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#snakes#snake#hognose#hognoses#pets#toys#climbing ball#toy#holee roller sold at pet stores as a dog toy#in enclosure enrichment#sakura#sakura kurīmu#her little pink eyes#I forget what we were doing exactly#only that I was taking to her and she was very interested in everything I had to say#I think she was rubbing along objects as that feels good to my girls after they eat#but I think she also had fun climbing#because hey let's go wild after a big meal#i mean who is going to stop her?#she makes her own rules
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The concept of queerbaiting annoys me. I was told that it refers to a work of fiction pretending to cater to a queer audience but then pulling back from it to avoid alienating homophobes, which is an incredibly specific thing. But a lot of people seem to think that it instead means "any time there's any gay subtex, metaphor, or ambiguity" or "whenever something from 1995-2012 was being a normal amount of homophobic for the era."
#I've secondhand seen the way Sherlock...was.#And yeah that's very pointedly cruel to the audience.#But not everything is that aware of its following to point by point mock them for half an hour.#And I think people forget that for a period there was a unique combination of awareness of gay people and homophobia bad#and a severe need to avoid being perceived as gay (and sometimes homophobic) at the same time#while it was ALSO very acceptable to treat the existence of gay people and homophobia or discomfort with both as a joke#so that whole wink wink nudge nudge dance was a huge thing in some of the 90s and earlier 2000s#and sometimes by doing that people accidentally made it seem even more fucking gay.#Or on purpose. People also forget that yeah gay people could exist as a joke but they couldn't be casual protags or w/e.#It wasn't really done like that.#I think what it's really proof of is that the 90s/early 2000s is long enough ago that people have become illiterate to the cultural cues.#When comedians complain 'you cant make jokes anymore' sometimes this is the exact thing they're referring to.#Gay people being on TV or in books isn't some funny joke you make anymore. Just being gay or seen as gay isn't the punchline it used to be.#People are shitty about it still but it's in a different way now. Being gay isn't as much the big embarrassment it used to be.#Gay tv shows and books are a whole market now. And stuff like Sherlock or supernatural were made right in the middle of that shift.#It's the only way you could position a strategy like this. I don't know if that cultural moment really exists anymore.#Audience backlash is also more massive and in real time.#Now instead of mockery at the idea of idk Dr house md being gay conservatives would see it as a 'culture war' thing.#And non conservatives are more vocal and more liable to criticize. TV shows are seen as keepers of culture in ways they weren't before.#I don't know how to describe it exactly. I'm not an expert and I know I'm missing some pieces or things I wanted to point out.#But yeah I just think people kind of. Forgot how people treated gayness as some kind of cootie disease you had to say#You didn't have really hard all the time. People are still sort of like that but idk the language changed.#A lot of talk about homophobia and queerness is very pseudo-academic now. The distancing happens with different signifiers.#But. Yeah.#☠️#I also think queerbaiting requires a specific kind of intent as a marketing strategy.#Instead of the more likely 'well we have an unintended gay following now so I guess we can throw in some fanservice#the network would literally never allow us to do anything with it even if we wanted to though.'
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just saw someone accusing people of content farming. on tumblr.com. girl, farm what? the soil here is bone dry.
#especially funny because the person wasn't even accusing like gif makers who rush to get sets out after a new episode dropped#(though that would still strike me as dumb just given the effort gifmaking takes even if the person is doing it quickly)#they were complaining about fellow bloggers in their very small fandom circle#i guess it's content farming now to make posts about something you and your mutuals enjoy#and again: farm what?#corporate sponsors? for your tumblr blog?#followers? on the website where follower counts aren't visible?#and the people who are interested in this very niche topic are probably all following you anyway?#words just don't mean anything anymore i guess#a shout into the void#i feel i'm getting heated about this for little reason but the post just came across as very mean-spirited and nonsensical#and sometimes this website can get so snide and catty like we forget where exactly we are
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Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.
#trying to be as vague as possible even tho this is someone I know offline and no one involved follows me online#on one level I get it that relying someone who is forgetful and does things slower/differently than you can be frustrating#but like its a medical condition. and u dont need to know someones medical info to have some empathy instead of assuming malice/incompetence#i just found out they have adhd today but day one i was able to go 'wow i did not like the way they handled that but i dont think they were#being hurtful/careless we just handle this task differently. rhey didnt do anything wrong and i can let this go and adjust my expectations'#not to say im perfect and never ableist towards others. my first reaction to seeing traits i dislike in myself (from my disabilities)#in others is often to get annoyed and needing to adjust my thinking#i get annoyed with myself when I cant focus / cant be coherent or concise / cant finish tasks quickly etc#→ get annoyed sometimes when I see others doing that → realize thats not fair to them → realize thats not fair to myself#→ assume good intentions and find ways to communicate/collaborate better with them → get along better and maybe make a new friend!#sorry i am rambling#idk its scary seeing someone being disliked for adhd symptoms/traits that im mostly doing a good job of managing/hiding in this#social environment so far and knowing that could happen to me in the future#but im also like ready to have this persons back#me 🤝 them: prioritizing the wrong tasks and overexplaining things and struglging to get our points across#and not noticing when we talk too loud and forgetting tasks halfway thru etc#not to be that guy but : without love it canmot be seen!!!!#lifes so much better if u just assume ppl arent doing things a certain way to be annoying + let go of / adapt to the thing that are annoying#but not harmful#thats not exactly what without love it cant be seen means but thats one of the ways i apply it in life#just like dont assume malice. assume u dont have all the info. approach ppl/situations with empathy.#or youll make yourself more miserable needlessly#again like only for shit that's not harmful obv#i need to shut up and go to bed
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do kids today dance normal at dances cuz i remember our 5th grade dance a girl got kicked out for dancing too sexual and in middle school dances everyone was just.... gyrating and grinding on each other on the dancefloor. the 00s were wild
#litrally will never forget the first time i grinded on anyone skfjgnsfkjg#it was in middle school i cant remember exactly what year#but i was sleeping over my friends house and she went to a different school and they were having some dance#so we went#and well#she taught me that night lmfao it was like a line of us all fucking dry humping each other#and this was normal behavior life was just like that back then#for middle schoolers lmfao#god only knows what the high school kids were doing#feel like that all cooled down by the time i went to prom
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ive been the butt end of 2 relatively homophobic/transphobic comments from customers at work this weekend and im feeling weird about it
#like if yall dont know im trans agender and very androgynous#im exactly at the point of my transition where i want to be and im super happy about it#(sidenote: i forgot i have to do my shot that always helps)#but sometimes i forget just how shitty people can be#i live in a lil bubble where (most) of my loved ones call me by my preferred name and pronoun#(sidenote 2: someone once told me i shouldnt say preferred and i should just say “my name and pronouns are..” but like...#i prefer saying preferred if you know what i mean?#like i honestly feel like the wording (as a poet) means a lot to me#so by saying preferred it indicates that it belongs to me#i prefer it#i dunno#anyway#)#and then weird people in my hometown come out with some swinging statements about my general state of being#like i was saying to my mom earlier (we were arguing about it i think thats why its still sitting on me weird)#if i were in my rainbow gear and being rude about my pronouns and walking around going “kill all straights” then sure#you have a right to be upset#but its literally just my face yknow?#like.. im wearing a matching pastel pink shirt and boot combo and im wearing a vest#im just trying to keep my staff alive in a busy friday night rush#im not a threat#lexis thoughts#whatever I'm gonna go do my shot and just suck it up#asi do :)
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weekly dunmesh ep post here to say that as one of the eps that didn't follow their usual formula I loved this one to bits 😭 pacing felt just right, didn't feel that rushed to me (tho maybe that's bc I kept goin back to watch more details lol) and the canaries and yaads voices in sub are all really really good
#i fucking loved pattadols voice WAHHH and i love how shes draw in the anime.. perfect girl#i think the only voices that didnt immediately click w me were otta and cithis'. they felt too high-pitched or too soft spoken respectively#but i think i can get used to them#also toshiro looking sm better w just a simple shave is getting to me.. his interactions w namar tickle me good..#the egg convo back to touden party had me go 'oh no' but then i realized we werent at that part of the anime yet BUT STILL. WDYM WE'RE#ALREADY AT THE GOLDEN CITY!!! THAAT FELT LIKE IT TOOK LONER. WHEN I READ THE MANGA!!!#i cant talk about everything i loved about this ep but shout out to senshi when he was doing you know exactly what im talkin about.#if i were a gay maan i think my reaction to that wouldve been marcille spitting her food out#PEAK MARCILLE EXPRESSIONS THIS EP BTW. CUTE CATGIRL IZU. LAOIS FREAK MINOTAUR EXCITEMENT. KEEP THAT TO YOURSELF CHUCKLEFUCK#the short impromptu 'pillow fight'#ahhh i just love them so much#but also its goin so fast 😭😭😭 don want my dunmesh thursday to eend so soon wahhh crazy that theyve been herefor almot half a year#i speaku#ALMOST FORGOT BUT PATTIES LIL FAIRY 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥺🥺🥺🥺 so cute that it makes u forget that its made out of [redacted]
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I keep noticing our brain being a little iffy about a couple of things today that I think we'd been repressing a lot lately and that's not ideal because it means we'll probably unrepress it more and be upset about it later, but at the same time it's like, oh hello there, I know this particular sadness. I've spent a lot of time with it and I recognise it whenever it comes back and I'm less surprised to see it again and more surprised it went away for this long. time to spend another evening with it and be gentle with ourselves and just let our brain feel whatever it needs to
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#<- maybe? I'm upset and the thing I'm upset about is something that really fucked us up#but it's been a little while since it's come up and now it's like... oh this is a familiar thing and not a new thing I'm having to deal wit#it's grief specifically and I have complicated feelings about it#this year's been a shitshow and this specific grief kind of took a backseat and got repressed and we definitely hadn't processed it#so we felt weird about it suddenly disappearing because we knew it wasn't that we were suddenly okay#so now it's simultaneously weird and upsetting to experience it again#but also confirmation that our brain was doing exactly what we thought it was#I have a lot of complicated thoughts and feelings that I can't put into words because wow grief is messy and complicated#have you ever grieved and realised you were starting to not think about them as often anymore and then panicked#because you're scared of forgetting or not feeling anything so when you do feel upset you're almost relieved?#it probably wouldn't have been as bad but our brain kind of blocked out the positive feelings along with the sadness#because dissociation isn't very precise in what it blocks out#and it made us panic because we couldn't seem to access any feelings and it all felt very distant and vague
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Oh by the way don't go on twitter rn
#genuinely get closer every day to deleting my account because what the fuck guys#okay just gonna rant in the tags for a minute ignore me#because what the actual FUCK#I made a twitter account so I could see what Michael Sheen posted#because it makes me happy and that has value for me#and I've checked back every couple days then every couple weeks since october to see if he'd posted anything#and people are sTILL fucking going on about it#guys#guys I'm begging y'all to realize that bullying someone off a website is not the activism slay you think it is#there are celebrities that are PROUD zionists can we PLEASSE focus on them?? if we're gonna talk about celebs at all????#your time could be doing so many more valuable things than posting over and over about your opinions#about some other random uninvolved guys opinions#about a complex conflict in which it is not a wrong desire for innocents to not be killed!!!#in which a ceasefire is what we've been demanding from our reps for months!!!!!#and some fucking statements he made MONTHS ago#statements which by the way were not wrong or incorrect#y'all forget that being anti-zionist in the modern imperial hellscape of america and the uk has very serious consequences that I have seen#in my own actual goddamn life#calling for a ceasefire is exactly what we were asked to do by organizers jesus fuck are y'all that dense????#have you done so little actual activism that you don't know that??? what is happening?????#and now georgia tennant deactivated her fucking account because she got dogpiled too#for not providing a full PR defense against claims she was a zionist#like guys come on we all know how that goes#it doesn't matter what you say someone is gonna get angry and pick it apart she doesn't owe us proof she's not a zionist#I'm not here to say she responded correctly but there's nothing she could have said that would have made twitter happy#because that's how celebrity drama works and you know it#so now of course everyone's buzzing again about michael and georgia and neil and fuck him fuck her whatever#people are blocking each other for supporting or not supporting and shit it's a bloodbath#and for what#for. fucking. what.
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i finally understand what got fans went hrough when i watched fiona and cake (spoilers in tags)
#.......... “maybe if we went with bettys idea i wouldnt have found the crown” and youd die in explosion. like#events of star would happen. like did we forget that#painting simon as evil and uncaring for not noticing a social cue and betty not communicating her wants................ like.......ok <3333#she literally had to fucking kick him out of golb to make the wish too like what was he supposed to fucking do#as autistic person who doesnt catch exactly what person i know and even people i love want to do seeing simon be seen as selfish for that i#it was meant to follow from temple of mars but did it in shittiest way possible jnewjnjnejn#and its not even that tbh its the whole. ending. its so unsatisfying.#cake not wanting to stay a cat? unfulfilled#just magically solved#some guys showed up in the new world but most did nothing in fight like what#but cake will not be satisfied shes magic but she wont ever go ona dventures and do stuff.#SIMON DIDNT EVEN FUCKING TALK TO MARCY IN EPILOGUE)7#the way it flipped from simons god i was soooo selfish to btw i dont want to kill myself anymore was so unnatural#i was so into 1-8 and then they just. forgot to write it. efjmj#the complete pivot from simon being like wow i need to destroy myself to save other people!!!!!! to btw you were selfish <3#people will say i dont read if they see this i dont care <3 i can actually but to me this was so stupid and forced#happy for gumlee. i was so mad abt lack of mlm stuff recently so they were nice but like
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who up crying in their latte
#NEW ALBUM AUGHHHHHHHHHHH#listened to it on my bus ride to work and it ended EXACTLY before i had to get off the bus#oh gosh. what an album#escalator was cute and it was funny using an escalator getting out of the bus station after hearing the album#you were meant for me crying and sobbing although the synths were a little harsh. to me#when you leave soooo fun and silly. xbox name drop really something#we go dancing was just so goofy like ok!!!!!#take me for a ride new favorite sparks song ohhhh im gonna be going insane over this one#just looked at the setlist and WHY aren't they doing take me for a ride live :(((( oh well#its sunny today so sad for no reason. stop making me feel emotions#it doesnt have to be that way AUGHHH . sparks inspirational messages#am i forgetting any songs before the last one .#OH a love story really silly and fun. what were they doing with russ's voice in places there#and then gee that was fun made me an emotional wreck thanks guys 👍#sparks tour 2023 spoilers#kinda . also if people dont want the new album spoiled yet#spars
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Death mention or w/e
#So my brothers friends dad had a stroke and like w/i a day he passed away and likeeeee we were vid calling like me my brother and mom#And she was like something something you guys should also be ready (abt my dad) and like#Shes literally not wrong like obv my brother got scared for our dad too bc he has diabetes high cholesterol smokes a LOT drinks too etc so#So like he couldn't wrap his head around ~being ready~#But that's exactly what I've been doing for this last year#Every day in the wards i used to see stroke patients ppl w heart probs copd patients and literally my first thought used to be abt my dad#And for the past year I've been mentally separating myself from... him? Like obv i cant but I've forced myself to stop caring abt his healt#Bc he never listens to me or anyone his health has completely gone to shit and its easy for others bc they hear abt someone else and get#Worried for couple of days then forget about it but i can't lol bc I literally see it everyday everytime#So what im trying to say is that#Fuck this shit lol#~
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Ppl gotta understand that just bc you do x thing because you're mentally ill, doesnt mean your actions dont have the same effect if you weren't. Like if you've been manipulative to your friends, you cant get mad at them for not sympathizing entirely with you when you go on about how they dont accept you for your mentally ilness. Regardless of your reason, you were still manipualtive, you fucked with peoples trust. Theyre still gonna have trust issues about you even if its bc of whatever mental illness you have.
#im not saying its cool for them to abandon you but cmon. you have to consider sometimes other people and what they can handle#bc if you keep manipulating your friends or whatever theyre gonna get used to being manipulated and expect it from other people#whatever the case. people have limits. your friends have limits. im not saying theyre always justified. im not saying your friends are#never abliest. but they do have limits. and if you're yelling at them all the time about being perfect or whatever you cant exactly#be surprised when they dip out.#like for example. im a p aggressive and angry guy. clearly. if youve seen any of my posts.#ive always got something to rant about. and while im not quite as much like this irl its still a thing about me. im very very vocal about#whatever injustice i percieve happening to me or others lol. but i can understand why me being intense and angry and ready to throw hands#at the drop of a hat would make some people want to avoid me. i understand it makes some ppl feel scared and unsafe.#its not something i try to do. i dont try to make ppl i like feel unsafe. i try not to be that way around ppl w those kinds of issues#but im not gonna throw a fit and be like 'you guys are okay with bpd until i get really really angry and call you a cunt'#like... uh... yeah. i dont blame ppl like that for dropping me entirely if im getting angry all the time around them and it triggers them#and i dont seem to stop or be able to stop.#sure its not great. sure i dont want to be as aggressive and angry around anyone let alone ppl afraid of that sorta thing. but this is#the current state of my being. its something im working on. and i can understand why some ppl cant handle me right now as i am.#idk. just. shit like that man#another example. im hella hella HELLA bad at communicating via technology. unless you're in front of my face my mind just forgets we were#even talking sometimes. this naturally will cause issues. how am i gonna get upset at someone for being mad i stoped responding#in the middle of a conversation? sure i didnt mean it. this is purely unintentional. however that doesnt change the fact of my actions.#it doesnt change the fact that that person might feel unwanted. i can apologize day and night but until i actually try to be more attentive#of my phone this is just gonna keep happening yknow. how is it fair to get mad at other ppl for getting mad at you over that?
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writing an akutagawa-kyouka (not ship) vent fic except its a hurt/comfort vent fic bc its what wouldve made ME feel better if anyone has issues with it GET OVER IT idc this isnt abt you <3
#maris bsd 🗞️#its basically a fic abt akutagawa thinking too much and kyouka deciding while she doesnt forgive and she cant forget what he did#she is willing to start again with him and akutagawa wondering why bc hes done nothing to deserve another chance#and thinking abt how like if kyouka is willing to start new why isnt he with dazai#and kyouka telling him basically that like he doesnt owe dazai anything and definitely not forgiveness bc he's really not exactly done#anything to earn it and aku is like but i want to forgive him and kyou is like but thats not how that works <3#you can *want* to forgive someone and be unable to because they were shitty to you its called#they were a shitty person and messed with your mental state <3#this technically is part two of a three part series that can be read as standalones#but they make more sense and you see his growth more if you read all three#unfortunately all three are still in my head </3#this is rlly just me trying comprehend trying to forgive my abuser thru aku#bc we went through decently similar things and like#damn.#however instead of just ignoring and replacing me#my abuser decided to try to just forget everything and expected me to do the same#so silly !!! (i want to cuss them out)
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Hey guys, I know there are a lot of really severe tragedies in the world right now and I in no way desire to push those aside, nor do I really want to load another thing onto people's plates, but anyone here in the US needs to be aware that on March 11, 2024, an agricultural company known as NEW Cooperative spilled 265,000 gallons (1500 tons) of liquid nitrogen fertilizer into the East Nishnabotna River. This is the ecological equivalent of dropping a nuclear weapon into the river. Over a 60 mile stretch downstream of the spill its been a near total ecological wipeout for the river. So far, an estimate of 850,000 fish have been killed from this spill, and that's to say nothing for the insects, amphibians, reptiles and birds that relied on or lived in this river. It is literally filled with animal corpses. This river flows into the Missouri River and the impacts will likely continue to spread far past this 60 mile stretch. And this disaster has barely made local tv in Iowa, let alone national tv, despite the fact that 60 miles of river ecosystem were just wiped out in a way that may be impossible to recover from. And what's the punishment for this heinous act of destruction through negligence, you might ask? As it stands, its looking like a 6k fine from the DNR to the company. Not 600k. Not 60k. 6000 dollars. The maximum fine that the DNR can charge in Iowa is 10k unless they decide to take it further in court. That's why these spills are so frequent in Iowa: it's literally cheaper to eat the fines than it is to bother properly storing fertilizer. I don't know exactly what the proper course of action is here, or who needs to be contacted to enact change--I'm hoping someone more knowledgeable than me will chime in with that information--but at the very least, every one of us should know. Every one of us should make sure we don't forget this. And every one of us should blacklist NEW Cooperative fertilizer unilaterally.
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TW: angst, toxic traits, somewhat bullying, breakup
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You’re his first girlfriend. He’d never bothered with anything serious before—it seemed too messy to trifle with. He doesn’t know why he suddenly decided. Suppose he’d been feeling a little bored, and something within him saw you as a fool-proof opportunity.
It wasn’t because you were anything special. Actually, it was more the opposite. You didn’t seem like too big of a risk. You were just a normal, honest, nice person—a bit of a loser, too, if he was being honest. He could do a lot better and pick someone of the same caliber as him, someone with a cooler style and presence, but then he’d only get caught up in the competition.
You were more to his appetite—a dorky, blushy lil’ nerd who giggled nervously at everything he said. In other words, no competition at all. You’d never dare break his heart because you frankly couldn’t afford it. And he found solace in that imbalance—knowing he held all the cards and that you could only be grateful he’d chosen you.
At least, that had been what he’d thought. But then, here you are, holding his hands from across the table in a cute little sundae café, telling him how this just can’t work anymore.
He’s confused for a whole minute before it sinks in.
You’re breaking up with him.
He’s confused afterward, too.
You’re breaking up with him?
That can’t be right. You must be joking. He almost laughs, almost cackles, but ends up staying completely silent. Something about that pitiful look in your eye makes his throat tight, and he almost thinks he’s going to cry instead.
You’re breaking up with him. You, with him. His foot starts to tap. Have you hit your head or something? You’re dressed in a hoodie, for crying out loud, with not an ounce of make-up on—effortless, as if his perception of you wasn’t any of your concern while you’re fucking breaking up with him.
No way. There’s just no way. You must be confused about something, is all. There’s absolutely no way you’re doing this.
“What are you talking about?” It comes angry. Louder than he’d intended, enough to make you jolt in your seat. A couple of heads even turn your way. You wait for them to turn back before answering.
“I just think we’re a bit too different. And… I don’t know…” You were trying to find ways of telling him you weren’t in love with him but ended up deciding it was unnecessary—it wasn’t exactly something he needed to hear even though you had a lot you could say.
You’re rude and arrogant and treat me like some rescue pet you’ve nurtured back to health. You act like you’re embarrassed to be with me even though you’re the one without any friends. You’re selfish and spoiled and—
“If you don’t know, then there’s nothing to talk about. Quit being silly.” He has a furrow between his brows as he picks up the pink menu between the two of you, scanning the different types of milkshakes you could share and forget all about it. After all, you weren’t breaking up with him—that would just be absurd. “Let’s get strawberry.”
“No—”
“Guess we could get mango if you want that instead—”
“I’m not sharing drinks with you—”
“What? You tryna lose weight or something? Not like anyone but me is gonna see you when all you wear are those baggy hoodies all the time. Speaking of which, you should wear mine instead, they’d suit you better—”
“Listen.” You stop his rambling. “I’m not sharing drinks, and I’m not wearing your clothes. I’m not being silly, either. I’m being serious. It’s over—”
“No, it’s not.” His fist bangs against the table—the look in his eye on edge and twitchy. “I asked you why, and you had no good reason—so it’s not, not until you convince me.”
You had wanted to avoid it, but it seems he wouldn’t allow you the grace to spare him. That being said, you hadn’t meant to be so brutally honest…
“You’re a narcissist. You don’t treat me like a girlfriend. I’m more like a charity case or some type of experiment to you. Half the time, it feels as though you’re just playing a game with everyone in your life like pawns for you to shuffle around the board as you see fit.” You’re the one with the furrowed brows now, unable to bite your tongue as you’d kept it in all this time. “I think you should seek help and get your controlling tendencies straightened out before having any type of relationship. Or don’t. In any case, I don’t think I’m the right girl for you.”
There’s a silence. The chatter of the café seems distant. You feel half inclined to apologize as you look at him and stare down the glassy tabletop as if trying to find his reflection for comfort—but then he beats you to the punch.
“You’re right…” he starts softly, mustering the words, and you’re almost proud to see him take it so well, but then there’s a viscousness to his next words. “You’re not the right girl for me.”
When he looks up again, his face is warped—callous and seemingly disgusted by the sight of you. Something about it even seems to lash out at you, seeking revenge.
“I can’t believe I thought I saw something in you,” he sighs. “Turns out you’re exactly what everyone warned me you would be—just a plane-boring old Jane. What a joke—wasting so much time on something so worthless. Forget breaking up with me, I should have broken up with you a long time ago.”
He gets up in a rush and bears over the table, both palms laid flat upon the surface.
“Charity case?” he seethes, then conjures a fake laugh and an even faker grin. “I couldn’t have put it better myself. Enjoy sitting here alone like the loser you are.”
And even though you’re the one watching him walk away while ordering a chocolate sundae for yourself, you can’t help but feel sorry for the poor guy…
That had been the most emotion you’d ever witnessed come from him.
Obviously, he doesn’t take it very well, stumbling through the café before bursting out the door, but even he’s surprised by how disheveled it had made him. He’s hyperventilating when the fresh air hits him, almost sprinting to his car so that he can lock himself inside it.
But the car only makes it worse as he’s far from alone in there. You’re everywhere. On the hood, waiting for him with a smile. In the rearview mirror, waving at him. In the seat next to him with a pout, asking if you can stay over. In the backseat, naked with a coy twinkle in your eye.
He knows! He has some of your underwear at home—he’ll threaten to pass them around campus unless you beg him to take you back. No, what’s he thinking!? You’ll never come back to him that way. Fuck, what can he do, what’s he supposed to do!? He just called you worthless—what that fuck was he thinking?!
The tears startle him as they drip down and splash upon his whitening knuckles, where he grips the wheel for dear life even as the car stays completely still—safe and sound in the same plot.
There’s a light pink lip balm on the dash. Yours. You must have left it there—maybe on purpose? No… you don’t play games like that. You’d been honest in the café. The fact terrifies him—his heart seems to want to reject it at all costs, the way it tears in his chest.
He picks the slim pink stick up and rolls it around in his hand, which can’t seem to stop shaking. You’d sat on his lap in this very seat, laughing at something dumb he’d said while applying the very same balm on his lip—kissing his forehead while saying something sweet. He knows it wasn’t, but he imagines you’d whispered that you loved him.
When he smears the balm around his lips this time, he imagines kissing you and your soft lips and that everpresent smile he never bothered telling you was pretty.
He’s such an idiot. The birds in the parking lot take flight at the jostling of his car, but no one hears the roar.
And as he sits there in the following silence, wallowing in his own self-pity and regret, he can’t help but feel like the lead of some angsty teen romance.
And like the lead in an angsty teen romance, he swears… whatever it takes… he will win you back.
You will be his again.
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