#I need other people to see my vision here
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deadlysoupy · 21 hours ago
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i've been thinking about tfe!bumblebee and tfone!bumblebee and how people perceive them and now i'm like... they actually aren't that different???? like at all??? they just deal with abandonment differently
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see bc they both were abandoned at some point, even though tfe bee still had a mission, he was largely in hiding and couldn't make contact with most of the autobots. he had to not get involved in anything, had to stay away from the people he loved, and in the process he became somewhat jaded, repressing most of his hiding since he doesn't think it's a big deal, he had a job to do and he did it as best as he could. he's fine don't ask. he tries to maintain his "nice guy" persona, but with the isolation he had to go through it's very obvious he can't stay that way, so he desperately clings to his positivity like his life depends on it, while at the same time displaying cynicism that's within him now
meanwhile over here in the tfone bee corner, our guy was sent to do community service no one needed to do, with no one to talk to, for god knows what (in canon he says he "did his job too well" so he fucked up way too many times, poor guy). he made himself people to talk to, and it's not like he was purposefully trying to hide himself, but we KNOW that he knows how to get out, so, potentially, he could have just fled and become a fugitive. instead, he stayed at his job because there was some hope still left in him that someone would come and release him from his "duties". anyway as soon as he finds actual people he can communicate with it all goes off the rails. unlike tfe bee, though, he doesn't hide his desperation for company, and while he is extremely traumatized, he's still expressing himself, and people know what he's going through, and they help him eventually
if anything tfone bee would be more healthy than tfe bee (and totally not just bcs i have a personal bias for tfe hahaha what are you talking about don't look at my blog.) (also one went through war already and the other didn't (yet)), he would even make him talk out some of the problems he's having... but like at the same time tfe bee would recognise tfone's own denial and would reassure him that, yes, you are loved, you are enough, even when no one listens to you. do you see the vision
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ohholydyke · 3 days ago
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Personally I resolve this with the belief that God and Heaven = Perfect love and care of ourselves and each other and being in communion with Love and Care. Like that’s consistently what heaven and the gospel and god and Jesus come down to. Love and Care. Mutual aid. Heaven is a state of achieving perfect Love and Care such that there are no longer unmet needs, no longer active states of systemic harm, no longer ostracism and self destruction. I understand this state through the lens of Christ and Heaven and YHWH, others may understand it through the lens of Allah, or The Universe, or Nirvana, or just Community and Political Revolution, or just being with loved ones. Ultimately my universalism means I believe eventually everyone will arrive at that state in communion with each other and Love and Care themselves. “Going to Heaven” and “being with God” are existing in these states which is also why I see a call and responsibility to bring Heaven on earth and exist Christ-like here and now (aka showing that unconditional love and care as much as we can, and fixing our failures to live up to that as much as we can with love and care for ourselves and leaning on each other for support and mutual aid). My politics are inseparable from my religion.
As for making sacrifices of old selves, I don’t think it’s that (god knows we can’t make that sacrifice, which is why Jesus did it for us) as much as it is people aligning themselves more and more with Love and Care and with existing in mutual interdependence and care webs. Disability justice collectives and groups are a very good example of what I see as the work of bringing heaven on earth. The afterlife I believe in is a world where those visions are achieved in a way beyond our current human limitations due to sin (which ultimately is just a lack of love and care to others, to the world and nature and/or to ourselves).
If you’re interested in further reading, I largely shaped these views from the Christian mystic tradition such as the writings of Julian of Norwich, Hildegard of Bingen, Francis of Assisi, and Catherine of Siena; modern writers like Richard Rohr, Alison Kafer, Leah Lakshimi Piepzna-Samarasinha, Audre Lorde, Robin Wall Kimmerer, and bell hooks; and content creators like Rev Oliver Snow (revpoppop/preacher of the black lagoon), Imani Barbarin (@ crutches and spice on tiktok, insta and Bluesky) and Ismatu Gwendolyn.
Christian Universalism isn't exactly a popular doctrine (as far as i know), but it's the only one that makes sense to me at this point.
if God is good, and if God can do all things, then God can save everyone, even after death.
and if not everyone can be saved, then what is the point of Christ's sacrifice?
i'm sorry but at this point you can't convince me that some people are just damned forever after death.
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greenerteacups · 3 days ago
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Hi GT! For someone starting with fiction writing, would it be useful to start with writing fanfiction or original fiction? (There’s no correct answer, I know, but I’d like to hear your opinion).
Hey, friend! My advice is to write original fiction if you:
Intend to publish your writing professionally (either traditionally or self-pub). Original fiction and fanfiction differ significantly in terms of craft and if you don't start here, then you run the risk of picking up habits that work for fanfic and don't work for original fic. For instance, a lot of fanfics benefit from the fact that the audience is already familiar with, and enjoys, the characters. You can get away with a lot of shortcuts in terms of characterization and worldbuilding that you can't in original fiction, because you're operating against the background of another text.
Have an idea for an original story. This is sort of obvious, I guess, but you'll figure out pretty quickly whether you as a writer enjoy fanfic or original fic more, and one of the ways to tell is whether your brain tends to come up with original ideas or transformative ones.
Want or need total control over your authorial universe. Fanfiction means that you're always going to be operating under someone else's vision. If you veer too far out of that version, people are going to call your work OOC. They will do this even if your work is internally coherent and interesting. They will not do this if your work is original (and if you find yourself writing internally coherent and interesting stories that have little to do with the "canon" text, I would take it as a sign that maybe you just... want to write original fiction! which is cool!)
A lot of people do both! But you won't know which you like unless you try.
On the other hand, fanfiction is a great outlet if you:
Don't want to publish professionally, but still want to share your writing with a (very warm and gracious) community.
Just want to Write Something, without having a clear idea for a self-contained story or novel. Fanfiction is a really loose medium and you can do a ton of different things with it — character studies, ficlets, drabbles, etc.
Want to practice your technique in a particular area, e.g. characterization, worldbuilding, description, dialogue, etc. Fanfiction is a low-stakes way to develop skills without having to fire on all cylinders at once because the canon text gives you a template to practice on.
Have an idea for a fanfic, see above. At the end of the day, you'll know what you should be writing because your brain will try to start writing it.
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professorjirt · 7 months ago
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stevishabitat · 3 days ago
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Hello this is Michael Sheen here. I hope you're all doing very well. I just wanted to lend my voice in support of this whole concept of communitization of Cymunedoli. I think it's the kind of exciting, radical, innovative vision that can really lead the way forward for us in Wales.
I don't think many people would argue that the system as is is broken and doesn't seem to work to the benefit of communities themselves. And this whole idea of a community of communities I think is the kind of radical vision that we need.
In Wales, we have I think historically as well as in a contemporary way - albeit differently - suffered from having our resources - whether they're our natural resources or whether it's our wealth or whether it's our talent - be funneled out of Wales.
Too often, the wealth that is created here finds Its way leaving Wales itself and not benefiting the communities where that wealth is being created. This vision around Cymunedoli I think is a way to address that.
I think it's amazing thinking of this idea of a community of communities who can support each other, share knowledge, share resources, share expertise, share answers and solutions to the challenges that they're all facing.
To be able to speak to each other to create that sort of a network of support to create more sustainable resilient resourceful communities where they can own Community Resources and keep the benefits of those resources within the communities. It makes us more sustainable, more self-sufficient.
I think what is happening in Gwynedd now could be a model for what could happen across the whole of Wales with some courage in leadership from the top and unleashing the potential that is there in our communities.
We know that, we see it all the time, but all too often there are too many obstacles put in the way of those communities and there isn't the kind of political courage to really nurture and develop and support that kind of vision.
So I hope that what is happening there now is another major step along the way of making that Vision a reality. It's what we need. it's possible. And I think we can lead the way in showing that it is the future. So I wish you all the very best of luck and great success. Diolch yn fawr (Thank you very much)
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Michael Sheen's message for Cymunedoli
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seepingfrommyskin · 3 days ago
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is this too niche
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undead-moth · 8 months ago
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I know I've been on about this for a while now and I'm being a hater but you're telling me SydCarmy was "always meant to be platonic" even though there are two seasons of writing making use of tried-and-true explicitly romantic tropes, themes and writing signals, and SydLuca is going to be romantic because...he was nice to her on screen for a few minutes?
I don't even care if people ship SydLuca, or if they just prefer it, but you can't honestly tell me that you believe Carmy was always meant to be a friend but Luca is an obvious love interest.
Just because Syd and Carmy haven't kissed or confessed their love to each other doesn't mean that isn't very obviously the direction this show is going. The Bear has already shown you who is endgame. It has shown you every episode of the show so far.
Honestly I really don't think The Bear fanbase understands this show or cares about these characters or the story being told here, which is unfortunate because this show is shockingly well-written in comparison to most shows right now, and we should be so grateful for it but all we're doing is complaining that the writers led us on by not making a ship canon fast enough. It's just. Sad.
#The Bear#SydCarmy#I was like a casual fan of this show two days ago#and now seeing how little respect this show gets from it's fanbase I'm losing my mind#I mean I shipped SydCarmy before anyway but now it means so much to me#it means so much to see such a realistic and purposefully well paced romance take place#so many shows portray romantic relationships and their beginnings in ways that just don't really happen in real life#and this show very purposefully said no. These are characters who are strangers. who are working together. Who are in a tense environment#and each of them has problems - one of them the type of problems that makes developing new relationships pretty difficult#these two would not get together right away. It would take a long time. And there would be ups and downs.#And even when that's the case. Even if when it takes a long time and doesn't go smoothly and is hard -#it can still be beautiful. It can still be romantic. It can still happen and here's how#and I'm just so inspired genuinely. It is so difficult to write romance without being cliche and so difficult to write it in a way that#could actually happen in real life and I really do hope I can write something half as good some day#and then to know so many people have no appreciation for it at all#because they prefer the shows that have characters make eye contact a few times and then confess their love for each other like#it's just fucking sad. So sad that so few people have any appreciation for good writing especially the difficult of romance writing#like I really just don't even know what to tell you. In real life these two would not have confessed to each other yet. They would not have#kissed yet. They would not have even realized they have feelings for each other yet because those feelings would still be developing#and I also want to point out that given the disparity in power between Syd and Carmy in season 1 it wouldn't have been healthy for them to#get together much sooner. He was her boss. He was also her idol. Before they can even get together that needs to be balanced out.#And then on top of that don't you see the value in Carmy realizing the dream girl he's romanticized in his head - Claire - isn't actually#what he wants? Don't you see the beauty in him being disillusioned from that? And realizing that Syd is what he wants?#Don't you see the beauty in Syd having an idealized vision of what Carmy The Great Chef is like realizing she was wrong and that he's human#and flawed and then realizing - she loves him anyway? She loves him more for not being on a pedestal and for having his flaws?#Are you telling me that even thinking about this doesn't move you? Doesn't make your heart ache a little?#And again - ship and let ship - but what is Luca? What is Luca if not just what she was hoping Carmy would be when she wen to The Beef?#What is he if not just another man who she has not seen under pressure yet? Not seen reliving trauma yet? Not been her boss yet?#It's easy to look at him and think he's better than Carmy - and that's the point. That's the point The Bear is making.#It is easy to want someone you don't know. It's hard to want to someone you do know. But that's what love requires and that's the point
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hsslilly-blog · 3 months ago
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huntclaire divorce au. everything is exactly the same but wait i was going to make a joke here but i’m actually very invested in this
#just imagine how WEIRDER they’d be about each other. this is crazy#i need them to divorce and then hunt makes a movie immediately after and he casts claire as the lead. and the movie is weirdly personal#and everyone in the cast is like. is this movie about the divorce. no it is not. but yes it also is. hunt and claire are unaware#there's a brazilian director who divorced his wife and then cast her in his next movie andthe movie is the greatest love letter ever.to her#this is what i'm aiming for here. do you see my vision? okay so they argue all the time on set. she does NOT follow his direction#this is why i divorced you by the way you were always like. saying stuff. you're always saying stuff! you're annoying and pathetic and stup#they cannot even be NEAR each other. need to talk to either of them? do not do it while the other oneis in the room.they WILL make it weird#they will start bickering and they will forget about you i am so sorry. if they try to be civil it's like. this was so thoughtful of you!#i wish SOME PEOPLE were like this. i was actually very thoughtful you were the one who was always demanding attentionWHATof COURse I WAS!?#hunt keeps his wedding ring in his side pocket. claire loves calling him her stupid ex husband. ew my wretched ex husband.#whole time they can't keep their hands off each other. which could mean anything#why did they get divorced? no one has any idea. no one knows anything about these two actually. why would he cast her. why would they marry#why are they torturing everyone. is this like A Thing to them. yes. claire gives him cold coffee every time and he drinks it every time jus#so she doesn't get the satisfaction. also you should NOT interfere if they're arguing because then it's going to be YOUR FAULT#you may ask. hsslilly! what's the difference between this and canon huntclaire. well they're actually divorced here. see.#this means something to me. and to them too. plus they actually mean this on some level. normal huntclaire are doing a very convoluted bit#here claire would choke hunt with his tie if given the chance. and then they would make out. this happened like twice.#okay i'll stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#huntclaire#wait the blood necklace should still exist in this au
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butchlifeguard · 9 months ago
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who up traveling they octopath
[ID: 2 images. the first is a whisper post of a cowboy sitting sadly with his elbows resting on his knees and his head in one of his hands. the caption is "is it really possible for a emo girl and a country boy to be in a relationship?" the second is a traditionally sketched redraw of alfyn from octopath traveler in the same pose. the text has been cut out from the original photo and overlaid. end ID.]
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good-beans · 2 months ago
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Hi! "ML Up until now it's been like a dream" sounds interesting!
Aw thanks! I'm impressed you could scope out my one Mikoto wip...
It's a little normal au 0309 thing from Fuuta's pov. The general premise is that Mikoto crashes his bike on his way to work, gets a concussion, has (non-John-related) memory issues, and Fuuta is compelled to look after him. I wanted a fun comparison of videogame restarts/second chances -- Fuuta says something rash and the conversation gets weird, until a few minutes later when Mikoto has a lapse in short term memory, and Fuuta gets to try the exact same situation again. By the end of the day, Fuuta is using the situation to very carefully test out compliments/confessions since there's no pressure it'll be remembered and he'll have to deal with the consequences. It's basically my timeloop fic without a timeloop 😂
The title was the first thing that popped into my head (as all my first working titles are) and comes from a story from my dad's childhood when he got a concussion and his short term memory kept resetting. He kept telling his family "You know, up until now it's been like a dream!" until his brother quoted it back to him and he went "how did you know I was gonna say that??" It started as a silly joke title, but Mikoto has the whole line about dreaming, so I'm keeping an eye out if there's a way I can actually work it into the fic !!
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o4o41 · 4 months ago
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it would have been good if Cindrella was more outspoken. And call out her family on not feeling **regretful and apologizing** after insults, ridicule and abuse.
#whose sense of fulfillment extends past her appearance#Disney princess 👸#They could have added hatemob in a form of their like-minded people like a choir#Straying away eye contact and narrowing eyes as if that person is hard to see(like they have a bad vision) and no one really telling to def#defend yourself even Fairy Godmother (who could be a project of Cindy's imagination who's also like thinks violence and insubordination#isn't an answer nor feminine)#You could add more realism to Cindrella like if you can't really stand up from home abuse what about abuse outside#Add hate mob that are the choir that would be perfectly even more realistic#And perhaps for a reinvention let her dad or fairy tell that you need to tell your abusers off tell them that choring is their job#And for the external abuse huz's mom tell you have to tell them off you have to attack(or smth of that) because by that you not only show#you can also answer-attack but you can do it twice 💪#Answer the bullies so they know you can do that not only that but doing it TWICE#And like imagine choring during your menstruation like wtf#Fuck them off you need to take care of yourself first#Cindrella a true story Cindrella grows awareness and a backbone#Cindrella and a choir hatemob#them be like “oh you need to look after my stuff and bag; oh sorry my bad that was actually my friend seat right here”#And tell her “if you don't behave nobody would love you” turn over to#“If they like me they just like me” “I don't need to turn into a downtrodden people-pleaser to be liked. That's fake” and#“good girls”go to hell#female socialization subversion#Strong Ella's#Tmnt#And not make abuse because of jealousy or smth because they've seen the behavior of#bringing violence into home and then not regretting and not apologizing#.Like the original poster have said “whose sense of fulfillment extends past her appearance or wedding plans”#That stepmother really tought that adopted daughter was a better option because other bio girls won't subordinate but really what's going o#is adopted one has turned into a standard house worker; specifically#a worker if not serving then beaten or insulted without regret or apology#And cindrella can be also called bruisisella
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skitskatdacat63 · 2 years ago
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The urge to always sit in the back of a classroom vs having somewhat shit vision
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dexaroth · 2 months ago
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licherally how it feels to read the deconstruction of a story and everyone speaking so eloquently about character motivations and the way they act and talk and the whys of that and the bunch of details that lead to those conclusions meanwhile i can barely scrape a personality for my ocs
#reblogging a bunch of d:bh posts on my sideblog and realizing just how little i know of it compared to everyone else#and things in general. ngl i feel dumb! and embarassed! im stupid as shit man!#how am i supposed to have ocs if i cant even read a character any deeper than superficial things#well i guess i can read like a Smidge under the surface bc im not those people who see connor as a clueless bimbo or whatever#but like damn. i know so little about things.. and im so conflicted too.. like.#theres this sort of manic personality that always worms its way onto the personality of my ocs and they all feel too similar#but it also helps that i Still havent managed to write a world that i like either. it really doesnt help! people are a product of their>#>reality! and its like Wow. i really have fucking nothing to go off of huh. sigh...#i know its impossible to know how bad the writing is bc i didnt post or chat about it but. i feel like im trying to bite more thani can che#man i think i finally found the anti-hobby. i think i really lack everything you need to make good characters/worlds/stories#like knowing different people/diff perspectives. having watched/read other stories to learn from. i lack it all!#so much of what i want to do falls back into boring magic tropes. i think if anyone ever sees my vision im gonna be shot for being pathetic#^that someone is probably me as well but thats besides the point#dextxt#but also funny part of getting into d:bh and the fan-readings is that it helped to realize how bad the writing is lol#its not.. it doesnt seem to be terrible. but there are many flaws. and there are smarter people than me pointing them out all the time#like damn! if even so many games cant make a good story what is a nobody like me even gonna do! girl help im dying here!!
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crossbackpoke-check · 2 months ago
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i've been thinking a lot about the mojoe show, especially how i miss seeing them together and somehow, i stumbled on your blog and all your tags about them (joe in specific) speak directly to me!
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no go on... what are the tags saying to you... come join the mojo(e) jojo hive mind...
#kismet... kismet...#kissing u (w/consent) on the mouth anon i LOVE them. the lore is deep & deeper still i love talking about them come yap!!! so glad ur here#i saw the cat & *** show the other day and was like. you cannot fool the people. this does not appease me. what foul mockery is this#the people yearn for the mojoe show!!!! they do not forgive and they do not forget!!! mo i understand you have a physical aversion to media#but PLEASEEEE at least they've convinced him into tiktoks and joint videos. like what clause is in his contract that says#hey so uh. my beautiful wife needs an emotional support idiot during media at all times. yeah it's mandatory. yeah she'll blow up otherwise#AND ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN THE VIDEO WHERE THEY MAKE SWEDISH MEATBALLSSSSS I WATCHED IT AGAIN THE OTHER DAY AND IT KILLED MEEEEEEEE#rip i SEE the 2353 i really do. why pit two bad bitches against each other i know i know but i love mojoe so much#mojo(e) jojo hive mind unite#liv in the replies#i'm not GONNA rewatch the mojoe show. speaking as a guy who saw the ep w/ cute dates in seattle and don't think i could ever even bear to#watch it (i too love my completely normal brain that likes to do this to me) but like what if i did. with what time in my life idk...#GUYS THE JOE LOCKSCREEN INCIDENT HAPPENED *THIS* SEASON. WHY DOES THAT FEEL LIKE TEN YEARS AGO. HELP#they're still obsessed with each other and alexandra can vouch i was talking about them on twitter lmao#both mo and joe saying 'whose life would you switch with' and picking dads like oh so we're. my big fat [italian] family style.#like pls look away if u don't like anna but EYE was like oh so anna retires (the spielerfrau comment... MORITZ) & is here full time? maybe?#& they went oh my god we're gonna put a baby in her. next step baby. we would be such good dads like i can see the vision the fic the futur#ANYWAY you can look again i'm done talking about my other wife APART FROM THAT ALSO i was having major kidfic feels like oh my god#mo and joe babysitting for all the dads on the team to practice before they adopt. mo and joe baby fever fic until they wish up a wishbaby.#joe taking mo to his family in montreal and uncle mo being a smash hit with the kids it is ENDLESS and they are at the age where nhlers#start having their oh my god i'm gonna get serious and settle down moment like they're popping out babies at 23 so. they feel like it's the#life checkpoint something to start thinking about now y'know? <- this is not real life obvs they are uh. unhinged in the nhl but we knew.
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arolesbianism · 3 months ago
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I've been thinking abt new game+ friend quests and it's just me going ah yes and they have all these issues and talk abt these things and oh oops this is all accidental foreshadowing
#rat rambles#stars posting#new game+#its a fun mix of stuff that will make for tasty chou breakdown material in due time#and stuff that is fun to imagine chou responding to because its smth that the sifs would respond to Very differently#but yeah I can basically hear the evolution of chou's inner dialogue overtime as I play out these scenes in my mind#the shopkeepers friendquest is mostly abt her low key freaking out abt realizing chou sees her as a friend and admitting she has a rly hard#time being honest with people about basically anything abt herself along with some extra stuff abt her having never rly had any long term#friends due to her having been constantly traveling since she was a kid#so theres like. several layers of stuff for chou's timeloop tumbled brain to chew on there lol.#the kid is mostly abt them realizing they cant remember basically anything abt their home and family at this point and freaking out#the leader is her admitting hes always been kind of jealous of chou (mostly due to chou having very loving parents)#and Im going to be honest Im still working out the tracker's friendquest#probably going to have smth to do with her mom? maybe her admitting that she's always wanted to go traveling but has been feeling trapped#under obligation to stay by her mom's side and her feeling like a bad daughter for leaving even in these circumstances#or smth like that. idk Ive had a headache all day I dont have the brainpower to make shit up good rn#I just took a shower a few minutes ago and its cleared the brain fog enough for me to type out some of my thoughts#so yeah idk beams visions at you of chou slowly forgetting more and more abt things outside the loops and freaking out over it#chou vc I think the moments the loops truly broke me was when I forgot my parents faces and names#the sifs .|#the real secret abt chou is that they are the normie of the three they just got timeloop tumbled real hard#they do still have hashtag issues ofc just different ones than the other two#but their loops definitely did a lot of the heavy lifting in fucking them up so hard#repeatedly becoming a stranger to the people you love isn't fun and neither is not having tears for easy looping#they can technically loop using the light's curse but that requires being able to see the light and even then its usually a slow burn#process to get fully cursed not smth you can just quickly do if you get stuck#anyways I need to go to bed gn gamers#hopefully loop plush will be here tomorrow if they're not I'll cry rly hard and throw up
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unproduciblesmackdown · 7 months ago
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being alive at the time i gleaned some general elements abt encanto but never actually heard we don't talk about bruno beyond awareness it existed popping off & i think i heard like the title recited off key off rhythm but in a way that indicates speak singing nonetheless lol so upon experiencing it it's like oh but it's the Verses? while the last refrain goes harder but prior to that it's comparatively underwhelming to said verses which feels appropriate like verses / pieces of a larger picture & that a "we don't talk about him" as a disappointing Lid on infinitely richer more characterful & dynamic "but: talking about him" instances. like well personally it'd be like um seven foot frame....anyway besides being able to firsthand go like oh damn Real (the kind of thing you know exists if alive at the time) it's like alright hang on lol. one thing when a core theme is yeah like "is it a refuge if 'especial' vulnerability ultimately gets pushed out rather than made safer" subset like the parties whose even observation of truths (problems) & drawing attention to them is seen as Ruining Things, like if you're painted as Making futures that aren't simply what's desired or reassuring rather than a guidance via just observing & sharing the truth. but then it's like whaddaya mean living in fear of bruno stuttering and stumbling you could always hear him sort of muttering and mumbling lmao like now that's just Association between the Truth Perceiving & Telling behavior & behavior that's just apparently distinctive of the same person. & like Not Accidentally when [what if people were magic] specifics are obviously primarily abt a metaphorical meaning & like, indeed it was made clear like oh this situation isn't Just b/c [boo we hate your prophecies] & that [an Ability that isn't directed towards what anyone Wants / is "weird" even by these magic standards] isn't Coincidentally given to someone who just so happens to already be "weird" in other ways & be set up to have a different perspective & be pushed away due to having the supposed "extra" vulnerability of unmet needs / insufficient support, same as someone who doesn't "correctly" have any kind of magic ability....like yeah banger and also like Oh Yeah Kind Of Devastating re: that metaphorical resonance allowing for like [set the metaphor aside] now hang on with this about this disabled family member lol. misinterpretation to The Ruinerrr / The Problemmm / The Maliciousss etc (i.e. the scapegoatinggg) despite their efforts likely entirely to the contrary. then despite like, efforts aside, Just Existing, always kind of muttering & mumbling like & what of it. & then like oh sorry weird pets. weird [auspicious for adaptable tenacious thriving surviving; either way simply creatures, existing] pets.
truly like As Is The Idea I'm Sure quickly becomes like hands behind back standing at the window Uh Oh Sisters musing on all the [disabled person] metaphorical & already literal elements there. blair witching it in contemplation like We've All Been There whether being so resented for the mere disruption of "existing in a group as the 'abnormal' odd one out" or like people talking shit abt anything associated w/you as soon as you've left the room, which is also made relevant like, this wasn't Only directed at this person when seemingly permanently gone, nor were they unaware / unaffected prior....pacing in the Musing parlor like things don't Have to be compared to billions but i only ever even see so many things & it's like billions sure is like "get scapegoated rword" & then said scapegoating is presented as only beneficial & we hate autists & even beyond that it's like, grabbing billions, Imagine If Things Meant To Be About Something Were About Something. quite a contrast when they are & furthermore like, deliberate thought & Care for [who gets scapegoated & why] & the truth of like, people getting pushed aside & out who have a key perspective & are primed / liable to come through for others similarly vulnerable & the supposedly Ruinous, Problems Generating disruptiveness is actually the strongest effort to make essential changes to a group. & come through with like, it'd be undermining thee point if it was "reassuring" us like oh haha people will be supportive b/c bruno will be more normal, so great that it Didn't like no, no Normality Reassurance(tm), presence of abnormalities(tm), Good, & everyone Can Deal b/c if you don't then it's pushing this person away, is exactly what happens, including even if they're still Around but are being mistreated b/c that is entirely part of that pushing away like anyone's victim blaming is ready to pounce at any time but if someone can't stand to stay / leaves b/c they can't see another option like that's not out of nowhere nor Regardless of what full support & flexibility they were getting lol. these Active Measures everyone loves so much, which are everywhere always & would include Staying & Trying To Make It Work & those efforts would be "disruptive" & resented & Bringing It On Oneself & etccc smh
that is to all say like. Woww when clearly basically the core thread was these beats of like, the crucial site of [thee scapegoated], & why that comes down on someone & how that plays out. endless ideas about how someone weird(tm) & disabled (&/or queer. but there's no Or here lol. & again like it's a Context like, to even be the one person without kids? likely not living up to "full" correct sexuality in that way alone; any oppression's logics of "inferiority" being logics of ableism, ready examples being that "inferior" race, gender, sexuality (& their experiences as people classed as inferior) all being pathologized as disordered) are seen & treated as someone Ruining Things & who cannot belong like whew. bracing. winding. which, i also recall like i was watching with headphones & during this one dialogue pause i was like "?? what's this Extra Sound i heard there" & had to go over it like twice before being hit upside the head like well it Was still the dialogue pause but it was also bruno Stuttering in a very quiet whisper for the duration of that pause before continuing like iiiiiiii x_x
#[sitting waiting right here] for billions to have its vulnerable weird scapegoated misfit outcasts actually band together lmao....#like Sure Doesn't b/c billions is like we all hate weirdos & we all love telling them to shut tf up & go away to die or w/e. correctly#can't believe ultimately the Different fund disappears w/o its scapegoat & the Correct ''weird'' char is full axe cap mode finally#& it's sure not a Comment when billions affectionately gives them their free heavenly reward & Ensure zero scapegoating consequences#the [imagine if something about something was about something] approach to Banished Relatives being thoughtful & loving like#& here you see how even As they're banished everything isn't Really fixed for it incl. that people aren't Really just happy he's gone#billions is like no we killed him And everyone has gladly & legitimately forgotten he exists (save the instant it's time to use him)#the hilarious(tm) tragedies surrounding rian like billions' can't make her ''care'' abt winston be anything save more violence#can't pretend rian was anything more than [again we all Know your nads like w/taylor like w/winston] bagina + dialogue source combo in s6#when it's still dimly relevant for prince in s7 but you miss Nothing re: rian if you have no idea that plotline exists#& speaking of actual ''weirdness'' rian was never allowed to have: the tragedy of the tension of Closeted Transness present on screen fr#just as billions has no idea / further willingness to let rian be so ''weird'' as to actually care abt winston or abt not being a bully Lol#meanwhile i figured like oh i'll like a scapegoat. did know ahead of time like bruno's just some guy; not even ''redeemable'' antagonist#but In Practice & w/all that beloved Disabledness & crucial appreciation like you Need this guy; the understanding is Key#like well ofc i would kill for him. ofc just constant like mhm go off king slay fire etc. god tier character cherished forever thanks#but then also like im sure a zillion [intention; inspiration; thoughts] going into Tfw Family Things characters; a zillion interpretions &#thoughts to follow like it truly is Arresting like this clarity on A Disabled Person In The Group like. much much to consider & whew.#reference point like when autistic ppl in some job see an obvious [problem to future mess] pipeline; so you know bruno madrigal. My Vision#When You're So Hated like hey i wanna live unseen w/my so hated little friends lol. just reread how to disappear completely never be found#when it's like grabbing people Who Cares if someone's being ''obviously'' disabled or weird just as how they are existing godddd#people get so mean like Who Cares just talk to them; be around them. some effort some mind your own business some You're Not Above Them#when it's obviously You like yeah. nonzero but limited applicability like [specifically my own nuclear family] but re: Weird; Disabled#as ever i'll Relate & be like but i probably seem nothing like that. or maybe i am very much like that. kind of difficult to tell b/c like#you Do get the disinterest lol & feedback is Not that familiar / in depth even if positive like well. the emergent So Hated / Scapegoating#noting like if a character just seems refreshingly familiar; Understood; comfortable; fun; what's the odds they're cishet allistic lol....#anyway the epiphany like oh it was figurative blink & you miss it stuttering....did [waiiit] Pace that one off like inhaaale Waugh#in fact i'm sure the Verbalizing Effort has staved off the kind of [thinks about all of it a moment] to go Aauughhh about again#which; again; also something happening 5 yrs in re: the clairvoyant soothsayer autistic neuroqueer quant on the show w/No Thoughts abt it#ppl being invalidated by others having to validate themselves (& others in the same boat); billions going & How We Hate Them For It lol#oh & encanto's [excluded party's effort to partake] tragedy vs billions' [where's winston in this office? this event?] good riddance idc
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