#I just want to sleep and be in a coma
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the-sappho-of-lesbos · 1 year ago
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Got overwhelming depressed so I bought tea
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thetangibleghost · 2 months ago
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I think we might have trauma tied to the literal feeling of falling asleep/waking up. Like we get nightmares that are just. The feeling of changing concousness but drawn out + adrenaline + terror
#this may be from sleep paralysis? because we also get that sometimes#also sometimes when falling asleep we get like a rush of adrenaline and if we're far enough along well get shot into sleep paralysis or#start half dreaming about being woken up from a coma or dying.#which like 99% of the time is what we want? but then these things hapoen and its like. huh. maybe i DO have a will to live#it feels less like me or another alter and more like the body literally things its dying.#this happens both sober and intoxicated but doesn't seems to happen more frequently when intoxicated which is interesting#if anything its usually easier to push through#but one time we were like super fucking stoned with my ex and i started flipping my shit because im chill like thag#and so he took me out to the car vecasue i was like “i cant be in the house snymore its not safe i cant be here”#and he leaves to go get something and im like terrified to fall asleep#it gets worse when im scared sometimes. like a certain type of fear its like horror feeling.#anyways so im trying ot to pass out and im convince if i do ill never come back and my ex enters the car and i start screaming. like bloody#murder. and then HE screams. so then were both screaming. and eventually one of us stops screaming. and i dont remember which one. and i was#like :( im sorry that was really embarrassing but also im still so scared im sorry#and he was like 'its chill.' and then he goes to get another thing later and hes like Dont. Scream. When i get back. Dont Scream.#and i was like . okay 👍🏼.#and then he got back and i screamed. but it was easier to stop that time#and then his mom drove us around the neighborhood and i convinced my self that the whole world was just a figment of her imagination#and that really helped for somereason#so.#this kinda got away from me but basically i had one of those drawn out consciousness change night mares last night#dream log
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im-still-watching-anime · 11 months ago
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i remember breathing oxygen once….it was nice hope i get to do that again some day
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haliaiii · 1 year ago
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Oc posting pt 1
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windamp · 9 months ago
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people joking after characters want to sleep after a coma "haha didnt you just sleep for weeks?? why are you tired?"
what you dont know is that after i got outta mine ive been perm tired like my body misses the sweet eternal rest of induced coma drugs
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micamicster · 1 year ago
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tell us about your why you were sleeping au! specifically why that movie?
Hi! thank you so much for asking 🥰
There were a couple of reasons why i was drawn to that movie for these particular characters, and I think the first was the complicated and frustrating but still loving sibling relationship. I think the first thing where I recognized like, the seed of a story, is that scene where bill pullman sits in his brother's hospital room and is like I loved you and I was proud of you and I never envied you until now. I actually think my version is a lot sadder and more serious in tone than the movie is just because the idea of your sibling being in a coma is so painful to me i can't keep that from leaking into the writing, even when the premise promises romcom shenanigans sorry guys
The second thing that I found really moving about while you were sleeping was sandra bullock's portrayal of this very lonely woman. Idk how to explain it but I loved the way that her loneliness is depicted it's my favorite part of the movie! I particularly latched on to the idea that she observes these strangers on the train every day and really genuinely loves them because she's so lonely. Which leads me to the last thing I wanted to pull from the movie, which is the trains. I love the subway and i was so inspired and excited to sort of take that imagery and run with it--there's wayyy more trains in my version than the movie haha
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sk3l3t0n444 · 1 year ago
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i have a headache :(
#i wanna go on a walk but my anxiety is through the roof and my head fucking hurts and i just want to sleep#im so fucking tired#i really want to go out but my fucking head hurts#my fucking head hurts and im so pissed off at everything rn#i need alone timeeeeeeee#i really need alone time#and some quiet#and a shot of tequila tbh#anyways#im gonna try and not lose my fucking mind while i lay in my bed and try and ignore the sound of the electricity#im so fucking done with everything tbh#everything is falling apart atound meeeeeeee#i just fucking hate my body ngl#like to the point where i feel like people would like me more if i was a pile of gore on the ground#idfk#im sorry#im a fucking mess rn...i just want to turn back time or fucking sleep until everything is ok#i would like to be put in a fucking coma please#yk just wake me up after this hell is ove#wake me up when im ok again...wake me up when the world finally gets its shit together so i can get my shit together#i wish life was nicer to me...#im prolly just gonna take a nap and then go on a walk...or ill just rot away in my bed all day...#idfk i just wanna go home...but i am home...i know when i want to go home i usually am longing for comfort and shit you associate with home#but like i just want to go home...home to my brother home to my loving family home to my dogs#yk? like i am home right now but i want the feeling of home back...the feeling of love in a place that is just our own...this place seems...#idfk...almost feels empty...like im in an abandoned house and watching all the memories in this place replay over and over...#i feel like im laying in the rubble of everything...#idfk...im just sad for some reason and i dont fucking know why...#it feels like im a ghost in someones memories of this house...
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running-in-the-dark · 1 year ago
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I've set myself 10 alarms so there's a tiny chance I might wake up early enough to somehow get this shit done today. I would bet that I still won't hear any of them, sleep for at least 12 hours, and then feel so fucking awful that I don't get anything done, though :)
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mathilaerke66 · 1 year ago
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sometimes i realize the only difference between a coma and how i spend my time is that i can flip myself
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dead-believers · 18 days ago
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i lied actually im perfectly fine. im completely normal
#voice of a guy whos entire life is spent caught between rising and falling mental stability#reassurance that i wont be abandoned makes me cry#being told someone is proud of me makes me cry#the concept that someone could miss me is just outside of my understanding#ive been ill longer than ive been healthy#i cant remember the last time i woke up feeling rested#ive never woken up with the feeling of “oh that was a good sleep. im ready to face the day”#im never ready. every morning is empty#im a gutted fish. im a dissected frog#i am baring everything for the chance of attention#i would livestream hurting myself if i thought itd get me attention#if i thought itd make people care about me#pain is penance. pain makes up for me being alive. im not even meant to be alive and ill never get over that#not in the sense of “you were an accident”. more in the sense of i am not meant to Be here. probability-wise#miracle baby ends up terribly depressed and frequently suicidal#there are so many times i should have died#ive had. what 3? near death experiences?#2 i know for a fact really Should have killed me#and part of me is. kind of disgustingly glad it didnt#i am a hypocrite i know#im terrified of death#and in reality i dont even want to die. not really#not in the way people think when you say suicide#a coma maybe. thats what im after#i want to try and fail#i want it to hurt#i want to hurt. i want to be in pain so maybe itll fix me and itll make up for how i am#ive been thinking about it and wondering if i could hire someone to help me with it#the whole being in pain part of it#ideally itd be someone i CARE about. or ADMIRE. or LIKE doing it
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ccrv-7 · 1 month ago
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i know its probably just me doing a backwards slide mental health-wise but god. i really wasnt built to be in this world
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abyssinalphantom · 1 month ago
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Everything is hitting me at once emotion wise and I am not vibing Scoob.
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gay-caesar-truther · 3 months ago
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Hm I cant decide if I want Brutus to sleep be a fidgety sleeper (constantly shifting, moving, making little noises, etc) or a clingy sleeper (Cannot sleep well unless he's buried under blankets, and has something to cling to- be it a pillow, his dog, or person).
I know for a fact he's a light sleeper, and can sleep just about anywhere including the floor (though he won't sleep well on the floor, but can and will just curl up for nap if the situation requires) AND his ass snores
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analogboii · 4 months ago
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i feel like im the only person who has ever burned their hand on a fucking walk in cooler. who the fuck does that? how the hell does that happen? its a fucking nevera
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floral-hex · 7 months ago
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So this is my thing now, I’m afraid to go to sleep. This is kinda bullshit, brain.
#I feel like I’m going to die when I fall asleep#see… I’m afraid you think I just mean I’m scared of death#no no no. no. I feel like I’m suffocating. I have to force myself to breathe. my body tingles (in a bad way). I get really overheated.#I get dizzy and feel like I’m going to pass out from lack of air. I feel sick.#I haven’t slept much lately.#I’m miserable alllll the time. I can maybe force sleep with super exhaustion but I’m drained no matter what#this isn’t the first time it’s happened but this is the longest it’s gone on#from that my anxiety is now blanketing everything bc I’m so tired and scared about not getting to sleep#sickening anxiety. I feel like puking or passing out. and I got hit with some heavy (but thankfully short) virtigo yesterday#terrible terrible terrible#and seriously. anxiety. so bad. I’m constantly trying to get high right now to fight it but it’s rough#getting high is starting to make me feel sick too. and my tolerance is building. it’s like… it’s all bad. all options.#I hate this.#AND it’s the weekend and my new primary can’t see me until Wednesday and then I’ve got to beg for… I dunno… the good stuff#god. I told myself I’d go see my doctor about this a couple of weeks ago when this last hit and I didn’t 😓#ideal scenario: all doctors fall in love with me and medically induce a short coma for me to catch up on sleep and then they give me drugs#this new doctor doesn’t know me! I haven’t laid enough groundwork! how am I supposed to beg for klonopin if we have no banter!?#that wasn’t a joke. I mean it was but it’s also serious. I need some GOOD anti-anxieties and he doesn’t know me enough to know I NEEDS IT😬#also my tinnitus is just… no sleep + stress means it gets stronger and it’s… a fucking wet willy shoved through my ear into my skull#and if I hit a bad patch of virtigo… I will… redacted.#I won’t! I will go running crying and screaming in the street before I off myself.#HEY! my insurance says I can get 30 days in-patient and I always keep that thought in my bad pocket.#*back pocket. I’m not about to go back and start redoing tags because of a few misspellings#this is so rambly#my brain is fried! I’m tired! my appetite is fucked! I don’t want to do ANYTHING!#I mean… I never want to do anything. I love being lazy. I should say that right now I CAN’T do anything. but I can. but it’s… a lot. fuck 😔#this must sound so whiny. I’m sorry. I’m sure I’ll be making more posts like this until this goes away#you can ignore this#text
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phoenshire · 11 months ago
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chapter 3: in which eli is burnt out and done giving even half a shit about his job, social life, and life in general
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