#I think about this au a lot. I’m cooking so much art

[chimerahyperfix]

RECIPE OF THE DAY

[OR: This was the most upsetting alternate looper option]

Long post because i have been cooking this in my brain for like, two months, and it's all-consuming. Also I'm not in the Discord yet because Anxiety so my ramblings had to go somewhere, and what better than one big fucking post yknow. I cast spell of fuck you mind blast on the tag/lh /j

TLDR for below: Siffrin words his wish differently, Bonnie gets trapped in a time-loop, and despite saying they're in a timeloop repeatedly nothing works and no one can help them. The normal ISAT absolute horrors ensue.

CONTENT WARNINGS: the normal ISAT tags [death, violence and trauma, suicide, self harm and unreality], Notable Pin on child endangerment and death, poisoning.

most of these get discussed ^ even if shortly

SO. THIS AU.

This is it this is my big one. Ignore me pushing the literal 12 other isat aus I have into a pile pls this is THE big one. I’m looking at the note I’ve stored all this lore in on my notes app,and it’s like. 35 fucking pages?

I've looked at a ton of alternate looper aus [that's part of the hyperfixation babeyyyy I need to consume ALL content forever and ever and ever] and I was like “oohhhh I wanna do that!!” So I literally just listened to music until I caught an idea and yikes. Looking at the AUs playlist now [it’s about 100 songs! Oops!] and I’m like [cartoony image of me laying face first on the floor]

This is a bit scattered because I wrote it over 3 days instead of working on the fic I’m supposed to be writing ooopsieeeee. Ramblings belowvvvvvvvvvv

It begins as simply as the game does. No one knows how to wish properly; so Siffrin wishes, because they know how to. The same folded leaf, repeated three times wish. Close to what is said in canon; different enough for the Universe to read it differently. No longer does Siffrin loop, because the wish isn’t about him, it’s about Bonnie and their sister. Siffrin’s wish is construed as “I wish Bonnie’s wish would come true,” and even if the Universe can’t hold onto Bonnie’s wish as they did it wrong, it CAN hold onto Siffrin’s.

And that’s the base point: EVERY LOOP, Siffrin wishes, because he wishes after he talks to them and that's where they loop back to, and its wish craft goes to Bonnie. A recipe for disaster with how much time they have!

They loop back when Siffrin gets crushed by the rock, because they can’t win while being down a party member. When they touch a tear, or when the sadnesses get the jump on the party and they all go down, or when they use the dagger equivalent [a poisoned snack], or when they get to the King. They Never Beat The King. Think SASASAaP but ISAT.

Bonnie doesn’t fight with craft, but rather craft-infused weapons. The wok and their pan for rock, a pair of kitchen shears for scissors and a cookbook for paper. Snacks for healing and buffs. And they have a cool friend that lives in the favor tree! [they get in fistfights like every five loops. Maybe it would be funny, someone just as willing to spar with them instead of trying to find the right words they can’t find because they’re a kid, if their friend wasn’t ALSO another version of themself, which bonnie clocks pretty late.] They pick up little quirks from their friends, like biting their nails like Belle, and puffing up to look bigger like Isa and stealing Dile's curses and closing an eye to match Frin's in focus. And maybe they start forgetting a little bit, just a little! The same thing over and over will get to you.

So everything essentially boils down to this. Bonnie specifically needs to be strong enough to beat the King, as the rest of the party doesn’t keep experience through loops. For a good chunk of the loops, they take advantage of Siffrin asking them if they need help and drag him into a training lesson that slowly goes from a whole emotional conversation to them quietly listening to Siffrin’s every word. [Siffrin fills this silence with random star facts that pop into their mind. This Is Important It WILL Be On The Test] Eventually the training becomes too tedious, so they start sneaking off to go fight sadnesses— and eventually just punch trees, which busts their knuckles— to get stronger faster! Everything goes downhill from there, with them forgetting to make food to them sneaking out at night to fight more to them getting reckless and uncaring; it snowballs down into “oh this could be considered suicidal confidence”.

Every loop, you say "hey, I'm trapped in a time loop", and EVERY time it is a big emotional thing that exhausts you to the point of going to bed immediately after, and everyone gets antsy and worried, and in the end the anxiety and trouble NEVER ends up mattering because the King still flattens the party every time. [And (shuffling through the sea of my notes for the au), imagine this from their situation for a second; Today, you tell your friends you are trapped in a time loop. They drag you into a long, uncomfortable conversation that makes you cry, and you go to bed with a full stomach and the knowledge they will protect you, and you will protect them. You make sure he doesn't get squashed by a boulder, you make sure they find the key, you make sure they don't die. Tomorrow, you will tell your friends you are trapped in a time loop. They will drag you into a long, uncomfortable conversation that will make you cry, and you will go to bed with a full stomach and the knowledge they've failed to protect you, but they're trying this loop, and you'll still protect them anyway.]

And then the King fight. He grabs them and he kills them and it fucks them up. [it fucks them up, until it too happens again and again, and eventually it simply is just another obstacle you must pass, because the second his stupid hand wraps around you like a ragdoll it’s over, so you just spit in his face to make him press the trigger immediately and not drag it out for forever- imagine the most traumatic event in your entire life, repeated over and over, until it looses all meaning. It’s still traumatic, it’s sewn into your brain forever you will never forget this.]

They tell the party ‘hey, I just got murdered’, and if this au was ISAT, it would go from having a memory that gave everyone a defense buff to a memory that literally stops you from winning, randomly attaching to a party member. You couldn’t get rid of it. They’d take every hit for you, and you’d have to loop back, because you couldn’t win with an unremovable memory like that. and that’s why they stop saying things, because if the people you loved would die to protect you, something you don’t want and have the ability to stop, would you stop them?

And so everything collapses, and from that point [the start of act 4] it collapses fast.

WHICH LEADS US TO ENDLESS MY FAVORITE LITTLE THANG

if this is transparent or not I don’t fucking know and honestly. After 2 hours of fighting ibisPaint X to make it transparent I stopped caring. o7

Slight design notes tangent: the fucking. Wispy things around their limbs just kinda move around them- yknow because black holes pull things in and they are one. Their like,,,, face spike design??? Question mark on what 2 call it? It’s designed to look like their hair lol. The little star-dot things on their knuckles are important smile. Eventually I’ll post a full thing 4 them (I have like 2 pages of random doodles of them it’s craaazy)

Endless (or Ness, later on) is Bonnie’s loop-alike. They’re a little angry hater and I based them on the song Black Hole Sun [therefore they double-dip in the space theming, the little scoundrel! Imagine being both a black hole and a partial eclipse!! Damn why you taking all the space theming for!!] which was the song the whole AU was based on! Woah! Damn you carrying ALL the out of AU lore in you! They’re anger over fear while Bonnie is fear over anger.

They make me SO fucking upset. Like. I’m not being funny anymore. This is THE most upsetting character I’ve ever written. They make me cry. My entire schtik is making horror and this little creature is the most upset I've ever been at a creation of mine.

Endless is a Bonnie who, without exaggerating, literally imploded from having too much wish craft in them— hence the black hole theme. They went through an unreasonable amount of loops [i think I noted down 400??? Probably not that many, but hey, leveling is slow when half the time you rely on a scripted event that has like 3 enemies. Never really pinned anything down, but it’s a CRAZY upsetting amount.] and just couldn’t win,, and they eventually broke, and begged for it to stop— and, well, with so much wish craft in them, even without the proper rituals the Universe just couldn’t ignore ALL this wish craft, overflowing, in one spot. They asked for help and it killed them.

And then they were at the tree! And they’re helping a DIFFERENT Bonnie, who they’re upset at because what. What why is this happening? They asked for it to stop, not for a whole NEW Bonnie to exist and to do it all over again, what is this what, stop stop it. And they have to keep watching Siffrin wish, and doom them to their endless loop, and they have to tell Bonnie no, the party can’t help them like they want the party to do because the party never could help them, and it’s just going to bring them distress and heartache. Bonnie does it anyways, until the very beginning of act 4: it goes downhill from there, until they’re worried This Bonnie will end up like THEM.

They’re not the most self-confident type. They give themself the most un-nicknameable name [Bonnie still finds one that fits— Ness. They reluctantly accept it.] [Endless vc: Ness? Like? From Earthbound???] they can think of because nicknames are a love language and they speak it, and they don't think they deserve it anymore because they've Changed, and trade out the nicknames they have for the party for things they learned from Siffrin in their own many many training loops: The Sun, The Moon, The Star, The Sky, and Bonnie is Supernova, because its cool as hell and Siffrin told them that’s what happens when a star dies, and they died. Open foreshadowing. They take to closing the same eye they made Siffrin the Star loose, because if he doesn’t get to see anymore neither should they— even if that eventually becomes a natural thing, something they do now to focus. They talk about a sister they have— had, because their world is gone and she never got unfrozen, they never learned if she was alive under all that icy craft or not, and they’re not Bonnie anymore. Ness is Bonnie, but Bonnie is not Ness.

And so, when act 5 hits, they’re desperate. They can’t see it happen again, because it erased them as a person and it was terrifying enough why would you want to see it happen again? they prepare to storm the house, bevause theyre strong enough to tear it apart themself, get stopped by the party, and essentially they’ve replaced Bonnie for a loop; which would be okay, if failing didn’t mean there would probably be Two Endlesses and No Bonnie’s. By the end of the au, Bonnie, lvl 99, is like bringing a brick to a stare down. Endless, in comparison, is like bringing a bazooka to a fistfight. They can’t face the King, they can’t, it would probably mess something up [the party has them pinned as being a kid by this point— wether they realise Ness acts a lot like Bonnie or not, who knows] so they panic and wave the party off into the King’s room and fights off the remaining sadnesses to calm down.

And the Party brings Bonnie down, and they fight a fake version of their sister [who they win against, even if barely, because Nille is their sister and damnit, Nille would never hurt them, not after giving up her life for them] and they have a breakdown, and then there's two of them. There's Bonnie and there's Ness. Bonnie confronts them and they get in ANOTHER fistfight, bveause how else would two angry ultra-powerful preteens settle things, and Bonnie convinces them to come along, because their identity has been found out and damnit Nille really won't care, Ness is her sibling too.

[Nille approaches the situation carefully, but Bonnie is right: Nille sees the two of them and immediately decides she has two siblings and she wants to protect them. Both of them went through so, so much, and they saved the country and damnit it would be monstrous to throw Ness out to the wolves because they Changed. Aka I was physically incapable of letting Ness dissapear or have a bad ending they deserve the world too.]

I just I jsutt. Auguhghghghhh. au too big in my brain spill it out on the floor it goes everywhere. When you hyperfix on your own au

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

Carpe Noctem 21

Warnings: dark elements, noncon, age gap, gaslighting, manipulation, violence, blood, other dark elements. Proceed with caution. (short!reader)

Note: Please let me know what you think as it helps me a lot with ideas and I love interacting with you all.

Part of The Club AU

As you come home, the house is seemingly empty. You sneak up to the guest room and tuck your bag beside the bed, your apron buried inside. After a long day of steaming milk and trying to perfect your latte art, you don’t have the energy to reveal the truth. It’s better he doesn’t know. He’d agree, he probably doesn’t even care.

That’s your real problem. You just need to accept that other people don’t care as much as you. That’s not a flaw in you, it just means you need to adjust your expectations. Or maybe just see things for what they are. Honesty would save you a lot of disappointment.

You go downstairs and lazily pluck out ingredients from the pantry and fridge. You always found cooking relaxing. A clear goal with small steps. Not to mention, the kitchen is much bigger than your boxy apartment. You’ll enjoy the luxury while you can.

You fill the pot and the aromas mingle fragrantly, tugging at your stomach. Even after tasting nearly every dessert in the cafe, you’re starving. You stir the mixture and open the bag of tortilla chips nestled away in the cupboard.

“Don’t eat those all,” Lloyd startles you.

You look at him over your shoulder, “won’t. They’re just to go with the soup.”

“Soup?” He glances at the stove and you pull down two bowls.

“Tortilla soup. My specialty.”

“Really? I was just going to order from The Duke.”

“That’s expensive,” you say, “there’ll be lots of leftovers so–”

“Leftovers?”

“Save some money–”

“Not really something I’m worried about, baby cakes,” he crosses the kitchen and sniffs emphatically at the stove, “tomato-ey.”

“Well, if you don’t like it, I can freeze it. I’ll take it for lunch–”

“Why are you doing this?” He asks abruptly.

“Why am I… cooking?”

“Yes.”

“Well, because we need to eat,” you say as if it’s obvious.

“We? You’re… not my mother. Or wife.”

“Clearly,” you agree. “I’ll replace the ingredients. Sorry, I just thought… maybe a nice gesture since I’m staying here.”

“Nice gesture. I got a few of those in mind but they don’t include a hot stove.”

You glance over at him. Right, yeah, you’re a body to him, not anything else. You realise now, it was the same with Johnny. You were just a thing to him. You cleaned up, you cooked, but he never really looked after you.

“The soup won’t take long,” you assure him.

He takes a breath and sighs, drawing close, looming over you as you take out the cheese shredder. He watches as you unwrap the cheese and grate it. You don’t know what else to do but keep going. You feel like you’ve crossed some line you can’t see.

“I just want us to be clear,” he taps his fingers on the counter, “this isn’t… serious. Us, I mean. There’s no us. Not outside the bedroom. Got it?”

You frown, “I know that. I’m not stupid. And I certainly am not interested in that.”

He’s quiet as he drags his hand off the counter. He exhales, “good to know. We understand each other.”

“We do,” you nod.

You wrap up the unused cheese. As you do, he reaches to steal a pinch of the shredded cheese. You instinctively swat his hand away and he recoils.

“Eh,” he shoves the cheese in his mouth.

“You didn’t wash your hands,” you accuse him.

“You’ve had worse than my hands near your mouth–”

“Jeez,” you huff, “you’re going to make a mess.” 

You move the plate of cheese across the counter and tidy up the few stray pieces across the counter. You toss them in the pin and take a cloth to wipe down the marble. He lurks, pacing around the kitchen.

“I’ll have extra chips with mine,” he nears the door, pausing as you sense him watching you but don’t look. “I’ll figure out dessert, baby face.”

🍷

The next day you don’t bother making yourself coffee. You’ll have more than your share at the cafe. You dress and leave at the usual time, parking a block away from the shop and walking the rest of the way. 

As you approach, you see Cole ahead of you. He unlocks the front door and glances over with a smile. He waves as he tugs with his other hand. He turns his attention back to the door and struggles to dislodge the keys.

You come close and watch him wiggle and jiggle the key ring.

“Dang thing gets stuck every day,” he shakes his head.

“Can I try?” You offer.

“Sure,” he steps back,throwing his hands up in exasperation, “not as strong as I look, I guess.”

You don’t comment. He’s tall and even under his corduroy jacket, you can tell he’s in good shape. You grab the end of the key and give it a small wiggle, sliding it out easily. Not much force, just a bit of finesse.

“You don’t have to be strong,” you offer him the keys, “just have to coax it a little.”

“Thanks,” he takes the keys, his fingers brushing yours, “you’re a godsend. I swear. I think… call me crazy, but last night I was telling my ma that you were sent to us for a reason.”

“You did?” You ask as he reaches around you to open the door, waving you in ahead of him.

You enter and he follows, pulling the door shut to lock from the inside.

“Oh, yeah, I mean, I’ve been interviewing like crazy. Most of the staff lasts a day and gives up but I can tell… you’re committed,” his sleeve touches yours as he passes, putting his passenger bag on the countertop as he stretches and looks around, “well, you want a coffee before we go through opening?”

“I’d love that but I can wait if–”

“Nah, we got plenty of time,” he interjects, “besides, that’s one of the steps. We do a batch medium and dark roast before opening so we’re ready to serve when doors open.”

“Oh, makes sense,” you peer around and set to taking the chairs down of the tables and set them right.

“I’ll get those,” he insists, “please. Lady’s shouldn’t be doing all that.”

You hesitate as you place another chair on its legs. You glance over at him as moves behind the counter. The comment isn’t exactly HR friendly but you don’t think he means anything. He’s just the type who likes to wear shining armor. 

“I don’t mind.”

“I do,” he insists as he approaches the till, “come on. Let’s make the coffee.”

You step away from the tables. He is your boss. You go around the counter into the narrow space behind it. You forgot how cramped it is here.

“You wanna put your stuff in my office?” He asks as he prods the bag slung from your shoulder, “I’ll get this warmed up.”

“Oh, I guess…”

Here, the brass key,” he hands over the keyring, “you can leave those on the desk.”

“Right.”

You take the keys and go through the kitchen and turn into the small hallway between that and the storage room. You go to the office door with the peeling paint and the worn side that reads management. This place needs a lot of work.

You let yourself into the office and set the keys on the corner of the desk. You put your coat and bag in the chair against the wall, eyeing the picture of a younger Cole and who you assume are his parents. The backdrop is grassy and bright. He’s smiling that same sunshiny smile. You wonder how he’s held onto that.

You close the door behind you as you head back. You can hear him humming as you come down the hallway. Is that Frankie Valli?

[bruhstation]

assorted 2x3x4 stuff from a few months ago (except the last one! it’s recent! it’s a limbus company AU I’m working on)

also a small life update under the cut

hi! it’s been a while since I last uploaded art or anything cstm-related. the truth is that I’m a college student now! yay! I’m studying to become a doctor too! double yay! I’ve been feeling much at home here rather than at high school to be honest XD and it’s great to have the privacy I desired compared to my dormitory life many months ago. the big city I currently reside in (I’m a country boy lol) also gives me a lot of cool places to visit, cool people to meet. I’ve been doing well, maybe a bit on the mental side? haha, it’s just the first week of uni, so I won’t get way too hopeful, but one’s gotta be optimistic

but with university comes a lot of homeworks!! not as much as in high school, but I get home late and I have to think about lots of things other than homeworks, like cleaning the apartment, cooking, etc. I’ve been busy both with my personal life and my social life in uni. I’m also currently hyperfixated on my ocs and welcome home, and lately I’ve been trying to slow down on drawing too much and avoiding burnout (also some things regarding the ttte community but atp it’s just a long lost memory and I prefer to think about the better stuff).

I have many drawing ideas for casa tidmouth, a few fanfics planned too, but I’m whittling at it all, bit by bit, at a pace I desire. hopefully, I can fully return to bruhstation later and gain my footing again. I love my story, I love my friends here, I love my supporters. I’ll just take my sweet sweet time.

thanks a lot for sticking around!

oh, I’ve also been reading more books. a LOT of them!! I think they’re a good way to expand the way I weave the themes in my story, and they’re so good. demian, the stranger, 1984, wuthering heights, moby dick... do check them out someday!!!

[melanirana]

Okay- questions-

WHAT PROMOTES SINGING?

Happy feelings? Bad ones? Courting rituals? Or are there different songs for different things?

WHAT IS THE GENERAL LIFE CICLE OF MERS?

How long do they live? How long does the circle last? How long do they live in the wild compared to captivity? How long will Sun and Moon most likely live?(ignore this one if it makes you uncomfortable or is a spoiler.)

WHAT MATING RITUALS DO MERS DISPLAY?

Dancing, singing, grooming- what is the timeframe of all of these? Which ones are more important? Which are less important? Are there any others?

HOW DO MERS SLEEP?

Fish have to constantly keep swimming or they’ll die from what I’m aware! Are half their brains functioning like usual fish? Are they twitchy in their sleep? Or do they just hiss at the grim reaper and he’s like ‘okay then’ and leaves them to sleep in peace?

WHAT IS THE GENERAL TERM FOR A BABY MER?

Guppy? Cub? Pup? Idk!😭

sorry- just needed answers. Oh yeah- bonus question-

HOW WOULD SUN AND MOON REACT IF Y/N KISSED THEM NEAR THEIR GILLS? Their gills are sensitive right? So would that make them more prone to becoming flustered if Y/N was just like ‘I’m going to make a hot fish blush.’

I love your art and I stay up at night thinking about the biology. I love this au so much-

Aaaaaaaa thank you. (⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~♥️

Inflickts my Biologie Autisum on you

What promotes singing?

Singing can have a variety of meanings, sometimes it's to communicate that you're happy, that you're lonely, that you're having fun, that you would like to meet. But sometimes they sing Just to sing, to strengthen the bonds they have with their school or individuals.

What is the general life cycle of mers?

Usually Mers tend to get around 50 years old, it is relatively rare for them to get older. Mers reach adulthood at 16. Mers don't hatch with their adult colors but with, what are called, Baby Stripes. They have them for the first 8 years of their lives, after which they start to slowly fade and are fully gone by 13.

What mating rituals do mers display?

A whole lot of things but yes singing, dancing, grooming, hunting together and then some, so anything that strengthens the bond between them. Singing is one of the more important ones as well as grooming, these two rituals are continued until the end of the courtship and the Mers part again.

How do mers sleep?

It's not all fish that need to move in order to breathe, for example, the Parrot fish. Same goes for Mers, they don't need to move to breathe, their gills automatically pump water through them.

What is the general term for Baby Mer?

I always just call them Baby Mers, but you can any of those terms. Though, Guppy is probably more accurate.

How would Sun and Moon react If y/n kissed them near their gills?

Congratulations! You know have two cooked fish. They are flustered to all hell and a puddle on the floor.

Never stopp sending me biologie questions I love answering them

[funkyfreshman]

FIRST OF ALLL i am so sorry for ur chem midterm ik its hard but u can do it

second of all- whats ur favorite Snotlout hc?? Or if u have any aus (alternate universe connoisseur here)

One of my cute hcs might be that he sleeps with a plushie (which was shown in one rtte episode where the twins use a horn and wake up everyone)

or that he likes to cook and bake but will never admit it’s his hobby since its too feminine for men.

and one of my ship hcs is that he and Eret will have a baby girl named Kari (Idk how they had her but lets just say she’s a gift from thor for striking Snotlout down so many times😢)

anyways *Scurries out*

YIOEE YIPOEE HI

And Ty I hate chemistry so much but unfortunately my major requires it (cries in marine bio marjor) but hey in a year and a half I am gonna be studying but the ocean and actually doing hands on stuff so yippee

But back to snotlout

Ok so my personal favorite Snotlout hc both from others and myself, is that he’s a mamas boy, he adores his mom he may look like his dad if you glance at him but if you put him right by his mom he’s her mini me. He has her face.

I also enjoy a lot of my scar hcs I’m actually planning on rewatching again and just listing where he definitely and should have gotten injured and possibly scared. (There also many times I remeber that like bro…you should have died there HIW ARE YOU ALIVE) Also he should have lightning scars bro got struck like a what 5 times, GIVE HIM LIGHTNING SCARS.

Erm I really enjoy trans snotlout in all directions it could genuinely fit really well. But thats because I’m trans and I push all my problems onto him

And Aus I have… I’ve got a couple in the works

This one is so self indulgent but whatever, I started working on it but it’s of my madam Oglethorpe art and I was like “what if there plan was successful” and I don’t know that dived into what if Snotlout continued to go undercover, slowly got better at it, and made a name for Madam Oglethorpe, I don’t know it’s still a skeleton of a Au but I find it silly as hell there is two ways I want it to go and I might just end up writing both.

Another one being my archurylout au, it’s just Snotlout but he decides he’s gonna specialize in Archery as I think a bow would compliment him really well, also I’ve read a few fic about it.

Oh and I think you his counts as an au, but my rewrite of httyd with my oc Arne that I ship with Snotlout. Started as I wanted to give Snotlout a boyfriend, and he was just a guy originally then he got attacked by the narrative, this one I actually have the skeleton up until httyd 2 worked out on what I want to happen. And I have like the ribs of httyd 3 cause I know how I want it to end, but I want to change some things in httyd 3 cause it’s pisses me off how they did it. But genuinely this au is just me giving Snotlout the slowest gay slow burn to ever burn that he deserves.

I would put throw in hc area but it also could be an au, but I was think of a different love triangle in httyd 2 where fishlegs and heather get to be in love cause I love them together. But it could go two ways Snotlout and Ruffnut either are/get together and they both are obsessed with eret POLY 🎉🎉 orrrrr Snotlout and Ruffnut are BESTIES and if EITHER OF THEM get this hunk of a man it’s a win. And the whole movie is just them needing this man.

And oh my god your so right his MOM MADE HIM THAT PLUSHIE I fucking know she made I feel it in my soul

And YEUP he’s a baker and a cooker again I like to think he learned from his mama.

And UAGWHHEHDHSH that’s so cute what, maybe they adopt her from a shit situation, and they both are like we need to be the best dads ever cause they both have been in shit situations and they want to give this little girl the best damn childhood in the world cause they had shit ones.

[rott1ngbra1n]

Sorry for being sudo inactive!! I’ve been on a trip, where I got to see Sweeney Todd on Broadway!! Genuinely such a good show. If I went on about how amazing it was, we’d be here all day

But on the note of me being gone for a bit, ya boi has been crafting! Along with some more ramblings as usual-

More art below the cut (under my ramble-)

The chapter one outline of the Alley Cat AU has been completed! Now it’s on to drawing some panels out and finalizing the draft! Of course I will probably post more concept work before then, as some details still need to be worked out. But we are making headway!

I’m going to also work on making a masterpost here soon, so that way everything is in one neat spot. But the story will be hosted here! Here’s some more smaller concept work to tide you guys over until the next post! I obviously want to finish a couple chapters but I’ve also started work on a chapter explaining how Morro met his cat! Originally the cat was unnamed but I think Wisp works well for them, I will try to finish the reference sheets for all of the characters before I post any chapters.

I’m also going to finish up my work on chapter one, before posting any of it. So that way the wait between isn’t as awful (fun fact that’s been my New Year’s resolution- to try and post more-) but please be patient with me, I’ve never really worked on a project this big before and I am a full time college student with a job. So I will do my best!

I want to let you guys know as well, the ninja and their dynamic with Lloyd will stay pretty similar to that of the show. With them obviously being suspicious of Lloyd and his “cat”, but because they find him and Lloyd doesn’t try to do anything regarding the Serpentine (because Morro shook some sense into him-) there’s no residual “you unleashed the snakes on us-“ vibes. Instead right off the bat Kai takes one look at Lloyd and says “You are now my little brother. You cannot deny this.”, adding more fluff.

That also means we have to find another person who unleashes the serpentine. Because plot reasons and all that jazz, I’m working on it but I think it would be funny if Jay did it by accident or one of the other darkly boys did it. I’ll toy with both ideas and some other ones before I settle on it, I have time. I hope.

I’ve got some other things I’m cooking up, some Ninjago related, others pertaining to other fandoms I’m in.

Aside from that, I also have a Redbubble! There’s some stuff in there I’m reworking, so a minder and apology for that, but I’m going to try to get some more Ninjago works posted up there. Along with some original works! Here’s the link if you’d like to check it out!

I also have a KoFi that I am also redoing and working on! If you’d like to commission me, that would be the spot! I’m still trying to figure it out so if you have any questions don’t be afraid to ask! KoFi link here!

I really appreciate all of your kind words and reblog tags (I do see them, they make me laugh and smile), it means a lot and I hope you all enjoy what else I’ve got in the oven!! Thank you so much!!

[cb-writes-stuff]

〜＊ New Blog Intro! ＊〜

Howdy! I’m CB, short for C. Brookes. Feel free to call me any derivation of those. I am 18, going into college for a degree in English. (Even though I’m an adult, don’t be weird.) He/him, please.

My blog (and brain) is currently dominated by:

[??? I don’t know]

Other posts are spices.

Asks/doodle requests are open!

Project Opal Masterpost

★ This is a colored text blog. I use lots of colored text because my eyes glaze over homochromatic text, it’s fun to have lots of colored text, and it’s pretty. ★

♦︎ About Me ♦︎

♥︎ I’m an American from the good ol’ South. Not much of an accent, but I have a birthright to the vernacular, the hospitality, and the home-cooked meals. ♥︎

♥︎ I’m just a freelance silly little guy. ♥︎

♥︎ I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder), also called Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, Inattentive Type. I’m not at all hyperactive, so I prefer ADD. ♥︎

♥︎ I also have social anxiety, and a number of other suspected things! ♥︎

♥︎ I actually know very little about lots of things! Feel free to educate me. ♥︎

♥︎ I’m a yapper, if you couldn’t tell. ♥︎

♠︎ What I Post ♠︎

♥︎ Fandoms I post about: A Hat in Time, In Stars and Time, Hollow Knight, EPIC: The Musical, and… that’s about it, I think. ♥︎

♥︎ Fandoms I don’t post about: Pokémon, Baba Is You, Undertale, Deltarune, Portal (1 and 2), Stardew Valley, and I might add to this list later. ♥︎

♥︎ I’m writing a novel! I post (almost) daily word count updates, with little snippets of my favorite thing I wrote on a given day. ♥︎

♥︎ I also do art! Sometimes it’s doodles, sometimes it’s full-fledged art. ♥︎

★ I have a little AU idea percolating right now called In Hats and Time, a crossover between A Hat in Time and In Stars and Time. There’s not much on it right now, but there will be eventually! ★

♥︎ Japanese. The language itself, songs (especially Ado), and anything else that somehow isn’t either of those. ♥︎

♥︎ This is a no-swearing blog. You do you, but I don’t post or reblog anything with swearing. ♥︎

♥︎ In a similar vein, this is an SFW blog. We stay silly. ♥︎

♣︎ Tags ♣︎

#project opal - posts related to my current novel wip, Project Opal

#cb writing stuff - random posts, thoughts, and general yapping

#cb doodling stuff - my doodles

#cb drawing stuff - my more complete artwork, art projects, or illustrations

#cb defining stuff - the definitions of interesting words I come across

#cb answering stuff - answered asks, or anything from my inbox

#cbの日本語 - any of my posts that include Japanese in them

#cb progressing stuff - my writing progress updates #ihat / #in hats and time - any posts about the aforementioned AU

#siffrin and the craaaazy time loop - my liveblogged In Stars and Time playthrough

#i don’t tag my reblogs and i’m not about to start now - posts I reblogged responding to my moots

[doodledoesthing3]

HOPVEMBER DAY 30 🆓FREE STYLE🆓

HOPPY HOPSCOTCH HITTING HER SIGNATURE POSE!

With that, Hopvember 2024 has come to a close.

A major thank you to everyone that participated, it means the world to me even if it was as simple as a sketch or big as a painting! I didn’t think that anyone was going to participate in this silly little event, but I was fooled, you all participated and I had a huge smile on my face whenever I saw a new Hopvember piece every day. It’s going to feel weird without being tagged in Hopvember art every day, but I’ll get used to it until next November!

I originally made Hopvember as a silly way to show off how much I adore Hoppy Hopscotch because I was bored. But this prompt month was the best time of my life! I got to interact with beginner artists, some artists that I adore, and I even got to meet new artists who amazed me with their art skills. Now, I just want this month to repeat over and over again.

I do have plans for other things that are Poppy Playtime/Smiling Critters related! So don’t think that this is the last that you’ll see of lil ol’ me, there’s still a lot that I have cooking!

I’m currently working on Chapter 4 and Chapter 5 of my au, The Smiling Voices, which you can check out on my pinned post. I’m working on the Nightmare Critters Analysis, I just gotta finish with Poe, Toullie, and Maggie Mako and it should be good to go after that! Previously mentioned, Chapter 5 of The Smiling Voices is going to be special as I’m doing something a bit different this time around, it’s a little collab with one of my mutuals, @that1garrulousfan! I’ll talk more about this chapter 5 collab once Chapter 4 is finished and released. I’ll be working on more puzzles for The Smiling Voices as well! There’s going to be little arts and oneshots here n there with characters from my au and my friends’ ocs!

Once again, thank you all so much for participating in Hopvember! I’ll do this again next year! Hopefully by next November, I’ll finally have the Hoppy Hopscotch plushie. But until then, I’ll see you later and as always,

[midnightraine131]

Hello Raine! 💙

How have you been? I hope everything is going well for you!

For the fandom ask:

2, 5, 9, 16, 22, 24

Have a wonderful *timezone*, and wish you all the best(⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)

Hey Anna, thank you for your ask.

It's been so long, well, uhm, I guess I'm doing just fine aside from losing a tremendous amount of weight for the past couple of months.... I can say it in a good way since all my medical results came out real good. I hope to have fewer medications after I see my doctor this week. *Cross fingers*

How about you? I hope you're having a good time (Googles your timezone) Oh, it's very early in the morning over there. Please take some rest.

Anyway, without further ado, here's all my answers.

2. a headcanon you weren't sure about at first but have come to like!

I came across a headcanon about Armin being the perfect husband material like he cooks, takes care of the house chores all by himself, and so on. In most of the fics I’ve read, especially post-canon or modern AU, he’s incredibly skilled at it.

But let’s be honest—during his time as a cadet and in the elite squad, Armin practically disappears when it comes to cleaning or cooking. Refute me if you want, but we never see him holding a spatula or a broom. He probably avoided Levi’s attention altogether when it came time to clean the headquarters.

Still, I like to imagine he becomes more responsible at home as he grows older. I mean, come on—when Annie gets pregnant (assuming that happens), there’s no way he’d leave Jean, Connie, or maybe Reiner to take care of her. Especially since we know she’s pretty unorganized in their shared space. So yes, post-canon husband material Armin it is!

5. something you see in fics a lot and love

Always the shy yet vocally bold Armin, and Annie, the emotionally constipated one LOL. This dynamic has always been my cup of tea in fics.

9. a ship that isn't your OTP but that you enjoy

Oh, this is tricky. I can say AruHitch (?) *blinks rapidly*

I like to think they could be besties when it comes to giving love advice—advice neither of them would actually follow by the end of the day. I imagine them staying up late at night by a bonfire, beers in hand, talking religiously about their crushes and how they have no chance with them in any scenario. They’d probably call each other dummies.

16. a tiny detail in canon that you want more people to appreciate

This one’s about Connie. I’ve noticed that most people in the fandom regard him as a dummy because of how the story portrays him in canon—or even how he views himself. But if you take a closer look at his character, he’s so much more than just a slapstick comic relief. Sure, he underestimates his own intelligence, but he often makes a lot of sense and has talents in his own right. I’ll fight anyone who calls him cringe. Try me.

22. the fandom friend you've known the longest

I guess I won’t count the mutuals I had back in 2013, since I don’t see their accounts anymore, and I wasn’t really trying to get involved back then. When I returned in 2022/23, I decided to start writing fics again and kept this blog active. The first people I talked to were @moonspirit and @annawayne, and they made me feel so welcome in the AOT fandom. I’m incredibly grateful for that.

They inspired me to write more, and knowing we had this little community tucked into a small corner of such an enormous fandom—it truly felt like a haven. It makes me so happy to see new people joining and contributing, whether through art, fanfics, or even as readers supporting everything we do. They welcomed them just as warmly as I was when I returned as a new writer last year, and that sense of belonging is something truly special.

24. how has fandom positively impacted your life

God, I can’t stop rambling about how much this fandom has positively impacted me in every aspect of my life. It might sound like I’m overreacting, but after I started writing Aruani fics, I realized something profound: first loves truly linger, even when you’re over 30. For me, that “first love” is twofold—my love for writing and the love I felt when I first shipped Aruani ten years ago.

Sharing that love has brought me happiness beyond words, especially when people read my fics, leave comments, or even reach out on my socials just to tell me how much they enjoy my work. It means so, so much to me. All the time, effort, and tears poured into writing every chapter feel completely worth it because of the love and appreciation from all of you.

Coming back to this fandom has been the best decision I’ve made in the past couple of years, and I truly hope it continues for many more. I’m definitely not ready to move on to another fandom, even though AOT has long since ended. I’m still holding out hope for High School Caste!

[oopsiedaisiesbaby]

I wonder if there are any traditional "omega" things that John discovers he really likes doing himself after getting rid of all his upbringing shit

Also, do you think there's anything traditional that for some reason Gale really likes/adheres to? Maybe that John wasn't expecting of him?

Child rearing. I think John would liiive for being a dad! He’s basically another kid, not that Gale has to take care of him or anything, just that he’s got playtime down to an art, he can hold a whole ass conversation with a toddler no issues. He really thought he’d be the distant but loving dad he grew up with but John would be way too in love with their kids to be like that. I also think he’d get into cooking too. And idc what au I’m talking about, John will always be into Gale bossing him around.

I think Gale might get into the lap sitting, just because it means getting to be close to John. It takes him a bit to be comfortable doing it in front of people, but it gives John an extra excuse to touch him without them being obnoxious so Gale ends up really liking it. Also, I haven’t decided if I’m going this route but if I make bites an archaic trad thing, I think Gale would want one. Also, as much as he’s a control freak that likes things his way, I do think he would like it when John takes the reins from time to time and makes decisions for him. It would take a lot of communication and time to find a balance, but he likes being able to shut his brain off for a bit.

I’m sure there will be more I think of as a develop the world more but these are the ones I can think of right off the top of my head!

[hetalia-club]

Don’t know if you take requests like these but I’m really curious and I really love your interpretations of the characters but what kind personalities would certain nations be attracted to??? Feel free to disregard this, love you and your blog!

hmmm that's an interesting question let's see....(And thank you sm Ily to anon🥰!) (I would like to remind you all these are my opinions you don't have to agree)((I would also like to clarify this is for like a human AU))

Italy- I think Italy would like someone who was more pathetic than him. I do feel he would like being the 'strong one' in a relationship. He says all the time he doesn't like feeling useless or stupid so I think he would seek out an SO who looked to him as a knight in shining armor. I think he would get easily depressed in a relationship where he is constantly being 'mothered' by his SO. He might be fine with it at first but I think eventually it would really kill his self worth. I think his SO asking "Can you open this jar for me" "Can you look at the sink? I think it's broke" would be such a little victory for him. He would also want someone who appreciated him for him. Someone who thought his art was pretty and loved his cooking. He would really like praise from his SO and would need validation about their love for him almost daily and would always give it back as well.

Romano- I think Romano would essentially want to date himself. Not consciously but I think he would subconsciously seek out someone who was almost exactly like him for better or worse. Someone who didn't take much effort for him to understand. Someone with similar hobbies, outlooks and energy levels. He wouldn't like chasing someone and would like for it to come easy.

Germany- I think Germany would go for someone who was as ridged as him. He does not seem to care for nonsense. He doesn't like to leave his comfort zone so I think he would date wanting his comfort zone.

Japan- I head canon Japan as ace and not really caring much for relationships in the least. But if he were to be with someone I think he would want someone who was the opposite of him. Someone who was loud and energetic. I think he would feed off their energy and try and incorporate it into his own life.

Prussia- Prussia is another I view as hard core ace. As in he does not even think about relationships at all, he thinks they are icky. He has zero desire for physical contact and the idea of it kind of freaks him out. BUT if I had to decide what kind of person he would pick it would be someone who was crazy about him. Personality and looks wouldn't matter much to him they would just have to think he was perfect. he would feed on positive comments and praise from them and drink it up like a fine wine.

Austria- I think Austria would only date someone who had very specific interests. He cares deeply about certain things (Classical music being a big one) He would not call someone back after the first date if they said something like "I don't really like music". Austria wouldn't only be looking for a lover but also a best friend. someone he could talk to about his hobbies for hours, Someone who would sit and listen to him play his piano or violin and never complain. Someone he could bring to the opera or a symphony and they could gush about it the rest of the night and how great it was.

America- America would want to date someone who went with the flow. He is a very spontaneous person and he would want someone who could keep up with his ever changing mind and hobbies. Someone who would be happy to wake up at 5am and go on a hike and then half way through get an UBER home and finish out the day at Disney World. He would want to date someone who was also fine with lounging home some days and having streaks where they do nothing but watch movies. I think his SO would have to get used to being ghosted a lot. Not that he's doing it on purpose just that he maybe forgets to call.

England- England would want to be with someone who understood his dark humor. Someone who would laugh at his jokes and understand them without having to over explain it to them. I think his biggest turn on would be someone who could make him laugh really hard. Like an ugly laugh. Someone who he could sit and watch a movie with and they poke fun at it the entire time laughing and joking until the wee hours of the morning.

China- China would have very traditional views on relationships I feel. He would want someone who understood is culture. Someone who little work. He would want someone who as basically a mind reader. Someone who knew him better than he knew himself.

Russia- Russia would want someone who was loving and kind. Someone who looked at him with soft eyes and weren't put off by his threatening demeanor he puts out. I think his biggest turn on for a relationship would be someone who initiates all the affection. He wouldn't be the one to grab his SO and kiss them in a grocery store but if they did it to him it would make his day.

Canada- Now I think Canada would want someone who was a good listener. Someone who listened to what he had to say happily and could listen to him talk for hours. And he in turn would listen to them. Communication would be HUGE in a relationship with Canada. I think he could get easily dejected if he felt his SO were ignoring him or weren't listening to his feelings. Canada would be the type of guy do double and triple text just to make sure you saw it. If that would be a problem for you then he would be a bad partner to have because if you told him to stop he would completely shut down and stop texting you all together taking that as 'well they don't want me texting them ever I guess'

France- France would want someone who liked to wine and dine. He would want someone who wanted to go out every single weekend to a 5 star place. Someone who he could order for. Someone who put al their trust into him. he would want someone who he could really invest in. Someone he wanted to learn everything about. He would remain mysterious but would want to date someone who he knew like the back of his hand. So he could buy them a perfume he knew they would love. Take them to a wine tasting and say "try this one I know you'll love it"

Denmark- Den would want a best friend first and a lover second. He would want someone to go everywhere with him. Someone who was happy to drop everything and go to the store with him, just walk around the city, or go to a club. He would want someone who would be his world, his new obsession. He would be absolutely wild about his SO. He would buy them a ton of surprise gifts. They would wake up to a man at their door delivering flowers or him sowing up with a designer bag he got them. Denmark would want someone who was not afraid to ask "hey can you buy me this?" he would be the type of BF to ask "How many and what color :)?" He would want someone he could spoil rotten.

Norway- I think Norway would want an easy going person like himself. He will ignore his SO. He will make them wonder if they are even still dating and then then he will call his SO one night at 10pm and be like "Want to come over and watch a movie?" He would have to be with someone who was okay with that because he can't change it.

Sweden- Sweden needs someone teh complete opposite of him. Someone who will do all the talking at a party for him. Someone who will know when he wants to leave somewhere without him asking, someone who knows what he likes to eat and where he wants to go out. His SO would be running circles around him while he just stood there and he wouldn't have it any other way.

Iceland- I view Iceland as ace as well but if he were in a relationship I think he would want someone who was like him. Someone who was moody and sassy. It would irritate him to no end and he may instigate a lot of arguments about it but at the same time he would like that. he would like someone who wasn't afraid to push his buttons and someone who he could push their buttons and they would just forget about it in a few hours and not hold it against him. Iceland would want to have a heated argument about "Don't put the keys there put them here" and he wouldn't let it go until you agreed with him and then a couple hours later he would be like "So we getting Dominoes or..."

Finland- Finland would want someone who made his personality look dark and brooding. Someone who was the light of his life. Someone who was cheerful and kind. But also someone who enjoyed the same music and shared in his heavy metal obsession. It wouldn't be a deal breaker if they didn't like it. But the entire relationship he will be showing them bands saying "What do you think about these guys?" and if he did so happen to find a metal band his SO liked he would go over board buying them shirts, concert tickets, albums and just really nurture it.

kind of came up with these on the spot but it was fun to sit there and think about them for a minute! I love picking apart personalities

[gayforjuza]

Hiii I’m the person that started yapping about Edmonds modern au job on your most recent video and I just wanted to say that your videos made me realize how ill am about this stupid gay people in their stupid little gay sex game. Like I’ve been playing this game from like February of the year it released which I’m pretty sure is close to its initial drop and despite me sticking out for this long I think because I never engaged with the fandom past fan art I was just kinda sitting in my own opinions convincing myself that I was extremely normal about everyone. But then when I watched you’re videos I would experience so much pure joy because it was like having a multiple hour long conversation about the game where every minute or so I’m like “real 😌”. so ty for that I have a side blog where I post some of my art but now it'll probably be dedicated to the gay sex game and art studies so i can get better at drawing the gay sex game. Cuz between you and me (idk if you're gonna answer this publicly it's kinda long so I'm assuming no) but I have been sitting on an Alice in wonderland au for this game for YEARS. And now cuz of you i will actually draw everyone in their roles. But last thing and I’m really sorry this is a lot longer than I thought it would be. But my friend and I have been talking about this hypothetical event/au forever and while Kuya is so Cheshire Cat core like so so so so so Cheshire Cat core. Hanging out in trees, helping but cryptically, watching the messes alive gets into from afar and smiling. Like bro that’s him. BUT!!! What if it was Quincey. I need an outside perspective on this but like I think he could fall into the role pretty well and like a sleepy Cheshire Cat hanging out in the shadows smirking at Eiden when he’s not looking and disappearing instead of the big toothy smile. Am I crazy did I cook please be honest. K I’m done

OH MY GODD IM SO HAPPY YAYAYA !! good to hear ur embracing mental illness LOLL welcome to the gay side

as for the cheshire cat situation i think u def cooked, i could see kuya and quincy both either being the cat or the caterpillar ! also garukaru HAVE to be those goofy ass twin brothers

[cacturne]

character creation questions: 16, 19, 20 for as many of them as you feel like!! give me The Lore

YOU GOT IT!! COMIN IN HOT!!

16. Is there any memes or running jokes associated with the character, both in- and out of universe?

Out of universe Vulture has the running joke of being short. Because i think it’s so very funny. My manlet of a woman. A little bit smaller than average for an origins elf in a world where the elves keep getting taller with each new game she’s COOKED!!! SHE’S SHRINKING!!! AND NOT JUST WITH AGE!!!

Rook has the in-universe gag of people saying “rook, like the chess piece?” And them annoyedly replying “no, like the bird!” Every single time.

They also have the gag of people criticizing them for the way they’re doing something and them replying “i’m the lords ruins expert and best climber, not [whatever they’re getting shit for]!”

19. What is your general favourite thing about the character? What is your least favourite? (this is going to have an answer for all of them so warning: LONG) (LIKE REALLY LONG THIS IS GOING TO INCLUDE A DELUGE OF WIPS AND VAULT ART AFTERWARD)

For Vulture my favorite thing about her is her relationship with her family. They love each other so very much and it’s clear that Vulture would do the sixth blight solo if it meant keeping them safe. Adding onto that, i really like how she breaks her own rule about not seeing anyone else as family with Morrigan. I mean, she didn’t for a LONG time, but when you kind of raise your son together your view starts to shift a bit! Who knew! I dunno i like that moment very much, it says a lot about just how much she means to her. <- made it about the situationship again SORRY!! SORRY!!!

My least favorite thing about her is that she just fucked off!! Like Vulture darling i would love to expand on your relationships with your, you know, OTHER friends but you’re pulling a Tom Scott and going off the grid so of course the only person capable of finding you is your situationship!! Go home!! Visit Alistair!! Visit literally anyone!!

My favorite thing about Hawk is that she’s genuinely just really entertaining?? I like thinking about her because her dramatics and theatrics and her attitude are just so silly so fun! I know i talk about her mental illness all the time but she is for real like really fun to be around if you like her style. It’s just that the world hates her badly and she wasn’t built for that amount of pressure.

My least favorite thing about Hawk is in fact her mental illness. I’m getting kinda sick of it! For the love of god, TALK TO YOUR LOVED ONES!!! STOP STUFFING IT AWAY AND ACTING LIKE YOU’RE FINE!!! Hawk survives the fade AU is made so that she can finally be happy yes but it’s also made because i deserve to be able to have a break from her self destructive antics and force her to be genuine for once. God. I love her so much but GET HELP.

With Buzzard my favorite thing about him is that he’s a brick wall of a person. I think that’s such a cool character archetype. Being both physically cracked but also emotionally immune to intimidation in combat is sick, i will not lie!! I like making my characters just a little bit nearing overpowered, i can’t help it!! The way he shrugs off any kind of wound or blow like it’s nothing and never takes a step back makes me want to make stupid anime noises (uuohh sugoi!! Kakkoii!!! <- fucking cringe) and the way he always protects everyone else no matter the damage done to him in the process… wicked cool. This is why you should hire her as your bodyguard, you won’t find anyone better!

My least favorite thing about her though is that she’s out of canon pretty lackluster as a character, which is my own fault. I turned up the cool factor on her so much i don’t really know what to do with him while preserving it, it’s difficult trying to flesh him out because he has a very simple worldview of protect people he loves -> take care of them through any means necessary -> profit. That’s something i should work on myself though! I still love him in the meantime, he just isn’t as deep as my other guys which makes me sad because she deserves better than that.

My super very favorite thing about Heron is her princely attitude.. i can’t help it.. i see a gentlewoman i get red in the face!! The circumstances under which she developed this weren’t very good of course, but i don’t think she hates it for that, or hates it at all. Uoohh i love her so much she’s so charming she’s so sweeties… come sweep me off my feet Heron Adaar..!!!

My least favorite thing about Heron is her passivity. She puts up with so much shit during Inquisition and just politely takes all of it for the sake of the Inquisition and the Herald’s image. Her finally snapping at the end of Trespasser was so very satisfying but my goodness girl.. that was three years of letting yourself get kicked by all of Ferelden and Orlais. Repeatedly. You deserved better than that. Even after the Veilguard timeskip i think she still struggles with it, especially since she still regularly goes to political balls and parties with Josie, but that one is much more understandable because i would also take any hit for Josie.

My favorite Shrike trait is definitely just how much she develops during the game! From Immature Angry Girl With Issues to Decently Competent Leader is honestly such a feat and i am genuinely very proud of her. She gets removed from her harmful environment, makes her first friends, finds love, she finally gets to live as a person (not very much but certainly more than she allowed herself to live in the Circle) and it really brings out the good parts of her personality. It reveals that, shocker, when not constantly angry and stressed she can actually be quite a lovely person!

My least favorite trait of hers is that even after realizing her anger isn’t good for anyone especially herself Shrike instead kind of veers into the “i’ll show them..” mindset. She ends up genuinely liking necromancy (eventually) but initially the only reason she chose it as her specialization was because she wanted power and the mortalitasi called to Skyhold promised her that people would fear her. She realized she couldn’t be angry anymore even though she wanted to be so instead she wanted to fill that gap in purpose with becoming powerful and feared. (This whole phase was hilariously short though as the Inner Circle (except Dorian) unanimously disagreed with her decision and made it known which in turn made her feel awful and abandon those convictions almost immediately)

My favorite thing about Rook is that they’re such a silly billy. Like all the way to goofytown big fun loving goober. But what i especially like about this is that under that goofyness they’re still pretty down to earth and not “on” all the time. Like they’re silly, but they’re not grating. Cringe maybe depending on the person but you can just chill with them without them pulling any stupid stunts or saying lame jokes. They’re not a sunshine person, they’re too smug for that, but their laid back positive attitude can certainly improve the mood of a room!

My least favorite thing about Rook is that they don’t really care all that much. They’re so into what they love doing (pirating, ruins, climbing, partying with friends) but anything outside of that can’t really keep their interest or attention that much. Their parents probably assume they’re dead at this point with them having gone missing as a teenager, but they don’t care enough to make themselves known or consider how much it might have hurt them. As an elf they have a rich culture and past, but they don’t care about any of that stuff Dalish or City and think it’s kinda weird to care as much as a lot of elves do. They aren’t very considerate of anything outside their little world, which is tragic! Hopefully with a partner and some friends they can start broadening their horizons a little now!

Stork’s best trait to me is her chill attitude. Like she’s an unconventional but great leader, an accomplished researcher, a crypt baby, but most of all she is chill as fuck. Fantastic addition to the blunt rotation. She doesn’t worry too much about what life throws at her unless it’s dire and goes with the flow, the world with its life and its death is beautiful and she wants to experience all of it! Really takes in the little things as much as the big things and goes at her own pace.

Stork’s worst trait to me is just how much she tends to neglect things in favor of her research. She has on occasion cancelled plans just to attend a specific lecture or because inspiration struck and she needed to test a theory, which is kind of sucky of her. She doesn’t really do all this while consciously knowing it could make others feel bad, but that’s no excuse. It’s really something she should consider, especially at her age!! This isn’t something she does ALL the time she isn’t entirely inconsiderate but it still happens and is something she needs to work on.

My favorite thing about Magpie is her love for nature, and how gentle she is with it in direct opposition with how harsh her Crow life has been. There’s been a lot of pain and tears and many marks to remember it by but she won’t become that harsh person no matter how many times her behavior needs to be “corrected” to become a better assassin.

My least favorite thing about her is that she tends to blame herself for everything regardless of if something actually bad happened or not. Growing up with the First Talon constantly calling her a stupid idiot in her ear might have affected her on a deep level and made her believe she is incompetent no matter what!! And that’s very understandable, but Magpie dear you just got world record in the 100 meter sprint stop apologizing for not being ten milliseconds faster!!!!! You’re SWAG stop telling people you’re CRINGE!!!

20. Bonus question: share any additional thoughts, art, favourite scenes, anything you've been waiting for a chance to ramble about

ALRIGHT!!! RANDOM BULLSHIT GO!!!

Embarrassing but Vulture actually directly inspired me to get my buzzcut (thank you)

I honestly already ramble about whatever i want to ramble about on the blog so instead i will be releasing things from my vault (crowd cheers)

^ unreleased hawk doodle because it turned out bad

^ teenie tiny unreleased vulture i made testing brushes as well because its too small to justify posting

^ unreleased pigeon doodle because her mabari looked bad

^ hawk ill never finish

^ very early stages of a hawk drawing i never did too

^ vultures kieran maybe

^ magpies i dont know if im ever gonna turn into anything

^ shrike doodle i dont know if ill ever finish because that would mean i have to read hard in hightown to accurately describe the plot. and i dont want to

^ escaped the fade AU hawk i dont know if ill ever finish

^ older hawk i release from my embarrassment prison

^ another hawk ill probably never finish

^ random heron doodle

^ concept for a big piece i will probably never do (plus timestamps making something funnier)

^ hawk funny i abandoned because it looked bad and i dont remember the punchline anymore

^ very loose doodle i never intended to finish. i like baseball uniforms they look nice

^ shrikes i doodled trying to get a feel for her

^ thing that was going to be an entire scene i quickly and feverishly worked on while 100% situationshipbrained ill and later went "wait this is so embarrassing" so im never going to finish it

^ vulture in the da2 grey warden armor. will i ever finish this? i dont know. does it hurt to see me never finish this? absolutely do you know how long i spent on that armor. oh my god.

^ vulture wip ill probably never finish that i feel just as horrible about abandoning. do you have any idea how long this took.

AND AS A THANK YOU FOR REACHING IT THIS FAR IN THIS TRAINWRECK OF A POST

^ a peek of my big wip ive been slowly working on for months, from really far away

thank you for getting through this catastrophe of a post i had a blast

[zinnynia]

give ur opinions on every half life cast member go into details i want to see how ur brain functions

My opinion on the Half Life cast? I don’t have any/many opinions about most of them, so I’ll just not talk about those characters.

I’ll be going from least - most thoughts and opinions, starting with Lamarr.

Though, not really about Lamarr, but headcrabs in general. Out of every alien and enemy in Half Life, Headcrabs and Headcrab Zombies are the scariest to me. Idk man, they’re terrifying, and the concept itself is depressing.

D0g + Eli and Russell are all three very cute characters. I always love seeing them interact with Alyx, and their relationship with her is very sweet. D0g was made by Eli, and Alyx kinda just continued to add more to him, making him the D0g we all know and love. I haven’t completed my Half Life: Alyx run yet, but so far, Russell and Eli seem like really nice parental figures for her. Russell is funny, and has genuinely made me smile and enjoy his company in stressful situations, and Eli just seems like an overall great father. I think I have daddy issues.

I don’t really like Adrian. It’s not that I hate him, or like him at all. I mean, the art of him is kinda cute tbh, and maybe the angst and shit, but he doesn’t really hit the spot like Alyx, Gordon and Barney. I mean, his concept is kind of cool, I guess, but I really wish we could see more of him. Maybe in Half Life 3 (if it comes out), the G-Man could possibly use Adrian against Gordon, as sort of a way to “distract” the gang and make Adrian join the Combine ranks. ..I could be cooking some fanfic ideas for y’all, so PLEASEEE cook up some Combine Adrian AU fr fr. Make him hot too (I might have a thing for the Combine Ngl).

Alyx is girliepop. She ate, slayed, and left no crumbs. What I really like about her is that she doesn’t really idolize Gordon, like what most of the Resistance does. She treats Gordon like a normal human being, and has shown from time to time that she genuinely cares about him. I think she’s well written, but what I don’t really like is that she’s the “love interest” of Half Life. I don’t really think there needs to be romance, because the story is already pretty good. I also find Freemance kind of… iffy. Gordon kind of knew her when she was a baby, and I can’t imagine popping out 20 years later and some kid I knew started crushing heavily on me, or their dad starts shipping us together. But that’s controversial, and if you ship it, you do you. Not my business, and it’s all fictional. Plus, they’re both consenting adults, just the idea is kinda weird.

The G-Man’s concept really intrigues me, and I feel like a lot could be built off of him in Half Life 3 (if it ever comes out). I’ve written a Half Life OC kind of based around it, actually! Basically, the G-Man manipulates and uses resistance members to distract the gang, taking and stealing them, along with Alyx. This causes the gang to feel stressed and discouraged, hopeless even. Barney is nowhere to be found (he’s safe and untouched), so it’s just Gordon and Eli. I feel like a lot could be done with this, and builds more on the G-Man’s manipulative and antagonistic character. It would also be cool if the Combine joins forces with the gang, and defeat the G-Man, then agree on a truce, leaving Earth or co-exist together. I also just feel like I’m intrigued by the G-Man so much, mostly because I’ve written my story’s main antagonist similarity to the G-Man coincidentally.. and that’ll be a story for another post.

Last, but not least… Gordon and Barney omggg!!! Barney and Gordon are both my most favorite characters of Half Life, Barney especially. About a year ago, when I laid eyes on Barney, something inside of me literally just…. Clicked. I was like “I like this man. He’s my favorite character now.”

^^^ Pieces of artwork I made when I first got into Half Life))

I didn’t really understand it, until I really started to look into the fandom, realizing him and Gordon were best friends, and how he practically missed Gordon for 20 years, holding onto crowbars and thinking about the beer he owed Gordon. This REALLY hit me, as I’m in an oddly similar situation.

^^^ The him))

My childhood best friend and I were pretty close, despite knowing each other for only 2 years. We got split up, but met again, but never got the chance to reconnect and actually chat. But throughout the years, I always bought lockets, and sometimes items with sunflowers. Lockets, because he and I were BIG Undertale fans back then (also FNaF and Pokemon), and our parting gifts were paper heart lockets. Sunflowers, because of flower symbolism (wishful thinking, happiness, etc etc) and the idea of “Summer.” We always did everything together, like paper crafts. Another funny thing is that, after finding him again recently, our dynamic is somewhat similar to Freehoun in a way. Me being the more chatty one, while he’s a little more silent. My problem is that I'd rather hear him talk, because he’s really everything I’d want to talk about (no homo 4 him pls I swear). It’s also funnier that he’s a science guy and works out, and is taller than me. It’s giving……. Gordon to Barney.

It’s also funny that a lot of the fanfics I’ve read and liked remind me a lot of us. One fanfic had Gordon and Barney have a conversation, talking about how they can’t “resume” where things left off. That reminds me about a thing he told me one night, about how we weren’t the same people we were in 2nd and 3rd grade, but truthfully I didn’t love him (platonically) for who we were, but for who he is. On the topic of fanfics, I’ve written my fair share (2), and they’re all vents about him in the form of Freehoun! Though, they aren’t technically romantic, they could be interpreted as romantic.

^^^ Old artwork I made based off of my fanfic "Never Again."))

And speaking about Freehoun, I’m actually not much of a “Freehouner.” Sure, it’s cute, but I think they’re just really cute friends. The things they’d do in Black Mesa, and the beer. The way Barney looks at Gordon, and how upset his face was when he had to part ways in Episode 1. Anyways, it took me 7 years to finally have him back (technically 2 + 5, but we didn’t get time to really chat, so I add the 2 years), and I told him “I’d wait another 7 years if it means I’d get to talk to you again” and I also did kinda write him a 2 page (platonic) Valentines Letter that he DID kinda print out cus it was a google doc. Letters are kind of our thing, because I always gave him letters back then when I had a way to send them (via people/connections).

Plus, Gordon is kinda fine...... And Barney's really cute. Like??? PLEASEEEE who decided to make two good looking best friends like tf? And can we PLEASE TALK about how sad Barney looked at the end of Episode 1???? Shit still has be crying.

[artdcnaldson]

just saw that ask abt dad patrick………. much to think about. i agree that he prob would never want to be a dad. but….. let me share to you my secret brain au……. that i think about on the clock when im bored as fuck 😝

you… art… patrick… (sorry tashi i love u i swear….) mayb this is the same au where ur all best friends in school etc etc. maybe not. but ANYWAYS. the throuple…….. you and art end up having a baby. patrick’s perfectly fine just being uncle pat. or. like the weird guy who hangs around all the time. same thing. you like, say that it can be like. art is dad patrick’s papa or SOMETHING yk… like you love them both patrick’s gonna be around forever anyways why not just. have them both be referred to as dad. patrick isn’t super fond of the idea so you drop it whatever. ANYWAYS flash forward to a few weeks after the baby is born. patrick has been so like 😐 about the baby. kinda jealous annoyed etc cause he’s 12. it’s fine. whatever.

anyways sorry let me fucking GET TO THE POINT!!!!!!!!!!! you and art wake up one night kinda ?!? cause you hear talking on the baby monitor. and then you realize patrick’s not in the bed. you dont even remember hearing the baby cry or him getting up or anything cuz ur both. new parents. and patrick’s surprisingly helped a lot but. it’s not the same. WHATEVER i keep getting off track. u guys hear patrick cooing at your new little baby girl telling her that he loves her she’s lucky she has such good parents etc… turning on the video part u see him rocking her in the little chair you guys have in there. he’s so fascinated by her. he still doesn’t really… like the idea of being a dad or have any interest in it or whatevs but. a baby made by his two favorite people. he has to cry

sorry this was a fucking ESSAY!!!!!!!!! take me out back and shoot me i can’t do this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!

This had to cook in my inbox, had to simmer. I’m trying to go back and answer asks that have been sitting in my inbox that I meant to get back to <3 sorry for the delay babe <3

Sigh <333 uncle pat being the best pseudo-parent to you and art’s baby… after an adjustment period. Because for like that first month you and Art don’t have time for him, it’s like he’s being kicked to the side, discarded for the second time in his life. And he’s fucking sensitive about it, you know?

You and Art made him quit smoking when you got pregnant, which he understood. He hated it, but he understood, and he wasn’t going to vape like a fucking loser, so he’s irritable with it. A sixteen year habit culled painfully at the root. He hears the baby screaming and crying and just wants to go outside and smoke, wants to run away from it all.

It’s three in the morning when the baby crying wakes him up. He squints, reads his alarm clock, and groans. He glances over at you and Patrick, completely knocked out by exhaustion. He doesn’t want to bother you, doesn’t want you to have to wake up and go through the motions again. So he gets up and slips into the baby’s room.

She eases into his arms, quickly growing soothed in a comforting pair of arms, and he hushes her softly. He hasn’t been alone with her, not much. Just a sort of double-down instinct after you had suggested he get called dad by her too. It wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world, but it just makes him feel like a fraud. He spends a lot of time with you and Art feeling like he’s one wrong move from being out on his own. He didn’t want a kid relying on him when he knew he’d eventually fuck everything up.

“You just had a bad dream, huh?” Patrick coos softly. He kisses the baby’s soft, bald-ish head, takes a deep breath. He didn’t really get why you and Art were always smelling her hair, but he understands then. “Your dad used to have bad dreams too. Really bad dreams, but I was always there. I’ll be there for you too, alright? For anything you’ll ever need. No matter what.”

He settles into the plush rocking chair in the corner, holds her against his chest and rubs her back. Her eyes close, she nuzzles against him. She’s so beautiful. Usually, all babies look the same to him, but he can see you so clearly in her mouth, her eyes. And Art in her ears and nose. “You’re really lucky,” he says softly. He presses a kiss to her forehead. “You have such good parents, they’re really exhausted right now because you never sleep, but they’re doing so good, huh?”

She falls asleep in his arms, and he decides he’s never going to leave the chair. He kisses the top of her head and lets his lips twitch in a achy sort of smile. “We love you, kid.”

In the morning, once he’s placed her back in the crib and returns to bed, you and Art hold him a little closer.

[cheemscakecat]

Missing in Action 5 1/2

Chapter 5 1/2 Team Meat-ing Part 2

Young Spy prepares a meal for the whole team with Scout’s help. But despite the good food, he doesn’t seem super happy.

No cover art, but I’ve included pictures of each dish IRL

The first thing Scout noticed the next morning was the smell of Spy’s stupid cigarettes. He followed the smell into the kitchen, which was where he was going anyways. The new guy was there cleaning and gathering pots and pans, while smoking one of Spy’s cigs. Jeremy decided that someone might as well use them.

”What’s up?” He asked, sneaking over to the fridge to get the milk. Most days he just ate cereal, if it was there and nobody cooked breakfast. They hadn’t had much left after the admin mess, but there was ham and bacon unopened in the bottom drawer, and nobody got sick from it. He didn’t know if it was good that his thoughts drifted to miss Pauling. He wanted to believe that it was just concern over her new job, but he worried that he hadn’t moved on.

”I am going to cook ze food today. But there are many hens, so I need both kitchens.” Jeremy nodded and mindlessly took a bowl and his sugary chocolate cereal. It look him a second after pouring to notice new Spy staring. “What is that?”

”It’s cereal. Mostly just kids eat it for breakfast but I uh… get in a hurry.” Normally, Scout wouldn’t be embarrassed about not cooking most days, but this new guy was right here gatherin stuff for a big meal. He felt pretty lazy.

”I need to get food from ze other kitchen started. Come there after cereal.” And with that, Spy wandered off with an armful of clean pots.

When Scout opened the passageway door 10 minutes later, he found the Spy chopping vegetables. That was weird, there weren’t really any in the other fridge, even after a restock. “You go to town last night?” Spy turned around and shook his head. He opened another hidden door.

“Ze delivery people put ze new produces in this bread pocket so it would not rot.” Spy set down the knife and brought over a white paper box from the island. It was full of fancy looking bread that Jeremy wasn’t familiar with. “Have this pain au chocolat.” He said, plopping the dessert into his hand.

It was a real flaky bread with chocolate filling! Scout was surprised that it was still fresh, but quickly remembered that newbie woulda thrown out any moldy bread.

Things seemed to be going pretty well for a while. Jeremy offered to help Spy if he wanted it, and was tasked with putting the vegetables in each pot. He noticed a lot of butter. But he noticed that everything had grinded to a halt when they got to cutting the chickens.

New Spy was staring blankly at the fancy bird with a knife half raised in his hand. At first, Jeremy assumed he was just making up his mind on somethin, but he stayed like that for 10 minutes before he decided to speak up.

“You uh, alright man?” He asked. Spy blinked once and sighed. “Sorry, it’s… I wasn’t planning to do meals so soon after… after relocation.” He didn’t explain any further than that. But Scout got a very sudden feeling that there was much more going on.

“Well uh, I could try to help you. Cut the time in half, right?” Spy flinched for some reason before putting on a forced, close-lipped grin. “I think that would be best, thank you. I’m not feeling… fast right now.”

Spy got to work browning stuff in one of the pans. “Cut ze drumsticks and ze thighs off 2 hens.” Scout remembered watching Ma cut the turkey at thanksgiving and did his best. As far as he could tell it was decent, but he figured Spy might not agree. He glanced over from the bacon and veggies in the pan. “Did I… do it right?” He asked. “It does not have to be perfection. The bulk of ze meat is where we want.” Good.

“So, uh… what are we making right now?” Jeremy got the feelin he should keep things light. Something was botherin the new guy. “Coq au vin.” He snorted and spy blinked at him. He was almost convinced that it was because it sounded like his old man’s weird *** snort laugh. Oh wait, no. New guy wouldn’t know about that. “What is funny?”

”Oh, just sounded like an American word for… something.” Spy stirred for a while and made Scout believe he’d moved on. “Oh, is word for *****.” He wheezed like Ma and for some reason newbie looked even more surprised.

They prepped something called “chicken fricassee” which two more hens worth’a drums and thighs, then two pots of… um…

”Wait, what was it called?” “Poulet a la Moutarde Francaise.” “Uh….” “Mustard chicken.” Maybe there was a good reason for fancy names after all.

With the remainin four chickens, they prepped two to be roasted whole. Cut the thighs and drums off the others for “chicken chasseur” n that left the breasts for “chicken Provençal”. Scout watched new Spy take the bones and put them in a big metal thing.

“What are you gonna do with the bones?” “Chicken stock.” He answered, shoving them in the big freezer. Apparently some of the other freezer mystery tubs were stock or sauces.

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Good lord, the base smelled magnificent. It took half the team just to make sure Solly didn’t go in the kitchen and mess up that cookin food. Thankfully Engineer didn’t have to keep Pyro out on account of his mask.

They knew Spy was French, they knew that but.. it was easy to forget the whole “food hub” thing when the smoking room wasn't for meals. Spy musta been cookin and eating in his secret kitchen, or the base woulda smelled like this sooner.

Demoman wasn’t much affected by the smell. It was nice to be sure, but he had gone on with his pure alcohol diet so long that food didn’t tempt him. But he noticed Sniper of all people pacing around all impatient like. He liked to live on the land, but even he weren’t immune to good cookin.

Heavy was glad that Spy had not gone to his house in Siberia. Not just because of Scout being ill, but because he wouldn’t have been happy with the food. There were many less spices in a place so far, and mother had to make them last. Normally he was content with his sandviches, but he could tell this meal would be a treat.

Medic locked Archimedes and the other doves in the medbay. They, like him, had no qualms about eating cooked bird. Archimedes might have possibly eaten a cooked dove if it were offered to him, but he was cute and the doctor was content with that.

Antoine wasn’t looking forward to dinner. It wasn’t doubt in his own abilities or the healthfulness of the food. He just.. he didn’t want to cook for a new team! On that Helicopter he told himself he’d be wise this time, not overly friendly and naive. But here he was cooking for a strange team without a proper mask to hide his face.

And he missed them. It was the same good food, but it wasn’t for them. They weren’t… here. Was he really about to do this so soon? During his failed relocation, with total strangers?

He pictured the desert Scout assisting him earlier that day. If he’d been alone, that good hen would have gone rancid from him standing useless at the counter. And it shouldn’t be like that. He shouldn’t be like that. Desert Scout seemed like a nice enough guy. Someone he would befriend if he got to stay, but that probably would not happen. But for now, it was nice knowing someone near his age who was kind.

This Scout reminded him of Merriam, actually. He missed her, even if she hated him forever. Of course she didn’t know the secret. She and Jeremy were safer that way. He debated calling her on the desert Spy’s phone but felt afraid it was tapped.

It had surprised him that the missing Spy was French actually. France was in Europe, and while it’s people were not as pasty and weak to heat as the British, it was not a sweltering country. He took the nightmares over staying awake long in the weeks he spent in that cave. Better to conserve energy that way. The missing Spy had expensive tastes and probably did not much like heat himself. What possessed him to move to a desert team?

He may have been one of the bad spies. The ones who sell their teammates secrets. He knew they were out there, his old team warned him to speak with carefulness around other RED spies, not just BLU. He wouldn’t let that advice go to waste, especially if his family could be tracked.

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New Spy laid out a really epic spread of food! Jeremy had to admit, he’d been skeptical of the meal gettin boring using the same veggies in so many fancy French dishes. But he was wrong. It all looked so good, and he wanted to taste everything!

There were really smooth yellow mashed potatoes and some kinda greens, and lots and lots of chicken! Spy wrapped some melon in fancy deli meat and put it on a cutting board with cheese, olives and more deli meat. There was a tray of colorful desserts and fancy breads like the one he ate at breakfast, too.

Engineer made sure to grab some extra dessert and watered down wine with Pyro’s plate, and loaded up his own with just about everything he and Spy could fit. Heavy had already told him they didn’t eat at the table, but at least Engie knew he hadn’t offended baby Spy.

Heavy was interested in the cheese platter, but skipped it because he knew his big hands would touch everyone else’s share by mistake. But he was pleased with the red sauced chicken meals and the roasted whole breast. He took a spiral bread from the edge of the dessert tray and it was very sweet and pleasantly delicate.

Medic enjoyed the mushroom based sauce on the mashed potatoes, it reminded him of Germany’s different gravies. The meat wrapped cantaloupe was surprisingly good, and even if the spinach was soft and unlike sauerkraut, the flavor was still very good. He made sure to grab an extra plain pastry to share with his birds later.

Spy hooked Demoman up wit scotch and some stronger wine instead of insisting that he eat. He appreciated it, even if the drink was too mild for him to get a buzz.

Soldier had never been a fancy civilized person. He preferred to sleep outside surrounded by raccoons, not in buildings that were too neat and riddled with rules. He was enjoying the food though. He hoped that Spy might make more for him and Zhanna sometime, because the only other place to get fancy people food was fancy people restaurants. And he could tell that she would feel just as itchy to leave as him in a place like that.

Sniper didn’t usually go for smaller white meat birds, preferring emu and other big Aussie bird meat, but the red sauces appealed to him. He liked the fancy desserts well enough, even if he didn’t know what the squishy stuff was… not pudding.. not frosting. It was good though. The mustardy chicken was good broken up and eaten with the green stuff, which he took to be polite.

Scout was having a blast! He never knew there were so many ways to cook chicken and make it taste different. And new Spy probably knew like seven more ways. French food had always seemed like a distant idea behind his stinking deadbeat father and his stuck up attitude. It always sounded snobby by proxy.

But maybe his dumb*** dad was used to good food like this, and that’s why he hated the fried chicken Scout bought. He had to admit, if he ate it after a bite of one of these dishes it would taste like cardboard. But that didn’t make it right to waste food like he did during the bread monster accident. Letting it fall on the floor and get gross… whatever, this wasn’t about him.

There was mustardy chicken that was really good with the green stuff and a plain “croissant”. The roasted chicken was lemony and had a bunch of green spices on it. The white sauce with mushrooms went super well with the good mashed potatoes. He ate pieces of cheese from the cutting board in between the heavier red sauced chicken. And even the melon thing he tried was good!

He got full faster than he usually did eating chicken. But then again, he usually just ate a bucket of fried drumsticks with no mashed potatoes or other stuff. It was kind of boring food, now that he thought about it. He smelled something like peanut butter on the dessert tray and decided it was worth trying. New Spy told him it was hazelnut flavored; he knew because he ate one too.

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The leftover food was put in the shared kitchen, except for the cheese board and some of the pastries, which Antoine took back to the other Spy’s kitchen. Then everyone went to bed. He was glad that everyone liked the food, especially since it meant they didn’t watch him too closely. The sound of Scout innocently cutting the raw chicken bones apart almost made him vomit earlier.

It was not so bad at dinner, but his stomach still churned looking at the food he wished he was serving to his old team. He ate the potatoes, roasted chicken and creamed spinach instead of having the same fun as the others. It all went down well enough, and when the desert Scout was unsure of what dessert he had eaten, he worked up the guts to taste one and tell him the flavor. He missed them. And he missed Merriam. It took him longer to fall asleep in the chair by the fire, even though he was just as full as the desert team who were dreaming in peace. For once, he did not have a nightmare.

Here’s what the meal would have looked like, more or less

Coq au Vin

Chicken Fricassee

Poulet a la Moutarde Francaise

Chicken Chasseur

Chicken Provençal

Roasted whole chicken

Charcuterie board

Mashed potatoes

Creamed Spinach because health [same]

The desserts

The hazelnut thing Scout ate.