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Artair brings Crow a small gift. It isn't for any particular reason, but the crow has given him several things, including the brooch now pinned to his bag. He has the pearl as well, tucked safely at home amongst his collection of stones and other natural trinkets. Which is what gave him the idea.
So he approaches the Crow with a small box, one made of paper and folded into shape with origami, hardly the size of his palm. The material is a plain, and he's chosen this paper because it is made of natural materials and will degrade and provide for the woods even if discarded. He's too excited, and his good arm is already held out, already, so that the Crow can take it and undo the ribbon tied around it, made with jute braided with a little geometric diamond pattern.
Once it is undone and the lid is lifted, inside is a spiral shell that seems to be made of stone. On one side, it is solid with a white and brown and coppery leaf-like pattern on the smooth surface. The other is hollowed in small chambers, smaller and smaller further down the spiral, each one glinting with opalized colors.
"It's...not special. Or magic." Artair shrugs. But.... it's an ammonite. A fossil? Which is like.... a creature that lived a long time ago and it's pretty and shiny, so I thought you might like it. It's cut in half so you can see the septa-- those chambers on this side-- pretty clear. Those patterns on the other side are called sutures. It looks like leaves because of the type of ammonite. They're related to octopi and squids as creatures-- if you know about those I guess hahah....."
Artair rubs at his neck. "A-anyways. It's not magic or anything. But...it's from my collection? I collect rocks and stones and stuff like this. And I thought you might like it too. And..... I thought it'd be nice, to give you something. Something from my collection. So it's like.... a part of something special to me is with you? I hope you like it, but it's really okay if you don't."
The Crow is rather surprised to be receiving another gift. He's done nothing to deserve it, and he could never begin to repay the kindness of the previous gift... so then why? Why is Artair giving him anything at all? He has already done so much for the Crow...
The Crow hesitantly reaches out and takes the small package in his hands. He rolls it over a few times, glancing over at Artair for confirmation that he is allowed to open it, before carefully pulling onto the ribbon to open it up. Artair is wrong, it is special. It is to the Crow, anyway. He produces a soft clicking noise in appreciation as he holds the object, his gaze focused solely on the shiny spiral as Artair explains. It's a fossil, an ammonite. A creature that lived long ago and that has now become...well, this. It's pretty and quite interesting, and the Crow is positively thrilled to have received something like this.
"Squids...and Octopi." He repeats softly, still staring at the ammonite. "They have tentacles, yes? Live in the...sea? A big lake...but salty?" He finally manages to move his eyes back to Artair, and he seems to look his way to make sure that what he's saying is accurate. He isn't really sure how he knows these things, he's never been anywhere near the sea, but the information freely flows into his mind. "There was a group of people that traveled through the forest once. They had fish with them. And squid. They gave me some. It was odd. Difficult to eat. Hard to chew."
He tilts his head as he looks at Artair, furrowing his brows a little. "Why would I not like it? It means something to you and you gave it to me." He considers that reason enough to like it. "I do not just like it, I love it. Very much." He wraps his arms around Artair. Then, in a barely audible whisper:
"And you too."
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So.... what are your thoughts on Ace's UM, if you haven't been asked this already?
sneaky magic for the sneakiest boy
no but really, I think it fits him really well! I had thought his UM would probably involve something kinda sleight-of-handy or pickpockety! and I looooved that it made such a nice loop-around back to episode 1. ā¤ļø I was. kind of half-expecting him to just run out and punch Riddle in the nose again. but instead this time 'twas he who offed the queen's head! it was great! and he did it while stone-cold terrified out of his mind! because Ace is the only remotely normal or well-adjusted person at NRC and therefore the only one who is like "we're going to literally die, this is super effed up". but he did it anyway!!!! I AM SO PROUD
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#also love how it complements deuce's magic! they are two of a kind ā¤ļøā ļø#i do think bet the limit fits the 'uno reverse card' description more though#like...okay they haven't really said much on how joker snatch works#(literally ace went 'we'll talk about it later')#but i think it's not supposed to be inherently retaliatory if that makes sense#the japanese is something like 'put an ace up my sleeve'#which implies to me that it's not really an in-the-moment thing? i think he can steal it and hold on to it for a while probably#like he might be able to snatch it and then use it on someone else later rather than it being reflected back on the original caster#versus deuce's being that he punches you back with your own punch (and/or other various punches he's acquired)#(a connoisseur of fine punches)#i am 100% guessing though so who knows! we will find out later i presume#now the only one left to get their um is grim maybe š#(i mean i would also love to see some staff ums HEY TWST THAT WOULD BE COOL)#(but like. narratively speaking and all)#oh and maybe crowley's depending on how plot-important he actually ends up being#what if it turns out nothing's going on with crowley and he's actually completely irrelevant#he tears his mask off and he's just some random dude who has zero idea of what's happening#nobody's been orchestrating shit#everyone's just been getting radioactive poisoning from the stone adeuce replaced in the chandelier back in the prologue#this was all a cautionary tale about getting the blot levels in your school's hvac system regularly checked
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Timelock š°ļø
A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on december 1st!
#doctor who#dr who#DW#tenth doctor#david tennant#10th doctor#gallifrey#my art#I'm drawing at inhuman speed to meet deadlines I can't even tell what looks okay anymore#I have two more things to turn in tonight then I have to render videos then take a shower and be up super early tomorrow aaa š« #also hey Ten drawing at hour ten#I loved this part in The day of the doctor special SO MUCH this whole concept I love I love#reminded me of the FFXIV calamity forming Dalamud ahhhh
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Lan Wangji goes to Lotus Pier (No relation to the AU of the same name)
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#poorly drawn mdzs#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#wei wuxian#Another split type comic because I decided to be ambitious.#This flashback is currently beating my ass. There are so many timeskips within the flashback! My flow and pacing are wheezing!#I loved how this scene starts with the crowd's point of view. The observations and gossip add a lot.#And it helps reposition us to what the external perspective is on these two. Namely that 'they don't get along.'#Tensions are known! Even here in Nouveau Lotus Pier.#Ah...Lan Wangji never got a chance to see the Lotus Pier of Wei Wuxian's childhood and adolescence...did he?#It's not the same. He's not the same. Call them by the same name and people will know what you mean...#...but the first version - the one with the fond memories - is gone for good.#It's sort of interesting isn't it? How names can hold so much power and still be hollow?#We often get stuck over past versions of things. Be it ourselves or other people or places.#Change is scary but the truth is nothing ever stays the same. It's always moving. You're always moving.#It's okay to mourn the past. Maybe it's people you lost or the person you hoped to be. Let yourself feel the grief.#And then? Then you grow around that pain and keep on going. If you feel like you can't - remember you don't have to do it alone.#A side note: Listening to the tossing flowers extra is so essential for this scene. It's cute and gives us more of [redacted]#What's [redacted]? You'll see in the next comic!
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it's not even a curse word
#uncanny xmen#storm#wolverine#kitty pryde#ororo munroe#james logan howlett#shih's art#the funniest thing claremont did for like the entirety of kitty's first year with the xmen is ruin the danger room#and drag that mansion's renovations out to the MAX#claremont: okay FINE lilandra gave xavier construction bots to speedrun a complete rebuild of the mansion š
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#anyways these two may not identify as co-parents but they were for sure trading off on who talked to who while scott went away#xavier wasn't doing shit! these teenage hormones were being tolerated by team leader (storm) and second in command (wolvie)!#kurt said 'i love you all but i did so much trying to reach out to scott so āļø'
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two of them in there!
#dipplin#pokemon#pokemon sv#pkmn#pokemon scarlet and violet#aaa i love them so much#the idea of two widdle wyrms in love and living together#okay its adorable how they are called the core wyrm and fore wyrm#i need to see what they both look like outside of the apple like applin in pokemon snap
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I just finished my rewatch so forgive me if I donāt make sense, but something I hold onto every time I watch this show is how winry is so integral to the elric brothers
like. god. the scene where she learns scar killed her parents and sheās holding the gun, about to pull the trigger? and ed stops her and tells her that her hands arenāt meant to kill? that her hands brought life in the form of helping a mother give birth? and that she made his automail? the scene where ed admits sheās the reason heās still standing?????
the first conflict we see in fma:b is the liore conflict which ends with rose on her knees, begging ed to tell her what she needs to do with all of this grief and turmoil sheās faced with, and ed responding that she gets up. she has two perfectly good legs to walk with, so stand up and walk. adding onto this, winry and pinako immediately began working on edās automail once he found a purpose from roy, and then much later in the series, pinako says she no longer feels comfortable working on edās automail because itās all winry.
al was edās purpose, but winry gave ed the legs to stand on. winry is the reason ed can still keep walking to bring alās body back. winry is somebody he can depend on, somebody he can come home to, somebody that is home because sheās been there for him every time heās needed her. no matter how you like to interpret their relationship, winry is so integral to the brothersā ability to keep moving through their grief. she is their home. their legs. their reason to live.
#I also wanted to mention how winry slowly takes priority in edās head once heās confident al will be okay#how she becomes the person he thinks of on the brink of death#and how she was the last voice he thought of when he gave up his alchemy#there is something there but Iāve cried enough today and thinking about these two will make me shatter like glass#tldr I love winry rockbell so goddamn much#zenscrambles#fullmetal alchemist#edwin#winry rockbell#edward elric
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Recognition
#I worked on this for too long and now I can't really be satisfied with it but I can accept the fact that it is 3am and I should sleep#Okay time to ramble about monsterhaul. So obviously its something of an atypical form which means it isn't included in fan content too much#but when it is usually Nemoto's (for lack of a more eloquent term) fusion gets the spotlight which is fair and cool I love it too#However there is definitely something to be explored in the fact that Rikiya represents the violation of abstinence from err. contact#Which makes him interesting to be mushed together with the very literally and symbolically touch-averse character that is Chisaki.#And when placed before Kurono there's appeal in putting two characters normally so laden with inhibitions into a#situation where those are somewhat repealed by existing inherent filth and the dispositions of a third party.#Good concept. Anyways there's also the secondary factor I got caught up thinking about in this piece pertaining to#the escalation of Chisaki's severity in action and Hari's continued support in spite of the other's ever-decreasing resemblance to#the kid he met years ago as Chisaki abandons internal and external standards#In short I'm unwell#Going to ignore this for a while now so I don't scold myself for the anatomy#chronohaul#kurono hari#hari kurono#kai chisaki#chisaki kai#orb draws#mha#bnha#my hero academia
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#kingdom hearts dream drop distance#khddd#sora#riku#nightmare's end#mirage split#my gif#i was going to write up a whole thing in the tags about my thoughts on this keyblade#but i just know it'll be an incoherent essay because i can't properly articulate my thoughts#the x-blade must be forged through a clash of light and darkness#but i find it so highly significant that sora and riku can create their own keyblade which is so unheard of#this keyblade isn't created with a clash but rather through harmony and balance#not with conflict but with understanding and connection and love#and i always felt as though that's how the x-blade SHOULD be forged. that master xehanort went about it all wrong#because balance and connections are such important themes in these games#it has two handles and looks so regal when combined. all of the shapes feel reminiscent of the x-blade too#it shines so brilliantly with both sora and riku's symbols. the heart and crown which is the iconic logo for the entire series#also the way stained glass is always used to represent hearts. it's so significant!#and yeah the paupu fruit keychain is its own thing to unpack#okay so i ended up writing something anyway but there's still so much more#i just really hope we get to see more of this in future games because it would be shocking if it was nothing more than a cool combo attack
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#jjk text posts#jjk#itadori yuji#fushiguro megumi#itafushi#jjk yuji#jjk megumi#megumi x yuuji#yuji x megumi#text post#this is my itafushi propaganda#i love them both so much and they are perfect for each other#two different kinds of idiots in love#its about the sharing of trauma#they are gonna be so miserable but its okay because theyre together#also the satosugu parallels go crazy#i can't explain it but it makes me want to cry i love it so much#they have been rotating in my head for all of time#anyways now im gonna go be so normal about this#crypt text posts
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They had a bit of a chance encounter on a day where Blueblood was dealing with something that was very difficult and was so caught up in his emotions he didnāt even care that he was in the garden getting grass stans on his coat and Ditzy, with her natural impulse to cheer ponies up, didnāt even notice or care that she was flying into the palace gardens when she saw someone sat in the rain.
At first he was definitely going to call the castle guards to come apprehend this strange filly with the odd eyes who was intruding when this was the last moment heād want to entertain any desperate debutantes, however she surprised him by not fawning or anything, not even caring about his status, just putting one of her fluffy wings up and asking if he needed somepony to lend an ear.
āDonāt let my eyes fool you, my ears work just fine!ā
She was incredibly disarming and while he didnāt reveal everything about why he was upset, he found himself talking about his feelings to her. And she made such cheerful remarks, and was very comforting. In the end, he felt better and she came to check on him the next day, even sharing a blueberry muffin with him. He remarked that heād never seen her around before, and that he wouldnāt mind terribly seeing her more often.
The rest, as they say, is history.
#my little pony#mlp#ditzy doo#prince blueblood#my art#mlp g4#mlpfim#mlp fim#my little pony friendship is magic#derpy hooves#swap six#side stars au#my silly pigeon girl and my lonely rich boy you are so important to meā¦#yes I should draw more stuff besides them I know and I willā¦ i just missed them okay and the ask scratched an itch.#bonus tag lore for those who read my tags: Blueblood is upset about the mysterious disapperance of Sunset Shimmer#Celestia only told Blueblood and Cadence (and Cinch) that she was gone - no details#Cadence is somewhere else struggling in her own way#Blueblood may or may not be so emotional because he blames himself#Blueblood and Sunset bought into Cinch making them compete to be the best#she loved them as much as she was capable but part of having a good reputation means succeeding above all others#and while Cadence rebelled against that mindset the other two didnt. They were more friendly with Cadence than each other.#As Sunset grew angrier and more resentful of not being taken seriously by Celestia (The Fall of Sunset Shimmer for reference)#She fought with Blueblood more and I think he thinks he was the reason she left when in reality it was definitely the least his fault#but he doesnt know thatā¦
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LUO BINGHE CASUAL SENSHI COSPLAYER
OH, ABSOLUTELY.
(context)
#poorly drawn svsss#svsss#modern au#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#okay technically shen yuan because this is a modern au but I don't have a separate tag for the two.#Casual cosplayers are the worlds strongest fans. You vibe with a series/character so much that you take on their style into daily life.#For every person that learned better self care with Dungeon Meshi there is someone who learned they were into hot bears because of senshi#I also know there are some people who learned they wanted to *be* a hot bear because of senshi - so extra kudos to those folks.#Shen Yuan would love dungeon meshi...Guy who can't cook but would still buy the limited time kitchen set.#Also I feel like I've leaned too much into the 'LBH pines for SQQ/SY' and neglected the equally true reversal.#They fact they are both obsessed with each other is what makes them so good. SQQ is just more in his head about it.
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Martlet's Attack
Martlet throwing random stuff at you caught me completely off-guard, so I had to make an artistic rendition of what happened. Bonus:
Judgemental Flowey my beloved
#undertale#undertale yellow#undertale yellow fanart#undertale yellow clover#undertale yellow martlet#uty clover#uty martlet#comic#finally finished this omg#im so slow at drawing much more at making comics-#speaking of which im still not used to making comics so hopefully this looks okay!!#I had fun drawing this in any case#i love these two so much they're so adorable#my art#soratsu art
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avenging spider-man #13
#good bedside manner: check your buddy is okay after you impaled him with a katana.#spideypool#not me. feral spideypooler. thinking it is so nice that peter asks wade if he's okay.#he has a healing factor. most people wouldn't ask if he's okay. but peter asks. and that's nice.#sci talks comics#i just really like these issues. i love how quick the flip is between wade having been hired to work against spider-man#to them just working together. and they're both so groovy about it.#like i don't know i really like that dynamic.#that peter doesn't see wade as a real actual threat to him at any time.#knows in his Core that wade actually never means him harm. i like to see that strange weird trust between them.#you never see that anywhere else.#just i REALLY like their dynamic HERE !!#yes i AM reading way too much into it !! but shut up!1 i based my entire personality on these two issues of avenging spider-man!!
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āpurpleā - Jegulus microfic - @into-the-jeggyverse - 292 words
Regulus is sitting on the couch leaning with his back pressed against the armrest and James pressed on top of him.
James is leaving a trail of open mouth kisses along Regulusā jaw, moving down to his neck. Regulus tilts his head to give James more access and he immediately takes advantage of it; nibbling, sucking, biting. He finds that one spot that he knows Regulus lovesāthe soft spot right below his earāand he presses his lips to it before he sinks his teeth in, pulling an obscene moan out of Regulus. James circles the spot with his tongue to soothe it then presses more kisses there before he lightly sucks making Regulus whimper.
Regulus knows it will leave the most beautiful mark; light teeth marks surrounded by the perfect shade of purple and red. It might as well say āmineā across Regulusā neck. Regulus moans again just thinking about it. Thinking about seeing that mark every time he looks in the mirror. Thinking about everyone else seeing that mark and knowing who Regulus belongs to.
He loves that he belongs to James. Because James belongs to him too. It might be a little possessive but itās also pure and passionate. Regulus loves the way they love each other. Loves that James knows he can put as many marks on Regulus as he wants and Regulus will wear them with pride.
The thoughts racing through Regulusā mind make him groan and he quickly pushes James up so he can straddle his lap. He instantly attaches his mouth to Jamesā neck to give him a matching mark.
āMine.ā Regulus practically growls against Jamesā favorite spotāthe soft skin where his neck meets his shoulder.
āAlways.ā James answers as he grips Regulusā hips hard enough to bruise. More lovely marks for Regulus to cherish.
#this one practically wrote itself#because fuck these two love each other#so much#they cannot keep their hands off each other#or their lips#regulusā thoughts just spilled out so easily#he definitely took control of this fic#and i am more than okay with that#i will always give up control to regulus#every day of the week and twice on sunday#regulus loves james#james loves regulus#jegulus#jegulus microfic#jegulus fanfiction#marauders fanfiction#regulus black#james potter#marauders#james x regulus#regulus x james#marauders era#harry potter marauders#harry potter#hp#hp marauders#dead gay wizards from the 70s#dead gay wizards#starchaser#sunseeker
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So you're a go to source for all things Dick&Tim bros and you tend to write primarily from Dick's POV. So, odd question, but if you were to summarize their relationship from his POV in FIVE panels which panels would you pick? Keeping in mind that one specific aspect of their relationship that you love needs to be clearly represented by each panel (loyalty, trust etc). I hope this is a fun challenge and not an annoying question so if you don't want to answer that's cool! Have a wonderful day!
No more talk. The same thoughts run through two minds... (SotB 29) / You're my equal. My closest ally. (RR 1) / I can't stop thinking how much I rely on him. (GoG 3)
25 Feelings Dick Has About Tim
This was such a kind ask & a cool challenge which I totally failed; here are TWENTY-five panels of Dick's POV on Tim sdfdsfds Look, I got carried away! Marcia and Cindy! The boys!!
OKAY SO BEFORE I GET TO THE PANELS A FEW NOTES:
WARNING THAT THERE ARE SOME NEGATIVE EMOTIONS IN HERE because I love conflict but but but you gotta remember those are not the final word!! They are complicated people and sometimes they get mad at each other BUT ultimately their relationship is so hugely important in both their lives & they love each other and rely on each other so much -!!! <3
Also I have CONCLUDING THOUGHTS at the end about what Dick's POV leaves out (mostly: a lot of Dick defending & protecting & supporting Tim, which Dick does instinctively but isn't very self-aware about most of the time)
I have loosely organized my list into 5^5 format (5 categories with 5 examples each!), so if you want to skip to a relevant one, here are the categories!!
Below the cut:
I hate him and find him infuriating (#1-5)
On second thought, he's endearing & fun (#6-10)
Grief is complicated & he's all tangled up in mine (#11-15)
I love him & think highly of him (#16-20)
I rely on him & though it's hard for me, I trust him (#21-25)
I hate him and find him infuriating (#1 - 5)
1) He thinks heās so smart and can psychoanalyze me and Bruce, but he doesnāt know me at all, he should get lost (New Titans 61)
2) He thinks heās so smart and can psychoanalyze Bruce but he doesnāt know Bruce at all, he should get lost (Gotham Knights 26)
3) He is so nosy about stuff that is MY business (Robin 0)
4) He sounds like an insincere suck-up half the time... but okay, fine, if you push him he's got a sense of humor about it (New Titans 65)
5) I'm sure he's a better vigilante than me. It's my fault for being a failure, but I resent him anyway. (Nightwing 9 - Dick's having a nightmare)
On second thought, he's kinda endearing (#6-10)
6) He worries too much and gets anxious so easily,Ā but it makes him fun to tease (Robin 67)
7) I'm not that competitive - okay, so maybe I'm a little competitive, I gotta make sure he doesn't get a swelled head (Prodigal)
8) I'm supposed to be his favorite! It is not cool for him to be fanboying over my not-girlfriend's not-boyfriend!! (Birds of Prey 19)
9) We have fun together. I can kick back and relax when it's just the two of us. Plus I get to boss him around a bit. (Prodigal)
10) Heās always trying to reassure me, and I guess it's a little comforting, but also he doesnāt really get it. Or me. He makes excuses that he shouldn't, because he doesn't understand that I suck. (Nightwing 64)
Grief is complicated and he's all tangled up in mine (#11 - 15)
11) He reminds me of everything I try not to think about. Sometimes the memories are so strong it hurts to look at him. (Batman 441)
12) WHY IS HE BEING IMPOSSIBLE ALL OF A SUDDEN??? THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING (Nightwing 139)
13) We're the same. He says all the things I don't let myself think about. It's like arguing with myself. (Nightwing 139)
14) He thinks he gets to tell me what to do but he doesnāt, fuck him (Battle for the Cowl)
15) Life sucks, so what. I sucked it up so he should too (RR 1)
I love him and think highly of him (#16 - 20)
16) Heās the closest thing to a brother Iāll ever have.Ā If someone hurts him I will hurt them harder. (Nightwing 6)
17) I can't handle the idea of losing him. (Nightwing 97)
17) Heās so good and Iām not. I'm afraid Iām bad for him. (Nightwing 110)
18) Heās better than me, and itās kind of a relief because I know no matter what heāll be okay. (Gates of Gotham 3)
19) In my head heās the responsible one.Ā (Gotham Knights 10)
I rely on him, and though it's hard for me, I trust him (#20-25)
20) I know I have to trust him but I'm afraid he'll make the wrong choices and get hurt (Nightwing 139)
21) I'm sure I know what he should do because I see myself in him - not that I can take my own advice, but he should (Blackest Night 3)
22) I trust him.Ā When Iām losing my grip on things, he pulls me back. (Gotham Knights 10)
23) I want him to trust me (Red Robin 12)
24) He can tell when I'm lying. Sometimes he sees my weaknesses better than I wish he did. (Detective Comics 874)
25) Heās always there when I need him. (Teen Titans / Outsiders Secret Files)
Final rambling thoughts:
TIM: Uhh, okay, so I'm just skimming this list - do you really trust me? you're not just saying that? - but anyway, I'm confused because you left some stuff out? Like some stuff that's kinda important? DICK: No? I think I got everything? TIM (starts counting on his fingers): The time I was having a bad day but then I called you. The time I got captured by Two-Face but then you saved me. The time I fell off a train but then you saved me. The time I fell off a building but then you saved me. The time I fell off a different building - DICK: I feel like you're trying to make some kind of point but I'm not sure what it could be.
SO THE THING IS, I put 25 panels in here and not a single one has Dick catching Tim when heās falling!!! But I think that's a central motif of their relationship from Timās POV, not Dickās. I love Dick, but in some ways I think he is spectacularly un-self-aware.
And I think he especially has a lot of blind spots about Tim. He kinda intermittently gets that Tim admires him, and he enjoys it in a playful I-get-to-boss-you-around way. But Dick tends to consistently underestimate all of his own good qualities & skills, and he meets Tim at a point in his life when he's especially down on himself & his abilities. And so he's unable to see his own influence on Tim, & therefore unable to fully understand a lot of Tim's priorities and loyalties and motivations, because you can't actually understand Tim without understanding Dick's impact on him. There's a fascinating moment in Bruce Wayne: Murderer when Dick's completely blindsided & upset to discover that Tim doesn't entirely trust Bruce, even though this has been a definitive fact of Tim's whole thing ever since he showed up with his Batman needs Robin theory, and Barbara has to actively remind Dick of the obvious-to-everyone-except-Dick fact that a lot of Tim's loyalty is to Dick, and Tim loves Bruce but feels free to be more wary of him. (And to give Bruce credit: this is not something he ever begrudges.) But anyway Babs points this out, and Dick manages to sorta process it for about five seconds, but he cannot actually accept it into his worldview so instead he discards it at the speed of light and goes off and has an argument with Tim instead sdfsfdsf
All of Dick's virtues - Dick's kindness at the circus and Dick's determination to fight through grief and Dick's rigid sense of morals and Dick's vigilante skills and every time Dick has ever backed Tim up or listened to him or protected him or saved him from something or just been casually kind to a stranger in Tim's presence etc etc etc - all these things loom really large in Tim's mental story of Who Dick Is, and What Dick And Tim's Relationship Is. Tim meets Dick before he meets Bruce, trusts Dick more than Bruce, aspires to be Robin instead of Batman. And so in Tim's default version of the story, Dick is the super-special and admirable hero and Tim is... nobody in particular, a tagalong outsider who's barely managing to be a hero, not part of Dick and Bruce's family and not part of their story, who, if he's VERY LUCKY and tries REALLY HARD, might be able to fight his way to proving himself and offering something to Dick that Dick will value, if Dick doesn't get fed up with him first.
But that's not Dick's version of the story!!!
Dick's version of the story is almost the exact opposite, a story where Dick's an outcast failure black sheep who's screwing up everything he tries, and meanwhile Tim is The Sudden New Perfect Robin Who's Better Than Me And Probably Bruce Loves Him More And Probably They Gossip About What A Loser I Am, mixed with a complicated edge of Tim Thinks He's So Smart But He Doesn't Know Me/Us At All. Dick gets much more attached to Tim over time, and Tim gets unnervingly better at the know-it-all psychoanalysis so then Dick gets to have complicated feelings about him being right instead of just annoyance at him for being wrong, plus Dick's relationship with Bruce improves a lot, so Tim stops feeling so threatening. But Dick never fundamentally changes his basic theory of their relationship in which Tim is highly impressive and capable, and Dick is not so much.
And so asking Dick about Tim is kinda like if you asked George Bailey to tell you about Harry Bailey in It's A Wonderful Life; like, you'll be there for five hours while he tells you how great Harry is, and how accomplished Harry is, and how he doesn't really get how or why Harry does the things he does, and maybe George does feel a little resentful or jealous sometimes, but that pales in comparison to all his admiration and trust for Harry who he loves so much, who's better than him in so many ways, and he's not gonna openly gripe but secretly he can't help but feel sometimes like he's such a failure in comparison to Harry, a perfect person who emerged fully formed from Zeus's head with all the virtues and also all the accomplishments, etc. etc. etc. --
-- and he will not actually remember the part where he changed and saved Harry's whole entire life unless you literally send him to an alternate timeline in order to force him to remember it. <3
#i enjoyed thinking about this so much i wrote a novel with All My Thoughts sorry sdfsdfs#tim drake#dick grayson#somewhat tangential but as i was writing this i was thinking about zahri's post#about how different types of stories offer different kinds of emotional payoffs#and i think for me for dick and tim the main two payoffs are:#1) someone who sees & understands your grief for deaths that will never get fixed or get better#and who will face your ghosts with you EVEN WHEN you're also mad at each other#2) someone who you look at and you see all the ways that you suck & he's better & you're a loser who's failed him etc etc#but it turns out that you're wrong. that you're good enough. not that none of the failures were real or that they were all in your head#but it turns out that it's okay that you didn't always immediately do or feel the right thing#and it's okay that you weren't perfect. you can fuck up six thousand ways & everything you did right will still matter#not because of making excuses or allowances or somebody pityingly trying to make you feel better#but because in the end the things you did right are just Genuinely More Valuable than anything you did wrong#all the times you tried & everything that you tried to give - everything you think wasn't good enough - it was.#IN OTHER WORDS they are both convinced they're not good enough & they are both wrong <3#anyway dick and tim are both INCREDIBLY SIMILAR and also CONSTANTLY misreading each other and i love that for them#and like. they will sometimes totally misread each other & then never figure out the part that they misunderstood#but then they manage to keep going anyway. we love each other on purpose <333#ask tag#dick&tim
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