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just another one of those times where you make a new online friend and then have to live through the “but I am I texting you too much and actually driving you insane” phase
#ugh I don’t know why this stresses me out#like it’s not high pressure#I have plenty of friends#I have wonderful online friends even#but for some reason#every time I’m just like#oh right I’m really fucking annoying#sorry I forgor#like I’m just now getting over that somewhat#with other online friends#(hi guys ily and hope I’m not annoying)#(but it may be too late for you to stop putting up with me anyway)#d speaks#it’s a rant#sorry friends
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It's not totally clear here why Dave's dream self appears to be already awake while his real self is also awake. I think we must infer that his dream self is in some sort of "waking trance" where he's technically awake but too preoccupied by certain things to be considered fully awake.
thinking about jade being lonely as hell on her island and going to sleep waking up on prospit and seeing john (not knowing his name yet) asleep plagued with the creepy dersite doll dreams with the scary teeth and just aughhhh
and she’d like overhear the white queen talk about the dark kingdom derse and the prince(sse)s of the moon that are there and trying to attract as little attention as possible jade would fly out there through the medium because shes so lonely. and she’d go to the purple moons’ towers. she’d find a girl is sound asleep in her purple robes and bed. but the other kid on the moon she finds is awake! except… not really. more like in a trance state. awake but not conscious. but she likes to hear whatever garbled stuff this triangle-speced boy has to say
the trip is long but jade visits this boy a few times since he’s the only non-asleep person like her she can interact with face to face. he usually seems lost in his own world, usually listening to music or talking to himself about stuff that doesnt make much sense. when she’s deprived of sapient affection she’ll touch him in small gestures like holding his hand while he listens to his music and he’ll squeeze back instinctually, and it helps her experience a microdose of the human connection. maybe he doesnt get much in the way of sapient affection either. when she hears The Horrors of the furthest ring another dream headset pops into existence for her to listen along with him and they listen to whatever music hes making. who is he
#homestuck#hs#dave strider#jade harley#davejade#kinda#just for visibility#idk theyre probably like 9 here#havent met yet at that point probably#a year or so later john introduces her to an online friend named dave#she asks about his hobbies and he sends her stuff hes working on#the sorts of music he sends her feels familiar#she feels compelled to learn from him and collaborate#hmm. i wonder since this free association dream dave is more id-influenced#if he composed crystalanthemums from his dreams with jade. because it sounds sweet dreamy and wistful#because it originated from dave in freshjamz#like waking dave i mean. because hes awake but like. subconscious dream dave channeling stuff#and he’s like. huh. whyd i feel compelled to write that damn#and he found it and was like “oh hey i dont remember even making this one its from a couple years ago Crystalanthemums.mp3”#and jade is like “wow dave this is really pretty!!!! i …… dont know why….but i have this feeling that i should be remixing this!”
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I feel like ? I gotta remind people it’s ok to unfollow a blog when it upsets you in any way >> like if I ever do that sure, you can let me know if it was anything I did personally I’d appreciate it but if you just don’t enjoy something it’s ok to unfollow ;w; can’t stress enough how important it is to put your mental health first 👌
#pix habla#fnaf#✨💖 even if you don’t like frogs and I post about frogs does that make sense#i see some yall not liking some of the stuff I draw and just kinda wonder ? why you still follow lol#i won’t take it personally#even if it’s a mutual heck I’ve even told my friends to unfollow if they ever need a break from my blog =w=👌#because It’s nothing personal >>#i used to ok so funny story xD I used to follow a friend in middle school on social media#and we were good friends but had nothing in common in what we posted about =w=#like she loved Beatles fanfics (don’t ask do not ask idk I didn’t read past the titles)#and i loved sonic :v#and like#thats aigh ? you don’t gotta ? follow a blog that doesn’t bring joy no matter if you’re close or not#i would honestly hate it if I’m making anyone upset or unhappy#so yeyeyeye I’ve said this before in other fandoms but like >>)✨✨💖 put 👏 your mental health 👏👏👏 FIRST ALWAYS👏#Stay safe y’all ✨👌 have fun be free#we’re all just… sitting here… online 😔 ain’t nothing to it
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do you ever think about how all you used to draw when you were 10 was ponies and that you should still know how to do that, then get an idea and proceed to draw something like these in nearly one sitting and it turns out better than any drawing you've done in the entire past month
sooo anyway does anyone have cutie mark or pony name ideas for them?? lol
#(the b girl lineups are older than a month because i procrastinated a lot on doing minor fixes. nothing i drew in the month of june 2024#is really worth showing it's all shitty doodles lmao)#bnha#class 1b#mlp#?#yui kodai#setsuna tokage#itsuka kendo#ibara shiozaki#(i love how she came out in particular! creature :3)#reiko yanagi#tikto's art#you may be wondering why pony of all people isn't here.#i did draw her! but i kind of ran out of steam so i ended up not really liking the result lol same for kinoko#anyway shoutout to elementary school me i was SO obsessed with mlp. brony stuff was one of the first things i used the internet for#and you know what. i wouldn't say it ruined me it was a pleasant experience#i just read what was basically a polish version of equestria daily and constantly checked the deviantart profile of one (1) specific artist#that i liked a lot#i did watch some weird speedpaints (yknow the horror ones) but i honestly dont remember being very bothered by them i just liked the art#i was just chilling there lurking and never actively participating due to being 10 and afraid of online strangers (good for me tbh)#i remember having an identity crisis though because can i really call myself a brony if i'm a little girl? the target audience of the show?#lmao anyway i would also draw ponies constantly and write oc fanfics (and the ocs were actually my irl friends ponified)#and i even had my own little g5 concept. good times good times#tag story time over god bless enjoy your day
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i Headcanon that all the third years are in a group chat.
⚠️English is not my first language⚠️
Warnings: I'm not good at writing Idia's lines because I just don't understand what slangs he's using (maybe it's because I'm bad at English), so it might be OOC or I simply won't put slangs ♡˖꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱ And I used the translator for Rook's french messages, so there might be some mistakes.
(twst + Oc)
If you want to know more about my OC, you can click here!
Vil: has someone seen Rook?
Vil: it has been 2 entire weeks since I last saw him
Trey: and you're asking now!?
Idia: F
Cater: x2
Bella: @ fairer-than-you I'm sure he's alive
Bella: he's Rook after all
Vil: that's not reassuring at all
Leona: that's why I've been so happy these weeks
Malleus: I wasn't informed that you knew what happiness mean, Kingscholar.
Leona: shut up lizard
Leona: who the fuck let him here?
Malleus: Bella cordially invited me into this 'group chat', it has been delightful.
Leona: we need to talk about letting weirdos here Bella
Bella: ok
Bella: I guess I'll leave then
Bella: 😔💅🏻
Leona: what!?
Bella: you called me weirdo one day, so I must leave
Leona: that was months ago!
Bella: I'll never forget it
Idia: lmao to think that the one who drinks women respect juice called one a weirdo
Malleus: what does 'lmao' means?
Lilia: it means that you're laughing a lot, Malleus.
Lilia: I think I know where Rook is.
Lilia: *sends photo of Rook in a concert*
Cater: woah!
Cater: that's a Neige LeBlanche's concert!?
Cater: I didn't know he had tickets for that!
Cater: I should've asked him #not fair
Idia: isn't that concert in the other side of Twisted Wonderland?
Idia: how did he even managed to get out of school!?
Idia: just asking
Bella: sure, it's not like you want to get out of here to lock yourself in your house
Idia: exactly
Leona: he should just stay out of NRC then
Trey: there you have him Vil
Trey: it's good to know he's safe
Malleus: it seems a very nice place he's in
Cater: and it's!
Cater: the best photos are taken there 🥹!
Trey: Vil?
Trey: @ fairer-than-you?
Bella: ooooooh
Bella: Vil hates Neige
Bella: I'm sure he's planning 100 ways to kill Rook
Bella: and then bring him back to life
Bella: and then kill him again
Cater: @ fairest-of-them-all send a tutorial
Leona: X2
Lilia: X3
Bella: X4
Malleus: I thought you said that unaliving people was bad, Lilia.
Lilia: I mean
Lilia: YES, it's bad, but it's always good to learn something new
Leona: but make sure your ugly face is outside of the flame
Vil: excuse me, my face is NOT ugly
Vil: maybe it's your lack of intelligence that makes you think like that
Vil: carrot, tell the headmaster I'm taking some days off
Bella: why me?
Vil: you shouldn't have answered if you didn't want to
Idia: btw
Idia: Ortho wanted to invite you all to play table games
Cater: does that mean I'll be able to take photos🫣!?
Idia: I'm only doing this for Ortho
Idia: and phones are not allowed
Idia: @ Caycay specially yours
Cater: #depression time
Malleus: my my, an invitation?
Malleus: I'll be there on time
Lilia: I won't be able to assist
Lilia: I've promised my online friend to play with him
Trey: @ Idia I'll bring food
Trey: Ace will surely eat it all if I don't anyways
Idia: do as you like as long as it doesn't affects my life
~Idia is offline~
Lilia: I take that back, Gloomurai told me he's busy tonight, so I guess I'll go with all of you
Leona: I'm busy too
~Leona is offline~
Malleus: the kitten seems to be lying
Lilia: who taught you to call Leona that?
Malleus: Bella
Lilia: @ Henchman 😏?
Bella: no comments 😏
Rook: mon amis!
Rook: I beg you to help moi!
Rook: 😭
Trey: did something happen!?
Trey: Vil is taking some days off, he'll be there in no time
Rook: @ Tray-of-tarts, non non, Chevalier des roses, it's not like that
Rook: Roi du Poison just sent me a text and it said: "enjoy that little concert while you can, Rook, let's see if you're still smiling after I catch you"
Rook: though I admit that seeing Roi du Poison in a state of fury and anger is an appealing image
Rook: I would like to live a little longer
Bella: F
Bella: should've thought twice before going to Neige's concert
Bella: don't worry, I'll bring fresh flowers to your tomb everyday
Rook: Trickster!
Rook: S'il vous plaît aidez-moi!
Bella: @ Hornton could you help him please?
Malleus: if it's you the one asking, of course I can
Cater: wow, everything is so cheesy now
Cater: how about we leave the romance for later and talk about tonight's pajamas party?
Trey: but Idia said it was a games night
Trey: it doesn't mean we can stay there.
Lilia: I'm sure Idia won't care
Lilia: I got matching pajamas for everyone!
Rook: @ tomato-vampire ooh, show us, show us
Trey: weren't you begging for help before?
Rook: but that was in the past, Chevalier des roses
Rook: now, please, show the matching pajamas
Lilia: *sends a photo of him wearing a pink one piece pajamas*
Lilia: I found them on sale!
Lilia: isn't it cute?
Rook: oh! Beauté! Full marks!
Bella: don't they have it in red 👀?
Lilia: no, but that's the best part!
Lilia: we're all twinning!
ending this now because it's getting to long 😋
#They're very good friends (I really want them to be (灬º‿º灬)♡) even if it doesn't look like it#Idia doesn't have a nickname because he doesn't want to stand out and his other nickname (Gloomurai) is reserved for games#Malleus managed to get Rook before Vil did#so he's safe (for now)#Trey didn't find the desserts he put in the kitchen#Ace and Deuce got collared after being caught devouring them in their room#Idia was the one who wanted to invite them to his room#but found it cringe to directly ask them#Ortho almost called the nurse when his brother threw the phone at the wall after sending the invitation#Leona ended up going because as I said before in this post they're all friends ( ˘ ³˘)♥ He's just a tsundere#Everyone wore the matching pajamas and of course Cater was allowed to bring his phone and take photos#Lilia didn't know that the sale included a total of 100 pajamas#Crowley is now wondering why there so many boxes with pink clothes in his office#And no Idia and Lilia still don't know about the real identity of their online friends#twisted wonderland#Third years#malleus draconia#lilia vanrouge#leona kingscholar#vil schoenheit#rook hunt#Bellatrix Mirrorheart#trey clover#cater diamond#While writing this I was so scared that I might have accidentally forgotten about one character#eah oc#eah x tw#twst oc#twisted wonderland oc#Twst
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aegon/jaehaera/daenaera ot3 au just moved to the tippy top of my list due to the fanartist whose art inspired it being driven off of twitter by deranged team black stans who are mad they like jaehaera, there's no explanation for why Those People constantly mock actor's appearances and deride other's fanart other than that they are not only too talentless to draw themselves but also depressingly ugly and taking it out on other people
#personal#anti team black#hotd fandom#you people are DERANGED#like the comments i've seen on rhaenicent art just because people are inspired by emma d'arcy having short hair#or rhaenyra's CANONICAL ISSUES SURROUNDING GENDER AND FEMININE GENDER ROLES#(like the show flopped on it but it's there it's canon)#whatever happened to just scrolling past things you don't agree with??? online etiquette is fucking dead#i mean honestly are team black people so pathetically insecure that they can't like things unless there's outside validation for it#cuz i can still like daenaera even if others don't as i am normal#i have mutuals who don't like daenaera! mutuals i talk to and consider friendly if not friends!! but we're normal!!!#so it doesn't fucking matter!!!#god i hate team black fans literally the pits of fandom forever no wonder people don't engage in stuff online anymore#it's become so much more toxic in the past five years alone
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Sometimes i feel like shes just doing her best to not let me have a good day and i just . I dont know man
#She just. Stresses me out so much all time and now its doing the im sooooo evil and hate her so much bc . I dont know . Im trying so hard to#have a good day besides everything and today she decided to be jealous of my online friends bc im so happy when im talking to them and not#to her . God i wonder why#I dont want . To eat or get out of my room i dont want to do anything anymore i just wish i could be alone for a while#This happens so often and im so tired#vent#And i can just tell that shes going to be angry with me the rest of the day bc of this . I didnt even say anything i was drinking water but#didnt give her enough attention while doing that i guess#I dont knowwww man i dont know
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a few Carlos moments from the 2024 Azerbaijan GP
#carlos sainz#charles leclerc#autumn posts#so many insta moments saved!! and most this quality hehe#not HQ but still I fawn!!#the middle especially AHHH his lap 😵💫 ok!!!!#hoping to do this more to share what I have in the backlog that I haven't seen here yet tho totally could've missed someone posting these!!!#I know I talk about it a lot in the tags but ahhhh I'm usually at work 🙃 kinda have a super unbalanced relationship with my job#but it means I'm usually so behind on the dash and there are so many incredible fics I cannot wait to read!!!!!#so many things I miss#thank you everyone for sharing what you create ❤️#and thank you for your patience with me as I catch up!!!#like literally no one is putting pressure on me haha but I do it too much to myself!!#always feeling like I'm running behind but I know that's not how fandom works!!#it's wonderful to pop in and share whenever feels best!!#anyways tl;dr I'm hoping to catch up more soon and just hella thankful for all the kindness here ❤️#I worry way too much (as evident!!) and slowly finding balance where I can have more time to do what I love in life#anyways it means a lot to ramble here!!#I'm a single pringle usually alone in my office or the apartment (except blessed weekends with friends! and stressful work events hehe)#so having this space means so much to me!! and to all the online spaces where it can feel like a little respite#and there is still so much to see!! (I've not even seen dts or Carlos and Daniel's vlogs like!!!! woah!!!! so much!!! 😵💫 but also 🥳)#I've only seen a few of the Don't Blink episodes!! and some races from the past so far!!#and cannot wait to be yelling over fics soon omg the premises I've seen!!!!! AHHHHHH I always want to comment so you'll be hearing from me!!#but now back to work (for just a little longer!!)#hoping everyone is well ❤️ and hope you have a restful evening morning and afternoon too!! 🌃🌇🏙️❤️
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lov and peace on planat earth... ✌️
#just read some crazy tumblr drama and man...#makes me glad i'm not being hyperscrutinized#also makes me glad though that i can admit when i was/am wrong. it's difficult but important#granted i probably haven't done it enough. atonement is... difficult?#navigating what's the right thing to do... it helps to be honest with yourself#and lead with compassion. 🫶#it's kind of a delicate balance to keep but you need to be really hard on yourself but at the same not too much#it's a little maddening but i guess that's just life when you have a morality complex#and i've settled in that. would much rather obsess insanely about morals instead of abandoning them#the hardest thing isn't that but a lack of connection with others#i try. so hardd to make connections and even with other queer and nd people i'm failing so bad. 😭 and it makes me wonder like.#what is WRONG with me#i am content for the moment though i feel bad for my one friend whom my mental state is entirely reliant on#i try very much not to let them know that it is though 😭 we're both busy#do online friendships and dating app things usually just not turn out? maybe i just need to stop getting so down about it.#it'd be easier to do that with a healthy amount of friends though#not giving up overall tho... might for a little bit. you know. take breaks of the Will#but it's not over til im wiped off of this godforsaken rock#have my journal entry tumblr
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happy reminder that the internet is not real life and the things people say at you do not matter in the grand scheme of things! so. enjoy that reality
#compliments are wonderful to get online and we all appreciate those but they are rare#the insults are what I am making this post about. for those who need to be told: people roaring at you behind a screen and keyboard?#they know absolutely nothing about you. they don't even know what your face looks like. they know none of your friends or family.#they are not connected to you in any way and what they say should matter to you about as much as a walmart lady giving you a dirty look#who cares? it's not real life. what they say does. not. matter#no one has said anything at me any time recently I just felt I should say this so that those who ARE worried about it can breathe#text post#opinion piece#doverstar's thoughts#thoughts#discourse#drama#internet drama#online discourse#haters#antis#anti#hater#whatever. whatever tags I have to tag in order to ensure people who need to see this see it
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Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)
#twitter and other short form shit and everything being a Phone App On Small Screen instead of a Proper#Computer Website i feel like has just ruined the format of literally everything for me. Thoughts just keep getting more and more condensed#with detail and nuance taken away. everything over simplified into only the basics. blah blah blah. I've already probably rambled about thi#all before but it's just SO frustrating. I literally just CAN NOT talk that way!!! even if I try!!! I took multiple advanced placement#english & language arts classes in school and I literally never made below an A on any assignment EVER except for ESSAYS#where I would legit get almost failing grades just because I cannt express myself concisely. I took an english placement test thats made to#like evaluate your competency in a subject and out of the 102 multiple choice questions I only missed TWO of them. almost a perfect#score. But for the 5 open response questions (about articulating thoughts succinctly) I did not get a single one of them lol#I only got partial credit on 3. It's like I OBVIOUSLY understand the material and I know how Words Work and how to analyze and interpret#meaning and etc. etc. But it's just when I have to express myself CLEANLY I can't. It's always ''well you have very good points and you#get around to the idea eventually and I think it's very insightful - but it just needs to be shorter/the side tangent needs to be removed/#etc.'' I've always wondered if it has something to do with being on the schizophrenia spectrum and how that can cause disorganized#speech sometimes hmm..ANYWAY.. But I just naturally express myself in a very particular way which is lengthy and I can't rea#ly seem to control it. So it's basically like just.. being gradually pushed out of every place that won't accomodate people with different#ways of like perceiving and expressing or etc. Everything cannot ALWAYS be 100% 'Short and Snappy and To The Point' or a quippy one#liner or the Bare Minimum of information being provided or etc. Some peoples brains just do not work like that!!!!! Sorry I operate#in detail and elaboration lol. ANYWAY.. I still sometimes use random ''dating sites'' like OKCupid to look for platonic friends since#I never leave the house so it's hard for me to just meet friends naturally. And I just realized today that they added a RIDICULOUSLY small#character limit to their messaging system (2000 words?? augh). And also took away answer explanations (when you answer a compatibility#question you used to have a space to give detail and explain why you answered the way you did) and removed a few other features and it's ju#t like.. how the fuck is any of this actually helpful in terms of judging compatibility? take away ALL nuance and anyting that actually#is meant to tell you anything about a person? Bumble's character limits for your profile description are even more fucking insane and so#is every other disgustingly minimalistic place I've seen like.. OKC used to be superior BECAUSE it allowed for a TON of detail. like back i#2016 or something there was SO much data you could look at. long form question answers. personality trait summaries. etc. Now you have#SOO little to judge off of when evaluating compatibiility it's like. You'd have better luck just throwing a dart in a crowded street and#talking to whoever it hits. Why are people so fucking allergic to reading anything longer than 3 words and providing DETAILS!! It just seem#harder and harder to find any place to meet platonic friends where you have any amount of actual data to go off of and it isnt basically#just random 'speed dating' set up shit. AARGH. &I know 'oh just join a club& meet ppl irl' 1. erm..covid. 2.I mostly want to meet ppl#in places I'd like to move so I already know ppl when I get there. You kind of HAVE to do that online. bc I am not there yet.. WISHING for#Complexity.Com where ppl can upload full 900 page psychological files of themselves. MINIMUM profile character limit 30k words lol
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Ok I'm thinking about kabuto backstory again and thinking about how unfair and fucked up it all is like
> be Danzo
> threaten local orphanage mother into returning to being a spy (by threatening the kids there)
> force them to send One Kid too because he "lost a man" while obtaining the intel he's threatening her to spy over (the kid is Kabuto, who volunteered bc he overheard them threatening the mother over this) (Danzo knows he overheard)
> train kabuto to be a spy while orphanage mother is off on her long spy job as well
> bait spy mom with the promise of keeping kabuto safe to keep her agreeing to work with you
> decide they both are too good at their jobs (????) Of being spies (that work for you?????)(they've been loyal this whole time????) So they're too dangerous and both need to die
> keep mom and kid away from each other as kid grows up
> literally DOCTOR FAKE PHOTOS of the kid growing up to make it seem like he looks totally different now???? So she won't recognize him?????
> give her the assassination assignment of killing the Real Kabuto (who she won't recognize) so they'll kill each other
> whoops, Kabuto survived and killed her instead, oh well at least Orochimaru's watching him now
I'm just like. How fucked up is it to threaten these people into working as spies for you "for the good of Konoha", and then decide that these people (who have given NO INDICATION of intending to betray Konoha) are too good at being spies and thus Too Dangerous and should be killed for it. But no he can't just kill them in a normal way. He had to manufacture an entire scenario so that they'd kill EACH OTHER while making the mom not recognize him (with the express purpose of breaking the kid's spirit) like BROOOOOO I know you ordered the whole Uchiha clan to be massacred (conducting genocide for the sake of 'peace') actually now that I think about it he ordered this of itachi. Ordered him to kill his own family. Of course Danzo would get off on making a mother and son kill each other "for the good of Konoha" he's almost fucking cartoon villain level of horrible past the point of logic EXCEPT there really are people this awful that have existed. Plenty of them. And they have also justified it as being "for the good of [nation]" like that's the Thing, he's a war hungry nationalist that has decided He Knows Best so he's going to fuck up SO many people's lives, up to and including his own damn citizens!!!! And this bitch thinks he deserves to be kage?!?!?! Fucking Hiruzen letting him run wild like this. He knew Danzo was stealing children and indoctrinating them into a murder cult (where, keep in mind, he purposefully raises kids in pairs so they view each other as family AND THEN ORDERS THEM TO KILL EACH OTHER)(AGAIN!!!! with the family killing, what is his PROBLEM) but Hiruzen just let it fucking happen. Spineless fucking piece of shit. He fucked Naruto up he fucked Orochimaru up he fucked up Royally with Danzo like come ONNNNNNNNNN
Rattling the bars of my cage rn at how awful Danzo is and how he was able to just. DO THIS???? I know the bitch is dead but he's not dead enough. Give me the glock.
#speculation nation#fanny watches naruto#sorry im just losing my mind over this. this changes EVERYTHING with kabuto#and you know i already hated danzo so much. but i just now realized his fucking obsession with making family members kill each other#it's probably for the sake of 'killing their emotions' which he sees as necessary to become a good ninja (*cough* a good tool for the state)#im kicking danzo's head in as we speak. the skull. or whatever was left after he exploded. probably nothing much actually.#it's not good enough I NEED TO KILL HIM SO BADDDDD HE NEEDS TO BE DOUBLE DEAD TRIPLE DEAD#QUADRUPLE OR PERHAPS EVEN INFINITY DEAD.#sets up an infinite time loop of me killing Danzo just to make sure hes super super super super dead#YELLING SCREAMING I HATE DANZO SO MUCHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!#honestly as much as i loved sasuke killing danzo i wish itd happened later.#bc danzo's stinky fingers were in so many pies. he was set up as this horrible mastermind#and then he dies... what... 2/5ths into shippuden?? and what do we have now. cringefail sadboy decided to kill the world for his fantasies?#weird alien goddess?? bc all the world's struggles were clearly bc of an alien instead of any human fault???? or something?????#idk i havent gotten that far yet. but thats what ive gathered from online.#for as wonderful of characters as kishimoto writes he really isnt that great at overall plot.#compelling world. fascinating interactions. cool fights and mechanics.#unfortunately he set up a guy to be a big bad and he died before even halfway through and now we have to watch several hundred episodes#of the most Ninjas One Upping Each Other In Make Believe plotlines ever#like the 'i hit you' 'well i have a shield that blocks hits' 'well i hit you with a sword that cuts through anything'#'well i cast a spell before you hit me that makes me invulnerable to attacks' etc etc COME ON MAN it gets so BORING.#i miss the good old days of sakura fighting sasori. now shes sidelined to the medic tents bc shes a poor vulnerable medic or w/e#idk some parts of this is cool. but so much of it is unsatisfying. like the bijuu battle??? come on.#naruto making friends with kurama was great. the fight with all the jinchuuriki was pretty boring.#like come on this is supposed to be a Big Deal. aaaand what do we have now? another fucking bijuu bomb.#oh wait theyre all casting the bijuu bomb together!!! no worries naruto is making a bijuu bomb of the same exact size#so they counteract and shoot into the stratosphere and theres a Big Boom! wow! so original!#yawn. yawn especially at the madara vs kages fight. at least im enjoying the uchiha bros vs kabuto fight.
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Fuck my stupid lonely gay life
#AUGHH. AM I EVEN CAPABLE OF CONNECTING WITH OTHER HUMAN BEINGS#gun to my head. am i even a real person anymore#i dont even like talking to other people is the worst part#sometimes i wonder how my life would be if i hadnt developed insanely severe social anxiety in high school#never trust how you feel about your life after 8pm <- repeating this over and over#how do people even make online friends. like. i guess i would have to actually talk to people#but even then what if i say something wrong. what if i dont have anything to say. scary#i think a new hyperfixation would fix me (haha ) but i havent been able to enjoy anything on that level recently and its kind of#PISSING ME OFF but whatever. is this what neurotypical peoples lives are like. how do they do it#pacing in a circle zoloft takes 8 weeks to work zoloft takes 8 weeks#i guess i use this account as a vent mostly but thats because i have no where else to . LOL#whatever. another vent post for the ages. this ones not even coherent. im so good at talking about fucking nothing dude#vent#talking#i like going through my own vent posts and analyzing my character development like im from a story#hey past me i hate to zay it but stimulants did not fix your problems. in fact they sent you into a major dissociative episode#got put on ritalin now but i dont think its gonna help probably. but maybe thats because the last two adhd medications were so terrible#but i think my adhd too bad for weak stimulant and my anxiety too bad for strong stimulant . my mental illness cocktail untreatable#im so glad you cant see views on tumblr that shit made me so anxious on twitter i deleted an entire account lol#bro cant make friends and he cant maintain the friendships he has 😭 what a loser
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meowdy... <3
#i'm so close to caught up on everyone's lovely art and fics ;_; hghghgh and if you've sent an ask i'll answer it soon!!#[to the one person who knows who she is: KJSNKJN. KJSNDKJNDKJ. AAAAAA???? (positive)]#i've been very avoidant lately of online spaces ;; pt has been hard on my wrists so i haven't been able to work much on my plushie#and typing has been just as hard -- if it isn't the pain it's the inflamed nerves wrecking my hand-eye coordination#so i think i'm pressing keys when i'm not or i'm pressing all of the wrong keys. so it takes me twice as long to type anything ;;#i'm hoping we're building a good rapport tho and finding an equilibrium between Not Pushing Enough#and TOO MUCH TOO MUCH OW OW OW (week-long whole-arm nerve pain) kjsnfkjn so. i hope that means i'll be able to type regularly again soon!!!#we're just in the learning phase of both of us figuring out what my nerves can handle without exploding lmao. turns out: not much!!#i really want to talk to people again rghhhh i miss everyone sm!!! i keep being like 'wow i'm so lonely i wonder why that is'#<- has been disconnected from friends for many weeks#i WAS finally able to finish ren's face tho! very slowly! and i'm close to done w the body embroidery!!!#excited to have that done. not excited to start hand sewing. wish i had a working sewing machine even if i could only sit at it#for a few minutes at a time sjdfnskjn life could be a dream...#HENNYWAISE. hopefully i will soon have my carpal tunnel and pinched nerves reined in. my mars anniv is tomorrow#and i don't have anything to show for it bc of my wrists so. blows a kiss into the sky for her <3 my beloved oc-ified oushirou KJNSDKJN#i'm rambling and dont want to edit things bc pain from today's appointment ok i love u byebye 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -#<- just in case
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#once again I'm overwhelmed by feeling that I'm completely invisible everywhere#irl life and online#I just feel like I try to wave and do little something to be noticed anywhere#but no one either doesn't or doesn't want to see or hear#makes me wonder why do I even bother trying anything#yeah yeah probably partially it's my depression talking#but it's also my truth#society has shown me what it thinks of my worth and I feel so isolated#even the fact that I have a few great friends doesn't change it#and I feel like I'm drowning with all of my troubles and problems and feeling worthless#Emptiness rambles#just whispering to the void
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maybe like half my problems come from being chronically online .
#sol.txt#aghh idk#i wish it wasnt so hard to click with people outside of the internet#my only real friends are online#i have little to no irl support if i ever need it#my irl friends dont ever prioritize or even think of me#idk#my parents keep acting like im choosing this#im not.#i wish all these wonderful people were with me#i wish i wasnt so utterly lonely despite knowing and being friends with so many people#whatever
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