#I think I was too little to rememebr it

[bookwyrminspiration]

YO!!! for SO long I've been losing my mind trying to find evidence of one of the birthday songs my family sings because I see it NOWHERE and I know we didn't come up with it ourselves, but I couldn't find it anywhere and I finally located it!! it's the birthday song from it's a big big world my GOD mystery finally solved I can finally rest. much better than the typical birthday song that is the birthday song to me <3

[immamapletreekid]

i need to know more about sarukui nagito

[miserye]

Did I make a post about how I classify gender for things or did I make that up

[fanficfish]

nations and their little "tells" of how long they've lived

there is definitely a post somewhere about this but whatever this is my hadcanon xD

-England and his three big bros are the prime example of "going a little crazy", they've been alive so long and half of it through the Mideival Era that they've lost concept of a lot of stuff. Like their touch with reality is a little screwed and you definitley notice they don't quite get some stuff, like they'll miss empathy cues or slip into mannerisms from days long past. Use old English, etc. They're the wacky cousins that ar just a bit confused but they're trying, even if they get on everyone's nerves a bit. Also they're still figuring out how emails work, because while their personalities change according to their people their actual knowledge doesn't always keep up.

-Russia, i think that one's obvious, man's had such a time that he's spent so long plastering a smile that he's basically forgotten how not to not smile. And you can't undo centuries in a day. You see his true nation age when he takes everything and doesn't bother trying to question it no matter how ridiculous, when he stops a tank with his bare hands and walks it off, when he's surprised people don't usually try to jump out planes without parachutes.

-countries with violet eyes like Canada, Iceland, Norway- they blend in too well, they resemble the quiet kid in the back of the class (personal headcanon it indicatess magical inclination). You realize they're not quite human when Norway turns his head and hos haircurl floats midair and his gaze is just a bit too knowing, when Iceland makes a remark well beyond his physical age and you remember he's a thousand years old, when Canada- actually no the bear is enough proof.

-And then there's China and Japan, two old men who look young but have that sense of knowing more then they let on like Norway but without the creepy blank look that comes when one has Seen Too Much. Instead they travel through life like they don't have a care, as if every day is a lfietime in Neverland. Especially China. Japan also just looks tired all the time even if he isn', from stress lines that never go away.

-Prussia is that fun work colleague who suddenly turns into a history nerd out of nowhere and then flips back to normal wild mode. He's the one who tells tales like he actually was there, he and the wrest lf the BTT really. It's like they rememebr, because they do.

-Meanwhile Lithuania and Finland seem normal enough- good hardoqrking young men doing good woek. But thebmoment they're attacked, their eyes blaze and it's like an aura radiates lff them. And you know they're stronger then they look, that they won't go down without a fight. And you'll probably be the one going down no matter how strong you think you are, because they're nations and they will always hve more power and centuries of experience. Even if it's been years and they aren't superpowers, they have the muscle memory. It's engrained into their very being, it's a part of them and if you approach them the wrong way you might get dropkicked by accident.

-Countries like Denmark and America- their smiles are just off. Denmark's is too sharp, just a amidge too much, and America's is too wide, like he's trying tok hard when it's just his natural face.

-and then there's austrailia and new zealand who are the reason Florida started fighting alligators and convinced their residents to start doing it too "for the YouTube views", forgetting rhat moat people don't have instahealing or can come back from the dtad.

[kerink]

the attic liveshow live react

you can always go in the same way you go out. well. not always. i can think of one time thats not true such as....life

this too shall pass reprise

thai food and mario kart tournament and sawa dead body

listen up to not hurt cecils feelings

wendys built the brown stone spire?!

sniffs cecils lapel sniff sniff

AQUARIUS TRICKING A LEO INTO A CAVE FKDKDKFK

looking at family pics instead of doing the news

a photo of mom and cecil and abby <333

abby and cecil are gonna fall into the big hole...

cecil collected animals..

BEAVER PEED IN ABBYS BBED

named the snake after his mom...

tamikaaaaaa

cecils stuffed animal TT_TT

NOOOO HE LEFT IT BEHIND

"she could be cruel i suppose" ill say cecil

JACKIE FERRO MENTION POG

wretched gretchen: she hesrd your wish

"kids with their tiktok dances" cecil talk to your husband

michelle helping people become musicians?!

oh ok shes my queen never mind

theyre mouthing yergent lmfao

ah. the picture of cecils mom. ah

oh they just keep making new trauma up for him

lee macin best known for being 30 years old

WHEN HE WAS A YOUNG MAN ONLY 30 YEARS OLD 💀💀💀

cecil going to sleep cuddled up to his radio listening to leonard 😭😭😭💕💕💕

cecils face when kip was insisting the shirt was a card almost killed me

carlos please take his credit card away

AUOTE GET REAL

kip trying to take cecil soul... this already happened to him

CECIL YOU DID PLAY BASEBALL AS A KID COME ON

well he played with earl so it makes sense why he wouldnt rememebr

CRANOR PUT ON THE T SHIRT

qhen he shook his head and mouthed no about meditation 💀 he was so cute

he freaking teleported us to san fransciso

BALDWINS LITTLE POSE WHEN HE STARTED THE SECOND WENDYS PART THE WAY HE KICKED HIS LEGGIE

THERES A MAN PLAYING MYSIC

disperitions little nod

CECIL POKIG AT SDISPERITIONS STUFF

cecil was sooooo cute at the keyboard 😭😭😭

larry leroy shooting birds‼️‼️

cecils little sad/scared uhhuh was so cuuuute

cecil dismissing a book not holding up TO TAMIKA girl howd she not kill you

SHE CALLED HIM CEECCEE

CECIL WENT BACK TO THERAPY oh its an iguana

"nobody has repressed more stuff than me" baby we know

this is condos 2

THERE WAS NO FAMILY TRIP TO THE GRAND CANYON

we should see something of this country but we only made it a few blocks

abby and i sat in the dark holding hands not knowing what game was being played only that we were losing it

wendys is no bed bath amd beyond when it comes to interdemensional magic

perfection isnt human

"i cant change the pain of my childhood past"

CARLOS AND CECIL ARE TAKING ESTEBAN TO THE GRAND CANYON

"as soon as i figure out how to get out of night vale" 💀

I ACCIDENTALLY STARTED A PREMATURE CLAP AT THE SF LIVE SHOW 🙈

[dballzposting]

So I saw you have a redbubble and was wondering whether you'll put some other trunks and goten design there or not. Would love to buy sth from your doodle design (I was aiming for the hat or the mug btw)

Hello

When you say "from your doodle design" does that mean like ... what does that mean. LIKE I DREW IT? Like ... doodled it? Like .. how I draw or doodle? style? design? Doodle design... I think I'm following. DOODLE DESIGN?

I

I have .. despite it all .. so little real images of goten & trunks .. becasue I never figured out how to draw them. For this I am sorry ...

If I find picz on my computer / Make new pics then I would love to throw them onto redbubble.

I am touched that you would come into my inbox like this.. thank you kindly..

Heres an image from my phone. I dont rememebr where I got it

Goten & Trunks are cool I should quit my job and drop out of school and commit my life to learning how to draw so that I can draw them holding hands at the urinal. And then I can put that on a redbubble hat and then people could buy it and wear it backwards so that when they're peeing at the urinal all the other guys in the bathroom would see the hat and feel it as a sort of suggestion DOES THAT SOUND GOOD ?!

Thatd be SOOOOOOO FUNNY on a mug too..

You're so silly okanra. Take care of yourself our there. Thank you for your words 💖

[i-anonymous-crow]

thinking about the Minecraft end poem and how the first time I beat the game fair and square i didn't read it. i sat there for minutes skimming over it being a little dissapointed over such a lack-luster finish for beating the game. i think i was too young, and impatient. i just wanted to get back to my home i had carved into a mountain, where my dog and cat were waiting for me.

but i remember trying to understand. to understand the notion of atoms and stars and dreams. i remember dragging air into my lungs and wiggling my finger tips and trying to wrap my mind around the concept of being alive.

and i rememebr being told that i was the universe tasting itself. that i was made of code and atoms. that i was made of milk and love.

and i remember being scared. because for a moment, i was on the cusp of understanding.

i'd like to think that now i do understand the poem, at least, much better than i did a few years ago.

and yeah, maybe i focus a little to much on the meaning rather than understadning the words, but i know how it makes me feel. and that's more than enough for me.

i know that it makes me feel alive and emotional.

i know that it makes me tear up every time.

but most importantly, i think, is that i know

that the universe is kind

[icy-watch]

Ok, first episode is Turtle-dega Nights: The Ballad of Rat Man.

First an foremost, the title is a little shout-out to Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby (2006). I have seen this movie several times (between 2006 to 2009), but I rememebr absolutely nothing about it except the cast interviews when they were promoting it.

The movie itself is about a NASCAR driver. And that's all I remember.

Now, I'm thinking this episode is going to be about Splinter. Why? The "Rat Man" part of the episode. I'm thinking it's going to be more of a backstory about him and how he fell into acting.

At least, I'm hoping for that. I need more of his history. The amount we've been given has been too little, imo.

Let's check it out!

[sparatus]

can't rememebr if I sent you one of these yet or not BUT Kryterius aaaand Numb To The Elements and to make it a twofer Desabrudas and Save My Sould

send me a ship + fake title and i'll tell you what the fic is about

hhhhhh fuck yeah let's see. okay these are going under a cut cause it got long

Numb to the Elements (Kryterius)

hmmm well we all know i love my clever wordplay, i think for this one we'll veer off from what's probably expected and go to some point during nihlus's training. obviously they're somewhere cold and unpleasant on a mission, but for Meaningful Title's sakes, instead of the obvious answer of altakiril it should be somewhere significant to one of them, just during shit weather season. let's say carthaan in the winter, prairie winters are nasty. they have to actually be out in it, so... tracking a terrorist through the outback? sure, sounds good.

so it's a training mission, nihlus is expected to take point, they're tracking some asshole through the unsettled portion of carthaan during the winter, it sucks. saren obviously knows the planet well, he's from the outskirts of carthaan's settled areas, but he's being deliberately unhelpful to force nihlus to Learn Something™️, which keeps pissing nihlus off, and the weather isn't helping. but eventually, their hunt starts pointing them towards a tiny town at the very edge of civilization, and the closer they get, the antsier saren is... until the weather finally forces them to seek shelter, and saren leads nihlus to a little empty house, and tells him what happened there.

nihlus feels strange being in the childhood home saren was wrested out of much too early, especially knowing the family has been hanging onto it and keeping it up in the hopes that saren will eventually return there for good. at this point in the story, he still hasn't reconciled with his mother, and he hasn't opened up to saren what happened - but the house isn't as empty as it seems, and as the ghosts of saren's past settle down at the kitchen table with them, he finds himself digging up his own, forcing himself to face things he hadn't realized still hurt.

whoops that got away from the point of the title but uhhhh the numbness is in reference both to the actual cold shitty weather and how nihlus and saren both avoid thinking about their past and dont talk about it much, there

Save My Soul (Desabrudas)

okay either this will be entirely as expected or not at all, depends how much attention you paid to the titles and taglines in bm, but here's the mood music because des's chapter in bm was title/taglined DIRECTLY from this song including the actual lyric "there's no use tryna save my soul":

we're going to the hastatim era, boys.

so we know i want to write an echo of mitm eventually, got it planned out and everything, but that's valis's perspective. so, to keep it even... yeah dude we're echoing wake me when it's over. this fic would follow des while he's in the hastatim, fighting (and failing) to keep his head above water. he's tired, and traumatized, and he just wants to go home, but by this point he sees no way out. he misses his parents, his friends, his brother, his maybe-sometimes-girlfriend. he can't stay. he can never leave.

i think, because the hastatim were a very dark point in des's life, this wouldn't be a happy fic, or have a good hopeful ending. to echo wmwio, he'd be tired and drinking alone, longing for the way things used to be and trying to figure out how to get out of the situation he's in, but he's dangerously depressed and can't see any way out but to die - but he can't do that either, because what will saren and parmat do, who will tell his friends? he scrolls through messages, his friends trying to get ahold of him and try to stay connected, but he thinks talking to them will make the distance hurt worse, and he doesn't want to tell them what he's doing in case they turn on him, because the hastatim are feared and hated and who wants to openly admit to being part of it? so he's sad. and drinking. and making himself sadder.

and maybe, because i get frustrated writing fics that don't go anywhere, this is taking place on taetrus again, in that same tree valis found him in in mitm. in a fit of loneliness and depression, he's tearing off strips of bark and trying to weave them together, because maybe if he can make valis a vinco she'll never get, he can pretend he has a goal for his life just a little longer. and while he's doing that, getting frustrated because he's drunk and it's hard, he gets a new text, from the very person he wants so so badly to be there with him. valis is worried about him, because nobody's heard from him in months and saren has no answers, and where is he.

he wants it to be real. he doesn't think it is. he stopped praying years ago.

he puts a little more effort into making the vinco look nice, and sleeps curled around it clutched in his hand.

[soliddaddy96]

3, 4, 6, 8 for reigen :3

oh heavens the freaker ... the jerkr

3. How did your oc discover themself? Did something cause them to question, or did they always know?

i rememebr i wrote this down somewhere but 2 me he realized he was queer of some sort when he went to one of his sisters friends quinceanera and made out w the birthday girls older cousin behind the venue ... this was when he was like , a highschooler in arizona still . after this he was liek Hmm i think somethings up . he didnt act on these feelings until he was hitchhiking to jess' apartment like years later tho ..... not much else 2 think abt besides how you might be gay for your friendon the open road and such .

with his gender i think he always kindve knew , early on his dad kindve picked up on it and went "heyy y. i dont mind if you ... experiment . with your gender . yoru still my kid all the same 😁" to rei who, at the time, went "? Ok (doesnt think about this encounter until years later)". its also a main reason (2 me ) as to why connor bullied him a bit - in my brain milwaukee is a pretty ... closed minded town , so its only natural people would spread their bigotry onto their children < which is why when connor saw how rei was like "im a MAN" but (in connors mind) didnt make any "real" effort into presenting masc , he 1 thought rei was just doing it for attention and 2 sought out to "fix" him ....... < cornering him and cutting his hair along w just. General torment

4. Is your oc's environment supportive about their identity? How does this impact them?

until he was around middleschool he only really had the support of his dad < his mother being a devout catholic whereas his dad was laid back and also queer himself . after he died and they moved back to arizona rei just kindve caved in on himself and gave up on any presentation gender or sexuality wise ... until one day he felt too suffocated by it all nd went back to the one place he ever really Did feel accepted < milwaukeeeeee 😁and by extension jess nd ashe . the latter i dont know if they met later but i think their presence helps rei greatly ... nervous cheetah and emotional support dog type thang . when hes back w the gang he feels pretty comfortable w them and while he still has his moments of doubt from time to time he still feels confident that theyll never judge him (which they wouldnt thankfully). ave maria

6. How does your oc feel about labels? Theirs, or in general?

he would rather be gutted like a fish than talk about labels ... i dont think he feels all that comfortable w himself to say hes for sure gay ... and as for being trans , he keeps that shit LOCKED UP !!! very stealth with it ... even if being called a woman bothers him hed rather just take it and smile than out himself and risk being harassed . as he gets older he just stops gaf. i think hed just call ashe up randomly one day nd go "Hey .im gay." and then just hang up . theyd understand

8. Have they had struggles with their identity, be it due to internal or external reasons?

hes the prime struggler and transgender allegory ... if hes not actively repressing his feelings for guys then hes trying as hard as he can to come off as a cis guy . i think it stems from the hostile environment milwaukee generally is as well as internal stuff < after his dads passing his mom blamed his homosexuality for it and deemed him a sinner ... her side of the family also just talked shit abt him a lot 😭this diswayed rei Greatly from ever being open . even in his 20s i think despite him being more cool w being gay nd stuff hed still be a little nervous ... i dont think his anxiousness abt it would ever go away for realsies , but with time he wouldnt think abt it too much 👍

AVE MARIA can youtell i want him dead

[lmanburg-letter-service]

Dear Wilbur

my last letter was a moment of weakness that I just rememebr because I remembered that yeha. i did send letters. and turned out it was me screaming and crying ove rmissing you which is not very stoic-pilled of me so. here's a new letter.

Dear Wilbur:

how r u? i hope u've veen doing fine. u know writing the music u wanted and such and not sticking to genres you know will annoy phil. actual music you want to write.

last time I properly spoken to you was when you left. but what about before? let's go to before. before that there was dancing on the beach. I still hadn't told you fully what happened in exile and I don't think I ever will. let by gones be by goens or whatever u use that phrase for.

let's go back earlier. I hated thudnerstormed so everytime it stormed I would go sleep on the foot of your bed instead of the sode closet. and you never stopped me or said "no, leave" so i kept on doing it. Techni was right when he said I'm more animal that I'm human. you didn't bother to teach me how to be human eother so ig it's not my fault.

let's talk about mean girls. do yo ustill hate that movie? bc I remember u getting so annoyed over me begging to watch it on ur tv and then proclaiming regina george will be my girlfriend. u just wanted to play your guitar back then and you were a little sad. and I don't know what to do when you were sad, so I just annoyed u for an reaction. any reactio ntjat would tell me "yes I want you around. no don't leave me alone" and I'd stay.

you once took me to a pond because i got cabin fever from staying in for too long so you took me out and let me run wild. i stayed close to u the entire time because what if when i go and turn back you went home wothout me. that out be scary wouldn't it.

there is also the swing down the hill under that big tree. we carved our heights into its bark along woth our names. i was five and you were sixteen. the world was defined through orange sunsets and kicking eachother on the way home so the other would be the last to get to the door. i built a nest under your bed and you didn't mind. i cried and smeared snot all over your duvet and you didn't midn. i scribbled crayons over the back side of your music sheets and you didn't mind. when my horns grew in, i cried and whined curled up under your desk and you didn't midn.

idk. so how have you been, Wilbur. How are you, Will. do you miss me? do I miss you? do you regret chosing me as your brother? My name's not Tommy anymore, I'm sorry I threw that part of you away. forgive me?

Your forever little brother, Clementine

(C!tommy fictive)

[Letter Sent!]

[todayisafridaynight]

I feel like it would be fun to see Leo's actor in Mole Song Final play Ryuji... that's the only person that comes to mind 😭😭

BUT YEAH 4 was the first mainline entry with (proper) faceclaims! I would kill to see faceclaims get to play their characters. Because they actually aren't mocapped by them, just voiced and scanned in--the acting is all done by RGGS' mocap actors. If you're mentally ill enough you'll start to notice acting decisions that differ from what the actual actor would've gone for; Arakawa doesn't cry the way Nakai does, for example. NGL the animations get kind of uncanny at times if you're too mentally ill so I would not recommend paying quite that much attention lol

I was trying not to think about it though because even if we By Some Miracle got to "season 7" (8 if they do 0) it's entirely possible Nakai and/or Tsutsumi won't be acting anymore by then 😭😭😭😭😭Tsutsumi wants to start directing by the time he's 60... That's chiefly why I kinda wanted it to be an adaptation of 7 before we knew any of the specifics... But Oh Well, it is what it is

ANYWAYS. Very excited for stream tomorrow and best of luck getting stuff done for today :D

YEAH LIKE UNDOUBTEDLY he gave such big ryuji vibes and had an epic presence..... if i allowed myself to dream just this once he would be a real good contender for ryuji......

ohhh yeah nonono ive definitely noticed DONT WORRY. whenever i draw or write fics, i always try to imagine the actual character first to see if the expression or dialogue fits them and if it's believable. having dove more into tsutsumi and nakai movies and shows, the difference is REALLY apparent to me (in that vein tho, it's easy for me to see them as individual characters as opposed to actors playing characters, so it's a little bit of a win for me somehow lmao)

YEAH NOOO THATS DEF A VERY LIKELY POSSIBILITY SHOULD THE SERIES SOMEHOW GET TO THAT POINT IN THE GAMES. again i doubt we'll actually get that far, but in the rare event that we do i hope nakai and tsutsumi do whatever makes them happy (and id def be into seein a movie directed by tsutsumi) (❁´◡`❁)

I REMEMEBR THATLKVJELK WHICH ONE OF YOU FIENDS SENT ME THAT FANCAST SITE IN THE FIRST PLACE ☠️☠️☠️☠️

[fanficfish]

Why i love honkai star rail as a disabled player, part 2

part one

alright time for part teo now that im properly into the game. Ive added it to my phone now so this will also cover the mobile. I also dont rememebr what i talked about the first time so forgive any repition

spoilers as usual

Mobile controls are so easy. Im sure i mentioned how intuitive the controls are but its the same for both pc and mobile (idk about any other platform). And its vwry easy to jump from one platform to another, no rememembering where buttons are kn different decices. As long as youve played videogames before it all makes sense.

The turn based stuff is still great. I love battling, and i hate numbers but ive actuslly gotten into my characters and their stats. Like, in what world? Its satisying seeing s character do an AoE and then everything dorps becaus elf the high damage output, turn base goves some nice opportunity to admire your work.

i will say im not into some of the outfits of the characters. Seele is a bit much for a girl livijg in an underground crazytown and Bronya's cloak looks like a safety hazard. Herta is msotly fine (a bit short but ig it work since shes basically in doll form) but March....honey please we walked through a freaking blizzard and you were the one in nothing but a sumeme dress. Did the ice make you immune??? Clara i can understand though, and i have heard Seele was based off her H3 design but still. Some of those outifts look a little inlpractical....then again its a gacha game where the main selling poitnsbare "lookat out cool characters". And i like the male trailblazers ourfit mroe then the male traveller from Genshin

music. Omg i love the music so much. You dont even knwo. Ive been singing the melodies all weekened. Its gonan be one of those legendary themes i think

font size. Good on Pc, wish it was slightly bigger kn mobile esspecislly for some stuff where being sble to see the words is usually a good thing.

Pom pom. Unlike Paimon, they are not mildly annoying and are very cute. They need to be protected at all costs especislly from the memory guardian person. The Breakfast light cone is just so funny too lol. This has nothign to do with the design or anything i just needed to say jt.

even as a FTP player its actually pretty easy to get stuff if you dont mind apending a few mintues or an hour chasing down a frw achivements even just playing the mossions can nab you the premium currency and the grind is the least annoying thing ive played since Monster Super League (which was annoying but was the point kf the game so i couldnt fault it). And dont forget the freebies and gifts! And level rewards! And 50 other things!

Traces. Relics, and light cones are all vpretry intuitive menus. Took me a hot minute to figure out how tk level up a character but now i got it. As long as you know vaguely what atats you need ktsball good.

thats all i really have for now, ill make a part three if j think of more. I did want to add that if you have shaky hands, not having to aim March's bow or aim for an enemy and just tap where the enmh is in the turn based is so much ncier.

[enzombie]

I just finished season 4 and im. Im ruined. Ive already watched the show like 6 times btw but FUCK. GOD DAMN

Blaine being truly honest for the first time in as long as we've known him by telling angus he made the sign from god, only to get a reality check when his dad isnt as selfish and cowardly as he is, except thats such a mindfuck because his dad is a horrible awful child abusive son of a bitch, and it must have been so confusing to watch the church devour fraud bater under angus's orders. How eagerly angus watches blaines reaction, how he so hopes that makes up for everything, its sickening. Especially at the end of their arc where if i got it correctly, enzo sold them out? Told FMG they'd be coming and led them to a trap? And we saw angus and his flock get shot down. I cant help but feel bad for blaine

Peyton refusing to let FMG get away with moving up the time of the execution, marching into that studio and taking iver the broadcast, being the REASON people SHOWED UP at the warehouse and being right there with johnny fucking frost of all people, and ravi right by her side.

Major leaping over the crowd of soldiers to tackle chase, raging out completely and rightfully after all the shit he had to do for what he believed to be the right cause, only for the leader of that cause to spit in his face by trying to execute the love of his life. Because despite everything they still love eachother still and major is so goddamn pissed hes not gonna let another person murder his kids and get away ith it (even tho we saw so little of captain seattle i do not rememebr his actual name. Or jordans half the time)

Liv's stone cold expression at pulling the level and crushing chase's skull, and being so right about it too. Still tho, it wasnt enough to bring levon back, just like every time she tries to do the thing she thinks is right, someone she loves dies for it. When she tries to shoot blaine on sniper brain but cant, lowell tries to and gets killed. When she saves the chaos killer victims and clive from dying to a zombie, that zombie just had to be drake. When she tries to help human-zombie relations (misguidedly) and save lives by being renegade, she gets a front row seat to levons head being crushed. Her pain is so real idec chase is done with. It wasnt a good ending for her and i can feel that so clearly, even with that hopeful ending scene

My friend and I talked abour how selfish Liv can be when we started watching together (her first time), but how selfish can someone be when they give up the cure for their ailment twice for other peoples happiness?

And Chase. God. That entire decline during the latter half of the season was brutal. When thwy announced renegades execution and the video came out, he was done it was over, there was truly no coming back from this. He was so out of it at the point of the supporters breaking in that his voice cracks when he shouts at major to stop and when he says dont shoot and hes scrambling wildly for some form of control, in this case a gun that he places his head right on the gillutine. I think its a mercy that he died so painlessly.

At least Dale and Clive got a happy ending to the season though, getting married and getting the cure. Clive calling liv partner when they were saying goodbye in chase's office, it was just so bittersweet

Hope its okay that this is so long i just wanted to dump my thoughts onto someone ^^ this show is phenomenal i cant recover from this tonight.

DAMN. THATS A LOT OF WORDS. DAMN.

I uh idk how to respond to most of this cus there's so much but I'll try my best (also why this took so long to reply sorry)

Blaine is a mixed feelings character, he's a fan favourite and he's always enjoyable to watch. Angus on the other hand idk a single soul who likes that bitch. Say what you will about Blaine, but Angus was EVIL. Shout out to Enzo for killing him off fr. We are grateful. All my homies hate Angus.

Also Enzo didn't exactly sell them out, he more completely set them up - he went directly to Blaine and Angus to make sure they went the exact route, made sure he was there for all the final plans, he collaborated directly with the US military to get rid of Angus and his pals. Like it wasn't a split second betrayal it was a planned execution, he knew full well Angus would take the bait and was probably hoping Blaine would too. I'm not sure if it was even an official FG operation because as far as we know, Chase didn't hear anything back from Enzo about the church. He didn't tell the press his name, he was the only FG personnel there - I'm sus that he just took it upon himself to deal with them. King behaviour.

And yeah Peyton was girlboss at the end of season 4 but it's like. When her bestie in danger she got all this proactive shit but when she's acting mayor the energies like half that. Makes me mad.

As for major. Little sympathy. Oh did your child soldiers get killed? Maybe child soldiers are a bad idea? Maybe you wouldn't be upset if you didn't have children as soldiers in the first place? Maybe giving untrained children weapons is guaranteed to go badly and end with them injured or killed? Do you think? Like. Honestly. And the way he was with Levon. Major was weird in season 4 idk. And I disagree with them killing Chase. There's so many worse people in the show that she can't bring herself to kill but Chase she executes without hesitation. He wasn't even that bad. I don't think its very fair for him either. Like he was trying his best to keep Seattle under control, and renegade was actively making everything worse. And if you think he was doing a bad job what came after in season 5? With Major: terrorism and hatecrimes peaked and he did nothing, he made Seattle completely reliant on Blaine who (bless him) is not trustworthy and not a good person and is obviously going to be a controversy. With Enzo: the second he took over, Majors mistakes blow up and Seattle dealing with civil war. Not to mention Enzo isn't great at de-escalation, at any point - not even just when he's in charge, since his introduction he walks in and makes situations worse on purpose (can't help being a girlboss)

As for your question about Liv being selfish - it's shortsightedness. She'll do selfless things that make her feel good but she won't consider the consequences. Stuff like giving up the cure is fine, not really any consequences, she gets to help her friends. The renegade stuff, she gets to scratch sick people and feel good about it - but the whole of Seattle gets closer and closer to dying horribly every time she does. It's like only caring about what's directly in front of her. Irritates me a little tbh. Especially when she's one of the only zombies not experiencing the food shortage so it's just this whole privilege thing while thousands of people are at risk.

Clive and Bozzio are so precious I love them so much they deserve everything. That's all.

Anyway, hope you and your friend enjoy season 5✌️

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13 notes - Posted May 9, 2022

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EYYYYMOSTER HIGH IS BACK WITCHESSokay adult enby obcessed with dolls cringe ahead.I am so excited for the return, I LOOOOVE figures and dolls, especially ones centered around monsters and myths, so monster high reels me in like a sucker.I really dont draw many teens, but seeing the new box art for the dolls looking more teenage than mid twenties is actually kinda nice! I like a lot of the changes, Clawdeen, whos just always pretty much the best main character in previous gens, now she's more centeral and main character I'm sooo excited! This design is kinda a combination of her box art and doll art for the new series I love that she has glasses and freckles, and just the cutest little outfit, I did forego the chain on her belt and adding details to her belt but IDC i think ti looks fine without, it was too much for me with the pattern around it, needed to have a diffrent texture between her clothes and belt.Tried to draw her with a more teen body than I typically draw (<5% of my ocs are under 20.) and I'm pretty okay with it, I think maybe her face looks a little aged tho? lacking baby fat? IDK but I'm mostly happy with her, she's just sooo cute. If you're into MH lemme know what your fave character or doll is!! I missed a bunch and I love hearing people talk about things I like that they enjoy. :lmao: (Don't be creepy about lil clawdeen, she is a child.)

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How have I never drawn my original bunny waifu in a bunny suit?I asked myself this while browsing my galley so picked her for my first Bunny Suit Art Jam 2022 held by @atomictiki (RIP his tumblr lol)  It's Peridot, the best design and most fun character in Puchi Carat according to me. I tried to mix in some of her original art style in making it a little more anime in the eyes and the white highlight is based directly on how they draw highlights in her official art. Anyway, I quite like this one! Hope I manage to get a couple more done for the month, but I'm taking a short holiday soon so that may interrupt that plan! I'll see what happens.

16 notes - Posted September 7, 2022

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I saw the Plumber Peach from the old picross comic the other day and really wanted to draw her, even tho I'm really struggling to enjoy my work right now, so I don't love this one, but I do think she's cute at the very least.

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Okay I got another idea for Bunny suit jam by atomictiki, a character who's been drawn in one a few times, has a figure of her in one too, but I wanted to do some sorta classic anime vibes.

One of my earliest childhood crushes I rememebr is Ryoko Hakubi, I never got far in the anime but she really grabbed my heart with a vice like grip, I love her english dub voice too, that kinda deeper sarcastic sound? love it, it's actually what inspired me to draw Ryoko, the fact that Eda has a simailir voice, caused me to remember my love for Ryoko.

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The Madrigal Curse

a cursed/werewolf Luisa AU, inspired by A little bit of sugar (and lots of poison too) by @yellowcry

Heres a bit of chapter one

Alma could remember it clear as day, the moment at the river, she could see the candle grow bright with power, she rememebred the voice in her mind echoing through her skull and reveberating down her spine, overwhelming her without a single noise, it didn't sound like anything, it sounded like everything and the words to describe it escaped her, the words it said deeply imprinted by the resounding silent voice

"we see your sacrifice and grant you this miracle, but be warned, if you forget our mercy you will recieve a punishment just as powerful and unthinkable as our gift, remember the sacrifice made today and never forget it"

as soon as the voice disappeared it was hard to belive it was there at all, nothing she could think of remotely resembled the power of the noise in her mind but the words stayed there, even to this day, even to the day her little nietas door dissolved in front of her, as she watched the faint glow dissipate white hot terror shot up her spine, this was the day the fates threat, or promise, came true.

Alma stood just as shocked as everyone else, staring at the door as her mind raced to find why this had happened, she remebered Pedros sacrifice and did her best to love and appreciate the gifts they were given, what had she done wrong? she was so caught up in her own thoughts she didn't notice when Mirabels lip wobbled and tears filled her eyes, but she was brought back to earth by a small hand clutching hers and a shaky voice talking to her

"abuela, w-why did it disappear? do I-.. w-where's my gift? what did I do wrong?" her voice sounded desperate for any reason, Alma looked down at her and felt an emotion, something resembling fear, how was it possible someone so small could bring destruction upon her family? she opened her mouth and gave an excuse before running to her room, what had she done wrong? More importantly, what would that child become?

10 years later

Luisa was in town still even though it was lunchtime, she hefted the heavy beams over her shoulder and thought about the talk she had with Mirabel, Mirabel told her it was okay to take breaks and could even be healthy, but she didn't need breaks, she was strong, she saw Mirabel heading back up to casita and thought about lunch, she was getting pretty hungry, her stomach had been feeling a little strange all day and thoughts of food filled her mind, arepas and empanadas paraded in her head and some more foods joined them, chorizo, chicharrons, tamales, meat

She stumbled as she was hit by a sudden headache and the last thought interuppted her other ones, taking over her mind for split second before disappearing with her headache, she had had migraines before but this wasnt quite like those, this had been so loud it actually made her stumble a bit, then it dissipated without a trace, she shook her head to clear it and continued carrying the lumber around while trying not to think about it, and back at casita, almost imperceptibly, her door flickered.

Mirabel marched up the path to casita, she knew Luisa intended on skipping lunch again so she was going up grab some for her and talk with abuela about lunch breaks, as she entered casita she saw her mama and abuela at the table and decided now was the perfect time to ask.

"Abuela you know how Luisa likes to skip lunch because she has chores"

"Yes, she's so hardworking and dedicated, I wish more of this family was like her"

Mirabel ignored the small dig and continued "well it's not very good for her, what if we started telling the villagers to not ask her for things around lunch? that way she is energized for the rest of the day"

"If she wanted a break she would take a break, she obviously doesn't need one because she never says no when they ask, you shouldn't try and make decisions for people Mirabel"

Mirabel snorted and barely stopped herself from bringing up Isabela, who was basically forced into a relationship with Mariano

"She doesn't say no because she doesn't want to disappoint you, you have to tell her it's okay to take breaks"

"She's an adult Mirabel, she doesn't need someone else to tell her to take breaks"

Mirabel grumbled and left the room with the extra snacks, not noticing the candle sway as if a soft breath swept over it.

She found Luisa staring at some boulders, her face was blank and stayed so as Mira called her name

"Luisa!"

She didn't respond until Mirabel tapped her on the shoulder

"Oh! Hi Mira, what do you need?"

"I need you to help me finish all this food, I took too much"

"Are you trying to trick me into taking a break again?"

"What? Noooo, this is very important and not an excuse to get you to eat at all"

"...uh huh, I guess I can take a few minutes"

They sat down and dug in but Mirabel noticed Luisa wasn't eating much, hey mind seemed to be elsewhere

"What's wrong Lu, you look out of it"

"Huh? Oh, I'm just not that hungry, I keep getting these weird headaches, they disappear quickly though"

"Okay, what were you staring at those boulders for earlier?"

"I don't know, I was just walking when a headache came, when I opened my eyes I was at those boulders and my mind felt a little fuzzy, it's been a weird day"

"Did you get enough sleep last night? Don't try to lie because I will ask Dolores"

"I'm pretty sure I did, I'll try to get more tonight, don't worry about me hermanita, maybe I just have a bug or something, we can go talk to mama once I'm done chores"

Mirabel agreed and they finished eating lunch together, Mirabel headed back up to casita while Luisa started on chores again, she was lifting the church and thought it was funny how the large silver bell rang with each step she took, but it soon shifted to annoyance as the reverberations echoed in her mind, bouncing around until it was all she could hear, her arms hurt and her legs felt heavy, why was she feeling like this? What was going on?

Right as she was about to go insane from the incessant ringing she saw that this was where she had to put it down, she basically dropped it, desperate to get away from its metallic cries, but it's rough landing caused a final and resounding DING that made her fall to her knees, now that she wasn't underneath the church its noise became louder, she could basically feel the sound waves throughout her body and as they passed through a cry of pain accompanied them, some of the fingers still under the church were flattened into the ground as she pulled them out, the last three fingers on her right hand were a bloody pulp, she could see bone shards sticking out in some spots, how did that happen? She was tougher than steel.

The pain radiated in waves as she slowly got to her feet, she sprinted to where her mama should be in town and quickly found her tending to another man who had a gash along his arm, the smell of his blood hit her nose almost instantly and made the hair on her neck stand up and her eyes dilate, she stiffened and let out involuntary growl when the wound closed and the blood disappeared, as the scent disappeared so did her momentary stiffness, her mama touched her arm and brought her back to reality as the man left the tent

"Are you alright mija? Do you have a fever? You looked strange when you came in, I can't quite put my finger on it though"

"I'm okay mama, I don't really know what came over me, its just been a really weird day, I keep getting all these headaches and my stomach rumbles but I don't want to eat much, then this happened while I was carrying the church"

She revealed her throbbing fingers and her mama gasped

"Ay mija! How did this happen? eat this right away" she stuffed an arepa into her daughters mouth

"Gracias mama, but I still don't know how, I thought I couldn't get hurt" her voice started to shake a little

"It's okay mija, it'll be okay"

Her mama stroked her hair and reassured her while her fingers healed, then they headed up for supper after agreeing Luisa was done with chores for today.

When they sat down Luisa still looked out of it, she held her head and rubbed her temples to try and relieve the pressure within, but to no avail, her stomach rumbled but none of the baked goods in her plate looked appetizing, she didn't know if she'd be able to eat at all until a new smell entered her nose, her mama brought out a tray of meat and Luisa actually started drooling while staring at it, she wanted to tear into it so badly but she barely managed to hold herself back.

After they said grace Luisa immediately grabbed some meat off the plate with her hands, not caring about the temperature, and her family looked at her strangely, her sister spoke up

"Chill out Lu, the meat isn't going anywhere, did you even wash your hands before this?"

"Yeah, slow down a little, this is what you get for not eating lunch" her other sister joined in

She smiled sheepishly "sorry guys, just really hungry"

The family seemed to accept this and went back to loading their own plates, Luisa forced herself to cut it into small bites instead of wolfing it all down at once and the hunger in her stomach seemed to subside a little, she tried to take a bite out of some of the vegetables on her plate but they tasted like sawdust so she spat them out and reached for another helping of meat.

When dinner was done people started heading to their rooms, leaving Julieta, agustin, and their daughters to clean up dinner tonight, Luisa was reaching up to put some plates away when things suddenly got blurry in front of her, an intense headache gripped her and didn't leave this time, getting worse by the second instead, she collpased to the ground with her hands on either side of her head and cried out in pain, the plates she was holding fell and shattered on the floor and her mama rushed to her side

"What's wrong mija!?"

Luisa let out another groan of pain in response, her skin felt like it was being stretched and all of her muscles felt strained, threatening to tear at any moment. Her mama stuffed some food in her mouth but she spat it out, unable to chew from the intense pain in her mouth, then she smelled something that gave her a moment of lucidity, her eyes snapped open and quickly found the source, a cut on Mirabels arm with blood seeping from it, as Luisa watched and smelled the blood she felt the urges in her stomach grow, she weakly reached for Miras arm against her own will and growled when she recoiled away, she was losing control of herself with each passing second, she needed to get out of here before she did something she would regret.

She managed to get to her feet and pulled out of her worried familys grasp, Pepas side of the family had joined them, summoned by the commotion, Luisa looked at the people watching her and her head buzzed with pain, everything sounded a little fuzzy and it hurt, her ears could hear so much, too much, it overwhelmed her, her nose picked up a thousand different scents along with the prominent stench of blood, her breath came in sharp heavy pants, and before anyone could stop her she bolted out of casita and into the dark night.