Thinking about waiting for Ghost to be ready for a relationship (kind of continued from this post
(Kinda angsty, self doubt/depreciating thoughts)
When you ask 'What are we?', he panics. He doesn't know. He isn't ready to be a boyfriend, to meet your parents, to open up about his life-
His internal monolog is interrupted by your hand on top of his own. He hadn't realized how anxious he must have appeared- sweaty, hands trembling, shallow breaths, the works. He felt like he was being strangled, and all of this was over a simple question. Why did he ever think he could do this?
You tell him it's okay. You tell him you don't need an answer now if he's not ready. You say that you're fine with the way things are, and if he isn't ready to move forward yet, you'll wait for him.
You tell him you'll always love him regardless.
The world might as well have stopped spinning, because you love him?
He wants to tell you he loves you too, but he's scared. He's still waiting for you to leave. For him to lose feelings. For this to all have been a huge waste of time, or for you to realize you deserve better as soon as he confesses how he really feels.
For a split second, he thinks about leaving. About ghosting you. Maybe even breaking up with you- but that would require him to admit there was something there in the first place. It felt like you had snaked your way around his heart and were squeezing with all your might.
God, he couldn't imagine himself without you. He felt like a fool, naive and childish all over again. Why were you so patient with him? Couldn't you see there was something rotting inside of him?
Once again, he's dragged out of his mind by your presence. You look worried. He can't fathom why you would be worried about him. Nonetheless, he squeezes your hand in return. A simple gesture, but it means the world to you. You know he's trying. You know he's fighting with himself and losing half the battles.
You're determined to win the war.
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well... how abouuuttt "why dont you ever listen to me?" with a ghoul of your choice, maybe the other ghoul is mad at dew, or maybe dew is upset, maybe because hes been trying to communicate that hes struggling ajd the others havent picked up on it, and he just wants it to stop. idk im not that good at coming up with prompts on the spot but i hope this is a good enough idea!! 🤷
Hi it’s been ….. we aren’t going to talk about how long it’s been.
But I hope you enjoy, yall seem to love when I give Dew problems (don’t worry I love it too)
Slapping aether in here because it hurts
Anyways, cirrus makes a joke, dew needs a hug and aether is a very supportive boyfriend
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Dew doesn’t know when it began to bother him.
He sat on the couch nonchalantly watching some horror movie cirrus had thrown on. The exorcist? He doesn’t know, he doesn’t think he really cares.
“Careful cir, you’ll give him nightmares” aether teased
“He is the nightmare” cirrus rolled her eyes in a response, a playful smile at her lips. It was a joke.
His chest feels hollow as aether ruffles his hair. Something about it didn’t feel right. A normal quip that would have him saying something stupid in response, or simply giving her the finger, suddenly didn’t have the same feeling to it.
He swallowed heavy, the salvia only added to the pit in his stomach.
It’s a gross feeling, something between knowing he’s overreacting and wanting to cry at the thought that they actually think he’s a nuisance. Both are untrue, the logical part in his brain tries to convince him but it doesn’t stop the tears that sting in the back of his eyes, the flush in his face or the way his head feels like it’s full of starch.
It was a joke.
He’s overreacting, he’s certain of it but he can’t stop himself from getting up and walking away without his usual banter.
“Dew? What’s up?” Aether calls after him, following him into the bathroom.
Dew shakes his head to save his dignity. His voice will shake and crack, he knows if he even tries to say he’s ok a sob will rack his body and he won’t be able to contain himself anymore.
He’s embarrassed because he’s overreacting and he’s clutching the sink as aether puts a supportive hand on his back but it feels patronizing because he knows he’s overreacting and he’s-
“Did we say something?”
Dew sobs. Quick, choked off like it wasn’t supposed to come out because it wasn’t. Because he’s overreacting and he shouldn’t be acting like this. Because it was a joke and he’s making a scene because he can’t help but overthink everything.
“Dew, it was a joke” aether embraces him, lightly to not overwhelm him, but he can’t leave him like this. Dew barely lets go of his vice grip on the counter top to let aether pull him into himself. “She didn’t mean it, we thought you liked jokes like that”
He doesn’t. He’s said that.
Dew shakes his head and pushes away from aether enough to speak.
The crack in his voice makes him wince as he chokes and gasps the sobs back to try and get out what he’s saying without being a complete mess, but it’s pathetic anyways, he feels like a child. The way aether stares in concern makes him feel like a petulant toddler throwing a fit.
“I can’t stand them anymore. I’ve said this”
“Have you?” Aether asks, genuinely. The fact that he’s being genuine almost makes it hurt more. He wishes aether would just let him be dramatic and leave him alone.
“Why don’t you ever listen to me?” Dew all but wails. He’s louder than he means to be, another sob ringing out in the middle of his sentence. Aether looks confused and concerned, like dew has actually lost it this time, over a joke no less.
“I am, I am listening to you droplet, tell me what’s wrong”
It feels patronizing, dew knows aethers not trying to be but the frustration builds anyways.
“I’m tired aeth, I’m tired of you all acting like you hate me. No one ever acts like they genuinely like or want to be around me and it’s fucking heart wrenching” dew cries
“Water bug you know i-“ aether shakes his head, remorseful.
“No, aether you don’t understand. You all keep saying you hate me. It stings. I don’t know what to do I don’t understand why I’m the only one not worthy of kindness” dew clings to aethers shirt like if he lets go aether will disappear and stop listening to him.
“Dewdrop I’m sorry I didn’t know-“
“Stop please just - I don’t get it” dew sobs. He leans his head into aethers shirt, fist fulls of fabric brought up to his face as aether embraces him tightly.
Dew just weeps, a dam of emotions he can’t bare to vocalize comes out in tearful pleas instead.
“I don’t get it. I’m sorry. Please listen I’m sorry. I don’t understand” the demands come out in choked off cries, forceful sounds racking his small frame as aether hugs him tightly to try and get him to stop shaking.
Aether lowers them to the floor, holds dew in his lap and tries to soothe him.
“You’re not being dramatic, I’m sorry. We love you so much and I’m sorry we don’t say that” aether whispers into his hair.
Dew starts to quiet down as aether traces shapes into his back, the distraction well needed. He clings and listens and tries to focus on whatever aether is dragging into his skin with the tip of his fingers.
“So sorry waterbug, you’re ok, I love you so much. You’ve done nothing wrong”
Dew realizes what the shapes are.
He’s tracing hearts into his back.
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here’s what i think the birthdays are of everyone in the study group (and how i came to my conclusions)
troy: december 4th 1989
this is canon. easy
jeff: november 20th 1974
had to do some digging for this one. in s2e15 we see jeff’s drivers license, which lists his birthday as 11-20-1971. in G.I. Jeff (s5e11) it’s shown again, but his thumb is covering the exact year because ‘71 is now wrong. since he’s turning 40 in 2014 he would’ve been born in ‘74. nice save on the animators’ part. The episode aired on april 3rd but I guess it takes place in november, the time frame of s5 is really up in the air.
abed: march 24th 1989
for his birth date i just used the air date of his birthday episode. the year was tricky bc there’s debate about his age but here’s my reasoning. we know he’s at least 21 in mixology certification. we can assume he’s around the same age as troy and annie just bc it would be weird if he wasn’t. like also in season 1 jeff and britta are compared to his parents, and that would be weird if he was nearly as old as them. so i decided he’s turning 22 in critical film studies which means he’s 20 when he starts college. this makes sense because like troy, he had to repeat a grade in elementary school (1st grade- robin vohlers says this in s2e17), and then he probably waited a year before going to greendale just because. he’s drinking (slightly) underage in communication studies. so yeah long story short he’s basically the same age as troy. can you tell i’ve thought about this a lot
britta: october 14th 1980
in the pilot abed says she’s 28 years old, birthday in october. I decided she has the same birthday as me bc why not. she gives libra energy
annie: december 30th 1990
ok this was kind of the hardest one here bc at first her birthday made no sense. she’s 18 in season 1, 19 in season 2 as of mixology certification. but we also know she was born in 1990. (she says these 2 things in like the same scene.) so for that to work her birthday has to be in that window between december 4th and 31st. i decided she’s a capricorn which kinda makes sense (i don’t really put too much stock into zodiac signs, but it’s fun to consider with this stuff)
shirley: june 1972
we never see shirley or annie’s birthdays mentioned or celebrated so it makes sense for them to be over school breaks. and gemini works for shirley. i don’t think she ever has an exact age in the show but I decided she’s about 2 years older than jeff, 37 when the show starts.
pierce: late november 1944
bro he’s so old. in mixology certification he says his birthday was last week. and at the end of season 1 he’s “66, dick.”
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