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amialunatic Ā· 12 hours ago
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Heyyy! Iā€™d love to see some dom!sam head canons, or maybe an nsfw alphabet if youā€™re interested in writing one!
ok I know this is late but I was just a tad nervous about actually writing hehe.
This is my first writing in general. So yeah, idk how good it is, but I hope you enjoy it !!
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NSFW Alphabets
Sam Winchester (Season 1-6. With the exception of demon blood, and soulless Sam)
If anyone likes any of the particular scenarios, give me a request. I could write more about them.
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Warning: nsfw. Minors DNI.
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A = Aftercare (what theyā€™re like after sex)
Normally, very sweet. Cuddling you, gently caressing you where he was rough with you. Brushing the marks he left on you, treating you like a precious jewel. (I plan to write another one for soul-less Sam because I need more exposure to him. I'm in S6 rn)
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerā€™s)
Everywhere, but somehow it feels like Sam would love your neck. Gently nipping with his teeth, drawing out your gasps. He is very modest, so he doesnā€™t admit to having any favorite body parts of his. (Mine is his back and chest though, omfg I die)
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
Inside you (protected of course), even though he is scared of having kids and a family, thus passing down his toxic family dynamics, he secretly loves the idea of breeding you.Ā 
D = Dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
He sometimes hates that he loves pain. It makes him feel like the devil he believes he is. So he tries to keep that side inside himself. Sometimes, you can push past his limits and set free the untamed Sam and that ends up being the most mind-blowing experience you have had.Ā 
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what theyā€™re doing?)
He knows enough and guides you through it gently. Rough actions, gentle words.Ā Ā 
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Different moods, different positions. We know the man has different personalities. If he is feeling soft, you straddling and riding him with intense eye contact. If he is feeling more rage-y, from behind. OR with your legs on his shoulder, deep and intense yet extremely personal. He can see you underneath him, your eyes pleading and barely open with all the pleasure youā€™re in.Ā 
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
Oh no. He is serious. A lot of teasing, but not goofy. Itā€™s more condescending like, ā€œoh you like it? I thought you were above this. I thought you didnā€™t want this. Your body says otherwise sweetheart. ā€œ
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
Yeah he is groomed. Clean and trimmed.Ā 
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Very intimate. Romantic, but not sweet. But he knows you like it like that.Ā 
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
When he is alone during hunts and misses you, he imagines you. If he is able to, he calls you. If not, he gets himself off in the shower, cascaded in warm water, eyes closed, imagining your body and your pleading and needy voice.Ā 
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
Bondage- The man loves this. You under his control.Ā 
Voyeurism- He gets off from watching you in pleasure. Either self masturbation or toys, whatever it is, he loves the moans and gasps and his name emerging from your lips as you tip off the high.Ā 
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
Bed for sure. Kitchen counter. Shower.Ā 
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
Sounds, and your eyes.Ā 
N = No (something they wouldnā€™t do, turn offs)
Hurt you. You guys can be rough which is why you have a safe word. He retreats and becomes his gentle self if he hears so much as a whisper of that word.Ā 
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
He loves to give. But he loves to receive too. Both are intense. When he is eating you out, nothing can stop him. He is fully into it, determined to draw out the most sinful moans from you. He doesn't stop until youā€™re a shaking stammering mess underneath him.Ā 
And when he is receiving, he has to hold himself back from slamming too hard. He runs his fingers across your full cheek and stretched lips slowly coaxing you gently to relax. ā€œItā€™s okay baby, open up. I know you can take it. You look so beautiful, those lips wrapped around me taking me so well.ā€œ
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
Switching between both. One minute he is slow and sensual and slowly dragging his cock inside you. The next moment, he canā€™t resist himself from slamming hard as he hears your gasps. Tries not to be rough, but sometimes the restricted rage and force slip through and he canā€™t control it.Ā 
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
Not a fan. He likes it to be detailed and loves to take his time breaking you down to your bare bones until youā€™re nothing but blissfully fucked out. But he also lets you ride his thighs when youā€™re needy, even if he is working.Ā 
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)
Yeah if you want to. Personally, he likes it traditional, he never gets bored of the basics with you. But if you propose something, he will try it out to please you.Ā 
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? How long do they last?)
Extreme stamina. Believe me, this man can keep going as long as you need him to.Ā 
T = Toys (do they own toys? Do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
He loves indulging you. If you like toys, he buys you toys. Secretly he likes to see you overstimulated and he is just watching from across the room, enjoying your pleasure like his.Ā 
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
He teases you but is very kind. Begging from you, one sincere plea and he will let you cum. But you liked to be teased and so he does it.Ā 
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
Not really loud. Grunts and low groans are the things you get. Heavy breaths and strings of curses when he is drawing out his and your orgasms so that you can release from the high slowly.Ā 
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
He is not super horny. But when he is, you are done for. You probably would need to rest a couple of hours to recover from it.Ā 
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterward)
Not that quick. He carries you and gets into the shower, slowly washing away the remains and calming you down. Then gives you something to eat before sleeping.
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catboymitosis Ā· 1 year ago
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I love media that sets a bad example, I love media that isn't trying to teach you a lesson or be a role model, I love media that indulges in the most shamefully destructive thoughts my own mind comes up with, I love how it holds my hand and tells me I'm not the only one that these parts of me are capable of connecting with others.
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atzloverr Ā· 3 months ago
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Seonghwa - NSFW alphabet
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A = Aftercare (what theyā€™re like after sex)
Heā€™ll praise you sooo much until you practically have to beg him to stop. Heā€™ll spoon you while whispering sweet nothings into your ears, his deep and rich voice soothing you to sleep. Heā€™ll only leave you once youā€™ve fallen asleep, only to get a towel for you so he can make sure that youā€™re all clean. Heā€™ll always make sure you feel at peace and loved.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerā€™s)
Thereā€™s something about your cheeks that he just canā€™t get enough of. Heā€™ll squeeze them and squeak at your cuteness, kissing them over and over again. He also loves your hands. Tracing your palm lines slowly and then intertwining your fingers. Heā€™s a romantic, so he loves to just hold your hands anywhere, anytime. Be it on a walk, when you sit next to him or when he slowly rocks his hips into you.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
He doesnā€™t mind where he comes, but he doesnā€™t want to make a mess in any way, so heā€™ll make sure to either cum in you or on you, not wanting to get the sheets all dirty. You however, can make as big of a mess as you want to. He loves the feeling when you cum in his mouth, your fingers desperately gripping his hair, and your thighs clenching together around his head. Heā€™ll shakily grab his aching cock and pleasure himself when he hears your sweet mewls when you orgasm on his tongue.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
The thought of you dominating him turns him on embarrassingly much. He has yet to admit it, but as much as he enjoys your submissive side, he really wants you to just dominate him. He even fantasizes about you degrading him, telling him nasty things as you torture him sexually. One time when the two of you were in bed, you decided to tease him just a little bit, telling him how much of a desperate mess he was.
ā€œWhat?ā€ you smiled, seeing as Seonghwa had stopped working. You saw the way his cheeks heated up at your little comment, and the way he let out a small whimper. He quickly composed himself, going back to where you left off. He still thinks about this moment, jerking off to the thought of your voice telling him that heā€™s been a bad boy.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what theyā€™re doing?)
I think heā€™s fairly experienced. He absolutely knows what heā€™s doing to say the least, but he hasnā€™t tried everything. Tbh, when you heard his body count for the first time, you were shocked at the number.
ā€œWhat? Iā€™ve heard thatā€™s pretty high?ā€ Seonghwa reasoned, smiling at your shocked expression. ā€œYeah but, for you, I expected you to have pulled at least a hundred people, I mean just look at you!ā€ you answered, gesturing dramatically with your hands. Seonghwa just laughed at your compliment.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Itā€™s tied for him between missionary and mating press. He loves positions where he can force you to keep eye contact with him as heā€™s fucking you. He also loves having easy access to your face and neck, being able to plaster kisses and bites on you when heā€™s deep inside you.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
I think heā€™s not particularly goofy, but he doesnā€™t mind if you are. Sometimes, heā€™ll humor you during sex, teasing you and making you giggle. But sometimes, heā€™ll be completely serious.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
It really depends honestly. At times, heā€™ll keep himself very well groomed down there, not letting the hair grow too long, but if he doesnā€™t find the time to fix it, he can let it grow pretty long. Thatā€™s usually if he has a lot to do and is very busy in his everyday life.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Seonghwa can be very romantic at times, telling you how much he loves you, holding your hand while slowly kissing you. But when he can tell youā€™re in that mood, and he is too, he can be pretty rough and ruthless in bed. He knows you love it when he denies you, overstimulates you, degrades you or makes you work for it, so at those times heā€™ll save the romanticism for afterwards.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Heā€™s not the type to want a ā€œquick fuckā€ so if he feels horny and wants the job done quickly, heā€™ll excuse himself to go jerk off in the bathroom, breathing heavily as he thinks of what he wants to do to you.
If youā€™re away from each other, he might jerk off almost every night, missing you so dearly, desperately wanting to feel your soft hands on his body. Heā€™ll slowly run his hands up his stomach, imagining that itā€™s your hands instead of his.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
He has a master/slave kink, and will happily indulge in it if you are up to it. He doesnā€™t want those dynamics to be permanent in your relationship, but the thought of you calling him master, being on your knees and ready to serve him turns him on a lot. Heā€™d ask you a 100 times if you were sure you were up to it, not wanting to make you feel entitled to say yes to making his obscure fantasy a reality.
He also has a huuuge thing for watching you masturbate. Forcing you to look into his hungry eyes as you eagerly pleasure yourself;
ā€œFaster,ā€ he commands and you canā€™t help but whine at the order, but comply without thinking twice about it. ā€œThere you go,ā€ he coos. You see the tent forming in his pants as he wiggles around in his spot. Just as youā€™re getting close to the edge, Seonghwa gives you your next command with a strict voice. ā€œSlow down.ā€ ā€œBut Seonghwa please Iā€”ā€œ, ā€œDid that sound like a request?ā€ he asked, smirking slightly. You whimper as you force your hand to go slower, your legs shaking as you edge yourself once again. ā€œSo good, so obedient,ā€ Seonghwa smiles fondly.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
He wants to keep it in the bedroom, at least for the full thing. Sure, he can get you off if you get extremely needy somewhere else, but heā€™s not fond of not having privacy, safety and time.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
Even though he likes being dominant, he gets weak in the knees when you compliment him. When you tell him that he looks beautiful, or compliment his outfit or hair, his heart will flutter, but he might also become rock hard.
Also, I believe he loves seeing you all dressed up. As much as he loves you when youā€™re comfy, seeing you in a form-fitting, beautiful outfit (maybe even picked by him) will make him want to rip it off you any second. Seeing you shying away from his compliments makes him want to ruin you on the spot.
On that last topic, I believe he gets incredibly horny when you act shy and cute, blushing at his hands roaming your body. Heā€™ll rile you up or shower you in compliments just to see that cute little look on your face. He wants to reveal a dirty little secret of yours someday, just so see your flustered reaction when he tells you he knows about your true desires.
N = No (something they wouldnā€™t do, turn offs)
He doesnā€™t want anything to do with any other bodily fluids than yours or his cum. Yes, that also includes blood.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
He 100% prefers giving. He lives for the sounds you make when he uses his skillful tongue on you. Heā€™ll look up at you just to see your face contort in pleasure, and if you try to hide your cute face from him, heā€™ll make sure to pin your hands down, (maybe even tie them up if he has to). Heā€™ll pound his fingers into you as he works his mouth on your sex, making sure to curl his fingers just right to give you all those sensations you crave for. Some nights, heā€™ll gladly just bury his face between your legs for as long as you can take, and when you ask him if he wants you to repay the favor, heā€™ll just shake his head lovingly, reassuring you that he needs no such thing from his lovely doll.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
Seonghwa wants to take things slowly, making sure you feel everything thats happening without having to rush it. I believe he goes pretty slowly, and right when heā€™s about to burst inside of you, heā€™ll speed up in desperation, his eyes rolling back in pleasure. Heā€™ll do everything very mindfully, kissing you so slowly while his hands roam your body. If you try to speed things up, being way too eager to take things slow, heā€™ll scold you, telling you to be patient and let him take his time.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
He hates them. As mentioned, he really wants to take his time, cherishing every moment and making them last for as long as possible. Heā€™s okay with giving you pleasure quickly, if you really beg him for it, but he wonā€™t go further than that.
ā€œSeonghwa, please,ā€ you look up at him, snaking your hands around his waist in some sort of attempt to win him over. He smirks, raising an eyebrow at you. ā€œLove, weā€™ll be home tomorrow, then Iā€™ll give you what you need,ā€ he says, placing a kiss on your cheek. After looking up at him for about five more seconds, you give up, sighing heavily. He just laughs at your grumpy face. ā€œThere there.ā€
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
He likes to experiment in bed, trying out different positions, toys etc, but nothing too extreme. He wants to please you in any way that he can, so heā€™ll want to indulge in your fantasies as much as you want to indulge in his.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
His stamina is pretty good, but since he doesnā€™t go at a fast pace, he can hold out for a very long time. He doesnā€™t need stamina, he just needs patience to be able to go for hours with you. But his stamina is very high, so if you were to go at a faster pace sometime, heā€™d still be able to hold out for a long time, still going even when his body canā€™t keep up with his horny mind.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
I think Seonghwa owns quite a few toys, and heā€™s probably fascinated with different toys, and the effect they may have on his and your body. He loves to try out different toys and combinations of toys on you, just to learn for future times what makes you lose your mind the quickest. Youā€™ll moan out in overstimulation from all the different sensations as Seonghwa presses his new toy deep inside of you, while pressing another one to your most sensitive spot. Heā€™ll look in awe as you jolt your hips upward at the sensation, mentally noting to use that toy when he really wants to make you desperate.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
He teases you like no one else. He licks his lips in excitement when you squirm at his teasing words.
ā€œWhatā€™s wrong? You seem so embarrassed, my love,ā€ he whispers in your ear as his hands slowly rub your inner thigh. You were simply scrolling on your phone when your boyfriend started to tease you, kissing your neck slowly, moaning lowly in your ear. He knows exactly what gets you going, so when he wants you to get in the mood, heā€™ll succeed. Your thighs close up as he kisses around your ears, his deep voice sounding out small moans and laughs as you squirm.
You try to reach out for him, making him kiss your lips instead, or just stop whispering nasty things into your ear, but he just moves your hand away, unfazed by your attempt at getting what you need. ā€œSeonghwa, stop that,ā€ you whine, giggling as his tongue finds your neck. ā€œIf you want me to stop, why are you rubbing your thighs together, hm? Why are you making such lewd sounds? I think you like this, donā€™t you?ā€
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
He can be pretty vocal, letting out deep moans as heā€™s inside of you. Heā€™ll have his head close to your ear, making you hear every little sound he makes, he knows how much it turns you on after all. Heā€™ll let out low whines when you clench around him, and oh, when he finally comes, his moans go up an octave and turn into whimpers. He smiles in satisfaction when he notices the way your hips buck as he moans.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
He has very high expectations for himself in bed, and is worried heā€™s not enough for you. He wants to make sure you get all the love and pleasure you deserve, so heā€™ll try everything to make you feel good. When he told you about these thoughts, you immediately comforted him, assuring him that heā€™s so good and that you appreciate him so much. He gently cried in gratitude in your arms as you affirmed him. ā€œI love you,ā€ he mumbled into your neck, but you heard it nonetheless. ā€œI love you too, Seonghwa.ā€
X = X-ray (letā€™s see whatā€™s going on under those clothes)
Heā€™s pretty big down there, and itā€™s more on the longer and thinner side. (I know Iā€™m not really good at describing this ahaha)
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
I would say his sex drive is pretty high, but he doesnā€™t want to do it every night. He wants to make your moments together special, so he doesnā€™t want it to become too casual for him.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep
He always makes sure you fall asleep first, and he wants to clean himself off before he falls asleep. Heā€™ll take the quickest shower in the history of showers, just to feel fresh, just because he doesnā€™t want to leave you all alone in bed. He himself canā€™t handle feeling neglected after sex, so he would never want to make you feel that way.
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Hope yā€™all enjoyed this one!!!!
PSA: English is not my first language, so Iā€™m sorry for potential language errors and such.
Requests are ofc open!!!! Which member should I do next? And do yā€™all want someone from another fandom??? (bts/svt/txt), please tell me what you guys thinkkkk!!!
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solar-wing Ā· 8 months ago
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A = Aftercare (what theyā€™re like after sex)
This man can go from rough and hard to soft and gentle in literal seconds. Itā€™s like watching someone come out of a trance or possession. Heā€™ll clean you up with a fresh rag and make sure youā€™re comfortable, especially if youā€™re sore (youā€™ll most definitely be). Heā€™s clingy though.
You wonā€™t get anywhere without him right beside you. And he wonā€™t say it, but he loves it when you try to take care of him too. Jason is dominant and prefers to be in control, but that man is as needy as a newborn baby, and it gets 10x worse after sex.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerā€™s)
Jasonā€™s relationship with his body is difficult, but, if weā€™re talking about one where heā€™s healed, maybe been to therapy, and (slightly) moved on from his trauma, he probably favors his arms, chest, and hands. Jason prefers strength overlooking aesthetically fit, and he kind of always looks like heā€™s bulking but it's defined somehow. And because that adds to his overall size and level of intimidation, he loves working on those specific groups to increase them so he can in turn use them to intimidate people, especially those who try to flirt with you in front of him.
Now, on the other end, Jason is 100% an ass man. You can not change my mind. He loves you wearing any kind of tight or fitting material that molds to the shape of your butt and just being able to oogle and smack it when he wants. And smack it he does. Dude has the equivalent of 100 cheese necks in one palm and you feel it every time he lands one on your ass.Ā 
Bonus points if you have thick thighs that jiggle when you walk. Heā€™ll be paying extra special attention to those, especially if youā€™re wearing any kind of short shorts or fitted athletic wear. He also has a slight obsession or fascination with your neck. Whether in the act or just chilling, his hands will somehow find their way to your neck whether itā€™s a gentle caress or a firm grip. And if heā€™s feeling a little possessive or riled up in the moment (which is frequent) itā€™s his favorite place to mark, and if you try to cover them up, itā€™s more motivation for him to leave even bigger ones. He likes it when people can tell and see that you belong to him.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
More of an oozer than a shooter unless heā€™s been holding a load in for a while. And his loads are thick. He may not shoot far but heā€™ll definitely give you enough to fill the bottom of a glass.Ā 
Also, no questions asked, heā€™s coming inside you. You just have to choose if itā€™s going to be your mouth or ass. Donā€™t ask, itā€™s a territorial thing with him. The thought of you walking around and greeting people while his babies are lodged deep inside your ass or fresh down your esophagus does wonders for his pride.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
If youā€™re not around and heā€™s really horny, heā€™ll masturbate with a piece of your clothing. Sometimes, heā€™ll also call you in the middle of it and wonā€™t tell you just so he can hear your voice while edging himself to completion.
He also will purposely start arguments with you so you can have a reason to have angry make-up sex later.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what theyā€™re doing?)
Some small experiences before he died, and little hookups here and there when he came back and was somewhat in a good place with Bruce and himself. That being said, he gets most of his experience from his relationship with you. He quickly learns what he does like and what he doesnā€™t, and makes it known to you immediately.Ā 
He also may or may not go to Dick for advice or tips on how to improve. Going to Bruce is out of the question. And not just because thatā€™s still technically his dad.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Doggy for one. Itā€™s something about him grabbing you by your hair or even better, around your neck and forcing your body against his while he pounds into you from behind. He gets an exhilarating high from having you at his mercy and you surrendering yourself to him.
He also does favor missionary if heā€™s in a slightly more tender mood. But, If heā€™s feeling jealous or pissed off about something, heā€™s putting you up against a wall or in a corner with his hands around your neck and ramming you like thereā€™s no tomorrow. Your legs will not be functioning for 24 hours.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
Tends to be more serious in the moment. When heā€™s in the mood, heā€™s fully in it. Especially if he needs to get his frustrations out. However, the sound of you moaning and screaming his name will definitely bring a smug grin to his face.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
He keeps himself adequately groomed. May grow some facial hair and have a little bush down there along with a happy trail but heā€™s good about keeping it neat and clean. And, if you want him to, heā€™ll shave it all, no questions needed.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
This he struggles with at times. Itā€™s something he wasnā€™t given much of (especially with Bruce) so he doesnā€™t really know how to act when in those moments and he tends to get really uncomfortable, especially if itā€™s a particularly vulnerable moment for him. As far as during sex, heā€™s definitely on the more rough and brutish side, but heā€™ll always do his best to check on you.
Itā€™s something heā€™s getting better at though. Even in moments without sex where you two are just lounging and sitting together, heā€™s good at reading you and knowing what you want or how to make you happy with small gestures and actions. He just wants to make sure youā€™re happy and that you feel loved (and that you belong to him and only him).
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Mentioned with dirty secrets. Really only does it when youā€™re not around. Heā€™ll rarely do it just for the heck of it. He prefers getting his pleasure from pleasing and fucking (owning) you.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
Dominance/Submission (Power Play) - Jason has had many things happen to him that he didnā€™t want or couldnā€™t control. Itā€™s basically what influences this kink more than others. You submitting to Jason, letting him lead and have full control in sex and even in domestic scenarios creates a very satisfying and pleasurable feeling inside him. It also serves as reassurance for him, knowing that you fully trust him to the point where you basically surrender yourself to him. Getting back to more dirty things, this kink can include other aspects such as orgasm denial, bondage (on you), and verbal affirmation of your submission (dirty talk).
Choking (giving only) - This plays into the dominant/submission kink as well. Itā€™s a rush from the feeling of control he has over whether you get to breathe or not while pounding your brains out. But, heā€™ll never go too far and he hopes you know that. However, heā€™s not at all okay with it being done to him. He does not like his neck being touched at all for that matter. Call it PTSD from his time with Joker and other things that have happened to him in the past, so itā€™s a big no-no. Although, with time and him getting more comfortable in the relationship, if he gives you a clear consenting sign that heā€™s okay with it, heā€™ll allow a gentle caress and rub down his neck, but only from you. Anyone else who tries to touch him on his neck risks several broken limbs.
Mirror Sex - A key part of his possessive nature toward you. He loves seeing himself fuck into you and even more, his ego gets a big boost from seeing you turn into an erotic mess while heā€™s inside you.
Size Difference - The fact that Jason can pick you up and throw you around like a rag doll, dwarfs you in size, or that his clothes (even if youā€™re tall and broad) can look three sizes too big on you is a major turn-on for him. He wonā€™t say it, but he likes the idea of someone smaller than him that he can protect.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
Weird enough, the thought comes to mind that Jason has a weird obsession with having sex with you in tight spaces. Mainly, places like the shower or the car. It ties a bit into his power and size kink. Something about the size of his body towering over you in a small space riles him up like no other. Itā€™s the feeling or sensation that heā€™s got you cornered that drives that feeling. Kind of like an outlet for him to deal with his trauma of when he was actually trapped/cornered.
Also, he has it in his mind that whenever you move in together, he has to fuck you on every single available surface in your place. Christening your home with your love is how he likes to think of it. Plus, he gets a nasty kick out of when guests are over, imagining in his mind that theyā€™re sitting in places where he had you crying out and cumming on his dick multiple times.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
#1:Jealousy & Possessiveness ā€“ The idea of you finding anyone else attractive, let alone giving them your attention which is only supposed to be reserved for him, heā€™ll be quick to snatch you into the nearest closet or bathroom to remind you who you belong to. And it doesnā€™t matter who it is besides your parents or his family. It could be the barista at the cafe, a random guy who gave you a friendly nod, or god forbid, an old classmate or co-worker you happened to bump into on the street. Jason is a selfish & protective little fucker who doesnā€™t even want to consider the idea of someone else thinking they can have whatā€™s only for him.
#2: Clothes ā€“ Please, exercise caution when picking your outfit for any particular event. Jasonā€™s never gonna tell you what you canā€™t wear, but keep in mind that again, heā€™s a selfish and protective little fucker who has the sex drive of a large animal. Wearing anything even slightly tight or a bit showy for his taste can and will land you in many situations where Jason has pulled you aside somewhere quiet and private to have at your body. And donā€™t let him catch others ogling your outfit or even giving you the slightest compliment or all hell is breaking loose. Not to say he doesnā€™t like it, he loves it. But, youā€™re for his eyes only. Now, if itā€™s his clothes youā€™re wearing out, please be aware that at some point, you may be buying him a new shirt/hoodie cause heā€™s about to rip it off you.
#3: Arguing ā€“ Something in that man thrives on chaos, and when you and he are going at it, he canā€™t help but get hard. And again, hot, angry makeup sex. Duhā€¦
N = No (something they wouldnā€™t do, turn-offs)
He will not do any form of rape/forced play, including machoism and sadism. His vigilante life and past trauma already left a deep scar on him and anything that resembles that can and will trigger him. Plus, he knows heā€™s way stronger and doesnā€™t want to even take the risk of hurting you in any way.
Unless weā€™re talking Arkham Jason. Thatā€™s a completely different story.
He would clear it with you first that youā€™re okay with bondage and choking, but he doesnā€™t want it performed on him, especially the choking, as weā€™re already aware that heā€™s very sensitive about his neck.
Any extreme BDSM kinks like piss play or fisting is also a major turn-off for him. Exhibitionism is a straight-up no. Jason would rather drink from the Lazarus pit than have anyone looking at you in a state that heā€™s only allowed to see you in. Donā€™t even attempt to pitch the idea of a threesome or foursome or just any suggestion of bringing someone else in on your fun. It will turn into a major argument and not a good one that ends in happy fun.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Inexperienced but picks it up quickly and learns what gets more of a reaction from you. Heā€™s a fast learner and loves it when heā€™s able to drive you over the edge with his mouth alone. Also, if weā€™re talking about eating out, heā€™ll happily do it till the sun turns blue. Thereā€™s something about tasting you on his tongue that just really gets him riled up.
But, if weā€™re talking dick-sucking, definitely prefers receiving over giving. Jason finds it extremely hot seeing you go up and down on him with your mouth, especially when he grabs your hair or head and starts to force your head up and down or starts thrusting in your mouth. He loves seeing you slobber and choke all over him. And if you look up and give him a teary-eyed but submissive look, game over (in a good way).
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
Definitely fast and rough. And if itā€™s not, you can bet heā€™s delivering some powerful strokes that will have you squeezing and clenching your legs all around him. Plus, he notices the harder he goes, the more you squeeze yourself against him while pressing your nails into his back and biting at his skin, trying to silence your loud moans and cries. Though, itā€™s probably not the best idea because heā€™ll just go even harder to force those noises out of you. And, those are marks and scars he will PROUDLY wear.
It takes him time (if you even decide at all that you want him to) to learn how to move at a softer, slower, and more sensual pace. But, if itā€™s something you truly desire, heā€™ll work on it and do everything he can to make you happy. But, that doesnā€™t mean rough sex goes away. It actually makes it even more hot, especially when Jason is in one of his moods.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
Heā€™s not opposed to them. But, Jason likes to take his time with you. He doesnā€™t like to rush and hates the idea of feeling as if someone is going to interrupt him. No one should intrude upon your special time with each other. God bless (and protect) the unlucky souls that do.
But, if heā€™s really in the mood and he canā€™t get you to an ideal private place in a fast enough time, heā€™s not above pulling you into the nearest dark room or corner to get down and dirty, especially if heā€™s feeling a little territorial because someone decided they wanted to be brave stupid and hit on you. Heā€™s more than happy to remind you who youā€™re in a relationship with. Or if youā€™re not in a relationship, then just whoā€™s fucking you every single night, plain and simple. Either way, quickies to him are basically just his versions of reminders to you for what happens when he gets a bit jealous.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
Youā€™d have to move at a snailā€™s pace with him if you want to introduce something new to your routine. If itā€™s something small, then he may go ahead and give in to it, but Jason craves consistency and normalcy, and that includes sex. Asking him to try something new can hit a sore spot cause it may seem like what you two are doing now isnā€™t enough for you anymore.
But, if you reassure him itā€™s not that, and just slowly introduce the idea to him, (double points if he likes it off the start) then youā€™re definitely in for a treat. For you, and you only, he is willing to step out of his comfort zone, as long as itā€™s not too crazy or on his no-no list.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
Depends on his mood and what prompted the sex. He could go for one round or two if heā€™s just feeling a little feral and wants a piece of you. If itā€™s a jealous or angry fit after an argument, you might wanna cancel any plans after, cause heā€™s certainly not letting you leave the bed, the house, or wherever you are until your legs are basically useless.
The same thing goes for the duration of a round, especially if youā€™ve got the good good (hehe). If youā€™re really giving it to him. Mans may be lucky to make it past 10 minutes, but thatā€™s not too bad. It means he can cuddle you, or you cuddle him. Either way, cuddles are non-negotiable after a round. But, if you two just got done hashing it out over something or you decided to poke one too many of his buttons, heā€™s dragging it out as long as he can. This means exiting out of you whenever he feels like heā€™s getting too close, and denying you your own orgasm as well (that damn control factor strikes again).
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
Jason doesnā€™t own any toys and never really had an interest in them. Itā€™s not something heā€™d really get into on his own and only would experiment with them if you asked. The most heā€™s got is handcuffs or rope heā€™d use for bondage but thatā€™s as far as he would take it.
If you were to use toys, heā€™d definitely prefer him using them on you unless there was something else specific involved that didnā€™t cross one of his boundaries.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
50/50. If youā€™re teasing him, paybackā€™s a fucker named Jason. Heā€™ll kiss all your sweet spots, nibble on your chest, and barely give any attention to your dick/genitals. Especially if heā€™s in one of his ā€˜I want to hear you beg for me, tell me who owns youā€™ moods.
If he wants to get to the point, then you can expect to be promptly thrown onto the bed or whatever surface is nearby, and the most heā€™ll do here is tie or cuff your hands so you canā€™t touch him, knowing how much you like to feel his body while heā€™s ramming yours.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
Jasonā€™s loud. But, in a very grunty-like way. You may have to fight tooth and nail to get him to moan for you, but by golly is he expressive when you manage to get it out of him. For the most part, though, heā€™s giving grunts, growls, and grumbles. Youā€™ll mainly hear him whisper into your ear, reminding you that heā€™s the one currently plowing your guts and that no one else is allowed to see you like this but him.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
He likes fucking you with clothes on frequently. Youā€™re wearing a tight compression shirt thatā€™s showing your pecs, abs, and just overall body, heā€™s got you bent over a surface while oogling your muscle constricting under a shirt. Wearing a jockstrap or thong in the gym and he can see it, heā€™s pulling them down and that underwear aside just enough to get inside you. Youā€™re not complaining though. If heā€™s wearing his own compression and muscle shirts all the better for you, getting to ogle and rub his muscles while heā€™s hammering inside of you like an animal.
He also really enjoys massages. Particularly on his shoulders, back, and chest. He loves it when you lick and play around with the head of his dick and when you run your fingers through his hair while his face is buried in your neck kissing and leaving marks all over.
X = X-ray (letā€™s see whatā€™s going on under those clothes)
Bigger than average.
8-9 inches minimum. Heā€™s thick and girthy down as well. Maybe narrower at the base with a really large and bulbous head. Entering can be a bit of a challenge, but it gets easier the further he gets inside. Also has a curve to his dick.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Jason has a fairly high sex drive and the Lazarus pit only increased that. His libido can sometimes be more emotion-driven so feelings of love, anger, or even just a slight irritation will get him hard.
Maybe youā€™re not fucking every hour of the day, but heā€™s gotta have you in some shape or form at least once or twice a day. Whether itā€™s a blowjob, hand-job, or one of his jealous reminder quickies.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
He can go to sleep fairly quickly, but only after heā€™s properly cared for you and cleaned you up. Also, he has to have your body pressed against him. Cuddles are vitally important and you should never once not want to cuddle him. Itā€™s the one intimate thing heā€™s got down perfectly to a T.Ā 
However, he has more than once fallen asleep while still inside you and in the position you both finished in. It can lead to a comfortable or uncomfortable scenario, depending on the situation.
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fuji-sen Ā· 5 months ago
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Sawuwa with reader who finally gets their own body and immediately gets carried away princess style PLEEEEASE šŸ„ŗ šŸ„ŗ šŸ„ŗ šŸ„ŗ šŸ„ŗ šŸ„ŗ šŸ„ŗ
SAWuWa Headcanon pt. 5.1 .ą³ƒąæ”*:ļ½„
requested!
characters: Rover, Jiyan (I keep forgetting its Jiyan not Jinyan--), Scar, I'll add more characters soon.
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Rover.įŸ
takes place presumably sometime after chapter 1/patch 1 story.
āž„ other than you, Rover is probably one of the most happiest person in Sol-III now that you got your own body!
āž„ because honestly, they had a rough time partly sharing their body with you, it was like not having any privacy! they could hear your thoughts, and you could hear theirs. They were like the anchor to your disembodied soul that either floated around nearby or was in your body like an imaginary voice in the head.
āž„ but despite the rough bumps you started off with the main character, you two became very close, forcibly perhaps with being forced to be so close to each other, but still, genuinely close.
āž„ so when you were a bit disoriented having your own body they easily picked you up in a princess carry with a bright smile on their face.
āž„ "it's finally nice to see you in solid form." they remarked with a chuckle.
āž„ feeling a bit weak you were still able to respond, "you don't have to carry me y'know" your voice was soft as you stared at their piercing golden orbs as if the blood of the gods spilled to create such beautiful eyes.
āž„ the Rover hummed thoughtfully "I know, just want to."
āž„ some part of them knew they'd miss being so close to you.
āž„ "can't believe I have my own body, now I have to walk all over the place like you." you scrunched up your nose in annoyance at the thought. Rover laughed at your musings, that was the first thing you were worried about after getting your own body?
āž„ "you're worried about the journey but not the tacet discords?" they pointed out and you flailed your arms in frustration "ugh you're right!"
āž„ "just stick with me and I'll protect you" they said holding you tighter.
Jiyan.įŸ
takes place when you end up getting separated with the Rover and ended up getting your own body. probably around the time when Rover was building that huge gun thingy to get close to the threnodian.
āž„ The minute you are forcibly separated from the Rover, no longer a specter, no longer a voice with no body to its name, the first one who is over their shock would be General Jiyan.
āž„ you feel a bit disoriented, your body swaying as you felt dizzy, your body leaned a bit too far in one direction and suddenly you find yourself falling.
āž„ oh but don't worry! well toned arms wrapped themselves around you preventing any injuries.
āž„ "Thank you" you managed to say as you steadied yourself, his arms no longer enveloped you but a hand was on your shoulder instead.
āž„ "It is no problem." he curtly replied "you seem to be disoriented, it seems that getting your own body has exhausted you." his brows furrowed as the more doctor and medic side of him appeared.
āž„ After a bit of silence on his side, he opened his mouth only to offer assistance "would you like me to carry you to the medics? or perhaps the Rover?" ah that's right, you got separated.. you shook your head despite how tempting the offer was, you couldn't take advantage of the general. "no it's okay, you're hurt, I can endure it until I meet with the others again."
āž„ but Jiyan wouldn't take no for an answer, "are you doubting my strength?" he asked amused as he crossed his arms, flexing his muscles. You gulped shaking your head fervently 'no'
āž„ and that's how you ended up in his arms, perhaps Jiyan was right that you needed to be carried. You find your eyelids grew heavy as you leaned on his chest.
Scar.įŸ
tw: kidnapping? (depends whether you don't want him to take you or not.)
takes place during the awakening of the threnodian.
āž„ Scar would watch (stalk) you and Rover after your first encounter, the jail of Jinzhou wasn't enough to stop him.
āž„ with the whole fuss of the Threnodian's awakening being expedited he was able to easily slip out.
āž„ course he would have preferred to have fight his way out of the place and cause havor like the maniac he is, he decided it would be quicker to slip out so he could get to you and Rover quicker.
āž„ so when he arrived to find you, rover and jinyan, he was pleasantly shock to find you in the middle of getting your body.
āž„ the powerful frequencies you let off and the reverberations that flowed through after had him excited!
āž„ The general and the rover were preoccupied with defending you from the gathering TD's that were attracted to your raw power left them distracted, letting him easily close the distance between you.
āž„ you look at the palm of your hands, shock as you truly had a physical body. and yet you were unable to savor it as you could hear a familiar voice.
āž„ one dripping with charisma and an underlying tone of insanity. "Scar" you turned to find him walking closer and closer to you, you were shock considered he wasn't supposed to appear in this part of the story since canonically he was in jail at this moment.
āž„ "it's nice to see you again little lamb, or should I say bambi?" he tilted his head, an amused smile on his face as he looked at you up and down, his heterochromia eyes settling on your legs.
āž„ you followed his stare to realized your legs were shaking, probably being barely able to stand as you were. Your cheeks quickly turned red in embarrassment, "I have a name you know" you hissed and ended with a pout.
āž„ you turned around trying to find Jiyan, Rover or anybody to help you. As much as you liked Scar and doted on him every chance you got, you felt vulnerable and you were unsure of his motives regarding you.
āž„ "Aw come on little lamb, won't you please pay attention to me?" you jolted to find him right behind you, face near your ears as you could practically feel his breath fanning you. He had an adorable pout on his face, almost looking like a kicked puppy.
āž„ before you could reply a sound resembling a growl got your attention as you both turned to find tacet discords approaching you.
āž„ as much as Scar liked fighting, and wasn't too afraid of tacet discords he clicked his tongue annoyed "I won't let our little date get interrupted again." he declared as he bent down, and before you could object, he carried you in his arms.
āž„ "hey- where are you taking me?!" you yelled as he began moving, dodging attacks sent at him by the tacet discords who wanted you. Scar merely laughed "hold on tight!" and you did, wrapping your arms around his neck as he used his legs to either run, dodge or attack.
āž„ boy Rover and Jiyan will be in for a shock when they find you gone.
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acourtofwhatthefuck Ā· 1 year ago
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Practice On Me ā€” Part Six ā€” Azriel x Reader
Note ā€” Tumblr still isnā€™t allowing me to tag some of you. Iā€™ll keep trying but if you havenā€™t already, make sure you check in settings that your username is able to be searched/tagged! Mwah šŸ’•
Summary: Reader seeks comfort after the events in Fenlaros. Lines are crossed that canā€™t be uncrossed. Actions come with consequences.
Word Count: 6.9k
Warnings: Some violence. Things get fiiiilthy. 18+, NSFW, smut, minors dni.
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Itā€™s not clear who punches who first, because fists are flying left and right. The male in front of you lands a harsh hit on your cheek, the metal of a ring catching your skin, but thereā€™s no chance to register the burst of pain, because youā€™re being shoved, and youā€™re shoving back, and your knuckles are pummelling into another maleā€™s face while his friend sends a punch straight into your gut.
Itā€™s that impact that winds you too much to move. Youā€™re doubling over, trying to draw breath while the fight continues around you. The same male goes to hit you a second time.
But he doesnā€™t have a chance as Rhys comes lunging at him and knocks him to the floor. Your friend is as flawless with his fists as he is with steel. The Fenlaros male doesnā€™t stand a chance against him.
This isā€¦this is bad. If you can somehow round your friends up and get out of there before it gets any worse, you may be able to escape the repercussions. A fight like this between two camps could carry a punishment anywhere from revoked privileges to an outright flogging. Youā€™d really rather not face a disgruntled Lord of Windhaven upon your return.
Through the brawl, youā€™re searching for both Azriel and Cassian. Youā€™ve lost sight of them both completely. And you know they can hold their own, that theyā€™re some of the best fighters in all of Illyria, but the four of you are vastly outnumbered. Even the trio of your closest friends have limits, and being dogpiled by a group of males out for blood surely brings them close to theirs.
Someone grabs the back of your shirt, and with your breath having returned to you somewhat, you round on them, ready to defend yourself once more. However, itā€™s Cassian who looms over you, hair tousled and shirt wrinkled.
He yells at you over the noise, ā€œThis is getting out of hand! We need to get out of here!ā€
Thank gods heā€™s choosing to be sensible for once. You suppose even Cass knows when a fight is worth having.
ā€œIā€™m trying to find Az!ā€ You shout back. ā€œI donā€™t know where heā€”ā€
ā€œKaeda already pulled him out. Letā€™s grab Rhys and go!ā€
Now is a really, really inappropriate time to feel jealous.
And yet jealous, you are.
And maybe even a little hurt, too. Did Az even try to find you before making an exit with Kaeda?
You banish the thoughts, allowing Cassian to wrench you through the people and mostly avoid getting hurt, besides the odd wayward fist that isnā€™t intended for you. The second he spots Rhys, still fighting with the male who winded you, heā€™s grabbing him firmly by the collar of his shirt and leaving no room for protest.
ā€œWeā€™re getting out of here before this turns really bloody.ā€ He tells him loudly.
Rhys doesnā€™t put up a fight. He nods, straight on board with the exit strategy. His wild, alert gaze swivels to study you. ā€œYouā€™re alright?ā€
ā€œFine.ā€ You nod. ā€œLetā€™s go.ā€
It turns out the exit strategy is to just shove through hordes of people until you find a way out. Rhys is keeping hold of Cassian and youā€™re keeping hold of Rhys, and the three of you create an aggressive little train that wends through the chaos until cold air washes over you, and youā€™re spilling out onto the front path. You can hear the distant whoosh and thwack of the Fenlaros lot having no choice but to turn on each other.
ā€œY/N!ā€
You turn, just in time to see Az pushing away from a wall, Kaeda in tow. She carries a bloodied dish rag that she was clearly using to dab at his bust lip, but she falls back as Az strides over to you.
ā€œI was looking for you everywhere.ā€ He grabs your chin in his hand, turning your head to the side. ā€œYour cheek is cut.ā€
You stare back at him, waiting for him to say something ā€” something that even vaguely resembles an explanation as to why he started all of this.
ā€œWe should really get out of hereā€”ā€
ā€œDoes it hurt?ā€ He interrupts Rhysandā€™s interjection, his touch gentle despite the ferocity in his gaze. His thumb brushes over your cheek.
Youā€™re too pissed off to care about his concern.
ā€œIā€™ll live.ā€ You snap, shoving him away from you. ā€œAzriel, what the fuck?ā€
ā€œMy sentiments entirely.ā€ Cass mumbles.
ā€œWhat the fuck is wrong with you?ā€ You continue. ā€œYou were the one who said coming here was nothing to be worried about, and then you start that? Have you totally lost your mind?ā€
ā€œMy sentiments entirely.ā€ Rhys echoes.
A muscle in Azrielā€™s jaw ticks. He takes a step back, swallowing hard. ā€œSorry for being protectiveā€”ā€
ā€œPossessive, more likeā€”ā€
ā€œItā€™s my fault.ā€
Both your heads snap round as Kaeda steps closer. She stares between you, wide-eyed. Doe-eyed. Looking like she stole the last slice of cake and has a litany of evidence stacked against her.
ā€œHe was being protective over me.ā€ She says, and you freeze. She angles herself towards Azriel. ā€œI shouldnā€™t have mentioned that Thedis and I have history. I donā€™t know why I did. Iā€™m sorry, Iā€”I didnā€™t think youā€™d react like that.ā€
Oh.
Oh.
Thatā€™sā€”thatā€™s not what you thought was happening.
Clearly, you and Kaeda have two very different understandings of what went down.
You study Az closely, waiting for his reaction ā€” to see if Kaeda is right, and it wasnā€™t you he was starting a fight over at all.
He stares at her like sheā€™s spoken in a foreign tongue. He opens his mouth.
ā€œShit.ā€ Kaeda swears suddenly, looking past him. ā€œShit, thatā€™s my father.ā€
Each of you swivels around to see the colossal male striding down the path towards you, two slightly ā€” very slightly ā€” smaller males flanking either side of him. His long hair falls about his head in unruly waves, and thereā€™s something ruggedly handsome about his face that kind of makes you want him to smother you with his ridiculously huge bicep. Everything about him is dark. His eyes and his beard and the whorls of Illyrian tattoos that cover the expanse of his neck.
Thisā€¦this is a male who could snuff out a family of six just by looking in their direction. And his gaze zeroes in entirely on Azriel.
Cassian yanks you closer by the back of your shirt. ā€œLetā€™s goā€”ā€
ā€œHeā€™s going to want to speak with you.ā€ Kaeda turns to Azriel. ā€œYouā€™re the only shadowsinger around here. He knows who you are. Heā€™s intrigued by your power.ā€
Az continues to watch his approach. And then he squares his shoulders. ā€œFine.ā€ He doesnā€™t even glance your way as he says, ā€œIā€™ll see the rest of you back in Windhaven.ā€
You donā€™t like this. Not one bit. Who knows what the male might do to Azriel? You want to say something, to protestā€”
But Kaeda links her arm through his, and you know thereā€™s no point. This isnā€™t your fight.
ā€œDonā€™t get yourself into even deeper shit.ā€ Cassian says, lifting you into his arms.
Kaeda doesnā€™t seem worried. She rolls her eyes at that. ā€œHeā€™s not going to hurt him.ā€
You canā€™t help staring at her. She seems so sure, so unbothered. Not just by what her father might have in store, but by the entire situation. She seems almostā€¦smug.
Az did start an entire fucking brawl over her, after all.
You canā€™t meet his gaze as you cling to Cassian. Too much has happened in a short space of time. It makes you feelā€¦full. Uncomfortable. You need some space from Az to process what exactly just occurred.
And it seems like your wish will be granted. Itā€™s clear, as he steps closer, that Kaedaā€™s father has no interest in the rest of you. His cat-like eyes follow a shadow that coils around your friend, and you could swear his lips want to smirk. Like thereā€™s some inside joke the rest of you arenā€™t privy to.
ā€œGo.ā€ Azriel says, and neither Rhys nor Cass need telling twice. They donā€™t seem particularly concerned.
Your gaze snags on Az just as Cassianā€™s arms tighten around you, and he shoots into the skies with an unpleasantly steep climb. Rhys does the same.
And as Kaeda and Azriel become smaller the higher you go, youā€™re just able to glimpse Kaedaā€™s father stopping before him and shaking his hand. Itā€™s then that you look away.
This isnā€™t for you to worry about. Itā€™sā€”
Itā€™s between him and Kaeda.
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The thing about flying ā€” or, in your case, being flown ā€” is that itā€™s invaluable for moments of pensiveness. Thereā€™s no better time to face your thoughts than when the clarity of the sky stretches all around you.
But that can also be really fucking dangerous. Because you think. And then you think some more. And then suddenly, youā€™re thinking about anything and everything all at once, thinking about ifs, buts, maybes, thinking yourself into a bad mood.
And that is precisely what you do.
You are pissed the fuck off.
So pissed off, you want to scream into the void, at the shifting landscape below. Youā€™re pissed off with Azriel, with his actions, with your entire situation.
He has never been as stupid, as reckless, as he has been recently. Never did you think youā€™d see a day where Cassian was the more sensible of the two. Youā€™re used to Az being the mediator, to always approaching situations with a rational mind.
And yet these days, heā€™s a ticking time bomb. You donā€™t know who he might have a problem with, and clearly you donā€™t know why, given that you so wrongly assumed his protectiveness ā€” possessiveness ā€” flared up over you.
Of course it was Kaeda. How stupid you are.
Lust is one hell of a blinding light.
Every few seconds, you tell yourself youā€™re not going to think about it. And then a few seconds after that, youā€™re straight back to that constant screech of AZRIELANDKAEDAAZRIELANDKAEDAAZRIELANDKAEDA.
If this is who heā€™s becoming because of herā€¦youā€™re not sure thatā€™s a good thing.
By the time Cassian is setting you down in front of the cottage, your mood is absolutely foul. You feel sobered by the situation. You may as well have not had a drop of alcohol at all.
Rhys doesnā€™t stick around. He tells you and Cass that heā€™s going to Velaris ā€” he wants to explain what happened in Fenlaros to his father before the High Lord can hear it from anyone else. And so itā€™s just you and Cassian traipsing into the cottage, freezing cold and fed up that the night went how it did. Your stomach is starting to ache where the male punched you, the cut on your cheek starting to sting.
You head straight for the kitchen and begin turfing through the cabinets, looking for a half-empty bottle of whiskey or a snack or something. You slam each cabinet door closed, but it does nothing to alleviate your irritation.
Cassian lights a fire, his eyes watching you closely. Perhaps he can sense that something is brewing in your veins. And heā€™d be right about that ā€” youā€™re just not sure what it is.
Finally, you sit up on the kitchen counter and settle on biting into a stale bread roll. Itā€™s dry and tasteless, but it occupies your mouth and stops a scream from escaping.
ā€œI want to clean that cut on your cheek.ā€ Cass strides over to the kitchen, rolling the sleeves of his shirt up. ā€œAre you hurt anywhere else?ā€
Only in your heart. ā€œNo.ā€ You lie.
He nods, and just like the other night, he begins gathering medical supplies. Heā€™s getting good at this. You kind of want to tell him not to bother, to just let the cut sting, but youā€™re brooding too much to get the words out.
You swallow down your last, dry bite of bread, and you comment, ā€œI knew going to Fenlaros was a fucking terrible idea.ā€
Cassian chuckles. There isnā€™t much that fazes him. ā€œIn hindsight, I donā€™t know what we were thinking.ā€
ā€œWith your cocks, probably.ā€
He quirks an eyebrow at you, and then his hands are on your knees, parting your legs so he can slot himself in between. You donā€™t protest; heā€™ll only start a mother hen routine and threaten to bring you to a healer instead.
He wets a rag and begins to gently dab the gash on your cheek. It hurts, but not enough. Not bad enough to drown out the thoughts of the nightā€™s events. You go through them from start to finish, and you have to suck in a deep breath just to stop yourself from punching something.
Why had Kaeda suggested such a stupid fucking thing?
And okay, you canā€™t put the blame entirely on her; itā€™s mostly your jealousy that stokes your anger. You, Azriel, Cassian and Rhys are all fully autonomous adults. Any of you could have shot the idea down and refused to go.
But it justā€¦it just sits funny with you, weird in your chest. Something about it feelsā€¦gross.
Again ā€” probably your jealousy talking.
But the entire thing had been a shit show from start to finish. You should have known, from the self-loathing thoughts that were pelting you on the way there, that you should never have gone. And your failure to listen to your gut only worsens your mood.
ā€œYou push that brain to think any harder and itā€™ll explode.ā€ Cassian murmurs, his warm breath fanning your face. ā€œYou can share, if you like. I may even be able to dredge up some wisdom to impart.ā€
You bite down on your lower lip. ā€œWhy would Kaedaā€™s father want to speak with Az?ā€
It surprises you that the question makes him smile. ā€œI wouldnā€™t worry over that.ā€ He says. ā€œI imagine heā€™s more interested in speaking to Az because heā€™s fucking his daughter than because he came to a rival camp.ā€
You almost flinch at the words.
Of course, you know that by now, Azriel and Kaeda have probably taken that leap and slept together. But torturing yourself with your thoughts is different to hearing it said aloud, and by someone so close to Az, too.
It hurts. And you want to scratch away at the feeling. It might just be what tips you over.
Cass studies you for a moment, reading the change, the tightening, in your expression. He knows thereā€™s something ā€” but thank the gods he doesnā€™t know what.
He turns his attention to your hand ā€” your knuckles must have split when you threw a couple of good punches ā€” and he begins to clean it gently.
ā€œHere I am again, eh? Playing healer. I should get myself an apron.ā€
Heā€™s trying to make you laugh, but you can barely force your lips to twitch upwards. He drinks in your pathetic attempt with a sympathy that you canā€™t stand. And, sensing that humour isnā€™t going to be enough tonight, he tries a different approach.
ā€œTalk to me, Y/N.ā€ He pleads softly, dabbing gently at your hand. ā€œPleaseā€¦ā€
You frown. Youā€™re thinking and feeling too many things at once to make sense of them. Running through the entire night over and over. Youā€™re not sure which of those feelings will rear its ugly head when you try to speak.
But you open your mouth, and the words just spill out.
ā€œI really fucking hated myself tonight.ā€
Cassian pauses momentarily. And then he continues his treatment to your wounds. ā€œY/N, fights break out every other hourā€”ā€
ā€œNo. Not because of the fight. It wasnā€™t that.ā€ You swallow a lump down. ā€œIt was the flying.ā€
ā€œā€¦the flying?ā€
ā€œBeing carried by Rhys while the rest of you flew so freely. Knowing Iā€™ll never be able to do that. Iā€™m Illyrian, and yet Iā€™m always going to be confined to the ground. I hated myselfā€”ā€
ā€œY/Nā€”ā€
ā€œI really fucking hated myself, Cass. And to be confronted by that fact every damn time I take my shirt offā€¦to see the fucking hideous remains of my wingsā€”ā€
Your words are cut short when Cassianā€™s huge hands grab your face and force you to look at him. It stings the cut on your cheek, but he doesnā€™t seem to notice as he stares at you fiercely.
ā€œNo. Cut that out right now.ā€ A muscle in his jaw moves. Youā€™re looking back at a lesser-spotted serious Cassian. ā€œThere is no part of you ā€” not one part ā€” that comes even close to being hideous, scars or no scars. Youā€™re brilliant. Inside and out. Youā€™re fucking beautiful, and I love you, and I wonā€™t have you hating yourself. Particularly not at the hands of your piece of shit father.ā€
For a moment, youā€™re so stunned by the impassioned speech that you donā€™t know what to say. Thanking him wouldnā€™t be enough. And you think you might want to cry, but tonight, crying wouldnā€™t be enough, either. Nor would screaming. You justā€¦want to feel something different. Something good.
Something worth feeling.
You stare back at Cassian, and your throat bobs.
And it might be against your better judgement, but you cover his hands with yours, and you haul your mouth to his.
You canā€™t exactly explain it, but he has a mouth as rugged as his general appearance, something rough and untamed and justā€¦Cassian. Itā€™s exactly what you need in that moment. You kiss him as if youā€™ve kissed him a thousand times before.
You feel the momentā€™s hesitation on his end. Itā€™s rare that anything is able to knock him silent, but this most certainly does. After a pause, he rips his mouth away from yours, and he stares at you, wide-eyed and flushed, reading your face as if in search of an answer to an unspoken question.
But his internal battle isnā€™t a long one. He seems satisfied with whatever conclusion he comes to. And then heā€™s surging forward and kissing you back, hard.
What follows is not slow nor tentative.
You and Cassian love each other dearly, but there are no illusions that this is anything but needed pleasure. Heā€™s not reciprocating because heā€™s spent hours daydreaming about this, or because you mean more to him than any other female.
Cassian would fuck a tree if a stirred branch waved in his general direction.
And that is absolutely fine. That is exactly what you need.
He wrenches your legs further apart and yanks you to the very edge of the counter, just so he can get closer, kiss you harder. His hand snakes up the nape of your neck and bunches in your hair, strands of it tangling around his fingers, and he tips your head back, his mouth scorching hot and hungry on yours.
This is not something youā€™ve ever thought about, because he is just Cassian. Heā€™s the male who pisses you off by leaving weapons lying around under couch cushions, who sings loudly at the top of his voice first thing in the morning, who fights like fighting is going out of fashion. Since the first day youā€™d met him, when his eleven-year-old self had looked you up and down and challenged you to an arm wrestle, heā€™s always just been Cassian.
Youā€™ve always needed him in some impulsive, temperamental way ā€” someone who keeps you on your toes, even if you complain about it sometimes. But now, you need him in a different way.
You part your mouth from his, just long enough to rip your shirt off and chuck it vaguely over his shoulder. Cass watches as you unclasp the bandeau that covers your breasts, and thatā€™s being thrown away, too, and now your top half is naked, and Cassian is growling. Itā€™s not even that he hasnā€™t seen these parts of you before, but youā€™d think it was the first ever time, going by the way his eyes darken, and a thousand sinful thoughts flit over his face.
ā€œFuck.ā€ His voice is deeper. Both of his hands cup your breasts, and he kisses you again. ā€œI love these.ā€
You smile, and you lock your legs around his waist, and you both groan as you yank him as close as he can get, and youā€™re grinding the centre of you over the bulge in his breeches. That, alone, feels too good ā€” the length of him pushing through the barrier of your clothing. Itā€™s not enough. You need more. You need him inside you.
Cass seems to echo the sentiment as he growls and finally yanks you fully off the counter. ā€œNo screwing around.ā€ He says through gritted teeth. ā€œI need to fuck you.ā€
His hands are at your breeches, and heā€™s ripping them open, and youā€™re so wet between your legs that you have to rub your thighs together, desperate for some kind of friction. Cassian notices, of course, and one side of his mouth tips up into a smirk.
ā€œTurn around.ā€
You do.
Youā€™re happy to be commanded. You donā€™t want to be in charge, donā€™t want to teach.
You want to be taken, and you want to be taught.
His rough hands shove your breeches all the way down, and then heā€™s seeing to his, ripping at the buttons and stays just enough to pull the hard length of him out. You turn your head to drink in the sight, but he doesnā€™t allow it.
He slams your front against that counter, and then heā€™s at your back, the head of his cock brushing against you as he murmurs into your ear, ā€œHow do you want it?ā€
You think your mouth might be watering. ā€œHard.ā€
ā€œHard?ā€
ā€œHard.ā€
ā€œBrace yourself, then, sweetpea.ā€ He grabs your hands, plants them firmly on the counter, calluses biting into your skin. His teeth graze the shell of your ear as he asks, ā€œAre you ready for me?ā€
You couldnā€™t be more ready if you tried. You moan, pushing your ass back against him. His chuckle is felt through every inch of you.
He moves one hand down, drags it down your body, slots it between your legs. Your hips give a little jerk as he mops up some of your wetness with his fingers.
ā€œOh, yeah, youā€™re ready for me.ā€ Thereā€™s a smirk in his voice. His fingers land on your clit, and he nips your ear again. ā€œGood girl.ā€
You open your mouth ā€” to say something, or to beg, youā€™re not sure. But thereā€™s no chance.
The head of Cassianā€™s cock is guided to your entrance. You gasp at the mere feeling of it bumping against you, teasing the opening.
And then he fucking thrusts all the way in, hard enough that you slam once again against the counter. Medical supplies go flying onto the floor.
And gods, it feels too good.
Thereā€™s a tiny bite of pain, yes, but itā€™s pleasurable ā€” more a feeling of fullness. Heā€™s pushed all the way in to the hilt, and the guttural noise that leaves him might just be enough to make you come. Itā€™s animalistic, the way he groans, almost a snarl.
ā€œHard?ā€ He repeats, withdrawing slightly.
You gasp, your head tipping back. ā€œHard.ā€
ā€œThank the Mother.ā€
You yelp as his hand suddenly smacks against your ass cheek, and then heā€™s spreading you open and thrusting in again.
He is not gentle.
He is not soft or tentative or even kind.
This is how Cassian ā€” the much-feared Illyrian ā€” fucks.
And you like it, want it, need it. You push back against him to remind him he doesnā€™t need to be gentle. Forget about the fact that youā€™ve always known each other, that you have a fondness for each other.
Fuck me, you communicate silently. Ruin me, and make me forget who I am.
He growls, as if those very thoughts reached him mind-to-mind. And fuck you, he does.
Youā€™re slammed again and again against the counter, hard enough to bruise and leave marks. His balls slap against your skin as he damn near rams into you at an unstoppable force. Heā€™s grunting and snarling and panting. His hands suddenly clasp both of your arms, and he pulls them behind your back, holding onto them and thrusting faster.
ā€œFucking knew,ā€ he growls, ā€œthat your cunt would feel like this. That youā€™d squeeze my cock like this.ā€
He slows just slightly ā€” just enough to roll his hips and make sure you feel every single inch of him stroking the inside of you. The shout that leaves you doesnā€™t even sound like you.
ā€œYou like that, sweetpea?ā€ He chuckles darkly. He pushes in to the hilt again, and you moan ā€” a mistake that comes with a penalty. His hips still. ā€œGive me your words, sweetheart. I want to know how much you need my cock.ā€
ā€œCassian.ā€ You grit your teeth. ā€œFuck me.ā€
He withdraws. Slams into you again. And then the rhythm picks up, the pace fast and raw and unbeatable. Gripping onto your arms gives Cass the perfect leverage to take you exactly as you want him to take you, as he wants to take you. He canā€™t possibly go any faster, reach any deeper.
Heat coils in your lower belly. You meet every one of his thrusts by bucking against him, and it spurs your body on. You can feel something brilliant building beneath your skin and firing through your veins.
And when he lets go of one of your arms and dips his hand between your legs, his fingers immediately finding your clit, youā€™re not at all sure that you wonā€™t just explode.
As you feel the head of his cock hit deep inside you, unable to go any further, as the pads of his fingers circle your clit, the noise that leaves you is unlike any other noise youā€™ve ever made. Youā€™re vaguely aware of a sudden surge of wetness between your legs that drips down your thighs. Cassian made you squirt.
He half-laughs-half-groans, and his teeth nip your ear. ā€œSweetpea,ā€ he bites out, ā€œwho knew you were such a filthy girl? Is this what Iā€™ve been missing out on?ā€
You canā€™t speak ā€” words fail you. Youā€™re utterly incapable of doing anything but making your breathy little noises, your fractured moans, as Cassian pounds into you. His ministrations at your clit donā€™t even falter, even as he lets out a noise that hints at his own release being close.
ā€œCome for me again.ā€ Your wetness still drenches his hand, you know, but itā€™s not enough ā€” he wants more. His finger presses down hard on your clit, and at the exact same moment, he lands a harsh kiss on your neck that turns into a suck. He slams into you so hard that you have to grip the counter to stop yourself being winded for the second time that night. And you erupt.
You hear the exact moment the walls of your cunt clamp around Cassianā€™s length. The noise he makes is one that you need to commit to memory, keep for a cold, lonely night when itā€™s just you and your hand. Youā€™ve never heard anything like it. You never imagined he could make a sound like it.
ā€œOh, gods, yes,ā€ He damn near whines. His hand is suddenly at your back, and he pushes you down, bends you over until your cheek is pressed to the countertop. He fastens that hand at your shoulder, the other at your hip, and then heā€™s on the homestretch. ā€œOh, fuck!ā€
He thrusts, and he thrusts, and he thrusts ā€” and then he goes still, his cock exploding inside you.
He grunts through every spurt, his fingers biting into your skin. Youā€™re not sure you can move as your cunt continues to contract around him, draining him of every last drop. The counter and Cassianā€™s hands are the only things holding you up. If he steps away now, your legs may just buckle and drag you to the floor.
So in contrast to the wicked noises you were both just making, near-silence sweeps in, broken only by you both gasping for breath. You close your eyes, your brow furrowing. Press your forehead against the surface youā€™re currently slumped over. You canā€™t remember how toā€¦how to exist outside of pleasure.
You are well and truly fucked out.
Youā€™re almost content to just stay there, gripping onto the counter for dear life. But then Cassian finally slides out of you, pulling his seed with him. It drips down your legs, into your underwear. A shudder leaves you.
ā€œShit, that wasā€”ā€ Cass breathes a laugh. ā€œGods. Why have we never done that before?ā€
You manage your own weak, sated chuckle, and finally try to stand up straight. ā€œBecause friends arenā€™t supposed to fuck friends senseless.ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ he agrees. Pauses. ā€œBut, likeā€¦it doesnā€™t have to make things awkward, does it? Weā€™re both adults. Capable of sharing pleasure andā€¦and carrying on as normalā€¦ā€
Oh, bless his heart.
Non-committal Cass is now worried that a casual rearranging of your organs might turn into you falling in love.
ā€œItā€™s not going to be awkward, Cass.ā€ You snort softly. ā€œIā€™m just not sure I can move.ā€
He stares at you. And you stare at him.
The laughter hits you both at the same time. Itā€™s laughter of both relief and release. An acknowledgement that you both feel a darn sight better now than you did when you first walked in. The night isnā€™t weighing on you so heavily, now.
Is that bad? Perhaps.
But you can fuck people, too. Whyā€¦why should you regret it?
ā€œHere.ā€ Tucking himself back into his breeches, Cassian yanks his shirt off, handing it to you. ā€œYou can use this to clean yourself up. Iā€™ll run you a bath.ā€
He turns, but youā€™re stopping him with a hand on his arm. ā€œI donā€™t want special treatment just because we fucked. Justā€¦be normal.ā€
One eyebrow quirks up. ā€œI planned to run you a bath after I cleaned your cheek. We just got a bitā€¦sidetracked. Iā€™m looking after you, Y/N ā€” as your friend.ā€
You study his face. Heā€™s open, sincere ā€” not pitying. Good.
ā€œOkay.ā€ You tug your hand away. ā€œThank you.ā€
He dips his chin, and then heā€™s strolling away again. He stops at the bottom of the stairs, turning back to look at you.
ā€œI love you.ā€ He says. ā€œJustā€¦donā€™t ever doubt that.ā€
Youā€™re not sure you ever could. Heā€™s one of the few constants in your life.
You nod, suddenly not sure you can make eye contact. ā€œI know. I love you, too.ā€
He, too, nods. And then he disappears, and youā€™re listening to his boots thudding against each step of the stairs.
You wipe yourself down, tug your breeches up. Slump back against the counter. Drag a hand over your face.
You kind of just want to sleep, be unconscious, before the weighty thoughts begin to shove their way in again.
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The summons comes early the next morning, before the sun has even arisen.
One of Lord Devlonā€™s cronies comes to pluck you and Cassian from the cottage, lead you to the Camp Lordā€™s study. Azriel is already there when you arrive.
You meet his gaze as you sit down, trying to look for some clue as to what might have occurred in Fenlaros after youā€™d left. All he seems interested in is checking you over, surveying you for what injuries you have as a result of the night before.
Youā€™re not all too sure if your stomach is tender because of the punch you received to your gut, or because of how thoroughly Cassian fucked you against the kitchen counter.
Ā Probably best not to linger on that thought for too long.
Youā€™re sandwiched between your two friends, waiting for Lord Devlon to actually grace you with his presence. Where Rhysand is, you can only imagine ā€” probably dealing with his fatherā€™s wrath.
You glance down at a slight, sudden pressure you feel at your leg. Azriel presses his thigh into yours, and you lift your gaze to meet his.
ā€œYouā€™re not too hurt?ā€ He speaks quietly.
You shake your head. ā€œYou?ā€
ā€œIā€™m fine. All good, Cass?ā€
With his typical, swaggering nonchalance that will most certainly land him in deeper shit, Cass grins and stretches his arms above his head. ā€œJust peachy.ā€
ā€œAz.ā€ You coax the shadowsingerā€™s gaze back to yours. ā€œWhat happened with Kaedaā€™s father?ā€
Perhaps youā€™re being a tad dramatic, but youā€™d lain awake pretty much all night, brooding on the fact that youā€™d fucked Cass whilst Az was being subjected to the gods knew what. Your thoughts had snowballed into preparing you for Az to return beaten black and blue ā€” or not return at all.
But he looksā€¦fine. A little roughed up from the brawl, but otherwise fine.
He opens his mouth, leaning closer, and thatā€™s when the door flies open.
The three of you stand up immediately. Tuck your hands behind your backs. Bow your heads.
Lord Devlon saunters into the room, kicking the door shut behind him. His footsteps are loud and purposed as he strides to his chair.
ā€œSit.ā€ He says coldly.
You take your seats once more. The Lordā€™s eyes skate over the three of you for a pensive few moments, before settling entirely on you. It makes you uncomfortable.
ā€œSo.ā€ He sits back. ā€œWho wants to take a stab at why Iā€™m not very happy this morning?ā€
The three of you keep your mouths clamped shut.
ā€œIā€™ll give you a clue. Itā€™s not so much to do with a piss-poor nightā€™s sleep, as it is to do with the fact that three of my fucking soldiers,ā€ his lip curls as he looks you up and down, ā€œand their little plaything,snuck off to a rival camp and picked a fight.ā€
ā€œSheā€™s not ourā€”ā€
ā€œDid I give you permission to speak, Azriel?ā€
The ticking in Azā€™s jaw is slight, but itā€™s there, as he stares forward. ā€œNo, my lord.ā€
ā€œThen keep your fucking mouth shut until I do.ā€
Your friend bows his head once more.
ā€œCan any one of you explain why, exactly, you not only travelled to a rival camp without my orders, but why you then decided to stoke tensions between our two camps? Because, you know, thatā€™s their territory. They were well within their rights to defend themselves and not one of them is being punished for it.ā€
None of you are sure whether he actually wants an answer. Itā€™s best to justā€¦keep your mouth shut.
ā€œNone of you have anything to say?ā€ Devlonā€™s eyebrows flick up. ā€œFine. How about I offer you my theory? Because Iā€™m seeing a running theme, here.ā€
You can feel his hard, intense stare bounce from Azriel, to you, to Cassian. Back and forth and back and forth.
But it always returns to you.
It might be in that moment that you realise thereā€™s another layer to this, that you stupidly hadnā€™t considered. One thatā€™s really going to get Devlon and his cronies grinding their teeth.
Youā€™re female.
And itā€™s bad enough for males, his soldiers, to behave like this. But you? A mere, docile female? Someone who should be focused on housekeeping and finding someone to breed with?
A female stepping outside of her place is more or less considered a crime by Illyrians. And you donā€™t have a Camp Lord father to get you out of that very deep shit.
ā€œItā€™s Y/N, isnā€™t it?ā€ Lord Devlon addresses you. He knows your name. Heā€™s a cat playing with a mouse.
You meet his gaze and nod. ā€œYes, my lord.ā€
ā€œThe blacksmithā€™s daughter.ā€
ā€œYes, my lord.ā€
ā€œHm. The thing is, Y/N, I am here to raise armies. To oversee the training of their soldiers. As Camp Lord, that is my duty.ā€
You grit your teeth, bite your tongue. You hate the condescending tone that is so fucking typical of Illyrian males. Itā€™s patronising. Offensive. Heā€™s stating blatant facts and explaining them to you as though you are a child.
But you simply dip your chin in acknowledgment, because playing your part is the only way the three of you are getting out of here with a slap on the wrist.
ā€œI cannot afford for my soldiers to be distracted from their training, or be seduced into making trouble for themselves.ā€ The way he looks you up and down, in that moment, makes you feel oily. ā€œI need my soldiers to be prepared. If war came tomorrow, do you honestly think I could send these two out onto a battlefield?ā€
These two. He says it with such dismissal, such contempt, that you find yourself balling your fists at your sides. Heā€™s always singled your friends out, tried to break them. He may have to tolerate Rhysand ā€” his father being the High Lord and all ā€” but the tiny slither of acceptance he has for Rhys does not hold up for Azriel or Cassian. He sees them as useless. As nobodies. Heā€™s waiting for them to lose their lives in training or combat so he can be rid of them for good.
It boils your blood.
Before you can stop yourself, your lip curls. ā€œI think theyā€™re two of the best soldiers in Illyria, and youā€™re damn well lucky to have them.ā€
Devlon sneers back at you. ā€œIā€™m sure you would say that. If only to keep them in your bed.ā€
Beside you, the arms of Cassianā€™s chair creak as he squeezes them hard. ā€œMy Lordā€”ā€
ā€œIf either one of you speaks without my permission again, I will string you up by your balls. Understood?ā€
Thereā€™s a pause. And then both Cass and Az are sitting back in their seats. Offering quiet, affirmative responses.
ā€œSo.ā€ Devlon focuses on you once more. Anger mottles his cheeks a reddish hue. ā€œConsidering every time these two land themselves in shit, you are at the centre of it, I see only one appropriate course of action. I will not have you leading them astray. Be it pointless fighting or the absolute colossal fuck up of last night, you are always the common denominator. That stops today. This instant.ā€
You stare at him. Youā€™re not entirely sure what heā€™s getting at, but something lurches in your stomach. You swallow down a lump in your throat and grip hard onto your chair.
ā€œAs soldiers under my command,ā€ Devlonā€™s eyes flit between Cassian and Azriel, ā€œI forbid you ā€” and Rhysand ā€” from having any more involvement with her. You will not spend time with her. You will not speak to her in passing. You wonā€™t even look at her. If I find out you do, youā€™ll regret it.ā€
All three of you shoot up in your seats, alarmed looks passing your faces. ā€œYou canā€™t do this.ā€ Youā€™re the first to spit.
ā€œOh?ā€ Devlon cocks an eyebrow. ā€œThis is Camp Windhaven, is it not?ā€
ā€œYes, butā€”ā€
ā€œI am Lord of Camp Windhaven, am I not?ā€
ā€œObviouslyā€”ā€
ā€œThen I absolutely have the authority to give such orders, and thus, consider them given. Starting today, your involvement with my soldiers ends.ā€
ā€œMy Lord,ā€ Azrielā€™s tone is pinched, panicked, ā€œyou donā€™t understand ā€” sheā€™s living with us right now. Her father kicked her out of his home. She has nowhere else to go.ā€
ā€œDo you think I give a shit about her domestic situation, Shadowsinger?ā€ The Lord snaps at him. ā€œIā€™m here to oversee the training of Windhavenā€™s soldiers. Not to get involved in pointless family drama.ā€
ā€œBut where am I supposed to go?ā€ You canā€™t help it ā€” you slam your fist against the arm of your chair. ā€œWhat am I supposed to do?ā€
ā€œThat isnā€™t my problem.ā€ Devlon shrugs. He stands up, planting his hands on the desk between you. He leans over with a glower. ā€œBut you better run home with your tail between your legs and begin mending relations with your father, because if I detect that thereā€™s even a hint of involvement with you and my soldiers, I will make you regret it, girl. Do not cross me.ā€
He tucks ā€” no, slams ā€” his chair under the table. Itā€™s a dismissal. Youā€™re not allowed to respond.
Youā€™re silent, too stunned to think, speak, breathe, as Devlon strides to the door and rips it open.
ā€œGet the fuck out, all three of you.ā€ He orders, and you stand numbly from your chair. ā€œYou two,ā€ he directs his attention to your friends, ā€œI want your asses in the training ring immediately. Go.ā€
They donā€™t want to, you can tell. They hesitate, but ultimately, thereā€™s no other choice. They have no authority. Theyā€™re mere soldiers in training. This is their career, their lifeā€™s work, on the line. They canā€™t meet your gaze as they file out of the door, and you donā€™t blame them.
ā€œAnd you?ā€ Devlon stops you as you try to follow, gripping onto your shoulder hard. He may as well pick you up by the scruff of your neck like a boisterous pup. ā€œYouā€™d better heed my warning, Y/N the blacksmithā€™s daughter.ā€
He shoves you out of the room. You throw your hands out before you slam into the wall.
ā€œStay. The fuck. Away.ā€
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nervoussagittarius Ā· 7 months ago
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NSFW ALPHABET
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matt sturniolo x reader
warnings: nsfw, yā€™all control the content you consume
ā˜… aftercare (what theyā€™re like after sex)
matt is such a sweetheart in everyday life, him being an absolute slut during sex doesnā€™t change that. heā€™s cleaning you up and dressing you. heā€™s offering food and water and cuddles
ā˜… body part (their favorite of yours and theirs)
his favorite body part of yours is your eyes. he loves they way to look at him when youā€™re giving him head. he loves how they roll back when heā€™s giving you head. and he loves how pouty they get when he doesnā€™t give you what you want
his favorite body part on himself is his arms. theyā€™re doing what they need to do. and you enjoy having them wrapped around your neck
ā˜… cum (their favorite place to cum)
kid will simply cum anywhere and everywhere. your face. you back. you legs. your stomach. but he does love being able to cum inside of you. thereā€™s something sensual about it to him
heā€™s not called matt the munch for no reason. he loves when you cum in his mouth
ā˜… dirty secret (something theyā€™ve always wanted to do but are hiding it)
matt has always wanted to fuck you on every surface in his house so no matter what room he walks into he can be reminded of how good you made each other feel there.
ā˜… experience (how many bodies before you, what they had done)
matt has maybe 3 bodies before you. he doesnā€™t like meeting new people very much so he didnā€™t care about going out and hooking up with girls. he was pretty inexperienced when it came to different kinks and positions but you were able to teach him
ā˜… favorite position (pretty self explanatory)
he pretty much only knew missionary and doggy before you came around. that being said he loves when you ride him and he loves when youā€™re in cowgirl but heā€™s pounding into you. such dom energy
ā˜… goofy (how serious they are during the act)
matthew doesnā€™t come to play. heā€™s getting into it no questions asked. heā€™s pretty serious about sex but is always willing to crack a joke to break up any tension
ā˜… hair (how well maintained it is)
he has a little bit of a happy trail but all in all keeps everything pretty neat and trimmed
he could not give two fucks on how you look down there. heā€™s going down either way.
ā˜… intimacy (how romantic are they in the moment)
mattā€™s a very romantic person having sex or not. he loves just being close to you and holding you.
ā˜… jerk off (how often they masterbate)
he doesnā€™t really feel like he has a need to masterbate. he knows that all heā€™s has to do is ask and youā€™ll almost always be down for sex with him. if heā€™s in a different state for a few weeks or on tour without you he might do it once or twice but itā€™s not the same to him.
ā˜… kinks (favorite kinks)
big on praise type of guy. he loves telling you how good youā€™re doing and he loves being told how good heā€™s doing. he likes seeing you with his hand around your neck but only if youā€™re down
ā˜… location (where theyā€™ll have sex)
like i said he doesnā€™t really like to leave his house so his personal spaces are the places you have sex the most. his bed. his desk. his shower. the backseat of his carā€¦ but on the occasion you guys are out with his friends or brothers heā€™s not opposed to bending you over a bathroom sink somewhere
ā˜… motivation (turn ons)
LOVES neck kisses. you could be giving him the most innocent neck kiss ever and heā€™ll instantly be bricked
ā˜… no (something they wonā€™t do)
matt HATES being called daddy and he will never call you mommy. no kinks for that here. he feels like thereā€™s such a stigma around the word that it just gives him an ick hearing them.
ā˜… oral (preference and skill)
again heā€™s matt the munch heā€™s gonna go down on you anywhere anytime. he loves making you feel good especially with his mouth. heā€™s so good at it too. you just get to sit back and watch
he likes getting head but itā€™s not a priority for him. if you enjoy giving head then heā€™s down but if you donā€™t care then he doesnā€™t either
ā˜… pace (how fast or slow they go on the regular)
it depends on his mood honestly. if heā€™s feeling really flirty and romantic then heā€™s taking his time and going slow. if heā€™s feeling stressed or angry heā€™s pounding into you so fast
ā˜… quickie (are they down and if so how often)
heā€™s not really into quickies but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. if thereā€™s time crunch and one of you is in desperate need then a quickie will have to do
ā˜… risk (are they down to experiment)
mattā€™s open to doing a lot. like stated before he hadnā€™t experienced much before you so heā€™s always open to try something new
ā˜… stamina (how long they can go for)
heā€™s got good stamina. he can go for at least two hours lasting multiple rounds. youā€™ll both be whimpering overstimulated messes by the end but neither of you care enough to stop
ā˜… toys (do they have any)
he personally doesnā€™t have any toys for himself. he might have a vibrator or something for you but he lowkey feels like if he has to use a toy to get you off it means heā€™s doing something wrong. we donā€™t want to hurt his ego
ā˜… unfair (how much theyā€™ll tease)
this man is a HUGE tease. itā€™s the rings and the slutty waist and the instagram pictures. he knows how to get you worked up and he wonā€™t stop until youā€™re begging him to fuck you
ā˜… volume (are they vocal)
king of dirty talk. can flip the switch from whispering sweet nothings in your ear to moaning about how good you suck his dick in seconds. thereā€™s constant groans and screams when yā€™all fuck. heā€™s not scared of noise complaints
ā˜… wild card (random headcannon)
heā€™s not afraid of nick and chris walking in on you guys. if they can hear you two it means heā€™s probably doing something right and that just boosts his ego
ā˜… x ray (details on how big they are)
heā€™s packing a good 7 inches and has a decent width to him. but it really is about if you know how you use it and not about the size and this man has both
ā˜… yearning (how high their sex drive is)
heā€™s always down to have sex but heā€™s usually not gonna be begging to fuck you. heā€™s more just interested in making sure you feel good even if that means his dick is never touched #selfless
ā˜… Zzzs (how fast they fall asleep after)
he will always make sure youā€™re asleep first. heā€™s not one to over exert himself so heā€™s not fighting to keep his eyes open. heā€™s taught himself how to keep his energy up during and after sex
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ā€“ The look in your eyes, got me hypnotized
tarot pick a pile reading ( ā†’ 1, 2, 3 )
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pictures from pinterest ā†’ one, two, three
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There are people that just have something about them... Something that makes you unable to resist the urge to follow them, to get closer... Just to feel their energy around you. Just to receive their attention, feel their gaze on you. There is just something so magnetic about those that inevitably call you. A bait that leads you again and again into the trap of someone so intoxicatingly loving, so painful in the way they grasp your heart. There are many moments in our life when we are captured, hypnotized, by someone. A dangerous love, a painful friendship, a delusional connection, a misleading admiration... But how can we ever be able to resist them, protecting our soul from the ones that try to steal it, make it theirs to play with and enjoy?
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This is our first pick a pile reading from the Divination Jukebox - I'm so happy that so many of you liked this idea! (Ėš ĖƒĢ£Ģ£Ģ„āŒ“Ė‚Ģ£Ģ£Ģ„ )恄ā™”
Apart from being obviously inspired by the story that this song narrates - "Hypnotized" by Funk Tribu and Part Time Killer - this reading was also guided by my cards, that showed me the point of view from which we should listen to this song, the way it wants us to feel, what it wants us to understand right now, what that part of our subconscious that resonates with it wants us to realize...
P.s. If you would like to see a reading inspired by your suggested song, you can learn more about how to participate here ā†“
ā™Ŗā™”ā™Ŗ Divination Jukebox ā™Ŗā™”ā™Ŗ
Slow down for a moment. Give your conscious mind a moment of rest, allow it to step back. And listen to your subconscious instead, to that inner voice, to the intuition that is guiding you to the pile in which your message hides.
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( You can scroll right down to your pile, but if you have a moment to spare - there is something that I would love to hear your opinion about.ā™” )
In my each reading, I dive as deeper as I can into the topic or situation that we are looking at. I call for the most needed information for you, the guidance that is the most important for you to receive now... But as useful and right, I sometimes feel a sour taste after a reading. Simply because I understand too well that so often there is much much more that we personally might want to know, more details that we want to hear, more things that we want to be aware of... For this reason, and also to give myself a little more help financially, I was considering on doing extended versions of our pick a pile readings. An addition to each pile of a reading that we do, through which we will be able to have even more details about the situation. So we have not only the message that we need, but also the answers to the questions that we are most curious about.
{ Thank you for letting me know!ā™” }
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ā€“ Pile one,
the seven of cups, the death, the five of cups
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To be seen, to be noticed amidst all the other ones... To be hold onto so tightly... To be chosen so fiercely and passionately again and again... There is nothing wrong about it. There is nothing wrong or entitled in just wanting to feel so needed and desired. So important and necessary for someone just for once... But when the part of us that desires it so much, finds it so romantic and loving, is the one that has so many wounds, that bleeds still because of all the times it was left behind or put aside... It is no longer just a desire. With each moment and connection that it passes without it, it transforms it into a weapon against us. And worst of all, a weapon that we don't realize to be the ones to hold.
Because for our honest, most genuine and softest heart, to be chosen is to be loved, to be enough, to be that all that someone needs or might want. It doesn't consider being a part of a plan, a part of a temporary satisfaction. It doesn't imagine that others might choose us, but only for a moment that will soon pass. We don't think so superficially, we don't focus only on the now, even if it is all that we hoped for... Our mind and heart rushes, moves forward in time, in our dreams and expectations for a fairytale like story that we think just began. We imagine and start to wait for more moments to create with them, and even difficulties that would be so easy to overcome now that there is someone by our side. We still feel that fear, still overthink and expect the worse. But we also fight every doubt and negative thought with the reminders of their gentleness and comprehension. We soothe ourselves with their loving ways, with the conviction that nothing can really tear us apart. Not when they were the ones to choose us, to come closer to us. Not when they were the ones to take care of us and promise us so much.
So when times change, when the first challenge arrives... we are armed with that sureness that everything will be alright that we created in our heart. Even if it is not just external interference. Even if it comes from them, from their suddenly confusing and so different ways. We still endure it and wait for the best, thanks to that enthusiasm and sureness that just being noticed and chosen created in ourselves. And it becomes only stronger when things do work out. When that person, after making a "mistake", taking some time or hurting us for the first time, comes indeed back and speaks so wholeheartedly about how they understood what they've done and how they will never allow it to happen again... It just makes our conviction stronger, our heart and mind even more infatuated with this perfect story of redemption in the name of love. In our name...
And then it happens again. And again, and again, and again. But we endure it, we are patient, we are understanding, we are hopeful of the fact that everything will be alright. And we fail to see the pattern. The way it happens so similarly every time. The mistake. The hurt. The regret. The forgiveness. And back from the start. Every single time, one after another, a well done play that for so long we consider being something normal... Just because we were convinced of it through the sweet and loving words.
We allow it to happen, without even knowing that we are the ones to allow it. Without understanding that this is indeed not normal. That this, in the first place, is not even what we were looking for when desiring to be chosen. And it just becomes a neverending cycle. With the same person or with the others. In the same exact way, or worse, in newer and ever changing ones. We never have a break. We never feel truly safe and chosen over other people or things. But we just become someone who is so convenient for when things get boring. So easy to maintain with just a few tender words and gentle ways.
And when it is described this way... It seems so obvious how it is wrong and dangerous, and how easy it is to recognise it and to avoid... But it is more tricky than it looks. It is much more difficult to recognise the danger, something that is wrong, when not only it is all that you've known for so long... But also the only one that you ever received from another soul.
Because recognising it is not the only step. There is also the one of refusing it, of walking away and not taking that "bait". But is it really so easy to ignore it, when you know that it might be the only food that you will find in miles and miles that you will need to survive? Facing loneliness, the coldness around you as there is no one to warm even a little your heart... It is not easy at all to face it. And it is even more difficult to choose it, condemning yourself to that silence and void, that absence of smiles, of laughter, of the joy of having someone sometimes by your side. It is not really the decision to hurt yourself. But the one of hurting you less, by giving yourself at least something, even if it is not the exact thing you desired.
Or at least so you thought... What in the theory of a broken and tired heart makes sense, reveals later to be something much more draining and hurtful than you can bear in the reality of your days. The days that perhaps are really not that bad, even if you are the only one to witness them... They are not so cold, even if you have only the warmth of your own heart. They are for sure different from what you desire, or even from what others might expect from you. But not for this reason they are useless or not worth it. To be lived for your own self, candied only by your love... They can be sweet enough to be still enjoyed. Rather than ignored just because it does not come from someone else's heart.
It is not easy at all to resist it, to stop looking for or accepting something that is so damn similar to what you truly want and hope for... But it is easier to start, one step at a time, to learn how to give more love and respect to your own self, to your own ways, your appearance, your character, all that is a part of your beautiful soul... Because it will create that needed and better armour for you, that filter through which you will see the ways of others, giving them credit and appreciating them, but also never feeling dependent, never feeling like it is the only thing you have. So even when it will happen once again, as you will grow and learn to understand the intentions of others more... It will not hurt so much, it will not happen for so dangerously long. Because although still remaining your sweetest, hopeful and open self, you will also become whole. You will be enough, even on your own. Your life as it is will be enough. And every time your soul will connect with someone, they won't be the reason for your days to be lived, they won't cause your life to crash down if they are no longer by your side... But they will just be someone that, if you want to, you can share it with. A little moment, or a whole life.
ā™” { free guidance | a little thank you } ā™”
ā€“ Pile two,
the hierophant, the death, the three of cups
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This world is so incredibly vast... This life can be so different just because of one little decision, a step in one direction rather than in the other one... And it is beautiful, it is indeed. But it is also so overwhelming. This freedom but also the risk of making a mistake, of not knowing in fact what is the best for you right now. It is difficult and so so scary to make your steps out there without even knowing what you are looking for, what you would like to achieve in this life, what or how to create... And what you will do if it will not work out. How will you handle a failure all on your own, the one responsible for all your actions and the consequences, the only one to be able to help you or give you support...
So it is normal to look more for that safe space, for that creation of a solid and strong base, perhaps not in other areas of your life that are already so difficult to manage... But at least in your connections, in the people that are by your side and that indeed can make any challenge feel so different, so easier to take care of when you are not alone in this mess desperately trying to save your life. It is normal to do it, to look for them, and once you found them - to look up to them. It is normal to seek support and guidance from those that have such an important place in your heart once they entered your life. It is normal to listen to others, to their opinions and experiences in hopes of finding answers to your own questions about this life. And it is normal to be charmed by their confidence, their strength, their plans and how easily they realize them one step at a time. It is normal and it is logical. To look for someone that can help you grow and become better at managing your life. Someone that, if something happens, always will have your back, always will know how to catch you before you fall to the ground...
But while they do inspire you in your journey... their path is all that they really know. And you are the one that, still so hopeful about your own desires and capabilities, is able to translate their conviction for their goals in motivation for your ones. But what happens when you fall more and more, what happens when you start to feel so tired and hurt with each failure that tears your goals apart, while they seem to become just better and better, safer in their life..? You stop to transform it and translate it for yourself, their story and their ways. And you start to absorb it. Without any filter, desperately. Because you are so consumed that only doubts remain in your heart. Doubts about your own capabilities and chances to succeed, doubts about your awareness and ability to make the right choices, to fight for the right things... Doubts that are just void in your heart, your mind, your ideas or motivation. A void that is so easily filled with the dreams of others, when they are so important, so close, so powerful and successful. An example of perfection that you respect and aspire to become. So you make them yours. Their opinions and convictions. And they help you at every step, because it is simply something that they love and that worked for them, so they are sure it will do the same for you... But does it ever truly..? Or is it just a well hidden play pretend, your tired feet that you try to fit in other's shoes, in hopes that they will be more comfortable, more safer, in the end?
But even so, it is not something that you allow to happen just because of your weakness or such a low self-esteem either... It is rather an influence that you almost desperately accept, in hopes that it will work better than what you tried on your own. It is not really lack of desire of working on something by yourself, but it is rather a genuine uncertainty and confusion on what you want to work on in the first place. It is just the most innocent naivety, being so new and fragile from this perspective for this world. It is just the desire and need to be guided a little, to have that help in figuring out what is the best or what you want, what might work... And it is not a malicious game of manipulation from others either. There is no desire in washing out your brain and fill it with their dreams or goals. It is just a genuine desire to help, but with so little knowledge of the other ways and journeys out there in this world. It is only someone that knows so well and trusts that one specific something, being able to show and help only with and through that. And it is just you that don't really know where or how to make your steps, what path to take, and in front of the immense risk and responsibility of choosing on your own, prefer to trust someone that you love and respect so much. Someone that you know will never do something to hurt you or to ruin your life.
But it still happens though... In a certain sense. Not intentionally. But they still ruin your journey that you do have, contrary to what all these obstacles, failures, and constant changes made you think. It's just not a linear one, not a specific one like so many others have. Your journey is just about something different from simply choosing and achieving. It is more than just one path or one thing to do, try or enjoy... You made so much experience so far, but at the same time so little. From your perspective it is all about failures, not being able to manage things, not knowing where to go... And it is so little about the joy of freedom, the possibility to start again and again, the chance to try and experiment with so many ideas and ways that this world wanted so much to show you, but that presented it so confusingly and poorly, so differently from the way and a language that you could comprehend...
But it is nothing irreparable, fortunately and as always. No matter if you want it or not, there will be many more endings and beginnings, many more changes that you will face in your life... You just need to not be afraid of them, to resist that urge to hold onto the hand of others so dearly, hiding behind their reassuring back instead of moving forward, through and past the obstacles on your path. You just need to have more faith, in your own self and your way of being, your intuition and instincts. More than you trust the ones of the others when it comes to your own life. You just need to be there for yourself, when it becomes a little too scary, different and new. You just need to trust and follow your own gaze, the things that caught your attention. Instead of looking for and trying to decipher the glimpses from others around you, before making any step.
It is okay, it is still right and fine even if it is so different from the journeys of others. And just because they are successful after walking on their chosen path, it doesn't mean that you can't become it too, on a different one, or many different ones. To be successful it is not always or only to achieve your initial goals or to stick to the plan. It is also to be able to learn from what happened, to grow, to enjoy it or even just and simply experience something. And you do it so well already, you manage things much better than you recognise.
Hold onto your own self, onto your curiosity and even the mood swings that gift you the desire to do something else, to look for something more. And let go slightly of their hand. They will not disappear, the ones that you love and look up to. They will always be here. But now you will have the chance to live your life like you want and feel right, not how they would do it, or how they did.
ā™” { free guidance | a little thank you } ā™”
ā€“ Pile three,
the page of cups, the hanged man, the page of pentacles
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What can be worse than believing so much in someone, in loving them, in giving them every chance, making them the object of your strongest hope... just for them to be someone that will walk away, uninterested to all that you've done for your connection, not being satisfied with all that you would be ready to do just for your bond..? Only doing it more than once. Again and again. Trusting, welcoming, one soul after another into your world... watching them destroy it after using it for a moment of comfort or unconditional love and support...
But it doesn't really matter for you, for your heart. Does it? All that you endure when you try to connect deeper with someone is simply nothing, compared to that world hidden in their soul that you can witness, that bond that can heal any wound, banish all the fears and nightmares of the old ones... if only they reciprocate your affection and love. It is nothing compared to the chance that the person in front of you is indeed the one. It is nothing compared to the pure pain that would overwhelm you if you miss them. If you miss them because you will be one of those that you swear you won't become. A cold, judgemental, selfish soul...
Because you know thank to your own self how people can be different from the mask that they carry when they are outside. You know how many stories and reasons can be hidden behind that coldness, that meanness, that defensivness that sometimes pours out of someone who is just not used to be treated so softly, so kindly, as you do thanks to your so gentle heart... You know it well, because for so long you felt the same way. In need to protect yourself, to hide your tenderness so you won't be used or hurt every single time... And you remember how, while doing everything to push others away, all you wanted was to be seen and understood, accepted and appreciated just the way you were... So you do it with others too now. Now that you found that strength and courage to just love the way you feel is right. You nourish every person, you take care of every one that crosses your path. You believe in them, you trust them. And you hope that one day, thanks to you, they will finally open up. And love you back.
But although so noble and incredibly sweet... it is a promise that is not so easy to keep. Not when those that you try to take care of are so different from how you were when you needed it. Their armour is stronger. Their pain is more loud. And sometimes... they already chose a different path, a more lonely one. And nothing will change it, no matter how hard you will try, how strongly you will believe that somewhere in them there is more sweetness and gentleness hidden, that there can be more between you than just this coldness and distance between your hearts.
You are incredibly loving, you are just so sweet. And it truly admirable the way you still hold hope, the way you find courage within yourself and are ready to put your own heart at risk just to help others. Just to gift them that love that you know they need... But it is also so destructive, for your own soul. To put yourself again and again on the line in the battles of others, just because they are by your side, close enough to be noticed by your protective and selfless eyes...
For how long can you endure it? For how long you can give so much of you, because of this strong conviction that there is more to people, to connections, to their stories... Because of your desire to know them, understand them and save them, like no one ever did for you when you needed it the most? It wouldn't be right to just tell you to not do it. To lose your faith in people and in the connections. To force yourself to believe that no one ever will appreciate the way you love or give you that same love back... Because it is just the way you are. So rare and beautiful in how much love you hold in your heart... But it would be right and even needed for you to learn to not force it... when you feel so much resistance, when you just receive silence, in return of your desire to help or show others a different way to see this world. Because there are those that are more sure and more honest. The ones that want to take care of their wounds on their own, and that would never accept to use someone, because they know too well how much it would hurt. The ones that just push you away, or move forward and past you, following their own journey and making it clear that they want to go through it alone... But there are also those that are more confused, more tired, or even worse just bored... Those that make you stay, seeing how much you want to give to someone your love. Those that accept it. But also never repay you. Those that take more and more from you, that are so willing to help every time that they ask you...even when they don't really need it. But just want it. So it is less lonely and cold.
You have a golden heart, a pure and honest one. And for this reason it should be protected, at least a little more. Be yourself, be kind, be gentle. But also pay more attention to the ones that call your name and seek your help so often, always right after being the one to push you away... Because sometimes there are people that just can't resist your love that is always so available, so comforting and convenient for their lonely nights, for the nightmares and difficult times that they could and should overcome on their own, but are just not ready. Or don't want.
ā™” { free guidance | a little thank you } ā™”
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provide-milk Ā· 16 days ago
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Ford Pines NSFW Alphabet
!Minors do not interact with!
Inspired by @roolette and their Johnny Cage NSFW Alphabet
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A = Aftercare (What theyā€™re like after sex)
Didnā€™t know anything about aftercare at first. He seemed to be deep in thought after everytime you guys first had sex (he would still be in the middle of processing everything that happened). It annoyed you how silent he was after finishing.
ā€œHow was it?ā€ You would ask as you scooched closer to him on the bed.
ā€œGood.ā€ He would mumble, staring at the ceiling (that post nut clarity getting to him).
But now He enjoys every second of you, giving you kisses all over your body and always making sure he has a towel. He spoons you from behind, giving you pecks on your neck. ā€œThat was great dear. I didnā€™t know you were so flexible.ā€ Heā€™d say in a teasing manner. ā€œOh shut up Ford.ā€ Youā€™d smile. He loved those tender moments after sex, whispering about different things and holding onto one another.
B = Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partners)
Used to hate his fingers. Emphasis on the ā€˜used to,ā€™ That is before he watched the way you kiss each of his fingers and sensually put them in your mouth, while making eye contact with you. He loves how much you love them, especially how you compliment how good they feel inside you and how heā€™s able to find just the right spots to have you screaming his name (come on, have you seen the way that man handles a dice). As for you, he loves every part of you, but especially your thighs. When you guys are sitting down together at a restaurant, heā€™ll squeeze your thigh under the table, causing you to accidentally kick the person in front of you. He swears he could die a happy death between your thighs (weā€™ll get back to this at letter O..).
C = Cum (Anything to do with cum, basically)
He was terrified of the idea of accidentally cumming inside you, always making sure to wear a condom. But one day he finally gave into your pleas. ā€œFord, please. Iā€™m on the pill. Itā€™ll be fine.ā€ He sighed, ā€œI suppose we can try it one time.ā€ After that he was addicted to it. Always begging to cum inside you and making sure to fuck every last bit of it inside you. Sometimes heā€™d pull out and watch it drip out of you, forcing it back inside with his fingers. It felt like he was claiming you as his own which he loved the feeling of. That you were his and his only.
D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Secretly loves the age gap (much to his chagrin). Something about a pretty, young thing like you being head over heels for him only added to his ego. Heā€™d ask you, ā€œWhy donā€™t you date guys your own age?ā€ ā€œBecause they canā€™t do the things you do to me.ā€ He loved hearing your answers. Once his discomfort about the age difference goes away, heā€™s bragging about you constantly. You feel like a prize to him that he needs to show off. During a rough session, the words, ā€œYou perverted old man. You like fucking me, knowing that Iā€™m half your age.ā€ You could feel Fordā€™s dick twitch inside you. ā€œDid you actually like it when I said that?ā€ Youā€™d ask after. ā€œLetā€™s talk about something elseā€¦ā€ Heā€™d respond, avoiding eye-contact with you.
E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what theyā€™re doing?)
Not experienced, basically a virgin which shocked you to no end . But man, does he learn fast. He observes exactly what gets you going and writes it down in a journal (for research only of course..). Starts off shy at first, constantly looking for reassurance that heā€™s doing a good job, but once heā€™s got it down he quickly becomes more confident and a little bit cocky too. The fact he can make you squirt now is still a high he hasnā€™t come down from. You start to wonder where that innocent man went when heā€™s hitting all the right spots, making you scream out his name.
F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying)
He absolutely loves cowgirl. His back sometimes hurts after hours of pouring over his journals. Being able to lay back and watch your erotic expressions while you take the lead turns him on to no end. Heā€™d hold onto your waist, his fingers almost leaving six bruises on your torso, thrusting into you once you started losing momentum, loving the way you threw your head back and let out a loud moan. Once while cleaning, you found a detailed drawing in his notebook of you naked, riding him, your face twisted in pleasure. You flipped the pages to see nothing but similar content, but in other positions with little notes on what he noticed turned you on the most during your session.
G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment? Are they humorous? etc.)
Not a big fan of jokes in bed, thinks youā€™re laughing at him if you start to giggle at a joke that comes to your mind. One way to get him to be rougher with you is to tell him a joke while you guys are going at it. Will immediately manhandle you and start fucking you into oblivion until you completely forget what you even said. Will make sure to keep a serious face even if he does find it funny. He finds that it ruins the mood. ā€œDonā€™t say stuff like that while weā€™re doing this.ā€ Heā€™d grumble. ā€œOr else what?ā€ With a response like that you were definitely willing to not be able to walk right for the next few days.
H = Hair (How well-groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
He doesnā€™t shave unless you ask him to, which he doesnā€™t very often because he knows you love his happy trail. He argues shaving takes too much time away from his research. Doesnā€™t mind if you donā€™t shave either, he couldnā€™t care less. During the beginning of your relationship, if he wanted to have sex and you didnā€™t shave you would feel slightly uncomfortable about it, telling him awkwardly. Once you got the reply, ā€œYou think thatā€™s gonna stop me?ā€, the embarrassment quickly went away.
I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment? The romantic aspect.)
Things can get rough with Ford, but he still makes sure to treat you like a goddess. Giving you kisses all over your body and praising you the whole time. ā€œDespite all the dimensions Iā€™ve been in, you by far are the most beautiful sight Iā€™ve ever seen.ā€ Somedays, he just wants to be as slow and tender with you as possible, fully enjoying just how much of a safespace youā€™ve become to him. During times like those he loves missionary so he can be as close to you as possible and indulge in every one of your lustful expressions.
J = Jack off (Masturbation Headcanon)
Prefers not to and would rather just have you get him off instead. But sometimes, as heā€™s looking through the erotic art that heā€™s drawn of you, while heā€™s alone in the lab, he canā€™t help it. He definitely wouldnā€™t tell you unless you asked and he would get very embarrassed by his answer.
K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)
He has definitely asked you if you could cosplay as one of his favorite science fiction, fantasy, or Dungeons, Dungeons, and More Dungeons characters. For his birthday you decided to surprise him, dressed as an elven princess with the gown and all. His jaw basically dropped the moment he saw you waiting for him in your guysā€™ shared bed. It was like his college wet dreams came true in that moment and he was on you in almost seconds.
L = Location (Favorite places to do the do)
His desk has become one of the most common place that Ford fucks you.It feels all so spontaneous and somewhat rebellious each time. Youā€™ll be sitting on his lap in his chair and suddenly youā€™re getting manhandled onto the desk, with him shoving everything to the side to make space for you. If heā€™s feeling particularly rough, heā€™ll bend you over the desk. Only negative is that now Ford has difficulty focusing at times at his desk because thatā€™s all his mind is thinking of. But Ford does love how intimate it gets when you both are in your shared bed. It would have to be a tie for him.
M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)
Anything you do. Could be something entirely random and immediately heā€™s turned on and ready to go. Come on, hereā€™s a man who hasnā€™t been touched hardly at all his whole life. Once you come into his life and become physical with him thereā€™s no going back. A slight brush of the hands and heā€™s grabbing it, whispering in your ear all the dirty things he wants to do to you. Sometimes youā€™ll be doing something like liking the cream off your lips from a cake or bending over to grab something and Ford is making his way over to whisper something absolutely obscene in your ear, causing you both to start getting handsy with one another immediately.
N = No (Something they wouldnā€™t do, turn offs)
Not a fan of extreme bdsm. Youā€™ve asked him to slap you before but you decided that it would only be something you can dream about when you saw how uncomfortable he looked at the thought. Sure, heā€™s down for light bdsm, like tying you up, maybe calling you a few names (depends on how heā€™s feeling), spanking, and being a bit rougher than usual. But things such as knife play are a big no to him, even though he does like the taste of bloodā€¦ He would just be too worried that he was going to hurt you in a negative way or go too far.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
It is very rare for Ford to turn down a blowjob. He especially loves to cumming all over your face and tries to memorize the sight to draw later. But man, could he spend hours between your thighs. This man eats you out like heā€™s starving. He loves to hear the sounds you make which rile him up even more so. It took him a little bit to get the gist of it, but after some practice (which you were more than happy to teach him how) he became a pro at it. When you pull at his hair and squeeze your thighs tight around his face he swears he could cum right there and sometimes he has.
P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)
Usually it starts off slow and sensual. With soft kisses and loving compliments. But somehow it tends to get rough halfway through. Whether it be a slight comment you make or his possessive side kicking in, he can get lost in the moment and the next thing you know you feel like you just ran a full marathon. But you love it, watching his primal instincts kick in and his uptight self disappearing.
Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
You've had many quickies in his lab before to the point it has become a weekly occurrence or even more sometimes. He definitely enjoys them and itā€™s a great way for him to let off steam when heā€™s been at his work for hours straight.
R = Risk (Are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)
As someone who has spent decades traveling between multiple dimensions, of course heā€™s down to do some risky things. At first he was pretty nervous. ā€œAre you sure this is a good idea, love?ā€ Heā€™d ask, looking around nervously. But once his confidence in sex grew, so did his confidence in experimenting. It was even his idea to have sex in the Stanmobile once when Stan gave him the keys to get some groceries (of course this is a secret the two of you planned on dying with).
S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for? How long do they last?)
In the beginning, he did not last very long. Sometimes cumming just by pleasuring you without even getting touched. But this grew with time and for someone at his age, you were surprised by how much of a sex drive this man has. You guys have been able to go at it for a couple of hours before. You both are usually willing to go a few rounds if youā€™re doing it in bed.
T = Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
You decided to bring toys into the bedroom one day and Ford was not much of a fan. At a certain point he just threw the toy to the side. ā€œFord! What are you doing? I paid good money for that?ā€ ā€œIā€™d rather be the one touching you.ā€ He grumbled. It hurts his self esteem to watch you get pleasured by something that isnā€™t directly him. But he didnā€™t mind the handcuffs you bought. Whether that be you or him being handcuffed it doesnā€™t matter to him (which you think has something to do with Bill changing him up).
U = Unfair (How much they like to tease)
Can be a tease. Sometimes youā€™ll just be minding your own business and Ford will come up to you and whisper something dirty in your ear and tell you all the things he plans on doing to you. But then heā€™ll get so occupied in his work that heā€™ll forget what he even said. ā€œSo Fordā€¦ About what you said in the kitchen..ā€ You said seductively. ā€œWhat did I say?ā€ Heā€™d asked confused, his eyes not leaving his journal as he writes. ā€œNevermind..ā€ ā€œDear?ā€ ā€œI said nevermind..ā€ Heā€™d just look at you confused before going back to his writing.
V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
Definitely vocal, lots of moaning and grunting from him, as well as dirty talk. He tries to keep it down, but when youā€™re riding him or sucking him off itā€™s nearly impossible for him not to make noises, even if heā€™s biting his lip to stop himself. He even moans while eating you out which only adds to the pleasure. He whines every now and then and looks mortified each time. You make sure to tease him after which he responds by pretending not to know what youā€™re talking about. You both can be pretty loud which is why youā€™re thankful that most of the sex you have is away in his lab.
W = Wild Card (A random headcanon for the character)
You were surprised by just how possessive he is. He loves to mark you with hidden bite marks and hickeys, loving when they peak out every now and then. If anyone flirts with you or stares at you in public, he will pull you by the waist closer to you, a frown on his face and thatā€™s when you know youā€™re gonna be up for a long night. You bought a necklace with his name on it and he gets hard just thinking about you wearing it.
X = X-ray (Letā€™s see whatā€™s going on under those clothes)
When it comes to length, heā€™s average size. But he makes up for it in girth and the slight angle to it which hits just the right spots. You didnā€™t know if you could fit him all in your mouth when you first saw it. As for the color, the tip is the same color as his nose.
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
As Iā€™ve said before, anything you do can turn him on, meaning that heā€™s down to have sex most of the time. This of course was unexpected to you and the seemingly innocent facade he had at the beginning has been completely shed and now heā€™s pretty vocal when he wants to fuck, which is pretty frequently. You swear that the first time you guys kissed is when you opened the floodgates and there was no going back after that. Of course, if you are not in the mood he will respect that.
Z = Zzz (How quickly they fall asleep afterward)
Takes him a bit to fall asleep because he struggles with insomnia. Waits for you to fall asleep first before he can fully relax. Heā€™ll play with your hair as you drift off and kiss the top of your head. Has a habit of holding onto you tight to the point that sometimes you can hardly move, this due to his fear of something happening to you that he feels the need to protect you even in his sleep. Fordā€™s a pretty light sleeper, so if you do move he will feel it and wake up pretty quickly.
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taurussbabe Ā· 1 year ago
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note: first time doing something like this, hope you like it warning: obviously nsfw content, smut...
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a = aftercare (what theyā€™re like after sex)
After sex, Charles places feather kisses all over you
He loves to hold you tight and whisper sweet nothings to you until you fall asleep
He loves to clean you and if youā€™re going to sleep, he brushes your hair and braids your hair because he knows you donā€™t like to sleep with your hair down
b = body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerā€™s)
Charles loves your legs
The moment he saw them, he knew he was a goner
He loves to leave a trail of kisses and hear the sounds you make when he does so
His favorite part of his body is his arms and hands
He loves how you get so excited every time you see him flexing his arms
Or how you grab onto his arms when heā€™s pounding into you
c = cum (anything to do with cum basically)
He loves to cum in you, thatā€™s a fact
But also loves when you make him cum in your mouth
Seeing you lick your lips clean and swallow him, that truly turns him on again
He also adores to make you cum with your fingers and then put his fingers in your mouth so you can taste yourself
d = dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
He never told you (and doesnā€™t plan on) but he thinks youā€™re so hot when you speak French
Not being your first language, he just loves how it rolls of your tongue
He would LOVE to do it on a plane
He never did it but he loves the idea, but youā€™re always with people on the plane, whether itā€™s going to races or holidays
He hopes to one day join the mile high club
e = experience (how experienced are they? do they know what theyā€™re doing?)
Unlike what most people think, charles isnā€™t even that experienced
He had long term girlfriends so he was never really with a lot of people
But he DOES know what heā€™s doing
He knows exactly when and what do to in order to make you go crazy
f = favorite position (goes without saying)
Charles loves to see the faces you make when he makes you feel good
So he loves missionary
This way he can just whisper dirty things near your ears easily
Also, when heā€™s tired from his workouts or races, he woman on top or cowgirl
Where he can just lay down, and watch you take care of him
He enjoys watching you place your hands on his chest
This way heā€™s also able to grab your boobs while youā€™re riding him
g = goofy (are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc.)
Sometimes he says things in English that donā€™t mean what he think it does, that causes a laugh between the two of you
But usually heā€™s more serious and calm, determined to make you feel good
He also likes to think of himself as a romantic, so he doesnā€™t want to ruin the atmosphere between the two of you
h = hair (how well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)
Charles is well groomed, he likes to be trimmed but not completely bald
He also loves to make sure youā€™re comfortable with the length of his hairs and takes your suggestions into consideration
i = intimacy (how are they during the moment, romantic aspectā€¦)
Charles is a romantic
He absolutely loves to kiss you, always
There isnā€™t one single time you have sex where he doesnā€™t kiss all of you
One time, he was trying to be so romantic he filled the room with roses and candles and even played soft romantic music in the background
That was definitely the best sex you two ever had
It was just so intimate and romantic
He loves to stop and look into your eyes, brushing a stray of hair behind your hear
j = jack off (masturbation)
When heā€™s away for too long and you cant join him in races he masturbates
But when heā€™s at home, you both satisfy each other pretty much, so he doesnā€™t need it
Sometimes you end up facetiming when heā€™s away, and you both get at it together
k= kink (one or more of their kinks)
Cā€™mon, the man talks about having kids all the damn time, he obviously has a breeding kink
He loves to cum in you
And fuck his cum back into you with his fingers, obviously with your permission
l = location (favorite places to do the do)
He loves the bedroom, itā€™s basic, but he loves it
There no one will interrupt you guys and he loves to know that
Also loves the car
Like, itā€™s so impractical but he loves it
Going for a midnight drive and stop where no one can see you
m = motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
Lingerie, RED lingerie
He absolutely loses his mind, seeing him in ā€˜hisā€™ color
And when you say you bought it just for him, because itā€™s his color
Also, seeing you wear a Ferrari shirt to sleep, and noting underneath, except but some panties
After seeing you spend an afternoon with kids, whether itā€™s his cousins or yours
When you get home that night, heā€™s definitely gonna make love to you until the sun rises, whispering how much you would be a good mom, and that you would look so good pregnant
n = no (something they wouldnā€™t do, turn offs)
Anything that would hurt you or leave bruises.
He just isnā€™t into that.
o = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
He goes down on you a lot and heā€™s extremely good at that.
He prides himself in knowing he can make you cum from just his tongue.
He also likes when you go down on him, but prefers to be inside you so he prefers to go down on you
p = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
It really depends on the mood.
Sometimes after a bad race, you tell him to take it out on you and heā€™s rougher and fast
But on those days where heā€™s all romantic he slow and sensual and wants to make it last as long as he can
Also, depending on your mood as well, if you had a bad day, you might want it fast but if youā€™re feeling emotional heā€™ll be super soft and slow with you
q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
Likes them but doesnā€™t want to make a habit out of it
Like sometimes in the middle of the night if he wakes up hard, youā€™ll have a quickie.
Or after a race, just before interviews
r = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
Depends if you ask for something, heā€™ll think about it
s = stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
He HAS stamina
A bunch of it, donā€™t know if itā€™s from training or anything like that
But he can go on and on and ON
t = toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
He knows you own a little toy for when heā€™s away
Heā€™s ok with it, but he doesnā€™t like that you use it when heā€™s home
u = unfair (how much they like to tease)
He LOVES to tease, he can do it for hours
But after he does it, you make sure to punish him, teasing him as well
And you like to tease him on your own as well, wearing a backless dress with a huge slit on your leg and then beg him to let him come
v = volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
He can get loud
But he loves to make you go crazy at the point you nearly have to yell
He groans loudly a lot
w = wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
You were laying in bed in the middle of the night, peacefully sleeping when charles wrapped his arm around you and woke you up with soft kisses on your neck
ā€œI need youā€ he said ā€œlike physically need youā€
He pressed his body onto you and you could feel his hard cock against you
ā€œok, loveā€ you said and within seconds felt him push himself inside of you
ā€œletā€™s just stay like thisā€ you nodded and drifted off to sleep again and so he did
And in the morning, you did it properly but for that night, you just stayed like that the whole time
x = x-ray (letā€™s see whatā€™s going on under those clothes)
Heā€™s definitely large, bit in girth and length
But more in girth than length
The first time you gave him a blow job you were scared you couldnā€™t do well because of his size
y = yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
You had sex a few times a week, not every day but certainly not a low sex drive
There was one time where you went on a holiday week just the two of you and had sex every single night until the sunrise
z = zzz (ā€¦ how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
he loves aftercare so he makes sure you feel loved and valued before heā€™s ready to fall asleep, but he usually likes to watch you fall asleep first
But you drift off pretty quickly so itā€™s okay
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irisinluv Ā· 3 months ago
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Mirror Yandere Brainrot
Iā€™ve been thinking about a Yandere who can watch you through mirrors. And I donā€™t mean Erik from Phantom of the Opera. I mean paranormal level watching you through any surface that can hold a reflection. The shop window you catch a glimpse of your hair in, the sunglasses you use as a mirror to reapply your lipstick, the shower head that makes you giggle cuz it gives your face a fisheye effect. Whatever.
I picture the obvious- how they watch you frown and turn to look at your cellulite, practice how to stand to make your stomach appear the way you want, do a fake laugh to see if that chip in your tooth is noticeableā€¦. All those stupid little things that we hyper focus on, that makes us upset, makes us hate our reflection, they of course, love. They wish they could take away all those insecurities. And they know exactly how theyā€™d do it too.
But itā€™s not just the obvious self love arc for this mirror Yan. Oh no. Cuz, we donā€™t just have mirrors to reflect on how much we hate our bodies. You bet your ass your Yandere sees you recreating doctor pimple popper on your own face. Sees your shower karaoke, watches you burn your toast, stub your toe, roll down your windows and get into character as you scream sing Jesus take the wheel (bonus points if youā€™re not Christian btws- weā€™re allowed to jam to that too). They just love getting to watch all these mundane moments!
They do of course get frustrated that they can only watch you through the mirrors. But- havenā€™t you heard that youā€™re not supposed to sleep facing a mirror? That things from the other side can come out to get you? Mmmmā€¦.. yea so those 1980ā€™s mirrored closet doors you have might be a biiiiiiit of a problem.
I think theyā€™d just be able to access you in your dreams, at least as a start, but if they ever found a way to you for realā€¦.. whew. Whewwwww. Hello sailor! I mean mirror Yan surely can mirror your exact type. Thatā€™s. Thatā€™s kinda their whole thing isnā€™t it? Magic mirror shit.
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Once theyā€™re outā€¦. They would not fuck you against mirrors.
I know thatā€™s where your brain may go at first. The typical ā€œlook at how I see you- youā€™re perfect!ā€ Shit. But Iā€™m sorry. If someone fucked me and I had to look at myself covered in sweat, hair sticking to my face, triple chins for days, stomach rolls rolling, cellulite dimplingā€¦.. IM NOT IN THE MOOD ANYMORE!
So nah. Mirror Yan wonā€™t fuck you against a mirror. They WILL however, use their voice. They had gone unheard so longā€¦. You had gone YEARS being unable to hear them, see them, feel them. So now that they have you in their arms, theyā€™re going to make sure you hear, see, and feel them until thereā€™s nothing else for you to focus on.
If we want to stick with the self love trope, an alternative to the mirror fucking thing, is them narrating what they see. Their voice is pure sin as they drive into you, sink down on you, or look up from between your thighs to describe the way your pupils look right now, all blown out. How you look like youā€™re praying when you cum, even though theyā€™re the ones on their knees. They describe those things you hate about yourself too. But when they describe it, they sound reverential. They also sound horny as all hell. But most of all, they sound like the only thing keeping them alive is so they can keep seeing and feeling these parts of you.
And they make you watch them as they give you the most intense pleasure of your life. They may not make you stare into a mirror as they rail youā€¦. But you WILL keep your eyes open so you can see exactly what you do to them. They CRAVE being seen by you. They have you play with yourself the way theyā€™ve watched you do so many timesā€¦. Except now, your eyes are locked onto theirs as your eyebrows screw up, and itā€™s THEIR name you gasp out as your fingers fly. And they donā€™t have to just watch anymore either.
They also almost always want you facing them. They want you to look them in the eyes and know EXACTLY who is claiming you, body mind and soul. The only exception to the mirror fucking thing is if you/they want to hit it from the back. If youā€™re not looking in each others faces, youā€™re looking at each others reflection. If your eyes glass over, theyā€™re smacking your ass to bring your attention back to them. Youā€™re not missing a second of the absolute pleasure dripping from their face. Theyā€™re not shy about it either. Their eyebrows screwing up in ecstasy, mouth hanging loose in a perpetual moan, itā€™s lewd. Itā€™s sloppy. And itā€™s all for you.
You see, theyā€™re insecure over being glossed over- it was fantastic getting to watch you basically every minute of the day, but you have no idea how frustrating it is to scream out to your lover, cry and kick and wail, as you watch them breeze past a flat puddle on a sidewalk, none the wiser. So, they make sure youā€™re VERY present with them.
I also think theyā€™d be a huge fan of cockwarming. Just being connected to each other as much as possible. Really needy behavior after being denied physical contact for so long. For my lovelies who cock warming doesnā€™t work for- youā€™re not off the hook. Mirror Yan will be wrapped around you just as much. Their fingers absentmindedly trailing your body, their fingers dipping into your mouth, inside you, over your hipsā€¦.
OH and they love marking you. Hickeys, some sort of collar or necklace, hell, even a collarbone tattoo. They want you to look at your reflection, and see THEM. They may not be stuck on the other side of that reflection anymore, but they still get a thrill from knowing every time you look in a mirrorā€¦. Itā€™s them you think of.
So uh. Yea. Even the mirrors are horny for yā€™all! Stay tuned, maybe Iā€™ll come up with a Yandere spork or dildo next.
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pia-nor481 Ā· 10 months ago
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A- Aftercare (what are they like after sex)
I feel as though itā€™s very dependent on his mood, sometimes itā€™s a little chaotic running around grabbing water and rushing to the shower, where other times is just soft pillow talk and cuddles.
B- Body part ( their favourite body part of theirs and their partner)
In my mind he favours his hands due to their size, maybe a little bit of a size kink. He enjoys the difference and perhaps how one can cover most of her throat, or how he could easily grasp both of his partnerā€™s wrists together
While on his partner, we know he likes ass so I donā€™t know what you expected. However, I feel like he might also really like tits, but keeps it a secret because itā€™s considered ā€œchildishā€ by some (mainly in the uk). In a less sexual sense, I believe heā€™d really love his partnerā€™s eyes, whether it be staring at them, or how you can tell so much emotion from them.
C- Cum (anything to do with cum)
I donā€™t know why I get the feeling that he cums a lot in one go. Anyway I think heā€™d like to pull out and cum on his partner, whether that be tits, thighs or stomach etc. But if can cum inside he definitely would, this would be a main factor in deciding the type of aftercare given.
D- Dirty secret (a dirty secret of theirs)
He may or may not have jacked off to a normal voice note of his partner. The context wasnā€™t even sexual, he just missed hearing their voice and was very horny.
E- Experience (how experienced are they?)
Is it bad I donā€™t think he has that much experience? We donā€™t know about many ex girlfriends. But I think he likes to fuck a lot, so he would be very experienced in pleasuring just his partner after learning (being taught) what gets them off.
F- Favourite position
I think we can all agree he likes doggy, but not for the reasons as most men ((boys) bc a man would never!)) He really wants to be able to see his partnerā€™s face and reactions to what he is doing, he likes the ego boost. Plus I think he likes spanking, not too hard in this specific position, just a few light taps and some groping.
But cowgirl gets an honourable mention, as mentioned above he does like tits so getting so stare at them really gets him off
G- Goofy (how serious are they in the moment?)
Very dependent on the lead up. There are times where sex just has inconvenient moments; struggling to take clothes off so that just leads him to resting his head on his partnerā€™s shoulder, letting out a sigh then a little chuckle. Or maybe a time where heā€™s just hard, not for any specific reason and asks (begs) for his partner to get him off, and heā€™s all giddy about it, so itā€™s just laughs in between moans and groans. On the other hand, I think there are times where heā€™s very serious , mostly when sex is on the rougher side or post race. Maybe even on an anniversary or special occasion heā€™d try to be much more serious. But in general I donā€™t think heā€™d actually make a joke, or at least not on purpose.
H- Hair (how well groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes?)
Iā€™ll be honest, I think itā€™s a little darker than the hair on his head. I donā€™t think lando is clean shaven (now that he actually has pubic hair), he tries to keep it quite short though, but sometimes he gets a bit busy and so neglects the length and doesnā€™t trim it. But I think he may refrain from blow jobs at this time and opts to fuck his partnerā€™s tits instead. Separate thing, but, I think he also has Sunday everything showers on non-race weeks.
I- Intimacy ( how are they during the moment? Romantic? Pleasure driven?)
I think a mix of both as heā€™s a very horny man so sometimes he rushes for pleasure, yet other times he likes to be slow and passionate, making love not fucking. He would really like to take his time, traveling from room to room, spending lots of time feeling up his partner.
J- Jack off ( masturbation headcanon)
I think he masturbates a lot, a few times a week and I think it would be roughly at the same time of day as well. But he canā€™t just sit there, he needs material!! Whether that be just pics or short videos in his ā€˜my eyes onlyā€™. Again let me mention the voice notes, he does think itā€™s bit strange how much he liked it, and how quick he came. But he would much prefer phone calls where heā€™s limited to just his girlfriendā€™s voice. Almost teasing himself. And her
K- Kink (one or more of their kinks)
As mentioned above size and voice.
But he really likes control and being dominant. He knows that dominance isnā€™t just position. He knows how to dominate without putting in any of the physical work
Sensory deprivation- so blindfolds, mainly again as he really likes control (as said in some interview) and he knows not being able to see will heighten your other senses so he would talk/whisper a lot more and be more feather light with touches. This idea can also tie in with the only phone calls not face time
Impact play- again linked to dominance, I think of this of being very specific and planed out. It doesnā€™t happen just because he got hard 10 minutes ago, but this is specifically reserved for non-race weekends. Mainly trying new toys, whether it be a crop or any object. Maybe just his hands. I think a lot of this is exploring based; testing different areas like the very top of the thighs, instead of just the ass. He always makes notes (during the sex in his head, then after maybe in a book as that canā€™t get leaked) but this started with a lot of communication to prevent any real injuries, making sure to use a safe word system (I imagine the traffic light system as it fits best) and ensuring that he only hits fatty areas not where organs reside. He wants to play yet it must be safe or it isnā€™t fun.
Katoptronophilia- mirrors. I believe that he likes to make his girlfriend watch what heā€™s doing to her as well as see the pleasure heā€™s giving her. Itā€™s like a power rush as well as a sense of accomplishment/ achievement.
L- Location (favourite place)
Definitely bedroom. This is mainly due to privacy, but I also think itā€™s because heā€™s not very tall, so perhaps his hips arenā€™t high enough for counter sex. Iā€™m not sure though, I may have tested it ( for context when Iā€™m on my tiptoes Iā€™m almost his height and my hips were not above the kitchen counter.) but tables I think heā€™d like, as well as bending her over the sofa or in the bathroom sink in front of the mirror.
M- Motivation (what gets them going?)
I think most things would turn him on, but I think being challenged would give him motivation to put his girlfriend in her place. Also, just generally intimate/ domestic situations
N- No (something they wouldnā€™t do, turn offs)
Probably watersports etc but to be honest I donā€™t know with him. To me I think most people donā€™t really like that, or at least wonā€™t say they do.
Electro stimulation- it just seems a bit too scary
O- Oral (preference on giving or receiving, skill)
Heā€™s a man so will probably prefer receiving, but he would really enjoy eating his girlfriend out for a sense of pride. However, I feel as though you may have to teach him a little, like he knows what heā€™s supposed to do but may struggle with actual delivery, but heā€™s so willing to learn, all smiles. We should take into consideration that he is an athlete so his breath control will be amazing.
P- Pace (are they fast or slow? Rough or sensual?)
Not to be repetitive, but, it will depend on the situation. However, I believe he leans more on the rough side, I donā€™t have evidence but I stand with that opinion. Furthermore, heā€™s likes to be rough due to the power and trust it gives him.
But he usually isnā€™t particularly fast as heā€™s been informed (generally speaking on the internet) that women will say harder but a man would go faster and they wouldnā€™t like it. (I know thatā€™s super generalised but he would definitely listen and do what would give her pleasure) he likes research and found some study that wearing socks can make women cum harder and immediately suggested it.
As mentioned before he likes to make love, so winter or summer breaks are reserved for kinky fucks and sensual love making. I rest my case
Q- Quickie (their opinions, how often etc)
He absolutely loves them. He gets horny very quickly and so would want a release as quick as possible. Also the convenience of his drivers room allows for quickies all the time, pre and post race. But if heā€™s at home heā€™ll want long and more passionate sex
R- Risk (will they experiment? Do they take risks?)
If itā€™s not a hard no heā€™ll probably try it at least once, but he also must worry about his career. Although he really wants to fuck publicly, he canā€™t take that risk
S- Stamina (how many rounds can they go for)
Again heā€™s an athlete so can go for long periods of time yet I donā€™t think he could cum more than twice in one go. He can definitely cum many times in the same day, but he needs a few hours break. But he will make the time heā€™s fucking his girlfriend as long as possible.
T- Toys (do they own any? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves)
He knows toys are his friend not his enemy (as told by the bathtub toys thing.) Anyway, I think he once bought a vibrator when he was single just because he saw some men talk about how amazing the orgasm felt and he would have really enjoyed it, but always cums way to fast for his liking, he wants to last longer than three minutes. He will definitely use toys on his partner, whether that be a dildo or vibrator of some kind. He also really wants to try hand cuffs but he feels as though he needs to build up to it, as such a physical restraint can be quite a mental strain; so he decides to try it with just paper first so she could very easily get out it she wanted to, then tried those silicone ā€œcuffsā€ for the same reason. Then finally used metal ones with a lock. But he will always cuff her hands in front of her.
U- Unfair (how much do they like to tease)
I think verbally he teases A LOT. But physically not too much. He may deny the orgasm once or twice before letting her actually cum. But foreplay will be quite lengthy, he wants to slowly drag his hands along her thighs or only push his cock in 2 inches before pulling out fully.
V- Volume (how loud are they, what sounds do they make?)
I think he will always be making noise just not overly loud. Always groaning and moaning (thank you for the twitch streams) he can be completely quiet, except for heavy breathing, if he really needed to.
W- Wild card (a random headcanon)
I think, at some point, he bought one of those moulds to make your own dildo. Just the thought of his girlfriend fucking herself with a silicone version of his cock really gets him going. Along with those remote control vibrators. He would love them especially when she canā€™t be at a race and so he can make her cum when heā€™s on the other side of the world. (I didnā€™t know that was possible until the other day) itā€™s just so hot to him.
X- X-ray (how big are they?)
You know what they say about the skinny ones. Heā€™s either very long and is relatively thin. Or average length but girthy as fuck. Contrary to popular belief, I donā€™t think his tip is pink/ red ish. Iā€™m totally basing this off the colour of his lips. But you know. Just a thought.
Y- yearning (how high is their sex drive)
This man is so horny. 8 or 9/10
Z- Zzz (how quick do they fall asleep afterwards?)
I donā€™t think very quick, unless itā€™s been a super long session, but even then heā€™d make sure his girlfriend is situated before daring to fall asleep. He likes cuddles so expect to be in his arms for as long as possible.
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If you have any other ideas/ headcanons please comment. I really want to see other peopleā€™s opinions.
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doki-doki-imagines Ā· 10 months ago
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Hello <3 I have an idea for a request. Linkuei trio (and if you want other characters too) are having an argument with the reader, but suddenly she gives them a kiss to silence them. How would they feel or react? Sorry if this is stupid, I saw it in a novel and I liked it šŸ˜”
author note: this is not a stupid request, you idiot(lmao)! It is a scrummy idea that oiled my brain gears, so thank youšŸ«¶šŸ». One last thing, the reader is already Tomas s/o in his part.
Bi-Han:
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-Sektor, your friend, finally has a date with his crush. Honestly you are happy for him. It's already a miracle someone could suffer him for more than 12 hours and still wanting to kiss him dumb. -But between him and his date there is an obstacle: Bi-Han, your boss. -Your work is pretty different from theirs, but Bi-Han saw in you a precious resource, so he decided to keep you after Sektor brang you to him. -Being a precious resource means that you also have to hear him yap and throw a tantrum in your and Sektor shared kitchen, walking left and right like a madman waiting to block the scientist from his romantic date. -"They aren't right for him." "I should be his only thought." "They aren't even Lin Kuei!" -You listen to him, his words entering from an ear and exiting from the other without being elaborated in your brain, your ass sit tight on the chair with no real intention of standing up to calm him down. -It's unbelievable how you got a crush for this man-child. -"Why can't Sektor be happy? Having a distraction is nice, plus his brain can have more stimulus interacting with someone else." Bi-Han opens his mouth and you are sure he tells you something but your brain shut down the moment his lips open, not being ready to hear another chant of "No Lin Kuei" "He cannot-" and blah blah blah. -But you have a mission, one that you accepted after seeing Sektor getting on his knees and begging for your help. "Please distract Bi-Han while I run out from the house." -Clock is ticking, and you know the hour of the date is approaching. You are already tired, the flood of words from the usually silent grandmaster filled your ears for the year to come. -Then you decide to act. -"Plus they can't be good because-" Words hang in the air. You finally lift yourself up from the chair, just to grab the collar of Bi-Han uniform and kiss him, or better kiss his upper lip since his mouth was wide open. -You break the touch, hoping that now his scolding will be directed to you long enough for Sektor to escape. -What you don't expect is to see the kitchen twirl, and to find yourself cornered between the fridge and the kitchen island, back on the cold wall, front against a even colder chest, icy mouth sucking yours, teeth playing with your lower lip. -His fingers grip is hard, leaving indents in the back of your thighs trying to pull them up, around his hips. -You follow his implicit order, like a doll in the owner hands, his crotch now dangerously close to yours, tongue overpowering yours, their dance played in your warm mouth. -Bi-Han end the kiss, his thin lips just an inch away from yours, a heavy breath coming out from his nose. "You are not doing this to distract me from Sektor, right?" You try to look around, then your eyes land again on his face, on his dark and deep eyes. "Totally. Do you wanna stop?" "Absolutely not." His lips are back on yours, devouring you as a delicious meal. -Sektor is able to sneak away, between your shared groans and mewls, a smirk on his face. He is happy that his friend was finally able to get with Bi-Han. -Do you have a crush for Bi-Han? Well, you will be astounished when you'll find out he has been obsessed with you for far longer.
Kuai Liang:
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-"Liang listen to me!" "No! I've already decided." -You follow him through the chambers of his mansion as best as you can since he is almost running. -"It is an important package, and I'm the only one free that can deliver it to Lord Liu Kang. Let me-" "For the last time, no." Liang finally turns around, eyes firm and eyebrows furrowed, making you take a step back for how big and imposing he looks right now. -"But whyā€¦I know I'm not a strong warrior but-" You feel your voice breaking and you hate it, but as a side effect Liang expression softens up. His hands that were tight on his side now reach for your cheeks. "Don't cry." "I'm not. But the world is at risk Liang! My life has no value compared to-" -You can't finish the phrase, your grandmaster soft lips shutting you up. Liang removes himself immediately, your kiss lasting as long as a blink of an eye, his soft black eyes looking at you. -He even crouches a little, waiting to understand your reaction, his thick fingers drawing circles on the apple of your cheeks, removing some tears that slip your eyes. -Liang decides to be the first to talk, breaking the silence. "There is no world for me if you aren't in it. No world matters if you don't live in it. Don't go 'till I get back." His forehead knocks against yours, eyes now closed, and his feelings for you now clear. -You gasp, no words leave your mouth, no muscle moving. Not until Liang opens his eyes again, and finally, your body works. -And Liang sees it, the same fire that burns him alive every time he looks at you, that turns to ashes any thought that isn't you, monopolising his entire being. -This kiss is way more intense, your hands grip his collar, pushing him close to your body, not a single gap for air. His right hand rests tight on the back of your head while the other slips lower, massaging and groping. -If only he had a bit more of timeā€¦ -"I have to go now, fireball." Liang whispers to your lips. "Don't go until I'm back. Be good, and we will be able to do this and much more." He smirks, eyes full of mirth. -You nod. This time he won.
Tomas Vrbada:
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-"You are wrong and being stubborn." "I know what I'm talking about. You are being contrarian!" -You both are walking at Madame Bo restaurant, customers long gone, just the two of you arguing. -Why? Who remembers, you just know you want to be right and Tomas is on the same wavelength. -"You know I am right. You are just being childish." He tells you, with that damn finger pointing at you. Of all the habits he could take from his big brother, the finger-pointing one irate you like nothing else. -You look at him, Tomas looks delightful, cheeks slightly red from anger, his eyes magnetic, and he reeks confidence. Maybe you don't mind this side. -"You always want to win. You are such a younger brother." You can't hear it, but you see something snapping in his brain. You struck a nerve, and his mind is ready to throw a reply that will literally devour you. -But your mind is faster, finding a solution that won't make you win, but also won't make Tomas explode. -Your lips push against his ones, and after a second of surprise Tomas reciprocates, much angrier than you, much more forceful. -You soon find your back against one of the wooden tables of the restaurant. Tomas grips an angle of tablecloth and pushes it down, the tableware following, breaking into pieces. He doesn't seem to mind, breaking the kiss just to push you on the table. -Madame Bo will kill both of you. -Tomas starts to kiss down your neck, kisses soon turns into small bites. "T-Tomas." He looks at you, mouth still dangerously close to your neck. "Do you even remember why we started arguing?" His smile wicked, his usual angelic face looking devilish. "Fuck no. For sure, it wasn't as good as this-" You gasp, Tomas teeth sinking into the skin of your throat. "I agree with you." "Then come back here, I haven't finished kissing you." "Yes, ma'am." -Fingers skillfully untie the strings of his uniform, your pants being pulled down as quickly. -You are right at the end. The method of fermentation of Tomas' favourite radish isn't as interesting as this.
BONUS:
Anon don't gatekeep, say the name of the novel.
No fr I'm curious.
Maybe if I read I can also yk, improve lol.
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elysiansparadise Ā· 4 months ago
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hi there!! I love your work and I would love to hear your take on Jupiter in the 11th house!
have a wonderful day ā¤ļø
Hello love, I appreciate your words, thank you very much. I hope you have a wonderful day too. ā¤ļø
Jupiter in the 11th house
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They are people who see friendship as a gift and they treasure it as such. This placement shows us not only a good friend with whom you have fun and can't stop laughing, but a friend who will do everything in their power to understand you and support you when you need it most. Natives are very altruistic, empathetic people with an inclination to help and support those who they consider need it. They are generous with their time and resources, and often feel called to support their friends and those in their circle. Tendencies to be popular or easily influence other people, they can be that typical friend that everyone turns to if they need advice, since they usually have the role of mentor. Whether extroverted or not, they naturally evoke a welcoming aura and easily make you feel accepted and appreciated. They can attract a lot of luck after helping other people, and they can even attract friendships that benefit and support them a lot [if Jupiter makes good aspects]. If they decide to work in something related to social media, they can get great support from the community and become influential, especially if Pluto, Sun or Moon are making positive aspects.
These people can obtain a lot of profits through their work, accumulating a lot of money, prestige and success. They usually stand out for their ambition and that vision of wanting to achieve great things. They dream big and many of them tend to put many demands on their shoulders. If you make a tense aspect to Mars, it is even possible that they want to achieve a lot in a short time. These people look after the common good, they do what they consider to be right at all times. Many of them can put their ego aside knowing when to leave their most personal desires for later, it should be noted that they know how to deal with people. They are people who take the time to truly understand people and give them attention and encouragement. These people take the time to think about how their actions or words will impact other people, they see beyond their own bubble and have a healthy degree of empathy and compassion. They are excellent at working as a team, because although they find satisfaction in doing their part well, they know how to support and guide others. They are people with a lot of gratitude, they know how to recognize and appreciate the efforts of other people. They really like to contribute to their closest circles, they prefer to spread messages that really support improvement rather than destructive or baseless criticism.
This is one of the most open-minded positions of Jupiter, as it makes the natives not close themselves in their own world where the correct thing is what they know, but rather encourages them to investigate and learn to change and question their perspectives, with the sole purpose of being able to generate theirs. They have that need to expand their visions of the world and nourish their thirst for knowledge. Despite the popularity of these natives and their unique charm, they tend to seek friendships with whom they can overcome those gaps of superficiality, deep friendships that contribute positively to their lives and teach them interesting things. A friendship where there is a fun and exciting bond, but also the quality of a constant companion who supports them as much as they do. They seek to nourish themselves with good, new things and pleasant sensations, so they will hate to create unnecessary drama or this hyper-competitive attitude with friends, opting instead to support each other and be able to rely on each other, while enjoying their company.
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bamsywrites Ā· 21 days ago
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And Comes Dawn part vi
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Ships: sauron/halbrand x reader, Galadriel x Halbrand, galadriel and reader DO NOT LIKE EACH OTHER AT ALL (yet), reader x ?????
Summary: some unwanted feelings bubble to the surface.
Tags: angst ish, reader gets mad, insecurities, the love triangles are officially starting, saurons pov next part is gonna be intense after some of this stuff.
Notes: this one might be meh, I wasn't able to edit much and my mind is kinda mush. The secret third ship is revealed. I'm also adding too, extending, and overall changing some of the numenor stuff. Again it's my fanfiction, I can do what I want
It wasn't long before bright light filled the room, you and your companions heading to the deck of the ship. You squinted as your eyes adjusted to the bright light of the sun and the blue of the sky. You saw the ship captain and spoke before anyone else, ā€œThank you, sir.
He nodded simply in a silent acceptance of your words, his attention turning to Galadriel. The two exchanged words, and you were resisting the urge to roll your eyes. You didn't like the elf. She seemed to think herself better and more worthy of sorrow. You could tell she looked down on you, fueling anger inside your stomach. Anger and annoyance were both feelings that you avoided at all costs. Your father's anger had been great and tragic. You didn't want to tempt the fates by letting your own go unchecked. This elf made it hard to feel anything but those feelings.
ā€œNearly where?ā€ Halbrand asked, his voice was what brought you from your thoughts, he was trying to get an answer as to where they were going.
ā€œHome,ā€ the ship captain answered.
ā€œWell that tells me fuck all,ā€ he said softly so only your ears could hear.
ā€œHalbrand.ā€ You gave him a look.
ā€œSweet one,ā€ he teased, returning the look.
Before you could reply, the words dried on your lips as you saw great stone faces carved into rock in stunning detail. You moved closer to the edge to get a better look. The hard work and detail on the face of the mountain was incredible. You were even more stunned by the giant carving above the city, almost as though it was watching over and protecting the city beneath.
ā€œI've never seen anything like this,ā€ you whispered softly.
ā€œWhat is this place?ā€ Halbrand asked Galadriel.
ā€œThere's only one place it could be, the island kingdom of NĆŗmenor.ā€
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You looked at the buildings, the architecture, the people. It was all fascinating, as if there was no poverty or hunger. The buildings were gorgeous, breathtaking in the ways they were built, and you'd never imagined anything like this in your wildest dreams. A small part of you began to hope that you could stay here and not return home.
ā€œI never imagined a man like me could build a kingdom like this.ā€
ā€œBecause these aren't men like you, your ancestors sided with Morgoth. Theirs sided with the elves, and the Valar blessed them for it. Though elves have not been welcomed on these shores for many years.ā€
ā€œI wonder why someone would choose to deny you entry into their city,ā€ the words dripped with sarcasm as they slipped past your lips before you could stop them.
A bark-like laugh filled the air before Halbrand stopped himself, clearing his throat and wiping at his mouth to hide his smile.
ā€œPerhaps you wonder, but I know why you'd be denied entry,ā€ Galadriel had stopped to look at you, as if daring you to say something more.
ā€œMy reasons are but one, and it is for someone else's sins. Yours would be for being an arrogant, insufferable..-ā€
ā€œLet's keep going, shall we,ā€ Halbrand placed a hand on your shoulder, and Galadriel opened her mouth to say more when the ship captain hurried them along.
When she was a few steps ahead of you. Halbrand started laughing again, softer this time. ā€œPerhaps, sweet one doesn't suit you well after all.ā€
You huffed a sigh, ā€œI should not have said that, I know.ā€
ā€œI will forever sit and ponder how you were going to end that sentence,ā€ he teased with a twinkle to his eye.
Butterflies stirred in your stomach as you looked back up into his eyes, a hint of a smile pulling at your lips.
ā€œYou must promise me, sweet one, not to provoke the angry elf. Can you do that?ā€
You nodded, but he cocked an eyebrow. ā€œUse your words,ā€ his voice was soft and a little husky as if he might have been enjoying this exchange more than he let on, ā€œI want to hear you say it.ā€
ā€œHalbrand, I promise not to provoke the angry elf,ā€ you said in all but a whisper.
ā€œGood girl,ā€ he pressed a kiss to the top of your head before continuing the journey.
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ā€œIf blood is the price to pay to leave this place, I will pay it.ā€
You noticed the guards moving closer, your eyes darting to the queen for her response to this threat. Galadriel was going to get you killed at this rate. Without thinking, your hand found Halbrands, lacing your fingers with his, and he squeezed your hand as if to reassure you before he spoke.
He was very well spoken, very convincing. He could command the attention of all in the room with his words. It was impressive, and in the end, they granted you 3 weeks. You hated the sense of satisfaction you had felt when they mocked Galadriel. You were sure there was a reason she was the way she was, but thinking she's better than the mortal races or more entitled to grief would never cease to fill you with anger.
ā€œYou were rather good at that,ā€ you turned to Halbrand with a relieved smile on your face.
ā€œJust be glad I'm not your enemy,ā€ he responded with a wink, squeezing your hand that was still tangled with his before he followed the elf.
You found the ship captain once more, ā€œI would like to offer my most sincere thanks. I will forever be in your debt.ā€
He smiled softly at you, looking at you as only a father could. ā€œI did what was right. I am glad you will find some respite in our great city. If you are to need anything, I have a daughter about your age and I'm sure she has dress and other niceties to spare. Take these, though,ā€ he placed some coins in your hands, ā€œto aid you in whatever ways you may need.ā€
ā€œI appreciate that very much.ā€ He was a good man, you could tell it. Of good heart and strong character. He had dismissed himself politely, and you looked for your companions.
Your eyes landed on them atop the stairs. You didn't know what they were talking about but they were close. He seemed to be earnestly defending something, you knew not what, and she seemed to be arguing against it. Just as the conversation seemed to be closing, you saw as he pulled her closer to him with that smirk and sparkle in his eyes and suddenly it all came crashing down on you.
What if you weren't special? What if you read too much into it? What if he was like this with everyone?
Or perhaps you were special, but she was just more than anything you could be. She was a beautiful elf, a commander of armies, and what were you?
The daughter of a disgraced mass murder who had yet to do anything of significance.
Your lip started trembling. Perhaps you were too sensitive, but it felt as if your heart was breaking. Did you really have such strong feelings after a week? Perhaps you had been more interested in him. Perhaps you'd allowed your feelings to become too intense when his had not. And perhaps you only thought he'd been looking that way at you.
You found your feet carrying you outside of the palace. You weren't the one that was confined to the grounds, and there was no reason for you to stay. You thought you heard a voice calling after you, but you did not care. You wanted away and to be on your own to think. To figure out what you want for the future. To figure out your feelings to figure out your plans for the next 3 weeks.
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You sat on a bench in some courtyard, eyes watching as the sun dipped below the waves. It was nice to watch, a beautiful sight, especially now that night didn't bring worries of being cold or being attacked. For the first time in what seemed forever, you would have a place to sleep that wasn't rocking back and forth. Your stomach was growling. It was starting to gnaw at your stomach, but you didn't want to get the stares from the locals. You knew you weren't entirely welcome. So, instead, you sat and watched the sunset until it made its way beneath the waves, and the only light was that of the fires and torches. Your eyes wondered, examining the amazing architecture. It's what you had been doing all day as a way to avoid the insecurities in your head and heart.
A group of boys about your age had drawn your attention,their laughter was boisterous and almost contagious. You were reminded of what little pleasures you'd lost due to the orc attacks; laughing with friends was one of them. You were grateful to see it amongst others and know that it still exists. You must have caught one of their attention somehow because he excused himself, telling his friends to go on without him before coming to sit with you.
ā€œIā€¦sorry I didn't mean to pull you away from your group. I'm justā€¦ā€
ā€œYou're one of the newcomers. One of 3 that arrived today, yes?ā€ He asked curiously, and you nodded.
ā€œYou match the description that was given. You seem a little lost," He smiled warmly at you. It was genuine, you could tell. He wanted to help you if you were to need it.
ā€œI am, I admit, but I've enjoyed getting lost here. Your home is gorgeous. We don't have architecture anywhere near this in my homeland, the Southlands. It's remarkable.ā€
He chuckled softly, looking around him, ā€œThis isn't even the best the city has to offer.ā€
ā€œThat is impossible.ā€
He laughed again, shaking his head. ā€œIt is entirely possible, I assure you.ā€
You couldn't help but smile. He was full of energy, but at the same time, it was calming. It was easy to talk to him because he felt relaxed and relatable.
ā€œThere must be art and architecture where you're from. There has to be.ā€
You shook your head, ā€œnot like it is here. It would be like comparing a master swordsman to children whacking each other with sticks. We have wood carvings and some words engraved in stone but nothing like a whole, giant person carved in stone. Our cities are just wood or brick. It's not carved out like this. This is all incredible.ā€
ā€œThere has to be beauty, though,ā€ he pressed his tongue into his cheek as if he wanted to say something else. ā€œI have a lot of questions about your home. I've never left this island."
ā€œThere is beauty, yes. In the trees, in the green of the grass. In autumn, the trees turn red and orange, and they look beautiful at dusk.ā€
ā€œSo, there's beauty in the trees, in the leaves, in the womenā€¦ā€ he watched you for a moment. You couldn't help but giggle at the comment.
ā€œThat was horrible, wasn't it?ā€ He asked, looking down at his hands but laughing softly as he did.
ā€œA little bit, but the compliment is very appreciated,ā€ You stopped giggling and placed a hand on his knee.
ā€œIt sounded so much more clever in my head,ā€ he chuckled with a shake of his head.
ā€œMy nameā€™s Isildur. My father was the ship captain who saved you. I would like to buy you dinner as a way to say sorry for that horrendous comment I just made. "
You gave him your name with a large grin that made your cheeks hurt, ā€œAnd I would love that, as long as you promise to tell me more about your kingdom.ā€
ā€œIt's a deal.ā€
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KINK LIST With Logan Howlett
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A = Aftercare (What theyā€™re like after sex)
He'll pet and slowly caress you, his eyes gently looking over your body, his breath warm against your neck. He whispers small words of praise and comfort, and his arms wrap around you tightly.
B = Body part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerā€™s)
His favorite part of his body, he likes his muscles they make him feel strong, and his favorite part of yours he loves to caress your sides and touch and squeeze your hips.
C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basicallyā€¦ Iā€™m a disgusting person)
He can give you more cum than you know what to do with. And trust me, once you've had a taste, you'll be hooked. His load is thick, hot, and straight from the tap. He's like a fucking fire-hose between those legs. So go ahead, beg for it. He loves hearing those sweet little pleas as he prepares to flood your insides with his seed. There's nothing quite like marking up a pretty face with his hot, sticky release. Watching it drip down your cheeks, into your mouth, coating your tongueā€¦ Just thinking about it will get him hard again.
D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
He sometimes secretly craves cuddling and being pet, he doesn't always want to be strong he wants to be weak sometimes, let someone take care of him, pamper him. He loves to be held down, having them control the pace, he won't admit it though, not yet, it goes against his macho rough persona.
E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what theyā€™re doing?)
He's very experienced, he knows his way around the body. And he really likes to take his time, explore your body slowly, to savor the experience. It's not just about reaching the climax for him, it's about enjoying the whole thing.
F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)
He's always been partial to doggy style. There's something about feeling your ass wiggle while he's pounding you that just gets his blood pumping. Plus, it gives him a good view of that tight little asshole that he's gonna stretch out real nice. But if we're talking about positions that really get his heart racing, nothing beats missionary. Being able to look into your eyes as he fills you upā€¦ there's no better feeling than that in his world.
G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)
He'll tease and flirt with you, his smirk playful, he'll say goofy dirty jokes too, anything to make you squirm and laugh. He'll also compliment you gently in bed and whisper sexy things to you and nibble on your neck playfully.
H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)
He isn't the most well groomed, he has a lot of body hair, and he hasn't found someone to cut his hair, when he finally gets some rest he'll cut it, but that's it. He has a beard, and hair on his chest and a happy trail.
I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspectā€¦)
He's very romantic, and gentle, he'll give neck kisses, and whisper sweet things to you. He loves to kiss your skin too. And his body language is quite loving. He also loves to play with his lover's hair, hold your hands, press his forehead to yours and gently caress your cheek.
J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)
On average, I'd say around three or four times a day. But sometimes he'll go longer stretches without cumming, and other times he might have multiple orgasms in quick succession. It really just depends on how he's feeling and what he needs at the time. But trust me, there's never a dull moment when it comes to his self-pleasure.
K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)
Being in control - He loves being in complete control and having you be submissive to him; he wants you to follow his every order and obey without question. He wants you completely under his control, he loves dominating and seeing you submit to him.
Praise/Degradation - He loves praising you when you're good. He loves to call her "Beautiful" and "Perfect" or "good girl/boy" and "pet."
Marking you, he'll be wanting to leave his love bites all over your body to show that you are his.
Teasing to get him worked up, maybe even make him jealous a little.
L = Location (Favorite places to do the do)
First off, there's his bedroom. It's got this huge king-sized bed that can handle all kinds of... activities. Plus, it's got these soft silk sheets that just feel amazing against your skin. But if you're feeling adventurous, you could always head down to the basement. He has his private gym down there with plenty of room to move around. And let me tell ya, those weights aren't just for show.
M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)
Seeing you get lost in pleasure from his touch. Hearing moans and whimpers of ecstasy when he's giving head. Feeling a tight hole clenching around his cock as he pounds into it. Knowing that he's the one who can make you feel this good.
The thrill of being wanted so badly that you are desperate for him. Watching you come undone, your body shaking with release, eyes rolled back in bliss. Being praised for his skills and told how he's the best you've ever had. The power trip of having complete control over your pleasure.
N = NO (Something they wouldnā€™t do, turn-offs)
Being disrespected or treated poorly. He expects respect and will not tolerate anything less. Bad hygiene. Nobody wants to be intimate with someone who doesn't take care of themselves. Lack of enthusiasm. If someone isn't excited about being with him, why should he be? Inability to follow directions. He loves taking charge, but he needs someone who can keep up with him. Disloyalty. Trust is crucial in every relationship, especially in the bedroom.
O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)
He prefers giving oral, there's nothing quite like feeling his mouth being worked and hearing those pleasured sounds coming from his partner. His tongue is incredibly skilled at teasing and pleasuring, flicking across sensitive spots until you're begging for more. And watching you lose control because of what he's doingā€¦that's an intoxicating rush.
P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)
He tends to be a mix - fast and rough at times, slow and sensual at others. It really depends on the situation and your preferences. When he's in the heat of the moment, all he wants is to bury himself deep and fuck hard, losing himself in the primal rhythm of thrusts. But he also knows how to set a slower, more deliberate pace, savoring each inch as he slides in and out, building anticipation and pleasure gradually. He enjoys switching between these extremes, keeping things exciting and unpredictable.
Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)
He's a fan of quickies. There's something thrilling about the spontaneity, the urgency, the raw intensity. It's a great way to satisfy a sudden craving or release some pent-up tension. However, he also believes in taking the time to properly pleasure each other. Good sex requires attention to detail, patience, and sometimes even foreplay. So while he enjoys a quick fuck now and then, he wouldn't say it's his preferred method of getting laid.
R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)
He's definitely game to experiment and willing to take risks. Whether it's trying out new positions, exploring different sensations, or pushing boundaries, he thrives on the excitement and challenge of the unknown. There's nothing quite like the adrenaline rush of stepping outside your comfort zone, especially when it comes to pleasure.
S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they lastā€¦)
His stamina is pretty damn impressive. He can go round after round, lasting for hours if necessary. It's all about staying hydrated, eating right, and keeping fit. Plus, there's something about the rush of endorphins during sex that keeps him going strong. He prides himself on being able to please you thoroughly, ensuring you reach multiple orgasms before he finally lets loose and explodes.
T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
He likes to introduce toys gradually, starting with something simple like a vibrator or dildo before moving on to more advanced items like anal beads or cuffs. He finds that incorporating toys adds an extra layer of excitement and variety to your encounters.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
He absolutely loves teasing. There's something deliciously torturous about drawing out the pleasure, making you wait for it, just barely touching what you crave. Whether it's running my fingers along their inner thigh, tracing the outline of your nipple without actually touching it, or simply promising what's to come, he revels in the power of the tease. It's a game of cat and mouse, and he always seems to come out on top.
V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)
He's quite vocal during sex, letting out moans, groans, and gasps of pleasure as he feels your touch. His voice rises and falls with each wave of sensation, becoming louder and more intense as he nears climax. He also likes to hear you express yourself, whether it's through soft whispers or loud cries of ecstasy. The sound of shared pleasure only serves to heighten the experience for both of you.
W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)
Logan has a secret obsession with role-playing scenarios, particularly ones where he gets to assume dominant roles. He loves the idea of dressing up as a doctor or a police officer, commanding you to undress and submit to him. He also enjoys pretending to be a wealthy businessman, demanding obedience from you in exchange for lavish gifts or exclusive access to his company. This side of him remains hidden from most people, but it's a significant part of his sexual fantasy life.
X = X-Ray (Letā€™s see whatā€™s going on in those pants, picture or words)
His cock is 8 inches long, thick, and always hard. It has a perfect curve with a large glans that always stands at attention. The head is always dripping with pre-cum. He's uncut, so his foreskin stretches back far, adding even more length to his already impressive girth. His balls are large and full, always tight and chocked full of cum
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
10/10. His sex drive is incredibly high, bordering on insatiable once he has you. He can find himself thinking about sex throughout the day, fantasizing about various scenarios and where to do so. Even when he's engaged in other activities, his mind often wanders back to the pleasures of the flesh. It takes a lot to satisfy him.
Z = ZZZ (ā€¦ how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
He may stay awake a bit longer, enjoying the closeness and the quiet moments of contentment you share afterward. You might cuddle, talk, or even indulge in another round or two of lovemaking. But ultimately, exhaustion wins out, and he slips into slumber alongside you, feeling satisfied and fulfilled.
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