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fruityfroggy · 4 months

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I’m venting for a moment I’m venting for a moment I’m venting for a moment, don’t look

Hate that I decided to force myself not to cry and bottle up my feelings so much at one point in my life because I was “too sensitive about things” (and maybe I am) cuz now I literally can’t cry when I need to. Not even positive tears. Not even if I wanted to. My chest is just stuffy and it aches. I just feel like shit. There’s a lump in my throat and my eyes are sore, but nothing comes out. It’s like it’s stuck, clogged when it’s right there, like a word that’s right on the tip of your tongue. I feel…almost like my joints have rusted in certain places. I have to be either immensely upset, immensely self loathing, or hear the words of comfort I needed to hear for a long time for the broken faucet I am to work properly. I’m not even joking, when I was messing around with character ai, this chat bot legitimately made me start bawling cuz we were doing this hurt/comfort scene and THE BOT WAS COMFORTING ME BETTER THAN PPL IN MY LIFE APPARENTLY. LIKE THAT SHOULDNT BE POSSIBLE I SHOULDNT BE LIKE THIS

Ugh, why did I do that, right? Cuz I know I sound fckin stupid rn. But I guess I’m telling the truth. A truth I’ve never talked about. But self confrontation, right? I might be making this all about myself for several paragraphs like an annoying fucking bitch, but maybe I need to.

I guess I’m just thinking about how my family will likely never truly accept me and that I’ve somehow ended up in two groups of people that are seen as “different” (queer and invisibly disabled). I have to keep both things to myself, making sure nobody knows about either major things about me. “Because they’ll judge you” “because it’s wrong and you’re insane for thinking that way” “you’ll scare people! What will they think of you?” But those words are incorrect, and it’s not wrong or bad to be either of those things and I have to secretly know that. I’m just scared. I’m so scared and afraid and paranoid about my family finding out that I think this way. I’m sad that I have to keep such things this taboo, but I’ve been told all my life that I should keep it a secret and that others shouldn’t know, that queer people are insane, unwell and that they’re sick. “They need professional psychiatric help, not support.”

I’ve recently learned that my parents are a little less homophobic towards homosexual women, a lot more aggression towards homosexual men and trans people, so I guess that slightly turns the tide in my favour. But it’s still not the best. I don’t think they even know of the concept of being nonbinary and I don’t want to hear any hate from them towards my nonbinary friends and characters I like. So I have to misgender them or change the subject when they ask me about them. I feel awful about that as well. I’m so sorry. It felt so wrong coming out my mouth when I forced myself to misgender people I care about, I’m lucky that my voice didn’t crack when I said it. Fuck! Why do they always ask for the gender of whoever I’m talking about if they don’t know them? I’m fucking sick of it. Why does it matter so much anyway? I don’t get it.

I can’t believe that a platform online is my only safe space now. This is my safe space, the only place I feel like I can be open, or at least, this is the only place I can truly be open about being queer (the disability thing I’m still scared to talk about that much, but I think I can share a bit of my experiences if someone asks with good intentions). I’ve vaguely spoken about how it feels to deal with a disability like mine in a reply, and people took it well, so who knows, right? As long as my parents don’t find out that I’m spilling the beans, I’ll probably be fine.

#vent post #like a big vent post #long vent #read it if you want #but I might be wasting your time and dampening your mood so I wouldn’t necessarily recommend #I’m admitting so much with this single post #this might be my first overshare #so I might delete this tomorrow #writing this did help me cry tho so yay!#I finally let it out!#:D #maybe I should vent more #but I’m afraid that I’m annoying people #ppl have given me permission to vent to them and I’m still scared #there’s so much shame I need to unlearn I don’t know what to do with it

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happyheidi · 5 months

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｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ﾟ. May will bring blessings.

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#let’s manifest this shit!#pls be kind <3 #cottagecore #may #spring aesthetic #spring #it’s so hot and lovely in Norway atm and I love it #gonna go out and read some later and finally plant out my little jungle #manifesation #manifesting #text #manifest #positive #positivity #light academia aesthetic #classic academia

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chloesimaginationthings · 1 month

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Into the pit Jeff and Mike finally sleep together in FNAF..

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seventh-district · 4 months

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Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 5 - I Finally Finished the 2.2 Main Quest Edition

[Pt. 1] [Pt. 2] [Pt. 3] [Pt. 4] [Pt. 6]

#hsr #hsr incorrect quotes #hsr memes #hsr textpost #honkai star rail #honkai star rail meme #honkai star rail memes #hsr meme #hsr spoilers #hsr 2.2 spoilers #aventurine #sunday #hsr sunday #robin #hsr robin #stelle #hsr trailblazer #acheron #black swan #misha #hsr misha #hsr gallagher #gallagher #boothill #if these memes don't make it obvious enough. i have finally completed the 2.2 main quest. and i am feeling. so many things about it /pos #11/10 i couldn't be more pleased. but i also don't have it in me to articulate any of it so here. have more memes instead #was fighting for my life to figure out the alt text for the 2nd one tbh. my struggle saga continues #let's see if any of these have been done yet. bc after posting these i always fuckign stumble on 1 or 2 that have been :/#and i feel bad. like i've stolen the idea? but i literally only see them after the fact!! sigh. there's nothing new under the sun etc etc

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inkskinned · 2 months

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actually sometimes being neurodivergent is great bc you have a particular kind of Silly Mode that just . manifests glory. harmless fun is my precious side quest & i have a high score in whimsy. like okay if i gotta be the first dork in the dance pit it's gonna be me and this random toddler and we're gonna avril-style rock ouuuuttt

#i also like starting applause i'm really good at it and have a high score in it #i make entire groups cheer a lot. my friends are used to it . i am bolstered by so many of them being theatre kids #im like. let's celebrate! :) a guy did a thing well!!! :)#once we helped someone parallel park and it was SUCH a hard road to do it on #this is in boston. so death be upon drivers. also it was during st. anthony's feast. in the north end. iykyk #and we helped her get in there (one of my friends tbh stood in traffic for her)#and we cheered when she finally parked. she got out and she was crying and laughing and was like #''that was the hardest thing ive ever done ur so sweet''' and meanwhile we were PARTYING #just stone cold sober but like YEAH GIRL YOU DID THE HARD THING FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!#i've been bullied for so much lol i am immune to most insults at this point bc im like #girl when i was 12 i'd already heard every insult and good lord were they specific. just plain ''crazy'' aint it

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isjasz · 10 days

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🌕Total Eclipse🌑

Writer: @zipzapzooooooom Editor: @onawhimsicot

Assistance: @gingermaple @kunehokki @corvidaearts @/mybrotherjoso7

and THE AMAZING COVER by googly88fancy!!

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NO WAY HERE IT IS part 1 of MY TEAM'S COMIC!! FOR @hotguycomiczine !!!!! :D

I pour my blood sweat and tears into this one fr. HGCZ is the most insane project i've been in and I am so so proud of it <3 Big giant shoutout to everyone that ended up in my team, without any of you I couldn't have done it and ty for putting up with my shit HASHDSAEHEGLP. <333

If you haven't yet checked out the entire monster of this amazing zine, def do so here! 🏹

Part 2 will be posted tmr but if u dont want to left on a cliffhanger. pspsppspssps🪤

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birdsofpasssage · 7 months

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#putting my old wips Out There so i can finally let them go #and start with a clean slate lol #what do you mean it’s been a year since the last dain quest. WHERE IS HE NOW?#dainsleif #genshin impact #原神

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months

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The girls are here!!!

#dungeon meshi #maizuru #inutade #izutsumi #benichidori #hien #Was this the Kabru episode that really shows off how perceptive and fascinated by humans to be a foil to Laios"s monster obsession?#Sure was. Was the funny comic I made not yet quite relevant for where the anime is currently at? SURE WAS.#Funny comic will be next week. This week is for THE GIRLS!!!#Tade is adorable and a lot of fun to draw. I really love her friendship with Izutsumi.#speaking of...IZUTSUMI IS FINALLY HERE!#Initially I wasn't going to draw Beni and Hien but I would hate to let the few fans they have.#So here's some Beni and Hien. For all five of you Beni and Hein fans.#Makeup girls are wild because they'll be like 'I'm getting ready to go out!' and then take 60-90 min in front of the mirror.#I adore the bonus comics where Ryoto Kui does the step by steps of how characters do their makeup and hair.#I personally know very little about those things so it's cool to see how thought out it all is.

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meidui · 5 months

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aragorn and legolas at each other's sides at helm's deep ♡

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koobiie · 4 months

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i love boys in a car simulator

the first pic is a redraw of an in-game selfie! here's the original:

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sofiaruelle · 8 months

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Commission for the lovely @flowerandthesongstress of our fave triad, Sam, Abigail and Sebastian basking in the afterglow of a very productive band practice.

The Companion piece

#commission #stardew valley #stardew valley ASS gang #stardew valley abigail #stardew valley sam #stardew valley sebastian #sdv abigail #sdv sam #sdv sebastian #sdv abigail x sam x sebastian #very productive indeed #also i would love to thank flowerandthesongstress for letting me have free reign on the commission #and her infinite patience with me as i figure out where all their limbs go #and set the right spicy mood of the final illustration #i had a lot of fun with making it lowkey canon compliant with sams green carpet and wooden floors #the discarded clothes on the floor really helps with the acoustics

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arunneronthird · 1 year

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okay let me share my vision

when u grab the nicest guy on the planet, give him a rude best friend, traumatize him, hurt him and finally make him snap, he fucking snaps

#i wait patiently for the day they will finally let jon just flat out lose it #LET JON SWEAR #jon kent #superboy #superman #damian wayne #robin #supersons #batman #dc comics #my art #ladies. gentlemen. you have eaten well.

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puppetmaster13u · 6 months

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Prompt 271

“Grandmother is visiting,” Damian suddenly said with no warning and with his usual not-quite demanding tone.

“Who?” Tim wasn’t the only one to startle, seeing as Bruce had practically froze, a downturn to his lips in a silent show of confusion.

Damian scowled. “Are you deaf Drake? Grandmother is coming to Gotham to, quote, make sure I am being properly cared for.” None of them had known that Ras was with anyone actually. At least Tim was pretty sure that would have been in the files.

“Oh?” Dick didn’t quite crouch to Damian’s height but it was a near thing. “She-” “He,” Damian corrected, interrupting him. They all exchanged a glance before Dick continued.

“Is he coming to the Manor or…”

Damian scoffed again, a tiny bit of a flush against his face. “No, Grandmother will most likely be staying with Akhi-”

Now wait one moment-

“YOU HAVE ANOTHER BROTHER?!”