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~ me crawling out of my bed on the first day of the new year
⥠â§ÍâșËàŒâŸ Happy lovely 2025 âœàŒïœ„Ëâșâ§Í âĄ
~ vm '24 ~
#velunamoon#zombie cat#i love zombies#and this will be my zombie year#and the year of being myself#myself to the fullest#I want to show so much of myself#my truest being#I am so excited and happy to be alive#I am so happy to be me#finally I start to accept myself#selflove journey#happy new year#I drew this in october for inktober / drawlloween#and I wasn't rly happy abt it#but now I look at it#and I see the beauty in the unperfect#this makes me proud#proud of myself
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Ooh, you want to know what happens at the gay bar run by ex-pirates, ooh...You'll just have to read Tiger Tiger to find out...
(Inspired by this Disco Elysium comic)
#tiger tiger#remy bonnaire#Arno#jamis arlesi#f slur mention#(Remy is allowed to say it. Jury is still out on Jamis though.)#I love that disco elyisum comic so much. I have it saved in several places so I can find it to show people. I lost it once. Never. Again.#Hard lesson about redrawing/heavily referencing a beloved comic is that you will feel so inferior to its genius.#I did my best but I feel like I didn't hit the high notes I wanted. Such is art!#At the end of the day I have to remind myself that I'm still on a journey and not every piece is going to be my best.#Yeah I'm still on my Tigers propagana train. Toot Toot. All abord or perish to the Tigers.#I hear tigers are running the Olympics this year. That's right. It's tigers all the way down.#Obscure references aside; time to talk tigers spoilers:#I was absolutely losing my mind at Remy taking Jamis to the Starfall. He did *not* expect to be in a gay bar.#Jamis is our beloved bisexual lad but I don't think he's fully in tune with it yet.#How down right unfortunate that he is also the hottest cub in the room. Will he realize? What will he realize? Who Knows!#Thank you to everyone who checked out Tiger Tiger from my recommendations!#And thank you to my fellow Tigers fans for receiving my comics with open arms. Next comic will be about Rat Man.
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My first ever comic con! And first cosplay too. Of course it's gonna be my boy :] Ramblings about the process are under the cut(Let me know if?? You would want me to elaborate with process images for any of the steps?)
The costume took me forever to make, as I've never done any machine sewing, sculpting, fabric dying or spray painting before but learning all of these was so fucking fun!! I never realised just how many different skills go into making a cosplay but it was so worth it!!!
Almost all of the clothes(except the hat) were purchased first as bases, but all of the detailing was added by me. All of the fabric used was originally just scraps that I was given for free so I needed to learn how to dye and dye all of the stars, they were originally white.
The sewing machine was its own beast that brought me tons of frustration from the lack of skill and knowledge (it was devastating to find out that 95% of fuck ups were my fault and not the machine's lmao). But as a result, a hat sewn from scratch, all of the fur trims, embroidery on the corset, stars and the collar(which is very hard to see on the pictures unfortunately) was all added manually. The stars and the stripes(on the back of the cape) were attached using heat-and-bond adhesive (I WISH I knew about such thing just when I started working on this. It would save me so much time and nerves.)
Then I found out about polymorph(mouldable plastic) and it has become the next thing I wanted to learn, to sculpt the claws and the fangs(yes, they're handmade jfksjs). The claws I then primed and painted in trillion coats because I wasn't satisfied with the colour of the spray paint. The fangs I moulded to my own teeth and then stained with tea to match the colour of my teeth :)c
As for makeup, I used Mehron Paradise water activated paints. At first I wanted to try to save money and bought myself Snazaroo instead, which unfortunately turned out to be a waste. Snazaroo didn't hold on my face for longer than 2 hours, cracking and peeling awfully. Mehron on the other hand survived 11 hours of me smiling, talking, emoting and such and didn't even crease at the smile lines(I'm actually shocked about that). It obviously works like any other makeup which means your skin texture and wrinkles won't go anywhere but Mehron's elasticity pleasantly surprised me. It did obviously smear from sweat and saliva(if you're eating and licking your lips) but if you don't touch the skin it just dries again, self setting. But if it's dry it's fully smear-proof. Highly recommend!
And last but not least, I've decided against painting my hands as it was very risky that I will stain everything I touch at the smallest hint of sweat. So instead I got myself gloves-tights(? Not sure how they're called but it's made from the same fabric as tights) and painted them with normal acrylic paint(did you know you could dye fabric with acrylic paint? I personally didn't), then heat set with an iron and voilĂ , they're reusable, my hands are not stained after an exhausting day and I don't stain everything I touch. It worked wonderfully which honestly was a surprise as I was really sceptical that acrylic paint will somehow stay in place.
I think this whole thing took me minimum of 6 months with big-big breaks for my school and life in general. But I'm really proud! This project taught me so many new skills and I couldn't have been happier about learning new knowledge, even if it sucked to fail in the meantime.
Everyone at the con was really nice and gave me a large confidence boost even tho it was my first time and I had no idea what I was doing. Taking photos with other people was really awkward/new for me as I hate cameras so I really had no idea how to pose/behave in front of one. But that's okay I think. This whole experience definitely made me want to do this again, so I think that will come with experience. Thank you for reading this far, hope you enjoyed this little summary :)
#my art#cosplay#biting the hand that feeds au#moondrop#fnaf moondrop#fnaf moon#moondrop fnaf#moon fnaf#bhtf moondrop#i had such a good time#little awkward moments of me being autistic and not reading social cues and/or having trouble processing didn't go anywhere#but that's okay#i don't think i was ever complimented as much as i was complimented at the con so that's a W#artist alley was definitely an experience of me just finding out how actually autistic i am#because i really Am Not Interested in anything aside from my special interests#literally got myself a singular Moon sticker and a singular Mothman print#that's it lmfaooo#i also had people come up to me to just give me a tiny plastic newborn toy and run away#10/10 hilarious#bhtf au#i MIGHT just draw Moon in some of those poses because đ#also maybe will make a separate post just showing off all of the details that are not as noticeable on camera? maybe? if yall would want#the cape and the hat ARE SO FUCKING FLUFFY#thank you silvermizuki for the furđ«”
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So I got obsessed w a certain song for a short period there....
#homestuck#erisol#eridan#sollux#eridan ampora#sollux captor#artists on tumblr#hs fantroll#eridan ampora x sollux captor#eridan x sollux#lady gaga#die with a smile#bruno mars#oKAY SO I CAN EXPLAIN#I got rlly into this song and made a bunch of art#and i thought of erisol#and im like#im an artist#and i could do whatever i want#i HAVE SO MUCH POWER#And yeah....now here we are#this was a BITCH to color#i didnt want to post it#but i told myself to let it go#i see alot of imperfections#but i feel like#its okay to show that youre not great at art#and to just post what you have#let people see you grow#myart
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HELL YES
They said in the comments that these are all canon đđđđđđđđđđ happy pride to us holy shit
#helluva boss#Personally it's Octavia being ace for me. I'm not even ace myself but I love this representation so much omg#Also curious how some don't have flags. I don't doubt some of them are straight but I think they just don't want to reveal some sexualities#Maybe because they want it to be revealed in the show. Maybe because the characters themselves don't know/don't want to share#helluva blitz#helluva stolas#helluva vassago#helluva andrealphus#helluva moxxie#helluva millie#helluva beelzebub#helluva fizzarolli#helluva ozzie#helluva octavia#helluva barbie wire#Helluva Chaz#helluva verosika#helluva sallie may#image description in alt
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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder
â°â†âAt times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if youâre living with this illness and functioning at all, itâs something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher
#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies#(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless#shamelessnet#shamelessedit#ian gallagher#cameron monaghan#*macygifs#bipolar disorder#hello pals how are we doin#i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags#and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation#that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day#world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder#which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life#while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life#and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines#over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful#i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended#hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles#world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder#and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all#it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen#so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it#i promise#anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder#go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives
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I think the thing that shocks me the most about the discourse, if you can even call it that, around book Alicent vs show Alicent, is the idea that people think book Alicent had full autonomy over all her choices and she wasnât a âvictimâ like show Alicent.
Now first, I put victim in quotations bc the way people who do not like her have almost bastardized that word. Alicent is a victim, and those things (rape, abuse, neglect) were done to her. That says everything about the men who did that do her and nothing about her. But people are hellbent on throwing Alicent, a woman in a violently patriarchal environment, being victimized back at people as if it is moral flaw of hers. Which is just terribly ironic bc the same folks who say Alicent âdid it to herselfâ or âdeserves what she is gettingâ also seem to think the crux of the story isnât about generational trauma catching up with itself, how far people will go for power, or even how all girls and women are harmed - albeit to different degrees. But more the fact that Rhaenyra is the only woman to be harmed - and the only harm done is not getting the throne easily. Those same people wouldnât be caught dead admitting that Rhaenyra is also a victim in the way they shit on Alicent for being. From the father who sets her up fail, to the baby daddy thatâs been eyeing her since she was barely 18, to the uncle that grooms her. It takes away from the fantasy projected onto Rhaenyra if she too is surrounded by men that use her and she never escapes that.
Second, itâs funny how F&B gets heralded by some as this exploration of how history is skewed depending on who is telling it. But people canât read between the lines (you honestly donât even have to do that much work) with book Alicent. Showing 14 year old Alicent being preyed on, 16 year old Alicent being pregnant with her second child, and 18 year old Alicent being raped is somehow the show needlessly making Alicent a victim. But reading about a 13 year old bathing, dressing, and taking care of a king who mistakes her for the daughter he abused and neglected, and then that same girl, at 18, marrying another king that killed his previous child bride is just girl bossism on book Alicentâs part?
People hate conceptualizing the idea that (even book) Alicent is caught in patriarchal trappings bc to some that takes away from Rhaenyraâs plightâŠ. Bc they canât wrap their heads around several women *gasp* all going through hardships, and that ultimately people will respond to trauma differently depending on tools/knowledge they have at their disposal. Alicent neither being gleefully evil nor picking herself up by her bootstraps to somehow end years of patriarchal violence is not the neat box they want for her.
#people want Alicent to gleefully be evil not bc it would be more interesting (newsflash it wouldnât)#but so they can be justified placing her in the âevil womanâ category#bc to them their is only âgood womanâ and âbad womanâ#but since the show doesnât lineup perfectly with the woman they made up⊠they put her in the âweak womanâ category#bc the only thing worse for a woman than being a bitch is being perceived as passive in your demise#trust me I would have loved to see Alicent let Viserys rot and plot against him just as much as the next person#but please do not act like that wasnât probably self preservation and trauma on book Alicentâs part#not her doing it for shits and giggles#and lbr the same people wishing the show went that route wouldâve been the same people STILL shitting on her#pro alicent hightower#alicent hightower#pro team green#anti viserys i targaryen#anti targaryen#ok NOW Iâm done lol#told myself no more of these lol
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ARLIGHT PEOPLE, AFTER A TON OF HARD WORK AND HAIR PULLING, i present to thee....
My designs for Calypso and Circe!!
#artists on tumblr#art#digital art#artwork#fanart#Character Design#Epic the Musical#epic the circe saga#circe saga#circe epic the musical#circe#Circe design#calypso#Calypso wisdom Saga#I am so so happy with the final designs of the two HEHEHEHEHE#I THINK THEY BOTH LOOK VERY LOVELY!! AND I AM PROUD#ESPECIALLY CIRCE'S#I popped off with her#AND I DID SAY SHE WAS GONNA HAVE ONE TIT OUT#Just covered with her hair for that family-friendliness for the blog lol#I would ramble about my thoughts behind tge designs but. it's night. I am not putting myself through that LOL#And you mightnbe thinking...#Where js my design for Odysseus??#i SWEAR I HAVE A DESIGN FOR HUM. IT'S ALMOST DONE. I JUST NEED TO FINALLY SOME SMALL TPUCHES BEFORE I SHOW HIM#AND AND#WOMEN ARE MUCH EASIER TO DESIGN FOR ME- SO THAT'S WHY I FINISHED DESIGNING HIM AND NOT ODYSSEUS...#he's coming i swear#â What PĂ©nelope tells herself while waiting for Odysseus LOL#I also want give a shoutout to Gigi because MAAAAN#THEIR DESIGNS ARE SO SO GOOD THEY INSPIRE ME A LOT WITJ MY CHARACTER DESIGNING
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you think it'll ever be the same again between us?
#sorikai#sora#riku#kairi#kh3#kingdom hearts#thareniart#if the games don't show me the aftermath of sora's disappearance then fine i will draw it myself#also i just really wanted to draw the difference in dynamics esp cause i love exploring riku and kairi's dynamic#they deeply care about one another but they also both love sora so much you can't tell me it would be sunshine and rainbows#they'd be so heartbroken with no one to take it out on other than each other
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[sharing/rb appreciated đ]
my silver artbook is FINISHED and will open for preorders on 8/31 at 12pm EST!! it's been almost 3 months of work and i'm so excited to finally be able to share all the art i've worked on, PLUS a small bonus charm!
if u know silver fans,,, tell them
#FINALLY! i'm finishing up setting the shop this week and orders will open on da weekend <3 couldn't be prouder than i'm doing it#i went back and found my first statement of wanting to draw this series and it was end of MAY and now here we are!!! hes REAL#ive always wanted to publish some sort of artbook or personal zine but showing unrelated pieces felt wrong i need it to be a PIECE#so this series was perfect. im making this book for all of us. silver fans must win we have to we must. but also. im making it for me#i love him so much i crave more work for him desperately so i feed myself. and i love the diasom community i love us i LOVE US!!!!#no crumbs. no. only a full meal. the finest i can offer. silver my son you are sleepy and wonderful and i love you dearly#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#diasomnia#silver vanrouge#if anyone has questions feel free to reach out however!! qs or dms or whatever. i got ur back <3#suntails
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Evolution
Some earlier concept sketches I loved but ultimately couldnât do cuz there was just so much of it
#hereâs to the future!!#happy new year everyone I hope things go your way#sorry Iâve been gone Iâve been thrusted back into job hunting hell and havenât been feeling digital art so much#I have been sketchbooking tho acrylic markers are so fun#maybe Iâll show you guys one day I have a few that Iâm really proud of :)#digital art#my art#journey to the west#jttw sun wukong#jttw#monkey king#sun wukong#yes I know thereâs a lot of elements missing like his makeup and cockroach antlers but I just really wanted to get this out already lol#gave myself a deadline like imagine if I posted this in February the pace I was goin -w-
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Happy Birthday to Fallen London; My favourite British people beefing it with bats simulator.
#fallen london#ambition: nemesis#mr.cups#Happy belated birthday to me: I finished my Nemesis ambition. I get to make a fun comic about it. THAT WAS THE DEAL!!!#...Is what I would have said had I not spent *four* days trying to draw a cool dramatic comic. This is all I have to show for it.#I also missed posting this on the Flondon anniversary so I'm double Smad and frustippointed at myself.#This is niche content but I know there are flondoners following me who will understand.#I had to make a second account because all my friends who I played with *also* picked Nemesis and dropped the game at various gates.#I failed every possible check at Knifegate. I was on the verge of madness. And yet I still love this game.#Little known secret about me: over 70% of the blogs I follow on tumblr are flondon rp blogs.#The cool art and character lore brings me a lot of joy!#With that said; what the hell is the coincidence that right as I finish Nemesis -#The flondon community starts a Nemesis Race.#Guys. itâs not worth it. It is a revenge quest about losing everything you have to see your task through.#All to culminate in the discovering that you are beefing it with a fanfiction writing bat.#That said; I do feel like this story was very satisfying for my melancholic doctor.#I knew I would get the choice between sparing or killing my nemesis (the bat) and I had a long time to think it through.#Someone who wants to save lives and (does as much as possible to do make things better for others) choosing against mercy?#Someone who never permitted themselves to let the city truly become a home because they were not a person - they were a tool for grief.#Alright..Yeah the ending was really good.#I will be back with a part two. Clearly I'm tenacious enough to commit to what I started.#If I am not excommunicated on sight by the flondon community I will be back with comics for the other ambitions.
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Get in the fucking biograft, Shuriken. (EVANGELION/PHIGHTING!)
(og screenshotâs/cover under text!) Why hello there to my tumblr followers, itâs been a awhile /silly
ANYWAYS!!! Guess who recently finished the EVA franchise minus the rebuilds and has been in a horrible chokehold over it, this anime ruined my life but hey at least its intro theme is niceâŠâŠ
Well, I wanted to draw some stuff for it! All together these pieces took exactly 48 hours and 20 minutes⊠with the cover-piece taking ~35(?) of those hours. These were⊠very, VERY time costly safe to say LOL,,, I am super, SUPER proud of how the cover came out though, everything on it was drawn, colored, rendered, edited, whatever, BY HAND stroke by stroke (as you can see below)
The text, the lineart, the shadows, the colors, the snowflakes on the bio and Shuri, EVERYTHING was done by hand, it was horribly time costly but it did come out very, VERY well in the end I would say (fun fact! I also didnât originally have the textless version of the cover, and I had to trace all of the lineart for bioâs tophalf by just guessing what line when where and what the hell was going on /silly)
this was a very, very hard project to do all together, but it was also a really nice learning experience too, Iâm happy i did it thatâs for sure :3!
(og screenies + cover)
#its. Done#ho. ly.#FUCK#its finally done#48 hours of work later and Iâm FREEEEEEEE (lie) /silly#Eva has been rotting my brain into oblivion recently#I am oh so traumatized and mentally disturbed but man this anime does hold a very special place in my heart#And so does PHIGHTING! which is why this exists /silly#So! About this#This isnât an au- not really at least. I donât think I could live with myself if I made this a serious au#I love Eva with all my heart but I feel like itâs just a little too mature to combine with something like phighting LMAO#I donât want to be the reason why some poor 12 year old finds out about EVA and then is subsequently traumatized for life because an#Artist they like combined the two /j#Okay seriously though yeah! This is really just a fun little âwhat ifâ situation- bascially of what characters would be who and how would a#Small bit of the world building work#Other then that I have been trying to avoid putting much thought into it#Credits to my friend Torch for getting me into this hell-show by the way /vsilly#art#artists on tumblr#phighting#digital art#phighting roblox#phighting fanart#phighting art#roblox phighting#phighting!#evangelion fanart#neon genesis evangelion#the end of evangelion#neon genesis fanart
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JULIE AND THE PHANTOMS (2020) // JULIE E OS FANTASMAS (2011) 1.01 - Wake Up // 1.01 - Enfrentando Fantasmas -> Julie meets the Band.
#julie and the phantoms#julie e os fantasmas#jatp#mine#mine:gif#storytime: when i was in middle school i found myself to be obsessed with julie e os fantasmas (jeof)#and by watching it i have learned some words in portoguese which - later in my life - i have always wanted to learn better#besides that - in middle school i used to wear julie's iconic side ponytail !! i was THE biggest jeof fan like EVER#i used to watch it with my little sister and i would pretend i had some ghosts friends as well - popping out of my stereo (lol)#so... flash forward to 2020. i can't recall HOW i found out about jatp... it's just that i have heard of it and i was like hold on...#does this have to do anything with jeof? so i was super intrigued and watched the pilot and YES!! a brand new up-to-date remake#of my favorite tv show as a kid LIKE WOW. and idk i thought it was somehow underground as the og one ... saw NO ONE talking about it online#until up recently when i got back on tumblr (actually 2 years ago) and i saw there was this LIVELY community of people appreaciating this#show AS MUCH as i was appreciating the og as a youngster.#goes without saying that it was so surprising to me and it healed parts of me that i didn't think needed to be healed. wow. just wow.#i have never posted content for these two bad boys#mostly bcs i was salty that jatp was canceled (ugh) until now!! i hope you enjoyyyyy#ALSO i remember as a kid i was watching jeof on tv right? but i had missed some episodes so i remember LMAO going online and there was this#website (like a random person's own website) that was hosting all of the episodes. my very first experience with streaming series online
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firmly believe that mythic quest is one of those shows that should have like 22 episodes per season
#like. it just makes so much sense!!!!#(honestly i think most shows should go back to having that many episodes im a little over every show having like 10 episodes a season)#but like especially mythic quest#pull a reverse b99 cmon!! go from 10 episodes to 23 it would be great!#am i just saying this because i want more of brad and jo? yes absolutely!#mythic quest#morty talks woah#i changed the tags cuz i repeated myself a lot n i didnt like it so if u saw the old tags no u didnt
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Thanks to @teatitty for the idea!! Original under cut
#Starscream#maccadam#transformers#i showed my girlfriend and said âyou'll NEVER believe what he's getting up to on Friday nightâ#and her guess was âgetting railed?â đ#did I have to put this much effort into a silly little shit post? literally HOURS of my life? no. but I'm me <33 so ofc I did#mfer is up to NOTHING no one wants his aft#he's my favorite btw#i haven't posted most of what I've been drawing but it's bad. he's getting to me. get me out of here. PLEASE#anyway hi hello teatitty if you're reading this I may or may not have other stuff in the works inspired by your posts#(ding ding ding. it's me that one anon hi I'm gonna kms I'm so embarrassed)#my art#fanart#artists on tumblr#idkk what else am I supposed to be tagging#gonna post it before I talk myself into not doing it because it's âuglyâ (it's literally fine what am I on about)
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