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killjoy-laserbeam · 5 months ago

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The more I look back on this arc the more I can’t be mad at Real!ciel…That boy is VALID. Everything he is doing is JUSTIFIED. I will defend him while helping his felon brother but…

#DONT GET ME WRONG #I’m on the side of the phantomhive servants #I’m STILL MAD ABOUT AGNI AND SNAKE!#BUT #nah cuz if my lil brother who was always my first priority made a contract with the demon that played with my body #TOOK MY WIFE #TOOK MY NAMEEEE #I think I’d be a little upset #kuroshitsuji #black butler #ciel phantomhive

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stardustdiiving · 10 months ago

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Me explaining in terms of strictly how I read canon I think Nahida not severely punishing the Sages is just meant to convey that Nahida, even when wronged, is not a very vengeful or harsh person and makes the choice to be kind instead, but in my mind I have this idea of a Nahida interpretation which elaborates on that where her self punishing tendencies extend to her being someone who internally downplays her own experiences constantly, and as a result has a hard time feeling she’s allowed or justified in placing a lot of blame on the Sages for what they did to her So while she is following her own philosophies regarding teaching lessons/wisdom/etc in how to handle the Sages and genuinely doesn’t want to be really angry or punishing because of who she is as a person, her decision is also influenced by the fact she’s basically blocked herself out of grappling with how to handle people who hurt her by blaming herself for said hurt instead as a coping mechanism. And like this is all just me being insane about Nahida Trauma and not something explicitly implied in canon but also I really do think this isn’t a far stretch from her canon characterization especially when my vision isn’t to conclude that Nahida needs to be angry and vengeful but she should extend the kindness she shows others to herself and also every day I get tormented thinking about she was the mental equivalent of an average human child when the Sages found her and how they basically specifically discarded her for being a child and the idea of how Nahida would pick up on + internalize that and eventually need time to unlearn it

#nahida #genshin #fern.txt #fandomferns #fictional child abuse cw #anyways is anyone else here normal #see I think a sentiment most ppl get from nahdia’s character is correctly that she is kind despite being treated so poorly #but I want to explore her grappling with Why she does that bc she is genuinely kind #and I don’t think she’s struggling with moving on from things #but based off things she says word for word I feel it’s established nahida is very distressed by not being able to rationalize or #understand things that upset her #this is clear in both her SQs & her voicelines even down to her not liking seafood bc the unknown of the ocean #intimidates her. so I’d imagine she’s someone who responds to being mistreated by concluding #there must be a reason for it. and I actually have dialogue that backs me up here #bc when we first learn the sages have imprisoned nahida nahida herself basically says it’s fine bc her existence has #little meaning and she’s not good enough to be an archon. even as paimon is remarking how awful #the sages are for it and prompting nahida on if she’s upset w them #it’s not that Nahida isn’t insightful enough to acknowledge something as mistreatment #but rather she finds more comfort and a sense of control in having explanations for things #heck the reason she gives up her gnosis to Dottore is states in her char stories to be bc #she doesn’t want the lack of control that comes from a lack of information #nahida leaning on knowledge for a sense of control makes me esp sad when I think abt how #she does not have autonomy or agency for a majority of her life bc of her imprisonment n had fo rely on her #mind n ability to learn n gain knowledge #anyways to reiterate ks anyone else normal

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hana-bobo-finch · 13 days ago

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woah it’s another pdbc post. could not get the whole running into a china cabinet thing out of my head

rest in peace my girl Bellona u were a real one 😔✊

+ another one since she was on my mind

#not a pikmin post #pdbc #mentioned this on my alt but while I was shadowing at the vet clinic #the tech was showing me how the schedule works and I saw an appointment for a cat named Bella with a note saying:#‘ran head first into a china cabinet’#and like. poor baby but also that is an interesting mental picture #speaking of which I’d sell my kidney to become a vet tech but you need to be good at math!!! aaaaaargh #I am not exaggerating when I say that little fact makes it feel like my hopes and dreams are being shattered right before me #oh well that’s kinda heavy and if I think about it any more I’ll get upset again so uh #here. PDBC stuff. I’ll scream into the void about it until you all care #fun fact though! like I said the cat’s name was Bella which is not what my darling step-oc’s name is nor what it was in the original #BUUUUT she was actually referred to as bella by mistake whilst I was conversing with the og author bc they didn’t remember her name #interesting right? (NO ITS NOT)#art

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orion-kenobi · 4 months ago

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can we talk about the absolutely amazing job stargate sg1 does with jack and daniel’s dynamic? they’re so different and yet so similar. their perspectives and moralities are completely different, but i think they have the same flaws: they both believe their perspectives are correct, and they both let their emotions get the best of them. because of that they’re capable of being so mean to each other. and i love the fact that their morals are the source of most of their conflicts, because i don’t think i’ve ever seen a show where two characters major difference is because of their morality. and it makes the audience think, because in most situations where they disagree neither of their approaches are really wrong.

#inspired by me watching the s5 episode ‘menace’ with the robot girl #it’s easier for me to empathize with daniel than jack #however. i do think daniel owed jack an apology because calling him a stupid son of a b¡tch is crazy 😭#(which i 100% think daniel does even if we didn’t get to see it)#but i think i’d absolutely prefer upsetting daniel bc all he’ll do is be a little mean and cry #whereas jack is liable to kill me #also i like that we get moral dilemmas in sg1. sga would be way more interesting if everyone wasn’t just down with war crimes #last rambling tag i promise. but i guarantee the sga michael stuff wouldn’t have happened if daniel was there #stargate sg1 #daniel jackson #jack o'neill

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jocelynships · 1 month ago

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Oh. Thats a friend group of mine making a whole ass new group chat without me in it. Okay cool. Love that.

#we had one but they went silent #one person said they were upset with me bc I had ‘ditched them for my new friends’#which. I don’t have any new friends. I’ve been trying to keep in contact with them but get hardly any response.#tried to apologize and say I’d ’do better’#but am still getting little to no response #and. one girl sent me a screenshot with the fb group icon in the corner #and it was everyone except me #which. lovely.#and they’re acting like my life has been amazing and wonderful #when it’s been one thing after another with the move my friend dying and a bunch of other shit #so yeah sorry I’m a bit absent a lot is going on #and I feel like they think im lying to them or making it up #like. idk what to do anymore #this isn’t about anyone here btw #btw the person who sent the screenshot didn’t send it to be mean she was showing me something she was going for #and I pretended I didn’t see it and just acted happy for her #now I’m not even gonna bring up my stuff to these people at all #idk man #this just hurts

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rosicheeks · 3 months ago

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Asking for a friend: how would we give you fishnets if we happened to want to...

Ideally wrapped up in a little box with a cute bow on top 💌🥰

#if you’re actually serious about it though #uhhhhh I could either put some on my throne wishlist and you (I mean your friend oopsies 🤭😘) could send them that way?#or you could just send me a tip on cashapp/venmo/throne and let me know it’s for fishnets 🫶#idk if it’s safe to put in the comments so I guess just in case I’d prefer you to just send me an ask/dm me and let me know #like I said I could add some to my wishlist but I gotta find some first #don’t wanna add the first ones I find #brooooooo #RIP my first fishnets they were these super cute sparkly ones #and my parents were so upset whenever I wore them #but then when I started going to clubs (literally think this was my first or second time going out) I got a little toooooo tipsy #and fell on the cement sidewalk before I even got to the club #awwww fun times #sorry that came out of nowhere #but now I wanna find some sparkly fishnets 😂#gonna look for some and add them to my wishlist either way just cause #ask #anon

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butnotbubblegum · 4 months ago

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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.

#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea #like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit #and the place as well like it’s so. i don’t want to say isolated necessarily. but so much it’s own little bubble #and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal #and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die #and i don’t think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide #like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif #like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and it’s like. cmon. wouldn’t it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat #is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself #is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like i’m like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isn’t within these hills #feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesn’t actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing #actually exists except the place i’m in and my family and the pub #i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think it’s making this worse. especially because it’s henry’s dad’s local #and where henry’s wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. it’s like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id #if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and it’s going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i haven’t even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like #such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just #is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadn’t come back i’d be in a normal mental state #by now. that’s the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about #living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the #urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends #and they love me and i don’t want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so #fucking hard and it feels like it’s not even worth the effort because it’s so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i #hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever #bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc #everything and i can’t deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m #father and it’s so exhausting and i can’t sleep and there’s so much yelling and i just need it all to stop #i’ve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak

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milotonin · 3 months ago

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i need to be wrapped in this

#i just found out i got an awful chair in band #i though for sure i’d get second or third #was going to be a little disappointed at fourth #kinda upset at fifth (what i got last year)#I WENT DOWN #I FUCKING GOT SEVENTH #HOW DID TWO FRESHMEN BEAT ME #HE GAVE ME NOTHING BUT COMPLIMENTS ON MY RECORDING #HOW #HOW DID I DONTHIS BAD #i’ve been crying off and on all day #all my teachers think something’s like really wrong #like someone died but instead i got a shitty chair placement

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drivemysoul · 1 month ago

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every time i say i want my septum pierced someone says id look bad with it so now i’m sitting in my bathtub crying over other things and being upset that i’d look ugly with the piercing i want really bad

#taylor.txt #i brought it up again and the person i said it to was like ‘i don’t think it’d look good on you’#and then said i’d look good with an eyebrow piercing instead #and like. it’s not like i don’t want my eyebrow pierced i think it’d be fun i guess #but i wear wigs and i get my eyebrows waxed and i have two young nieces and i’d be scared of it getting pulled out somehow #like there’s a lot of risks that i’d be paranoid over #i already had to get my helix taken out because of my wigs and i’m still sad about it #i don’t want to do that with something that’s literally on my face #plus (and this is stupid) but three of my brothers have had eyebrow piercings #and i’ve always associated eyebrow piercings with like. dudes #just because my brothers have had them and i know that’s a dumb reason #and given i already feel like im not feminine enough and like everyone thinks i’m a guy no matter what i do to look girly #i just. this is entirely my issue and it’s not like. a valid thing to be upset about #but i just wanted a cute little septum piercing i could put cute jewellery in and feel cute #and i just. i know it’s so dumb but now im just kind of sitting here sobbing

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getosugurusbangs · 2 months ago

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i wonder just how many times i’ve seemed really annoying just for it to be me having adhd

#i have one memory from a couple years ago of me needing to go into my brothers room and tell him dinner’s ready #and instead of doing that super simple task i was just stuck sitting outside his room out of sheer terror #because any time i’d do something like telling him dinner’s ready i’d always get a slightly disgruntled or snarky kind of response #and it’d always make me leave his room all upset #and so i just. sat at the top of the stairs outside his room until i think my mom came up there and got upset at me #and did the whole threatening countdown thing until i did it #and me being forced into going into his room to talk to him definitely made the experience worse for everyone #and i still do not enjoy actually going into people’s rooms to tell them dinner’s ready #but like. in the moment i probably just seemed like a little brat not wanting to do a simple task #but i was (and still am) just sensitive 😭😭#i have to deal with rsd no matter what and i’ve come to accept that #but it’s still only natural for me to have tried to avoid situations where i’d leave feeling like i’ve been stabbed in the chest with how #much mental pain i end up in #anyways that’s enough oversharing for the month #me.txt

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 4 months ago

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people begging me to do something to make a certain someone happy aren’t taking into account that i hate this person and i will revel in the knowledge that i kept them from getting the most perfect version of what they wanted. in fact i hope they mourn the loss of this for the rest of their life and die unhappy about it

#i wish i could do worse. i wish i could go through and ruin everything i ended up giving them (all against my wishes) and i wish #i could ruin everything they love because god do i hate them and i will laugh when they finally fucking die #i have no idea why everyone glosses over all the shit this person has done to us and all the pain they’ve caused and i can’t fathom why #everyone wants to make them happy and why they’re willing to beg and bribe for me (and one other person who also hates them) to #give in but it is amusing and i hope they all fucking cry about it like oh nooo did poor [REDACTED] not get something they will never #get another chance to have ? oh well that sucks so bad for them i’m oh so sorry i caused that i can’t believe i managed to ruin their #chances for this how awful that this person i hate who has done and gotten away with so many horrible things didn’t get their perfect #little fantasy how sad we should all comfort them and call me a bitch who has no respect for anyone #god sometimes i wish i gave into violence more in the past bc i wish i got to fucking beat their ass up back when it would be self-defense #unforch i will never get to now. SAD!#i suppose i have murder fantasies and the thought of being able to ruin their funeral to soothe my soul #and the knowledge that i could make them fucking hurt by refusing to cooperate w them #and ough every time an opportunity presents itself for me to fucking take back what they took from me arises i have to fight myself #on it bc everyone will know it was me. i don’t even want what they have i just want them to know they will never get it back and #god it would upset them so much but they never should have had it in the first place ough if i get the chance before i ditch everyone here #for good i’d want to take it and stick around just long enough to hear how much they’ll cry about it before i fuck off #unforch i would need to know where all of their copies of things are but fuck i hate knowing they’ve taken so much from me bc i didn’t #get a fucking choice and they think they have to right to keep it all bc oh it makes them so happy they love having it they’re so fucking #afraid of losing it but it’d be so easy and i doubt they’d even notice for a while and i genuinely could disguise it as a mistake something #got misplaced some files corrupted etc etc but whatever this is fantasy a sweet little daydream of mine my second fantasy involving #them has smth to do with setting their house on fire and my third fantasy is desecrating their grave when the time comes #okay i’m done w this lalalalalala *skips off into the distance* i think revenge is not productive but god is it delicious to think about

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ca-d · 4 months ago

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#one thing about me #is that I can be a very reactive person #I don’t always take the time to think before I speak or the time to choose my battles #but I’m proud of myself today #having that confrontation was proof I’m progressing #I didn’t just yell and get upset #I took time to think about what came out of my mouth next #just gotta work on my tone #I’m a very passionate person and sometimes I forget to speak to others how I’d want to be spoken to #either way #we’re going in the right direction #me from a few years ago would be very impressed #little steps

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buysomecheese · 10 months ago

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Preventing myself from freaking tf out by remembering that even my hormones don’t want to be in my body even my body is trying to prove that it’s Wrong and it’s funny that everything agrees with me except my mom and the government

#boyfriend I’m ok I promise lol #context for my dear friends here on Tumblr I got diagnosed (?) with a complex ovarian cyst today #it hurts and I’m upset about it because it’s Just Another Reminder that this body is female!!!#I used to say ‘yea it may not be the body I’m supposed to have but at least it works just fine’#no I have chronic issues with synthesizing hormones or something #like this body knows the hormones and shit are wrong and keeps rejecting it but that doesn’t Help any #and being on testosterone will actually probably be very helpful to my literal health y’know #because otherwise I’d have to be on bc my whole life to prevent unnecessary pain and shit #and I’ve already lived that it caused Other issues lmao (irregular menstruation even when on the pill blood clot risk No period for >6-#-months sometimes etc.) so testosterone will. be very healthy for me to be on once I get there.#but before I start now I have to figure out so many Things and my hormone levels will have to be So totally tested #which was gonna be needed anyways it’s just gonna be annoying #and I would be so ok with just having a hysterectomy (partial or complete) and taking gahrt being done with it #but NO no of course not. never would it be that easy. my MOM-#it’s fine like of course she doesn’t want her 18 year old unmarried childless daughter to have a hysterectomy that makes sense #doctors would agree with her and they’d be Not Incorrect #but I don’t want or need bio kids I’ll end up getting a hysterectomy anyways #but I had to explain Every Little Bit of the surgeries used for ovarian cysts they’re all so easy (like laproscopies and such)#it’s just tedious that she doesn’t know how to do research so it’s All on me to explain it but she also thinks I’m an idiot #like girl pick a struggle #either listen to me or don’t make me do your research #I’m gonna explode I’m fine. I’m gonna take a shower and then write an essay and apply to beta-reading jobs and go to sleep #speaking of. if anyone knows anyone who’s hiring beta-readers uhh give them my tumblr let them Hime #*hmu #I would love to be paid extra for reading and commenting on books lmao #especially if I’m gonna be paying my own hrt without my insurance (which is paid by my mom) then. well.#my $12.50 an hour for 8-12 hours a week job isn’t gonna cut it

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deathsmallcaps · 11 months ago

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My mom has suddenly decided I say sorry to much. And she’s right but god getting angry at me about it just triggers it :pppppppppppppppppppp

(She hates it when I stick my tongue out at her so :ppppppppppppp more)

SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY

:pppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

It also makes me angry because it reminds of all the times I’ve had to apologize and I DIDNT MEAN IT. And by ‘didn’t mean it’ I’m talking about the times where I had to be the bigger person or someone else was having a power trip or some shit. >:ppppppppp

I just want a totally guiltless, consequence free day where I can be as mean as fancy strikes me. And this is okay. It’s an unrealistic dream and should stay that way. But it’s also okay to feel aggressive and hurt. Two things, surprisingly, can be true at the same time. :ppppppppppppppppppp

#suddenlyish. this ain’t the first time #vent #don’t mind interactions just ain’t looking for solutions #my mom and I had a good day today actually #I’m just winding down and feeling things #my mom cannot function when it’s cold #and by cannot function I mean more her neural pathways for being nice shut down #she’s improved a lot but between her and customer service things to do today I’m just feeling a little upset #I’m also week 8 out from my period and goddamn this hormone shit is cumulative #like you’d think #oh dsc gee whiz since it’s been 8 weeks since your last period #assuming it starts tomorrow #that means all the steps of the period cycle were stretched out proportionally over the doubled length #NOOOOOOO ITS CUMULATIVE #it was 10 weeks in between the second to last one and the last one and I WAS FUCKING MANIC #FUCKKKKKK #BUT IN GOOD NEWS I GOT TO LISTEN TO ALL THE WAKANDA FOREVER SONGS TODAY #AND I GOT A NEW WINTER COAT BASICLALY FOR FREE AND ATE CHEESECAKE AND HAD A GOOD MINI DANCING SESSION #I DO NOT NEED TO MENTION GOOD THINGS IN ORDER TO MAKE MY NEGATIVE FEELINGS VALID BUT IM STILL CONVINCING MYSELF OF THAT FACT AND IM TIRED #AND YELLING FEELS GOOD. UNFORTUNATELY IM AT MY DAD’s house so if I scream I’d probably wake a neighbor #SO IM GONNA SCREAM HERE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #the cute aggression article on Wikipedia is a fun read #EMOTIONAL EXPRESSION #I might go eat more cheesecake

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beheadable · 1 year ago

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*explodes and dies* no yeah I’m totally fine. Yeah everything’s cool

#Men #correction. Man #the man and the all too real feelings I have no control over #nowhere to put them #just kinda sitting there stagnant getting more and more intense #it’s been two damn years #two fucking years and nothing has changed #I deal I deal I throw them into art. unseen writing. my own selfships when it’s just too much #I wonder I wonder I wonder everyday when will this end #will it ever?#I don’t think i’d be upset if it never does #maybe a little melancholic. but i’d live with it #I think half my problems in general in life would be solved if I found a creepyhandsome man to kiss and love #actually

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t4tstarvingdog · 2 years ago

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what if a bear saw you and it started coming at you WHAT DK YOU DOOOOO THATS SO SCARY

:( i would give it a little kiss

#i think i’m more wary so if o knew bear in the area i would avoid it and if it was close enough to start coming towards me i’d try to leave #but if i couldn’t i think i would try to punch it or stick my arm into its mouth as far as possible #<- depends on bear #but for the most part i don’t think a bear would be upset at me or have reason to attack or anything #they’re just little guys <3 #tw caps #ask and ye shall receive / knock and the door shall be opened #al tag🍁🔥

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