#I love my family as I love myself. Friends are family. strangers can be family. the sun is my family.
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i was 11 when the first season of stranger things came out. i first watched it right before season 2 was released. i still remember the way i felt that spring, the way the air felt, it was so hot, i was basically stuck inside. my mum and i watched the entire first season in the span of two days. i can almost taste and smell the memory of that time in my life. arizona peach iced tea, mario badescu rosewater spray, sunflowers by elizabeth arden.
i first watched stranger things as a closeted and mentally ill child. i wished i could just be normal, like everybody else. i had a crush on my best friend at the time, i think she liked me too. we havenât spoken in eight years. seeing a depiction of what i was going through, albeit a very different situation, as portrayed in a show that was so popular and widely loved by the general public in the character of will made me realise that things will be okay. everything will eventually work out.
when i was a kid i regularly had dreams in which i would go missing. there was never anything else to the dreams, or nightmares rather, iâd just disappear. sometimes i wished i would go missing. i felt like a burden to my friends and family because of my mental health issues, and the cherry on top was me being a lesbian. i used to cry myself to sleep and ask God if he was listening, why couldnât i just be the normal daughter that every other parent seemed to have?
iâm so lucky that my parents accept me for who i am. i grew up thinking that everybody hated me because of my sexuality, that i was disgusting and wrong. i see a lot of myself in will, and joyce with my own mother.
all this to say that i Will be crying hysterically if there is a graduation scene in season 5. this show has been a constant throughout my life since i was 12. iâm 20 now, and since watching the first season as a mentally ill closeted child, iâve changed a lot, and iâm a lot less sad than i used to be. i used to think iâd always feel like a mistake, like something was wrong with me, like i had to hide who i truly am.
i know this sounds so clichĂ©, but it gets better. iâve lived it. if you told me a decade ago that i would be living as an open lesbian, with friends and family that couldnât care less about my sexuality and love me for who i am, i wouldnât have believed you. trust me. it gets better. representation is so important in a show as impactful as stranger things for people like me and so many other queer people.
to anyone reading this, i love you, i care about you, and everything will work out in the end.
#i doubt anybody will see this but i just needed to get it off my chest lol#me realising that i have very minor religious trauma just through being a homosexual despite not being raised religious#catholic guilt passed down through the generations despite my family leaving the church before i was born i guess#stranger things#stranger things 5#byler#(target audience)#this is less about st and more about my coming out journey lel#however âseeing a depiction of a queer kid in my favourite show helped me more than i could ever explain#okay âiâm off to go be physically sick with nostalgic now đą
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I want to draw....I want to be with my family.....But I want to draw....But I want to be with my family....
#sillyposting#Despite everything. despite everything.#i wake up and say âWow I will not be able to draw todayâ and then leave the house.#The conundrum. i want go write down parts of my Au. But. I cannot write while talking to my grandma for hours or making baked potato to eat#twice in one day! oh this is awful! I love too much!#Oh please oh please. Will my heart explode?#I love the water and the sky and the world and the people.#And I love the stories and the art and the ground.#Unfortunately#Family and Wittebanes do not mix....We are too busy for this....#I love friends too. I love my friends.#Oh but the world is for gifting. But all I can offer is my heart.#I love my family as I love myself. Friends are family. strangers can be family. the sun is my family.#In all their awfulness#and in all their wonder.#Somehow. somehow. I am so hopefull. somehow. somehow. the grief comes back. they can co-exist.#I live with you and the bugs and the trees. I think my hope and my grief will live alongside each other.#Maybe I cannot have one without the other.#Living up to âdrawing very rarelyâ
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sometimes I'm like wow there is truly someone for everyone who really wants to fall in love. then other times I think, that sounds like an awful lot of effort though
#becoming the most cringe and fail person in my family as a character arc this year#anyway i have been thinking that as much as i would really like to find someone and feel like. good around them#i've gone 27 years without really feeling like i could be myself around anyone romantically and i should probably#make plans as though this potentially just won't happen#i can see myself being happy alone. i mean i really enjoy my friendships and my hobbies#if i got a cat and a steady job for a while i think i would be content#i don't really like living with strangers so the roommate situation would kind of suck but. maybe when i make enough money#i can just keep being by myself but with a cat#it feels kind of spinster aunt who's secretly gay and that's the main problem#i don't want my family to be able to conveniently ignore my characteristics or think that i'm avoiding a life of sin or anything#i love to live a life of sin i just really enjoy having friends and really don't enjoy dating. unfortunate
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Me when I want to be wanted more than anything else
#I think Iâd be more normal if I had more friends but every friend I lose makes me isolate more and more and now itâs like I can only trust#people Iâve interacted with for years already#and then every time I try to make friends I either donât respond (anxiety. not feeling a vibe. whatever) or they stop responding when I#actually like them (someone who talked to me for like four days in an row and then randomly blocked me no explanation)#I think if I made more friends or even talked to more people Iâd understand how to do it successfully but I donât have enough experience and#no one wants to be friends with me (and itâs scary when they do!!!) wahhhhhhhhhh#I need to move somewhere new and talk to strangers Iâm good at that#I made more friends a a concert age 14 than I have from me the ages of 16-19 and i think thatâs ridiculous#how do I explain to everyone ever that nothing bad happened to me Iâm just mentally ill bc my hormones are fucked and itâs let me to spiral#and ruin my own life and then slowly painfully build my life back up and then crush it all again over and over again for years and years#to the point where Iâm afraid Iâll never amount to anything so the idea of ever truly having people who find any value for me in their lives#feels like itâs fake and then when I do finally trust people I end up loving too hard and fucking it up and then I isolate for even longer#itâs takes me twice as long to find a new friend and trust them again and then it happens all over again#it feels like Iâm destined to be alone bc I canât tell the difference between platonic shit and flirting so I have a wall between me and#everyone else bc Iâm afraid to like someone too much and confuse my brain bc I donât ever want to like someone who doesnât like me even if#itâs as friends bc Iâve put more effort in than other ppl always but itâs bc I put too much effort in and expect too much and no one else#is as weirdly obsessive and clingy and dedicated as I am bc Iâm not normal and thatâs why no one likes me bc I try too hard or not at all#and it makes everyone in my life family friends crushes whatever hate me bc Iâm all or nothing forever I canât just be normal#I think a lifetime of living with my mother has permanently damaged the way I see myself#who are all these normal ideal people in my brain why did my mother put them there and why will I always be worse than a hypothetical person#designed to shame me for struggling which gets louder the more I struggle#spirals cycles etc etc etc#ugh. I want my brain to turn off Iâm gonna go take a dab and maybe delete this later
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Everyone keeps telling me to get into a relationship and every time they talk about their partners or they tell me about their life it's MISERABLE. Lmfao in this day and age. I Don't think I'd forfeit my freedom for that. Maybe I am aromantic or something because absolutely fucking not. Idk
#atp from what ive seen in 23 years of life#relationships look like cages; a jail for no crime committed#i cannot fathom putting myself through that shit intentionally#why in hell would i do that to myself when i can have great friends amd be happy; fuck strangers and have situationships#that leave me FREE. free from jealousy free from possessiveness free from being a trophy free from being betrayed#free from being hurt with my deepest secrets AND have my needs belittled and Boundaries BROKEN#imagine that lmfao#relationships only look good in fiction i cannot stand that shit irl and to me romance is the lowest quality of love.#directly under familial love which is the second last
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wanna be yours 2.0 // ln4 social media au // part two
part one | part three
pairing: lando norris X american!reader / mclaren photographer!reader and slight pato o'ward X reader
warnings:Â swearing
summary: a remix of my fic wanna be yours in social media au form. or basically lando and the reader both being in love with each other but being too stubborn and scared to say anything so they suffer in silence until one finally crumbles.
contains:Â best friends to slight strangers to lovers, pining, angst, jealous!lando, asshole!lando, clueless!lando, and perhaps a little lando or pato? situation.
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may 21st, 2024
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patriciooward replied to your story
âłÂ UBER DRIVER???
y/bsf replied to your story
âłÂ he picked you up from the airport and got you frozen yogurt.. girl đ€đ€
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y/n.jpg: a perfect day
patriciooward: with the perfect girl â€ïž -liked by author
y/bsf: đđ
âłÂ y/n.jpg: do you to be want blocked?
patriciooward: wait my eyes are closed in the last pic⊠you're a photographer and couldn't get one with my eyes open??
âłÂ y/n.jpg: you wouldn't stop squinting đŁ
logansargeant: gonna miss you this weekend. be sure to consume enough red 40 and ranch for the both of us.
âłÂ y/n.jpg: i may or may not have a couple bottles of ranch already in my suitcase to bring back...
âłÂ logansargeant: I LOVE YOU -liked by author
user1: HELLO??? HOW CAN I BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS???
user2: oh this is practically a hard launch
user3: lando y/n truthers stay strong
landonorris: so this is why you canât respond to my texts
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y/n.jpg: carb day you are always so much fun. how do i convince the fia to create their own carb day?
y/bsf: EVERYONE IF YOU END UP EVER GOING WEAR SUNSCREEN!!! i'm miserable đŁ
âł y/n.jpg: i told you to wear sunscreen
patriciooward: how did you sneak off to the snake pit??
âł y/n.jpg: don't even act like you weren't there with me
âł patriciooward: đ§
martingarrix: i'll get the ball rolling by nominating myself to be the dj.
âł y/n.jpg: well good because i only had you in mind.
user1: lando in the likes?!?! is my family done fighting?
user2: is this us finding out that y/n and martin know each other and that means lando introduced them and that they are close enough for him to comment on her stuff?? oh the y/n lando lore goes deeper than we thought.
user3: isn't it like 2 in the morning in monaco.. lando go to bed... she's mine.
user9: the way you guys talk about lando and y/n is ridiculous. he literally has a girlfriend or did everyone forget??
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âł WHAT????!!!?! THE HELL????
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#lando norris#lando norris x reader#lando norris smau#lando norris fic#lando norris fanfic#lando norris imagine#lando norris x you#pato o'ward x reader#pato o'ward#f1 x reader#f1 fanfic#f1 smau#f1 fic#here it is#i hope you all like it lol#mine#writing
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I love art made with love so much I love people putting their heart to something I love seeing people exited about something like yeah be happy
#ny family or my friends their happiness make me happy too.#also strangers too#its actually pretty easy to care about someone#being selfish is easy and easily justifiable but being good and caring for others isnt that hard actually#i can put my all attention and love to myself and i can still care about others deeply and also work for their happiness hard#if there is no outside hardships of course#but yeah you can be an individual and always put your needs first but also help others and put their needs first too#idk how to explain but yeah we can be many person at the same time but also individuals if we both try its not that hard#coming to this mindset is the hard thing but that good is hard bad is easy isnt true#n.#this is a free writing blog now welcome to my diary#joking obviously
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A Green and Silver Ring (Mattheo Riddle x Reader)
An arranged marriage between you and Mattheo, one that might lead to something beautiful
Word Count: 10.3k
I know I haven't posted in a long time but I have a plan trust the process. Also, this is me coming out and saying that I love Mattheo Riddle and he's amazing
Warnings: Swearing, bad and manipulative parenting from both Mattheo and readerâs parents, a lot of misogyny (a bit from Mattheo but he gets better by a lot and itâs not that bad), arguments, Tom isnât Mattheoâs brother and Tom is a creep, arranged marriage, one bed trope, enemies to lovers, greek mythology reference, talk of kids, needing kids to carry on family lines, and kids. Mistress is the feminine term for master (so reader isnât Mattheoâs side piece when I refer to her as mistress), old timey talk a bit, reader is a bookworm
From the desk of Ginevra
My dearest friend,
My parents have informed me of your engagement. I was ecstatic, yet surprised, when I heard the news. I was of the assumption that your parents were allowing you to choose your husband as your family line is secure in your brother and his wife. Yet, once I learned who your husband-to-be is, I was trepidatious.Â
My thoughts are with you, my darling friend, and I pray for you to write to me the moment you get my letter.Â
I hate to break the news, but you and your fiancĂ© are the talk of high society. Never before have two such families been intertwined. Even I have had to scold my brothers for their gossip. They seem to forget that our families are close friends.Â
I do not ask why your parents have made such a decision. I know they are intelligent adults and surely must have a motive, but I admit that I am blind in that regard. Your engagement seems sudden and unwarranted to me. When questioned, my mother sighed and said I would understand when I grew older. My mother continues to baffle me. I have borne two children and a third on the way! If I am not mature now, I better gain some knowledge quickly.Â
Always remember that I am by your side. If you ever need anything, my door is always open to you. I am sure Harry will agree.Â
I love you, my friend.
Ginny
From the office of Lorenzo
Miss. L/n,
I believe weâve never been formally introduced. Iâm saddened to say that this letter is as formal as weâll get - at least until your wedding. I am sure you must be taciturn and mercurial as of now. My father has told me much about you and I believe weâll make excellent friends and confidants in our hectic world.Â
Youâre to be my new half-sister, arenât you? My relatives and friends are petulant to meet you.Â
Before any rumours (either about myself or your fiancĂ©) hit your ears, Iâll put a rest to them. Bellatrix, your fiancĂ©âs mother, had an affair with my father. They produced me and in return, I have the privilege of being your fiancĂ©âs half-brother.Â
Being a bastard child, Iâm no stranger to being ostracised and ridiculed. To be blunt, Iâm sure that you will be ostracised alongside me and I believe that is one reason we can connect.Â
For rumours of my half-brother, I simply say this: do not fear him. He relishes in the consternation he places in other people, yet when he heard he was to marry you, I saw panic in his eyes like no other. It seems the tables have turned. He is hesitant to be wed, but you are not the problem. He simply doesnât want to have the responsibility of anotherâs life on his. Your fiancĂ© is used to belittling people - not supporting them as a husband should.
Any questions you have about your fiancĂ© and my half-brother (whom in case I didnât make clear, are one and the same), refer to me without any qualms. I am eager to meet you and hopefully make your transition into the Riddle family smoother.
I am well aware you have also lived your life in the upper echelons of society. But, as Iâm sure you know, there are multiple circles in our complicated community. The L/ns, the Weasleys, and the Potters, for example, have grown their fortunes truthfully and innocently. They have earned the respect of their people and those whom they employ. The Riddles, Blacks, and Berkshires, on the other hand, have climbed the ranks in unconventional means and by skipping a few rungs on the ladder. They thrive and make their living on the terror and duress they cause those under them.
Iâm looking forward to making your acquaintance.
Lorenzo Berkshire
P.S. I hope I havenât scared you off.
From the office of L/n
Daughter,
Youâll be pleased to hear the engagement has gone through. Your mother and I met your fiancĂ© last night. He seems like a nice man. He will be able to provide for you. His family is influential.
We will return home late tomorrow evening. You will depart for Riddle Estate in a week. Begin packing.Â
Your father
From the desk of Ginevra
Y/n,
You worry me with your lack of communication. Usually, you canât wait to gossip with me. We have such fun at dinners and balls, yet with the most important aspect of yourself, you donât respond. Iâm simply worried, my friend. Are you alright? I can envision you curled in your bed, not letting anyone, even your nursemaid, into your room. Please do not let your impending marriage affect your state of health. It will turn out alright. Everyone I know (even me!) had apprehensions about their marriage. And with everyone I know, it turned out alright.Â
Misters Sirius and Remus visited Harry and I the day before last. They came to see James and Albus, but I know there was a hidden reason as well. They know of our friendship and came to ask if the rumours are true. As much as my husband adores them, Sirius in particular can be prone to gossip. The pair tittered and tsked when I told them of your fiancé. Sirius wishes to distance himself from his family, and I know he has pre-existing thoughts of the Black family, and by extension, the Riddles.
Sometimes I take a moment to gaze at the family tree upon my drawing room wall. It is full of interconnected lines and squiggles that sometimes, it makes my head hurt! The web of family ties is complicated and if weâre not somehow related already, I know that we will be once your marriage takes place. It seems the Black family spreads its roots into the Weasley family and the Riddle family- the latter of which youâll soon be synonymous with.
Give yourself some grace. Your fiancé falls far from the tree; I am sure of it.
Please write to me. I need to make sure my closest friend is doing well.Â
Best wishes,Â
Ginny
P.S. Hermione wishes to inform you that, from what sheâs heard, your Mr. Riddle is quite attractive. I have yet to hear any of the rumours myself, but at least your husband will be pleasing to the eye. Perhaps it will make the marriage more bearable.Â
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Mattheo strode leisurely through Riddle Manor. It was one of the many estates his family owned, and it was soon to be officially his. Just as soon as he married the L/n girl.
The manor was spacious, which Mattheo couldnât help but detest. How was he and a wife supposed to fill this void of empty rooms and dark halls? He knew servants and cooks would move in, but they wouldnât occupy the dozens of upper rooms that were vacated.Â
For a brief moment, Mattheo couldnât help but envision a set of children running around the halls. One of the children would run up to him, shouting, âPapa! Papa!â Mattheo would scoop the child up, grinning, and would carry them to their room. The room would be bright and cheerful, and maybe, just maybe, you would be sitting on a settee, cradling a newborn or helping an older child with their school work.
But for now, the room was dark and uninviting and he had yet to meet his future wife. He had seen a portrait of the L/n family and while they were in lavish, colourful clothing, Mr. and Mrs. L/n seemed cold and stoic - just like his parents. The children, an older son and younger daughter (whom he presumed to be you), seemed kinder and by their body language, Mattheo could tell that the two siblings were close.Â
Mattheo slowly made his way down the hall. There were three wings of the manor; two were residential and the other was designed for taking guests. The East Wing - in which he and Miss. L/n would stay - was also fit with an office for him. He was expected to take over half of the family business once he got married. The West Wing would remain empty for now, sans for a large library and the furniture in the bedrooms.Â
The boy knew that his bride was to arrive later that day. She would stay at Riddle Estate until the end of the week. Just three short days before they were to be wed in name. Mattheo would move into Riddle Manor tonight, giving servants time to wipe the dust off of tables, shine the silverware, and fluff the pillows.Â
Mattheo walked the halls of his new home. His mind was devoid of any thoughts. Perhaps it was simply because he was always numb. Even when he heard of his engagement, Mattheo didnât make a fuss. He didnât remember thinking anything. Nothing such as âOh, I canât wait to meet her!â or even, âI canât believe mother and father are arranging my marriage! She better be obedient.âÂ
No, Mattheo had thought nothing of the sort. He had spent his childhood quietly observing his father and mother, noticing the amount of fear they could inflict on people just by silence. You didnât have to be loud and dramatic to be powerful. You simply couldnât be afraid to follow up on your promises - however deadly they were.Â
The only question Mattheo had asked when Bellatrix informed him of his engagement was, âand what do we gain from the L/nâs?â
Bellatrix had shot him an callous and apathetic look. âDo not ask questions you neednât the answers to, boy.âÂ
Mattheo had glowered, but shut his mouth.Â
As he neared the foyer, Mattheo couldnât help but think how marriage was a component in all aspects of his life. When he got married to the L/n girl, he would inherit a portion of his fatherâs estates, company, and wealth. Mattheo chucked to himself. Maybe he shouldâve gotten married sooner.
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âPray tell, why werenât you here when she arrived?â Bellatrix snarled as she gripped Mattheoâs arm. Her nails dug into his suit as she dragged him towards the drawing room.
âI was busy,â Mattheo replied harshly. Love was not a thing that came instinctively to his family.Â
âDoing what? Planning your suidide?â Bellatrix scoffed. âI would march to the Underworld and choke Hades to bring you back.â Mattheo glanced down at his mother, hesitantly surprised. But he knew better than to raise his hopes and dreams. âWe need this contract with the L/nâs,â Bellatrix continued and Mattheoâs jaw ticked. Of course. She didnât love him; she never had. Her son was purely business. He shouldâve known better.
âMaybe if you would tell me what the L/nâs provide for us,â Mattheo pulled Bellatrix back before she threw open the door to where you were. âThen I would be more complacent.â
Bellatrix sneered. âYou think youâre smart, boy. You think you have everything figured out in that pretty little head of yours. But remember: youâre nothing without the Riddle family name backing you up.â She paused and licked her lips. âBut if you must know,â Bellatrix sighed, giving into Mattheo. âThe L/nâs just came into some very⊠lucrative land that we could gain from if you marry Miss. Y/n L/n.â
Mattheoâs eyes flickered to the drawing room door. After a moment, he asked, âis that her name? Y/n?âÂ
Bellatrix stared at him, aghast. âYou didnât bother to learn her name?!â She scoffed. âWith a son like youâŠâÂ
She pushed open the drawing room doors and Mattheo trudged after her, muttering, âat least I know her name now.â
You had been waiting for seven minutes and thirty nine seconds in the drawing room of Riddle Estate, the trackage of time dependent on the old grandfather clock standing ominously in the corner. Its pendulum swung back and forth continuously as its second hand ticked by. Mrs. Riddle had left seven minutes and thirty nine seconds ago to fetch her son.Â
While the room was perfectly clean, not a speck of dust on even the highest chandelier, it was still a cold and morose room, yet oddly epochal. The wood was the darkest mahogany you had ever seen and the lights cast odd shadows on the dark green wallpaper that had inlays of gold.
Your teacup that you were trying to hold steady was filled with a sad excuse for tea. There was a ring of gold around the mouth of the teacup. On the table beside you, a notch that looked as if someone dug a knife into the surface caught your attention. It was the little things like this that you noticed when you had nothing else to do. Your mind was trying to distract you.
The door then swung open and there stood your fiancé, his stare daring you to oppose him.
âUh,â you stood, your teacup and saucer still in hand. You quickly placed them on the table, right over the knife nick. âY/n L/n,â you introduced yourself. You bowed your head in an informal curtsy.Â
Mattheoâs eyes flickered over your face. âMattheo Riddle,â he said coldly. His voice was practically velvet. You didnât mean to look him up and down, but you couldnât help it. He was to be your husband, after all.
Mattheoâs hair coiled at the end and his eyes were just as dark as his curls. His nose had a scarred cut on it that looked as if it was just beginning to heal. Your fiancĂ©s cheekbones were practically sculpted from marble and for a moment, you believed that the gods had simply breathed life into a statue. Did this make you Pygmalion and Mattheo Galatea?
If it werenât for their lethal eyes and stern posture, perhaps more would be friendly to the Riddles.
Mattheo spoke, âyouâre to be my fiancĂ©e.â It wasnât a question.Â
âYes.â You had the urge to add âsirâ at the end, but you bit your tongue.Â
Bellatrix hissed something to Mattheo and thrust a small object into his hands. Mattheo rolled his eyes and stalked towards you. âMy family ring,â he grumbled. He held out an intricate silver ring with three bands interweaving. A green jewel cut into a thin diamond shape sat steadily in the middle. âIt has been in the Riddle family for generations. Itâs tradition to pass it down to the wife of the firstborn son. And now that is youâŠâÂ
He trailed off and handed the ring to you, it laying flat on his palm. You took it from him, trying to minimise contact with Mattheo. You nodded in thanks and slid it into your ring finger.Â
It seemed too concrete to fathom.
Mattheo stared at the ring on your finger. A muscle jumped in his jaw. âMy⊠wife,â he murmured halfheartedly.
***
Three weeks had passed since the wedding and it was as if you had never gotten married in the first place. Yes, it was unsettling to wake up in a bed that wasnât your own next to a man that you were supposed to call your own. But other than necessary, Mattheo had hardly uttered a word to you.
In the three weeks you had stayed there, you had seen Mattheo a total of twenty eight times, including mornings and nights when you were forced to sleep in the same bed.Â
Your mornings, afternoons, and nights were all incredibly boring. You took long meals, pushing your food around. Sometimes you just sat by the window and watched the wind blow bits of grass and dirt past the window. The servants were still extracting the dust between the couch cushions and you tried to stay out of the way, but it only made you feel more isolated.
Mattheo was holed up in his office day in and day out. He had now inherited a large portion of his fatherâs company and Mattheo was determined to uphold the honour bestowed upon him. He had drafted contracts, sold and bought land, and even hosted a few dinner parties for his associates.Â
You detested the dinner parties. Thankfully, Mattheo had yet to invite you to one - hell, he had yet to speak to you about the dinner parties. You had learned of the first dinner party when you had wandered downstairs one late evening because you were thirsty. You had stared at the group of strangers, all dressed in elegance, as they stared back at you in your night clothes. Not saying a word, you had sighed and returned upstairs.
You hadnât been eager for the marriage, but wouldn't it befit Mattheo to show some affection? Or at least acknowledge your presence?
While you had continuously tried to get your husband to open up to you, his answers had been short and venomous.
It had been a long, monotonous day for you. You had returned to the master bedroom about two hours earlier than you normally would have if you were at home.
With the wealth that you came from, the opulence was sure to be evident, but you had underestimated the Riddle familyâs prestige. When Mattheo had first shown you your shared bedroom, you had to allow a flicker of surprise break through your facade. The bedroom was larger than any room in your old home and had a large bed in the middle. The lamps on the bedside table were always dimly lit and the design of the room was the same as the rest of the house - dark and bereft of love and care.Â
Your hair had been brushed enough, but you kept brushing simply for something to do while Mattheo finished up in the bathroom. Mattheo walked out of the ensuite with a towel wrapped around his waist. His curls were plastered to his forehead and a bead of water ran down his sternum.
Your eyes flickered to his figure through the mirror, taking in the dips and curves of Mattheoâs muscles as he silently got ready for bed. You tore your gaze away, berating yourself.
You built up your courage and tried to think of a conversation starter. You commented, âmy parents wrote to me today.â After no reply from Mattheo, you continued, âthey asked me when we would give them grandchildren.â You set your hairbrush down and stared at Mattheo through the mirror, looking for some sort of reaction.
Mattheo hummed noncommittally and put on some sleep pants. He used his towel to begin drying his hair. âIt would be behoove us to produce some heirs,â he spoke. His tone was dismissive, as if children were nothing more than an obligation or duty to fulfil.
âRight,â you muttered, knowing that an uninterested reaction was all you were going to get out of him.Â
You stood and moved towards the bed. âGoodnight,â you whispered, turning off the bedside lamp and tucking yourself into bed. Mattheo was still putting on his nightclothes and had yet to get into bed.
As you turned off the light and got into bed, Mattheo finished drying himself off and slid into his own pyjamas. He sat down beside you, but didn't bother turning off his own lamp. Instead, he laid against the headboard, reading a book. "Goodnight," he finally mumbled, not even looking at you.
You curled into your blanket. After a moment, you asked quietly, âwhat book are you reading?â
He looked at you over the top of his book. "None of your business," he replied curtly.
You simply uttered, âokay.âÂ
Mattheo felt an unwanted and unusual feeling root itself deep in his stomach. He scoffed and said sarcastically, "fine. Go ahead and keep asking questions all night long if it amuses you so." He opened his book again and pretended to read.
A longing and lonely pang resonated in your chest at his harsh words. You didnât respond and instead turned your face into your pillow. You had known that your marriage was to be loveless, but it still hurt at every unspoken word. Perhaps, if you had been five years younger when you married Mattheo, your spirit would still be alive with the juvenile belief that you could stand up to him.
Mattheo huffed and his gaze turned up to stare at the wall ahead of him. âIf youâre so miserable, then why donât you just leave?â he snapped, not even bothering to hide his bitterness. âI am sure your family would simply love to have you back.â He flipped another page in his book, not even bothering to look at the printed words.
âI never said I was miserable,â you answered quietly, even though Mattheo knew it wasnât true. Perhaps, though, you believed it to be true. You took a steadying breath, closing your eyes.
Your husband smirked and leaned against the headboard. âWhat do you call your attitude, then? Why are you so downtrodden and defeated? Surely, you canât blame me for being frustrated by it.â He knew that he should be taking account of making you feel this way, but he still tried to justify his behaviour.Â
âGoodnight,â you reiterated.Â
Mattheo sighed dramatically. âWhatever,â he grunted. He closed his book, threw it on the nightstand, and turned off his lamp. The room was encased in darkness except for the dim moonlight coming through the window. He shifted towards the edge of the bed, making sure a noticeable gap was between the two of you.Â
He thought back to your conversation. âWhy donât you just leave?âÂ
It was too late now to apologise.
***
Mattheo let the door swing shut behind him, returning to Riddle Manor after an outing with friends. He glanced around, waiting for a servant to take his coat, but no one answered. An eyebrow cocked, Mattheo slowly walked up the stairs, hearing you instruct the servants on something, every other sentence of yours either containing, âpleaseâ or âthank youâ. Up on the landing, he found you directing a servant who was pulling a rack of your clothing. âWhat the hell are you doing?â he demanded. âHave you lost your damn mind? Are you trying to send a message or something?âÂ
âYouâve made it perfectly clear that you have no interest in me, so Iâm trying to make this marriage as civilised as possible,â you said diplomatically. âI believe that if I move to the West Wing and leave you in the East Wing, it will benefit our marriage.â
âWhat exactly do you hope to accomplish with this piteous attempt at attention?â he asked rhetorically. âDo you think itâll make me want you more?â He stuck his tongue in his cheek, grinning incredulously. âYouâre delusional if you think thatâs even remotely possible.â He stepped closer to you, towering over you with anger in his eyes. âThis is not some game, L/n. This is marriage. Youâre stuck with me whether you like it or not.âÂ
âIâm aware that weâre married, Riddle,â you retorted. âAnd donât refer to me by L/n anymore. I am now a Riddle - just like you. However, I am not going to live in a state of constant sorrow and dejection. Having a wing of the mansion to myself may help.âÂ
Mattheoâs jaw tightened as he stared at you, irritated by your resistance. âFine,â he growled. âBut donât expect me to come running after you when you decide you want attention. Youâre on your own now.â He turned away from you and walked into his now solo bedroom. âJust remember - this is your choice.âÂ
You felt your anger inflate. âI thought you would like this!â Your voice rose and you tugged a hand through your hair. It was the first time in your marriage that you had fought back. âI have done everything I can to please you, yet nothing is enough for you!â Your voice turned desperate. âWhat do you want from me?â
He stopped in his tracks, turning around with surprise and disgust on his face. âDammit, Y/n! Donât yell at me like that!â His voice thundered, stepping towards you. âI never asked for any of this! I didnât ask for a wife or for you to try so hard to please me! All of this is ridiculous.â His hand slashed through the air to make a point. âAll I want is some space. Space to figure out what the hell I want. But letâs make one thing clear: I donât care about you.â
âAm I not giving you space?â Your fists clenched at your sides. âI am moving out of the bedroom and out of your way. Yet, you erupt at me and get angry over nothing! You send me mixed messages and I donât know what to do.â
Mattheo took a breath, trying to regain control over his emotions. âI am not erupting! Lord, you are so sensitive!â he snapped, running a hand over his face. âCanât you listen for once? I am not sending you mixed signals. I am trying to figure out my place in this unorthodox situation weâre in.â
After a beat of silence, you asked firmly, âdid you talk about me?â After seeing a flicker of confusion on his face, you clarified, âwhen you were out with your friends, did you talk about me? Did you rant about how annoying I was? Did you complain about marriage?â
His lips parted before taking a breath. âYes, I talked about you,â he admitted begrudgingly. âI complained about how frustrating I find you and how frustrated I am with my parents for arranging this senseless marriage.â
âWhat did they say?â you insisted. âDid they sympathise? Did they laugh at me? Did they add fuel to your fire by commenting about how⊠how âneedyâ and âsensitiveâ I am?â
Mattheo made a low sound in his chest and rubbed his temples, frustrated by your persistence. âThey agreed with me, yes. A few believed that you are too emotionally attached and sentimental. Others chalked it up to the pains of an average marriage.â
Your anger flared up and you said, âLet me tell you this: I never wanted marriage either. But I at least tried. I tried to be a nice and loving wife and a kind human.â You turned on your heel, marching out of the bedroom and towards the West Wing.
Mattheo watched you go, an unwanted feeling of guilt washing over him. He sighed and walked over to the window. âFuck,â he muttered under his breath. âWhy is everything so damn complicated?â
For the next couple of weeks, you stayed true to your word. You avoided Mattheo and his office and stayed in your wing of the mansion. After a week or two, you decided to explore the mansion, stumbling upon a magnificent library. You inhaled in veneration when someone cleared their throat. Mattheo stood behind you, raising an brow. After a silence, you said recalcitrantly, âyou never told me that Riddle Manor had a library.â
He smirked at your thinly veiled hatred, amused despite himself. âWell, now you know,â he said dryly. âItâs a perk of living in a Riddle household.â He walked over to a bookshelf and began browsing for a book he required for a contract that was being drafting. He showed no sign of embarrassment or discomfort at your presence. âYou may use it whenever you want. But donât expect me to join a book club or anything juvenile.â
âI would never dream of it,â you said sarcastically. You step further into the library and canât help but gape at the vastness. You trailed your fingers over the book spines, breathing in the smell of old books. You crouched down to examine a series of poetry titles. âI can read any of these?â you asked hesitantly.
He nodded and leaned against the shelf behind him, crossing his arms over his chest. âFeel free to read whatever you would like. Theyâre here for the entire household. Well, the servants donât have time to read books, so in a Riddle household, the parents and children use the library the most.â Your hand faltered over the titles. âIf you find something that catches your eye, go ahead and take it. I wonât stop you.â There was a hint of curiosity in his voice, as if he wished to know what topics and books piqued your interest. You hummed quietly, not fully acknowledging his words. You were already picking up a book and leafing through it. Mattheo watched you for a moment, his eyes softening briefly.
Everyday, you returned to the library. It was an escape from the walls of your room and the walls that Mattheo had put up around his heart.
Eventually, the servants recognised your routine and began to start a fire in the fireplace to keep you warm. They moved a loveseat in front of the fire that you gratefully used. You devoured the poetry collection, including Shakespeare and Edgar Allen Poe, and started on the classics. Every once in a while, Mattheo would come into the library, but he wouldnât talk. He simply took a book and returned to his study. Sometimes, you wondered if he remembered you lived in the mansion with him.Â
Mattheo found himself frequenting the library more often, looking for books he had never needed before. A swell of pride filled him whenever he saw you by the fire, knowing that something in his home brought you such comfort. He still refused to speak to you, maintaining distance and ignoring your existence, but he found himself increasingly drawn to your presence.Â
One day, on a whim, he decided to take a risk and left a stack of his favourite books on the table next to your chair. That afternoon, you found the stack of books. You smiled despite yourself, though you didn't make any comment to Mattheo. You picked up the first book, sat down in the chair, and began to read.
A week later, Mattheo was hosting a dinner party for his associates. He didnât say a word about it to you, though you heard the servants preparing for it. You decided not to go, opting to stay in your safe haven of the library.Â
After an hour or so of faint music, you heard the door to the library squeak open and your head whipped up. You saw one of Mattheoâs friends, Tom, enter and look around. He spotted you and his lips curled up into a smirk. âSo youâre the wife weâve heard so much about?âÂ
Your stomach clenched and you replied, âI guess so.â
Tomâs smirk grew wider as he took in your terse response, enjoying your obvious discomfort. He approached you with a lecherous gaze in his eyes before asking, âand how do you find life as Mrs. Riddle? Are you enjoying your⊠arrangement?â His words dripped with sarcasm, not believing for a moment that you and Mattheo were married for love.
You stared at him. âIt has its perks,â you said simply.
Tom laughed derisively at your response, not convinced by your nonchalance. âAnd what are those perks?â he asked, moving closer to you. âExtravagant gifts? Luxurious vacations? Or simply the privilege of being married to such a powerful man?â
You squared your shoulders. âI am powerful without a man,â you said sharply. âI do not need a man to determine my worth and prowess.â
Tom scoffed. âReally? How exactly did you become powerful on your own?â he asked, challenging you. âI find it hard to believe that you could ever achieve anything significant without the backing of a powerful husband behind you.â He leaned in closer, grinning.
You closed your book with a snap. âThe L/n family,â you said, talking of your maiden lineage, âhas had control over many estates and affairs for decades. Without Mattheo Riddle, I wouldâve inherited half of it, second only to my brother. I wouldâve had four auspicious companies at my ready disposal, capable of doing most anything. So, yes, sir, I would have been momentous without him.â
Tomâs smirk faded as he recognised your family name. He remained undeterred, however, stating, âthat explains why your husband was so eager to marry you. He must see you as a valuable asset to his business empire.â
As you opened your mouth to retort, the door banged open and Mattheo strode into the library.
Mattheo had noticed Tomâs absence from his party, but when it became too long to be excused as a restroom break, Mattheo had asked his brother, Enzo, if he had seen where he had gone. Enzo had smiled a small smile and whispered, âTom went to the library. Where your darling wife stays hidden.â
Mattheo saw red.Â
He barged into the library, a deadly, lethal, and borderline possessive look deep in his eyes. When he saw Tom flanking you, Mattheoâs expression darkened and his hands clenched into a ready fist. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â Mattheo demanded, his voice low and dangerous. âThis is a private wing of my home - not some place for you to bother my wife.âÂ
Mattheo moved closer to you, placing himself between you and Tom as if to protect you from further harm.Â
Tom quickly stepped back and placed a confident demeanour on his face. âI was simply having a conversation with your lovely wife here,â Tom gritted his teeth.
You scoffed and rolled your eyes, showing clearly that Tom was lying and intruding. You saw Mattheoâs eyes flicker down to you, his eyes softening reassuringly before snapping back to Tom, malice in his gaze.Â
âDonât lie to me,â Mattheo snapped at Tom. âThereâs no need for any sort of interaction or conversation with my wife unless I am present.â Mattheo placed a hand on the top of your chair, his fingers gripping it and his bicep flexing slightly to warn Tom.
Tomâs eyes flicked with something you hadnât seen before: fear. Fear commonly associated with the Riddle name. He adjusted his collar and straightened his posture. âOf course, Mr. Riddle,â he said bitterly.
You raised a brow. âI think itâs time for you to go now,â you said, your face stoic. Tom bowed his head slightly before exiting the library. You didnât look up to meet Mattheoâs eye. You murmured, âyou didnât have to do that. I had it covered.â
Mattheo watched Tom until he completely left the room before turning to look down on you. His voice was threatening, âyou may have been able to handle Tom, but I wonât tolerate anyone disrespecting or harassing you while youâre under my roof. Consider this a warning - if anyone tries to cross you again, they will regret it.âÂ
âPerhaps you should tell your coworkers that. Not me,â you replied.Â
Mattheoâs expression was cold. âFine. I will,â he growled. âI will not sit idly by and allow anyone to disrespect my wife.â He let go of your chair and adjusted the cuffs of his suit. As if in a business meeting, he said, âAnd consider this another warning: if you continue to act so stubbornly, I wonât hesitate to remind you of your place in this marriage.â
âMy place in this marriage is your wife!â you cried out, finally standing up. âYour equal! Something you seem to forget until itâs convenient for you. Or until another man threatens your⊠your property! I doubt you see me any differently than this house or your assets.â
Mattheo grabbed onto your arm tightly, pulling you close and leaning down so his face was inches from yours. âDo not ever speak to me like that. You are not my equal - you are my wife and I decide what is best for both of us. If you cannot accept that, then you should reconsider your place in this marriage.â He released your arm and turned away from you, striding towards the door. âI suggest you reflect on your behaviour,â he added icily, leaving the room without looking back.
After he left the library, you let out a scream of frustration. You shoved the pile of books that Mattheo had carefully curated to the floor. They tumbled down, book after book, covers opening and pages bending. Tears pricked at your eyes as you examined the scene.Â
You slumped into your chair, the fire in front of your crackling softly, emitting a calming warmth.
Eventually, you fell asleep in the chair, tear stains on your cheeks. In the morning, you woke to the serene morning light filtering into the room - a vast contrast to your mood. The fire had dissolved into crackling embers. Tucked on top of you was a thick blanket and the stack of books that you had pushed over had been re-piled and stood majestically atop the table.
You sighed, knowing you should thank the servants for taking care of you and cleaning up.Â
After you walked to the kitchen, your footfalls heavy, you thanked the servants, who were finishing preparing breakfast. They exchanged glances and one piped up, âMaâam, while we appreciate the sentiment, we didnât do that. We werenât aware that you were still in the library. We believed you had retired to bed before the social last night.â They paused and then added, âhowever, Mr. Riddle didnât go to bed. He was in his study until morning light.â
âOh,â was all you could say. You bid them an awkward goodbye before entering the dining hall.Â
Mattheo was already seated at the head of the table, his expression exhausted and distant. He didnât acknowledge you when you approached, focusing instead on the uneaten plate of food in front of him.Â
You sat down opposite him and muttered, âthe servants informed me that you blanketed me last night and cleaned up the books.â You hesitated and finally said, âthank you.â
Mattheo looked up briefly, his expression unreadable, but he didnât respond directly. âIt was necessary,â he said simply. âYou should not be cold and uncomfortable in your own home.â He doesnât make any effort to engage in conversation beyond that. Something was weighing heavily on his mind and he seemed preoccupied by it.
You hummed in response. Eventually, you stood and whispered to your husband before walking out, âyou are not as cold as you want to seem. You neednât keep the facade up with me.â
Mattheo looked up briefly before returning to his food. His expression relaxed, but he didnât respond.
***
Later that day, Mattheo sat in his study as he always did. A knock came from the door and he glanced at the clock. It was a bit early for lunch to be delivered, but he announced, âcome in.â
The door creaked open and your head peeked into the room. Mattheoâs brows furrowed - not with malice, but with scrutiny. You entered and sat in one of the two seats next to his fireplace. Silently, you cracked open a book you had brought and began to read.Â
Mattheo watched you intently, his gaze never wavering as he took in every detail of your face. He tried to find any acrimonious intent behind your actions, but you looked so peaceful. He found himself noticing the details of your face and your beauty as the fire cast warm highlights on your eyes. âWhat are you doing?â he asked eventually, his voice holding an armour of needed suspicion.
âReading,â you said simply.Â
Mattheo frowned, not convinced by your answer. Why would you read in his study after the way he had been treating you? He leaned back in his chair, his work forgotten. âIsnât there something more important that you could be occupying your time with?â he challenged.
âNot particularly,â you responded. âYouâre in charge of the companies and estates. I have nothing to do. I thought I would accompany you. You must get lonely in a study by yourself.â
Mattheo narrowed his eyes, but ultimately nodded slowly. âAlright,â he agreed after a moment. âBut donât think I will stop working simply because my wife is here.â His posture grew taut as he began looking over documents again. âThis is still my office and I expect you to behave accordingly.â
âIâm simply reading,â you murmured, a smile inching its way up your lips.
Henceforth, a routine was established. Every morning, you would knock on Mattheoâs study door, usually an hour or so after he began working. There was rarely conversation, the silence being broken by Mattheoâs scratch of a quill or you turning pages, occasionally being disrupted by the loud crack of a log in the fire.
One day, you had finished your book (it was an excellent book, one from the pile Mattheo had recommended) and stood to go retrieve another one. At the sound of your footsteps leaving his office, Mattheoâs head darted up and he suddenly asked, âwhere are you going?âÂ
You paused and turned back to him. âIâm to get a new book. Unfortunately, as wonderful as this one was, it had an ending like all books do.â
Mattheo frowned and a hint of vulnerability broke through his exterior. âGet a servant to do it,â he offered.Â
âWell, I donât know which one I want,â you counted, raising a brow in a smirk.
He huffed and shook his head, returning his eyes to his documents. He grumbled, âI will commission the servants to build you a small bookshelf for my office. You can keep your books there.â You stood, watching him for a moment, admiring him until his gaze snapped up. âWell, go get your book,â he said sharply. â⊠but hurry back,â he added in a mumble.Â
You finally smiled at him before exiting and Mattheo gazed at the place you once stood, trying to memorise how your lips curled up and your eyes crinkled when you smiled.
He rather liked it when you smiled.
***
âAre you alright?â
You sniffed and laughed. âYes, yes. Iâm being foolish.â You wiped some tears from your eyes. âMy book is very good.â
Mattheo chuckled lowly. âAnd what made you cry, hm?â
âA daughter and father interaction,â you replied quietly.Â
âWas the father cruel to the daughter?â Mattheo laughed tersely, shaking his head at his documents. âAre your feelings not strong enough to withstand their wrath?â
You frowned at Mattheo, setting the book down. âNo,â you corrected slowly. âThe father was being kind to his daughter. He was supporting her and loving her; as a father should.â There was a pause as Mattheo looked up at you. âI know that the Riddles are a harsher family - Iâve known ever since I knew I was to marry you. But⊠but are you alright?âÂ
You felt absurd asking the question. Yet, when Mattheo couldnât meet your eye, a wistful sadness blanketing the room, you felt as if you shouldâve asked the simple question weeks earlier.
For a moment, he said nothing. Then Mattheo turned in his chair so his back was facing you. "I'm fine," he finally answered, his voice rough and strained. "I am used to dealing with it, I suppose." Despite his insistence that he didn't need anyone's pity or concern, your words seem to have affected him more deeply than he wanted to admit.Â
âMay I ask a question?â you asked softly.
Mattheo hesitated for a moment before nodding, his eyes never leaving the window as he spoke. "Ask away," he replied, his voice barely above a whisper. He then cleared his throat and said, "but I wonât give a warm and fuzzy answer."Â
There was a pregnant pause in the air as you gathered your courage up and suddenly thrust your fears upon your husband. âIf we ever have children, which weâre somewhat expected to,â you added hurriedly. âI donât want them to grow up in a household where they feel as if they have to vie for love or attention. And I donât want me to be the only one giving them attention.â Mattheo turned his head so his face was angled toward you, but his eyes could still stray to the window if need be. âIf we have kids, can you promise that youâll love them? Even if you donât love me?âÂ
Even though your voice was steady, Mattheo knew of the vulnerability deeply rooted within you.
He nodded cautiously, his expression serious. "I promise," he said firmly. "I may not love you, but I will love our children unconditionally. They will never have to compete for my affection or feel neglected. I may not be a fond father, but I will provide for them and protect them as best I can." A protectiveness filled his veins just at the thought of something happening to his future children.Â
You nodded once, a sad smile on your face. âPerhaps weâll have a big family. Enough children to start a sports team.â You smiled at the thought, laughing lightly.
Mattheo smiled, despite himself, imagining a large brood of children running around the manor. It was an oddly appealing idea, even if he wouldn't admit it out loud. "We'll see," he said noncommittally. "I'd rather have lots of sons; they'll carry on the family name and ensure my legacy continues." He turned back around and attempted to focus on his work.
âAnd daughters too.â You frowned, staring at your husband, even if he wouldnât spare you a glance. âDaughters can carry on the family name just as well as sons.â A muscle in your jaw ticked.
Mattheo scowled at your defiance, his eyes narrowing slightly. Why hadnât you just fallen into line? "Fine, daughters too," he reluctantly agrees. "But make no mistake, they will be raised to be strong and capable like their brothers. The Riddle name demands nothing less."Â
âAnd the sons can be soft and caring and sensitive,â you said firmly, crossing your arms. âI thought we agreed that they wouldnât have to vie for affection. I thought we agreed that they wouldnât have needless competition in their life. I donât want them to grow up⊠like, well⊠you.â You finally uttered the words that had been hanging off your tongue dangerously.Â
Mattheoâs expression hardened as he clenched his fist tightly. "Fine!" he snapped. "They can be whatever the hell you want them to be! But don't expect me to sit back and watch while they become weaklings and failures. We need to teach them to be strong and ruthless like I am." He stood up abruptly, knocking over his chair in the process.
You jump up after him, crossing towards him. You whirled to a stop in front of him, jabbing a finger towards his chest. âListen here, Riddle. Just because someone is kind and vulnerable doesnât mean theyâre weak!â You growled, âand just because you grew up like that, does not mean thatâs the type of household I am going to have.â
Mattheo stepped forward and his hand flew up to grip your wrist. His eyes blazed with anger, but then something changed in his expression and he took a step back, looking surprised at his own reaction. "You're right," he admitted begrudgingly. "I shouldn't have assumed that being vulnerable meant being weak." He ran a hand through his hair, looking embarrassed, yet resolute in his decision. "But don't expect me to be a pushover either. I'll still teach them to be strong and independent."
âStrong and independent are good qualities,â you conceded. âBoth for the boys and girls.â
"Agreed," he said. Mattheo straightened his cuffs and cleared his throat. "Our children will be taught to be strong and independent, regardless of gender. They will know that they are loved and valued by both of us, equally." He held out his hand to you, indicating that the argument was over - for now at least. "Deal?"Â
âDeal.â You shook his hand defiantly. It was a business deal, but a good deal at least.
Mattheo exhaled and brushed past you. âIâm to a meeting,â he informed you. It was a simple comment , one that was an offhand remark, but to you, Mattheo had just let you into his life. It was something he had never done before. Even if it was just a response to where he was off to, it was a window into his life. A life that now may have enough room to hold you.Â
Mattheo paused when he reached the door. âI never knew the way I grew up was wrong until I saw other families. I saw the parents bending down to listen to their children instead of hushing them. I saw parents comforting their children after scraped knees, not pushing them to the kitchen for some rubbing alcohol. I saw parents beaming when their child could plunk out the simplest of tunes on the piano. No one else got berated for being out of rhythm or playing a D instead of an E. I never saw another child get slapped by their parents or scolded as harshly as I was. It was around then I realised that something was wrong. But what was I to do about it?â
Words dried in your throat. You wanted to cry at his words, but you felt dried out. How could someone treat their child like that? It explained so muchâŠÂ
Your husband was a fragile man, you were just realising. And he was trying to pick up the pieces and present them to you in the only way he knew how.Â
"The stars remind me of you,â he said quietly, the change in conversation sudden. âI mean that in the best possible way.â His voice was the softest and most tender as you had ever heard it. You hoped he would keep speaking the melodies that made your heart sing in tune.Â
âHow so?â you asked, afraid to break the plane of existence that you and Mattheo were carefully standing on.
"They are so beautiful, yet so far away. I may see them, but I can never touch them."
***
The servants didnât know what to do. The master and mistress, Mr. and Mrs. Riddle, seemed to be at a ceasefire. The cooks lamented at how they had seemed to be doing so well. The maids thought they were destined to doom from the start. The butlers gossiped about Mr. Riddleâs letters to a Mr. Tom, terminating their long-term partnership. The scullery maid still had hope that the husband and wife would come to their senses and live a happy life.
It perplexed the servants when the mistress requested to move her belongings back into the master bedroom and the master looked on, a soft smile on his lips. It confused the servants when the Mr and Mrs began taking meals together and talking in hushed tones late into the night. And it bamboozled the servants when, one summer afternoon, the Lord of the household stood from his desk, cautiously moved to his Lady that was reading by the open window, and asked her to accompany him on a walk. She had accepted.Â
There was to be a dinner party, this time hosted at Mr. Draco Malfoyâs manor, that Mr. Riddle was expected to attend. Per usual, the master didnât invite the mistress, but she was content to stay home. A maid briefly heard the madam whisper to her husband, âhurry home, please? I donât like it when youâre away.â The maid had scurried away before she could hear the reply.
Mattheo returned home that night, just before the sun was setting. He climbed the steps, unbuttoning his cuffs and loosening his tie. The soft glow of light was still shining under your shared bedroom - something he still hadnât gotten used to - and Mattheo couldnât help but smile.
âWhy are you still up?â he asked quietly when he entered the room.
âYou promised to be home early and I wanted to see you before I go to bed,â you reminded him, a small book in your hands.
âRight, right.â Mattheo chuckled and shook his head, slinging off his tie and jacket.
âHow was the dinner?â
Mattheo hummed noncommittally. âNot the worst. A couple of my good friends, Theo and Pansy, were there to help alleviate the pain of socialising. But⊠I found something odd happening.â
âAnd what was that, husband?â Mattheo took a moment to relish in the way that word curled off your tongue effortlessly.
âI found myself wishing you were there. Nay,â he quickly corrected himself. âI wished I was here with you.â
âOh?â Your eyes flickered up towards Mattheo, a slight blush coming to your cheeks. âWhy⊠what do you mean by that?â
Mattheo began to unbutton his shirt and moved towards his closet. âWell,â he admitted, mumbling to himself. âI simply mean that instead of having to socialise with people who are too tightly wound and whose only intent is to take my money,â he chucked his belt into his closet and rolled up his sleeves, âI would rather be at home with my darling wife.â
A smile inched up your lips. âReally? Tell me more about this darling wife of yours.â
Mattheo hummed, stepping towards the bed. He crawled down on the bed, leaning on his forearms to lean up towards you. âMy wife⊠Iâve come to care deeply about her. She is a beautiful, elegant woman, one who has a fiery tongue about her and an intelligent brain that even I cannot rival. She always seems to get her way, even when I try to fight back. Itâs as if my wife has a command over me that I have willingly submitted to. And I am not ashamed to say so.â He lightly caressed your arm, sending a trail of goosebumps up your skin.Â
âYou must be careful, Mattheo,â you uttered. âThat sounds an awful lot like love.âÂ
Mattheo brought his eyes up to meet yours, the sting of tears building up behind them. His voice cracked as he said, âthatâs the first time youâve called me by my name, Y/n.â
Your lips parted in shock. âI- I didnât realise. Iâm sorry-â
âDonât you dare apologise,â Mattheo demanded before reaching up to pull you into a kiss.Â
His lips were soft and meaningful against yours, hungrily trying to gather every ounce of love from you. His kisses were feverish at first, his strong hand coming up to cup your jawline, his fingers just teasing behind your ear, before his lips slowed. Mattheo was a starved man and he wouldnât let anyone take away his only solace. He shifted so he could be closer to you, gently taking the book from your hands as you surrendered yourself to him. Your hands found his silk shirt, gripping it in your fists. He placed the book on the nightstand and moved so he was hovering over you, never once letting a second go by without feeling your skin against his.Â
Mattheo slowly, achingly pulled away from you and his eyes fluttered open to meet yours. âMy darling, my love, my life,â he murmured, dragging a knuckle down your cheek. âI apologise for everything I have ever done or said that made you feel inferior. I would be happy to kneel for you in front of my associates and family members - just to show them how much power you have over me.â He took a breath before persisting, âI was foolish. I was incompetent. I didnât realise how much love I held for you. It is, and always will be, only you. I will promise you this: you will be the only woman I ever touch, the only voice I ever want to hear, the only skin I will ever caress, and the only eyes I ever want to see. I will wake and fall, every morning and night, thinking of you. You are the other half of my heart, for it is you who I love. I will place the galaxies and stars in the night sky for you. If you are ever unhappy, my love, I will not rest until I see you smile again. If you are ever mad, my love, I shall smite whatever upsets you, even if it is I. And I would die a happy man if you could give me only an ounce of what I give you.â
Your breath shook and you swore Mattheo had injected ambrosia into your veins for you were sure your blood was singing with the love that was filling your soul. âI wrote a letter to your mother today,â you offered quietly, as if your mere words could ever compare to the love poem Mattheo had just gifted to you. âAnd I thanked her.â Mattheoâs eyes flashed with confusion. You continued, âI thanked her for birthing such a wonderful husband and for raising him. I know you u wish to renounce your family, but as of now, I want to thank them with all my heart. Mattheo, I love you.â
âAnd I you,â Mattheo whispered, bringing his forehead down to rest on yours. His nose bumped against your cheek and he couldnât contain his grin anymore. âHow did I ever get so lucky?â he mumbled.
You laughed lightly. âLuck? Fate?â
Mattheo shook his head and his nose brushed light curves over your skin. âNo, my wife. Simply love. Pure, unconditional love.â
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The house was bright, the curtains pulled as far open as they could be. Some servants scuttled around, holding laundry or preparing for dinner. Meanwhile, Mattheo strode leisurely through the halls, smiling lovingly as his nephews chased each other through the halls. âWhat do I say, boys?â he called after them.
âHave fun, be safe, and donât get caught!â they yelled back before running around a corner.
Enzo jogged after them and grumbled to Mattheo, âitâs not your duty to rule them up.â
âAs their favourite uncle, yes, it is.â
âYour wife is in Andromedaâs room,â Enzo told his brother before sprinting off after his sons. Enzo wasnât usually at Riddle Manor, but today was a special day. It was Orionâs birthday.
Mattheo chuckled to himself before Orion raced up the steps, panting. âPapa! Papa!âÂ
Mattheo grinned widely and scooped Orion up. âAre you alright, hm? Whatâve you been up to?â
âAunt Pansyâs carriage just pulled up!â Orion bounced in Mattheoâs arms, beaming.
âAnd youâre not even dressed,â Mattheo stared at Orion, pretending to be stunned. âWhereâs your mother, Ori?â
âSheâs helping Andy get dressed,â Orion announced. Mattheo nodded and carried his son to his daughterâs room. âMum!â Orion cried out, seeing Y/n standing behind Andromeda, knotting her hair into a braid.Â
âOh, my darling,â Y/n tied Andyâs hair up before crossing to Mattheo and taking Orion from his arms. âAre you excited for your birthday?â
Orion hummed excitedly and wiggled down from Y/nâs arms. He darted to Andromeda and wrapped himself around her in a tight hug. Andromeda grumbled, but allowed him to cling to her as she finished her hair and rouge.
Mattheo took Y/nâs hand and pulled her back toward him, nudging his nose against hers. âLook at that,â he murmured, reaching down to play with the silver and green ring on your finger. âMine.â He pressed a kiss to your temple. Slowly, as to not arouse suspicion from your children, he backed you up and caged you against the wall in his arms. âSeven years with you and two beautiful children to show for it.â
âHey, mum? Whereâs my- eugh!â Andromeda turned around and reeled back from the scene in front of her. âFor the love of Salazar, please get a room!â
âWe are in a room.â Mattheo smirked, glancing up from the crook of your neck.Â
âArenât you two, if I'm doing my calculations correctly, nearing thirty years old?â Andromeda tsked and rolled her eyes.Â
âYou believe that simply because weâre getting older, Iâm going to stop loving your mother?â Mattheo chuckled before pressing a light kiss to your jawline.Â
You shivered and tucked your face into your husbandâs chest. âMatty, spare the poor children,â you chastised lightly. âWhat do you need, darling?â you turned towards Andromeda.
âYou used to call me that,â Mattheo whined. He stepped back from you, letting you out of his embrace.
Andromeda sighed and asked, âwhere is my white shawl? Itâll go well with the dress Iâm planning to wear to Orionâs party.â
âWhy does it matter what you wear to Orionâs party?â Mattheo asked, puzzled.Â
âBecause Albus Potter is going to be here,â you said as if it were obvious.
âHarry Potterâs son?â Mattheo asked incredulously. âThat scumbag?â
Both you and Andromeda ignored Mattheo and Orion left the room at the sound of Aunt Pansy entering the foyer and shouting out for her favourite nephew.
âYour shawl should be in the library,â you answered. âOri was using it as a blanket yesterday.â
Andromeda sighed and turned towards the door. âHe needs to stop taking my things. Just last week he stole my candelabra so he could read in the dark. Perhaps you should accelerate his schooling. Heâs getting bored, you know.â
âWeâll raise our own son, thank you, Andromeda,â Mattheo raised a brow. Andy huffed and and flicked her dress out behind her dramatically, exiting the room. Mattheo turned to you and said, âthey get that from you. The love of reading.â
âYes, but they get their flair for the dramatics from you. And lest us not forget, you keep fuelling our love of literature by buying more books and expanding our library,â you countered.
Mattheo hummed. ââTis true. But how could I live without spoiling my wife and children?â He whirled you around in his arms and pressed a long kiss to your lips. âSpeaking of children, what would you think of expanding our family?â
You let out a laugh. âYou simply like the act of making a bigger family.â
âI love my children too,â Mattheo defended.
You reached up and brushed some of his hair away from his face. âYes you do,â you smiled up at him. âYou love your family very much.â
âAlways.â
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Tormented by a Ghost
Pairing: Simon 'Ghost' Riley x F!Reader
TW: small mention of smut and simon being kinda mean
TY TO MY BETA FOR MAKING THIS 10X BETTER @c-h-a-r-n-i-k
Tired of living with your family, you decide to move out. There's just one problemâ Rent is too costly to afford on your own. You complain about it to your friend, and they tell you that they know someone who's also looking for a roommate and preferably another female. Fantastic!
Your friend gives you her number and ya'll are moving in together by the end of the month. It was great. No nagging parents, no micromanagement, nothing. You loved it. Until your roommate brings her man over. And he's a fucking bully.
--
You're crawling home from a hard day at work, and you want nothing more than some wine on a quiet night. Unlocking the door, you step into the flat. The lights aren't turned on so you assume your roommate isn't home.
Dumping your bag in your room, you make a beeline towards the kitchen. As you're bent over in the fridge, your roommate's door opens.
"Hey,â you call out, "I'm pourin' myself a glass of wine if you're interested!"
Then an assertive, baritone voice speaks from behind you.
"You must be the roommate."
You give an ear-piercing scream as you jump, whipping around to face him with a hand over your racing heart.
"Fuckin' hell! No, it's okay, I don't need my hearin' er nothin'." he scolds.
"What the fuck! I almost flat-lined with my head in the fridge because of you!"
Then you get a good look at him. This monster of a man is a minimum 6'3, with a black balaclava covering his face, a black long-sleeve shirt, and grey sweats. You tried real hard to not ogle the tattoo that stains his exposed left arm. And the grey sweats, we all know why. Cursed be your fetish for thick forearms and big hands.
He leans his head back, looking down his nose at you.
"I think it'd be an improvement," he says, "You face down, I mean," and your eyebrows shoot up to your hairline as he chuckles.
You don't know who he thinks he is, talking to youâa complete strangerâ like that but you aren't about to take his shit.
You sneer. "Fuck you. Yeah, I bet that's the view you get the most. Women willingly turn away to not get a look at your mug. Did my roommate ask you to put that mask on so she could face you during sex?"
He steps forward, his height allowing him to tower over you, and growls out, "You callin' me ugly?"
Smirking, you roll your eyes. Of course.
"I don't see any other reason for you to hide your face. Not that it matters to meâ I'm not the one that has to tolerate it."
His eyes squint at you as he retorts, "I'm quite the opposite."
Opening your mouth, you're about to tell him that he can say whatever helps him sleep at night when your roommate calls out to the big brute in front of you.
"Ghost? What's taking so long?" she asks.
You tried and failed miserably to hide your mocking giggle at hearing his name, and he leers at you in response. "Go on, Ghost. You're being called back into the realm of the dead."
As he steps away, he says with contempt, "Dumb little bird doesn't know what she's talking about," before walking over to your roommate, looping his arm around her shoulders and going into her room.
He probably doesn't even know your name and he laid into you like he's hated you his whole life. After pouring yourself a glass of wine, you shake your head and walk towards your bedroom. Freak.
--
One day, after having your friend with benefits over in the morning for some nice stress relief, you walk him out. And fucking Ghost is sitting on the couch with his arms crossed. You quickly shuffle your friend out the door, face glowing with embarrassment.
Why was he here? Jesus Christ, now he's going to watch you do the walk of shame around the flat. Hopefully, he won't say anything. As you walk away from the door to the kitchen to get a bottle of water, Ghost speaks up.
"Well, that was pathetic."
You hang your head and close your eyes in resignation. Should've known someone as toxic as he wouldn't mind his own goddamn business.
"What now, Ghost?"
He sounds oddly smug as he says, "I've been here for a couple of hours, and I didn't hear anything coming out of your room. Sounds like he doesn't know what to do with a cunt."
Behind gritted teeth, you grind out, "Don't worry about my pussy, bud. You've got yours coming in," and you hold the n as you look at your watch, "30 minutes. Now piss off."
As you stomp away towards your room, the bottle of water all but forgotten, you hear him let out a deep chuckle. He's an asshole. A physically attractive one, sans the face, but still an asshole. You're going to have to get your friend to come over more often if Ghost is going to continue being around with those jacked arms and deliciously tight grey sweats.
Sucking your teeth, you make a mental note to ask your roommate why she gave him a key to your shared flat without asking.
--
A week later, your roommate has Ghost over and you figure it'd be a good time to get some action yourself. You send him a text and in less than 20 minutes, you're letting him in. Hugging him, you tell him to go to the bedroom. But he's not paying attention to youâ he's looking directly behind you.
Turning around to look, it's Ghost. Goddamn it. And this time he's shirtless with his arms crossed and a skull mask on. God fucking damn it. Pulling the arm of your friend, he looks down at you and you tell him to go on, that you'll be there soon.
He nods, walking away with one last look at the phantom leaning against your roommate's door. Exhaling a ragged sigh, you turn back to Ghost.
"Can I help you?"
He shakes his head mutely before responding, "No, lovie, but I can help you." You shake your head at his nonsense.
"No. I'm not doing this with you."
You turn to walk away when he speaks again.
"Yer really gonna let him touch you again? He clearly doesn't know what he's doingâ Bedroom's silent as a crypt. Even with those glasses he's got on, he can't find what he should be lookin' for."
Insulted for your friend, you face Ghost with a disbelieving look on your face.
"You're not seriously standing here trying to cockblock me. Youâ" his audacity has you stammering, "You have no idea what I'm like. Maybe I'm just naturally quiet in bed."
Ghost stares at you for a solid minute before he shrugs and goes back to your roommate.
Unbelievable asshole. Why does he have to look so good shirtless, the berk.
--
You start noticing that Ghost is there a couple of hours before your roommate gets there and you'd think it's weird if you weren't too busy being distracted by the fact that he's always taunting you one way or the other. And then one day, you question him on it.
"You do know your girlfriend won't be home until the evening? It's barely 3."
Ghost turns his head from the TV to look at you and grunts.
"Not my girlfriend." That's news to you.
"Then why you spendin' so much time over here? You're gonna have me thinkin' you like spending time in my delightful presence." you banter with a teasing smile.
Ghost continues to stare at you and the heated look in his eyes confuses you but then he turns back to the TV.
"I can't stand ya, ya daft bint."
You pretend you don't hear the muted tenderness in his voice.
--
And on a sunny day, it all comes crashing down. The boys are over again, but this time Ghost is boring holes into the back of your head as you both go into your respective rooms. You're straddling your boy's hips shirtless when you hear your roommate's furious yelling from the other side of the flat and then stomping towards the front door before it slams closed.
After your bedroom door is busted open, the bolt being broken out of the faceplate from the brutal strength behind the forceâ and you're jumping off the bed and crossing your arms over your exposed chest.
It's Ghost and he's staring directly at your friend on the bed.
"No." He stomps over to grab your friend by his shirt and drags him off the bed and towards the front door before tossing him against it with a nasty-sounding slam.
"Get the fuck out."
Your friend is spluttering when Ghost cuts him off.
"If I see you here again, I'm turninâ those silly little glasses," and he taps a lens with his finger, "into contacts. Now get the fuck out. I won't repeat myself." And with that, he trips over his own feet running out the door.
You're standing in the living room. eyes are wide in disbelief. What just happened? There's a moment of silence before Ghost breaks it.
"Your roommate won't be coming back today." He walks over to you picks you up to sit you on the kitchen countertop and lifts his mask over his mouth.
"Now. You're going to come on my tongue before I fuck you and personally test out this 'I'm quiet' theory, pet." You look down at him and sigh.
"I think I'm gonna need a new roommate," you lament.
Pulling the gusset of your knickers to the side, he says, "Don't worry your pretty little head over that. I'll be moving in with you. Also, no. You don't have a choice."
He digs his fingers into your thigh and purrs against your skin, âIf you find it in you to scream, my real nameâs Simon.âÂ
And with the way his usually sharp tongue delicately rubs against your clit, you can't find it in you to argue.
A/N: dreamt of this and it had me in a chokehold.
#call of duty#simon ghost riley#cod#cod mw2#cod mwii#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley#simon riley x reader#ghost simon riley#simon ghost x reader#simon riley x you#ghost mw2#ghost cod
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CAT PARENTS - LN
pt.2
summary : A kitten is all it takes to get two strangers in the same bed for the night. Lando likes how she doesnât know him, Olivia likes the cat that heâs trying to take from her.
warning : Just Lando, Olivia, and Juna being adorable (again) !
word count : 1459
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Iâm in Landos clothes in the bathroom thirty minutes later. I had the best shower of my life, wiping away my club stink and snuggling into baggy sweats and a McLaren shirt.
I hype myself up in the mirror, thereâs very few occasions where iâve stayed over at a manâs house. All of those have been after sex. I am not going to have sex with Lando. Itâs a weird learning curve but I was the one who wanted me to stay more.
He lets out a laugh when I walk out, slapping his hand back over his mouth he says, âI didnât mean to laugh!â
I smile and spin around, âThatâs fine. I mean⊠I do look sort of ridiculous.â his clothes do not fit me by any meansâŠ
He shakes his head, playing with Juna who is chasing a feather attached to a stick, âNo, you look good.â His voice is a bit raspy, sounds tired.
This should not have an effect on me but the butterflyâs are definitely there.
âSo Olivia.â he uses my real name, âIf you donât like F1, what sports do you like?â
I smile and sit next to him, âSoccer mostly.â
He side eyes me, âFootball?â
I eye him right back, âSoccer.â
He smiles, happy with our disagreement, âWhy not Formula?â
I sigh and shrug, âSort of rough on an Americans sleep schedule. My dad loves it actually! But when I got to college I never got back into it.â
âThatâs good.â
âWhat, that I never got back into it?â I look at him playing with Juna, a rouge curl falling into his face.
âNo. You said your dad loves it. Thatâll mean he likes me.â There go those damn butterflyâs, âUnless he doesnât like McLaren.â
I smile to myself, âHeâs a ferrari fan.â
He sighs, âAh⊠might have to win his trust then.â I should not be thinking about how much my dad would like Lando.
I lean back against my arms, âAnd what makes you so sure youâre going to meet him?
He smiles softly back at me, âWe have a child together now.â He grabs Juna and brings her close to his face. Something about him and this cat is just melting my heart.
âRight.â I smile and pet under her chin, âLovely. Weâre stuck together forever, I guess.â
His blue eyes meet mine, âI guess.â
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âOh my-â I take a bite of my burger that Lando and I ordered. The burger was the first thing ordered, followed by fries, two milkshakes, chicken tenders, more fries, chips, and onion rings.
Lando laughs at my groaning as he nibbles on his chicken, âLike it?â
âIt even tastes rich.â I shake my head, âWanna try?â I donât know why I say it. I hate sharing my food, I wonât even share my water with my best friend.
He shakes his head, âNah iâm sort of⊠picky.â
âSuit yourself.â I shrug and keep eating.
âBack to our game?â He asks, biting into a fry. I nod as he starts, âFavorite color?â
âBlue, Navy.â Although his eyes could be changing my mind on the navy part. âFavorite holiday?â
âChristmas. Itâs always during winter break, obviously. So I get all the time I want with my family.â
âThatâs really sweet.â I sip my milkshake, âIs it hard, being away all the time? Even if you do love it.â
âNot your turn yet.â He raises a brow, âWhatâs your favorite memory from your childhood?â
âHm⊠I wasnât exactly a child, But still. I was seventeen and had just got out of a horrible relationship.â he frowns at this, âDonât worry I poured coffee on him- anyway my friends and I drove to the beach, absolutely blasting Taylor Swift, and we just swam in our clothes.â I shrug, âIt was like midnight.â
He smiles as I tell the story, âItâs so cool you grew up by the beach.â thank you cali.
âAnswer my question now, please.â
He sighs, âItâs hard. My sister has a kid so I wish I was with her a lot⊠but honestly my parents can make it to a lot of races and itâs not like I have a girlfriend to worry about.â I laugh at this.
I try to sound casual, âIâm assuming you have in the past?â
âYesâŠâ he says suspiciously, âbut itâs tough. What about you, got anyone special?â
âDefinitely not. Broke up with my college boyfriend a while agoâŠâ Why am I telling him this?
He whistles, âHow old are you?â
âTwenty three.â
âGood.â
âGood?â
âIâm twenty four.â
âThat is good.â I laugh and he laughs with me, âYouâre young.â I say.
He shakes his head, âSo are you. I forget sometimes.â
âThat youâre young?â
He shrugs and wipes his hands on a napkin, âBeing a driver doesnât exactly scream âfirst job!ââ
âI never really thought about that. My first job was a wedding calligrapher though.â He laughs, âIâm serious!â
âI believe you! Itâs just⊠random.â
âYouâre random.â I roll my eyes as if that was any insult.
I hear scraping and see Juna join us on the bed the next second, I laugh at the tiny kitten climbing up the bed. She walks right on top of Lando, up his arm and on his neck.
âShe likes me!â He whisper yells. I lay my head on the pillow, getting tired after my day.
âShe has good reason to.â I say as I yawn, closing my eyes.
âDonât fall asleep on me now, Livvy.â
âIâm notâŠâ
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LANDO NORRIS
She fell asleep. I look at the clock, 2:23am. I set Juna down but she keeps trying to get my attention as I clean up our food.
Iâve enjoyed this far too much. I like her company.
This girl iâve just met. I barely know her!
Yet I feel like I've known her for years.
I shouldnât get attached. I donât easily. But with Olivia it feels like I've known her since I was in school.
That could be the late hours talking though. But still, weâve been talking for hours. With this bloody cat who I've fallen completely in love with.
âNorris.â I hear her whisper.
âYes, love?â I let it slip by accident.
âJuna peed on the couch.â she pats the bed, âCome on.â
I thank god because my back would be fucked if I slept on the floor and my trainer would not be happy. I switch the lights off and climb in next to her, Juna in between us.
âNight, love.â She whispers before promptly falling asleep.
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OLIVIA WREN
I wake up to an arm around me and a man standing above me. I scream.
âFuck!â Lando pulls his arm away immediately, opening his eyes quickly and looking at the man in screaming at, âMax!â he groans, âYou didnât have to scare her!â
âSorry.â He crosses his arms, âIâm Max.â
âHi?â I try to slow my heart rate, âGod! You scared me!â I look back up at him, Lando mentioned the childhood friend but I didnât think Iâd meet him so soon.
âSorry again. Lando scared me first! Bloke canât figure out how to use his phone!â Max throws his phone at Lando who dodges it. Iâm still trying to recall why I'm here and what is happening.
Juna reminds me when she trots over and plants herself on my lap. âI thought youâd been killed or something!â Max yells at Lando whose face is still in the pillow.
Iâm suddenly very self conscious about being in this bed. Max seems to notice and shakes his head, âWell now that I know youâre alive⊠Plane takes off in an hour.â
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Heâs packed in fifteen minutes. Why couldnât he be a slower packer?
Weâre quiet up until the elevator exit, âJuna is still half mine.â He says suddenly, the blue skies coming into view as we walk outside.
âOkay?â
âSo donât forget me, or anything.â He says, looking away from me.
The corner of my mouth lifts, âNo chance.â Putting his bags down, he slides my phone out of my pocket and into his hand.
âMy number.â He says before handing me my phone back, âUse it all you want.â
âOh I should be so greatful.â I say it sarcastically but honestly, I am.
He nods, a small smile still gracing his face, âBe safe, alright? Donât go home with any more strangers.â
My grip on Junaâs carrier tightens, âWeâll see.â
He says goodbye to Juna, sticking his finger through the wire and petting her. He stands up straight, taking his things as the valet brings his car.
âGood luck.â I say quickly, he looks almost surprised. âIn your race. Maybe Iâll watch.â
His surprise turns into kindness, leaning down a bit, he places his lips softly on my cheek, âDonât scream my name too loud, love.â
I blush as he steps back, I wave. He gets into his car and looks back through the slight tint, smiling.
note : should i do a pt.3??
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scaramouche spots your journal while you're out and about (without him, not that he's bothered by this, nope, of course not), and is thrust into a moral dilemma. this moral dilemma is overseen by two little imps on each side of his shoulder. there is no angel, just an imp with slightly less pronounced horns than its compatriot. this one poses the argument that if you ever found out, you'd be upset, which would make him upset, because he sustains himself off your positive attention.
the other side contends that there's no chance you'll ever find out if he's discreet. the benefits outweigh the risks â how much useful information could he glean from an unfiltered look into your mind? he could nip any dissatisfaction you profess about your relationship in the bud. or investigate any individual you mention more than the acceptable amount of once (twice for family). this last point especially entices him.
in the end, he heeds the fully formed imp's counsel.
he's familiar enough with your presence to know when you're nearby. with this failsafe in mind, he gets to reading.
naturally, he flips to the date where you first met (yes, he has it memorized). he scoffs at your initial take on him, which says you met a 'haughty yet pretty individual.' from his recollection, he was quite amiable with you. hmph. nonetheless, he continues his diligent search. experiencing the progression from 'stranger' to an 'unexpected friend.'
your fondness for him gradually lifts from the paper and touches the heart he thought he didn't have.
'... he acts indifferent, but i can tell he cares in his own, unique way. he does so many little things, like planting flowers in my garden that i admired during a walk we went on together.'
'if we encounter any hostile creatures, he immediately moves his body in front of mine to protect me. i know he can take care of himself, but if he ever got hurt on my behalf, i would be devastated...'
'love has always sounded like such a nice, abstract concept. i patiently waited for the day i'd get to experience it myself. i've finally found it with kunikuzushi.'
scaramouche is presented with a new dilemma once he's finished reading.
how will he explain away the fresh tearstains that've seeped into the pages...?
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Itâs such a simple thing really, but âdo you want me to be alive?â is one of, if not the saddest, things written in the entire world of one piece. Although, maybe thats just because of my soft spot for found family tropes (especially siblings lol)
Ace is just a small little boy here, a fragile thing compared to the character we all know. This is a harsh contrast compared to Ace in his adulthood, where heâs fueled by his ache to prove himself and prove that heâs more than his father. You never would have guessed the reality of his childhood, considering the cheery and almost comedic relief he can be at times.
I guess I kind of expected this, though. Aces hatred for himself and feeling that he doesnât deserve to be alive was first hinted through his self deprecative jokes, before we ever knew about his past or who he was. I noticed this myself, that through the facade of sarcasm and cockiness thereâs just a guy who feels like his life is a burden to all those around him. And what does it all come down to? His blood, the last name that he refuses to bear out of his hatred for the man who gave it its meaning.
Ace going by his mothers last name isnât just a testimony for his respect and love for her, but also an act of defiance against his father. I donât blame him lol, but itâs honestly heartbreaking that Ace has no idea that Roger did love him, and Ace died not knowing this.
The result of Rogers actions on the world though basically fucked Ace over for his entire life, and that was what made Roger selfish.. to go and cause a war and then have a son? Itâs no surprise that Ace is seen as the child of the devil, because thatâs exactly what Roger was seen as.. the devil.
So for all of Aces childhood heâs taught one thing: that his father was the devil, and that he is the child of that monster. That he doesnât deserve to live, and whatâs worse is he has to listen to strangers talk about murdering Rogers son, if he ever had one. Heâs barely even lived to know anything, heâs just a baby, and he already believes what the ENTIRE world thinks of him, heâs hated and worthless and a burden. Thatâs so much for a 10 year old to have to carry alone, and itâs even sadder to see how this causes Ace to be shut off and cold to everyone he meets.
But of course he is.. hearing people talk about murdering him if he did exist (not directly him because no one knows Ace is Rogers son, except Garp and the mountain bandits. Besides, the world believed Roger having a son was a rumor anyway.) doesnât make his hatred for anyone he meets that unsurprising. For all he knows, they want him dead too.
When Ace meets Luffy, heâs completely baffled that this boy heâs never met before wants to be his friend! How can someone WANT to be his friend? No ones ever been like that to Ace before, except for Sabo. Even after Ace pushes Luffy away, and makes it extremely obvious he hates him and doesnât want Luffy near him, Luffy doesnât give up. Heâs urgently insistent on being Aces friend.
SoâŠ
âYou feel better when youâre around me?â
âYou need me?â
Ace is almost at a loss for words here. Luffy feels better around him, Luffy needs him. Heâs wanted, heâs loved and heâs cared for, someone notices him for more than just a mistake, that is both beautiful and heartbreaking. And back to this panel:
The way ace nervously fidgets with his hands here (I believe he is, anyway) and his head is tilted downwards.. heâs clearly asking something that means everything to him.
âDo you want me to be alive?â
And little Luffy just instantly, without hesitation, says of course is soooo fucking cute and sweet and UGHHHH!!! Luffy is the first person to EVER say he WANTS (fr gotta emphasize on the want) Ace to be alive. This changed the trajectory of Aces life forever.
I guess Iâll stop here but thereâs so much more I could talk about and say.. but Ace and Luffy are very special to me
my small babiesâčïž
#portgas d ace#one piece#one piece ace#monkey d. luffy#ace one piece#straw hat luffy#luffy and ace#asl brothers#one piece marineford#marineford#post war#analysis#writing#one piece analysis
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â§.* must love dogs; csc one shot.
â§.* synopsis: after a breakup (three years ago) your friend finally attempts to get you back on the saddle by creating you a dating profile despite your protesting, hooking you up on dates with some of the eligible bachelors of their choice, none of which impressed you. until one day you met the boy with the dog.
part of my seventeen movie series.
paring: seungcheol x reader (y/n uses she/her pronouns.)
genre/s: fluff, strangers2lovers
warning/s: alcohol mentions, swearing, cigarette mentions, swearing, some pg-13 jokes.
word count: 3.7k
note: im notorious atp for not editing, pls. I hope you enjoy my lil must love dogs inspired fic, its one of my fav movies!! xo.
âSo how was bachelor number five?âÂ
With a roll of your eyes, you gazed at your friend Seungkwan resting his feet on top of your shared glass coffee table, ticking the tip of the city guide book and magazines rested on top.Â
âBoring. He was nice or whatever, good looking, but he wouldnât shut up about league of legends and his job. Other than that he asked me no questions about myself or what I do. A failure as most would call it.âÂ
âSo I take it you wouldnât want to go out with him again?âÂ
âGod, whatever gave you that impression? I thought you could tell we were headed for marriage?âÂ
âHey. Iâm doing you a very nice thing, you donât have to be so sarcastic about it.âÂ
âLook, I know. But just because Jun is getting married and I still havenât moved on doesnât mean I need to be dating all of the sudden.âÂ
The boy patted the seat next to him. Scooching over from his spot, making room for you on the couch.Â
â Itâs been nearly three years since you ended it with him. At least fuck someone before you dry up.âÂ
âThatâs fucking gross and what vibrators are for.âÂ
A small scream left your friend's mouth as he covered his ears trying to remove what he had just heard coming out of your mouth.Â
âY/n his wedding is in two months, we need to find someone to bring thatâs not me. You donât want to feel the embarrassment of his pity party and everyone feeling sorry for you.âÂ
âWhy canât you just be my date?âÂ
âToo obvious. Plus your whole family will be there, just do it or you know your parents will be in your case again. This â secret manâ youâve been seeing doesnât exist and I think your Mom is starting to catch on.âÂ
He was right. Your parents come from a high status, as do your ex boyfriends, they were the reason you both had met and became friends in the first place. But, when your relationship ended you lied to them, it was working well until you got a call from your very upset mother telling you Jun showed up to your house with his family and a girl on his arm that wasnât you.Â
âOkay, then why canât I choose my own date?âÂ
âThe men you chose to quote on quote date are literally disturbing, Iâm sorry but itâs the truth. Like that one dude you brought here last time? Whatever the fuck his name was literally was wearing a necklace vial of his own blood and claimed drinking your own urine and reusing water is the only way we can save the planet.âÂ
âOkay, but he was nice.âÂ
âHe literally didnât flush the toilet because he only went number one. Thatâs fucked, no.âÂ
âCan I at least, like at the very least have some approval over the men you match me with then?âÂ
âMaybe.âÂ
â Kwanie, please. Come on, donât make me use the what goes around card, itâs my turnâÂ
âNo, it's absolutely my turn.âÂ
âNot true, you wasted it two months ago when I had to bail you out of that strange house party orgy thing by saying your dog died and coming in crying to a bunch of naked strangers. You owe me.âÂ
âValid.âÂ
âHow did you not realize what that party was anyway?âÂ
âThis is not currently about my life failures, but yours my beautiful friend.âÂ
Laughing at Seungkwan's major mishap, you forgot to greet your dog, Lucky. She was waiting and crying at your feet, finally waking up from her sweet slumber to greet you.Â
âHello my baby, do we have to go outside?âÂ
âShe went for a walk this afternoon, but after her dinner she crashed so she probably wants a walk. I can go if you want to change or shower.âÂ
âNo itâs alright, I can take her, you're already in your pjâs and after my date I need a distress, want anything from the mart?âÂ
âIce cream?âÂ
With a small nod you jumped up, taking the small curly creature in your arms and grabbing her harness before heading back outside into the warm spring air.Â
Ten minutes into your evening stroll, you decided to sit on the green wooden bench overlooking the water, the same bench your grandmother always spoke about when you asked her the same story about how she and your grandfather got engaged. The gold plaque with their names rubbing off sitting behind your back.Â
Suddenly you heard a man yelling from behind you, running through the green grass lit up with fluorescent lights.Â
âHey, Kkuma, no come back.âÂ
A small white dog came up behind Lucky sniffing her and starting to play, you noticed her cute hairclip and ran your hands through her fur.Â
âGod, Iâm sorry. She normally doesnât run off like that.âÂ
âItâs okay my dog lov-âÂ
As you turned around to look into the round eyes of the owner, you were stunned with how beautiful he was.Â
His dark hair pushed under a cap, a white t-shirt too big for his frame sitting beautifully in his toned shoulders, and his red sweatpants matching his shoes.Â
The unfamiliar man was bending down now petting your precious pet and his own at the same time talking to them in sweet baby voices.Â
âThis is Kkuma by the way, and you are?âÂ
âY/NâÂ
âHi y/n, youâre so cute, you and kkuma can be best friends if your mom lets you.â
You let out a roaring laugh realizing he thought you had introduced your pet and not yourself.
âOh sorry, did I say something wrong?â
âNo, no. Itâs just Iâm y/n this is Lucky sorry my fault.âÂ
âOh god, cool. Sorry Lucky, Iâm Seungcheol. You can call me Cheol and this is Kkuma.âÂ
âNice to meet you Cheol and Kkuma.âÂ
âYou too. Look I know I just met you and all, but Iâm new to the area. I was wondering if youâd want to get coffee and let the girls hangout sometime?âÂ
âOh. Yeah, of course. Let me give you my number.âÂ
Seungcheol handed you his cell phone with a new contact page pulled up giving you full reign to type your name and number into his list.Â
Handing the device back to him your fingers touched, creating an electric shock, to not like you to believe in signs, but for some reason it felt like the universe trying to tell you something.Â
âThank you, Iâve actually got to get going, but if you're free tomorrow would you want to grab coffee and hangout at the dog park?âÂ
âYeah, totally. Just text me a time, we can just meet here. What kind of coffee do you drink? Thereâs a good spot by my apartment. I can just pick it up for us.âÂ
âWow, thatâs so nice of you. Just a black americano is cool or a cold brew whichever.â
âNo fun I see.â
âHow would you know that? Just because I donât like sugary drinks doesnât mean I canât have fun.âÂ
âI donât know, we will see.âÂ
âWe will. Iâll catch you tomorrow girls.âÂ
âNice to meet you.âÂ
âYou too!âÂ
Seungcheol left the same way he came running through the grass with Kkuma on his heels, following him all the way back to their home.Â
Strolling back down the pathway back to your apartment, you could help but feel butterflies in your stomach, you knew nothing about the man you just met other than his name and his cute dog, but there was a lot of unknown.Â
Smiling like a Cheshire Cat, you unlocked the front door and watched Lucky sprint back into Seungkwan lounging on the couch, eating for the ice cream you had forgotten.Â
âWhereâs the snacks? Also why are you smiling like an idiot youâre freaking me out.âÂ
âWe met a guy with his dog, a very cute guy might I add, who actually asked for my number and wants to get coffee tomorrow.âÂ
â What the fuck, itâs late tell me he doesnât live in the park?âÂ
âNo he said he just moved to the area, he was clearly not a park dweller he had keys, and smelt amazing actually.â
âSmelling strangers? A new low even for youâ
âOh my god, fuck off.âÂ
Seungkwan pulled his phone out and opened various social media apps preparing himself for best friend stalking duties.Â
âWhatâs his name?â
âSeungcheol, not sure about his last name, but he goes by Cheol and his dog was Kkuma.âÂ
âGreat.. okay, found him I assume?â
âWhat the fuck, how? Let me see.â
âEager arenât we?â
âFuck off?âÂ
Grabbing Seungkwan's phone from his grip, you scroll quickly through the new faces' social media.
âYeah, itâs him.âÂ
âOkay, let me see. Wait, he's actually hot AND seems to have his own business?âÂ
âOh my god.â
âHere, lookâÂ
After the next few hours, you and your friend stumble on into your separate rooms preparing yourself for slumber, which never seems to reach you and before you know it dawn is creeping its way through your curtains, and your backup preparing yourself for a day with you and Lucky's new friends.Â
Something about your energy was excitable and nearing frantic, you could wait to step outside into the fresh air with your pocket sized princess at your side, but it was still early.Â
You had decided on pampering yourself for this morning, finding the need to make yourself up, you spread on your skin care with glee, drew perfect lines of eyeliner and strained your hair, pulling it up into a nice tight ponytail the hair tie matching the taupe tone of your sweat suit perfectly. Before you knew it it was 9:45 a perfect time for you and Lucky to step outside the door.Â
Placing her in her tote bag, you stepped inside of your favorite coffee shop, the light pink walls covered in photos and paintings, the smell of the espresso seemed sweeter.Â
âMorning, y/n you look beautiful today. Would you like the usual?â
âThank you, for me, yes. But can I also get a large americano, just black and he didnât tell me iced or hot, so iced is good I think? Or maybe hot with a cup of ice on the side? If thatâs okay?âÂ
âHe? Did you finally start dating someone?âÂ
âOh no, just a friend of mine. Seungkwan told you shit about me didnât he?âÂ
âYes. Sorry.â Â
âNo worries, can I actually get two of the plain croissants and two of the flower dog cookies too?âÂ
âNo problem, itâll be right out.âÂ
âThank you.âÂ
Taking a seat next to the pick up counter you scrolled through the instagram of the boy youâre meant to be meeting, telling yourself itâs just to remember his face, but really it was to get a peek into what else heâs into or if he was single.Â
âY/NâÂ
âOh shit, sorry. Thank you guys, see you tomorrow.âÂ
Picking up the paper coffee carrier and pastry bag, you waved goodbye to the baristas and briskly walked back to the bench you were at yesterday, your bench, spotting the back of Seungcheolâs head watching the water with his dog.Â
âHey. Sorry Iâm late.âÂ
âOh, no problem. I just got here.âÂ
Placing your items down on the bench, you freed her bag and greeted Kkuma alongside her before taking your seat.Â
âHereâs your coffee, I wasnât sure if you wanted hot or iced so I got you a cup of ice too just in case, a croissant, and a little treat for your girl too.âÂ
âWow thank you so much, hot is fine actually. How are you?âÂ
âGood, nervous. I mean itâs not every day you meet a stranger for coffee.âÂ
Seungcheol laughed, tipping his head back slightly before taking a bite of his pastry.Â
âSorry. I know itâs weird, you just seemed like someone I wanted to get to know, and Kkuma liked you so I figured youâre good people.âÂ
âWell, thank you. You too. Lucky generally does not like men other than my friend Seungkwan, my dad, and my ex-boyfriend so consider yourself special.â
âI do.â
âSo what brought you to this neighborhood? Work, a relationship?â
âNo relationship, but actually my business partner is from here. We decided to open our warehouse and stuff here because itâs much better than doing it in the city. We have a spirit company and weâre planning on opening a brewery and bar, so thatâs why Iâve been working late nights. I guess it served me well, I made a friend on my first day.â
âYouâve only been here for a full day? What the hell? You already know the best spot in town. What kind of stuff do you guys make?â
âBeer and soju mainly, weâve been working on it for five years now and are finally at a spot to open up and start selling it to people, which is cool. But what about you? What do you do?âÂ
âIâm a medical student actually, my parents are both doctors, I used to really want to be one too, but I donât know, I donât really have the same passion for it as I used to.â
âWell what would you do if you had the choice?â
âI always wanted to design stuff for dogs, start a rescue, anything like that. I got so happy seeing Kkuma as an accessory girl.â
âYeah, sheâs very stylish. I think you should go for it, you know? Why waste time becoming something for someone else and risk being unhappy just for their sake?â
âHonestly I wouldnât even know how to start a business on my own, let alone tell my parents.â
âHey, I didnât either and look where itâs gotten me.â
You turned back to the water, staring into the calm blue waters, trying not to go into your own head.Â
âYouâre oddly inspiring, Iâll give you that much.â
âThank you, y/n. Youâre oddly sassy, Iâll give you that.â
âShut up, Iâm not.â
âYou already tried to clock me by saying Iâm no fun because I drink black coffee and you said oddly inspiring like a back handed compliment. You definitely are, but I like it.Â
âGood.â
You had continued your twice weekly hangouts with Kkuma and her dad for two weeks now, getting excited whenever the days roll around to see the two of them again, but you havenât hung out once without them around, which made you wonder if your friendship or crush rather on this boy was only due to your dogs being friends themselves.Â
Seungkwan tried setting you up on more and more dates with more and more duds, he was starting to lose hope himself, knowing that the one person he could set you up with was Seungcheol but he didnât want to overstep.Â
Strolling home from another failed connection, you decide to stop and have a beer before going home to give the dirty details to Seungkwan about who you had just met.Â
Pulling open the tab of one of your drinks from your six pack, you took a deep breath and sat down, feeling your eyes welling up with tears.Â
Another can opened as you went to take the first sip. A hand comes on your shoulders, whispering a boo in your ears.Â
âWhat the fuck!âÂ
Jumping up from your seat the hand on your shoulder belonged to Seungcheol, the look in his eyes went from happy to concerned as he saw the small streaks of tears on your cheeks, you top now dribbled with spots of beer.Â
âIâm so sorry, are you okay?â
âYeah, Iâm good. Want a beer?â
âSure, thanks. Iâm sorry I scared you, I thought you heard me behind you.â
âItâs alright, I was in my own world anyway. You look nice, where are you headed?â
âSoft opening for my bar actually, I texted you, but I figured you didnât respond because you were busy.â
âOh my god, Iâm so sorry, I wouldâve loved to come. I was a bit preoccupied on an awful fucking date.â
âThat bad, huh?â
âWorse.â
âWell the good news is you technically didnât miss it, it doesnât start for another twenty minutes and youâre dressed very nice. It worked out.Â
âFuck I wish I paid more attention, I couldâve got you some flowers or something.â
âNext time. Will your roommate be alright taking care of Lucky?â
âYeah of course, he knew I would be out tonight. Iâll text him just to be sure.â
âCheers to hanging out without our kids?â
âDefinitely.â
With that suddenly your awful night and doubts about your relationship with the raven haired boy went out the window.Â
âShall we?â
âWe shall.âÂ
Seungcheol lent his arm out for you to wrap your own around, and you both stayed out that way for a few moments, before discarding your cans and walking the way to his new venture.Â
âHere it is, you ready?â
âWhen you told me you were opening this up I thought you hadnât even started? But it looks like itâs fully ready.âÂ
âAh, well we had planned to wait a bit, but weâre getting too antsy, so here we are.â
âItâs beautiful, holy shit.âÂ
âThanks, sit here, Iâll be right back.â
You took a seat on the green leather booth, looking around and taking in the ambiance of the custom lighting and ribbon like wallpaper, when a blonde gentleman walked over sitting down across from you.Â
âY/n? Right?â
âYeah, nice to meet youâŠâ
âJeonghan, Iâm Cheolâs business partner.â
âJeonghan, right. Nice to finally meet you, Iâve heard a lot.â
âLikewise, youâre so much prettier than Cheol let on actually.â
âOh?â
Without a chance to interrogate the new face further Seungcheol walked back over to your table, setting down a few bottles of various spirits for you to try, including a couple of cocktails.Â
âHe didnât scare you too much did he?â
âNot at all, he was just telling me actually how much prettier I am than you alluded to.â
âJeonghan, donât do that to her, come on. You know very well I told you she was pretty, I even showed you her instagram, you agreed.â
âI know, I just wanted to make you tell her yourself and my job is done, see you around y/n.â
âNice to meet you.â
As Jeonghan left the table you felt your cheeks growing with heat, unsure if it was the alcohol or the fact that Seungcheols friend made him confess he thought you were good looking.Â
âSorry about him, heâs a menace.â
âNo need to be sorry, I have my own menace at home and I donât mean my dog.â
Seungcheol laughed, pouring you a shot of his very own soju to taste, filling with anticipation hoping you enjoy the drink heâs serving you, looking for your approval became a big part of his mind lately.Â
Lifting your glass up to his and clinking them together, the liquor poured down the back of your throat filling your mouth with sweetness and warmth.Â
âHoly shit.â
âGood holy shit or bad holy shit?â
âNo, very good. Thatâs actually delicious. Itâs so clean and fresh.â
âThat makes me so happy to hear.â
âIâm happy youâre happy.â
âOkay, beer next. This is just a standard sour, some lime and sea salt, sort of beach vibes.âÂ
âSounds amazing, okay.â
Tipping your head back you sipped at the foamy top of the glass, savoring the flavors in your mouth.Â
âI hate you so much.â
âWhat? Why?â
âSeungcheol, you're way too humble when you talk about your business, this shit is amazing. I said I hate you because Iâm going to crave this shit and Iâll have to see you all the time.âÂ
âI thought you liked seeing me all the time?â
âYouâre okay.â
âI have to say itâs cool to be here with you without the dogs, not that they distract too much, but they definitely take away giving you my full attention.â
âI mean how could they not, theyâre cute as fuck,â
âSo are you.â
âWow, two drinks in Cheol and youâre already calling me cute? I wonder what else youâll say the more you drink?"
âTechnically weâre four drinks in, but I guess I remember the time I spent with you more than you do. Did those drinks on the bench mean nothing to you?â
âOh fuck, I did forget. I guess technically Iâm five drinks in then, catch up, bitch.â
You and Seungcheol spent the rest of the night being greeted by his friends, most of them already assuming who you were, letting you know that Seungcheol talks about you more than you realized.Â
Feeling your blood alcohol content rising, you decided to take a step outside and refresh.Â
The bell of the door opened up behind you, putting you face to face with his cherry lips once again, watching them light up a hand rolled cigarette to his lips.Â
âDoing okay?â
âYeah, just wanted to step out for a second. Are you good?â
âVery. Want a cig?â
âNo, Iâm good for now. Ask me again later.âÂ
âSo will there be a later? Youâre not ditching me now?â
âIâd never do that.â
âSo, y/n does this maybe get me a chance to take you on a date? Iâm kind of drunk so Iâm feeling oddly bold.âÂ
âIs this not sort of a date?â
âI was hoping you thought so. Is that a yes?â
âAbsolutely. I thought youâd never ask.â
âBefore we go on our date though, y/n. I have one final question?âÂ
âYes?âÂ
âDo you still think Iâm boring?âÂ
âA little.âÂ
Seungcheol grabbed your waist and spun you around, causing his perfectly rolled tobacco to fall on the sidewalk.Â
Blissfully you were giggling and laughing under the red led lights of his bar.Â
âTake it back.âÂ
âNope.âÂ
âPlease.âÂ
You looked into his puppy dog eyes and did something out of your comfort zone. Wrapped your hands loosely around his neck, placing a deepened kiss onto his lips.Â
His mouth tasted of cigarettes and salt with a hint of vanilla from the lip balm he always had on him.Â
âIs that a good âsorry I called you boringâ kiss?âÂ
âItâll do for now.âÂ
âGood. Theyâll be more where that came from.âÂ
âPromise?âÂ
âPinky promise.âÂ
You and Seungcheol unwrap from each other, finding Jeonghan standing and cheering in the window watching the two of you.Â
âCanât believe I got a hot date and a sister for Kkuma all in one.âÂ
âYou lucky dog.âÂ
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worshipping lady aphrodite while also being aroace can be challenging sometimes, but what she has taught me is that self love is equally as important.
she helps me with loving myself and realizing i'm powerful as i am, partnered or not. she awakens my inner beauty and allows me to spread kindness to strangers and friends.
because of her i've gotten more confident in giving other people compliments, even strangers.
even if i may not feel all the romantic love, i have plenty of love to share with friends, family and strangers.
thank you, lady aphrodite. i am very grateful for you. <3
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â àŒ Forbidden â àŒ
Pairing: fem!reader x choi soobin x choi yeonjun
Genre: smut
Warnings: 18+ (mdni), threesome, stepcest
Summary: The tension between you and Yeonjun reaches a boiling point when he competes with your soon-to-be stepbrother, Soobin, for your attention at a party.
Wc: 2k
You knew what you were doing was utterly wrong. You knew he could hear you through the thin walls of your family's vacation home, but you didn't care. You needed to get off, and the thought of your brother's best friend, Yeonjun, hearing just made it all the more thrilling.
You even drew out some of your moans so he could hear better if he was listening in. Of course, he was. Yeonjun was on the other side of the wall, getting hard and riled up at your sounds. He cursed himself for even thinking about touching himself to this. You probably thought he was asleep, and it would be wicked to indulge in the lovely voice of his best friend's younger step-sister.
He was oblivious to your cunning plan. But after you moaned "Yeonjun," he couldn't take it anymore. He stripped himself of his boxers, his hand immediately gripping his leaking cock and stroking it. God, he could only imagine the dirty things you were doing to yourself, imagining it was him.
The morning after your lewd actions, you found yourself in the kitchen, making breakfast. It was just your step brother, his best friend, and yourself at the family vacation home, so it was practically every man for himself. Despite only the three of you staying there, the boys often threw wild parties during your stay, so you guys were never really alone with each other.
The second person to wake up and shuffle into the kitchen was none other than Yeonjun. A flush of embarrassment crept over you as you remembered your bold actions from last night. You silently prayed he had been asleep. "Morning," he said casually, and you hummed in response, trying to maintain a cool appearance.
"I think this place is haunted. I kept hearing moaning last night," Yeonjun teased as he casually raided the fridge for orange juice. Your eyes widened, and you tried to remain composed. Yeonjun was always teasing you, so you tried to convince yourself it was just his usual antics. "Ah, guess we should call the Ghostbusters," you retorted. It was a silly remark but the best you could come up with at the moment.
Yeonjun sauntered over to you, trapping you by placing his hands on either side of the counter. "I think I can deal with the ghost myself. I have something it needs," he murmured in a low, seductive voice, pressing his morning wood against your ass. He smoothly backed away just as your step brother entered the room, loudly yawning.
As you ate breakfast in silence, eyes scanning your respective phones, your step brother broke the quiet. "Oh right. That cute girl Yujin we met on the beach? Yeah, she's coming over with some of her friends, and we're gonna have a little get-together tonight." You huffed a bit, knowing that by "get-together," your step brother meant a rager.
As much as you loved parties, your step brother's were always loud and reckless. "Sweet," Yeonjun said, high-fiving your step brother. You rolled your eyes, and the action caught Yeonjun's attention. "You know, you can always stay in your room if you want," he suggested.
You scoffed at the ideaâhow could you possibly relax in your room with loud music and even louder people? "Yeah, well, how about I call the cops when I'm ready to enjoy my bed?" you threatened. "Binnie, your sister is being mean," Yeonjun pouted playfully, throwing his arms around soobin and acting hurt.
"Be nice to my friends, Y/N," your step brother Soobin played along. In reality, you and Soobin were practically strangers. Your mother had recently started dating his dad, and you'd only known your step brother for about a year.
This trip was supposed to be a bonding experience your parents had set up, but it felt more like they were tired of having two college kids disagree all the time and had kicked you out so they could honeymoon.
Your soon to be step brother didn't want to waste the trip, so of course, he brought his hot friend, Yeonjun, whom you'd been crushing on for ages. You all attended the same college, but you and Yeonjun were both music majors, so you saw him more often, which led to your hallway crush. You saw Soobin around sometimes when he was with Yeonjun. You even thought he was cute with his bunny like smile, but you disregarded that once your parents started dating.
The party was as loud as you thought it would beâget-together, your ass. You were a few drinks in, wearing a mini pink slip dress with a sweetheart neckline and lace trimming on the top and bottom. It was very flattering against your brown skin tone, and a lot of guys seemed to think so, as you kept getting hit on. Soobin, playing the overprotective brother, shooed them off with a stern "That's my stepsister."
You were a bit grateful for his protective act; the only guy you wished would flirt with you was Yeonjun, who was busy trying to charm a pretty girl across the room. You sighed at the sight and headed to the kitchen to refill your drink.
Your refill was interrupted when someone cleared their throat behind you. "You know I can't scare them all off if you wear clothing like that," Soobin remarked, gesturing toward your outfit. You rolled your eyes. "It's a cute dress, and I'm not asking you to do this," you replied. Soobin was obviously tipsy, leaning against the fridge for balance.
"You know, I thought you were cute when I used to see you around the halls," he admitted. You froze. "Me and Yeonjun had a bet... ah, I actually shouldn't talk about it," Soobin said, taking another swig from his drink. Your curiosity piqued. "So, you guys made a bet?" you asked, trying to sound as nonchalant as possible.
"Well, we bet on who'd get you first. Guess I lost, huh," he said, raising an eyebrow and smirking. You found the action unexpectedly attractive and quickly dismissed the thought. Soobin was admittedly attractive; he looked like a lead in a romance drama. But he was about to be your stepbrother, and that bridge was burning.
You two gazed intensely at each other, the air thick with unspoken tension, until a voice broke the spell. "Hope I'm not interrupting," Yeonjun said from the doorway. "Soobin was just telling me about a bet you guys had," you replied playfully, turning your attention to him. "Oh, I thought that was dropped since I'm obviously winning," Yeonjun said, grabbing your waist, pulling you in front of him, and resting his chin on your shoulder.
The sudden closeness made your heart race. Soobin pushed himself off the fridge and walked over to the two of you. "Who decided that?" he challenged, his competitive nature flaring up. Yeonjun had clearly riled him. You stood there, flustered by the situation.Â
"How about we decide that right now?" Yeonjun murmured, holding you tighter and placing kisses along the side of your neck. You tilted your head slightly, giving him more access. "See? She wants me. She even moaned my name all last night," Yeonjun said cockily.
You were melting, powerless against his touch. You'd wanted this for so long, and you didn't want him to stop. Soobin stepped in front of you, trailing a finger up your thigh and under your dress. You let out a deeper moan when he made contact with your inner thigh.
"Well, you couldn't make her sound like that," Soobin taunted, egging Yeonjun on. You knew this was wrongânot only were you being touched provocatively by two guys in the kitchen where anyone could walk in, but one of those guys was your almost-stepbrother.
"Guys, we shouldn't do this out in the open," you warned as Yeonjun went from kisses to biting and sucking on your neck, while Soobin's hand trailed dangerously close to your panties. "Are you getting embarrassed now?" Yeonjun whispered in your ear, causing you to shudder with pleasure.
Soobin, not liking your attention being drawn away from him, traced circles on your already wet panties. You arched into Yeonjun at the sensation. The loud chants of "chug, chug, chug" from the party brought you all back to reality. "Maybe we should move this elsewhere," Soobin suggested, removing his hand.
Yeonjun quickly glanced around, making sure no one was watching before he took your hand and led you towards your room, with Soobin following closely behind. As you entered, Soobin clicked the door locked behind him. The noise from the party became a distant hum, your focus now entirely on the two boys.
"So, how about I have fun with Y/N here and you guard the door?" Yeonjun suggested to Soobin, pulling you into a kiss. Soobin scoffed at the suggestion, walking up to the two of you and positioning himself behind you, rubbing his erection against you. You moaned into Yeonjun's mouth, pressing your ass further against Soobin.
Yeonjun's hands roamed over your body, sliding down to the hem of your dress and lifting it slightly, turning the kiss more desperate and passionate. Soobin's hands traced the contours of your waist, moving up to cup your breasts through the fabric of your dress. His touch was warm, leaving you wanting more.
"You're so sexy," Yeonjun murmured against your lips, his voice laced with desire. He nibbled on your lower lip before trailing kisses along your jawline.
"He's not the only one who thinks so," Soobin whispered in your ear. His hot breath against your skin made you whimper.
You had never experienced such intense pleasure before, and it made your head spin. Soobin's hands continued their exploration, one sliding over your dress to caress your breast, gently squeezing and teasing your nipple through the fabric. A loud moan escaped your lips. You found yourself tracing the contours of Yeonjun's chest, feeling the muscles beneath his shirt.
"Let's take this to the bed," Soobin suggested, his voice low and filled with anticipation. Yeonjun nodded, breaking the kiss to lead you towards the bed. Soobin followed, his hands never leaving your body. Yeonjun quickly lost his shirt and unzipped his pants, the intensity of his gaze sending shivers down your spine.
"Looks like I go first," Yeonjun said playfully, laying there half-naked. "I don't think so," Soobin replied, still standing over the bed with you in front of him. He slid his hand up your thigh and into your panties, pushing them to the side as his fingers entered you.
The wet, intimate sound of your arousal, a soft squelch, filled the room as he did so.
Yeonjun chuckled but relished in the sight of your face twisted with pleasure. He crawled over to the edge of the bed where you were being fingered and dropped the straps of your dress, revealing your breasts. He began teasing them with his tongue. Your moans grew louder, and your pussy became wetter as you were overcome with the sensations.
Soobin started sucking on your neck, determined to leave more marks than Yeonjun. You couldn't handle all the pleasure and came all over Soobin's fingers with a loud moan.
"Aw, naughty girl," Soobin taunted. "You've ruined poor Binnie's fingers; they're all soaked," Yeonjun continued, gently parting your lips as Soobin put his fingers inside. "Suck," they commanded in unison. It was hot, and you obeyed, sucking Soobin's fingers clean of your slick.
"That's a good girl," Soobin cooed. Yeonjun moved out of the way as Soobin bent you over the bed, flipping the bottom of your dress up. His hard-on was very evident as he pressed it against your now-exposed ass. "Tsk tsk, don't get greedy now, Binnie. She already graced you with her cum all over your fingers," Yeonjun said. Soobin raised his hands in defeat and moved from behind you, letting Yeonjun take his spot. Yeonjun shoved your panties down and pushed his thick cock inside you.Â
Your arms almost buckled under you from how big he was. Yeonjun started fucking into you slowly at first, but with your repeated moans, he couldn't contain himself and began slamming messily into you.
Your moans grew louder, and your arms gave out, but Yeonjun held you up, keeping his pace. "Yeonjun, I can't take it. It's too big," you whimpered, the pace and his cock leaving your body weak.
"You can take it." he reassured you in your ear. You glanced over to Soobin, who was positioned across from you two, jerking himself off at the sight of you. Eyes half-open, fully naked, his red needy cock was in full view.
You mustered the strength to rely on your arms again, sitting up a bit. You made a come-here motion to Soobin, and he obliged. You opened your mouth to suck him off, but he was already two steps ahead and grabbed your hair, shoving his cock in your mouth. Soobin did all the work, rolling and thrusting his dick into your mouth.Â
As Soobin thrust into your mouth, you felt a surge of arousal coursing through you.
The sensation of being filled from both ends sent waves of pleasure through your body. Yeonjun's relentless pounding combined with Soobin's forceful thrusting left you in a blissful daze.Â
Your moans became muffled around Soobin's cock, the sound vibrating against him, driving him wild. He gripped your hair tighter, urging you to take him deeper.
Meanwhile, Yeonjun maintained his unforgiving pace, his grip on your hips firm as he drove himself deeper into you. As your body was on the edge of climaxing once again, you felt Soobin's cock twitching in your mouth, a sign that he was close.
Sensing his impending release, you redoubled your efforts, sucking him eagerly, wanting to taste his cum.Â
With a loud moan, Soobin reached his peak, his hot seed spilling into your mouth. You swallowed, savoring the taste of him as he rode out his orgasm. Yeonjun was close to his own climax; his pace grew sloppier, more needy with each thrust. With a final, powerful thrust, he was sent over the edge, pulling out to spill all over your back. His cries of pleasure mingled with Soobin's sounds of release.
Soobin gently pulled himself out of your mouth, collapsing onto the bed, his body glistening with sweat. Yeonjun planted a tender kiss on your neck before withdrawing.
"I think she said my name more times than you," Soobin teased, As Yeonjun wiped you clean with his own shirt. "No way in hell she enjoyed taking my dick much more than sucking yours," Yeonjun retorted, patting your ass as he finished and pulled your dress down.
"Is that so? She sure seemed happy enough to swallow my whole load," Soobin retorted, causing Yeonjun to scoff. He quickly redressed himself and threw Soobin's clothes at him. "We've deprived the party of its best guest long enough."Â
You grabbed a fresh pair of panties from your dresser and slipped on a new dress, taking a moment to touch up your makeup in the mirror.
"Yeonjun, there's a shirt that should fit you in my bottom drawer," you said, leaving the room and stepping back into the wildness of the party.
#tyuns-world#txt x black reader#x black reader#txt smut#tomorrow x together hard thoughts#tomorrow x together smut#black reader#yeonjun smut#yeonjun#yeonjun hard thoughts#yeonjun hard hours#soobin hard hours#soobin smut#soobin x you#soobin hard thoughts
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Within their not-so-angelic prescence .
âą Robin , Sunday
"Don't be afraid my dear." "...Actually i'm very much afraid-"
AN: I'm cooking for myself and the robin and sunday devotees frfr !! Also thanks for blowing up my last two posts :3
warning: yandere themes, and possibly ooc?
âą Congratulations! You were cursed with two angelic yanderes completely infatuated with you! How do you feel about that?? I'm pretty sure the fangirls and fanboys would love to be in your place.
âą Honestly how you ended up like this can be every single possibility imaginable. Whether you end up as one of Robin's crew members, Sunday's work assistant, or literally just being some random stranger walking down the bustling street as both of them stroll around. In any case you'll be the main attention of their curiosity. (ig you're just that pretty idk what to tell yall)
âą Obviously the siblings will talk to each other about this feeling towards someone they barely know, but at the end of the day siblings share! Maybe a bit of bickering or two but it'll be alright! They've got everything at their disposal to bring you to them.
If you ever hear a knock on your door, or see the BloodHound family members following you outside, don't bother about that!
âą Now that they have you in their grasp, first thing you'll be forced to do is public appearance! Why? Because then everyone will know you belong to them! Robin takes you out to her interviews and exposing you to the paparazzi. Occasionally she'll be sneaky, getting a bit too intimately close to your face and give you a small peck on your cheek as the crowd goes wild. Sunday wrapping an arm around your waist and inching you closer to him as he knows that the public will start rumors about you, him and his sister.
You're fine with that right? I mean, it's not like you had a choice anyway.
âą In terms of affection, Robin is a bit more affectionate than Sunday. Most of her interactions are genuine and soft that would lull you into a sense of comfort. If you ever tend to push her away or close yourself off from her, it's fine! Love takes time and Robin will eventually get you to love her just like she loves you.
= Sunday however, can be dependent on how you act. Don't get it wrong though, he's sweet and genuinely loves you just as much as his sister does. But if you won't comply with his requests and continue being stubborn, then maybe punishments are in order... It'll be fine! Robin will convince him not to be too harsh on you!
âą What? You don't like how suffocating it feels? You're trying to leave their side? No can do! The siblings are influential after all, they have control over your image to the public brought down in a matter of seconds! Have the people corner you with numerous and uncomfortable questions! Maybe they'll blackmail you with your own family and friends..
= Still not giving in? They'll just have a custom made dreamscape to trap you in! You'll be running through the Reverie hallways, and suddenly end up in an unknown location you have never seen before. As long as you give up and come back into their arms you'll be able to return safely under their protection.
Don't run off okay? They'll wipe your tears and embrace you tight, wrap you between their graceful wings to blind you from the wicked manipulation in play.
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Robin will be your best comfort, Sunday will be your best protection.
Just don't be fooled by their sweet, intoxicating words..
Not all angels are as innocent as they seem, remember?
#yandere hsr#yandere hsr x reader#hsr robin x reader#hsr sunday x reader#yanderehonkaistarrail#sunday x reader#Shattered Reflections#hsr x reader
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