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thatfrailsoul · 7 days ago

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– One for the past and one for the future

new year's tarot pick a pile reading ( → 1, 2, 3 )

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

The new year is already here… Life keeps moving forward, not waiting for us and our doubts, our still unanswered questions about all that we got through to be here right now. New phases, situations, choices and decisions… And yet our focus is nowhere to be found. Our mind is still drowning in all the anxiety, frustration and fear of all the things that didn't work out in the past year. In the things that we weren't able to achieve, all the plans that we were forced to leave… We are stuck, between the past and the future, on that night of the new year's eve, that was too short to really be able to let go of all the old things and be ready to welcome and work on the new ones… We are still waiting for that something, a sign, a word, a specific situation or moment, that can really help us feel like this is indeed it, that the year that felt so neverending, indeed passed by so soon. And that the new one is already here, waiting for us to let it in.

This is our second reading for this new year. But this time… It is also for the past one. It is a message that this world, this life, your guides, want to give you. About all that you got through, all the things that you need to leave behind but are not ready to surrender to. About all that is awaiting for you, that is there in store for you, once you find the courage and strength to turn your gaze on what’s ahead. A message for you, no matter how your year was or how you expect to be this one.

Slow down. Breathe. And put aside for a moment your logic and your overthinking. Follow that pile that attracts your gaze more. And allow it to share with you the message that it holds.

P.s. A little question for you.♡

If you ever were interested in the extended versions of tarot readings, mine or of someone else, if you ever bought them or never felt convinced… How much their price influenced your choice? And, most importantly, based on your personal preference or financial situation, what price would be more comfortable for you to pay if you ever will decide to try one?

(For reference: my extended versions of readings usually include both the original reading and the additional message, for all the three piles. This way you can read the message whenever you want and all of them, in case you chose initially more than one pile. My additional messages lastly, are roughly 1000 words for each pile, but in the future I'm planning on making them longer when possible.)

{ Thank you so much for letting me know!♡ }

– Pile One,

the empress and the hierophant

It took you so long to surrender… To allow life to go on even when it didn't follow your plans and desires, even when it was so frustrating to see it all fall and transform right before your eyes… It took you so long to get used to it, to find something good even in all those failures and challenges, and to be able to let go of frustrations and regrets about how things went. It took you so long… That once you really felt ready to face this year… It was already over. The cold came back, followed by the winter, the new year’s eve, the inevitable looking over of how many of your goals and dreams you were actually able to achieve…

And it did feel a little like a betrayal. From life, from your own self… To have to do so much work within you so you can go through it all and survive, just for it to not leave any space or time to actually live and be present in this life. Just for all that anxiety, stress and struggle to consume all of you and of your days, marking it in your memory as just another difficult phase.

No matter how many hopes you’ve had for this past year too, things still were different. Different from what you wanted. And even different from what you expected and prepared for, almost like this world knew that you would try to make it through either way, and made a few steps ahead… It all came by like a storm. So inevitable, so impossible to control or deal with, so powerful in how much it impacted your life and you, and yet so seemingly fast, not giving you even a second to get used, get ready, to even just realise what was happening in your life. Leaving you still confused like at the beginning of the year. But also so tired, not ready at all to go through it all over again. To plan, to desire something, and risk to go through one failure after another in this new year too.

But what seem like just another “bad” year, with so many mistakes, lessons forced onto you, and opportunities that you never thought you would miss… Is exactly the reason why now, for this new year, you can allow yourself to breathe more easily, have faith more courageously. As all the work that you did in order to deal with that year… Was to prepare you by creating a foundation for your steps in this new one. The one that will truly be your year. A year of chances and changes that you will find or create for yourself exactly thanks to all that you have dealt with.

Because there were so many things that you realised you didn't knew, or didn't have, once you tried to take your first real steps towards your goals and the plans you’ve had. And you were forced to slow down so many times, and even to make some steps back, just to learn more and prepare better. And once it was all ready… You needed so often to come out of your comfort zone to ask directions, to ask for help in finding that right path once again. You felt so often challenged, slowed down, even rejected and pushed back. You were lost, feeling more in the dark with each step you tried to make, no matter how sure you tried to be before making them. And you came back so many times to the very start, to the present moment, to your life and to the way it was... For you they were moments of tiredness and frustration, the ones in which you simply couldn't do anything else than to keep up with the life you had, even if it didn't sit right with your heart… But in reality they all were moments of reflection, of analysis, of understanding if something was truly worth it or not, if it was so important for you to be worthy of trying again even after failing it so many times. They were moments of solitude, but also reconnection to your own self. The ones in which you felt so lonely on your journey, as no one seemed to support, give the same effort or at least understand… And that made you appreciate and admire more your own resilience and courage. Your own faith towards yourself, and the strength that no matter how flebile, but never run out of you and your heart.

All of these things… They were inevitable, each one of those outcomes or frustrating situations. They were needed for you who tried, and that still wants, to make such big changes in your reality and life. The ones that to be done need your confidence in your own self, in the fact that no matter what you can go through it, so you don't give up. And peace with how your life is right now, when it is not so perfect, enjoyable or easy, so you don’t feel stuck in it, but consider it only a place from which you can start.

Now you have them. Now you are ready. And you will feel and see it once you will get back up and try again. You will recognise each gift this past year gave you. Reconsidering the significance of all that happened to you, as you will find yourself using what you learned from them. And transforming your regrets into gratitude. Gratitude for the fact that it happened the way it did, with these steps, these times. That gave you the possibility to do things, perhaps not in your desired way, but for sure in the right one for yourself.

{ ♡ }

– Pile Two,

the four of cups and the two of swords

Let go of any judgment, any fear, any excuse for a moment… And tell me, was it really worth it to spend so much time, this whole year, pursuing something that you never felt yours to begin with? Were all those people satisfied, the ones that gave you so many advices on what’s the best for you? Where those goals that you’ve set together, achieved? And did you learn to appreciate these decisions, situations, journeys that you were lurked in, like you promised as you were pushing yourself into a path that had nothing of what you wanted? Did it really work out in the end? Or did you simply get used to it, perhaps valuing not the journey itself but more all the patience and hard work that you needed in order to go through it? The routines for which you needed so much time to get used to. The people that were so insufferable all around you but that you managed to learn to ignore to. The tasks, the things, that you needed to learn to do from scratch. The doubts that you managed to suffocate deep down. The stress and anxiety that you got so used to that it just became a vague tiredness, a fatigue that never stops overwhelming your body or your mind…

Was it really all worth it? Or are you repeating it to yourself and others just so you don't need to accept the fact that it was all a mistake? A mistake that took so much from you, a whole year of your life, consuming both your heart and your mind. The one that becomes so intricately connected to you, to your reality and all the other aspects of your life, that you just can’t admit that it is not good for you, that it needs to change… Because it would mean to destroy your whole life and to create it from scratch again. Not knowing how much it would take, or what it will need from you… Not knowing even which journey is the right one, if this is not…

But you can’t really lie to your own self. You can ignore the symptoms, the signs, the cries for help that your own subconscious is screaming now… But it won’t change anything, enduring it. It won’t magically one day feel right just because you stick with it for enough time. You will only force yourself to get used to it. And to ignore that frustration and even anger, that you are hiding deep down in yourself, pretending that everything is like it supposed to be, that it is okay, even if it so different from what would make you truly feel satisfied and safe.

Some love to wait for the new year. For a true and real beginning, to give them the reason and motivation to truly start to change. Some do it for the magic, for the cliche of it. Others just to buy time and procrastinate the inevitable facing of the reality. But you… you didn't even think about it. This is how much you forced yourself to adapt to this journey, to these steps and ways that were never supposed to fit you.

But do you really think that this is the only and right way? Are you really, sincerely, sure that you want things to be this way? Because you clearly don’t. Otherwise you wouldn’t constantly distract yourself with other things, hobbies, addictions or matters that, as you say, are more urgent now. Instead, you would've feel more safe and comfortable with your own self. Knowing that you can trust yourself, your honesty, your wish for the best for yourself… You wouldn't feel so uneasy in your own skin, alone with your own thoughts, without the constant presence of someone, some sort of noise or voice that are louder than the one you are trying to keep inside… You would've simply know it, if it was right. And for this reason, now, you know for sure that it is not.

Just trust yourself, okay? Give yourself a chance. Don’t assume that it is a huge mistake, that it won’t work, that you will not find any way out or different opportunities for yourself… Don’t assume it only because it is coming from you, from your judgement and desire, and not the one of someone else who supports you or encourages you with their appreciation, guides you with their experience and judgements…

Believe it or not, but you are good enough too. You too can make the right choices, or manage the unexpected outcomes. You too can find new, interesting or right journeys and projects. You too can make them work. It doesn't matter your age or experience, the area of your life that we are talking about or the things you are currently dealing with… It doesn't matter if others already tried it, failed doing the same, or succeeded only because they had a better situation and base. It doesn't simply matter. How the other journeys and options can be, what they can hold for you in the long run… It doesn’t matter when it is so clear and obvious that what you are dealing with now, what you are forcing yourself to keep up with, is just not good for you, not right, no matter from which perspective you try to look at it, in hopes of finding proofs of the fact that it is better than making a step out.

Give yourself back your freedom. Use your strength. Not to force yourself, but to be courageous enough to change. You need it. You deserve it. Because whatever this is… It is just not the right for you. And you are well aware of it too.

{ ♡ }

– Pile Three,

the nine of cups and the seven of cups

You’ve accomplished so many things this past year. So many lessons that you learned, the mistakes that you didn't regret but used to become better and more confident in your steps… All the hard work that payed of, in one way or another, guiding you up to some of your goals, and helping you to realize that some of them weren’t so right, allowing you to change your path. It was quite a year, truly. And while so many around you say how it felt so fast and rushed… For you it seemed like you were in a different reality where the time slowed down.

And on that night, saying goodbye to the past and welcoming the future… All of you felt so conflicted in letting go of this year… Some because of how little they think that they were able to do. Some because of the fear of this new year passing by so fastly too. But you… You felt reluctant to let go of what you accomplished. Of that sort of balance that you were able to create in your life, resolving some problems, overcoming certain challenges, or simply, recognising the things that didn't deserve your attention and time. You worked so hard for it, only to appreciate them so briefly, as this new year is already giving you new ideas, opportunities and chances to keep up with.

And it is strange, this feeling. On one hand you truly do feel accomplished, satisfied with what you were able to do. So much that it plants in you this seed of enthusiasm and motivation to try even more, to grow more, to accomplish more… But on the other hand it feels so risky, to believe that it can happen once again all so well, that you can have this fortune and circumstances on your side exactly like it happened that time.

So what is worse? To be so fearful of the uncertainty, or running out of lack, of pushing it too much… To the point of remaining exactly where you are, even when it starts to feel a little too tight and calm, gently suffocating you with the idea that it will stay the same for the rest of your life..? Or to be so confident and careless, going for that more even if it means to come down from the solid base you are standing on, perhaps losing the possibility to ever come back on it at all?

Well, actually, it's neither of them. There isn’t any best or worse. Or to be exact, there doesn't need to be a choice. A decision between two lives, the one you have and the one you want. They can coexist for a moment, one leaving slowly some place for the other. The change doesn't need to be so drastic, from one day to another, from having it all to nothing…

No matter the reason behind your desire for more, if it is a sudden realisation that you don't want to stay here forever or don't want to be here ever at all, if you simply accomplished everything you wanted, or contrary your inner peace comes from you surrendering at some point to the idea that you can’t have it all, but now you are feeling more hopeful, seeing more ideas on how you could reach your goals… You still can do it all, you can change everything you want. Just to do it at the right pace, don’t rush, don’t think that to be free to do it you need to scratch off all the things you so hardly earned.

Slow down. Especially your thoughts. All that overthinking, anxiety, the way you are starting to stress out yourself already now, even when you still didn’t do anything, didn’t start a thing. It is okay, everything is fine. Just because you are feeling the desire to change things, just because a thought of possible ways to do it starts to cross your mind… Nothing will change right now, so suddenly and from nowhere, just because of your change of heart, of your readiness to enter a new phase in your life. It will happen much more slowly, more calmly, more gradually than what it seems because of the emotion and agitation for the realisation that there is so much more in this life, even after you realised your goal and plans.

You can do it all, and you will. Without needing to sacrifice your current life, or being forced to say goodbye to those that are still so dear for your heart. Don’t be afraid of imagining it, of thinking about it, of wandering about what else you can do or how it will be. Because it’s this way that you will recognise the right moments, the ways out that the life occasionally gives us, connecting our reality with new journeys and paths.

For now don't busy yourself with it. Live this life. Keep on appreciating it, feeling proud of how far you've come. And the rest will happen on its own. Because if you are feeling this readiness to move on, I assure you that this world knows it, and it will cooperate with your life to give you more room to grow.

{ ♡ }

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thatfrailsoul · 13 days ago

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– The journey of a soul

new year tarot pick a pile reading ( → 1, 2, 3 )

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

Sometimes we crave that something… We feel the need to create, to speak, to make our steps in a certain way. With more intention, more meaning, more magic in it. Something that can give to all of this, to every single little detail and moment in our routines, more significance. And by doing so, give our own selves more motivation, strength, courage and energy to keep on going. Feeling that it is not at all useless. Feeling that there is something more in this life than just the material, at times repetitive or stagnant world. But even when we have so much desire for it… It is still not so easy to understand which is that one way to do things that can really help us see and feel again this world from the perspective of our soul, and not our consumed and tired thoughts. What we can do to connect, nourish and embrace ourselves. Through the expression of our soul.

This is our very first reading for this new year, requested by one of you to whom I’m so grateful for this idea and chance to tap for a moment in the more spiritual aspect of our life. No matter if you already have someone or something that you believe in, accepting their guidance in your life; if you always felt connected so deeply only to your own self; if you never felt this desire to look at life differently until this point… You are welcomed here, and there will be the right message for you. As no matter if we look at it from the spiritual and religious perspective, or more logical and psychological one, there is still something that can help you express, nourish and celebrate yourself more. Something that can help you find more peace within this year, transforming it into the strength to go through this life and the easy or challenging moments it sometimes gifts.

So slow down. Breathe. Allow yourself to let go for a moment of judgment, analysis or control. And just follow that one pile that attracts your gaze more. The one that is hiding the message from your soul.

P.s. A little question for you.♡

As I’m trying to improve the experience of the extended versions of our readings, it would be deeply helpful for me to know your opinion about their format! For example, when and if you’ll ever buy an extended version of a reading, what would be more comfortable for you to find in them? Just the additional message? Or it might be helpful to have the original one included too, so you have everything in one place in case you want to read again the whole reading, or check more than one pile?

{ Thank you so much for letting me know!♡ }

– Pile One,

the coffin: the king of wands and the temperance

This past year… There were so many things that you were forced to say goodbye to. People, connections, ideas and opportunities, journeys and goals… So many things didn't work, for one reason or another. So many of them needed a different approach, much more than you expected or could do. So many of them seemed to not want you at all, pushing you back no matter how many times you tried to make them work.

But even if it was frustrating and scary, you adapted to all the failures and changes. You tried to remain on the surface in any way you could, looking for something else, accepting whatever alternative seemed good enough for you. And even though you did your best, you managed to make things work either way, accepting them and being grateful even though they are not exactly like you wanted or imagined… It still remains a reality that is not quite yours. Just the one you surrendered to and embraced in the absence of other things that you truly wanted to live and achieve. And in the long run… It is tiring you. To need to keep up with a life that you don't feel truly fitting for yourself, your desires or goals. Because no matter how many positive aspects you can find in them, no matter how strong and capable you are, to make use of them and endure them... It still remains a heavy phase of life, the one that you are going through.

If we’d to ask ourselves what are the things in our life that we don't want or don't feel quite right… We would think almost immediately and only about the big ones. Work, home, studies, relationships that we can’t really control… But there is much more between these big and main goals or concerns that consume all of our focus. There are those little actions and decisions that we do each day, in our routine that we are not really even aware of anymore, allowing it to guide us blindly through one day and the one after that. And there are a lot of aspects of them that we let pass by, without looking at what they are made of. And how many things of those are really aligned with who we want to be or how we want to live this life.

It is normal that we can’t just stand up and change everything in our life, there are too many things that depend not only on us. But we don't need to change those in order to be able to feel safe and at peace, finally enjoying this life. We can and should do it in the little steps we take each day that we wake up.

So take a moment, sit down with yourself, grab a pen, a phone, your pc or whatever you feel more comfortable in using to organise your thoughts. And ask yourself, truly, who is that person that you feel to be in your mind and heart, in your inner world, and that each year you try so hard to bring into the real one. Look at them, describe them, so you can see yourself clearly. Not the version that was made by this reality, these circumstances that decided who and how you needed to be in order to survive and make it through. But the one that you are truly, without any if or but. Without any limit or consequence. Without any judgment or image to keep up with. See them, every detail about how they feel, towards others or just in their own skin. How they deal with obstacles or troubles. What helps them to unwind and relax. The things that they do and really feel satisfied after, proud of what they did no matter if it was a lot or little… And just keep them in mind. Make that version of you be your guide and idol, the one you look up to throughout this year. Each day of it. Because it is not just a dream or a delusion, your desire to be one day like that version that you have in your mind. It is actually your inner self that wants to be this way, and knows deep down that it is possible to feel so confident and safe. Because it's not that you are not like you want, and so is your life, while this is just a delusion that helps you sleep at night. It is still and always you, even if it is only in your dreams and goals for now. Both versions are you, just one needs some time and nourishment to grow up to be the other one.

Even if it might seem not so spiritual, to change your routine, to make room for the things that for so long you wanted to do but never had the time or space, or to just let yourself throw away the judgment and limits on what you do or how… It is still a spiritual, magical, practice. A practical way of taking care of yourself through the things that you can control, choose and decide. It is still a way of expressing and connecting to your own self. While simultaneously making little but significant changes in your life, allowing you to feel safe and comfortable not only within your mind or heart, but also in the things of the every day life.

And this, this can really make an incredible impact on the things that you can’t control too. Just because the wait will be more enjoyable, once you are staying in a place where not everything is frustrating and pressuring. Once you don't feel caught up between two things that give you only anxiety and unsatisfaction, but there is still something that is worth it, to go through these days one after another, while waiting for the big changes to begin.

This reality is hardly the one that you chose for yourself, but through little changes you can make it be more like what you want. So there is more of good and worthy, of safe and enjoyable, that keeps your attention better than the stagnant or bad ones, alleviating the pressure those have on your shoulders, on your heart and on your mind.

The spirituality is not only about practices, rituals, of following the guidance and “rules” of who and what you believe in… It is also and always taking care of yourself, in whatever way you need or can now. And in this year, in the one that once again you have so much hope for, the most needed and easiest for you way to nourish yourself is by making your current reality more safe and enjoyable for you, no matter if the other “big” things will change or stay the same. Because we can’t always control our journey, but we can change the way we go through it. And in your case, you can start doing it through the little things done for yourself, for that version of you that you want so much to manifest.

{ ♡ }

– Pile Two,

the cross: the lovers and the ten of swords

It is not the first time that this desire blooms within you. The one to be devoted to something close and true to your soul. To allow it to guide you, teach you. To allow it to protect you and take care of you as you go through these difficult days. It is not the first time you feel the pure and genuine desire to not feel so alone, so doomed, so lost. But to have someone or something to look after you, to light the right journey for you…

You already tried so many things. Opened up your mind and your heart to new ideas and beliefs. You held them close to your heart, let it in, right into your soul, and listened patiently, waiting for an answer, for a sign that this is something that is right and true for you, something that you can trust to guide you…

But although so many of them felt so exciting and interesting to learn about, there was always that one little detail that never fitted, never was quite right for you. Making it so difficult to stick with them, to truly dedicate your time and energy to them. To truly feel that faith that is needed in order to believe… The first moments of enthusiasm always faded. The new routines that seemed so easy to respect became more tedious and difficult to keep up with. The words that first resonated so strongly with your heart… Always sooner or later found their nemesis in your thoughts, in your fearful and anxious questions that never found answers that could satisfy them.

And you felt only more coldness around and within you. As this flame of connecting with your soul somehow, more significantly, in a more sacred way, didn't receive its nourishment. Becoming smaller with each day that you wanted to understand yourself and this world better, but were unable to crack the code…

But no matter how many things you tried, how much you learned about so many ways of creating through your soul or manifest your true self unapologetically into this world… It is still the very start for you. You are only at the beginning of this journey. As through your hard work you learned all the possible ways, methods, practices and ideas… But you never learned what, or who, is it that you want to connect to. You never took a moment to just look at your own self and what you hold within your body, mind and heart. There are many religions, many practices, many believes that could fit in your life, that could really help you. But it is difficult to find out which is the right one, when you don't really know the size you need, right?

Although it is admirable your openness and desire to learn and experiment… There is no need for you now to decide already who or what to follow. Because first you need to be able to listen to your own self, without any voice or interpretations of others in between. You need to focus on yourself, this year, on who you are, before trusting others and their truths. As they can so easily make you lose sight of who you are, when you don’t have what to hold to in the first place.

For now observe yourself. Your feelings, thoughts, perceptions and reactions when interacting with this world. Observe them also when you are all alone. When there is no one else apart your self… What do you feel, what do you desire or need, when facing all of it? Because you really do think that it is not needed, that there is noone that knows you best. But in this search for someone else that can translate the way your soul talks, someone who understands it… You didn’t notice how much you have changed. How much the motives and explanations of what you feel or think have changed, narrating a different story about who you are, and what your soul strives for now.

{ ♡ }

– Pile Three,

The child: the two of wands and the five of cups

So many plans, so many guidelines, so many routines… Always so many things to learn and to adapt to, so many limits needed for you so you wouldn't make mistakes… They really got you used to it. To have a clear vision of what you are going to do, or how, with all the needed steps to follow. They got you used so much to it, that you can’t help but do it regarding your own self, your own soul too. The way you express it, create with it… The things that you do to connect with it.

You can’t help but to rely on something or someone, just even the tiniest advice or guidance, before you do that one first step on the path that you are thinking to choose. But it doesn't really work with more intimate, less material things, doesn't it? It only kind of kills the enthusiasm and lightness in your heart by putting so many dos and don’ts into your mind.

There is nothing wrong in looking out for it… In looking around you, discovering different ideas and ways others do it. But it does become more heavy and strict when instead of being inspired and experimenting in your own way with it, you are trying to follow each someone's step, just to be sure to not be disrespectful, ignorant, or just weird.

Interests that help your mind to grow or hobbies that allow your heart to express itself and unwind… Routines that give you stability or practices that give you confidence… They all change so much, depending on who is doing them. For someone they are natural and easy. For others they are so difficult to stick with no matter how much one tries. And yet you still feel uneasy, you still believe that the reason you can’t find that one right thing, create that one safe space for yourself… Is you and the mistakes that, you are so sure of, you make.

And what if it is true anyway? What if you really do manage in doing only one thing and not the other? What if only one half of someone’s truth sits right with you? It is your life. Your soul. And it is obvious that it won’t be so easy to follow the example of someone else when trying to take care of it.

You tried so many things, explored so many different ideas and believes. And while you see yourself being able to welcome them in your life only partially as your incapability or inadequacy… You shouldn't ignore so confidently all those little things and details that still did resonate with you, even if each one of them comes from different cultures or practices. Your soul is the fusion of all your lives, your experiences, thoughts and feelings in each one of them. And the way it feels more safe to look at this world, and respect and nourish the one within you… Can indeed be a puzzle of all the different things that you learned or saw, but that fit so well together when you are that one connecting point.

Don’t busy yourself with finding, choosing and sticking to only one thing or way to take care of yourself, only one set of rules, only one school of thoughts. Because even though it might be the only one for someone, their whole life and armor, their story or personality, it doesn't necessarily need to be yours too. It can be strong, stable and beautiful enough even if it is made from different materials. A spirituality and magic that is all yours. The one that connects you to so many different parts of this world and to those that live or that used to, leaving to us their example and story to learn from.

Just go for your own way. Keep on remaining open, so enthusiastic and curious. Keep on learning and trying new and different ways, discovering how many things there truly are in this world that can be helpful and good for your body, mind or heart. Keep on enjoying them, or contrary, learning what are those things that are not quite aligned with you. And create as you go this beautiful and unique puzzle of wholeness and wellbeing, of a truth and guidance that is just yours, while still being connected to all.

{ ♡ }

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thatfrailsoul · 21 days ago

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– Hi lovely souls ♡

a little message of gratitude from me to you, and my plans for this month ~

picture from → pinterest

{ For you }

It has been such a journey for me, to discover tumblr and create this blog, to stop limiting myself and learning to be more creative and comfortable in sharing my readings and thoughts... And I really do think that all of this was possible thanks to you, to those that accepted me with open arms and gave me so much support in my every post. I have a lot still to learn, from overcoming procrastination to better organisation of the blog... But I'm not at all afraid, and I truly feel confident that in one way or another I will improve. Because I have you by my side that, who through little things and who with more direct interactions and support, give me so much confidence in what I do, and awareness that it does make a difference and that my work can help someone, even if just a little.

I just wanted to thank you all, "formally". For doing for me so much without even realising. You make my day and give me the courage to keep going and improve myself, instead of just being afraid and hide in my little bubble. I got through so much growth this year, and I found so much comfort in this blog. Thanks to you. And I can't help but wish each every one of you the best that there can be, the strength and courage to live this life with a light heart, even if it might take some time to let go of all that is holding you back.

So happy new year! The one that, I wholeheartedly hope, will bring you joy, safety, and comfort that you deserve.♡

{ For us }

And in case you might be curious to know what I'm planning on doing and posting this month, you can spend a few more moments here with me, as I organise my thoughts.♡

New year's stuff ~

Being this our very first month and steps into this new year, I wanted to dedicate it to receiving insight for what is ahead of us, what we might need to know, what can be helpful or interesting for us to be aware of. So throughout this month I will post three readings regarding this theme:

- How we can nourish more the spirituality within us, that language that our soul wants and feels more comfortable to speak in, manifesting it through our actions, decisions, or just the way we take care of ourselves and our inner or outer world;

- What last message this ending year would like to tell us, to let us know about what we got through, endured, achieved, or surrendered to and let go of? And what little secret this new year wants us to know, as we brave ourselves for this new phase?

- At the midnight of the new year... There are a lot of whishes that cross our mind. And even more of them stay hidden, silently, at the back of our mind... But which one of them will be granted to us this year? What is the one that our soul wanted or needed more, enough to help it manifest in this world?

Free stuff ~

Like I did a little while ago, I am planning on doing another limited offer for free personal guidance, in order to understand more what is comfortable and helpful for you in terms of personal readings, so - once I open the personal paid guidance - I'm sure it is something that works well both for you and for me.

Love stuff ~

Being February a month that is so well known for a very specific "romantic day", but also being so close to the scary and at times confusing begining of a new year... We might very often find ourselves overwhelmed with this "love" theme. Who because of a particular connection or situationship. Who because of the one that they still wait and look for. Who just because of the bond that they try to heal and nourish to their own heart... But it does happen, these thoughts do cross our mind, pressuring and stressing us. So a little like with January's readings being focused on the new year, I want to focus those of the February on the theme of love, no matter in which context or sense. So already in this month, I will start to prepare for them, by deciding with you which questions or topics regarding this theme you are more curious about or need more guidance with.

(I will do at some point a separate post in which we will decide together the topics that might be more interesting or needed for us).

Jukebox's stuff ~

Because of how much love and enthusiasm our Divinatory Jukebox had received, since it's creation I gathered a lot of suggestions and requests for it. And although my initial plan was to do them frequently, as much as I could, I did find myself struggling with keeping up. So I closed for now the suggestions for the Divinatory Jukebox. But only so I can focus on answering each request that I received so far, with the attention that each one of you deserves. So, a part from the different readings that I mentioned before, I will also do at least two or three readings from our Divinatory Jukebox. And in case I will be able to keep up with my plan, perhaps even more.

All of these are just a sort of a draft, the ideas that I really want to work on this month. Considering my current struggle with procrastination and just life, I am low-key aware of the fact that I might not be able to do all of them. But as I always say, even though my pace might change, I will still and always do my best in doing everything, even if it might take more time than planned.

If you read so far, if you sent your suggestions and requests, or if you just follow me, I do hope that no matter if I'll be able to do all of this or not, you will still find something in this blog that might give you some help, guidance, or just make you smile amidst all of the boring moments or perhaps struggles in your life. I will do my best this year to take more care of this blog and achieve all the things that I have in mind, so I'll hope that I will still have you by my side and that it won't be too annoying of a ride.♡

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thatfrailsoul · 26 days ago

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– Make me feel like someone else

tarot pick a pile reading

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

There are people that we just can’t resist. A smile that is impossible to not be contaged by. A voice that is so difficult to not trust. A silhouette that we follow without even realising how easily they are taking us away from the old ways, making us see this world under such a different light… A charming person, a magnetic aura… Could it really be only a spell that makes us blind to something deeply important, something that we should be aware of but that we just can’t grasp? Is it really everything so good and easy, for once, or are we trapped in an illusion that will only hurt us...?

In a romantic, or an equally inspiring friendship, there is someone that you need to know about...

This is our fifth reading from the Divinatory Jukebox. A message that comes to us through the song “Hypnotic” by Zella Day. A faithful messenger of the universe, who waited patiently for us to hear it, to listen to what it has to say.

Although from the emotions and energy of this song I expected something much darker, heavier, even more dangerous... Now I understand that perhaps this is just the way we feel it, when we are so captivated by someone, when we want to be and are so vulnerable in front of them, giving out our heart but at the same time deep down being afraid of them tearing it apart.

Slow down for a moment. Give your conscious mind a moment of rest, allow it to step back. Instead, listen to your subconscious one, to that inner voice, to the intuition that is guiding you to the pile in which your message hides.

P.s. a little question for you ♡:

As I'm trying to improve the experience of the extended versions of our readings, it would be deeply helpful for me to know your opinion. Especially about what you would love to find in them. Just whatever is needed or that might be helpful for you to hear based on the reading and the original message you received? A more practical advice on how to handle your current situation? Perhaps a little glimpse into the future and what it holds for you, what you can expect or need to keep in mind for when you’ll live that outcome? Or, even better, all of these combined?

{ Thank you so much for letting me know!♡ }

– Pile One,

the ten of coins, the stars, the moon

After fighting with all you had, after finally escaping the chains of a connection so powerful that it convinced you to stab yourself, again and again, just for them… You really did hope that it would never happen again. That there won’t ever be someone that has so much control over you, over your heart that gives it all to the ones it loves. You hoped that you learned from your mistakes, that your scars are enough for you as a reminder, as help in being aware of all the lies and manipulations of those that try to come closer to your heart.

And yet you still felt it, you still found it, after all this time and even though you are with a different person now. That urge to be by their side, to fall for them, trusting completely that they will catch you, holding you tight in their arms, giving you a sense of protection, and at the same time a dangerous vulnerability when you are with them…

But even if you feel the need to do it, to feel it, you are resisting it. The fear, the anxiety, the doubts are overwhelming you, as you recognise in them and each their gesture, someone that you thought you’d never see again. Not in a different person, in a different connection, that you had so much hope for, but which is feeling too similar to how it used to back then...

So you are making steps back, trying to buy more time, to understand how it could happen that after all of that you still did make the same mistake. A mistake that you can't even bring yourself to regret, not when you look into their eyes…

How is it possible really? Are you so weak, so stupid to put yourself at risk again and again, breaking your promises to your own self? Or are they so powerful, so many steps ahead, enough to be able to put you under a cage that you didn't even notice, not giving you any chance to escape?

It is pulling you to them, whatever it is, calling you, overwhelming you through every single thing that reminds you of that other person, no matter how far they are. They are calling you, and you make steps forward. Just to push yourself right back when for a moment you are able to wake up. To doubt yourself, what you feel and think, to ask if this is even real.

But slow down for a moment. Breathe. Reflect. What is it, that in this new person, reminds you so much of the one that you swore to never let again in? Because it is just the way you feel with them, isn’t it? That sense of safety, of surrender to everything that could happen out there in this world, just because you are with them? Is it that admiration, pure inspiration and motivation that you feel when you look at them, at their way of living this life, creating with it their adventures and stories that they desire? Is it that hope for more time with them, to get to know them better, to learn from them or with them. To have them by your side as you face the struggles or challenges of your journeys, because you truly feel like they would be able and willing to help? Is it the way you feel so close to them in so little time, almost like you always knew and looked for each other, in one way or another? Is it just this… and how it is similar to what you felt with that other person, just before they took advantage of it?

Because you do love it, the way they make you feel. Those emotions that you thought you would never experience again. But at the same time, now that they are here, you can't help but reconnect them to the person that betrayed you by using them against you.

But… Are you so sure that it will be the same with them? That these emotions and way of feeling can be only a sign of a danger in disguise? Or is it only a fear, a supposition, based on what happened in the past, and that has nothing to confirm it in the now? Because you are opening up your old wounds, you are doing it on your own now. Just because of the profound vulnerability, and even scarier desire to be this way in front of them, that just surprises you in how it came back so easily, disregarding all your hard work to learn to protect yourself…

But it is not a mistake, a delusion of your heart, its way of never learning and being so easily infatuated and influenced by gentle ways… Your heart, your mind, you are not so stupid. You wouldn’t ever hurt yourself this way. But you are doing it now, in a different one. By letting what happened, and that person, still be present in your life. By letting their phantom wander around in your reality, your situations, standing behind those that you are looking at… And scaring you, putting you in guard just because of their presence and their memory at the back of your mind.

You did learn. You did become more careful with those that you allow to get closer to you, to be part of your life. You are protecting yourself, at every step. You are paying attention to the ways of others. And you are not letting anything or anyone play with you again. This, what you feel for this person now… Are just feelings, genuine, true, normal. They are not strange or worrying just because they seem to become deeper so quickly. Or just because, miraculously, they are reciprocated now.

It is good and it is true. There is no need to doubt it only because of how rare it is, and how ironically you already felt it once because of someone who treated your heart wrongly. That person was mean, manipulative, was hurtful… But does this new person have any fault of it, of the fact that they make you naturally and genuinely feel what the other needed to force and orchestrate?

Slow down. Breathe in. Look closely at them, pay attention to where they end and where that ghost of the past begins. Look at what you are creating with this new person. At how those bad and difficult things that you are afraid of and expect are nowhere to be seen. And focus on what is here, them, your moments. Rather than on the memories of someone who is long gone. The one that you already freed yourself from.

P.s. With each new year there is a decision that we need to make… what to bring with us, what to hope for, and what to leave behind. But it is not so easy, isn’t it? Some endings, no matter how obvious, are still so difficult to accept and to let go of, just because of how much they mean to us. But this year you can simply ask about it, if there is a chance for a new beginning or if there is only an end, so you can stop yourself from making the same dangerous mistakes.♡↓

{ Find out your answer here ~ }

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– Pile Two,

the knight of cups, the emperor, the eight of wands

You give them so much credit… You think they really have all that power over you. Just because of how strange and new all these feelings are. How scarily natural, how overwhelmingly good it is to be by their side and connect with them, heart to heart.

But it is much simpler than just careful and complicated games of manipulation or disguise that your anxious mind comes up with.

It is just you. It is just them. The way you are so similar, yet different enough to teach each other so much. The way you speak different languages, but with such similar tone and rhythm that makes it possible for you to understand each other fully, even more than those that knew you for so long. The way there is in each of you that something that is needed for the other. That light and darkness. That calm and enthusiasm. That logic and emotions. The water and fire. The air and earth. Two half that fit so perfectly, creating something beautiful, something true, something whole.

It is just you both that felt instantly so comfortable, so safe, so curious about a life passed side by side, all the moments that you could create together, and those that perhaps you could've shared if you met sooner, changing completely your past. It is that genuine enthusiasm and joy that makes you go faster, connecting easier than with anyone else. Allowing you to create a bond deeper than what you could expect.

There is no trick, no spell, no hidden motive. Just a finally good and honest connection that your broken hearts needed so much.

There is just surprise and unpreparedness to feel so much and so fast. Especially when you are used to struggle just to get truly closer to someone who is already by your side.

There is no need to be afraid, to already prepare yourself for the worst just because this is too good to be true, to be so easy and fun. There is no need to consider to run away, to distance them, just because of the doubt in your mind… You can just slow down. On your own. Ask them to do things one step at a time. So you can get used to it more easily, to be treated better, to trust fully the promises that someone gives to your heart.

There won't be any anger or misunderstanding. There won’t be any judgement in discovering that you are just not used to so much lightness in your heart and mind. It will only make you more precious for them, more deserving of their affection and parts of them that they will share only with you, who they will fully believe and trust.

{ Find out your answer here ~ }

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– Pile Three,

the three of coins, the emperor, the page of swords

Is it really only them, who pulls you in so tenderly? Who so knowingly walks around your walls and finds every fragile part, using them to get closer? Or are you doing exactly the same, playing their games, imitating their ways, simply because it is so captivating and fun?

You have so many things in common. Even just the way you love and need to feel that rush, to feel the excitement and the thrill of getting to know each other, of provoking one another, subtly, jokingly. Never saying something openly, but understanding so much, reading through the lines.

But things are starting to change, to feel different, now that some time has passed and playing the same games as when you first met… It just feels kind of strange, and even tiring at times. This is not something that only you noticed and felt, that shift and the energy of both of you that just seems to be consumed uselessly with all of this. How the time seems to be wasted, and you both can’t help but think of how different those moments could've been if only you were finally fully open to each other. With your thoughts expressed clearly. Parts of you and of your life shared without needing to necessarily win them, be worthy of them…

And it is okay, this feeling and change is normal. There is nothing strange in being attracted to a different energy and dynamic at the start of a connection, compared to when some time has passed and you just want to be by their side, experiencing this life together, and not only playing with each other occasionally.

So don’t let those doubts and fears, that you or them will get bored if you stop to “spicing” things up, come any closer. Nothing will happen if, for a moment, you just relax and become less calculated in the ways you interact. Simply because this connection didn't start because of those games, of those flirtatious or joking ways. It started because your paths crossed each other, thanks to this life that saw how much your souls were aligned. It started because it was supposed to. And it would've happened even if you didn't do so much to win each other over, convincing the other person to choose you, to give you that chance.

It will not go away. Nor them nor you will do it, if something in your dynamic changes. Because change is not something to be afraid of. It is just a sign of your growth and evolution of this connection, of your feelings for eachother that make you a safe and comfortable person for one another, no matter the label of the relationship or your ways.

Don’t be afraid to let your grip on them go a little. Don’t be afraid to not always maintain the same entertaining energy. You don’t need to convince them, appeal to them, or prove yourself and your worth to them. They already are aware of all of it, they already chose to stay by your side, nourishing this bond, exactly like you did. It is not the start of the connection anymore. So you both are allowed to go a little slower, be more neutral or even boring. Some moments are indeed supposed to be more calmer and less adventurous than how it was at the very start. It is still fine. Everything is still okay. And it will continue to be so, no matter how many months or years will pass by. A time in which this connection will simply and only evolve and adapt to the phases of your lives many more times.

{ Find out your answer here ♡ }

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– Receive free guidance from me ♡

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If you would like to receive something more than just what my general readings can give you... If you have the desire or need for a direct and clear guidance, specifically for you and what you are going through, a message that is only yours to hear... Then I can help you find it now, for free.♡↓

P.s. please read everything before contacting me ♡

| How it works |

– I will give free personal guidance to the first ten people that will contact me here on tumblr.

– I will need to know only what you would like the reading to be about and your name or nickname. And if you will feel comfortable, and only in that case, you can also tell me a little about the situation you are in.

– You must choose only one situation, area of your life or topic for this reading.

– The guidance will be focused on what you can and need to know right now regarding it, and an advice for you on how to take care of it while remaining on the right path and safe.

– I will not limit in any way the time or quantity of the information of the reading, but I will allow the message to come through freely.

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Just the joy of helping you out and your opinion regarding the experience of having a reading with me, that will be deeply important for me as I'm trying to find the best and more comfortable way to introduce paid readings on my blog.♡

I hope that you will enjoy this little "event", as I'm planning to do more of them in the future. Can't wait to read for you! And thank you in advance if you will give me the honour to guide you.♡

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thatfrailsoul · 1 month ago

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– If we just wanna be free

tarot pick a pile reading ( → 1, 2, 3 )

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

So much patience and faith… So much love and intention poured into a connection, into a person… After all of this… How can you truly accept that this is it? That this pain, these trembling hands and tears down your cheeks, is all that there ever will be? How can you convince your heart that it is time to cut the bond that it is still holding onto, and to which the mind is already preparing to say goodby?

A message about that one connection that you are fighting for, not allowing it to die. A message about the hurt that you are trying to ignore, all for that one person that is so dear to your heart, even when their ways are consuming you so much. No matter if it is someone from the present or from the past, a bond of romantic love, affection or simply care for someone by your side… There is a message that this world, this universe, is trying to give you through the fourth song from our Divinatory Jukebox. A song about “Part Time Lovers”, by Hazlett.

– Pile One,

the two of swords, the empress, the page of swords

Someone that you just can't bring yourself to let go of, to ignore…. No matter how many doubts, how many thoughts are overwhelming your mind… Not when they are looking at you with those eyes. Not when you know what's hidden in them.

For others it is so easy to blame them… To see all the negative and bad things about them, about this connection, about your bond. It is so easy for them because they are not in this. They are not here, by their side, seeing, knowing, all that they are going through. They are not the ones that share their pain and struggle, as they truly are trying to be better, to little by little become someone new, different from the person that used to hurt so much others and you. It is easier for others to judge, to be objective, to give their advice knowing deep down that they will never look them in the eyes as they break their heart, walking away and leaving them behind… And it is much more difficult for you to even think about doing it, after all that you already got through, for them, for this connection, for you.

It is impossible to ignore it, all the things that you know about them, all the times that they tried to do their best, all the care and affection that they still gave you, no matter how painful all their other actions were. It is impossible for you to do it, for the way you are. Full of hope and faith in this person and your connection. Full of desire to fight for it that you still have, even after all these troubles and time. Knowing so well how much it would've meant for you to receive the same patience and understanding, and not only all the judgment and hate you always received in your hardest times instead.

But exactly for this same reason, for your gentleness, your warmth, your light, you can’t ignore how they are making you feel either. The real them, and not the one that you idealise so much as you daydream about a safer connection, a calmer feeling in your chest, a more relaxed body that doesn't need to be constantly ready to survive when you are with them. You can't ignore it. No matter how much you can focus on the little positive moments that you've shared so far. But you are trying so hard to do it, just to give them a little more time, another chance to prove all of them wrong, demonstrating that it wasn't only you, all this love that you thought you felt and saw…

And where is the line anyway? Where should the affection of someone meet the one of the another person in a bond? How much should each soul give to the other in the name of what they feel, what their heart holds inside of it? Is there really any rule, any guidance, any tradition on how a connection should work? Because you never saw it. Not in your relationships, not in the ones of people that you learned from. You only saw genuine and raw emotions, feelings. Genuine readiness, desire and even impulsiveness at times, to give your all to the other person if this is what they are needing now, even if you might not receive it right away in return…

You always saw the demonstration of love, affection, care and how to give it. You never heard anyone demanding it, pretending it, even if they really did deserve it. You grew up with modest, sacrificing souls, and you became one of them. One that has so much fear in accepting the reality that someone is hurting you, consuming you. Because no matter if they are doing it intentionally or not, you might not be ready to fight for yourself, to demand something more. And in case it is not given to you, openly denied, perhaps accompanied with mean words that you never would expect to hear after all that you've done… you might not be ready and courageous enough to withstand the pressure of a connection, of a story to which you gave so much, collapsing on your heart.

Because no matter how things are now, how they feel, it will never change the fact that you still know them, this person. You still hold so many moments in your memories that will eternally connect you, no matter how distant, emotionally or physically, you will be. They will still hold the truth, what your eyes saw behind their wrong actions, what your mind understood in their confused words. The things that others never will understand, simply because it never was their person, their connection, or their love. You know them, you met their soul, and nothing will change it. Not the opinions of others, not the end of this bond… They will still remain the person that you fell in love with, romantically or not, and learned to feel yours. Even if their actions now don't align with who you know them to be at all. Even if, little by little, you are starting to need to force yourself to continue to fight for them, to remain here, and to endure it all while all you feel you need to do is to let them go.

You are not holding onto them still because there really is some reason, something that will make it worth it, to go through it again and again, every time something shifts in their world... And your heart is not letting them go just because of a delusion that is hiding your own intuition, your inner voice… You are doing it just because you are afraid. And rather than letting them go being so inevitably difficult or impossible for your heart… it is just what it will mean, that is so painful and scary, enough to make you tremble and stop right before cutting this bond.

You just don't want it to be in vain, all that time, all that perseverance, all the things that you did, all those steps that you managed to make them do towards you, towards understanding and treating better those by their side and themselves… And you don't want it to be like all the others said, something manipulative, something cruel or wrong. Because deep down you know that it is not their fault to hold, but rather they are just a victim of their own life, of their own struggles. That are just too much to be controlled, those emotions that constantly explode in them at each moment, at each problem, at each situation that they are too tired of going through. Making them unable to protect themselves and those that are trying to reach them and help them, pulling them out of that storm.

But can you really do it? Is it really right? To remain here with their struggles, with the things that they intentionally or not, but still do, just because you know that the reason behind them might be something more than a simple desire to hurt you? Is it really right to fight for this connection, to push yourself through the battles of someone else, just to protect them from themselves and others that hurt you so much, when they are not able to understand the truth about them and their ways that you always saw and knew? Is it really right to ask so much from yourself, in the name of others, as you are starting to lose and forget yourself in the pain and stress of the life of someone else? Because if these are really the reasons, the motives behind you not making that step… then it doesn't matter how much you worry, feel guilty, hurt or afraid. The opinions of others are not yours to change. And this person, even though you can feel and see how different they are deep down, underneath these arguments, these harsh words and impulsive actions, is not yours to reveal and protect. Their actions are not yours to excuse. Their fights are not yours to endure. And this bond, this love, is not only yours to keep alive. Not if it costs you so much, if it consumes you so much.

They will come out of it, even without you by their side. And perhaps exactly because of you leaving, they will find themselves finally understanding the importance of the weight with which they were leaning onto others in order to stand up.

And this connection, all that you felt and lived, will never be in vain, it will never be wrong. Your actions, your dedication, never will be not enough. Every little moment, every shared laugh, every tender hug, they are all worth it. Even if there won't be anymore of them, even if they will remain only in your hearts.

There are a lot of reasons behind a bond that is not being able to survive… But not always it is necessarily the fault of one or another. Sometimes it is just life. Sometimes it is just what is the best for your hearts.

But if the idea of doing that one step away is still too scary, too difficult to do under the weight of not only what was, but also of what will happen if you do it… If you just feel the need to hear a few more words, just to be sure… you can take a look at the extended version of this reading, at a little message that this world has for you right now.♡↓

{ a little message for you }

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– Pile Two,

the two of swords, the eight of swords, the world

A step that is too difficult to take. Too difficult to make when it means to leave behind all that you worked on so much. A door that is too difficult to close, even if it is to protect yourself and your heart.

No one ever really taught you how to do it. How to connect with others. How to create a healthy and right bond. How to nurture and protect it at all costs… You were forced to learn it on your own. All that pain that you saw in those tired eyes in your reflection. All the times you saw others unexpectedly crumble down, revealing the wounds that they tried to hide so hard. All the things that you needed to endure because of others and their ways. And all the people dear to you that were destroyed, heartbroken, by the closest ones to them… It all forced you, pushed you, to learn. Just to not feel and not see it anymore.

So the worst things were transformed through you in something better, in something more gentle and tender. The mistakes of others became your lessons and teachings. Their harsh words, your reflection and inner introspection. Their cold and harmful actions that they kept explaining with their logic… your ability to understand others more, thanks to the whispers of your heart that you now were choosing to listen, instead of your mind.

Every situation, every person, every word or action, it all helped you to become who you are now. A person that is gentle, thoughtful, loyal, faithful to those that you love, despite everything that might challenge you and the way you are. All thanks to your incredible bond to your own heart. That deep connection to love that resides within you, the nourishment that you give to it, and the guidance that it offers you back.

A person that got through so much just to be able to be this way, to be guided by your heart, to follow it with confidence, no matter how often others considered you too soft… A person that, without realising, started to fear and despise its own mind, its own thoughts, conclusions, and suggestions. To the point of refusing its guidance even when, for once, it is not coming from overthinking or delusion, but only from that part of you that is seeing more. More than your heart is feeling now.

Because the truth is that you already have all the reasons, all the motives, that are more than enough to be this the right choice. To confirm that doing this step away, to cut this bond, is indeed what will make this pain stop. But you are trying so hard to ignore them. To find other explanations, other ways of looking at this situation… Just because you don't want to become one of those that hurt others. And worst of all, admit that exactly as your mind, there are times in which your heart can be wrong too, guiding you in the arms of those that can’t or won’t treat you right.

But when it comes to you, to your inner world, to the way you go through things… it simply can’t be just black or white. It can’t be your mind or your heart. It doesn't and can't work like that. Not when you are trying to follow only one, making a decision by deliberately ignoring a part of you that has something to say, to suggest, to show you. And that can possibly be vital for the moment you’ll need to choose. You can't possibly expect to be able to navigate this complex and such mutable world by only using one half of your soul, of what makes you - you, of what contains all your experience and knowledge and thus can really help you… just because they come from different parts of you.

By choosing so radically where your decisions are coming from, your mind or your heart, you are only hiding a part of what is happening from yourself. You are keeping yourself blind to the full reality and truth of things, people and situations around you. Putting yourself in danger, forcing yourself to stay in places that are not right for you, exactly like now.

Listen to yourself more. And not just your feelings, your desires, the things that you hold in your heart. Trust also your observations, your judgment, your knowledge that some things that you are enduring, for or because of others, are just not right. Listen and trust yourself, fully. Because there is a reason why your heart is holding onto them so dearly, yes. But there is also a reason why you are noticing more and more details, why your mind is becoming louder and your thoughts heavier as you try to ignore them just for the sake of your heart. A heart that is still being used and hurt, even when you follow it, even right now.

It is not only black and white. Each part of you is an explosion of colours, of reasons behind why you are feeling something or there is a thought so persistent in your mind. Reasons that you shouldn't just choose from, and stick to them even as you are bleeding your heart out or losing your mind. But they are rather the ones that you should consider, connect them, and decide based on the whole picture that you are for so long refusing to see, closing your eyes.

It is okay if for once you don't come from love, from gentleness, from your heart. It is okay if you don't stick with something, push yourself through it, even if your heart is not used to the ways that are more harsh. It is okay. Simply because the one that is hurting you, consuming you, is not doing it from the heart either. I assure you that all this pain and struggle is not coming from love.

So don't try to fight it with it. Don't try to fight at all if you don't want to, if the fear of hurting too much and becoming someone you don't want is too strong. But don't make compromises on how much you protect yourself, that same heart that you are now letting so vulnerable, wide open and ready to be stubbed by them just because of your love.

And if you need more reassurance, more reasons to do it, to finally open your eyes after ignoring for so long what your mind was trying to show you… If you just feel the need to hear a few more words, just to be sure… You can take a look at the extended version of this reading, at a little message that this world has for you right now.♡↓

{ a little message for you }

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– Pile Three,

the tower, the king of coins, the three of swords

Like the flowers that were cut… No matter how beautiful, no matter how cherished and nourished, no matter how much loved… This is a bond that was impossible to save longer, even with all your attention and love.

You had so much faith in this moment… In this confrontation that it took you so long to prepare for. You had so much anticipation, after all the thoughts and feelings that overwhelmed you as you tried to find the courage and the right words. As you worked hard on understanding fully what was going on within you first, so you could explain it to them…

You really did believe that if only you found the right way to do it, they would listen this time. That they will for once pay attention without rushing to defend themselves at your expense. But it didn't work, didn't it? It went exactly like the last time, and the one before that…

Perhaps even worse, considering the tiredness and numbness that now you feel. Not even a bit of sadness or hurt, not a little anger… It is just all silent, after you finally poured your heart out. Even if it wasn't understood, what you meant, what you wanted to achieve by trying to speak with them…

Perhaps it is because one part of you, somewhere deep down, wasn't really buying all this faith in the fact that it would work this time. Perhaps it is because you got so used to not being heard, since they started to walk by your side. Perhaps it is because, before finding your voice, you were silenced so many times, letting it all store and rot in you, until it just poisoned you from inside out. Perhaps it has nothing to do with all of this… But either way it doesn’t change the fact that now, as everything is collapsing all around you, as they so angrily and chaotically start to crush it all down, your hands are still, your lips are sealed, your eyes don't even want to look up. After all the time that saving this connection was the center of your life, of your every thought through the sleepless nights… You now don’t have the strength nor the desire to catch the pieces, the memories, that they are tearing apart.

But even if you are starting to think that it was all a delusion, that there was nothing honest in you, otherwise you wouldn't feel now so detached… It is not true. In fact, perhaps you felt, you loved, you cared, too much. Much more than they are doing now, so easily deciding to end it, to leave it all behind just because for once you said something about how you felt, about how it hurt you, their ways to treat your heart.

You are just tired. Consumed. In a certain sense, you already overcame it all in your mind that spent so much time thinking and stressing about what was going on in this connection, in this situation that was becoming so heavy with each day that passed. You are not heartless, you are not a liar or selfish… You are just a human that endured too much. And that after finding the courage to open up, to be so vulnerable and honest, was just ignored and hurt.

It is not like you don't care about losing them… You simply already lost them. You lost the person that you fell in love with already a long time ago, when they transformed so much, into someone who is just a stranger to your heart. You do have feelings, you do feel pain, you do feel fear and regret. Is just that they are strong enough to erase themselves, especially after all the time that you felt them, that you carried them inside your chest.

It is okay. What is happening now. It is okay even if they made you be the villain of this story. Even if they didn't understand in the slightest what you wanted and meant. Because probably they did understand, and just don't want to accept it, to make it more evident and real, that they are the ones that destroyed this connection, one little step at a time. Not you, who only wanted to talk about it, who until the very end always had the intention to resolve it, if only they didn't rush so much, silencing you right away.

Let them be. Let them go. You did everything you could, you were good, you did your best and you sacrificed enough. Just know that… the fault is not yours just because you caused this end. The fault is of the one that didn't even try to work on what was left.

But if it still feels so uneasy, so strange what happened and how the things went… If you still feel the guilt and doubts creeping on you for how you handled this… If you just feel the need to hear a few more words, just to be sure… You can take a look at the extended version of this reading, at a little message that this world has for you right now.♡↓

{ a little message for you }

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thatfrailsoul · 2 months ago

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– Receive guidance from me | ♡ |

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There are moments in our lives when everything is just... Too much. Too many thoughts that overwhelm our mind. Too many emotions that are heavy on our heart. It is confusing, draining, tiring. It is paralysing in the way it makes us unable to do even just one step forward, to make one decision, pulling ourselves out of it. So we silently hope for an intervention, a sign, an answer to our questions and doubts. Something that can guide us through the chaos inside or around us. Someone that can connect us to ourselves, to our inner voice, to our guides, to this universe, to whoever and whatever we believe in and feel safe with... Someone like me, that will look for the answers to your questions through my cards, in hopes to help you find peace and safety that you deserve, need and desire.

Please read everything before making your request ♡

| How it works |

– How your questions will be answered?

Your questions regarding a specific situation, area of your life or topic that is concerning you now will be used as an intention for one of my pick a pile readings. In them, you will intuitively find the message destined to you, while indirectly helping others that might be in the same situation, that seek the same guidance, or that might need to hear the same message right now.

– How many things you can ask about?

As many as you like or need. And you can mention all of them in the same request. But, in case they are about different situations or topics, I will divide them through separate readings in order to properly answer your every question.

– Are there things that you can't ask me?

Yes. I will not answer questions regarding death, pregnancy, legal or medical matters, as well as the ones regarding celebrities or fictional characters.

– Where you can send me your requests?

You can send me your questions, wanders, curiosity or concerns through the "What's on your mind..?" option on my blog, mentioning that it is for the free guidance.

– Can you send your request anonymously?

Yes, as I will consider it either way. And, no matter if your request was anonymous or not, I will never answer your "ask" directly. Instead, I will post the pick a pile reading inspired by it as a separate post, in order to give you and your story the privacy you deserve.

– Is it necessary for you to talk about your situation in detail?

No, if it is not something that you consider needed. For me personally it will be enough even just the question itself. But obviously if you feel comfortable to talk a little about your situation, it will give me a better understanding of what is happening and possibly allow me to give more specific and detailed answers to your questions.

– How will you know that I answered your request?

Although I will see your name or account through the request (unless you send it anonymously), I will not write to you to let you know when the reading based on your questions is posted, nor will I answer you in this matter if you will message me on your own. Instead, you will be able to know that I answered you by following my blog and recognising your request through the title, questions, intentions or topics of my posted readings, that are always mentioned at the beginning of them.

– How long will it take me to answer your request?

Generally speaking it takes me quite some time, not only because I receive a lot of requests overall, but also because I use a lot of energy to do a reading. So, although I can't assure you always an immediate answer, I can promise you that it will be replayed to no matter what. With my own pace, but I will always go through each and every request I receive. Doing my best to answer you as soon as possible, so that you receive the needed guidance when it is still relevant to you and your situation.

Lastly, please remember that this is an easy and fun way for you to receive guidance without needing to pay for it, while indirectly helping those in similar situations as well. So please be patient and respectful with this type of readings, others and me, as we will all do our best.♡

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thatfrailsoul · 2 months ago

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– Divinatory Club | ♡ |

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Sometimes our feelings are too overwhelming, our thoughts too loud to let us focus or connect enough. Sometimes we feel like we don't know enough and feel too lost in all the information and details about how divination works. Sometimes we are just wondering about how others might interpret the answers that we found. We might be curious, confused, experienced or new to this. We might need some little help or feel the desire to share… Whoever you are, whatever you feel or need, through this section and option of my blog you can find exactly what you seek. And I will do my best to help you out, sharing what I've learned so far and discovering together new things about this world and the secrets it hides.♡

| How it works |

– What you can ask about?

- Your readings and my opinion regarding the interpretation of the cards that came out in your personal readings, but that you feel a little too confused or doubtful about. We can talk about the meaning of these cards and how they can be interpreted in relation to your situation or questions that you’ve asked. Or we can simply check if your intuition about their message was right and fair, instead of being too emotional or logical because of what you would like to hear right now.

- Cards and their general and natural meaning. How a certain card can be interpreted in relation to different topics and situations. Or the message that might be hiding in a combination of the cards, when their meanings are fused together.

- My practice and ways of nourishing my bond with my own cards. How I learn from them, how I spend time and take care of them.

- Wonders and curiosities about our world, that we will discover through the answers of my cards and the knowledge that they will share with us, helping us grow.

– Where can you send me your questions?

Through the “What’s on your mind..?” option on my blog. It is enough for me that you mention that your question/ message is related to our Divinatory Club, with the details that you feel comfortable to mention or share about your readings, cards, opinions, and your own practice and experience.

– How your question will be replied to?

I will answer directly through your ask, so no matter if you sent it anonymously or not, you should be notified once I will post my reply.

– How long will it take me to answer your question?

Like for the Divinatory Jukebox, in this case too, I’ll allow myself to reply with my own pace. As this is something that I do because I simply like it, and I don’t want to put any pressure or limitation to my work on this blog.

This is just a simple and fun way for us to connect, share our experiences and receive guidance and help. So please be respectful and patient towards me, yourself and others. Our personal rhythms, ways or opinions. I want this to be a safe space, and I will do everything I need to protect it and allow it to remain this way. So if anyone, through asks or replays, will show any behaviour that is the opposite of a peaceful and open mind - I won't engage and will directly block them. So please be mindful of your intentions and the way you interact.

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thatfrailsoul · 2 months ago

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hiii, hope you are doing better! I was doing a love reading on myself and i pulled ten of wands (upright) page of swords (reversed) and ten of swords (reversed) and i would like to get your opinion and take on the situation. Thanks a lot!

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Hi! I’m doing much better, thank you so much for asking and sorry for taking so long to reply.♡~ I hope that my answer will be helpful for you and for your reading...

Your question gave me an idea for a new type of guidance to add to my blog, so if you have any other question about the cards or their meanings, as well as those that might stop by and read this too, please feel free to ask me to help you with your readings. I absolutely love learning new things again and again through my own cards, and having the possibility to share this experience or knowledge with you is truly an honour for me!♡

And if you are not the one that requested this help, but you are interested in learning more about how different cards interact and connect with eachother, or this topic or one of the photos I used caught your attention... You can join us and take a look at the interpretations of these cards based on different circumstances and situations, because in this simple post too there might be a message for you hidden between the lines.♡

Before we dive into it, please always remember that there are a lot of little but significant things that go to influence a reading and its message. From the details of the situation, that in this case only you can fully know, your personal opinion or hopes regarding what is happening, or just what type of questions you are asking your cards, even the way you choose your words… To your emotions that might overwhelm you while you are reading the answer. Or the deck you are using and the meaning that their creator/ artist gave them, as well as the meaning that you yourself have for each card as a result of who you are, your intuition and personal experience with your cards… So while I will use my cards, a simple Rider Waite Smith tarot deck, and my experience with them… consider them only a base for your own interpretation or perhaps a little addition that could unlock some new insights for you or confirm others. Don't feel any pressure to take this as a whole and complete reading, but feel free to spend time with your cards, going through your wanders or doubts until things will feel clear and right.

Considering there are so many different interpretations of these cards connected to a situation, I will go first through the cards themselves and their separate meaning, and then through the possible interpretations of all the cards together connected to the topic of love.

– The ten of wands

Is a pretty heavy card. Heavy, but also strangely rewarding. It represents our strength, our courage and resilience, even patience, in going forward and working on something. On trying your best to go through the not so few obstacles and difficulties you are encountering. And fortunately, overcoming them, in one way or another, understanding in the end (no matter how it will be) the worth of your own actions and perseverance, your hard work and efforts in which you really did your best. And being proud of yourself.

– The page of swords

Is the strength and the power of a mind, of a decision, of a point of view that one might decide to have regarding a situation, and especially what we choose to tell ourselves or others about it. It is a power that can be both victorious or destructive. It can give one the possibility to find or create a solution to a situation, or courage and strength to defend themselves and their decisions/ ideas. But it can also be the worst if used against your own self, for example by holding too much on ideas or decisions that again and again are proved wrong, defending them with all you have in front of people or a part of your own self that just wants to guide you in a better direction. Very often also these cards might represent the power of communication or knowledge of something really important, that can be too used for bad or for good. It can open one’s eyes and give them support, or contrary mislead and manipulate them.

Lastly, I personally read with the reversed cards very rarely, and I usually interpret the meaning of the cards (negative or positive) through the context of a situation or the cards next to them… But here, in case you use the reversed cards as an indication of a negative or hidden aspect of a situation, then we obviously will go with them.

– The ten of swords

Is an ending. The one that we most of the time struggle to accept, face or let go of, particularly in our mind. Hence the swords. It might be the end of a situation, of a behaviour, yours or of someone else. The need to let go of someone, an idea, thought or a desire, especially of the urge to keep on forcing or focusing on something that is clearly not working out or hurting you only more. Being reversed this one too… It is more likely indicating a difficulty in doing so, a certain reluctance, rejection or incapability to let a certain ending happen. Preferring to suffer under the pressure of the circumstance but at least having the hope that one day things might change, by your hand or of someone else, rather than accepting the painful reality that this is it.

Now, as I’ve mentioned before, even with just these three cards we can have many different interpretations, especially depending on the situation that you are currently in and that you were reading for. Considering you didn't specify your situation, or your particular way of interpreting them/ your questions, I will try to write down a few meanings these cards can have for different circumstances, or at least as many as I can find.

– If you are alone at the moment and your heart is not connected to someone in particular...

Then you need to go a little easier on yourself, especially on your heart. Because although there is absolutely nothing wrong in desiring and searching for love, for that special and right someone… It is so wrong to put so much pressure, so many expectations and at the same time have judgement towards your own self and existing or absent progress in this area of your life, just because of how much you make this desire become a literal and most important goal of your life. It is true that we are the ones to decide, so if we look for someone or not, if we try to connect to people, the way we put ourselves out there and present ourselves to others does certainly influence our possibility to “succeed”... But we need also to remember that there are many other aspects of our life or reality, and of other people, that are important and even vital for a beginning, creation and strength of a connection. There might be some things that you feel responsible for, knowing or thinking that it is important for you to focus on them and do your best. There might be other things that are deeply overwhelming now for you, and consume your heart and mind. It might be something that you desire but don't really need now, or contrary something that you think you need but deep down you don't feel ready to go through it. The timing, the moment, the best for you right now… There might be many reasons or ways to talk about the fact that now you don't have anyone specific by your side. But any or all of them will ultimately have only the positive aspect to them. And the reason it feels like the opposite now, so heavy, frustrating and even painful, is meanly because you make yourself see it this way. Almost forcing or convincing yourself that it is not normal, wrong, or strange to be alone now. Because of your own way of thinking or an example of someone in your life and their opinion… But you really highlight it for yourself this way, each time you look at it or think about this situation. Pushing yourself to work on it even when for the moment this is not the most important thing. It is the case of when things will happen at the right moment and in the right way on their own. And trying to make them happen fastly won't change anything but just making it more heavy for you. A journey and phase of your life that should be more joyful or significant than just the search of a person to have by your side. Go easier, it is not so urgent or alarming that it is not working out now. You are making it be this way with your choice to see it from this perspective. The one that you can and should change.

– If you are alone but your heart is still called by someone from your past...

Then you should remember why you are here, and why they are still and only there. In the memories of you and your connection that you hold so closely to your heart. You should remember what and how it happened, that your paths were not anymore aligned. And you should remind yourself of how much you got through just to be here, feeling perhaps still a little frail, but also with so many less wounds on your soul. There is indeed a reason for it, to why and how our connection to someone is being at some point cut. No matter if it happens because of us, of them, or something else that was strong and important enough to push us apart. There was a reason for it, perhaps even many. And in the good or in the bad, but it is for the best. Especially when you already made so many steps forward. When this connection or this person is already so far away. Thinking about it, wondering how things could've gone if only one of you did that one thing… is so different from actually finding them once again, trying to repair a bond that was already broken. They are different because one you can always do as long as you want to… but the other will not be so easily permitted by who you and them became in this time and distance, and the way your lives are different now. You can remember them, remember those days… but you can't do it at the expense of your current reality and where you are now. You can't just ignore it and prefer the ifs of something that already happened, just because there was at least something... to the possibilities and opportunities for you to have something new and better now, just because at this exact moment it is more difficult to manage this area of your life. No matter if you are alone or with someone, focus on this, on what you have or can have now. Not what or how things could've been in the past. You are only making yourself go through it again, all that anxiety and struggle, for a battle that is already long ended. The one that doesn’t deserve your focus, your attention and your choice of fighting for it sacrificing parts of yourself and of your life. Not then, not now.

– If you are alone but your heart is longing for someone specific...

Then you need to slow down for a moment. To give yourself a moment of rest. And reflect. On how much you are doing, how much you are going through for that person. Emotionally, mentally, physically… How much you are giving away of yourself, nurturing a connection that is yet to be created. A connection for which you are fighting so much while the other person is not even aware of it, or intentionally does not look up, avoiding your eyes… It is normal that if we don't fight or don't try, nothing really will ever happen in our life. But as in many things, in connections too, we need to remember that not everything depends only on this. On us, on our decisions or desires, on our efforts. We are not the only ones that can or need to do our part in order for something to be created or to work out. There are many other things that should be handled by others, as they work with you on it. You can't possibly do it on your own, you can't pursue them for so long, chase after them, adapt to them, try to attract their gaze. You can't have so many ideas, or plans, or patience and resources to come up with something again and again. Or at least, you can’t keep on doing it at the speed and force you used to until now, while they are still keeping this distance, this silence between your hearts… One thing is to do a step closer to someone trying to connect with them, seeing if they perhaps might feel the same spark that you felt when you met them. Another is to try to sell yourself, to force them to notice you one way or another, without any escape. They might be really blind to all that you feel and do for them. They might be not interested right away and trying to run away from you. They can be interested only in what you can do and give them if they let you close enough. They can have a heart that beats so strongly when they think about you, but at the same time have so little experience or courage to make their steps… There might be many reasons behind the distance that there is still between your hearts, but in each one of the cases doing more, pushing yourself out of your way, obsessing over them… is just not the right way. Because it can make them feel uncomfortable and scare them. Or contrary, it might lead you right away in a trap that you promised yourself you would never fall for again. It can simply consume you. It is already doing it, as you are trying to do the work of two hearts that are needed for a connection - just with your one, stressing it more and more, ignoring your inner knowledge that it is not the right way to create a bond. Give yourself some time, rest. And leave for them the space to take action. Demonstrating to you if they are really interested or not. If they want the same you do.

– If you are now in a connection, relationship or situationship...

(or if you are focusing on the connection with your own self and your own heart)

Then don’t be so fast on considering it doomed and leaving it behind… All these challenges, these differences and changes in your connection as the time passes by are not the easiest to handle, it’s true… But they also don’t necessarily mean that thing will never work out or that this person is not right for you. Trust me, you would've felt it, you would've know it in your heart, if there was something deeply wrong or dangerous in the person by your side. It wouldn't be so difficult to let them go, giving it all up. And it wouldn't feel so right and natural to hope for things to change as you work on them together one step at a time. It is just a lot of things happening at the same time, in your and theirs life. But the presence of all of this does not automatically mean that you or them are not handling it or taking care of it. You are doing both your best. And it just needs a change of perspective to make things less heavier to carry on your back. There are cases in which the other person doesn't do their part or intentionally doesn't try to change things for the better. There are those in which it is just a cruel play pretend… But not all of these situations are like that. Not always the struggles come from the meanness or ill intention of someone. Not always it is not worth the patience, commitment and time that it needs to work out… I know it is scary, it is difficult and tiring. But it is not like this because of you or them, it is not because of this connection between your hearts. It is just a phase that will pass, a lesson that will be learned, an obstacle that you'll overcome. And it will be worth it. Exactly like your heart tells you each time you overthink your faith in you, in them, in your connection and intention to fight for who is already so close and dear to your heart.

These are the interpretations that came to my mind at the moment, but obviously if your situation does not resonate with any of them and you feel comfortable to tell me more about it - you can send me again your question/ reading, and I will look into your cards from a perspective that you will give me, this time replying much sooner than the last time hahaha.♡ I really hope to hear from you and what you think of it. And in the meantime, I wish you all the best.♡

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thatfrailsoul · 2 months ago

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— A little question for you ♡

Each time the season changes, leaving the space for a new phase in my life, I love to take my time and try to have a glimpse of what the next few months will be like. And now that the winter is getting closer.... I was thinking about diving into my cards not only for myself, but for us. Seeing what the energy of this new season will be like, what we need to focus on and what is best for us to avoid, what we need to know or to remember as we go on. And perhaps, to look also at the specific areas of our life, our career, our studies, our relationships, and our connection to our own self, and how they will be like.

So... Would you be interested in this sort of pick a pile reading? And if yes, in the extended version of it, would you prefer to look at each and all areas of our life but briefly, or to dive deeper in one selected topic/ situation?

Thank you so much for letting me know! And if you have any other idea or desire for a pick a pile reading - you can send me your thoughts through the "What's on your mind..?" section on my blog.♡

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thatfrailsoul · 2 months ago

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– If you love me, then love me from the heart

tarot pick a pile reading ( → 1, 2, 3 )

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Slow down for a moment. Give your conscious mind a moment of rest, allow it to step back. Instead, listen to your subconscious mind, to that inner voice, to the intuition that is guiding you to the pile in which your message hides. A message about the love that your heart is longing for. The one that you are hoping to find…

This is our third reading from our divinatory jukebox, inspired by possibly one of the most beautiful songs that I've ever heard - "Yağmur Yağar Taş Üstüne" by Mustafa Güzel and Batuhan Fırat (feat. Belkıs Güzel). I'm so deeply grateful for the person that suggested this song and gave us the possibility not only to discover it, but also to have such a deep and tender message through this reading. It is difficult to find the correct translation for this song, but I strongly encourage you to listen and read it, as it is simply magical in the softest way. I will leave you the links that were recommended to me here, in case you would like to listen to it. And if you would like to see a pick a pile reading inspired by your favourite song, you can discover more about how to participate here↓♡!

♪♡♪ Divinatory Jukebox ♪♡♪

P.s. This is my first attempt at a longer reading, so if you feel comfortable please let me know in the comments what you think of it! If you prefer the shorter ones, if there is any aspect of the reading that makes it difficult for you to read it, or in case you will take a look at the extended version of this reading, if you would prefer to have something more specific in the additional messages of our readings - I will cherish your opinion and use it to get better with each post!♡

– Pile One,

{ The love that you are longing for }

the magician, the seven of swords, the page of coins

Love… you so often consider it just a feeling. A feeling that after all these years alive you still can really connect only to your own self. To you who seems to be the only one to feel it. To give it. While all that others do is receive it from you. Giving you back some gratitude perhaps, but never something that feels like what you gave them. Nothing that really fills in that part of you that was emptied for them… Making you really wonder if perhaps you got it wrong for all this time, if what you considered love never was it. If you imagined and expected it to be more, made it be more. Giving others much more than any person could ever give you in return, more than you ever should've done…

All that attention, that care, that genuine dedication that you put in, time after time, for every soul that was close, going out of your way to be there, right by their side for whatever might come… But still standing alone when facing your hardships, your difficult moments. Only you on the first line, out there in the cold, just you against this world… You genuinely never thought that this is what love would be. You expected something different from what you always received from others before. A complete opposite of having to do everything on your own, of that fear of what will happen to you if one day things in your life won't work anymore. You thought that it should be different from that because you know for sure that all those years of struggle alone never had even a bit of love in them, not from the people that were all that time around and close to you, but never did anything to help you, apart from telling you that this is how it works and that you should grow and take care of yourself on your own.

You alway imagined it, in those dark and painful nights, a hug, a caressing hand, a soft voice that assures you that everything will be okay, that it won't be forever this way, that you are not alone but you will always have them… So you did your best to be deserving, manifesting those tender and loving ways through your own self. Through the way you looked after others, the way you cared for them. Not only knowing that this is the right way to treat others, the way you genuinely want to be, but that it will be also worth it, that you will one day feel the love you gave, through others that will do the same… But it never came. You never saw your reflection in them, you never saw that part of your heart that you gave away being nourished and taken care of… it was always mostly just appreciated in the moment. And forgotten. Or worst, taken advantage of by expecting or asking more. So after all these tears, all the days dedicated to others instead of yourself, all your prayers for help and support, just a little comfort, that you never received because they are too busy to take a moment to give you back that love that you never declined them…. You started to think that you are in the wrong. That the love you always waited for is just a dream that the real concept of love can’t live up to. No matter how much you can look for it or want it. It is simply not something possible. And you are asking for too much.

{ What this is all for }

the judgement, the ace of swords, the lovers

This world, this life in general… has a really unique way of helping us to learn, of guiding us in or through the right direction and path, of letting us know that everything will be alright… Their language is so different from ours that we really struggle to understand it, those words that come in the form of pure feelings directly from within us. The ones that we should trust the most but never do so. Especially when it comes to love, something that we so much idealise, something that we have so much desire for.

Your heart is so sincerely tired, it went through so many betrayals and wounds inflicted by those that you tried to love. To the point that it simply feels that heaviness, that weight of this experience that you never really wanted to begin with. So you feel like you are ready for something else, for that love that you did all of this for, if it even exists at all. But are you really sure of it..? Of knowing so well the person that you would like to have by your side each day, their character, their behaviour, their values? Are you sure that you really did look for them and not just anyone who seemed to be able to love? Are you sure that you really know your worth and the one of your love, how one must love you in order to really give you all that your heart needs and wants? Or did you think that you knew it before, and now you are settling for much less than you are deserving of, because of the overwhelming loneliness and fear that it will be this way for the rest of your days unless you accept whatever one gives you in return? Are you sure that you are remaining loyal to your own self and your soul, instead of trying to “sell” it to whoever is close and good enough?

Because, even though perhaps you are not doing it consciously, but you are changing. Little by little. Not in terms of who you are, but in the ones of who you allow others to consider you. Leaving it up to them to decide how much you deserve, what is the worth of your love and care that you give them after letting them in, where only the most sincere, genuine and trustworthy should belong. You just give them your all. Every single time. Without any limit or hesitation. Not even when all that you receive is another rude phrase, some judgement, coldness and distance once they got up and healed thanks to your love. You just do it. For everyone. Not choosing carefully, but treating every soul as the right one. And not in a good sense. Instead, you are not listening anymore to your own intuition or feelings, not trusting your own mind that recognises the things that are too off. You are just rushing in this hunt for “the one” as the time passes and you feel more and more scared and alone. You are throwing yourself at every possible connection, all in, wandering each time that it goes wrong what you did too little or too much of. And not realising anymore that it is not about how you love, if it is in the right way or the wrong one… But rather who you choose, even force yourself, to love. And how they are simply not the right one, no matter how much you sacrifice of your own values and preferences, just to make them fit in the place that it is not theirs to hold.

All these bad endings, failures, mistakes that you consider yours to be responsible for… Are just a natural consequence of you settling for less than you really desire and need in order to feel loved. All that sadness, that loneliness… are only your subconscious, your own heart that you willingly ignored at first, but that after some time managed to be heard by you, letting you know that the way you are treated, the crumbs that you accept, will never truly be enough.

Those endings, those coincidences that are never in your favour, those interferences in your connections from the outside world… are just its efforts to protect you and communicate with you, trying to show you that refusing your own standards is not what can help you find them, that right person that you can truly feel safe and understood with… Adapting to another person and changing, it is not what will make them love you like you want. It will only keep you stuck in a play pretend. Put you in situations and relationships that you won’t feel appreciated and cherished in. It will consume you from inside out, slowly but surely, just because that one time you believed more others, than your own self that always knew what was best and right for you, what you really wanted to feel and who you wanted to have with you…

The time already passed, you already got through so much. You can’t do anything about it, and it is alright. But you can do yourself a favour and listen again to your own heart, before following that overwhelming fear and anxiety of being left alone in the cold and the dark. Your heart, your love, they are unique. But not at all the only ones. There is a soul, out there, that is your perfect reflection, someone who resonates so much with your ways of feeling love. And you can and will find them. The moment you stop seeing all that happened and you went through as the mistakes you made, ways that you can be better by being more or less… And start to see them as simply were and when the things didn't feel right for your heart, for who you are. Because those things that you felt the lack of, or perhaps as though it is just too much, are the ones that you need to hold onto, to look for in others. Instead of ignoring them, just so you can fit in the perfect version of love of someone and they can accept you, even though you are not theirs to love…

Although it seems so easy to do through words… We know too well that sometimes it is not enough to just choose to listen to our heart more. It is not always enough when we, in a certain way, forget its language, when we are not able anymore to comprehend it and separate it from the voice of our mind that we learned to follow… For this reason, there is an additional message for you, if you want to, in our extended version of this reading. What you need to know and remember as you continue on this journey, in this search of the right person for you, but also of the confidence and trust in your own heart, that will be the things that will change everything about the situation in which you are now.♡↓

{ a little message for you }

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– Pile Two,

{ The love that you are longing for }

the wheel of fortune, the sun, the devil

It happened so many times… So often you felt overwhelmed, completely overtaken, by the life of someone you loved… Their problems, their difficulties, their fears that became yours. Yours to resolve, yours to take care of, yours to endure, even though you never could really influence them, not the things that depended on their actions, their decisions. Not when it was something that was purely theirs to create, destroy and live… It happened so many times, truly. You felt so often the urge to be there for someone, just because you knew them, just because you saw their struggle and couldn't help but to try to save them. Because this is what everyone deserves, yes… But with those that had a special place in your heart, those that you felt so close to you, so needed as the air you breathe, there never was a chance for you to say no. Not when your heart so ardently fought for them each day, no matter if it was your battle, your victory to take or not.

One by one they took a part of your life from you, gladly accepting your love, your support and help. And leaving it all to you, to your heart and mind that never were supposed to live so many lives, go through so many situations and emotions, bear so many consequences that were coming from actions that simply weren't yours. And they took it from you. That time and energy, the courage and strength that otherwise would have gone to you, to your own healing, growth and protection. They took it all from you and, worst of all, they were able to do so thanks to you. You who gave it to them, all that you had, in the name of the love that you felt. You that not even once regretted it. Not in the moment at least…

They took so much from you, making you get used to it, to have so little, to give away so much… That now, for once, you want to find someone different. Someone who will not take advantage of your heart. Someone who will understand that, no matter how much you want and try, it is not the right thing to leave it all up to you, to handle their life… Someone who, for once, just knows more, knows better. Someone who can teach you, gently, softly, as they protect you from your own self, from your own urge to disintegrate yourself for the happiness and safety of someone else.

For once… you want to be overwhelmed by someone's joy, their hope, their desire to be here and to live this life. Their strength to choose to see the best aspects of the things. Their strength to be patient, to have faith, to believe that everything will work out in the end. For once you want to receive that strength, not to give it away. For once you want to be protected, guided, as you trust someone who doesn't expect you to lead the way out of the darkness of their days…

It might sound selfish to some, so entitled to look for someone who has it all figured out, who has better and more control of their life… But you are simply tired. And a little lost, if one can say the truth. Tired of figuring everything out constantly, keeping others above the water, as they push you down, never thinking of the air they are taking away from you. It’s not about an easier life, about receiving constant help or guidance, leaving it up to others to make the choice for you… It is about just wanting to have something that is left for your own self too. A little time, a little love, that you can give yourself without being afraid that in the meantime someone would get upset or hurt. You just want to be able to take care of yourself too, not only of those that you love, of your connections, of your situations, that seem to be destroyed each moment you are not looking after them. You just want to have someone that is by your side, living their life, instead of living yours that becomes so scarily about them, their necessities, their dreams, their worry and losses. You just want someone to learn from, or together, how to live this life in the most right and healthy, loving way. Not to teach it. While you yourself don't have any idea of how you are still here, how you made it until now every day.

{ Will you ever find someone like them }

the justice, the eight of wands, the queen of wands

This new and almost desperate desire in your heart now, might feel a lot like frustration, the last realisation of how things should've been when everything already happened, when it is too late to change them… But instead of a tragic end, it is more of a hopeful and promising beginning. The one that you are creating with your each thought, with each moment of understanding of what it is that you really want to feel, when sharing your love. The taste of it, the feeling, the emotions it can give you. With each found answer in your heart you are changing your life, much more than you expect now. Because it really is all about your choices. Your decision of who you will be accepting into your life from now on.

There is a part of you that is growing, getting stronger, preparing to be vigilant and serious about its duty: the one to protect your heart. One little thought created by the tiredness, the sadness of all that you endured… was enough to move the waves of the whole world, of the reality around you. Of who will be brought right to you, and who will be pulled back, not being the right ones. Changing your connections one step, one person at a time. Giving you back the right to decide for yourself, making you remember that you can in fact do it, you can choose the ones dear to your heart.

And it won’t be delusion, entitlement, selfishness, or any sort of limit that you will put on your heart… It will be just you, all grown up, who will now know that it is okay to not take it all on yourself, whatever and whoever comes, because of the fear of what not doing it will cause. It will be your understanding that people can and will make it through on their own, even if they are so afraid or feel incapable of facing their life right now. And it will be also your acceptance that not every story you hear is yours to live, to feel, to make sure it has a good ending. Not everyone is yours to protect and help. Not everyone has the right to come before your own self.

It might be a change that will take its time to settle in, especially in your heart that is just so full of love. Love that you didn't give yourself for so long, pouring it all in the needing hands of those by your side. But it will happen. It will feel safe and right, to allow yourself to choose how much the realities of others influence your life. And as you will go through it, as you will seek that courage and strength… It will be enough to remember that everything will be okay. Even in those moments of uncertainty, it will be enough to hold on tight to the message that we will receive, if you want to, in the extended version of this reading. A message about how you can and will change your life.♡↓

{ a little message for you }

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– Pile Three,

{ The love that you are longing for }

the ten of wands, the star, the death

It is so difficult to need to explain yourself, your actions, your urges, your reactions. It is tiring to open up your mind and your heart sharing them with others, again and again. Just for them to not understand it, to not pay the slightest of attention, to not take it seriously, all those things that are still consuming your soul… It just feels so useless to go through it, to come out of your comfort zone so hopeful that they would be that right person… only to see them walk away, who scared, who uncomfortable, who deluded or bored. Leaving you feeling like a poor seller who is unable to demonstrate the worth of your broken, lived, soul. When you don't even want to do it in the first place. When it is so ridiculous that you need constantly and so fiercely to defend or explain your wounds, as if they didn't already hurt enough.

It just consumes you. Consumes your every desire to go out there, interact and try to connect with people, creating with such dedication a relationship that - you know it too well - will just be destroyed. By your own past, your own frail soul that is too difficult for others to manage, to use or control. Too delicate to do anything with it without hurting it more.

Deep down you know that not every single person you met was truly so evil at their core. But it still hurts you like hell, being rejected, just put aside, simply because of the way you feel so strongly and deeply every detail about this world. Just because you have more depth to your feelings, more power to the emotions that simply overwhelm you, good or bad, every single bit of them that fills you whole. And that you welcome and feel completely, still remembering how cold and dark it was when there weren't any emotions in you at all.

It just would've been much easier, for once, to not have the need to defend yourself, the way you became. If for once the one in front of you focused on who you are now, and not on who you were or who you could become if only you suppress your soul. Because you changed, yes, and it might be sad to not have that spark that others adored so much about you anymore. But the you who survived still and always deserves the same admiration and love, perhaps even more, after all that you were able to endure. This you who is so different is still you. The you who gave you the strength and courage to face it all. The you who shouldn't at all be forced to explain yourself to those that can't even do one thing: just listen to you, hear you truly, at least for once.

Because it is not so difficult, in the end, to just accept someone and love them for the way they are, without any if or but. You know it well, because you always did it and always do with everyone that is close to you. But while they can be themselves, knowing that they will be truly safe with you, their every wound that will be taken care of without any judgement or expectation to receive something in return… You are always asked to be less or more. To hide your pain, to be more joyful. To not react too much to the things that hurt you. To, instead, be more understanding and patient, accepting, of the ways of others. Even though they never tolerate yours.

So you remain here, among so many of them but still feeling so lonely, so trapped, exactly like it used to feel before. You still are being hurt, even though you had so much courage in not hiding yourself, your scars. Even though you learned to have the needed strength to stand your ground when others didn't see that they were stepping on your heart… And you still hope. That one day, somewhere and someone, for once will just feel drawn to you. Not a memory of you or your potential change. Just someone who, for once, is gentle and kind in their ways. Not because you asked them to, not because they were forced by your tears… But just because they are connected enough to their own heart. Enough to recognise the painfully familiar stories behind your tired and scared eyes. Just one person, just one single time would be enough. Just one single moment in which you would feel loved and cherished the way you are, even with all those fears and doubts that everyone has always something to say about. Just one true and genuine connection. One single chance for your heart to find again the hope that you, exactly the way you are now after all your battles, not less not more, will be enough.

{ You are not in the wrong }

the page of coins, the strength, the six of cups

Finally standing up for yourself, taking your defence, pushing back those that don't make you anymore feel safe… it took a lot of courage, especially when every decision that was already hard enough was also met with judgement, with pure rage, just because for once you weren't ready to be there for someone else. But while you thought that the worst part will be this, finding the strength to prioritise yourself, the most difficult part revealed itself to be resisting the urge to take all your words back, bowing your head, surrendering to discourses of others about how you shouldn't ever do that again, and coming back to your old and consumed self, asking it to endure it once again. But this time with the full awareness of how it is wrong, to give away so much of you, remaining with so little that it is never enough to take care of your own heart and mind…

You are resisting it now with all your strength, but the single thought that they might be right, that you are indeed acting too selfishly, is already enough to shake you to your core, to fill you with the pure terror that you might be becoming one of those that hurt you, coming down to their level without realising what you've done.

But you are not. I promise you. There is nothing wrong in putting yourself first for once. There are no mistakes when you are acting from your heart, from the pure desire to protect yourself now that you are realising that it all just has been too much. You are not the villain here, even if perhaps there isn't one among them either. There is no evil in knowing what you deserve and want, and not accepting nothing less from others, even if they so perfectly mask it with words like “It is the way I love”, “This is the best for you, the best you can ever find or hope for”...

You’ve endured a lot, so much that it is truly non conceivable and admissible that someone belittles it. That someone doesn't give it the importance and incredibly powerful and heart wrenching meaning that you surviving all of that holds. Don't stop for them, for their fears that you will change. Because it has already happened, in the good and in the bad. And if someone can't accept and respect the new you, if they, even in the name of their love, can't accept you… then it is okay. There will be someone else. Someone else who will meet you, get to know you, and learn to appreciate and cherish you for the way you are now, not a memory of who you were.

It might be sad to let go of some people, to lose some connections. It might be frustrating to see their absolute conviction that you are the one in the wrong… But you are tired now, you feel weak after needing to fight against them again and again just to protect yourself… so don't waste your last remaining energy on them, on proving them wrong when they already ended this story as it is more convenient for them in their head. Let them go. Let them be. Not to allow them to think that they are right. But for your own self and to give you that space and time to rest and recover, to take care of yourself.

This world is vast, there are so many of us. Remaining now for a moment alone… doesn't at all condemn you to have all the days of your life lonely and cold. It is just a phase, just a precious moment that will sign a new step in your growth, in how much you consider your own worth and protect yourself at all costs. People come and go. Some are good and some are not. But you are unique, you are the only one you have, the most important person that you need to love and take care of. Even if it means to not accept the love of others, simply because it is so different from what you are longing for. Even if it means to reject the company that you so much want, because they never offer it genuinely but only when it is so convenient and needed for them.

Times will change, you'll start new journeys, go through different paths that will align with others, new and completely different persons. And you'll create new connections, better ones. Better because of the ways and motives of those that will come closer. Better because you will be much more rested, healed and confident after this focus on yourself and this pause. Better because there won't be any play pretend, endurance or feelings that will be ignored. It will be better. Simply because you will learn from your mistakes, you will grow. And so will those that you will let go of, but not at your own expense and endurance of the way your heart hurts for them. Because they might not realise it now, they might be so convinced that you are the one hurting them… but you are making the best decision not only for your own self, but even for them. You are giving all of you a new chance. A chance that you for sure will take and use it to nourish a new beginning in your life, new connections that will love you, cherish you, protect you at all costs. Exactly like it should be between truly loving souls.

And if it feels still a little too overwhelming, a little too scary and unsure, the decision to put yourself first… There is a little message about the future, at what it holds, in our extended version of this reading, right here, if you want or feel the need to hear more.♡↓

{ a little message for you }

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thatfrailsoul · 3 months ago

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– Hi lovely souls ♡

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

I've been a little bit busy these days with work, but soon I will be able to post a new pick a pile reading from our divination box (with some deeper dive ins through the extended version)!

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I hope that you are all safe.♡ Please always remember to eat well and drink enough water, and take some time off just for yourself. You deserve that moment of rest. ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

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thatfrailsoul · 3 months ago

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Some little changes in our divination jukebox!♡

– Divination Jukebox ♪♡♪

readings inspired by your songs

pictures → pinterest : one, two, three

They say that when a song decides to stay in our mind for so long that its words start to replace our thoughts, its rhythm starts to guide our heart... Then there is a reason to it. Something deeper than just a song stuck in our mind. A message, perhaps an answer or a sign, that is trying to reach us through one of the easiest ways in which our attention can be caught. From the Universe, our guides, our own higher self and soul - it reaches us in hopes that we slow down for a moment and try to understand the meaning behind those rhymes.

| How it works |

– How you can send me your suggestion?

I'm accepting your song suggestions through the "What's on your mind..?" option on my blog.

– What you can or need to mention when sending your suggestion?

In your suggestion you can put any song that is currently on repeat in your mind, the one you feel almost scarily often the need to listen to, or simply one of your favourite ones. It doesn't matter the genre of the song, its year or artist. If it's on your mind than it is important enough.

When suggesting your song you will need to mention that it is for the Divination Jukebox, the title and the artist of the song. (In case you think that the song is perhaps very niche and that it can be difficult for me to find it, you can also add the Spotify or YouTube link to it, and the link for the translation of the song if it's not in english.)

And if you want to, you can also let me know the specific part of the song that you are more addicted to right now, that you like the most, feel more connected to, or that you repeat more often in this period of your life.

– How exactly your song will "inspire" a reading?

Based on the text of the song and the story that it narrates, I will create related questions, the answers to which I will look for in my cards, diving as deeper as possible in that topic or situation.

– How will it be decided which suggestions will be used for the pick a pile readings?

I will do a pick a pile reading for every suggestion that I will receive. Even if it is a song that we already did a reading for. Simply because our lives are different and ever changing, and so are the ways we listen and perceive a song, and the message that it gives us.

– Will you know if your suggested song made it into the Jukebox?

Yes. Once I will arrive to your suggested song starting to prepare a reading for it, I will answer your request through a post by letting you know that it will be used for our next pick a pile reading. (Please note that I will answer you only through the post to your suggested song, and not in dms - I will accept and consider only the suggestions sent through the "What's on your mind..?" section on my profile.)

– How long will it take me to post the readings?

I receive a lot of requests every day, so reading for all of them takes a lot of time and energy. And most importantly, I do it as something that I simply and truly enjoy, and not an obligation. For this reason, while still going through every request I will ever receive, I will do so at my own pace. Without any pressure or limitation. And for this reason I ask you to remember to be kind, respectful and patient towards me, others and yourself as well. As this is just a fun way for us to understand better ourselves, our lives and our reality through divination.

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{ ♡ songs done so far ♡ }

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Open your playlist, grab your favourite drink, and let's see what message is trying to reach us through the songs we hear.♡

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thatfrailsoul · 3 months ago

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{♡}

– On a day I've found me

tarot pick a pile reading ( → 1, 2, 3 )

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

Even in the darkest and loneliest days of our life... There is still something within us. Something that we don't feel so much, don't remember or perhaps don't even know to have within ourselves... But that is still so powerful. Enough to gently push and guide us through every obstacle, through every challenge, through every painful or confusing step. There is something within us that is worth it. That makes it worth it to believe in ourselves, to survive, to still be here and to be alive. Our own treasure, our own and true core where is hidden all the magic of our soul. Are we aware of it or not.

This is our second reading from the Divination Jukebox inspired by the song "A Brand New Day", by BTS ( V and J-Hope) and Zara Larsson!(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) Like with the first reading (that you can find here ♡), this one too was guided by my cards that "set the tone", giving me advice on how to listen to this song, from which perspective, and what it wants to tell us in this period of our lives.

P.s. If you would like to see a reading inspired by your suggested song, you can learn more about how to partecipate here!♡↓

♪♡♪ Divination Jukebox ♪♡♪

Slow down for a moment. Give your conscious mind a moment of rest, allow it to step back. And listen to your subconscious mind, to that inner voice, to the intuition that is guiding you to the pile in which your message hides.

P.s. I was considering doing some extended versions of our readings, a sort of add-on through which we will look even deeper and in more detail at the situation. A lot of you gave me your support on this, so I wanted to ask you more about what might be comfortable for you in case of purchasing one day an extended reading!♡ For example, would you prefer to have access to only one pile of your choice (and in case you were called to more than one pile in the original reading you would need too pay again for another one) or to receive all of them at once and with a single purchase?

Thank you for letting me know!♡

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– Pile One,

the five of wands, the hierophant, the temperance, the six of cups

When the voices get louder, when the words become meaner, the truth is overtaken by the lies... When you stand alone on the first line, protecting with your own back the ones that are being pressured or judged... There is that one little flame, that ignites inside you. That pushes you forward, chest full and eyes on the target. Ready to fight if it is needed, ready to raise your own voice if they don't hear the one of their chosen victim.

Impulsiveness, bad temper, tendency to not mind your own business, somehow even selfishness and desire to make it all about yourself... It can be labelled in so many ways by those for which it is so inconvenient that you are not afraid of them. For those that know too well that one day or another, that same power can be used to protect you from their influence and "guidance". Because although they really do everything to convince you of it, this power and this need to speak up does not come from something bad, from indiscipline or ungratefulness for those that are trying to guide you by so lovingly cutting out what makes you different from what they want or are used to... It actually comes from the deep and profound love. Your love towards your own self, towards what makes you - you. A love that, after so many years of judgment and punishments... you just can't bring yourself so easily to use. And that has as the only way of manifesting - the protection of others that are being treated so painfully similarly to you. That are being silenced and limited by the dreams, desires, and plans of others. And that your subconscious, so beaten up and tired by how many times it has happened in your own life, just can't look at without doing nothing, without trying to save at least others, while you remain to suffer in a life that has nothing of what you like.

Bad intentions, manipulation, desire to keep you the way it is more convenient to them, or just a genuine and scarier conviction and trust in what they do or say... Those around you always had something to say about your behaviour, about your difficulty in following the rules, in respecting the limits, in "trusting" and accepting as yours the decisions or opinions of others... Every time you made a step in a sliglthy different direction, that path was fast destroyed right in front of your eyes. The pain, mistakes or struggles of others so easily used to scare you, to push you back in line. There was never a chance to think differently, to desire things or to realize them in your life without feeling guilty, like you are doing something that you shouldn't, like your one little desire of something else can really crush the whole world in front of their eyes... But those words and hysteria never came alone. They were always so well glazed with concepts like love, wanting the best for you, caring for you and for your life. And tiny bit after another, it simply grew on you. On you that were too tired to fight back every single time just to feel like the one attacking others, the one that is ruining your or their lives...

You became more silent and more docile, more in line with what they wanted or needed. A perfect vessel for all their goals and dreams... And it gave you only a life that is miserable. So peaceful at first sight, but so meaningless for your own heart. A life that you are not really living, but merely following based on their rules. While your mind so desperately tries to live its dreams through others, through their battles, through their creations that you so greedily and secretly consume.

But was it really worth it? Now that you are gorwing up, facing this new phase in your life all on your own... Does it seems like it was worth it? Does it really seem like the perfect end? For your heart it surely doesn't. Not for the one that you are feeling less and less, becoming numb to this life that you are not ready or capable to face. Not for a heart that is so confused and lost, but also so fearful and trembling every single time the ones of the past speak up, with their guidance and advices that are really only judgment and hurtful words...

You relied for so long on your mind that was so good at shutting everything down and following their commands, but now it is really time to switch things up. To give the control to your heart, and let your consumed mind rest, as you take a step back and begin from the very start. From when you were too little and too loving to go against those by your side. From when you asked yourself to not speak up for the first time.

Because as impossible or too late as it might seem, but there is still time and possibilities for you to make things really work in your life. You can still pursue your desires and those passions that you threw away in the past. You can still begin from scratch, try again those things in which you failed but doing them differently, as you think it would be better now. Or you can choose completely different paths. You can do what you wanted and they never considered worth it. You can try and even make mistakes, but also learn from them and at least have your own and true experience. You can live like you always were supposed to, and not like they programmed you to. You can do it, even if they will still judge you. Even if they will still scream at you or ignore you. You can do it because all this time that you followed their guidance and remained silent, there was still and always a part of you that felt that anger, that frustration, that need to scream at them back. And the fact that you still felt it, that you still feel it now... Is all that you need to know that you are alive. That those passions, and dreams, and what makes you unique, no matter if you know what is it or still need to discover it, they are still all here. They never had been destroyed like you thought, they were just asleep, awaiting the moment you will feel ready to speak. To speak you truth, your own opinions. To be louder than their lies or impositions. To protect yourself so courageously, like you always did with others. To not allow your fear of them, or of the loneliness that they so often promise, to silence you ever again. Because their words will only and ever be just that. They aren't prophecies or accurate predictions of your life. They are just their convictions. And you have now yours. And it is time to speak them up as fiercely as they always did. With the difference that you will never use your voice to hurt and control others, projecting and imposing your convictions on them... But you will only protect yourself and pretend the respect that you deserve. The space and liberty to live the life that you want.

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

– Pile Two,

the chariot, the lovers, the strength, the wheel of fortune (all major arcanas!♡)

They feel so heavy. Those steps that you need to do every single day in order to survive. In order to have a chance to overcome these obstacles. In order to have even just the tiniest bit of progress... Your legs feel so damn heavy. There is simply too much pressure, too many fears and doubts weighing on them. And at each step... You really do need the help of others. Their guidance, a little advice, support or just some confirmation that you are going in the right direction, that you will be alright.

They say that as we grow we become more wise, more confident. But you seem to have everything but courage in your heart. The same one that, ironically, used to be so brave and beautifully impulsive in the past. The ones that often lead to mistakes, all those passions and drive, it's true. But for which you still would give so much, just to feel even just a little now, because you would exactly know where to direct them, into what to pour them, where they could help you so much right now.

Because it is not at all easy to feel so vulnerable, so lost and scared. It is not easy to need someone to rely on. To look for them constantly, never really having time to focus the same way on your own self. To feel just more consumed, when the one you found influenced you so much but left alone too soon. In paths that you know nothing about and followed just in search of them. With decisions that you can't even remember how you made, perhaps so blindly trusting the opinion or advice of someone that was by your side back then...

It is frustrating. Truly. To feel the life you are living, creating, working so hard on every single day... Just not right, just not yours. So many things constrating you and your visions. So many rhythms and routines that are different from yours. All around you. So many. That it seems impossible to find a way out of this and something that would truly resonate with you for more than just a phase... If you will even ever be able to understand what is it that your heart wants in the first place.

But... The same way as with your life decisions, you are so quick to trust others with their convictions and descriptions of who and how you are too. You so quickly trust their words and vision of you, embodying it so perfectly that it really does feel true. That you are too volatile, too impulsive, too indecisive. That you know too little your own self. That you don't have your own mind or identity, and feel someone only once you become the copy of others and their soul. No ideas, no desires, no passions. Not even one focus, center, of your life that is not someone that you feel so much love and admiration for. You really do believe all of this about yourself. You really, so naively and even sweetly think that others see your core and true self so well... That you don't realize that all that they consider a lack of something, it is what makes you truly whole.

The liberty to change, to feel and experience so many things. The openness of the mind to look at life from different perspectives, of learning everyday new things about this world... We all have it when we are younger. And no one ever considers it as being weak or inconsistent - we know that it is the most important part of our growth. But so many grow, find the safest spot, and settle in so fastly, forgetting everything, even the fact that they themselves can be more, can bloom more... Not you though. Not when you are so versatile, so open, so genuine, so ready to be inspired by this life. No matter if it is through a story, an idea, a feeling, or someone... You are still learning more, you are still becoming more.

Or at least you could if only you didn't bring your own self down so harshly and so often, following the flow of your inspiration only halfway through, convinced that the powerful enthusiasm, the curiosity and passions that you felt weren't truly yours...

The opinions and expectations of people are really strict and specific nowadays, it is true... But only because someone out there, or even close to you, has them, doesn't mean that you need to slow down and force yourself to settle too. It is too soon for you. You have still so many things to do and feel. So many things to see and explore. You are still a child at heart. So innocent, so easily amazed and in love with all that this world has to offer to your soul. So why should you denigrate and change this part of yourself? Why you should judge or be ashamed of something that, if you saw it in someone else, would have filled you with joy, admiration and love? Why you shouldn't love it and embrace it like those that you envy do with their own souls? Why you should do it for others, when being yourself will never hurt no-one?

It never was infatuation, lack of character and discipline or recklessness. It only was your excitement for people and their ideas, so different from yours, so worthy of being tried and felt on your own skin, learned with your own mind and felt with your whole heart, so you can understand them better and connect with them more. It was just your desire to wander, to explore, to bloom more and more with all the colours of this world. It never was you being doomed. But only you being one of the most free souls.

Your mind will change. Your desires. Your passions. Your pace and the direction you'll be guided to take. And that's okay. You will never be stuck or too close to a trap. You never will be lost, as long as you will embrace the power of your soul to hear the many callings of this world.

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

– Pile Three,

the three of wands, the page of pentacles, the two of cups, the world

It is so rare to be able to truly see this world, its negative parts but also the hopeful ones. It is rare to have your eyes that can so easily recognise something that is worthy of appreciation, something that we can and need to be grateful for. Your gaze wanders further, it is not focused only on what is here and now, right by your side... But it foresees so many ways, options, possibilities of how things can become better, allowing you to have something that no one else has. Your faith and hope.

It is not just being too positive, hopeful or delusional. It is not stupid to notice precious details and signs in things that others are so fast to label as the worst in their life. It is a different form of courage and strength. To be able to recognise the difficulties and challenges, but at the same time still respect them for all that they give you, for who they help you to become.

But the suffering voices of others are too hard to ignore, aren't they? It is difficult to feel truly grateful and hopeful when so many by your side are crushed under the pressure of their fears and struggles. Your gaze that never focused just on you can't start doing it now, only for the sake of your own peaceful mind... You can't walk past them, or ignore them every time they pour out their soul to you. They are your family, your loved ones. People that you would like so much to share with your strength and patience for this world.

So you do it. You are doing it already for quite some time. You are your own supporter and guide, that always reminds you of how things can and will become better if you just hold on tight. And you are the strength and hope of others. Always ready to listen to them, to help them let it all out. But also capable of finding in their stories and situations something good, something little but still worthy of keeping on going. Kind words. Positive affirmations. Loving support. Readiness to be there no matter what. You do so much for others, you give them so much guidance and love in hopes that one day they can finally see and feel for themselves that hope and faith for a best life... But it helps them so little, it seems so feeble compared to their strong convictions of how it never will be better, of how there is nothing here to be grateful for, of how believing in something different is for the delusional and weak ones.. And it hurts you. It hurts you deeply. That not only you seem the only one to at least try to enjoy this life a little.... But that it is also considered so wrong, for whatever reason, to not focus for once only on the worst. It is hurting you so so deeply, to the point that you are starting to feel for the first time that your enthusiasm is becoming more silent, your sureness more fragile. You are starting to feel so much like they feel. More hopeless, less convinced, less motivated to do anything. Because perhaps if so many say so... Then it really is so bad, so different from what your heart and mind wanted to believe...

Or perhaps it is just a moment in which the voices of others are a little more heavy, enough to pressure you into believing that the life is really only this. Perhaps it is only you that became a little tired, after spending so much time and energy on others, on helping them out. Perhaps it is only your mind that focused for so long on others and their lives, stopping to look for good things in yours, not warming it anymore with your joy and hope, and letting it become more dark and cold.

Life or this world didn't change, in the grand scheme of things. It's not like in this period everything indeed became much worse and horrendous, erasing every beautiful and worthy thing. And it's not like they were always right in their overwhelming negativity and convictions, and you are the one to only now open your eyes and see it all... Everything remained still balanced as it was, the bad and good stuff, the pain and love, the struggle and the epiphany of freedom and safety that is so dear to our souls. But after spending so much time in their minds and lives... You just became used to their ways to feel and see this world, starting to do the same, judging your more hopeful side exactly like they always did to you before.

But you still are this way. You will always be. You will still and always have that light in you, that love and gratefulness for the things. You just need to reconnect with them. Nourish them a little more now, so they can light up once again and warm your heart.

And to do this there is no need to pick sides, isolate yourself or say goodbye to those that not feel this life the same way as you do. You can still cherish your connections, you can still try to lift them up and give them that strength that they need so much. You can still try to teach them, and you can still love them... Just remember, at the same time, to love yourself a little more. Your own ways, your own perceptions and opinions. Your own needs to be hopeful about this world and what the future holds. Just remember to listen to your own self, before anyone else, your own convictions. Cherish them and trust them more than the ones of other people. Because it is truly a power of yours, to feel so connected to the ways of this world. It is indeed something that will save and help you, now and forever. It will always give you the needed strength or guidance to go through the hardships, it will always show you the right path when you will feel stuck or lost. Just remember to nourish it first. Before fighting or protecting so fiercely the ways of others... Remember to nourish and embrace the ones that are yours. So you can share your light, your love and strength with others, but without consuming or destroying it in the process, leaving your own self alone and in the cold.

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

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thatfrailsoul · 3 months ago

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– On a day I've found me

tarot pick a pile reading ( → 1, 2, 3 )

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

We have still two readings available, so if you would like to see a reading inspired by your suggested song, you can learn more about how to partecipate here!♡↓

♪♡♪ Divination Jukebox ♪♡♪

Thank you for letting me know!♡

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– Pile One,

the five of wands, the hierophant, the temperance, the six of cups

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

– Pile Two,

the chariot, the lovers, the strength, the wheel of fortune (all major arcanas!♡)

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

– Pile Three,

the three of wands, the page of pentacles, the two of cups, the world

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

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thatfrailsoul · 3 months ago

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– On a day I've found me

tarot pick a pile reading ( → 1, 2, 3 )

pictures from pinterest → one, two, three

This is our second reading from the Divinatory Jukebox inspired by the song "A Brand New Day", by BTS ( V and J-Hope) and Zara Larsson!(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) Like with the first reading (that you can find here ♡), this one too was guided by my cards that "set the tone", giving me advice on how to listen to this song, from which perspective, and what it wants to tell us in this period of our lives.

P.s. If you would like to see a reading inspired by your suggested song, you can learn more about how to partecipate here!♡↓

♪♡♪ Divinatory Jukebox ♪♡♪

Thank you for letting me know!♡

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– Pile One,

the five of wands, the hierophant, the temperance, the six of cups

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

– Pile Two,

the chariot, the lovers, the strength, the wheel of fortune (all major arcanas!♡)

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

– Pile Three,

the three of wands, the page of pentacles, the two of cups, the world

♡ { free guidance | a little thank you } ♡

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