#I think I’m autistic

[joy-crimes]

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[dentoph0bia]

Well shit they can see I’m autistic.

[ghostlyyfigures]

Help I ranked every pokemon battle theme (from RSE to SV)

This was super fun and took many hours between two days lol. And as someone who absolutely loves video game music and especially Pokémon music, I had to do this. I tried to rank the songs without any bias but ofc that’s kinda hard (first time listening to the bdsp ost, which was interesting..) this was hard for me to do cause I’m very indecisive so the songs are only ranked by tier and not ranked in their specific tier.. if that makes sense.

Also sorry for the not great quality on the image, there are so many songs lol (click on it for better quality)

[whats-those]

I was just telling my father about Marble Hornets and said I was gonna go keep watching it (for the first time), and he UNPROMPTED said “what if we watch it together.” This is the same shit he did with Scream I love this man so much

[crowcussion]

oh my GODDDDD IM THINKING ABOUT FNAF /VVVPOS

[aruban-spaceshuttle]

DON’T ASK ME ABOUT MY HYPERFIXATION ITS WEIRD AND I WILL GET BULLIED INSTEAD LET ME OCCASIONALLY MENTION IT FROM TIME TO TIME WITH A COMPLETELY NEUTRAL STATEMENT TO MAKE YOU AWARE THAT I KNOW IT EXISTS UNTIL YOU TURN IT INTO A CONVERSATION TOPIC AND I WILL THEREFORE BE ALLOWED TO GIVE A LACKADAISICAL OPINION ABOUT IT AND SUBTLY INFO DUMP WHEN AN ADJACENT SUBJECT COMES UP IN SPEECH THROUGHOUT THE COURSE OF ABOUT TWO TO FOUR DAYS

[monitorkernelaccess]

Thinking about the implications of a female character created to support a man’s story, a secondary character who appears only in (what appears to be) a retelling of some tale. Who probably never existed even within the overarching story’s fictional world. Who was probably just created by one (fictional) man to explain another (fictional) man’s poor behavior. A girl who is young and pretty and at first seems independent, but soon becomes completely dependent on the man who swept her off her feet. And then an unmarried housewife. Who participates in events around the town until it gets too hard without her “husband” around (he never planned to be around). Who gets lonely and cries when she thinks no one is looking, and there might as well be no one looking because no one steps in until she’s at the window and her house is covered in weeds and the rain floods the ground into a swamp and she can’t reach him and he can’t reach her. A young girl who lost her parents an unspecified “long time” ago, who probably misses them and who may have gone without a father figure for some of her formative years, and maybe that’s why she was so eager to move in with a man twice her age, but it doesn’t matter because she wasn’t given that depth and she was never going to be given that depth. And probably none of that ever happened anyway. She’s a girl with no agency at all, not even over her own existence.

Thinking about the implications of taking this girl, this character, and giving her some agency. Turning her into the first character of a story within a story to be proven real. To have physical proof of her existence, to be given flesh and blood, and, most importantly, to have the power to tell her own story. But it’s the same story, more or less. Though this time, she gets to make the move on a man who’s only 10 years her senior, not 20. And he gets to be the virtuous hero who refuses her, the temptress. And her heart still gets broken, but she’s the one breaking it. And it’s almost silly, the way she pined after this man who only ever saw her as a child. Until you find out how it happened before. But it’s her story this time, and she’s the one telling it. It’s her poor decision, and she gets out mostly unscathed. But she’s not the hero, and she’s not telling the story for herself. It’s a story told to another man to explain another man’s character. It’s her story, and she’s the one telling it, but it’s not about her.

Thinking about what it might mean, if it means anything, to take her and reimagine her once again. To keep the love story (if that’s what it is) but get rid of the age gap, and make them high school sweethearts. So she gets introduced by name early on, and gets left early on. So everyone knows she’s one to pay attention to. And she’ll get to tell her story later, but not until the end. Before then, she becomes a looming figure. A name on a slip of paper. A name that’s the source of conflict, the central conflict that builds throughout the story. She’s almost the antagonist, except it’s not her, just her name and what it could mean. And she still gets to tell her story, and it’s still really about the men, etc. etc. And it’s the same story, for the most part.

Thinking about agency and storytelling. About who gets to tell their story and who doesn’t. Is it worth it to have agency if it just means you’re the one who makes the big mistakes? Is it even really your agency if that was always supposed to be your story anyway, like some sort of destiny? Are you just getting blamed for it? Is it still your story if you tell it for the benefit of someone else? Is it still your story if you’re not the one telling it? What does it mean to have agency within a work of fiction? Do any of these questions even matter because it’s all fictional anyway and no one has control and everyone is created to serve The Narrative and The Protagonists? What does it mean to be a woman in fiction? What does it have to do with being a woman in real life? If you tell your story within a story, do you still have agency if there’s someone else writing the larger plot? What does it mean for a female character if the author is a man? The screenwriter is a man? The composer is a man? The director is a man?

[ash-attxck]

My OC :D

Fanart is 100% okay!

[t0tally-n0t-3m0]

I constantly have to remind myself that no, I am not Jonathan Sims, head archivist of The Magnus Institute, I am a mentally ill teenager from New Zealand.

[roadsaltsposts]

practicing making eye contact by watching commentary videos on youtube and standing real close to the tv

pros: i think i am actually getting better at it.

people don’t look at me weird as often when i have conversations with them

cons: my eyes hurt real bad

[zuuriell]

REAL i genuinely have to apologise to my stuffies repeatedly (although i still feel bad either way) for accidentally dropping them or saying something mean 😭

how are people mean to stuffed animals one time i was trying to clean up my room and tried to justify giving away a stuffed animal by saying 'well its a little ugly' and immediately i was just overwhelmed with monstrous guilt and i understood the concept of a catholic hell and i was going there

[introvert-slushie]

Currently thinking about how much Ford tries to hide his hands a lot when he can…behind his back with this stance. Due to how often he’s been bullied for it.

And also, how Mabel is one of the ones who Ford feels happy about showing his hands to because she thought they were cool looking upon first shaking his hand, instead of him being judged for his six fingers.

[ID: Gravity Falls screenshots. The first three are of Ford with his hands crossed behind his back. The last two are of him shaking hands with Mabel, and letting her paint a turkey on his hand. He's smiling in both. End ID.]

[burntblueberrywaffles]

[I.D. an edited version of the "is this a pigeon" meme. A man with glasses, captioned "my overstimulated ass" points at a butterfly, captioned "someone making an annoying noise". At the bottom of the image, a dialogue caption reads "is this a crime deserving the death sentence?" end I.D.]

[nocontextlestat]

[polandwithoutla]

Anyone else have a crush on Clarice from Rudolph the Red Noses Reindeer??

[slipperywhenwet0o0]

IGNORE THIS IM RANTING

I sometimes love talking to my dad about anime or movies bc we have plenary of overlapping taste

But then I remember he’s crazy and has THE MOST RIDICULOUS TAKES and kind of bad taste

Like dragon ball is his favorite show on the planet earth, that’s fine, not my speed but more power to you BUT HOW do you love dragon ball but reduce ARCANE to “the show with the crazy blue girl” and continuously drop jjk to watch the some episodes of dragon all super

( I’m pretty sure he’s like me in that if something doesn’t click and he can’t obsess over it he’s not consuming it which would be chill if his taste wasn’t so widely different from mine)

Also like half the time he really doesn’t understand the characters he’s just there for the fights which is chill but as somebody who LOVES Conor’s well written characters it drives me through the roof, like he has reduced shigaraki to somebody who was “crazy from the beginning” bc for some reason he can’t conceptualize the fact that he was groomed by afo and how he perceives the world now effects how he viewed his past

Like kts fine but it’s also not bc those are my baby girls amd fav shows your talking about and you clearly have not obsessed over it like I have and that makes your opinions bad