#I just realized I am replying these all on the wrong blog but I'll just keep it going.

[lightsoutnaway]

Pile Up

PAIRING- Lando Norris x gn!reader (they/them pronouns)

SUMMARY- After a pile up during a race Lando asks to have you on the radio. You get nervous about Lando's career after realizing how dangerous it could be.

WARNINGS-none

WORD COUNT- 1,892

AUTHOR'S NOTE- New blog and first f1 fic. i don't know how much i'll be posting but i need to get my f1 obsession out in writing.

You were sitting in the McLaren lounge watching as Lando drove around Monaco’s track. You always loved the home races. It meant you got to go home to your own bed after Lando secured his win. Lando was in third, behind Lewis and Max. The race was tight, everyone piled close to each other at every turn. Max made a move for first at a tight corner. Lewis tried to push him out, turned too hard, and spun out. Max’s car followed suit, being thrown into a wall. Lando drove past Max’s spinning car before you watched him collide with Lewis and slide into a wall. Then the video feed turned away from the cars, suddenly focusing on the grandstands. You rose without a word and started running towards McLaren’s garage. One of the McLaren security guards tried to stop you, but you pushed his arm off you and he didn’t have the heart to go after you. You found yourself in the garage, everyone turning to see your very loud entrance. You looked at Zak. 

“Is he okay?” You cried out in question. A camera was turned on you. 

“Yes,” Zak said. “He’s stuck in the car.” Zak turned back to the computers and spoke into the headset. You stood in the back of the garage hugging your arms around yourself and listening intently to everything Zak was saying. 

“…Yeah, they’re here…Not now, Lando. Let’s just get you out of there…Yeah, they are, but—Yeah. Alright, Lando. Hold on…” Zak turned away from the computer and walked towards you. He pulled his headset off as he approached. 

“Lando wants to talk to you,” Zak said. Your eyes widened and you took the headset from him and pulled it over your ears. 

“Lan?” You called into the microphone. You could hear him grunting in pain. 

“Hi, love,” he replied. 

“Lan, what’s going on? I’m scared. I’m not supposed to talk to you on the radio,” you said. 

“Just want to—ah—hear your voice,” he said, gasping between his words. Your eyebrows were furrowed together as you heard your boyfriend gasping in pain. 

“Lando, are you hurt? What’s wrong?” You asked, tears starting to slip from your eyes. He didn’t answer. “Lan?” 

“I’m not hurt,” he managed to get out. 

“Lan, why am I on the radio with you? What’s wrong?” You asked. 

“The car’s on fire. And I can’t—ah—get out,” he said. You looked up at the pit wall. Zak was on a new headset. 

“Two minutes out on back up fire support,” he called over the headset. 

“Would—mm—Would you all mute except y/n?” Lando asked. 

“Lando, we need to be in communication right—” Zak started to argue. 

“I’ll tell them if I need you back on. I want a minute alone,” Lando said firmly. Zak pursed his lips. 

“Alright, everyone off.” You watched as everyone began pulling their headsets off. 

“Lando, what’s going on? Why are you doing this?” You asked.

“I love you,” he said, as if that were such an obvious reason to have you on the radio—an unprecedented occurrence in the McLaren garage. “I want to be with—mmpf—with you right now. Even if it’s just—ah—over the radio.” 

“Why? Tell me what’s happening,” you begged. 

“You’re the best thing—agh—that ever happened to me,” Lando said, ignoring your questions. “I loved every second.” 

“Lando, are you trying to say goodbye?” You were crying. 

“I’m—mmpf—I’m okay, love. It’s going to be alright,” he said. 

“Don’t say that,” you whimpered. “It makes it sound like it won’t be.” 

“Fire support is thirty seconds out,” Zak called over to you. 

“Just hang on, baby,” you begged into the headset. “Zak says they’re almost there. Just hold on a little longer.” 

“I see them, love,” Lando told you. “Get Zak back on for me. I’ll be back soon.”

You signaled for Zak to put the headset back on and you watched as everyone in the McLaren garage simultaneously moved their headphones over their ears. Andrea was immediately questioning Lando, and instructing him how to keep himself protected while they got him out of the car. You stood with your arms wrapped around you waiting anxiously. After a few minutes the chattering on the radio had ended. Your heart was racing, terrified of what that meant. A safety car pulled up to the McLaren garage and Lando climbed out of the passenger seat. Lando searched the back of the garage for you, striding quickly across the garage to wrap you in his arms once he saw you.

“Lan,” you whimpered. 

“I’m alright,” he assured you. “Totally fine.”

“I was scared—the way you were talking—I thought—”

“I know. I did too,” he whispered into your ear. Your hands were digging into his suit as you cried into his neck. “But I’m okay.” 

“I can’t lose you,” you whimpered into his neck. 

“You’re not gonna lose me, sweetheart,” Lando said. He didn’t call you ‘sweetheart’ often. It was a nickname he had never used outside of the house before. The change felt serious to you. He would call you ‘sweetheart’ when he was comforting you. He didn’t use it any other time. 

The next few hours felt like a blur. The rush of fear seemed to have let time drift by you. Lando was checked by the medical officers. He did his press. He had his debrief. You were back at his place before you even realized it. 

“You alright?” Lando asked when you stood motionless in your bedroom. You turned to look at him, as if broken from a trance.

“Yeah, I’m alright,” you said. “Just tired I guess.” You quickly changed into your pajamas. You got into bed, immediately scooting over to Lando and laying your head in his lap while he sat against the headboard and scrolled on his phone. His empty hand immediately went down to your hair, running his fingers through it. 

“Have you been on twitter since we got home?” Lando asked. 

“No,” you said. “Something funny?” 

“No,” he answered. “People are talking about what a sweet couple we are,” Lando said. You tilted your head to look up at him. 

“Did we get caught making out somewhere?” You asked. Lando laughed. 

“No, you muppet,” he said. “They think it’s sweet that I had you on the radio.” 

“Oh.” You said. Lando raised an eyebrow. 

“What’s wrong?” He asked.  

“I just sort of wish that nobody else heard that,” you said. 

“Just because they heard it doesn’t mean it wasn’t just for you, sweetheart,” Lando said. 

“I know, Lan,” you assured him. He reached down to your chin, turning your head so he could look into your eyes. 

“Nobody is a part of this but you and me,” Lando said. “They don’t know about us.” He smirked as he said it. 

“Did you just make a One Direction reference?” You asked. 

“Maybe,” Lando said with a mischievous smile. You rolled your eyes. 

“So genuine,” you chuckled. Lando wound his fingers with yours. 

“I’m serious though,” Lando said. “They’ll never really understand how we feel about each other.” You smiled and reached up with your free hand to cup his cheek, gently pulling him down to kiss you. 

“I love you,” you told him when he leaned back. 

“I love you too, baby,” he assured you. You hummed before turning back to lay more comfortably. Lando smiled as you fell asleep in his lap. For the next week you were always by his side. Lando was on break but he still had practices with Mclaren and you were there at every single one. You would barely leave Lando alone. He loved it. He had always felt like he needed you more than you needed him. It was nice for him to feel like you couldn’t get enough of him. He was laying on the couch one evening when you curled up with him. He decided he should finally ask you about it. 

“What’s got you like this for the last two weeks?” Lando asked as you snuggled into his side.  

“Like what?” You asked. 

“All cuddly. Usually you make me beg you to admit you need me,” Lando joked as he started dragging his fingers against your scalp. You were quiet. Too quiet. Lando stopped moving his hand and craned his neck to look down at you. “Baby? What’s wrong?” 

“I’m scared, Lan,” you admitted. 

“Scared of what, love?” He asked. You sighed. 

“That pile up in the last race,” you said. Lando’s eyes softened. The look on your face when he walked into the garage had been more terrified than he imagined you could ever be. “I just—I guess I never thought about how dangerous it really is before.” Lando pulled you up so you were lying over his body. 

“I’m sorry, love,” he said. “I promise you that I’m always driving safely.” He pressed a kiss to your forehead.

“I know, Lan,” you told him. “It’s just scary now.”

“That’s why you’ve been coming to all my practices,” Lando said in realization. 

“Yeah,” you admitted. “I’ll never forgive myself if something happens to you and I’m not there.”

“Nothing is going to happen. Everyone in the crash is alright. Lewis got the worst of it and he’ll be back in a month,” Lando comforted. 

“He got lucky. You got lucky,” you said. 

“The cars are safe, love. You know the engineers are good,” he reminded you. 

“You’re going over two hundred miles an hour in a box made of carbon fiber filled with gasoline,” you said. “So much could go wrong.” Lando sighed. 

“I know,” he said. “But there’s nothing we can do about it.” You hummed quietly at his words. Lando knew what it meant immediately. “Baby,” he started to protest. 

“I didn’t say anything,” you defended. You knew what he meant too. 

“I can’t quit. You know that,” Lando said. 

“You could. You just don’t want to.”

“We need the money if we want to keep living here,” he said. 

“Lan, you know we don’t really need this whole house,” you pointed out. He sighed. 

“What would I do then? If I didn’t have racing?” He pushed. His voice was flatter than it usually was.

“You have Quadrant,” you reminded him. Lando’s hands had stilled the patterns they’d been drawing on your back. He took a deep breath.

“Love…That’s not the point,” Lando started to argue.

“I know you’re not going to quit, Lan,” you stopped him. “I would never ask you to quit anyway. I know what racing means to you.” 

“Oh.” Lando was expecting a fight when you started talking. Everyone else who had this talk with him had always told him to quit. 

“But I thought you were going to die so I can still wish you would quit,” you said. “At least for another week.” Lando smiled softly down at you.

“Okay, baby,” he said. He kissed the top of your head. “That’s allowed.” 

“Promise me it’ll be okay one more time,” you asked in a whisper. Lando heard the worry in your tone. He heard the fear. He heard the way you needed him. Even if he didn’t really know–even if his job was just as dangerous as you feared, he knew what you needed to hear.  

“I promise, sweetheart. Nothing’s going to happen to me. I’m always going to be with you.”

[tgmsunmontue]

What to write weekend? 6-9th Feb 2025

I have four days ahead of me with no social engagements, just household chores, baking, gardening and family time. And WRITING.

Most of you know what to do here, however for the newbies to this blog - so that I spend time actually writing rather than just day-dreaming about writing, you can reply to this post, send me an ask (anon is on), or a DM - choose up to three letters/numbers from the blog's PINNED POST, or I have once again copy/pasted the ones I'm most interested in working on below. I will write 150-200 words per letter/number. I am aiming for 5k/day for the next 4 days.

Tracking is here for those of you that like spreadsheets.

Am working on the last chapters of Season to Taste, From the Top and Never Knew I was Missing You but you can still ask for them as well.

(Hopefully removed the tags from the people so they don't get notifications!)

1) Sagas of Solitude 18/21 - IceMav with side Hangster AU - angsty Nepo!Baby Bradley Bradshaw who has to keep his relationship with Mav and Ice a secret when he starts at the USNA. Featuring married Ice and Mav (but not to each other). Prologue He Remembers and Lonely Nights are both set in this verse. (Last updated 24th Jan)

2) Season to Taste 41/42 Celebrity Chef Bradley and Naval Aviator Jake Seresin who have a relationship spanning the globe before they realize how tightly bound they are to one another. Heading into this little world. (Last updated 31stJanuary)

A) Upon which our souls touch - 8/? - Hangster Fantasy AU (Last updated 1st January 2025)

B) Never knew I was missing you - 8/9 - Hangster AU with Jake a naval aviator and Bradley and A-list Hollywood star. They meet on a dating app. Famous and cat fishing that isn't cat fishing because online relationships are rife but...? (Tumblr idea) (Last updated 27th January 2025)

C) The Jake hits on Bradley at Ice's funeral AU...

D) IceMav with unknown about children because the US Navy is evil and produced offspring because of genetics being a THING. (Tumblr ramblings)

E) Cyclone/Maverick - Cyclone is struggling to deal with being attracted to the most annoying person he's ever met. Why does he like him so much?

H) From the top 5/6 - an Ice/Mav epistolary fic where Jake and Bradley matchmake them, not realising exactly who it is they've matched together. AU divergent ish. (Last updated 25th January 2025)

K) Caring, Keeping and Collecting Transformers - A Guide - 13/?Transformers cross-over for help me @yeagrave is 110% to blame for me adding this... (related to this post) (Last updated 25th January 2025)

L) Hangster Sports Team AU with Hangster being ex-es (like stood up at the alter type exes) and the trade deadline coming in hot and Bradley being traded in and all hell is about to break loose... Ramblings and more here.

S) White hot - 3/? Jake is a blacksmith and artist and Bradley is a high school history teacher. (This will be a one shot on AO3 but I'll post it as it is written here). (Updated 27th January 2025)

T) A picture is worth 1000 words - 7/? - Hangster post-TGM events, Jake and Bradley becoming friends on Instagram through increasingly competitive thirst traps. (Tumblr post) (Last updated 4th February 2025)

U) Tracing Poetry with your lips - 4/? - Explicit Hangster - Jake vs Bradley kissing competition with no touching (tumblr post from @iprefervillains) (Last updated 24th January 2025)

V) Actual fleshed out "wrong number" AU from @caystar13star

W) The amnesia fic if @the-ace-with-spades doesn't mind me absconding with another of his ideas.

X) Bradley is a guy who lives for fun jobs and Jake the architect who builds him a castle...

TGBB) A mystery fic that won't be revealed until October but you can still make me write it. I just can't share any details. But it'll be complete and over 20k.

[ladyaldhelm]

Get to know your mutuals!

Thank you for tagging me @bilbotargaryen! 💖💖💖

What's the origin of your blog title? I am replying from my sideblog, which I use as a dumping ground. My main blog is @lord-aldhelm and I think the title needs no explanation lol! I made it to be a repository for all things Aldhelm. This side blog (which functions as a main I guess) is like, Lady Aldhelm, as in Aldhelm's wife.

OTP(s) + Shipname: Aethelflaed x Aldhelm (Aldflaed)

Favourite colour: So I have two: purple and green/teal. It depends on my mood and how it is being displayed. Like for clothes I prefer purples and blues. But greens: turquoise, jade, teal, seafoam, sage, forest, emerald, these colors soothe and calm me.

Favourite game: A toss up between Chronotrigger and Zelda: Ocarina of Time. (and yes I realize I am aging myself here lmao)

Song stuck in your head: Right now, U2 - "One"

Weirdest habit/trait? As @bilbotargaryen said listening to music and daydreaming. But also something that I used to do A LOT and haven't really done in a long time is walking/running and daydreaming.

Hobbies: Drawing, painting (although I do this as my job too), writing fic and poetry/prose, making gifs, collecting things (seashells, stones, pine cones, stamps, coins)

If you work, what's your profession? I am a full time professional Pet Portrait artist. Although with everything going on right now I need to pick up a part time job very soon.

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Realistically? I would love to be paid to make gifs lmao! Seriously I think doing animal rescue and rehabilitation.

Something you're good at: I am so ridiculously and meticulously organized it amazes everyone around me. I cannot be any other way so just deal with it lol

Something you're bad at: Socialising (I'll keep that prev), anything society related honestly (same)

Something you love: Writing, reading, drawing, making gifs (same as hobbies I guess)

Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: Animals, veterinary medicine, Aldhelm, The Last Kingdom

Something you hate: So so much wrong with the word rn and ever day I wake up something new and scary is happening and I feel like I may have to leave my country.

Something you collect: I listed these under Hobbies but: stones, pine cones, shells, animal figurines (especially wolves), stamps and coins (although I have not added to those collections in many years)

Something you forget: PEOPLE'S NAMES FFS

What's your love language? I know that the love language model is deeply flawed and one needs all love languages to thrive. (<PREV) But quality time and acts of service are big for me.

Favourite movie/show: I have a few and cannot decide which is my absolute fave so: For TV show it is hands down The Last Kingdom. For movies: Lord of the Rings (trilogy), Princess Mononoke, and Dark Crystal. Don't make me pick between them.

Favourite food: This changes depending on my mood (and my dietary intolerances), but right now it is Orange Chicken from Panda Express.

Favourite animal: Wolf! 🐺

What were you like as a child? Weird, imaginative, creative, loner, marching to the beat of my own drum.

Favourite subject at school? Biology and art

Least favourite subject: History... I love history but HATE HATE HATE how in school they make it so DRY with memorizing dates and place names and people, like. So many interesting things happened and we have to memorize like Battles and shit. So boring!

What's your best character trait? That I am very optimistic and usually do not hold a grudge.

What's your worst character trait? I can be impatient

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? Financial stability...

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? No one honestly. If I could travel back in time I would want to see animals that are extinct right now, like the Thylacine, Dodo Bird, Carolina Parakeet, or Falkland Island Wolf.

No pressure tags:

@gemini-mama @thelettersfromnoone @thenameswinter99

@bagheerita @solinarimoon @errruvande @paula-in-dreamland @aneurins-barnard

@waterfallsilverberrywrites @holy3cake @whitedarkmoonflower @lady-wyrd

@grinningkatz @ladyinred2248 @hikaruchen @st-eve-barnes @alexagirlie

[secretchery]

Convenience Store Run ✨

B day present for @rizzkisworld (yes I made a whole new blog just to post this cuz I was nervi..)

annoying mf:

i miss ayouu :[

y/n:

i saw you yesterday anton

what do you want?

annoying mf:

nothing really just wanted to talk wyd?

y/n:

me? oh i'm talking to my annoying best friend 🙂

annoying mf:

wow, you really know how to hurt a guy's feelings.

imma go cry in a corner now... :,)

y/n:

aww little ant got his fe fe's hurt :(

annoying mf:

ok wow i hate you..

y/n:

oh please, you're in love with me and everybody knows it 😒

annoying mf:

please, just because i call you cute all the time does not mean i like you.. besides, everyone knows you have a big fat crush on me not the other way around lol

y/n:

really?! where'd you hear that from?

annoying mf:

eunseok,

he said you're head over heels for me and can't stop talking about how cute and handsome i am 🤭

y/n:

wrong.

he must be confused, if i was talking about anyone being cute it'd be wonbin 🤨

annoying mf:

see, now you're clearly lying because no one is cuter then me :|

before you can reply your mom knocks."hon, can you head to the convenience store down the street and get my favorite treat? i'll pay you~" she asks, peeking through the door at you, you were about to say no until you heard the 'pay' part, then all of a sudden you couldn't say no.

"sure!, sweet mother of mine i would be most humbled to oblige~" you reply quickly, as she nods and leaves the room. you then remember you were talking to shinyu and look back at your phone.

annoying mf:

see, now you're clearly lying because no one is cuter then me :|

y/n:

haha very funny,

anyways you want to meet up at the convenience store near my house?

annoying mf:

sure, i can stop by,

but what for?

is your mom out of her favorite snack again??

y/n:

yes, but i could also use something, plus we could get some snacks and watch a movie at mine 🤭

annoying mf:

that sounds fun,

i'm down, meet you there in 15?

y/n:

kk!

-

you began to get ready, throwing on your favorite hoodie and some sweats. Putting on your shoes you leave the house, on the walk there you think of what to get. the minute you get there you pull out your phone, scrolling as you waited for anton.

he thought it'd be a great idea to scare you, so he slowly sneaks up on you, shouting as he grabbed your shoulders, you yelped spinning around to look at the suspect, before hitting him for scaring you.

"that was so not funny anton!"

you scolded him as he just chuckled. "oh, come on it was kinda funny!" he says grinning ear to ear.

"you jerk! i swear if you ever scare me again i'll knock you out!" you said half joking half not, "wo-" he tries to speak but you cut him off " zip it. let's get these snacks and head back to mine to watch that movie!" you said pulling him into the store.

-

"okay, what snacks do you want? It'll be on me because I'm feeling generous today!" you exclaimed sarcastically, you were feeling generous but only because you knew he'd treat you right back 10 fold. (/j kinda...) also because the money you'd be using isn't yours it was what your mom gave you. "woww, what possessed you this evening??" he jokes, as the the two of you browse the store looking for the snacks you both wanted.

"ugh! Do you see my moms favorite anywhere?" you sigh out, you swear you did a walk around the whole store trice at this point, "yeah, it's right there.. like that entire time, you've walked past it like ten times." "AND YOU DIDN'T SAY SOMETHING!?" he laughs as you hit him grabbing your wrist gently to stop you.

"i just wanted to see how long it'd take you to realize lol" you deadpaned, "you wasted my precious time.." you glared at him very angrily but he only chuckled more, "my bad, my bad! Please don't kill me." he says between laughter.

"Whatever, let's go you're so annoying-" "you know you love me!" he cuts in smugly, you just glare walking over to the register to pay.

you put the snacks on counter as the cashier starts scanning them eyeing you two suspiciously. "is there something wrong?" you ask weirded out, "huh- uh! No! No.. you and your boyfriend are just so cute together i-" "we are not together!" you cut in startling the poor worker.. "o-oh! i'm so sorry- I just thought so from the way the two of you were acting, I'm sorry again!" The older lady continued apologizing. "nah, don't sweat it, we get that a lot!" anton says laughing trowing a arm over your shoulder lazily, and pulling you closer slightly.

-

after paying and that awkward situation you both started walking back to yours, there was a comfortable yet awkward silence in the air neither of them speaking up.

"Gosh, why does everyone think we're dating!" You exclaimed huffing, "haha, right! because who in their right mind thinks two hot baddie best friends could possibly be dating?" "are you being sarcastic?" you ask glaring, "of course I am, we're hot! we look good together.. so it only makes sense." he nudges you with his shoulder playfully, a dopey smile on his face.

"you're a idiot." "but i'm right, aren't i?" he continues and you couldn't help but giggle, "yeah, yeah you are.. I guess seeing two hotties walking around together would give anyone the wrong idea-" you relent, going along with his words, "i'm the hotter one though!" you finish, your house coming into view as yall got closer.

"you are.." he muttered under his breath mindlessly, you stopped in your tracks and stare at him in bewilderment "w-what did you say?" "Hm? what are you on about?" he mentally facepalms himself for letting that slip. "you agreed to me being the hotter one.. no funny back talk?"

"damn, my bad then.. you ugly as hell. there is that better?" he asks looking away from your shocked face, trying his best to hide the blush slowly growing on his face and ears. "your ears are red.." you teased, "s-shut up..."

he mumbled with his face in his hands.

"hmm, I don't know, but it seems to me like someone has a crush!" "yeah? and who would that be?" he shoots back, still hiding in his hands. "you obvi! I was so right about you liking meee." you mocked (though you were blushing just as hard if not more than he was,) "bro shut up, you're so annoying.. I swear.." he groans and finally looks down at you.

"good thing eunseok didn't lie." "a-about what??" he eyes you confused still blushing slightly, "about me liking you? please get with the program anton." you chuckled and rolled your eyes sarcastically.

"oh- wait WHAT!!? you like me?!" his eyes shot up to scan your face for any indication of this being a joke, but not finding any. "holy crap, i've been waiting for this day my whole life." your eyes widen before you burst into laughter, "your whole life really? please anton you're such a loser!" you couldn't stop laughing at the poor guy, anton steps forward and leans down towards you.

"hopefully your loser?" he asks expectingily, "yeah, you can be my loser.." you murmur "good-" he whispers before connecting your lips in a sweet yet despite kiss, like he'd waited his whole life to get a taste of you.

-

Bonus :D

you two are cuddled up on your couch watching your favorite movie for the ten millionth time together, "question." "Mhm?" You hum telling him to continue, "did you mean it when you said wonbin was cuter then me?" he asks like it was the most serious question know to man, looking down at you. "anton.. unsubscribe from your subscription to life."

End.

It’s lowk so bad but I’m not a writer lmao I tried my best, I hope you still like it tho 🥹 HAVE THE BESTIST DAY EVER MWAH I LOVE YOU ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡

also I was going to just send this on disc but.. I forgor there was a limit for no nitro 😬 and I did not want to spam lol

Anyway I love you always Maya!!!

[bloggingboutburgers]

hi! so, uh, I wasn't really sure where to send this, but you seem nice and (hopefully) have some advice. I'm aroace, specifically sapphic-oriented cupioromantic ace, and I think I have a squish on this one girl. or maybe mesh? idk. all I know is that I really like her and want to be close to her, I think the word for me is alterous attraction? or maybe platonic or aesthetic, because I think she looks really cool too. honestly, I'm not really sure what the heck I feel :') could be a crush, squish, mesh, or just wanting to be friends. uhh anyways, I'm not really sure what to do about it. idk, I guess I want to become closer to her?

anyways, sorry for bothering you. basically I was wondering if you have any thoughts on what im feeling, what I should do, and also maybe how you and your qpp got into a qpr with each other? if u dont mind.

oh! and congrats on you engagement, your 'no one can know I dont like sex' comics make me smile and also have helped me figure out myself! thanks.

Hey!! I'm so sorry I'm replying to this ask so late T^T Kinda buried myself in other projects of let myself get distracted for this blog for a lil while... Either way I hope I'm not too late TwT And don't worry, you're not bothering at all!! (Also thank you so much for the kind words, they mean a lot TwT)

I guess... Whatever you do about it is up to you honestly, as vapid as that probably sounds of me! Heck, maybe you've already taken some steps since writing to me too, late as I am...

I also don't wanna put a label on how you feel, because it's a very personal thing, but I'll say – honestly you don't even necessarily NEED to put a label on it, not yet or not ever (whatever works for you), if you're not sure how to call it. The most important thing is if you're vibing with what you are, besides that you don't owe anyone any explanation. Though I guess it's also understandable to want to know what to call it if you're gonna bring it up to her... But also (maybe I'm naive, but yeah) I think there's nothing wrong with just sincerely saying you don't know how to call things yet either, even to her. I feel it'd be fair to both of you still, personally.

As far as me and my QPP, I didn't do anything – they were the one who realized they had a squish on me and took all the steps originally to get it going 🙈 Which they told me was definitely nerve-wracking! But yeah, their handle is @civiart if you want to reach out to them too for more advice, or they can also answer further questions here on my behalf, they told me whichever is fine with them^^

But also in case it helps, I've actually drawn how it went down for us here in the past, and I tried to elaborate a bit on my own experience of a QPR here and here!

And sorry again for being late TwT I wish you the best though!

[yooniesim]

(Reply to an anon about the current situation below!! Nothing triggering I think except suicide bait mention, but just in case)

Anon, I will not block you since you seem to be trying to be kind and also sound like you may be young, but I'm sorry- I will definitely "call someone names" when they behave like he has towards me & others. There is a time to baby people and take the "high road" and there is a time you should be able to make your frustrations known. And I want you to realize that it is very frustrating when you reply to someone that has been awful or bigoted to you, and someone comes around to act like you shouldn't be upset, that you should be calm instead, should just be quiet. It's extremely invalidating, it sweeps bad behavior under the rug, and it makes other people hesitant to speak about their experiences. That is not me. It's not my responsibility to curb MY reactions because someone else "won't change" if I'm being too "hostile" towards them. Why is that burden always placed on the person that was hurt? Why am I obligated to be kind and give grace to someone that has told me to kill myself, liked posts calling me an antiblack slur, called me plenty of "names" himself, brought my late father into unrelated matters, and harassed myself and my friends? I won't. I refuse.

This also certainly won't ruin anyone's life- let's be honest. No one is going to give a shit about this, because it isn't paywaller focused "drama" or anything entertaining or fun to circlejerk over. It isn't something everyone can safely laugh at and make memes and shitposts about, so it'll be ignored. Just look at your dash- do you see much of a peep about this compared to, say, harrie's paywalled christmas tree? Do you see every account on simblr throwing in their two cents and reblogging everything about it the way they do making fun of paywallers' cc, or reblog discourse, or any other random meaningless drama of the week? No. He'll keep having a presence and being a complete asshole and posting his awful cc to make money off of, don't you worry. Worst comes to worst, he'll just delete and remake. He did it all the other times people spoke about his behavior, and he'll do it again now, until the next group of people he harasses comes out with a record of their experiences. But I'm not going to forget about it. Sorry, but I won't. There's too many red flags there, and there's too many good people on simblr that don't deserve to walk into that blindly.

Also, I want people to stop painting 21 year old adults as minors. Y'all do realize that 21 year olds have jobs, bills to pay, spouses, children, voting rights, etc? He is not a child. Do not make excuses for him. Saying that he'll always be immature to me because of his age is flat out wrong- I know many people in their early 20s that are responsible, mature, and respectful. They also know how to have clear boundaries with others (including children), and would balk at the idea of behaving like he does. They would be insulted and embarrassed by the idea that this behavior is normal for a 21 year old, and if you are that age, you should be too. He may be younger than me, but he's old enough to affect the people around him. And if he's immature now, he certainly won't get any MORE mature by having those around him handwave his irresponsible and harmful behavior. His weird friends may play that role for him, but i will not. He loves to talk about personal responsibility, so i will too- it's not MY responsibility to help him change for the better. I can't control that. But I can use my own voice about matters that are important to me on my own blog, and I'll continue to do so. And by the way I've gotten to talk to other people affected by this, and told they were also uncomfortable but too afraid to speak up about it, I'm very glad that I have.

I understand your perspective, nonny. I used to have a similar one myself- I couldn't understand why people were getting mad and calling the people I liked "names", why they were trying to "ruin their life" and just being so mean. And even after I became an adult, I wanted to give people chances, and I believed that simply being kind would change the minds of awful people. Sadly, I've learned the hard way that it usually doesn't. At least not with people that show a pattern of bad behavior over a long period of time, like with this person. It just makes it easier for you to be hurt over and over again until you finally give up. There have been times during this that I was struck with a strong feeling of pity for Xian and wanted to try appealing to him emotionally, but every callous reply or nasty comment I saw from him in response to even neutral words told me that it would be a waste of my time and emotional energy. I even tried just ignoring him completely, but that only led to him continuing to attack me, and then attack others in the community unrelated to me. Being angry won't change him either, but it WILL warn others and give a voice to those who feel like they can't have one. That's what I care about, more than any perceived retribution- I know well by now that no matter how awful a person is here, they will be lifted up and allowed to continue being awful. "Cancel culture" does not truly exist. Especially not in the sims community. He will be fine, but the people around him may not. And that's who I want to continue to be there for. I hope this makes sense to you, nonny.

[hymemena]

Incorrect Quotes Sentence Starters

Feel free to change pronouns as necessary, and remember to specify muse for multimuse blogs. Some of these are from a generator and some are original from me.

CW: Suggestive, Swearing, Self-Deprecation, Witchcraft

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"I don't hate you. I just said that you can't be trusted with or without supervision."

"You sure are pronouncing horny wrong."

"My life isn't as glamourous as my wanted poster makes it look."

"I know what a prism is! It's where you put bad people."

"I would never say that my partner is a bitch and I don’t don’t like them. That’s not true… My partner is a bitch and I like them so much!"

"I'll never be a cop. I'm gonna have to be a robber."

"I'm a nice person, but I'm about to start throwing rocks at people."

"I am so horny and angry all the time."

"Woah dude, premarital hand-holding? That’s just not cool or groovy."

"Pose as a team because SHIT JUST GOT REAL!"

"Pros and cons of dating me. Pros. You'll be the cute one. Cons. Holy shit, where do I begin-"

"Capitalization is the difference between "I had to help my uncle Jack off a horse.." and "I had to help my uncle jack off a horse..""

"I'm a witch. I mixed some herbs and crystals together and now my cat knows the f-word."

""What are you into?" is such a broad question, like do I reply with a TV series or choking?"

"I’m the sexiest bitch in this therapy waiting room."

"Sometimes, I don’t realize an event was traumatic until I tell it as a funny story and notice everyone is staring at me weird."

[dearweirdme]

that jkker responded to you!

https://www.tumblr.com/jeons-catalyst/753758801558208512/hello-i-am-a-taekooker-who-doesnt-lurk-in-other?

Hi anon!

I’m not really interested in a back and forth with a Jkk account (though I realize I called this upon myself by making that first post 🙈). I'll reply to you, but I'm honestly not going to entertain this back and forth, because like that blog said, we are just not going to agree and it will become a back and forth with no end. I've spoken about Jkkrs in detail in the past, my opinions haven't changed, so people can easily search my tags if they're interested.

Because it’s a Jkkr, I’m not really that interested in their opinion. I have no doubts about Jk and Jm not being together, and in my opinion Jkkrs in general are wrong in their ideas about Jk and Jm and I think they are pretty wrong in understanding Sk culture, the music industry, closeting etc. The above mentioned blogger isn’t really an exception, even though they speak kindly of Jk and Tae’s friendship. They are still wrong about the nature of Jm and Jk’s relationship. And why would I put much value in someone who is in my eyes just plain wrong.

What they do, is describe the history of jm and jk’s friendship and i have no problem at all with that. It gets a bit weird when you directly compare moments of that friendship to another pairing (Tae and Jk). No matter how you turn it, both that admin and I would be comparing a romantic relationship to a best friendship.. and that is like comparing apples to oranges. Jkkrs have all these moments that they enlarge and make into this huge romantic story... but it's moments that they have been given by the company mostly (yes I am absolutely not refuting that.. it is obvious, and it is silly to even try and act as if that is not a business choice.) That does not mean that those moments are fake, but it means that there have been choices in editing made. A company will always show you what they deem is most interesting to watch and what will give them the most positive outcome. Admin says we don't see much of Tae and Jk together because they probably aren't together that much... but when we then do see Tae and Jk together outside of company content (HS show being clingy) it's only because it's something fun they do. The asumptions are huge. Admin only knows what Jk and Jm are like because they have been told though mostly company content.. and other members. Which brings me to this..

Suspecting that Tae and Jk are together, for me comes with the believe that when BH found out about them they tried to hide their relationship. I truly think that’s the reaction all Sk music companies would have to there being a queer in band couple. Had there been an actual romantic relationship between Jk and Jm.. I am convinced they too would have been hidden… but they clearly weren’t ... as is being portrayed even today (which is not my sole reason for not believing they are together btw). It’s easy to make fun of Tkkrs or to ridicule us even, because ofcourse there is a lot of vagueness and there are indeed things that we do not understand and that might possibly be weird. I cannot emphasize enough that we are possibly/probably talking about two men in a closeted relationship here though.. and there is an element of cruelness when you mock the possibility of that and what that entails. Closeting isn’t the ‘oh, just don’t kiss in public’ fluffy kind of closeting that some Jkkrs seem to think it is. It is cruel and it comes with extreme measures. It comes with actively hiding stuff and with lies at times. Ofcourse you are not going to see a ‘normal’ version of a relationship take place (whatever normal might be to you). There are plenty accounts of western artists having been closeted, there is no doubt in my mind that a Sk music company will be extreme in closeting their artists, and there is little doubt in my mind that for a long time Tae and Jk had no choice (except for leaving the company and their careers with a huge amount of debt) but to adhere to that. Is it nice to have to think about them keeping things from us and to think of possible lies and manipulation… absolutely not! But it is a reality for many queer people in which they are not to be blamed or ridiculed, because they haven’t got a fair choice. Talking about a closeted relationship automatically comes with vagueness.. that is basically the point. And I understand that to many that makes me and other Tkkrs look delusional, but for me what I see play out just makes sense in how I understand relationships, how I think a queer relationship would be dealt with by BH, and how I understand Tae and Jk and BTS members in general. It makes a whole lot of more sense than to talk about a friendship that is highlighted by the company as though they are a closeted couple. You have to take into account Sk culture and not only when it suits you in case of couple holidays. Queer people have it hard in Sk, and there is nothing to make us believe that BTS members would be the exception to that.

Jkkrs can talk all they want about looking at what they see, but when push comes to shove… even the admin you refer to is quick to go answer ‘you don’t know if they didn’t see each other on Jk’s birthday last year’ when confronted with Jm and Jk not having seen each other then. Many Jkkrs’ responses to the time when Jk and Jm seemingly did not see each other last year when Jm was working in Face was that ofcourse they saw each other.. we just didn’t know about it’ and they might be correct... we don’t know. Just like we have no clue about everything Tae and Jk do that we don’t see. I think they see each other often. I think all members see each other more often than we know of.

Comparing two bonds with each other is silly. It just cannot be done the way that blogger tries. Especially between Tkkrs and Jkkrs, because our sides are just not able to find common ground (except maybe for loving BTS in general). Look at your own relationships with your best friends and your partner.. it’s separate things that easily co-exist. Jkkrs and Tkkrs’ ideas cannot co-exist without butting heads. It’s very much up to what you think is the most likely situation. In my opinion Jkk being a couple isn’t possible, because they don’t act like one and because BH would never treat them the way they do had Jk and Jm been together romantically.

[multiversetravelingjournalist]

It's been a hot minute, hasn't it? Lol. If you read my previous conlanging posts, seen any of my conlang blogs, and/or any of my replies to other conlanging posts, then you might know that I, myself, am passionate about the hobby. However, I don't just want to create conlangs, I want to create weird conlangs. I want to do stuff with my languages that no one else has done before and make them big and epic with a superficial history, give them multiple dialects and registers, and words that have meaning unlike my native English.

However, that was a while ago and I feel that something has changed from that point to now and seeing the above video made me realize that I can still create weird conlangs, they just didn't need to be big and epic in scale. Don't get me wrong, I still want to create quite a few ultra-mondigu languages for my AU settings that I work on. But those same settings/projects could still have smaller relatively simpler ones for minority groups that aren't as advanced and/or widespread as my majority species and people groups. In other words, perhaps allowing myself to create small things won't be as paralyzing by the need for perfection as creating big things would be. I'll have to test that out in the future.

Anyways, just wanted to share this with you all. I might come up with some mini-weird grammars from this point forward and share those with you as well. Or not, lol.

Till next time... ;)

[itsallmouthwashing]

Hi, I saw that you reblogged the ask I sent to the Mouthwashing confession blog earlier this month. The one that ended with me suggesting that Pony Express put cameras on the ships to live stream the bullshit that is happening to billionaires. You said you were thinking about writing about it, did you really start writing something? No pressure, I am just curious! Cheers.

Oh, honestly yes! I need to start properly tagging writing ideas tbh- so I can go back to them lol. But for sure yes! I've been super busy and I wanted to reply to this with a drabble but I'll have to tackle that later. If you want to dm me I can let you know when I've written something :)

In the meantime, have some of my thoughts! I kind of wanted to take a slight Hunger Games approach and have it to where Pony Express and their guests can pay to influence the trip in some way. With that said-

The lay-off notice is actually just the latest bid to influence. How the influences work would be the price gets higher and higher for each influence. Seasoned guests know not to bid too much at once as there would be no room for 'improvement' but a newer guest bid one hundred million to send that notice.

Curly could be the only one that knows about the cameras. One day he finds an abnormal "screw" that's come loose, but upon closer inspection he finds it's a camera. This happens after the notice is faxed over but before Anya tells Curly she's pregnant.

At first he really thinks nothing of it, but another message is faxed over a few hours after Curly finds the camera. Jimmy is in the cockpit alone when this happens.

Same guy had a couple more drinks and was getting bored. He put in a bid for one hundred and one million to send another notice to 'spice things up with the unstable one'

The message essentially states that due to sudden changes (I guess lol), the crew would no longer be getting paid for their haul as Pony Express simply wouldn't have the money

Jimmy :) is fine :)

Lets not do anything rash

But he's in so much debt

This trip was meant to pay off a good chunk until he could find something for in-between hauls. But now he won't have the hauls to lean back on or the money from his last hoo-ra.

When he returns it will be with nothing.

He may as well not return at all...

Curly finds him just as his hands grip the steer and the sound of the door opening is enough to shatter Jimmy's tunnel vision. He notices three cameras instantly. Two in opposite upper corners and one hidden in the control panel. Three little black circles, each reflecting the light in a way that makes them now stick out like a sore thumb

Curly of course notices that something is off when Jimmy turns around and his eyes are too different. It nearly scares him out of the cockpit. But he sits in the Captian's seat and forces Jim to look at him when he asks what's wrong. It's almost a relief when Jimmy resists, looking to the console instead to fixate on the red button encased in thick plastic. Curly isn't sure how he'd hide his emotions in a time like this. With knowledge like this. He can't stop staring at the cameras. He barely notices the sheet of paper lazily stuffed in Jimmy's back pocket.

They talk truthfully. Jimmy admits that he's terrified to go home now, knowing he has nothing. When Curly touches his shoulder and promises they'll figure it out together, Jimmy realizes for the first time that he's not the only one who's going to lose everything because of this trip.

In an ideal world, a pit forms where he realizes Anya has no savings. A crater where Swansea returns home to his family with no job to tie him down but no paycheck to turn over. A black hole where Daisuke simply goes home and tries again.

But he's better than Curly. He can keep a secret until the end of the haul. He can keep this to himself.

[aisquaredchoco]

Hey all, especially to those who left comments on my long post that I hope is the last of that kind...I appreciate everything you've said, and I was proved wrong when I thought I felt invisible during those times. So thank you for that! I'll never leave them unresponded though, but work went a little busier lately and now's the only time to reply to them all..

@kevinvoncrastenburg: "I'm glad you're back! I appreciate your transparency and the way you expressed yourself. I can only speak for myself but I really appreciate you and your content. Nonetheless I see your pov and think you found a healthy way for yourself to kind of slow down a little bit and focus on what's more important to you and the future of your blog. I will always be looking forward to new posts by you. Wishing you all the best and again: You ARE appreciated! 🙏🏼"

-- Thanks for the reassurance, and knowing someone's still looking forward to my stuff is more than enough. I still love my craft, that's why I'm not deciding to leave. I'll get tired, but I won't quit..

@pudding-parade: "I long ago determined that to be a "popular" CC creator, you need to do things with clothing, accessories, and hair. I'm guessing the reason is that some people don't even play the game. They just make sims and then dress, pose, and take pics of them to edit. I've never wanted to be "popular" because, frankly, it's a pain in the ass to have eyes on you and what you're doing, so I guess it's a good thing I never liked doing things with clothing and hair. LOL But yeah, it's just how it is. It doesn't mean that the things you DO share are unappreciated, though. I appreciate your TS2 conversions, in particular. :D"

-- I also figured that simmers I follow spend more time with sims and mostly show CAS cc, so I once thought "why not make CAS stuff too?" but held back because I know making them is more tedious than buy/build. I realized I won't have go that far just to acheive popularity, and of course we know being popular comes with a price. I choose inner peace, so I quit being too ambitious in that sense. Thanks too!

@nornities: "Hm, to me you are "a household name", here as well as on MTS. I'm not sure what makes a creator a household name. I created worlds, well liked by some, unknown to most. Am I a household name? I don't think so. So I think you are right, it's a lot about expectations. But your good health is the most important thing, and that you enjoy what you do (and playing the game). So I'm glad you don't retreat entirely! Take care!"

-- Ohhh...really? Even on MTS huh..*blushes* Anyway, thank you for thinking of me as such. Well in that sense, I think you earn the reputation of being a household name as well! And yeah, as I said I choose inner peace and just enjoy playing (and making cc)..

@nessysims: "You have every right to want recognition. It `s naturally. And I really appreciate your CC! I absolutely love and almost always use your repurposed uni desks. And your wood texture is an irreplaceable thing for me! I use it everywhere and it's my favorite."

-- Thank you for letting me know! It's truly appreciated. And while I have the right to get recognized in what I do, wanting too much of it becomes a problem, so it's a good start if I quit with such mindset..

@curmudgeonness: "Welcome back! I'm glad you will not be leaving. I hope you find the balance you need to thrive here. I'm sorry I don't tag creators when I use their content, but I'M EXTREMELY LAZY. I have stopped downloading S4 conversions. They're generally clunky and don't fit the (my) S3 vibe. I like S3 edits, new S3 functional objects, and S1 and S2 conversions. I always look forward to your posts."

-- Yeah, I'm not leaving. And no, don't apologize. It's fine if you don't tag creators, you're not obliged to do so. I guess I was just expecting too much from people who download my stuff, but do not want to actually force them. And thanks for the warm welcome too..

@puffkins2000: "Yayyy! I'm happy you're back! Honestly, I get the "household name" thing. I guess I sort of tried that as well. I like converting because I want those conversions in my game---and pretty much any other EA conversion. If I see it's not been converted and I have that pack, I'll totally try to do it. I rarely get a ton of likes, but at least if someone DL's it, they wanted it!"

-- Thank you for the warm welcome! Yes, that's the core mindset I also want to have when making cc 🙏. And yeah, I also tend to forget that download numbers also matter and so far I got a fair amount and maybe that's enough.

@parystrange: "To me you're one of the creators who's CC I know is quality, safe, and exactly what I want in my game. I wouldn't worry too much about being a "household name" , I think you'll always have your dedicated users, who love your content, and I personally think that is just great! I use a lot of your stuff, but I rarely post gameplay pics so you, and the other people I download from, rarely see your stuff in my game. But it IS there, I promise! 💕Also, I think the more well known you become, the more the community seems to expect from you, and from what I've seen, it appears to put a lot of pressure on to people. I don't think you'd want that ( I know I wouldn't anyway ) I never see any of my downloads in people's games - I don't have many, but I don't mind if I don't see it, I just hope people enjoy it, and that's enough."

-- Thank you for reminding me that 😊. And you're right, popularity may come with perks, but also with disadvantages. I've seen some unsolicited (and sometimes rude) requests to some popular creators and I don't want to garner that kind of attention..

@gifappels-stuff: "It shows great character and maturity to self-reflect and self-correct 💐 Do not worry so much about recognition... it is very much subjective. Just play (and enjoy) the game, and share whatever comes forth from that. All of us have lives beyond Sims 3, and sometimes, people are just more involved in their own problems and everyday lives. So don't take it personally. Rather, try to take satisfaction from the fact that you created something that brought you happiness 💝"

-- Yeah I'm kinda embarrassed that I had an ambitious mindset back then. I realized there's more to life than overthinking if people really like the stuff I make. Thank you for the words of support!

About the photo: I also got a new kitty! (the orange one) So I made him in TS3 too. Name's Ponkan by the way, and he's very sweet and chatty, always makes me feel better whenever I feel sad or stressed. He and Cloud are getting along in the game but not in real life though lol.

[cursed-sonic-opinions]

Am I likely to sound rude, nosy and very annoying by replying uninvited to https://www.tumblr.com/cursed-sonic-opinions/761501640501182464/here-to-share-my-unpopular-silver-opinions-because?source=share ? Well, maybe, but this has really gotten me. So I'll go with it.

Firstly: that's NOT an unpopular opinion, that's a mainstream opinion, I would bet money that, at the bare minimum, that's the opinion of 80% of the IDW Sonic readers. The unpopular opinion is the one that got blogs analyzing and explaining the japanese material, known by a really small part of the western fanbase, to explain why they consider IDW's take incorrect.

he's just mellowed out because he's matured

Well, this point even could be an explanation, if one of the Head Writers for the comics hadn't stated that he doesn't consider this to be the case in here: https://www.youtube.com/live/Y6N6Yq8XqlM?si=v8SResqGkrGNpdNB (around after 1:01:00 of the video)

When questioned if he knew Silver was rude in the japanese material, the Head Writer said "well, he's not rude in any other media", nothing like "well, he was, but now he's got friends yunno" proving he doesn't think Silver was rude for start, what contradicts the games: he calls Sonic a joke after fighting him (in 2006) and tells Knuckles "I have no time to deal with someone like you" (in Rivals) meaning that he doesn't remember these moments at best or that he never actually watched/played/read them at worst

In either case, his personality (in the comics) didn't change because he matured, but because Ian Flynn thinks he's always been like that.

Blaze says when they get separated that Silver gets insecure when he's alone

What 1) is not supported by anything in Sonic 2006 itself: after realizing they were separated, Silver darts off focused in locate the blue hedgehog on his own with no hesitation, he deadset focus on his mission even when nobody is there and makes no ceremony about facing the supposed Iblis Trigger alone. Note that the only times he doubts of his mission is because another character instigates him to do so (Amy & Shadow) and in one of these he does not hesitate to follow the complete stranger into a portal to an unknown time and then he takes with no hesitation the mission to follow and deal with Iblis, the being that would destroy his world in the future.

And 2) is result of a wrong translation, all the versions I could find of fantranslations of the japanese cutscenes states that Blaze called Silver something like "rash" or "reckless", both traits are very tied to overconfidence, what is very much opposite to insecurity.

I also remember him having some pretty awkward moments in Archie's Silver Age arc

I must paraphrase a previous confession here: Archie is not the main canon, it doesn't matter when talking of the main canon; the games!

The only reason to compare IDW with the games is because it follows, or at least should follow, the continuity of the games, opposed to Archie that created its own, separated, continuity!

Silver goes back to Sonic's time period specifically to participate in Dodon Pa's race

What, by chance, is yet another thing in which IDW contradicts the games, IDW Silver stated in the 2022 annual that he was sent to the past every time, and in the Urban Warfare Silver says he "can't freely time travel", but then in the games, Silver's always been stated to actively choose to time travel to the past or back to his future, just like in TSR's case.

I think Team Sonic Racing exemplifies Silver's behavior when there's no immediate danger.

Indeed, specially the japanese version, in which that scene with Sonic is completely different btw.

Also I think we should remember of the Sonic Colors DS, the biggest threat he faces in there is Orbot and Cubot, and doesn't get involved with the plot, so we see him when there's no immediate danger.

There's also the Sonic & Mario at the Olympic games btw, while not canon, they're still a depiction of Silver when the stakes are lower and there are no immediate danger as well, and better: provided by SEGA themselves

In the IDW comics, the most "flanderized" I remember him getting is when he first meets Whisper.

What then defines his dynamic with Whisper every other time he interacts with her. He's always happy like a kid who just heard they're going to McDonalds when it's about Whisper. It's always him who talks how amazing she is, it's always him who talks how much a honour it is to work with her, it's always always him who talks he will honored to train with her team. Why doesn't she ever do something like it? Why doesn't she ever verbalize how honoring is to work alongside one of the greatest heroes, who is only less heroic, inspiring and determined than Sonic himself?

C'mon, he met Shadow, the Ultimate Life Form, and at most he let him know the truth about Eggman Nega; he met Knuckles, the Guardian of the Master Emerald, and dismissed him with no regret; he met Sonic motherfucking the Hedgehog, a legend in the history books and just complained he was on his way. He worked with these three to save the world and the most he had to say was "Guess this world is in good hands with these guys around" and that WASN'T EVEN TO THEM!

Even with Blaze and all the thing of a friendship transcending the timeline erasure he doesn't help but is somewhat snarky and makes the point to try and showcase his competence when they were facing fucking Orbot and Cubot.

He gets excited because Whisper saved his life multiple times so he looks up to her.

Very funny that he doesn't look up to Sonic motherfucking the Hedgehog, who is a world famous hero, worked alongside him to save the world and also saved him (I could get in the merit that Sonic saved him from motherfucking Infinite, Eggman's masterpiece by the time, while the comics so far only portrayed Whisper saving Silver from a single Egg Pawn, but that's another critic for another day)

He also doesn't get even a third that excited when talking about Espio, even though he was the only who believed him and helped him to save the world from Ifrit, he also doesn't even say a tímid "Thanks" to Shadow when he understands Mephiles' plan, thus meaning that Shadow prevented him from becoming the Iblis Trigger he so much believed Sonic was.

(on another note, maybe the criticism that Whisper having to save Silver's butt multiple times is undermining should have been my focus here and now)

The parts of it that are highlighted changed, but his personality as a whole hasn't changed.

Which is why instead of standing for himself against Lanolin and bringing up that Duo's face fucking shapeshifted and he looked at him smugly as ran away, Silver just didn't do anything, I figure.

Silver is confrontative, he makes the point to appear before Sonic and tell him why he's there in '06, he calls Infinite a liar when they fight (and a bad one btw) in the eng version of Forces (and in the jap version he still confronts him by saying there's hope while they don't give up) and even when Knuckles and Rouge mocked him for believing the Chao could save the world he was confrontative and stated they would thank him when the world were saved, so where's this confrontation when he's left to die, being stared by a smug smile?? Forces is very recent, so if IDW had not changed his personality, this side should have showed given the situation.

Also, another thing is that in the Rivals duology Silver is perceptive, seeing through Eggman Nega's disguise twice and given TSR even suggests he can get a feeling when something is off about someone, he should've been capable to see through Starline's mask and figured he was not a good person even if he didn't look like a bad or crazy person, being more time around friends would never make this characteristic vanish, it would actually make one more capable to identify who is genuine and who's not.

.

[yuseirra]

Thank you so much for the reply I am in fact very happy in reading your analysis it has been a while since I have read such a good take and well thought argument plus looking more into your blog I am fascinated by your posts you are a new fav of mine looking foward your posts about OnK next chapters, I am once again super happy about your reply I love aquakana ;; you do a very good work I really admire your talent it is refreshing and necessary

Thanks anon :) oh, you're so welcome! I went straight to bed after replying to your message earlier, it was nice seeing your ask first thing as I hop on tumblr!/// Aaa thanks for the compliment! ;v;) I could be biased, but I totally mean what I say.

I'm not worried about Aqukana at all because in terms of the ships in onk, I'm looking at a even more complex one right now with a lot of mess being thrown out.

No worries anon, that ship is just too obvious. Things did get a bit messy and confusing in the middle, but I knew it was going to happen and I was excited to learn I was on the right track when stuff like ch 146 and 150-151 happened. That's how I started reading more intently again~ I was following the series, but I wasn't this invested. The one Aqua has romantic feelings for is Kana. It's just.. stated there at this point.

Speaking of which, I "ship" hikaai right? more like I support what's just there... If we compare them to math problems, Aqukana would be like a linear equation, while Hikaai'd be calculus. I believe.. that Hikaai is sorta the advanced question-version compared to Aqukana. When I'm trying to crack that nut, Aqukana is just.. a much much easier question to solve. That's why I don't worry about the former at all. The former is just too clear as day.

Oh, goodness, and I already stepped in with 90% conviction regarding them(hikaai I mean), I don't play a game I end up losing. But this manga is making it so hard for me, I swear. It's super stressful although I realize they're probably doing it for entertainment value and Hikaru was a character we know literally nothing about through the entirety of the story with him being pinpointed as the "evil mastermind", to make it even worse. They gotta fulfill people's expectations about him by portraying him as menacing at least once or twice when he encounters the protags, I get that, but it's such a rough road I signed myself into. I know I have a high chance of winning though.

Fatal and Mephisto is EXACTLY how Hikaru feels about Ai. I'm serious, I just knew it the moment I heard Fatal like the first few seconds in. It was incredible how it felt, it can't be any other way and I have conviction that the author has them on their mind. but GOD, they make me so nervous. This manga makes me so tense. I was worried that I got anything wrong ever since I picked up this series AGAIN for like the past two-three months? was it? because their situation, if I get it wrong, could be deemed as unhealthy and toxic(NONE OF THE "MESSED UP" THINGS TURNED OUT TO BE TRUE, I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD IT ANY OTHER WAY. I KNEW. I JUST KNEW IT WOULD PLAY OUT TO BE LIKE THIS. HIKARU CAN'T DO SH- I look at the guy and he's just... too mild to the point he is naive. Ai chose her man well!!! I swear this has to be where the story will go!!! this is how it will go!! I JUST KNEW!! Just wait okay?? I'm sure I'll be right in the end),

Oh, I'm so sorry;; I really get carried away when I talk about them lately, this is Aqukana we're talking about. The point is, there's nothing you have to worry about the ship or those two who are involved.

I tell you though, I'm serious about psychology and picking up people's emotions. Let me bring up the fact that I major in Psychology AGAIN!!! I REALLY look at these things intently. If I'm wrong, then okay, I guess, but the author should not depict those characters this way if what I predict are to be false. I haven't had an instance where what I predicted came to be too off. I don't think onk will be an exception.

I like aqukana too~/// I'm looking forward to their date in the anime! ;v;) They're the ones who get entire chapters dedicated to their dates, seriously. why would you do that to a ship that would flop if you're the writer, don't worry about them AT ALL. Really, don't worry. I don't feel my take is particularly unique or special. They're going to happen sooner or later.

Thank you!// You're looking forward to my analysis? It's an honor! I wish I DIDN'T need to put out analyses though ;v;... I love putting my ideas out here but I usually do it in the form of fanworks, not words. I didn't know I could talk on and on about something, but I just could not stay still and I guess that's what's been pushing me! Onk makes me so tense and I get relieved when they go on breaks (This applies even after 160. nervous laughs I can draw in "peace", just.. lately, every chapter they have makes me wrap my head so much and I need time to process, I can't do this anymore, HELP ME, it's pain, would have I liked it better if I didn't like this series and its characters as much and cared less? loving something is PAIN) but I will hold out and do my best! 'v')9 Let's have fun together. If the series makes me want to write out how I feel, then I will do just that. I'm sincerely grateful for those of you who tolerate me and/or even enjoy what I could offer!

If something about Aqukana pops up in the story, I'd love to draw them again too!~//They've been missing for some time and they really do need their moment, the author must know too and it will come and happen. This is something I'm sure of regarding this manga. I don't know HOW it will, but I know that it WILL. Believe me on this! :)

[measlyfurball13]

Fanwork creators self rec! When you get this, reply with your five favorite fics/art/podfics/etc. that you've made, then pass on to others. Let’s spread the self-love 🌼

Well, I'm a fic writer, so prepare for an esoteric assortment of fics in no particular order!

I'll open with my most recent, and the one I consider my best. This is a found family hurt/comfort fic starring Team Dark (comprised of Shadow the hedgehog and his two closest friends Rouge, and Omega, for those unfamiliar with the franchise.) Shadow is immortal, nearly indestructible, and saddled with some truly terrible PTSD around the ones he cares about dying on him, and it was interesting to portray that through a narration style I'd never tried before. This was also the fic where I really fleshed out how I write Omega, who is my all-time favorite character in the Sonic franchise. He's the most delightful blend of blunt and violent but also more caring than he lets on.

This one also deals with the unusually serious subject matter of post-mortem care. I remember waffling about posting this fic for weeks, worried that people would think a Sonic fanfic with such a down-to-earth subject matter would be scoffed at. Surprise! I was wrong. Once I posted it, this fic got a ton of positive attention, which I was grateful for.

Next up is a truly strange pick- it's a League of Legends fanfic, yet it's not about Veigar, the character I hyperfixated hard on for a solid year. I like the fics I've written with Veigar, don't get me wrong, but I like this one better. It stars Kassadin, a lone desert warrior who lost his family to the darkness he's trying to find the heart of, and Kai'sa, a woman who was consumed by said darkness but managed to wrestle back control of her body.

I really got to develop a unique character narration for the lead, Kassadin. It's a particularly strong, mature, and unique character voice, one that I enjoyed writing a lot and am quite proud of. I also leveraged some fantastic dramatic irony- anyone familiar with League lore knows that the monster he encounters is actually his long-lost daughter, Kai'sa. Yet his attitude towards that fact continually fluctuates, before ending on a negative-leaning note, something that was very challenging for me to do! (I'm a chronic therapy-speak writer, something I'm constantly working to avoid.)

I think it's underrated. League isn't a big fandom anyway, and I posted this onto an otherwise Veigar-focused blog. Perhaps I should post it on AO3.

I just had to mention one of my famous Sigma Overwatch fanfics on this list. I wrote a shitload of fic for this character, and almost all of it blew the fuck up back in 2019. I was the first person to post fic for Sigma once he came out on this website! (Not this fic in particular, mind you, but I thought that fact was worth a mention.)

Of my absolute deluge of Sigma fic, this is probably my favorite. The rest are good, but are a little simple. This one, though, has the thematic thread of "control" woven throughout it that I'm quite proud of. I also feel that this is the fic in which I captured the morally grey character of Moira the best- her emotions towards Sigma are complicated, but ultimately, she is his superior and the one responsible for a portion of his mistreatment here at Talon. This fic is essentially about her coming to that realization, and I think that's a powerful moment. It's a character dynamic I haven't seen anywhere else in media/fic. I'm proud that I wrote it.

Okay this next one is weird. By all odds, it should be my least favorite work, right? I'm not a romance writer. Doomfist is far from my favorite character. Hell, I'm not attracted to men, yet this fic continues to linger in my conscience as one that I'm immensely fond of.

I wrote it for and to evoke the writing style of the lovely amazing @ow-old-men. Gabe (op of that blog) has such fucking amazing imagery in his fics, and my imitation of that resulted in some of my favorite imagery and vibes I've ever written. I also think it's some rather strong character work- it's a moment where a confident, practically invincible socialite allows the mask to slip for just a second with a stranger.

Particularly, it's that singular moment that the entire fic was based around, the one that I suggested to Gabe in the first place. The idea that one of the proudest and most powerful men in the world would kneel for you without question so that you could kiss his forehead. Idk man, I still remain in love with the vibes of this one, even though it's so far outside the confines of my usual writing.

And finally, to finish this list off, I just have to plug my longest posted fic to date. This is my incredibly niche crossover of two obscure sci-fi shows that have my whole heart. It was also my first true practice at writing a long-form character arc, to which I think I succeeded.

Kitt, the AI from Knight Rider, wakes up far in the future and realizes that his closest companion is likely long gone. Over the course of this fic, he goes from wanting to deactivate to learning to open back up and allow a new person into his life. There's also some good ol' buddy-cop shenanigans between him and Garibaldi, the security officer aboard the space station that Kitt wakes up on, including a particularly fun scene where Kitt helps him cheat at cards.

This fic is showing its age just a tad with some of the writing and characterization of the Babylon 5 characters, but I'm still immensely, immensely fond and proud of it. Writing this fic taught me a lot that I'm applying to my current projects now. I wouldn't be where I am now without this one.

[lost-technology]

Issues of Fandom Past

I am sorry if I am feeling a little jumpy about blocks lately. (Turns out I solved the mystery as to why so many of my blogs are blanked out on some reblogs / replies from a mutual I've seen - the ops aren't doing it, it's because the moot apparently has a privacy setup for only moot reblogs / replies and I just realized it! Tumblr mechanics stuff. I swear, I've been on this site for years and learn something new every day. It's like playing Skyrim...) I think it's because I did run into, a couple of days ago, someone who didn't have my main blocked (didn't know about it) but had this blog / the Trigun blog blocked and I know why. I saw an old name from SPOOOOOOKY fandom-past come up on Ao3 and was all "Oh, I know that name!" and looked at their profile and saw their listed tumblr profile name, which I recognised when I tried to reblog something insightful I saw them say in terms of a '98 episode-review without commentary. And, nope, they had me blocked. I thought they would have forgotten about me or just not know me anymore / not find or care about the new username. Oh, well.

We had beef, like, 20 years ago. Over 20 years ago. This was someone who was part of a friend group in the old fandom I had a lot of fighting with and, ultimately, I came away with it feeling that I was the one who was mostly if not wholly in the wrong. My fighting started with the friend group when a then-friend of mine would antagonise people and then act like the bullied victim when they responded and would then rely on me as a "good friend" and a more aggressive person to fight their battles for them. Well, that's how it started and not where it ended. I got into it on my own with this set of friends and did my own wankery. I got into it with even more people because I used to have what I'll just lay out as "church-views" and hadn't yet accepted / contended with / or even knew it was a term - my own asexuality with mild sex-repulsion and got really pissy about people's ships and kinks in fandom and harped about the "immorality" of putting non-canon kinks into mah fandom! Yes, I was one of THOSE. But we all get older and hopefully wiser. Cringe dies (or gives way to new and hopefully more benign forms of cringe), but is forever remembered. I do remember, at some point, emailing a letter of apology to one of the friends in this friend-group addressing all and it being taken with gratitude, but I still hadn't examined everything that I needed to deal with at the time. I moved on since then, but I guess this is why my guts clenched when I saw one of the folks I used to know popping up again out of the Internet woodwork over on ol' Ao3 with updated fic-sets and on tumblr. I found out about the block when I was testing the waters on a comment-less reblog, in hopes I was forgotten, maybe, that my new username was unknown, or that we'd reached, after all this time, a level of truce. I don't want to try to be friends, but I think it would be nice if people in the old guard fandom could just pass each other in the hall, wave to each other and move on. Enjoy each others' art and insights, even. I see some people pop up from the old guard fandom. I haven't seen any of my old friends so far and have seen people I do not know who were apparently in other parts of the Internet in OG Trigun fandom who talk about it... but there are a few people who I see a name I recognize and gut-clench. No desire to fight because I'm like "Yeah, I was wrong, you were right, I've moved on," but get that clench because I am filled with shame over it all and am reminded of it. And then there's the matter of people whom I'd probably had problems with probably do have new usernames / different usernames on here and it's almost like? I'd like a list? So that maybe we can preemptively block each other so we don't accidentally share from each other and recoil from it if one or more of us aren't ready to clean-slate each other? I'd like to be clean-slated, but that is only something that guilty people want.

[the-haunted-office]

7 and 18!

TRUTHFUL TUESDAY

7. what’s one thing you could improve on?

Well, thanks to you and one other person for speaking up, I am working on improving the flow of my replies better, so they aren't as disjointed between the dialogue and actions of my muses. (/pos I just realized this might have come across sarcastic and it's not meant to be that way! x_x). I am hoping to improve on that, anyway, I'm really trying!

One other area I could improve outside of that is - I think I need to work on focusing more on creating bonds between muses and less on like, storybuilding, at least initially, if that makes sense. Being completely candid, I got used to having to build all the storylines and plots and everything myself over time because it has been a real struggle for me finding people to rp with, and I feel like... in many cases in threads, I've been the one who has to lead the thread. I'm trying to word that as carefully as possible because I don't want to feel like I'm putting anyone down or anything.

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, because I feel like I'm having to lead threads and create storylines all the time, focusing on the bonds between muses kind of took a backseat over time when I really didn't mean for that to happen, and I feel like that might have been... offputting to people, I guess? I don't have proof of that, I don't know, all I know is that I have had a tremendously difficult time getting rp partners and holding onto them and gaining and maintaining traction on my blog, and even trying to get any sort of feedback from people as to what I've done wrong or ways I can improve has been a struggle, so I've been left trying to self diagnose and this is part of what I could come up. I don't know if it's even close to the mark, but it's what I've got. I want to try to focus more on building relationships between my muses and other people's muses.

Sorry that was long-winded, but there it is!

18. what’s your favorite trope?

I think found family has to be my favorite trope, at least that I can think of off the top of my head! I just love the idea of a group of misfitted individuals coming together and seeing the light in each other, and caring for one another and just choosing each other where they were rejected everywhere else. I feel that way so much about myself in my life so the trope feels really personal and warm to me. It's been something I've treasured as far back as I can remember, beginning with The Land Before Time. And actually, that movie is a huge part of this blog too, in the background. Littlefoot and his friends' journey to the Great Valley, how he lost his mother and how she guided him to the Great Valley, all the danger, how the world around them changed, the found family trope, just all of it. It's a beautiful movie and means so much to me, I'll treasure it forever.