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Saw one of these awhile back and I'm bored sooo-
(In-Progress | Finished)
10 notes: I'll post some previous years' Drawlloween art that I never got around to posting on Tumblr (Deed is done- Got them queued up)
20 notes: I'll share a WIP of an animation I'm working on (Hey Alice)
50 notes: I'll carve the Gandalf Big Naturals pumpkin stencil
100 notes: I'll reopen sketch requests
200 notes: I'll finally finish that cute LOTR fanart of the Fellowship as dogs I started years ago and got almost done with but never finished.
300 notes: I'll finally start that Yondu comic (the one where I was going to draw my headcannon for how his getting exiled from the Ravagers went about)
500 notes: I'll start working on my vampire story again.
1000 notes: I'll continue this comic about what would happen if Loki joined the Ravagers when he fell from the Bifrost, instead of getting found by Thanos (But like, in a more polished style than that sketch lol)
1500 notes: I'll post a snippet of my Hey Alice animation (with sound)
2000 notes: I'll start sharing bits of a fantasy story I've been working on (and if there's interest I'll add a goal for drawing some of the characters/scenes)
3000 notes: I'll restart learning Irish and post what helped me with learning it in the past
5000 notes: I'll finally finish the Hey Alice animation that I've been working on since like 2020
(I might add on to this later but that's all I got for now)
#note game#note goals#note challenge#artists on tumblr#fanart#I have no idea if this will flop lol#lord of the rings#loki#guardians of the galaxy
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Alex and my farmer Cosmo (he/him)
#my replacement pen came in today ican finally start working on artfight attacks YAYYYYY#ive been clawing at the walls itching to get my ideas out for weeks#i drew alex with wavy hair in the second drawing bc i got his dialogue where he stops using hair gel and i hc he has naturally#wavy hair ^_^ i think it goes well with him softening up as u get to knw him.. now im just trying to work up the courage to give#him a bouquet lol. i keep flip flopping on whether i wanna play this file thru my oc or just fuck it and go self insert#but i like building little ideas in my mind for how my farmer would fit in pelican town and how they run their farm so i think ill keep thi#an oc thing. i have another file on pc since 1.6 isnt released for mobile yet so thatll be my self insert thing where plan on#shooting my shot with harvey. HES CUTE.. I LIKE HIM#cosmo seems pretty deadpan but only bc hes hardly fazed by anything and after working at joja for like 4 years. hes#desperate to touch grass. i think his personality would bounce off well with alex's since he comes off as arrogant to get a reaction#frm others and then u have cosmo whos like 😐👍. i like to think itd drive him up the wall LOL#he gets more of a reaction out of cosmo when he shows him his soft side which encourages him not to front all the time <3#my art#myart#my oc#oc#sdv farmer#sdv oc#stardew valley#sdv#sdv alex#alex mullner#doodles
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i’m having illario dellamorte thoughts. what if instead of knowingly betraying lucanis he did it like, unknowingly. idk how this would work but i’m intrigued by what it gives us. illario ‘i accidentally caused my cousin’s death & can never tell anyone’ dellamorte. genuinely grieving. blaming himself. does he take advantage of the year before lucanis comes back?? does caterina still ignore him the whole time?? how different is the canon plotline once rook shows up with lucanis post-rescue…..
anyways i would love your thoughts!!
95% of what i do with illario operates on the idea that he is frighteningly competent so you can see why the way the crows plotline plays out in the game might frustrate me. it’s also this reason why i don’t actually think too much about “illario got lucanis killed, but didn’t mean to do it”, because i like the idea that everything illario does in his life is planned to the second and that he’s too well trained to mess up this badly, if that makes sense. with that being said. 5% of my brain power does sometimes go towards “and what if he just sucked actually” and it was a theory i enjoyed before the game even released. so i have in fact been thinking about this anyway LOL . maybe he tries to honeypot zara, accidentally actually reveals lucanis’ next assassination job, and zara gets rid of him as a ‘gift’. illario is horrified and that gets even worse when lucanis’ body shows up, and he assumes this must be because he spurned zara by leaving her and not having the guts to seize power.
i think we could make his inferiority complex worse. illario’s worst fear confirmed: he is as worthless as his grandmother believes he is, botching something so badly that he accidentally sentences his cousin to death when what he wanted was lucanis just… out of the way for a bit (maybe while he kills caterina. LOL. i still think his resentment of caterina trumps his jealousy for lucanis though those two things are very intertwined its hard for him to differentiate them). so incapable that he got the only person who actually supports him killed, and now he’s dreading the idea of becoming first talon. he doesn’t want first talon without lucanis backing him, and now the only person left is caterina which is suffocating and makes him even unhappier. at least he hadn’t lived through her alone, and now through consequences of his own decisions, illario has no choice but to.
i think that would affect his plans for talon because of how horribly he’d fucked up, and tries to mask it because if he suddenly actually doesn’t want to be talon that would be a red flag for everyone. lucanis coming back would delight him (talon is within his sights again if lucanis comes back!) and freak him out. i think the plotline would actually be pretty similar because of this freak out, so he still shows up to zara’s fight to cover his tracks. lucanis can never know, caterina can never know, because what little faith they have in him will be lost. like he committed fratricide and didn’t even MEAN to😭 ...corpse whispering still happens, and zara is like “ohhh that coward. he can never finish what he started, can he?” + “elaborate.” + “i gave him what he most wanted in the world and instead of being grateful, he ran away.” so lucanis finds out about what happened but feels a mix of “illario, you idiot” + pity because turns out he didn’t even mean for it to happen, and keeps his secret for now, otherwise he’d probably have to kill him.
i also think not meaning to kill lucanis would sour his feelings towards the venatori, who are a reminder of how badly he failed, so the alliance wouldn’t happen. this does mean if the story goes on as it does in canon, he has to take desperate measures another way and kidnap caterina for some other reason but i can’t think of why….. maybe a thing where illario is like “ok. lucanis is distracted by the elven gods. this time i just have to kill nonna for real and then nothing is in my way” and recruits disgraced houses or houses that don’t like caterina to do so? not sure tbh but i don’t believe caterina made it so far without making enemies lol. this would happen post bloodbath + corpse whispering— lucanis leaves his cousin unchecked because while he knows illario didn’t mean for him to die, he has no idea how far he would go to have caterina dead. teia could find out about this and send word to foil the kidnapping and assassination attempt
so ‘murder of crows’ is still about saving caterina, the illario-lucanis fight still happens, but it’s a little more hesitant and lots of “why won’t you just let me kill her? i’m doing this for the both of us”. he’s had to live with being the un-favorite, but never would have thought lucanis would actually pick caterina if it came down to it. with all of his missteps here, i think the final decision (and i think it should be like this in canon anyway) would be to imprison illario or kill him. imprisoning him is just a lot of “i can’t kill illario as much as he couldn’t kill me”, vs killing him as is expected from him as talon, and what he knew he would have to do after finding out about illario's failures. unlike canon, where illario is actually meaning to kill him and can be seen as a 'good crow' despite the sloppiness, here he's like. just bad at everything. the allied traitor houses that went against caterina would also have to be imprisoned or killed. no happy ending at all here, and lucanis still becomes first talon. now that i’ve written it out this is actually probably the worst ending LOL
the above sticks a lot to what is canon to the game (plot points, choices, etc) and i didn’t go very far away from it so it's like canon 3 inches to the left. tho my thoughts on this are not fleshed out* because i think illario works better as an antagonist character that sets things in motion !! not necessarily the villain in a cain-abel story, but a character who opposes lucanis while still not wanting to hurt him. that kind of discipline where he finds a way to get what he wants (first talon) without compromising what he also cares for (family) is so much more fun for me than a man who apparently just loses it and decides to enact a bad plan to get rid of his cousin. if he waited 20+ years to become talon i think he’d be more careful when it came down to it. if i had my way illario would be playing insane 5d chess to rival solas (insert black sails “i once thought that to lead, to be liked was just as good as feared. and that may very well be true. but to be both liked and feared all at once, is an entirely different state of being.”)
#*my thoughts are ‘not fleshed out’ but i still wrote all this. LOL#i nearly answered this ask with the companion-illario au from my mind because i think vg needed a companion that lies to you LOL#but thats less 'illario didnt mean to do it' and more 'oh illario did it and just feels so guilty he goes on a one man crusade#against the venatori because he needs an outlet and both of them are known as magekillers'#he would have lied for most of the game about how lucanis got kidnapped/'killed' and resolves it by saving lucanis + confessing his guilt#this au had elements of 'it was an accident' but i kept flip flopping between if i wanted that or not lol#because . idk. i like when he purposefully does all this and then regrets it. my walking contradiction (slash i want him)#illario guilt inferiority and jealousy you all mean so much to me#but yeah. last point relates to the envyllario rewrite also from my mind#the idea of like. that caution vanishing because of the envy demon is quite fun for me#so spite makes lucanis a victim to his own anger and sense of justice#while envy refuses to let illario maintain his veneer of charm and forces him to act rashly despite his planning#ok. i have to stop talking. thank u anon for this because i am always looking for an excuse to chat shit#prompt me at any point to speak about illario and i honest to god will just be sat here thinking#actually it was pretty bad a few days ago when i was thinking about ways it could go for him in my aus and drawing a blank#and had the very clear thought 'i NEED to put my thinking cap on' which was . a bit humiliating#illario dellamorte#long post#answered#anonymous
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Love how creative the Sonic community is when it comes to AUs. Like you’ve got:
-Sonic is in a band with Silver and Shadow!
-Sonic runs a mafia while also being a single dad and a bisexual disaster!
-Sonic is the size of an actual hedgehog and is Tails’ legal guardian!
-Sonic is Ginormica from Monsters vs Aliens!
… and many more!
… and then there’s my AUs… like “this is the one where they get to raise families in general peace and quiet” general because sure eggman isn’t a problem anymore but then Scourge appears and “this is the one where select characters get the genderbending beam” and “oh, what if Gerald was pretty much a mad scientist before GUN killed Maria?” Yeah, my AUs are pretty plain compared to these
#sth#sonic aus#time to name the AUs I just mentioned#triple stars#neither me nor my sister know how to do the freaking star#casino nights au#road trip au#mva au#hope I tagged the AUs right lol#and then you wanna know what my au names are?#peaceful au#also abbreviated to pau#flip flop au#the last one I mentioned is actually a variant of the peaceful au so it’s got no name for now#and that one has *another* variant that’s based more on a gag idea of what if black doom simped for a hedgehog?#so I kinda have an au just for a crackship lol#man I just remembered there’s biolizard shadow too#but I guess he falls under the many more category lol#there’s *lots* of Sonic AUs out there
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i wanna make more merch but i have no ideas.... if i were to make something new (not necessarily rae but it can be) what would u want to see? characters, type of product, etc
#juno.txt#i wanna try my hand at fnv merch but i dont rly have any friends in that fandom yet#so i feel like its bound to flop lol#and ive had fun making rae designs but i feel like i cant do it often bc of You Know#would doing another run of keychains be redundant? should i just rerun the charms i did most recently?#ppl seemed to want me to do that anyway so#idk i want ideas im too indecisive lol. gimme ur input pls
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I have zero ideas of substance for this but I’m absolutely nerding out over the potential linguistics in the grand line
Just imagine how many different regional accents, pidgins, and creoles there are; especially in popular port islands like Loguetown and Sabaody. Each island (and the blues) must have different languages, if they’re so diverse environmentally/culturally
Do the celestial dragons have their own language that they speak to differentiate themselves from the common people? Or do they force everyone to learn it, and establish it as the standard?
Are all grand line languages derived from what was mutually spoken by the founding 20? Did the founding 20 need to develop a new pidgin to understand each other?
The job market demand for translators across the grand line must be high….
#Rae and Elliot planted these worms in my brain and they’re flopping around when I’m listening to my linguistics lectures LOL#IDKKKK I feel so passionate abt this because it feels close to home and I find the mixing of language so fascinating#I need a OP equivalent of that scene in dunmeshi where chilchuck is like ‘there’s not enough words in the common language to insult you!!’#ODAAAA I HAVE QUESTIONS ABOUT YOUR WORLDDDD#I’m having that thing where I’m so excited about something but my brain isn’t coming up with any new ideas about it#l caes
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Hey did anyone else own the VHS tape of this supperrrrr underrated Dreamworks movie called Camelot??? It was TOTALLY real guys trust me. TRUSSST MEEE. DID YOU SEE IT???
#camelot musical#this started as a joke I made with my friend that I took far enough to draw lol#anyways yeah the cartoon vibes would be 2023 is a 2D dreamworks movie that is panned by the critics but#the next generation of bisexual tumblr users form a love for it#I think 1987 Camelot is an old Disney movie that flopped but has an attraction at the parks that people love even tho#they have no idea what it's referencing#and the 1967 movie is like one of those pretty but a little weird 60's Japanese animations that gets a janky but charming English dub#and becomes lost media until someone on the internet finds a way to resort it#yes I'm normal.#my art#camelot
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recent lounging babey images
#he's so floppy recently and I hope it's just the heat. I think wamr weather makes everyone floppy and loungy#a beauntifulle boye...#cats#STILL working on posting some drafts. finishing new poll adventure.. other things... It's just hard with the weather and other things going#on. I've had a few more doctors appointments and other things to do recently that have to be done in a time limit#so I hvae to use my extremely limited energy working on that instead of doing the things I'd really rather do. :T#Main focuses though are keeping up better with doing and posting costumes + sculptures as main creative things. at least finishing the#main poll adventure story. Reworking the game I kind of abandoned for a few years. keeping up with game videos and a few other side things.#Especially the game though. I've been in a really worldbuildy mood recently. I just wish that was easier to manifest into something. I've#now put the worldbuilding slideshow reading video on pause for a while because it's SOOO long to do#and I think I should prioritize making games and stuff instead. but still other things. IT's just kind of like.. I have a whole world and#everything very built and planned out but now.. what do I do with it? what's the best way to share that? factual slideshows just going over#the information like a dictionary? make it into a game? write short stories? do art attached to the world? etc. etc. ?? There are so many#potential avenues I end up kind of flip flopping between them a lot because none really seem more beneficial than the others and they all#seem equally enjoyable and also equally hard so. It's like?? I guess just do what the hell ever and hope I made the right choice in terms o#cost benefit and reward for my time lol. ANYWAY.. Also why I'm in my 'trying to make friends' era still because I think having other creat#ive friends can help you find direction like.. people will meet each other and then go 'hey lol just for fun lets start a project together!#and then like 5 years later it's genuinely become something. etc. having other people to help weed out ideas and start small creative teams#together and etc. I feel is a very beneficial part of networking or whatever but also I have the social capacity of a stale bread roll and#am also inherently unrelatable to seemingly a majority of people due to my hermit wizard swag (detachment from general society and hyper#focus on fantasy worlds in my head gjhghj) so trying to meet people as a grown adult with social issues is Very easy and fun (it is not)#even very basic things like my core communication style is so incompatible with a lot of people it's like.. hhhh... People in this modern#age have GOT to stop being afraid of phone calls and/or text that is longer than 6 paragraphs. Work with me here. I WANT to talk to you. bu#I do not know what your emojis mean and it's physically impossible for me to type less than 85 sentences. please.. hhjgjgb#AAANYWAY!! I am working on things when I can given the circumstances (SUMMER).. hopefully some costume pictures and stuff soon. :'3#I've not forgotten about my art and etc. - as usual I just am bad at social media and also functioning if it's above 65F lol
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Not Methas telling JJ he'll give him his own physical therapy clinic! My god.
He tried to dress it up in a "I just want to see when you'll be selfish and not self righteous" but nobody (but JJ) believes that.
The man just doesn't know how to people and thinks paying for things is the same as expressing emotions.
I'm so here for it all.
#this love doesn't have long beans#he is everything to me#he's just such a flop cause he has ZERO idea how to people properly#and that can't all be explained as his family dying while he was in school#unless it was like 9th grade lol#he's just real bad at it#and JJ doesn't take anyone's shit#I'm so here for them both#the man really did say he would buy JJ his own practice#MY GUY??? YOU HAVEN'T EVEN FUCKED YET??? YOU HAVEN'T EVEN KISSED??? MY DUDE!#I love everyone in this bar#regular clyde
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emo dog era
#k#my art#emo dog#posting this shit online and actually trying to sell it is what keeps me humble <3#makes me realize maybe im not the godlike all-appealing artist and designer i so thought i was LOL#but eet ees okay.. when i started working on this guys ref i knew there was like an 80% chance he was going to flop because i just. havent.#been able to sell anything for a really long time#so i already have werewolfification ideas for him#i miss the emo dog community so bad sometimes T__T. so so so bad.#digression. whatever this is my tumblr post and its YOUR!! fault for reading this far in the tags :/#emo#dog#canine#furry#furry art#furry oc#furry artist#ugh. im tired of taggigng gootbye.
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Yes please!
Bet.
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It was dark in the Aperture Science building. Though it wasn’t silent. After word from the singular guard at one of many openings alerted human sightings after… years of nothing, you had to admit something inside you was excited.
It was in human and monster nature to be curious of the unknown. And with all the years since your last… nuisance test subject, you figured that Aperture may have been - more likely was - forgotten by those above.
You rapidly repaired test room after test room, rebuilding the facility to the best of your current abilities. Which wasn’t much a problem, because due to the lack of human touch, you were able to keep the place up and running with extreme precision.
It looked just like when Aperture was first built.
With different power sources from every nation, keeping powered on was never an issue. The location that had been found be humans was the one that was powered by the never ending lightning storm the surrounded the nation of Inazuma.
The strikes of Electro traveled through the water into sensors placed on the ocean floor, that changed the pure Electro into actual electricity that was then used to power the specific part of Aperture Science that was stationed below it.
The real facility spanned all across Teyvat.
This was only the beginning.
And your cold heart was more than ready for this coming future.
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#Hopefully it turns out good lol#really putting work into this one#I have so many ideas for this I hope it doesn’t flop#lmao
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#so i have a rather ambitious project for jin's return... a 30-day countdown with 30 different gifsets/gfxs#and it's been really fun and sort of a creative outlet (work has been really busy and stressful lately)#but after posting this last set i see the chances of this flopping being quite high lol#but do i care? yes. a bit#will i call if off? nah. i don't think so#i hope i have enough ideas and time to make all sets i want#also hoping i can make the same thing for the others#btw if you guys have any ideas lmk ^^#shut up vanessa
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wouldve been a fine day at work if this one old fucker in weed themed pyjamas and crocs during a snowstorm didnt decide to wait until i was done cashing him out to bitch at me about wearing a mask lol. He was so close to getting it too. Kept going on about "you know youre only breathing in your own germs". like wow what a concept me keeping my germs to myself instead of coughing them in your face. wild.
Had a bright side to it tho which surprised me, bc my boss witnessed it. It pissed her off pretty bad and she kinda had a heart to heart with me, made sure i was okay and ranted about how rude, stupid and innapropriate it is for people to behave like that which was really nice but i definitely didnt expect it at all lol.... she said she'd remember him so when he comes back he's probably getting an earful LOL. Or not but the thought is nice 👍
#she seemed pretty genuine and apologized for not saying anything while he and his wife were there which honestly dont rlly blame her for#she said she only figured out he was trying to be nasty as he was leaving which has happened to me a few times too so nbd i get it#was still nice though. told me she was a lot like me in having things like that get to me but that he was in the wrong n shit#this job is so crazy the way it flip flops all over the damn place like i really have no idea how to feel about anything anymore LOL
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dfjfsdgfds @ anon NOOOOO don't worry about this!! Trust me you are not the first person who saw my icon like Messmer until squinting at it really hard xD Let's be real, not only Drake Warrior Set does have similar aesthetic, but also before SOTE actually launched we all thought Messmer was straight up connected with Dragon Communion!!
Though to be honest, even I myself keep thinking about Messmer on reflex looking at my icon dfhfdhfd The "vibe" morphed into some strange mental image that is like a "blend" of aesthetics and vibes (and genders) of Eleonora and Messmer and I could not shake it off! It even had a strong passive effect on my self-image and perception of my gender. 🙄 And it felt extremely cathartic picturing myself as this spontaneous "character" until they detached and literally became a new OC xD (if you are prone to fiction kinning, sprout minor alters like Malenia sprouts the sisterdaughters or both you just KNOW what I am talking about lol!!)
#personal#ask replies#it is very hard to explain this#but yeah I am deadass like Malenia who gets alters against her intention that also shortly become their own people#and sometimes a right drawing or even *idea* of a character is a beginning of it lol#granted I felt strong connection with Messmer and it is complicated.#I wish I could explain this process without having to hope the person knows from experience or knows someone LIKE that#but like... it is complicated lol. malenia's situation is the best comparison to it#I hate losing these 'images' though#I always feel like my 'real' self when they take over my self-image and then they just separate and become characters!!!#like no! stop becoming 2D remain my fursuits instead! bitch#I just want to feel complete but every time I feel like I've found my identity it cuts itself away from my empty husk and I am hollow again#just goes to show how important Malenia is#she like... represented things that you had no idea how much you NEEDED to be represented#she covered so many types of both physical and mental illnesses. she is like metaphor for literally every condition#THE relatable character#fromsoft just can't flop with characters but you KNOW martin added
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i miss fighting with anons about debbie gallagher
#my blog has been so dry lately#idk what to post#like i have ideas but i also have major writers block and idk what to say#and my inbox is pretty empty aside from the asks i tried to answer but- again- because of writers block gave up on#i’m in my unproblematic era because i have nothing controversial to say😞 never thought i’d see this day#/hj#also so many of my posts have been flopping#esp the ones i actually work hard on#and i genuinely don’t know what people want me to post on here#ughhhhhhhhhh#shameless#debbie gallagher#personal#text#ignore this lol
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Day 27 - Memory - Altani - G
Summary: Altani’s echo manifested differently than her fellow warriors of light.
Ok so this one is basically just a summary so I don’t forget an idea I’ve had for a while, lol. Just like Krile’s echo gives her fancy empathy powers, I tweaked most of my WoLs’ echoes to give them a bit of extra flavor. Luvon’s was touched on/implied a bit in ‘tempest’ this year, and Cahsi’s was in ffxivwrite2022 I believe, I can’t remember the prompt, but it’s on ao3. So it’s time for Altani!
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Altani first saw The Starshower in her dreams around the time she met Mogren, almost got her brother killed, and that the entire village determined she was destined to be their next priestess and medium. It was a lively few weeks for sure, everything interconnected. She wasn’t even ten summers old yet, but even so, she understood deep in her bones that it was a turning point in her life. The gate was locked behind her, and whatever had awoken inside her was there to stay. Her life from then on would be full of deceit–lies she had to tell to others, and lies she kept all for herself.
She had no idea what her dreams meant. That they were a memory. That they would provide her an advantage on her path to greatness. The dreams were scary, and far too real, and instead of offering her comfort as she woke crying and screaming, the elders would praise her for unlocking the ability to see into death itself. They’d ruffle her hair and pat her on the back, telling her to keep training so she could convene with her ancestors and grant them wisdom. She kept up the farce for the sake of Mogren, who’d been mistaken as a spirit Altani regularly spoke to, but it was so much less and more than that.
In Altani’s head, The Starshower was always Capitalized, because it was very Important. She didn’t know why, but it was a feeling in her tummy she refused to ignore.
Sometimes she’d wake and remember in perfect clarity as the sky rained fire and desperate screams reverberated all around her. Never was she able to tear her gaze from the sky above, to witness who was with her, what the landscape looked like. It was just the dark red night full of smoke and embers, blazing bright trails falling toward her. It had to be stars. What else could be falling? What could cause such a thing to happen? What if the dream was an omen of things to come? What if it sucked her inside, and she became one of those falling stars, burning up before she could even hit the ground?
Other times, Altani would wake with a sense of unease, far more tired than was reasonable, completely tangled in her sheets as sweat coated her brow, and she just Knew that she had dreamt of The Starshower.
It would only make sense years later, after speaking with the Scions of the Seventh Dawn, that she wasn’t alone. There were others who witnessed The Starshower, and it granted them special gifts. That her nightmares were actually a boon, a gift from the goddess of the star herself. But it would be many years before that point, and not even Mogren could understand her plight as a child.
She turned it into a game, pretending The Starshower really was giving her the ability to delve into the lifestream and pluck stories and messages from long-dead tribe members. Each star that fell was just another of her ancestors coming by to say hello. They were already dead, so they couldn’t feel pain! The screams were actually high-pitched laughs. Her ancestors sure were silly, weren’t they, pulling a prank like that on her. It made lying to everyone easier, and sleeping became a little bit easier too. She was brave, and no way was The Starshower going to overpower her! The dreams became less frequent as she got older, and instead a few other types of visions manifested in her. It wasn’t often, but it did help with her priestess duties.
Every so often, when someone talked to her–most often when reminiscing about something from their past–she’d suddenly be swept away and forced to bear witness to the moment they were talking about. It was as though she were there with them, as though she could alter reality if she just reached out and tried (she couldn’t, of course. She was an invisible entity able only to watch, but in the beginning she had wanted to find out. Thank Hydaelyn it was just a memory; to warp reality would have been too much power for a child who wished to have control over something in her life to have.) She got to witness the truth, even if the teller couldn’t remember it correctly themself or were lying for one reason or another. The downside was appearing as though she had been spaced out for a few minutes, followed by a wicked headache, but it was easy enough to write that one to the villagers as ‘divine communication’. She often used this to her advantage later, recalling the collected memories to help give merit to her own lies that she wove for the villagers about their dead loved ones and advice for their future. The best lies had a grain of truth to them, after all. Rarer, by quite a margin, were visions Altani had no idea how to explain or what they even were. It wouldn’t be until her trip to Norvrandt, well into her adventuring career, that she would begin to understand. Once in a blue moon, something would trigger her to view whoever she was looking at or speaking to in a different light. It started like a memory, with her surroundings fading out and transporting her somewhere else, but instead of seeing the person the vision was about, she saw someone else. Altani didn’t have the gift of aethersight, but she had a feeling, an instinct, that she learned to accept. The vision was about a different version of the person. Sometimes they looked very similar to nearly identical to the person in question, while other times, their race, gender, skin or fur color–everything about them was different. Except the eyes. That was the one factor that didn’t seem to change. Whatever eye color the present person who triggered the vision had, there would be at least a hint of that same color in there for the person in the vision. Even if they changed into a creature with limited eye colors! As much as she’d hoped this was perhaps the key to unlocking real medium powers so she could talk to her ancestors, it wasn’t meant to be. She never met any of her ancestors that way, as most of visions she saw weren’t of au ra, nor did they take place in the Azim Steppe. The second type of vision was far more confusing and far less useful to her, so Altani didn’t much care for them, waiting for them to pass and observing only with a passing interest, for the most part. It was strange, being privy to other versions of people she met, when those same people had no idea about or access to those alternate realities. She tried not to dwell too much on those.
Some part of her wished she could have seen another Altani, though. Would they share her same gifts, her same curses? Would they be strong or weak, a natural crafter or a clumsy disaster? Were they a hunter, or a fisher, or a teacher? Would they become a parent, a merchant, a leader? Was their life a lie, forced to pretend they’re something they’re not to keep their village happy and their friend safe? Maybe they led a normal, mundane life, and would grow up to be nobody of import. Altani’s visions didn’t work on herself, so she’d never know what any other Altani was doing except herself. Maybe it was better that way, so she couldn’t become jealous of a life she couldn’t have.
When she became an adventurer, met her fellow Warriors of Light, and discovered they had similar experiences with The Starshower and being forced into people’s memories, she hid her relief behind false bravado and a strong clap on the back. It was like the weight of Hydaelyn had been lifted from her shoulders, learning her affliction had such a tiny, unassuming name as the echo. That there was an entire group of people studying it, and that this thing she’d been confused and frightened about and taking advantage of for so long already was considering a blessing from the goddess Hydaelyn herself. Hear, Feel, Think, indeed.This gift was shared among a select few, and they were often destined for greatness, which was all she strived for these days. She wanted to be strong enough to protect everyone without the power to do it themselves. She knew what it felt like to be powerless and scared, and so she would ensure to keep others from those awful feelings as much as she could.
While the others shared in most of the same echo traits, none of them ever saw those other versions of people or at least made no mention of it, so Altani kept that close to her chest. Only Mogren knew about that little trait, and they’d probably forgotten about it by now, since she only mentioned it a few times when she was younger and never again.
Luckily, she’d never had to deal with seeing other versions of her family of friends, but of course that changed when she started adventuring with those others who shared in the gift. Maybe it just triggered more easily for those who’d also seen The Starshower?
During one of her travels with Luvon, she’d had a vision that couldn’t have been of his past, as it took place in a gigantic forest unlike anything that existed on the mainland. Small streams of unnatural, sickly white light passed through the foliage and dappled the ground. She saw a young qiqirn and an older one carving tablets together. The younger had a yellow-green glint of excitement in their eyes as they speculated about what lay in the ruins, and what their home had been like before a flood of some kind. A fear years later is when that ‘memory’ clicked into place. Her moment of breakthrough came through after she was transported to the First. When all major threats were done being taken care of with Cahsi and Luvon, she was helping the Qitari unearth their history. Among the group in Hopl's Stopple, she noticed the pair she’d seen in her vision. Huh. So the person she’d seen in that vision was not a qiqirn at all, but their equivalent on the First, a qitari. Someone from a completely different shard… She observed them from afar, not wanting to barge in with nonsensical questions, but seeing how the little qitari acted and interacted with others, she could definitely see the similarities between them and Luvon. It was incredibly strange, but she’d come to realize by now that nothing was too strange for this universe.
Despite having fragments of the same soul, they were still their own people. She’d accepted that already with all the visions she’d seen throughout the years. Nobody acted exactly like their other version’s self, even if there were similarities. Ardbert was pretty different from Cahsi, for example. Altani could have smacked herself realizing one of her echo visions of either Cahsi or Ardbert were not about the memory of their meeting and showdown, but rather showing her that they were apparently versions of one another. That news sure might have come in handy before they had to defeat Emet-Selch–but then again, maybe not. Maybe it would have been even harder or weirder for Cahsi to let go. She’d made a close friend of the warrior in her time on the first, and had taken it hard when he had to leave. Altani had finally been able to meet him a few times before the end, thanks to some ingenious spellwork and alchemy on Cahsi’s part. It was sad that he had to rejoin Cahsi, but it was his own choice, and Ardbert had already been dead for so long, so that’s probably why he was able to do so in the first place. Altani wasn’t about to subscribe to the now-dead ascian’s idea that rejoining all shards of the soul into one was the only way to truly exist and lead a worthwhile life. From what she’d seen, other shards were doing just fine for themselves–independently!
That said, she was pretty sure if she introduced Luvon to his qitari counterpart, that nothing would happen unless one of them were to die. Maybe. She certainly didn’t want to test that, it was a horrifying thought. They’d probably stay two separate entities, none the wiser of their status as parts of one larger, more powerful soul at one point.
Really, this was all a lot to take in and think about, and nobody she wanted to discuss it with. It gave her a headache. One day, she’d figure this out with her friends. Maybe it was selfish to keep this from them, but she’d seen the heartbreak Cahsi went through with Ardbert, and she just felt it was best at this time. They had enough worries on their plate as it was.
#ffxivwrite2024#ffxivwrite#ffxiv oc#altani wu#ok I lost steam on this one very quickly lol but!#this wasn't meant to have any plot anyway and rather meant as a way for me to remember what I planned for Altani's special echo power! woo!#because I was flip flopping for a long time if I wanted her to just see past reincarnations of people oooor#the more ironic one that ended up being what I stuck with. Which was viewing a soul's other shard's versions#because that's like just so unhelpful for her charade of being able to speak to spirits#like yeah hi I got a glimpse of our family's souls#but THE WRONG ONES lmao#also the hilarity of being so confused for 20 some odd years then getting hit with the urianger speech about shards#and meeting another version of your friend from the source on the first and connecting the dots like WAIT I'VE SEEN U BEFORE WE MET. WHAT--#maybe after SHB/EDW she does tell her buds about her strange ability but until then that's one tightly kept secret bc it's too weird 4 her#I also had the silly idea of extending Altani's powers to seeing the multiverse#aka witnessing OG DnD Luvon and BG3 Luvon and being like damn. Why does your bf explode tragically in every universe lmao#that was more of a comic idea though that i have wanted to doodle for a while.#mango writes
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