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skinnyhyena · 7 days ago

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This user is still not over Nosferatu

#nosferatu #blah blah text post #movies #film #i didn't cry #but on the inside I was weeping #i am STILL weeping #I was also afraid for like 3 nights

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helielune · 3 months ago

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and stalling only goes so far when you've got a head start

#nobody talk to me i am so fucking IN AGONY #HEAD IN HANDS. AT LEAST SOME PEOPLE CAN BE HAPPY???????#jinx #jinx arcane #powder #powder arcane #arcane #arcane spoilers #im afraid i have to admit guys i just stopped watching after this episode. it was so fucking (bitter) sweet and by far the happiest #i've ever been post-arcane-episode #god!!!!!!! i don't want to ruin the high!!!! and i don't want to see everyone start fucking suffering for their lives again !!!!!#in my defense i finished at like 8 am after not sleeping all night so. i was also tired. but now after waking up #i just don't want to continue Even More o777 #arcane season 2 #arcane s2 #arcane s2 spoilers #arcane season 2 spoilers #idk how fast people usually watch episodes so i'm mass tagging even more than usual #god fucking. aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #time taken on this like 3-4 hrs #in my current state of mind (completely off my rocker abt this show) i can probably fuel like Months worth of fanart #from just this one episode. sooooo what if i just never watched the rest fhhggggskfjnfnfnfndjsjd #nah i know i'm gonna end up watching it. eventually. soon probably but idk how soon. anyways. peace out guys. live laugh love 😭😭😭😭😭#my art #the funny thing about this is that i drew it facing the opposite way and then flipped it to check and never. flipped it back.#uhhhhh. don't worry about it

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lale-txt · 3 months ago

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i knew Soft Launch reached the right audience when the comments about the wlw dating being deeply relatable piled up lmao

#i think if you go there you either had or inevitably will have one very disastrous wlw date #the kind of date that seems so fake when you tell others about it but you’ve lived through the horrors 😀#and they always last at least 24h with staying the night #like you go there with a spare undie and a toothbrush in your tote bag #knowing it will NOT end well but the lengths you go to kiss a girl who lives 500km away and matched with you on a dating app #in a pool of like seven other lesbians if you live in a rural area #or even in a big city it’s always the same faces eventually and you get tired of dating your exes ex and her other ex #anyway. soft launch is for the queers i feel like i need to say that loud and clear #it’s also for the yearners and those who haven’t given up on love yet. despite everything.#it’s for the invisible children who want to be seen but also are incredible afraid of being seen #it’s for those from broken homes who need proof that found family exists and can heal many things. not everything. but a whole lot of it.#crying in the clerb about my own fic okay!!!!#i‘m not in the club i have anxiety but my point stands #soft launch is for you if it speaks to you <3 #-`♡´- tulip mail

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kwyoz · 7 days ago

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come back to haunt me.

#lowkey reminds me of a movie poster ngl #also GRAHHH i didnt want to hide the beautiful highlights in johnnys hair #also i may or may not have traced a screenshot of him bc the original sketch was so fucking rough and awful #IDCCC YOU CAN CATCH ME TRACING SCREENSHOTS OF HIM UNTIL I CAN DRAW HIM CONSiSTENTLY #also i havent rendered in a hot minute so im surprised its not completely awful #v's hair is more poorly rendered bc of the blue and red highlights AUGHHHH #i didnt want to draw them all over again ngl #so its a bit lazy and half assed #anyways i have a whole playlist for them <333 #its so depressing tho <///3 #just so much angst and grief ideas with keeping your body and giving it back endings #as i was drawing this i couldnt help but think that johnny would want to change his face so he wouldnt have to look at v #but i feel like he also wouldnt be able to bring himself to do it ngl :(((#i feel like he'd feel too guilty to touch v's face and change it #lowkey just want to constantly doodle both of them lying down curled up with grief over losing the other #was listening to stress relief by late night drive home while drawing trhis #it keeps giving me so many different ideas for anamatics inside my head lmao #anyways #my artt yippeee #i feel like i havent sat down and drawn properly in a minute #this was fun #also my unrendered version of v's face made him look malnourished #it was a jumpscare seeing it after rendering him LMFAO #his eye and nose feel too far apart but i was afraid to fix it so if it looks weird then ermmm #idk #cope ig #v and johnny #johnny silverhand #cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk

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puppppppppy · 1 year ago

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for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!!#just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!!#im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

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solar-halos · 5 months ago

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okay i know this isn’t the answer u were looking for but i just clocked out of the worst shift of my life so this is just on my mind rn:

if ur rude to service workers i genuinely think something is fucking wrong w you and u need to take time out of ur day to self reflect and figure out how to fix that about yourself. like just cos the Bitch Factory is open that doesn’t mean u have to fucking clock in i don’t care how hungry u are or if ur goldfish died or if u got hit by a fucking bus. you’re an adult—learn how to control your fucking temper

#i’ve never cried at work over work-related things #but that bitch at table 10 struck a crazy nerve #like sorry if this isn’t v customer service of me but i worked in the kitchen before this so im not afraid to yell at some customers !#but idk i just froze up in front of her she was so crazy mad at me which is like.#you’re an adult fucking act like it. which i feel like ppl are getting more and more used to as time passes #but it’s not enough do not fucking treat me like u hate me bc u sat *urself* during a busy friday night #like you’re literally giving aliens first day on earth vibes that is NOT how restaurants work #ok i’m done im literally still so heated over something that table 10 bitch isn’t even thinking about rn #i’m going to bed gn #beep beep #<3 #no actually i’m coming back bc i ALSO think that if anything ppl are becoming more entitled #“can u make an exception for me? 🥺” so what’s so crazy is that exceptions are for ppl who actually need them. not ppl w poor time managemen

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hide-your-bugs-away · 6 months ago

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gOSH I can't stop thinking about how cool it is that my friend is seeing Eric perform today....... GETTING TO SEE ALAN AND ERIC WITHIN SIX MONTHS OF ONE ANOTHER.... agGGghghG gotta add her experience to my essay 🙏 certified price-burdon moment!!!!!!!

#the fact that both alan and eric acknowledged and thanked me for my art this year also means a lot to me 🥹🥹🥹#they're both so kind despite everything and you can tell that above all else the music and its impact on people still means the most to the #i am still not over meeting alan either.......that night replays in my head every single day 😭😭💙#i'm afraid i have a counter argument to the phrase 'never meet your heroes'#as long as the hero-worship doesn't get to your head and you consider them flawless human beings #meeting the people who created art that changed your life for the better and seeing them perform live is truly an experience like no other #making plans to meet my 'hero' did wonders for my mental health... didn't cure anything of course because i have a Bad Brain but #having goals seriously makes the day a whole lot easier to tackle #hence why i want to see him again <3 #ALAN..... THANK YOU FOR ACCEPTING MY BOOK #ERIC..... THANK YOU FOR BEING SO NICE TO ME AND LIKING MY ART #jOHN TOO!!!!! JOHN LIKES MY ART TOO!!!!!!!#aNIMALS ARE MY FRIENDS.... THEY LIKE ME #aaAAAAA ANIMALS okay i really need a dr pepper #preparing myself for a big animal art post tomorrow #things i said today

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magicalgirlmascot · 2 years ago

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Thoughts about your AU where Matoro is stuck in the Ignika. (And probably Mata Nui, too.)

- Mata Nui didn't want to retreat entirely. But he'd just recently recovered from a coma, a seizure, brain damage, and damage to his heart and more of his insides. Then he socialized with people in the first time ever, worried about his people, was diminished, then fought Makuta who was in the Great Spirit Robot.

He needed another nap after all that.

- The exertion also weakened Matoro and Ignika. Ignika still has their defenses up - no touching or coming closer without their consent - but both of them were barely aware of their surroundings for a while.

- Matoro hears voices he knows talking to him. He wishes he could answer them - they often sound so sad - but he's so tired... (And to talk with him they have to don the Ignika. Which is still very dangerous for most people even with Ignika's consent.)

- However, Matoro can write with ice energy. (And do pranks. It's sometimes very boring being stuck in one place.)

- As for who can don the Ignika safely:

The Toa Mahri

Kiina and Ackar and Berix

Wairuha or Akamai (because of their connection to Mata Nui)

Vakama because he created the Mask of Time and wore it

- Ignika is lowkey scared of Vakama. They sense time-fuckery around him.

- People do rotations on a voluntary base where they read to the Ignika or tell stories. It started with Kiina who wanted to share her adventures and new experiences and hoped Mata Nui would hear her. It grew from there as a way to honor Matoro and Mata Nui and Ignika and others who died to protect the GSR inhabitants and Spherus Magna inhabitants.

Then it turns around they're still there, that they can hear them, and that they're bored.

- Mata Nui, listening and observing, has a lot of time for self-reflection. He wonders who he is: He doesn't want to be a god. Being a god didn't help him against Makuta. He couldn't help his people because he was unaware that everybody had become self-aware.

It's also amazing how big this new world is. Not in size, but in the amount and variety of lived experiences.

AAAAAA I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED THIS SOMEHOW I'M SORRY

Honestly I love all of this!! "Mata Nui is tired of being god" is one of my favourite takes on the character tbh so having him just like. completely fine with just having a nap for an undetermined amount of time in the Ignika is great lmao. He has dealt with so many medical problems in the last 1000 years he needs a nap. A real one this time, not a forcibly induced coma.

I think that Nuju would also be able to wear the Ignika, if only because 95% of the time when someone gets to wear it it's because either Matoro or Mata Nui is calming Ignika down and trusts that person completely. I also think, however, that Nuju would abjectly refuse to put it on. Absolutely not. That thing killed his closest companion. (He does go talk to it in Bird sometimes, though. If nobody else is around to see him. He has his pride. The other Turaga all 100% know though)

People Matoro Has Pranked:

All of the Mahri at least twice each

Takanuva

Berix

Kopeke (only once and he felt really bad about it after)

Nuparu also constantly comes by with various ideas for contraptions to allow Matoro (and Mata Nui by extension) to be able to communicate better. None of them work but they appreciate the effort

If Matoro thought being attached to Mata Nui was weird, actively sharing headspace with him is even weirder somehow. Mata Nui is nothing if not a considerate roommate(?) and Generally A Pretty Swell Guy. They wind up becoming pretty close friends once Matoro is finally able to get over the whole Great Spirit thing.

#bionicle #in the mata nui/ackar fic i'm slowly working on mata nui is anxious about like. the concept of sleep #he confesses to ackar that the first night he was on bara magna when he lay down to sleep he wound up meditating all night instead #because he was afraid he would fall asleep and not wake up again #and so he doesn't sleep for like. 3 days when he first arrives until ackar is like 'OK BUT YOU NEED TO SLEEP THO. PLEASE GO TO SLEEP'#but i also love this idea where he's like 'alright goodnight everyone. please don't make me god again when i wake up i hated that a lot <3'#matoro ignika au

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kirstlander · 6 months ago

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I have taken a tums and I can feel its effects.I am very sleepy.

#it's also twenty past ten at night so that will also be why #we don't get tums over here but a friend brought them back and they taste just like sweets #i had the purple one #i am trying to watch john wick 3 alas i am afraid i will get too cosy and comfy #i also was a little nervous bc i associate these things during my time having insomnia #so it's nice to take it without all of thoae worries and attachments

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floorpancakes · 11 months ago

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its about perspective dont look at me

#LISTEN #we used to be a real country #i say knowing tsuba was always the favoured sister series #but COME ON NOW....#i suppose they both got iconic spots #they should make clamp in wonderland 3 that is just douwata #im joking i love the variety but i want to eat up more holic content yum #unless the holic content is a weird plot twist in rei or something #if the continuation after all that hiatus time ends up being a tsuba fetch quest or making watanuki clow im going to start #punching people #and hitting clamp with large hammers #i love clamp but i have one eye open at night imagining the things that could go wrong with rei #it has to be said #this isnt what this post was about OOPS #xxxholic #i know 99 percent of the few clamp fans there are left are tsuba mains #and that it has always been this way #dont question my actions its ok be not afraid #its clamp i have beef with lol #but also clamp r so cool #but also i have beef iwth them #such is being a clamp stan #twitter repost #rambling dont mind me #**meant to say 99 percent of the holic fans are tsuba mains #makes me feel kinda awkward cause im not a fan of tsuba altho im down to give it another try later #and i feel. mixed feelings as to clamp has handled their connection #especially cause it feels like holic is the 'losing side' and was always less favoured #but thats old news by now it just makes me nervous to bring that up now i actually follow a lot more fans Lol

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switch-bladefights · 11 months ago

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i love gerard way

#i’m intoxicated it’s my bday night out!!!!!!#i sang 5 mcr songs at karaoke!!!!!!!#and it’s so true gerard way the person you are #you are my muse you are my saviour #when i was singing famous last words i felt it #also shout out to tayla if you see this i <3 u #but like yeah famous last words hit harder tonight it’s easier to sing that you’ll keep on living that you’ll walk this world alone when #you’ve consumed plenty of alcohol oopsie #i just remember being stood there and thinking yeah i can do this #i’ll feel different when i get back off holiday this week and have to face reality again #but until then #I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE HONEY IF YOU STAY ILL BE FORGIVEN NOTHING YIU CAN SAY #etc #also they won’t see this cos they don’t have tumblr but becca tilda kairren beth and alex i lov u

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nogchompa · 2 years ago

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Feeling a little troubled ...... last night (a few hrs ago ig) my nana (whom i moved in wit bc the tenant she was renting the upstairs 2 died n i needed 2 get out of a shitty roommate situation so the stars aligned etc) mentioned in passing that she was in my apt while i was gone, she mentioned she was looking 4 something bt then changed it 2 checking 2 see if i caught the bus.....i told her basicly i loved her n ment no offense bt my privacy is rly important 2 me n so could she pls not go into my pad when im not there bc it gives me anxiety (which she has also so i was tryna rel8 a lil bit) n she just kinda shut down n started feeling bad abt herself n getting upset tht i thought she wld go thru my stuff . Idk i jus had 2 put this down sumwhere n i havent gotten a new journle yet sigh

#i mean she is. Very ancient bless her in evry way shes 81 so im sure shes just . kinda losin it 4 a lack of a better way 2 put it n . Aughgg #Life is very intimid8ng n i wanna take care of her bt shes so afraid of Everything ever n its stressing her out so much she cant sleep #So then shes coming up 2 my apt (btw i dont have a key 4 my inside door so i keep it unlocked) Late as Haell like 3 4 AM #Asking me 2 sit downstairs w her till she falls asleep . N i keep giving her advice on sleeping better like .#If u sit on the couch watching tv most of the day..when u go 2 bed n do the same thing u wont get tired frm it #Or rrlaxing yr body n focusing on yr breathing Dont put the tv on if yr brain is paying attn 2 wats goin on there #Then u cant focus on sleeping .#And i ask if she understands n if shes listening bt then Every Night doesnt change how her routine is n i just Dont .. I Want 2 Help So Bad #But what can i do when ur not even listening 2 the vry basic lifestyle cuanges u Need 2 make or yr gna worry yrself sick :((((#I dnt think impatronizing i try 2 be gentle n understanding but also like . Semi profesh like Boundaries need 2 b had if im here longterm #Bt she doesnt rlly get that bc shes Very insecure sbt herself i think she just ... Internalizes it into like #Thinking shes burdoning me or makes me feel rlly gulty 4 needing alone time i just . Idk how 2 have this talk w her cuz i feel like #I alrdy have a million times . God i do love her so so much n im scared 4 this future i just want her 2 b happy bbut #im still tryna figure out how 2 even Talk 2 Anybody let alone a very sensitive farm raised senior #Damn this is a vent post and a half #999

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tittysuckersworld · 2 years ago

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i cut my hair again!!