#I fucking cried during this episode

[ladyorlandodream]

"I have no one else in my life like you, or Jane, or Cliff. All I have is us" - Rita Farr

[erphy]

i will remember you until the end of my days. but at the same time i will look for my own words!

[boxwinebaddie]

hey uncle nina do u happen to have that one para where u talked abt how jersey couldn't say ily during sbst and stan was like super sad abt it? i tried looking for it on ur blog but i can't find it</3

t-the...

tHE DIVORCE PARA???>?@?@?@?3/2/

YOU WANT THE FUCKDISNFN DIVORCE PARA????!!!?!?!

noooooOOOOOOoOooOo!!!!!!!!! :'(

i......Siiiigh.

goddamnit, guys. what happened to 'we hope you heal, uncle nina!' wAS IT NOT ENOUGH THAT I DIED ONCE??? I GOTTA DIE TWICE?!

but....because i love you very much, i will link it for you.

edit: oh god, i am reading it rn and it is soooo rough, i'm am so sorry. cringe. goofy aa. oof. later today, i might reopen it and just so we can suffer i will have it start mid sbst ( which, assumes i can write the smut which, no promises ) and then have it end with ravenstan leaving ( fuuuck lmao, like that fight does not even end there, we're in H-E-L-L holy shit ) because i hate my life but...anyways....

without further ado,

Please Enjoy The WORST

( and i do mean THE /WOOOORST/ )

Part Of Your Day...Maybe Your Life.

-uncle nina, who is going to request a lobotomy at her doctors appointment to forgot the divorce happened.

[jookyuns]

been thinking about how much i love monsta x & their weird antics (everyone trying to murder jooheon for the giggles)

[tiny-moss-patch]

just finished the most recent rewatch and I gotta say, I've watched this show so many times but only this time I finally understood it. especially the ending. and I'm so so sad to let them all go. this show, these characters are so incredibly special to me and they will forever have a place in my heart.

[the-friend-of-chickens]

i love when John suggests saving the people in the cave and Arthur is like "nooooo i want to survive!!! i don't want to get killed" but like ten minutes later he tries to kill the extremely violent dude that wasn't even his target because, well, "i don't give a fuck about getting killed".

[thatnerdydino]

finished watching desconjuração

[timegears-moved]

new favourite pokeani scene just dropped

[kurisus]

I finished Mob I apologize in advance for what I'm about to do

[moose-muffin]

HI SPOILERS LOWKEY

Loser, Baby (Angel and Husk Duet) AAAAAAA THIS EPISODEEEEE

[newrcgime]

i'm watching the monster menendez brothers show and fuck im really struggling with it

[ifeelfreewithoutmyshoes]

I think that ending is gonna stick with me for a while…

[chainsawworld]

Ok so yeah. I I did break my promise I did cry a tenth time

[inkivaarinensart]

Rewatching the series and knowing this was coming: I wont cry. I wont cry. I will not-

*Painful calls from Watson*

Ah goddamnit tearducts you have betrayed me

so did YOU cry at jeremy brett holmes almost calling out to a devastated watson across the reichenbach falls but stopping himself at the last second or are you a fucking liar

[starboye]

starring: rafe cameron x male reader

request: top reader x rafe - fucking rafe during his angry episodes to calm him down

warnings: smut, top!male reader, bottom!rafe, daddy kink, light ass slapping, cursing, lil pet names

director note: i actually liked making this

rafe usually got into big arguments with his dad ward, leaving him boiling with rage and no way to get rid of it other than you plowing his hole, now here he was in this exact situation after he came into your apartment fuming with anger, him bent over on your couch as you plowed into him, restricting his hands behind his back.

"you like that rafey" you tease leaning down to his ear, slightly biting at it making him whimper "mgh harder" rafe cried out into the cushion "okay then" you said moving your hips with more force into him now basically fucking the anger out of him one thrust at a time "so damn tight, i might start fucking you when you're angry more" you chuckle slapping his ass making him jolt forward.

"y/n i want it" rafe says backing his ass onto you "are you ready to be calm now" you ask wrapping your fingers in his hair and tugging to pull his face out of the couch "mhm" rafe nods furiously "words rafe" you demand "fuck- yes daddy" rafe croaks feeling his dick jolt with pleasure as he cums to your words and dick.

"such a good boy for me" you mutter leaning in to attack his neck with kisses and hickeys, further claiming him as yours "yes... im all yours" rafe says arching his back to let your ruin his guts deeper "yeah stay just like that for me" you says holding his hips with one hand before cumming in rafe.

long thick ropes of cum spurting into his hole, painting his walls white with your arousal before he falls onto the couch with heavy pants, you sitting down next you him and rubbing his back "want me to get you some water" you ask, he slowly nods to your request.

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[md-intermission-archive]

"Murder Drones: Intermission": A Story of Understanding

Uzi Doorman: Understanding Loneliness

I feel like during the development of this episode, Uzi was the hardest character for me to wrap my head around. To my understanding, she’s feisty, angsty, and plays up this persona of being apathetic. A sort of lone wolf thing.

She’s snappy towards her classmates who ostracize her, snappy towards adults in her life, and overall gives a middle finger to anyone who isn’t on Team Uzi. It’s a very “me vs. the world” type of thing. That, to me, just felt like the callous shell of someone who’s painfully fragile and has been hurt so often.

I will admit, I may be projecting slightly, but I honestly read her as like… a neurodivergent kid who didn’t know how to navigate social circles, so she just became incredibly bitter. Her father didn’t help her situation at all because he also treated her like a freak, literally calling her a disappointment in his business ads. Then on top of all that she had no mother figure to look up to. All of this accumulates into a habit of isolation. “No one will love me, so fuck it. I’m on my own”. She acts like she’s fine on her own, when in reality she’s so starved for genuine connection. With that in mind, in Intermission I wanted to peel back those layers a little bit. I wanted to explore self-isolation and that hunger for love. 

Some people clocked this I think: the way Uzi’s attitude is toned down in Intermission. I didn’t want to play up her angsty teen act as much (and I capped her at one “bite me”) because then I’d risk falling into the trap of making her into a caricature of herself. The way I framed her in my head is “if she wants connection, then she’d be happier around people who she sees as her friends. If she’s also fragile though, she’ll make an immediate 180 at the slightest hint of meanspiritedness”. This was the guideline I gave myself when it came to bouncing her off of V and N. N melts her icy demeanor. He’s very gentle and encouraging with her. One example being how N kneeled down to her eye level when speaking to her when she was putting up her walls again. As someone who’s constantly ostracized, she needs a gentle touch in order to relax.

I made sure to keep that in mind, that while she was being treated gently, she should show more signs of happiness. Comfort. Part of that comfort is also reflected in being mischievous/playful. As for the 180 she makes if shown any sort of cruelty, that’s reflected in acts of self-isolation. 

This is something I’ve observed from myself and people in my life. If someone is already deathly afraid of rejection, they won’t reach out for help and their immediate instinct will be to isolate. In the beginning of the EP when Uzi’s having her Solver flare up her immediate thought is “I’m going to put up a firewall (repress) and just not even mention this to anybody”. Then when N offers to help, she still shows signs of being uncomfortable because she’s not used to it. It isn’t until V’s comment calling her a lost cause irks her that she decides “screw it let’s give it a shot”. She hates being underestimated, so this reaction made sense to me. Meanwhile the climax of the episode is where I wanted the most overt display of her fears to be presented.

As I said earlier, Uzi’s sensitive to rejection. She attacked the only people in her life who care about her, and the worst part was it wasn’t even her fault. Uzi is a person who really wants a sense of control over her life for the sake of security, so that loss of control and the idea of “oh my god they hate me now” was the final straw for her. So, she isolated. She ran off (or in this case, flew off), she barricaded herself, and she cried.

During the scene when Uzi's found, I had a bit of an issue figuring out where to go from there with her. I had two options: I could once again lean into her badass persona and have her fight back, or I could have her fold. I decided the latter. To her, she just lost the only people who cared about her, she's a monster to worker drone society, her father doesn't care about her.

What's the point. She's doomed to be alone.

If V didn't have her revelation, Uzi would've let herself die. While I understand that's an upsetting choice to make in the narrative, given Uzi's circumstances it felt like the appropriate reaction. Which is why the events following were so important.

While Uzi's at her lowest point she's shown pinch of kindness.

While it’s true V’s initial intention was to off Uzi, her showing compassion and sympathy was what helped calm Uzi down. Rather than making her put up walls like V usually does, V was able to break through them a tad. That interaction, N pouncing at her with a hug, and the final scene was meant to cement in Uzi’s head that she finally wasn’t alone (even if V still struggled to not be prickly with her). The three are still incredibly messy, but there’s that sense of trust that Uzi now has people in her life that actually care about her despite her messiness. The mischievous attitude even comes out when she says, “you found a nanospark of warmth in your heart to care about me”. She now feels more comfortable with V to an extent, and she finally has a support system.

I think…the reason why I love Uzi so much is that she’s sadly reflects the experience of what it's like not being able to fit into society's mold of acceptable. Even if she might not be neurodivergent, the bullying and isolation she experiences is very familiar. I wanted to do her justice as much as I could with that all in mind and with the resources I had. I wanted to give her one happy ending to a day when every other feels like utter hell.

The angsty teen may be badass, but her heart is still fragile.