#I thought I got a C/D

[koipudding]

guys nvm I thought I bombed my last test but I actually got a whole letter grade higher???? so like. yeah

[littleoddwriter]

I haven't really seen anyobody talk about this here-

Caracalla lost everybody close to him (father figure and twin brother) on the same day, both technically by his own doing, but doesn't even remember half of that anyway, and is now desperate to keep at least one person around, still. he might not even remember his own screaming voice demanding her crucifixion due to her betrayal. and if he does, he clearly wants to take it back and keep her alive and around him. in terms of human companions, she's all he has left. except for Macrinus, of course, but he's still new and another father figure, unable to fill that gaping hole Caracalla's real mother has presumably left and Lucilla is going to leave if she dies. but since Macrinus has the emperor wrapped around his little finger already, just a few words from him convinced Caracalla that this was, in fact, necessary and the only way; thus, sealing Lucilla's fate.

it's devastating to me...

[shima-draws]

God gives his toughest battles (being at work DESPERATELY wanting nothing more than to be at home playing the new Genshin Fontaine update) to his bravest soldiers (me)

[thedragonagelesbian]

The only explanation ive been able to come up with for varric being intimidated by harding & not giving her a nickname is that ten years later he still cant stop cringing over the "harding in hightown" joke that didnt land when they first met

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[sunflowers-and-cigarettes831]

Dark academia in STEM, specifically the medical field

-early mornings spent in the lab, shirtsleeves rolled up to your elbows as you work on your dissection

-piles of textbooks and notebooks sitting on your desk, still scattered from your previous study session

-or, alternatively, a neat folder of starred tabs holding all of your online textbooks and notes if you prefer digital

-late nights spent hunched over your notes, half-drunk cup of tea (or coffee) sitting beside you

-anatomy figures printed from the internet (because your time could be better spent studying), with the parts labeled by hand

-studying with friends at the library, sharing a whiteboard and rapid-firing questions at each other

-a pen and notebook or iPad and pencil perched neatly in your lap, ready to take notes

-being the first person to answer on discussion boards after class

-bringing the entire pot of tea or coffee back to your room, because you know you’ll need it while studying

-drawing on yourself (or a partner), labeling all of the bones, muscles, and nerves you need to know for your next exam

-moving confidently through your lab practicals, knowing the answers effortlessly due to all of your studying

-carrying your tea or coffee to class in a thermos, hands wrapped around it on those chilly mornings

-printed out slideshows for ease of studying

-taking a break from studying to walk around campus or through the woods, getting some fresh air and sunlight after being cooped up in the library or your room for too long

-curling up with a good book/tv show/ movie and snacks after an exam, taking the time to relax and recharge before grades come out, knowing you did your best

-realizing that this field is hard, and getting a D or a C on an exam, or even in a class, isn’t the end of the world. You will bounce back. You will get your degree.

[merchantofwhispers]

@darkhearthorns | The Legacy. The Curse.

"Get off me!"

His voice had echoed down the hallway like a lion's roar as he was jostled by the Fae Kings guards. "Don't fucking touch me!" The guards continued to push and prod to keep him moving away from the healers chambers and towards his own at the orders of Maverick.

Rage blazed through him and burned every nerve ending in his body, making his fingers tense and stretch as his head rolled atop his shoulders. Once he was locked away in his room he paced like a caged animal, snarling beneath his breath before it all subsided into mourning.

It gave away to nothing less than pure grief. Nikolai collapsed into his chair, slouched with his head rested into his hand as he sobbed all over again. Centuries had passed since he'd seen her face - heard her voice - and then he'd found her.

She'd been standing across from him days before, smiling as though they were strangers, but he knew it had been her. Her disappearance had destroyed their family, had turned an already volatile council into a civil war, and had cost him the crown that rightly belonged on his head.

Worst of all - he'd lost his twin. The other half of his soul. His best friend.

In his mind he replayed the night she'd gone missing and then hearing the guard announce to Maverick she'd fallen ill. Over and over like a cursed song. Had he truly found her only to have her die?

Had Maverick done this? Had the Fae's taken her - for whatever reason - and now were determined to kill her? Why could she not remember him?!

He jerked suddenly, snorting back a frustrated sob as he realized the door had been opened and a figure had stepped into the room. Frantic, wet eyes lifted to see the Fae King and Nikolai rose to his feet while wiping his forearm across his face as though that would hide his activities.

"Your Majesty. How is she?"

There was barely contained emotion in his how he asked - even in how he stood. So stiffly, so formally. Not at all with the fluid, snakelike confidence he'd had up until the days events.

"Is she-.. Alright?"

@darkhearthorns

[kissesforjackie]

getting report cards back with way higher grades than expected is SO PEAK

[adore-gregor]

i'm back on tumblr (again)

[siamesedreamgirl]

tv on guitar is addictive wtf

[thefaeriefeatherdark]

I do think the wildest part of the Skyrocket/Connie concept is that Visaggio seemed to legitimately believe that Kon-El is like... a D-List superhero. Which is just like, a wild thing to believe considering the Comic Kon won in a fan poll hadn't even finished coming out at the time she pitched her idea.

[tenebrisxregem]

Inevitable

@vxmpirehunterd [x]

The smile on the older man's features may be subtle, but it certainly is not without malice. The man is a head to toe mystery at times, a hero among many (who didn't have a pulse), then blatantly evil incarnate the next. He knows and is aware, and he made it well known that he just. Does not. Care. Why would he? It's been thousands of years, and whatever mind he used to have with the life he once knew... it didn't matter at all. At this rate, he is chaos itself just being the natural disaster.

But of course D should have known all of that. He'd have known it for ages.

So, folding his shadow covered arms as he is not afraid of his son, Dracula - the Sacred Ancestor - and leers down at him.

"Humans cannot act on their own, they always need a hand to hold and guidance so they may function. They are a means to an end after all of that, and don't even make good fodder at times. Let alone trying to get them to help in the bigger picture. Do you think it'd be fair if you also dropped the white knight act you've been having for most your life?'

"Don't you just want to fall back on what you really are? You are my successor after all..."

[kyoupann]

taking my pretentious LU quiz after 2-3 years of its birth. wish me luck*

update: my own uQuiz grabbed me by the throat.

here the link if someone who hasn't taken it yet would like to!

*edit: please try not to share screenshots of your result in the reblogs! 😊

[coridallasmultipass]

Guys I missed the countdown by 7 minutes can we redo it?

[milfgwen]

im about to cry happy tears i got a 67.5% on my organic chem test

[euphor1a]

ilysm 🌹

Smiles bb 🥺 hihi ily too 💗💗💗

Dread fills up your stomach as you come to realize that the man you’re tangled up with on the bed is none other than Choi Beomgyu. Yeah, the man you’ve been avoiding for the sake of your life since you reincarnated in this damned body.

But how did you even get into this situation? The last thing you remember is that you were at a masquerade party hosted by your school alumni… What the hell happened after that? You didn’t even have any drinks! It makes no sense!

A sigh escapes you, and to your surprise, you feel his throat vibrating against your head as he speaks, “Oh, you’re up?” Beomgyu’s morning voice is extremely heavy and raw, sending tingles throughout your body. You hate that you actually like being in his embrace, and that his voice makes you wanna pull away and admire that handsome face.

taken from — untitled. ( beomgyu x f!oc; reincarnation!au, fantasy!au )

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