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Are there any old fics out there that that deal with Bruce and Tony angst during or around Age of Ultron? Like they keep getting into fights and it feels like a knife in the heart?
If you know anything remotely similar please send it my way.
#brucetony#tonybruce#stanner#science boyfriends#bruce x tony#Brony#bruce banner#tony stark#AOU#age of ultron#mcu#mad scientists#I love when you talk science to me#science husbands#mark ruffalo#rdj
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“he was mentally ill. this monster was a- was a sick fantasy. a product of his dementia.”
“…i saw it too. does that make me disturbed? demented? does… that make me sick too?”
#txf#the x files#dana scully#fox mulder#folie a deux#this episode … this EPISODE!!!!!!#genuinely so indicative of how much they trust each other….#between mulder just . having to rely on scully for the last part of the ep#scully thinking he’s off his fucking rocker and still looking into what he asks her to look into bc she TRUSTS him . bc she LOVES him !!!!#and maybe he’s a little nuts but goddamnit she will at least check it out !! just in case he’s right!!!#AND she lies for him all the time . i mean she always does this whenever he decides to go nuts But specifically in this ep…#looks skinner in the eye and goes . yea man im totally fully with mulder on this . and he’s definitely not being weird and i definitely kno#what’s going on with him#she lies for mulder all the time its soooo…#anyways . drawing wise this drove me nuts i hate drawing mulder . he’s so hard for me to draw#they’re kinda kirie and shuichi coded in the bottom part but . well . why not . might as well be#ALSOOO i chose that quote for the bottom bc . well . does she think he’s crazy? like actually for real?#i feel like every time scully talks about mulder (up to season five at least as thats where im at) its contained in some way?#in her reports . to family . to skinner . to mulder !#i think the only time she’s Really honest is in the confessional but even then…#bc its not like she’s against speaking her mind . i mean generally and situational but for ppl she’s close to she usually isnt#but when it comes to mulder it always feels contained and like she’s making excuses for him (he is always her exception .#llike whenevrr he gets some disease or affliction or whatever she ALWAYS jumps to going ‘but well… sometimes there’s this excuse’ and she#does this w a lot considering shes science focused but w mulder shes always like . well he ISNT crazy because uhhhh .#this hyperspecific scenario that is in no fuckin way the case)#but does she think he’s crazy? does HE think she thinks he’s crazy?#is he asking about this specific case or is he asking in general? over the entirety of the show?#its been five years scully. is he crazy? sick? demented?#has this all been a sick fantasy fueled by mental illness? youre the doctor scully . surely you have the answer?#anyways i dont think she knows . and if that is the case — what does that mean for her?
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This will inevitably become DCxDP BUT ANYWAY
I love the idea of Danny having two sets of everything kinda, he has his human lungs, organs, etc but his ghost has their own versions. I love the idea of the core being the single most important organ a ghost has but I also love the thought that Danny can pull his ghostly heart out of his chest and because it’s ectoplasm it does what he wants so he makes it realistic and grotesque for ppl he’s trying to intimidate or he can pull out a cartoon shaped heart even make it pump through his chest and give himself heart eyes, him casually just pulling out his ghostly organs to study them for help in biology. They do have cores mind, it’s just they also have their other organs just because. Most living now dead beings have their organs because it’s an imprint from their life while the neveborn or the realm ghosts could have nothing but their core, or they could adopt a bunch of different things like a kryptonian’s lung capacity and a Martian’s shapeshifting gene
#does he disecct his own organs when studying bio? up to you!#I wouldn’t put it past him he is his parents son and they all love science#I imagine phantom is talking to the A listers and dash says something#and Danny just pulls his ghostly heart out but he made it look all grotesque and rotting and he’s like#I keep it with me for sentimental reasons#because he’s a bastard like that#danny phantom#dp x dc#dc x dp
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what is the most unfuckable profession in the world and why is it accountants
#don't come @ me i am studying to be one#i think this guy is trying to flirt with me but all ca students can talk about is studying and the stock market like bfrrrr#i guess it checks out im always falling in love with science people#or humanities i guess#thinking about that time a guy told me when i was just starting out that why are you doing this degree you're gay#which was so funny and offensive and hurtful that time lol but i totally get it
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a strange trend in my favorite characters I realize is that I tend to heavily gravitate toward somewhat obscure, antagonistic forces
#shoutout to the multiple months when I was young when I was obsessed with flatwoman#‘who the fuck is flatwoman’ heh. well. you ever watch the pbs kids show peg + cat?#she appeared in like two episodes and let’s just say. I would’ve died for her as a kid#and yup ok you guessed it this trend continued with my boy pumpkin daddy#what thehell is wrong with that guy and more important question why is he my absolute favorite character of all time#I’m not even talking strictly about PDBC here alright? in that I have full control over him#in ROOTS? oh boy unstoppable force of nature someone Actually euthanize him or something he’s going to commit heinous crimes if left alone#he’s So bizarre mind if I just talk about that before going back to sleep? his morals are all over the place#‘this poor abandoned child. her mother should be ashamed of doing this to her. anyway let’s kidnap her for money’#and then he fucking pretends that he didn’t remember that happening#not that it DIDNT happen but that he just doesn’t remember it??.okay go off king??#at this point I don’t even know if he was lying he might just have Alzheimer’s or something he’s gettin kinda old#also Alzheimer’s is the worst word ever I have to look it up to spell it every time ffs so annoying#also worth mentioning that he almost got himself killed in a pursuit of someone’s money#and then not even a YEAR later he was back at it again trying to scam the SAME people lol GIVE IT A REST#I didn’t type lol this is travesty istg I didn’t type lol there there’s a lol ghost on the loose#he needs to be put down or something#and why the hell is he actually one of the nicest parents like huh?..?man what??#yeah this is my little science experiment I made solely for money. i love her she’s beautiful she’s awesome#my brother in Christ pick a side are you horrible or not#ok also wait that reminds me. it was unintentionally implied that he wasn’t evil once#I won’t go into it for the sake of time but. raises eyebrow. what the hell do you mean#at least I think it was unintentional. it’s still weird to me and I never bothered asking#anyway I should probably go back to sleep I have n appointment in like. two hours. sigh#yayyyy I love characters who suck!!! 🥰🥰🥰 pop off you asshole king and or queen
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*raises hand* are we interns allowed to diddle the beastly? or does he have a mate?
[You find yourself face to face with an exhausted looking troll in a lab coat, clipboard in hand. It seems you’ve caught them doing checks over the habitation space. This is clearly not the head of the project.
They sigh, deep enough to carry all the air from their lungs.]
“…Please do not… diddle… the experiments.”
#asks#official answer: no absolutely not#my answer: yes but only if ur niceys to him 🥰#makes a new character to put in the lab solely to be tormented lol#they’re like. yeah we have people for experiments. no I cannot acknowledge this. they make my job so difficult. the things I do for a#promotion. deep sigh (and then the various test subjects talk to them the whole time they try to do anything within range of observation)#(I bet they’re so fucking tired when a wing gets cleared out for beastlys boyfriend. they’re like. this fucking thing is so radioactive. ho#are we supposed to keep shit clean in there. it’s not my problem at least but how the fuck do you expect this to work)#(don’t ask me how they contain the radiation it’s uhhh space science. but beastly is getting diddled stupid by a monster boyfriend in there#and while he’s out of tha lab if u befriend him (very easy he’s just a dogy man full of love) u can ride him. u get ur pick. or u can get#strange and unusual head if u want he’s so gentle I prommy#ic
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one of my essays from back when i studied philosophy is being put into a good answers guide at my university<3 not one of my good ones but
#its abt the philosophy of conspiracism in the modern day. suuuuuch a blast to write#my prof told me that he was like gasping at the twists and turns of the anti vaccine movement#i was like king have you been living in this world with us. this is just the news peace and love#so fun to like talk abt the moon landing and 911 and just stream of consciousness and someone think its good#bc if i had handed that in as a poltiics paper it would be like snooze you missed these things and its not valuable bc x y z#but this dude had never heard any of it before! loved that#he was like 'to get the full 100 i would have wanted some actual philosophy content in there' and yeah true#gonna talk to the prof tho bc theres a new philosophy of AI unit#and its been running a few years i took it in my last sem of undergrad#and it was so fallacious and like dick sucking of AI engineers#i kept being like true ai or not lets talk abt how this is impacting society NOW since its being CALLED ai#and i kept getting almost failing grades#then my final exam was graded by a different prof and lo and behold it pulled my grade waaaaaaay up#so clearly my writing is. good. and my grasp of AI and the concepts is. good.#that dude was just musk pilled or smth#anyway gonna tell the head of phils to keep an eye lmao#its a core unit for data science students and it has no intellectual credit to it AT ALL imo#its like what happens when ai starts producing more ai and we get deleted from existence and i was like what abt wages girl#im the problem tho
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"What we need is evidence. From now on, we stick to them like glue. On the bus, at school, after school. Everywhere they go, we're there. Either we'll find some evidence, or they get so fed up with us they have to start talking. Agreed?"
- Shannon Kelly, professional stalker
#wolfblood#shannon kelly#she's a stalker she's a liar she's a hypocrite she's got an ego problem and i love her#let's go investigate if my best friend is a werewolf in the most pathetic way possible! what do you mean i should just talk to her?#what do you mean secretly putting up a camera in my friend's home and watching her ''for science'' is morally questionable?#how dare you suggest my secret research of you that could literally get you killed is less important than your life? i'm doing this for you#there's something so deeply wrong with her. we love to see it <3#mein werk#who knew a show that came out when i was 16 and that i then forgot about for over a decade would finally make me learn how to make gifs#i'm going to be so annoying from now on
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Anyone else use to 'train' yourself in case you went blind later in life? (attempt to do things with your eyes closed)
#during science i learned that the sun could kill you and if you looked at it you could go blind#and so of course I looked at it. for less then a second and freaked out. hesrd the story of these guys that stared at it and went blind#after that i carried a weight on me that id go blind too. slowly#anyway love how randomly at midnight i talk about me as a kid. another story about when i was little and convinced i was dying in some way#but yeah my siblings did this too 'training for going blind' so im curious if its universal. or if we're all just wack#text#august rambles#life's story
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✿ + karin 😈
PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP. @shegore, accepting.
bold for things i could definitely see or want; italics for things i could see or am unsure of; striked-out for things i don’t want or cannot see.
FRIENDSHIP. childhood friends / work buddies or coworkers / family friends / friends with benefits / smoking buddies / adventure buddies / fake friends / recently friends / party buddies / friendship of need / dying friendship / circumstantial friendship / partners in crime / old friendship / [your muse] is the good influence / [your muse] is the bad influence / [my muse] is the good influence / [my muse] is the bad influence / opposites attract / ride or die / frenemies / roommates or flatmates / penpals / exes to friends / enemies to friends / other
ROMANCE. childhood sweethearts / [your muse is mines] childhood crush / [my muse is yours] childhood crush / exes / exes to lovers / forbidden lovers / highschool sweethearts / secret relationship / opposites attract / long distance / unrequited [from your muses side] / unrequited [from my muses side] / unrequited [from both sides] / skinny love / friends to lovers / enemies to lovers / spurious relationship / power couple / newly entered / soulmates [metaphorical] / soulmates [literal] / awkward / turning toxic / toxic love / cheating [on your muse] / cheating [with your muse] / other
FAMILIAL. siblings [half] / siblings [step] / [my muse] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure / [my muse] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse / [my muse] is a parental figure to yours / [my muse] is a child figure to your muse / guardian figure / legal guardian / adoptive child / foster child / [your muse] is taken under mines wing / [my muse] is taken under yours wing / other
ANTAGONISTIC. dangerous to each other / dangerous to others / unpredictable / rivals / petty / developing into sexual or romantic tension / based off family matters / based of off circumstance / based of professional matters / based off misunderstanding or lies / conflict of ideology / betrayal / hero - villain dynamic / enemies / fight club / friends turned enemies / lovers turned enemies / exes turned enemies / other
#shegore#i was looking for stuff 2 reply to and i saw this in my inbox... Can you log in and write me a starter now please#ive worked so hard... </3#i turned on sakuras playlist and thought so heavily about this#ok i wrote these tags before i actually did the meme but i alr know im gonna put a lot of thought into it so im preempting myself#bcs i like writing some tags before i finish the post#Ok im back. let me give u my thoughts now#so some of these r just like . It objectively makes sense to me if i think about it for 2 seconds#n im not gonna mention those .instead i wanna talk about the ones i think make sense for OUR portrayals ...#so we've already talked about the type of dynamic sakukarin have#Sakuras a good influence on karin just on the basis that she'd make herself a permanent figure in her life#oh karins not leaving her apt shes focused on her work? Sorry sakuras knocking on her door until shes being let in#shes taking plates out and theyre gonna eat this food while its hot . nd no sakura wont talk about how she does the same shit karin does#it was just her birthday a month ago shes allowed to be annoying#fwbs i think 4 them would just be fun. sakuras like i have a free time slot between 3 and 5 can you take your clothes off 4 science#i italicized the unrequited from sakuras part NOT because i want it to happen. but bcs i think it could#sakuras the type to catch feelings and then get her feelings hurt. thats just sth she does becos shes generally not super nice to herself#this wouldnt even have to have anyth to do w karin mind you. sakura would get a crush nd then break her own heart#before karin even noticed sakura liked her. LMFAO#4 antagonistic i crossed out rivals because i just dont see it for them. 2 me its moreso that they complement eachother#y should 2 bad bitches be in competition etc etc etc#god im so good at filling these out when i dont have to be shy about suggesting sth . IDUWHILDWHIUDHWLIUGH#i cant remember how i tagged these....#OOC.#but also i love how you specified karin like this isn't a solo blog
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Your empathy is such a stark contrast to twitter lol, all people that I seen do over there is make jokes about this situation and his reactions. Idk I never found any of his circumstances in PA especially remotely humourous, because half of them are blatant violation of constitutional rights and police brutality, the other other half is legal way of instilling fear in people.
i didn't and still haven't found anything of his behaviour in PA to be funny, at all. like i could point out exactly what, where, how he'd reacted and why and all of those answers are perfectly reasonable and understandable responses from anybody in that situation. i still haven't found anything about his situation to be funny, except for the only times he jokes in his letters and since he's coping with humour there, and he's just funny too, i also find it funny. otherwise nah.
#i should maybe do a breakdown of what i've seen of him in PA and tell my reactions but then it'd be like the aunties on reddit so no#i felt so sad seeing him being a sad wet cat loser of a man in the motel footage and everybody was like it's so over when it came out#and the hashbrown joke that made half of reddit lose their minds he was just trying to eat it's not that deep#then people calling him yapper he literally didn't shake his head no after getting mirandaized for them to say he talks a lot#his apology about the snitch was unwarranted but he's a good natured person so of course#and saying clearly i shouldn't have or something yeah sassy king xD i love him xD it's such a non answer that it's an awesome answer#trying to talk to media and getting pushed around and yelling and getting bruised he was annoyed and angry for not having legal counsel#and it is a completely valid reaction i would react similarly too you can not drag me to court without a lawyer i know that is my right#then when he was running his tongue in his cheeks he was too annoyed at the media and their useless fangirling which is fair tbh#also i also do that when i'm too annoyed and i understand#i don't think there's anything more so yeah that's it#i won't be analysing everything he does like certain people looking to armchair diagnose him out of nowhere#but everything that he'd said/done was completely reasonable and understandable#one shouldn't need to understand rocket science to understand that#asks
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Character Spotlight: The Chemist (Ayreon's The Source)
Ask and ye shall receive.
In the grand scheme of countless intertwining Ayreon headcanons infesting my brain, I like to have a nice, compact theme to refer back to for each album. Arjen is borderline intentional about not putting themes in his work, but they creep in anyway and you can dig them up and work off of them with a little elbow grease.
For me, The Source is about loss of purpose, which is sort of an overarching theme of the Forever saga anyway, but it shows up on a more intimate level in this album. Especially when you pull traits for characters out of thin air when you're 14 and eventually find a red thread through the lot of them you didn't actually plan for.
I did a really general overview of most of my versions of the Source cast and their whole deal while they're on Alpha. Just a whole mess of science, religion and state all crammed into one, eventually leading to the 'Frame taking over. In some way or another, these people all know each other and support a cause of some sort. When they're forced to leave their home planet, they have to grapple with the fact that their lives there were altogether pointless and figure out how to embrace the sense of rebirth that's a part of the Forever package.
Almost all of their arcs follow the same overall timeline: they had some *thing* they had worked towards for the better part of their lives, it's all ripped away in an instant with Alpha's destruction, and during their time on Starblade, they work their way back up to a new sense of collective self-worth.
There are, however, a few notable outliers. The Captain, The Chemist and TH-1 still have that theme thing going for them at the end, but how they get there is a little different.
So. Chemist. Like I said, pretty much everyone in the cast has an idea of who everyone else is. Not this guy.
Thomas Giles Rogers is an organic chemist with zero personal affiliation with any other character pre-album story. He graduated from the same enormous central university most of them did, but had no interest in tying his research, much less his entire career, to the fate of the planet itself. Not that he was ever offered or cares about politics at all, but still.
His motivations lie on more personal grounds. Giles is prone to stress, nervous breakdowns in academic settings, all that fun stuff. He always has been. His doctoral dissertation and the ten years of his career following it were dedicated to the synthesization of safe alternatives to sensory deprivation drugs. Either supplemental to the process or replacing it entirely. His "big" project for most of that time was an injection meant to temporarily alter the human respiratory system, allowing someone to breathe underwater for therapeutic processes.
The endeavor was a total failure, for all the resources put into it. Giles is forced to abandon the project after years of constantly being denied grants to pursue its production. People not prioritizing what he wants to use it for, his ineffective presentation, him refusing to let people hire him for research to weaponize it, whatever. All that work was for nothing and it takes genuine a toll on him.
It's really just a career slump, but his self-worth is so firmly attached to his perceived academic success that he can't cope. Four years before TDTTWBD, he drops all his research, picks up some entry-level lab tech job and just goes through the motions. No grandiose motivation to save the world like the rest of these yahoos, just surviving.
But anyhow. Russell does his thing, the 'Frame takes over, and one way or another everyone except Giles is crowded in Nils' basement accepting their fate and hopelessly looking for livable planets with no power or digital resources.
Gross oversimplification of Chronicle I, by the way. Russell drags a broken android into the place, Floor shoots Simone's ear off, etc.
The only remotely plausible option is Y, pretty grim given that the surface is uninhabitable and colonization could only occur if everyone somehow grew gills. As Hansi laments when a switch goes off in his brain and he remembers some science expo he went to a few years back, where some guy was presenting prototypes for...pretty much exactly that.
By pure coincidence, Giles is one of Simone's clients, signed onto her private practice she started after quitting her job as the previous president's counselor. She knows where he lives and works, and she and Tommy manage to track him down amidst the literal apocalypse outside (on account of Tommy having no scientific background and pretty much no other use to the group than scavenging for essentials on the surface in this part. Bonus points that he knows how to use a gun and supposedly doesn't care about his own death).
Giles, like a lot of people has basically been hunkered down in his apartment since the 'Frame took power (about three weeks) and is all paranoid and starving when they find him but they find him, take him back and convince him to pick his work back up all the same.
So he's part of the group now, and alternative to everyone else on Starblade who has no point to their lives now, Giles has FAR too much of a point. Using years old notes and limited resources, he has to create the greatest scientific advancement in the history of mankind in the maybe....six months that people onboard are able to live outside of suspended animation. The total extinction of the human race to follow if he fails.
This...does not mix well with
1. his whole self-induced, major-accomplishment based pressure thing since it's a wildly amplified version of it
2. The fact that he killed a woman during Run! Apocalypse! Run! (defending another character but still) and his control to give life and take it away over so many people, existing and prospective, constantly rotating in his brain
3. The more upbeat, hopeful characters unwittingly holding their expectations for their brave new world over him and what Liquid Eternity needs to be to satisfy them
4. Pretty much everyone else involved in the political side of things deliberately ceased contact with friends or family outside the party's inner circle, to prevent distractions or the possibility of blackmail, while they were still on Alpha. That devaluing of personal relationships is what they're conditioned to and this is more the focal point of Tommy, Floor and Tobias' sort of...joint character development situation, but it has an effect on Giles. This much more openly sensitive, emotional guy is surrounded by these jaded assholes who have no sense of the pressure he's feeling in more ways than one. This effect also applies to James (Historian) in a way, and the two actually kind of have a rapport going about it at the end of Chronicle II (syncing up with their little Condemned To Live duet), but the only person who seems to fully get what's happening to Giles is Simone, someone who deliberately separated herself from said jaded political asshole clique and who has prior knowledge of his experiences on account of literally being his therapist.
All in all just. Not having a good time, insisting that he has to do this alone and eventually external assistance from one or more characters being the only thing that solves it.
The other part of this compact theme thing is that our purpose, our humanity, is defined by our relationships and reliance on other people. We need something to strive for in order to feel like a person, and ultimately that 'something' comes down to either the preservation of the self, the other, or of the collective.
Once you resolve that, there is one other thing that defines the human experience and that is death.
Death and a point, a person, to avoid it in the name of. And Liquid Eternity took both of those things away. From there arises stagnation and a lack of purpose with no means of escape, the hallmark of the Forever Race.
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(gosh, I wonder if that ties into members of the party forcing away loved ones in the name of their progress even though it was pointless in the end. Or TH-1's self-preservation being their downfall after all the talk of cooperation and acceptance of emotional openness. Who's to say.)
#ayreon#the source#I came up with most of this when I was taking chemistry in high school and it was one of the most miserable experiences of my life#and then the night after my exam I solved this massive plot hole involving him after like a year of letting it sit it was actually hilariou#anyways captain is more like#the contradiction of his lifelong dream being fulfilled only in the absence that of the people he loves#and TH-1 is like the actual obvious canon one#so fun#What else do yall wanna hear I'm curious and whatever you say I probably have something for it#I could talk so much about Transitus and the varied ways we deal with grief and how all the characters represent a different route of it#arjen lucassen#science fiction#sci fi#fanfiction#progressive waves art#prog rock#prog metal#power metal#folk metal#thomas giles rogers#between the buried and me#writing
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I ran into My Favorite PhD Student at work the other day and she said she misses me and we should have lunch sometimes and. Um. I didn't know she was fond of me too? I mean, to the extent that she'd want to go out of her way to spend time with me? That's sweet. I hope we see each other more now.
#i'm gradauting soon and i'm gonna leave her and it makes me sad!!!!#she's so sweet and gives amazing hugs and makes me laugh#and dyes her hair many colors and is the most blatantly pro-work-life-balance person i've ever met#she's a wonderful human#hey why do i always sound this mushy when i talk about my friends. if we're friends please know i probably have a rant like this about you.#i don't know how to say them to people's faces but i do#my brain is just a mushy place i guess. i love my friends and i will rant about it.#hylian rambles#hylian does science
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Honestly to expand on my last RB a little . . .
Like, remember all those stories about UFOs and, well, not really UFOs since they were on the ground but, those stories about things some suspect to be of alien origin and while unknown what's known is that you're going to die in 5 minutes. (Radiation poisoning)
If you truly went on to believe those were made by aliens it'd be like... So sad. Like imagine you crashed a fucking shit crash you're in a new place confused lost maybe you've been looking at it for a while but now you're stranded and now everyone who so little dares to come across you will literally die an horrible death. Like man. It'd fucking suck.
#luly talks#i hav such a thing for drama as y'all Might Fucking Know By My Ocs Now and I'm FIGHTING to like#not turn my one alien oc story into the most tragic tale ever#BC IT WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE A COMEDY but the far left beat the laughter out of me...#can't even find that meme online god. so cruel. anyway uh#YEAH. LIKE GOD. like for the most part I've never seen an outright evil alien either#most are just a bit weird and even abductions are like. morally ambiguous.#like you know that if some government americans kidnapped some ebber and fucked it up the world would clap along to science n shit#though the idea of a group of aliens starting a protest to stop human experimentation would be so fucking funny#idk where all this passion for aliens came from i just fucking love when there's a freak
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ok sorry if this sounds fucking insane. i need to write something out.
#vent. sort of.#okay. why do i have absolutely no clue what i want or like. like in life. career/job/college/life etc wise. no interests beyond casual.#and amateur level interests. which is fine but i don’t think i want them to go higher and therefore aren’t careers you know. i like them#for fun. but like all my friends have interests and things they’re studying or doing that i hear it and i’m like oh my god yeah that’s them#that’s perfect. that’s so them. of course. makes perfect sense. and they have the history of hobbies and interest in the topic to back that#choice up. but me? man i have fucking nothing. i feel like i have been in survival mode forever and i literally have not had the opportunit#or ability to develop myself and my interests or even my fucking STYLE or ANYTHING!!! it seems worthless FOR ME. WHY????????#that’s the survival mode talking. but like what am i supposed to do now. i feel like a fucking shell of a person. like the only thing that#passes through this brain is whatever my current hyperfixation is and whatever new hell/trauma/issue i’m dealing with in my life. that’s it#man i remember being a kid and having vibrancy and passion and interests. and it just left. maybe it left when my brother was born when i#was 10. maybe it left during any one of the traumautic experiences or abuse during my teenage years.#but then i wonder what my friends see. like do i have interests and likes in their eyes? i mean space has been My Thing to my friends for#years now but even my interest and love for that was a coping mechanism (escapism) and i’m not interested in the science beyond what i can#use to cope and mentally escape or use in my head as hope for escape.#MAN i feel like i’m so fucked. like i don’t know what the fuck to do. i don’t want to do anything. maybe i’m depressed?#i mean i know i do and have dealt with depression but i mean maybe that’s what this is from.#maybe i’m autistic? maybe adhd and maybe that’s why i have whims and phases that never stick? i don’t know.#maybe it’s from the dysphoria? maybe it’s like bc i can’t picture a future for myself bc of that? probably not cuz i have trans friends who#do indeed have solid interests and senses of self.#so. i don’t fucking know.#i don’t fucking know. i don’t know what to do. i feel like i’m falling behind and like i’ll never get out and i’ll never get my head into#my own real life and the present in order to figure out who i am and what i like and want. i’ve got NOTHING. HEAD. EMPTY. WHAT THE FUCK.#what the fuck. what do people do when they run up against this problem. i don’t know.#maybe this rn is just because i’m on my period. i don’t know. fuck.#maybe it’s dissociation. or like FROM my lifelong dissociation issues. hmm.#okay but THEN i’m like okay this is a really privileged problem to have like. i have a choice in what i want to do. which is nice. and i am#not even being rushed by my family. so like. then i feel even worse for feeling this way. fuck. maybe it’s fine maybe it’s all fine.#maybe this just happens sometimes and a person has no interests and it’s fine. i don’t fucking know. doesn’t seem to be that way for most#people but maybe. who knows#vent
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I love how this post forgets entirely that a lot of ppl are against GMO because they are deeply related to modifying food in order to resist certain pesticides that then end up in our food. It’s not because “contains genes”, it’s because contains non-biodegradable substances that pollute our lands and, by now, our clouds and rain. It’s about the chemicals that have tons and tons of studies showing they increase the development of allergies in the population, cause unusual hormone alterations, and even affect fetus in pregnant ppl. In the towns around the fields where they are spread, you have 3 times more cancer cases than the national mean, specially in kids. So, no, it’s not “mere genes”. It’s a lot more and deeper, related to sustainability and public health, which is also science that corporations ignore completely. What I found so curious is that most ppl from first world countries does not know that the majority of the GMO is not related to “make crops flood resistant”, but resistant to pesticides. Monsanto loves spreading that concept that GMO is just used to make “food have more vit A”. And ppl just repeat. Countries where we truly endure the use of GMO in our lands, we know exactly that GMO means.
GMO has existed forever, natives such as the incas practised it, it’s not “new”, it’s not “modern science”. Mexicas developed a hundred corn types over centuries with this technique. Again, it’s not new. Now we can accelerate the genetic modifications and be more accurate with the modern techniques, but it’s mostly to make them resistant to pesticides. Why do you think Monsanto was bought by Bayer years ago? The same corporation that sells you pesticides, that are, most of the time, non-controlled in their manipulations, is the same one that sells you food and then medicines because the illnesses related to the constant ingest of these [non-regulated] pesticides. And this is one of the many negatives effects. Another one that happens with GMO [even though nobody in this fucking place wants to acknowledge it] is the mono-cultive practices [non-rotation of the crops] that destroy the health of the soil, and if you don’t have a soil with rich minerals, the plants you put to grow there won’t develop properly or will be poor in minerals and vits. So, we have poorer food and erosion. Because, yes... GMO used in this way causes it. A big problem that, again, nobody speaking about GMO seems to know. We are not speaking about the erosion of the soils and how these practices are destroying entire countries’ biodiversity.
Another great danger that specialists have been repeating over and over is that GMO usually forces similar modifications in different crops so different plants can resist the same pesticides that are sold in a big “bio-package”. This causes that weed and some plagues became resistant or stronger to this pesticide, so every few years we need higher doses or stronger pesticides that end up in our food and in our body [because so far, a lot of them are not biodegradable]. All the problems listed above become more concentrated.
The other important danger is that it may happen a plague or a fungus that may be particularly prone to develop, associated with a similar modification that was used on different crops. This can endanger a lot of different crops with one single plague, causing potential destruction of big quantities of different kinds of food [this is also a very old concern known by natives since centuries ago, reason why they always tried to use rudimentary GMO techniques to favour a diversification of the crops, not the other way around like corporations do now]. So far we know, scientists have talked about this a lot, but one thing is a scientist talking about this issue, and another is a food-monopolised-corporation doing it, especially when corporations see more profit by just reducing the diversification in our food [less different bio-packages to develop].
And we can continue with the silly argument that “corporations are different to the GMO technique”, and even though that’s true “technically”, the reality shows otherwise. We live in a world where GMO has been monopolised. Hell, food industry is already monopolised, so don’t be so naive to think that we still can keep things separated.
“Mere genes”. I would love so much this place to learn the topic properly before dismissing entire populations in this way. GMO, as it’s now, controlled and monopolised by corporations, is a big no-no. And dismissing the entire population whose children have 3 times more cancer cases than the national mean [northern provinces of Argentina, for example] because these pesticides, annoys me a lot. Never ever I've seen an integral post of GMO in this place. The topic is a looot more complex than the religious adoration of science or feeling superior because “I know science” or “I _believe_ in science”. Not all science is good, not all science is well tested before being used, corporation science is always a big question mark in many, many contexts, and science is always founded and moved by interests [unfortunately, more and more corporate interests by now]. Science is good, but don’t turn it into the new religion. It has limits and flaws, and it’s dirty to the neck with interests that few want to acknowledge.

Funny how that works
#and before anyone shits on me#im a fucking STEM worker#so *science * is something i know from within in many aspects#go check how GMO is manipulated in the fucking entire south america and then come to talk to me#tumblr should restrain talking about GMO and nutrition#both topics are so terrible done and so biased that it shows how brainwashed gringos are#even those who try their best not to#and another topic is the romantisation of the science to the point to becoming an alternative religion in modern times#that's another fucking long topic#like... ppl have no idea how easily you can publish shit if you pay#and the faith all these ppl put in whatever shit is published#without knowing what magazine is how they work with papers and if the lab is not related to the corporation#so many subtle details are overlooked... and yet here everything is *it's a paper must be truth and THE truth *#lol....#I have such a frustration when tumblr speaks about science...#science was made to be never *believed* but tested and continously forced to prove its veracity#and because we live in despair times... science has became a new religion from which all what comes from it#every bit of it#should be embraced and believed#and dont get me wrong... i love science and i feel it's the best tool humans have to understand the world and survive it#but the extreme romantization i see here.... it's another big nono#it's almost a cult#and if science has sometimes in its essence is to not becoming a cult#science is not free of the -sometimes- most perverse interests#and monsanto is almost the embodiment of that#with years of *paid* research claiming that glifosato was biodegradable and inocous to ppl#see where that shit went to...#my university has two big branches on this topic#engineers who develop GMO which are the strongest inside the university with their mindset#and engineers focused on agro-ecology and native techniques
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