#I really hate my own language
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'I hate it here'
A Spaniard
#Literally had this problem coming out to my mum this week LMAO#I really hate my own language#why does everything have to have a gender#door femenine#floor masculine#plant femenine#fan masculine#fuck me sideways#it's so hard to talk about myself in Spanish I hate it#nonbinary#enby#no binario
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love immediately going OMG that's my boyfriend!! HE'S SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE!!! I JUST WANNA CUP HIS FACE AND KISS HIM ALL OVER!! 🥺🥰 and then he'll be holding a rifle ready to murder someone
#self ship#🧡🗺️#mine#temple of the sun and lake of sharks have some really lovely and adorable tintins! but I just hate having to watch through the horrendous-#-english dubs everytime I wanna get screenshots! 😭😭😭#I OWN THEM ON DVD IN MY LANGUAGE BUT I CAN'T PLAY DVDS ON MY COMPUTER...#(thank you sm to my friend nerdie for having been willing to acquire a digital copy of temple of the sun for me though!!! 🥺)
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this sucks lol
#this reminds me of how at work#literally everything we do has to be expressed and justified in the language of career readiness#it's like we've all agreed there is nothing more important to a person's life and no purpose for education beyond career readiness#it drives me insane#because it's clearly so reactive and driven by anxiety rather than conviction#but to see it starting literally in infant care just makes me feel sick!!! i hate it!!!!#i am never going to talk to my child about career readiness lol. never ever ever. this i resolve#my whole MO as a parent will be to encourage his curiosity and interest in the world around him#and encourage him to follow his interests - whatever they are - wherever they lead him#i hope he enjoys learning and loves things and has real interests that are just his own#also i think what's even more nuts to me is like#we work with a large first gen student population and for many of them financial security and upward economic mobility for their families#is really important!#so i can understand some of the career readiness emphasis even if i think we do people a disservice to act like that's the only thing#that motivates them#but kids who can afford goddard school prices...#they are not going to struggle financially#they are going to have a very deep safety net#so the economic anxiety doesn’t even make sense
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All the comments here are talking ab "guys chill it's obviously a touristy area it's fine" oh you guys do not actually see foreign countries as Real Countries with Real People living there do you.
#not italian but i HATE when i sit in a cafe in my own hometown and have to hear ''sorry i don't speak croatian'' um? you work here.#in an uslužna djelatnost. and you can't speak the language?#also remember that even among the young population italians don't really Know foreign languages and yes english included#lingua franca it may be but the italians simply do not care.
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isnt it crazy that someone can make a completely legal app for ios but if apple doesn't want it in its app store because of lol lmao reasons you have to then go through a gazillion loops just to get this one app and also millions of people buy apple's products because they don't see the problem with an operating system that fully controls what you can or can't have on your device and also has several other major problems. insane
#m#like ive been taking my 3ds to english classes because the kids find it more fun than regular ol' excerises#and also watching movies gets stale pretty fast#but out of the 9 games i own only three let me change the language to english#because pokemon and apparently professor layton too thought it was a very smart idea to have region-locked games 🤪#but getting a ds emulator on ios is soooooooo goddamn dififcult. cant just download a zip file you have to hack your iPad or smth#cant download music either you have to download itunes and put your music files on iTunes and then sync your iPad to itunes#but also it makes a backup copy everytime even though i don't want one and there's no way to turn that off#and also cant transfer files to your ipad you have to do it through a third party app and they all have really small storage limits#and another gazillion issues that windows or even android don't have 🧨💣🧨🧨💣🧨💣🧨💣🧨💣🧨💣#hate this thang. i cant believe people told me it was worth spending 600€ on this than buying another cheap ass drawing tablet
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Life is so cruel because Kino no Tabi is so good but I can’t even recommend the books to anyone because only the first volume was ever translated and it’s been out of print for presumably over a decade. Plus part of what makes it so good are untranslatable (into English) qualities of the Japanese language such as the general avoidance of gendering Kino. What other book has a motorcycle get into an argument with a dog
#apparently the theory is that the jp publishers got mad that the English publishers changed the chapter order#which tbh I understand I really do#honestly I hate it when kino’s backstory is presented first because it doesn’t allow you to form your own opinions on them beforehand#kino no Tabi#kino’s journey#taking matters into my own hands and translating it myself to put online for all to read#I mean hey that’s what happened with no. 6 right#I still can’t believe that one never got licensed in English#like it definitely had the popularity back when the anime came out#and the manga is fully translated#why not the novels#I still need to read them though that’s gonna be my summer project#kino no Tabi rewired my brain I’ve never felt so capable of reading in Japanese before#I mean sometimes it still kicks my ass but in general I’m having a reasonable time with it language wise
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Sometimes i feel so fucked because i seriously don't really belong anywhere and it's just. Wow
#.mimiming ❜#the partition happened when my grandparents were little#my parents at least had the state right? where they grew up? surrounded by family they love#it's home#even my brother was born in my father's hometown#and he's.. just so at home there too#i was born at this city my parents moved to so they could find a job#i hate my hometown but i really dont#i dont know how to talk to the people there#i dont even know my own fucking language#my uncle aunt grandmother feel like such fucking strangers and whenever i go there#it's just so fucking clear i dont belong#and here either#born and raised here but i cant speak the language well#and im not from here either#i dont really have roots or anything#it just fucks me up sometimes ig
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Could have done without seeing that 72k notes post that's Americans making jokes about British people complaining about how mocking our dialects and food is classist. Especially since it's pretty disingenuous to act like this is somehow a valid reaction to the few arseholes who make jokes/ comments about school shootings.
That can be bad and terrible, and is, but you don't have to make British working class leftists (trying to tell you to stop adding fuel to the fire here in our country) out to be whiny little dicks.
I think working class British and American people have a lot more in common than we'd like to think, but this fucking sucks.
#i really hate that shit#cause my language and dialect has been quashed for decades#the food we make isn't bland#acting like British means English white man bowler hat tea drinking imperialist beans on toast wotcha chewsday innit#fuck off#plus the example the post gave was really fuckin pointless and pitted Americans as if they accept any comments about their own habits#hmm.#generalisations fucking suck babe#anyway this us my blog and i like to do the ranting here#thank you for your time#have a nice day etc etc#stop laughing at us please. it's terrifying here. i want sympathy
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#dont call anyone im safe im fine im just venting. tw for suicide/self harm/kind of intense language. ideally no ones reading this tho#bro i cant keep living like this#i dread waking up every day so much that i dread even falling asleep#i got insomnia medication in my system and my brain is still like nope absolutely not#i cant keep up at my job even when i am rested enough#i get headaches every other day#my instant mental reaction in the face of stress is to hurt myself (i have not)#like fuck. i work for the disability department of an insurance company#i know for a fact that (probably) every contract stipulates we wont cover disabilities as a result of self inflicted injuries#which is supposed to prevent ppl from taking advantage of the system or whatever#and im always like if someone goes to the lengths of actively injuring themselves to the point of disability#in the name of 'getting out of work'#that person is not 'taking advantage of the system' THAT PERSON IS FUCKING MENTALLY ILL#AND I WOULD KNOW BC I AM ONE OF THOSE PPL#do not come for me on some shit about wanting to disable yourself being morally questionable i cant be concerned abt that rn#i gotta focus on the fact that i hate my life so much id rather break my own right hand than continue it#its an improvement from the active suicidal ideation but its still a symptom of the passive ideation#fucking hell. im too self aware so i absolutely feel like im faking it or making shit up so i can be lazy and not work and whatever#but FUCKING CHRIST theres no way. if i had a choice i wouldnt let myself feel like this.#i just got to a point where i can live alone and support myself. i was so happy and so proud of myself. I don't want to lose that#but god every phone call i have to make for work makes me want to hurt myself. every early morning (and there arent many!!! i mostly work#from home!!!) makes me wish i was dead. i have to sleep for hours after work more often than not. i cant really maintain my living space#theres fucking. mold and discoloration and shit on a bunch of my clothes and some of my bags and shit!!#cause i cant fucking keep my room clean and my basement apartment got fucking humid over the summer and so much moisture got trapped#i constantly have dirty dishes getting moldy before i get to them#i just dont have the fucking energy. i want to take better care of my space. i want to be more social. i just want to go to sleep without#fucking dreading waking up. i wanna go a full week without a headache. i want my stress response to be something other than the intense and#overwhelming desire to cut myself. if i start again i dont know if ill be able to stop and i know i wont be able to keep it to my arms/legs/#easily hidden parts of my body. last breakdown i escalated to my face and i know ill pick up from there.#fuck
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i've never felt as victimised as when i tried to place a pick-up order at chipotle and they were like uhmmm no cos my card wasn't american-registered, so i had to go to chipotle and place my order there and then, using my words
#i am very much joking tbc ghjgfkjgf#not about my hatred for placing any sort of ''build your own'' order in a language that isn't my native one in a face to face setting#cos i really do hate that shit. can't get my mouth to work as quickly as my brain does#but about it being a genuine point of annoyance/frustration. it was not. more like a moment of “oh the horror......” and then okay fine
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i've tried everything, different ways, different times, different places. i just can't seem to find my passion for writing back.
#writers block my ass this shit has been going on for years#you love going around telling people that you write when in truth you haven't written anything in ages#i don't even consider myself a writer anymore because it feels wrong to call it that#everything i put out is influenced by something. ifeel like i can never truly be original#a few shitty pieces i wrote at the peak of a fixation don't really count because i've abandoned them too#yes i've written them but im so afraid to associate them with my name#how does one hate what they create so much#yet still want to create#when will it be satisfying?#when will i be like yeah. i like this. i made this. this is mine.#i dont think the problem is language either like sure it can be improved but i can't even write in my own language?#i used to love writing in turkish and peopel would praise me for my stories but looking back at it even that wasn't original#it was never mine#it was always about something that affected me#this is sad its just sad.#writing
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ugh cleaning up my emails---
god i hate insurance companies
they really really really really really are just fucking gamblers playing in their own fucking casinos
#in arguments with them at work#and now at home#apparently my muscular-skeletal issues signify an immunodeficiency risk profile hence i am personally uninsurable#which is true it is all immune system disorder shit but like#you don't get to pick and choose like that when you're basically providing a safety net that governments won't#the other lot is a heated fucking argument about liability carveouts when it's 99% of what we do at work and i'm like what is the point#in this product if every thing we do requires an exception DIC policy like fffffffffffffffffffffffffffff#they also all have their own really weird language and every single broker is a panic-stricken weirdo that i can tip into spirals so easy#so i both love and hate to bait#safety nets should come from government surely
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one of those fifty things was a classist af post about how fanfic writers can't actually write for shit, yes all of them apparently bc they aren't educated in proper literary devices or whatever.
are you fucking hearing yourself
#idk man but seeing that after writing fic for 11 years in a language that's not my native one & evolving ON MY ABSOLUTE OWN and then-#-going as far as to study literature now that i have the chance & finally gain enough confidence in my skills to start working on-#-my own original work after years of daydreaming about it just to read THAT from a posh spoiled bitch really fuckin' felt like a kick to the#-balls that i do not possess#like fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU#among other things like being fully purposefully deadnamed AGAIN today after yesterday's family fiasco#and getting swamped by fifty fuckin academic tasks left and right#AND a constant bombardment of imagss of mulilated children in posts with notes full of zionists excusing said massacre#and then THIS fuckin post abt fic writers or whatever#i cant take it seriously im at my fuckin limit but Unironically I'm about to start crying out of sheer anger and fury#i dont like feeling so angry. i hate it and it makes me feel like a monster but i cant DO this shit anymore#it's only Tuesday and i have less than 1% drive left for the week what the fuck#tw vent#maybe delete later idk
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no, no, it's NOT passing the torch guys.
STOP I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT. RAFA IS NOT PASSING THE TORCH TO ANYBODY, RAFAS AMAZING THE WAY HE IS!! IDC I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IN ALL THIS. Rafael Nadal is not passing the torch. I'm a bitch. I know. I'm being so pissy about it. I know!!!
But how will I ever move on from Novak/Rafa/Roger's era?? Idk, maybe it's just me, but idk how people move on from the big 3 era so fast now that the new era is starting?? Like?? TEACH ME. I feel like such a bitch about it.
I'm happy for Carlitos, I really, genuinely am. I cried for him, I cheered for him and I really like him and i am so so proud of him. But I'm not ready for his era to start yet. In fact, in all of my honesty and truth revealed, I don't want it to start so fast.
I wish the Big 3 era will stay forever and never end. So why and how, are people moving on so fast? Do they want to see it end before they even end it?? all these videos of passing the torch and all this new era shit. Can't we appreciate Novak and Rafa right now while they are still here and still playing? Soon enough, in a blink of an eye, they'll be gone.
They'll be retired and I thought that people would appreciate them more in their last moments. I know they won't retire this time around, though Rafa will next year and I'm still so upset, and Novak will probably retire in like..5 years. Tops. And Andy too.
And soon all the new gen will take over, I'll be fricking 20+ then, and I won't see that familiar face I always see in my childhood anymore. I won't hear about Rafa's latest injuries, and his grunts, and his little quirks that the media love to point out, I won't hear about another Novak drama of breaking rackets, I won't hear about Novak winning everything anymore and pissing everybody off.
I won't hear the Novak fans and Rafa fans fighting anymore, about the goat debates etc. I'm going to miss the fedal posts that are still around despite the fact that there is only one left still playing.
I don't want it to end.
So how are the people I see on Instagram and everything, how are they so excited for this new era to take over and how are they so excited for Rafa and Novak's (and Roger's) reign to end?
IM- UGH.
(I'm just ranting but that's what Tumblr is for okay, apologies)
#ANYWAYS THIS IS NOT. LIKE. A HATE OR ANYTHING!!#im just in my feels rn i feel okay when theres rafa and carlos in a same frame. just not when its a comparison post.#if its appreciation for the both of them im really. its totally okay#wdym passing the torch?#im petty and im such a what do u call that...THAT WORD IDK ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. ANYWAYS#rafa is not passing the torch and it'll never happen. okay maybe it will but not NOW.#not when rafa is out because he is INJURED and not because of his own choice.#im trying my best to be positive about everything. but im so DONE.#stop. comparing. rafa. and. carlitos.#seriously i get why. theyre both spanish. alright and they have a lot of..similarities. with the age and the thing okay i get it#but carlitos is carlitos. rafa is rafa. rafas not retired yet. AND IM- JUST?? STOP I- UGDBSGDM😭#im going to cry now goodbye#someone tell me im not the only one feeling like this#yes im overthinking it but like..still‼️#im just sad guys and im known to be very dramatic so just..yes.#tennis#rafael nadal#roger federer#novak djokovic#carlos alcaraz#big 3#fedal
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Any tips on how to deal with learning multiple languages and forgetfulness? Like M’s really wants to learn as many languages as he can, but is afraid of ending up forgetting some of them in the way, he knows that a lot of people have this fear
Forgetting a language is, as you said, a very common fear indeed. I’m actually surprised that, given that, is not more talked about or discussed. There are many tips, blogs, and YouTube channels dedicated to learning a language, but very little on how to maintain it.
To be honest with you, this is also one of my fear. Languages in general, and knowing quite a few of them (compared to what is the norm in my country) was always important to me. And so I spend a lot of time trying to find the perfect solution to never forgetting my languages, finding very little help from others.
Somewhere along the way, I found that the only way *I* could prevent this from happening *to me*, was by using each language every day. The easiest way to forget a language is to never or almost never using it, so one of the best thing you could do is actually use the language as much as you can.
However, as I soon found out, this is really hard, especially with a lot of languages. You have to keep track of all of them, plus actually manage to get all of them into your daily routine and do it in an organized way. And you have to do all of that without using one more than the other, too. It’s, putting it easily, messy, disorganized, and frustrating. But, hard does not mean impossible. And so i made a few rules for myself:
Include each language in your routine.
I find it is easier to include them in a routine you already have, and not making a new one around the languages you want to maintain.
So, the first step to maintaining a language would be to write down your routine. Everything that you do, including getting up, and brushing your teeth. Write down as well all your hobbies and things you do for fun in your free time. Do you read? use tumblr? watch tv or series? Do you do crochet or sew plushies? write it all down. If each day has a different routine, write the different routine for each day.
Then, identify which activity or hobby requires or uses languages. Most of them do, i bet, even if you don’t think so at first. For example, when i first started doing this, i was still in high school and having physical education/ gym class. We mostly just ran and ran. Not much to do with language, right? Except that after thinking about it a little, i realized i always mentally counted my steps as i ran, or started making a mental list of all the things i needed to do later. That involves language, since you have to resort to choosing a language to do all that thinking on. In my case, it was Spanish, my mother tongue.
And here is where the 3rd step comes in: Change the language you use in each activity. For example, following my example with my gym class, I identified an activity that -in my case- required a language: counting and planning my routine for that day while running. The next step to follow would be identifying the language you use the most when doing said activity and change it. In my case, as i said, it was my mother tongue, spanish. I changed the counting part to French, because i wanted to memorize better the numbers, and the planning to Portuguese.
Do this for as many activities as you think you need. And as i said before, it is better -or maybe just easier- to change the language of an activity that you already do, than adding a new activity to your routine. This will help you actually remember that you have to do said activity and to keep consistency with both the activity and the language changing. It will also help you keep organized and not overuse one language over the others
If you need help visualizing this, some activities I have changed the language i do them in are: reading books, watching films and series, researching and reading something for school, talking to friends, thinking, counting, reading and watching tutorials for sewing or crochet, going to conferences, writing in my journal, watching videos in youtube, daydreaming, using the configuration section of several apps, doing quick searches on google, swearing, keeping track of my hearing loss, learning new skills, writing random things down, singing, looking up a definition of a word regardless of its language, talking aloud to myself, adding little notes on my drawings, planning my routine, going to class, labelling things at home, making lists for shopping, talking to my pets etc
Include new little doable ways to use the language you want to learn/remember.
Ok, i know i said it was easier to just change the language of an activity that you already do than adding another one to your routine. I still stand for it, especially if you have problems remembering things. But it is not bad considering adding a few small activities or habits. For example, you can start counting the steps you take in a pair of stairs or when walking, or counting the trees you go by when on the bus. You can start singing when making breakfast, and pay attention to the lyrics, or you can start watching/reading the news while you have breakfast. You can start journaling or writing in your drawings, you can join new apps or start playing video games. You can start a new blog or learn to sew, or making lists or whatever.
My only rule for this is to start little by little and stick to doable activities. If you try to add many things to your routine AND change the language you do them in, it’s very likely you will end up overwhelmed and give up. Start low, changing things little by little. Once a thing has become part of your daily routine, add another one.
Some things I’ve added to my routine, for example, have been going to conferences and talks related to my university career (linguistics), as well as assisting to classes and workshops that were given by visiting professors from afar. They were given in either English, portuguese or uruguayan sign language. They are not, of course, part of my daily routine, but i keep an eye on when they are making a new one, and make sure to always go.
I’ve also made sure to make friends and keep in touch with most of my university’s exchange students, and we talk in their native language, which makes up for perfect practice. I also always make a point of going to any Deaf event or activity that is free, as well as making as many Deaf friends as i can. However, there is no need to jump right all in and go join a local language group or start taking university classes in your target language in day one. I've over a decade of experience in this and have already made my way up.
Designate days and times for each language.
Learning each language whenever you feel like it will create more trouble for you, make the forgetting worse, and make you feel overwhelmed and frustrated. A way to counter this is via a good structural learning routine. You can designate specific days to languages even if you don’t take language classes and even if you use all the languages each day.
What designating a day to a language means is just basically that, in that day, you will focus more in that language. Mondays are Sundays are for studying French, and Tuesday and Thursday for learning English grammar, etc, for example. You can even adapt this given your routine: for example, in my case Monday, Wednesday and Saturday are uruguayan sign language days, because my sign language classes are Mondays and Wednesday, and Saturdays are when most Deaf events take place.
Assigning times will help you even if you struggle at keeping routines, too. It’s like assigning days, but instead of whole days, you make it times of the day. Instead of using or learning a language during the entire day, you can do it only in the morning, and in the afternoon you can switch to another language. All you have to do is keep that order as much as you can without switching them up. This will help keep the languages more separated in your mind and help you not mix their grammars and rules and pronunciation etc
Try avoiding learning languages that are too similar at the same time.
You can, of course, do just that, but it will probably cause much more trouble for you than learning several languages at the same time already does. If you do take up two or more languages that are too similar, try taking the second language when you already know some of the others. For example, i did study portuguese and french together, but i was already an A2 level in portuguese when i took up french. And while i was studying English thought all that time too, English was sufficiently different that i didn't struggle with it
In general, take up another language only when you already know some of the other. A2 or B1 of the cfer level chart are both good levels to start at.
But also, you don't have to learn all the languages at the same time. You don't have to even be learning two languages at the same time. I feel like nowadays this is a thing many of us need to be remained of, alongside with "take your time learning a language". There is a huge push from society and many polyglots blogs and channels to learn a whole language in months and to learn 3 or 4 at the same time, but believe me: many of those people? don't really know as much as they say they do. Many can barely talk in the languages they claim fluency on. But regardless of that, you will learn more if you take your time learning. You will also enjoy it way more this way, and just have a more less anxious and depressed life if you take your time.
Take my word as someone that has been learning minimum two languages at the same time since they were 10yo, and reached the 4 languages at the same time by the time they were 18yo. I'm 20 now, and only actively learning 1 language, and i could cry from how much better it is this way. Just. take your time. enjoy the journey and don't try to fast speed it.
If you forgot to keep the routine ...well, then now is the best time to do it
If for some reason you forget to go to a class or to sit down and study on your own when you were supposed to do it, PLEASE, don't give yourself shit for it. Do the studying right there when you remembered. Or the next time you are supposed to, if you have/want to keep your routine. And if you end up forgetting so many classes or studying sections that you end up forgetting some (or even all!) of what you had learned... just pick up the language as soon as you can and go on. Even if it has been weeks, months, whole years. Don't think too much about it and keep studying, keep using the language. Start again as slow as you need to, but start again.
Even a little is better than nothing, and late is better than never
DO NOT FORGET TO USE YOUR MOTHER TONGUE.
Believe me, you are most at risk of dong this than you think when you are managing so many languages at once. Always use your mother tongue. Don’t just use the languages you are learning or have learned. Find little ways to include your mother tongue in your routine and/or chose a designated day of the week for using it. For example, there was a time where during each Saturday i will purposely look up Uruguayans shows and films and songs to watch and listen to to keep close to my own dialect. Try and do something like that for yours too
#hope anything of this is helpful#i only have my own experience learning many languages at once and trying not to go forgetting what i had learned to go by#if anyone wants to add feel free to do so#there are sections in bold cause my dyslexia is acting up and it helps me with long texts#if there are any sections or phrases that are hard to understand be it bc of wording grammar or spelling mistakes let me know#and i will re write it or explain what i meant to say#(you all have no idea how many times i misspelled language here lmao#and in how many different ways#there was one that started with a g#and another one that had three g's lol#for someone whose life is so centred around languages i really hate writing down that word lol)
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just remembered something cute Nick and I used to do, brb I’m gonna go walk off a bridge
#I hate triggering myself while writing!#if I was wearing a shirt to bed#Nick would ask me to take it off so he could feel my skin on his#and I would do the same thing to him#and we’d say it so cutely like we really had our own little language#I think we’d say skin on my skin#I miss those cuddles so much#we’d be chest to chest and our legs would be all tangled
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