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deathsmallcaps · 23 days ago

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I need advice.

I’m a white intern working in a mostly white southern(ish) high school. Students of Color number at under 2%, perhaps even lower. It’s a very white, rural community - I grew up in a fairly mixed, suburban northern community, and part of my family is Black.

Several of my white students say rude things to my Students of Color. I’ve told them to knock it off *as appropriately as I can* but I’m probably one of the few adults that actively discourage that behavior.

I don’t want to let this shit fly under the radar, but I also know that if an adult of authority *who will only be here for a couple more weeks* interferes, and then doesn’t stick around, it could make things worse. Additionally, I know these kids are probably very very very used to this ‘system’ and that making a short-term change could be more harmful than helpful.

I asked one of my senior students after a very racist incident *where she was laughing along with the perpetrator but I told him to stop anyway* that I can move him, or her, so she could be more comfortable (admin either does nothing or slaps wrists, especially for seniors). She said it was fine and that he was always like that.

I must emphasize, I think they were bantering (they talk so much I think they consider each other friends?), but it was also wayyy fucking out of line, especially in a school setting. And the guy says so much out of line shit I’m surprised he isn’t rocking a full set of dentures to replace the teeth he ought to have lost by now.

Another student took me up on my offer to move people, but I ended up moving him, which sucks because he was the victim in this situation. Unfortunately, I have to keep his aggressors in their spots, as they are highly rowdy in all the ways and require a lot more supervision than he did. And the class is really full. These were also all freshmen, so I wouldn’t be surprised if that affected the victim’s reaction.

So I’d really appreciate advice as to whether I should let it be, or continue as is, or step it up even more, from People of Color in largely white, especially rural, communities. Like any advice from current or previous educators, especially Educators of Color would be appreciated, but specifically southern/rural ones would be wonderful. I’m going to talk to my family members about it, but they’ve lived in more Northern settings their entire lives and they may have less … applicable (?) experience to the situation.

Again, I’m an intern, I’m going to only be there until winter break 2024, and I don’t want to fuck things up for these kids in the long run with my northern ally ‘sensibilities’. Thank you!

#education #help #advice #educators of color #students of color #academia #slightly more context: the senior was a Black girl. there are not a lot of Black students but there’s multiple of them from different #families (though I also tutor her little brother). so she may have community to fall back upon and that might feel like enough for her #the freshman boy is mixed Asian and as far as I can tell is the only Asian kid currently in this high school #since we’re in Appalachia of course a lot of people say shit like ‘my great grandmother was Cherokee’ (apologies to the Cherokee community #but I’m quoting these people) but some of my students are much more tan and experience a bit of colorism. again I try to shut that down but #idk how far to take it. the one girl who is definitely Indigenous (I’m not going to specify further because it’s a small community) doesn’t #seem to be treated negatively for it and seems quite proud so I’m glad for her #but she also passes as one of the tan students so idk if she’s just comfortable bringing it up around me and it doesn’t come up near #racist students or what.#more context I forgot to bring up: I’m pretty sure most if not all of the Black students are mixed or have mixed parents. so they may #have white family members that make this system of poor treatment seem okay? or white family members #who help compensate for the racist people in the community?#I really don’t fucking know and I really don’t want to make things worse for anyone #getting ‘aggressive’ protection from a student intern may NOT be helpful #idk #thank you for reading this far

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dynamitekansai · 1 month ago

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THE USOS REUNITE WWE SMACKDOWN (OCTOBER 25, 2024)

#no useful tags just me bitching lmao #i am SO unmoved #im praying theres more to all this than them just speedrunning this reunion just so certain things can line up in time for ple shows #and so wrestling fans with less than one braincell can get the instant gratification of their favwit tag team together again 🥺#bc oh bite me lolllll #so much of this ~cinema~ is starting to feel rushed and im just hoping theres turns or angles or REASONS for it #but thats asking me to trust wrestling with carrying storylines fully and i do NOT #the things i wanted most from this story were jey getting proper acknowledgement/vindication and apology for his abuse #and explanation for why the family treats solo as they do (and then expect him to be a well adjusted adult lmao)#jey has NO reason to forgive them yet like did they buy him hallmark cards behind the scenes?#and theyve done much worse to him for much longer the new bloodline #you dont get to brag about this being the greatest slowburn long term cinema storytelling and then just....#im HOPING so bad its not just as simple as it looks i am #they keep swearing theres so many more 'innings' to this so idk prove me wrong please literally do #but that still wont make me moved by ✨og bloodline reunion✨#bc what yall mean yall are still the heels in my eyes like why do you have so many family members yall left on the side of the road #while talking about family above all and dont divide family lmao #and i get ~twin bond~ but LORD #actually that twin bond excuse is evil too #solo go bring in jeremiah since hes technically part of wwe canon too and beat their asses together actually lmao #i aint forgot jey saying something like having brothers is great but how being a twin is just different/special #like yeah sure but can you not make your other siblings sound like secondhand brothers or whatever shdhfhjf #ok im done. for now. for this post. maybe.#venting about my interests is fun for me ok #its how i process the information given to me and understand it #and also i like to bitch

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flickerintwilights · 9 months ago

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on the road to hell

#hadestown #art #my art #tag ramble as promised:#firstly #i’ve been thinking about redoing this as digital art #(like - mostly the same but cleaner and with some of the details fixed) and probably will if i have time #because i like this composition a lot #but! for now i am oddly happy with how this turned out despite being traditional art/watercolor (no undo button. sobs.)#and it Is a noteworthy day for hadestown with lola tung and lillias white departing #(this is Not meant to celebrate them specifically - i used the obc as reference not them - i just think it’s a nice day symbolically)#so i thought i’d put this out. whatever. yknow.#oh a second thing i will say is that this was a great excuse to check out the slime tutorials on youtube #i spent like 9 or something hours on this :/ so. plenty of time to have things on in the background while i was working. we love slime #thirdly! two things i feel like are worth mentioning rq for Symbolism:#wait for me reprise (intro) originally having wedding procession imagery (from anaïs mitchell in working on a song)#is what first made me desperately want to put the flower/petals on the edges (it still fucking haunts me)#though it was a solid composition choice in general i think #and i mean. clearly the carnation should be prominent. it’s the carnation. from hadestown.#i don’t think the wedding procession reference comes across the way it turned out but that was the first thought #NEXT ouroboros. the snake devouring its own tail (i legitimately forgot that this was why i first drew the rattlesnake that way but #fundamentally i really did just want its tail and head to point to each other lmao)

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cayenne-twilight · 6 months ago

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Professor-pilled Layton-maxxer 🫵

So true, you got me. Smash that like button if you’re a real sigma puzzle-solver (super rare, better than alpha)

Credit to @sunnymatsu for the original meme

#professor layton #layton series #pl #miracle mask #ct puzzles #thanks for the ask!#I haven’t edited a meme in a long time #Nicki Minaj Steven universe voice: I forgot how great it feels to be me #if you’re reading this solve the puzzle about the friendful visitor in the replies or rbs this is a pl blog after all #I’m actually not sure how to do this one

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marigoidz · 2 months ago

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Something I've been thinking about lately is how many people I've seen who like Jamie but dislike Kate, which doesn't really make sense when I look at *why* people dislike Kate. Jamie is like..objectively a way bigger asshole than Kate I feel. Imo it's due to people not viewing Jamie as a whole character. They'll like her humor and/or relationship with Erin and brush off everything else about her, all while scrutinizing every little thing Kate does to hell and back. The treatment is different but equally icky to me

#this thought doesn't feel complete but i am. unsure how to complete it #not great with analysis #perhaps i'll add on at some point #jamie tiergan #kate wilder #the devil in me #i forgot to post this last night whoops

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cozybearz · 26 days ago

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homemade broth and the chicken n dumplings i made with it :^)

#yes it took me forever bc its been a while and i forgot how long the broth took #and then i was interrupted mid-soup making bc i absolutely shattered a pryex container and i still havent totally gotten that clean oops #but the food turned out great i wanted 2 make it to share with my sister who isnt feeling well #i even used both roasted and minced garlic <3 #described #described in alt #bearzinthekitchen

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littencloud9 · 1 month ago

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i love u nekoma & karasuno i love you SO MUCH

#can you tell i just watched the dumpster battle movie #[deep breath] AHHHHHHGGGGHHFHFHFJJFJGKG #ALL THE INTERACTIONS WERE SO FUCKING CUTE 😭😭😭😭#baby kuroo… i forgot how much i adored kuroo oh my god. TEARS IN MY EYES #HES SO FUCKING LAME #he was an emotional wreck this movie. had me giggling #his ass wld NOT leave tsukki alone HELP #omg and bokuto yachi interaction <3 #HINATA AND INUOKA I LOVE U SO MUCH #kenma…. this truly was the kenhina movie nobody talk to me #and the mini scene of kuroo and daichi pointing at each other. I DIED!! I DIED!!!!#ourghhhhhh I LOVE THEM ALL SO DEARLY #also the detail of nishinoya moving out of the way when he saved the ball was great. loved that #SUGA 😭😭 HE WAS GOING INSANE LMAO I LOVE HIM SO DEARLY #okay tbh i didnt expect the match to end like that but it’s fine. i was immediately distracted by the FEELS #ALSO OMG. GOSHIKI AND TENDOU WERE SO FUNNY LOL #AND AND NEKOMA THIRD YEARS 😭😭😭 KUROO AND YAKU TEARING UP 😭😭 THEM HUGGING EACH OTHER #IM SOOOO ILL IM SO FUCKING ILL #also the kurodai hug and the kuroo thanking tsukki I FEAR I KEEP WINNING #did i mention the kuroken flashbacks. oh my god. they were so CUTE #BABY KUROO TALKING TO KENMA’S DAD AND HE WAS JUST SO SMALL AND ENTHUSIASTIC UGH 🥹😭#wow. i need to die #wait also. giggles. the kenhina knife scene. 10/10 gayest shit in hq #ahhhh i LOVE THEM #NEKOMA SECOND YEARS TOO. FUKUNAGA U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME #anyway u guys shouldve seen me. i was going insane. i was losing it every scene #OH AND THE CREDITS?? kuroshou I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE #‘gotta take a pic to show mika’ this too is kuromikashou or whatever their ship name is #this was the kenhina movie first and the kuroo ship galore movie second /j #anyway i need to go lie down now goodbye

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moonchild-in-blue · 6 months ago

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I've been painting my walls for the past 6? hours ? and i think the smell has been burned in my brain 😷

#NOT having a great time tbh but at least i am DONE #there's one more that needs to be painted but it's very small and only like half of it anyways #Big Wall is done and looks pretty ✌️ my arms are hurted #also i forgot to eat lmao i'm lowkey starving #mushroom pasta and anime time save me. save me mushroom pasta and anime time #silly afterthought but it's actually kinda nice to share these random stuff cus i feel like i actually did something #hacking my dopamine system or whatever #also i miss Vessel 🥺. which really has absolutely nothing to do with anything but that's just how i feel rn #thinking about the character.... free and fun and very cool 👍#i bet that Long Mf doesn't need the extra paint roll stick thingy. he can just. reach the wall. bastard. 🥺#anyways. my nails have been looking super gross for days and i can't paint them because they'll just get ruined anyways #so my hands are just. raw. plain. boring. not cool bro #darya talks to herself

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bluehexagone · 5 months ago

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Realism is fun till it isn’t and I realize I’ve already committed too far and can’t just scrap it but I know it will take me too long so here are some sacrifices you may see finished later on