#I overthink a lot tbh
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Love this post, and I honestly think the reason is because people went into the show expecting a Sith story, so they assume he is the Sith because he “technically” says it, even though it’s clear he didn’t claim it. He told Sol flat out he has no name, but Jedi would call him Sith. It’s also crazy to me how people are overlooking his credited title literally being “The Stranger” and not “The Sith”. That alone tells us he’s not actually Sith (at least not yet) and is an outlier between the two.
Now, to dig deeper into my theories: I knew the show was coming out, but didn’t know what it was about, so I can’t blame anyone for what they thought. One of the reactors I watched also said two Siths are supposed to make an appearance, so presumably a lot of the reason people maybe aren’t able to see Qimir as anything else, is because we haven’t seen any characters mention the title other than him.
I also don’t know any Sith by name, except Darth Maul and Darth Vader, so I may not be the best person to have this theory, but I think Acolyte will have the first Sith be one of the ones people have been bringing up (Tenerbus or Plaigues or whatever idk know their names lol), then the second one will be either Osha, Sol, or Vernestra.
I’m highly certain it’s not Vernestra though, because she is currently way too easy. Yes, Qimir was an easy guess for The Master, but I’ve seen more than enough people also say it couldn’t be him because it’d be too obvious. But I also think he was a give away on purpose, because one, Manny was in main promo and prior to ep5 he had very little screen time. But also, making him an easy guess allowed them to leave room for an even bigger reveal later.
And that reveal has to be someone key to the plot falling from grace, and Vernestra falling wouldn’t shock anyone. Her having gave Qimir his scar could still fit the story, but wouldn’t be too big a plot twist. Plus, he never said his Jedi Master gave it to him, he just let Osha believe her own assumption. So a good red herring would be learning Vernestra did give him his scar, yet later learning she wasn’t his Jedi Master. She and her field team may have went after him and his people (who very well could have been doing harm, but he was too young to know) for unsanctioned use of the Force, and he — long before turning toward the Dark Side — tried to defend himself.
That wouldn’t redeem him nor make him a good guy now, nor would it mean all of the Jedi are bad. This possibility also ties into Vernestra being secretive, if she is thinking back on decades or an even century ago, to when she encountered a village of Dark Side users. Maybe one of them said something to her (whatever she said on Khofar) and it’s all coming back to her?
Or (this is getting long, I know) my other theory is Qimir ran away from his Master who will be the Sith already named in the lore, and to keep ahead of them he and Osha (who learned what happened on Brendok and chooses to go with Qimir) dip out. Then Sol, believing Osha is being manipulated and abducted yet again, asks Vernestra to sign off on him getting her back, but she won’t because it’ll be too personal. So he makes a deal with the Sith who wants Qimir, thus technically making him Dark Side; aka the second Sith. And Mae is left to work with the Jedi, because she’s the only one Vernestra can trust to keep things a secret from the Senate. Or she dies… rip Mae.
Laslty, my third and final theory is that Osha becomes a Sith, much to Qimir’s dismay. Why she’d side with his potential former Sith Master? I don’t know, but it’d be really interesting and sexy if Osha betrays not only Mae and Sol, but also Qimir by choosing neither of them. By choosing the side that wants all of them dead. By choosing to become the Sith Master’s acolyte.
Not to be the first soldier on the frontless of the woobification of Qimir (he is a villain, we know this, and I love him for it), but the lack of nuance, or rather the one-dimensional angle people who don't like his relationship with Osha have taken with him, irks me so bad. I get it. He is Sith, right. Treachery is their way; and what are the darksiders, if not self-serving?
But I feel like the specific phrasing of "the Jedi like you would call me Sith" implies so much about his own unique characterization, and I don't understand why we are glossing over it. It's not a self-identifier. It shows it isn't as much as a title he'd give himself, but a badge he'll wear since in the black/white viewpoint of the Jedi, he is not allowed to be anything more or less. His almost catty, "semantics" hammers in this fact for me, personally.
He strikes me as one who takes what he wants of the Sith code, and disregards the rest. I don't think it's a mistake that even after his reveal, we don't see him with the signature dark side eyes.
I say all this to say; Qimir's ultimate goal is not power, it is FREEDOM. *That* is what he is driven by. He craves to live outside the confines he deems as constrictive/oppressive, and have by his side, someone who wants the same.
So even while disregarding Leslye's interview; I honestly don't know how with what we've been shown in the show so far, aside from him being a sith, makes people think otherwise.
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so so so glad ur art has been taking off lately... i've loved ur dol art for ages now, so it's fun to see things with a wider appeal blow up! nwn
ty for sticking with me for so long !!!! it's honestly so surreal tbh,, im just kinda doing whatever comes to mind / whatever i want to do, im glad people seem to like it :33
#idkk its kinda lowkey scary in a way a part of me wants to gatekeep my stuff#NOT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL it just feels like im kinda put under a spotlight and im expected to keep drawing the same shit and idkkk#and idkkkkkk i dont want to say its for a wider appeal its kinda giving me the vibes of calling my drawings content and idkkkkkkkkkkkkkk#like ohh you have to know who ur target audience is oh you have to stop posting that bc no one cares and like who gives a shit#if i like it then i like it#i mean its why i dont put so many main tags in my stuff i just put the general fandom tag and character tag for organization purposes#except for like... that one mouthwashing drawing i think i wanted to add the character tags but it ended up looking like i was trying to#add every single tag under the sun 😭#which isnt bad btw !!!! i think every art/writing/project etc etc deserves to be seen and tags help with that#personally i dont like doing it so much unless i put a considerate amount of effort into a drawing bc i earned it or smthn#shit most of my stuff just has my personal tags in it i really didnt expect for them to suddenly be shared around#its that whole 'fear of being percieved vs that need for validation' i have going on. it kinda annoying tbh#sorry i got so rambly in the tags i overthink a lot can u tell LMAO#franswers
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I think about this a lot.
Like… what do you mean you think you’re annoying? How deep does your self-deprecation run? Did you go home and overthink your previous interaction with Elliot because you overshared due to the excitement of finally being able to talk to someone you’d been wanting to talk to for a while? DOES THE MENTAL HEALTH POSTER IN THE BACKGROUND HAVE SIGNIFICANCE DO YOU HATE YOURSELF??
#tmf#the music freaks#freakblr#tmf dominic#tmf dom#im reaching way to far with this lmao#but tbh I too tend to info-dump to ppl I care a lot about and then always overthink it and worry if im coming off as annoying so I feel thi
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i will be in permanent agony next year when marc squeezes pecco like a bug, unless it happens aragón 2021 style, where the unstoppable force (marc) meets an immovable object (passing pecco bagnaia), and marc has to really throw everything at it to come out on top. mostly because marc has a twinkle in his eyes when he looks at pecco, like he sees some sort of a challenge he’d enjoy to take on, and pecco just refuses to look at him 💀
also, martin said pecco plays the most amount of mind games, and i need to see that in 2025 before coming to a conclusion, otherwise it’s just jorge writing fanfiction about bagnaia as the ultimate bad guy of his life (i get it, jorge, next time pecco dnf’s i’ll choose to start stanning you, unlike the ducati bosses)
I think pecco does play mind games! admittedly if you're setting the standard at 'valentino', sure, he's pretty harmless, but pretty much every top level athlete will do a little of this! he does put some thought into how to manage expectations, what he's saying about his own chances and his opponents' chances going into weekends, that kind of thing. generally he might not outright attack his rivals, but he's not opposed to dropping the occasional snide remark. that being said, of course it's quite funny and revealing that jorge zeroed in on pecco as the mind games guy. pecco's very much his personal antagonist... such a good figure to externalise all those knotty feelings of being under-valued and under-appreciated and underrated... it's fairly natural that if you're fighting someone for a title, you get a bit of tunnel vision for them, so it's not that surprising a pick from martin. still fun! I absolutely buy martin's built pecco up a bit too much in his mind, is prone to reading malice into stuff where it probably wasn't intended on pecco's part. sometimes you end up playing mind games on yourself and the other guy doesn't really need to contribute
anyway, about the pecco/marc thing - yeah, look, obviously marc is the favourite in that title battle. that being said, if you look at marc's historical record, I wouldn't be all that surprised if aragon 2021 and jerez this year aren't the outliers. it's completely plausible marc wins that teammate battle quite comfortably but continues to lose in their actual one-on-one duels... because that did often happen during his prime. in 2013, sure, he won that early battle in jerez (which was just kinda building throughout to that one overtake), but he lost the rematch at silverstone. 2014 is the one where he was just kinda winning everything - so this one's kinda the exception, where he might lose some scraps like brno and misano but the extended battles in qatar, mugello, silverstone all go his way. from then on, the most memorable one-on-one duels with his big rivals are pretty often not working out in his favour. 2015 obviously a few with valentino, though he also doesn't win the title there so let's skip that, but 2016? the two duels everyone remembers from that year are mugello and catalunya - both go against him, both are defeats inflicted by his two main title rivals in jorge and valentino respectively, but it doesn't matter because afterwards the rest of the season goes his way. 2017 you've got austria and motegi where he takes on dovi and loses both times - but it doesn't change the momentum of the season and marc still wins in the end. 2018 doesn't really have a title fight, but again he's losing austria to jorge (before winning thailand so that's something). 2019, again not really a title fight, but he loses austria and silverstone before winning a couple of duels against rookie fabio at misano and thailand. in both those seasons, he's not really being challenged for the title - but if you looked just at the duels, you'd think the competition was a lot closer than the reality
none of this is to say that marc is bad at wheel-to-wheel racing, because he very obviously is not. (which by the way you can tell the moment you stop looking just at one-on-one's and include dogfights - sure, he's not won all of them, but pi '15 pi '17 assen '18 are all super memorable for a reason.) it's just an interesting pattern in his career: when he gets himself involved in extended duels with a single rival, he loses quite frequently, but it still doesn't hurt his title campaign. that's excellent mental resilience! it does, however, show that he doesn't really build his title campaigns around those big dramatic victories, around inflicting a dramatic and demoralising defeat on his rival in one-to-one combat. in this sense, he is obviously different from valentino: for instance 2004 is a title campaign that was built entirely around that trio of races early in the season (mugello, catalunya, assen) where he reclaims the championship lead and dulls sete's confidence by winning successive tight one-to-one battles. (also of course 2008/09, but those almost feel too obvious to mention.) when you look at marc's title campaigns, what they really rely on more than anything else is... well, consistency. the fact that he's basically always fast - and that generally speaking, he's finding himself in last lap duels at circuits where he shouldn't be able to contend for the victory at the last lap in the first place. (obviously qatar and austria, but also for instance honda was having a rough one at misano 2019, which is traditionally one of his strongest tracks but can be quite quirky.) (just saying, misano's a really good pecco track too... wouldn't that be fun...) it's relentless, intimidating pace that he's using to win all those titles... if you look at the races that changed the momentum in his various title winning seasons, it's not actually ever one-on-one duels, it's races where he won or was even just on the podium where all his rivals for one reason or another weren't there. maybe jorge and dani are injured, or maybe his rivals are having some horror show flag-to-flag races, or maybe ducati's having an off-weekend, or maybe everyone who isn't marc just refuses to stop crashing, or maybe jorge's decided to skittle the field
with the one-on-one battles themselves, sometimes it's kind of like... 'okay, sure, you won, but the fact I was even there probably isn't great news for you'. this is what jerez this year was about, right - of course, that was an important win for pecco, but also the fact that marc is fighting with him this early into his ducati career on a year old bike is certainly... a concern. obviously marc does want to win those duels, but he does also seem pretty capable of bouncing back after losing them. some of them have bothered him, sure - the worst was probably assen 2015, where there was obviously a lot of other stuff going on... and because it was that bit of the year where he was finding his feet again with that honda and they headed to the sachsenring next, his on-track performances didn't take a hit. you can argue that argentina 2015 did negatively affect his results... but that was also just a bit of the panic of 'I need to make up points now' in response to his first real adversity in the premier class - and anyway, everyone knows that wasn't a perfect marc season, the point is he was a lot better at managing this stuff going forwards. in 2016 and 2017 in particular, he really does do an excellent job of taking these close defeats in his stride
this is a long way of saying, look, I could easily imagine a version of 2025 where pecco wins a dramatic duel against marc at catalunya and then another one at mugello, and yet marc still wins that season pretty comfortably. that's basically the season I'm expecting... I'd quite like to have something different, because honestly I do enjoy it when the on-track battles actually affect title fights a bit more substantially! that being said, marc definitely wants to beat pecco in a one-on-one duel (though I'm sure that lovely le mans last lap pass will have gone a long way towards cheering him up) - and hey, interpersonal emotional stakes are a lot of fun too. hopefully even if there isn't much of a title fight they can still snap at each other a bit... as a treat
#marc's rivalries kinda quirky in that regard#do actually have an ask related to this sitting in my drafts i realised i was overthinking when i started filling in a spreadsheet#my thing about 2025 is i don't think pecco's going to fold... i just think he's going to lose. but i WANT some excitement sue me#thing is I don't think you can penalise him for the w2w defeats too badly but I was always kinda curious if he'd... y'know still improve#which tbh would've been a terrifying prospect for the field. like that was basically all we HAD to spice things up for two years#//#brr brr#batsplat responds#bagnaia/martin both sometimes remind me of casey#pecco's surliness jorge's tendency to find a malicious external actor to fire himself up. that's ducati hashtag heritage right there#both a touch too insecure sometimes mind u... casey was flappable too but u had to do a lot more flapping to get there#current tag
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since I didn't really seriously get into the fanfic side of the yr fandom until later in October last year: is kinktober a thing in the fandom?
#yr fanfic#tagging to get info#since I didn't get to do a lot of stuff for Simon month (😭😭😭) I am craving a month type challenge that I can actually participate in#tbh I've never done kinktober for other fandoms either. there are a bunch of different prompt lists as far as I can see?#but like... yeah.... I'd like to challenge myself but I'm not sure if I should just use a prompt list floating around out there? or idk?#ask people for prompts? do people even wanna give kinky prompts?#I'm just stuck here overthinking the logistics lmao#but if anyone were to have any prompts in particular 👉👈 hmu#I love a smut challenge#simon.out.#simon does kinktober
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okay ive been thinking about this for a little bit but what sort of dress would thunder wear.
i was thinking perhaps something fancy? like a sleeveless dress or something with some sort of armor? perhaps not something that drags on the floor though
or maybe something a bit more practical? something that isn’t really a dress but you can move more freely/have more protection in (or just generally looks more square/sharp)
#thunder in the show clearly cares a lot more about his image than shiny which means dress would probably be a bit more restrictive for him#and tbh it isnt really that i feel like he would entirely hate wearing something feminine in general? i think hes more worried about people#‘s perception of him wearing a dress. if yknow what i mean#i could also say fuck what i think he thinks and put him in a random ass dress but man. MAN i just care a lot#and i mean i have thought/discussed putting him in a big stupid dress so maybe im just overthinking it LMAO#anyways feel free to give feedback#images of dresses are GREATLY appreciated 🙏🙏#worf opens their big mouth#super giant robot brothers#sgrb#also the main reason i chose a sleeveless dress was mainly so i didnt have to deal with his wide ass shoulders LMAL#BTW HI DISCORD PPL I KNOW WE DISCUSSED IT A BIT THERE BUT I WANNA EXPAND THAT IDEA HERE
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#splatoon#splatoon oc#sydney (oc)#shades (yen)#other's ocs#lizzy does art#this was a test in seeing how fast i can draw without overthinking... trying to exercise the storytelling muscles...!#i think that i have a lot i can work on but i've been feeling a real itch to do comics and im tryna find a style sustainable for that!#if i overthink about how everything looks there's no way im gonna be able to develop storytelling muscles LMAOOO. but anw.#it's been a lot more fun to draw quicker doodles that go together in sequential order than doing illustrations tbh 😭#want to take the time in the tags 2 remind everyone on the dash that we should all unlearn shame together. lets make silly little arts!!#remember that it is OK to discard parts of the process that dont serve you...!#let's make art that's in-line with our values and what we want to draw...! not what someone else expects out of us...!
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HE STRAIGHT UP CALLED DAZAI-SAN SENILE
#I don't know what's funnier‚ Akutagawa straight up calling Dazai senile‚ the suspicious rainbow mention‚ the way he dramatically grips–#his cravat...#bsd#bsd ch 84#bsd ch 84-88#mine#q.#21/09/22#Actually I'm reconsidering the reblog chain thing *checks* one minute before posting because if it's a thread with images-#then it'd be too long and I don't want to clog anyone's dash#This is what I deserve for not liveblogging like any normal person tbh#And for being a chronic overthinker#Whatever I don't even know why I'm overthinking this to begin with. This is exactly the reason why I don't like having a lot of followers#Just unfollow me if it gets annoying!!!
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Monkie Kid AND pirates!?!?!? Please, do share.❤️
The way I internally screamed when I saw this in my askbox /pos
( The actual au rambling starts after the ‘——————‘ in case anyone reading this wants to skip, everything before that is just me talking )
Sorry for not answering immediately by the way! I was having trouble gathering my thoughts in a way that could actually be considered cohesive because I kept coming back to the fact that I made one colored sketch of my stupid Monkie Kid pirate au that I haven’t touched since June and got an ask about it within 24 hours of posting said sketch. ( Technically, 3 asks, but the other 2 are from my bestie Dark who’s obligated to support me, as he is my best friend, so those don’t count /j ( Love you Dark don’t kill me please ) )
Originally I wanted to draw something for this ask. Then I remembered Macaque is the only one with a proper drawn design right now ( and he doesn’t even have a reference ) because I decided to redesign everyone since the other designs are from several months ago and my art has changed since then. I didn’t want to leave this ask sitting in my inbox for however long it’d take me to design all the characters I’d need for the idea I had, so I decided to just settle for a little au ranting instead, though once I get those designs done I will be trying to draw for asks ( that is, if I get any other asks about this au ).
Okay, now it’s time to actually ramble about what you came to hear about- I apologize if it’s a little all over the place, I haven’t ever really talked about this au outside of conversations with friends haha
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I’ve decided to only talk about a few things for now because if I tried to go over everything it’d be way too long and nobody wants to read that much about a random Monkie Kid pirate au. So instead I’ve decided to just give a summarized explanation of how this au starts, a plus a few little fun facts about the characters.
I would like to say that I did screw logic a little bit with this au. As in, logically, if pirates were common before Wukong was imprisoned under a mountain, things would probably be a lot different during the main events of the au, which takes place over a thousand years later. However it’s not that different, because I made this au for the pirates, not the logic. Plus, Monkie Kid isn’t the most ‘realistic’ show anyways, that’s one of the things that makes it fun.
Oh, also, I think I mentioned this in the first post about this au a few months ago, but this au was created when I made the impulsive decision to watch all the Pirates of the Caribbean movies on a random Thursday in May. I mention this because I think there’s definitely some stuff in the au that you can tell was inspired by/based on the Pirates of the Caribbean movies, especially with Lady Bone Demon and the events of Season 3, Macaque also has a thing going on that closely resembles something in one of those movies, not an exact match, but pretty dang close. Not even covering any of that stuff in this rant I just thought I’d go ahead and get that out of the way so nobody notices the similarities and thinks it was something I was trying to hide ahah-
✨Now time to actually explain the start of the au✨
MK, via shenanigans, ends up on the ship of Sun Wukong, the Monkey King, who’s a well-known hero and MK’s idle. Wukong decides he likes the kid’s energy and wants to train him, if he can prove himself, that is ( also the kid can lift his staff which is pretty much a clear sign he should mentor said kid ). MK agrees, meanwhile his friends are trying to figure out what the heck happened to him and where he’s gone, going down a conspiracy theory/rumor rabbit hole until they all decide that MK is likely in danger and needs their help, so they all pack their things and set off with barely any idea what they’re doing but enough spirit to make up for it. MK passes his trial, greatly angering the Demon Bull Family in the process- but hey, his friends are here now! Though he’s just now realizing he didn’t tell anyone before he left and they all thought he was missing. Since MK passed the test, Wukong is ready to have him as a student, unfortunately MK is also just now realizing he has to pick between going home and staying so Wukong can mentor him. He’s torn, it’s an impossible decision to make, so obviously he decides not to make it at all, instead turning to ask his brand new mentor and asking if maybe- just maybe- his friends could stay too? If they helped out and didn’t cause too much trouble? Wukong, after much persuasion, agrees, though somewhat reluctantly, if MK’s friends wish to stay, they can. Then MK has to convince his friends that dropping their entire lives to live on a boat is a good idea, which he surprisingly does accomplish, it helped that Mei was on his side almost immediately. So, after a quick trip home to get everything in order, they all set sail together, eagerly awaiting the adventures to come ( while completely oblivious to the horrors that would follow /j )
And now it’s time for…
✨A Somewhat Chaotic And Random Character Fun Fact List✨
Ne Zha is overworked and not paid enough for this bullshit
MK accidentally gets close to killing his opponent(s) on multiple occasions
Tang ran a little book store before the main events of the au started
Lady Bone Demon never possesses a child
Mei gets a gun
Red Son lost most of his left leg, he built his own prosthetic
Macaque embraced the ‘spooky ghost pirate villain’ role a LOT before his eventual redemption
The Spider Gang lives!
Wukong does have a permit and it’s not just a piece of paper that says “I do what I want” /hj
Vague height order, tallest to shortest, goes: Sandy, Ne Zha ( with rings ), Red Son, Tang, Wukong, Ne Zha ( without rings ), Macaque, MK, Mei, Pigsy ( Obviously I didn’t include EVERY character, just the main cast + my favorites )
Out of MK’s friends, Sandy is the only one who really knows anything about sailing
Macaque has a frankly ridiculous amount of daggers hidden in both areas he visits frequently and his outfit ( my guy even keeps one in each of his boots )
MK’s swimming abilities are mediocre at best
I think that’s a pretty good amount of information to start out with, since I DO want to post more about this au in the future. I don’t know how consistently I’d post since it takes me a lot longer to finish stuff, but I’d definitely try my best! I mean, just typing out answers to questions is easy, but if possible I’d like to draw stuff to go with answers and such. But this is like- the best case scenario where magically a group of people who are invested in the idea of a Monkie kid pirate au find this, which I don’t really expect tbh, it really just depends on how things go ig.
Anyways, if you got this far, thanks for taking the time to read all of this, I hope it was entertaining, I hope there’s no typos, I’m going to go draw my pirates now
#I had no idea what I was doing writing this tbh#sorry if it’s not quite what you expected/hoped for aha#To be frank I am not expecting this au to gain any attention#However my brain likes to prepare for every possible situation#So I’ve already started overthinking what I’d do if it DID somehow get attention#I somehow managed to make this feel like I didn’t include enough information but at the same time feel like I made this way too long#lmk pirate au#Obligatory ‘if you’re curious about anything/have any questions feel free to ask’ tag#I know it’s annoying but I also know that a lot of people will just- not say anything because they feel like they’re bothering a creator
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#Ive thought about it for a long time so this was an eventuality: I think... personally its weird how kimaiz and cladem are#treated a lot differently and Im not saying their disabilities or disorders are the same im just saying that like me a lot of people really#LIKE cladem I think thats great but I know. That I can take a joke. And i know kimaiz is a legit otaku but its just that#I dont know maybe im taking the “I WANT TO KILL KIMAIZ” jokes too seriously. Because yeah he is legit dying. Death soon and impending but#I dunno. “He is a jackass sometimes” but is not being told youre about to die every second a privilege that you have to be kind enough for#Im overthinking this tbh. Whatever on everything
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Tonight, right now, not even ten minutes ago, might have been the closest I got to an outright hatecrime
#morningtalks#Ask to tag#<- I have no clue what I'd have to tag this tbh#But for the story.#Me and my friend (crush) are walking at two am after quite the night. I am fully sober but she's got a few drinks and is just tired now#Like we're walking in silence she's just done type of tired#(part of me worries I was too in love with her tonight but I will do my best to rationalize it as Her Being Tired and not my fault somehow)#But yeah we're walking there and we see/hear a bunch of guys that are clearly not on their first drink#They plan to go to the bar we were so I'm glad we left but they are full on far right singing slogans about getting the leftists out#We cross each other on the street and they immediately begin asking us if we're lefties but then they see my pins#And the fact that we're two girls walking alone and assume we're both lesbians#Ify I obviously am. I have Pins lmao but my crush is not (?)#But yeah I had heard their slogans from afar and had already grabbed my scissors discretely in case something happened#I was genuinely just getting myself ready to fight them all just to leave my friend a chance to run if possible#But I was genuinely scared for her (and also for me but I have a bad habit of prioritizing others' wellbeing and especially here)#So they think we're lesbians and immediately start yelling they don't like lesbians and some other hurtful stuff#But it didn't fully enter my brain. I genuinely don't care#But I was still very afraid they DO something#Luckily they just walked away and we were left in peace but I was genuinely ready to do literally anything to not let my friend get hurt#By these men#I might see her a bit tomorrow. Probably not a lot but we'll see each other#And she doesn't seem to mind too much (she thought we'd see each other next week for class obviously and said “til next week”#(translated quite literally))#I thanked her for the evening still but I genuinely think she just needs to sleep and I don't have to overthink everything that happened#In the end#The first hours of the night were AMAZING though. Genuinely never been closer to her than there I adored every second of it#(and the other people were fun too but. She. Yano)#Anyways I have a thing at 11 I'll go sleep before being fully dead for that thing#But I might genuinely have a delayed reaction on those last events tomorrow#But now I gotta sleep too
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what if you wanted to draw, but your drawing ability said 'damn bitch u really suck ass at anatomy wtf'.
#DAMN did i forget how to anatomy or what#i drew anatomy a lot a couple months ago#and now i only do portaits#and not very good anatomy#RIP tbh#anyways pspsps i have a lwj drawing#did i remember the abbreviation correctly? fuck idk#i think#this was going to be a THIRD digital painting of him but im a dumb lazy hoe#lan wangji fanart#lan wangji sketch#lan wangji#mdzs fanart#mdzs#mo dao zu shi fanart#mo dao zu shi#sketch#doodle#not me always drawing at 3-4 am#not me overthinking the way this looks too istg im going to kms
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I cannot with this woman
#i'm prolly overthinking here but like. she definitely doesn't like me as much as i like her (as a friend)#which is insane cause objectively she's the one who's initiated everything: she's the one who started dming me and formed a friendship but#also like. she's too good to be true tbh i love her lots#she's told me she thinks im a good friend and she likes me but i cant even seriously fathom her thinking of me positively which is a me-#-problem AAAA I LIKE HER SO MUCH BUT IM A DUMBASS AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO TREAT HER 😭#im paranoid that deep down i significantly annoy her at worse and am just there at best i mean she doesnt have to like me no obligation here#but idk. i should prolly be offline instead of wtever this is#ਰੇਵਾ
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I'm ngl I'm feeling real self-conscious of tomorrow's entry 🧍
#like............... it's kinda too late to do anything about it now LMFAO no take backs#but like. it was a v in the moment thing and also like. not nearly as fleshed out as i would have liked#due to time constraints lmfao. can never quite get that design right anyway.#but also more than that i'm just having a lot of self-doubt/second-guessing it. like. i know it's all for funsies#but man..... not only does it not feel v fleshed out it also just feels like. one of those#'you strayed so far from the source material you might as well make a new guy' about it#like.... it's so half-baked and entirely self-indulgent and now i'm wondering if it even fits.#agonizing over it. tbh.#also in one of those 'i gotta find a hole to crawl into and die in' moods. for like no reason LMFAOO#i just feel..... a little to seen...... or a little too vunerable.......... and i have to act like a wounded animal about it LMFAO#i can never figure out where that line is. or why it even happens when that was the whole point!!!!!!!!!!!#tomorrow i'm going to a concert too so like. all booked up. my fate is sealed.#SAD.... well there are other entries. and who knows maybe i'm overthinking it.
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Does anyone else think about AUs/multi-universal plots and rps or am I the weird one/a holdover from the past? o(-<
#ooc#allie rambles#thinking about how I used to run a rp blog#that was malleable enough to fit into a LOT of fandoms#But also crossovers in general#I kinda miss it#I miss the unrestricted fun of just throwing characters to see what sticks#only reason I don't do it now is cuz I don't want to lose ships I currently have#idk I'm prolly overthinking tbh#I just want to rp#and say fuck the rules on a lot of things
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when writing ur analyses, do u still make outlines for them? kind of like an essay?
nope! most of the time it’s just stream of consciousness, then i clean up before posting! depending on the topic, i read up on things before forming an opinion and writing a post!
#this is why most of my analyses are kinda short compared to some on here 😭#because a lot of them are just midday epiphanies than something planned 😭#but i should start making cleaner outlines tbh…#if it helps i used to do some debate and you really have to think structurally on the spot#but tbh i’m just a chronic overthinker and someone who barks a lot so…#yea!!#asks
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