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thank you everybody who crossed their fingers and toes bc aventurine AND acheron are now both safely at home:3333333333
#the amount of tickets i went through?#let's not talk abt that#i also got six sampo's#and like eight (??) pela's#(i was about to fucking kill somebody i don'T EVEN USE HERRRR LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEE LITTLE LADY)#and then tingyun and hanya and yukong (2x)#and gepard#who is cute but at the moment i was not that happy bc he was standing between me and my wife😠😠😠😠#i feel like i'm forgetting someone lmao#anyway#acheron was playing hard to get i do feel just a bit sad bc i am so low on tickets now and i kinda wanted her lc too#and idk whether i should still try to get it or not............................#my brother pulled her for me btw😭😭😭#i was losing hope but then he came into my room to talk abt his day and i was like okok . i need you to just push this button for me#AND IT ONLY TOOK TWOOOOO PULLS#😭😭😭😭😭😭#everybody say thank you mickey's little brother we love you mickey's little brother#i can't even use her rn though bc i can't get a good relic set for her lmao#I CAN USE AVENTURINE THOUUUGHHH AND HE'S SOO SOO GOOD EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE ITTTT#mmmm i should probably level up tingyun too right i've heard that she's good#i'm facing another very difficult decision now though bc................. i love jy...........................#but how many lightning charas do i need...................... if firefly is really getting a rerun at the same time........................#i might....................................... prioritize her.....................................#I HATE ITTTTT:(((((((((((((((#BUT I WANT JY TOOOO:(((((((((((((((((((#genuinely feels like i'm betraying him wahhhhhhhhh#anyway i'm in (what i hope) are my period feelings so hhhhhhhhhh#dying over and over again but dw i'll be back on my regular bs soon:333333#mayor of loserville
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THE EYHM COLLECTION GROWS!!!! managed to make some space without having to move too much so they can all be together!!
(i made the smaller ones into stickers bc i'm running out of picture frames!! hope that's ok!)
THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE WHO'S GIFTED THESE TO ME THOUGH!!! I'M CALLING ALL OF YOU OUT HERE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!! ❤❤❤❤❤
*sharp inhale* @eskariolis-con-salsa @oddpizza @woobab @the-little-knight @moon9931 @misdreavusplush @noodletime @witch-tower-au !!!!!!!
hope you all have a good holiday season!! love you all! *MWAH*
#don't worry about the fish tanks they'll keep the kitties company! there's literally almost nowhere else good to put these lmao#but!! i think they look good there at least!! AND IN GENERAL THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD THANK YOU#BUT NOW AFTER THIS I REALLY NEED TO FIND MORE SPOTS IF I GET MORE EYHMS BECAUSE THERE'S NO SPACE LEFT THERE!#....maybe i can move some of the pokemon posters i have by my bed lol. they're just kinda. there rn.#but yeah!! i never expected people to like this cat this much and i'm kinda freaking out!!! but thank you again so much!!#i'll say it 1000 times if i have to!!!!!!#eyhm stuff#gift eyhms#basically ALL of the gift eyhms i've gotten lmao. there's a couple that're in progress but they'll hopefully join the others soon-ish!#quick side ramble! i've got a couple more drawing things planned this year but they might take a couple days because Chrimbo and all!#but there's a couple pizza tower things/gifts and. maybe finally my About Me post? gotta figure out how i'm gonna make that heh#OK I'VE BEEN TALKING TOO LONG SORRY BUT I'M JUST SO HAPPY ABOUT THESE AAAHHHHHHH
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I have seen you talking about Dick & Dami's relationship and Dick & Tim as well,but what are your takes on Dick and Jason actually?
Like how you wish their relationship should be portrayed today and where are them missing when it comes to making those two acting like siblings?
Do you think in the past their dynamic was better?
How Dick views Jason and how Jason views Dick?
This is difficult to answer because there are like 8 different stages to Dick and Jason's relationship with various dynamics. They also view each other a bit differently depending on which stage we're talking about.
The way I would like their relationship to be portrayed today isn’t necessarily possible thanks to Jason’s integration into the family and acceptance of the no killing moral code. For me, their ideal dynamic is portrayed in Outsiders #44-46. And I know people are gonna find that regressive as hell but, tbh, that dynamic is far more interesting than the kinda awkward thing they have going on now.
Although, I don't mind that they acknowledge their brotherhood in a serious manner now. Like before they'd kinda be like, "Eh... I mean... we were adopted from the same guy but... brothers? Eh..." And now they're more firmly in the, "We're brothers," camp. So that development is interesting.
Character progression wise, it wouldn't feel right for for them to be super close in the way that, say, Dick and Tim are (unless we saw a lot of trust and relationship building between them), but at the same time, there is part of me that kind of wants them to have that older sibling bond (except Jason is closer in age to Tim than he is to Dick sooo actually let's just leave older sibling things to Dick and Cass... not that Cass is much older than Jason though so LOL this is why Dick has to lone the oldest sibling thing by himself... which is funny because Dick is technically no longer the oldest sibling, he's a baby brother now... except Dick and Melinda's relationship really hasn't progressed much sooo you could say they share blood but don't consider each other family yet, in which case, Dick is still the oldest... I mean, regardless, Dick is the oldest sibling of the Waynes... god why did they have to make all of this so difficult 😫).
#jason's like blerghhh dad always loved you best. but also hey we should work together bc you're a killer like me#and then jason's also like hey dick you were the most amazing thing i've ever seen and idk you're cool but i won't say that to you#and then he's also like hey dick i've got girl advice for you and i also need your opinion on my hair. oh now bane is trying to kill us#and then he's also like oh you got amnesia? i don't give a fuck about you and maybe i'll kill you#and he's also like oh you trust me? okay well... we're brothers and i'm gonna save you#and then dick's like oh hey kid call me if you need me. oh you died? i am literally devastated i'm so sorry#and he's also like wow you're very good at what you do but i don't trust you... okay but i trust the intel you're giving me sooo....#and then he's like why the fuck are you dressing like me and killing people?? quit doing stupid shit!!#and then he's like jason what the fuck are you doing--let me help you!!#and then he's like kinda indifferent to jason but jason is still Ugh this family is stupid why am i here#and then dick's like ofc i'm gonna come help you if you need me but also this is awkward af and things are weird between us so bye#except not bye because i'm staying here to help you and your team#and then dick's like i'm being controlled by joker so i'm gonna kill yoooou#and then he's like eh i trust you and i'm gonna help you bc we're brothers but you literally wrecked bruce's car you numbskull#and then he's like you're doing dumb shit and i have to take you down but oh thanks for not letting the train kill me#and then they're both like meh we're doing shit w the batfam even though neither of us should be here rn#and yeah that's how it goes. that's. literally it. writers cannot keep their relationship consistent in the long term#Dick Grayson#Jason Todd#relationship analysis#anon
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so funny to me how ppl on tumblr will read a post that says, within the post, SEVERAL times, “hey this isn’t super well-thought out discussion and shouldn’t be treated as such i’m just sharing an individual opinion and my word should not be taken as fact” and then refuse to understand that whether they agree or disagree with the op
#marzi speaks#before anyone asks this isn’t a reference to anything in particular. just a trend i’ve noticed here#someone will go ‘i’m kinda emotional rn so this post probably won’t be the most well-constructed i’m kinda just venting’#and then either be like ‘THIS OPINION IS THE ONLY CORRECT OPINION TO HAVE THANK YOU OP FOR BEING RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING AND TEACHING US’#or ‘UMMMM no fuck this. fuck you. this one sentence felt vaguely aggressive to me and therefore you are WRONG and HATEFUL’#‘and you need to apologize to me and everyone else bc you’re being a Shit Person’#like genuinely. i know this is the piss on the poor website but can we learn critical thinking. please#like we need to consider intended message. intended audience. and intended impact#if someone making a vent post on their blog with 20 followers uses highly emotional language#that is not them presenting a subjective argument as objective!#intended message: op is experiencing a negative feeling#intended audience: their 20 followers who know and understand that this is just someone expressing a frustration#intended impact: little to none. maybe receive comfort or validation#not every post made on the internet is someone giving a college lecture or a speech or even standing on a soapbox#it’s like hearing someone mutter to themselves in public and deciding that they were trying to teach a class#also not everyone who disagrees with you is trying to change your mind#that’s another thing i’ve noticed. many folks here view disagreements as a thing to be won and moralized. it’s kinda shit imo#anyways post done. funnily enough i feel the need to disclaim that this is not a smart mars post this is a ‘this thing annoys me’ mars post
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mine's done a lot of sexy things in my opinion but top five to me still is asking daigo if he wanted to prioritize The Family or one man Not In The Family
#snap chats#you know what i mean. that rggo story I Think That Was Very Attractive Of Him#i simply understand why daigo was like 'fuck man .............. kinda right with that ................ wanna get married--'#but no cause real shit daigo ily and its very cute that you love kiryu so much#and i get it i do. i live for daigo's idolization of kiryu it makes for delicious drama and many emo spiralings at 1AM#i just really appreciate mine being able to speak up. from his position. yk what i mean#like mine's relatively green to the yakuza atp and this is the first time he's personally going out with his boss but not just His Boss#THE Boss and he still sees value in being like 'idc if you're my superior i need you to really evaluate your values rn for the whole org'#its so sexy of him ........ love a man who can cut the bullshit when he gotta ...#ESPECIALLY in regards to kiryu cause like .... kiryu ily and ily because youre messy ... i just need others to call you messy too ...#its also just so good because it's exactly the type of thing daigo wanted from companions#people who could look at him beyond his name and money and status and tell him what he needs to hear ... its very yummy ...#so yeah thats one of my top five sexy moments thanks for watching im gonna kick my feet and think about mine#he's such an epic character ......... i wish i had blender so i could spin his model for an hour#ill just have to settle for doing that in my brain
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i love how i come back to twst post about how much i hate idia for a few days and then leave again it's such a cycle
#auburn's rambles <3#i think about that time when people were shipping me w him a lot#and i don't think i ever really addressed how bad it made me feel#like i told people to stop yeah but now whenever i see idia i think about how upset and frustrated i was#like it keeps coming BACK i can't get it out of my HEAD#THIS GOT KINDA VENTISH WAIT#idk man it's late i should be asleep but Fuck i cannot stop thinking about how that got so out of hand#my poor lab partner had to deal w me that day LMAO i like. cried in front of her#and i don't know why my brain keeps coming back to it because nobody makes jokes like that anymore#and everyone who did sent me apologies which was so sweet#anyways hello ygys i think i just needed to get this off my chest goodnight#FOR CLARIFICATION I AM OK!!!! i think im just emotional rn and i did not expect to dump a whole ass essay here#muah muah love ygys thank u for being on my side i hope all of your pillows are cold and you have sweet dreams
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Aw, I'm sorri, Isa... If it makes you feel better, my cat gives his best wishes! He is very lazy and has been resting beside me. Also, I still adore you art to bits ❤️❤️ Do not stress it, make sure you hydrate and eat.
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Don’t need to be sorry it’s not your fault
And send my thanks to ur cat, I appreciate it truly and I’m glad to hear that you like my art, it really means a lot :D
Don’t forget to hydrate and eat yourself too! Don’t need to worry abt me, I’m fine and dandy over here
#the mountains are so cold I’m freaking shivering rn#don’t mind me yelling in text just uh need to get it out yk#aaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAFREAKINV HELL#ITS SO COLD#we are curiosity#sakura anon#m hiding this so that it’s like ur choice to read the tags#but I genuinely. genuinely really appreciate that you like my art and I mean it#these past few months I’ve felt like crap and this is a selfish thing to say but I kinda feel a little demotivated everytime I wanna post#because like my brain makes me think that no one likes what I post#idk what it is but my stupid brain makes me feel like shit but knowing that my art is appreciated really boost my mood up#so from the bottom of my heart thank you :)#srry for the rant I just didn’t know how much this means to me
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WAIT HELP I READ TOO FAST 😭😭
omg but who are your favs in the twdg games... 😳😳😳
OH HFHGFHJ ITS FINE I DO THAT ALL THE TIME TOO BUT YEAH AS YOU KNOW I LOVE THE GAMES AND SHOW AND ALSO THE COMIC!! BUT FOR THE GAMES UHMMM..omg this is SUCH a tough question honestly?? like, i feel very complicated about basically every character in this series so its hard to just pick one fave....
hmm i will say tho i have ALWAYS loved Lee and Clementine (obviously,who doesnt hehe) i just love them sm 😭the first game just makes me so emotional FRFR in the first game i also loved Ben,Chuck, Omid and Christa and Molly!! id also include Kenny but...i have a sorta love/hate relationship with that guy 😭😭😭😭hes such a good character tho!! in general i think the first game was just so good😌😌
for the other games im less familiar with them since ive only played the other seasons once each so my memory is probably a little off,but i remember really liking Sarah ,Nick,Luke and Jane from the 2nd season,but again i think some of these characters are like. love/hate with me currently,i think s2 is so turbulent that its kinda hard to pick faves really (for me atleast) with the 3rd season i remember LOVING that Tripp guy and also Javier,but its been years since i last played the game so i probably have a bunch of different opinions on everything now😭😭in general i just dont remember too much from that game,i definitely have to replay it eventually..for s4 tho?? hmm honestly,i think i loved like,90% of the cast in that LMAO but i think i liked uhhm AJ the most.and also i think his name was Asim (or aasim) and Ruby,i liked them alot i think,and louis and violet too 😌😌😌also the dog?? does the dog count??? in general i just thought the characters were pretty interesting in that game,but again i think ima just have to replay all of these again to see how i REALLY feel
ANYWAYS THANKS FOR THE QUESTION AURA!!! i would LOVE to know your faves too😈😈😈😈😈😈
#my friend!!!!!!!#cant believe im getting a twd question in our modern year 2024 (thank you. i cannot get enough of this stupid zombie franchise)#maybe the zombies were the friends we made along the way (?)#i think rick grimes said something to that effect in like season 5 or something .sorry#I LOVE THE WALKING DEAD GAMES SOO MUCH#the first game i ever got a platinum trophy on was twd s1 for the ps3#lots of good memories. it scared me so much but i was so infatuated with the world i HAD to do everything in it#i think its funny how i got into this whole series through the games.didnt even know anything abt the show#it came out in like..2012 right?? 2013?? so i was lik 7 or 8 .crazy#yes i still get scared at these games. im stil lscared of fnaf. sue me. yes i still cry at the ending to s1#SUE ME IDC#me when the father figure has to leave.me when the figure who is a father to young girl has to abandon her for reasons they cant control#me when fathers. me when men who father children who arent their own and love them like their own cuz they are kind and good.#clenches fists...oughhh...family..#anyways this is so crazy cuz i was thinking about playing the games again like a week ago#can you read my mind?????????? probably. clown to clown communication. gg fan to gg fan communication#isnt it so crazy that twdg are taking place at like the exact same time that like. the show (or comic i dont remember) is??#like. i dont rlly think abt that enough tbh. its kinda crazy to me#the fact that we had glenn for like 1 (one) chapter in the games is so crazy to me. he was just out there#i also really liked glenn but idk if he counts since he was like.a cameo. he was like a disney channel show cameo idk#anyways sorry for the rants.i just had my vitamins im CRAZY im PSYCHO rn!!#anyone else ever get a lil emotional thinking abt kenny. im sure we all do. but. oughh. s2 kenny and lee comparison makes my brain hurt#anyways. i need to STOP im a MADMAN RN#see this is what happens when you ask me about my interests. leave me alone (joke. pats you on shoulder and smiles softly)
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hey i had finally the time to read your latest headcanon and oh god it made me feeel 😫😫
im not so big in the infidelity trope and chose to blatantly ignore those implications so my perspective was different that it was ¿maybe intended? (also i think my pov to it was much more hopeful than olli's :D)
but reading it that way surprisingly made me remember how it feels to have a crush on someone and the thrilling and so so scary mutual tiptoeing around each other in the start of a new relationship whether it's going to even progress into something serious
so yeah it was really lovely and cute the pining and everything thank you 😘
ohhh I'm not really sure what the "intented perspective" was; sometimes I like to leave certain things unsaid and for the reader to interpret as they see best, so choosing not to include any infidelity aspect in there is also super super valid!! perhaps even better lol I do feel like the the world's most immoral person writing that AU, even if it's just fiction 🫣 whatever I was thinking when writing it is somewhat irrelevant tbh (if I even was thinking anything lol), because it's your (=the readers') fic now, so feel free to interpret it exactly as you wish and I'll be here just going 'omg you're so real!!' 💗 and I'm just so happy to hear that you were able to imagine a much more hoepful continuation to the story, which is sometimes something I struggle with lol, don't worry they WILL be happy eventually but they gotta be poor little meow-meows about it first 🤭
ngl commentary like this always makes me melt because skjfjsfjfjffjjfj what do you meeeeeaaaaann I was able to convey an actual human emotion?? 🥹 believe it or not, this is also something I'm super insecure about in my writing most of the time (for reasons I don't care to explain), I often feel like whatever I write is, idk, empty or emotionless or whatever, so thank you for actually saying that this piece reminded you of actually having a crush on someone, you don't know how much that means to me 🤧
thanks for reading it and taking the time to write and ask about it 😭💞
#and thanks everyone else who has read it so far 🥺🫶#sorry for being so sappy about this lol you idk if you meant it to be this sappy but i kinda needed this rn#so yeah. thank you again <3#answered asks#mosvu
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Saturday Six (Stuff)
Back at the Farmer's Market today. Still annoyed about how I was spoken to the last time I was there. As if the market manager is my boss, which is not the case. And I'm still pissed that someone who I thought was my friend has broken my confidence.( ಠ ಠ )
There was an ambulance at the market today too. And I had to make the cringe/awkward smile thing you make when you have to interact with a MAGAT pos (they were wearing the propaganda that's how I knew). Also my weirdo neighbor showed up and didn't even recognize me.٩(•̤̀ᵕ•̤́๑)ᵒᵏᵎᵎᵎᵎ
My windshield leaked during the thunderstorm we had last night, so I'm going to have to take it to my landlords again.(*`へ´*)
The Dudette hates her new job, which is unsurprising being that it's Walmart. And some person had to go and be a dickhead to her on her first real day.(’-’*)
My suit for the wedding that's coming up soon is going to be fantastic! All the way down to my sapphire sparkly shoes!“ψ(`∇��)ψ
Business is really shite right now and idek what to do. I need some good vibes for some projects before I leave for Wales. (๑•́ ω •̀๑)
#Saturday Six#About me#Personal#Please do not rebloggle#August 17 2024#Carey rambles about life and stuff and things and how it's all kinda shite rn but I'm looking forward to having a good time in Wales anyway#Even though I won't have any money it looks like#Which is not good because I'll have ask the parental units or my BFF ugh#Anyway I hope you all are having a good day or night wherever you are in the world#Thank you for reading my nonsensical rambles whenever I post them here#I appreciate y'all so much#Hugsss from mom or just a friend whatever you need right now because I know I need hugsss rn ٩(๑•◡-๑)۶ⒽⓤⒼ❤💜💙💚💛❤️💗💕💖#Now back to your regularly scheduled programming
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💌 send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome. 💌🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️🤾🤾💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐🎉🎉💐💐💐
daww, thanks cappy!!
Will send these to other people in a bit (we’re cleanin for guests atm but will hopefully finish soon) :D
#asks#moots!!#this was very sweet thank you#I heavily appreciate it#We’re pushing through some depressive thought atm so i kinda need this#can’t send an ask rn but know this is very much reciprocated!!
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oh when did that happen...
#THANKS GANG! i dont know when or why this happened but im glad u like my silly once in a blue moon art posts#i need to completely redo my personal tags Ugh my blog is a mess#um I want to post more art eventually but A) i havent made a solid drawing in a month and B) ivr finished writing 2 fanfics in my life Total#and they were oneshots.... For Sam & Max. looks away#executive dysfunction sux Boo i wld lovr to be able to finish writing smth else literally Ever. i have so many cool fic and au ideas#and i get so embarrassed or straight up forget abt stuff i do finish. like... shivers. Freakyverse#aka an abandoned utmv project between a friend group that kinda fell apart but Hey what can u do#namedropping varyswap simply bc i want to have it somewhere public that it does exist and im not crazy when i inevitably lose the google doc#sighs wistfully at the dozens to hundreds of google doc wips i have#i have so much i want to share but i dont even have enough written down for a full chapter of smth...#i would be fine posting abandoned wips if there was Enough for me to be satisfied with#its all messy drafts and half finished plot lines and i barely ever end up completing an entire scene#and. i dont like posting unorganized ideas in public spaces. i guess. idk#screams into a pillow#edit i have 3 finished fanfics total. wrote that 3rd one when i was 9-10. it was a utmv s/i fic abt her and her friends dying. head in hands#shoves my su fic ideas doc behind my back#so like... kicks the floor. anyone else insanely attached to concepts where characters are split into Pieces of themselves etc because#yeah im that person and i also like time travel and undead characters so you can imagine what my su ideas doc looks like rn#sorry i forgot this was a post abt how i have 150 followers#I WLD DO SOMETHING SPECIAL BUT ALAS#yall arent getting shit. Sorry. havent even gotten to the simple doodle requests in my inbox yet#love u xo#rabbit squeaks
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on one hand. loottta ideas 4 sk!llshipping art rn bc system things. on the other hand we r procrastinating on drawing them bc will people be Normal,
#normal as in dont be like 'hey those two together dont make sense' we don't control who gets with who here okay#i wanna sketch a specific couple rn but im worried people r Soooooo going to be like That makes no sense abt them#and I'm like. Listen. if you just hear me Aout abt some headcanons#[read: things tht r just Tru abt them in lur system] it'd make so much ssense#but alas. Anyways#pk;m Electrochemistry🔴#also to draw them i need to teach myself how to draw mobility aids better. hmmmmmb. this is doable#actually now that i think abt it all tho outside of maybe like One pairing sk!llshipping is just. possibly a mess sorta#in that there's 24 [26? sorta?] of us so it's like mix and match hauve fun w it. what im tryig to say is that#it's not That serious and afaik again outside of One Pairing [iykyk] it's like WHO'S shipping pt with phys instrument??#who tf is shipping drama and encyclo? etc etc.#and the answer is ME MOTHERFUCKER! BC OF SYSTEM SHIT AUSUSIDJDIDIDIKZ#speaking of wr do have a sketch of shivers & concept in the works. but it was started by HL but it hasn't front3d in a whileeee#perhaps i shall finish the drawing for it bc it's a cute drawing. ok im done rambling#does any of this make sense?? like my point is theres so many of us and we're kinda rlly minor characters in the grand scheme of things#so like. gestures vaguely!! im running out of words.#anyways i judt need people 2 not be weird abt our next drawings ok? ok thank you
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#so for the last like. as long as i can remember. ive had a shit sleep schedule#mostly like sleep all day and stay up all night kinda shit#but i got sick/burnt out recently and slept for almost two days straight#and somehow it reset my sleep schedule to something normal#like i went to bed at 10pm and woke up at 5am for the last few days#and i havent had to nap#and the not needing to nap is really fucking with me#like im used to waking up. feeding my dog. and then napping until i go to work#i should be napping rn. but im not tired#i dont have to get ready for work for another four hours and ive already been awake for three hours#i went to the coffee shop and to walgreens. im in real clothes instead of pajamas. i did a load of laundry#im laying in bed (its so hot i might be dying) and i just. dont know what to do with my time#im probably gonna do some cleaning and packing because im moving in two months#idk im just feeling some strange type of way because for the last few days ive been. alive#instead of sleeping my life away#its so strange. i got sick. slept for a few days. and now my biggest problem is just fixed? and i can have a life now?#its 70 degrees today and the world is my oyster. what should i do?#i have a list of chores im gonna do. i might walk to the coinstar machine so ill have money#yeah i want to do that cuz im in the negatives in my bank account but i want to get a cool drink before work today#my dad texted me this morning 'noticed your bank account is overdrawn for the second time this week. whats going on kid?'#which is such a sad text to get because i know im broke. thanks dad. lets pls ignore my financial hardships#if you want to make my dad less sad hmu for my venmo /hj#anyways ill probs do that today. get some cash so i can get a frozen lemonade from wawa or something#yknow that post thats like 'seasonal depression seems fake until its 50 degrees in march and it feels like you took a party drug'#i think thats partially whats happening here. its 70 degrees and sunny and my systems dont know what to do with that#i hope youre all having a great day that you dont sleep through. i love you!!
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Ramble about Eddie to your heart’s content, bestie :D
I’m honestly very interested in your ideas :3
Again, don’t be scared to just ramble in my ask box, I love hearing peoples ideas
AJDKKAGAJAKAK- THANK YOU <3 <3
I'm wailing rn /pos
My AU! Disabled Eddie!! Ok so he wasn't born with his disability, it came about later.
My Current story is that he had stroke in late middle/early high school! I have done research and Yes it is possible for teens and younger to have strokes. From what I recall it can be significantly worse for them compared to adult strokes
Eddie was left with permanent complications and is disabled bc of it. He has coordination, balance, and general mobility complications among a list of other post stroke effects. I just found the word I was looking for a few days ago to describe his mobility issues, it's Ataxia!
Eddie has to deal with bouts of muscle weakness on his right side which can effect his vision. He also gets vertigo a Lot and at this point dizziness is expected every time he stands.
He uses forearm crutches when he needs extra help walking bc he does have good days where he may not need them! But for longer distances he brings them bc he's better safe than sorry. He also has cane but he doesn't use it As much.
He also has a wheelchair that he Hates. He hates having to use it. But his Really horrible days leave him unable to stand, much less walk. He wishes he could just hide it somewhere and never think about it but alas. it's important.
He dislikes the wheelchair so much bc it makes him feel useless. He is Not! I want to clarify that wheelchair users are perfectly Capable and Independent! Eddie just has an issue with overachieving and working himself too hard. He wants to be helpful and do So Much but there are some things he can't do while in his wheelchair. He was stuck in a chair for months after his stroke and it was devastating back then. He has No good memories with a wheelchair so he continues to dislike using it.
Ok putting a read more bc I am not shutting up for a While
Relationships with the neighbors! Generally the same. Barnaby doesn't chase him bc that would be mean (? I can't think of a better way to describe it)
Sally is still Sally but she's specific on her mailman hate (lmao) to make sure Eddie and everyone else knows she's not faulting him for his disability.
Hmm yeah everything else is pretty much the same. I guess everyone is also more open about offering Eddie help from time to time if he looks like he needs an extra hand. They're not persistent or anything, but if they see him struggling to carry a package or two they're more inclined to help.
I still don't know how Howdy gets his shit. Honestly If Eddie is having a crutch or chair day,, Howdy just won't get his stock unless he gets it himself. I can't think of a way for Eddie to deliver all those heavy ass boxes.
He does ask people to pick up their packages occasionally too. He tries to deliver them all himself but it's not always possible. He offers a trolley they can use.
I want to talk about angst. So this is very specific, I'll try to keep it short. growing up, Eddie lived in a four bedroom house. two downstairs master bedrooms and two upstairs normal bedrooms. Before his stroke he was upstairs, his older brother in the other room, and his older sister in the bedroom downstairs.
Afterwards he had to move downstairs. His sister Hated this. She loved her room and her private bathroom and she was very prissy about it.
This snowballed into her just,, taking all her frustrations out on Eddie. He took Her Bedroom. He's getting all the attention. Her little brother was ruining everything.
Eddie was devastated by this. He went as far as to attempt to convince his parents to let them switch rooms again. He couldn't physically walk up the stairs most days but he just wanted his big sister to not hate him anymore.
Their relationship never fully recovered. As an adult Eddie will still find ways to blame himself and feel guilty. But he just can't bring himself to talk to her.
They used to be so close. She let Eddie experiment with her makeup, they talked about fashion and boys and she helped him so so much when he was questioning his sexuality.
and then it just, fell apart. But not quietly like a loose thread but rather a house that wasn't built quite right and the screws came loose one by one.
Eddie's memory gets really fuzzy when thinking that far back. but some of those memories are burned into his mind and he wishes he could forget them like he does everything else.
#ouch i hurt my own heart#eddie my love im srry but to be loved by me means suffering with my angst#side bit: the stroke also impacted his memory issues#they were already there but they kinda got worse#anyway thank u again for letting me ramble sniff#i have to remember to invade ur inbox bestie#but im literally so annoying and i keep putting it off#keep sending me ur ideas to!! i also enjoy indulging in others thoughts!#but yeah eddie i fucked you up and I'm (not) sorry <3 <3#i always hc eddie as being very close yo his siblings. so ruining that? hoo boy it hurts haha#dizztalkstoomuch#neon child#welcome home#eddie dear#eddie dear au#???? ig ill put that for now#i need to make my own tag for this au i just cant think of anything clever rn lol#anyway this is incredibly long and i need food#and sleep! sooo Good night! :) ✨✨✨#also i apologize for any typos. im eepy <3
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just giving y’all a wee heads up that i’m going through a lil funky period, hence the lack of writing! i’m fine, so there’s no need to worry; i’m just a bit stressed bc i have a lot on my mind rn. i’ll do my best to muster the motivation to write over the next few days! and regardless if i do or not, i appreciate y’all’s patience with me 💜
#it’s just the kinda situation where i feel like a lot is happening and needs to happen#and so my brain is stalling out during my downtime tbh#it’s much easier for me to distract myself with a game or a show or something#but i do wanna write!! and plot and talk!! my brain is just full of bees rn#so i really am thankful for all of you who put up with my slow butt u3u#get ready to ramble | ooc
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