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Sometimes I wish I didnāt care about anything
#my sister posted an article from l*desire news about#why this young priest is clinging to the tlm despite restrictions that want to deprive the faithful blah blablah blablah#so what you mean is glorifying disobedience thatās cool#I donāt care if youāre not choosing the tlm out of hate and division#itās divisive#it just is and it canāt be helped#that conversation is over#pope Benedictās well intentioned attempt to unify the church has borderline destroyed and the tlm should be suppressed#but maybe Iām just saying all that because Iām angry and emotional who knows#but anyone who is trying to say that a priest can choose the tlm in defiance of his bishop WITHOUT fostering division is deluding themself#anyway I wish I didnāt care#I wish I didnāt want to say something nasty and crushing#itās not because I hate my sister itās becUse Iām so confused and overwhelmed and tired of things being complicated and fraught#I want to ignore everything forever
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maybe controversial take, but i like to think of erik being mostly a huge ladiesā man (look at all the bitches he gets canonically, he canāt NOT love the ladies) but charles is just...... this HUGE exception, lmfao. for a while he was totally oblivious to the fact that he was into charles like that but then one day it smacked him HARD across the face that their Very Special Friendship is actually romantic. heās since embraced being a bisexual disaster but before charles he had no clue.
would be even funnier if erik and charles had already fooled around a couple times before erik actually realized he was attracted to him. who among us hasnāt fucked their completely platonic bro??
it cant be a controversial take if youre onto something my friend .....
#snap chats#now some might say that a beautiful woman and charles xavier are not that different. are they right? who's to say really.#erik spedning time with charles and getting that gross feeling in his chest known as love and just thinking#'ah yeah no this is simply because charles is an esteemed colleague of mine whom i respect immensely'#completely ignoring the homosexual ideas he has in the back of his mind he is forcibly ignoring those. Charles Is His Friend. His Ally.#but does erik want him to be more ........ dare he think it .... nay ......... he is being foolish ....#it is only because charles was the first mutant he knew .. that is why he feels so special about him... surely no other reason ...#surely not because his Intelligent-If-Not-Frustratingly-Idealistic friend is incredibly handsome with beautiful lips and gorgeous eyes no..#lowkey is canon tho .... like it is gen so funny how often these two will say Very Flowery Shit about each other#like guys thats ..... hm ..... far beyond anything id say about my friend really !!!!!! maybe im just an asshole tho idk !!!!#im still not over that bit where charles was like 'yeah erik and i spend hours if not days on the phone. our wives are very confused'#girl your wives are confused cause theyre still yalls wives they are going to divorce yall so you two can get together instead šš#in any case ... always a big fan of What Are We hcs ... shit makes me laugh forever ...#wdym yall basically raise a mansion of kids and talk about being each others everythings and youre still like 'we're just friends right'#my guy can be eight inches in his best friend and still be like 'surely this what all friends do'. ridiculous. i love them.
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Turns out Sunlit Trail isn't quite done just yet, so after all that they just send you to a dead end š
#rain world#comic#rw chasing wind#sunlit Trail#Hunter#Art#Chasing wind spoilers#I can't imagine anyone filters that tag but just in case sksksks#ANYWAYS turns out mod is way better than I expected and it's super well made.#So far made the trip as hunter (first time) then riv and now working on arti.#For arti I realized that howling rifts led to sub and sub led to dar shore so I was like sweet! A shortcut!#Now imagine for a sec trying to get through a parkcore + miros bird gauntlet with a corpse and a worm within 5 cycles#before the scav ran out of karma and you were stuck inside forever. Yeah#Besides that tho I've been messing around and been very tenderly modding the game.#Turns out you can have a bit of fun with most sprites without too much effort by simply cloning the MSC mod in your files#Then changing the copy's mod info so it doesn't clash and simply swapping images out for whatever you want#As long as you have the sprite name you can do this. You can also change region names and decals and music all sorts of stuff.#In short I've been brewing a custom mod for a friend to make her suffer as much as possible <3#Thanks to a buddy on the rw server for showing me that trick btw lol. The best cesspool I've ever participated in#Oh before I forget- the symbol on CW's head is completely made up. They just looked so... Bald.#Tbh I wasn't expecting their personality to be so... bright? Most interpretations make them kinda solemn and gloomy#But nah this CW is what NSH should've been 100%. I like them. Not gonna spoil too much but their situation is somehow so... chill.#Still bad tho!#Other fun news! There's a scammer going around on discord that's basically like ''bad news I reported you for fraud''#And they're getting a lot of people. My buddy that owned my home server got hit and we lost everything. It's all OK tho nobody was hurt#I keep trying to ask them questions on my alts but they're ignoring me... I kinda wanna bait them into doing the scam with me#to see how far I get before they catch on š#Wasting a scammer's time is never a waste of time#Ah I had more to say but I reached my tag max. Till next time- hopefully my animation project will be done by then!
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bangel x like real people do
for the @iwillrememberyoumarathon 2024 <3
#buffy x angel#bangel#buffy summers#buffy#bangeledit#angel the series#buffy the vampire slayer#otp: all i see is you#please ignore the one grammar error my ocd (actual condition not just saying that) wants me to delete everything i've ever made#trying really hard to be brave and not so uh yeah please ignore it im distraught not joking ahahahahahahahahaha#anyways the crux of this edit is i love bangel <3#if you choose to watch i love you forever
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okay but watching pomme and richas' family growing RACE gets so intense. okay. look.
pomme: baghera, antoine, aypierre, kameto, etoiles, bad, and max (from aypierre) for parents; dapper as sibling; maxpierre twin babies for siblings. she has ten family members in total.
richas: forever, pac, mike, cellbit, felps, roier, and quackity for parents; foolish and vegetta as grandmas; and leo as an aunt. if we count bobby as richas' deceased step-brother, then richarlyson has eleven family members in total.
they both have seven parents in total.
pomme is catching up. richas its time to start whoring your dads out again. dont let her win
#maybe he'll get lucky tho and pac will come back from kidnapping with another#it would be SO funny if she overtook him and somehow got another dad tho#like after everything else that richas has going on if he lost his 'most parents' title.... itd just be real sad#poor kid#on the other hand pomme doesn't have any dead or missing family members (that she knew/was close to) so maybe she's winning anyway#qsmp#its just really really funny#i hope bad and forever kiss. i hope aypierre gets official dad status over richas also. i hope etoiles and pac get married#i want these families to converge into the biggest mass to make the most terrifying graph know to the island#note: i basically ignored all aunts/uncles because a) i forgor#and i've continued ignoring them because b) basically every player is an aunt/uncle to every egg regardless of relationship to other player
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the thing Iām very interested to see is Hardingās relationship to other dwarves as her weird magic manifests.
sheās a surfacer; I feel like no matter what happens, Orzammar dwarves are going to point at her as an example, saying, āthis is what happens when you lose your stone sense, you basically become a human, and this is why you should stay underground because weāre safe down hereā
#dragon age#datv spoilers#lace harding#iām of two minds about this bc like. on one hand hell yeah dwarf magic. titan connection. etc#on the other hand. she doesnāt really have a connection to any of that lol#the thing abt stone sense and the titan connection makes sense when you are surrounded by lyrium underground#but she was born in redcliffe#i hope we get to see whatās going on underground. iāve been waiting to see kal sharok forever#but i also kind of want to go back to orzammar#because at this point i genuinely donāt know!! if itās dwarf magic reawakening or if itās just going to be#exactly what my hypothetical orzammar guy says lol. magic is EVERYWHERE with the veil falling#and sheās not safe BECAUSE she wasnāt born underground#i want it to be unique but uhhh dragon age worldbuilding tendency to ignore dwarves and put elves behind everything#i guess weāll see#mine#harding
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My hot take is that marcanne has as much potential for toxic yuri as any other calamity trio ship and it's not nearly as soft and fluffy as one may think
#amphibia#marcanne#anne boonchuy#marcy wu#in one hand: marcy kidnapped her. by giving her AS A BIRTHDAY GIFT something that was meant to benefit HER#(yes she didn't know it would work but the point is that she thought about herself first. even though it was her best friend's birthday)#she never wanted to come back. she wanted to keep her with her forever. she was happiest when they were together#most importantly she saw what she did as a good thing. as something good that she gave to her#yet still lied to her. After what happened with Sasha#she still lied to her. became another person to betray Anne#then she fucking died for her ššš#on the other hand. you have anne#she looked after her. she certainly loved her. but she didn't care much about the things that were important to marcy#nor did she care about her feelings or needs. she and sasha third-wheeled her for years#even though marcy came first#she could only really see her once sasha was gone#you have to remove her from the equation for both of them to flourish and connect#because the shadow of sasha's abuse oppressed them for so long. anne and marcy reuniting in S2 looked a lot like two people escaping#abuse together. healing together. coming into their own. becoming better people. they get to know themselves and each other much more deeply#now that they're free. only - they aren't free. they're constantly thinking about sasha. when sasha comes back they welcome her#they reproduced the toxic patterns she left of them#though i'll recognize that in anne's case she healed a lot more from sasha's toxicity than marcy#and you can see that in how her way of relation to marcy is a lot healthier than marcy's way of relating to anne#anne is now truly and genuinely connecting to her friend. marcy is still lying to her#pushing down her feelings. ignoring her own needs. pretending everything is okay. lying lying lying#anne was the only one who could escape but marcy couldn't quite move on yet. she couldn't be free#hope this makes sense i'm writing it at 4am i'll delete tomorrow if i realize it sounds dumb
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i think i'm just fundamentally evil and broken ?
#went on a walk#it's so sad outside#i listened to the latest mitski album twice and i was on the verge of tears the entire time#i guess i thought time did heal old wounds but maybe ignoring and avoiding the wounds is not the same as healing them#im having thoughts and feelings that im so ashamed of#i dont feel like theres anyone i can tell this to im just afraid it'll change how they perceive me forever#im not even sure how to explain things to myself#am i normal am i wrong#all i want is to curl up into my bed and have someone take care of me#but i can't do that i need to grow up and there are things to do and i can't have everything i want always#i'll try and work on this assignement for thirty or forty five minutes or something and then ill allow myself to curl up into a ball and cr#or maybe i'll knit and watch something and get myself busy bc thats what i do#i just avoid the uncomfortable parts of myself thinking theyll go away or something#it's the greed#it's the greed.
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His Imperial Majesty, the First Emperor of the cultivation world š¤
As always, done in Autodesk Sketchbook.
#thegreymoon draws#mo ran#2ha#2ha fanart#ignore the wonky anatomy#i have not painted a nekkid dude in many many many years#not that i was any good at anatomy back then#i just spent zero time in between then and now improving and also forgot everything i knew#i have three more references from this batch that i want to do with him#but this took me forever and a day#i'm not sure i will have the willpower to power through three more#all of which are more difficult
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in my perfect world everyone makes so many lesbian muses the men then have to deal with the exact same behavior when every single post ever written isnāt about dick.
#CLAWS RETRACTED.#[real talk: Iām a lesbian transmasc little enby guy. but my gender? is lesbian. itās how I explain it. my attraction to women is a part of#my innate gender. thatās just how it is and the two things inform one another. heteronormativity is still so alive and now everyone can put#it under progressive little labels where the character is bisexual but everything thatās focused on for miles is the hetcoded shit. itās a#cool little thing people do now. it went from when I was a kid and āthereās no such thing as bi youāre just confusedā to āeveryone is bi#because it gives me points but I will never meaningfully observe the queer aspect of that identity and it can make me seem comfortable with#queer identitiesā. itās lip service so much of the time. and I never ever ever say youāre only valid if you write bi characters in a#queercoded relationship. bisexuality is forever valid always even if youāve NEVER been in a queer relationship. but this is writing and#real bisexual people (Iām not even bi Iām literally a lesbian) have experiences irl that make them feel shitty#when they see them boiled down to shallow. a lot in the same way I get upset when I see lesbian relationships brushed off or ignored in#spite of my own excitement toward the ship. MY POINT IS that lesbians are completely ignored by this point and I can say this both irl and#on here because when you live a life that excludes men from your romantic space youāre basically illegal. it drives me fucking insane. the#way anyone can make a fucking whitebread ass man on this site and their inbox will be exploding but you make a lesbian and you have to pad#quietly around because from jump youāre already worried about how people will perceive you and you KNOW they wonāt be immediately welcoming.#this is an irl thing in such a big way and Iām a NEW YORKER. but the fact that this exists in the rpc? truly I miss when we just wrote and#enjoyed things and this wasnāt a cesspit of discourse instead of an actual creative community. like. I went to college to study boring#theses that couldnāt keep my attention. I slogged through litcrit theory. do I love it? yes. but some of yall really just wanna be on#debatebro YouTube and not in the actual rpc. itās wild. everyoneās a philosopher but no one wants to meaningfully engage. and if they do#they want to in either bad faith or basically hardheaded ignorance about an issue. someoneās 2 seconds from rping destiny.#swear to fucking god if I see one person make an asm.ngold joke I will cry.]
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Suki is such an underrated character I love her sm
#def my fav avatar character#I like them all but sheās so wonderful#and completely ignored bruh#sheās apart of the gaang cāmon!!#rewatching avatar cuz I can and I love it SO MUCH#every episode HITS HARD#rewatching it now breaks my heart tho#watching Katara crying as she thinks she spots her mom#watching Aang see bascially his fatherās skeleton with everything he knew gone#seeing Sokka miss his father and miss a father figure#watching zuko cry and scream at a thunder storm wanting to shoot lightning at him#like they were CHILDREN#agh#and Katara saying that she hasnāt gone penguin sledding since she was a kid and Aang is like āyou are a kid!ā AGH#THEYRE CHILDREN!!!!!#watching it as an adult really justā¦#puts that into perspective#makes me cry#could talk about it forever
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Trobed I drew through genuine tears while i had a 24 hr migraine and my good old pal dys for ya š
#ignore my leg and the shit on the table i just couldn't be bothered cropping the image#it's been ages since i doodled traditionally. I'm just so used to digital noe#now. why am I ALWAYS mistyping that as noe#anyways i was SOOOO UNORMAL ABOUT THEM YESTERDAY#look the thing about trobed for me is. it literally does not fucking matter if i read them as romantic as platonic(qpr) or literally#whatever like they ARE EVERYTHING. THEY ARE EVERYTHING I AM THEY ARE EVERYTHING I WANT THEY R EVERYTHING THE WORLD DENIES ME#THEY ARE EVERYTHING āāāāāā#when abed said i always thought I'd spend forever observing the world you made me a part of it#THAT'S ME . THAT'S.#NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN ME LIKE THAT BEFORE#but no one's made me part of it and I'M IN AGONY#anyways day 157 asking where's the 'word' to my 'it's 2009'#alexspostsnstuff#alextriestoart#doodles#trobed#community#troy barnes#abed nadir#abed's shirt was my brother's suggestion btw. he's never seen community but i wanted him to feel included
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going to start this post with the fact that im not trying to be a hater right now im just genuinely confused . anyway. the thing about sonic and shadow is that i dont think its a bad ship or that its entirely baseless or that their relationship is meaningless or anything like that. my feelings on so/nadow are complicated but i do like it to a degree . but i also feel like people are exaggerating how much is there in terms of canon backing for the ship (at least in the franchise overall if we're talking sonic prime specifically that makes more sense but prime is also like the spiders georg of so/nadow). like they have their moments but i dont think its as frequent a thing as people act like it is (again at least not in the games/comics) . like theyre just not as close or as obviously in love in the actual source material as some people seem to think they are ..??? some of the stuff i see being passed around as so/nadow moments is just them existing in the same frame .. ??? im not even saying its wrong to ship them or make them be in love in the headcanon sonic universe that exists in your head or whatever i just think that saying its basically canon is a huge stretch and idk what people are seeing between them that im not . sorry please dont get madat me. scampers away like a frightened little animal
#not prompted by anything in particular btw ive just been thinking about this for a couple days now#like i said im not trying to be a hater i just genuinely dont get it#also the way people try to make any and everything sonic and shadow do into proof that so/nadow is canon#even if only one of the characters is involved or its a massive reach or requires ignoring the existence of other characters#(usually knuckles. i could go on forever about the knuckles erasure in all this but thats a topic for another post#and i also always worry it comes off as me just arguing that so/nknux is better when thats not the point at all)#ialso think that some people ar ejust kind of making stuff up and convincing themselves its canon#like for example ive seen people say sonic and shadow are portrayed as a couple in official art and the art in question is just#of shadow standing there and they chose to interpret it as him thinking about sonic even though the art has nothing to do with him?#and i dont think its wrong to have so/nadow interpretations of moments that werent meant to be read that way . do what you want#but i feel like once you get to the point where you genuienly believe that every little thing they do is a hint theyre in love#maybe you should step back for a moment and look at the stories as a whole without the son/adow tunnel vision. idk
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he made her a BRACELET!? absolutely go fuck yourself blackman!! thatās just fucking cruel.
#yo fuck this season six ways to sunday#every instance of lila and five together on screen makes me want to die#god you ever seen someone completely destroy their own show?#this is an absolute travesty#dielila forever#i will be ignoring everything about this season#diego x lila#the umbrella academy#tua s4
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so Iāve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know itās rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. stillā¦ compelled to ventā¦ big butts#havenāt really been on here much since it hasnāt really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#itās cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and Iāve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know Iād love to justā¦ talk to someone. I suppose it has to be āon my termsā whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and Iām about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe Iāll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. justā¦ pop! and Iām done.#Iāll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if itās just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. havenāt wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#canāt be sad if you canāt feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but itās drugs food or movie right now. soā¦#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe itāll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anywayā¦ I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#Iāve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and Iām tired of it. Iām so tired.#Iāve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like Iām just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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Starting to think computers are actually the work of a dark and twisted demonic force.
#trying to trouble shoot a pc problem and we've gotten to the point wherein i am considering just ignoring it and hoping it solves itself orz#everything i try just makes things worse!!#i cleared my site data instead of just the temporary files in firefox and now nothing loads so im restarting the damn pc#but its taking. FOREVER. which is always a great sign. if this doesn't fix the page load times (not even the original problem!) im going to#freak out. just completely. because now i have to fix two things tomorrow... i wanna go to bed i don't want to do tech support anymore#im just frustrated and doing things impulsively that are not very helpful. so now i have to sadly sign back into every website on earth#which is very slow and painful because SOMEONE is hogging all my disk#everyone stop hogging all my disk and let firefox load challenge difficulty level impossible#but hey. restarting it did make the pages actually load now. i started this post on my phone and am now editing it on my working pc -w-)b#i am going to have 500 security alerts in my inbox tomorrow lol.#snow blogging
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