#I miss the Netherlands sm

[jane-not-rizzoli]

(Drenthe, 2014ish)

[mickyschumacher]

Hi hun

Could you maybe write a smau about Charles x Brazilian!reader and maybe she’s like a famous actress or something?

Thank you 🤍🤍

𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐇𝐈𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 .ೃ࿐

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘: after being publicly mistreated by your ex-boyfriend, fans couldn't be more welcoming to a certain f1 driver.

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: mentions of cheating, poor humor, google translated portuguese

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: charles leclerc x famous brazilian actress!fem!reader

𝐅𝐂: bruna marquezine

𝐀/𝐍: i opted for a sm au after getting ill this week so hope ya'll don't mind! i was also stuck between bruna and livia as the fc but i figured my girlie bruna was the best! hope this was okay anon ♡︎

𝐏.𝐒: i don't think there are much plots in sm aus so there wasn't much here lol! also getting danny ric back at this time is kinda crazy. couldn't believe it when i saw it... but i also feel for nick :(

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

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yourusername: cura ♡ healing♡

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leclercs: guYS THE DOG 👀

norrarijimin: they're soft launching 🤧🥺

zendaya: beautiful girl ❤️

yourusername: says you ♡︎

ynauurrrr: i miss her and n tho 🤧

ynbestgirl: bestie no one misses him lmao

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f1gossip: Rumoured WAG Y/N L/N has been promoting her heavily anticipated show in the Netherlands and seen taking pictures with her fans, a few days before the Dutch Grand Prix.

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ausnorris1: it just keeps getting better am i right?

ynbestgirl: does she ever have a day off being the prettiest woman in the world?

norrarijimin: no one talking about gasly's like?

leclercs: the drama this man likes to start...

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yourusername: here are some behind the scenes while you wait for the first episode tonight!

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romuloestrela: uau… estamos incríveis. wow... we look amazing.

johnnyomassaro: modelos models

yourusername: obviamente... obviously...

ynbestgirl: IT'S GONNA BE SO GOOOOOOD

leclercs: talent with talent... love to see it!

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[ charles_leclerc: new day, new show recommendation for tifosi! #deusslaveorei ]

[ charles_leclerc: favourite character is caterina ❤️ #deusslaveorei ]

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[ yourusername: i hope singapore is ready for ferrari! thank you for having me f1 ♡︎ ]

[ yourusername: the singapore grand prix winner doesn't want to show his face... anyways... proud of you charles_leclerc ]

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charles_leclerc: birthday break with the people i love before the us grand prix! still in shape and ready to win ❤️

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danielricciardo: happy birthday mate! hope you had a good one ❤️

pierregasly: happy birthday bro

landonorris: why no invite brooo :(

carlossainz55: ^^

arthur_leclerc: man i look good

charles_leclerc: it's the genes

lorenzotl: you're welcome ♡︎

arthur_leclerc: ...

norrarijimin: WHY DIDN'T U TAG HER AHFSRHEAKRHESIJRB

leclercs: they're still soft launching for god's sake 😭💀

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yourusername: he wins in méxico, he wins in são paulo ♡︎ proud of you, meu lindo. proud of you, my beautiful.

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pierregasly: FINALLY

leclercs: LMAOOOO PIERRE

pierregasly: i thought i was going to die if i had to keep it a secret any longer 🤧

charles_leclerc: a for effort ig

charles_leclerc: thank you, chérie. thank you, sweetheart

ausnorris1: anyone checking up on ynbestgirl?

ynbestgirl: choosing to happily throw myself over a cliff rn.

norrarijimin: room for two?

ynbestgirl: ofc

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charles_leclerc: not that we've been hiding it but this is y/n, the love of my life. say hi y/n!

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carlossainz55: hi! yourusername

yourusername: ...

yourusername: i have mixed feelings about this post

yourusername: what are these photos? 😭

charles_leclerc: what do you mean? they're my memories of you 😄

ynbestgirl: STOP IT CHARLES MY HEART CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE yourusername liked this comment!

yourusername: ^

leclercs: and here lies ynbestgirl. y/n's biggest fan. passed on the 7th of november 2023 due to y/n herself

ynbestgirl: they do say never meet your heroes 😭

yourusername: i–

© 𝐌𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐘𝐒𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑

[sunshine-theseus]

Breaking Records or Breaking the Internet? | Vivianne Miedema x Reader

Words: 2.5k

Summary: COVID doesn’t exist, Viv didn’t have to undergo another knee surgery, I’m basing the main character off Arnie Titmus (I love her sm) but I am also just making shit up

Warnings: not proofread

Your first Olympics had been 2012 in London. Barely 15, you emerged from the water an Olympic record holder with your first piece of Olympic gold weighing on your neck. As a young girl from a rural town in Tasmania, you hadn’t expected to make a career out of swimming, but with every competition, every new medal, every regional, national and world record that you claim, it begins to feel real.

As a young girl from rural Tasmania who grew up extremely religious, you hadn’t expected to reach all these milestones with the girl of your dreams.

It was unclear how and why Vivianne Miedema showed up to your 200m Freestyle final swim at the 2020 Olympics in Tokyo. The rest of her team was surely back at the hotel or walking the streets of Tokyo, but here she was. Your eyes were drawn to her in the bright orange jacket all Dutch athletes had to wear, talking enthusiastically with Dawn Fraser, both of them pointing at you as you wait for your name to be called at the podium.

“With a new Olympic Record, 1st place is Y/N L/N!!” The voice echoes throughout the hall before cheers erupt from every corner. With a smile you bend to accept the medal that placed around your neck, then your eyes return to the unanticipated duo.

After congratulating your competitors and talking to family and friends, you make your way over to them. Dawn is pulling you into a hug and praising you before a word can escape your mouth, before turning to the tall dutchie next to her who has a tight lipped but kind smile.

“This is Vivianne Miedema. She’s a big fan of yours.” Of course you knew who she was. You were a big fan of her’s.

“It’s so lovely to meet you. You’re probably my favourite non-Australian player. I can’t wait to watch your game against Zambia.”

“You’re coming to the game?”

“Of course.”

Many, many people had caught that interaction, followed by your long talks on the pitch after her games or beside the pool at other record-breaking swims. The natural development from the internet was speculation about whether you were a couple. At the time you certainly weren’t. Strictly new friends.

But then you showed up to more Netherlands and even an occasional Arsenal game, and she showed up to more swim meets. The conversations last longer, the touches lingered, the glances toward each other’s lips increased. Everything was just more… intense.

So one fateful day in 2022 during your (short) off-season, you decided to visit her in London. It wasn’t a surprise technically, you just decided to arrive a few days earlier than planned and surprise her at the game. There was something telling you, you needed to come early. So Caitlin had sorted out your ticket and happily gave you a lift from the airport to the stadium.

-

Viv easily spotted you during warm up, with your hair in the same messy bun it had been for the past day and a bright orange ‘Miedema’ jersey adoring your torso, one that she had personally given to you after her first 2020 Olympics match. She happily made her way over to you, swinging her leg back and forth to mimic the exercise she was supposed to be doing as she grinned the same grin you’d found yourself stuck admiring time and time again. But it didn’t quite meet her eyes the same way it always did. Something was brewing.

“I can’t believe you’re here. You weren’t meant to arrive until Monday.”

“Couldn’t miss a big game, could I? Is- is everything okay? Something seems off.”

“Yeah, yeah of course why wouldn’t it be?”

“Your smile doesn’t reach your eyes today.” your hand rests on the side of her head, thumb stroking the spot beside her eye which is usually occupied by crows feet that show much love and joy she has.

“I don’t know. I’ve just felt off all week. I was going to ask Jonas to take me off the roster this morning but I don’t want to through everyone off. I’m sure it’ll be okay.”

“If you’re sure liefje.” You press a kiss to the palm of her hand and send her back down the tunnel, anticipation and worry burning in your gut.

-

Lyon was up 1 by the end of the first 45 minutes of normal time, but there looked like hope for the English side during the extra 3 minutes. Viv was playing well in midfield. She wasn’t as strong as usual, but it just looked like she was taking it easy; making open passes and wasting no time in passing the ball to the next player.

But then she makes a run to meet Lia, trying to grab the ball from her feet.

She kicks.

She misses.

She falls.

She doesn’t get back up.

Blood pounds in your ears and you wait in bated breath as the medics assess her knee.

Her knee.

She’s shifted onto the stretcher, but you don’t see any more as you rush out of the family and friend’s section and demand a security guard take you to see her, flashing your badge. This was the bad feeling. You both knew something would happen and ignored it. It almost felt like you fault.

The doors crash against the brick walls, and you speed walk down the hall to the medical room where Viv is laying quietly while the medics do further assessment. They ask questions and she answers in short, quiet breaths.

“It doesn’t hurt anymore.”

“It’s unstable.”

“I can’t walk on it.”

“It popped when I fell.” No no no no. You whisper the three letters before anyone in the room can even think them.

Suddenly all eyes are on you. The medic’s eyes are apologetic and shocked at the arrival of a new voice, but Viv’s are tired and welled with tears. She looks so broken. So you sit in the seat next to her head and take one hand in your own while your other lifts to stroke through her hair.

“It’s going to be okay.” you whisper in her ear.

“I can’t do this. I can’t do this.”

“I’m right here it’s going to be okay. I’ve got you”

~~~~~

About 2 months after the initial injury on a particularly difficult night for the Dutch, you found yourselves huddled up together in her bed watching Friends for the second time. Neither of you were talking but you found yourself staring at Viv while Chandler continues to ramble on about how much he loves Monica. Soulmates destined to be. And then you found yourself staring into Viv’s cloudy grey eyes, slowly leaning in. You waited for Viv to stop you but she says and does nothing, so you let your lips meet. It’s a delicate kiss, just two people who have been in love with each other for years, finally professing their feelings.

There was no conversation about what that kiss meant for you two, but it seemed to be an unspoken decision that you were now together. You slept beside each other, kissed at every opportunity, and supported one another through everything. You were in your own private world.

The recovery process proved to be difficult but you hadn’t left Viv’s side for a moment, officially announcing you were taking a break from this swimming season for unforeseeable amount of time. But the injury had taken a big toll had been her mental health. Most days she didn’t want to get out of bed, let alone leave the house, and every day you were to expect multiple apologies for being difficult to take care of.

Every bad comment was met with a kiss and a promise to stay by her side until you were absolutely no longer needed.

-

Viv made her return almost a year after the injury, coming on late into the second half, only to score two goals against Tottenham. You cheered as loud as you could, and smiled widely when she sent a hand heart your way in celebration. You’d agreed to keep your relationship private in terms of it’s development. Most journalists who had asked about it had been told you were taking care of a dear friend and had been looking for a chance to take a year off anyway, so the timing lined up. But she couldn’t help but silently give thanks to the person who had gotten her through it all. Who brought her back

~~~~~

You managed to make it back to training in time to decently prepare for Paris qualifiers. You’d kept up doing almost daily training during your time in England, but nowhere near the extent you were used to as the multiple time World and Olympic Champion under Boxall. Seven straight months of hard work, day in and day out, and you’d be in shape for qualifiers, and in perfect shape to take on the best of the best.

Everyday consisted of 4-6 hours in the pool and in the gym, a session in the early morning and another after lunch, a nap, and then a long call with Viv while you ate dinner and she had lunch. It was hard being away from her after spending a whole year beside her. The bed was cold, the house felt empty, things just weren’t the same. But you both knew it needed to be done.

-

By the time early July came around, you genuinely felt like you were a new person. Before the year long break things had begun to feel tedious and swimming was losing it’s meaning. You were still performing as the best in the world, but it was automatic. But now everything felt… right.

And the qualifiers showed it.

You broke your own world records multiple times with ease, and every round made you feel alive again. There was no Viv in bright orange to cheer you along this time but you knew she’d be proud. And she made sure you knew she was with every nightly call, proclaiming her love and support for you.

-

Viv accompanying you to Paris was a well kept secret between the two of you. In the days leading up to your first races, you wondered around the village texting her, desperate to know what she was doing out in the city. More often than not, the answer was that she refused to see any big sites without you, waiting until you are completely done to explore the city of love.

She was in the crowd of every race without fail, the same bright orange jacket she wore the first time you met. Your ear was trained to hear her and your eyes knew where to look, she would be sitting in the exact same seat every time. The proud smile on her face made your heart flutter and it takes everything within you not to run up to her and kiss her after clambering out of the water.

Halfway through the swimming events you’ve managed to rack up five golds and once again break your own world records, barely skimming off 0.2 seconds each time.

Then it came to the big finale. You were known for your short distance swims. 100m and 200m freestyle and butterfly were your dominant fields, but you were adamant to at least try and land on the podium for the 1500m freestyle beside Katie Ledecky.

It was a shock to you, your coach and most of the nation when you had passed through the qualifiers, and then you qualified for the semis. Now you were on to the final. You’d never been this nervous in your career and all you wanted in that moment was a hug from your girlfriend, but you needed to lock in.

You’re lined up in the tunnel.

Your name is called.

You’re standing behind the podium for lane 7.

You’re on the podium in position.

The whistle blows.

You’re submerged in the water.

The rest of the race is a blur. One lap becomes 10 and 10 becomes 20 and then suddenly you’re onto the last 50 metres. Just 50 more metres. You have no idea if you’re in front or if you’ve fallen behind, but you push until your hand slides against the ceramic tile of the pool wall.

Gasping for air, you pull off your goggles and look around the pool. Most other people are finished, but you have no clue for how long, and the final swimmer slots in beside your no more than 20 seconds after. You don’t expect a big victory as you all turn to the board, waiting for the results.

“In second… lane 4, United States of America, Katie Ledecky!” the room echoes with cheers and shouts of confusion. Second? This is her race. This is what she’s known for. Who could possibly have beaten the Katie Ledecky?

“And with a new world and Olympic record of 15:20.34, lane 7, Australia, Y/N L/N!” the screams are deafening as the crowd and your competitors alike cheer for you.

You hug and thank each of them, before making your way to the podium where you receive your gold. Tears stream down your face as photos are taken from all angles, and you pull Katie and Anastaysia up beside you, recognising their efforts. But all you can think about is Viv, waiting impatiently against the barrier for a moment of your time.

The happiness and excitement keeps building up within you as you’re finally freed from media, and you run to your girlfriend, grabbing her face and kissing her. In the back of your head you know this will be making news headlines everywhere in all of an hours time, but you don’t care. How could you? It’s the perfect way to celebrate all your hard earned success. Kissing the love of your life.

“I love you so much. I’m so so proud of you liefje.” She pecks your lips again.

“I couldn’t have done it without you, lieveling.”

~~~~~

You get to leave the village the next day, and you’re thankful to leave the Styrofoam mattresses and cardboard bedframes behind. Your hotel’s king sized bed with a memory foam mattress, completed with the warmth of your girlfriend’s arms is the only upgrade you could ask for. She presses kisses to your shoulder as you scroll through twitter, many fans of both yourself and Viv sharing words of adoration and happiness for your now public relationship as pictures of your kiss spread across the internet.

When Viv picked you up from the village to take you to breakfast at a small Parisian café down the road from the hotel, you both decided to officially, officially, announce the fact you were together. You took photos together throughout the day, her kissing you on the cheek, your hands being held between you, the way you looked at her. Anything of the two of you. You turned it into a collage and posted it to Instagram.

Y/N_L/N

@ y/n_l/n “breaking records and breaking the internet in the same week. there is no on else I’d rather do it with than the love of my life. Ik zal je in elk leven vinden.” (I will find you in every life).

This was the life you wanted to live. Forever. With Viv.

[jaarijani]

Käärijä Antwerp gig recap!!!

I HAVE THOUGHTS of course i do i dont shut the hell up ever you should know this about me by now

i arrived there at around 9 am bc of train delays but there were only 10 people there then and for the longest time it was just the 15 of us so 15 gang ily sm!!! i loved sitting and chatting with all of you you made those 10+ hours go by SO FAST ❤️❤️❤️

the tour bus arrived at around 12ish and we all stood around for a while until they finally came out

häärijä BEELINED to Ed, ignoring us completely, it was so funny

he was so sweet oh my god i love him 💛

while he distracted us Jere sneaked off the bus

as Jere walked back to the bus i saw him wave so i waved back and he came over to say hi!!! right in front of me!!! he was so sweet too 😭💚

you cannot comprehend how beautiful this man is irl oh my god

sidenote: he was SO surprised some of us woke up super early to travel all the way from the Netherlands

people started giving gifts and asking for pics and he said to form a line so we could all have a pic and he called himself santa claus lmao

i have the forbidden knowledge of Jeres height as he's exactly as tall as me 😈

OKAY THE ACTUAL GIG

it was so amazing???

his energy is so good and the audience matched him SO well today

he was CLEARLY feeling so much better today he was so happy and smiley and he seemed genuinely surprised by how crazy we were

we chanted käärijä after almost every song

VOITTAJA CHANT

i blacked out during hirttää kinni???? it was so good and its my fav at he moment and suddenly we were done??? no wait take me back

he talked about huhhahhei and said "when two guys go on a love boat together" paraphrasing but sIR!!!

AND THEN he did a whole bit about bojan again? he sang a little song wondering where he was and that he misses him and JERE PLEASE I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE

i have a video of this btw

Emilia fucking SLAPPED icip again holy shit she matched his energy perfectly

i feel like he didnt want to go again!!! he just stayed and talked about doing what you love and being true to youself WHILE the reggae mix was playing

it was so fun so good i had an amazing time 💚💚💚💚💚 and am low key considering going to finland next year

also shout out to Ed @submariini and his amazing Häärijadar bc we share the same birthday??!!!! october 29 babeyy

[purpurussy]

I still haven't received a confirmation phemail 😭 checked my spam as well, nothing. I'm just really stressed that it'll be an early access code for something and I'll miss out. And I can't sign up for an SMS notification because the Netherlands is not supported apparently. Is it just a region thing lmao is this all a huge scheme to make me buy NordVPN

[eclvpses]

leo fowler; revised

welcome to marina, LEO FOWLER ( demi man, he/they ) ! they are a TWENTY-SEVEN (ONE HUNDRED+) year old HYBRID (nature nymph/banshee) who resides in PROSPECT HILL. They work as a FLORIST at FOWLER’S FLOWERS and are said to look a lot like HARRIS DICKINSON. People around the island find them to be +CONVIVIAL and +DEVOTED, but also -CALLOUS and -IMPETUOUS. what do you think?

stats.

name: leopold kristoff fowler.

supernatural relation: nature nymph from their father's bloodline, banshee from his mother's bloodline.

sexuality: bisexual.

birthday: november 12th.

star sign: scorpio.

myer-briggs: entp.

occupation: florist.

place of birth: amsterdam, netherlands.

last played on spotify: throat goat by kim petras.

general disposition: reckless and carefree.

background.

in true leo fashion, ever since he’d been able to properly manifest his abilities leo has been a force of nature (literal) (also said in a terrified voice)

much more akin to the side of them that is nymph, leo always found them self far more at home w the other fae in his family - his aunt and uncle, the brothers they grew closer and closer over the years, while their dad forced down and tried to dampen his own magical ability after discovering how weak of a nymph he was

the side from his mum is the side leo refuses to admit but is scared of, the side that gave him his banshee abilities that not long ago, sent him spiralling - the abilities always confused him, came and went, but decided to manifest deeply in his chest the day that his cousin, finn, died

leo sensed it and knew it would happen, but tried to push away the thoughts, refuse to believe in his own abilities, and it cost him his best friend, something he never did forgive himself for

now they try to brush off the exchange, cover everything with a joke as they usually do, and have become more and more impulsive and reckless w their abilities to cope

on a totally diff note. mans has a 10 month only child named hawthorne??? who allowed this. (with philomena carmichael npc this verse i miss them sm)

[l5byrinth]

hi lovely!!

i hope vacation is going well <3 mwah

hi ml!!

my vacation was sm fun and honestly went by so fast too!! i landed back in the netherlands (where i live) yesterday and i miss vacation sm already :(

how’s your day/night going? <3

[bettyg196]

Here is what I think about the JESC 2024 entries (possibly a controversial post).

🇲🇰 For a song called Marathon, I expected more energy and power. Despite its banality, it's still nice. Ana & Aleksej sing well and there were good ideas, it's just a lack of execution. Sounds more like a song for the Olympics or European Football Cup than of JESC entry.

🇨🇾 Bop alert ! The dancebreak is nice but not necessary, it's mainly the production and the arrangement that give the strength the song needed. It's the kind of entry that doesn't require vocal effort, so Maria should be fine. Very good song, Cyprus is truly back !

🇺🇦 Winner contender ! Very dynamic song, Artem knows how to perform on stage and will set Madrid on fire. A lot of people will recognise themselves in the lyrics. Biggest weak point : the chorus is repetitive. I usually don't mind, but it spoils the song. Anyway, Ukraine can win.

🇪🇪 Estonian EDM ? YES ! Great choice Estonia ! Love the 90s vibes. There is a lot of potential for JESC. I like Annabelle's deep voice, it's the perfect tone for this song. It could have been an Eesti Laul entry though. It deserves a solid staging. It's either a hit or miss.

🇳🇱 Not original, generic af and overheard. But I don't care. It's simply efficient, catchy and memorable. With a good staging, good vocals and harmony in the band, The Netherlands should finish in the top 10.

🇦🇱 Very good surprise, it's very good for Albania's standards in JESC. Musical tunes remind me of Padam Padam (the Edith Piaf one, not the Kylie Minogue one), don't ask me why. Maybe influences ? Nicol is an excellent singer. I'm not worried about the country's results this year.

🇵🇹 Cancel the contest, we have a winner ! What a beautiful and powerful song ! Goosebumps at every listening. This song is made for Eurovision (junior and senior). Portugal can win this. The question is : Lisbon, Porto or Braga in 2025 ?

Boa sorte é força Victoria !

🇮🇹 Italy is offering us a festive sleepover this year. It's the most original and junior theme entry of the edition, glad to see the country trying something else. Guilty pleasure. Simone deserves a fun staging in the theme of the song. Maybe a return to the top 10 ?

🇸🇲 It's bland. Also, is it autotune we hear in the studio version of the song ? Why ? Idols SM doesn't need it, it ruins the entry. The girl band deserves better. The lyrics don't seem very researched to me, although I don't and can't understand Italian. San Marino won't do well.

🇵🇱 Slightly better than last year's entry, but what the hell happened to victorious Poland in JESC ? Dominik is a talented singer, he deserves a better song. It's not bad, but I'm not sure the online voting and the staging can save Poland from a ranking outside of the top 10.

🇩🇪 Meh. At least, the entry suits for JESC, but it has no originality and flavor. Too generic to stand out from the other songs, easily the worst German entry in this competition. Bjarne sings well though.

🇬🇪 Classic, that's the word for this entry. Too classic for JESC and Georgia's standards. I think even the juries won't be convinced by this song, even with a good staging. It's a shame because the melody is beautiful and Andria has a beautiful voice.

🇦🇲 Winner contender ! Bop alert ! This cosmic disco entry can steal the show. Armenia has once again understood the assignment. Leo could have the same fate than Lissandro in 2022. Great song !

🇮🇪 After 2 years of Irish ballads, Ireland is sending a pop song that could have been in the Irish NF for adult Eurovision. Quite generic but it's okay overall and Enya sings well. Normally, it shouldn't finish in the bottom with the adequate staging.

🇲🇹 It's really nice. It's not original and impactful, but the juries will like it. Ramires is a great singer, his singing is pleasant to hear and his voice attracts attention. This is, imo, the main outsider of JESC this year. Malta will do better than expected.

🇪🇸 Quite similar to the only winning Spanish entry in JESC, it's almost its spiritual sequel. It's a very funny, catchy and memorable song, Chloe's personality is its main strength. However, it's a controversial opinion, I don't feel the winner vibes. It's giving top 5 at best.

🇫🇷 France is trying something else, that colourful pop song is more aimed at teenagers. It could have been a theme song for a teen drama show. Titouan is a great singer, it's a very nice and catchy entry. But like for Spain, it's not a winner contender imo, top 3 at best.

Here is my top 17

1. 🇵🇹

2. 🇦🇲

3. 🇮🇹

4. 🇳🇱

5. 🇨🇾

6. 🇪🇪

7. 🇺🇦

8. 🇫🇷

9. 🇦🇱

10. 🇪🇸

11. ��🇹

12. 🇮🇪

13. 🇲🇰

14. 🇵🇱

15. 🇩🇪

16. 🇬🇪

17. 🇸🇲

[onabatlles22]

Predictions for the nations league games? Who do you want to be called up by Sarina?

everyone i wanted was called up really, minus K ofc hope she has a speedy recovery

i hope fran is back in england squads soon i miss her sm🥲🥲

as for how the games will go, i feel like both wins maybe 2-1 scotland and netherlands im abit unsure

[jaehyunspeachparty]

daddy jaehyun

ii.xxxvii. (a)

"Hey, have you picked up Miga yet?" You are driving your car when you are on the phone with Jaehyun. "Yes, we just got in the car. We would be on the way to you now." Jaehyun was with Sunoh at Johnny's and helped him finish the nursery. The baby could come at any time because Johanna was already in the 38th week. "We need a little more time. Could you come in an hour?" Jaehyun sighed and you can hear your son babbling in the background. "Okay, then I'll do something with Miga." You look in the rearview mirror and see your little girl dreamily looking out the window. What was she thinking of? "Perfect thanks. I love you." "I love you too." After hanging up, you went back to your daughter. "Miga, do we want to go to a cafe and eat cookies?" You knew that this answer can only be positive. "Yeah!" Cookies always brought her back to reality because she loved nothing more. You park at the next parking lot, get out and take your little girl with you. Here was a sweet cafe that had all the variations of cookies. "Today is your lucky day because today we have a mummy daughter afternoon, you can choose every cookie today." You knew that it was bribery, but you also wanted to get a little love from your daughter and not always give everything to Jaehyun. "YEEESSS." Her eyes started to sparkle and together you order what you want. You buy different kinds of cookies, Miga got cocoa and you got coffee. You sit down in a corner and the cafe staff gave your daughter something to draw. She was sitting on your lap, one hand holding the crayon, the other a biscuit. You stroke her hair and enjoy spending time with her. "Y/N?" You hear a familiar voice and when you look up you recognize an old colleague. "Dohyun! I haven't seen you in a long time. What are you doing here?" Dohyun worked with you at the event company in Seoul. He had stopped with you at the same time since he and his partner had moved to the Netherlands. "I'm only here for a few days. Shock my parents that I'm marrying Seojoon soon." He sighed and his eyes were sad. His parents never accepted that he was gay and just hoped it was a phase. But he had found his big love in Seojoon. "Do you have time? You could sit with us." You smile and make a little space at the table. "And is that the reason why you left the company?" He eyed Miga and smiled lovely. You stroke your daughter's hair and nod. "Yes, that's Miga. I have also a son, he's now 8 months old. He's now with my husband." You smile and cannot realize at this moment how quickly time has passed. "Are you happy Y/N?" Dohyun grew serious and you realize at that moment that you missed a friend like him. "Yes, I am." You smile because Miga and Sunoh were the gift that you always wanted.

The evening was quiet. You cook in the kitchen, Miga told about her day, you told Jaehyun that you had met Dohyun, and Jaehyun told about Johnny's fears of becoming a father. Miga was still afraid in the house at night, so it took a lot of time until she finally slept. But now she didn't wake up in the middle of the night anymore, so you and Jaehyun take advantage of this opportunity right away. You knew Jaehyun wasn't going to be here that often anymore, so you wanted to take advantage of him every moment. And it was much more fun in your new big bed. Drops of sweat ran over Jaehyun's torso, his muscles stood out and you stroke his biceps and shoulders. He groaned in your ear and you enjoy his warmth, his smell. But while you two were in the middle of it, Jaehyun's phone started ringing. "Ignore it, you feel too good in me right now." You moan and throw your head back. Jaehyun nodded and continued his movements while kissing and massaging your breasts. But the phone kept ringing. You try to ignore it for a while, but at some point it was too disturbing. "Maybe it's Johnny and the baby is coming." Jaehyun sighed and looked worriedly at the phone. You couldn't do anything anyway, maybe it was an emergency. Jaehyun pulled his best part out of you and took his iPhone from the small coffee table across the room. You pull the blanket over your naked body and watch Jaehyun read something. His gaze was serious and you're starting to worry. "Is there anything with Johanna? Is the baby healthy?" But Jaehyun shook his head. "It has nothing to do with her, it ..." He was interrupted by the ringing of his phone again and he picked up immediately. "Yes? Mhmm ... hmmm ... no it's just a friend ... yes, I'm 100% sure ... I trust her there ... yes we'll come over tomorrow." Jaehyun hung up and came to your bed again. He looked visibly annoyed. "I should never have taken you into the public." He looked out of the window, but still into the void. "Jaehyun? What are you talking about?" You had no idea what was happening. "A Saesang of mine has published a picture of you hugging Donhyun and since there was a rumor that Miga was not mine, you are referred to in the media as a cheater." Jaehyun gritted his teeth and he may have been almost angrier than you. "But we did a paternity test because of this whole thing and Dohyun is gay." You just couldn't realize what was happening there. Why were you so attacked by the media? "I can't believe it, I ... I ..." You notice how his throat swelled and his face get red with anger. "Jaehyun we can't do anything anyway. Let's just wait and see what the press department at SM says tomorrow.“ Somehow you were more worried about your husband, he shouldn't get so angry about it. Of course, it wasn't nice that your public reputation was considered you as a cheater, but as long as Jaehyun knew that you were loyal to him, everything was fine for you. But Jaehyun felt helpless, he wanted to protect you from something like that, but he couldn't ...

The next morning you drive to Jaehyun's company. You had to buy diapers for Sunoh, so you briefly get off with Miga at a grocery store. Meanwhile, Jaehyun was waiting in the car with his son. It was relatively busy and you take Miga by the hand. Somehow it felt like people were staring at you. You get a little scared and you squeeze your daughter's hand tighter. Unfortunately, you went by a cookie shelf and Miga absolutely wanted to have some now. "Mummy please." She pleaded to you and made herself heavy. The people around you started whispering. "Miga come on, we just need something fast for Sunoh. We have enough cookies at home." You sighed and tried to go on with her. "Terrible person," you heard a woman say, and you knew she meant you. But you didn't want to be weak, so you lift Miga up to you while she cries. You quickly go to the shelf where the diapers are. Miga was crying louder and a few people had come by now. "Do you still have to torture your child after breaking your husband's heart?" Another woman came to you and looked almost threatening. "I don't know what you're alluding to." You roll your eyes and take a pack of diapers. "You didn't deserve a man like Jaehyun. You should really appreciate him." Another woman came to you menacingly. More and more people are gathering around you and you are now panicking. Miga started to cry even more and then she did something she had never done before. She ran away. "MIGA." You try to escape, but people block your way. There were too many people and Miga was so small. "What's going on here?" And suddenly Jaehyun was there. He had Sunoh in his arms and thank God, Miga was on his hand. She must have seen him and ran to him. People cleared the way and Jaehyun came to you. "You should get a divorce. Don't put up with something like that," said another person and looks at you in disgust. "That's none of your business." Jaehyun hissed and hugged you. Then he turned to the group. "Nobody cheated on anyone here and now it's enough for me that my wife is getting constantly hostile by you guys." He was really angry and he quickly pulled you out of the supermarket. When you were in the car it was totally quiet. Jaehyun snorted with rage and stared into the void. "I didn't think everyone would react to it so emotionally." You couldn't believe it. Everyone was so angry and you didn't think people would react that way. You drive to Jaehyun's company and the press department clarifies how to regulate this situation. You agree that Jaehyun may publish a text, but while he is promoting his solo album, you should take yourself out of the public. He shouldn't mention you, post no pictures, and so on. You totally agreed, but Jaehyun reluctantly agreed. At home, Jaehyun published this post: "It makes me sad and angry that people attack my family and accuse things. My wife has not had an easy year and we are still struggling with the wounds of the miscarriage. If a comforting hug from a friend helps to close the wound, why shouldn’t it be a bad thing? What a man would I be if I forbid my wife to be happy? I know the man she hugs very well, he is a good friend of ours. But it is now more said than it should be. Please respect our privacy, don't believe any stories or pictures, because our children suffer the most."

"I doubt that it's a good idea to do the solo album." In the evening you sit on the couch with Sunoh and Miga. Jaehyun was super angry all over the day. "What why?" You were really shocked. Of course, you want him to pursue his dream. "Today was really blatant. I can't do this to you and the children." Sunoh was sitting on his lap and he stared at the little boy, who was playing with a rattle. "No, that's your goal, your dream. We'll get through it together." You worried how Jaehyun thought. Of course, you'd rather have him just with you but this wasn’t the way he should go. "But I don't want you to get hurt." Jaehyun sighed and you could see him struggling with himself. "We are doing as SM said. I will withdraw in time. I pay more attention to who I interact with in public." You're trying to cheer Jaehyun up, he had to do this now ... for himself. "It's not a solution." He was still not happy. "It's not. But it's only temporary. And you'll be back in autumn and we'll be working on baby number 3." You smile excitedly and Jaehyun finally agreed. "Okay, okay." He nodded and kissed you.

daddy jaehyun masterlist

[womenstan]

Just Wait Another Day

Happy Birthday @chibisfatou!! Sorry for the delay ily <3

Ao3

Summary :

In which Isa is away for an internship in the States and Liv celebrates her birthday alone, at work... or, does she?

Day in day out, it was always the same time, same place, same people and she was used to this implicitly agreed upon order of things.

Today, though, there was something wrong. Or, not quite wrong, but… Different. She couldn’t tell what it was yet, but she could feel it in the air as she dropped her satchel on her desk.

The receptionists had been particularly invested in their gossiping, sitting a little closer and talking a little faster than usual. Her colleagues had been rushing from room to room, buzzing like bees at work which, while not being exactly out of the ordinary, usually didn’t happen before at least ten or eleven. Even her boss, who usually didn’t even bother to come into work before noon, was standing in front of his office at 7am sharp.

So, Liv knew something was going on.

She shrugged her coat off, hanging it around the back of her chair. Taking her phone out of her pockets, she clicked a few buttons and opened her SMS: Nothing.

She sighed, trying not to let the disappointment she felt overcome her, as she still needed to make it through the day. It’s not like she was expecting Isa to text her this early, I mean, it was barely one am where she was. Still, it was her birthday today and Isa had promised she wouldn’t forget…

Liv shook her head, trying to push the thoughts and the worries away. She forgot you, so what? Get over yourself Liv!

She grabbed one of her empty mugs at random, but felt her body still when she saw which one she’d picked. It was the ‘I Heart NYC’ mug that Isa had brought back from New-York at the end of the last semester. They’d barely had a week together before Isa had been called back to her internship in the States, carrying half of Liv’s heart along with her.

They’d promised each other they would try to make it work. After all, neither were afraid of distance and they were sure that their love could triumph against anything.

Now, though, Liv wasn’t so sure anymore. In the past few weeks, Isa had become more and more distant, cancelling their weekly facetimes on more than one occasion and taking hours and hours to answer Liv’s texts.

It pained Liv and most of the time, she tried not to think about it. She didn’t want to think about the ifs and the whys, because if she started questioning everything, then she knew her self-doubt would get the best of her and they’d fall apart.

So, yeah, she tried not to think about it, but that doesn’t mean she succeeded. She was all alone in their or, well, her vast apartment, all evenings and weekends long, just her and her thoughts, swirling around in her head and poisoning her mind. So, she’d started working more.

She was constantly exhausted now, but that meant she didn’t have the energy to overthink everything. She got to work at 7am and she was never back home before 9pm. On weekends, she worked at a small café next to where she lived. She didn’t need the money per se, but it was what it took to keep her occupied.

With all her friends in relationships or busy working and with her other half enjoying her life halfway across the world… Liv had needed an escape. She’d found it in work. She was also hoping that with all those extra hours she’d saved up, she could take a few days of vacation when Isa would come back from her internship in a month and a half.

Or, well, 46 days, 6 hours and 10 minutes (according to the internship contract), but really, who’s counting (Liv, Liv’s definitely counting).

What hurt the most was scrolling through Isa’s instagram. What used to be a page filled to the brim with pictures of the two of them was now overtaken by shots of Isa’s cool american colleagues. And Liv wasn’t exactly jealous, she was glad that Isa had found friends to hang out with and that she wasn’t lonely. So, no, she wasn’t jealous, but she was definitely worried. Worried that Isa would figure out that her american friends were a lot more fun than Liv and decide to stay in the States for longer, or worse: that she’d find someone that made her heart beat just a little faster than Liv ever could.

Obviously, she never brought her worries up to Isa. Liv knew Isa would feel bad and would try to make more time for her, which would overjoy Liv, but really wouldn’t be fair to Isa. Besides, Liv knew most of her insecurities were most likely unfounded and while part of her brain really wanted to know who that ‘Kelly’ girl Isa kept tagging in posts was, the more logical side of her mind knew that Isa loved her just as much as she loved Isa. It was just hard.

Liv made her way to the coffee maker, silently thanking every God that someone had freshly brewed coffee right before she’d arrived. It wasn’t that she didn’t know how to make coffee, obviously, but the machine seemed to harbour some kind of vendetta against her and Liv was just not in the mood to get splashed by hot water today.

Liv leaned back on the counter as she sipped her coffee, sighing peacefully as she felt the warmth travel through her body. Maybe today wouldn’t be quite as bad as she’d imagined.

She felt someone slide up next to her and turned her head to face her boss, looking at her expectantly.

“Yes?” She asked, raising her eyebrows in question.

Her boss smiled slightly, nudging Liv’s shoulder with her own. “I heard it’s someone’s birthday today…”

Liv couldn’t help her reaction, jumping slightly at her boss’ words. Eyes wide, she opened her mouth to answer, but no words would come out. Her boss’ smile only widened, as she turned to face Liv properly.

“How… How did you…?” Liv started, trying to make sense of her confused thoughts.

“How did I figure out it was your birthday?” Her boss asked, straightening back up and brushing some lint off of her skirt as she did so. She shrugged noncommittally, starting to walk past Liv.

As she reached her level, she added, “Let’s just say that a little bird told me”. With that, she winked, quickly patting Liv’s shoulder and walking away.

Liv could feel the wheel turning in her mind, her eyes narrowed in confusion. She turned towards the direction her boss had gone, but she was nowhere to be seen. Still feeling perplexed, Liv made her way back to her desk and got to work.

As it was nearing lunch time, Liv leaned away from her computer monitor, stretching her arms and her neck. She let out a satisfied noise as her arm cracked slightly. Checking the time on her phone, she noticed it was a little past noon, so she finished what she was writing on her computer and shut the monitor off.

As she rolled her chair back and grabbed her bag, she heard a knock on her office door. She shouted a ‘come in!’, getting up at the same time.

Mila, one of her coworkers, popped her head into the office, smiling at Liv.

“Hey! We’re all grabbing lunch in the cafeteria, and we’d love it if you joined us!” She asked, cheerfully.

Liv narrowed her eyes slightly, surprised by the proposition. Barely anyone ever ate in the cafeteria, unless the weather was too bad to step outside. Mila seemed to really want her to come along though, so Liv nodded, quickly grabbing her things and following her coworker out of the room.

As they walked down the stairs that led to the cafeteria, Liv was stunned by the lack of noise coming from the room. Usually, you could hear employees’ chatters all the way up the staircase, but today, it was so silent that Liv could hear her heels resonate on the floors.

Mila was the first one to reach the cafeteria’s door, but instead of opening it, she stepped to the side and gestured for Liv to step in first.

“Thanks?” Liv said, growing more and more suspicious by the second.

She grabbed the doorknob and pulled. As soon as the door was creaked open, Liv was assaulted by yells of ‘Happy birthday!’. She could barely register the confettis thrown her way or the way off-key singing of her coworkers, because in the middle of the room, standing right in front of her was the last person she’d expected to see.

Isa.

Liv felt her bag drop from her hands and hit the floor, but she didn’t care. She ran towards Isa who waited there, a bright smile plastered on her face and her arms thrown wide open. They collided not-so-softly, sending Isa stumbling a little on her feet.

Liv held her tightly, burrowing her face in Isa’s neck. Isa laughed, hugging her just as hard. Leaning back, Liv took Isa’s face between her hands, still in disbelief that her love was really there, physically, with her.

“What? How? When?” Liv stuttered the series of questions, closing her eyes hard and reopening them to make sure she wasn’t dreaming.

Isa smiled softly, bringing one of her hands to Liv’s face and caressing her skin softly.

“I wasn’t going to miss your birthday, now, was I?”

All Liv could do was laugh, still too stunned to form a proper coherent thought. She brought Isa back in her arms, holding her close to her chest.

“I hope you realize that now that you’re here, I’m never letting go of you again.” Liv said, feeling tears of happiness and relief well up in her eyes.

Isa moved her head back to face Liv’s, a serious expression overtaking her features.

“Good, because I have no intention of leaving again.” She said, looking directly into Liv’s eyes, sincerity and emotions whirling around.

Liv gave her a small, sad smile, as she remembered Isa’s internship. “What about the States? Don’t you have to go back?”

Isa smiled fondly, bringing both of her hands to cradle Liv’s face lovingly. “I cut it short. I missed you too much and I managed to find something else right here, in the Netherlands. With the one I love the most.”

Liv couldn’t help herself, feeling her heart swell up with love to the point where she felt like she would explode. She practically threw herself onto Isa, crashing their lips together in a kiss that said ‘I missed you so much’, ‘please don’t ever leave me again’, ‘I love you’ and so much more all at once.

Liv’s colleagues’ cheers and applause brought Liv out of the little bubble of happiness where only Isa and her existed. She broke the kiss regrettingly, smiling shyly at her coworkers.

Isa leaned her forehead against her, kissing her nose lightly. “Happy birthday. I love you”

Liv smiled, probably brighter than she ever had, and whispered back ‘I love you, so much”.

[bellagbear]

I’ve been called nomadic by several people. It is true that I don’t associate home with a specific location, but rather with a place where I feel comfortable and I can read, write and do my creative things. Therefore, the question of being back or going away is a tricky one. Is it even a goodbye or a welcome back when you feel at home in many different places? I’m writing this post because I’ve been back in Kenya for about 2.5 weeks now and planning to stay for longer. I want to share the creative projects I’m doing here.

My stay here now is different from the last time though. The first time I came to Kenya to do research for my master thesis which is finished now. This time I’m back for love and to see if I can make a life for myself here with all the skills I’ve learned so far in life. In this article, I’ll show you the art projects I brought, and I’ll also tell you a bit more about my plans in Kenya.

Sewing abroad: what to take on a journey to a different continent

I’m back! Or: Monthly Sewing Update March 2019

The Quilt Projects

Quilting the Kenyan quilt

  The work on this quilt occupied most of my previous six months in Kenya and the five months I spend in the Netherlands to finish my studies. Now, the quilt top is finished and the quilt is ready to be quilted. When you quilt you sew through all the layers of a quilt to keep the layers together. I already made a start with the quilting as you can see in the picture:

I won’t show a photo of the complete top, because that is a surprise for next week’s post. You can read more about The Kenyan Quilt here:

The overall design of the Kenyan quilt

I am designing quilt patterns: Kenyan quilt update

Crazy quilt blanket

This project was started on the aeroplane to Kenya. The top is made from leftovers of The Kenyan Quilt and an old scarf. Part of the scarf is used in some tote bags I made as presents. However, the scarf fabric was so soft I wanted to use it as a blanket as well. I call it a crazy quilt because I’m using many different embroidery stitches to sew through the layers. In this way, I am teaching myself to embroider.

Crazy quilt blanket

The Dear Jane sampler quilt

Last time I went to Kenya I missed working on my Dear Jane quilt. And these days, my motivation to finish this quilt in the next ten years has even increased because I reached the 100 blocks milestone! Now there are only about 160 blocks to go… The first Dear Jane block in Kenya is finished:

Dear Jane Quilt Block C-7: Megan’s Mountain Laurel

The Dear Jane sampler quilt

100 blocks Dear Jane milestone

The Cross Stitch Projects

Death of Discworld cross stitch

This piece is part of an art trade where I get awesome dragon scale gloves. The pattern is by Lyndisfarne Cross Stitch, who makes trademarked Discworld patterns. The Discworld series are satirical fantasy books by one of my favourite authors Terry Pratchett (GNU). Check them out if you like fantasy, humour or social commentary.

Unconventional X stitch giant octopus cross stitch

It always looks amazing to combine something most people associate with homeliness, such as cross-stitch, with something macabre. Most of the patterns Unconventional X stitch (UXS)  creates are like that. I am a fan of the work UXS  does and what that means for the cross-stitch community. UXS their work helps to reach a bigger audience for cross stitch because of the original patterns they offer. As a tribute to that effort, I decided to make one of their patterns for myself. I finished a big part of the bottom and it is exciting to see this pattern come to life. The fabric is from Jodyri Designs.

  Shards of Fire dragon cross stitch

This pattern is made by another person in the cross-stitch world I greatly admire: Pinkythepink. The pattern is based on original artwork by Euclidstriangle. Both my love for dragons and bold colours is big, so when I saw this pattern, I had to make it. I was not aware of a large amount of speciality thread and stitches this pattern uses though, many I had never seen before! But I won’t let that surprise stop me. I will rather see it as a learning opportunity to expand my skills and knowledge of cross-stitching. So far, I love the process of learning how to use the speciality thread.

Hot air balloons cross stitch

This is a big cross stitch project I brought to Kenya last time, and since it’s not finished yet I carried it again. This is a kit from AlieExpress I ordered to see if they’re any good. For the longest time, I was very suspicious about the thread choices of this kit. However, the past week I started filling in the top right corner and it is coming together nicely now. Thank God for perseverance.

Embroidery Projects

People suck embroidery

 My friend is coaxing me to make an embroidery piece for the Big Memory Quilt I’m making for her. I do it gladly for her though because she gave me a great drawing as inspiration:

This embroidery will become part of a big memory quilt I’m making for her. A lot of her old childhood clothes and such are used in that quilt.

The Big Quilt introduction: a Memory Quilt

Coat of many colours badge

I wanted to make my boyfriend a coat of many colours. However, I don’t know how to do sew clothes yet. So, this badge is going to be the first step to achieve my bigger plan. The picture below gives you an idea of what I’m going for.

What will I do in Kenya?

My goal is to continue my research into the future of pastoralism and conservation. In the coming months, I’ll be writing proposals and meeting with people to decide which exact direction to take with my work. Besides research, I also want to write for non-academic publications about my research and experiences in Kenya. One place is the Dutch Website WereldWijven. I believe it is important to share your research and experiences with other people. If there is a way to make people benefit from the research, I will find it and execute it.

One of the events I joined so far to work out research plans is the Camel Caravan organised by IMPACT, the organization I collaborated with for my research. The Camel Caravan is a yearly event that aims to create awareness about the challenge pastoralist people face and the importance of the Ewaso Ng’iro river in their lives. During that caravan, we walked through pastoralist areas and met many people with stories about the challenges they face. It was a great inspiration for future work. But I not only went to Kenya for my career. I also fell in love and  I want to give that love a chance.

Conclusion: many quilts and embroideries

If you think these are a lot of projects, you are right. Not all of them must be finished though, so it doesn’t matter. I’ll just work on whatever takes my fancy and see how far I get. Some questions for you:

What are you planning to work on in the coming months?

Do you take art and creative projects with you when you go on a trip?

What is your favourite kind of project to work on while travelling?

In the coming months while I’m in Kenya I will update this blog as often as I can. Also, whenever I write a blog post, I’ll be sure to update you people on my adventures and work in Kenya. In the meantime you can also find me on a new website I’m setting up to collect the stories I write: Bella G. Bear Writes.

Would you like to know more?

 The Dear Jane quilt: seeing red, am I mad?

Quilting techniques with Dear Jane 101: Foundation piecing

How to turn a faux leather coat into a peek-a-bookbag

How to make a turtle rag quilt

 Next week’s post:

– A showcase of the finished Kenyan quilt top

See my DeviantArt or Instagram (username: bella.g.bear.art) for more artwork and WIPs. You can also follow my blog by clicking on the button on the left or by filling in your email address. There will be a monthly update at the end of every month and a new blog post every Sunday or Monday.

Kenya 2.0: I’m back! Or did I ever leave? I’ve been called nomadic by several people. It is true that I don’t associate home with a specific location, but rather with a place where I feel comfortable and I can read, write and do my creative things.

[aspiestvmusings]

MCU & SPIDERMAN: FAR FROM HOME SPOILERY REVIEW

This is my first, initial “review” of the latest MCU movie - “Spiderman. Far from Home” 

SPOILERS, BEWARE! for “SPIDERMAN: FAR FROM HOME”

“Everywhere I go/look, I see his face/I am reminded of Tony”

The memorial video made by Peter’s HS friends. The comic cans, the online/getty pics used, the editing, the music choice “Dolly Parton’s “I will always love you” … from “The Bodyguard” by Whitney Houston” & images of Tony, Steve, Nat, Vision… Tony…

all the Ironman drawings/art on the classroom wall in Peters school (as he & Ned talk about the vacation plan)

the Ironman mural on the building wall… when Peter escapes to the roof… from the “press conference”

the film/video choices on the plane from Americas to Europe  (next to: “Nova: Einstein Rosen Bridges” &  “The Snap,” & “Finding Wakanda,” & “Hunting Hydra.”) is a 114 minute long Tony/Ironman docu/film… story

I am pretty sure there are also some pictures/posters/images on wall/screen at the airport, when they arrive in Europe... but I need to go watch it again (3rd time) to be sure. I think I saw it, but am not certain....

The murals (with flowers & lit candles) in Europe (Prague)…

Tony’s tech… everywhere

The EDITH integrated in Tony’s glasses...that are now Peter’s. He’s the next Tony Stark. He is the only one who can be trusted with the power - everyone else would just use it for their own good. The Tony glasses being basically a supporting character in the film... central in many scenes. 

Tony’s friends & “enemies” (people, who remember/mourn him & people, who are jealous of him)

Things I noticed/The little things:  

The BLIP “in memoriam” video edit made by Peter’s HS kids: The font was comic sans! The song choice was “I will always love you” by Whitney Houston from the film “The Bodyguard” (original: Dolly Parton), and the “in memoriam” part included images of Tony Stark... twice (first & last), Nat, Steve, VISION...and also others.... And biggest question here is... does this mean that Cap is considered dead? Does this mean his time travel shenanigans lead to him/the team listing him as one of the casualties... to not reveal the details of what really happened & to keep the time travel & other things... a secret? 

BOH! MJs new favorite word. I loved how Peter used it back at MJ... when he doesn’t want to reveal what’s in the bag/box. 

That “cat” in that one scene kinda looked like GOOSE, but only  a little bit, so was it a random cat, or was it a “relative” of Goose? Maybe another flerken?

I absolutely loved how happy & excited Peter got when he was told that the multiverse is real, not just a theory (anymore). I’m kinda sad that it turned out to not be true... for now. (he’d love to learn about the multiverse, just like he’s now studying Thor, who was a myth before, in his physics class)

When Peter was betrayed by someone he trusted & had no one to turn to, who did he call...from Netherlands? Happy. He was the one person, who knew, knew him & could be trusted, and could help him. I’m glad he had that option...someone to turn to. 

That tulip field in Netherlands was beautiful and all, but I was kinda sad to see that plane land there... and then hover above it..for a while... 

Speaking of the plane: The Avengers Tower was sold & is now being re-built by someone else, The Avengers Headquarters was destroyed in Endgame & since Tony is gone (and everyone else ran  away/went to hiding), I am not sure it’ll be re-built (we saw that the clan-up after the battle was happening... in the background...during the Endgame end scene where they set up the time travel platform by the lake). And now the airplane was destroyed in FFH. So lots of Tony’s tech (suit making machines & other tech) is destroyed now. And even though  the introduction of EDITH suggests that he had many other labs & tech set up, “secretly” everywhere... still... it keeps getting destroyed. and since he’s not here to create anything new, all his work will soon be destroyed/gone if this keeps happening. 

Peter stripped not once...but twice...in front of someone... a girl: first the SHIELD European agent, who made him the new (black) secret european “Night Monkey” suit (pants) & later in front of the girl he really likes... MJ (shirt). 

Mysterio’s illusions: all those scenes were visually amazing/brilliant! The Prague fire monster, the bar scene illusions after Peter leaves - the twist!, the German “safe house” illusions  that ended with the train & then the London Tower bridge illusions. 

The bar scene “turn of events” twist moment was brilliantly scary: it showed just how “crazy” Mysterio was. That, together with the “illusion rehearsal” scene, when he learns about the missing projector...and threatens his whole team... that was same level brilliantly scary. 

“Appearances can be deceiving”  hahaha Oh, how it hinted at the end credits scene reveal. It was not just Happy trying to tells “Fury” about Mysterio and his deception, but... also how Fury & Maria Hill are actually... skrulls, who work for Fury, while he (and Hill?) are elsewhere, working on other projects. 

Skrull sleeper cells... mentioned by “Fury”... a reference to Captain Marvel & comics.... 

Happy throwing a shield...at the drone... His cap moment. And his comment about how heavy it is/hard it is, and he doesn’t know how Cap does it hahaha

Michelle and the medieval weapon..that she borrows from the museum vault... 

There are many artifacts in the Tower of London museum vault - the crown jewels, all kinds of medieval tools & weapons, and also... “IRON MAN” - medieval iron knight armor!

Peter taking a selfie as he swings in NYC...in the end. He’s swinging & reading texts/texting & taking selfies... 

The text/line on the fence on the street/in front of “construction site”.... when Peter/Spiderman is swinging to MJ in the end scene..on NYC streets... (Madison Square Garden) say:   “We’re excited  to show you what comes next. And there are numbers 1, 2, 3 & a ? (instead of number 4) under the text. This has many meanings: a) the people in the MCU/FFH universe  are excited to show the citizens what they’re building there. b) the MCU creators are excited to show/tell us/viewers/fans what’s to come next...both in Spiderman films & MCU in general (Phase 4). c) Also..according to fans, who know more, it’s also a reference to the “Fantastic 4″.  

The initials B.F.P. on the suitcase he takes to Europe aka the suitcase belonged to Peters uncle Ben (May’s husband). Too bad it, too,  along many other things & places...got destroyed..in this film. 

LOL at everyone knocking on Peter & Ned’s rooms door at the hotel theyäre staying in in Venice. Interrupting “Fury” (and Peter) & Fury’s reaction... (he is so done with being interrupted...every 5 seconds)

All the “upgrades” to the class trip in Europe & all the changes in itinerary... #IfTheyOnlyKnewWhyThePlansWeereChanged

The “Peter tingle” (aka The Spidey Sense) 

“What happens in London/Europe, stays in London/Europe?” Peter, who is/has been keen to keep his identity a secret, behaved strangely & boldly in Europe & especially at the end of the big “battle” in London...where he just stands on the bridge...without his mask & talks to & kisses MJ. In the middle of the bridge, at the center of big event... Are there no video/traffic 8etc) cams in Europe/LOndon in 2023/2024 MCu? Are there no cameras/smartphones that people use to take pics & vids of every big event they see... in 2023/2024 MCU? I found that surprising... based on all the attempts he made until now & in this film..to keep his identity a secret. 

Pepper Potts signing the big (in both size & sum) check from Stark Fund to May’s charity event. But not being able to attend the event herself. Most likely cause the actress is done with MCU, but... otherwise...interesting... to mention her like that & specify that she was unable to attend in person...

How many “vacations” has Fury taken over the MCU history? While I mostly think that this was the first... after Fury & CM were “reunited” during the Endgame events (BLIP) & the plan was formed after Tony was gone (they were both at his memorial service) & the returned Fury who had no more team on this planet, was kinda lost...) But I also kinda think he might’ve used the skrulls before to take vacations. I am pretty certain that we saw the real Fury in Captain Marvel, in Iron Man films...  and I am also pretty certain that he was himself in Infinity War/Endgame...because as he’s “dying” aka turning into dust he doesn’t turn into skrull.Though it is possible that the dusting doesn't count & the skull face is only revealed if a character actually dies. (this is why we can be certain Tony was Tony & Nat was Nat in Endgame) 

ETA

What I LOVED the most 

My absolute favourite scene(s) is the Peter & Happy at the Holland/Netherland  tulip field & on the plane, hovering above the tulip field scene(s) -  their “talk” as Happy patched up Peter’s wounds. Talking about being a superhero and making mistakes, about Tony...and more... 

That scene...to me...sums up...hopefully... what’s to come. It confirms what I thought would be the case. Tony was/is Iron Man and no one can & should replace him as Iron Man. So everyone asking Peter if he’s gonna be the next IM... everyone looking for the next mightiest protector of the earth... and looking at SM...cause everyone else seems to have disappeared... are just putting too much pressure on him. He’s not the next Iron Man. He is Peter. He is Spider Man. (though after that end twist... who knows... maybe he will put on an iron suit for a while...since he can’t be the unknown neighborhood hero anymore...now that everyone knows...) But to me it summed up peters journey in this film & sets up what’s to come. He needed some guidance & Happy provided it... he needed to realize that he’s he’s own person & his own superhero & he’s not there to replace Tony/IM or any other superhero

But yeah... I loved how Happy said it. When others pressured him & manipulated with him (Beck purposely making him feel inadequate by saying things like “if you would've done better, he might’ve not died”), the now Pilot was his best friend & the one person he could really talk superhero things with...the one person, who IMO helped him the most with his grief over Tony & all the feelings he had regarding that & the pressure he felt to be his successor. 

Peter is likely the person, who will take over Tony’s role..somewhat...with the tech and such, but he is Peter, not Tony. 

And the end scene in Endgame with Happy & Morgan..talking about cheeseburgers & now this scene in FFH with Happy & Peter talking superheroes, responsibility, Tony...and more... tells me that Happy is now the mentor-uncle to these kids now...kinda. 

...and when Peter, excitedly, yells “I love Led Zeppelin” when the iconic IM song “Back in Black” by AC/DC starts to play... haha... awesome

What I hoped would’ve been (will be explored in future films) explored/shown in more detail: 

THE BLIP & how it affected regular people. We only saw the comial bits/parts - the marching band of Peter’s school disappearing & reappearing & Aunt May reappearing in her apartment..that was no longer hers...as someone else had moved in (a family). When in reality... this film confirms my “theory/suspicion” that Avengers 3 & Avengers 4 - the Thanos snap & the Hulk (un)snap both created chaos everywhere. Both emotional, and legal..and other issues. 

The fact that the world is not in chaos... makes no sense. But then again... since NYC & several other places on Earth being battlefields during the Avengers vs Bad guys/aliens battles...in the past films...and being re-built really fast & people seemingly not panicking or having PTSD after the events... is a thing... then I guess only the main characters will remember & suffer after living through such events...everyone else seems to go on with their normal lives in a week or so... 

It did bother me a bit (even though I know this is a blockbuster film..and those don’t deal with such things...) that the very real repercussions of the snap & re-snap were not really shown or told. Just the funny Blip-video. And then the little bit we saw from the Aunt May held charity event for the homeless. That was the only real hint about the seriousness of those events in the fictional universe (even though she also made a joke about it on stage...but the cause itself is serious)

Things that bothered me

How no one seems to do any background checks in this universe. How no one seems to use any security measures. Like... no one checking up on Mysterio’s backstory (and yes, I know...his team helped create such amazing backstory & provided such great “proof”...that it fooled even “Fury” & SHIELD -- probably would not have fooled the real man, but... that’s the point...) but still... 

Also... Tony’s glasses not having any other safety measures & it being so easy to transfer over the power to someone else. And...despite Peter being vulnerable & trusting what others tell him (he probably thought Fury had checked up on Beck, but still... how & why did EDITH/the glasses not “scan” Beck...and reveal he’s a fraud? I know... that the only time when he’s looking at the illusionist when wearing the glasses is in the bar scene & they seem to be not “on”... still... why is the tech not scanning everything nonetheless? Though yeah... I know that the idea is that because of the characters emotional state they are vulnerable & easy to manipulate, and hence not thinking of checking “twice”...

MCU using the same backstory for yet another villain. Thats old. It’s done. Time to move on. I'm talking about Mysterio & how his backstory is that because he feels personally attacked by Tony Stark then that’s a reason (which justifies..in his mind, when it does not...and has not for any other past MCU villain, who thinks the same twisted way) his actions - destroying historical sights/cities & leaving behind casualties... not caring if there are innocent bystanders getting hurt. I will allow it this time, because Tony was in the center of this film, but this had to be the last time MCU uses the same “Tony hate” as the villains motivator. Also... I don’t trust Beck’s version of the story, so I would not be sure if he’s telling it as it was. He might be, but he might be not. (maybe he did come up with the idea, but perhaps his work contact stated that all creations during working for SI belong to the company, so he has no right to claim the tech as his own..no matter how much he regrets it after. Or perhaps he did (co)create it, but since his idea was weapons-based (destruction) & SI didn’t do weapons anymore, the tech was redesigned by Tony. But until MCU makes a stronger case... I’m not gonna blame Tony for “stealing” becks tech & claiming it as his ow. Also because I do not think Tony ever claimed in past films that he made the tech. He says it cost him a certain sum...though... So it’s even possible he “bought” the idea from Beck...and turned the weapon into therapy sessions... But even if mr. Beck was telling the whole truth and he was the sole creator of the tech & Tony “stole” it... none of it justifies his actions of purposely hurting innocent bystanders & destroying places. ) 

And I cannot believe how anyone can see Mysterio as the good guy, or sympathetic to Peter.  I might be wrong, but IMO all his “friendliness” in the beginning was a trick... part of the plan to earn Peter’s trust. It was part of the “illusion”, so even though I appreciate his comment “never apologize for being the smartest one in the room”, I don’t see it as anything other than fakeness. And I know I might be wrong & he might’ve really liked the kid & try to be friendly & appreciate him... up until “his team messed up & he had no other option than to get rid of all the loose threads”) 

Things I did not see coming: 

The train! I mean... at first I did not suspect that it was actually Beck, not Fury in Germany, but I became suspicious before it was revealed. And then I suspected that the illusion was not over yet, but... what I did not see coming was that train...moment. 

Also...during the London Tower bridge scene... I had a hunch that he’s pulling a double again..and the dying Mysterio on the ground was fake, but I did not see it coming that in reality he was standing right next to spidey, while pointing a gun at the kid. I had thought he was “hiding” somewhere instead. So that kinda surprised me...

What surprised/confused me

What surprised me a bit was seeing THAT character (William) from IM1 being on Team Mysterio. Yes, he was one of Tony Stark’s Stark Industries previous employees, but  it confused me a bit that he blames Tony, when he should've seen Obadiah Stane (who yelled at him for not being Tony Stark & not being able to create a miniature arc reactor, when Tony could do it in cave...with no high tech..using just a box of scraps) as the one to blame -- his anger should’ve been directed at (based on what has been shown on screen so far) at the man who yelled at him in IM1. 

But I guess there’s either a bigger story there after that that the MCU writers/directors decided to not reveal just yet (as we saw him take that thumbdrive after the download was completed at the end of FFH) or Mysterio simply was able to manipulate people so well & rallied them against their former boss, making everyone see him as the bad guy & the source of all their problems. 

THEORIES: 

WHAT IF... the NYC “fake news broadcast” was an illusion created by Mysterio/histeam? This would make it much easier for Marvel to have several other movies released in the next few years...before the next Spiderman & go easier on Spiderman? This way we would not miss a lot of time & there’d be no need to clear his name. they could just have the movie take place right after Far from Home (and prior to the coming movies events)...or they could start with a flashback to the end of this film & the  fade to “2 years later” or something. The last bit is also how they can still release the next Spidery film in a few years, while having several otehr films events happen in between... use a time jump early in the film... after a “flashback”...to the time Peter was considered a villain

[sassycassie-s-writing]

Always Right

By: SassyShoulderAngel319

Fandom/Character(s): Avengers - Peter Parker/Spider-Man

Rating: PG-11/T-

Original Idea: Spider-Man: Far From Home baby!

Notes: (Masterlist)(By Character)(About Me) Brown Recluse is back, babies with a slightly different backstory because Endgame feels! MAJOR ENDGAME AND SM: FFH SPOILERS AHEAD! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. THIS IS YOUR WARNING!

^^^^^

Peter’s shoulder slammed into the locker next to mine. “Hey!” He grinned at me.

“Hi Pete,” I replied.

“So! Are you going on the trip?”

I slammed my locker. “Nope,” I said, twisting the comb lock and striding away.

Peter ran after me, pushing through students that my smaller stature wove through with more ease. “What? Why?!” he demanded, grabbing my arm to slow me down.

I turned with a glare. “Because I can’t, okay? Look, I know he was your mentor and you miss him too, but he was my dad. I’m just… I’m needed here.”

“New York can survive without Spider-Man for a couple weeks—surely it can survive without Brown Recluse too.”

I smacked his hand off my arm. “It’s not about New York, Peter! It’s about…” I ground my jaw and looked around. Peter and I were still mildly nerdy losers even in a school like this so no one paid us any attention. “It’s about Pepper and Morgan,” I hissed. “They need me. Am I a bad reminder of Tony’s playboy past to Pepper? Yes. But Morgan doesn’t even realize that I’m only her half-sister. She needs me. We’re all that’s left of him. I can’t leave Morgan and Pepper.”

“I thought you were still living with your caretaker.”

“I am. But only because I go to school in the city. Once summer starts I’m going to the cabin upstate to stay with Pepper and Morgan. My caretaker has the summer off to spend with her own family.” I gave him a forced smile and a two-fingered salute. “Have fun on the trip, Pete.”

I ducked through a gap in the crowd of students and headed off for class.

^^^^^

“Fri… FRIDAY…” Dad rasped.

“Dad—no. Don’t. Don’t try to talk. We’re gonna get you some help,” I promised around the tears flowing down my face. “Dad. I’m back now. Me and Pete—we both are. Your family is here. You can’t give up now. Dad, please!”

Dad grasped my hand with the one that hadn’t been charred by the Stones. “FRIDAY… activate… Suit of Armor… Around My World Protocol.”

“Dad—Dad what are you doing?”

The nanotech that made up his suit started crawling up my arm, vanishing off of his body. As it moved, the colors changed—from gold and red to brown and black.

“I…” he breathed. “I knew you were Brown Recluse the day you started. The… mole on your chin… gave you away. You should have gone with… the full-face mask.” He gave me a weak smile. The nanotech kept crawling over my body, spreading down my legs now.

“Dad you’re gonna be fine. Please. You have to be fine!”

“Pete…”

“Yes, Mr. Stark?” Peter squeaked, voice breaking and thick with emotion.

“Take care of her.”

“O-of course, Mr. Stark.”

The nanotech finished crawling. My whole suit had been swamped by it—like Peter’s Iron Spider suit.

^^^^^

I shoved out of my chair and bolted out of the physics classroom, snatching my backpack.

“Miss Marble!” Mr. Llewellyn called after me. “What’s wrong? They’re about to send down the yearbooks!”

I couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t think. Couldn’t see past the tears welling up in my eyes. I pounded down the hallways at full-tilt, scrabbling through my pockets for my mask. Impatiently wiping tears from my eyes, I shoved the front door open, gasping for breath.

I freed my mask, slammed the gate of the school open, and sprinted across the football field.

Once I ducked out of view of the school, I yanked my mask on over my head and shot one of my webs up into the sky. It latched onto a building and I swung away as fast as I could, making my way from Queens to Manhattan.

To the top of Avengers Tower.

Once there I panted, clutching at my chest with one hand, sticking to the building with the other one.

“Hey. You okay?” a familiar voice asked as there was a soft thump on the glass behind me.

I whirled.

Peter, decked out in his full suit.

“Go away. Have fun on your trip,” I said. “I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.”

Peter sat down next to me, ripping his mask off and wrapping an arm around my shoulders. “Then… we won’t talk,” he decided. His other arm wrapped around my front and he just hugged me. He didn’t seem to mind me sobbing into his shoulder, soaking his suit. Just rocked me back and forth.

I thought about a snarky retort that him not talking would be a veritable miracle but didn’t have the brain power to force my mouth into saying it.

He tugged my mask off my head and started stroking my hair.

I cried for several more minutes until I cried myself out and the hiccups from sobbing subsided.

Peter got to his feet and offered me his hand. “C’mon,” he said. “Let’s go get our yearbooks. I want you to be the first one to sign mine. Got your marker?”

I felt in my backpack until I found the gold marker I’d brought. I held it up and waved it vaguely. “Got it.” Shoving it back in my bag, I zipped it up and took Peter’s hand. He helped me to my feet and handed me back my mask. I pulled my hair back to get it less tangled and pulled my mask back on over my head. The gap in the full-head spandex for my mouth and nose pressed into my skin.

He smiled and slid his own mask on over his curls. “Great. Let’s go.”

Still holding my hand, he swan-dove off the Tower, forcing me to go with him.

We swung our way back to school, found a place to straighten up back in our civvies, and went inside.

“Y’know, it’d be easier on everyone if you told someone on staff who you really are,” Peter remarked as we trudged up the stairs. “If the teachers knew you kept having breakdowns because your dad sacrificed himself, they’d go a lot easier on you for storming out of class and—”

“Not gonna happen,” I snapped, harsher than I meant to. “No one but you and my family and my caretaker know. And no one else is gonna know.” I combed my hair with my fingers. “Thanks for always being there for me, Pete. Enjoy the trip.”

“I promised I would be!” Peter called as we split up to go back to our classes.

“Welcome back, Miss Marble. Everything alright?” Mr. Llewellyn asked. The rest of the class was exchanging yearbooks, getting ready to head out into the hallways to sign friends’ books.

I nodded. “Yeah. Just a… personal problem,” I said.

“Miss Marble, I know this Blip business has been hard on everyone, but your reactions are the most severe. Maybe you should see a—”

“I already am seeing a counselor, Mr. Llewellyn,” I said.

“Well, alright then,” he remarked. He handed me the yearbook that had a sticker on the side with my name on it. “Have a good summer, okay?”

“I’ll try,” I said. I took the book and left the classroom, digging my marker out.

I wove through the sea of people back to Peter’s homeroom.

“Parker!” I shouted. He smiled and ducked under a jock’s arm to make his way over to me. I thrust my yearbook at him. “Wanted you to be the first to sign mine too.” He smiled and swapped books with me.

Dear Pete, I wrote on one of the blank white pages in the back of the book.

It’s been a crazy year, hasn’t it? After the Blip took us both… Pep told me it was YOU who convinced Dad to help bring us all back. He wasn’t gonna, but then he found the internship photo in the kitchen in the cabin, and that’s why he helped the team bring back everyone. He loved you. I love you. Thanks for keeping your promise to keep an eye on me. Have fun on the science trip!

With love,

Miss Stark

I drew a little cartoon spider next to my name and passed it back to him, taking mine from his hand.

“Hey, if you see something really weird and authentic in Italy or France or wherever that’s, like, less than five bucks, get it for me and I’ll pay you back, okay?” I said, cradling my book under my arm and recapping my marker.

“Ye-yeah! Sure thing!” Peter replied.

“And call me if, I don’t know, the world starts to end.”

“It’s… not gonna end,” he complained. “Don’t jinx it.”

“I’ll do my best. Knock on wood,” I said, knocking on his forehead. He snorted and ducked away. “Bye Pete!”

“See ya!”

^^^^^

“Spidey!” I shouted, slinging up onto the bridge and slamming a drone out of the way with both feet.

“Recluse!” Peter exclaimed, voice completely breaking so it sounded like, “ReCLUse!” I snickered. “What are you doing here? I thought you weren’t coming on the trip!”

“You called Happy and had him fly the jet to the Netherlands! You really thought I wouldn’t come?!” I demanded, snatching a drone with a web and hurling it into another one. “Why didn’t you call me?!”

“I… I couldn’t remember your number!” His voice broke again, squeaking on “number.”

I wrenched a drone’s power source out and chucked it at Peter. It glanced off his shoulder. “Liar!”

“Okaaay. I was embarrassed to call you after I royally screwed up.”

“Well I had to hear about it from Happy! I’d rather have heard it from you!”

“Can you two have your little lover’s quarrel later?!” Happy demanded in our earpieces.

“Shut up!” I retorted as I tore a drone in half with my bare hands. Or, rather, semi-bare hands. “We’re not having a lover’s quarrel, Harold.”

“Harold?” Peter asked.

“Happy’s real name?” I said.

“Wait really?”

“Focus up!” I threw a drone at Peter that he quickly smashed apart. “We don’t have time to chat!”

“I can’t believe you’re here!” Peter said, grabbing me by the hand and Yeeting me right into a group of drones that I slung all together in a huge web.

“I can’t leave you alone,” I said. “Have to come pick up after you.”

“Shut up,” Peter said.

^^^^^

Peter and I sat on the top of the Shard building, stuck to it with our powers, suits and masks on. “I should be honest with you, Pete,” I said. “Mourning my dad isn’t the only reason I didn’t want to come on the trip.”

“Really?”

“Yeah.”

“Why?”

“Because… because I was upset that he chose you for EDITH instead of me!” I snapped.

Peter stared at me. “I… didn’t even think about that. I’m sorry.”

“It’s fine. Thanks. But I know why he chose you instead of me.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. I have too much of my dad in me—”

“Hey. That’s what makes you the best—”

“You didn’t let me finish. Dad knew he and I were super similar, but the stuff I got from my mom makes me unworthy of EDITH. And, my dad was what he always was.”

“And what’s that?”

“Always right,” I said. “My dad was always right. Because, ultimately, you’re a better person than I am. That’s why he chose you.”

“Don’t… say that…” he said.

“C’mon, Pete. Let’s go. We should get you back to our classmates so you can fly home together. Happy and I are chartering a jet back to JFK so that I’m not on a public plane.”

“I get that.”

“Oh, and Pete?”

“Yeah?”

“EDITH is a big responsibility. Take care of her.”

Peter smiled at me. “I will. Promise.”

I stood up and offered him my hand. He took it and let me help him stand. Still holding his hand, I swan-dove off the Shard.

“Whoo!” I called as we fell. I heard Peter laugh.

We swung back to the hotel. “See you back in Queens,” Peter said.

I beamed, grateful that I’d left the bottom of my face exposed so he could see my mouth smiling. “See you in Queens.”

[heartsoftruth]

Basically Geri asked what’s Ney opinion on Kylian and Ney said how he’s going to do great things and can become one of the best players in the world. And it’s so true because look at Kylian excelling so greatly now 🙆🏻‍♀️

Ahaaa! Yeah he saw that. but I don’t think he could have imagined this WC for him! Amazing! Just when you think of his WC! Seriously amazing! 

Anonymous said:I'm happy!! sad for france of course :( but i like netherlands since 2014, so i'm more happy than sad jasdkda i remeber that i supported them more than brazil in that year and after brazil lost i stand even more and seeing them winning against germany give me sm joy!

WHOOOOOPP!!!! Yeah I’m still so happy! I want to see with the win again, but we of course tied vs Germany, but bc we’re group winners and going through the nation league it feels like a win xD I’ve corrected myself a  lot today haha. 

Indeed even better to do it German style vs the Germans! 

Hahaha Great to see you support Holland also! Where are you from if I may ask? 

Anonymous said:Dani alves post a old photo of the brazukas on barça, ney looks so young!! wow, i miss that barça team :(

Oooooo!! I just saw after your ask!! Damn memories! *cries* Did you see Rafa and Ney also commenting on it... Those were the brazuka days... Never again... :(

Anonymous said:Do you know why Dani Alves missed like a whole damn season in PSG? Is he injured? I don’t really keep up with him so I don’t know what happened, but I literally forgot he was playing there 😅

Yeah he was injured. He had a knee injury and is now slowely coming back. He also had to miss the WC because of it! 

Anonymous said:Do you think neymar will get bored of PSG and leave one day? Where do you think he'll go?

I dont want to pin it on bored, but I don’t see him stay at PSG for another 2/3 years. I think he will go back to Spain. I don’t see him play in another competition besides that tbh. 

[noctuo]

i miss having friends sm this is 2014 all over again also i'm starting a new job on monday and have to apply to the netherlands by feb 1st send good vibes