#I need space to do what makes me happy without being harassed over it you know?

[alexandriteobscuraarchive]

you're deleting???? TT n TT

((No, not at all. Okay, the thought has been a struggle here lately I can't lie about that but as of right now? No. I'm still fighting the...probably ill advised fight. All I'm doing is considering moving a handful of muses to their own blog is all. I merely snagged the URL I wanted for it (and got it!) and kind of started setting it up, just a little. Testing the waters, seeing how it makes me feel, and so on.

Also hey?? I appreciate you caring so much? Thank you for that.))

[enivez]

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN (written .9k)

SYNOPSIS…. Gaming is a common hobby for college students nowadays, with Overwatch being the game of choice for both Lee Heeseung and his favorite streamer loved.venus. The boy shows his love for his favorite streamer behind the screen name lee.bambi, though he doesn’t realize it was the campus fashionista that he hated ever so much behind the screen.

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DING! DING! DING!

You were awoken by the sound of your phone continuously going off, at first you ignored it - letting your fatigue carry you back to sleep. Though after feeling Jake shove you and Sunghoon burying his head further into your pillows to escape the noise, you finally decided to search for your phone. Reaching around the space around your pillows, you finally find the device that had disturbed your well needed beauty rest.

Oh how you wish you would’ve just stayed asleep, now finding yourself sat up straight running your hands through your hair as you read all the notifications. The two others in your bed now stirring as you begin to panic, unable to believe you had missed the stream you had promised to do. Sunghoon sat up first, rubbing your back as your breath began to become sporadic and tears welled up.

When did streaming begin to become the stress that you had first tried to escape through streaming?

“Hey what are you thinking right now,” Jake says as he hands you the bottle of water that was sitting on your bedside table. When you’re reluctant to drink, the boy opens it for you, ushering you to take at least a sip.

You didn’t have the courage to take a sip, nor to answer Jake’s question. Feelings of guilt, fear, and frustration racing through your mind. You felt silly for feeling all this over a single missed stream, it wasn’t even the first time you had missed a stream. Though suddenly you felt like everyone was watching for the downfall of Venus, the downfall of you.

You suddenly felt a small presence lick your hand, Artemis saying ‘take your time’ in his own way. Holding the small kitten up to your chest, feeling it purr against your skin. You take a deep breath, closing your eyes before you speak.

“I don’t think I can be Venus anymore.”

It was like a weight was lifted off your chest, the stress of managing these two sides of you being dispersed.

“You never were Venus, Venus is you,” the voice of none other than Park Jongseong rang out.

Looking up you’re met with the new guests in your apartment. Jay and Tsuki climb into your bed, whilst Ningning sets down a tub of ice cream on your bedside table. Tsuki rests her head on your shoulder, wrapping her arm around you.

“I remember when you first started streaming, you were so happy. I was so happy that more people got to see you be you. You’ve been running from yourself for so long.”

You can feel Tsuki’s voice vibrating through your body as she says the words you didn’t want to hear but needed to. Looking down at your lap in embarrassment, a sudden face was in front of you.

“When was the last time you genuinely enjoyed streaming or fashion,” Ningning questions as her head rests in your lap, her gaze piercing into you.

Truth is, you can’t remember. You hadn’t enjoyed anything since the start of this semester. You have felt the weight of your future crushing you, desperate to prove to the world you’re more than the name you were born with. Venus was the way you escaped that name, and now that so many are trying to take it away from you...

Jay was right, Venus is you, that’s why she exists. She wouldn’t exist without you, but as of recently she’s become more and more of what you believe you should be.

“I wanna keep streaming, it makes me happy, or at least it did. I just want to be myself, I just feel like everyone has the predetermined idea of me and I don’t want that to be Venus’ fate as well. Ever since the gossip page started harassing me, as Venus, about my identity I’ve had so many more eyes on me. I can deal with the eyes when I have my guard up, when I’m acting as [Name], but that’s not me. I wanna be silly, I wanna go on tangents about games fashion, and I want to be able to make connections without there being an agenda.”

“Then keep streaming, it's the minority of people trying to unmask you. Majority of your viewers are there because they genuinely love you. They won’t care when and if they find out that you are Venus,” Jay says as he pulls the comforter over his body, ready to go to sleep.

Despite the tears still staining your cheeks, you find yourself rolling your eyes at the eldest member of your group. You know what he says is true, though it's hard to believe when you’re so stuck in your own head. You let out a sigh, looking up at your friends that are now squishing you into your bed. A lopsided smile escapes your lips, you felt loved.

Jake and Sunghoon were devouring the ice cream that Ningning had bought, earning an earful from the girl as she braids Tsuki’s hair. Jay was already well on his way into dreamland, truly amazed by how the boy could sleep despite the chaos around him.

These were your people, you were so happy that at the end of the day it is them that you can rely on.

Ding! Ding!

A/N: angst? comfort? idk drama

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[xxx-theartofsuicide-xxx]

I had to pass out last night so I didn’t get a chance to take a look at your posts until now, and this is easier than reblogging shit over and over. And forgive me for missing things - it’s ass o,clock in the morning here. I really like your theory about it being married to the cartoon, because I do feel like the Beetlejuice we got in the second movie is a lot more like that iteration than the first movie. I’m also happy to keep both entities separate but fan theories are part of what makes fandom great and I can definitely see it. The theory that I agree with most is that the ENTIRE second film is the dream and this is BJ’s way, during the wedding scene, of letting us know that none of this is real. Couple of possibilities here:

1) Her waking up at the end with the indented pillow I think could be a nod to something like you suggested where she grew up, never got hitched or had a kid and she’s just been clowning around with BJ the whole time, much of which as a couple, maybe they do even have the ghost house show but it’s a long con they’re running together from both sides lol. Otherwise, why show him in bed with her at all?

2) Could Charles death brought her and the others to the house and allowed BJ to use her dreams to show her the truth about her relationship with Rory and her daughter?

3) I also like the to play with the idea that it isn’t all a dream up to a certain point, and that there’s a time skip between their escape before failed second wedding and when she has the dream about the future only for it to turn into the beetle baby nightmare lol. People can take it at face value to play with that. In that scenario she’d have to wake up and make changes because Rory would still be in the picture, and maybe she can keep Delia from killing herself lol. There’s a lot there to work with.

This is part of the genius of Burton, Gough and Millar tho. I think where fans run into trouble is that some folks cannot accept that it can be interpreted many ways and that all the ways are technically correct. You can take and leave whatever you want. I think a great example of that inability to accept differences is like…

I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I’d say within the last seven years or so, fans have gotten really aggressive about canon actualization and then bringing the disappointment (sometimes in extreme ways) when the creators and writers of a work take the plot and its characters in a direction the disagrees with their head canons and desires for the work. And we get all kinds of weird harassment of writers and actors and shit and just, I’m from an entirely different school of thought.

It’s always been my understanding that transformative works like fanart and fanfiction were where fans went to create the outcomes they desired for their favorite stories and characters. I’ve never understood the need to have a headcanon or canon to become actual canon. I feel like canon has its space and fandom, likewise, has its own space, and if something from fandom actualizes into canon, awesome. But if it doesn’t, then who cares? So all these antis and others who refuse to accept that art is made to be interpreted just seem so silly to me. Which is why I responded to your post originally. So, I apologize for mischaracterizing you.

Apology accepted, and I'm sorry if any of my responses were needlessly harsh. I most definitely have noticed the rise in vitriol. I was here through all of it and was a key player in the Beetlewars. There was a time when you couldn't Google "beetlebabes" without finding antis complaining about me specifically by name on all the big social media platforms. It's made me a bit jaded in my response to others, but at my core I am a person who respects artistic freedom and freedom of fan interpretation.

In fact, I think the whole point of Beetlejuice Beetlejuice is that it's a spite film meant to insult fans who take it too literally. I strongly urge all of my haters to please, please take the plot literally lmao. I want them to. Tim wants them to.

The need for "headcanon" to become canon is weak af. As far as I'm concerned, my interpretation is canon because it's derived entirely from canon. I don't need Tim or Winona or any of the legends to validate that for me. This is partially why I'm not a fan of BJ3 begging. It feels greedy to me. I've learned my lesson about asking for more beetlebabes smdh.

The dreamverse is just canon, honestly. It's up to user interpretation where the dream starts and how much of the fantasy is indeed a fantasy, but it makes the most sense to me that the entire plot is hooey. Basically every lifelong babe I know prefers to believe that Lydia spent her life with BJ and I don't see why Winona would be any different. Personally, I think they're in the twisted cuck phase of their marriage.

As a bonus, here's my literal interpretation.

[stormblessed95]

I'm Stepping Away For A While...

Over the past week, and then some, I have been called a multitude of names in an effort to make fun of me and rude names including wh*re, p**sy, bitch, a liar, a fake, etc. I've been told I'm a fake/bad ARMY, a fake jikooker, etc. Ive had people call my friends deragatory names and misgender them. And I've also had someone in my DMs try to gaslight me into believing that this was not harassment or Bullying, but that I should apologize to my followers for threatening to block people and that people were just expressing strongly worded commentary over how my actions hurt them. And that I needed to take responsibility for creating the drama at all. And none of that is okay, and honestly it's been a lot. And the way people just brushed over the name calling and harassment regardless of if they disagreed with me or liked me, that was a lot too.

Blocking people to curate my space is not harassment or bullying or disrespectful. Its simply protecting myself and trying to curate a safe space for me personally. Nor have I ever started a hate campaign to try and drive another blogger off the platform. And if a post of mine encouraged people to send messages or hurtful asks to someone else, and I KNEW about it, I would've said something and asked them to stop. Sharing an opinion or disagreeing with someone is not me sending anyone hate. Nor would I ever want that for anyone regardless of any disagreements we had over whatever topic.

I've lost quite a few followers over the past week, people believing things that are being said and that's fine, i was never here for the numbers anyway. Id rather you unfollow or block me peacefully if you dont like me or my posts. Some of the people engaging with this hate against me were honestly surprising. But it is what it is. But I don't feel safe in this space anymore. I honestly haven't for a while. Blogging isn't as fun anymore. I don't want to post while it feels like a chore. And that's not because of anyone or anything in particular. I opened this blog because it brought me joy and it was fun. And it's really sad that something that brought me happiness is no longer doing that for me. It's not just all this drama either. It's probably been awhile coming, making my timeline posts for longer posts felt more like something I had to do for you all instead of something I wanted to do for me. And that's not what I want for this space.

So I'll be stepping away for awhile. When or if I come back will depend on if I can get that joy back for doing this and I feel like this can be a fun corner of the internet for all of us together again. And also for if I feel like I can do this without it being so mentally draining and just not good for my mental health like it has been lately.

I'll leave my blog here and my masterlist because I know that a lot of people enjoy the archive of some past content I have cataloged there. I don't want to take that away from anyone for that reason alone since I want people to be able to access that content if they can't otherwise find it. I also want the option to be able to come back to this blog again at some point. So I don't want to delete it or say I'm stepping away permanently, nor do I want people wondering what happened to me or anything. I just need a break. I do apologize for all the post series I have started that are remaining unfinished now for a little while.

If you want to unfollow me knowing that I'll be absent from here for awhile or for any other reason, that's totally fine. Honest. No hard feelings. I wish you well and hope everyone will continue to do well and enjoy the next few months of music, content and love from the members. Maybe I'll try to be back in time for JJK1 whenever that happens.

Again, this is just something I need. I'm okay, I'm not hurt or upset. I just need a break. I appreciate you all understanding. I'll still be in this fandom and be ARMY for life. I'll still be around for the next day or so. Thank you for understanding. I do love you guys and hope to back as soon as I'm able to.

[sasori-rp]

A much needed Post

Good evening everyone, I hope you're all having a good day.💜

Yes, I probably tagged you in this, dear stranger. Before you click off, I ask you to give me 5 minutes of your time. Just 5, then you can go about your day. But I would appreciate it, if you listened to what I have to say, because it means a lot to me and many...many others.

I'm posting today, because this topic has been on my heart lately and I wanted to share my thoughts with you. I'm sure you've already guessed that this is about the whole Kisame-anon chaos.

Before we begin, I want to get this out of the way: This post is coming from a genuine and loving place. My goal is not to point fingers, nor placing blame or justify anyone's actions, including my own. This post is about me, trying to understand the entire situation and providing my sentiments to it.

Act I: Why do I not just shut up?

Why do I get involved you might ask? It's not so much that I want to get involved. It's more that any anon who begins their journey here, gets inevitably sucked into it. We are faced with angry posts, confusing explanations and forced to choose who to believe and support. If you don't, you walk on eggshells filled with guilt and if you do, you're being blocked by the entire half of the disagreeing party.

This is not what I signed up for.

I come on to Tumblr to Roleplay and have fun. I've been having a splendid time here. You guys are making me so happy as of late, allowing me to play freely and giving me a space for all my creative ideas. And I want to continue doing so.

I want to be able to chat up anyone, without fearing that someone else will jump at my throat for it. That includes Kisame, Hidan, Orochimaru and many more of you wonderdul RPers.

Recently I have noticed that I've been blocked by several people and I can guess, what the reason is. And it saddens me because...I like you guys. We were talking and sharing fun experiences, only for me to discover that I am suddenly cut off from it. For no other reason than that I interact with a person they have a quarrel with. And that is just...not the solution. So what is the solution?

Act II: The Anon War in a nutshell

Now, from my understanding, there is a big rift between two groups.

1) Those who have received digital harassment in form of hate/rape/death threats (and believe Kisame-anon to be the culprit)

and

2) Those who defend Kisame against those claims, or, like me, don't just blindly hop onto a hate train they saw on the internet

Again, my goal with this post is not to be the divine judge over who is in the right here. It is, objectively, pretty much impossible from an outsider's standpoint. And additionally, I don't think either of you is necessarily to blame for your individual reactions.

I absolutely feel for you guys, Hidan-anon and your friends. I, too, would be seething if someone I love was harrassed in the way Hidan (and co) has been. I do not know the extent of the harrassment. But I believe you when you say, that you've suffered. And I am very sorry you have been through that.

I also feel for Hidans friends, who, (bless their hearts) really are trying to protect them from further harm. An absolutely understandable sentiment.

I do however, also really feel for Kisame, who, (bear with me here) is probably being framed. They have been faced with a lot of backlash from party 1, have tried to defend themselves to no avail, up to the point of having to retreat. And all that...for what?

Act III: The Point I'm trying to make

Do none of you realise, that you're being pinned against each other?

There is a person (or perhaps several) that has harrassed Hidan-anon with very vile threats and they are getting away with it. There is someone out there, that is having the time of their life, watching you scratch each others eyes out, causing pain and suffering for everyone involved, while they sit back and watch the show.

Kisame-anon has not sent you these messages. They have proof of it. Wether you believe them or not, is up to you, but...

Do you really want to keep hurling hate at a person, that is just as much a victim as you are? A person who, themselves, is a victim of sexual abuse and would never even think of the idea of sending someone rape threats?

Would you not rather work together to bring that (pardon my french) asshat to justice, that is playing sick games with the both of you?

And mind you, it's not just Kisame you're isolating. You're isolating their friends, who are doing the same as you: Protecting those they care about.

You're isolating kind strangers like me, who just want to roleplay without the drama, by blocking them by mere association.

And you're isolating oblivious newcomers, who might have the misfortune of stumbling over the "wrong" blog at the wrong time.

This is not okay guys.

And coercing others into doing the same (blocking by association) is further doing damage, because many people just want to stay away from the drama and thus do as you say without much thought. The whole thing is harmful in itself, but it's worse, because you're doing it to the wrong person.

Kisame has evidence that they're innocent. Kisame also has a quite solid theory who it is. Do you not want to at least have a look at it?

If you truly care about the safety and wellbeing of your friends, I strongly suggest you do. Because the actual predator is still out there.

I am glad that Hidan went to the police. I hope that they find who is behind all of this and that they get taken care of for good. Because like things stand now, you're about to drag an innocent person to the guillotine and letting the true perpetrator go. And you're dividing an entire RP fandom, that used to be a safe space.

I don't want this to happen.

Act IV: So...what now?

I want this post to be a wake up call. A wake up call for all those who are as confused, as I was and unsure what to do; but also, especially, to Hidan-anon and friends. Please, let us put down arms and find a solution.

I care about you. And I care about Kisame. And I love this little RP space we built and the friends I made here. I want us to stand together, acknowledge each other's suffering and grow as people. Let us talk things out.

I want this post to be a safe place for exchange. Feel free to add your thoughts and sentiments in the comments. Everything is welcome, as long as it is respectful and communicated calmly. I am more than happy to provide you with a neutral ground to talk things out. My DMs and Asks are always open for anyone who needs an ear or a shoulder.

We, as Naruto fans, more than anyone else, should know that hate creates nothing but more hate. So let us lead with compassion and patience. And listen to each other. Thank you for your attention.

[spookyvenuswrites777]

Yan! Jotaro x Darling

Warning: I want to apologize in advance, because as I mentioned in my presentation, I am not a native English speaker. Still, I hope you enjoy the content that sounded much better in my head.

B.I.C.T.H entertainment wants to give you a small warning about the things you can find in this story.

Kidnapping

Mention of mutilated bodies.

Harassment

References to drugs (Which are not used at any time in the story, but there are descriptions that refer to them)

Masturbation

Sexual fantasies

Suicide

Murdering

Jotaro is always alone because he doesn't like people or maybe... The people who try to invade his space. He doesn't even like those girls, who always walk behind and scream with an annoying voices. 

Darling arrived not long ago, for being so selective, you still didn't make a friend. Until, on your way in the corridors, you meet Jotaro, both look into each other's eyes for a few seconds, darling pay attention but Jotaro does not too much. 

One day, when you decide to go and talk with him, Jotaro tries to not look interested, but for some reason... Darling has something that he likes, something that makes him happy inside of his heart and he doesn't want to lose it (he wants it for eternity)... You become best friends, or so you thought, Jotaro feels something more he thinks about you like a "loved" one, his favorite person, the perfect one for him. 

So, when you least expect Jotaro, start stealing some small things from your backpack, hair pins, or sometimes, your favorite colors from your pencil case. He really loves all that stuff he keeps with him, Everything carefully stored in a drawer, already in case no one could enter his room, now much less, and you might think that this was enough to be happy, but no... He needed more… And like a miracle sent from god 

One day you two have sports class, the shorts that everyone wears. Those shorts that somehow should be a bit baggy, but yours are tight ... Too tight... Tight enough to make your buttocks even get too marked on them.  He really enjoys seeing you running or doing other things. 

"No one deserves to see your perfection, your beauty, that brightness that characterizes you... Only I should be the only one who can appreciate it."

The other boys are enjoying the show too, see you like an object, and others from other classes are yelling at you things that its only description is "unpleasant", now... You're feeling uncomfortable. 

"Hey, come to my house today and give me a show with those sexy shorts you have" 

Some of the things you heard were too close, close enough to look back and give a kick to the bastard who said that. 

"The only show you will see is my fist destroying your mouth and pulling away all your teeth" 

Jotaro, who was going to help you, and get you out of that trouble… He stayed in Shook watching you defend yourself without hesitation, scaring the others who were saying things, just for a minute because Then they came back shouting the same things, just to make you angry. 

Jotaro gets angry too, so he thinks of a plan, but he doesn't tell you, because he doesn't want you to panic or misunderstand the idea. 

So he takes a seat and pulls you towards him, sitting you on his lap, you're confused, but you don't even say something, because you feel too comfortable and he's your best friend, so you don't see anything weird or even feel something to worry about. 

But he's feeling too good, so happy... Touching your skin with his skin, makes him turn on, he wants you just for him and no one. His imagination starts to think of one million scenarios where he makes you his, you didn't notice but the only thing going through his head is fuck you like an animal. When the class was over, you changed and went to your classroom, but you forgot your shorts, so Jotaro took them. He thought he would return it, but...

He put his nose over the fabric, feeling your smell, just like a drug, he couldn't stop smelling the fabric. Feeling so hot and his dick gets hard... You know what happened here, and if you don't know, he used your shorts for personal reasons... You never see those shorts again, and, You never saw that boy who after that class started harassing you because he wanted a date, hiding his true intentions.

A student suicides but no one knows the reason, some people think it was, in reality, a murder, while other, just gets comfortable with the information the police give them. But everyone knows something is off and the police don't want to talk about it.

(B.I.T.C.H wants to alert you: the corrupts are going for you, run away, and hide or if you want to stay, don’t look behind you. If you feel something weird, call the cops and the B.I.T.C.H emergency department type 5) 

"Did you see my shorts? I think I lost it, my mom is going to kill me"    

"No, I didn't see it, where did you leave it??" 

"Shit, I can't even remember where I dropped it, well it doesn't matter anymore"

Both of you decide to forget about the history of your shorts, but obviously, Jotaro wants to laugh about that because you are never going to know about that. He's starting to be obsessed with you, well let’s be honest, he’s been obsessed long ago. He’s started to follow you without you noticing, your shorts, he keeps them like a trophy, he likes to use them for things that you could never imagine, masturbating his cock… Now he feels the only way to make him get an orgasm is… Using your things and smelling them just like drugs.

You and he: you see it like a best friend, but he looks at your relationship, like a lover, but with the fact that you don’t even know about it. One night Jotaro invites you to see a movie, and you accept the invitation, you wear your best clothes and you're using your best perfume, because you want to make the invitation special, maybe you started to feel something for him but you have it in doubt.

You and he, are just happy to see each other on a weekend, planning to eat and laugh about the topics of the movies. Jotaro has never met someone like you, so perfect, so cute, so kind, and capable of fighting their own battles.

Still, he wanted more of you, more of your friendship, more of the occasional times his skin brushed against yours. He’s jealous of those who are always on top of you, bothering you or making you laugh in his eyes, after what happened with the boy who harassed you. You are no longer safe, there is no longer a safe world for you because everyone wants to stay with you, in his mind, they want to be by your side with bad intentions and therefore that night would be the last one you would see your parents. And you didn't even expect something like that, your best friend turning a nice conversation and a movie outing into the worst horror story in all of Tokyo.

“Tokyo police inform all citizens to stay at home, there is a record of one missing person and 6 people killed on March 3, 1988, there is no trace of the perpetrator of this horrible crime, the six bodies were mutilated with an unknown weapon it seems like amputed by force and their faces are not reconogcible, we hope and pray for find the missing person alive. The missing person was a close friend of Jotaro Kujo who didn't appear in school today and is our principal suspect. If you see this man, please, call the cops… Run away… And hide” 

B.I.T.C.H is trying its best… Please, maintain calm and hide… Maintain calm and hide. If you see something off, run away and call the emergency department type 5.

[familyvideostevie]

i am borderline harassing you now i am so sorry but i’m so excited these are all so fun

🐚 SEASHELL: let's look for beautiful things on the beach! send me a line from a book, song, or movie/tv show and a character and i'll write a short (<1k) blurb for you

no clue if you’re a taylor’s swift fan or not (i personally would not be stable or sane without her) but i swear to god the line “to young to know it gets better” works perfectly with pretty much any of the marauders and then the NEXT LINE OF “i’ll be summer sun for you forever” IS SO SWEET OH MY GOD

idc who is saying it to who or if you want to write it but i needed to share this

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i do love taylor! i am listening to speak now tv right now lol. i decided to go with sirius for this one! <3 this blurb is about him being down and you helping him talk through it!

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One of your favorite things about Sirius is how deeply he feels things. When he's happy or excited or pleased it radiates from him like magic, making everyone around him feel similarly.

But the same goes for when he's sad or angry or upset. So today your apartment is a bit of a black hole of emotion.

"Do you want some water?" you ask him. He's sitting in the corner of the couch staring into space. "Sirius?"

His eyes snap to yours and you see the purple bruises under them. He's just spent a week at home and come back looking haunted. You know that things are...challenging, to say the least, but it hurts that he's so upset about it and you can't seem to do anything to help.

Sirius must read the heartbroken concern on your face because he sighs and rubs his face with the heels of his hands. "Sorry, love," he says. "I'm no good right now." He fiddles with his nose ring and pouts, looking angry with himself.

"Not true," you counter, approaching him and squatting in front of him. You take his hands and rest your chin on his knee. "You're always plenty good. Don't speak about my boyfriend that way, please." The corner of his mouth turns up just a bit before dragging down a bit. "I know you said it's fine, but if you want to talk about it, the offer is still there."

He sighs again. "I don't want to...shovel my bullshit onto you."

You blow a raspberry. "That is not what's happening. I'm asking you to talk to me, Sirius."

He tugs on your hands. "Well, get up here, then." You do as he says, rising from your crouch and plopping onto the couch next to him. He drags your legs over his and takes one of your hands to fiddle with your fingers. "I just don't like who I am when I'm with them," he starts. Sirius is usually so confident, so sure of himself, but right now he's...different. He's frustrated and maybe a little frightened.

"It's like I'm a kid again who doesn't know that it's going to get better," he continues. "He doesn't know he's going to grow up and get away and have a life that's fucking brilliant."

"But he did," you say, resting your palm on his cheek. "You did it. And if you forget, I am here to remind you. As are your friends."

"You," he sighs. He rests his forehead against yours and leans into your palm. "You're like...the summer sun. You're everything."

"You give me too much credit," you whisper. He shakes his head.

"No," he says. "You can't contradict me. I'm being vulnerable and sad." He kisses the corner of your mouth. "Also, don't talk about my girlfriend that way," he adds, parroting you.

"Real smooth." You kiss him properly, just once. "I'm proud of you."

He pulls you back in and you know he's saying thank you.

join the celebration!

[lunas-a-little-looney]

I'm still new to discovering I have a system (just got over that denial bridge a few weeks ago, and have been struggling mentally since (and before) then), and the system discourse online has been very... distressing? I want to lean into safe communities meant for learning about or exploring (my own) CDD, and find some sort of comraderie.

I don't understand what's happening really - I don't exactly understand endogenic systems, but I also don't understand why people would be anti-endogenic. It just seems... hateful. And purposeless.

I've seen tons of anti-endo posts (before I learned what endo meant) that made me terrified to lean too heavily into traumagen spaces (if they could say this about awful stuff about one group of people, what could they say about me? *it is very much a learned response from trauma, but it is what it is I guess*

I guess the point is to ask if you were ever anti-endo, and what has it been like since you started making pro-endo posts? I know it's silly, but I'm trying to figure all of this out and I'm terrified of receiving hate for refusing to hate someone because of how they identify

Thanks (and sorry for the book lol)

- Host

First I want to say it's not silly at all!! Being a newly discovered system is overwhelming and it's normal to want to have a community of those who understand you. It's also normal to want to avoid being harassed and fakeclaimed. I'm happy you reached out! This reply is going to be kinda long (sorry I tried to keep it short) but I did my best to address all your questions. I hope this helps! And I wish you the best on your new journey of self discovery!!

Second I would strongly recommend that you stay away from syscourse if you can. It's really draining and overwhelming even for us and we have a pretty good handle on our system. As a newly discovered system it's going to be even worse.

Unfortunately I don't have any specific recommendations for cdd focused spaces which accept endos (if anybody knows one put it in the replies!) but I will say that pro endo servers, even if they aren't focused on cdds can still be amazing for finding comradery. There will be other cdd systems there and you might find some endos who you relate to as well. Also if you want my dms are open! I'm just one person (well, not exactly) but I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have and suggest ways to help you figure out your system more!

As for why people are anti endo I think it mainly comes down to two things. First is that they think endos are saying they experience the same thing as cdd systems except without the trauma. Endos do not generally claim this*. Second is that people who've spent significant amounts of their lives under attack sometimes they start to see threats where there aren't any.

These systems have debilitating mental illnesses that are criminally misunderstood and romanticized. For them being a system is intrinsically linked with being deeply traumatized, they are not separate. So when they see a community of people claim to have systems but not trauma, they get upset. They feel like that's not possible, because it isn't possible to be a system like *theirs* without trauma. They get frustrated because they think people just want the "quirky" parts of their disorder without the painful ones. That's why they always say endos are faking did, because they can't imagine a system that doesn't have a cdd. They think endos are just people who want to feel special so they claim to have system. Once endos started becoming a part of the community, anti endos felt invaded because now there's a bunch of systems who don't have cdds in the space they thought was for them (keep in mind cdd focused spaces still exist, its just that the plural community as a whole isn't 100% focused on us anymore).

Once they feel invaded, they feel like they need to defend their community and they do that by harassing and fakeclaiming endos. Then they act like psychology is on their side (it isn't) and after that it's just increasing amounts of digging their heels in.

I think it mostly comes down to the misconception that endos claim to have did without the disorder part, and then in trying to defend themselves they turn off critical thinking and just do whatever they can to get rid of the perceived threat.

*There is a world of difference between the experiences of most endos and most cdd systems but it's not black and white. At this point the term "endo" just means anybody who is not completely traumagenic which includes mixed origin systems. Also, some endogenic systems develop cdds after being exposed to trauma, the only difference is that they were plural beforehand so they're still endogenic. There's others too. The main point is that the plural experience is incredibly personal and doesn't fit well into boxes, categorization is useful and it's important that people understand that in general there are real and big differences between endogenic plurality and cdds but there's no hard lines here.

[hjellacott]

They say genitalia isn't important when choosing to date someone. As a bisexual woman, I consider biological sex to be essential for me to decide whether to date or not, even if it's not about having sex. Here's a list of things I consider when dating a man or a woman, that to me are entirely biologically sex-based:

IF MALE

Is he sensitive? Because if he isn't, not interested.

Is he physically strong? I need to know I could defend myself if I needed to.

How's his voice? I get PTSD triggered from very loud, strong male voices, so it's got to be something that sounds gentle.

How's his temper? No way I'd date a man with a strong temperament.

Is he protective or over protective? Because I'll take a bit from a man, but there's a limit.

Is he going to treat me like property?

Is he a sensible man, that'll make the right decisions? Because many men aren't, they get too cocky.

Am I comfortable talking about sensitive topics with him? Does he have enough empathy and compassion, or will he laugh?

Do I feel safe with him?

Can I hold intellectual debates with him without causing an argument?

Is there a chance he'll get physical in an argument, even a slim one?

Is he a feminist?

Does he love his mother/sisters/other females in his family?

Is he kind to gay men?

Is he an attention seeker?

Is he too happy with being sexually admired by other women, that he'll be constantly seeking that even if we're together?

Is he the jealous kind? Will he try to end my friendships with other men?

Will he demand my consent for sexual things, and respect that it is my body, my choice?

Would he be a good father? (because if you're having sex, accidents might happen).

Is he good with animals?

Does he like poetry?

How does he feel about guns?

What would he do if he had a homosexual child?

Is he good with children, while also respecting their space?

Would anyone feel safe around him?

How does he respond to witnessing violence and possible harassment?

What kind of friend is he?

Will he be respectful if I reject kinky sex? Will he respect my sexual decisions in general?

Is he honest?

Is he mature and responsible?

Does he have a job he's committed to?

Is he the kind of guy his friends/relatives trust for babysitting or pet sitting?

Is he a good carer?

Is he academic? Does he enjoy reading novels?

Will he sit playing videogames all the time?

Will he put sports above spending time with me, my family or my friends?

Will he be kind towards me and my period, or act like it's something disgusting he ought to stay away from?

Will he be patronising and mansplaining?

IF FEMALE

Is she emotionally grounded? Is she emotionally dependent?

Is she too fucked up by past relationships?

Can she be reasonable in a fight, or will she bring up every past relationship?

Will she move too fast, or respect my pace?

Is she woke?

Does she have personal aspirations, passions, and goals she's committed to?

Does she have good self esteem?

Does she take care of her own health, even if it means not being too thin?

Does she rely on make up at all times? Because I want to see a woman's real face and fall in love with it.

Will she judge my style, or the kind of woman I am, or will she support me and appreciate our differences?

Is she excessively sappy?

Does she think violence is OK if it comes from a woman? Because no thanks.

Is she strong and independent, like a cat?

Can we live like two ships moving side by side, without trying to overpower the other?

Being bisexual and actually getting to gain romantic and sexual experience with both men and women is quite enriching, because it actually gives one great knowledge about what makes someone who they are, and how deeply someone's biological sex can influence them, whether they realise or not. It goes well beyond breasts and penises, biological sex is in every part of you, your sensitivities, your physicality, your can-do attitude, your confidence, so on. Depending on your biological sex you face brutally different challenges in life, which shape you into different kinds of people. That is what I'm trying to show.

I want you to see that whether one dates a man or a woman, you have different concerns and things to think about. Mine are these, yours might be something else. Notice I haven't put things like religion or race, because they don't depend on sex, I am always going to worry about someone's attitude towards those no matter who they are. What is important is to see how experiences with men and women differ, even if you don't know what's under their trousers.

Notice, for example, how I think of far more things and have far more concerns when it comes to dating men than I do with women. Notice how my concerns with men are more about my safety and well-being, and stereotypes that are associated to men for a reason (and that I've noticed continuously when it has come to relationships with men), while the things I worry about with women, based on past experience, are more related to their emotional and mental stability, and how well can we be two women with our own lives who don't try to become each other.

Biological sex matters, even if you're not having sex. Because it's the essence of you. It's your DNA. It's you, just like bulls and cows are brutally different, so are men and women, genitalia aside.

[firephoenix2305]

Okay, so I came across a post today in which somebody said they had lost the enjoyment of creating Good Omens content because they were harassed over it. And I am PISSED

The fuck is wrong with some people?!

I'm sorry, but I just will never understand the point of taking something that somebody you probably don't even know has made with love and care; with the sole purpose of sharing what they love and make others smile or shed a tear, something that they're proud of - as they should be - and tear it to shreds.

Why?!?!

Fandom is supposed to be about expressing yourself. Be it through art, or stories, or poetry, or animations, or memes, or smut, or crafts. Whatever it is you like to do. It's supposed to be about sharing things inspired by what you love with others who love the same thing. It's supposed to be about a community of people who support each other, NOT WHO TRY TO SHOOT EACH OTHER DOWN!!

It sickens me. SICKENS ME. To see people being robbed of the joy of creating and sharing and being themselves just for the sake of it because of a group of idiots who don't have anything better to do with their fucking lives than to go around telling everyone how incompetent they are, and how shit everything they do is.

And in the particular case of Good Omens; has the very thing that brought us all together not taught us anything about unconditional acceptance, respect and even love no matter who you are?! Come on!

If an angel can love and respect a demon, then it shouldn't be so complicated for a human being to respect another. Should it?!

Creating is beautiful. Sharing is supposed to be beautiful. Fandom is supposed to be a safe space. A space to share, and express yourself without being afraid of judgment. BECAUSE THERE SHOULDN'T BE ANY, FFS! ISN'T THAT THE WHOLE BLOODY POINT OF FANDOM?!

If you don't like the fanfic, then don't read it! If you don't like the fanart, then don't look at it! You don't even have to acknowledge it, okay? And if the mere existence of that person or their art bothers you, tough shit! Because they exist, and their art does too, and that IS NOT going to change for your convenience! You have NO FUCKING RIGHT to tell them they should stop doing and sharing things that make them happy. Are they hurting you? NO! Are they doing anything against you? NO!

SO FUCK OFF AND LET THEM BE WHO THEY ARE IN PEACE!

You don't like it, and that's fine, but it's no reason to harass the creator! Go read something else, or check out a different fanart style or, I don't know, take up fishing!

My point is that, for many people, fandom is the one place where they can be themselves, because there is something stopping them from that IRL. Is it really that hard to just give them that??

I know it isn't for me, and I will never for the life of me understand why it is for some people.

I'm very sorry for the language. I might have got a little carried away, but as a person who has gone through the typical shit a short, under-developed, nerdy girl usually goes through in highschool, bullies just trigger me and I can't sit and watch, I need to say something. Nobody should have to go through things like this, and it makes me sad that they do.

For anyone going through Hell because of this (in fandom or IRL), you need to remember that although there will always be bullies, wherever you go; there'll also always be people who are willing to help and to listen and to be there for you. It gets better, I promise. ❤️

[cripple-culture-is]

i have a genuine question.

i'm very sure i'm physically disabled on some sort of level(?), and doing research, i have seen other disabled folk say that my experiences are valid. i have seen people say that unnamed/unknown/undiagnosed disabilities are still such, and should be included in the discussion. i know how limited i am in terms of all the things i can't really do, such as stay outside or even stand for very long, and i often get many headaches just for doing minor things like that. i'm also prone to chronic pain/illness, albeit quite mild, but i feel like any of it's not enough to earn me a voice. there's some sort of guilt i have when i want to claim a community label or discuss my experiences, as i wonder if i'm speaking over people who have it worse than me and definitely do know everything about themselves with the confidence to justify their place.

do you think someone like me belongs in disabled safe spaces? would i get harassed and booed out for using my privilege to fake and deceive my way in? am i not really disabled and/or should i seek a much lighter, open to questioning, unprioritized, etc. version of the wider community so that i can get what i need without intruding on those who need it more? i'm just afraid of offending people who are actually, clearly disabled. i assume it's possible for someone's life to be physically difficult to navigate due to complications without necessarily being classified as disabled. y'know?

Thank you so much for the question! I am very happy to answer it 😁

I'm going to preface this by saying there is no such thing as being "not disabled enough". There are disabled people with higher and lower support needs (I have low support needs, my wheelchair using relative has high support needs), but no one is inherently "not disabled enough".

People tend to think of disability as being linear. They see the disability spectrum as ranging from being "less disabled" to "more disabled". That's not true. Not everyone with the same condition will manifest the same way.

Not everyone with my medical condition is disabled. While I seem "less disabled" than my relative, I am still equally disabled under U.S. law.

There are always people who will have something worse than you. But the more you think about them, the more you begin to ignore your own struggles. It can fall into the realm of "toxic positivity". By thinking "Oh, I don't have it that bad, someone else has it worse", you kind of gaslight yourself into thinking you're completely fine when you're not.

I read actually a lot of internalized ableism in your comment. Happens to all of us. It honestly makes me cringe, but it's definitely not your fault.

From my own experiences, you belong here. People think that only visible disabilities are VALID disability. Those with "actual clear" disabilities. But most disabled people actually have invisible disabilities.

I am NOT visibly disabled. I don't use a wheelchair, cane, or any other type of mobility aid. I have an autoimmune disease that causes chronic pain, inflammation, and joint damage. I have been physically disabled my entire life.

Trust me when I say that you not being visibly physically disabled DOESN'T MEAN you aren't physically disabled.

July is Disability Pride Month, yes, it's the 31st, so the last day of July. But the point still stands. There's a banner on the Disability Pride Month pride flag for people like us. The white banner stands for invisible and undiagnosed disabilities. There is definitely a space here for you.

You aren't "faking" or "deceiving" your way into the disabled community. Will you be harassed? Maybe. There is some ableism within even the disability community. I've been harassed in real life for using things I have a legal right to, merely because I'm not "clearly disabled".

I can guarantee that if you saw me, you would just see a "standard", "normal", non-disabled 20 year old girl. 100%. I know because that's how most people see me. But I'm physically disabled under American law.

There is space for you here. You are welcome here. And I do not tolerate ableism of any kind on this blog, therefore, you're safe here, and your experiences are just as valid as any of the other physically disabled people here ❤️

Most non-disabled people don't run into barriers in society when it comes to what they can do physically. Chronic pain is ALWAYS considered a disability under U.S. law, and if (and hopefully when) you get a chronic illness/chronic pain diagnosis, you are automatically protected under the ADA. If you run into issues standing for long periods of time, you are likely disabled. I struggle with the same exact thing.

And I know most people DON'T struggle with that. Earlier this year, I saw 20+ people stand up for the entirety of a junior hockey game, including intermissions, and that was about 1 and a half to 2 hours long. I can only stand in one spot for about 2-5 minutes without my knees and feet hurting, to the point where I will always shift my weight from foot to foot when standing.

And I'm also going to be 100% honest with you. People will say "those who need it more". There actually AREN'T many accommodations for disabled people, and there's actually no shortage of accommodations for disabled people. They are just HIGHLY HIGHLY gatekept by the non-disabled government and withheld, sometimes even from those who need it.

You belong in this community, and you are welcome here ☺️

[vampiricgf]

KITA!!!!

I‘m just dropping by to ask you how you‘re doing and to share some of the pictures of another neighborhood kitty that I took on my run yesterday 🫶🏻

I hope all is well, and I also wanted to say how terribly sorry I am for the fact that those clown ass bitches have been harassing you for so long over what is essentially pixels 🫠 Their behavior is something I would have participated in in like, primary school. It was sooo cringeworthy n unhinged reading through all of their messages like damn you bitches live like this? Just wanna know where they got all that spare energy from that they use to needlessly harass you… if they‘re reading this, please hmu, any advice is helpful at this point 🙏🏻

But I‘m glad that you decided against leaving and that you‘re still writing and having fun with your mutuals ❤️ Your presence on my dash makes me so happy, and I keep thinking of you throughout the day when I see something you would like <3

ALSO: SATORU COMEBACK??!!?!???!?

ANESA!!!!

AHHHH that kitty is so so so adorable omg his floofy ish tail??? the blonde striping?? I wanna snuggle that cat SO bad

im doing good tho and so are my lil kitty cats, I had to switch them to an all wet food diet because every time marty eats dry food he pukes so I just figured im not doing that anymore he can have wet food so his tummy doesn't hurt lol

thankfully the no life bitches seem to have moved on atp and im happier just having my little space back to be silly and horny in peace without all that going on, it really was so cringe worthy and tbh elementary school to be doing all that (on both sides just in case anyone feels wild reading that). but that energy is being better put to use on other irl things :3 im so happy i stayed too I NEED to be able to inflict psychic damage on my mutuals it's simply not optional also your the sweetest ever im giving you one thousand smooches and little treats!!! <333

BUT ALSO THE SATORU STUFF HAS ME SO SICK im so serious im not gods strongest soldier that stupid one eyed cat needs to stop doing shit like this to him before I start acting like a wild silverback gorilla

I hope you have the best day ilyyy!

[ileftherbackhome]

like i do think there needs to be space for white celebrities to be honest about the emotional realities of being politically activists as well without shaming them for feeling those emotions, right?

like yeah, maybe it's because i can only see it in a white woman perspective of having done the exact same thing before in my youth while trying to make friends with other white women but like it DOES suck and feel embarrassing when you think you're saying the right thing but nobody wants to hear it. maybe it's also my autistic perspective too because at least the narrative taylor has given us, i understand to being bullied and not understanding why as a child and being hesitant to make friends and then going into adulthood and entering a new phase (for me sorority college life ugh dont ask me id like to Forget) trying to make friends but not being able to ignore the harsh social realities of the world and trying to navigate friendship in white spaces in adulthood.

but like i just... everything i hear from political leaders and activists on the extreme left side of politics, especially globally, is that the best way to be an ally to ANY community is to call out bigotry when you hear it. however, especially for taylor swift who is very silent on political issues and who grew up idealizing the chicks, when you make that part of a public platform, it DOES come with mental health compromises.

again, if we broaden the discussion to societal standards of ethical behavior and how should allies move about in the world, we hear this narrative ALL THE FUCKING TIME from black activists on the internet. Kat Blaque is prime example of this and she talks about it often on her channel the impact it had on her back in 2016. um that one chick.... princess flowers! she also talked about her trauma regarding her harassment. like and there are many more people that have spoken out about how awful it is to be a political activist online nowadays.

do you guys think it only happens to the black activists though? the struggle with their mental health? i can only speak from my brief time on twitter before i was harrassed into getting banned for supporting amber heard but like even knowing some of the comments are fake, i had a walking dead actress put my tweet on blast onto her account. me. a fucking nobody. and it DID take an effect on MY mental health.

and i think we just have to be willing to hear it coming from white activists as well because frankly, white voices get the most validation. there IS a reason yall wanted her specifically to speak about politics after all right. her fame as a white woman, arguably The White Woman, would help get ALOT of shit done. and i guess in a way, she is tackling a political issue, it's just not one you guys are very happy about discussing i think.

like, yeah, after 2016 happened to her over the most pathetic ass petty bullshit, why WOULD she speak up about anything that matters ever again? I'm not saying i agree with her mentality but i do see how someone who is not in therapy would get to that conclusion. I've BEEN there before but for like different reasons. when you have trauma, your brain can react illogically to so many fucking things that seem normal and fine and healthy enough. thats like the point of trauma.

and i feel like honestly the reaction to i hate it here just validated her trauma response even more because i cannot even begin to describe how pathetic some of y'all were about that song. STILL are about that song. i keep thinking about how in ms americana she said that she felt like saying anything would have added fuel to the fire and she didnt want to cause harm by trying to speak out.

the hatred yall showed in response to her saying the 1830s had sexism and racism in it and would've been fun to live in..... i fear that it did the exact opposite of what yall wanted and just validated that belief for taylor and i cant help think... what's the point? was it useful? did the clowning on her make you feel happy inside? are you happy now that she refuses to talk about palestine or trump or the abortion ban?????

idk it feels so fucking destructive and mean and most of.... unnecessary.

idk if you want to ask people to challenge social norms, you have no not freak out every time they don't talk about exactly what YOU want them to bring attention to.

[intimate-reaper]

I used to be a part of few servers, on the clear web, no hacking or dark web or even onion, very easy to find blogs from a host called Mastodon. And from there, there were groups for people to talk about their experiences with paraphilic disorders and I mainly used it to spread general check-ins and wholesome memes. Because the Internet sucks and I wanted to have a happy safe space for people like me. Because I was really struggling to accept my thoughts and attractions, that stemmed from abuse, and the conflation that having a paraphilia meant that you were a harmful and abusive person. I never want anyone to go through the exploitation I went through - and I wasn't exploited because someone was attracted to me. I was because someone wanted to abuse their power over someone vulnerable in age and mind and situation. I probably have made a few distasteful, vague posts about wishing I could act without causing harm, or saying that I found certain physical traits attractive, without any threats (intentionally). And I obviously did not share or downplay abusive content, I kept things safe for work. I wanted support. I felt people deserved that, especially if someone who is a minor was also struggling at least seeing an adult paraphile live a happy, normal life with optimism and a support network and goals might help them. I don't have the source but most pedophiles learn they're pedophiles when they're only 14. I don't want children who are only 14 to kill themselves; it should go without saying. But I started to notice a disturbing trend of people who called themselves "pro contacts", which essentially means abusing this support platform to solicit minors for abusive activity. I don't want to go into details because it's triggering and gross, but it's pretty much just explicitly advertising that any minor can message them for sexting and that if you are a minor you are in threat of being harassed by them. I hated these people. Why would they try to take away my safe space, where I could simply have a break from being stigmatized? Where they would rather harm others? Three people who I knew from the websites, repeatedly making off-putting and dangerous rhetoric in pro contact posts... Probably more than 3, and I'm about to look through my blocklist archives... Were exposed - unsurprisingly - for sexual exploitation material. I knew this would happen. And now entire groups, entire servers are being called into question by social media and law enforcement. I'm glad I left. I hated these people. I didn't want them in my community. And the one person I respected so much, too much (parasocial, and unfortunately had to leave due to splitting/bpd), was compared to a Nazi for just... Reporting these people. Trying to keep the community I needed safe. We didn't agree on everything. I still respect that person a lot even if we don't talk. But I miss what that space could have been. I wonder if there's anything that person could have done differently or how their side of things are going. Do they still have a server, a group at all? I don't know. I don't want to ask. Obviously this situation has been stressful to learn about accidentally. I recognize these abusers. They tried to be my friends. I feel gross. It makes me hate myself even more. I feel hopeless wondering if this is how this is always going to go. No wonder people hate me so much.

[arklayraven]

my buddy, всё будет хорошо! 💛 i think this is all the misunderstanding of intent? tell me if i am wrong but i think you were ask not to post exclusive files from discord so you take it down without a hassle, yes? we can appreciate the effort for it, so good job and thank you 😄 i see before there were others on X who do something similar and they take down their post at the devs will, so you are not alone. but the dev already ask us not to let the exclusive files leave discord and it is up to us the fans to honor it. so i think since you take down everything there should be no problem left? but maybe i am wrong. if you like i will contact the 14dwy dev on your behalf to get answers because i think this is a misunderstanding! 😧 i think you ask for communication too since i follow your posts so this will be good idea. many thanks and happy pride month if you partake with it!

Wasn't gonna say anything but need to talk about this since its bothering me again.

Yes I was asked to take down something, that was just a cropped imaged from a screenshot from the game. It wasn't even that huge of a spoiler? It was just the same status message from Ren in game from previous versions, but with his pronouns visible. Which, we know already, and the small feature was made public to all to see and know of. No matter if they play the game or not. But I still took it down out of request from a mod from that server who reached me.

I believed things to be fine now...Then was contacted again by them, but they came off so...unfriendly...And it bothered me lots.

Again. I thought the situation was resolved, but clearly I was wrong.

Also feeling I had to apologize, again, which I did just hoping this would stop.

I then realized from this all, they only reached out to me again, because they went through my blog, to find stuff to come after me for.

Then I felt honestly stalked at that point, and felt not even comfortable on my own blog and space here. I blocked the person who reached me, because again, I felt upset by this all.

It just ruined my experience for the series for me for a while, that I deleted my old writing blog for it, and felt i couldn't make edits for it as well, etc. I've been working on healing/moving on from it all however, made a new blog to start over. (tho will be keeping some stuff more privated/untagged now. since the whole situation just ruined a lot for me. especially fucked with me more since I deal with high anxiety.)

But what bothered me most over this all, is being contacted by that mod, than directly by the dev over this situation. Which I feel, could of been resolved better, if the dev just reached out to me first instead.

I understand people are busy and can't reach out to everyone on time, but would of appreciated a more nicer direct approach by them, or a attempt...Instead of being contacted by someone else with this clear power trip they had going on...and just seemed like they wanted to go after someone or start something.

Also on your offer to contact the dev, I just don't know if it'll do anything to help me feel better or others who were effected as well. So i personally don't see it as necessary I guess... (Like damage has been done from this all, you know? So yeah...)

The only best I want and ask from this all however, is this to not happen to anyone else ever again. No one deserves to be stalked or harassed, especially over a video game. It's not fun feeling like you aren't safe to post/whatever on your own blog, and not feel welcomed to just share your love a series. So I hope no one ever has to deal with this again.

[zucchinibread777books]

She Gets the Girl Book Review

She Gets the Girl by Rachael Lippincott and Alyson Derrick Book Review

Summary

When Molly Parker starts college, she wants anything but to be the same awkward girl that she was in high school. Even more so, she desperately wants to finally talk to her crush of four years Cora Myers. Alex Blackwood, recently split with her girlfriend and looking for a chance to prove that she can make genuine connections, takes Molly’s problem as an opportunity to help out.

SPOILERS AHEAD

The Good

This book, clearly inspired by She’s All That-type stories, is a cute and wholesome lesbian romance. I really enjoyed Molly’s growth especially, as she came to realize that she was the one not allowing people in by being so insecure. I also like that she realized her insecurities led to her making unfair assumptions about others as well. It felt like a realistic growth for her character.

I also really appreciated that this book was just like the basic straight romances. There was no allusion to homophobia, no question whether it was weird to have a crush on a girl, no big coming out moments. It was just a normal romance like anyone else would experience. Honestly a breath of fresh air considering how commonly homophobia comes up.

The roller-skating scene was honestly my favorite, it was very cute and I could picture it so easily. I love seeing Molly in her own space, confident and leading, and seeing the opposite for Alex. It also made me want to go roller-skating so bad lol.

It was also nice to see an adult step up and help in a serious situation. I feel like a lot of YA wants the characters to do everything themselves because kids don’t like asking for help, but sometimes they do need that parental figure to help them understand that they shouldn’t have to take on the world. Alex’s boss was a nice example. He stood up for her when she was being harassed and was luckily there when she learned about her mom. I know happy endings where it all works out are cheesy but I appreciate that little bit of hope for situations like this.

I also wasn’t rooting for the other relationships at all which is very good in this situation, the main characters definitely clicked well and they rightfully broke off their other relationships when they realized it just wasn’t what they wanted or needed.

The Bad

This is a personal opinion, but I just really cannot stand poorly done 1st person point of view. If it isn’t done with very specific intentions, then it ends up feeling very unnatural to me and pulls me out of the story so much. It is such a big problem I have with YA like this book. That was something I noticed immediately.

While this book was cute, it was also so extremely predictable. I understand it follows a common romance trope, but it didn’t really add much to the genre and because of that is honestly kind of forgettable. Like Hallmark movies, it was cute but not something you’d obsess over. In some ways, I appreciate that. It’s nice to see LGBT books that are just trope-y without making a big deal over it. There are probably tens of thousands of carbon copy straight romances, so it’s comforting to know that we’re getting there with LGBT romances too. Especially with how hard it is to find lesbian movies and shows like this. But at the same time, it was just kind of eh. Maybe a little more substance isn’t too bad you know?

Going off that, the problems that the characters face also aren’t anything really special. Having one alcoholic parent seems to be extremely popular in this type of romance lately, especially in realistic enemies-to-lovers...probably because that’s the only way authors can think of to excuse the main character’s bad behavior. It would have been nice to see something a little different.

The beginning of this book also focuses A LOT on friendships. Molly wants to make friends now that she’s in college. Alex wants to make friends because she’s tired of having no real connections. But in the end that’s completely ignored for the sake of the romance. We get like one scene where Molly invites Alex to a game night at her dorm and that’s really the only sign of any budding friendships we get for either of them. And of course they find friendship in each other, but since it turns into a romantic relationship it just kinda falls flat. Since it was stressed so much, I would’ve liked to see them form more meaningful connections with others too.

While I did find the issues with Alex’s mom to be realistic, the issues with Molly’s mom felt a bit forced. Her mom’s hatred for her culture once again felt like something to explain away Molly’s less-than-good actions. It came out of no where and was only really mentioned a few times, in a way that felt like the authors went back and added it later. After her mom seemed so perfect, maybe it felt like they needed a reason for Molly to pull away a bit, but honestly they had a good reason there that they could have gone further with. Parents shouldn’t be best friends with their children, and unhealthy attachments are very real issues that the authors could have expanded on instead. Also I get that it was like she avoided Asian culture altogether…..but boba tea isn’t Korean culture…kinda felt like they were implying it was.

Overall

This book was cute and I definitely would recommend it for people who are just looking for more queer romance in their lives. I am glad I read it, as I kept seeing it in queer book lists and in stores and it wasn’t as enemies-to-lovers as the internet made it seem. (Can’t stand enemies to lovers in realistic situations) That being said, I don’t think it’s the kind of book that I would want to reread because there just wasn’t too much that really stood out to me.

3 Stars