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OK HERE WE GO LIST ON WHY EX WIVES IS THE BEST THING TO EVER <3
It instantly tells you what to expect. Bunch of amazing women with insane vocal ranges and the energy of a Taylor Swift concert.
Amazing composing
The use of motifs, every single verse with the queens saying lines in order has the green sleeves melody snuck into there
Great symbolism with said motif! We are quite literally forced to hear it even if the situation doesnāt particularly call for it
EBM GREENSLEVES MY BELOVED <333333
The use of the different vocal ranges overlapping in the āWivesā and the first sung note in musical is just āØchefs kissš¤āØ
āAll you ever hear and read about!ā RAW LINE. RAW. OMFG YES
All of K Howardās lines. Thatās the entire bullet point.
Great introduction to the queens! The problem with Uranium Suite and Fall Fair Suite is that Uranium depicts how people would see the choir (only on a surface level) while Fall Fair shows us how their actually like but doesnāt provide that much context as to that their a choir. However what Ex Wives does it that it shows them as individuals as well as clearly shows they CAN work as a group but they donāt get much individuality from it
Also speaking of RTCās St. Cassian Chamber Choir, the Queens are technically a choir! MAKING THISE DAMN MELODIES SO MUCH MORE SATISFYING TO LISTEN TO
Also iconic lines
Quickly foreshadows in subtle ways (AUDIBLE STORY TELLING MY BELOVED)
Once again comparing my 2 fav musicals, RTC has this thing where each character gets a version of Karnakās theme, SIX does this too in the Queenās intros
AND ALL THE REMIXES. ALL SOMEHOW MANAGE TO SNEAK IN MORE GREENSLEVES. THE SYMBOLISM. THE MOTIFS. YESSSSSS
Already tells you the amazing humor of wit and sarcasm you can expect to see through out the musical
More audible foreshadowing via the style of each remix
Lina is simple at first with a few strings, but has a lot of little bits added from time to time. It toys with the melody and what it can apply into the already catchy tune. Her intro is probably the one with the most inconsistency as it does not keep the added stuff going. It has a relatively low and steady beat but makes up for simplicity in vocal potency. ALSO JUST SO SAVAGE SHE ATE THAT UP FR FR. Just like No Way
Anne has a slightly higher and more excited melody. The Tempo is the same but serves less of a heavy role unlike Linaās and is mainly just the supporting cast to the melody. While Anneās vocals stay relatively high throughout at the end she goes lower and more sinister. Great audible storytelling! Thereās little to no playing with whatās been set up and when there is itās all subtle. As mentioned before the break is only at the end. Itās so cherry and cheeky but if you look at the lyrics it uh- kinda intense. Very DLYH if ask me
JANE SEYMOUR JUST IS PUN FILLED, THE JOKES. It perfectly sets her up to be the one overlooked and the moreā¦ patient and forgiving one of the group. She only ever snaps in one of the two fight scenes. Also the fact that she claimed she was the only one he truly love, while sadly likely to be true, also contrasts how loving and caring her sing ends up being with the slight cockiness that the line can be read as along with the infamous āRUDE!ā. Her melody is the middle. The added wind pipes(?) later are the high. The tempo is a sort of balance from the higher notes. Her melody is so melancholy and monotone. Itās very Jane and very Heart of Stone fr fr letās keep this greatness up!
ICH BEN ANNA VON CLEVES. This one does not disappoint either! You can already see the consistent parallels of Annaās relationship with online dating throughout the song, so itās good thatās itās inky reinforced here but not much! Also Haus of Holbein foreshadowing so I guess that softens the whiplash somewhat- Also this intro if the only one where the other Queens serve vocals more than once, I guess you could connect it to how Get Down is the only song that has Anna going out of her way to get the Queens involved (THATS ISNāT BY U BEING PROBLEMATIC ANNE). Also Annaās snarky comment at the end is ironic as she was probably the only one besides Cathy who didnāt have to deal with Henry in that aspect. Also very very simple only having the accordion, tempo, and clicks to compliment. Get Down!
PRICK UP YOUR EARS IN THE KATHRINE! WHO LOST HER HEAD! For the longest time I thought it was ābeheaded; before I promised you Iād see outside of wedā referencing both how short her life and time with Henry was. But no itās āpromiscuity outside of wedā š. Either works however! Kinda ironic that Kat is the one to interrupt Annaās comment asā¦ ya knowā¦ But anyways. The chord progression on this one is especially of note as itās actual kinda different from AYWD. While AWYD goes High and ten descends, this one go High -> Lower -> Lower Medium -> Low. Interesting indeed! Long of stings and slashes to replace the clicks that Anna had! Also not sure but Tempo seems to be more dominant?
BAM TINY WHIPLASH STRAIT INTO A LAMENT BABY. Then it goes pop again as Cathy gains her balance. Notice how the beats donāt comeback until that point. The first two lines rather have the piano as the click clack. Past that THEN the tempo beats come back once Cathy is talking about and addressing them as a GROUP. She is the one to slide them back into the chorus after all! Foreshadowing as how she convince them to write fanfic- I mean reclaim their stories! Anyways as I saying, sheās probably the one who shakes it up the most. More foreshadowing!!! Also Pt. 1 of Cathy being an independent womenās who may or may not come off as slightly protective and clingy-. Still very IDNYL!
So to recap that giant section; itās Good use of simplicity, effects, and contrast -> Vocal centric within a happy lucky tune and beat that breaks at the end -> Puns and a somewhat monotone melancholy feel that easily shows character -> More simplicity and focused on the vocals to carry it, also ironic jokes and sarcasm! -> Interesting chord progression and really good wordplay -> Amazing and subtle foreshadowing mix into a lament turned beautiful transition to chorus
Also apparently the Queens go from right to left if you have ear buds in but as a half deaf person I will sadly never get to get the full experience-
Have I talked about the amazing vocals???
MUST WE HAVE A GOOD PLOT WHEN WE HAVE GODLY VOCALS???
THE DAMN RISING NOTES ON THE LINE āWIVESā AHHHHH
IM SORRY ITS JUST TOO SATISFYING
ALSO NOT TO MENTION THE LINE IS ALSO YET ANOTHER GREENSLEVES INFUSED SNEAKY RAT THING
I SWEAR THE OVERLAPPING VOICES EFFECT GOT ME IN A TRANCE
THE RISE AND THEN THE STOP AND THE LOWER RISED IS SO
SEJSJKSKEMSKKEMEMSKEKEK
Also can we talk about how dramatic the beginning is? I love it lmao
Also how over time when they the rhyme their just like āugh this b*tch again stfu Iām too tired to deal with thisā
The fact that Catalina is the first every voice you hear in the entire musical but Cathy isnāt the last line in the sing or the whole show is a nice detail, idk if it was intentional fore shadowing but itās great!
Also the fact that Hamilton ends on āWho lives who dies who tells your storyā and SIX instantly throws you with a āListen up let me tell you a story!ā Is my favorite coincidence
Katās lines are potentially longer to match AYWDās length
ALL THE REFERENCES TO BOTH THE QUEENS AND TUDOR HISTORY I CANT GO INTO BECAUSE THERES TOO MANY
LOOK AT GENIUS
LITERALLY EVERY LINE HAS SOMETHING BEHIND IT
EVERY. LINE. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE.
Ill try my best to fit as many as I can off the top my head
I canāt fit everything so this is it- thank you for coming to my Ted talk
#Six the musical#Ex Wives#RANTY RANT RANT#fight me I dare you#Most underrated song#I wanna do a part 2 as well#No beta we die like beheaded cousins
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Based on somewhat real events
I spent way too much time drawing this...
But yeah, Ford finally saying thank you
A continuation (kinda)
#sometimes my skin smells too strongly and I hate it. I wanna crawl up and die. it's not that bad usually#only when I'm already overstimulated#there were 2 times where I was sick and I started crying and almost threw up because the smells were too strong#one time the smell of tge city. the other time it was roasted chicken. I still feel sick when I smell reheated chicken to this day#I'd love to have someone comfort me and rub my back in these moments but 1. I don't want anyone to touch me and#2. I feel like I don't deserve to be touched because it's an inconvenience to others#anyway enough about me. I am now projecting in these characters#I hate drawing their faces so much#gravity falls#stanford pines#ford pines#young stanford pines#stan pines#stanley pines#young stan pines#art#fanart#traditional art#comic#long post#watercolor#forgot to mention but I can't take a shower when the sun is still up except if I was swimming in a pool/sea. no specific reason I just can'#projecting to Ford because Stan would never feel like that :/ oh well#is this cringe? maybe. probably. do I care? no. not really#I'm self diagnosing myself with 'definitely something wrong but not further specified' because this can't be normal#btw sorry if this is disappointing. I tried my best (the first part is pretty neat imo)#wonder if anyone is gonna read all of these tags#is this the worst thing you've seen yet?#teen stan#teen ford
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aaaand BUMBLEBEE š !!!!
#this isnt humanformers it's just my own bumblebee design like hes very much robot still#the face plate just isnt white cus um i do wat i wanbt#LOL#human bee would have afro puffs to resemble his antennas that curl at the tops for the horns too#the lil blue things being his fluff are his door wings!#i want him to be like one of those big fuzzy fat bees where their wings are so tiny how do they even manage 2 fly#well this one does not !#goldbug tho i think should fly bcs starscream parallels and his wings are not stubby and round like bbs here#which he ruthlessly ridicules bb for and flaunts his giant bee wings#anyways bbs servo fluff helps conceal his stingers#if u look closely on the face he has a nose scar and what looks like 3 freckles on each side#but rlly theyre just rips from the nose scar breaking and moving like mini scrapes from ur big car scar#he has an arm btw i just didnt feel like blocking that part of his body where the rest of it would go so i amputated him lol#it's ok i redesigned him off of cane bumblebee so it ok bumblebee it artist interpretation ok#i love his cane tho i need to fraw him with it i just hate fullbody aint nobody got time for that (me only)#(im. lazy )#ANYWAYS yea so. this is my idea of idw bee.. i think he would discover the and bumblebee meme and Not stop saying it. actually#bumblebee got wider and slighter taller but his wings have not ever changed#bumblebee#transformers#tf#if u wanna think of it as humanformers u can but hes an android then and not like a human human so ill tag it#humanformers#tf idw#maccadam#transformers idw
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Vox HCs #4: Theories about how he works like biologically
Cw: Sfw - but discussion about non-sexual anatomy type stuff
A/N because I've thought way too much about the logistics of him and robotic/tech demons and how they work/could work way too much. š These are just some of the things I've thought about
- The main thing I see people wondering about is his face and how he drinks stuff, kisses people, etc.
- I think that the screen of his face is a full screen in its resting state, but he can influence the way it kind of functions/presents. ie. Manipulating the area around his mouth so he actually does have a mouth and its not just a projection on his screen.
- I don't think his mouth is a constant actual 3 dimensional thing though and is rather something he can change at will whenever he sees fit.
- If you were to touch it just in casual day to do life, his mouth would just be the screen / 2d.
- Also, I don't think his mouth feels like a normal mouth. If you were to kiss him I feel like his lips would not feel exactly like normal lips, and that his lips and tongue would kind of have that kind of static electricity sensation to them.
- Like if he were to lick you, I feel like you'd get that kind of static electricity sensation that makes your hair stand on its end.
- I'm not too sure about the rest of his face though. Maybe he can manipulate the rest of his face to become more 3 dimensional, but I don't think he would do it often as it's not necessary.
- Due to him being seen drinking during season 1, I think it's safe to assume that the way his internal functions are designed are relatively similar to normal humans.
- I believe he'd also have a somewhat similar body system as well. However, it just would be like metal parts, wires and artificial stuff underneath his skin rather than actual muscle, veins, ligaments, organs, bodily fluids, etc. Etc. That mirror those bodily systems.
- Having said that though, I do think parts of him are sensitive to being damaged by water. He may be just fine drinking water and liquids, but if they got in his ports (like on the back of his head), that would be bad.
- Because he prides himself on being up to date tech wise, he'd likely be waterproofed to a degree, but it still wouldn't be good. I can imagine him being damaged by it and bluescreening and forcefully shutting down to prevent any further damage to his less human reminiscent systems. (Do you think he lays down in rice when that happens? š)
- Also, I do not think he technically needs to eat or drink stuff. Judging by the fact he can plug into things (like how in the Stayed Gone video he plugs into all the computers and stuff), I think his main energy source would actually be charging using electrical wires and stuff.
- I think that him eating and drinking is just a preference of his, and that other demons who are similar to him wouldn't need to eat or drink. He can still get energy that way, but it's less efficient and more of just a preference/reminiscent of his past life as a human that he's held onto all this time.
- I also don't think he really 'sleeps' in the traditional sense or needs to sleep? He can likely regain power that way, but he wouldn't really need to sleep and could just stay awake all day and night if he's connected to a suitable charging source every couple of hours.
- I do think he would like powering down/switching off for a bit to rest though - just to not go crazy. Even if you wont die from lack of sleep, it's still nice to not have to think about things for a couple of hours.
Now I'm thinking about him laying down in rice after trying to go swimming without water proofing himself properly while bitching lmao.
#vox#vox headcanons#vox x reader#hazbin hotel#ive been thinking about this for quite a bit both for him and also my OC haha. i hope i articulated it well enough#I also want to write a short exerpt of him and what I think he was like while alive/ maybe even what his death was like in my own hcs?#Ive got part 2 of Snap in the works as well š#lots i wanna do but no energy to do it with rn sadly
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hate when i'm info dumping about a *FICTIONAL* villain and someone has the audacity to be like "but they've killed people" or "but they've committed crimes"
i know
but they aren't real
i still want to make out with them
#tbh i could be doing worse#worse character i wanna makeout with is Lady Dimitrescu i think#like yes i am well aware she's a bad person but that's the fun part about her being fictional#nope wait remembered alduin aka the fUCKING WORLD EATING DRAGON#this is the part of the tags were i desperately try to remember all the characters i wanna smooch#alduin#iguchi shuichi#takami keigo#lady dimitrescu#donna beneviento#salvatore moreau#glados#wheatly portal 2#do undertale characters count??? they do try to kill you#maybe not papyrus but the others#undyne#do i put mettaton? i think i put mettaton bc dance battling a child to the death definitely isnt 100% good person behavior#mettaton#minecraft warden#minecraft enderman#ya im including these what are you gonna do to stop me?#how the fuck did i spell yea wrong#too late to fix it now#clouds posts
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s3ep6
#golden kamuy#ogata hyakunosuke#hanazawa yuusaku#s3ep6#do not tag as yuuo. i will kill you.#hey guys!!!! how are we feeling!!!!!!!#TEARS IN MY EYES!!!!!#i think its so interesting how like#1 yuusaku (whether intentionally or not) further alienates ogata by saying MY father instead of OUR father#and 2 the dub excluding the Has No Right To Exist part of yuusaku's dialogue#which i imagine would also alienate ogata as well. that man was NOT in the right state of mind so no wonder he killed his own brother#i really have to wonder what ogata would have been like had he NOT killed yuusaku...#anyways sound off in the comments and tags i wanna hear everyones thots!!!!#golden kamuy spoilers
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transfem scott getting lots of support from ramona and kim in the early 2000's when shit's very taboo but they all 3 have a fire forged bond and lord if they aren't going to make sure they're all as happy as they can be because they've come this far and I dunno it just makes me happy all three of them
YES YES YES
It makes me very happy as well,,
Like I've said before. General Trans Scott enthusiast here- I love the idea of their little support network *violent coughing* I (we?) mean polycule *violent coughing* so fucking much.
Ramona I think has a bit of a more gentle hand with reassuring Scott with gender issues, but sometimes she just can't help herself from some pointed banter or teasing- how could you with someone so dense? (Said w affection)
And then Kim I think is more blunt. But like, in a good way mostly, you know? The kinda blunt that makes you snap to attention and go "Oh. Yeah that was silly of me." And if Ramona's started some sort of banter? Kim is SO piling on. Maybe sometimes she's a bit TOO blunt with it- but it's only because she's so firm in her support. She wants Scott to Get It Together- and be happier for it. So if some ribbing now and again is in order, then goddamnit she will do so! Anything to crack that shell.
And ohhh can you imagine how they would react to some transphobic bullshit?? Unholy terror would be driven into the offender before they walk off with an absurd amount of coins between them. I can feel it in my bones. Scott doesn't even have to lift a finger (if the transphobe is even noticed/processed at all, bc I honestly can see Scott just. Not realizing someone's being transphobic.) Kim giving someone a lashing with her tongue as distraction and then Ramona coming in with the hammer- BAM! Free Money! Paying literally with your life for your transphobia. A Better And Just World.
And of course (transfem Scott more specifically, here,) the way Scott would start to flourish under their support... cagey and maybe a little (perhaps a lot-) resistant to start- but Kim's blunt affirmations and no nonsense attitude for bullshit (which is what Scott insisting on "being cis" would be, c'mon now,) and Ramona's also low bullshit tolerance but less Stabby (bc I won't lie, that's probably how Kim's comments would feel,) assurances? Ough... My Heart... Be Still-
I would Kill for them, Your Honor-
(Ran out of tags so putting this in the body of the post- I am SO tired someone pls sound off if this isn't as coherent as I am hoping this is. I WAS trying to nap and get the extra sleep I desperately needed but the writing bug... it Bit Me.... only a little but enough to stop that process-)
#for my trans masc scott hcs I am actually so seriously and deeply fond of Kim having been SO supportive of Scott in HS. It's so important +#+to me. it also makes their whole relationship sting a little more but ohhh man. I can just see Kim hyping him up and helping him get more+#+comfortable in his skin. Lisa would definitely help there too imo but just. ahhhhhgshcksjdhg#i need to put some transmasc scott hs stuff on my fic docket. but I have so many wips rn x~x pray for me chat#(literally stopped writing something to answer this dhdjshdjdgw I Am Part Of The Problem-)#as always to people looking for transfem scott stuff I point you towards Scott Pilgrim's Precious Little Egg on AO3- as well as Amy +#+Pilgrim's Precious Little Life (also AO3)#the second has 2 chapters out currently but I believe the 3rd is definitely underway! and then the first has 22 chapters out currently and#+I believe part 3 has just kicked off w that latest one#you've seen some of the authors here before I'm like 99% certain- even if you may not have realized it lol#headcanons#scott pilgrim headcanons#sp comic#spto#spvtw#ramona flowers#kim pine#scott pilgrim#sckimona#(not putting it into ship stuff but like. Definitely what was on the mind)#trans headcanon#trans scott pilgrim#ooc#asks#anon#gmorning all btw. i am still So Tired. I'm gonna try and maybe make more icons today if anyone has any requests? or otherwise I do have +#+some shippy stuff I need to get done. ninjastar edits. vague lukim thing potentially. kinda wanna draw more furry kimona--#i could do furry sckimona..... h m m m m.....#we'll see what happens! admittedly i do also have some Gaming Plans later today and I am helpless but to allow the monopolization of my tim#(fellow lesbians out there will Understand /hj) (if the person i would prefer to have not read that read that Politely Ignore pls-)
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Seriously, bro's a professional yapper lmfao
Tbf it's not completely unprovoked and he does just want to at least try explaining some things, if in a roundabout way, to make people more at ease (if not in the moment then overall) but, well-
sometimes it has the opposite effect lmao š
Also like, it's absolutely hilarious how I thought
'oh but this is just, like three scenes - how long could this be'
but all the freaking talking and stuff that everyone's doing is making Part 8 the second longest in the series ššššš
(I fear for my poor brain, man - we've only just barely almost covered the Detention Center Arc
(and a little bit of the VS Mahito Arc Mahito Gets Curse PTSD Arc but I do wanna fill in some of the gaps between those)
and it's already gonna be over 40k words???
Why am I being so ambitious for my first ever proper writing project frrr *perishes a bit*
but I do hope to get it to the end - and beyond because there's no way I wouldn't constantly add to the post-main-plot shenanigans lol - however long that takes heh (just try to be patient with me pls I try my best here š) š)
#On another note I'm closer to finishing Part 8 than anything so yAY WOO YEA- *perishes*#I don't wanna promise anything because I tend to underestimate this kinda stuff but idk it mAy be out tomorrow or overmorrow maybe even#Depending on how well the last few things go being written and the little edits and Notes and Tagging and stuff#mAn do I hate how long this has been taking lol where tf did that brain that could pump out Parts in like a week go š#(tbf 1) I've been just busy with Life (smh who invented that) and 2) this needed a LOT of THINKINā¢ considering the characters and situation#; it's pretty darn complex and considering the fact that Satoru especially is there; well - he's both a little shit and a smart cookie lol)#Anyway yeah just a little shitpost for the hehes#Also I got inspired by something and will probably post a small Visuals thing in a bit (idk if it counts as a meme redraw but ye) š#(it involves Yuji as a smol little bean baby tiger cub so prepare thine cuteness receptors verily (hope I'll do the vision justice lol) š«±)#Thinkingsā¢#SIkuna#(deliberate misspell)#Syuuya#ryomen sukuna#jjk sukuna#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk fic#jjk fix it#jjk fix it fic
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#music#polls#i was on the fence about reggae bc not everyone considers it a part of the pop cannon. oh well.#i wanna do 3 more for 1. jazz 2. rock and 3. metal separately but we'll see
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i think the main issue in arguing with zionists is that, well, they believe in zionism! if israel did deserve to exist, then the genocide and injustice in palestine could be argued for (not like it should be, but it certainly could) -- and zionists believe israel deserves to exist.
i, unfortunately, have a large amount of experience interacting (personally) with zionism and zionists. most of those i've talked to feel for the palestinians, and the violence they are facing, but they fail to realize (or they staunchly deny) the very, very active part israel and the IDF have had in that -- and how it's representative of what the nation has always done.
at the same time, they focus more on israeli hostages than palestinian ones -- and i know, of course, that these zionist jews i've interacted with are either israeli or have loved ones in israel, and so have a very personal stake in the safety of israeli hostages (which may very well be friends or family members), but i find it strange how much emphasis they put on hamas' cruelty in taking hostages while the IDF is doing the same thing (in essence; the exact details of who's doing it worse are important to note, but not relevant right now, because folks should realize that their side is being at least as cruel as the enemy's).
recently i was drawn into an argument with an israeli zionist (who, unfortunately, is very close to the action and tragedy by being israeli), and she was incredibly offended by my anti-zionism and my opposition to israel's abject cruelty to palestinian citizens, as it seemed (to her) like i was bypassing the cruelty hamas has enacted on israeli citizens -- which is very telling. i've noticed that we as jews have the tendency, whatever the situation may be, of focusing more on our pain than the pain of others, even if we are the ones hurting them. that person has every reason to be scared and hurt, and i'd be lying if i said her response wasn't at least somewhat sympathetic, but her pain in this horrible, violent conflict does not invalidate the pain on the other side. jews, throughout this recent crisis, have consistently not talked in depth about the constant losses in palestine -- am i suddenly being callous by focusing on those losses, and not our own? (YOUR PAIN AND THEIRS AREN'T MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE, YOU DOLT! sorry...)
because it all comes down to believing in israel! my mom has always told me about how beautiful it is there, about her time living on a kibbutz... and sure, it might be nice. i can't argue with that. but why is it that our nationalism for israel is so strong, so virulent? i have not seen patriots as loyal for any other country. and when you criticize israel, israelis feel like you're criticizing their entire existence -- and many non-israeli jews do, as well. because zionism has been built so deep into the modern religion! it's made to be a necessary piece! belief in it is the default!
and, from the inside looking in, i can't be surprised that many jews take anti-zionism as being antisemitic -- because, to them, israel and zionism stand as the pinnacle of safety and support for the jewish people. it is impossible to argue with them about anything above that base layer, as the base layer itself serves as a foundation: so long as a jew thinks that israel is right, deserved, and necessary, no proof will sway them into hating israel. it's just impossible, and that's very frustrating.
for me in particular, i find it very frustrating, as this single idea has turned so many people i know to support a genocidal entity. they believe in and support israel, so they stand with it now -- even if they condemn its current actions, they neglect how those actions are just an extension of its inherent existence -- whether they think israel's doing the right thing or wrong thing right now, they don't really care at the end of the day, because israel, to them, is necessary in keeping the jewish people alive. they stand with it, thinking that jews can only stand at all if they do.
but a genocidal crutch is no crutch at all: it only breaks us more. zionist jews make me so mad, and the worst part is that i could never express that to them in a way they'll understand.
#melonposting#anti-zionism#israel#i am so madddd and frustrated and stressed#with the whole camp thing going on my parents will inevitably find out (and soon!) that i'm anti-zionist#and given their age and proximity -- they're so deeply entrenched in zionism that i can't even hope to sway them#it's so sad and scary (i don't want them to be mad at me -- even though that really isn't the important thing here)#but it's also philosophically bizarre... like these people have good principles!#it's just this one tiny stupid thing (believing in israel) that's effectively turned them into bad people!#<- it's weird saying something like that. because i don't think they're bad people. but they're zionist.#part of it is that they're my parents and i love them but also... they're so good otherwise. a single thing went wrong.#(okay well not a single thing but it's generally minute things y'know?)#i don't wanna hate my parents. and i don't want them to hate me. can they please for the love of god stop#(takes every jew i know by the shoulders and shakes them back and forth) PLEAAAASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOPPPPPPP#anyway it's very hard for me to do work because i have this on my mind.#how do i break it to my parents that 1. i won't be working at camp this summer and 2. it's because i hate zionism?#i'm not cut out for situations like these ughhhhh why did i have to post that stupid anti-zionist instagram story in march#i could've just chosen not to take the job on my own accord and have enough time to come up with an excuse for my parents#whatever. too late for that. i dug my grave and now must lie in it#i guess it's character-building?? :')
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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos
#normal Saturday morning behavior#redacted spoilers#redacted audio#redacted sam#Seven.txt#rp audio stuff#well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold#and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet#eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info#bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts#which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready š#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn#like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared#anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort#and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way#but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time#when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... š„²#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm#i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me#then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad#but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d#hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share#but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope#which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually#anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time#Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something#*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow
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My seventh photo featuring my 3 fav edge lords
(Also an attempt at making a funny photo ā3ā)
#gladion#trainer silver#elite four grimsley#pokemon masters#pokemon black and white#pokemon black and white 2#pokemon sun and moon#pokemon ultra sun and moon#pokemon gold and silver#pokemon heartgold and soulsilver#my screen recording#god it took so many screenshots to get this still frame of electricity#well actually this was one my first ones but I wanted to see if I could get any better ones#most attempts just had none in them#still donāt have nc silver (yet?) since I was trying to get ss lusamine#not that I really want her but I had failed to get her two times before#Iām kinda neutral on both but theyāre still cool-looking#I do kinda wanna get the new Adaman and Irida#but I donāt think Iām gonna get that lucky unfortunately#Lillie is the only special costume pair I have ;A;#oh yea and sc Hilda too#was devastated to not get Ingo or Emmet#I also just realised that I completely forgot about the no eye/view button on the bottom right#I turned that one for my first photo I shared here#the rest got that semi-ugly row of buttons#but the ocd part of me doesnāt wanna go back#for (the irrational kind of) consistencyās sake#aheheā¦
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ah such a good time to come back to this game :> plus it's officially coming to Steam in a few months!
#abbey plays r1999#I honestly want this game to do well#so hopefully a lot more people will play it now that it's on its anniversary + soon on Steam#I read that the first part of the main story is ending w/ this update too?#I need to catch up so badly#also bro I got the newest character Lucy in 2 multis#WHY IS MY LUCK INSANE LATELY#I WANNA BE THIS LUCKY IN REAL LIFE PLEASE I'M TIRED#anyway play Reverse 1999#it's a good turn-based gacha#very hard to follow story-wise but yeah#once you get the hang of it it's actually pretty interesting with the Storm and the time-travel#and it has very unique designs with a very likeable Fem MC#also lesbians lots of them#okay bye
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i'm begging my uni to stop making every fucking student social activity something where you have to walk around a bunch if you are a slow walker who cannot help it they literally want you dead
#i try to walk as fast as i humanly can. which i shouldn't bc it hurts and makes me dizzy. and i'm still slower than everyone else#last week we divided into groups and had to walk to checkpoints around the city to do tasks#i had a friend in my group who knows abt my issues and they walked slower with me which was nice. everyone else walked like 10 20 meters#ahead and it was fucking embarrassing bc for every checkpoint they had to wait for me#and i felt bad my friend couldn't talk to anyone else in the group bc they were zooming way ahead of us and i'm the one who couldn't keep up#and like. they didn't know my body's fucked. but these are people i do not know well at all and maybe i don't wanna disclose my medical#history to everyone i interact with#and like this event wasn't mandatory. i could've skipped it#but it's every fucking time#most nights we end up going to a bar and to these people āwalking distanceā is like a half an hour. and they walk fast#i can never keep up#i don't reallu enjoy bars either and i don't drink but you just kinda have to endure to socialize. some days i can't handle it tho#this week there's another checkpoint type activity. i know i shouldn't. i know i'm gonna slow everyone down#but i got specifically asked and invited to be a part of a team. i can't remember the last time that happened#also we're doing a group costume and mine includes platform heels on the streets of a very old city i am so cooked#my friend is nice tho. they know the basic lore and check up on me a bunch which always catches me off guard š#i'm used to pushing through and also used to people not really taking my shit into consideration so i don't know how to respond sometimes#2 people in the group know the issues and i just sent the gc a āsorry in advance i can't walk very fastā so like what else is there to do#only accessibility info we're ever given is if it's wheelchair accessible. and that's good. like you should do that. but it kinda ends there#like how much walking is there. where are the stops. are there places to sit.#i love having to either push through or be excluded disabilities are awesome#been in soooo much pain lately and have to take breaks walking uphill. functional body#i live in an area where everything. literally everything. is uphill one way or another. so as you can imagine it's going great#also āyou have to endure to socializeā as if i don't end up hovering around my friend like a lost puppy with separation anxiety anyway#the group costume is winx club. btw
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#it's time :)#yin-thoughts#fallen london#okay it's not quite time yet. we have 2 more memories of chains (aka a few more knives traded in exchange for less prison time)#and iirc each step towards st arthur's proper will require a searing enigma? so it's underclay time#but OTHERWISE. we are HOME RUNNING.#if all goes well i can get st cerise via the noman this christmas. which is hype#well. definitely not for hype for the continuation of caeru's lifespan. but hype for me!#st beau's sacrificing health will be extremely painful but manageable. st destin has the torment destiny route#which i'd go for even if it wasnt an easy alternative just for the fulfillment of the 'doomed' part of caeru's title#st erzulie is..... st erzulie. iykyk.#st fortigan as far as i can tell is practically a freebie#and st gawain is! well! gawain!#and we Sure Will Get Gawain :)#happily plotting out this long and torturous road to self annihilation like it's a road trip highway map#i'll get back to progressing nemesis at some point but as far as i can tell lilac will be a pretty big hassle#so i wanna get a bit further in seeking + do current rp stuff first#maybe hold that wedding. it's about time we hold that wedding.
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my five surviving braincells when something remotely good happens:
#in other newsā¦ wORK IS OVER PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#man. iām s o tired. i canāt believe i survived almost 2 whole years at this jobā¦#huh. come to think of itā¦ i started tling idol sengen before i even got this job lol. and iām only 3/5 of the way through itā¦#canāt believe the idol sengen grind->hiatus->grind(?) outlives my time at [withheld] companyā¦#i did end up spending a cool 20 mins cleaning out my work locker though. i found so many treasures i didnāt even know i had in there#like. there was an unopened 3-pack of wet tissues a n d an unopened box of pens that i donāt recall buying#and ofc the 3 random sponges i āliberatedā from the lab. donāt tell my boss lmao#w a i t now that i think about it i shouldāve taken at least 1 vial of (allegedly) carcinogenic sand for the memories. dammit.#oh well. whatās done is done i suppose. i did receive way more chocolate than i could ever eat thoughā¦#y. yeah. i guess iāll miss my coworkers (a little). they were fun to annoy every day. except for the new guy bc i donāt like him at all lol#i have never met someone who lacked as much common sense as he. i think heās gonna get canned before heās able to resign on his own terms#dude could be spoonfed through every single step of the testing process and *still* mess up somewhere smh#but no. this isnāt about him. even though he is the final straw that led to my decision to resign#hm. looking back on it now. i think i was pretty good at my job for the most part when it came to the things i could do#or maybe i was too good at it. like. to the point where even more experienced analysts were coming to me in search of help#prolly gonna miss being one of the very best (out of like a grand total of 10 people at the lab) at doing ftir-related tests#ehehehehehehe i wonder if that workstation will continue to stay as organised as it is now that iām gone#a n d i wonder what my coworkers will do now that they canāt ask me for ms excel help for the smallest of things lol#sometimes i just wanna tell them to g o g o o g l e i t ! ! ! when they call me over for it. but alas.#canāt believe these guys know how to use c h a t g p t and not ms excel (despite having it on their resume) smh#omg wow this got long and incoherent sorry guys i think i need some sleep lol. idol sengen next week..#ā¦maybeā¦? no promises though!!!!!
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