#I missed the conversation around them

[polterwasteist]

I just gonna yap a little bit about them to so don't mind me

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I love, LOOOOOVE with all my being the relationship of these two.

How they were childhood friends whose bond was broken by an external misinterpretation where they brought out the worst in each other to the point where they became enemies and that bitterness ate them up inside for YEARS until they were adults but they could never really be completely separated because they always ended up involved in some way or another (like their new founded bond with Amber) and even though they hated each other they could never really let the other suffer because deep down they still appreciated each other and they are such good people that they still offered their help to each other

I love the complex, deep and toxic relationship of two sentimentally repressed people with a difficult past coming together and loving each other (platonic or romantically idk at this point) despite of everything because that's how real relationships are, not everything is like a fairytale or a sitcom. Anger and hate are VERY strong feelings that one can't just make them disappear and make it seem that everything is fine. They had to see themselves at their worst to realise that they are not just the bad image they had in their heads.

I complain a lot about Beemoov not give them a good closure to their story (we came so close to seeing it in episode 7 of LL but in the end we were back to business as usual)

But it's so nice to me that despite everything they kept being closer and closer until they ended up being official friends again!! They take the worst out of each other but also the best out of each other, because there is no one else in that world who really knows them as deeply as they do. They are the longest and deepest bond in the game (after the Nath and Amber bond)

I know this will seem biased because I ship them. But believe it or not, i hated the ship before and it was only after I started to analyse their interactions, their history and their evolution that I fell in love with them

castiel and nathaniel relationship through time is really interesting and dear to me.

it's mentioned that they know each other since they were kids and didn't get along. still somehow, during their first years of highschool they seem to be something more akin to friends. i would've loved to know how that happened, how it evolved. then there's the debrah situation and they go back to despising each other. notice how nathaniel was terribly hurt that castiel didn't believe him, and castiel felt betrayed by nathaniel. and they never talked about it.

then candy shows up and saves the day as always, yes queen. and so it all gets exposed. and after that, they seem slightly less aggressive towards the other, more like how you would treat an ex-friend than an enemy. (i hope i'm making sense lol)

then there's nathaniel's whole family situation. and i think that's when we can notice major changes on their relationship. how castiel helped him even if he pretended he didn't care hehe. (i'm choosing to ignore the terrible way he made fun of it, i still think that was very ooc of him and he totally deserved that slap). i don't remember many specific examples bc it's been a looong while, but there are some moments when, i swear, you can see the change. their bickering turned into light hearted teasing somewhere along the way.

then we skip 4 years into the future. and they fell off. again. and even when castiel (and everyone else, really) were mad at nathaniel, they had amber conecting them both. and somehow they relied on each other when it came to her, some sort of silent agreement to take care of her. and i love thaaat.

and then candy shows up (again), nathaniel fixes his shit, and they go back to how they were at the end of highschool. or not? they're better, even if they would die before letting it show. they're friends again (or for the first time?).

and don't get me started on love life, because oh my god. the way nathaniel doesn't even doubt before risking his job to help him. okay, i see you.

anyways, not to be taken serious ! i'm just a yapper who's still stuck on her obsession from middle school. I LOVE THEEMMMM.

[zabiume]

in fact, academy!rukia and HM!orihime are so similar, no wonder rukia took to her so quickly - to the point where ukitake even remarked about it. the obvious choice for that scene would have been ichigo, her established protégé, but it's orihime that kubo singles out as a way to show rukia's own maturity and development. she's not that girl anymore, and her mentoring orihime is a sign of her growth! rukia understands orihime, and she has such a tenderness for orihime that's very similar to rangiku's own attitude. there's this very "gosh, you're so silly (affectionate)" vibe both rangiku and rukia give off around orihime - not in a patronizing way, but in a "this is what growing pain feels like, trust me, i've been there and you'll laugh at yourself in a few years" way. i imagine that, as a teenager, orihime feels very embarrassed about feeling the things she feels (and all her feelings are so Big and Out There in a way that feels so difficult to hide), but having the wisdom of older women guiding her must have felt so comforting.

and this is especially fun to see with rukia, because while rukia's yell-and-motivate approach works with ichigo, it notably...doesn't with orihime. she has to use a more empathetic, gentle approach. and while rukia did "train" ichigo, the extent of her training was pretty much the equivalent of reading off the training manual. ichigo's journey as a shinigami was so wild and unexpected that there really was very little rukia could have prepared him for. but, even if we don't get a detailed look at her training with orihime, you get the sense that it's more formal, more serious. rukia is doing actual combat training with orihime, something she's never done with ichigo (and maybe never had to, considering his crazy growth spurt and learning-as-he-goes approach). and, unlike ichigo, you get the sense that rukia and orihime's methodology is more precise, practiced. ichigo is all energy, burst burst burst, straight-to-bankai (which is funnily/ironically more similar to renji's approach). but kido-user rukia, whose zanpakuto involves meticulous technique and even choreography, seems like a better fit as a mentor for someone like orihime, who is just as contained (see: other characters comparing her technique to kido; that one time she created a perfect sphere at kukaku's house – and was praised for her control). rukia not only supports her emotionally, she trains her in combat, which is not something we've ever seen her do. for her to take orihime to her own home, invest that much time and energy into orihime's learning...no wonder ukitake was surprised. it's the first time we've REALLY seen what rukia can be as a slow and patient Mentor and not just the girl who stuck a sword in a boy's chest and has to stick around to ensure he doesn't fuck things up because he accidentally "absorbed" all her powers. this is not to diminish ichigo and rukia's importance to each other, but neither of them chose or intended for things to be that way at the start. orihime and rukia's friendship is more intentional, more kind, because orihime isn't a stranger to rukia anymore and rukia isn't a stranger to orihime. i always think about that one scene where, after ichigo promises to protect orihime, orihime accepts ichigo's feelings, but she also turns around and thanks rukia/welcomes rukia back, as if rukia is just as essential to that moment, in orihime's head. as if rukia is just as essential to her as ichigo is.

[svamppp]

It's scary sometimes how closely a song can resemble your life experience of something

[ranger-danger]

Also while I’m at it, can I just say how much I love Davrin’s excitement about his romance with Rook.

Rook just revealed that they also are interested in you, don’t let them finish their sentence you get to kiss them now. Rook’s been trapped away for a significant amount of time and that felt really fucking bad, but forget about all that it’s not important Rook’s here now and that’s good that’s really good you want to be close to them.

I don’t know if I worded this exactly how I wanted to, but like. AGH I love them.

[vaguely-concerned]

first of all rye 'hello fellow kids' ingellvar there is nothing in this world or any other I wouldn't do for you. second of all, considering where this story ends... I'm going to die. this conversation -- and how much he genuinely believes what he's saying at this point -- held up against the fact that in a couple of months max he's going to get her killed (well. that's how he feels anyway) and then go against everything she believed in and stood for as a person in the end and have to live forever with knowing that's how he honoured her sacrifice. (and live with how easy it is to live with, the way he doesn't regret what he did at all. she'll haunt him from time to time, that's fine, he's a watcher he's loved many a ghost before and will again. but that won't.) 'no one is beyond help? oh lace I'm so so sorry, wherever you are now please forgive me for who I am, but after what he pulled and by the time I'm done with him on my watcher's oath he will be beyond help. I'll hold every hand in this world that reaches back but his'. and she'll still be gone.

'or none of this matters'. im so fucking sad I feel sick *through tears* this is great I love fiction I love this game (embarrassingly genuine as is my wont)

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

(continue in tags)

[redbean-nom]

watched the first 2 episodes of acolyte and so far i like every character except for the main one lol. (also is her name osha as in occupational safety and health administration??)

[rozecrest]

the thing is i do believe there is a valid interpretation for elphaba being alive in the wicked books. the ambiguousness of it is very much intentional, even from the last lines of that first book before the musical ending was conceived. However the thought of her never once seeking out liir does break my heart

[unnonexistence]

messing around with magnet words again

[whenitgrowsbright]

whats worse than having only like 1-5 friends?

having only that many friends and you talk to only 1 more than once every two months!

[cave-monkey]

I can't wait for my usual post-episode ramble (edit: it's Episode 8 don't read further if you don't want to know anything about Monkey King 2009 Episode 8, okay, okay good). Because where did this come from?

The Demon King cuts down the tree Stone Monkey and Six Ears took refuge from their army in, and as they're starting to fall they have this exchange:

Stone Monkey: Six Ears, leave! Let me handle this! Six Ears: No! I'm staying with you! Stone Monkey, grabbing Six Ears by the wrist and throwing him to safety on top of a nearby cliff: Go!

!!!!

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Whumpers, what are your earliest memories?

Mine is from when I was about two or three. I was in a stroller, at my cousin’s Irish dancing recital. After the recital, my aunts were talking down to me in the stroller, and to each other. I was experiencing extreme anxiety because I couldn’t understand what they were saying, when I felt I should have been able to communicate with them like they were communicating with each other. I was also very tired and dazed. I did not cry though… I probably looked normal on the outside.

I also remember when I was about four or five, I went to the beach with my dad and one of his friends. I somehow found my way onto the dock, planted my little rear end on a jet ski, untethered it from the dock, and started floating into the sunset. There was an old lady lounging in a donut inflatable out some way; she said something to me, but I couldn’t understand what she said, despite trying really hard. I’m assuming it was something along the lines of “Oh my god get off that jet ski you’re going to fucking DIE, kid,” but again… couldn’t understand a word of what she said, and got frustrated because she was speaking English (without an accent) and I should know how to understand adults speaking English to me.

At this point, my dad is yelling at me from across the water, and a young lifeguard drags the jet ski back. On land, my dad lectured at me very harshly as he led me back to the car. I didn’t know I had done anything wrong, and was very confused. At some point this guy starts quoting the Bible at me, and the only thing I could pick out were the words (spoken very emphatically), “Your days are numbered.”

“My days are numbered?” cue a vivid mental image of a calendar, with dates listed for every day of the week, “What does that mean?” Later on I figured out this was the Bible’s way of referencing death at God’s hand which just made me even more confused as to what I did, until at age thirteen, I figured out, “Oh a baby who can’t swim floating on a jet ski is terrifying, actually.”

Tagging: @kaleidoscopr @redd956 @hereissomething @astudyinpanda @c0ldbrains @straight-to-the-pain

[buildarocketboys]

:// feeling down and bad about myself for no reason, send nice messages if u want?

[seasonal-writes]

HELLO BUDDY take 2 of this ask asdfkjsfd tumblr don't delete my things challenge

21.  Who is/are your favourite character(s) to write?

40.  Share some backstory for one of your characters (I'm not saying golden rings!impulse specifically but also if you feeel like it... 👀)

46.  Do you reread your own stories?

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:D Hi buddy hey guy hey dudeee

21.  Who is/are your favourite character(s) to write? Ooooh. Um.. Well. I'm a rancher writer. If that wasn't obvious sdkfjskf. So tango and jimmy are at the top of the list. BUT I will say that when I've experimented with others before, briefly, I REALLY love writing Scott. Like, he's so sassy and cool and just <333 I love writing him too!

40.  Share some backstory for one of your characters (I'm not saying golden rings!impulse specifically but also if you feeel like it... 👀) my man asks for golden rings!impulse, how could i EVER refuse?? So, Impulse (in my Golden Rings AU) is obviously Tango's personal guard. But! He's actually a real knight, too. He was brought into guard training in the palace at a pretty young age, like, around 13 or so? After that, he went through guard training for a while, and that's when he was assigned to protect Tango (since he's actually older than Tango by a few good years, so it's not like it was child-watching-child y'know). BUT like. Impulse was impressive as a guard right out of the gate. I mean, the guy could fight like hell, was strong, had the observation skills of an eagle—not to mention being wildly loyal to his prince—and was just all around very very good at his job. So, this being said, by the time he was in his early "adult" years, he was officially knighted as Sir Impulse. (But he doesn't really like being called that.) He ends up holding a TON of rank in the Nether Kingdom's system of guards/even the military as well. ALSO I know that's probably not how actual knighting works, but this is MY AU and I get to decide what constitutes knighting someone, skdfjskdf. Who knows! Maybe that's all the Nether Kingdom needs for someone to be considered a knight. For him to be almost unnervingly devoted to Prince Tango and to be a kickass protector. As far as like, early family life goes and stuff, I haven't thought much about it? It sounds terrible, but most of Impulse's backstory, to me, comes from his years with Tango. The two did spend a lot of their really formative years together, so. That's kinda his late childhood-early teens to me. I've wanted to write some backstory-moments of theirs for the longest time. Maybe I'll do that when I'm feelin up to it! hopefully that wasn't a super lame answer haha<3

46.  Do you reread your own stories?

Occasionally, yes! I'll re-read my stories mostly when I'm like. fucking around in my google docs and reorganizing. Or when I'm bored in lecture. Plus, I love reading old stuff to see how my style has changed over time. It's fun! Thanks for the ask, darling theo <3 :D

[funeralgreys]

does anyone else still have really complex feelings about atl

[united-under-skyfall]

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