#I really hate it hereeeeee

[ron-do-i-get-to-sing-my-way]

I love when your family of two people are unhinged and cannot stop fighting for a single day! And you’re the only diplomatic one, so you have to spend the entire holidays deescalating fights but the one fight that breaks out is OVER A GODDAMNED GAME OF UNO.

[dykerikki]

can this library job get back to me before my depression blows up please please for the love of god

[jinxsleftmiddlefinger]

timebomb highschool au

(part 8)

(pt1) (pt2) (pt3) (pt4) (pt5) (pt6) (pt7) (read on ao3)

description: timebomb highschool au pretty much sums it up lol. there’s also canon storylines (vander death, vi conflict etc.) but translated into a modern context

note: sorry for any mistakes I’m exhausted lol

Ekko didn’t know what to think when he received the text. He wasn’t really apart of the high-school party crowd, but this wasn’t even a high school party, it was a college party. And Jinx wanted him to be there…

It really didn’t take much convincing. He had texted back almost immediately, and she had sent him a smiley face and the time she’d pick him up the next day.

Now, he’s getting ready, looking himself over in the mirror, trying to figure out what he’s supposed to wear to a party.

His phone buzzes on his desk, and he walks away from the desk to check it.

Jinx: I’m hereeeeee

Jinx: come outside !!

With one last quick glance in the mirror, Ekko left his house with a quick goodbye to Benzo over his shoulder. He hadn’t told Benzo exactly where he was going, not because he thought he wouldn’t be allowed, but because he would not enjoy the teasing about the girl he was going out with.

Not that this was a date or anything. This was a friendly hang out. As acquaintances.

Jinx’s car was pulled over on the road, and he could already hear the bass bumping all the way up the driveway. He knew Jinx was fond of music, especially loud music, so it wasn’t that much of a surprise.

He opens the passenger side door, pulling himself into the car and smiling at her.

“Hel-lo, Ekko!” She says over the song playing on the car speakers, a song about ‘bombs and bullets’ and getting jinxed. “You excited?”

“Yeah it, uh, sounds cool.” He hates how stupid he sounds, especially with having to raise his voice after the music Jinx seems insistent to let play, despite it interrupting their conversation.

“Sorry I was late, had to sneak out!” She yells over the song.

Ekko had been so preoccupied with checking his appearance, he hadn’t even noticed.

She starts driving, and the road is mostly empty except for them. Thankfully, Jinx turns the music down once that song ends, and Ekko is actually able to hear his thoughts again.

His relief is quickly ended when Jinx suddenly hits the gas and starts driving like she’s going to the damn hospital. She veers around every corner like she’s in a race car and he’s pretty sure she sped up when going over a speed bump.

“Are we in a rush?” He laughs nervously. “Why are we going so fast?”

“What do ya mean, boy saviour?” Jinx’s face clearly shows she takes pleasure in his new nickname and his discomfort. “We’re barely even going that fast. If there wasn’t so many damn cops out tonight, I’d show you some real speed.�� She giggles.

Ekko should have known that this girl would drive as crazy as she is. He doubts his seatbelt would protect him from a crash with her driving, and he’ll be lucky if he even survives this car ride.

“I’m pretty sure you’re over the speed limit.” He reminds her.

She glances at him like he’s the insane one. “You check that shit?”

Ekko fights to keep his jaw from dropping. She thought it was weird to check the speed limit?

He had no idea how this girl had survived for so long.

Before he could remind her to be more careful on the road or inquire on how she even got a license, they arrived. The house house was a McMansion, a basic, whit hulking with bass louder than the one in the car had been.

“Let’s go!” Jinx turned off the car and hopped out, gesturing him to follow as she ran up the steps.

Ekko followed behind, putting his hands in his pockets and trying not to stand too awkwardly. 

The door swung inwards, revealing a very drunk boy, despite it only being around 8:40. He was staring off into space instead of really looking at them, and he simply laughed dreamily when Jinx pushed past him and opened the door wider for Ekko.

Being very drunk seemed a common theme here. Everyone in the room was either completely wasted or on their way there, and Jinx seems excited to see it. His face heats up when she grabs his wrist and starts pulling him towards the kitchen. 

“Do you want a drink?” She claps her hands together, looking at the bottles of liquor lining the counters, overwhelmed by the choices.

In truth, Ekko had only drunk once, and he had barely even drank anything. After that, he decided it wasn’t for him. He didn’t like the way it muddled his brain and dulled his memory. He understood that some people might drink it to forget stuff, but if anything, it just made him feel worse.

“Who’s going to drive?” He asked her.

Jinx looked thoughtful for a moment, like she hadn’t considered that before. “I will! I won’t drink that much.”

“I don’t think that’s a good idea.” Ekko said, a touch too fast.

If Sober Jinx was a scary driver, Tipsy Jinx driving was nightmare fuel. No way in hell was that happening.

“Trust me!” Jinx drawled, grabbing a red cup from the stack and filling it with a few juices and some random liquor from a bottle. Even that much was enough to concern him on how impaired her already perilous driving skills would become.

He sighed, grabbing a cup of his own and filling it with some liquids. He barely put any liquor, just enough for her to not call him a wimp.

The music was blasting behind them; house music that didn’t have a steady beat or a rhythm, just noise for people to move to. Out in the living room, people were dancing and jumping all around each other, surely spilling their drinks on other people in the crowd.

“Come on!” Jinx grabbed him with her free hand. “I need to find someone.”

Ekko felt his stomach drop. Find who? A boyfriend? A girlfriend?

He needed to stop. It’s not like he had thought this was a date anyway. Not technically.

They walked past two guys sitting close to each other on a couch, one who looked like a common high school fuckboy and the other who was a skinny dude with a cane and an accent. Ekko looked away, thinking he was interrupting some private moment by the way they were basically eyefucking.

Ekko hid his sigh of relief when he saw who it was that Jinx had to meet. An older girl with pink hair whose facial structure was practically the same as hers. This must be Jinx’s sister.

“Vi!” She said. “We made it!” He could the liquid in her cup sloshing around as she took another long drink.

“Is this your friend?” Vi was leaning against a wall, a canned drink in hand, looking at him up and down.

She must think he’s her boyfriend.

“Yeah! This is Ekko, he’s new to Zaun High, so I’m showing him around a bit, y’know?” Jinx put a light arm on his shoulder and Ekko prayed that the butterflies he felt in his stomach weren’t written all over his face.

Jinx practically chugs her drink and barely even makes a face when she finishes off the surely burning liquor. “Hold on, I’m going to get a little more to drink.” She slips past dancing bodies towards the kitchen, leaving Ekko completely alone with her sister.

“So, Ekko,” Vi is clearly not entirely sober. “How’s it going with my sister?”

Ekko clears his throat, his face burning even more. “We, uh- Well, good, but we’re just friends. I think you might have the wrong idea.”

She raises an eyebrow and he takes a nervous sip of his barely alcoholic drink. 

“Not, it’s really not like that.” He sounds like he somehow managed to get drunk off the little amount of alcohol in his cup. “Honestly.”

Vi leans closer, intimidatingly. “Listen, buddy, I don’t really care about the technical status of your little fling. I don’t care if you’re officially dating or not. If you hurt her, I swear to-“

“I’m ba-ack!” Jinx sing songs, walking towards them with a demeanour that suggests she’s already become tipsy. “What are-“ She cuts off, and Ekko watches as her eyes widen, turning from an expression of surprise to one of rage.

“What the fuck, Vi? Again?” She bursts out, looking at her sister.

Vi looks up and almost drops her cup. “No, it’s-“

The person that made Jinx so emotional approaches the pink haired girl Jinx is now glaring at. “Vi, I’m sorry, you forgot your phone back at the apartment and I-“ She gasps quietly, looking in the direction of the pissed off blue haired girl. “Oh. Shit.”

He can hear Jinx breathing heavily, and he sees her fingers gripping her cup so hard that they’re turning white.

Ekko starts to get the distinct feeling that he should not be here.

The next thing he knows, Jinx is lunging at the girl and Vi is pulling her away. There’s yelling and pushing and Ekko watches silently, not entirely sure what to do. The music is still so loud that the other people at the party barely even notice.

“Jinx!” Vi lets her go once she’s finally calmed down enough to not physically attack. “What the fuck was that?” All three of the women are breathing heavily.

“You brought Caitlyn here! What the fuck, Vi, again?” Jinx glares at her.

“I didn’t! I swear!” 

“I was just trying to bring her phone, I didn’t know-“ Caitlyn says meekly, gazing between the pink and blue haired girl.

“Shut up,” Jinx growls, her eyes never straying away from her sister. “I should have known. You’re always going to choose her over me. Always.”

“No!” Vi shakes her head, looking at her sister with glassy eyes. “That’s not fair!”

“What’s not fair is that my sister is a liar! A liar who left me!” Jinx yells, still drowned out by the house music.

Vi’s face hardens. “You’re not acting like my sister right now. I miss Powder, Jinx. What happened to her?”

Ekko thinks Jinx might kill her in that moment.

“She’s dead! You killed her!” Jinx backs up, no longer breathing heavy from adrenaline, but instead breathing heavy from her emotions. “Powder’s gone. And you’re right, Vi…Jinx and Vi aren’t sisters.”

Vi’s face falls, and he can see the regret swirling in her eyes, can practically hear her apologies, but Jinx is already done with her.

She starts to walk away, pushing through tipsy dancers, then stops and considers. She turns and grabs Ekko’s arm before pulling them together through the halls of the bustling McMansion. She takes him out on a balcony.

They’ve been sitting in silence for a few minutes, Ekko picking at his hands, when she finally speaks.

“I’m sorry you had to see that.”

He looks up quickly, looking at her just in the corner of his eye. “It’s fine.”

“Do you hate me now?” She looks out at the fading night sky. “Do you think I’m a crazy bitch?”

He crossed his arms over his knees, looking at her fully this time. “No, no, I….I understand. I mean, not fully, obviously, but I think I get it.”

She snorts. “So you don’t think I’m insane?”

“I didn’t say that,” He smiles faintly.

She giggles in a way that reminds him of her tipsiness, of the cup she’s still nursing. Nevertheless, it sounds beautiful.

She is beautiful.

God, he barely drank anything and his thoughts were already turning to things he definitely shouldn’t be thinking.

“You know,” Jinx leans her head back on the balcony railing. “You’re pretty cool, Ekko. Especially for a new kid.”

“You’re pretty cool too, Jinx. Especially for a crazy girl.” He responds in turn.

“Aw, come on. My craziness is part of my charm.” She winks, and Ekko thinks that he could spend hours thinking about that sparkle in her eye.

“Yeah,” He says, so quietly he’s not even sure she hears him. “It is.”

He tilts his head farther, to get a better look at her, and he sees her doing the same thing. They laugh in unison.

Then they’re getting closer, and closer, and he swears he can feel the tiny amount of alcohol he drank racing through his bloodstream, infiltrating his brain. He’s drunk on just that look on her face alone, anyway.

He’s so close that he can smell the sweet alcohol on her breath, can count the hardly visible freckles across her nose and cheeks, can see the flecks in her eyes.

Then he’s so close that their lips are touching.

She kisses him in the way you would expect a girl like her to kiss; fast, without hesitation, fearlessly, crazily, and all consumingly. He hopes the way he kisses her back is sufficient. 

The kiss deepens, and he forgets about everything around him. The thump of the house music fades into the sound of his heartbeat, the feel of the railing against his back unimportant compared to the feel of her lips on his.

He doesn’t care if she’s crazy or insane or hates her sister. He doesn’t care about any of it when she kisses him like this.

This girl he barely knew yet felt like he understood so well, this girl he felt like understood him. 

Jinx was a good kisser. When they finally broke apart to breathe, that was the only thing he could think. And then he thought about how badly he wanted to do that again.

Ekko ended up being the one having to drive them home that night, though one might say he was as drunk on Jinx’s lips as she was on alcohol. When they said their goodbyes, she kissed him again on his cheek, and he knew then he was a goner.

[heavenpierceher]

just played portal 2 for the first time yes somehow ive never played it before. reposting my thoughts as i played here:

I fucking hate wheatley. Little white cuck ball

As i understand it wheatley turns out to be like Secretly Evil later or whatever but like he’s so blatantly passive aggressive and casually shitty to you that i don’t see how anyone didn’t go okay fuck this guy immediately. Like he’s clearly acting as a sort of arm of aperture itself which constantly bombards you with like jokingly ableist/eugenicist/classist/misogynistic shit

like the juxtaposition of him being a huge asshole because he thinks you have brain damage and the announcer being like ‘ok if you’re old or stupid go back to your Primitive Tribe so we can have Good Subjects for Progress’ is 110% deliberate

also him assuming the person who killed glados was male LMAO

I want glados so bad

Some arasaka tower shit is happening to me

My psionic warriors find me art of chell dribbling and dunking wheatley like a basketball

Glados wants me so bad

my coworker losing his mindddddd 😂 😂 😂

I’m finding these puzzles easier than portal 1 but like in a good way. more intuitive

Also this has almost certainly been said before at length but god valve is so so so good at environmental design

HL is really good too obviously but it really shines in portal where they get to play with contrasts

the really harsh visual contrast between all of portal and the escape stages and the fact that you can see hints of it before it happens. chefs kiss

Single biggest visual improvement: the scary fucked up water that kills you

Yeah I do wish id played this earlier LMAO

glados hums me beautiful songs

I’m imagining that literally none of this is landing for chell like she doesn’t care. and/or glados is just making shit up and so chell also doesn’t care

wheres the dev thing where they were like ‘chell doesn’t talk because she’s just fucking pissed’

She's literally obsessed with me

Genuinely why does anyone like wheatley I'm gonna crush this little shit like a soda can

Guy accuses a woman who has literally never spoken to him or responded to a thing hes said of being bossy

At least the ways in which cave johnson sucks are really funny

i was talking about how wheatley is kind of a stand-in for aperture as an entity and i think cj is a continuation of that. like the above screenshot lines up as being an evolution of cj’s distaste for the ‘lab boys’ and ‘bean counters’; a top-down disdain for the people actually making ‘progress’ possible and keeping things running

me when i have 60 dollars

Valve in particular has a way of making its social commentary so pointed and over the top that its funniness almost but not quite overshadows the point it’s making. In a good way let me be clear

Like it’s so ridiculous you almost forget it’s criticizing/interrogating real phenomena that it’s honestly not depicting that absurdly because everything is very very intentional

i like the idea of chell being like. essentially an ordinary uninvolved person as much as she can be just thematically. glados is petty in the way that humans are petty, she chooses insults that are like… low-hanging fruit because of the environment she was cultivated in, so i think it’s both funnier and more thematically resonant if chell is like. Not even a little bit emotionally affected by glados fucking with her she’s just like Get me out of hereeeeee

A lot of people’s theories about this game seem to rely on glados being truthful which is fucking hilarious

woman who is making shit up to fuck with you: I am making shit up to fuck with you gamers: goly FUCK theory #CONFIRMED?????????????

aw hell no not the aperture science ejaculation gel

Wheatley can you quit jacking off over mic. Genuinely discusses me I hope he explodes

I do not want him to experience pleasure in any form much less as a result of my actions

The fucked up turretcubes are very cute though. Like hermitcrabs

Oh hey it’s the part where he kills me

this is a really good visual gag

Genuinely how does anyone admit to wanting to fuck wheatley how is that not an incredibly embarrassing thing to admit to

how sexist the adventure sphere is was funny and again it is not common for me to say that. valve just knows what they're doing

She’s holding my hand…

Rent free in her fucking head

Rent. Free.

Literally obsessed with me.

I don’t think it’s supposed to do this but it’s on a black screen with no options and has been for like five minutes and i sat there for the entire five minutes like ‘wow this is so poignant…’

Anyway yeah that kicked ass

[moonshynecybin]

oh vale fucking marc in phillip island ‘15 for the first time, promptly freaking out, and latching onto uccio’s bullshit conspiracy just to find a way to drive marc away from himself… phew. you’re a genius i lovee the threesome au..

how would reconciliation work in that universe? would vale see marc getting cozy with an older man at the gala or someplace else and lose his mind? esp if the man has a girl w him who’s eyeing marc up and down? would marc think vale initially wants to go back to the first arrangement instead of just the two of them?

so many of my rosquez aus hinge on the beautiful race that is PI 2015. one of the sexiest races of all time and one where vale decided that marc was actually and genuinely EVIL based on uccio's extremely unbiased and not jealous at all opinion. BUT. uccio has never liked marc. has ALWAYS been suspicious of his and vale's relationship. and i think he would frankly have a LOT more of a leg to stand on if he had tried to break them up after assen 2015 instead imo... which makes me wonderrrr how long the uccio hate campaign had been germinating... whispering in vale's ear... turning the tides... moments in iago history.... etc. and i mean a BIG part of the reason vale's breaking point IS phillip island is because losing that title seemed a lot more realistic (three races left the pressure is ON. and marc is healthy so the field is more competitive) AND it was one of the greatest races of all time (WATCH ITTTT) and marc fucking WON it. vale used to be the kind of bitch who won that sort of thing. so its digging at his ego in lots of little ways that EYE imagine would be hard to swallow, and uccio identifies the chink in vale's armor here and exploits the FUCK out of it.

so i think. if im narrativizing this for gay sex reason which you KNOWWWW i am. that this is kind of the ideal point in a story to have vale flip out as much as possible. really dig into his neuroses. and one of the crazy parts of rosquez isnt JUST that vale is having an ego crisis its that hes having a crisis about CARING ABOUT MARC (also part of the reason it takes as long as it does for the paranoia to set in). thats why it suck so much! marc was his FRIEND ! (and he isnt friends with his rivals !!! think of that video where hes talking about bezz and pecco like. affectionately baffled about why theyre still friends?? this has never happened to him before!!! hes wigging out !!!) and so vale is ALSO heartbroken hereeeeee and thats part of why he gets as fucking mean as he does.

so in THIS au its them finally acknowledging that its not the girls that makes them keep fucking. its THEM. its EARNESTLY wanting each other outside of the heterosexual coolguy masculine just buddies threesomes that theyve been pretending are normal. pretending they havent been engineering them as social acceptable ways to get closer 2 each other. and once they break that seal and theres no more excuses. thats just too close for vale to keep a rival. and he implodes it.

[novella-b]

“Thank you for doing all this,” Remus whispered close to his ear.

A chill ran down Sirius and his eyes fluttered shut, only for a moment. “For doing what?”

“This. Throwing the party.”

“You don’t hate it?”

“Hate it?” Remus scoffed as if the mere thought left a bad taste in his mouth. “No, Sirius, I love it.”

That was a relief. For a second there, he wasn’t sure. “Did you really think I wasn’t going to do anything for your special day?”

“I guess I should’ve expected this, huh?”

Sirius ran a hand down his chest, placing it over his heart. “You deserve to be celebrated, Remus.”

Chapter 10 is hereeeeee!! get it while it’s hot!

[deltastra]

My Thoughts on Tower of God Season 2 Episode 5

Time for a new arc! And this episode we get to meet "the other team"!

WEBTOON SPOILERS WAS TEASED BUT NOT OUTRIGHT STATED

Rating: 8/10

Summary: Tower of God is certainly at its best when they focus on the characters. The tone was well done and I loved how they adapted that ending speech by Khun. Music went hard as well!

Hm. I think this is anime original? I like how they showed it from Khun's POV while also typign up the loose ends over Bam and Endorsi's relationship in the anime. Season 1 skipped a lot of scenes where it insinuated that she was developing feelings for him. This scene feels a bit shoehorned in but I understand why they did it. They plan on following the webtoon properly this time so they need to show that she had crush on him.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH KARAKA MENTIONED!!!!

His running looks a little goofy ngl. Music slayed tho

Okay, compared to the other first person POVs we have gotten, this one actually looks like he's going fast.

Oooo they drew this beautifully!

I still love how quickly Edin Dan accepted that this is his life now. He didn't throw a fit over being outsmarted, just frustrated that he fell for it. I always liked the guy even if he didn't get too much screentime.

Holy shit Rachel looks really good in this artstyle. I'm glad they kept the snake-like eyes on her!! And her VA kills it as always

Love the knife behind her symbolism. But I also love how Khun's face can clearly be seen as "Do you seriously think I'm falling for this?" if you already know the outcome!

HES HEREEEEEE. Come back to the webtoon, child!!!!

HOLY SHIT HER VA MAN. THAT TONE SWITCH WAS PERFECT. We're in for a treat when we get more scenes with her being manipulative because damn!

I love how he says it in a noble way but his eyes show he is doing this for revenge. Bam may be named after the night, but he was his light.

BAHAHAHAH THE YAMCHA POSE

I get that this wasn't an important fight so they didn't go all out with the animation and kept things simple. So I won't complain. I do like the lighting though!

HELP I STILL LOVE HOW HE BOUGHT THE NUMBER 1 T-SHIRT FOR HIMSELF AND NUMBER 2 FOR RAN. Little details like this really help in understanding the characters more. Norvick is so silly!

Okay, so when I first read the webtoon, I genuinely thought that the light was the Sun. But then I thought it was Rachel's lighthouse. But now I have no idea. I guess SIU just wanted there to be some cool imagery to snap Khun's amusement to his more sinister side.

And the way they narrow the screen?! Very good in setting up tension.

I love everything about this. Portraying Khun's inner monologue this way with his voice sounding a bit distorted along with shaky text is so good!!! Khun isn't just some sneaky guy, he is sinister when he wants to be and this is a perfect way of showing it in the anime!

Gosh, and the way the screen glitches out and his voice gets even MORE distorted is just amazing. A good way of showing that although he his explaining his plan to his team in a calm and rational manner, inside, he is SEETHING over explaining to his team why he hates Rachel.

The way Khun's eyes glow in the dark paired with Rachel's laugh thinking she won?? LIKE DAMN GO OFF. I LOVE THIS.

Hehe Team Sweet & Sour domestic life I love this. Feels awkward to have this right after such a serious scene but I guess they wanted it to end with Viole and FUG instead since the ED song showcases scenes with Viole or Wangnan for every episode

QUEEN HWARYUN IS HERE AND HER "yaho! :D" WAS SO CUTE. NEXT EP WE WILL GET FUG LEZGO.

Okay this was a really good episode, they absolutely nailed the Khun and Rachel scenes and the style they chose to go with for Khun's speech was such a good decision. It's clear that the studio definitely does best when the scenes involve talking because they show the tension really well. Kevin Penkin went off in this episode too I love it!

I do hope the animation improves more before THAT episode and that now they won't be skipping important plot points. Hopefully the characters will look less stiff too!

Can't wait for next episode!

[httpiastri]

oooo why is isack not very liked? i’m new here so i wanna know 👀👀

this got a little too long 😶 so yeah uh more under the cut

ooooo bestie.... well, first off, he's a major whiner and i hate whiny drivers (feels like ive written that sentence like 20 times the last 48 hours lmao). he loves to complain on the radio to his team when things don't go his way (as if its their fault and not his own 😶)... i get that you're frustrated but you don't have to press the radio button when you're screaming, yk?

like, listen to his radio from after the race in monaco. sure, getting a win would've gotten you the lead in the championship, but can't you just understand that it was a lucky call from zak (the winner that day) that works like once in 15 races? it wasn't your fault, it wasn't the team's fault, it was just a coincidence? and the fact that he didn't just whine, he was SCREAMING. like, screaming his lungs out. really embarrassing.

and then, listen to his radio after the qualifying in barcelona. buddy was screaming like a toddler yet again. very awkward.

then, in the feature race in austria, he started by whining on the radio about his battle with paul (he ended up not being able to pass paul, which pissed him off TONS). but then came the worst part... he was behind pepe (our fave little boy on this blog <33) towards the end and whined to the team about how "he's defending against me much harder than he did to other drivers!!" and on and on. and when he finally got to pass pepe, he first of kept on complaining about pepe, and then said "give me 2-3 laps to get the lead". did he take the lead? no, and then he refused to give pepe the position back many laps later. idk i kinda don't wanna get into it more than that, but my dear friend @lilioopdf has a post about it hereeeeee (that i haven't read yet lol but i trust her) with the radio messages hereeeee !!!!

he also takes 0 responsibility for his actions, which annoys me a lot. in melbourne, he crashed out pepe (again, his teammate...) and did not understand why he got a penalty for it and lost his win. and idk, he just keeps on disrespecting and dishonoring his team who works so hard for him.... like him writing "limited power from the race start to the end. it is getting really frustrating, mechanics does not make it easy for us this season." on his instagram 😶 shush

[windrunner]

recent shit. my pure unfiltered mental illness so i don't combust spontaniously. luv u don't read it you don't wanna i'm just in my screamhole again

so. did research on the dr*ft. the lottery system is fucked. all of it is fucked. i've known this since i was young due to being raised around/with/by men who were drafted but fuck re-reading everything is so horrible like all of this is so evil. what do you mean "if you're worried about the fairness of our random pingpong ball selector than don't! here's info on the lottery machines we use! it's fair!" I DONT GIVE A FUCK THE WHOLE THING SHOULD BE SHUTTERED!!!!! THIS IS HORRIFIC????

anyways. i'm gonna take th gamble and Not submit anything more than i gotta in the next few years. told my parents i'd a file as c*nscientious object*r. i'm not doing shit 4 these evil bitches. they probably wouldn't honor letters anyways and i'm 2 years out from 26 so???? idk. not saying it Will happen but right now it feels like the least fate-tempting option to consider everything fully. everything else is already so touch-n-go so what's one more large looming possible threat? truly

(and again i knew about it before this i just really. don't think about the details all the time because it's gut-churning. but all i can think of is the vets who i would stay with during the summers as a kid. i can't talk about them though. gets sick on the carpet)

anyways on top of all that i now get to fully turn my attention to the medical sphere and. it's not. going well. i literally can't talk about anything with anyone unless i do a phone call .and i don't have anyone i can call. even if i did it's all so heavy i'm like i Don't want to burden anyone but me with this shit. but fr this is how it's feeling lately sometimes until i pull myself out of by getting necromancer high

(IM NOT DOING ANYTHING THIS IS INTENDED AS A JOKE BECAUSE I DIDNT THINK THE "first time?" GALLOWS GUY WAS FITTING ENOUGH. but tbh that is how i feel @ my parents rn because they had another fight about tariffs and social security etc. i hate it hereeeeee)

[maircries]

Mair’s Episode Thirty Seven Relisten:

I think Jacobi and Lovelace should be studied under a microscope together. Wlw mlm hostility

Jacobi and Eiffel getting along genuinely makes me giggle. I just think Jacobi Eiffel and Lovelace should get to be goofy pieces of shit together

Jacobis short little “shut up” adds another week to my life every time

The audacity for Kepler to get annoyed with Eiffel when he’s being a little silly. Sir I’m so tired of your jokes and stories

The banter gives me life, right until Kepler joins in

Comms readings become a little strange and Eiffel is immediately like okay what’s wrong, Eiffel does his fucking job!!!

I remember exactly NONE of this it’s wonderful

Explosions, just as the composer requested!! (I think I’m remembering the right musical piece. I hope I am)

Eiffel has SUCH a bad time I love it here for my blorbo

I love Doug so goddamn much gang. Could you tell? Did you know?

I think Maxwell and Eiffel is also a very fascinating dynamic I’d like to study.

“I just had a REALLY dumb idea” immediately trying it

I love how Doug’s like okay well we tried! Most reasonable man in space

I love how everyone here hates HR type relations. Worst thing they could be asked to do is interact with one another from a non partial business coworker standpoint

ZACH VALENTI GULPPPPPP

The most space-y thing that’s ever happened in this show so far imo

The fucking story time

Doug’s laugh is just a mental breakdown, he’s never laughed at Keplers jokes or quips he just can’t believe this is his life, change my mind

Eiffel my beloved

I think it should be how it works

Oh yeah it’s the one piece of classical music that has cannons in it. Jacobi you fucking icon

I just think they all should’ve been friends without Kepler barging in. Let them be silly and besties

Heads up I’m putting all the next mini episodes in one big post, no one wants me gunking up my tumblr with all those mini bits

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT, A THING!!!

A PHONE CALL WITH CUTTER????

I HATE IT HEREEEEEE

This is what I get for never ever listening to the end credits

OOOOOHHHHHH. HE KNOWS ABOUT JACOBI AND MAXWELL POKING AROUND. HOLY SHIT!!!!

Gonna be fucking insane again. Lovelace is the key to everything they’ve been working for. And technically it’s true, but these bitches. They don’t know. They don’t know there’s two keys. There’s an extra lock. And the key is the very first one they’re tossing to the side as defunct useless and expendable. I love that so much (not only because it allows for more Doug whump)

[aeoki]

Sandstorm - Prologue

Location: Desert Characters: Hinata & Kaoru Season: Winter Writer: Akira

TL Note:

Paisen is “senpai” (senior/upperclassman) with “sen” and “pai” swapped. It’s seen as a slang/friendly way of using “senpai”.

Chuugoku can either refer to China or the “central region” of Japan, hence the confusion.

ㅤ< Middle of November. “SS” Qualifying Round, Chuugoku region – Tottori desert (tentative name). >

Hinata: I open my eyes in the morning and I’m greeted with the desert.

You’re kidding~ This can’t be possible~ Even someone like little o’ me would get their heart crushed at the sight of this.

No, no! I’ve gotta stay positive! Nothing’s gonna be solved if I stay all negative and gloomy!

You can do it, Hinata! You’ve got this, Hinata! You’ve always overcome any obstacle that’s come your way in the past!

Just team up with Yuuta-kun, combine your skills and–

Wait, Yuuta-kun isn’t hereeeeee! Great~! Dreams? Shattered! Hopes? Gone like the wind! This is the final resting place for “2wink” at “SS”!

Kaoru: Outta the way, outta the way~!

Hinata: Whahoo!?

Hey, that’s dangerous, Hakaze-paisen[*]! I can’t believe you’d come crashing into me on a surfboar–

Wait, it’s Hakaze-senpaaaai ☆

I like Hakaze-senpai! A lot!

Kaoru: Why’re you breaking up your sentences? The way you’re speaking and stuff is kinda weird. You okay? Let’s take some deep breaths, yeah?

Hinata: Well, anyone would act like this if they were suddenly thrown into the desert!

If anything, don’t you think I’m more on the calm side? Isn’t that amazing? Normally, other people would be way more confused, you know?

Kaoru: Huh? Uhh, you’re Hinata, right?

Hinata: Yup! That’s me! What do I like? Yuuta-kun! What do I hate? Spicy stuff! That’s our official setup!

Kaoru: Okay. Anyway, I’m guessing you haven’t gotten an explanation about what’s going on here?

Hinata: Huh? Is it weird that I haven’t…?

Kaoru: No, not really. Hinata-kun, you haven’t met anyone else, right?

Hinata: Yeah! You were the first person I came across after waking up! I think I’d fall in love with you if I was Sleeping Beauty!

Kaoru: But I didn’t even kiss you?

Hmm~ Okay, I think I get it.

I was also pretty shocked to find myself in the desert after waking up in the morning, but I came across some other idols before meeting you, Hinata-kun.

Hinata: Other idols? Wait, you mean the other idols who were sent out to the Chuugoku region too, right?

Kaoru: Yeah. I don’t particularly care but it’s hard to tell whether you’re in the Chuugoku country[*] or the region just by its name.

No wait, “SS” is a national event so it’s obvious it’ll be taking place in Japan, huh.

Well, putting that aside, as you probably know, there are a lot of powerhouse idols among the ones that have been sent to this region.

A lot of the local idols participated in last year’s “SS” and ES has sent some of their powerhouse idols too. Probably as competition.

Hinata: Yeah~...

“UNDEAD” is a powerhouse unit so you guys have a good chance at winning, though. I was crying about it with Yuuta-kun thinking how our luck hit rock bottom.

And here we thought we could produce some pretty good results in “SS” and surprise the public. We even went into the mountains to train~

Kaoru: Why the mountains? Wait, Adonis-kun and Souma-kun also tend to head into the mountains sometimes too, though.

Anyway, all the strong idols I’ve come across have been trying to pick a fight with me.

I thought I could laugh it off and change their mind about it, but they just wouldn’t listen.

Hinata: Really~? That’s rough. Sounds like a Pokemon battle took place?

Kaoru: A Pokemon battle didn’t happen but they kept pestering me.

Well, they wouldn’t listen to me but they gave me an explanation on some things, so I’ve got a pretty good gist of what’s currently happening.

So right now, that’s probably why I’m calmer than you, Hinata-kun.

Hinata: Ohh, a blessing in disguise!

Kaoru: Yeah. I think I’ve also gotten the short end of the stick, though~ Looks like good things come to you if you live life earnestly.

So…

Hinata: ? Hakaze-paisen, why’re you slowly inching closer towards me? You’ve got a scary expression on your face.

Kaoru: It really looks like I’ve lucked out today…♪

Hinata: Huh…? What…?

Kaoru: It means I can easily get “Desert Coins” from the kids who haven’t understood the rules yet…♪

Hinata: Whaaat!? What’s a “Desert Coin”?

Kaoru: Well, actually, that’s just what I call it. They’re coins you can get from the desert, so a “Desert Coin” ♪

Hinata: Yeah so why are we in the desert!?

Kaoru: Well, you should be able to find out on your own sooner or later.

Hinata: NOOOOOO! I thought I landed on a spot on the board where a kind senior explains things to me, but I’m just getting into a tough spot one after the other…!

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[acheronist]

I’m so 1960s girl coded i hate it hereeeeee the beatles cover of roll over beethoven came on the radio and i really just went OMFG YESSSSSSSS FINALLYYYYY I LOVE THIS SONG !!!!!

girl you live in the 2020s can you please be serious

[eatyourdamnpears]

my depression has been so bad lately. I think I need a med change, but I think my psychiatrist will get mad at me again for not taking one of the meds she gave me to take in the morning (I’m terrible at taking meds in the morning.) I’m just not good with complying I guess? I try to, but some things like that and giving myself a morning routine are really hard and I’m barely even taking care of myself never mind keeping track of a routine and morning meds. I just wanna get a new therapist and a new psychiatrist because my psychiatrist right now is both and she’s kind of mean and I’m just. I need something to change and I don’t know how to change and I’m just upset about so many things and this is my second day in a row bawling my eyes out I hate it hereeeeee

[soir-rouges-esprit]

xxxv.h: The Red, “Moriarty's Gal”. One of the closer “Gals” popped up and approached me with haste, saying “Hello Sir! … Would you like a table or just a bar seat for today?” Uhm jus- “Is that you Salem?” Auzwel called out, with his glasses pulled down by a single finger. Indeed it is … long time no see Auzwel. He waved me over, the Gal bowed and stepped off back to her seat. I walk over … take a seat and … “You look so different … barely recognized you.” *sigh* Yeah … I get that a lot nowadays. “Haha, I'd bet … so … what can I get yah today? got an ID there baby face” *tsch* I smile and show him my ID, he looks it over hands it back with a smile and I reply with. Pepper Jack over a couple rocks if you'd be so kind. He shook his head and poured me one in a nice thick glass, leaving the open Dr.Pepper and entire bottle of Jack for me to pour myself as I went. He snapped his fingers and pointed at one of the girls closest to the staircase at the end of the bar. “Let Ms.Mori know Salem is here, she'll wanna know.” He then spread his arms wide across the bar, and leaned in slightly … asking “So what brings you here on this rather slow and cold day … got something for Mori? or just … wanted a drink?” he said slowly with a grin. No … not just a drink … got some business, really for her ears only Auzi. “Ooooh … what a shame haha … here I was thinking I'd have some new bartender gossip to add to my collection.” He leaned back and pulled out a tall glass, ran it under some water washing it out, then proceeded to clean it out with a small cloth. “So business huh? Well Ms.Mori certainly deals in many forms … so I hope you'll leave a happy customer.” Yeah … me too… how have things been around here? speaking of your “bartenders gossip” … what yah got? “Things have been as per usual, nothing too strange … you could say we are running in tip-top shape making healthy sales … both in booze … and in other sorts of trade. But as for gossip and rumors … well … rumor is, Alzon sewered The Devil … sept … The Devil came crawling out, bloodied and filled with a new type of hate burning in his eyes … rumors of a full-out city-wide gang war are on the rise because of that, leading to lots of parties buying lots of guns and lots of ammunition in prep … rumor is … bloods gonna run down the canal that Devil crawled out of like a chaotic rapid … you wouldn't … Happen, to know about that rumor … would yah?” *long sip* … welllllll … *BANG* I ducked my head a bit as my glass shook a bit and I heard a loud noise from above me … I looked up and back a little to see the railing of the platform above … then … a large head came looking over and down at me … Mama Mori … her face was about as red as a tomato and damn near steam blowing from her fuckin ears, I opened with a smile. H-ha ha … oh hey Mori … good uh … happy birthhhhday???? “GGGGGET THE FUUUUUCK UUUUP HEREEEEEE … *BREATH IN* NOWWWWWWW!!!!!!” *SLAM* She walked off assumedly back into her office slamming the door … she was so loud I swear the earth shook and she nearly popped my fuckin head. I looked back down at my glass, grabbed it and downed what was left, then slammed it down. Well … hell calls Auzi … I’ll see you down there one day *sigh* … wish me luck. He raised the glass he was cleaning towards me with a grin and raised eyebrows. I walked off, with all the girls looking at me as if I was a walking coffin … which … I was. Up the stairs and down the platform I went, and stood in front the door to her office … I put my palms together and raised them high towards the ceiling. Dear god … if you are real … just kill me now before Mori does, and send me to damnation or … forever know … me one … you zero. [To Be Continued]

[placid-styles]

had to cancel my plans for today i hate it hereeeeee. literally had to cancel on 2 different things i was really excited for this weekend 😭 i need to wear my mask religiously i can’t live like this

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

I’M HEREEEEEE I’M HERE

you know i HAD to cook up a lil letter for this one…… dipping my pen in ink and tracing the crinkled paper in front of me rn <333 MICKEYYYYY YOUR TASTE IS UNPARALLELED AS ALWAYS i had to go hunt down my own collection immediately pls bare w me :’3 i’m so excited rn i’m shaking like a scared dog

FIRST OF ALLLLLLLL portrait of fryderyk in shifting light my absolute BELOVED i think that’s my favorite in the whole collection but there’s some competition…. THE LINES YOU MARKED DOWNNNNN I’M BARKING WILDLY they’re so good ………. what can you know about a person? they shift in the light. what if i cried and exploded and also threw up. it always makes me think sm of geto/kenny too…. the dichotomy there. the life of the body is a nightmare. you get the vibes. my hand over his face, which isn’t his face anymore, revising….

IT ISSSSS SUPER DUPER IHTCTAOT CODED!!!!!!! :3 reading through the poem rn and i think these lines are soooo knight!reader/prince!toru coded too…….

+ some other general siken poem lines that remind me of ihtctaot :3333 (the green+pink annotations are from his other collection crush!!)

(mickey i need to know if you also lost your mind at the and this means your life is over anyway line bc i was literally flipping through crush looking for knight!reader in every poem and when i got to that one i fucking Exploded)

ANDDDDD THE WORM KING’S LULLABY MY BELOVED EVER that one makes me think of stsg too 😥😥😥 IT’S SO GOODDDDD also while we’re on the topic of stsg . pls know that every single poem from crush is stsg coded . siken wrote it just for them i’m convinced….

aaaa but !!!! i’m so happy the ones i sent you way back then r still your favorites !!!!!! T_T getting a good grade in Mickey…….. normal to want and possible to achieve…… self-portrait against red wallpaper reminds me SO much of knight!reader and ohhhhh the lines you pointed out. the apocalypse au … that’s so good ….. i think that’s what interests me most about an au like that. not the question of survival but the question of what happens after, yk? or between the gaps. even if you survive, what will you do? can you go back to the way things were? will you be able to love anyone anymore? and then ofc also just . the question of love and light and how much it really matters in a world that punishes you for it (it matters more than anything but these silly little emotionally repressed popsicles haven’t realized that yet)…. i’m sososo excited to jump into that world w you <3333

but ok back to siken… it rlly is The Poem ever i’m never not thinking abt it. never not thinking abt my blorbos as i read it. the final couple lines get me EVERY time and imo they’re very gumi coded…… i hate my friends. and when i hate my friends i’ve failed myself, failed to share my compassion. (…) i mean, maybe it’s better if my opponent wins. <- that’s Him. don’t even get me started on i clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary. (…) it’s too much work. bc in context of the current megumi? in the manga??? yeah. sick and twisted.

AND TOJI TOJIIIII WE NEEEDDDD TO TALK ABT TOJI i’m gonna be honest mickey war of the foxes as a whole reminds me of the jjk villains more than the good guys . sukuna and toji and geto and kenny. etcetc. emphasis on toji. the lines you picked out makes me think of him sosomuch but also??? landscape with a blur of conquerors. the whole poem. every time i read it i think of him

ALSO this specific part of a primer for the small weird loves …. in crush ……. instantly thought of him the first time i read it like three years ago (normal abt him btw)

ANYWAYYYYY I THINK THAT’S IT …… i’m so happy you enjoyed the collection <3333 atp my goal in life is just to make my mutuals read it …. i’ve alr succeeded w you and io + kairo bought it a while back i think …….. mr siken everything i do is for you

i am back from the Outside. back from the Book.

anyway portrait of fryderyk in shifting light is very very very ihtctaot coded and it's making me sick i love them so fucking much

"he is looking at the wall and i am looking at his looking. difficult thing to be scrutinized for so long." // "my shadow falls across him and it doesn't go away." // "see me, not through me." // there wasn't much left but it felt like him, wild and scared."

+ and this part from the worm king's lullaby made me think of stsg i'm fine btw i'm so fine

@twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat hihi my sweet little iris i am holding your hand and tugging you over here to tell you that remember when you showed me siken's poems like a million years ago? the ones you picked out are still my favourite ones.

self-portrait against red wallpaper is my favourite favourite from the whole collection though. i just wanna thank you for showing me this one in the first place, life-changing honestly. i'm pretty sure i saw you post a snippet from it some days ago too i'm glad it's on both of our minds

"shame means you're guilty, like the rest of us, but you think you're better than we are. maybe you are?" // "disheartening? obviously. i hope it's love. i'm trying really hard to make it love."

"i clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary. i'd rather quit. i'd rather be sad. it's too much work. admirable? not really. i hate my friends. and when i hate my friends i've failed myself, failed to share my compassion. i shine a light on them of my own making: septic, ugly, the wrong yellow. i mean, maybe it's better if my opponent wins."

i feel like this is also very fitting for ihtctaot but but but but also... for the toji apocalypse au i'm working on. ok this is just me rambling bc i haven't even really talked about it that much so u guys don't know anything lmao (u will u will)

the whole second part just makes me think about how hard it would be living in an apocalypse you know.. you'd want to try to make it work, to make it love, to be in the light but it would be so fucking hard, wouldn't it? and so much work. think about all the heartbreak and the pain, wouldn't it be easier to quit?

and the "shame means your're guilty, like the rest of us, but you think you're better than we are. maybe you are?" is toji. this is for toji. he's acting cocky and he's acting smug, like he knows everything about the world, like he's some immortal creature. like he knows better.

he doesn't. he is filled with shame and everything alike, he's as guilty as the rest of them. he's as bad as the rest of them, he's as good as the rest of them.