos
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