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Following the release of TADC episode 5, I have made a liiiiittle change to my AU.✨🐸🤝🐰✨
#do NOT tag as ship please!!#I'm considering making Ribbit like 17 or something in my AU so yes PLEASE DO NOT tag this as ship seriously--#tadc episode 5#tadc episode 5 spoilers#the amazing digital circus#long post#Didn't realize just how much I altered Jax's colors until I had to draw the original--#Also I still don't like Jax- but I had to give him Ribbit in my AU#It makes me sad to know he suffered such a loss. At least in my AU he wont have that pain.
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growth // decay
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#sukuna#ryoumen sukuna#itafushikugi#take them take them take them im DONE#i started this 3 WEEKS AGO kms curse u job.....curse u commute......#whatever its fine bc look mom i can still draw omg i can still draw and i dont hate it!!!!!#this was th first actual insp that had hit since like. march. and i was like omg yippee finally i can not want to die while doing my hobby#regardless of th 3 week timeline (atrocious) im soosososo pleased w these#nobara in particular i am especially proud of i tried smth new with her hair and the render and i ws like!!!! :D!!!!!!#altho i kinda ended up shooting myself in th foot bc of it when it came time to move onto itfs#bc by then a whole week had passed and id forgotten how i did it so i was worried abt style consistency#esp when megumi's colour palette said it wanted to be blue all of a sudden#but i decided hey whatever ill lean in2 primaries itll b fine and fun (it was in fact not so fine and fun i suffered the whole time)#nobara looks GREAT megumi looks great in lowercase bc tht hood made me want to die#yuuji...#kinda worried abt yuuji bc of sukuna it looks pretty busy over there on the left but whatever man ive been working on this fr too long#i dont dislike it at all but i definitely think hes the weakest of th series dsgkjsfdj rip i redid his pose like 4 times#whatever we persist!!! enjoy hina draws the first years with plants and weird eye horror episode 352347#hopefully this is a sufficient offering after my month+ hiatus gomen smile
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red crowned crane grian
#i started this one so long ago. months#i fully intended for it to be line and color#i do not know what happened but i got like possessed or something to draw a full background#so i ended up spending far too long on it and going through many stages of hate love pain joy and suffering#the thing i was caught up on the most was the water#it still doesn't look right but shhhhhh im not dealing with it any longer#it looks fine enough as is#my favorite part was adding the clouds#oh god that was so fun!!! the sky was feeling kinda bland then i added the clouds#they were so pleasant to do#also you cant really see it well but im very happy with the fish#it is a perch specifically#fish <3#overall im quite happy with this despite the ups and downs#it feels calm#grian#grian fanart#hermitcraft#raff's art
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new guy alert!! she's a lindwyrm who pilots an old suit of armour and has caused many legends of evil ghost knights staggering down the road at night. in reality she's not a ghost, she's a nasty little man who wants to sell you illicit substances and talk about her insane and sordid past
#my art#oc#caracles#dragon#knight#hating drawing hard sculptured surfaces and then designing a character in intricate armour just so I can feel something#also um hello sorry for posting no art and generally being inactive i've been slow roasting in my own head and suffering from art block#i have 100000 wips and nothing to show for it.....i hope i can shake my disease by the time art fight rolls around#in like a week. haha. oh no i'm in danger#anyway i saw kim deal last week and kristin hersh a month ago and long story short i loooooooooove you old women rock stars.......#more of them in the world please and thank you....they both so cool.....dreamy sigh#ALSO i'll make my yearly official art fight post later i've simply been too busy to really think about it until now#but obviously i'm doing it this year i'm gonna do more attacks than ever before#(DOUBT) but also perhaps...?
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I hope riot drops arcane 2, the longer, not cut version of arcane. All deleted scenes, the originals of shortened scenes, extra episodes if need be. It's such an incredible world and it sucks they had to cut things down, especially since this may be the last we ever see of these characters.
#thoughts#arcane#caitvi#jayvik#timebomb#like i get publishing the originals would've been expensive#every second costs money#but people would pay?#Its a shame something so incredible would have to suffer from pacing issues just because they have time quotas#like i do not care#2 hour long arcane episodes sound like heaven#sorry
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Arthur having a middle age crisis, and Merlin is just Merlin
I had a vision


#Arthur isn't middle aged though#he's probably a jock experimenting with his style#and Merlin thought that he looks silly and a bit out of place#leon the long suffering#he works for uther and looks after his friend like his big brother#Mordred knows everyone and everything#nobody knows how but it's quite helpful#bbc merlin#merlin#merthur#merthur au#arthur pendragon#merlin emrys#mordred#sir leon#so basically i just wanted to draw these emo guys lets be honest
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white boy suffering in Asia's heat....
#gary roach sanderson#cod roach#cod#roach call of duty#i suffer so he has to suffers too#color the tan gingerly because cleary i can't color!!!#How long has it been since I left this place...
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Sword Spirit AU - Xiu Ya (pt.1)
Hello hello! This is going to be a very very casual AU with the first half being dedicated to Xiu Ya(jiuyuan) and the other Xin Mo(bingyuan), so sit tight, relax, and maybe put on some Soul Eater in the background, because this is basically it.
This post is going to be VERY LONG, so sorry in advance ^^;;
It's finally time for Shen Jiu to go to Wan Jian Peak and get his spiritual sword, one of the final steps for his Shizun to finally, oficially, name him Head Disciple, even if the rest of Qing Jing will most likely fight Shizun in her decision.
It would be no surprise, ever since SJ stepped foot there, rumors have been spreading about him, usually about how he only got in so late due to Yue Qi's influence, or how he paid his way in as a young master (as if the rest of the disciples hadn't done exactly that) and thinks he's better than everyone, or how he never fights fair and uses underhanded methods during spars. All rumors don't hold a drop of truth in them of course, but SJ has better things to do than trying to clean his image to a bunch of spoiled brats.
It's not like any of them would believe him, anyways.
In all honesty, he'd rather not be Head Disciple at all, but this is the best way at getting to a secure enough spot that he won't have to worry as much about his safety, even if he will be forced to look after a bunch of children he couldn't care less about. Anyways, SJ's only hope now for something to go marginally right his way is for him to get a good sword.
He gets to the sword wall and, as luck would have it, he feels a pull, calling him to a beautiful sword: elegant, refined and everything SJ desperately hopes he can be.
SJ carefully pulls the sword out of the wall and immediatelly he can feel a connection forming, his slugish qi rushing into the blade and in exchange, a flash of bright, almost refreshing qi runs through him. For a moment his muscles relax as he feels the sword gently humming in his hand.
He walks away from the wall, a few of the other disciples that also had come to retrieve their spiritual sword already holding their own blades, but the only person that SJ cares to show his own sword stands a bit further away. His ever aloof Shizun and... Yue Qi, who was not invited, but decided to come anyways. Great.
YQ wastes no time in praising his sword and how it's a perfect fit for 'Xiao-Jiu' (which only earns him a nasty side-eye), but SJ controls his urge to bite the other boy and focuses on his Shizun. She merely send the sword a glance, unimpressed, and instead says "Disciple Shen has now a spiritual blade of his own. He will get to know his blade, which will aid him with his... cultivation problems, but also raise his cultivation to new heights."
SJ grinds his teeth, not wanting to be reminded about his shitty cultivation, but thankfully, Shizun doesn't dwell on the topic. "When Disciple Shen fully becomes one with his sword, the blade will reward him and show it's true self. It is only then that Disciple Shen will become a truly honorable cultivator."
True... Self? With a subtle glance, SJ confirms even YQ looks a bit surprised, apparently also never haven heard about a swords 'true self', but Shizun doesn't ellaborate any further on it, instead moving on as if she hadn't said anything special, and turning to head back to Qing Jing, uncaring if any other disciples weren't done getting their swords yet.
She unsheathes her own spiritual sword, intending on letting her disciples walk all the way back, but before setting off, she turns towards SJ. "Disciple Shen, the name of your sword."
SJ huffs but brings his sword closer, and reads the engraving on the base of the blade. "...Xiu Ya."
Just as SJ finishes reading the name out loud, the sword starts violently vibrating, catching SJ and his Shizun off guard, and it flings itself off of SJ's hands, flying a short distance before it stabbed the ground.
SJ's hands are left hanging in the air where he once held the sword, frozen stiff in his shock. It certainly doesn't help that is Shizun, who is never phased and now looks visibly shocked, mutters to herself: "I... didn't know a sword could do that."
.........Great.
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A week after the whole... situation on Wan Jian, SJ is now convinced his spiritual sword hates him.
It just... doesn't do anything he wants it to do! If his Shizun orders him to spar with another disciple with it, Xiu Ya could randomly just fling itself out of his hand, or physically pull him in another direction when he is speaking with another disciple, and no matter how Shizun instructs him to send his qi to the blade, to 'connect' with it, Xiu Ya refuses to cooperate, one day even straight up denying his qi.
Unbeknownst to SJ, his sword is no longer a regular spiritual blade, and actually a host for a recently deceased Shen Yuan, who woke up from his sleep to his new owner pulling him out of the wall and promptly panicked when he heard his name be declared Xiu Ya, which could only mean his new owner was none other than the scum villain himself, SQQ.
It was then and there that SY decided it would be now his life's mission to stop any evil wrongdoings a teenage SQQ must get up to. (It translated to him flinging himself out of SJ's hand any time he felt himself getting too close to another disciple's skin, or vibrating angrily when SJ started to insult someone.)
SJ takes Xiu Ya to his Shizun, and even to Wan Jian's Peak Lord, to check if there's something wrong with his sword, or if he had done soemthing wrong, but both reassure him that the sword is fine, and it must be testing him, urging him to 'clear his heart' to better connect with it.
SJ, feeling like his chance at being Head Disciple is slipping through his fingers the longer he can't get a hold of his own sword, it's supposed to obey him, tends more often than not to... argue with it. It, of course, only creates more rumours about him and his 'cursed sword', but he doesn't have time for this, and he won't let a piece of metal ruin his chances at rising up the ranks.
Everything starts to change one fateful day where everything just seems to go wrong all at once for SJ: His Shizun goes away in a three-day long mission, which leaves him the responsability to look after the peak, and none of the other disciples are willing to make it easy for him, constantly getting in his way, purposefully waisting his time and straight up insulting him to his face.
Yue Qi even tries to grace SJ with his presence, but it takes him no longer than 5 minutes before he manages to say the wrong thing, and it takes even less for it to snowball into SJ expelling him from the peak unless the whole Sect is set on fire. It gets so bad even SY, usually happy to mostly daydream where he sits sheathed at SJ's waist, takes note of it, and gets a bit concerned for the boy.
SY already notices SJ's spiritual veins where all sorts of messed up, but it only becomes relevant when he notices his qi heading straight towards a qi deviation, and no matter how SY tries to vibrate and wiggle, it only seems to upset SJ even further and by the end of the day, as SY suspected, SJ hides away at the bamboo house and falls to the floor, gasping through a qi deviation.
He'd usually just tough his qi deviations out, or pass them at the Warm Red Pavillion, but now he isn't even afforded the mercy of being to suffer alone, as some disciple might come looking for his 'help', and he'd be damned if someone snitched on him to Shizun for not doing his duty as (unnoficial) Head Disciple.
SY, as much as he doesn't really like SJ, for once understands SJ's constant state of frustration when the moment the Peak Lord leaves, his peers treat him like this, and no matter how shitty SJ is- or, rather, may become in the future, SY can't stand being idle as he watches the boy shaking on the floor, gasping in pain.
It's a bit awkward but SY manages to make himself float over towards SJ's trembling body, trying his best to project his own energy outward and reach towards SJ. It's there for only a second, but SY manages to feel a similar connection to when SJ first picked him up, and SY can feel, in a weird flash, the mix of emotions swirling in SJ's soul: his anger, his frustration, but most importantly his deeply rooted sadness, and fear.
It's not really an explanation for why SJ acts the way he does, but SY can understand when a child lashes out in fear when that's all they know. He reaches into SJ's qi, carefully patting it down and soothing it until SJ finally stops trembling and slumps onto the ground, knocked out.
Maybe... Maybe Shen Yuan was in the wrong, and Shen Jiu deserves a second chance.
#wow that was a lot#so sorry#there will be more to come#i like making sj suffer just a little bit#for spice#komm's sword spirit au#svsss#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#shen jiu#jiuyuan#scumcum#svsss au#drabble#long post#very long post#this took way longer than I thought#specially that last drawing
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a new star
#i been thinkin about the asteroid again#i think about the asteroid a lot more than i think is normal#like just the complete randomness of it and how everything changed in literally the blink of an eye#like the dinoss rules the fucking earth and probably still would if space had just been a little bit different#how long did it take the asteroid to reach us#at what point was the impact inevitable#like these sound like scientific answers but i need you to know these are questions that my soul wants answered in poetry#yes the math is cool but can i talk about what tragedy looks like melted into the earth#how power and pain and mourning but also change and new life and a future were embedded in a layer of iridum that spread around the planet#can we talk about how looking at the layers of the earth is the most physical type of time travel there is#can i please talk about that layer of pain#can i mourn when i see it#or am i just a weird kid crying when i look at rocks#ALSO. was parasaurolophus alive when the asteroid hit? i dont think so#but it's too late#yall get to suffer with me#dinosaurs
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CAPTAIN AMERICA: CIVIL WAR (2016)
#mcu#marvel#civil war#tony stark#steve rogers#natasha romanoff#stony#natasha the long suffering#gifs#otp: i love you it’s ruining my life#mcuedit#marveledit#tonystarkedit#steverogersedit#stonyedit#useramys12#mcufam#toxicgaysource#userotp#userthing#chris evans#robert downey jr#there's so much here...#this doesn't really come through in the gifs but i love how quick steve and tony are with their respective observations#they don't even think before saying it that's how well they know each other#and then how they respond to those observations#tony who makes a sarcastic comment and steve who smiles fondly and admits that he's right#love when people love each other so much but are also completely incompatible
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time to rest
#kirby and the forgotten land spoilers#fecto elfilis#chaos elfilis#kirby fanart#morpho knight#my art#fecto elfilis/chaos elfilis whatever is kinda sad to me tbh#so angry for so long#With no way of escaping because they literally cannot fathom being anything other than filled with rage#I like to think that they finally realised their pain and that suffering became a sliver of compassion#which let them finally reconcile with elfilin#Morpho knight you will never be a villain to me#soul eater my ass I think you are proof death is kind#I also made this so that there is an actually good elfilis artwork in my gallery LOL
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Arthur looking out his bedroom window , yearningly: sometimes I wonder if you crave my presence the way I crave your's when you're not around. Do chase every single shadow the way I do in hopes it would be yours? Do you shout my name like I do in hopes that the wind may carry my voice to know that I want you found?
Leon looking at Arthur with bags under his eyes: My Lord, please. Merlin's just gone picking herbs, he'll be back in an hour. We have a meeting to attend , Sire-
Arthur stomping his foot on the ground: I WANT MY MERLIN!!!
#merthur#bbc merlin#merlin x arthur#gay shit#Arthur: literally everytime Merlin leaves his side#leon the long suffering#Leon and his daily dose of Merthur shit#Does he get paid enough for this? i don't think so....
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"Got you something…!"
#myart#hades 2#hades icarus#long time no post!!#i have been doing con prep (if everyone hasn't seen my suffering on bsky LOL)#missed doing illust work so my inner demons said to turn this into a print so i can do illust work so here we are#anyway he is the pookiest i love him so much i will be so mad if he does not get a romance route LET ME SMOOCH SGG
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Y'all ever think about how insane it would be when Merlin and Leon had to explain to the group about random shit in the modern era? Like:
Lancelot: How do they make clothes so soft in this time?
Merlin, sipping tea not looking up from his newspaper: Plastic
Arthur: I would have thought you would have stopped making up words some time in the last 1500 years.
Merlin quirks eyebrow and looks toward Leon
Leon, already sighing, headache not having gone away since the lot of them rose from the dead: Ok so for this to make any sense you have to know about dinosaurs...
#bbc merlin#merlin#Everyone is back cause I say so!!!#immortal merlin#immortal leon#for the ceo of Merleon this is a merleon post#bbc lancelot#bbc arthur#So I did look it up cause I had randomly heard in passing plastic is made from oil which is made from dinosaurs#It turns out plastic is made from sea creatures that came before dinosaurs#And now I'm losing my mind#Imagine you die#And then theres like 6 extinction events#And some fucking mammal pulls your corpse from the sea to make mother fucking shein cloths#I would haunt us too#No wonder the world has gone to shit#I'd be doing more than making the atmosphere unlivable#But this is a Merlin post#So anyway#leon the long suffering#merlin incorrect quotes
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back to long suffering besties
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#after that leon had given his old iphone to merlin#merlin is not complaining#merls in wooly socks and soft sweater>#leon is working/living in the city(unlike some people) and now and then visits merlin#i'm not even sure what merl would do for a living#conjuring money out of air and frauding? who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#bbc merlin#merlin bbc#merlin#merlin emrys#sir leon#the long suffering besties#also i learned that tumblr changes image colour because of some weird compression?#so if colors looks bleak it's not on me#my art
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Jealousy, Jealousy
#friend jealousy is a BITCH and i think kei would definitely suffer from it#he made one (1) friend in elementary school and decided it was enough for one lifetime#but now theyre in HS and tadashi is a lot more out of his shell than he previously was and oh look :) now hes making more friends#i just KNOW it eats kei up. watching his best friend laugh with other people.#i think this would be the first time too which is why its a particularly big blow like#for so long its been him and tadashi that this was never a concern#so now he doesnt know how to manage this ugly emotion#definitely see him get snappier with hinata and kageyana#goes unnoticed tho because he usually tends to be an ass to them anyway#Man.#SIGH.#this came to me in a vision and i made myself upset so LOL. Releases this to the wild yaay…#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#tsukishima kei#yamaguchi tadashi#queerplatonic if you understand the workd#tsukkiyama#hq#lots to the read in the tags lol sorry…
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