#I know a lot of people are struggling right now

[writing-with-olive]

Ya wanna know what else is scary? As someone who has used it a few times (no I'm not proud of it, but it *is* relevant), the speed at which it undercuts critical thinking skills is insane. For context, by pretty much every metric I've been measured against, I am quite smart. I pick up information very quickly and academia is one of my strengths.

The times I used chatGPT related to when I was trying to tease apart the nuances between two similar concepts, or the way a particular concept appeared in a new-to-me example. It was fantastic because I could plug in the particular iterations I was struggling with and boom! answer! It only took a few uses of that, and I mean well under ten, before I no longer wanted to look at examples in more reputable sources, because that would require trying to find the parallels between those and my own examples, and do the thinking for myself. If I plugged it in to chatGPT, it would find the parallels for me, custom to my question. Now mind you, when I mention academia is one of my strengths, I mean I'm also horrified by the idea of losing that, so when I realized just how quickly I was ready to outsource my thinking, I kicked chatGPT to the curb. It was a pretty visceral "eugh I hate this!" kind of response. Notably, that's not something that everyone has, because not everyone will be bothered by letting something else do their thinking for them.

What was so frightening to me was the fact that I *do* have the skills to do my own research, and make connections, and critically think. It wasn't like the task was anywhere approaching insurmountable without assistance. It was just annoying to do. I just drawn in by the convenience. If people don't.... they have no reason to learn. None. ChatGPT makes that skill irrelevant in a lot of everyday life. Which is great all the way up until it means that people can't read between the lines, understand implications, make connections, or draw inspiration or information from varied sources. You know. Skills that help make information stick in the long term so that you don't have to be dependent on outside sources so much. Skills that are absolutely critical when it comes to standing up to the blatant scraping away of human rights.

When people say that ChatGPT outsources literal thought, it's the truth. And it's a problem.

ur future nurse is using chapgpt to glide thru school u better take care of urself

[dajo42]

If you want to kill yourself so badly just do it; you fucking coward. I'm serious, I think you should. All I see on your blog is e-begging and godawful cringe art that looks like something a kindergartener threw up after eating too many crayons. 'Autistic' and 'trans woman' in the same bio is redundant, and so is your contribution to society. Stop pretending to be a woman, stop pretending to be worth a damn, either get a life or end it.

you are such an interesting weird little embarrassing creature because why did you use a semicolon there. thats not where a semicolon goes. "you fucking coward" is not an independent clause lmao.

anyway youre weird. lmao like. shut up lol why are you so obsessed with me but so ableist and transphobic. if i kill myself are you gonna get another tenant to live in your head rent free or will you just board up the place because your head is full of mould and you drank too much landlord white paint

anyways im not gonna kms because YOU told me to lmao if i kms its gonna be because the worlds on fire but yknow. gonna try my best not to.

im also gonna drop my paypal and kofi here AGAIN for FUNSIES and SPITE :3 seeing as thats all i have to do to make such a piece of human garbage angry why wouldnt i!!!

but maybe im gonna go a liiiiiiiiiittle bit further with the retribution today. maybe just being spiteful isnt enough. lemme tell you a lil story my hateful little venomous tadpole

several people have said at this point that whoever is sending me anon hate whenever i make a donations post has to be the same person. which is very interesting because in fact they are correct!! i have enough information now to confirm objectively yes they were right!!!!

so like you say im not worth a damn?? thats crazy because you have spent a LOT of time thinking about me. i know, objectively, youre the same person sending me other rude messages because using technology™ i can literally see your ip address and where you navigated to my blog from and you came to my blog DIRECTLY lmao

you have, on multiple occasions, typed dajo42.tumblr.com into your fucking browser and navigated directly to me to send me some anon hate that has only escalated in severity as weeks have gone by

but not the first time!! the first time you came to my blog from a totally innocent post i made about a pokemon npc who likes trains. this, somehow, filled you with enough vitriol at my existence to send me endless, endless anon hate, regularly. you come back r e g u l a r l y.

so based on all your messages you hate me for being autistic, for being trans, for asking for donations when im struggling, for drawing cute things, for asking for wishlist items for funsies,,,,,,, and youve decided to escalate that to the point of telling me to kill myself when im having a depressive episode??????

so i was gonna ask if theres anything you DONT hate but i cant do that,, because i know theres one thing i made you do enjoy. its another thing i know about you for sure because sometimes just clicking anonymous on these messages isnt gonna fully ensure your anonymity. because i happen to know from the aforementioned list of times you have visited my blog that during one of your visits you viewed a specific post on my blog and,,, liked and reblogged it,,,,,,,,, and yknow, looking through the blogs of the people in the notes on that post, theres only one person who talks with so much hate like you do, acts like you do, and posted recently about the college they attend, which, to the shock of nobody, is in the specific region of the united states of america that your ip address is in

and fuck like, wouldnt it be so funny if you also had your first name and a selfie on your blog and i could just straight up send an email full of fun screenshots to the college you attend who i have to imagine wouldnt be altogether thrilled to know one of their students is actively harassing people online and telling them to kill themselves

wouldnt that be so funny Liam?

:3

anyways,, to piss you off yet again,,,,,,,, if you like supporting disabled autistic trans women online you can via paypal and kofi if you can and want to help me be able to afford food and meds or if your name is liam and you go to salt lake community college and want to make it up to me for being so nasty. go bruins

[hedwig221b]

Hey wiggly hed, perchance does anyone know of fics where Stiles has sleeping issues? Such as insomnia because we know he does but I'd also love more with him sleepwalking, talking, and just fics where Derek is like struggling to or having to make a point to take precautions so his baby doesn't walk right out the door or he has full on conversations with a babbling asleep Stiles because of course Stiles doesn't even shut up in his sleep.

Hellooo! Tried to feature a few fics for every trope, here's what I got

Say Something

That first time Stiles decided it was probably wise to let sleeping werewolves lie.

Step into the daylight (and let it go) by dearericbittle (dutchmoxie)

Stiles is a grad student with serious insomnia. So when he sees a stranger in need of help, he thinks it’ll be a good way to alleviate the boredom. How the hell was he supposed to know that the weird guy with the baseball cap was a famous actor (and a fucking werewolf)? He just keeps running into the guy. Coincidence? Stiles thinks not.

Yes To Heaven

Stiles ruined him. The damage was irreparable. He didn’t want the food that wasn’t made by Stiles or shared with him; the water tasted stale; the clothes were asphyxiating and scratchy; the air was wrong, wrong without Stiles’ scent in it. Fuck, what was wrong with him? How could that pretty little thing change him so much? He had an iron grip on his control before, being in tandem with his instincts, but within weeks, all of it was gone. As soon as he thought of Stiles, though, of his scent, his moans, and the little wrinkle on his forehead as he orgasmed, his mind settled. What was life before Stiles? Everything was somewhere far, far away, forgotten, bleak, and meaningless. Derek thought he knew what light was as he looked at the microscopic dots of the stars above. Then Stiles came into his life and showed him the sun.

falling for the weirdo by wazzzup

Basically, I felt that Stiles' ADHD was used as a source for jokes and I wanted a fanfic that was a more accurate representation of a neurodivergent person. (written by someone with ADHD as well as a few other disorders) Story: Derek stays with Stiles when the alpha pack is in town to protect the pack human, but also because he thinks Stiles is lying to them about something cause the teen acts super distant around them. Stiles is freaking out because he's going to be living with Derek and be around the man all the time and can't mask his 'weird' behaviors and many disorders that he's managed to keep secret from the pack.

Little Devil Inside by sarahhhelpme

Even now, the Nogitsune feels like a part of him. It left behind something dark and twisted and angry. He is not the same person he was before.

One Hundred Miles an Hour in Reverse by suburbanmotel

Stiles understands that leaving is hard. He understands because Stiles always understands. Leaving is hard, got it. Check. But late at night, alone in the dark in the quiet with the shadows, alone with his thoughts and his shallow, slightly panicked breathing, he also understands that it’s always harder for the people left behind. -- Five years after everything, after everyone is gone, Stiles remains, because someone has to, right? He’s become good at staying, at being ok with staying, because he’s good at what he does and so many people need him here. So, he’s stayed and he does what he’s always done best: he figures things out. He figures things out and he makes lists, lists of spells, lists of magical herbs, lists of people who have left. He also makes lists about himself. Stiles is: the fixer, the writer, the librarian, the keeper of words and memories in Beacon Hills. He’s a healer, a helper and he remembers. He remembers everything.

Sleeping Next To You Is Like Magic by LadyDrace

Stiles and Derek meet the summer before senior year. Stiles can't sleep, Derek helps with that, and there's a lot less cuddling and a lot more emotional crises than you'd think. Or: Stiles' feelings happen so much, and learning how to deal with them takes him a little while. Good thing Derek is happy to wait.

Cosomination by zoemathemata

For Fictional Force/Hoktauri who prompted “pining! Derek/oblivious! Stiles, graduation day” Cosominate - To sleep together in the same bed or similar space. Five Times Derek and Stiles Sleep Together - 4 platonic bed shares and one not-platonic bed share! Features Pining! Derek, Oblivious!Stiles and a very tense moment where Sheriff Stilinski has been hurt! But it all turns out okay.

I won't sleep if you won't sleep by dragon_temeraire

After the nogitsune, Stiles is unable to sleep. To help, he has a spell cast on him that will link him with Derek.

The Taste You Leave Behind in My Mouth by monopolizeme

Derek looks over at Stiles, who hasn't moved from the bottom step. He’s watching Derek and Scott, shadows wane and ugly beneath dull eyes that no longer shine as they used to when looking at Derek - out of irritation or goading or open honesty - and Derek doesn't quite know what to do. Because he almost expected Stiles to be the one up here on the wooden porch with him, maybe punching at his arm and grinning because although they hadn't really spoken about what they were, Derek thought, he thought that out of everyone in Beacon Hills, that Stiles would be the one to show any emotion at having him back.

My, What Big Shoulders You Have (The Better to Help You Carry the Weight) by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella)

"Talia was just telling me an interesting story,” his dad informed him. Stiles didn’t have the nerve to glance over at him, because he knew no matter how much he argued, the proof was all there. The wolves had found him, Parrish had picked him up on the side of the road, he had a fucking picture on his phone. He was screwed. No point in arguing, all it’d do is piss his father off even more. “You don’t say,” Stiles offered slowly. “What uh—you know, I like stories. Is it a uh, good one?” “It seems to be a matter of opinion,” Talia said with another kind smile. “I hear you had quite the night last night.” Okay, time to cut his losses. He was already fucked, all he could do was apologize and hope she didn’t press for him to get fined and arrested. Given he was her husband’s friend’s son, he had high hopes. “I’m really sorry,” Stiles blurted out. “It was stupid and-and irresponsible and just—I am so sorry. I shouldn’t have crossed into your territory. I should’ve known better, I do know better! It was a complete lapse in judgement and I am just—I am so sorry.”

between the click of the light and the start of the dream by thepsychicclam

A twig snaps, and then Stiles hears breathing and the rustle of leaves. He strains to get a better glimpse into the darkness, but it’s pointless. There’s nothing but a black void. It's Stiles' senior year, and he's trying to concentrate on normal things - like the lacrosse championship, spring break, prom, graduation (and definitely not Derek) - when he starts having nightmares and waking up in the middle of nowhere. Oh yeah, and he's being haunted by a hag. Great.

The Price we Pay by Gia279

Twelve years after inadvertently stopping Kate Argent from burning the Hale pack alive, Stiles is sleepwalking again, dragged unwillingly to witness horrible accidents, floods, house fires, and other disasters. He wakes, confused and blindfolded, at the incidents with power rising sharp and exhilarating in his chest, and he doesn't know how to stop it. Is he the one causing these horrible things or is he just there to witness them? Derek has been curious about the magic that saved him and his pack for years, and when Stiles's powers manifest again, he's determined to figure it out. With the whole of Beacon Hills being thrown into chaos and Stiles, apparently, just on the edge of that chaos, Derek finds himself being drawn to fix it all and keep Stiles out of the danger that keeps calling to him.

Between Sleeping and Awake by bloodwrites

Derek witnesses Stiles talking in his sleep, and it gives him the impetus to act on thoughts he's been having for months.

you need to hear it in Latin? by fairydustedtheory

Stiles talks in his sleep and Derek needs to know what he's saying.

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[bihexualandferal]

man, it sucks when you find a new artist/blog that you really like and then you find out who they really are when they post stuff like this. sad :(

Y’know Persimmon, I have family living in a wartorn country too (Venezuela) that nobody seems to know of/care about, and you don’t see me yelling and swearing at people about it. People don’t make those posts about caring for yourself despite horrible things happening around the globe because they’re apathetic to the plight of others. It’s not about racism, either. Idk why you’re choosing to make this into an issue about race when that has nothing to do with it. Plenty of people still post about Palestine all the time. Plenty of people in this site are POC and have families in or around the war zone who are suffering, just like you and your family. Even others who are white (or at least not Middle Eastern) and have no stake in this issue still care, like I do, because nobody should have to suffer the way Palestinians are suffering right now. I promise people of all kinds care, even if it doesn’t seem like it.

The real issue here is: it’s simply impossible to care about every single bad thing going on around the globe all the time. Ever heard of empathy fatigue? Even reading all the horrible headlines without looking at harrowing footage takes a toll on people’s mental health. If you can’t do much to change the outcome, forcing yourself to keep up with all the bad things in the world is exhausting and unhelpful/useless.

It also has to do with how much direct action people can take to fix the issue. A lot of people on this site live in the UK, so they are able to enact some change by voting and such. But not many people here have the power to change what is happening in Palestine except by donating or spreading the word (and a lot of us are too poor to donate). If we could fix it, we would. But that isn’t possible. So all we can do is take care of ourselves as we try to help in whatever small way we can. And it isn’t a bad thing to be a bit “selfish” and focus on caring for your own mental health before anything else. I think you could use a bit more of that self-care yourself tbh.

The point is, you’re attacking the wrong enemy. Obviously, racism exists online and offline, and it is easier for people to care about things that directly impact/relate to them, I won’t deny that. But those people making “take care of yourself” posts in regards to not doom scrolling on certain global issues are not being racist. That’s absurd. Other people care about the issues and people suffering from them that you care about, regardless of their race, even if you can’t see it.

I understand why you’re upset. I would be too if I were you. And again, I understand your and your family’s struggle. I have family in Venezuela who are starving and living in constantly fear under Maduro’s regime. They often do not have access to basic food, water, electricity, and medicine. They are afraid to walk to school or work for fear of being killed in the streets and people looting the clothes and groceries off their bodies. They are afraid to say anything negative about the government, because they could be listening and reading their calls and messages, and if they are caught, they would be kidnapped and tortured to death. And my mother and I cannot even save them because we live in the USA, and under our current hostile and xenophobic administration, they will likely be sent off to a concentration camp in El Salvador if they try to immigrate here.

I never see any posts raising awareness or charity money for Venezuelans. And of course that makes me sad and angry. But this is based on a lack of information and not necessarily racism. I know if others knew about this problem, they would care. And so I talk to them about it, honestly, factually, and without judgement. And I also understand people’s need to back away from the issues for a little bit and care for their own mental health. Whereas making condescending posts and lashing out at people who also have valid points (even if they misunderstood the meaning of your post) is not helping anyone nor accomplishing anything. It just makes you look like an asshole. I hope you reflect on this and act appropriately in the future, because this kind of behavior is very disheartening to see. I truly admire your artwork and have empathy for you and your family’s struggles (immediate and extended).

Wow it's crazy that no one is making any cloying "you deserve to not give a shit about the world ♡ take care of yourself ♡ you deserve to be happy ♡" selfish posts about the callous treatment trans people are receiving in the UK, it's almost like apathy is a doom reserved only for the people being genocided in the global south! Yes both things are bad yes it's obvious that many many white liberals are also white queer people who are often racially and culturally biased and do not have reserves of compassion for oppression they personally cannot identify with! "Me! Me Me me me me!!!!!!"! That's all I hear so often.

This isn't about my trans siblings in the UK, they have my heart, my soul. This is about the people who are selective in who they choose to ally with ^-^

[velvetvexations]

this whole "who passes easier" debacle reminded me of an experience and since the other side just wants to play the anecdote game and call it universal truths, ill throw mine on the pile

(this story shared with the full permission of my friend, who has been graciously joining me in disbelief at the discourse)

when i was in university, in one of my classes we had to work in duos, and when it came time to pick partners, this quiet dude ive never spoken to beelines over to me. we work together for the semester, it goes well, class ends. we're both busy so communication lapses

about 3-4 months later, this girl bounces up to me on the campus and i have no idea who the fuck it is. like im thinking who is this cis girl and why does she know my name. as you can probably guess, yep, my lab partner. she says she gravitated towards me in class bc i was a visibly trans guy, and working with me helped her Realize Some Things. a month after class ended she started E, and two months after that she passed so well that i, someone whod seen her 3x a week for several months, didnt recognize her

its been about 6ish years since, i still dont pass despite surgery and hrt and shes been completely stealth for years on just E, and we're still close friends

now i could extrapolate from this story that its insanely easy for all transfems to pass, but that would be absolutely insane right? shes one girl, who was, in her own words, insanely lucky. and i think if we can realize that just because my friend didnt struggle to pass, it doesnt mean all transfems dont struggle to pass. and if we really use our brains here, we can see how this may also mean that just because You(general) know transmascs who could pass easily, or hell even if you Are one, that that doesnt mean that experience can be extrapolated to all of them

and this story is really threefold bc beyond that, so much of the transmascs have it easier take is based on being stealth. maybe i dont want to be stealth? me being out and proud helped a girl find herself. i want to let my trans siblings know that we're here, that they arent alone. and i want to talk about the reality of living like that instead of being told that the struggles dont happen, and if they do, its your own fault for not being stealth and everyone else doesnt have these problems so it doesnt matter

ive got one of my closest friends in the world bc she saw a trans guy and immediately recognized me as her community, and its sad people seem so determined to convince people that our experiences are so different she shouldnt have bothered asking me to be lab partners that day

sorry for the wall of text. i have a lot of feelings and it was nice to let them out

Thank you for sharing, anon. <3

[b1tchesbrew2]

****TW mention of rape*****

(​wrote this with no sleep sorry if i’m not making sense)

david lynch’s death would have been devastating in any other circumstance, but i feel like his death was particularly devastating in this current timeline because he was genuinely one of the greatest artists of all time, and we are witnessing a war on art and a war on love and empathy in america. art has always been undervalued, but i feel like it’s even worse now with the rise of ai *puke* “art” and anti intellectualism. people do not want to be moved by anything anymore and people don’t want to engage with something that doesn’t have a straightforward meaning.

people struggle to understand twin peaks, but at its core, that show is about a 17 year old girl who is struggling with the horrors of knowing that her own father had been raping her since she was 12 years old. that was the truest part of twin peaks. there was nothing surreal about that. there are laura palmers everywhere in america and david recognized that and wrote her with more compassion and understanding than any other man in hollywood probably could have.

women are under attack daily, and it doesn’t help that we have a legitimate rapist terrorist running our country. we NEED david and his love right now more than ever!

his work was dark and disturbing, but there was hope in it. i will admit that i didn’t know what he was trying to say a lot of the time, but i do know that man loved what he did and he spread that love and touched many people’s hearts and souls and it really pains me to see him gone.

[contacthigh520]

messy nuca time travel thoughts

i’ve been thinking about what a nu carnival time travel fix-it might look like (the thoughts happened mostly before chapter 16, i should preface so no huey stuff (although would any huey stuff really be a fix-it if it would eliminate the existence of eiden??)). anyways. the thing with nu carnival is there aren’t an abundance of ‘key points’ or like Singular Terrible Events. things tend to happen in a slow collapse that are hard to circumvent.

for example, you can’t really ‘fix-it’ quincy because his big problem is that everyone he has ever loved (plus, in his eyes, will ever love in the future) will die before him. and the cause of that problem, him becoming a clan member to defend his tribe, is difficult to get around. even now, we can tell that he stands by that decision, to some extent, because unlike other older clan members, he hasn’t chosen to die. (i think maybe i’d read it as a sort of what-if path rather than a fix-it? a bittersweet thing where he died surrounded by family that loved him, lauded for his feats of strength and protection.)

(in going through the process of rethinking what might be a ‘fix-it’ option for everyone, i’m realizing it might just be eiden giving any given clan member a friend while they struggled through their lives. because really, the biggest absence most of them have is a friend that could stand by their side. anyways, that’s not what i initially thought of— so i’m tucking that away for another time.)

ok. so. right. thinking about a Big Event that caused a Lot of Cascading Stuff that could be changed via time travel (i love time travel). who would be sent back? what would the event be?

well… (<- guy who has a very strong bias), there’s the riot that killed dante’s parents…

the thing is, the initial issue is still there: the riot was caused by numerous decisions from dante’s parents that they really stood by! like dante, they had very strong convictions that would be difficult to sway, even with the interference of a time traveller.

if dante was sent back in time into his puny kid body before the riot happened, he probably couldn’t convince his parents to fight off bandits or not waste money on his happiness. like, they might fortify the palace or make contingency plans for their safety, but they wouldn’t stop being Really Committed Pacifists in the Bandit-Death Desert.

so like… what would dante do? he’d be in a very similar situation to his original kid self where no one would listen to him and he had no power.

well, he’d try to get back to his original solaria.

though there are numerous things he’d probably like to change, his ultimate commitment is to his Solaria. it’s what he built, what he knows, and what he wants to protect. there’s no telling what changing the past would bring and there’s the very real chance that this is all just… magical shenanigans.

it’s kind of obvious that no one in solaria can or will help him. his parents love him, which is a problem, because that means they won’t let him leave the palace (an age-old problem). and dante is still Super Sick.

but, hey, he stopped being ill after he went through the trials of the elemental spirit of fire so… that’s one piece of the puzzle

and! he has a rough idea of the people who could potentially help him: the other clan members. the level of sorcery that this time travel nonsense would take is probably beyond the average magic user, so clan members are his best bet. plus, there’s a chance he wasn’t the only one impacted by whatever is going on.

(this is also my ploy to make it a group adventure…)

so, like, dante sneaks out with a horse and, with a whole lot of difficulty, manages to get to and pass the trials of the elemental spirit of fire. (i imagine it’s easier because he knows where he’s going. it’s potentially harder because there’s no riot to distract the bandits around town. cest la vie. the trials are probably as difficult as before but!! i imagine the content would change because time travelling dante doesn’t have the same concerns baby dante had.)

dante running off leaves solaria in a panic (despite the note that dante thoughtfully left behind) and dante in better health with his trial markings.

so where does dante go from there? aster, maybe, since he knows that aster is connected to the grand sorcerer, even if eiden isn’t around…

i didn’t actually come up with a plan for how dante got back to the present or what sent him back.

in my initial planning, i thought it would be very funny for dante to go to quincy. quincy’s a good option because he’s strong (dante kind of needs that) and he’s reliable (unlike many of the other clan members).

the idea of pre-eiden quincy (incredibly tired + depressed) having to deal with an pompous, demanding baby foreign prince is a fun image, esp. because its so baffling to quincy.

looking at the map of klein… dante probably picks up blade and garu (and maybe even gramps!) while he passes through the dead zone? he’s probably pretty blatant about picking up clan members. it would be difficult to override huey’s ‘orders’ to blade, but maybe blade could be convinced to come on the basis that it was ‘for the grand sorcerer’? and gramps would probably not leave this rambunctious child on a horse to travel alone.

man… and baby karu would still be fully hidden in garu… (also i wonder how gramps feels about potential future knowledge that garu’s ‘master’ actually does come to be?)

so blade + garu (+ gramps(?)) and then quincy.

kuya probably comes along uninvited because its not his circus, not his monkeys, but he is an intrigued audience member.

from there maybe they put together some puzzle pieces about needing all the clan members?

going in map order, that’s like: yakumo (baby snake!) -> aster, morvay, edmond (baby edmond!) -> olivine (baby…) -> rei (rei!)

tbh, they probably bullshit to get baby yakumo along, if his grandma and grandpa even let him go with the strange group of people. gramps probably does a lot to help smooth things over.

a big bid in their favor is that they know about yakumo’s gem and tell him about it? let him know that he’s not so alone in the world…

aster and morvay are probably the MVPs in letting the group progress in their research. dante leverages his knowledge about aster and the grand sorcerer Super Hard. plus, aster and morvay wouldn’t let any remotely trustworthy lead about their master fall through.

i think aster would maybe help them get into the sorcerer’s trials? for the library or w/e…

and that’s how they meet baby olivine

laying out the ages:

dante: ~8-10 years old

garu: ~15-16 years old or ~5-7 years old(?) (he doesn’t get a younger looking sprite in his flashback since they just use n-r rarity sprites for those. and he doesn’t act much younger? so i’m leaning towards him being pretty similar to how we see him in canon) (of course, i might be fudging the timeline a lot to even have him be around at all instead of in kolt’s clutches. ah well…)

yakumo: ~9-11 years old (he have a kid form iirc? and that’s how his grandparents picked him up)

edmond: ~11-13 years old

olivine: ~12-15 years old

and then this is fun because of Conflict!! dante doesn’t really know much about the past of the others to have any real insight on them during these time travel shenanigans. BUT! he does know about olivine cutting himself which makes things Interesting

honestly, i think it would be super cute if olivine acted as their guide during the group’s visit because he has a gemstone? and he also turns out to be pretty helpful because he’s pretty deep into technical and theoretical magic.

and then they whisk olivine away for their group adventure because 1) he’s a clan member and 2) they need his brain. (dante’s pretty informed on essence and elemental spirits but i wouldn’t say magic is his forte)

and then, finally, around the water territory, they meet up with rei, who comes to them because what are garu and gramps even doing there??? and then we get some semi-rare olivine and rei discussion as they discuss The Situation…

it’s just so fun to see how different these half-formed versions of everyone are before the present…

- quincy’s so much sadder (but hey! he still has topper… who is not named topper yet)

- blade is still quirky but much harder to communicate with (unless it’s with other members of the old guard who are kind of used to him)

- yakumo’s a nervous baby (but maybe has his anxiety less in-grained in him? less convinced that all these people like him would reject him thoroughly? esp since they came to see him)

- edmond is still prickly but more transparently because he’s been hurt before? i feel like he makes pretty fast friends with the other kids (he shores up yakumo’s shyness (little knight behavior), he responds well to dante’s taciturn but earnest nature), and well… garu is garu).

- kuya is probably pretty mean but less mean than i would expect, esp w/ the promise of curiosities and the novelty of (ahem) getting the band back together.

- rei is similarly intrigued by the gathering of clan members and is even more intrigued by dante’s issue and the possibility of time travel… (he probably has some things he’d like to time travel about but the canon i’ve read for him so far is vague enough that i couldn’t pin it down). (im also maybe fudging his timeline bc idk if he’d even be in klein with father 10-13 years ago…)

[transfemme-shelterdog]

hi, i have kinda a weird question- do you have any tips on spotting genuine transmisogyny in the transandrophobia tag?

i do want to talk about my own experiences with being a transmasc person, but i also want to be able to spot hurtful rhetoric and behavior towards my trans sisters.

im not well-versed in online discussions around this stuff, or a lot of trans centric theory. most of my opinions come from my (albeit short) lived experience in my irl communities and from some media.

from my perspective there's a lot of intense reactions from transfemmes, which i understand- i know trans gals who really struggle with finding a welcome community. it is a genuine problem. but i don't think it's necessarily okay. the entire trans community is hurting right now and i'd rather extend compassion than hatred. i don't want to dismiss people's voices on either side.

thank you for listening. i hope you have a really good day and you get to eat something you love

Finally digging through my inbox as all my asks came in like a day or two before my surgery, and I've been super busy with my husband/recovery since, so I'm finally getting around to answering this.

I haven't seen much actual transmisogyny in that tag, and I'm there daily, but in general, you can spot TM by just looking at an argument and asking:

Is this transphobic?

If it is, is it also being transphobic in a way that isn't rejecting their identity, and is it focused on that?

Saying that a trans woman abused you and prevented you from transitioning isn't TM as it isn't doing these two criteria

Saying that all trans women hate trans men because they're fembrained bitches, is transmisogyny.

[majka626]

A few people asked me to explain my standing on the theory "Homura being autistic" so I will try to bring up some significant points.

Of course given the lack of background for Homura's personal life and behavior (esp prior becoming a MG), you can take this with grain of salt, based primarily on my own autistic traits I can relate to hers, but also everything I've studied about autism from other autistic people themselves.

For the start, even the main reason Homura is my favorite character of all media is that for the first time, I found a character who resembles my autistic traits, personality and struggles (social, emotional, health). She made me feel understood even though she's fictional.

Now to the point;

-I'd start with a question I ask myself: What exactly is 'neurotypical' about her?

The girl is clearly dissociated with reality and lives in a completely different world with different rules than other people or girls her age. She's basically a "black sheep" and an outcast who doesn’t fit in. She also isn’t dwelling on the laws and rules (which I also found out to be common among autistic people who live by their own rules and have lack of understanding for social norms).

Here I talk about her social standing. It's usual for autistic people (including myself) to struggle socially, be shy, socially awkward and anxious, avoid socialization, bad at communication, etc. From what we could see about Homura from the start and given the brief informations on the drama CD or games) that I've heard, she has never socialized - even though the main reason was her health condition she's been born with, due to which she spent a lot of time and childhood in a hospital and isolated from other kids (if I remember right, some of the official material has extended her heart issues and hospital stay). It's true we could easily characterize this as an experiences that led to trauma alone than as something to do with autism, if we'd end it just there.

However, that doesn’t change the fact she lacks social skills, even if trauma partially played a part on it. Plus, autistic people are just generaly more prone to develop a trauma and mental issues in situations they weren't emotionally prepared for.

It's easy to see she was/ is completely terrified or discouraged of the idea of socializing and she's really.. not the best at communicating neither. Then there are the particular details in her communication, like being too blunt, in ways that are interpreted as rude.

Not to mention, she tried so many times and ways, yet she never really found the right way to communicate with others about the issues. Until she felt like giving up.

In summary, her social situation is unquestionably heavily "autism coded".

Next point, her famous love for Madoka. While her love is genuine and real, everyone is well aware it's "obsessive". And you know what else it reminds me of? A hyperfixation. Yes, autistic people can hyperfixate on another person too. Loving someone so much that everything else has little to no meaning in life, not being able to separate that person (or thing) from own mind or struggle to stay separated, the lengths she's able to go for her love, when one based their entire existence and purpose around that person because life without them just "isn’t possible", that's a clear symptom of a severe co-dependence and hyperfixation (the main thing I relate with as a traumatized autistic person myself, who simply can not live without a hyperfixation or a person who lawfully takes care of me and nothing else in life can make me happy and content). Then again, I feel like people ignore why has Homura fall in love with Madoka in the first place and narrow it down to just being gay, even though it wasn’t related with a sexual/ romantic attraction from the start. Homura (just like Madoka) is someone with a lot of self-esteem issues and a good deal of trauma before she even became MG. She felt trapped even by her physical condition (afterall, she didn’t know what it's like to live in a healthy body, therefore felt worthless). She didn’t really *feel* understood and respected by others. Until she met Madoka. Feeling Madoka's sincere kindness and consideration to her feelings, then seeing her in a heroic action to save her life, the first feelings she developed towards her were gratitude and admiration. Madoka has became her idol than anything at first. But with given experiences, the admiration has soon evolved into an obsession, eventually a love at the same time.

In my book at least it's a clear hyperfixation, which is another trait common for autism.

I can eventually add every new details each time they come to mind, or if anyone reading this has something to add as an autism trait I forgot, feel free, I'm interested!

For now these are the most explaining examples I could think of off the top of my mind, and of course it's ok to disagree, especially with given context of her immense trauma that can extremely remind of autism because we didn’t know her prior her trauma (I personally think she's always been going through trauma due to her health issues & isolation and never had a happy life, but that's rather subjective and based on the little I've heard and her behavior).

[blairdii]

do you know what i think?

i feel like all these people who hate lando are the same people who said that they would break the generational trauma cycle but think it doesn’t count on the internet because they still need some sort of outlet for that trauma.

like, they hate him for being sensitive and wearing his heart on his sleeve, because maybe someone in their life made them feel bad about being sensitive or made them feel like wearing your heart on your sleeve is a bad thing to do. they were called weak for doing that. so now they’re calling lando weak.

they hate him for having an ego, even though he’s not got as much ego as other drivers. maybe because they were taught that doing anything for yourself is selfish and shows that you’re egotistical. so him winning and him wanting to win makes him selfish and egotistical.

they hold him accountable for things he said six years ago. like they get held accountable for saying things they don’t even remember anymore, and they’ve suppressed everything that someone else said because they can’t hold them accountable.

they hate him because he hasn’t suffered enough for not being confident or whatever, that he had supportive parents, and more importantly, rich parents. because it’s drilled into their heads that only suffering = mental health problems. a rich, white guy in a rich sport is not suffering, he’s living the dream life.

they hate him because lando blames himself instead of the team or the car, except they hear him blaming the team or the car. just like when they were blaming themselves but someone else changed it completely and twisted their words to take it that they’re blaming someone else.

they hate him for having a life and travelling while also being good on track. because they were told that to focus on something, you have to let go of everything else, and now they’ve achieved that dream but they’re still alone.

they hate him for having emotions, because they were taught that emotion makes you weak and vulnerable and should never be seen by other people. how dare he have the privilege to be open about his emotions and they don’t?

they hate him for wanting to be the best, because they wanted to be the best too but someone compared them to someone else and made them feel like shit, so now they’re comparing him to someone else.

they hate him for wanting to earn every win, because it reminds them of how much blood sweat and tears they gave for their dreams and wished that a little luck would’ve helped them out instead of someone else.

they hate him for not being ruthless, because again, they were taught that being ruthless will help you achieve anything and everything, and they can’t fathom the idea that someone gentle was on his way to achieving his dreams.

they hate him for opening up about his life because they think he wants sympathy. no one gave them sympathy, or even empathy when they were growing up, so why should he get any?

idk if a lot of this made sense or not. it’s my post exam brain. but, some of the reasons that antis use to hate on lando could just be linked to trauma… of course there are people who are plain bullies too and like to hurt someone else to make themselves feel better. but idk… have fun reading this, i guess?

you are so right. a lot of them have unprocessed trauma, and it's so palpable in the way they treat lando. they can externalise all the feelings they've repressed unto him because they know they're never going to face the consequences for it.

and frankly speaking? most of them will never break their generational cycle of misfortune. if they can't comprehend how their actions and words affect another living human being despite there being a disconnect (in one way or another), then they don't have the maturity nor the emotional intelligence to not pass that on to their children. it's why i always say "we're in big 2025 and still making fun of people for their mental struggles?" because we're in times too progressive to be doing this. it's sad, it's pathetic, and atp too many fans crave validation from the majority that they'd rather have moral failings than just accept being the few who are disliked for being right and speaking truth.

people cannot compute the fact that their trauma or past experiences isn't an excuse to treat people the way they do, and as they grow up they'll realise that they definitely will not got scot free like they would online after battering lando to hell and back, and that life is beyond a phone screen.

a lot of them also can't understand how lando trangresses everything that's expected of a high performance athlete. men will come at him for being mentally weak and "feminine" or not "masculine enough" because they've got this warped perception of success as a man. it's why male fans would, so weirdly, be like 'yeahhh the abuse max got wasn't good BUT it made him the driver he is today so it's not all bad'.

they're never gonna break their trauma because they haven't realised how to live without it. they haven't realised that you don't have to abide by a certain criteria to do well, so they'll take it out on lando and continue to tell him he's not good enough and how he 'needs a mentor to fix his mentality'.

drivers are not robots, they're people with feelings and emotions just as much as we have them. i'm not gonna sit here and tell someone to shut up about their struggles when being open about it is not only a way to educate people and say 'hey, even us athletes, at the pinnacle of our sport, struggle too', but also to supplement that with encouragement and say 'so you can be open about your challenges, it's not a bad thing'.

lando is the most emotionally mature and intelligent driver on that grid. no fan can convince otherwise, and he will be remembered in 100 years for what he's done. being hated for being human is quite memorable no?

[project-sekai-takes]

i feel like a lot of characters have undexplored/underutilized angst. this post is going to be extremely biased™️towards my favorites, but characters like ichika, kohane, and all of more more jump really but especially minori and shizuku are who i'm talking about. i'm not saying that proseka should be needlessly slapping angst onto their stories just for shock value and fun because that's just pointless and not enjoyable to read; i just think that the angst these characters already have is usually underexplored by the fandom and game itself.

i know that ichika and kohane had the majority of their angst material covered/resolved in the main story (kohane also had vbs wl2 so it's probably covered there too but i havent actually reaad it), but i think we as a fandom should dwell on what they were like and what they were experiencing back then more often fr 🗣️. i think this kind of angst allows exploration of certain character aspects that are usually left forgotten or undiscussed. (bro ichikas closest friends left her with no real explanation so she she thought it was her fault and was extremely lonely because of it man can we talk about that please 😭)

minori is another example. i know mmjs overall story and her themes especially revolve around hope and not giving up, but c'mon she had her auditions rejected 50 times and she still kept going strong. that takes some serious passion, determination, and willpower, and i feel like that should be acknowledged more often because if i was rejected like that for at most 10 times i would have straight up folded and given up. minoris first focus and airis first focus both have a lot of minori struggle that i just never see talked about?? (read: "sorry we're not hiring your team because of that faceless amateur. we'll hire everyone else individually if you kick her out though 😁) its just a shame because its so important to her character and the angst potential is crazy!! (ok im sorry lmao)

shizuku also has a lot of angst material in early game (main story argument with airi, masking perfection, the entire thing with her old group in general) that i was really surprised wasnt featured in like...those angsty tiktoks and fanfics LMAO. i did end up finding some for her but the roots of the angst were mostly fanmade and not completely applicable to her character. i personally don't have any issues with making up tragic backstories/angst material for characters (in fact i love to see it and actively do it myself) but like the canon material is right there, there's a lot to work with already it doesnt have to be completely fanon lol /nm /lh

i know the rest of leo/need is probably also lacking in good angst content, but honami and shiho already got a ramble from me so they're on standby for now smh /lh. (airi and haruka might also be lacking but iirc airis the most popular mmj character and the recent haruka events have some good angst coverage so idk about their current standings). saki has a weird situation where her angst content definitely isnt lacking but most of the time its only used to fuel tsukasa angst. i don't actually think theres anything wrong with that because so much of his motivations were initially based off of her (wanting to be a star and making other people smile), but once it becomes only about him and has nothing to do with her, who is actually the one suffering, i just dont feel like it's used fairly. angstkasa is wonderful and all but saki is her own character :[

anyway sorry that was kind of an incoherent rant about my favorite characters, but i really enjoy angst and would absoultely love to see more depictions of it for the blorbos. thank you for reading o7

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[not-the-axolotl]

Hello tumblr.

I was gone for a while, and I owe you an explanation.

Lets clear something up first: I did not, and will not, leave the billie bust up fandom. I did, however, take a step back from social media for reasons I will get into in just a moment. Some of you may have seen me in the bbu discord, and I have directly messaged a few of my mutuals, so I wasn't completely offline. I promised to tell more about the reason behind my hiatus, and now that some things in my personal life have calmed down, I feel that i'm ready to do so.

So why did I leave?

(Tw for mention of sexual harrasment!)

The main reason for my recent absence is that I moved twice in the span of about a month. The first time was when I moved out of my parents home, and right after that I was able to find a much cheaper room where I moved to a few weeks after. As you can imagine, this was quite stressfull especialy because I am autistic and struggle with sudden changes.

Secondly, as you may have guessed: the drama surrounding Blackgriph0n.

Here's the thing, I am intersex. People like me still face a lot of discrimination, even within lgbtq+ spaces. The bbu fandom is the first place where i've been welcome, and it got me out of a very dark place. So when people say that the fandom is dead/dying, it hurts. I'd love to say that I dont know what i'd do if the fandom died, but I am no liar.

Lastly, the nature of the alligations is a major trigger for me. Again, I'm intersex, and while I'm not going to reveal my specific variation, it's somewhat visible. Due to this I faced sexual harrasment when I was just five, and the experience traumatised me deeply.

I'm sure you can understand that because of this, the rumours being spread about blackgriph0n, along with the other stuff, were starting to take a toll on my mental health. This lead me to make the decision to take a step back from social media and focus on my personal life.

This has helped significantly, and I have reached a point where I feel ready to return to social media.

Thank you for your understanding.

[sweetfirebird]

Wait, they "can't" raise taxes on the rich, and they are cutting earned benefits to regular citizens to pay for a "Golden Dome" stupid idea that Trump said he wanted but which will just end up a huge slush fund for more corrupt bullshit?

(And Mike Johnson still out there trying to claim he's Christian? Maybe when his wife continues her "pray the gay away" work, it will make him disappear.)

Meanwhile, Red States, regardless of who you voted for, this WILL hit you harder than the Blue States. You will get medical deserts, no more nursing homes (Medicare funds about 65% of nursing homes), no more food benefits like SNAP, leading to more malnutrition (which leads to lower test scores and lower paying jobs etc etc etc)

Republicans, Independents, you should all be calling your reps and camped outside their offices and naming them everywhere. They are going to kill people and destroy the economies of their states to please their orange idol (and probably make themselves richer).

It doesn't matter that the Senate might (miiiiight) throw this garbage out. This bill is showing you what your representatives think of you. This right here is absolute contempt for regular, struggling Americans. And the Republicans are holding hearings about it in the middle of the night to try to hide this from you.

This isn't only liberal media saying this. Forbes and the Wall Street Journal are talking about how the math in the bill doesn't make sense, and how some of the provisions and amendments are misleading or will end up *costing* us more money, not saving. And how the idea of removing the tax on tips is good, except the way the law is written, a bunch of corporations are going to try to use it to pay their employees less.

Don't take my word for it, go look it up on places other than Fox News. Always get your news from several sources. We live in a biased world.

But this is not a matter of parties. This is rich people out to get the middle and working classes.

(And I know a lot of MAGA support the border wall and deportations, but let me ask you guys, if Americans are unable to pay for medical care or food, or earn a good wage, or challenge their legal rights about AI in court because of this bill, and the bill takes millions of dollars of our money to "close" the border, does that help you pay rent? Does it? Because even undocumented workers were paying taxes and now they aren't here to do so, so who is making up that financial difference? Not the rich. Not the corporations. Not Mike Johnson. Just us.)

[gar77717]

do y'all ever think about how Batman is kind of cop propaganda?

I started thinking about this while I was working on an AU that I'm calling the timeshare AU. essentially I'm completely overhauling all of my favorite Batman characters So that their relationships with each other are carefully planned out to be influential and parallel to the wider overarching narrative.

when I want to include a character, my first step is to dissect them, understand what makes them tick and how that's important to the characters around them. Next once I feel I've sufficiently studied their different characterizations I put them back together using whatever pieces I think fit best as well as coming up with some of my own ideas. these steps can differ in difficulty depending on the character.

Batman is someone who I've had particular trouble with. a part of that's because there's so many different characterizations of him that are blatantly conflicting with each other but a bigger part, I believe is that for some reason no one wants to confront what Batman really represents in any meaningful way. I mean sure logically I know Batman is supposed to represent Justice, but what does that really mean? isn't Justice subjective?

I believe that Batman thinks that what he's fighting for is Justice when really a better word to use would be order. his most important villain and character foil is the Joker who obviously represents chaos so it only makes sense that Batman's motivation would be achieving and maintaining order. the issue with this is that neither the concept of chaos or order have an inherent morality. they're just two states of being that can be good or bad. because of this people will come up with a variety of unrelated reasons that Batman is good while the Joker is bad that aren't actually related to their core character struggles.

Batman has always kind of been a cop even when he's not a cop he works very closely with cops and I get why this is supposed to be a good thing right he represents Justice and the right way of doing things so of course he's going to work with the cops but we now know that the cops actually suck and are horrible so to me it doesn't make sense that Batman can both be a cop and a hero those two are mutually exclusive in my book. so what's the other option? I don't want to completely get rid of his characterization as a detective but I also want to make sure that he remains a hero. the way I decided to go about this was by leaning into the cop thing. Batman in many instances has been kind of morally gray and I want to lean into that and relate it to close him being a cop.

at the beginning of the story he's going to try and be a detective for the GPD this doesn't work out for a multitude of reasons but the biggest one is that working for them just goes against his morals. he's not the kind of guy who can sit there and just be quiet when he sees Injustice in front of him and he would definitely see a lot of it working at a police department. while I do think he would talk to Jim Gordon I don't think that that would be um... exactly legal I want Batman to be a vigilante a REAL vigilante. when he says that Gotham is his City I don't want it to sound like he thinks he owns Gotham City because he doesn't, I want it to sound like he is a guardian, he's a protector, he's a real part of the community.

[homewardskies]

Holidays, Offerings, and Other Ancient Praxis in Paganism: It's Not an Exact Science

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A lot of people just starting out have questions about the specific details of their praxis, which isn't necessarily a bad thing! Beginners, I've noticed, especially want to know how many holidays, what to do for them, when exactly they are, etc. Some are caught up in wondering what acceptable offerings are, how they should offer, and how should they pray. And these are all very reasonable questions from a beginner's perspective. The problem is that pagan religions, particularly those that are reconstructed from ancient belief systems, (in other words, not new age religions like Wicca) are not that easily simplified; there isn't one secret collection of knowledge on how to get it "right."

So, I wanted to break down a few of the difficulties with reconstructing historical traditions that you might run into and also remind you that maximum accuracy isn't always the goal.

1. Timeframe

The first problem we run into for recreating really anything, is that some traditions (ahem, especially Hellenic and Kemetic paganism) have a lengthy history. Those civilizations spanned thousands of years, so their religion did not exist in one singular, unchanged form for the countless generations it was practiced. If you want a modern example, we can look at holidays popular in modern culture, like Christmas, that have already changed and adapted over the course of maybe the last 200 years.

Now, put that into perspective for figuring out holidays from ancient religions. There is no single answer for how to go about Paganism because there wasn't just one correct way to practice when these religions were "alive." The best we can usually do is guesstimate based on surviving records and fill in the rest with our own UPG and experience. And that leads us to the second struggle:

2. Lack of information

This is a bigger issue for pagan traditions like Norse, Celtic, or Slavic. These people relied far more on oral tradition, well up to Christianization. Because of this, we don't have a super detailed idea of what certain aspects of the practice looked like, particularly from further back in their history. There's a bit we can infer from anthropological findings and secondary sources, although those aren't always reliable since many were retold from a Christian perspective, and we then lose the context.

3. Localization

This isn't so much an issue as it is something to simply be aware of. Ancient pagan civilizations were not monoliths of culture and belief; different regions had different practices. In Hellenic Paganism, for example, there were different deity cults that were city-specific. Just as culture changed over time, it also changed over space, so the recorded history of holidays in, say, Athens, wouldn't be the same as a rural village fifty miles north of Athens.

This is one that can really inform our modern practice because I'm fairly certain that the average practitioner isn't living like folks were back in those times. We can localize according to our own cultures, geography, and lifestyle, just as they had to do. Example: Olives and wine were a central part of Ancient Greece and many offerings were centered around this. I, however, live in the southern US. Instead of stressing about the cost of imported Olive Oil, I will instead pick honey suckles, offer a locally brewed Stout, or set aside some Crawfish.

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Now, this is all to say, don't get weighed down by the finer details of your practice, especially if you're a beginner, because the "right way" is in itself an oversimplification of the change inherent to spiritual practice. Even when the religion was still "alive," it was not a single, uniform structure (deconstruct that Othodoxy, ya'll).

Yes, a pre-made calendar is a good frame of reference for worship, and yes, a guide on how to pray to each God would have helped in the beginning. But odds are, you live in a different environment than ancient people, under different circumstances than the religion was originally practiced, and most of the original context under which they practiced no longer prevails. So you have room to create your own path.

Don't get stuck in the "learning phase" because your whole practice is the learning phase.

[ekletia]

@mxboxlocks I actually know what you're talking about. (Yes, besides the drug problem, my family also had alcohol problems. The only thing that motivates me is not drinking a bottle of whiskey every single day that could kill me.) I see myself in Wilson. I'm like, I can't cry anymore, just laughing, because Everything hurts too much, if my physical health with so many allergies wasn't enough. There's a medicine that if I took two in an hour, the hearse would take me.(It's not a joke this is a real world.) I always have an allergy medication on my backpack. (The list is complex and long.)

I just didn't understand why you wanted to examine it. (Sorry, I need to develop socially.) I'm sorry if I've offended you, but maybe I'm upset because, despite all the problems, life can be very beautiful. Yes, I'm saying that my whole life was just suffering. Maybe it came down to me being okay., but no. I'm not okay. I have mental, physical and family problems. And I say that life is full of joy, and you have to get out of it, even if it's hard. Unfortunately, there is no problem I have not yet encountered.

I have a panic attack because of my parents. I can't talk to them so I don't crash. I was always to blame for everything and a lot of fighting. I walk a lot in nature and it’s beautiful (Despite my allergies.), Laughing with people or eating a delicious meal that doesn't want to kill me or drink a very nice warm coffee or watch a good movie or series or Creating something wonderful.

Life is full of little miracles that make it worth living. I think a lot about how much I want to create and how much my own life depends on my own knowledge. You are not alone. Everyone is struggling with something, and maybe we could use the internet to fight for things together. Maybe that's why I could make a joke out of everything negative, because I've met everything. Yes, even from death.

Everyone feels sorry for my life, but I don’t have to. Because if I hadn't lived through every negative thing, I wouldn't be able to say right now that I know what you're talking about, and I know how hard it is. No need to apologize, just stay positive about your life. See the happy little moments you love in your daily life. If I can see the positive side of my life in spite of my own shit, I hope someone else can see it and appreciate their own life a little more, even though you now see that there is no way out of it. There is always a way out, only small moments are important.

Can we get more bonkers Wilson? Seeing him insane makes me want to cry but also observe him like a bug

day 83!