#I mean I'm mixed but one thing my family (and similar) families make a lot that I hate is sambal ladies fingers (okra)

[f1cflcfic]

Won't Say I'm In Love (SMAU ft. Lando Norris) - part vi

pairing: lando norris x tennis player!reader (fem!y/n); past carlos alcaraz x tennis player!reader (fem!y/n)

summary: As a general rule, y/n does not date athletes. You've been there, done that - would not recommend. Besides, you definitely don't do love. There's no time in the world for complicated feelings when there's a career Grand Slam to be won. But what if your heart just refuses to listen?

genre: social meda/mixed au, friends to lovers

note: this is RPF and is obviously in no way, shape, or form reflective of real persons

series: part i | part ii | part iii | part iv | part v | ...

April 10, 2025

April 11, 2025

April 12, 2025

[Excerpt ViaPlay interview]

The Sakhir circuit means a return to familiar testing grounds. Does that mean that you feel more confident going into this race?

"I mean, yes and no. We know the challenges of the circuit, and how the car responds to them. We can adjust, but also all the other teams on the grid will be doing the same - they'll know our performance and weaknesses, too. So there's more work that goes into preparing different strategies, and coming up with adaptations to our run plans."

Are you hoping for a better result here than in Japan?

"Of course. I mean, our results there were not what Oscar or I were hoping for. Because this is a triple header, there's also very little time to linger on those feelings of disappointment - so we had to immediately get back into the mindset of Sakhir presenting a fresh opportunity for a win. I'm happy though with what we've been able to extract in qualis, so thanks to the guys and girls at the factory for all their hard work"

You did spend some time in between doing other things. How does that affect your preparation time?

"It doesn't. Having time off, creating memories with friends is a huge part of actually allowing me to race to the best of my abilities. If anything, I can get stuck in my head on all the mistakes and errors. It's nice to forceyourself out of that loop."

We did hear rumours of a karaoke party - did you sing a duet with your former teammate Carlos?

"Where'd you hear that? We celebrated Y/N's birthday in Tokyo, with a couple of drivers, yeah. I will not confirm or deny that a duet happened, but it was good, yeah. We had a good time."

Is he a better karaoke partner or a better paddock partner?

"Close, but will have to go with paddock!"

April 13, 2025

[Excerpt BBC Sport interview]

Warm welcome to Y/N L/N! How does Sakhir compare to Suzuka?

"Hi, thanks for having me. Suzuka was super special because it was the perfect excuse to spend my birthday in Japan, but I'm hoping to see a podium happen today."

What's it like for you as a spectator of a sport, rather than the one doing the sport itself?

"It's definitely different! Especially because this is a sport I've never actually participated in myself. I guess that's why I'm also feeling even more nervous. And I've never seen them win, so maybe today's the day."

There's a lot of eyes on you - does that make going to major events like this a different experience as well? Knowing that so many people out there have a vested interest in who you're supporting, what you're wearing, saying, or spending your time with?

"A vested interest? Have not heard that one before. I mean, I don't really spend time scrolling on social media, or reading headlines about myself. I just like spending the little free time I do have with my family and friends - it's very boring, really."

It's interesting, because the FIA has been quite strict in how drivers may express themselves but at the same time also assigns media duties to them. Is that similar in tennis?

"I mean, yes - we do have code violations as well as media obligations. In my view, journalists tend to forget that their translating of stories goes both ways. Sometimes I'll get asked a question about something that's happened online, and I think I'd have been better off not knowing about it at all. We get briefed by our own teams, but a lot of athletes aren't chronically online on purpose. Hate, abuse, death threats - you name it, I've seen it. Especially as a woman. I wish I could be cheering for a woman in Formula 1 today, but I can't. And it's in part because of this unhealthy, sexist environment that's so prevalent in sport. So I'll make do with two great and dear friends, who I know care about this sport and fair, equal opportunities a great deal."

read part vii here.

A/N: well, this turned out a lot longer than expected, so next stop is Madrid and a healthy serving of delusion, misunderstandings and mixed emotions :)

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[iceclew]

BACK TO ART Y'ALL!

(after ....an awful lot of screaming these last days.. ... hey I don't know what is wrong with me, maybe it's the spring vibes finally kicking in or smth..)

Anyway here's the concept art for Hans and Henry - Witcher AU

'Cause I can not enjoy ANY franchise, ANY game, ANY-FUCKING-THING without witcherizing it. For t'is the law here.

Go down to my overly detailed description and non-text versions for AU Hans and AU Henry here. I have my brainworms and i'll spill them out on you, if you don't step aside, so beware.

Also this time I'm not going for a mix, I'm going full Witcher universe here.

Let me tell you there is a LOT of Hansry in the making for canon and Witcher AU right now.. I just need to find a way to finish it, for I am cursed to be stuck at WIPs so far as it seems. BUT I WILL DO MY BEST !!! FOR WE NEED THE HANSRY, DON'T WE?!

YES WE DO!!

So I've read the witcher books, played game 3, and looked up several things on fandom-wikis. If anything's not entirely witcher canon here, my bad. I tried my best ok? Also I took some liberty and smushed timelines and stuff to fit the scene here.

Capon is my fucking dress up doll. I am sorry I could not not. He is so FUCKING Dandelion coded.. PLUS I had so many cool outfit ideas and well...LOOK AT HIM HE JUST EATS, OK? I feel like he could be stuffed in a human-sized sock and still would look great in it... I don't get it either.. the tailors just love him.

have a song recommendation for Hans :3

Hans Capon (House of Leipa) The House of Leipa is a family line of famous military leaders at the nation of Kaedwen. (listen, there is a canon Fort Leida in the witcher universe, how could you blame me for jumping on that?) For generations they reigned over Fort Leipa and the surrounding region in Kaedwen. It was about 19 years ago when the Scoia'tael invaded the fortress and killed almost all members of the major family branch, including Hans' parents. Hans himself survived due to a servant's quick thinking. He was hidden in the servant's quarters in a bedroom's chest. The Scoia'tael focussed on looting the royal belongings. So he was not found until his relatives reconquered the fortress hours later. Hans has no memory of said day since he was still an infant, but suffers from claustrophobia now.

'The Slaughter of Leipa' contributed severly to the following pogrom in Ard Carraigh (Kaedwens capital), causing the deaths of over 400 nonhumans. Hans is not entirely against nonhuman races but has his personal, unprocessed issues with them....

Back in the present (20y/o) his situation is very similar to canon Hans, with Hanush currently being his guardian as long as he's not old enough to reign. He differs a lot from Hanush's imagination of a proper heir of their family tree and arguments are on a daily bases. For political representation Hans gets to travel and stay at the free city of Novigrad for a while. While he loves his home region in Kaedwen, he immediately falls in love with the urban vibes, and modern culture of the city (and of course the freedom of being away from Hanush's monitoring for once). For a few months he's spending a fair amount of coin on every tailor, tavern, brothel and bathhouse in the city.

By now the owners of said etablishements have made appropriate arrangements with every bandit's guilt around, for his regular visits are more profitable to all of them, than robbing him once.

There might have been one or two kidnappings with ransom involved nonetheless, which had Hanush consider hiring a bodyguard for his ward after all...If only just to mend his headache from time to time a bit.

This is were a certain offer from an old friend, plus a witcher's apprentice appears seemingly just at the right time...

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Henry's design and my idea of his witcher character made me painfully aware of just how similar those two universes actually are. I mean - not necessary a bad thing, but it might take the charm out of it a bit. So I tried to add a little twist to Henry here. Let's see how we're doing.

Have a song recommedation for Henry :3

Henry, child of the fate Henry is born a blacksmith's son and lived a slow life in a small village around Kaedwen's hillside. There would be times he would even go as far as to call it straight out boring, but he's not one to complain about stuff like that.

Since his father Martin taught him from young age, Henry practically grew up with swords, especially the kind made of finest silver ore, used to slay monsters. His father's outstanding works, famous in all the northern nations, attracted many witchers from far and wide. Of course the nearby 'School of the Wolf' at Kaer Morhen was a popular and recurring customer at their forge as well.

All peace and quiet ended the day his village was raided by bandits and his parents were murdered. Henry found himself seeking refuge, first at Kaer Morhen, then at Fort Leipa, with a handful of other citizens. At the witchers fortress he recognized one or two faces from back at the forge, but there was one particularly standing out.

Radzig Kobyla, a reknown witcher in all around the region seemed to have special interest in Henry and even offered some first combat training in sword-fighting. With time Henry finds the truth about is bonds with Radzig...

Before he was born Radzig saved Martin from a mountain troll. Half joking, half serious Martin remembered old witcher's tradition of the Law of Suprise - 'for what you find at home, yet did not expect' and offered it. Radzig actually refused the offer, for he was not necessarily fond of said tradition.

It was only a month later that they found out about the pregnancy... While awaiting a child Martin was devastated about his promise. He was not sure if it was to be fulfilled or not. After Henry was born Radzig still refused to ever take the child, arguing he never agreed to any contract like this. But fate finds his way nonetheless and with Henry basically finding him and being robbed his family, friends and home, Radzig finally gives in and offers to train him to become a witcher.

Of course things are way more complicated by now, since Henry is not suitable for a proper 'Trial of the grasses' anymore. He never gained the full immunity and powers of a proper witcher, but with Kaer Morhen's knowledge, plus consultation of several sorcerer Radzig's find a way for Henry to undergo a lighter and also much slower variation of the original changing procedure.

Although the risk of said changing progress is the same, if not higher. Errors or negative effects can only be seen and be treated much later after they have already settled in. The sorceress Katharina of Ard Carraigh was outraged when she heard about Radzig's little experiment, but offered her help with the effects nonetheless. With her help Henry was able to adapt existing witcher potions to handle his new powers and skills easier, and - much more important - to keep them at bay, when they threaten to take over his sanity.

While trying to tackle his new life and witcher training, Henry is also confronted with his first 'witcher' contract (well whatever Radzig found fitting for a half-baked witcher, without much fighting experience, nor complete control over his powers, that is.) Their host at Fort Leipa seemed to have a promising task as bodyguard at hand, and since Radzig had taken a lot of contracts from the house of Leipa in past times, it would not hurt giving it a try. Henry would only have to take care of the spoiled Leipa's offspring for a while. Nothing too much of a task right? Right.

At least until said offspring runs off and jumps into sheets with an Alp and seems to be in need of a witcher now after all, .....

But that's a story for another time...

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*visible exhaustion but I made it*

that's it for now guys.. I ..clearly overdid myself in the description right there, I just know it.

Also - sorry for my spelling , I hate rereading stuff, and tend to miss weird errors...

Hope you liked it, I don't really call myself a good writer, I just want to get out my ideas here. :)

[ryuusei-niu]

I want to talk about Leo and spanish, because I see a lot of "bilingual Leo" that doesn't make much sense.

Soooo, let me start with this: Leo was not born in a country that speaks Spanish. And only his family talked Spanish. Therefore he would know what the language is like.

But let's not forget that he lives in a place where people speak English.

Well, let me explain this theory based on my life:

I'm argentinian but my mother is Brasilian. Since I was little, Portuguese was spoken in my house. Portuguese was my first language because we were moving to Brazil and I spoke fluent Portuguese until I was 6 years old. But then we stayed at Argentina. So, I had a lot of problems because I did understand Spanish, but I had a lot of mispronunciation and I mixed words between Spanish and Portugues. Over time I had to adapt to speaking Spanish full time, almost completely forgetting Portuguese. Nowadays I'm almost 19 and I haven't spoken Portuguese for years, but there are a lot of words that I thought my whole life were Spanish and weren't.

Based on Leo's story, he might be similar to me in this stuff.

Having said this, let me tell you situations that happen to me with Portuguese that I think would happen to Leo with Spanish:

He forgot how to form complete sentences in Spanish. And even when he tries to relearn Spanish, it is difficult for him and he can't speak or write things in Spanish.

He almost completely understands if someone speaks Spanish to him, though. Maybe he would miss some words but he understands a lot reading or hearing.

He has Spanish words that he always thought were English.

"And then we went to the ferretería and... Why are you looking at me like that... I said something in Spanish again, didn't I?" "Yeah, you did."

Piper and Jason got used to it and know the words he always gets confused.

And there are other words that he refuses to say in English, probably the most common ones, just because he likes how it sound at Spanish.

So whenever he needs to talk about it, he asks Jason or Piper to do it for him.

"I want the... Jason, fresa" "Strawberry flavor, please" "Thank u so much, man"

There are a lot of words that sound funny in English because they resemble words in Spanish

"I'm embarrassed." "You're embarazaste?" "...Yes?" "Wow, Frank, what are you going to name the baby?" "I hate you very much."

Mispronunciations everywhere. But it's something that happens some days. But when it happens it is horribly noticeable.

I mean, he does speak English very well. But sometimes...

SOME LETTERS ARE REALLY DIFFICULT TO HIM SOMETIMES.

People bullied him when he started school because he mispronounced some letters. Like R.

(I think he would have the opposite problem than me, since I was pronouncing the r very soft or as a j without meaning to because in some Portuguese words it sounds like that. So I guess he would have a very strong R.)

Sometimes he would get angry with his mother for instilling Spanish in him so much and that's why the kids make fun of him for talk like that.

Now he miss that his mother speak in Spanish to him.

"DIOS MÍO.", "POR DIOS, JASON", "CHIN", "CARAJO", "JESÚS, MARÍA Y TODOS LOS SANTOS".

Sometimes he says a lot of things in Spanish and makes it seem like he knows how to say them but in reality he used the translator.

"is that a Spanish dictionary...?" "*Kick it under the bed* No, of course not, why would I have one? I know Spanish, muy bueno. Mucho."

"It's very plane." "What? It is not a plane, Leo." "Yeah it is? Like, It is not curved, it has no disturbances. Plane surface." "FLAT, LEO." "NO WAY IT IS THAT. THEN WHAT DOES PLANE MEAN?!#@+$-1(?!"

Now he understands why people looked weirdly at him when he said plane.

He also forget words in Spanish and remember them in English. When this happens he stares at the space and feels his whole soul had lost its essence.

'espanish'

As Spanish speaker, it's very difficult to say 'isn't'. #Team It is not.

"Taired. Terid. Teerid. Tarid. Tæ—" "Tired." "That thing."

"you know, the— the thing. El coso. The coso of the cosito of the cosa—" "You forgot in Spanish too, right?" "Shut up."

SONGS. MEXICAN SONGS THAT HIS MOTHER LISTENED BECAUSE HIS GRANDFATHER LISTENED BECAUSE THEM MAKE HIM REMEMBER HIS HOME.

He doesn't know most of this song, he never listen to this song like, wanting to. They were on the radio, or a CD that his mother was playing while working. But he has those songs on his soul and he recognizes most of them. He even knows how to sing them even if he didn't read the lyrics.

(I'm not Mexican, so please I want Mexican people to make a playlist of which songs he would know. Please I need to know)

He sometimes hears Nico speaking in Italian and for a moment he is there processing because he thought it was Spanish.

(also, this whole thing could apply to Nico and Italian).

[rekino2114]

40Angst to fluff~ :you flinch during an argument ❤️‍🩹

Let's go with the girls. I think this would fit and be most affected by the flinch. Soo~ Arei nageishi, Maki harukawa, and Tenko chabashira with a Male S/O.

I was gonna choose either junko or Mukuro, but Tenko is more interesting since with a Male S/O, it's a genuine worry given how she gets with other guys. Also, I'm hoping that with the prompt, the M. S/O has a history of either being mistreated by an S/O or their family.

Arei, maki and tenko reacting to you flinching during an argument

Arei nageishi

Arguments with arei are unfortunate, pretty frequent, obviously she doesn't hate you, and wouldn't do things that purposefully make you angry but her personality is just the type that gets angry easily and can make even small disagreements escalate into arguments

However, despite how much she yells and gets angry at you during these arguments, one thing she will never do is raise her hands on you. Not only does she not actually mean most of the stuff she says when she's arguing but she also thinks that's just despicable, she may not be a good person but she's not a monster

So when she saw you flinch, she could not let that go. She refused to leave you alone until you told her everything that was going on, she was a bit aggressive but it was because she was genuinely concerned about you

Whenever you told her everything, she was a mix of emotions, mainly anger, both at your family but also a little bit at you because you didn't tell her earlier. Her own sisters did some very similar to her, so she felt she could relate to you, and you could help each other cope with the trauma, but now that she knows she's going to be there for you

"Are you an idiot? Do you seriously think I'd ever hurt you? I love you and I'm not like those assholes like our families, I actually care about you.....a lot. So don't ever think I'd do something like that OK?"

Maki harukawa

Ever since Maki revealed her true ultimate to you, you felt kinda intimidated by her, you knew she loved you and would never hurt you, it still felt kinda uncomfortable and scary living with someone who has killed people before and could kill you

So maki tried her best to make you feel safe around her, constantly saying she how much she cared about you and that she'd never do anything to harm you and most importantly never raise her voice in arguments, she didn't want to give you the impression she was more upset than she actually was

However, one time during a particularly nasty argument, she started to yell and to make matters worse, tried to touch you which caused you to flinch. When she saw you flinch her eyes widened and she forgot whatever reason why she was angry, she needed to hear the reason why you flinched

When you explained what happened to you, she was mortified. She immediately apologized for raising her voice and causing you to flinch, but even after you told her it wasn't her fault, the guilt still didn't disappear, she reassured you again that she was never going to hurt you and that she will help you heal from what happened, you were her precious boyfriend after all

"Listen y/n I know I may appear.....distant at times but just know that I love you and will never ever in my life do anything to hurt you, I would much rather die than harm you....so please just know that I will stay with you and help you with whatever happened, I'm here for you"

Tenko chabashira

You have seen how aggressive tenko can be with men, and you have also seen beat the absolute crap out them for some basic misunderstanding or because they "gave her a bad vibe" so it's no surprise that even if she tried to convince you she'd never do that to you and that you were different from other guys you still felt a bit scared of her

During arguments, tenko tends to be very loud. She's just very passionate about what she believes is right, and so she doesn't really like losing fights but will admit when she's wrong even if embarrassed. But when she saw you flinch her attitude completely.

She will never hit you, hitting the man she loves is not only the least honorable thing she could ever do, the thought itself makes her sick, you're one of the very few great guys in this world why would she ever consider hurting you?

She genuinely thought about beating up whatever men in your family hurt you. She loves you and absolutely hates the fact that someone else hurt someone as perfect as you, but now she's here for you and is never let anyone hurt you again

"I get it now, you though I was like your family, but you're wrong.....u-uh I mean I'd never hurt you like them, I bet most of them were degenerate males, they're nothing like you, you're sweet and kind and perfect and I will protect you from everyone and everything, if someone hurts you again just call me and I'll kick their ass"

[anyydidi]

Okay, I might be crazy, or someone might have already pointed it out (after all, I am sighs a new fan), but hear me out on this.

Am I the only one who kinda compares the relationship between Gideon and Mabel to Billford?

I feel like they are the easiest way to show that you can agree that Billford is indeed canon, while still acknowledging all the terrible things Bill has done to Ford.

To be completely honest, my focus is more on the similarities between Gideon and Bill, than Mabel and Ford. I'm sure I could find some, but let's focus on the two that are more prominent.

Gideon is the perfect example when you want to point out that Bill has "loved" (in quotes, since people like Bill or Gideon (till Weirdmaggedon) aren't capable of real love) Ford even through all he has done to him in the past and in the present.

We know that since the introduction of Gideon, he had this incredible obsession with Mabel. Instantly he wanted her to be his and would go to great lengths to get her. He wasn't afraid to lie and manipulate. He wasn't afraid to hurt her through her own brother. When he didn't, in fact, get her for himself, he turned on her and her entire family. Now, his obsession stayed persistent. He still claimed to love her, even though he was ready and literally planning to rid her of her home and family. He prioritised his own selfish goals in obtaining the Mystery Shack and power, than her, well, welfare. He also wasn't opposed to physically hurting her on multiple occasions. Yes, he did always give her a chance to join him by his side, but the second she refused, he'd try to hurt her, or worse, just straight up kill her alongside her family. Remind you of someone?

The point I'm trying to make is that, while Billford is on a whole another level, these two relationships are kind of similiar. Dare I say parallels? I don't know.

The differences are that Mabel has never fallen for Gideon's flattery and did not take his bullshit, while Ford obviously has fallen and taken Bill's. Gideon at the end did switch up and redeem himself by finally seeing love for what it truly is and put Mabel over his own selfish wants, while Bill stayed on his path and was more content to torture Ford than give up his centuries-old plan to dominate the universe.

Bill might have adored in the past, probably still adored Ford in some way till his death, even though he was incredibly abusive towards him. The line between love and hate is incredibly thin, and can get mixed up on multiple occasions. Gideon hurt Mabel, while still claiming that he loved her and Bill probably did the same with Ford. For Bill, Ford was a plaything, a pet. But children can still care for their playthings and owners can care for their pets, while throwing them away in the end when they cross their path. Bill had tried to keep Ford by his side, but alas, Ford truly did not want his world to become a playground for an interdimensional being, so he crossed Bill's path. Bill had his priorities sorted, and his number one spot was taken by his dreams of domination, so he threw Ford away, which might have hurt a little (maybe even a lot, who knows), but he was still a meaning to an end.

So, this is my surprisingly long rant on how the people who claim that there is no way that Bill and Ford might have had something more intimate going on in the past, when Bill has hurt and wronged Ford on multiple occasions, do NOT understand toxic love!! And I am showing that through a strange relationship between children!

[frogtemple]

☆ life changes ☆

pairings: winchester brothers x sister!reader (reader pov)

summary: you thought you had put the hunting life behind you, but family doesn't end there. **angst and swearing**

word count: 3k

I got out. I never thought I would.

As the youngest in my family, I had a lot to look up to as far as influence. Unfortunately my father wasn't around much to influence me, and neither was my mother as she died when I was young. So most of that came from my trusty big brothers, two very different, but similar in ways- personalities.

No matter how old I get, I'll always be Dean's little princess. I have him to thank for my rugged wild side, yet strong values. I'd like to think I've softened him up a lot. On the other hand, Sam's given me that intellectual, forward thinking mindset. He's always pushed me to feel happy being myself and make smart choices. Mix those two together and you get me... Winchester #3

Growing up in the hunting life was strange, but I never realized how strange it really was until I got to college... Yes, I went to college. I was scared shitless to go, it was such an unfamiliar goal for me since school was never something that was consistent with my life. I was constantly switching schools and being pulled out to be homeschooled just to be thrown right back in again. So on and so forth. But despite that, I actually enjoyed school. Besides the mean little terrors that some children could be, it was a form of an escape to me.

Sam was obviously on the convincing side, having gone to college before. Dean could have cared less, well, he cared- just not so much about the college part. "You do whatever you feel is right with your life. You have every opportunity to decide." He would always remind me. I could tell it saddened him to say it sometimes, knowing he never got the chance to do things I did, even if they weren't extraordinary. I knew he just always yearned for something normal- despite his jokes about it.

I went on to major in journalism. Thinking back, I've always loved writing. I'd always have a notebook with me on long car rides through multiple states, in boring old motels while Sam and Dean were hunting, at lunch or recess when I'd have no one to talk to. I was always writing something, stories mainly. Consisting of dreams on my mind that I'd transfer onto paper. Let's just say, college solidified my decision of wanting to lead a normal life, away from hunting. Which I never thought was possible. Both my brothers reminded me in their own ways that no matter how far I tried to hide, there could always be something wanting to draw me back in, inhabiting the Winchester bloodline and all. It always scared me, but I didn't want to give up what I could do with my freedom.

I scored a job at a publishing company after completing an internship there. So I was set, straight out of graduating college. After that, I made one of the hardest decisions of my life. I basically chose to distance myself from my brothers. Being out of state for college got me used to being on my own, but my job ended up being out of state as well. And... I knew if I wanted to leave the hunter's life behind, I'd have to leave the hunters behind too.

Sam saw it coming eventually, but he was still a bit in denial. Dean, well... Dean wasn't too happy.

"What? So you're just gonna leave? Just like that." He threw his arms up in the air. I stood there still with the last bag in my grip that I had packed. On the inside my blood was boiling, heart racing at my older brother's sharp tone.

"It's not like I'm never gonna see you guys again! You know how it is. I can't run the risk of having trouble follow me."

"Face it, y/n. You're a Winchester, it's always gonna follow you! Sooner or later, you'll have to see that." Dean let out bluntly.

"Coming from the guy that always told me I could lead the life I wanted to? Yeah, clearly you meant it." I sassed.

"You can, I just- being on your own... If something happens, and I can't be there..."

"Well, what about the last 4 years of college. I was able to take care of myself just fine." I justified.

"That was temporary, and we were only a hour away-"

"Oh, so you just can't handle the fact that this isn't temporary anymore, huh?" I sneered. Dean went quiet, I didn't expect him to choke but he did. I nailed his fear right on the money and he couldn't admit it.

"Look, I need this. I need to do this for myself. You guys mean the world to me, but-"

"No. Leave it... I don't wanna hear it." Dean interrupted.

His dismissive attitude struck me, I had been doing a good job at holding it in up until this point. Tears pricked at my eyes, I abruptly turned around and started up the stairs. "You leave now, don't even think about coming back!" His voice shook. I paused my stride, hearing the breaking behind all the anger in his voice. I looked up towards Dean, he turned his back to me, fists rested on the table in front of him. All I saw was Sam looking back at me with the upmost care and sorrow laced in his brows, having to witness the fight. "Goodbye, Sam." I said before retreating, and hearing the bunker door shut for the last time.

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It's been 3 years since I've seen my brothers. It feels like a different lifetime now, but at the same time, not at all. I talked with Sam once, maybe a month after I left, ever since then, I haven't spoken to either of them.

It's not that I didn't want to see or speak to them, I love them with all I have. I just don't know what to say. I don't really blame Dean for reacting the way he did, but it was blown out of proportion. I wish sometimes I could just show up, go back to the bunker in surprise. But I can't, I have my own life now.

I met someone a month after leaving the bunker. So, we've been together for 3 years at this point. We have a little place together about 3 hours away from my brothers. I've been promoted at my job, and work really well with the people there. It's not perfect, we have our struggles, but I'm happy. I wouldn't change anything.

I guess I've gotten so comfortable that I didn't notice anything "out of the ordinary" happening around. I had to find out the hard way.

I was out to lunch with a few of my colleagues when it happened. We were enjoying some time outside of the office after finishing a ton of work for our latest project when I looked up and saw two familiar faces looking down at me. I had to do a double take. It was Sam and Dean, standing there wearing long coats, looking pretty dapper and serious.

"Hey, y/n." Sam breathed out nervously. "Can we uh... talk for a sec?" He smiled softly. I looked at him in utter shock. My eyes then found Dean's which were much more complicated. He looked tense, some worry crossed his features, and he looked a bit sad too. He looked like he didn't know how to feel, but neither did I.

"Um. No, I'm kinda busy right now." I said politely, but with a bit of snark in my tone.

"This is pretty important, think you can take a minute?" Dean replied almost immediately.

"Y/n, do you know these guys?" One of my co-workers asked, confused as hell and slightly annoyed at the intrusion.

"Y-yeah, kinda. Uh, now's not really a good time. Maybe chat later." I said, starting to feel flustered.

"Or, we can chat now." Dean sassed as he pulled up a chair and sat down next to me as if he was joining our lunch.

"Dean..." Sam warned.

"Sam, I'd say family is one of the most important things, wouldn't you?" Dean looked back at Sam, then back at me, flashing a sarcastic smirk. I was staring daggers back at him, not having his sarcasm right now.

I didn't want to lose my cool in front of my team, so I- "I'm sorry guys, either we gotta cut this lunch short, or I gotta take off early."

"Everything alright?" One of them asked.

"Yeah, just some pressing family matters I've been avoiding." I shot a fake smile back at both men.

"That's okay y/n, we can wrap it up."

"Yeah, we can continue this back at the office."

I let out a grateful breath on the fact that my team was catching on a bit to the awkward tension, maybe even sensing I felt a little uncomfortable. We gathered our things and started to depart to the car we all took here.

"Y/n...." Sam tried putting his hand on my shoulder as we were walking out, I quickly shrugged it off. "No.... m'sorry." I looked back before leaving. I caught sight of the impala on the way out, pausing for a moment to take in the car that I missed so dearly.

Sam sighed in defeat, he looked back at Dean before going back to the impala. "Nice going."

"What? I didn't-"

"Dude, seriously. Not now..."

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After that, I couldn't focus for the rest of the day. It was honestly a little embarrassing, having them come out of no where like that, and in front of people who know nothing about that part of my life. I quickly conjured up some family excuse once the questions flooded in. I was walking to my car at the end of the day, about to go home when I got a call. It was Sam.

So much of my being didn't want to answer him after the little stunt they pulled today, but, Sam was always the more reasonable one. I guessed I'd give him a chance to explain before I jumped to conclusions.

"Hi."

"Y/n? Hey, I'm-"

"Is Dean there?"

"No, it's just me." I could hear the slight hesitation.

"Are you on speaker?" there was a small pause. Sam on the other end took the phone off speaker in front of Dean and walked out of the room. "No, you're all good. Listen, I just want to apologize."

"Yeah, that was quite some shit you two pulled back there. What the hell, Sam? Why'd you just show up out of nowhere?!"

"Y/n, something's going on. We really need to talk to you."

"So talk."

Sam breathed out heavily. "I can't. It's not safe. Um, we'd actually like for you to... maybe come to the bunker?"

"No. Absolutely not." I said instantly. "I have a life here now. I'm not just gonna drop everything to drive 3 hours because you guys are struggling with a case."

"Y/n, this is not just a case. It's more than that." The tone of Sam's voice shifted immensely. Something was up.

"Sam, I can't."

"Then, we're gonna have to keep bothering you. Y/n, remember what Dean said? It's always gonna follow you. Somehow, someway..."

"How could I forget." I stopped. I couldn't think of anything else to say, but I knew Sam was right. If something was happening to the point of them coming all the way out to see me, they weren't gonna leave me alone until we reconciled.

"Y/n? You still there?"

"Oh, yeah. Look, I'll see you in about 3 hours." I gave in.

Sam felt a weight lift off his shoulders. "Great, drive safe bug. We'll see you soon."

That nickname brought a flood of thoughts. I hung up and sat still in the drivers seat. "Oh my god, what am I about to do."

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I hated that I was doing what I was doing, but they were right. Something was bound to happen at some point, just didn't expect it to happen so soon. I just wanted to get it over with.

Unfortunately I lied to my boyfriend, well, half lied. I told him I had a family emergency, sparing the details for now. Looks like that part of my life might have to find out.

The 3 hour drive to the bunker felt so long, I don't know how my brothers just did that today, twice, just to drag me back into this. I keep thinking how this better be worth it. During the drive, I tried to reason with my feelings towards my brothers, but I was doing fine. Now all of a sudden things come up and disturb the little peace I had going, it was hard to not be upset.

I pulled into the familiar garage. I stood outside the entrance door for what felt like 20 minutes before I finally got the courage to enter.

The sound of my boots echoing off the high ceilings as they came in contact with the stairs flooded my mind with familiarity. I took in the smell of old books, hints of Dean's cologne in the air, a faint metallic smell that I could almost taste. All the memories of my life in the bunker practically hit me in the face all at once, it gave me a warm and comforting feeling. Something I haven't truly felt since I left for school.

My moment was well interrupted once I was greeted by Sam, and saw Dean standing not too far from him, looking like he was ready to go off. I then recalled the last argument we had before I left, and the anger took its place in my heart.

"Hey, y/n." Sam spoke softly, wavering cautiously around my fragile emotional state.

I paused, taking in the both of them. I used to see these two men every day of my life, and now it was almost- foreign, in a way to not have seen them like that lately.

"Why?" "Why did you have to swoop in like this." I started.

"You didn't really give us a choice." Dean spoke up to my surprise.

"You could've called..." I retorted.

"And what's the chance you would've answered? You haven't answered a call, or text- in, I dunno. 3 years?!" I could hear the annoyance in his tone.

"You told me not to come back! If you don't want me here, then why would I expect you to want to talk to me?" I raised my voice slightly but tried to remain calm. I knew this would happen as soon as I came back. The flood gates would open and Dean and I would have to pick up where we left off. Sam expected it too, he stood quietly in the middle of us, just in case things got too loud.

"That's not what I meant." Dean recoiled in defense.

"Meant it or not, you said it." I crossed my arms. Dean fell silent.

Sam took the chance to start explaining what was going on. "Anyway-"

"And what the hell was that earlier? Showing up out of no where! Interjecting yourselves into my personal life?!"

"Y/n, we're your family..." Sam started.

"But that doesn't give you the right- ugh!" I shouted in frustration. "I was trying to keep certain people away from knowing about this part of my past. I had to lie to my boyfriend tonight to come here. He doesn't even know-"

"Hold on. Boyfriend?" Dean interrupted.

"Yeah, Dean. Boyfriend, holy shit, it's crazy, wow." I went on.

"Don't get a fucking attitude with me. We're just trying to protect you!"

"Shut up! All that protecting nonsense. I get it, I really do! But you're not gonna be able to be there to hold my hand through every. single. step. I'm not a little girl anymore." I paused, seeing the sorrow pass through Dean's gaze.

"I thought that, maybe that distance I chose would have helped you realize... never mind."

"No. No, don't you dare assume that I don't know all that. Hell, I know you're grown, and that you need space. But don't think for a second that you can just turn your back on the people that raised you, loved you. I had to step up when dad was gone all the time. I had to step up to take care you Sam, and then you. I didn't ask to, but I never questioned it because I loved you!"

There it was. It all came out.

In all the years I've grown up knowing Dean, I'd never heard him spill like that. It took me leaving for him to show how afraid he was to lose me, after almost going through it with Sam. I remember how that felt.

"Dean. I'm sorry. I- I didn't know."

"Yeah, well. I'm sorry too." He quietly said.

"I guess, I just didn't see how-"

"Nah, no, it's alright. It's just a little off, without you here kid, ya know?" I could tell he was trying to play off the sappy moment he felt coming on so I cut it short.

"Trust me, I know. Not a day has gone by where I don't think about you guys." I turned to Sam, he flashed me a smile in return, happy this was all finally blowing over.

Dean and I naturally drifted closer to each other as the tension fell flat, I was now standing close enough to throw my arms around his torso, into a hug that I didn't know I'd been longing for since the day I left.

"I love you." I whispered into his chest. I felt him deflate, letting the anger leave him.

"I know." He replied. I broke the hug and looked back up at him, satisfied to finally see us both smiling again. I then turned to Sam and gave him the hug he solely deserved as well.

"We're happy you're back, bug."

"Me too." "So, what's got you guys so on edge?" I then asked, bringing up the case at hand.

"Oh no, first, you tell us about this 'boyfriend' of yours." Dean demanded.

"Dean, c'mon!"

I'm happy to say that not much has changed.

[hotasfahrenheit]

flowers? in my vampire show? it's more likely than you think

(i mean there is a florist character so it's not THAT unlikely but i needed a title)

first off-

that's limonium, which is notoriously stinky, so my takeaway is that vampires are stinky and i'm not going to let anyone change my mind on that~

for the actual arrangement-

we've got three roses, surrounded by a bunch of what we call filler flowers- limonium, statice, and baby's breath.

roses are classic, everyone knows and loves roses. they usually represent things like love and romance, but they can also represent secrecy and mysticism. pink roses specifically tend to represent gratitude and admiration. i'm not gonna include a picture of roses, y'all know what they are.

what i'm referring to as limonium in this arrangement is actually specifically caspia, a delicate, cloudy variety of limonium that is associated with grace, perservereance, and transformation. it uh. well at my shop it's also known as "cat's-pee-ah" because it smells like cat pee to a lot of people. i don't think it smells quite like cat pee, but it does smell -terrible-. i made one of our newer girls smell it a few weeks ago and her response was an offended, betrayed look and a "WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME??!?!?" yelled across the room. (i just laughed in response, obviously)

it comes in white and light purple- we use it most often in the purple colour- and it's very pretty and fills space in nicely. but yeah it stinks, it's best to mix it into bouquets or arrangements that have a stronger scent, like putting it with stock flowers, lilies, etc. (picture borrowed from here!)

statice (pronounced just like status and i didn't realise that it was not the same word at first because english is just Like That so often) is actually a variety of limonium and made searching for info for this post just... so great and easy! hah. statice is very common in its very vibrant bright purple variety, but also comes in a variety of colours that i like much better honestly sorry not sorry

statice stands for fond memories, sympathy and success according to the info i could find that distinguished it from caspia limonium. it can look almost fake or papery in the more vibrant colours, and has a kind of dry seeming texture even when it's fresh. the stems are MUCH thicker than caspia and the flowers are bigger and more clumped together, so they're easy to tell apart. (purple statice picture from here, the colourful picture i had on my computer already and when i tried to backtrack search it, it's in use ALL OVER THE PLACE so i can't credit that one accurately)

then we come to the baby's breath. sigh. what can i say about baby's breath without going on a rant about how much most florists actually passionately hate baby's breath? it's terrible. it breaks constantly. it's difficult to pull apart bunches without making a mess. the flowers get nasty when they start to go bad. it also smells, tho not as badly as limonium. adding it into arrangements makes me feel like i'm ruining them. it's terrible! but people love it? people who don't have to deal with it the way that florists do! anyway my fun facts about baby's breath are that it looks like teeny tiny carnations because it's in the carnation family, and the scientific name is gypsophila because when it was named, it was growing in a region with a lot of gypsum rocks in Türkiye so they were like "wow this flower sure loves gypsum!" and there you go. it's supposed to represent undying love and romance so the undying thing works well for vampires I GUESS.

the nice thing with all of these filler flowers is that they dry pretty well and pretty easily. roses can also be dried, obviously, but dried roses alter pretty noticably from their fresh state, while dried statice especially will look pretty similar to fresh depending on the colour. the best way to dry any flowers is to hang them upside down in a warm, dry location- you can get better tips by searching for them on the internet, but that's the main thing. hanging something like roses upside down is especially important, as the heavy heads will bend the stems if they're left to dry while upright in a vase. once the stem is dry and the moisture has left the petals in the flower head, they can be arranged upright again without worrying about the stems bending anymore. if you want to dry limonium, statice, or baby's breath for use in a mixed dried flower arrangement, i would recommend separating and hanging stems individually instead of drying them bunched together, as pulling the dry flowers apart will increase the likelihood of knocking dried blossoms off of the stems.

anyway there you go, your periodic edition of flowers maybe having meaning in BL shows, from your friendly neighbourhood florist. you can check the mia talks about flower things tag below for the other posts i've made about flowers in dramas so far.

until next time! 🌸🌼🌹

[syndrossi]

You know this ask-post of yours? It feels kinda cracky when I start to think about it instead of "semi happy" as you put it for best case scenario? But maybe that's me because when I actually start writing anything at all I always end up with an conversational and humorous tone, I guess? So that might just be me.

And I have no idea where this idea came from, as far as I know it has no basis in any asoiaf/got media, but I kinda like the idea that Jon, despite looking so much a Stark that Ned's children (sans Arya) look less Stark than him, all his /expressions/ are all Targaryen. You wouldn't know it without comparison, but when Winterfell suddenly has the late Queen Rhaella and an alive and for some reason a teenage Prince Reaghar in the courtyard all confused like and someone sees Jon near them they suddenly have a lot of questions! Especially when they pull the same face as a reaction to something in sinc! It's uncanny.

Also, in that au, though I guess it could be in both this one and restoration too, but in either of those, after confirming that Jon does, in fact, remember and is still /his/ Jon, would Reaghar freak out (even just in the privacy of his own mind!) over the fact that Jon, for some reason, omitted the fact that he happened to be his /son/? Whom he aparently didn't even have the opportunity to raise! It would be funny to read that in a morbid sort of way? I mean they are Targaryens! Their mothers are their aunts and cousins they should be used to weird family relations, but still!

I mean, the premise of Restoration itself (which isn't too different from "Rhaegar and Rhaella show up in Winterfell at the start of AGOT with dragons") is more than a little cracky. I'm just your opposite, where I like to take crack premises (Arthur Dayne appears suddenly and tries to join the Princesguard!) and try to treat them seriously. 😅

Well, the good thing about Jon potentially have very Targaryen expressions (quite possible if he inherited, say, Rhaegar's mouth and brow) is that not too many people are around who would even recognize them, including Ned. It's not like Ned was buddy-buddy with Rhaegar, and I doubt he ever got closer than twenty paces to Aerys or Rhaella, assuming he ever visited KL when younger. But I could see him studying Jon's face on occasion and going "that's not my sister's expression." And spending a moment panicking before reminding himself that no one would possibly make a Targaryen connection.

Except if you suddenly throw two suddenly-not-dead Targaryens into the mix, including Rhaegar at the same age as Jon, when their similarities would be most apparent!

I'm assuming the two of them get a quick history lesson while Ned is internally screaming about what to do with the smoking dragon guns pointing directly at Jon saying EXTRA TARGARYEN THAT I'VE KEPT HIDDEN RIGHT HERE. Fortunately, their dragons (or hatchlings, depending on age) mean they do have some leg up.

(Wait, does Ned try to pull the same Restoration AU story with Rhaella and Rhaegar??? *squints* Basically "this is Jon's baby mama, and uhhh he had a twin who my lover demanded to keep, so we split them up." Surely not. But he does need to buy some time for the dragons to be effective, and that will involve "hiding" Rhaella and Rhaegar somehow.)

But yes, just like Restoration AU, Rhaegar is going to be very upset about Jon withholding very pertinent information such as Rhaegar having been his (dead) father, WTF JON.

[onepiece-polls]

One Piece Crack Ship War - Side E Finals!

CoraBelle art by @halacska-fins

KataCora art by @rzdhc

Propaganda under the cut.

CoraBelle:

A surprisingly popular ship considering they never interacted, but I see the appeal. Both former Marines, both loving and caring adoptive parents.

Two of the best parents in One Piece, imagine if they both lived and raised a happy little mixed family together.

Best adoptive Dad + Best adoptive Mom. I think they would vibe.

Cora is Bell-mere's malewife failure and she loves him. She enjoys making him flustered and tripping him up. He is just heads over heels in love with her, he loves her so much Just the thought of Bell-mere making a man who's twice her size completely melt for her fills me with joy. They were both apart of the Marines and ended up adopting children while on the job. I'm not exactly sure who died first but learning about your lover's death (if it wasn't covered up) is amazing angst potential. They're watching over their kids in the afterlife together.

Dead serial adopting Marines smokers, what else is there to say?

hi i’m back with my corabelle agenda. these two are a match made in heaven. literally. they have so many narrative parallels, it hurts. they both sacrificed themselves for their adoptive kids’ longevity, they’re both former marines who deserted their positions in order to give these kids a better life. they were both killed by a flintlock, and their last words to their kids were “i love you.” !!! it’s uncanny!! they could have known each other when they were marines, too! bell-mere is just one year older than rosinante. they were from different blues, but there’s a chance they could have run into each other or even trained together for a period of time. bell-mere would be the perfect friend for a young rosinante who’s preoccupied and stressed over his brother. in terms of personality, that’s where we get some of that juicy opposites-attract theory into play. they do have a lot in common tho! some common flaws, (hotheaded, a bit irrational, impulsive), and some common strengths as well, (determined, fearless, values the strength of a smile)! but otherwise, bell-mere isn’t afraid to lay the flirt on and seems a bit more extroverted, where rosinante is a little more reserved and keeps a very small circle of friends, (literally one and it’s sengoku). someone direct like bell-mere could easily draw him out of his shell, and someone down-to-earth and occasionally goofy like rosinante could help keep her grounded.

Both marines with rough lives who seemingly picked up children when they weren’t expecting it. Bellemere would make a great mom to Law and Corazon would make a great dad to Nami and Nojiko. Both of them would bond over the bullshit of the world!!

Art by @gendervapor14

SweetHeart:

Alright so they are both very tall, very kind individuals who deserve so much so everyone reading this...jot that down. They are both incredible figures and caring, like Katakuri? BEST big brother vibes like he is so sweet and beloved and just all around a very wholesome guy who loves his sweets and donuts and family (hints the sweet part of the ship name) he would absolutely treat Rosinante right and Rosi deserves that. Rosinante is just so I mean!! Have you guys seen him!? That man is so full of trauma but has so much love to give, he is a great dad who is trying his best Even if he is unsure of how to do things at times. He's strong, he's resilient, he's SMART, he's kind and compassionate and he is a great brother that Doflamingo did not deserve. Now mushing these two together I think they'd be great, they're very similar but also drastically different and I think it'd be a very beautiful relationship, they might be a little awkward and unsure at first but they'd be so caring and loving and I think Katakuri would be alarmed that his partner just set himself on fire, knocked a chair over and now his son is yelling and violently smacking out flames and using his devil fruit to ensure his dad is okay. He would also probably get use to it very quick and just eat donuts while helping Law put the flames out. Rosinante would love how much Katakuri cares about his siblings and he'd bring him sweets and I just !!!! I think they'd be incredible gentle yet rough around the edges because they're great people with tragedy but would accept every part of each other, even the darker and harder parts of themselves. Like please just MAKE THEM KISS. We love SweetHeart around these waters

The beloveds of the Dressrosa arc and the Whole Cake Island arc. A duo where one is grumpy and the other is sunshine, but also where both is the "looks like they could kill, would kill you" and "actual cinnamon rolls". They'd help each other in so many ways; Katakuri with his self worth issues, hiding his scars, which Rosinante is covered in, and Rosinante with his family issues (both Doflamingo and Law) and also his own self worth issues.

[mistressroxielove]

Hey everyone~ I'm back, and this time with a new fixation!

Long story short, I've discovered the new Fairly Oddparents reboot, absolutely loved it and was inspired to make this AU idea for the show! With a slight reimagine/redesign of the characters as well. And the first one I decided to do was Peri!

Here's some more info about my AU:

Fairly Odd Parents AU/Rewrite

Au Name: FairlyOdd Brother

Summary:

Perri (previously known as Poof) recently graduated from Fairy Godparents School and is eager to start granting Wishes for his very own godchild! Only problem is that with his lack of experience Jorgen is weary of giving him an assignment and keeps finding excuses/reasons to not give him a godkid. Realizing it might be a 1,000 years before they give him a chance to be a Fairy Godparent, Perri decides he needs to be a little bold and perhaps, bend Da Rules, to get his foot in the door so to speak. And his answer comes to him from a new neighbor in his human home, a family with a sweet shy 10 year old girl who is absolutely miserable. Perhaps Perri might be able to offer this girl a little comfort and fun as her new Fairy Godbrother!?

(Basically the same premise of the show, except Perri’s first godchild is Hazel, and through a technicality in the rule book, becomes her god brother instead of her godparent.)

ALSO please note this AU is more of a slight reimagine of the original show, meaning I did tweaked / changed some of the characters personality to match the new story I made for them. Nothing majorly different, but again just a heads up before you read on. Hope you like it~

Name: Perri Poof Fairywinkle Cosma (He goes by Perri now but still keeps Poof as a middle name to honor it)

Age: Human equivalent of 22 years old

-Usually it takes at least 1,000 years for a fairy to grow from a baby to an adult, however since Poof spent his first couple of years being raised alongside Timmy, his body magically enhanced itself to basically go through a growth spurt and age as a normal human. But now that he’s fully mature he won't physically age anymore and will stay a 22 year old for at least a couple hundred thousand years.

Sex: Male

Human Physical Description:

-Basically just did a mix between Wanda's and Cosmo human designs. Something simple and fun, I also added some blue to his color design just to make him stand out more.

-I also gave him crocs, I just found the idea cute and thought it would give him a more casual look for his human design

-I was originally gonna give him glasses similar to Cosmo but for the life of me I couldn't make the design work with his hair style, so I just gave him a earring with the same design his wand has

Personality:

-Similar to Cosmo Swavy car sale business man personality from the pilot.

-He’s a smooth talker with a deep rich voice to match, could sell a refrigerator to a eskimo

-Knows his way around rules and is always eager to grant wild and crazy wishes with the most imaginative interpretation possible, this eagerness to break rules can be a blessing and a curse, as this is what gets him in trouble the most

-Is a bit of a smart ass (But in a nice and lovable way), always has to have the last word, can be really petty when he’s mad

-Is really good a persuading people into doing things, though he doesn’t use this power to be malicious, only uses it to get small favors and mostly for Hazel to wish for crazy stuff, again it's never meant to be malicious

-Though he still has a lot to learn before becoming a godparent, he’s extremely sweet and caring to hazel and his friends, and will do anything to keep them safe and happy

-Is eager to proof himself to be useful and mature, is tired of every fairy treating him like a kid despite being older now

-Is a bit flamboyant and cares about his appearance, likes to paint his nails and wears earrings similar to his mother

-Though he does have a good head on his shoulders, he does have a tendency to interpret wishes in uniquely bizarre ways sometimes, something he inherited from his father.

Other fun facts:

-Peri really likes marine life/fishes, since he spent the first couple years of his life living as a fish, he has an appreciation for the creatures. And even has a pet goldfish!

-Despite being 22 years old, the fairy’s still treat him like a baby since a normal fairy baby would have taken at least 1,000 years to grow to maturity. This is what caused him to change his name, desperate to make the other fairy’s take him seriously and to not literally treat him like a baby

-Lives in an apartment building in the human world that is also connected to the fairy world, he’s the first of his kind to have a home like that. For most fairies it's extremely hard for them to ‘act human’ 24/7 which is why most prefer to turn themselves into childhood pets whenever they’re living with their god kid. As being human means they have to walk everywhere, not being able to use magic, and if they mess up once it could expose the existence of fairies and magical creatures in general. Peri however, once old enough to move out of his parents house was vocal that he wanted to live among the humans. He told Jorgen and the fairy council he wanted to live there to understand humans better to be a better godparent to them, but he mostly did it because he missed earth. Missed all the stuff that he grew accustomed to when he was a kid and also likes being able to find people ‘his own age’ to talk and relate to. After his endless demands and persuasion the council finally budge and allowed him to live on earth. But was warned if he was ever discovered to be a fairy, he would lose his godparents license and would never be allowed back on earth ever again.

-He wears a curler in his hair similar to Wanda when he sleeps, just a cute detail I wanted to mention

-Also just like his mother he has a tendency to call the kids/Hazel Buddy similarly to how Wanda likes to call people Sport but still has his own fraze, just a small detail that I thought would also be a cute nod to his parents

-He's also crazy for Chocolate, this is based off an episode in the original show where Wanda went insane just to eat some chocolate. It was just a one off gag but I really love that gag and decide to include it. He loves chocolate and has a dangerous addiction to it, but its still not as bad as Wanda's addiction to the stuff

Short summary of how he ended up with Hazel:

Peri has just recently graduated Fairy Godparent School and is eager to get a godkid, since his parents are still on their 10,000 year old trip he wanted to surprise them with the news of him having a godkid to make them proud of him. However Jorgen is extremely reluctant to give Peri a kid due to his extremely young age, inexperience, and his tendency to always try and bend ‘Da Rules’ as he pleases. So he puts Peri off again and sends him home, much to his annoyance. Irritated and now back at his human home in Dimmadelphia, Peri begins to hatch a plan to get himself a god kid since he knows it would take 1,000 years at least before Jorgen would finally give him a chance. But how could he possibly bend the rules to allow him to mentor a kid without Jorgen assigning him?

The answer comes to him from his new neighbors, a small family with a sweet but shy 10 year old girl who’s having a tough time adjusting to her new surroundings. Due to some hijinks Peri ends up babysitting for Hazel as her parents are now busier than ever with their new jobs and don’t have as much time to watch Hazel. They don’t mean to leave her alone so often, and actually apologize to her constantly for the unforeseen high work time. But it does little to help Hazel with her adjusting to her new environment. With the addition of her having a bad day in school and her brother, do to the storm, is unable to come up and visit until his next break (which is a few months away) Hazel, being miserable and finally had enough and in a fit of rage and desperation, wishes she could just fly to her brother. This wish for the first time activates Peri magic, before he can stop his wand appear and grants Hazel's wish, turning the girl into a fly.

The part of the episode happens similar to the original first episode, with Peri trying to get Hazel home before her parents come back from their work. He eventually does but again similar to the first episode Hazel gets stuck in a venus fly trap as Peri tries to get her to wish to turn back into her original form. After the talk with the ant Hazel realizes her mistake and finally wishes to become human again before her parents could discover what went wrong.

After the commotion, the next day Hazel goes to Peri’s apartment to question who he is and what the heck just happened. Peri tries to deny it but during their conversation he realizes that technically speaking…..Hazel did have good and caring parents. They weren’t the reason why she was sad and miserable, she was miserable because her brother wasn’t with her anymore and she desperately missed him. And technically speaking, there was no rule or need to ask Jorgen or the fairy console to become a kids Godbrother. He only needed their permission to be a Godparent. And besides……..he more than understood the feeling of missing a big brother.

Making his decision he officially introduces himself as Hazel Godbrother (In a similar manner to Dev introduction) and promises to bring a little magic to her life~ Much to Hazel shock and joy, as for the first time since moving to Dimmadelphia, she felt true joy and happiness.

Sooooo ya, tell me what you guys think! Any questions or suggestions for the AU I would love to hear, good to be back!

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[skiiyoomin]

teruhashi X fem reader pls 🙏🙏🙏 can be anything from a proper fic to just headcanons I'm so desperate 😭😭😭💥💥💥

ღTeruhashi as your girlfriend

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a/n yo schools been kicking my ass but FINALLY its here!! i did a little mix of both headcanons and small fics, hope you enjoy!! :))

Teruhashi is literally so so so sweet

sweetest gf EVER

she gives me "best friends to lovers"

literally connected right away

you know the classic, you're new to school and need to make new friends, well Teruhashi being the open and friendly person she is, walked up to you!

You're sitting at your new desk when suddenly the most stunning girl you had ever seen stood in front of you. "Hi there! I'm Teruhashi, let's be friends!"

And obviously how could you say no to someone like her. To your surprise, you both connected almost immediately, whether it was because you had similar interests or because you complimented each other. Either way, you became attached by the hip!

Being around Teruhashi naturally made you a pretty popular person and by the week everyone knew who you were.

With this popularity, you were prone to constant love confessions

which made Teruhashi jealous but she didn't know it yet

at first she thought it's because she's jealous of the confessions you receive

but it's not until you go on a date with a guy that she realized it's because she wants you for herself!

she had a little bit of a hard time accepting these feelings but once she did, she became 10 times more attached

though now, everything you did flustered her

she definitely confessed by accident, while she was thinking about doing it for a while now, she never had the guts to do it until it accidentally slipped out

"How come you never go on dates Kokomi? I'm sure there must've been someone who's caught your eye by now"

"There is someone, though I don't think they like me"

You were baffled at this, someone not liking her? Impossible!

"No way! I don't believe that, there's not one person who could possibly not like you"

"It's true!"

You kept it going until Teruhashi snapped, taking you by surprise.

"I know they don´t like me back because that person is you!"

She seemed surprised by her own words as well because she quickly covered her mouth, her eyes as wide as saucers. Though yours probably looked the same.

"I...I´m so sorry I did not mean to say that, I -"

You cut her off by pressing a tentative kiss to her lips.

You can imagine how the rest goes

After this y´all started dating and became THE couple of the school

for the most part your relationship stayed the same expect you were much more affectionate with each ohter!

LOTS of shopping dates

Teruhashi is your number 1 hype girl

her love language is physical touch, it doesn´t matter where you are, she always has her hand somewhere on you

if you have a similar size, you´re ALWAYS sharing clothes

your fashion styles end up mixing up

now you have your own unique styles!

in general all of your dates are super cute and fun

there´s not one single moment where either of you aren´t having fun with each other

her brother definetly had a hard time accepting your relationship BUT, once he did you were basically a part of the family

also, your periods sync up

because of this, you both spend the day cuddling each other and being each others warmth

it may not seem like it, but shes super attentive to your wants and needs and basically knows you like the back of her hand

always has the things you like in her backpack in case you ever crave them!

SO SO SO many cute nicknames and sweet words!! never fails to make you feel flustered

but shes just as easy to fluster

it doesn´t matter if you´ve been dating for a couple months or years, the butterflies never go away

she´s both your best friend and lover and your biggest supporter and confidant and there´s nothing as perfect and wonderful as that

Teruhashi supremacy >>>>

[reverieaudios]

Hi!! I’ve just basically binged half your channel over the past few weeks.

I’m a new voice actor/audio creator (started last December) and I’ve curated a nice following over on Reddit and I’ve been having a ton of fun!!! Seriously, I’ve never hyper fixated so hard on anything else in my life, I’m basically living and breathing this shit rn.

But, my big goal, is to start a channel like yours. You, Redacted Audio, and dervampireprince are my biggest inspos. All of y’all are quadruple threats: writing, voice acting, editing, artistic design!!!!

It hits all of my interests and I think that’s why I’m falling so in love with audios.

I’m treating my current channel as experimentation, but eventually want to have a channel like yours dedicated to a universe.

What did the starting point of coming up with your characters and story look like? You’ve probably gotten similar questions before, but I guess I’d like to ask in the context of being a new audio creator.

I apologize for the wall of text, I tend to ramble, but thank you for your time reading 🙏🙏🙏

Hi! I'm glad to hear you've been enjoying my work, thank you!

My answer is really long so I'll put it under the cut

As for coming up with my universe, the simple answer is a lot of daydreaming lol.

The more complicated answer is to create something that you yourself want to see. Interested in high fantasy? Sci fi? Historical fiction? A mix of them all? That's a good place to start! Honestly, I've been coming up with stories and different fictional universes for a long time (come from a family of writers lol). Every time the premise started really small, and I gradually added onto it. It may start with "hey wouldn't it be cool if xyz" or "I wanna see a world where trees are sentient and they make humanity staying alive very difficult" and then slowly adding onto it

Really the best advice I could give is to find something that you yourself want to read, or watch, or listen to, no matter how vague it may be, and then let yourself play with it. Let your mind wander, listen to music if it helps, make some playlists, make a word doc and just word vomit all over it, and most importantly ask yourself a ton of questions about it. After you have the big ideas, it's the small/mundane things that add believability to the world. That doesn't necessarily mean you need to go full Tolkien and explain every tiny detail about how things work in your world, though lol

For example, my current universe is, for the most part, modern/urban fantasy. There are fantasy elements that coexist with the modern "normal" world. From there you have to ask yourself things like:

Is everyone magical in some way? If not, how common is it to be magical?

If there are non-magical people, are they aware of the magical world? If not, what measures are in place to either prevent non-magical people from finding out, or taking care of it if they do find out? Is anything done at all?

What does an expert in whatever magical fields look like?

What groups of people are there? What conflicts exist between different groups, what past or present major events might have to do with those conflicts?

How do people's powers work? What drawbacks are there to their powers? (I'd recommend pretty much always having some form of drawback to balance out strengths, especially magical/paranormal ones)

Those are just a few examples lol

For me, populating the world with characters typically involves a need. There's a role that needs to be filled. That can be a literal role, like "hey I have this magical bookstore and I need someone to run it, what kind of person would be interesting for that"

It can be "I need to be able to explain to the audience how this bit of the world works, so I need a character that's involved in it that can show them"

It can also just be "hey wouldn't it be fun if a werewolf worked in an animal shelter" and then making a character to fill that role

Hopefully this made sense, I'm very sleep deprived so this could be just incomprehensible babbling lmao

If you have any more questions feel free to ask, and good luck!

[leroiestmortvivelareine]

tgr live journal - ch 3-4

all my reactions, as they happened. (man I was so far off track at this point...)

(all chapters)

tgr live - ch 3-4

Jeremy's family suck, pardon us while we faint from shock

Jeremy what did you do? was it with a fellow Trojan? who??

BMW? how does that fit in with Jeremy's romantic life?

why am i being sucked into trying to figure it out, it's Nora it could be goddamn anything

ok here we go...

Warren hit someone with one?

Warren wouldn't be able to buy one if he was forced to pay someone off again? the guy? the police (why the police)?

Warren gets a ton of funding from progressive rights groups by using Jeremy as window-dressing despite his own private revulsion?

California has an incentive scheme whereby senators get a new car for every guy their son bonks?? (which still makes more sense than partial deregulation of the electricity market)

ah mothers and their unseverable umbilical cord

Yeah Jeremy, why don't you work things out with the mixed girl

mixed girls: the practical alternative to being gay

why would you bring poor Nabil into this, the fewer names these vultures know the better

Mathilda you're in danger of making Tetsuji look richly nuanced, could you swing by reality at some point

oh yeah, we've been missing some blackmail in our aftg drama buffet. Drugs, presumably. how sordid and unoriginal. But believable, i guess.

Friends and family discount - so Bryson was the dealer?

there's no hope of justice when your parents favour one over another - I know. Kevin knows too

how does it benefit Bryson if Jeremy fails so many times? Does he feel threatened because he knows Jeremy would be better than him?

Is it just pure spite?

the Joshua thing's obviously more than that though. I think we're getting close to the 'regret' Jeremy always talks about.

'if you don't know what you need, how can he ever provide it' - wow that's... kind of a boss line.

I like this butler guy. And he likes Jeremy, so at least someone sees his side of what is probably in all fairness Jeremy's fault.

the truth?

you mean like that thing that shall set you free?

or was 'the truth' just about regularity of therapy sessions?

'what would any of you do' hmm how many people's secrets does this butler keep?

LOL what kind of butler tries to get out of washing a shirt, he's funny

oh

ok so i predicted something like this but that doesn't mean i want to actually sit here and watch Jere screw someone else

grrrrrrrrr now i'm unjustifiably furious and vindictively wanting Jean to do something similar just to retaliate, as I am Aaron now apparently

who the fuck even has yellow curtains

grrrrr i don't think a napkin is getting us out of this one

I mean really, is this all just a game to you?? do you just lean your back against anyone who comes along, you harlot! and what's with all this 'learning French' shit? of course we're going to think it's fucking serious if you're talking about learning a whole-ass fucking language for someone!!! how dare you toy with our feelings in this heartless manner

(pause for breath)

man i am out of practice with this

it's time to break out... the never-fails 100% guaranteed break-up survival song list!! (there's a lot of 80s because they were really into attitude back then.)

'You got nothing i want' - Cold Chisel

'I will survive' - Gloria Gaynor

'The honeymoon is over' - The Cruel Sea

'Untouchable face' - Ani DiFranco

'I never really loved you anyway' - the Corrs

'Don't shed a tear' - Paul Carrack

'Here I go again' - Whitesnake

'Next time' - Marie Wilson

'It's my life' - Bon Jovi

'Don't you worry' - Madasun

'Head like a hole' - NIN

Ok. i feel a bit better now. let's do this, you yellow-curtain-owning dipstick

the best way to explain Jeremy's character is that he crosses his fingers for luck while breaking into his wanker ex's bedroom to fuck him

i've changed my mind Bryson, come back here and set your brother up as evilly as possible

however it's only fair to warn you i will never consider you a REAL villain, my standards in this matter now being impossibly high (like, dude, you don't even have a cool colour scheme), however i'm prepared to overlook your insipidness due to extreme ire

dammit it's only page 46 and i'm already homicidal - usually it takes at least 5 chapters

Nora did you just explicitly name a part of the male anatomy? should we faint or

ok. so. the car WAS to buy off the guy. not my favourite option but anyway

told you those yellow curtains were dead dodgy

AND he calls you Knox

dick

i mean you Jeremy. still mad at you.

you've got weekly(?) therapy, awesome friends, and a notable absence of Moriyama-induced torture in your life. why are you making toxic self-sabotaging decisions then complaining to Jean about how he's coping

Jean's at home trying not to spiral his way into madness while you're running around the swanky part of LA in gold go-go shorts, hooking up with skanks

move to impeach the captain and put Xavier in charge

ah Xavier. the voice of reason. when you've delivered a line as iconic as 'bro my scars are normal, yours are not', you don't need to do anything else for the rest of the series.

I can't help imagining how differently Riko would've approached this kind of betrayal. Firstly, and perhaps most importantly, he would not have worn gold shorts. Secondly, Leo would've been found floating somewhere in that fancy car, identifiable only through dental records.

which is wrong. obviously.

and yet.

wait...

if you're pursuing a law degree why don't you know the difference between age of consent in California vs West Virginia? I don't even live in the US and I knew they'd be different

also how does some knob who lives at home with their weird mom get to pull strings within California's law fraternity?

heh Jean is onto you Jere

but he don't care about your personal life

(that's got to pique your interest surely)

the Foster rose - self-reporting to Cat and Laila? interesting

ha ha now Jeremy has to go for a run (does nobody listen to Rocky Balboa? "No foolin' around, it makes your legs weak")

Cody and the peach awwww

there had better be some artwork of this when i get back onto tumblr, you know the kind of mess that happens when i draw things myself

ok

ok everyone needs to stop what they're doing and go get a peach for Jean

Hockey!!! Nora you little minx don't be telling me this isn't subliminal advertising

and who the hell is Bishop? he had better not have a tattoo of a bishop on his face or there will be TROUBLE

10 years earlier Jeremy would be the centre of a HIV storyline

mmm if you're listing shining examples of straightness it doesn't help your credibility to start with Riko and Kevin

who was the other Raven who never turned to men? just some guy?

also why were the two female Ravens the only source of women? where did the strawberry blonde with the freckles come from? (picturing Riko writing this on the weekly supply request sheet along with 2B pencil lead and handcuffs)

what, is it supposed to be a shock that we officially find out the thing Zane did to Grayson

like it was EVER going to be anything else

Yes! go Derrick - I think you're the first trojan to actually get under Jean's skin

Die in shame for your abysmally short mother, you unlofty scum!

honestly our hero is such a tragic loss for the world of unhinged villains

MALFUNCTIONING CRETIN!!!! Jean I love you can we end the book right there, i'm done

hmmmm musings....

The rebellious defiance of sticking that rose in the window when Jere knows his friends won't approve it's really interesting. It reminds me of getting parking tickets just to piss off his senator stepdad. He likes running around pushing his luck. He liked pushing his luck with matching the Fox's numbers too. Does he like shocking people? Who are you Jeremy? What drives you? What are you serious about?

he's all feeling and sensation, sensation is everywhere

For that matter Jean, what do you want? if you had a free heart, where would it lead you? he only knows the severely practical.

Sense and sensibility?

Jeremy is actually a fair bit like Nicky. Sweet and affectionate and caring but weak in some ways and needing someone very strong.

of course he would take drugs. Of course he would distract himself with something sweet, rather than fight back. Does he need to learn how to fight back?

Jean must seem like Ivan Drago to Jeremy

I get the attraction.

We know Bryson is being underhanded about things but Jeremy isn't shy about underhandedness either, if he feels justified, even if he does stop short of blackmail. From Bryson's viewpoint Jeremy is as much the bad guy as Warren appears to Jeremy.

Assuming of course it IS drugs, and not some prostitution racket or diamond smuggling Jeremy's running on the side.

Maybe Jeremy's trafficking in genetically modified lizards. It would explain a lot, tbh.

I finish this chapter concerned that Jeremy is both a std and a biosecurity risk, and am inexplicably missing Riko.

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[doberbutts]

i hope this isnt weird to say but i really appreciate your dobeposting, especially about the history & current disposition of the breed. my mom has had dobermans my whole life and it led me to kinda... really dislike them for years, her last three and current youngster all were/are so nervy and quick to bite unprovoked (thankfully the young girl is coming around pretty nicely, no actual aggressive bites, just still learning to take things gently)

anyway, getting to the point, reading you explain about the breed's history, who dobermann actually was & how they were created & what they were originally bred for, and the way unfortunately the temperament has gotten messy due to that mixing of people wanting dobes to be family pet dogs and one-person protection dogs at the same time, or just try to make them into a pet dog they just aren't cut out to be (my mom is very much one of the former lol) really helped me understand and appreciate the breed. my dad has american akitas, and imho they have a similar issue of people trying to breed them for social, cheery pet temperaments which just tends to go very badly for a very large, high aggression, high prey drive, not suited for the average suburbanite breed like them, and realizing dobermans basically have a kind of more severe extent of the same issue (albeit I'm oversimplifying here) really helped me understand them.

i dont think I'd ever choose to have one, but I've definitely got a lot more respect and appreciation from afar.

so, sorry for rambling and probably being repetitive, hope i made some kind of sense, just wanted to say thank you for being a great breed advocate :)

here's a dobe tax, my mom's ~18 month old little girl, kira. she looks like that because, from what the rescue told my mom, she was from a backyard breeder and had to be removed from her first two homes due to mistreatment. still manages to be a real sweetie most of the time

Hey thanks for the compliment and the dog tax!

It really sucks because I think dobermans can be fantastic pet dogs... to people who want a doberman and all that entails. But a lot of people in the outcross groups I'm griping about want something more like a gun dog or a retriever in a doberman costume, and it's very frustrating to explain again and again that that simply is not what a doberman is.

I'd be all for a doberman outcross that actually respects what a doberman is for! The problem is that there have been very few of those, and most of them started with junk and ended up fairly lackluster in what they produced because you can't shine a turd and call it gold.

Dobermans don't have to be nervy, loose cannon, fear aggressive, bite risk demons. My doberman is not! My doberman before him was scared, but that was largely a socialization problem caused by living 2 years of her life exclusively in a box, and she wasn't dangerous, she just shut down and shivered. My doberman before her wasn't like this. And my doberman before him was, but again with the known abuse in his background from being a court case dog it's likely that he didn't start out that way and didn't need to become that.

It is possible to have a doberman that is actually a really fun dog to have and be around. You just. Have to understand that they are a doberman. My best friend @khayr has a doberman that's a pet, that does not do any sort of protection work. Her dog is very safe to be around! She's a lovely creature and I think well matched to my buddy's needs. But! She's also a doberman! That means she doesn't like the mailman or the UPS drivers! It means when missionaries knock on her door, her dog throws a fit! It means when she's out late at night and someone rapidly approaches her, her dog puts herself between her and the oncoming stranger! Because she's a doberman! She's supposed to do that!

[moreespressoformydepresso]

Been sitting on this AU for a while and a discord conversation brought it back to my attention (thanks @felixravinstills) so here I am, typing it out on my one free day instead of writing like I should be doing.

The Capitol speaks in Panem's version of "standard" English, while the districts all have dialects that are so different from standard that they may as well be different languages entirely. Now, the districts can understand one another's dialect due to similarities and influences left over from the rebellion days, as well as due to inter-district trading and stories passed down through generations. However, the Capitol views these dialects and the accents they cause when a district citizen speaks standard English as a sign of being "lesser" so they stay as far away from it as possible, so they don't understand a word of it.

Come the 10th games where the mentors are forced to interact with the tributes, this seemingly random factoid about Panem turns into the thing that stops the games for good and brings Gaul's life to ruination. At first, the mentors are very snooty and classist about the tributes' accents, but when they start to care about their tributes it becomes an endearing thing to them. Slightly infantilizing but it's better than dehumanizing so the tributes that notice decide to take it. Now, I could go the depressing route and tell you the mentors try to learn their respective tribute's dialect post-games because it's the only thing they have of their tribute that isn't stained by the games. The stories they shared are nothing but memories, any item they have is sent back to their families. Anything they may have made for them was created with stuff from the zoo where the tributes were forced to stay and humiliated daily in the leadup to their brutal death. But their dialects? That's something the mentors can learn, and it's the only concrete thing they can have of the child that died on their watch that's from before they were forced into these horrifying circumstances. However, I'm gonna make this a fix-it instead :)

Now, this whole situation happens because none of the mentors die during the bombing, which means the Capitol is far less up in a tizzy about rebel activity. It doesn't mean much, but it leaves them just the tiniest bit more open to hearing positive things about the districts. While in the zoo, the tributes talk to each other in dialect because they can understand one another and it feels more like being at home that way. They won't let the Capitol force them into speaking standard when they don't have to and nobody cares if those Capitol pricks can't understand what they're saying. It's a positive, if anything. Some mentors are visiting and when one (probably Arachne because I'm ignoring the stabbing bit) gets prickly about them not speaking "proper" English with a comment about it being "a sign of lesser beings," Brandy responds by snippily asking her which one of them can understand the other either way. "If only one of us can speak both, who's the stupid one again?" Arachne is affronted (though her ego gets out of the way the next day and she realizes Brandy has a point, causing her to try to start over with her tribute by being a little nicer) but the other people present stop immediately to think about that. Especially those who know a lot about language. That whole dialect thing means the tributes know more vocabulary, more grammar than the Capitol citizens. And they have to seperate them too so they're not mixing languages! Clearly they're not that stupid then, so even if they are still lesser beings... Maybe it's worth being a little more nuanced?

Of course it never stays at just a little, in fact it starts spiralling quite uncontrollably. If the district kids are smart enough to essentially speak two languages... What else are they smart enough for? And with the extra scrutiny on the tributes their individual personalities and interests, and even more so their interpersonal dynamics and relationships, become utterly unavoidable. Coral's care for Mizzen despite how game-faced she is in every other facet of the games, Reaper's concern for Dill despite appearing to be the most dangerous amongst the tributes, Bobbin's anger that only seems to be gone entirely when it comes to Wovey, Treech and Lamina's complicated road of trying to figure out where they stand with each other when they clearly both know they'll have to leave one another eventually and the way it so obviously eats at them both, Marcus and Sejanus and whatever it is that's going on between the two of them. As all of this starts gaining traction in the Capitol, it becomes harder and harder for Gaul to keep up her narrative of "undressing humanity" and the districts deserving this. Especially when her biggest supporter, the president himself, ends up paying a visit to the zoo at Felix's insistence and sees first-hand the way these kids interact with one another as well as the visitors in the zoo. Their obvious disdain for their situation and those who came to oggle at them while they're literally being treated like animals, but also their small soft spots for the kids who don't know any better. The way they can't quite bring themselves to be mean to small children, even when those children see them as dumb animals put there for their entertainment.

President Maximinius Ravinstill is not a kind man. Nor is he a gentle, merciful one. He's cold and he's vicious. President Maximinius Ravinstill is a cruel man. But at the end of the day, he's just that. A man. One who has a son himself, though he's not been the best father he could have been. And while at first he'd thought he'd stay for five minutes to satisfy Felix and go back to his life again unaffected... Maximinius stays for hours, noticed only by those from the Capitol. Entirely unnoticed by the kids, though they watch him with curiosity at first due to the reactions of everyone outside the cage upon his initial arrival. Most of them don't even know who he is, and not a single one of them cares. That's how little they've been allowed to know of the outside world, and that's how little they care for the Capitol. All any of them are to these kids is the cause of their misery, and President Ravinstill may be a cold dictator, but Maximinius is a father who can only see his young son, hurt and bleeding and starving, in the faces of these young children. Especially in young Mizzen, whose face lacks the youthful chub it should have due to lack of nutrition the same way his son's had all those years ago. In Otto and Treech, who are of similar age and share just enough features with Felix to be discomforting, despite the district characteristics that had let Maximinius and everybody else in the Capitol write them off as "other" for a decade now. Long before that too, if he's honest with himself.

And President Ravinstill shouldn't care, but Maximinius can't help himself. For so long he's allowed differing physical appearances and a lack of education he himself reinforced to let him believe these kids were somehow lesser, but now that he's seen the parallels and the similarities he can't unsee them. And Maximinius is just a man, with the emotions of one and a heart that beats no matter how cold he's allowed it to become over the years. Part of him wants to go back to delusion, to ignorance and cruelty, but his heart won't let him. It aches and screams for him to do something because he knows he can. If anyone can it's him, and he'll never go back to the way he used to be before this realization. Since he already knows what Gaul will tell him, he talks to Dean Highbottom, the creator of the games, in hopes of solving this dilemma. It becomes the final straw that pushes him to accept the truth: he'll never truly live again if he allows this to continue, so he doesn't. He puts a stop to Gaul's machinations and ends the games right them and there.

Naturally, the situation in the districts also improves due to this shift in perspective, though it's a far slower and less sudden change. The tributes are finally given medical care, which saves Otto, Ginnee, Panlo and Sheaf from death. They all have to stay in hospital or under close supervision for about a month due to the drastic impact staying in a zoo enclosure, with no protection from nature while not being properly fed, has had on their health. When they're let out of hospital but deemed too unstable to travel they get to stay with their mentors. Of course, once they're finally deemed healthy enough to go home they're positively ecstatic but sad enough about leaving their mentors that they find ways to stay in contact and offer to show them around their home district at some point in the future, which the mentors of course happily agree to.

[ashisill]

Take me to your temple

Josh x male oc

Warnings: (childhood trauma, mention of sexual abuse (not in details), religious trauma, mention of abuse, mention of abusive relationship, oral sex, anal sex, unprotected sex, crying, and I believe that’s all)

: Hi guys I am so excited to share my new series with you. I hope you enjoy this new character as much as I do. Soon after this is released I already have the next one ready for you guys. Keep an eye out!

~

"I think I'm ready Josh".

He's holding his hand in mine talking to me softly. He's ready but am I?

We've lounged on the couch all afternoon. My head rested in his lap as he ran his fingers through my curls. Flipping through TV channels until something catches our interest. When the movie ends I sit up with a yawn and notice his eyes. Something's weighing on him I can always tell. "What's wrong Christian?"

He sighs hard and looks off into the distance.

"I've been thinking about it a lot"

"About what love?"

"You" he locks eyes with me.

I understand what he means although a part of me doesn't want to. Christians been sexually abused ever since he was fifteen. Just from his name, you can understand the family he came from. Church every Sunday and Wednesday and early morning Sunday school. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with that life normally it would be a happy one. One full of peace and devoted faithfulness. Except when you throw an abused and confused teen in the mix it’s not so pretty. When his parents found out he was gay they sent him away to be ’clean’. Thankfully he was only there a week before he ran away and never went back home. He was able to live with a friend before getting back on his feet. He has worked his ass off to be where he is now. He’s got a damn good job and has climbed his way up to the top. He makes good money even though with my band he doesn’t really need to. However, he adores his job and is able to work online while on tour with me. He takes care of me and I take care of him.

I could never imagine the kind of abuse he went through in his younger years. It amazes me even more that he has overcome it so well. Some days are still hard on him and the dreams are even worse. Sometimes he wakes up in a panic and cold sweats. He’ll lay on his head on my chest and listen to my heartbeat. I’ll run my hands through his long hair and assure him he’s safe. He has no family anymore and confides in mine. My mother loves him to death and he gets along very well with my father. My brothers took him under their wing. Jake my twin is the reason I even found Christian in the first place.

I wound up crying in my brother’s arms one night. I told him everything about the situation I was in. Christian's not the only one who’s been mistreated. I found myself wound up with a dangerous man. I was scared and hurt. Physically and mentally. He used me for whatever he deemed necessary. He truly hurt me for the first time in my life in more ways than one. I had never known abuse before but this was nothing like I thought. I had convinced myself he loved me and if he hurt me it was my fault. I needed to be better, do more, and work harder, but in the end that’s complete bullshit. One night things got really bad but for some reason, Jake had shown up at my house. Jake said he had a bad feeling he couldn’t shake and just barged through the door. He helped me get away from that excuse of a man. At that point, I was living with Jake even though I did have my place. I was afraid. He understood and let me stay as long as I needed. It was then that he introduced me to Christian. It happened fast but we hit it off so well. When I found out Christian had been through something similar I was hesitant. How will we heal each other when we’re both broken? In a way, I pushed him away even though I knew I was falling in love with him. I never told him why but I think he knew somehow. He invited me over and we did nothing but talk of the past.

That night when things got personal I realized I was completely wrong. I told Christian what happened to me and he didn’t just listen he understood. That was the most relief I’ve felt since it happened. We told our stories until we cried together and a week later I moved in. Early sure but when you know you know.

There wasn’t a conversation where we stated to not have sex. We just both knew we weren’t ready or healed enough to attempt it. Now he’s bringing it up for the first time and I don’t know how to feel.

“Are you ready?”. He’s looking at me through his eyelashes. What do I do? He looks so beautiful but he’s asking to give himself to me. I don’t know what the truth is. Do I take his hand and lead him to the bedroom? Will I panic? I don’t have reason to panic yet it lingers in my mind. Christian is gentle with me and he’s kind. He holds me when I cry and softly rubs my cheekbone with his thumb. It’s never “Don’t cry” instead “Let it out baby I’m right here”. He whispers sweet words in my ear and his touch is always soft never rough. He cooks meals for me and makes sure I eat enough food every day. He drives me around because he knows traffic makes me anxious. He’s so sweet I forget how good I have it. Corny but he’s an angel. My angel. So why am I afraid? That’s when I realized it’s not fear I’m feeling.

"I'm nervous"

Nervous partly because it’s been so long since I've had sex. And mainly because what if I’m not everything he’s waited for? What happens when I get in there a just absolutely disappoint him? It terrifies me because what if I’m not enough? After all these years I’m sure he has some kind of vision in his head. As do I but I don’t want to fail him. All I want is to be perfect for this perfect man in front of me. What if I can’t be?

"You're not alone in that" he smiles at me and I think my heart melts. "Stay here"

He's gone In a flash leaving me alone to think. He knows me well enough to tell when I need a moment alone. I have no idea what he's run upstairs for but I can't focus on it. I start to ground myself. First thing, I know I'm safe with Christian but I can't shake these nerves. If something bad was to happen I know everything would stop. That’s what truly matters. Second thing I know he will take care of me no matter what ends up happening. I'm breathing deep and slow and before I know it my mind stops racing. When I open my eyes he's lingering in front of me.

"Sorry I didn't want to interrupt"

I smile up at him and I think he knows by my eyes. Because he grabs my hand leading me upstairs. We're walking slowly and his thumb rubs over the top of my hand. We reach the bedroom door and he turns to face me. His hands were gently placed on either side of my face. He kisses my forehead and then my lips.

"My sweet little love"

"Christian" I whispered.

"Remember the safe word we came up with?"

It was agreed upon over a conversation about how traffic lights work. Don’t ask me how. Our minds are something else. It’s red.

I nod at his words my eyes never leaving his.

"If you're not ready we can wait"

I give him an assured smile even though I'm still a little unsure. "I'm ready"

He slowly pushes the door open and tilts his head for me to walk inside. The lights are dim, candles are lit on our nightstand, and there's music playing softly. I rest on the end of the bed causing him to join me.

“This is very sweet Chris”

“I hope it makes you more comfortable”

I nod.

He’s rubbing his hands up and down my back. I take the lead and close the gap between our lips. His tongue brushes against mine causing my cheeks to redden. His hands start to wander my body. His mouth leaves mine to place kisses on my neck. I lean my head back and focus on the feeling of his lips on my skin. He starts to play with my waistband and my heart rate picks up. Taking a moment for me to settle in he just slides a finger underneath the band and moves side to side. He slowly slides my sweats down and I kick them off my ankles. Moving off the bed he positions himself between my legs. He’s kissing me through my boxers and around my thighs. My breath starts to hitch and he takes that as a sign to continue. His eyes meet mine as he slides my boxers down. Slowly he starts to stroke my cock gently. His stare burns into my soul as he tries to read me. Christian is more or less an open book or maybe I’ve just become accustomed to reading people easily. I know when he’s sad, mad, happy, or even if he’s hungry. I know it because his facial expressions change ever so slightly. If he's upset I can see it in the way his eyes rest, if he’s angry his brows will dip ever so slightly, and when he’s really happy his cheeks always glow a darling shade of pink. I however am not that easy. Although I try my best to communicate my needs sometimes they fall through. I know when his eyes squint that he’s focused on me. He’s flipping through every page trying to understand what flows through my mind. It’s little moments like this when I feel foolish for being so afraid. I give him a nod so he doesn’t have to figure me out. He picks up his pace and his tongue swirls around my tip. It causes me to jerk slightly at the feeling.

He takes me in his mouth still using his other hand. My brows furrowed as I looked down at him. I haven’t felt this feeling in so long it’s almost too much. As amazingly sexy as he looks I close my eyes throwing my head back. Changing his technique he holds my cock at the base and his other hand rubs my thighs. He’s taken me in completely and starts a sucking motion with his mouth. My eyes shoot open and I’m locked in on him. His eyes meet mine and his movements become sloppy. I’m biting my lip stifling the noises that are sure to leave me. I know I have a tendency to be loud and I don’t want to scare him. I’m getting close and I think he knows by the way my cock twitches against him. It isn’t long until I’ve finished against his tongue. He’s quick to shower me with praise.

His hand presses against my chest as he slowly pushes me back against the mattress. Our lips meet once more tongues intertwined. He’s stripped of his clothes and it’s not long before I am too. I’m shaking with nerves and I hope he doesn’t notice. He’s on top of me with a look of concern and lust shimmering in his eyes. “Talk to me. Are you okay?”

“I’m okay” I whispered back with a small smile.

He lays on his side and pulls me close. One hand holds my side to grip the other wonders below. Listening as he opens a bottle of tube I get lost in my thoughts. I’m thinking about everything and yet nothing at all. I can’t land on a thought but my mind is racing. I tell myself I’m okay although I already know that. He’s got me I’m safe and-.

"oh fuck"

"Am not hurting you am I?"

I shake my head and my once-racing thoughts are jumbled into nothingness. Carefully he slides in and back out again until he bottoms out. He's thrusting into me slowly but I'm already losing myself. His arms wrapped around me tight. Very tight. He finds his rhythm and I'm quick to bite down on my finger.

"Oh Josh," he says with a heavy breath.

He hears my muffled grunts and removes my bite-marked finger. "Don't do that"

"But-"

"No, give it to me. Be loud Josh. I want all of you and nothing less"

He's talking to me so sweetly I force tears away from my eyes. His hand wraps around my length and he starts to pump slowly. I’m doing better than I thought as I lose myself in him. It feels good almost too good.

“Chris” I don’t even know if I’ve spoken to words to an audible level. He doesn’t seem to hear it.

His pace picks up as does my breathing. His rhythm is relentless as he thrusts himself. The feeling of him is just about too much. My eyes start to water but I don’t necessarily want him to stop. I reach up gripping his arms that hold my chest tight.

“Baby” I whine.

He lessens his grip around me and comes to a slow. I think he panicked for a moment because I heard his breath hitch. “Josh are you-”

“I’m okay I think I just need a minute” I speak quietly.

“Is it a little overwhelming?”

I nod.

“It’s okay love bug just take a moment”

In a more gentle embrace, he holds me and slowly thrusts into me. Suddenly it felt better than it has since we started. When he pushes back he bottoms out completely. When I gasp at how deep he is I feel his lips curve into a smile on the back of my neck.

“You like it slow huh? Could have told me that”

“I- I didn’t know” I choke.

“Shh shh shh”

And with that, my body completely relaxes in his arms. I let myself lose control and allow my mind to go numb. I don’t stop the loud moan and the pornographic noises that leave my lips. It only fueled his fire as his own sounds filled the air. As if to create a harmonious song we sounded so beautiful together. If I could leave it on repeat I’d listen forever. I didn’t stop myself as I started to cry. Crying because oh god I love him and as I fight for consciousness that’s all I know.

“I love you!” I cry oh so loudly. “I love you so much. Please”

“Josh-“ he gasped “I love you too. You have no idea how much I-”

“Christian!”. Tears are streaming down my face now as I attempt to speak to him.

“I’m right here love” he whispered placing a kiss on my cheek. “Josh im gonna-“

He’s cut off by a moan that rips from my lungs so hard it almost hurts. My release paints the sheets below and he slows his pace around my length. He’s frantically bucking his hips and I feel his stomach quiver. Although he’s quieter than me he’s blessing my ears with whimpers.

I don’t know where I went or how long I was gone. But there’s no other way to put it than ‘gone’. When I came to we were tangled up in the sheets and his fingers were running through my curls. He had a book open and was whispering the words.

It’s a habit of ours to read to each other before bed. Although I think I missed a few chapters tonight. It was Christian who started it after saying how much he loved my voice. It started me just rambling to him but I’d always run out of things to say. He handed me a book of mine night and asked if I’d read it to him. Ever since then, we curl up together book in hand almost every night.

“Christian?”

“Hi love bug”

He smiles as I rise from his chest. “How are you feeling?”

“I-“ I pause finding the words but instead I melt down.

“Baby!”

He rushes to me and cradles my face in his hands. His lips curve down as I start to cry. “Josh talk to me. Please talk to me”.

“You make me feel so loved!” I cry.

“Oh, baby because I love you so damn much! I just love you, Josh. All of you. Shhh it’s okay baby boy”

His thumb wipes my cheeks “Christian” his name is all I know.

“My sweet boy”

“I love you”

“ I love you too”

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